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Speaker 1: Made a decision O pace Sunny Sun on I Haddavision.

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Speaker 2: Night. So what's up.

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Speaker 1: It's our special Thursday show. We have a very special

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guest in studio that took us a long time to

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book because her people wouldn't get back to us, but

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we finally got her. It's very We're very excited to

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have her in studio.

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Speaker 3: LB.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Taylor Hello, We're so excited. So I dropped LB

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off at college yesterday. We're recording on a Monday, and

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then she came home with us. So I had asked her, like, hey,

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come do the podcast. Yes, so you I won't pay

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for college.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm here for financial reasons on me.

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Speaker 1: So you got into your new place yesterday?

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Speaker 3: I did. I'm so excited.

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Speaker 1: You're excited.

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Speaker 3: It's so nice. It's way nicer than I thought it

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was gonna be. Not gonna lie really yeah yeah.

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Speaker 2: So what were you expecting expectation versus reality?

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Speaker 3: So, I mean, I wasn't expecting it to be not

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nice because it's it's UCLA and it was a new building.

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But like it's I can't describe it. It's like very fresh,

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like you know when like something is like a house

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is like almost newly renovated, like everything is like brand new.

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That's what my apartment looks like. It's like very I

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kept saying, it felt like when I was walking around

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the hallways, like it felt like I was walking around

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a hotel. Like it was like, oh, that's us so nice.

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I was like, oh, my goodness.

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Speaker 1: That's great. And you have a little kitchenette, like a

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kitchen with a stove in we.

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Speaker 3: I was surprised. We have a microwave, we have a fridge,

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we have a stove, we have an oven, we have

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a dishwasher.

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Speaker 1: Wow, that's nice.

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Speaker 3: We have a lot of stuff. It's like a nice kitchen.

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There's a lot of cabinet space, which you were happy about.

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And then we have like a little couch. There's a

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little TV stand and one of my roommates got a TV,

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so we're gonna put that there. And then we have

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like a little dining table with a bunch of little stools,

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and then it's so cute, a bunch of bunch of bedrooms,

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some bathrooms. It's very nice, very nice.

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Speaker 1: It's it's always nice when one of the one of

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the people bring the TV for the common area, exactly

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because we need a TV. You have to have a TV,

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and it's always somebody that's like, oh I had this

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last year, or this was from my bedroom, my broad

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or whatever exactly.

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Speaker 3: It's I could have brought mine. But it was nice

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because we made a group chat, and like two days

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after we made the group chat, one of my roommates

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was like, hey, guys, so my dad actually works I

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think for a paramount she said, And she was like,

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we just have a bunch of just like brand new,

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unused TVs or something. I don't actually know the full situation,

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but she was somehow able to get a hold of

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brand new TV for us.

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Speaker 2: It is weird that they would work for as opposed

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to like, that's.

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Speaker 3: What I thought. But you know what if we got

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a TV, we got a TV. So I'm like, yeah,

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that's great. I'm super excited because, you.

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Speaker 1: Know, you think about it and like when you're sharing

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with a bunch of girls, who's bringing the pots and

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pants or who's bringing the Madison cabinet or you know,

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like you don't know, or who's bringing the towels for

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the bathroom.

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Speaker 3: It was definitely a little bit chaotic because there's eight

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of us, so there's four bedrooms, so I only have

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one actual like roommate who I adore. She's amazing, But

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I'm living with seven other girls, and everyone was kind

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of debating on like decoration and like some people decided

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on who's going to bring what, but then everyone was

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also kind of waiting to see what people were already,

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like what people would bring once we moved in, because

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seven out of eight of us moved in yesterday, so

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it wasn't that spread out. So I think most people

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were kind of waiting to see what was already brought,

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and then from there we can assess what we still need.

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Speaker 1: But are your roommates in? Are they from out of town?

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Speaker 3: Actually barely any of them are. Everyone's from California. I

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think six out of eight of us are from the valley.

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Speaker 1: Wow.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and then I think one girl is from Long

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Beach and the farthest girl is from.

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Speaker 2: The Bay Area.

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Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, that's nice. Yeah, so everybody can kind of

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go home on the weekends exactly for the Bay Area girl,

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but yeah, you can bring her home with you on

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the weekends exactly.

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Speaker 3: But yeah, everybody is super local, which is why it's

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also funny. I don't think a lot of us are

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staying there until later in the week. So like all

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of us quote unquote moved in, but barely any of

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us are actually sleeping there until later in the week.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: So but everything great and it went smooth yesterday with

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your mom. Yeah, totally embarrassed you at all.

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Speaker 3: No, except for you know what, hugging em and I'm

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just kidding. I'm just kidding. But yeah, it was super fun.

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It was really nice because I obviously knew two of

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my roommates already, but it was fun because I got

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to meet two more of them and they were both

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so sweet, and it was just like really fun getting

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to meet everyone in person and see how everyone was decorating.

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And I got to put all my stuff in my

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room and get everything unpacked.

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Speaker 1: That's nice.

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Speaker 3: So it was. It was definitely very fun, and it

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wasn't as chaotic as I thought it was going to be.

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Like I thought it was going to be this whole

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ordeal of having to put everything in a bunch of

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cards and having to figure my way how to well

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figure out how to program on my car and get

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into my apartment and then everybody. But it went pretty smoothly.

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Speaker 1: That's great.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but not to make this about me, But we

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were just laughing because I was kind of telling the

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story a little bit from my perspective about how you

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used to be the anxious one and then some it's

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turned around, and how you were having to be like mom, relaxed,

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like it's gonna be fine. And I was like, this

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used to be you. You were the one who would

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have been like what are we gonna do?

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Speaker 3: What?

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Speaker 2: I was gonna check us in and I was like, oh,

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who are you gonna need it? You're gonna so you

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need a pin number for this? But are they gonna program?

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Speaker 3: Ask me about that? Like six times in the car

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you kept being like, okay, so you need the pin

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number and the brewin card and I was like yes,

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and you go, okay, so that means that you don't

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have to program your brewing card because you have a pin.

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I was like, no, I still need to program my

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brewing card. There's gonna be an area for it, but

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I also need a pin and she was like, so

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what do you need.

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Speaker 1: The pin for?

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Speaker 3: And I was like, oh my god, please, it's just

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I know what's happening, Like it's fine, I promise, I've

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told you.

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Speaker 1: So you just need your card to get into the building.

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Speaker 2: Sonna be like, yeah, but no.

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Speaker 3: So it's it's with Berkeley when I visited Berkeley. Oh god,

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they have the place locked down. You need your Bruin,

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your Brown card, you need your little Berkeley ID to

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get into the building. You need your ID to use

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the elevator to get up to your room, and then

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you need your key card to get into your room.

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Speaker 1: Mine.

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Speaker 3: You don't need any of that to get into the

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building or anything. I don't think. I mean, the doors

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were open already, so we were just kind of going in,

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but I need my Bruin card. It's it's literally like

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a hotel. You put your card against the door and

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then I put in a pin.

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Speaker 2: Out open the door.

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Speaker 1: Oh that's nice. Yeah, that's great.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so it's it's very it feels very secure. Yeah,

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it's very nice.

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Speaker 2: That's nice. So your bedroom itself is just a door.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, my bedroom myself just open.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. And do you feel like it's gonna be in

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a jus meant to be in like such a small

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space with a bunch of other people, And.

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Speaker 3: I honestly don't think it's gonna be as big of

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an adjustment, only because I'm used to going to summer

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camp every year, and honestly, for like several weeks I

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lived with one other girl, my best seat for when

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we were both counselors, and it was really fun. I

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actually really like having a roommate as long as they're

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you know, cool. And the girl that I got put with,

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they assigned not only did they assign the girls in

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the apartment itself, but they also assigned all the bedrooms.

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And I was so thankful because I got put with

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not only one of the girls that I had already

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met before, so she was one of the ones I

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knew going into it, but she was the one that

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was the most similar to me because they did it

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by preference. She's literally like me, like we're the same person,

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and she's so cool that they do so funny, very

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easy going, very nice. It's like very chill. So I

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think it's gonna be really fun. And I feel like

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I have enough space. It's not like the tiniest room ever, right,

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I had. I had enough space to unpack all my

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pounds of clothes. Yeah, you know, there's that.

