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Speaker 1: our show. So Scarlet, thank you so much for coming
Speaker 1: on with me tonight.
Speaker 2: I appreciate it.
Speaker 1: This is the first time a guy's gotten really sweaty
Speaker 1: with you and hasn't really enjoyed it. Unfortunately. I think
Speaker 1: I've enjoyed talking to you. I hate being fucking sweaty
Speaker 1: right now. And I think most of the guys on
Speaker 1: set who are getting sweaty with you are enjoying it
Speaker 1: more than I am.
Speaker 3: And I doubt they're enjoying it because I go hard,
Speaker 3: like I recently was laughing. I mean, I'm not a feminist,
Speaker 3: and that's why I think I've been able to get
Speaker 3: along with some.
Speaker 2: Boys that.
Speaker 3: I just kind of learned more through, learn life lessons through.
Speaker 3: But I feel I'll always respect. But I also feel
Speaker 3: like in the end they tell me that.
Speaker 2: It's my problem, not yours, you know, And that's basically
Speaker 2: what I heard this week. And I don't even get personal.
Speaker 3: But I you know, that's why I think it's good
Speaker 3: that por styleists.
Speaker 2: You know, we shouldn't we shouldn't fall in love.
Speaker 3: But you know, that was the first time, and I
Speaker 3: feel like I never had a relationship. And I got
Speaker 3: into the adult industry a few months after I lost my.
Speaker 2: I uh, you know, the forty minas twenty year old
Speaker 2: movie with Steve Carell. But oh, I have the college
Speaker 2: girl and I'm just Wisconsin.
Speaker 1: Let me let me say this, Scarlett. Before we started recording, Scarlett,
Speaker 1: you said, you know, I keep it PG protecting. You're
Speaker 1: more than welcome to say literally any and everything you want. Okay,
Speaker 1: curse you, fuck, we can fuck. But I don't you know,
Speaker 1: I don't mean that. You do whatever you need to do,
Speaker 1: so you I really respect it.
Speaker 3: Let me on the whatever podcast I said there was.
Speaker 3: They had to actually cut it twice during the time
Speaker 3: I was there, and I didn't know that it was
Speaker 3: a debate podcast. So the first time they cut it,
Speaker 3: I'm sitting in the corner and I'm just being I'm
Speaker 3: just feeling dejected because I don't I'm not a bully,
Speaker 3: and I didn't go on to a podcast and drive
Speaker 3: and a half hours and be excited to be there
Speaker 3: to support the adult industry. And then right away they're
Speaker 3: asking the girls around me about their relationships and what
Speaker 3: fake boob job they got, and and then I'm just
Speaker 3: sitting here like this, like I'm like a guy, almost
Speaker 3: like like I'm like this. And then I guess I
Speaker 3: got a nickname during that show. They called me Methany,
Speaker 3: and I thought that was hilarious because I rowed seven
Speaker 3: and a half hours and didn't eat, and that, you know,
Speaker 3: I was a bit cranky, you know, and women get
Speaker 3: cranky and angry, and my hangariness must have made me
Speaker 3: the talk of that little.
Speaker 2: Show then, And to me, I got, I came, I left, and.
Speaker 3: I undressed, and I redressed and I came back in
Speaker 3: the room and anyways, I jumped a hat a bit.
Speaker 3: But what happened was first time they cut that podcast,
Speaker 3: I was sitting like this, and when my legs crossed
Speaker 3: in the corner, and then none of the comments, nothing
Speaker 3: was happening. No one knows me. I wasn't talking, but
Speaker 3: I treat everyone respect and and you know, and I
Speaker 3: feel like they respect me too. And then at a
Speaker 3: certain point they say that they want to be good
Speaker 3: and they're trying to be good and they they can't.
Speaker 2: They can't be around someone like me.
Speaker 1: I think you're great to be around so far. I
Speaker 1: haven't been around you very long.
Speaker 3: Actually, I think it's just like maybe I'm like Frank
Speaker 3: Booth and Blue Velvet when it's like names by Roy
Speaker 3: Orbison's playing.
Speaker 2: And.
Speaker 3: I was listening to the Blue Angel today. I was
Speaker 3: listening to Crying I'm Hurting All by Roy Orbison and
Speaker 3: it also a band of Stranger Shangerlas or something, and
Speaker 3: all that music just makes me cry the Rolly Stones,
Speaker 3: you know now using crying. Yeah, anyways, blah blah blah.
Speaker 3: I'm a huge music persontcha.
Speaker 1: I don't know anything about music. I'm not a very
Speaker 1: good with.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I hope I'm not a maniac because I know I'm
Speaker 3: not a sociopath or psychopath because I feel too strongly
Speaker 3: at certain points. But you know, when I went to
Speaker 3: college for a few years before I got in the industry,
Speaker 3: and that was right during COVID, so it was a
Speaker 3: good reason to leave college.
Speaker 2: And you know, because I.
Speaker 3: Didn't feel like I never had advisors in college, I
Speaker 3: never felt like I had a direction, I had no
Speaker 3: reason to believe in myself, and I had no.
Speaker 2: Supportive figures.
Speaker 3: I worked three jobs in like service, and my friends
Speaker 3: were people that I just worked with that would either
Speaker 3: boss me around or.
Speaker 2: Or tell me I was too much of a flirt.
Speaker 2: And I think it's funny because I was a virgin
Speaker 2: all time and I never had a boyfriend, and I
Speaker 2: guess I was a flirt from the beginning, So you know,
Speaker 2: why not become a foreign stone.
Speaker 3: I'm a Midwest polite girl, and I would just joke
Speaker 3: around with the Badger hockey team when they come into
Speaker 3: Jimmie John's at two am drunk and they would call
Speaker 3: me the Jimmie Johns girl. So I became the Jimmy
Speaker 3: Gunks girl because I still have my Jimmy John's vest
Speaker 3: and I put subs in the back of it. Get
Speaker 3: on my bicycle, and you know, I can't say bike
Speaker 3: because these motorcycles boys, they like to say.
Speaker 2: That wasn't a bike. I said a paddle bike.
Speaker 3: But I still like forty four miles a shift, so
Speaker 3: our INTL gas gas.
Speaker 2: Anyways, that's totally off topic. You're good A bunch of different.
Speaker 3: My life is like in all different weird aspects of
Speaker 3: weird directions, but a lot of things can inspire me
Speaker 3: and move me forward. And you know, the adult industry
Speaker 3: is always not it's not. I've been able to distinguish
Speaker 3: who I am and what I've done in the industry
Speaker 3: because I started doing just photography and it was all
Speaker 3: very natural, happy photos clothed just in Madison here on campus,
Speaker 3: just taking photos. And then one day my shirt blew
Speaker 3: open in the wind. And then there's these like events,
Speaker 3: you know, like you know in the seven year Inch
Speaker 3: at Me momoroe I was in trying. I was just
Speaker 3: wearing a Likenavy skirt and event was blown up and
Speaker 3: then the photographer's like, whoa, keep doing that? You should
Speaker 3: get in you know, the of So that's kind of
Speaker 3: how that started for me. I think twenty twenty, twenty
Speaker 3: twenty one, you know, around then.
