WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.120 --> 00:00:02.879 For thirty five years, Cindy Stumpo has been a female 2 00:00:02.919 --> 00:00:06.519 home builder with a passion for design, a mastery of detail, 3 00:00:06.599 --> 00:00:09.519 and a commitment to her crack. With daughter Samantha Stumpo 4 00:00:09.640 --> 00:00:10.439 by her side, I. 5 00:00:10.359 --> 00:00:11.919 Don't need my whole family on a date with me. 6 00:00:12.039 --> 00:00:12.759 That's a good note. 7 00:00:12.800 --> 00:00:14.080 It's goddemn weird. See. 8 00:00:14.080 --> 00:00:17.920 Stumpo Development is the only second generation female construction company 9 00:00:17.960 --> 00:00:18.600 in the country. 10 00:00:18.679 --> 00:00:22.800 You're crazy, You're a wacko, You're insane. 11 00:00:22.800 --> 00:00:24.239 I mean, it just doesn't end together. 12 00:00:24.399 --> 00:00:28.079 Cindy and Samantha welcome guests to explore the world of construction, 13 00:00:28.399 --> 00:00:31.079 real estate, development, design and more. 14 00:00:31.199 --> 00:00:31.800 Unpredictable. 15 00:00:31.839 --> 00:00:33.520 Every time I think I know what you want, you'd 16 00:00:33.600 --> 00:00:34.119 switch it out. 17 00:00:34.159 --> 00:00:35.159 But that's what makes your. 18 00:00:35.039 --> 00:00:35.960 Houses all your day. 19 00:00:36.079 --> 00:00:39.000 Discuss anything that happens between the roof and the foundation. 20 00:00:39.159 --> 00:00:42.159 Nothing is off limits. You truly do care about everybody. 21 00:00:42.240 --> 00:00:43.799 She can yell at, chi can scream, but when you 22 00:00:43.799 --> 00:00:46.359 get her alone, she's the best person on the planet. 23 00:00:46.399 --> 00:00:52.000 Cindy Stumpo is tough as nails. 24 00:00:52.960 --> 00:00:55.640 Welcome to Cindy Stumpo, Tough's Nails and w Ezy News 25 00:00:55.719 --> 00:00:59.799 Radio ten thirty. Let's go, Samantha, Yes, mother. All right 26 00:01:00.159 --> 00:01:01.679 with me at hun Are you going to introduce her? 27 00:01:01.679 --> 00:01:04.599 I guess that's no. It was your experience that met her. 28 00:01:04.799 --> 00:01:07.480 I was just a sidekick that day. But you were there, right, 29 00:01:07.560 --> 00:01:10.599 I was there. Okay, you want to introduce yourself money, 30 00:01:10.840 --> 00:01:11.840 go ahead. You introduced your. 31 00:01:11.760 --> 00:01:13.879 Said, hey, my name's Mel. 32 00:01:14.400 --> 00:01:19.040 We're going by Mel. Yeah, okay, Mel, now Melanie. Okay, 33 00:01:19.079 --> 00:01:21.840 forget Melanie. I like me better, easier for her. Mel's cool. 34 00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:25.879 Three lotter words, A good right now, dogcat and out. Okay, 35 00:01:26.599 --> 00:01:28.280 all right, I want you to give my listeners. Go ahead, 36 00:01:28.280 --> 00:01:30.439 tell the story how you and I met. 37 00:01:31.359 --> 00:01:32.159 I was at work. 38 00:01:32.599 --> 00:01:33.280 What's your work? 39 00:01:33.920 --> 00:01:36.200 I work in the lab mask general frego. 40 00:01:36.480 --> 00:01:37.599 What are you? What do you do there? 41 00:01:37.640 --> 00:01:41.840 I'm a phlebonomist okay, and told you I'm thirty years old. 42 00:01:42.079 --> 00:01:42.439 Okay. 43 00:01:43.239 --> 00:01:45.840 And I was at work and you were in the 44 00:01:45.920 --> 00:01:48.519 chair needing some assistance because they. 45 00:01:48.439 --> 00:01:50.760 Couldn't find it didn't have neat assistance. 46 00:01:50.840 --> 00:01:54.079 Okay. So I'm sitting in the chair and another woman 47 00:01:54.480 --> 00:01:56.840 is taking my blood and she put the needle in. 48 00:01:56.879 --> 00:01:58.560 Then she re jammed and I went and you're hurting me. 49 00:01:59.200 --> 00:02:02.400 And then you said I'll take it from here and 50 00:02:02.439 --> 00:02:04.719 you walked over. I think we went in my left 51 00:02:04.799 --> 00:02:06.640 arm and we found a vein. You went right in 52 00:02:06.680 --> 00:02:10.000 there smoothly. I didn't wasn't poked twice, and I didn't 53 00:02:10.000 --> 00:02:12.800 feel anything. I had no bruise. And at that point 54 00:02:12.800 --> 00:02:15.960 we started to talk, and I think I asked you 55 00:02:16.319 --> 00:02:18.400 how old you are, because that's typical question. I will 56 00:02:18.439 --> 00:02:21.800 ask how old you are? Where are you from? What's 57 00:02:21.840 --> 00:02:25.120 your zodiac? On my questions? 