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Speaker 2: There's that I was I was definitely more anxious about.

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I was like, I know, you're gonna bring all this

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stuff and all these shoes, and she was like, it's

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gonna be fine. There's plenty of space.

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Speaker 3: And they were still sitting there and you were like,

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are you sure you don't need this? Are you sure

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we're not going to bring a bunch of clothes back?

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And I was like, just just let me do it,

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don't worry. And it worked.

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Speaker 1: It's nice.

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Speaker 2: I did. I was getting I got more hands off.

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I realized I was annoying her. You know, she didn't

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want my help, like organizing her clothes. She was like,

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leave it, yeah, I touch my clothes. I was like, okay, yeah,

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Speaker 3: We would start on one bag and I'd be like, okay,

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well I'm gonna do this bag, and then I'd turn

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around and You're like emptying other stuff out of my

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other bags and I'm like no, no, no, no, no, we're

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gonna get to that.

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Speaker 1: And like she tell you us a little bit like

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that too. Really, yeah, she she needed to know where

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her stuff was. Like I'd start to help unpack another

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thing and she's like, no, no, no, no, I'm doing Let's just

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do the socks and under her drier first, and we'll

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Speaker 3: Yeah. I think that's where my own anxieties come incause

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I think I'm like, Okay, I already know where everything

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is in all of my bags, and if you take

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something out, I'm not gonna know where it is, and

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then I'll even forget about it. Or I was like,

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let me just do one bag at a time, because

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I have all I have all my pants and this

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stuff in one bag, but then I have all my

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decor and this stuff in another bag. Let me unpack

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my clothes and then we'll worry about my my hangers

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from my closet.

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Speaker 2: You know, right right, this is cute. Alby has a

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little decorating hack.

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Speaker 3: Oh yes, yeah, I don't think it's like I don't

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think it's like that unknown because you know who did

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it was Lily. You know the posters in my room

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that are those were done the same way.

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Speaker 2: Oh okay, but I'm sure it's gonna be a hack

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to me.

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Speaker 3: Yeah. If if you ever want like little little posters

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for your room or anything like that, if you just

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go on anything like Google, Pinterest, whatever, and you find

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stuff you can print, like cute posters from FedEx for

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like eighty cents a piece. Oh yeah, so I printed

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like thirty posters for like twenty something really, and they're

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all like cute, they're good quality. You can stick them

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up on your walls. They look nice. Oh and I

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didn't have to spend forty bucks on Amazon for like, yeah,

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ten things to put on my wall. I got a

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bunch so well.

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Speaker 2: They would have been more than that, because the ones

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she was seeing that she liked on Amazon were like

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ten dollars each.

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Speaker 1: Oh wow.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, but that was like sets of like how does it.

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Speaker 1: Print out like on poster paper or.

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Speaker 3: It's like on thinner paper, but it's like it's still poster.

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It's like, yeah, poster, it's like post quality. But okay,

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they're like Chris but they look nice and like you

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can frame them to if you want to.

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Speaker 1: That's great.

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Speaker 3: But they're really nice. They're good quality.

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Speaker 1: Oh I love that.

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Speaker 3: It was super easy. You can like put in your

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order and then you pick it up like two hours later.

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Speaker 1: Oh wow, yeah, oh my god. I might do that

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for my house.

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Speaker 3: I was gonna say. And luckily for me, we have

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a FedEx, like right five minutes to drive from my house,

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So yeah, super nice.

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Speaker 1: That's great. Yeah, that's great.

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Speaker 2: So how are you feeling about I mean, I know

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how you're feeling, but you know, last week talked to

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you were so happy that you got into UCLA, and

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then you've had a good summer, and are you feeling like, Wow,

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I'm so glad that I didn't go somewhere else.

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Speaker 3: Yes, I think now more than ever, I feel very

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grateful that I did community college first, even though for

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a year and not two. I definitely think that was

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the greatest decision I could have made. And that's coming

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from someone who was miserable, like, oh my god, I

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would never go back to last year. But despite all

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of that, I think that doing community college was just

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such a great decision because now I am here, and

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like I did have to get through a lot of stuff,

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but now I am going to UCLA and I'm in

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a nice apartment and I'm I Still it doesn't I

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don't want to say it doesn't feel like I'm a transfer,

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because there's nothing wrong obviously with being a transfer, but

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like it doesn't feel like I'm some sort of like

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outsider that just like join the school. Like getting into

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UCLA still felt like I got into UCLA, like if

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I got in right out of high school, and I

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was telling my mom this, but I was like, I

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think going to community college for a year even made

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it felt better getting Reid because I'd work through so

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much more to get into the school that it was

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just like an even more amazing feeling to get accepted

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to the school and finally feel like everything is kind

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of coming together a little bit. But I'm just so glad,

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And I'm also glad that I didn't decide to just

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go to college right outside of high school, like just

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go to any college I got into, just because I

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wanted the four year college experience right because like, obviously

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I got into a couple schools. I got into you know,

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you See Santa Cruz, which I hate saying, like, oh God,

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like I didn't want to go to you See Santa

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Cruz because there's also literally nothing wrong with Santa Cruz.

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I just when I toured the school, I could tell

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that the environment was so far from what i'd pictured

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college to be, and it I obviously had always wanted

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to go to a really big school, and I really

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wanted to go to a school that was like in

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a city, because I've always loved living in la and like,

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I don't know, Santa Cruise is obviously not that at all,

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and I have friends at Santa Cruz who love it,

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like I have friends who rave about it and are

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so happy there because they saw the campus and they

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saw the school and they were like, oh, yeah, I'm

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gonna like it here. But obviously me, it was like

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I don't think it was my type of campus. However,

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there were so many times where I contemplated going to

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the school just because I wanted the four year college experience,

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and I had never seen myself at community college, like

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growing up, it had never even been an option for me,

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Like I'd always had it locked in my brain that

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I was going to college for four years and that

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was like the only path. And obviously it kind of

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sucked because I was a victim to kind of looking

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at community college with that stigma that it has, where

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it's like only the people that don't do well in

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my school go to community college to kind of get

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their shit back together. And I was like, well, no,

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I worked my ass off in high school. I took

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eight bajillion AP classes and I just I worked so

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hard I got good grades. So I was like, it

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sucks going to school with kids that proudly flaunted their

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d's and their f's, knowing that they were going to

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end up there. It kind of sucked. But then getting

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to community college it was kind of refreshing because my

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professors were awesome. They were literally some of the best

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teachers I've had, Like, they were awesome, and there was

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a lot of kids in my classes. There were obviously

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a lot of kids that were just kind of there to,

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you know, take classes, but there was also a lot

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of kids that I ended up talking to that were like, oh, yeah,

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I just didn't get into any colleges that I wanted

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to go to, but I got great grades in high school.

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You know, I'm I'm here for the exact same reasons.

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Speaker 2: That you are.

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Speaker 3: And I was like, oh yeah, I was thinking about

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it all wrong. And it also wasn't as much work

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as I thought it was going to be, which was

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also definitely a plus. I was willing to do the

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work to get into UCLA, obviously, but it was nice

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that I didn't feel like I was drowning in work

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because I just my biggest worry is I didn't want

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it to feel like high school, right. I didn't want

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to feel like I was going through high school over again,

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because I was so burnt out and I was so

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done with high school. I was ready to just move on.

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But regardless, I think community college was the best decision

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I could have made because now I'm here. Yeah, I'm

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in UCLA. I'm so excited. It's gonna be amazing.

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Speaker 2: Should we take a quick break. Let's take a break.

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We're back. Do you I was wondering while you were talking,

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like you had a lot of it was hard. It

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was a hard period of your life. You broke up

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with your boyfriend. You know, you were you experienced a

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lot of loss, You felt really devastated. It was hard

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as a mom watching you go through that. Would you

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say though that, like, do you have Are you grateful

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at all for the fact that you got you worked

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through something that felt impossible, and now do.

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Speaker 1: You feel like, oh maybe stronger.

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Speaker 2: I'm through something hard and now I know I could

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meet adversity.