Speaker 1: So so you it seems like you were kind of
Speaker 1: all right. But at that point, are you still a
Speaker 1: virgin or no, like you said, you said you were
Speaker 1: being a flirt at the time, or were you like
Speaker 1: trying to feel yourself out?
Speaker 3: And yeah, twenty one and things had change. I'm not
Speaker 3: no forty year old virgins. So what I did was.
Speaker 3: I was with this girl.
Speaker 2: My friend.
Speaker 3: You know, I'm just gonna say, Jay and news a
Speaker 3: girl and we went to the bar that I worked
Speaker 3: at because I was a shock girl. And that's how
Speaker 3: I had my first shot of anything. I never had
Speaker 3: any drugs but prozac. When I was a teenager, I
Speaker 3: was given blik and I depressed him because I grew
Speaker 3: up and grew will Wisconsin, and I was a perfectionist
Speaker 3: in sports, Like I was so hardcore an athlete.
Speaker 2: I was doing like.
Speaker 3: Three hundred crunches in the sauna and I waited till
Speaker 3: the sauna was like one hundred and thirty degrees until
Speaker 3: I was done, and then I would be on the
Speaker 3: elliptical for like thirty five minutes, hardcore, listening to music
Speaker 3: the entire time, and I wouldn't stop until there's a
Speaker 3: puddle sweat under me. But then I you know, the
Speaker 3: whole time, I was just like going hard and not
Speaker 3: thinking about any but like not friendships. I didn't prioritize
Speaker 3: people relationships. That's why I don't think I had boyfriends.
Speaker 3: And my mom said, maybe I just scared the boys
Speaker 3: a bit too much, because then I would go home.
Speaker 3: I would play guitar and I would sing like I
Speaker 3: call it scream.
Speaker 2: Oh, but.
Speaker 3: Some guys and bands say that it's more that I
Speaker 3: know that. They say it's more like a grunge like
Speaker 3: I was inspired by Courtney Love and L seven and
Speaker 3: of course like bands like that as a teenage, so
Speaker 3: I started learning to teach myself how to sing like
Speaker 3: a vocal fry type voice. So then I started poisting
Speaker 3: that and then I still have the same Instagram I
Speaker 3: had when I was like fourteen, so it was taken
Speaker 3: away when I had a photo not related to the
Speaker 3: adult industry, but it was related to the photography when
Speaker 3: I had like leaves, like I had these fall leaves.
Speaker 3: It was just a pretty artsy photo and the fall
Speaker 3: leaves were just covering my body like this, and I
Speaker 3: had them this and nothing was showing. And then it
Speaker 3: says this was flagged for underage and inappropriate content. And
Speaker 3: I always find it interesting, and I mean, I'm proud
Speaker 3: to be on barely Legal. But I was already, you know,
Speaker 3: it was already. I was not eighteen, and I mean
Speaker 3: I wasn't I was twenty twenty one, but still I'd
Speaker 3: been through a couple of years of college, been through
Speaker 3: like service jobs, learned how to work hard, we learn
Speaker 3: to work ethic. And both of my parents were self employed.
Speaker 3: So I grew up working on my dad's tree farm
Speaker 3: out in like ten degree weather and loaded trees on cars.
Speaker 3: But I learned that I became a good salesperson, you
Speaker 3: know what I mean, And I could talk someone into
Speaker 3: buying a Christmas tree. These are fresh cut, This one's
Speaker 3: little bushy. This the balls and further pretty were you know,
Speaker 3: and then the Fraser firs and then you know, and
Speaker 3: these ones. Don't get this one it's poky. But if
Speaker 3: you want a white pine in your house, go for it.
Speaker 3: They're nice looking trees. So I knew how to sell
Speaker 3: Christmas trees, you know. So like that's kind of things
Speaker 3: started that I have to you know, other jobs whatever.
Speaker 2: Off topic.
Speaker 3: But a lot of people like get it wrong about
Speaker 3: people in the adult industry that and I wouldn't disagree
Speaker 3: with them, because nowadays, I feel like the adult industry
Speaker 3: is changing. It's not what it has been because of
Speaker 3: the way of and these content creators and these TikTokers,
Speaker 3: and the mainstream vibe of being in the adult industry
Speaker 3: is now becoming so glamorized to a point where there's
Speaker 3: no time for anyone to pause and actually understand what
Speaker 3: they're doing. Where I spent a lot of time thinking
Speaker 3: about it because when I was in high school, I
Speaker 3: was reached out. There used to be one of these
Speaker 3: campsites that would just go find cute pictures of girls
Speaker 3: and they would message them. And right when I turned eighteen,
Speaker 3: I thought about getting on a campsite, not like what
Speaker 3: I didn't consider it porn, but it was just like
Speaker 3: talking to people on a camera. But I found that
Speaker 3: had to be more humiliating because the first time I
Speaker 3: did it, I was I was in my dorm room
Speaker 3: and I ended up I still have the table too.
Speaker 3: I ended up just using the lego of the table
Speaker 3: over there and just putting on a show with it.
Speaker 3: And I mean I was a v rig and h
Speaker 3: I mean I.
Speaker 2: Made more money than I made.
Speaker 3: Probably working at I worked at a Quick Trip here in
Speaker 3: the Midwest.
Speaker 2: It's a big thing.
Speaker 3: And I love that job because but I gained weight
Speaker 3: because I drank too many capsules. I love the cab,
Speaker 3: I love coffee, but now I barely drinking.
Speaker 2: I drink soda.
Speaker 3: And right now I got an Atkins Protein shake because
Speaker 3: I do keto like I. That's one thing too, is
Speaker 3: a lot of people get us wrong, is that we're
Speaker 3: like unhealthy people.
Speaker 2: But I've always been a runner. And yeah, I mean like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, let me ask, let me ask. So you played music, right?
Speaker 1: Have you always had like a performance aspect to you?
Speaker 2: Like, yeah, I did.
Speaker 1: Maybe maybe not porn, but maybe if when you were younger,
Speaker 1: if I met you, I would think like, oh, this
Speaker 1: girl is going to do something in front of people someday,
Speaker 1: whether it's theater or blah blah blah. Oh you always
Speaker 1: had that about you.
Speaker 3: And I don't want to say I did, but I
Speaker 3: was a kid that I would just not want to
Speaker 3: be around people, but I would be orchestrating the games
Speaker 3: on the playground, okay, Like in I was the smart kid,
Speaker 3: Like I was a valedictorian, you know, I was the professionist.