58 00:02:25.199 --> 00:02:28.000 Right, I think Mexico so much. 59 00:02:28.360 --> 00:02:29.919 And then I said to you, said to me, what 60 00:02:30.000 --> 00:02:33.039 are you, Cindy? And I said, I'm a cancer and 61 00:02:33.080 --> 00:02:37.199 you said, my brothers or my brother my brothers, right, 62 00:02:37.840 --> 00:02:39.759 we're both cancers. And I said, what do you mean 63 00:02:39.840 --> 00:02:40.400 they were? 64 00:02:41.520 --> 00:02:42.520 Yeah, they passed away. 65 00:02:43.080 --> 00:02:46.199 Okay, So this is why I want you to pick 66 00:02:46.240 --> 00:02:49.879 up the story. Okay, so and actually no, we're going 67 00:02:49.960 --> 00:02:51.639 to come back there. Just let's hold that off for 68 00:02:51.639 --> 00:02:54.360 a minute. Let's go back to when you were a 69 00:02:54.360 --> 00:02:56.360 young girl. I want you. I want people to hear 70 00:02:56.360 --> 00:02:58.639 what your life was at a young girl and how 71 00:02:58.680 --> 00:03:01.520 you changed it up, so people know how we met. 72 00:03:01.560 --> 00:03:05.080 Now, yes, and we connected just because we have the 73 00:03:05.080 --> 00:03:09.400 same kind of values and morals in life. And I 74 00:03:09.439 --> 00:03:10.439 had a hard time. 75 00:03:10.439 --> 00:03:12.159 At well, those morals and values came a little bit 76 00:03:12.240 --> 00:03:16.479 later for you. Yes, okay, so I got there. That 77 00:03:16.840 --> 00:03:18.520 that's how you get this, as long as they get. 78 00:03:18.400 --> 00:03:23.039 There, right. I had lost my son when I was 79 00:03:23.199 --> 00:03:27.080 around seventeen turning eighteen, and I kind of thought I 80 00:03:27.159 --> 00:03:30.319 was a dude for a little bit, and dude, yeah, 81 00:03:30.319 --> 00:03:32.080 I was on the streets, you know, doing things I 82 00:03:32.120 --> 00:03:35.240 wasn't supposed to be doing, hurting people because I wanted 83 00:03:35.360 --> 00:03:37.080 I don't know, I wanted everybody to feel how I 84 00:03:37.120 --> 00:03:38.000 was feeling at the moment. 85 00:03:38.560 --> 00:03:41.719 So you can basically throw a haymaker, yeah, you know 86 00:03:41.800 --> 00:03:45.759 the haymakers nice? Yeah, it's not nice, not nice. No, 87 00:03:46.199 --> 00:03:47.560 but you have to strength to throw it. 88 00:03:47.680 --> 00:03:50.360 Yeah. And it's like like it's just like so much 89 00:03:50.479 --> 00:03:53.599 energy energy that you exert in a negative way, it's 90 00:03:53.680 --> 00:03:56.319 not even worth it. You have to leave people where 91 00:03:56.319 --> 00:04:00.240 they're at and learned that that's just their capacity they're 92 00:04:00.280 --> 00:04:03.039 in right now. And you can't do anything what control yourself? 93 00:04:03.879 --> 00:04:06.599 So from what age to what age were you running 94 00:04:07.159 --> 00:04:08.080 and doing all the. 95 00:04:07.960 --> 00:04:13.159 Bad, bad things from eighteen till I was like twenty four? 96 00:04:13.400 --> 00:04:16.680 Okay, so at fifteen sixteen you were normal whatever? Normal 97 00:04:16.720 --> 00:04:17.399 young girl was. 98 00:04:18.839 --> 00:04:21.000 Kind of I kind of transitioned once I went to 99 00:04:21.079 --> 00:04:24.079 high school and kind of got brought into the world 100 00:04:24.120 --> 00:04:28.120 of like being a grown up too fast. 101 00:04:28.240 --> 00:04:31.759 Basically, yeah, we've all been there, Yeah, and getting into 102 00:04:31.800 --> 00:04:33.560 things I shouldn't have been getting to, and I kind 103 00:04:33.560 --> 00:04:36.399 of got a little exposed, and you know, people didn't 104 00:04:36.399 --> 00:04:39.199 really like me and my brother so it was a 105 00:04:39.240 --> 00:04:43.600 lot of problems and even like why, well I don't 106 00:04:43.600 --> 00:04:45.959 know why, they just always you know, the dudes always 107 00:04:46.000 --> 00:04:48.079 had problems with my brothers, and I was always a 108 00:04:48.120 --> 00:04:52.920 wicked protective so whatever problems were theirs were mine as well. 109 00:04:53.000 --> 00:04:55.199 How what's the difference in age between you and your brothers? 