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Speaker 3: Yes, I one hundred percent think so. And I know

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that like five minutes ago, I said I'd never do

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it again, which I probably wouldn't. However, I am very

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grateful that that all kind of happened to me because

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in like, in those moments at that time. It was

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so hard to have kind of a good perspective on

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anything because I'd never I don't want to go very

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like grim, but I'd never been that low in my

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entire life. It felt like everything was just going wrong

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for me. I got rejected from everywhere that I wanted

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to go. And on top of that, it wasn't even

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that I got rejected, but a ton of my friends

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got into places that they were excited about, and so

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it was not only was I surround, not only was

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I dealing with rejection, but I was also obviously dealing

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with a little bit of jealousy and like having a

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hard time that obviously, and this is not anything on her,

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this was just me. But one of my best friends

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got into every single you see. And I was with

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her when she opened Berkeley, and it was obviously so

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hard because on one hand, I was so happy for

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her because she's also literally one of the hardest workers

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I know, like she is so smart and absolutely deserved it.

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But I was like, on the other hand, I was like,

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I'm smart too, Like, yes, I worked hard too, and

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I didn't I didn't get in anywhere that I wanted

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to go, so and then of course on top of that,

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when I was trying to enjoy my summer, I did

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get broken up with so that was obviously tripled what

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I was already feeling and dragged me down even worse.

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But I feel like now that I've kind of made

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it to the other side of it, and now that

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I feel very happy and satisfied with where I am

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right now, And like, even when I have days where

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I still feel like off about my breakup or whatever,

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it's so much better because I still feel very happy overall,

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and I feel like I have so much to look

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forward to, And so I feel like now that I've

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kind of made it to the other side of just

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like that hit of real despair, I feel like if

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anything were to, you know, happen again where I hit

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a low or something, I feel like it'll be a

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lot easier to have a better perspective, right better outlook,

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because I know that regardless of how shitty I'm feeling,

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it will one hundred percent get better. Like, yes, absolutely,

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I mean, poor kid.

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Speaker 1: All the things you went through. My heart broke along

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with your mom's heart when you were going through this. Yeah,

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it was tough to hear, it really was, and it

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hit it was. It was it hits you when you're

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a mom. You know, you feel for especially knowing you

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since you were little, you know, and all the things,

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and you're still like you had all these ap classes,

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great grades, like it just didn't make sense. It just

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really didn't make sense.

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Speaker 3: But I felt bad too, because like it wasn't just

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me that this happened too. It was definitely like I

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had a couple friends as well that did not get

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into places that they wanted to go, and they had

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just the same stats and grades and whatever as me,

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if not better. So it was like hard because I

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I did feel very like alone in it, and I

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would try so hard to tell myself, like you are

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not going through this by yourself. But you know, it's

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obviously like.

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Speaker 1: When you when you're in the middle of you're in

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the middle of it, and you're like.

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Speaker 2: I go question, I mean, I did the best I

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could to help you, and so did Dad, But when

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you were at your lowest point, I wonder if you

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could help us help moms out there that's kids are

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going through stuff that's tough. You know. I'm sure I

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didn't always say the right thing, and a lot of

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times Dad and I tried to say, and you and

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I talked about this literally yesterday. How we we would say, like,

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I promise you things are going to be different like

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next year, and you would say to me like it doesn't, Matt,

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like I can't. This is going to be the longest

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year of my life. And we'd be like, it's gonna

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go by fast, and then you're gonna be You're gonna

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do your applications. Is there anything parents can say to

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the Is there anything I could have done? I know

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that you know you feel helpless, Yeah, parent watching your kid,

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and as a parent, you also think it's not fair.

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But we think it's not fair, like we were always

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trying to figure out why, but what can parents do?

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Like or what could I have done better? Or what

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did I do right? Or whatever? Can you help my

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parents out there?

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Speaker 3: I mean, I think you did mostly everything right. I

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don't think that there was very many times where I

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felt like you said the wrong thing. I think sometimes

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I felt a little bit like I don't know how

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to I don't know how to say this, but I

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feel like sometimes it was hard to hear like, oh,

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like everybody, this has happened, so many people have gone

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through this like blah blah blah blah blah. And I

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don't even know why that is, but I think it

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was just like made me feel like.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, but it's happening.

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Speaker 3: It's happening to me, and like they're not feeling this

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right now, like you know, it's just like it's a

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very hard thing to I don't know because.

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Speaker 1: I don't know, I know what you're saying.

478
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Speaker 3: It's it's just hard because I sometimes felt like, not

479
00:24:07,640 --> 00:24:11,680
even you specifically, but I felt like other people kind

480
00:24:11,680 --> 00:24:17,440
of were trying to be more like, oh, like it

481
00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:20,519
will be fine, rather than like, no, I get what

482
00:24:21,039 --> 00:24:25,119
you're feeling right now. Like I feel like I kind

483
00:24:25,160 --> 00:24:29,440
of more wanted people to be like, dude, it feels

484
00:24:29,480 --> 00:24:34,559
like shit, like yeah, like you're I don't want to

485
00:24:34,599 --> 00:24:39,079
say you're right. But sometimes I'd be down on myself

486
00:24:39,119 --> 00:24:40,960
and I'd be like I don't even know why, like

487
00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:45,200
I'm this like upset about this, Like people have so

488
00:24:45,279 --> 00:24:47,920
many worse issues than getting broken up with and not

489
00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:53,039
getting into college, you know. Like sometimes I and I

490
00:24:53,319 --> 00:24:57,759
feel like I wanted sometimes even just like with my friends,

491
00:24:57,799 --> 00:25:01,519
like I just wanted to hear like, oh, like, don't

492
00:25:01,519 --> 00:25:05,559
even worry like you're gonna be fine, like time heals all,

493
00:25:05,799 --> 00:25:09,839
like it's gonna be okay, because again it does feel like, yeah,

494
00:25:09,839 --> 00:25:15,279
I know it. I think what I didn't want to

495
00:25:15,279 --> 00:25:18,240
hear is stuff that I already knew. I knew I

496
00:25:18,319 --> 00:25:22,839
was gonna be fine eventually, but I think it was

497
00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,519
just hard because I was like, well, why don't I

498
00:25:25,559 --> 00:25:27,079
feel fine right now?

499
00:25:27,599 --> 00:25:31,599
Speaker 1: I think it goes Stephanie like being moms. It's that

500
00:25:31,759 --> 00:25:36,079
it This is this is pure proof that when when

501
00:25:36,119 --> 00:25:38,640
your kid is feeling like, the one thing you want

502
00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:40,799
to do when your kid is feeling down or whatever

503
00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:44,319
is uh, sympathize and say like, well, I know how

504
00:25:44,400 --> 00:25:47,759
that might be. That's gotta be hard, or you know,

505
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:51,200
like I that sounds very hard, you know that kind

506
00:25:51,240 --> 00:25:52,599
of thing like how we used to say how we

507
00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:55,319
would talk to our kids, like kind of say like

508
00:25:55,680 --> 00:25:57,759
I get it, or this happened to me when I

509
00:25:57,799 --> 00:26:00,920
was your eighte whatever, instead of like it's gonna be fine,

510
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:03,519
You're gonna see every or everybody else is going through

511
00:26:03,519 --> 00:26:06,960
the same, like kids don't want to hear that, Like

512
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:07,880
I don't think that.

513
00:26:08,279 --> 00:26:10,799
Speaker 2: But on the other hand, I remember telling her, telling

514
00:26:10,839 --> 00:26:14,839
you like it's okay, like because she also wouldn't cry

515
00:26:15,279 --> 00:26:17,839
in front of me. She's very tough. So I remember

516
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:21,000
being like, you can cry like this this sucks, like

517
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:24,359
you're allowed to be mad and sad and thinking it's

518
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:27,440
not fair and cry. But it was almost like she

519
00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:33,680
wouldn't cry or feel be upset unless not that we

520
00:26:33,680 --> 00:26:37,480
were fighting about it, but unless I was, like, unless

521
00:26:37,519 --> 00:26:39,160
she got really frustrated strated.

522
00:26:39,279 --> 00:26:39,559
Speaker 1: Yeah.