Speaker 3: But I also was the one that was inspired by
Speaker 3: for months like it and music, and it touched me
Speaker 3: and it made me not feel so alone when you know,
Speaker 3: I grew up in a town with sixty people and
Speaker 3: we had a post office, and we had a church,
Speaker 3: and we didn't go to church. And it's not that
Speaker 3: we weren't religious. It's just that, like I found myself
Speaker 3: in the Wisconsin wintertime, I was I took the bus
Speaker 3: home from school, and I was always alone, and I
Speaker 3: didn't fit into a click, so I found myself alone
Speaker 3: a lot. So I got headphones and I just would
Speaker 3: spend that whole hour bus ride every night.
Speaker 2: Listening to music.
Speaker 3: And when I get home, I'm alone and it's dark,
Speaker 3: because in the winter time in the Midwest or anywhere,
Speaker 3: it gets dark. It for so if you get out
Speaker 3: of school at three seventeen and you're the last one
Speaker 3: off a bus ride that takes people all out here,
Speaker 3: and it's a tiresome and I found self getting depressed
Speaker 3: at that point. And I feel like the biggest issue
Speaker 3: with people and mental health is that if you're the
Speaker 3: one that has this need to express yourself, however it
Speaker 3: might be, it's the way to heal yourself, and you
Speaker 3: have to do it on your own. And I think
Speaker 3: a lot of people and parents love their children, and
Speaker 3: you know, most parents do it and like they want
Speaker 3: to help their kids by putting them in therapy or
Speaker 3: thinking that that's going to be the right thing to do,
Speaker 3: but lock them away and abandon them and put them
Speaker 3: somewhere where they're going to get right in the head.
Speaker 3: But in reality, dealing with that pain and dealing with
Speaker 3: the loneliness and finding a way through it, it allows
Speaker 3: you to find out who you are because you're alone
Speaker 3: with who you are, and you can either self destruct
Speaker 3: or you can start yet finding or realizing something, discovering
Speaker 3: something that makes you want to just you don't feel
Speaker 3: alone because you found something and it's not It doesn't
Speaker 3: have to be a person. You don't have to fit
Speaker 3: into a click or ever be like anyone else. So
Speaker 3: I feel like I was more of an outcast. I
Speaker 3: wore a Jason mass to prom, and I never had
Speaker 3: a boyfriend in high school. And I never saw myself
Speaker 3: as pretty or attractive or my looks is anything that
Speaker 3: made me any more or less or anything than anybody,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: The reason why is because, like you know.
Speaker 3: I was told from the time I was a kid, oh,
Speaker 3: you're so pretty, you're so pretty, or is pretty?
Speaker 2: You can't you shouldn't look in the mirror, don't look
Speaker 2: in the mirror. And then it was almost like.
Speaker 3: I almost felt like I rejected my appearance in a
Speaker 3: way because if you're told you're vain, or if you're
Speaker 3: told you're a narcissist by people that you thought loved you,
Speaker 3: and they make these harsh decisions upon you without actually
Speaker 3: knowing who you are inside. And I think that's why
Speaker 3: I escaped and I would go out to the shed
Speaker 3: and I would just listen to the extreme on music
Speaker 3: and I would go run like eight mile runs and
Speaker 3: just disappear. And it wasn't because I didn't let my
Speaker 3: families just they didn't. I felt like more like they
Speaker 3: always treated me like I was the one that was different.
Speaker 3: I was always the different kid that no one knew
Speaker 3: they were either intimidated by or they they you know,
Speaker 3: I just I don't care about making friends like that.
Speaker 1: Let me say something real quick.
Speaker 2: Yeah sorry, no no no, no, no.
Speaker 1: No, and please no no no.
Speaker 2: It's just kind of a development of how why I've
Speaker 2: probably maybe got in the industry.
Speaker 1: No, no, no. I think it's great, and I think
Speaker 1: I think there's so many young kids who are in
Speaker 1: that situation where maybe they feel like they don't fit
Speaker 1: into their own families, you know. And what we have
Speaker 1: to understand as adults now and we look at it
Speaker 1: is it's not that maybe we were weird, it's that
Speaker 1: we were and and I think there's been too much
Speaker 1: of this with a lot of the younger generations being
Speaker 1: told this. But when you really don't fit in, I
Speaker 1: think you're special. You know, you just have to find
Speaker 1: what your path is to.
Speaker 3: Now.
Speaker 1: There are some just straight weirdos out there, right, like
Speaker 1: the weird kid in the family.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, of course there's a weird ones like Road Hill,
Speaker 3: Off the Road here and stuff like that.
Speaker 2: But I was more of the kid that.
Speaker 3: I heard like grunge music, and I well, I heard
Speaker 3: like when Kurticle Paint, Kurt Cole Pain and Nirvana and
Speaker 3: the MTV Unplugged and when he's saying like where'd you
Speaker 3: sleep last night? And the last verse when you just
Speaker 3: scream and until his voice just fries out. Like that
Speaker 3: kind of stuff touched my soul in a way where
Speaker 3: I saw truth. And I went to these like rock
Speaker 3: camps or summer camps where every kid wanted to be
Speaker 3: the best guitar player and shred and do all this stuff.
Speaker 3: And I was sitting there in the lawn and I
Speaker 3: could play guitar, but I wasn't showing off. I actually
Speaker 3: liked my classical guitar way better, and lately I really
Speaker 3: loved like bands like Leonard Cohen. And you know, I
Speaker 3: listened to a lot of good music now, but you know,
Speaker 3: when in that age, like when I was maybe fourteen
Speaker 3: fifteen sixteen, I listened, I found grunge. And when I
Speaker 3: found the nineties grunge, I think it really got me
Speaker 3: through my teenage years, just because teenage inks like teenage
Speaker 3: having inkst and if you can find a way to
Speaker 3: take it out in a way where you feel understood
Speaker 3: by what you hear and you don't feel alone in it.
Speaker 3: And that's why I really respect art music and expression
Speaker 3: when they're being very vulnerable to either write or express
Speaker 3: themselves in a way where it touches the souls of
Speaker 3: people and it it I see value and meaning in
Speaker 3: that more than like, you know, just getting the job
Speaker 3: and doing it to make money so that I can
Speaker 3: buy and have a picket fence and a house and whatever.
Speaker 3: And you know, like that's why recently I've really gotten
Speaker 3: to Childs Mkowski over this past summer and he actually
Speaker 3: saved my life really with he has a palm the
Speaker 3: Blue Bird, and it's just basically about how every person,
Speaker 3: and not everyone, but we all have our child, our
Speaker 3: inner soul and who we are, and that is part
Speaker 3: of us. And that is like our little bluebird if
Speaker 3: we don't feed it, if we say no, you can't talk.