110 00:04:56.240 --> 00:04:59.439 Ranging from like who's two to three? Five years some 111 00:04:59.480 --> 00:05:03.040 of them they are I'm the baby, I'm the youngest one. 112 00:05:03.759 --> 00:05:05.879 So but you stuck together as a family. 113 00:05:05.759 --> 00:05:09.160 Yeah, and I was I They never liked me to 114 00:05:09.240 --> 00:05:11.959 be a part of anything. But I just imagine your 115 00:05:12.000 --> 00:05:13.839 sibling getting hurt and you're just standing there like I 116 00:05:13.879 --> 00:05:14.519 couldn't do that. 117 00:05:15.120 --> 00:05:19.600 But would they better kids than you were? No, So 118 00:05:19.680 --> 00:05:21.439 everybody was the same because. 119 00:05:21.079 --> 00:05:22.759 They were ahead of me, so they had already gone 120 00:05:22.759 --> 00:05:24.959 into the what they gone into, and then here I 121 00:05:25.079 --> 00:05:28.600 come like, oh no, this isn't going to happen. 122 00:05:29.040 --> 00:05:30.360 They want you to be a good kid. 123 00:05:30.560 --> 00:05:32.839 Yeah. I was up until high school and then I 124 00:05:32.920 --> 00:05:35.920 kind of like explode it. And then once my kids died, 125 00:05:35.959 --> 00:05:39.319 I just amplified it. I was like turnt up. 126 00:05:40.480 --> 00:05:42.120 And what about your mom and dad at that time 127 00:05:42.160 --> 00:05:43.720 trying to control embarrassed. 128 00:05:43.759 --> 00:05:47.279 They were just embarrassed and disappointed. Like my family come 129 00:05:47.399 --> 00:05:49.680 from a literal jungle. Like my parents made out of 130 00:05:50.000 --> 00:05:51.600 a jungle. My dad's a businessman. 131 00:05:52.160 --> 00:05:54.199 Sercise when you say they made out of a jungle. 132 00:05:54.959 --> 00:05:59.959 So Caverd is western, Yeah, okay, And it's ten islands 133 00:06:00.000 --> 00:06:02.199 in the middle of the ocean and most of it 134 00:06:02.240 --> 00:06:05.120 is like a jungle and then there's like parts of 135 00:06:05.160 --> 00:06:08.720 cities and stuff. It's very poor, especially back then they 136 00:06:08.720 --> 00:06:11.120 were just farming and stuff like that. Both my parents 137 00:06:11.120 --> 00:06:15.279 had to quit school and help their parents farm. Kind 138 00:06:15.319 --> 00:06:18.480 of a few clothes, one two pair of shoes deal. 139 00:06:19.120 --> 00:06:21.759 Growing up. They had it really hard. They came to 140 00:06:21.800 --> 00:06:24.000 this country when they were young, before they were twenty 141 00:06:24.480 --> 00:06:26.959 and worked and you know, my mom's been like a 142 00:06:27.040 --> 00:06:28.160 CNA her whole life, but. 143 00:06:28.199 --> 00:06:31.040 She makes she so she does well. 144 00:06:31.199 --> 00:06:32.360 Wow, yeah, like. 145 00:06:32.360 --> 00:06:35.240 Okay, so they were immigrants, yes, and they came here 146 00:06:35.319 --> 00:06:36.160 the legal way. 147 00:06:36.360 --> 00:06:40.079 Legal way, and my dad brought over more than half 148 00:06:40.079 --> 00:06:42.720 of his family here. He got here, did what he 149 00:06:42.759 --> 00:06:44.759 was supposed to do, got a citizenship because back then, 150 00:06:44.800 --> 00:06:48.360 when you got your citizenship, you can bring someone. Then 151 00:06:48.399 --> 00:06:51.160 they have to go get the citizenship through the process 152 00:06:51.240 --> 00:06:52.879 and then they can get somebody else. 153 