523
00:26:39,799 --> 00:26:45,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it's weird because there were I cry,

524
00:26:45,519 --> 00:26:49,319
like really randomly, Like sometimes I'll be like not even

525
00:26:49,359 --> 00:26:52,160
that upset, but I'll be like frustrated, Like when I

526
00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:55,680
would get in arguments with my ex boyfriend. We wouldn't

527
00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:58,119
even be arguing over that much, but I would just

528
00:26:58,279 --> 00:27:01,359
break down in tears trying to like figure out how

529
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:04,119
to say what I wanted to say. Whereas like I

530
00:27:04,119 --> 00:27:07,160
feel like in other times where I'm genuinely like feeling

531
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,200
super sad, sometimes it's more of just like.

532
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:15,599
Speaker 1: A uh huh, yeah, you know, so the tears usually

533
00:27:15,599 --> 00:27:16,559
come from frustration.

534
00:27:16,799 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 3: It's yeah, I feel like the tears more come from frustration.

535
00:27:19,039 --> 00:27:21,279
But there was many times where I would just cribe

536
00:27:21,279 --> 00:27:21,880
by myself.

537
00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:26,599
Speaker 2: So but and then I would find out because the

538
00:27:26,640 --> 00:27:30,400
problem is it's so incestuous. Are like the moms, especially

539
00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:34,680
with the oldest, but with you be both because they're twins,

540
00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:37,759
but where I'm friends with the mom. And then I

541
00:27:37,799 --> 00:27:41,079
got a mom calling me saying my daughter told me

542
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:44,279
she talked to Elbe and Elbe was like so so sad,

543
00:27:44,319 --> 00:27:45,599
and they talked in the middle of the night and

544
00:27:45,640 --> 00:27:49,119
she's depressed. And I'd be like, oh, okay, well, I

545
00:27:49,160 --> 00:27:51,079
guess I'm not supposed to know, but you know what

546
00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:53,279
I mean. So it's like, I know that you're feeling

547
00:27:53,319 --> 00:27:55,279
even lower than you were let on, but you won't

548
00:27:55,319 --> 00:27:56,119
talk to me about it.

549
00:27:56,640 --> 00:28:00,519
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know. I think it's just difficult when

550
00:28:00,599 --> 00:28:03,960
you don't really know how to like describe two.

551
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:05,400
Speaker 1: As you're way of coping.

552
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:10,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, what the feeling is, like, I don't know. It was.

553
00:28:11,599 --> 00:28:15,000
It was hard because there's only so much and there's

554
00:28:15,039 --> 00:28:17,079
only so much you can say to somebody too that's

555
00:28:17,119 --> 00:28:20,559
feeling like that, Like I have a friend right now

556
00:28:20,599 --> 00:28:22,279
that's kind of going through what I was going through,

557
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:25,519
and it's hard being on the other end because all

558
00:28:25,559 --> 00:28:27,839
I want to do is just say like I have

559
00:28:28,319 --> 00:28:31,920
been there, Like I kept telling them. I was like

560
00:28:32,640 --> 00:28:36,480
I wish you could have seen me last year. I

561
00:28:36,519 --> 00:28:39,240
wish you could have been going through this when last year,

562
00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:42,200
because you would have felt so much less alone in

563
00:28:42,279 --> 00:28:45,920
this because I was like, you haven't seen me like that,

564
00:28:46,319 --> 00:28:48,279
because he told me, he was like, but you seem

565
00:28:48,359 --> 00:28:50,680
like fine, like you seem like you're doing great, And

566
00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:54,279
I'm like, that's because this all happened to me over

567
00:28:54,319 --> 00:28:59,759
a year ago. I was suffering for months. But then

568
00:28:59,799 --> 00:29:01,440
you don't want to say that because you don't want

569
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:03,519
them to think that they're gonna be suffering for months.

570
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:06,359
So it's like it's hard because being on the other

571
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:09,039
end of it too, it's hard because you there's really

572
00:29:09,079 --> 00:29:11,880
not much you can say because if somebody's feeling like that,

573
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:17,200
like there's no magic cure to it, there's there's really nothing.

574
00:29:18,119 --> 00:29:22,319
And it sucks because everybody was right like time you

575
00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:25,720
just you gotta you gotta let it do its thing. Yeah,

576
00:29:25,720 --> 00:29:29,599
And I hated hearing that. I hated it when I

577
00:29:29,680 --> 00:29:33,559
was feeling upset. I hated hearing that because it was

578
00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:36,480
just so like dauntingly yeah, like it was gonna last

579
00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:41,680
so long. But I think like to to kind of

580
00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:45,119
combat it, I would always just try to give myself

581
00:29:45,160 --> 00:29:49,960
stuff to like look forward to, like, I would always

582
00:29:51,079 --> 00:29:55,119
make sure I made sure that I had at least

583
00:29:55,240 --> 00:29:59,759
one fun thing that I could look forward to. Like

584
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:04,880
when I first got broken up with in August, obviously

585
00:30:05,319 --> 00:30:08,599
devastated for weeks, wouldn't leave my room, barely could eat.

586
00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:10,279
My friends would take me out to lunch, and I

587
00:30:10,279 --> 00:30:13,400
would start crying, like literally bawling in the middle of

588
00:30:13,759 --> 00:30:18,240
my friends. Arianna, she is the best. She took me

589
00:30:18,319 --> 00:30:23,599
to CPK, and I felt horrible because out of nowhere,

590
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:25,680
I was eating my kids mac and cheese and I

591
00:30:25,799 --> 00:30:29,759
just start sobbing into my food and there's nothing she

592
00:30:29,839 --> 00:30:35,279
can do. And I just felt so bad because I

593
00:30:35,319 --> 00:30:39,519
don't know. But at that time, I'd already had a

594
00:30:39,599 --> 00:30:42,799
trip planned to go visit my friend in Berkeley for

595
00:30:42,839 --> 00:30:45,880
her birthday. So I was like, Okay, you know what,

596
00:30:46,559 --> 00:30:48,960
I have like a couple weeks. I just got to

597
00:30:48,960 --> 00:30:50,759
get through the next couple of weeks and then I'm

598
00:30:50,799 --> 00:30:53,200
going to be in Berkeley with all my best ies.

599
00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:55,519
We're gonna be partying, we're gonna be having a good

600
00:30:55,559 --> 00:30:58,119
time like I have some I have a weekend to

601
00:30:58,160 --> 00:31:00,319
take my mind off of it. And then I came

602
00:31:00,359 --> 00:31:03,880
back and then I'd be like, Okay, now me and

603
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:08,279
my me and my two besties from work, we have

604
00:31:08,319 --> 00:31:12,240
a We're going to a house show like the at

605
00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:15,759
the beginning of October, and obviously Berkeley was at like

606
00:31:15,759 --> 00:31:17,960
the end of September. So it's like, Okay, now I

607
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:19,640
just have to get through these next couple of weeks

608
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:21,759
and I get to go to this really fun concert

609
00:31:21,799 --> 00:31:23,839
and put on a cute outfit and I get to

610
00:31:23,839 --> 00:31:27,480
buy my outfit and whatever, and like I think, like

611
00:31:27,759 --> 00:31:30,559
I even though I'm doing so much better now, I

612
00:31:30,599 --> 00:31:33,240
still kind of do that. I'm still like, Okay, what's

613
00:31:33,279 --> 00:31:35,720
the next thing that I'm gonna like have on my

614
00:31:36,319 --> 00:31:38,480
on my list of fun things to do? And I

615
00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:41,039
feel like, obviously, after getting into UCLA, I don't need

616
00:31:41,079 --> 00:31:43,960
to do that as much because I have all of

617
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:45,960
college ahead of me and I know that I'm going

618
00:31:46,039 --> 00:31:49,279
to have so much fun and oh great. But I

619
00:31:49,319 --> 00:31:53,119
think that kind of made it better because it made

620
00:31:53,119 --> 00:31:57,799
it feel like less time. Right.