Speaker 3: You're not supposed to think that way. This is what
Speaker 3: everyone needs you to think. This is what society says
Speaker 3: is right and wrong. You can't have your own sense
Speaker 3: of right and wrong. You have to put you in
Speaker 3: a cage and you have to be quiet, and we're
Speaker 3: going to drown you. And now we're hurting too because
Speaker 3: we can't talk to you. So we're going to just
Speaker 3: keep hurting you. And then when I listen listen to that,
Speaker 3: I really felt touched because in a way I felt
Speaker 3: like it's like when I felt like since I started
Speaker 3: listening to that kind of stuff, I started to respect
Speaker 3: myself more who I am on the inside and who
Speaker 3: I was and not what other people think and who
Speaker 3: I am.
Speaker 1: First off, have you ever read excuse me, Heavier than Heaven,
Speaker 1: the Charles Cross book, the Cobaine documentary or biography. No
Speaker 1: I haven't. I got to write it down. Only book
Speaker 1: I've ever read twice, Heavier than Heaven. It's very like
Speaker 1: in depth, they taught I'm a huge Nirvanica and Nirvana
Speaker 1: is my band.
Speaker 2: Oh I love Nirvana.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, so that one is great, you.
Speaker 2: Know, el save Babes and toiling. I mean, and I actually.
Speaker 3: Do like Courtney Love because I start out, like, you know,
Speaker 3: a lot of people hate her because she killed Kurt.
Speaker 3: And this about when I was fourteen fifteen, kind of
Speaker 3: between fourteen sixteen. She still had Instagram and she still
Speaker 3: had things, and I would post covers of her songs,
Speaker 3: and I postcovers in Nirvana songs. And one day I
Speaker 3: was out on a run, like in the middle of nowhere,
Speaker 3: just run him, and all of a sudden, I get
Speaker 3: a notification on my like little like iPod iPhone type thing,
Speaker 3: and it says Courtney Love. Like like your post, Courtney
Speaker 3: Courtney Loves start following you. And then she commented on
Speaker 3: the posts as saying of.
Speaker 2: Nirvana songs.
Speaker 3: So then I put them back up on my Instagram
Speaker 3: that I still have because even though her Instagram she
Speaker 3: deleted it, probably because she wanted to escape. That's just
Speaker 3: you know, it just kept exploding into nobody knows who
Speaker 3: he was, but she does, and everybody all they know
Speaker 3: is what they hear and could make conspiracious about and
Speaker 3: whether whatever happened, no one could be right or wrong.
Speaker 3: We don't know what happened to Jim Morrison. We don't know,
Speaker 3: but you know it happened, and in the end, it's
Speaker 3: just kind of like I just really respected that a
Speaker 3: lot that here his wife, you know, would comment and
Speaker 3: follow me and say love.
Speaker 1: It, that's awesome.
Speaker 3: I did the cover of rape Me on my and
Speaker 3: I played guitar, so I was singing play guitar, and
Speaker 3: I was probably fifteen sixteen. I didn't know that I
Speaker 3: knew exactly what this song to the extent that I
Speaker 3: understand it now. But when I watched the video and
Speaker 3: when I hear what I did, I had expression. I
Speaker 3: express pain and feeling and compassion through through singing that,
Speaker 3: and I feel like, I mean, I'm not you know,
Speaker 3: I mean I liked I'm right, Oh my law, my
Speaker 3: own music now. But covers is a great way to
Speaker 3: start and if you can really connect with it and
Speaker 3: not just do it.
Speaker 2: To sound pretty or like.
Speaker 3: Because I went to these rock camps, like I said,
Speaker 3: and there were too many kids that, oh, I'm going
Speaker 3: to the Berkeley School of Music and I'm an opera singer,
Speaker 3: and the girl told me, she's like, your vocal cords
Speaker 3: are like this when you do that. She's like, you're
Speaker 3: wrecking your vocal chords. And I can talk just fine,
Speaker 3: and I have a good throat come in and I
Speaker 3: work on it, and I never heard my voice doing
Speaker 3: it because I told my train myself, like, there's this
Speaker 3: bad Buck Cherry singer. He has this kind of like
Speaker 3: kind of crackly grally type kind of vocalist. But I
Speaker 3: would say, scream up, and it's not screamed like Maria
Speaker 3: Brinking in this moment, like I like, it's like a
Speaker 3: you know, like a like you know, it's taking it
Speaker 3: from down here and it's.
Speaker 2: Like w you know, and it's coming out that way.
Speaker 3: You know, it's not going like a like doing something
Speaker 3: that it's like wha, you know, like like you learn
Speaker 3: to like make a f.
Speaker 1: From your diaphragm throat right.
Speaker 3: And it it takes time, And I guess I respect that.
Speaker 3: Buck Cherry even said he taught himself how to do it.
Speaker 3: He taught himself how to sing. And then Maria Bring
Speaker 3: taught herself out of sing like that, and and so
Speaker 3: did like Courtney Love had that kind of yell voice
Speaker 3: and and I really lately have been into the l
Speaker 3: seven I always like bathe in Toyland and like, you know,
Speaker 3: like seven year bitch, like like like I'm and I'm
Speaker 3: not a feminist, but here's the thing is I like,
Speaker 3: I like to hear expression in me. Like actually today
Speaker 3: I heard It's all over Now, Baby Blue, but the
Speaker 3: animals sing it.
Speaker 2: I thought it was a Bob.
Speaker 3: Dylan song, and then I heard Mary and Faithful sing
Speaker 3: It's all over Now, Baby Boom. But I heard the
Speaker 3: animals sing it today and I just felt I felt
Speaker 3: the feeling in it, you know what I mean? Sure,
Speaker 3: you really feel it. And that's why I think that
Speaker 3: means so Morston. Music is when you can really feel
Speaker 3: something from listen to it, and it doesn't always have
Speaker 3: to just sound pretty or perfect.
Speaker 1: Sure, I agree. And a lot of grunge was that
Speaker 1: like I prefer in you to Row to never Mind.
Speaker 1: It's a little deeper, grungier, scratchier, you know.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, Like I love to sing like Scentless Apprentice Tour,
Speaker 2: It's milk it Mike.
Speaker 1: My favorite Nirvana song is such one that people are like,
Speaker 1: why would you like that? Because it's all noise at
Speaker 1: the beginning. Is radio friendly?
Speaker 2: Is it wet Vagina?
Speaker 1: No, it's radio friendly, unit shifter from.
Speaker 2: I mean, I like sell some Prentice like, oh, Bas's
Speaker 2: not like but you know what I mean, yeah, no.
Speaker 1: Sex less.
Speaker 2: And then and then at the time when he's like,
Speaker 2: oh he didn't care, but how he sounded express his
Speaker 2: paint and you know, you're.
Speaker 1: Right, Yeah, a great song to come out years later.
Speaker 1: I mean I was expecting like junk and garbage kind
Speaker 1: of because I was, I was in it. I'm a
Speaker 1: little older than you, but he's so yeah that song
Speaker 1: is it was worth the wait, truthfully, you.
Speaker 3: Know it was, yeah, And I'm glad I found them
Speaker 3: at my young age because I was just like this
Speaker 3: kid that didn't I didn't have a click, I didn't
Speaker 3: have friends.