00:06:52.920 --> 00:06:54.680 So then he get five mins dollars stream reals and 154 00:06:54.680 --> 00:06:55.639 they didn't get so fun. 155 00:06:55.720 --> 00:06:59.079 No, my dad busted his ass studied. I used to 156 00:06:59.079 --> 00:07:00.439 go to night school my day. I used to go 157 00:07:00.480 --> 00:07:02.759 to school at New Bedford High School at night, and 158 00:07:02.800 --> 00:07:04.600 I would go with him and help him with his 159 00:07:04.839 --> 00:07:06.519 like English and stuff like that, because if you don't 160 00:07:06.519 --> 00:07:08.879 know this language, it's very hard to pick up because 161 00:07:08.920 --> 00:07:12.680 our tongue, our language is very heavy tongued. 162 00:07:12.879 --> 00:07:13.639 Our languages. 163 00:07:15.040 --> 00:07:22.120 Yeah, cave Verdian. So I feel like like Bundia. It's 164 00:07:22.160 --> 00:07:24.639 like kind of like a broken down version of Creole, 165 00:07:25.120 --> 00:07:29.680 I would say, like a slang version almost. So yeah, 166 00:07:30.079 --> 00:07:33.279 I just it's just amazing, Like my parents are just. 167 00:07:33.839 --> 00:07:36.800 You know, looking at you, and they're pretty face to you, 168 00:07:36.879 --> 00:07:39.600 as in I smile to think that you were throwing 169 00:07:39.639 --> 00:07:40.920 Haymakers back in the day. 170 00:07:41.040 --> 00:07:42.000 You know, I was such a. 171 00:07:43.600 --> 00:07:45.439 But you know, we all were punks in some form 172 00:07:45.439 --> 00:07:48.240 of our lives at some point. People that are honest, right, Like, yeah, 173 00:07:48.439 --> 00:07:50.839 back in they seventies and eighties, we jammed up to 174 00:07:51.079 --> 00:07:53.680 I mean, but this is good. That was then. We 175 00:07:53.680 --> 00:07:55.680 weren't using guns and we weren't doing. 176 00:07:55.480 --> 00:07:59.839 What yeah what, you know, it's even worse. I'm thankful 177 00:07:59.879 --> 00:08:02.800 that I was around what I was around back then 178 00:08:02.920 --> 00:08:06.839 because now it's like, you're just gonna You're gonna die. 179 00:08:06.920 --> 00:08:09.120 These kids are insane. Yeah, one of my friends got 180 00:08:09.199 --> 00:08:12.000 killed like almost it's about to be a year almost 181 00:08:12.199 --> 00:08:14.040 by a twenty year old. He's twenty seven. 182 00:08:14.120 --> 00:08:15.879 Before I let you keep going forward, I'm gonna bring 183 00:08:15.920 --> 00:08:17.439 you back because that's what I have to do. Because 184 00:08:17.480 --> 00:08:19.279 we'll go for my ninety five and go to four 185 00:08:19.399 --> 00:08:21.959 ninety five, we'll go to Enter seventeen, and then we'll 186 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:24.759 be heading down in Florida and we'll be in the 187 00:08:24.800 --> 00:08:27.240 Gaza Strip going Israel and then back to Italy. I 188 00:08:27.279 --> 00:08:29.920 don't know where we can go, So let's go back 189 00:08:29.920 --> 00:08:33.559 in time. You get in a bad place around eighteen 190 00:08:33.639 --> 00:08:36.679 years old. If from eighteen to twenty something twenty what 191 00:08:36.919 --> 00:08:40.679 twenty four? You're running crazy? Yeah, just beating people up 192 00:08:41.360 --> 00:08:44.320 no reason? Yeah, were you robbing them? 193 00:08:44.559 --> 00:08:47.159 No? I was just beating their butts. And then I 194 00:08:47.200 --> 00:08:49.039 got into a little issue. I went away for a 195 00:08:49.080 --> 00:08:49.679 little bit. 196 00:08:51.919 --> 00:08:54.000 And what was your mom and dad saying to you 197 00:08:54.039 --> 00:08:54.559 at that time? 198 00:08:55.240 --> 00:08:58.519 It was just hard. I was like listening. No, they 199 00:08:58.519 --> 00:09:01.480 didn't know what to do because they did the best. 200 00:09:01.559 --> 00:09:03.360 I feel like, as parents, you do the best you 201 00:09:03.399 --> 00:09:04.639 can with situations. 202 00:09:05.200 --> 00:09:08.320 Don't know, I keep talking. 