621
00:31:57,920 --> 00:32:02,880
Speaker 2: You know, I have a question too. You know, you've

622
00:32:02,880 --> 00:32:05,960
always had a really upbeat personality, like You've always been

623
00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:08,319
an optimist like me. I've always said to Dad, like

624
00:32:08,799 --> 00:32:12,119
you and I have that thing like you're always able

625
00:32:12,200 --> 00:32:15,920
to look at the bright side, but this just you

626
00:32:16,039 --> 00:32:18,680
just couldn't, Like there was a down. And it was

627
00:32:18,720 --> 00:32:20,720
really scary as a parent because I was like, what

628
00:32:20,880 --> 00:32:24,400
happened to her personality? Like, you know, because in my

629
00:32:24,559 --> 00:32:30,000
mind I was like, Okay, going to community college isn't

630
00:32:30,039 --> 00:32:33,559
the worst, Like my kids living a fairly charmed life,

631
00:32:33,559 --> 00:32:35,839
and it's the absolute worst thing that's ever happened to

632
00:32:35,880 --> 00:32:38,200
hers having to go to community college for a year yea.

633
00:32:38,480 --> 00:32:41,720
So it was hard to see her that taken down,

634
00:32:42,119 --> 00:32:46,559
to see that like not able to see any positives

635
00:32:46,920 --> 00:32:50,440
because basically I was like, fuck, I went to community college.

636
00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,720
I didn't even want to go to college. Yeah, so

637
00:32:52,759 --> 00:32:56,720
I'm wondering. My question is not like why was that

638
00:32:56,759 --> 00:32:58,880
so bad? But my question is like did you ever

639
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:02,759
question yourself of like am I suddenly a person with

640
00:33:02,799 --> 00:33:05,200
a different person? Were you like why can't I find

641
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:08,759
did you do think of yourself as an optimist and

642
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:11,119
that you were able to see the bright side? And

643
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:13,880
were you worried about yourself? Like uh oh am I

644
00:33:14,079 --> 00:33:15,480
like do I have depression? Now?

645
00:33:15,799 --> 00:33:15,880
Speaker 3: Like?

646
00:33:15,960 --> 00:33:18,880
Speaker 2: Am I a depressed? Okay? Yeah, I elaborate.

647
00:33:20,880 --> 00:33:24,119
Speaker 3: I think it was definitely like tough because I do

648
00:33:24,279 --> 00:33:27,599
consider myself very much an optimist. I feel like even

649
00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:32,319
even when I feel like shit, and I don't mean

650
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:36,240
that last year, I mean before that, any other smaller situations,

651
00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:40,039
I feel like I always accidentally am like but like

652
00:33:40,519 --> 00:33:42,440
you saw that this, like it's still gonna be fine.

653
00:33:42,799 --> 00:33:46,480
So I feel like it was scary to myself because

654
00:33:46,519 --> 00:33:55,039
I was like, wow, like I cannot see anything good.

655
00:33:55,319 --> 00:33:59,559
Like it was like it was tough because I was like, yeah,

656
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:02,359
community colleges in the worst, but then what if I

657
00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:04,759
get rejected from all these colleges again, like instead of

658
00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:08,239
because I tend to catastrophize, And it just felt like

659
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:11,320
that on like steroids, Like it felt like somebody like

660
00:34:12,360 --> 00:34:15,679
I'd feel like I'd like all all of my all

661
00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:21,840
of my bad scenarios that could happen just completely outweighed

662
00:34:22,000 --> 00:34:25,760
anything good. Like I couldn't even see myself getting into UCLA.

663
00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:29,800
I was desperate too, that was like my main goal.

664
00:34:30,199 --> 00:34:34,519
But I was walking around Community College, trudge into my

665
00:34:34,639 --> 00:34:38,360
class with my arapods in and I was like, I

666
00:34:38,400 --> 00:34:40,000
probably won't get Like I don't know if I'm gonna

667
00:34:40,000 --> 00:34:42,679
get into UCLA, Like what if I'm here another year like,

668
00:34:42,960 --> 00:34:46,519
I don't know anyone here, like I because I didn't

669
00:34:46,559 --> 00:34:50,199
really have any friends right at my community college. It

670
00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:52,400
was all like people from my high school that I'm

671
00:34:52,440 --> 00:34:56,079
either acquainted with or people I don't like, right, So

672
00:34:56,119 --> 00:34:59,039
I was like I would literally go to class, sit

673
00:34:59,119 --> 00:35:02,400
in my class for an hour and a half, come home. Yeah,

674
00:35:02,440 --> 00:35:06,199
And so it was just hard to like, it was hard.

675
00:35:06,079 --> 00:35:08,440
Speaker 2: Went through tough time to at work kind of for

676
00:35:08,480 --> 00:35:09,079
a while too.

677
00:35:09,199 --> 00:35:11,400
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, there was a obviously I feel like we've

678
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:13,960
talked about it on here before, but obviously there was

679
00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:17,159
a lot of drama that went down at work. And obviously,

680
00:35:17,159 --> 00:35:19,519
when you're in community college and you barely have any

681
00:35:19,519 --> 00:35:22,639
classes as it is, the drama at work consumes like

682
00:35:22,679 --> 00:35:28,360
your entire life. And I lost some friends over fucking nothing,

683
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:32,079
like yeah, for a misunderstanding that obviously ended up getting

684
00:35:32,079 --> 00:35:33,679
solved in Now we're all friends again and it's chill.

685
00:35:34,079 --> 00:35:36,480
But it was just hard because I was like, damn,

686
00:35:37,159 --> 00:35:40,440
I barely have anything going on at school, which I

687
00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:42,360
was like, I wish I had more stuff going on

688
00:35:42,400 --> 00:35:45,480
at school. Had I gotten the opportunity, I probably would

689
00:35:45,519 --> 00:35:47,400
have taken war in person classes. But I didn't even

690
00:35:47,440 --> 00:35:49,360
have an option, like some of the classes I had

691
00:35:49,360 --> 00:35:52,599
to take were only offered online or at the same

692
00:35:52,639 --> 00:35:55,159
time as my other class, So I was like, I

693
00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:57,440
barely have anything going on at school. I don't really

694
00:35:57,519 --> 00:36:01,760
have a schedule in my life. I'm to come to

695
00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:07,239
kind of get away from that. I'm at work every

696
00:36:07,360 --> 00:36:09,400
every second that I can be at work. But then

697
00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:11,519
you get really burned out from work, even though you

698
00:36:11,599 --> 00:36:15,599
see everyone, and I'm like, like whatever, and then all

699
00:36:15,639 --> 00:36:17,920
the drama goes down at work and I'm like, I

700
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,920
have literally nothing going on in my life except for

701
00:36:23,280 --> 00:36:27,039
drama and waiting for college decisions to come back, you.

702
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:30,559
Speaker 2: Know, And then you were kind of dreading the college decisions,

703
00:36:30,599 --> 00:36:33,239
like you don't want to talk questions.

704
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:37,280
Speaker 1: About should we take it? Let's should we take a break? Yeah,

705
00:36:37,320 --> 00:36:44,000
I got yeah, I got questions. Yeah, So sorry, my

706
00:36:44,119 --> 00:36:47,840
kids are doing the community college thing in two different cities.

707
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:54,159
And did you have how did you you did it

708
00:36:54,199 --> 00:36:57,920
in one year? Yes, but you knew which classes you needed.

709
00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:04,559
Speaker 3: Yes. So my mom literally forced me to talk to counselors.

710
00:37:05,480 --> 00:37:09,360
Thank God, Please for anyone listening, please make sure if

711
00:37:09,360 --> 00:37:12,280
you were in community college, talk to as many counselors

712
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:14,960
as you can because some of them won't give you

713
00:37:15,039 --> 00:37:16,559
all the information you need, and then you got to

714
00:37:16,559 --> 00:37:18,119
go to another counselor for them to give you all

715
00:37:18,119 --> 00:37:21,239
the information you need. And obviously, again I feel like

716
00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:23,679
I've talked about it on here before, how I just

717
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:28,480
got totally like, couldn't TAG, couldn't do TAP because I

718
00:37:28,639 --> 00:37:28,920
was not.

719
00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:32,840
Speaker 2: So TAG is the Transfer Alliance Guarantee.

720
00:37:32,360 --> 00:37:35,360
Speaker 3: Right, Transferred Mission guarantee, Yeah, yeah, and then TAP is

721
00:37:35,360 --> 00:37:39,920
APP is Transfer Alliance Program. Basically it's like TAP is

722
00:37:39,920 --> 00:37:44,079
specifically for UCLA and it's not guaranteed, but it's like

723
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,880
priority admission. And then TAG is like your guaranteed admission

724
00:37:49,280 --> 00:37:51,800
to one of the UC's that's part of the program.