Speaker 2: I rode the bus over an hour home every night
Speaker 2: during the winter.
Speaker 3: Time, and it was cold and it was dark when
Speaker 3: you got home, and my parents came at my house
Speaker 3: at fifty eight degrees because of the old farmhouse.
Speaker 2: So I would just get home, walk the dogs, slip
Speaker 2: on ice or be.
Speaker 3: Out in the cold, and then get inside being the cold,
Speaker 3: and then just like sit there waiting for somebody to
Speaker 3: come home that you could talk to, you know, like
Speaker 3: your family. Like my sister were kind of avoided. She
Speaker 3: went to basketball, practiced, and I was in sports, but
Speaker 3: not during the winter. Tried basketball, but I guess I
Speaker 3: was not like that kind of team player because I
Speaker 3: didn't like seeing like all the favoritism. So that's why
Speaker 3: I joined mainly. And I was a state champion across
Speaker 3: country at like fifteen, sixteen years old, and I wasn't
Speaker 3: even trying to win. I just went so hard at it,
Speaker 3: almost like revenge because the people that were on the
Speaker 3: team were the ones that the coach was favoring because
Speaker 3: that was his granddaughter and this and that, and.
Speaker 2: I respect everybody.
Speaker 3: I respected her, I liked her, but I also had
Speaker 3: this feeling that they put me on the bench and
Speaker 3: they never knew what I was capable of. So I
Speaker 3: was going to work all summer and I listened to
Speaker 3: music and that helped me dry myself. On these eight
Speaker 3: mile runs, I would run in the heat. I run
Speaker 3: in the nineteen degree snow. I ran in all the weather.
Speaker 3: Because my school was so small, we didn't have like
Speaker 3: a private gym, we didn't have like an indoor gym.
Speaker 3: We put ourselves out there in the elements, and then
Speaker 3: you learned how to deal with it, you know.
Speaker 2: What I mean. So you weren't scared of a little
Speaker 2: snow and this and that.
Speaker 3: So that's kind of I feel like how I grew up,
Speaker 3: and I was proud of that, even though at the time.
Speaker 2: We all felt kind of like.
Speaker 3: These private schools and these kids go to nice schools
Speaker 3: and they have nice gyms, and they have cheer leader
Speaker 3: clubs and dance clubs and music clubs. And I was
Speaker 3: taking guitar lessons from my band teacher, but first I
Speaker 3: was teaching myself. And I started playing when I was eight,
Speaker 3: so I had, you know, I played from a young age.
Speaker 2: It was always something out talking through, you know.
Speaker 1: Not to change the focus.
Speaker 2: But you said something that really not adult.
Speaker 1: Not at all. But you're a fascinating person. You're an
Speaker 1: interesting person, kind of gets to the core. So let
Speaker 1: me ask I get that same thing too. I don't
Speaker 1: call it revenge. I call it spite where you go
Speaker 1: that guy's PA and not redemption, but redemption's winning at
Speaker 1: the end, but you're building it.
Speaker 2: On like I'm gonna, I'm gonna it gives you something
Speaker 2: to go out and do.
Speaker 3: So, I think the people that didn't treat me with
Speaker 3: respect to me, actually I didn't need to respect. It's
Speaker 3: about how who you are to yourself and your bluebird.
Speaker 3: I'm going to respect my blue bird if.
Speaker 2: I can believe in myself enough to to not not
Speaker 2: outrun everyone or beat anyone, or do it to win,
Speaker 2: but to do it to do it for myself, to
Speaker 2: help myself know what I'm capable of, and that I'm
Speaker 2: I am good enough and not good enough, but like
Speaker 2: I can do something on my own and I don't
Speaker 2: need them.
Speaker 1: So let me ask, do you take that mindset into
Speaker 1: your current career where you go I want to shoot
Speaker 1: this type of scene. I'm going to push for it.
Speaker 1: I'm going to work for it because I see a
Speaker 1: lot of a lot of you female performers on Twitter
Speaker 1: are so I would expect it, and this is my
Speaker 1: rude misogyny from the outside. I would expect it to
Speaker 1: be cat fights all the time, girls going at each other.
Speaker 1: I see all that, but it seems it doesn't seem
Speaker 1: like that. You'll see that once in a while, but
Speaker 1: it's so supportive. It seems like, well, the way I.
Speaker 3: Look at it is the girls that are in the
Speaker 3: industry that do shoot the scene because you know modern
Speaker 3: day the you know, the adult film industry, like these
Speaker 3: companies that have been around for ages, their rates don't
Speaker 3: raise with inflation. So the girls that are really basically
Speaker 3: exploiting the girls that have worked in that business where
Speaker 3: we put ourselves out there, we get one check, we
Speaker 3: pay our taxes, and that's out there forever.
Speaker 2: But I respect it.
Speaker 3: I respect the work I did in the scene I did,
Speaker 3: and that I put myself there, and I put myself
Speaker 3: in situations where I I became a stronger person and
Speaker 3: I respect people, and I know how to respect people,
Speaker 3: and I know how to work hard, and I didn't
Speaker 3: take advantage of somebody's somebody by selling them some fake
Speaker 3: idea on like the OF I actually don't really even
Speaker 3: use my OF anymore. I barely ever log in because
Speaker 3: it's like, to me, it feels like I can't talk
Speaker 3: to everybody on an individual basis myself. And I'm not
Speaker 3: going to hire a third party to message people for me.
Speaker 3: And I'm not going to make some AI bought to
Speaker 3: pretend they're me to talk to people. I'd rather go
Speaker 3: to the old school conventions, the exoticas and the avns
Speaker 3: and just talk to people and be a person with people,
Speaker 3: because that's how we are in the Midwest, like treated
Speaker 3: someone like a person, because especially, you know, if you've
Speaker 3: worked in fast food, you've done I think there's a
Speaker 3: lot of times when you're just you don't feel you know,
Speaker 3: like you don't feel good about yourself, you don't have
Speaker 3: respect for yourself. And it's so it's just to me,
Speaker 3: it's just more like I'm not gonna to try to
Speaker 3: groom men basically to make some money. I would rather
Speaker 3: build connections with people that are real and meaningful and
Speaker 3: uh and I find my way through that because I'm
Speaker 3: breaching out and I respected industry and I never regret
Speaker 3: anything because I left a place where I felt.
Speaker 2: I wasn't able to take the risks that I wanted.
Speaker 3: And that honestly was college, right, all kind of trapped
Speaker 3: in college. And like nowadays, you know, in politics, all
Speaker 3: these younger kids, these far right, you know, mega type boys,
Speaker 3: they're all saying, oh, college is a waste time, blah
Speaker 3: blah blah. You know, but like I already felt that
Speaker 3: way when I dropped out twenty twenty.
Speaker 1: You know, I felt that way when my film degree
Speaker 1: was entirely useless after something.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, so it's because I had a sense of humor.