203 00:09:08.080 --> 00:09:09.679 You do the best you can with situations. So it's 204 00:09:09.720 --> 00:09:11.399 kind of hard when your kid's going through something. You 205 00:09:11.440 --> 00:09:14.679 have no idea what to do. So they try to 206 00:09:14.679 --> 00:09:18.080 take me on vacation do things to Johanna Kana, It's like, what, oh, that. 207 00:09:18.120 --> 00:09:20.320 Thought would be right back? I'm Sinny stumpany listen Toughest 208 00:09:20.399 --> 00:09:22.519 Nails on w BZ News Radio ten thirty To be. 209 00:09:22.519 --> 00:09:25.480 Right Back, sponsored by floor In Decor, National Lumber, and 210 00:09:25.600 --> 00:09:26.159 Village Bang. 211 00:09:29.759 --> 00:09:33.879 Just yesterday morning, they let me know you will go. 212 00:09:36.240 --> 00:09:39.480 Susan the plans they may put an end to you. 213 00:09:40.799 --> 00:09:44.279 Welcome back to Toughest Nails on WBZ News Radio ten three. 214 00:09:44.279 --> 00:09:48.120 That song going, this song you never heard James Taylor. 215 00:09:48.200 --> 00:09:50.919 Huh, what's up girl? No, but I love it. I'm 216 00:09:50.960 --> 00:09:52.039 loving the guitar. 217 00:09:52.279 --> 00:09:55.879 If you actually listen to the song. He wrote this 218 00:09:56.000 --> 00:10:03.240 song at McClain's coming off Heroin Seen Sundays. Yes, yes, 219 00:10:03.639 --> 00:10:06.399 Yes to the to the history on James Taylor and 220 00:10:06.480 --> 00:10:11.799 I've seen Fire and Rain Yes, m wow, So pick 221 00:10:11.799 --> 00:10:14.279 it up from them. My music always has a reason 222 00:10:14.320 --> 00:10:15.519 for what I play online. 223 00:10:15.600 --> 00:10:17.440 I love that well. I love my job, and I'm 224 00:10:17.440 --> 00:10:20.039 so thankful where I'm at in life. I always wish 225 00:10:20.080 --> 00:10:22.480 that I would live in Boston and work in Boston 226 00:10:22.600 --> 00:10:23.720 and you're there. 227 00:10:24.200 --> 00:10:26.039 Yeah, but it's taken you some time to get there. 228 00:10:26.080 --> 00:10:29.080 So I'm gonna take you back again. So your mom 229 00:10:29.120 --> 00:10:32.399 and dad they're trying every which way to take you 230 00:10:32.440 --> 00:10:33.879 on vacations. 231 00:10:34.039 --> 00:10:35.519 Not be depressed and angry. 232 00:10:36.480 --> 00:10:39.559 And that wasn't doing anything. No, So what did it 233 00:10:39.600 --> 00:10:42.960 take you to hit your rock bottom to say, okay, 234 00:10:43.720 --> 00:10:45.720 I got to move this now that I don't want 235 00:10:45.720 --> 00:10:48.480 to be this girl When I went to jail, and 236 00:10:48.519 --> 00:10:51.600 that did a few But the thought of going to 237 00:10:51.679 --> 00:10:55.600 jail did not scare you. No, you have to say 238 00:10:55.639 --> 00:10:59.000 the word people can't see you. No, no thought of that. 239 00:10:59.120 --> 00:11:02.559 Scharedule not in that moment, and now you find yourself 240 00:11:02.600 --> 00:11:03.000 in jail. 241 00:11:03.559 --> 00:11:07.279 Yeah, and it was it was weird because I'm raised. 242 00:11:07.399 --> 00:11:09.320 It was so such a weird experience because you know, 243 00:11:09.399 --> 00:11:12.279 I walk in and I say hello and introduce myself 244 00:11:12.279 --> 00:11:14.559 to everyone, and they're all looking at me like I'm 245 00:11:14.600 --> 00:11:19.080 a literal psychotic person. No one even said a word 246 00:11:19.120 --> 00:11:23.639 back to me. No, no, everybody in the cell. Yeah. 247 00:11:23.679 --> 00:11:25.960 So you go through an intake unit. They make sure 248 00:11:25.960 --> 00:11:28.600 that you're not on drugs or anything like that, and 249 00:11:28.639 --> 00:11:29.080 then you go. 250 00:11:29.039 --> 00:11:30.440 Into an and you went on drugs. 