725
00:37:52,199 --> 00:37:54,559
I didn't get to do either of those. Long story short,

726
00:37:54,719 --> 00:37:58,960
just because I I was not told all the correct

727
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:00,000
steps that I needed to take.

728
00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:04,239
Speaker 2: But oh and by the way, if Natalia was trying

729
00:38:04,280 --> 00:38:07,039
to do it in a year, the time to TAG

730
00:38:07,280 --> 00:38:08,400
is by the end of this month.

731
00:38:08,559 --> 00:38:09,559
Speaker 3: Yeah, Okay.

732
00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:12,880
Speaker 1: She's been talking to counselors about it good, correct, and

733
00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:15,639
they brought up the TAG and so she's trying she

734
00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:18,039
was trying to make sure that she has I don't

735
00:38:18,079 --> 00:38:19,679
know if she's gonna try and do it in one year.

736
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:24,119
Speaker 3: But yeah, my thing is I felt very thankful because

737
00:38:24,159 --> 00:38:26,719
at first, when I started, I thought that having taken

738
00:38:26,719 --> 00:38:28,920
all those APS didn't do anything for me. I thought

739
00:38:28,960 --> 00:38:32,079
that it didn't matter, But it definitely did a lot

740
00:38:32,119 --> 00:38:33,840
of my APS, I want to say, like nine of

741
00:38:33,880 --> 00:38:38,000
them gave me a like five or so credits each

742
00:38:38,239 --> 00:38:41,880
to transfer over, like they were all transferable classes. So

743
00:38:42,039 --> 00:38:45,280
I already knocked out a bunch of my credits from

744
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:48,960
my AP classes. And then from that, my counselors kind

745
00:38:48,960 --> 00:38:52,840
of gave me. They were like, Okay, you need these

746
00:38:53,119 --> 00:38:56,480
classes to get into this school, but then this school,

747
00:38:56,519 --> 00:38:59,000
like they'll do it by major. They'll tell you exactly

748
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:02,239
what you need, like depending on your major, they'll tell

749
00:39:02,239 --> 00:39:05,840
you what classes you're required to have already taken. They'll

750
00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,960
tell you classes that they recommend you take, classes that,

751
00:39:09,119 --> 00:39:12,360
of course, like can be replaced by an AP class.

752
00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:15,960
Like for my major, I had to have passed a

753
00:39:16,159 --> 00:39:19,639
statistics class, which I passed my AP stats so that counted.

754
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:22,880
I needed a psychology course and I took a p

755
00:39:22,880 --> 00:39:25,559
psych in high school as well, so that also covered that.

756
00:39:25,920 --> 00:39:28,519
And then with the remaining classes, they were like, you

757
00:39:28,519 --> 00:39:31,119
don't need this one to transfer, but you need these

758
00:39:31,159 --> 00:39:34,639
two to transfer, and then these two other classes will

759
00:39:34,639 --> 00:39:35,760
look good to transfer.

760
00:39:36,239 --> 00:39:38,920
Speaker 2: And then at the last minute it was like, oh,

761
00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:40,440
and by the way, if you want to get into

762
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:41,519
San Diego State.

763
00:39:42,159 --> 00:39:46,280
Speaker 3: Oh my god. Yeah, they had all the CSUS have

764
00:39:46,400 --> 00:39:50,000
like the Golden four, and they were like, oh, yeah,

765
00:39:50,000 --> 00:39:52,440
you need to take an oral communications class, which I

766
00:39:52,519 --> 00:39:53,920
didn't realize.

767
00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:55,880
Speaker 1: Until what's the Golden four.

768
00:39:56,440 --> 00:40:02,760
Speaker 3: It's like english Man, Yeah, I don't actually know what

769
00:40:02,760 --> 00:40:06,440
it is. Off the critical thinking, critical thinking. It's weird.

770
00:40:07,039 --> 00:40:09,920
It's a weird set of classes. Thankfully, I'd already had

771
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:12,960
three out of four of them covered. But I was

772
00:40:13,159 --> 00:40:16,719
already starting my college applications, like it was that time.

773
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:17,960
It was like October or something.

774
00:40:18,039 --> 00:40:18,679
Speaker 2: Well into it.

775
00:40:18,760 --> 00:40:20,760
Speaker 3: I was way into it, and they were like, oh, yeah,

776
00:40:20,760 --> 00:40:22,519
by the way, you need to take this class. So

777
00:40:22,559 --> 00:40:24,039
I was like, oh, well, now I got to add

778
00:40:24,079 --> 00:40:25,480
another class onto.

779
00:40:26,199 --> 00:40:26,559
Speaker 2: I took it.

780
00:40:26,639 --> 00:40:28,000
Speaker 3: I think I took it during the winter. I took

781
00:40:28,039 --> 00:40:29,719
a communications course during the winter.

782
00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:34,000
Speaker 2: But I freaking Google. I was googling. She didn't wasn't

783
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,400
aware of it. I was googling what do you need

784
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:38,679
what something? And it said Golden four and I was like,

785
00:40:38,679 --> 00:40:41,480
what's that? So I called Robin because her kid went

786
00:40:41,519 --> 00:40:43,559
to San Diego State, and I was like, have you

787
00:40:43,639 --> 00:40:45,719
heard of this thing? And she was like, yeah, I

788
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:48,159
do think he needed to take a communications class. And

789
00:40:48,360 --> 00:40:50,039
was like, LB asked the counselor. Yeah.

790
00:40:50,039 --> 00:40:51,719
Speaker 3: So then she was like, oh, yeah, by the way,

791
00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:53,920
you totally I asked the counselor. I was like, by

792
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:56,840
the way, what's the golden for? And she was like, oh, yeah,

793
00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:59,239
you do need that. And then she like looks through

794
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:01,519
my stuff and she's like, oh, yeah, you're missing this class.

795
00:41:01,519 --> 00:41:03,079
You can take it during year. And I was like,

796
00:41:03,800 --> 00:41:05,199
oh my god, another one, Like.

797
00:41:05,199 --> 00:41:07,360
Speaker 1: I gotta tell my kids about the Golden flour.

798
00:41:08,079 --> 00:41:11,800
Speaker 3: If they haven't looked up, well, they won't apply to CSUS. Yeah,

799
00:41:11,840 --> 00:41:14,079
it's only for only for cal states.

800
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:18,360
Speaker 2: Okay she wanted to get into Okay, let me ask

801
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:21,519
you this though, so so yeah, so Natalia, they just

802
00:41:21,559 --> 00:41:24,079
need to regularly meet with the counselor.

803
00:41:23,840 --> 00:41:27,559
Speaker 1: She has, which is great. And the thing that kind

804
00:41:27,559 --> 00:41:30,280
of scared me though, is you said, if the one

805
00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:32,280
counsel's not giving you the information, you need to go

806
00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:34,039
to a net. Well, how do you know if the one.

807
00:41:33,880 --> 00:41:34,559
Speaker 2: Counts, I don't know.

808
00:41:34,639 --> 00:41:35,960
Speaker 1: Hopefully she has a good counts or.

809
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:37,119
Speaker 2: I mean, I think.

810
00:41:37,239 --> 00:41:39,199
Speaker 3: Also on top of that, it was hard because I'd

811
00:41:39,199 --> 00:41:42,519
only done it in a year, so I only had

812
00:41:42,679 --> 00:41:45,199
like two months to figure out all of these deadlines,

813
00:41:45,199 --> 00:41:47,559
Whereas if Natalia is doing it in two years, she

814
00:41:47,719 --> 00:41:50,880
has a whole year and a couple months to figure

815
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:54,719
out all the deadlines. Which that's the amount of time

816
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:58,079
it took a lot of my like friends that also

817
00:41:58,119 --> 00:42:00,559
did community I have a couple of people that community

818
00:42:00,559 --> 00:42:02,920
college for two years, and they had enough meetings with

819
00:42:02,960 --> 00:42:07,280
counselors and enough time and enough preparation to do it.