Speaker 3: So my professors choked with me, but they ridiculed me
Speaker 3: in front of the class, and I wasn't hurt, but.
Speaker 2: It was almost like they are.
Speaker 3: It was like an egging, like like throwing eggs at
Speaker 3: somebody to not ever help help them become kind, believe
Speaker 3: in themselves, basically try to just crush people's dreams. So
Speaker 3: in the in the adult industry, it's not.
Speaker 1: Like that, really, it's it's more positive.
Speaker 3: Not when I joined it was And honestly, the agent
Speaker 3: I had was a very old agent and he's returned now,
Speaker 3: I believe, so he uh, you know, he was there
Speaker 3: when I flew in la at like eleven thirty pm
Speaker 3: at night. He was there pick me up and drive
Speaker 3: me to the modelhouse up in the valley, so I
Speaker 3: didn't have to pay for a one hundred dollars where
Speaker 3: because I have that kind of like.
Speaker 2: He made sure we were safe.
Speaker 3: So that's why when I get mad with people, are
Speaker 3: always just in the adult industry, and oh but all
Speaker 3: these of models can be so much better than the
Speaker 3: the real porn stars.
Speaker 1: Right, let me ask you, so I won't ask you
Speaker 1: to name them at all, But have you been on
Speaker 1: a bad set and a good set, and what separates
Speaker 1: the difference between the two. Like you speak a lot
Speaker 1: about respect and this and that, have you ever had
Speaker 1: a bad experience on set where maybe they either didn't
Speaker 1: trust your word on how you do something or yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: all right, tell me about that. But again, I'm not
Speaker 1: asking you to call out anyone specifically, like that's not
Speaker 1: my intent.
Speaker 3: I never would because in the end, I respect everybody,
Speaker 3: and everybody has challenges, and everybody is in a place
Speaker 3: in the adult industry. Of course, to be in that
Speaker 3: industry and to.
Speaker 2: Face it the.
Speaker 3: Discussed in some ways by your own family.
Speaker 2: You know, it's how could I not?
Speaker 3: But I guess the instance I had been on that
Speaker 3: set was when I was doing my best and I
Speaker 3: was in pain, and I just they always told me
Speaker 3: I could call cut, So I called cut, and I
Speaker 3: went to the bathroom to cry.
Speaker 2: And then I guess later after the scene, my agent
Speaker 2: had told the director that I respected, and this wasn't
Speaker 2: the first agent, this wasn't he told him that I
Speaker 2: was in the bathroom doing drugs, and then so here's
Speaker 2: people I respect that I went in the bathroom to
Speaker 2: cry because I needed a break because it's intense. It's
Speaker 2: intense on.
Speaker 3: Your body day after day to work in that industry,
Speaker 3: to be under the pressure where you're on a big
Speaker 3: set and it's an all day job, like you're there
Speaker 3: from the early early morning, like in a different city
Speaker 3: you're not used to as I'm from Wisconsin. I'm up
Speaker 3: in La I'm taking ubers up into the mountains and
Speaker 3: I'm doing my best and I'm doing the outfittings and
Speaker 3: I know that everything's on the line. I never want
Speaker 3: to let my agent down or anybody down. And that's
Speaker 3: why it was sad to me, because I was never
Speaker 3: on doing anything. I had to cry. I'm an emotional
Speaker 3: person and that's also why I feel like that's why
Speaker 3: I like to write, and I like to listen to
Speaker 3: music that affects me, and I like to sing and
Speaker 3: play music because I expressed myself. So I'll cry or
Speaker 3: I might pay have a payanic a moment of panic,
Speaker 3: and and part of those moments of panic that came
Speaker 3: from situations where you didn't actually know.
Speaker 2: That it was wrong.
Speaker 3: You just said yes, because you didn't want to let
Speaker 3: somebody down, you know what I mean. So you didn't
Speaker 3: want to just be abandoned. You wanted to make the
Speaker 3: people that supported you. You wanted to make them proud. Sure,
Speaker 3: and I will not a quitter, and you know, being
Speaker 3: an athlete might a person from the Midwest, like you know,
Speaker 3: I worked on my grandpa's farm. Some we build hey,
Speaker 3: Like you know, just quit when you're tired or if
Speaker 3: you're uncomfortable.
Speaker 2: You can't say you got to do the work, so
Speaker 2: it's done.
Speaker 3: And like I think that would be my only advice
Speaker 3: of anyone going into the industry is that there's no
Speaker 3: point in policing people in that way because now, I mean,
Speaker 3: like the last scenes I've shot and gone out in
Speaker 3: vased a shot, I just have fun because I have
Speaker 3: fun with the directors.
Speaker 2: I have fun all day on set. We play music, and.
Speaker 3: I don't look at it as something that if I
Speaker 3: don't do it right, they're gonna, you know, I'm gonna
Speaker 3: disappoint them. So when I didn't think of it like
Speaker 3: that anymore, like oh, I got to make them happy.
Speaker 3: I was doing it because I wanted to, and it
Speaker 3: wasn't much about like the sex part of the industry.
Speaker 3: It's more about like being on set with people that
Speaker 3: understand you and.
Speaker 2: Get it. You do get to express.
Speaker 3: Yourself a lot acting wise, I mean, and they let
Speaker 3: you improvise a lot, so like even real you know,
Speaker 3: actors don't just get to improvise their whole script. So
Speaker 3: if I want to make it funny, I would make
Speaker 3: it funny. I say whatever I wanted, And sometimes it's
Speaker 3: very taboo and wrong and very nineteen seventies eighties movies
Speaker 3: where they don't make that kind of stuff anymore. But
Speaker 3: in the adult film industry, we can still make that
Speaker 3: kind of stuff.
Speaker 2: And I actually that's why I'm more into like going forward.
Speaker 2: I want.
Speaker 3: I'm more really figured that I actually really like enjoy
Speaker 3: making funny things and making not making fun of anybody
Speaker 3: I'm making fun of anything like that.
Speaker 2: But like, for example, like I did.
Speaker 3: An Amish scene and they chose me to be the
Speaker 3: homage person because I don't have tattoos than from the
Speaker 3: Midwest and I look pretty incent and it's then I guess,
Speaker 3: so I just didn't even know how to talk Amish,
Speaker 3: so I just would be like, like my sister was
Speaker 3: trying to take me off the farm. I would just
Speaker 3: be like, oh sis, sure, oh no, sister, like uh,
Speaker 3: like like I was there with like the guy who
Speaker 3: supposed to marry, but with like it was like a
Speaker 3: Mormon type thing where like no, no, it's like marriage.
Speaker 2: We we can't.
Speaker 3: We can't share a battel marriage, you know, like like
Speaker 3: like it's just it just put me in a position
Speaker 3: where I could say what I want and director didn't
Speaker 3: stop me.