251 00:11:30.519 --> 00:11:32.840 No, you go into besides you know, but. 252 00:11:33.320 --> 00:11:40.200 Whatever, but it's okay, you bought whatever. But okay, okay, okay, good. 253 00:11:40.360 --> 00:11:42.559 So yeah, you go through the intake process and stuff 254 00:11:42.559 --> 00:11:44.519 like that. But if you are, like, you know, a 255 00:11:44.600 --> 00:11:46.960 part of a street gang whatever, like you have to 256 00:11:47.000 --> 00:11:49.440 also go through intake and stay in there or whatever. 257 00:11:49.799 --> 00:11:51.399 So you had your own streak gang that you were 258 00:11:51.399 --> 00:11:51.840 involved in. 259 00:11:52.080 --> 00:11:55.759 Basically, it was like I was attached to and I 260 00:11:55.840 --> 00:11:58.279 went out and I went they put me into the 261 00:11:58.399 --> 00:12:00.879 unit and I walk in and just say hey, hey, hi, everybode, 262 00:12:00.919 --> 00:12:03.720 I'm Melanie and nice to meet you, and not a 263 00:12:03.759 --> 00:12:05.919 person's at a word back. Okay, So I just went 264 00:12:06.000 --> 00:12:08.000 up to my style this year what myself was I 265 00:12:08.039 --> 00:12:11.039 literally didn't come out until the next morning. I come 266 00:12:11.120 --> 00:12:13.480 downstairs for a child that's what they would call a 267 00:12:13.559 --> 00:12:19.039 chow and someone throws like the newspaper on the table 268 00:12:19.039 --> 00:12:22.200 and they're like, how are you this normal and calm 269 00:12:22.279 --> 00:12:25.039 right now? And this is what you're in trouble for. 270 00:12:25.519 --> 00:12:27.879 And I'm like, because I didn't do nothing, girl, they 271 00:12:27.919 --> 00:12:31.440 were telling, yeah, me, I my problem. It'll get sorted out. 272 00:12:32.120 --> 00:12:35.519 Like I know, like you know the consequences that come 273 00:12:35.559 --> 00:12:38.399 with the things that you're doing as an as even 274 00:12:38.440 --> 00:12:41.519 a teen and adult, when you're raised correctly and you 275 00:12:41.559 --> 00:12:44.519 do things you're not supposed to be doing, you know, consciously, subconsciously, 276 00:12:44.600 --> 00:12:47.000 your conscience is always on your back. Like so you 277 00:12:47.080 --> 00:12:49.399 did have a conscious yes, But it was like I 278 00:12:49.519 --> 00:12:52.000 was just fighting it, like okay, like my I'm gonna 279 00:12:52.039 --> 00:12:53.720 leend my demons when I want to be mad. I 280 00:12:53.759 --> 00:12:55.840 want to feel this way because I don't want to 281 00:12:55.879 --> 00:12:59.679 feel the pain of losing my kid. Like I couldn't 282 00:12:59.720 --> 00:13:02.240 out my child, I couldn't do anything. I just sit 283 00:13:02.279 --> 00:13:04.200 there and let him pass away, you know. So it 284 00:13:04.279 --> 00:13:05.399 was like I didn't want to deal. 285 00:13:05.240 --> 00:13:07.279 With that at all and how they pass away. 286 00:13:07.720 --> 00:13:10.000 I basically had an infection in my universe, so I 287 00:13:10.039 --> 00:13:12.919 gave birth too early and then Rhode Island it's against 288 00:13:12.960 --> 00:13:15.440 a law of recessitated child that's under a certain amount 289 00:13:15.440 --> 00:13:18.440 of weeks. I was like one week, shy being five months, 290 00:13:18.480 --> 00:13:20.960 so they would have literally just crushed him if they 291 00:13:21.000 --> 00:13:22.919 try to like do CPR or anything like that. 292 00:13:23.039 --> 00:13:26.879 But that that that's in some states people board up 293 00:13:26.879 --> 00:13:30.159 to that age, right, Yeah, but this still affected you 294 00:13:30.240 --> 00:13:32.519 and just swung you the way it swung you. 295 00:13:32.600 --> 00:13:35.519 Yeah, it was not nice. 296 00:13:35.639 --> 00:13:36.919 Do you think you were going to go down that 297 00:13:36.960 --> 00:13:39.200 path either way? And that's your You're out. 298 00:13:39.320 --> 00:13:42.200 No, I wasn't. I was in college to be like 299 00:13:42.240 --> 00:13:45.000 criminal justice. I wanted to be like little a judge 300 00:13:45.000 --> 00:13:50.480 and like like Supreme Court and be changing laws and stuff. Yes, 301 00:13:50.840 --> 00:13:52.799 because look at the difference. Now I'm in the medical 302 00:13:52.799 --> 00:13:54.440 field and I want to be a trauma surgeon. 