820
00:42:07,639 --> 00:42:13,320
Whereas I feel like I started college applications like two months.

821
00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:14,039
Speaker 1: After a school started.

822
00:42:14,079 --> 00:42:17,920
Speaker 3: School started, Like I graduated high school, had my summer,

823
00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:21,320
started school, and two months later I'm applying to college again.

824
00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:24,199
Speaker 1: Because when's the deadline for the So for.

825
00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:28,800
Speaker 3: UCS, the deadline is November thirtieth. For CSUS it's November first,

826
00:42:29,559 --> 00:42:32,119
And that's all the schools I was applying to, basically

827
00:42:32,440 --> 00:42:34,400
because it was kind of just California or nothing at

828
00:42:34,400 --> 00:42:39,599
that point, right, so I obviously knew when like the

829
00:42:39,719 --> 00:42:43,079
actual application deadlines were, but I didn't know when. I

830
00:42:43,119 --> 00:42:45,679
didn't even know the TAG was a separate application until

831
00:42:45,719 --> 00:42:48,440
I was trying to apply in November and they were like,

832
00:42:48,480 --> 00:42:50,360
oh yeah, you missed that deadline two months ago, girl,

833
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:50,920
And I was like.

834
00:42:51,679 --> 00:42:55,079
Speaker 2: What, like, I feel like talk while she was sad,

835
00:42:55,280 --> 00:43:01,239
while she was seemingly depressed and joyless, It's kept coming yes,

836
00:43:01,480 --> 00:43:04,039
like oh my god. Then she comes home one day

837
00:43:04,039 --> 00:43:07,400
and says, yeah, I can't guess what. I can't do

838
00:43:07,519 --> 00:43:10,559
the TAP program, which her heart was set in UCLA.

839
00:43:11,199 --> 00:43:14,760
Why not because apparently none of my classes are honors classes.

840
00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:17,000
So it was like we talked about that at the

841
00:43:17,079 --> 00:43:19,599
last time she was on the show. She was so

842
00:43:19,840 --> 00:43:23,079
upset about that one. Then we find out she missed

843
00:43:23,119 --> 00:43:28,239
the tag deadline. So we're just like, oh god, now

844
00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:32,039
you're just in limbo city. It was what do you

845
00:43:32,039 --> 00:43:35,599
think was the moment where you started to like feel better.

846
00:43:38,159 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 3: I think there was quite a few moments.

847
00:43:45,719 --> 00:43:50,960
Speaker 4: Sorry, I want Kaylin in the air on oh yeah,

848
00:43:51,039 --> 00:43:55,480
it's gonna get at quick, all right, just for a

849
00:43:55,519 --> 00:43:57,599
few minutes, like blowing right on my head.

850
00:43:57,920 --> 00:43:58,320
Speaker 1: Okay.

851
00:43:58,760 --> 00:44:00,719
Speaker 3: I think there was quite a few moments that I

852
00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:05,920
started to feel better. But I think it was pretty gradual.

853
00:44:06,039 --> 00:44:07,519
I want to say, I don't even think there was.

854
00:44:07,719 --> 00:44:10,760
I mean, obviously, getting into UCLA was like a game changer,

855
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:15,119
like because I finally didn't feel like I was waiting

856
00:44:15,559 --> 00:44:20,079
on anything, Like waiting on college decisions was the worst

857
00:44:20,440 --> 00:44:23,280
part of the process, just because I was like, I've

858
00:44:23,280 --> 00:44:27,360
done everything I can, I've put so much work into this.

859
00:44:27,480 --> 00:44:32,199
I felt good about my essays, like I have straight

860
00:44:32,239 --> 00:44:34,960
a's in community college, which I submitted, So I was

861
00:44:35,039 --> 00:44:39,400
just like, it's all about waiting and it was so tedious,

862
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:44,440
And I think getting into UCLA was kind of a

863
00:44:44,480 --> 00:44:47,039
game changer because I was like, well, even if I

864
00:44:47,079 --> 00:44:51,000
feel like terrible about other things, now I can say

865
00:44:51,800 --> 00:44:54,880
I have UCLA and I know that I'm going to

866
00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:57,159
make a ton of new friends, which I already have,

867
00:44:58,000 --> 00:45:02,840
and it's your life. It was so nice that I

868
00:45:02,960 --> 00:45:06,000
knew that I was going to have a change to

869
00:45:06,199 --> 00:45:10,079
like my life. And I don't even mean like I

870
00:45:10,079 --> 00:45:13,199
don't know. It was just after getting out of high school,

871
00:45:13,519 --> 00:45:15,760
I felt like I'd had the same routine that I

872
00:45:15,880 --> 00:45:18,320
was so tired of, so burnt out of, which was

873
00:45:18,599 --> 00:45:22,199
going to school every single day, and I hated high school.

874
00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:25,119
By the end wasn't even the school itself. I just

875
00:45:25,239 --> 00:45:27,960
I couldn't do it. I hated high school, didn't like

876
00:45:28,039 --> 00:45:30,920
some of my classes. I would have drama in my

877
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:34,400
friend group, like I was. Half the reason why I

878
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:38,280
went to school was my boyfriend. Literally half the time,

879
00:45:38,320 --> 00:45:39,639
he'd be like, I don't want to go. I'm not

880
00:45:39,679 --> 00:45:42,480
going to school today, and I'd be like, oh God,

881
00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:46,639
my day is gonna suck, like because you know, yeah,

882
00:45:46,679 --> 00:45:49,480
that's totally dramatic. By the way. I not every single

883
00:45:49,519 --> 00:45:51,719
day was bad in high school. I just I didn't

884
00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:54,239
like high school. I was so brown out. Like junior year,

885
00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:56,239
I was done. I was like, I was so done

886
00:45:56,639 --> 00:45:59,880
going to classes every day, like I can't. And then

887
00:45:59,880 --> 00:46:02,920
I had work on the weekends. And again in the beginning,

888
00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:04,639
I loved my job, but you know, you start to

889
00:46:04,639 --> 00:46:06,199
get a little tired of it once you're there for

890
00:46:06,199 --> 00:46:08,840
a couple of years. And I got rejected and it

891
00:46:08,960 --> 00:46:11,760
was like, oh, lucky you. You're going to be going

892
00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:14,400
to community college five minutes away from your high school

893
00:46:15,079 --> 00:46:18,159
with all these kids from your high school, and now

894
00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:20,480
you're going to go to school and you're going to

895
00:46:20,519 --> 00:46:21,920
go to work, and that's all You're going to have

896
00:46:22,199 --> 00:46:24,880
in your life for another year. And I was like,

897
00:46:25,920 --> 00:46:28,000
oh my god, like it's going to be the same thing.

898
00:46:28,719 --> 00:46:32,920
And now I don't have a boyfriend. So I was like, which,

899
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:35,079
he gets to go to college and have a great

900
00:46:35,199 --> 00:46:37,280
time with all these people and he gets to forget

901
00:46:37,320 --> 00:46:40,599
about it, and I was like, dang, Like sucks for me.

902
00:46:41,280 --> 00:46:44,000
So I think getting into UCLA, I was like, oh

903
00:46:44,039 --> 00:46:47,519
my god, it doesn't matter how sad I am over

904
00:46:47,559 --> 00:46:50,280
anything else. I'm going to get to live in an

905
00:46:50,280 --> 00:46:53,400
apartment and I don't care about having a roommate. I'm

906
00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:55,719
totally happy to have a roommate. Especially the roommates that

907
00:46:55,760 --> 00:46:58,360
I have now I've lucked out with them. They're amazing.

908
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:01,719
So I'm like, I get to have built in friends

909
00:47:02,280 --> 00:47:04,639
in my apartments or my dorm or whatever I get

910
00:47:04,639 --> 00:47:06,719
because I didn't know at the time. I get to

911
00:47:07,239 --> 00:47:11,480
go to a completely different school. I'm gonna it's a

912
00:47:11,519 --> 00:47:14,599
great freaking school. On top of my amazing school, I

913
00:47:14,599 --> 00:47:15,440
get to tell just.

914
00:47:16,960 --> 00:47:19,000
Speaker 1: Westwood like all that stuff.