Speaker 2: They kept it rolling. And then at the end of
Speaker 2: the day we.
Speaker 3: All are eating food or whatever, and it just felt
Speaker 3: there is a togetherness and I do miss that I
Speaker 3: don't have an agent currently. It's and that's the thing
Speaker 3: is is because lots of these agencies they're not even
Speaker 3: taking on new people. And like when your contract ends,
Speaker 3: it's difficult being not living in LA. And then but
Speaker 3: a lot of girls will live of like I'm living
Speaker 3: in Wisconsin and I'll buy my flight out to LA
Speaker 3: and I could be out there a whole month, you know,
Speaker 3: and it actually helps you tax wise, because that's a
Speaker 3: business expense, is having to buy and pay for things
Speaker 3: in your flights and all that. And then I can
Speaker 3: live where I feel safe and the people are friendly.
Speaker 3: And I love the food in Wisconsin, and I love
Speaker 3: I'm not a cheesecriped person, but I love culvers.
Speaker 2: If you ever heard of.
Speaker 1: Clivers, I've heard of culvers.
Speaker 2: Yes, they got the best coals in the world. So
Speaker 2: enough the butter burgers call sat and quick shrip and
Speaker 2: quick trip. So I'm always be loyal in Wisconsin.
Speaker 3: And lately I've been getting the egg roll and I'll
Speaker 3: get like a chicken sandwich. But they have a whole
Speaker 3: connoment bar where you lettuce tomato, onion everything where if
Speaker 3: you go like Burger King or somewhere, it's like thirty
Speaker 3: cents of tomato.
Speaker 2: So it's like Wisconsin won't rip you off, you know.
Speaker 3: So it makes me feel loyal to your state, especially
Speaker 3: when you're like, there are a lot of vampire type
Speaker 3: people out west. But New York, on the other hand,
Speaker 3: I find New York more like a velvet underground lou reed,
Speaker 3: Like it's a wild world, wild side of the world,
Speaker 3: and I love being in the jungle, but it's also
Speaker 3: nice to leave. But it's a fun cool five days
Speaker 3: in New York is like a lifetime I had in
Speaker 3: even experienced anywhere else, like you know, but Also I
Speaker 3: look at it more like if I lived in New York,
Speaker 3: I probably at some point would feel I would miss
Speaker 3: the open roads of Wisconsin. And I live in like Madison,
Speaker 3: where I live, like in.
Speaker 2: The most busiest area of Madison, like Street, but it's
Speaker 2: also a college campus, so there's just always something going
Speaker 2: on and it's very safe. We got the capital of
Speaker 2: a few blocks way, and then the university cops and
Speaker 2: then the Madison police, and I just feel safe here
Speaker 2: and then surrounded by lakes and running trails and I'm
Speaker 2: a runner, and the airport's fifteen minutes away, so I
Speaker 2: can fly anywhere.
Speaker 1: Has anyone ever recognized you around your hometown? Though?
Speaker 2: Yes, yes, here on State Street these college college kids. Surprisingly,
Speaker 2: I was at a bar here Mondays and the bartender
Speaker 2: are you are you scarlet? Or said hi? Can we order?
Speaker 2: Like I was going to order some shots or my
Speaker 2: friends And I'm not like a huge drinker. I'm not.
Speaker 2: I'm honestly not. But what I like to like go
Speaker 2: hang out with my friends and and just to have
Speaker 2: a good time on's wall and like, are you scarlet?
Speaker 2: I know? Or you said? I know you you.
Speaker 3: Are You're scarlet, You're scarlet here to and this was
Speaker 3: like my first year and I just got back to
Speaker 3: medicine and I didn't ever seem I don't.
Speaker 2: I don't view myself.
Speaker 3: Is anyway like uh, like I only view myself as
Speaker 3: someone that like I want to keep working hard to
Speaker 3: make myself proud of finding out who I am and
Speaker 3: uh using my gifts and expressing myself the way I want.
Speaker 3: That'll that'll feel the best about myself, I think.
Speaker 1: So let me ask you, actually, this is the last
Speaker 1: question I have for you.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I get super deep when I talk, and sometimes.
Speaker 2: Like like, uh, I get lost and I tray off.
Speaker 3: But that's also what sometimes like on some of these podcasts,
Speaker 3: people just like like listen to me talk.
Speaker 1: I guess I love honestly.
Speaker 3: I go in a different direction. But also like soda
Speaker 3: the President Trump, Sure yeah, And I'm not deflecting. I
Speaker 3: honestly am not.
Speaker 1: I get it.
Speaker 2: I just my brain works like that. And that's why
Speaker 2: they would always consider me of.
Speaker 3: Being like like the oddball or the different one. And
Speaker 3: and but they said that to me since I was
Speaker 3: a child. So to me, it doesn't affect me, But
Speaker 3: it just affects me that one day on that set
Speaker 3: when I was crying in the bathroom and I just
Speaker 3: needed a hug and uh, I was in pain it
Speaker 3: but I knew I had to finish the scene to
Speaker 3: make everybody proud and do that and it was important
Speaker 3: and but you know, and then to be accused of
Speaker 3: that later.
Speaker 1: And yeah, that's crazy, that's wrong, that's it's it's.
Speaker 3: Times like I felt that that's the one memorable expected
Speaker 3: experience I hadn't set.
Speaker 2: Actually, I could say anything.
Speaker 3: The directors have always been amazing, and they're like the
Speaker 3: coolest people, and the.
Speaker 2: Talent is great.
Speaker 3: It's just and you know, my agents they wanted me
Speaker 3: to have a good career and they looked out for me.
Speaker 3: I think the scariest thing for some girls that start
Speaker 3: out is when you're in You go up on a
Speaker 3: mountain and this guy might own the site himself and
Speaker 3: he shows all the photos and you're alone with him
Speaker 3: for two days and he's telling you to do something and.
Speaker 2: It's your job.
Speaker 3: You're going to do it, and you're sent there and
Speaker 3: you're alone with them, and if you don't do it, do.
Speaker 2: You have a chance?
Speaker 1: And yeah, I mean, if you don't do it, you
Speaker 1: have just the regular lifetime, like the fact that you're
Speaker 1: with a dude you don't necessarily have access to a car.
Speaker 1: You have those natural fears, which is totally understandable, But
Speaker 1: the other side is professionally too, like you're scared if
Speaker 1: you don't speak up and say how you actually feel,
Speaker 1: or if you do do that, this guy might motherfuck
Speaker 1: you to Like other companies, you have done.
Speaker 2: Things like that. And it's only just because.
Speaker 3: There were insenses where I was worrying my health was
Speaker 3: at risk sure to continue a scene so I couldn't
Speaker 3: finish it, and instead of there's no understanding, it's just
Speaker 3: we're out this much money.