303 00:13:54.600 --> 00:13:56.919 Like, what do you think you went through a depression? 304 00:13:57.080 --> 00:13:58.000 What do you think happened to me? 305 00:13:58.120 --> 00:14:00.000 I think it was a depression mixed with a little 306 00:14:00.080 --> 00:14:02.759 bit of PTSD at a young age. Like once once 307 00:14:02.799 --> 00:14:04.600 my kid died, they made me go on birth control. 308 00:14:04.639 --> 00:14:06.639 I had no choice. I had to go see a 309 00:14:06.639 --> 00:14:12.360 psychiatrist automatically. I'm freaking seventeen, like just about to turn eighteen, 310 00:14:12.440 --> 00:14:15.080 and they're just like, oh, yeah, you're depressed. Here's some 311 00:14:15.120 --> 00:14:18.799 freaking fifty milligrams of sarah quill. You'll be isis and 312 00:14:19.000 --> 00:14:22.200 go to therapy. My parents are going to listen to 313 00:14:22.240 --> 00:14:24.799 other doctors. They're supposed to know what they're doing. They're 314 00:14:24.840 --> 00:14:26.679 supposed to give you a proper land. 315 00:14:26.720 --> 00:14:28.600 It sets you correctly that they don't. 316 00:14:28.919 --> 00:14:32.399 Seventeen year old on a fifty milligram dose of sarah quill. 317 00:14:32.480 --> 00:14:36.200 Are you delusional? It literally makes you feel like a zombie. 318 00:14:37.000 --> 00:14:39.240 You don't feel anything. You're just like an empty shell. 319 00:14:39.879 --> 00:14:42.559 And I feel like it made me even worse because 320 00:14:42.559 --> 00:14:43.559 now I can't feel nothing. 321 00:14:44.600 --> 00:14:46.840 Now there's no pain. 322 00:14:46.919 --> 00:14:49.120 It's like the Hulk at all times. 323 00:14:49.399 --> 00:14:51.480 Yeah, emotionless. 324 00:14:51.480 --> 00:14:54.320 It's not healthy. You people need to get in there 325 00:14:55.200 --> 00:14:58.519 to get through it and clean it up the freak up. Sorry, 326 00:14:58.720 --> 00:15:00.919 it's okay, you know what, you don't worry, but but 327 00:15:00.960 --> 00:15:04.519 it's like, come on, so you see the world for. 328 00:15:04.440 --> 00:15:07.039 What it really is. Yeah, I feel like at these 329 00:15:07.080 --> 00:15:10.039 meds are just it's almost like feel like it's like 330 00:15:10.080 --> 00:15:11.879 my third eye opened up. If I didn't go that 331 00:15:11.960 --> 00:15:14.799 route and I went to the justice system, like if 332 00:15:14.799 --> 00:15:16.679 I didn't go through the justice system to see what 333 00:15:16.720 --> 00:15:18.399 it was really like, I don't think I would have 334 00:15:18.440 --> 00:15:22.240 switched to even and even all my flick being close 335 00:15:22.279 --> 00:15:24.519 to who I was close with and losing who I lost, 336 00:15:24.639 --> 00:15:28.600 like watching people I love die like. I don't think 337 00:15:28.639 --> 00:15:30.639 I would have chosen the medical fields if I was 338 00:15:30.679 --> 00:15:34.200 already in the legal fields and it's like, okay, so 339 00:15:34.240 --> 00:15:36.559 now I'm gonna bring you back again. That's okay, No, 340 00:15:36.679 --> 00:15:39.320 this is good. I like this and people need to 341 00:15:39.360 --> 00:15:41.399 hear this because you did a three sixty in your 342 00:15:41.399 --> 00:15:44.440 life like most people can't even do. Most people can't 343 00:15:44.519 --> 00:15:48.080 change it up, and when they do, we call them, uh, 344 00:15:48.399 --> 00:15:51.240 what's it called? OG's right, the O g's try to 345 00:15:51.240 --> 00:15:55.639 come out. But you're young. The young will listen to you. 346 00:15:55.639 --> 00:15:59.279 You're only thirty years old. You're young. It's it's easy 347 00:15:59.279 --> 00:16:00.879 to listen to thirty year old than a six year 348 00:16:00.879 --> 00:16:02.600 old guy that tries to say you, look, I've been 349 00:16:03.399 --> 00:16:05.879 I've spent you know, ten cents in jail, blah blah blah. 350 00:16:05.879 --> 00:16:08.039 They don't kill these kids, they don't care. They're not listening. 