915
00:47:19,119 --> 00:47:22,199
Speaker 3: Everything, my whole life is going to be totally different,

916
00:47:22,239 --> 00:47:25,480
which I think. As much as I think change scares

917
00:47:25,519 --> 00:47:28,079
me a bit and definitely gives me anxiety, I think

918
00:47:28,239 --> 00:47:30,840
This was like the time where I was like, I'm

919
00:47:30,920 --> 00:47:34,320
so ready, I'm so ready for a change. And then

920
00:47:34,559 --> 00:47:38,199
obviously I had the greatest summer ever. I had so

921
00:47:38,280 --> 00:47:41,280
much fun. I made like an entirely new friend group.

922
00:47:42,000 --> 00:47:46,679
I cut off things with my ex pretty much. It

923
00:47:46,760 --> 00:47:50,960
was mutual, but that was going on. I was going

924
00:47:51,000 --> 00:47:52,880
on for a while, Lord knows why. I don't know

925
00:47:52,880 --> 00:47:55,400
why I did that. But you know, that ended, and

926
00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:57,400
I thought I was going to be depressed again because

927
00:47:57,400 --> 00:47:59,679
I was like, oh god, I haven't. I haven't not.

928
00:48:00,039 --> 00:48:02,400
I haven't gone without speaking to him for more than

929
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:06,320
like a month since we broke up, and it's been

930
00:48:06,360 --> 00:48:09,920
mostly us talking every day. Still, don't do that, guys,

931
00:48:09,920 --> 00:48:11,639
I fear listen, don't do that. Do not do that.

932
00:48:12,039 --> 00:48:14,599
But I thought I was gonna be so sad, But

933
00:48:14,639 --> 00:48:18,719
then I totally wasn't, and I had a great summer,

934
00:48:18,800 --> 00:48:21,840
made all these amazing friends. I think being distracted was

935
00:48:21,880 --> 00:48:25,599
like a good part of it, because I've been telling

936
00:48:25,639 --> 00:48:30,039
people it's not good to distract yourself early on, but

937
00:48:30,320 --> 00:48:32,760
I think because it's good to, you know, sit in

938
00:48:32,760 --> 00:48:34,519
your feelings for a bit, as much as it sucks,

939
00:48:34,559 --> 00:48:37,400
and you gotta say the feelings because it's always going

940
00:48:37,440 --> 00:48:39,920
to hit you at some point, so I think being

941
00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:42,199
hit with it for months beforehand, I was like, Okay,

942
00:48:42,519 --> 00:48:46,199
now I can start distracting myself. I've sat in my feelings.

943
00:48:46,599 --> 00:48:49,800
I've I've felt all the emotions. Now I'm good to

944
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:53,199
just kind of. I mean, I feel like I'm.

945
00:48:53,159 --> 00:48:56,800
Speaker 1: Grown leaps and bounds out of this experience. Yeah, and

946
00:48:57,039 --> 00:48:59,960
my God, like all the hard work and it's paid off.

947
00:49:00,920 --> 00:49:03,480
Now you're going to use CLA. You're just gonna have

948
00:49:03,519 --> 00:49:07,000
the best time. Alb, You're a success story. You really are,

949
00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:09,599
and I think every parent should listen to this episode,

950
00:49:09,679 --> 00:49:13,000
especially that has kids going off to college. Yeah, this

951
00:49:13,159 --> 00:49:17,280
is really because the heartbreak you went through, the heartbreak

952
00:49:17,320 --> 00:49:19,440
your mom had to watch you go through, it was

953
00:49:19,599 --> 00:49:23,199
just tough. But now, like, look at you. I mean,

954
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:25,159
I'm freaking proud of you.

955
00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:28,159
Speaker 3: Yeah. I think this is crazy because this is the

956
00:49:28,199 --> 00:49:30,920
first time that I've seen myself and I genuinely feel

957
00:49:30,960 --> 00:49:33,320
like a completely different person than I was a year.

958
00:49:33,719 --> 00:49:36,079
Like I feel like I always like a year will

959
00:49:36,079 --> 00:49:38,079
go by and I'll be like I still feel like

960
00:49:38,119 --> 00:49:40,480
I'm pretty similar to how I was like the year before,

961
00:49:40,559 --> 00:49:42,679
But now I kind of like look at myself, and

962
00:49:42,719 --> 00:49:46,800
I'm like, holy shit, I'm a completely different person in

963
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:50,880
like the best way possibly, yes, like in an amazing way. Yeah,

964
00:49:50,920 --> 00:49:54,320
And I I'm very happy, and i think, like, biggest

965
00:49:54,320 --> 00:49:57,400
thing to take away do community college. Please do it?

966
00:49:57,559 --> 00:49:58,039
Speaker 2: Do it?

967
00:49:58,360 --> 00:50:01,440
Speaker 1: Okay, you won't regret it. That makes me happy to hear.

968
00:50:02,519 --> 00:50:05,920
Speaker 2: Funny thing is too that like the girl that was

969
00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:09,599
helping us bring her stuff up to the apartment. It's

970
00:50:09,639 --> 00:50:13,280
so crazy how many people did that path Like, yeah,

971
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:17,039
that girl went to she went to community college. Yeah yeah,

972
00:50:17,199 --> 00:50:18,239
see yeah.

973
00:50:18,320 --> 00:50:21,800
Speaker 3: Oh. And another thing to add one of my roommates

974
00:50:21,920 --> 00:50:24,719
she dropped out of Berkeley because she hated Berkeley and

975
00:50:24,760 --> 00:50:27,519
she did community college for a year and now she's

976
00:50:27,760 --> 00:50:31,400
with me, and she was wow, so excited about her decision.

977
00:50:31,519 --> 00:50:34,519
So I'm just like it's very eye opening. Like I

978
00:50:34,559 --> 00:50:37,159
could have gone in too freaking Berkeley for who knows

979
00:50:37,159 --> 00:50:40,039
and gone and still hated it yeah, and been like, well,

980
00:50:40,039 --> 00:50:41,800
now I'm going to do community college for a year

981
00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:46,280
anyways and end up here. So I think like the

982
00:50:46,320 --> 00:50:51,079
biggest like takeaway for me was like it sucked and

983
00:50:51,119 --> 00:50:54,360
it was not how I It sucks because it wasn't

984
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:58,119
where I saw myself, but like, I think it's important

985
00:50:58,119 --> 00:51:01,880
to you know, assess all your options and just know,

986
00:51:02,159 --> 00:51:08,000
like I feel great now that I'm CLA. I'm super

987
00:51:08,079 --> 00:51:11,280
excited for the next two three years. If I spread

988
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:13,599
it out to three years, it's super cool because now

989
00:51:13,599 --> 00:51:15,239
all my friends are jealous because they're like, oh, are

990
00:51:15,280 --> 00:51:19,280
you graduating year before me? And I'm like, yeah, yeah,

991
00:51:19,280 --> 00:51:19,519
I am.

992
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,880
Speaker 2: That's true unless she wants to make lots longer and

993
00:51:22,920 --> 00:51:24,000
she can double major.

994
00:51:24,039 --> 00:51:25,760
Speaker 1: If she Yeah, yeah, that's true.

995
00:51:25,800 --> 00:51:26,800
Speaker 2: I'm a serious student.

996
00:51:27,079 --> 00:51:29,039
Speaker 3: Now I have lots of options.

997
00:51:29,400 --> 00:51:31,440
Speaker 1: Totally. The world is your oyster.

998
00:51:31,760 --> 00:51:35,719
Speaker 3: But I'm ready. I'm ready to rushi a sorority.

999
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:37,679
Speaker 1: Yeah, there we go.

1000
00:51:37,920 --> 00:51:39,880
Speaker 2: So now we're going to talk. We're going to end

1001
00:51:39,920 --> 00:51:42,760
this episode and we're going to talk with about Adrian

1002
00:51:43,840 --> 00:51:45,079
drinking and Helen right.

1003
00:51:47,199 --> 00:51:54,719
Speaker 3: Somewhat time. Hey, hey, hey, all right, well thank you?

1004
00:51:55,519 --> 00:51:59,440
Speaker 1: All right, your parent now, don't have it up.

1005
00:52:00,039 --> 00:52:03,920
Speaker 3: I say that ain't goes Will