351 00:16:09.000 --> 00:16:11.600 So now you're in jail for how long? 352 00:16:12.600 --> 00:16:15.639 I uh, it was thirty days. They sentenced me to 353 00:16:15.759 --> 00:16:18.879 ninety because they found me dangerous, and then my lawyer 354 00:16:18.879 --> 00:16:20.159 got me out in thirty days. 355 00:16:20.240 --> 00:16:21.720 And then the thirty days. Were you afraid to be 356 00:16:21.799 --> 00:16:22.279 there at all? 357 00:16:22.639 --> 00:16:24.480 No? Like I told you, I walked in sell hello 358 00:16:24.519 --> 00:16:26.879 to everybody. Like one person tried me, but I was 359 00:16:26.919 --> 00:16:28.600 just like, we can just go find you myself, but 360 00:16:28.600 --> 00:16:30.960 you better leave me the fuck alone after this. So 361 00:16:31.039 --> 00:16:34.279 that's it was. No one's gonna no and everyone it's 362 00:16:34.320 --> 00:16:37.360 so nuts. Everyone just treats me like a baby everywhere 363 00:16:37.399 --> 00:16:39.960 I go. Not the baby, but like like I don't 364 00:16:40.080 --> 00:16:41.840 know what the energy is of me or what I 365 00:16:41.879 --> 00:16:44.200 give off. It's just like everywhere I go, even at 366 00:16:44.240 --> 00:16:47.159 like work, I'm just not baby, but I'm just treated 367 00:16:47.200 --> 00:16:50.639 as like what a nice person, yeah, like a young 368 00:16:50.679 --> 00:16:53.360 little like they would do my hair and braids before 369 00:16:53.519 --> 00:16:56.679 my court days. They threaded my eyebrows for the woman 370 00:16:56.840 --> 00:16:58.399 liked you. Oh my god, they were so nice. They 371 00:16:58.399 --> 00:17:01.240 were all older than me. A lot of them have 372 00:17:01.320 --> 00:17:03.360 passed away. My Sally passed away. God bless us. So 373 00:17:03.480 --> 00:17:05.359 I'm sorry, but. 374 00:17:05.480 --> 00:17:08.839 Yeah, try anything on you sexually in there? No, So 375 00:17:08.960 --> 00:17:10.839 is that all overrated in jail? 376 00:17:10.920 --> 00:17:13.920 Or is it? Yes? It is? I feel like TV 377 00:17:14.000 --> 00:17:16.960 and all stuff, and especially for the women's side. The 378 00:17:17.000 --> 00:17:19.880 men's side, it's like in a zoo. 379 00:17:20.200 --> 00:17:25.039 You were in schedule though, right, No, it was state. Yeah, 380 00:17:26.440 --> 00:17:29.640 so but over the men's it's like a bunch of crazy. 381 00:17:29.720 --> 00:17:32.559 Oh, it's like an a zoo. It's absolute zoo. I 382 00:17:32.559 --> 00:17:34.160 would be you don't have to fight. 383 00:17:34.279 --> 00:17:36.200 There wasn't one tough girl that want to. 384 00:17:36.559 --> 00:17:38.119 Yeah, there was one, but I told her we can 385 00:17:38.160 --> 00:17:39.920 go in the cell and fight right now, but it's 386 00:17:39.960 --> 00:17:41.559 about to be done. After that, you're not about to 387 00:17:41.559 --> 00:17:44.000 be antagonized and about to be nine olse like we're 388 00:17:44.039 --> 00:17:45.759 about to get that and that's it's done. 389 00:17:46.160 --> 00:17:47.599 And then you would have watched just kicked a Biden 390 00:17:47.680 --> 00:17:48.279 called it a day. 391 00:17:48.359 --> 00:17:50.400 Yeah, And then she was like, oh, I like you, like, yeah, 392 00:17:50.400 --> 00:17:54.079 what did you think I was about to make Like 393 00:17:54.160 --> 00:17:56.000 I'm a nice person. I'm not going to give off. 394 00:17:57.079 --> 00:17:58.839 You know, I'm going to kill you. But it's like, 395 00:17:59.720 --> 00:18:01.400 don't come for me. I'm not gonna come for you, 396 00:18:01.480 --> 00:18:02.440 like I just wanted to. 397 00:18:02.519 --> 00:18:03.000 Come for me. 398 00:18:03.680 --> 00:18:06.960 Yeah. Yeah, you see Mortal Combat, you know them special 399 00:18:07.000 --> 00:18:10.000 moves too. Yeah, absolutely, make me take one. 400 00:18:11.279 --> 00:18:13.079 We're not gonna show she's my new body. God by 401 00:18:13.079 --> 00:18:17.279