Speaker 1: Now, sure, let me ask you this. Then, last question,
Speaker 1: where do we see your career going from here? Do
Speaker 1: you want to mostly just I said mostly That was
Speaker 1: a weird accent. Do you mostly want to just keep
Speaker 1: shooting mainstream stuff? Do you want to branch out into
Speaker 1: other stuff? You want to get your music published? Do
Speaker 1: you want to what do you want to do? Tell
Speaker 1: me what the next twenty five years of your life is.
Speaker 3: Oh, well, I've definitely gotta finish my album because I've
Speaker 3: been writing since advocated and I because of the industry,
Speaker 3: and I'm a good practical singing person. I have built
Speaker 3: my music studio and i have my new logic pro
Speaker 3: and I've just been working on stuff today and I'm
Speaker 3: like starting to appreciate the person. I also the other
Speaker 3: parts to myself that I just put, you know, the
Speaker 3: little bluebirds that I put them in the little cage
Speaker 3: and said, no, you gotta you gotta just do this,
Speaker 3: and you got to do this and make money. And
Speaker 3: now I look at it like, you know, I've lost
Speaker 3: some friends, and uh, it makes me look at.
Speaker 2: It like.
Speaker 3: You have to not not all. You can't just make
Speaker 3: everyone in society proud. You have to you have to
Speaker 3: be who you are. And uh, that's the meaning is
Speaker 3: right in front of you, and it's with you, and
Speaker 3: it's inside of you, and it's and it's hard because
Speaker 3: most of the time I can't respect myself. And it's
Speaker 3: not because of anybody else.
Speaker 2: It's my own obstacles.
Speaker 3: And everybody faces that, you know, I think what other
Speaker 3: people can say anything, and it cannot hurt me.
Speaker 2: As much as the way.
Speaker 3: I allow myself to.
Speaker 2: Not believe in myself.
Speaker 3: And but when you have, when you give yourself a chance,
Speaker 3: it's just that's the hardest thing is that consistent saying
Speaker 3: that you're good enough and and you can do this,
Speaker 3: and you're worthy to do that, and this is part
Speaker 3: of who you are, so it doesn't matter what you
Speaker 3: work to deserve. It's part of you. And that's a gift.
Speaker 1: I couldn't.
Speaker 2: I just I talk from my heart sometimes, so.
Speaker 3: It's hurt me too many times. But like it's just
Speaker 3: because a lot of people doing podcasts. Actually I feel
Speaker 3: very comfortable being very honest. And the reason why I
Speaker 3: think is because I don't I'm not targeting any anybody.
Speaker 3: A lot of people I know they like to make
Speaker 3: fun of people or they like to do this or that.
Speaker 3: I feel like I'm the meanest person in the world
Speaker 3: and myself and I respect anybody that uh can work
Speaker 3: just respect themselves.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: I wish I could wave a magic wand and make
Speaker 1: you feel better, because you.
Speaker 3: Don't know, I feel amazing. Actually, this is very sorry
Speaker 3: for me. I always people. It's interesting because every time,
Speaker 3: like if I sniffle or tear up a little bit,
Speaker 3: it's actually, uh, it's out of like a respect and
Speaker 3: appreciation and gratefulness.
Speaker 1: Well again, I don't think you're the odd ball in
Speaker 1: your family I think maybe you're the special one. I
Speaker 1: think your career to this point, from what I've seen,
Speaker 1: has been filled with nothing but performance is hard and
Speaker 1: more industry work.
Speaker 2: And and I'll do it, you know. I I set
Speaker 2: it up on my own and I show everyone respect
Speaker 2: that I work with, and I go if I shoot
Speaker 2: a scene, I go there or not.
Speaker 3: I have fun and I do it to have fun.
Speaker 3: And you know, I do it because I see it
Speaker 3: now is.
Speaker 2: I'm lucky to just have like a cool job. Like
Speaker 2: I respect the just the family feel of the industry
Speaker 2: because it is smaller like like I don't think I
Speaker 2: think of the industry is that actual performers that have
Speaker 2: sacrificed relationships and family and and whether it's college or
Speaker 2: a certain job that they might have wanted, or they're
Speaker 2: they're the bank they choose. Even those are the ones
Speaker 2: I respect versus some of these girls going out there
Speaker 2: that just started that are just trying to make the
Speaker 2: Bisiness Book of World records. You know.
Speaker 1: You know what my favorite ones are are the new
Speaker 1: girls who get into the industry and immediately right off
Speaker 1: the bat go right to Finn Doom because it's like
Speaker 1: the one where they on.
Speaker 2: The whatever podcast because they put me together with a
Speaker 2: lot of girls that I treat everyone respect. But I
Speaker 2: also had to. I had to, I had to. I
Speaker 2: got stern.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and you know, I guess you know, my mom's
Speaker 3: an attorney and she's you know, she was a stamp
Speaker 3: where she's she's very smart.
Speaker 2: That's partly why too, Like.
Speaker 3: We get along now and we love each other, but
Speaker 3: it was hard on her when she found out and
Speaker 3: uh so. But also I see people in the industry.
Speaker 3: There's people I met through the industry that will always
Speaker 3: be there for me and they've saved my life.
Speaker 1: Do you want to shout anyone out or no.
Speaker 2: Things? And there's been a few really good people that's
Speaker 2: just give me a safe place to live.
Speaker 1: Yes, that's the most important thing. The most important thing
Speaker 1: is being feeling safe. Like you said, you love living
Speaker 1: where you live now because it feels safe to you.
Speaker 1: That was something you emphasized you when your manager called
Speaker 1: you out and did that and lied and whatever else.
Speaker 1: You weren't safe in that moment. I think you're a
Speaker 1: total sweetheart who is looking to feel safe. You are
Speaker 1: very successful at the things you do. You will put
Speaker 1: on great performances again and you are talented. So again,
Speaker 1: I'm not a shrink. I'm not, and I've known you
Speaker 1: for an hour at this point, but I can kind
Speaker 1: of get that sense and feel like you're legitimately a
Speaker 1: good person and you just have to find that in
Speaker 1: yourself to never get pushed down, never get weighed down
Speaker 1: by any of the negativity or you know, any of
Speaker 1: that stuff.
Speaker 2: Thanks. I appreciate that.
Speaker 3: Thank you let light on the texting, and you were
Speaker 3: just so so professional that I'm like, shoot, I got
Speaker 3: to use the introduction sincerely best, like like I did
Speaker 3: in like school, you know, I got to go back
Speaker 3: to that. I can't just say uh yeah yeah whenever.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I can't talk like like I'm Midwestern. Sometimes we
Speaker 2: talk like like, you know, like we.
Speaker 1: Talked about you sent me one email that looked like
Speaker 1: voice detext and I was like, oh no, I think
Speaker 1: she's being kidnapped right now.
Speaker 3: When I was running out of I was running out
Speaker 3: of patients for my uh you know, write cursive, you know,
Speaker 3: and a lot of kids not they.
Speaker 2: Can't do it anymore.
Speaker 3: But my school is so small that they they made
Speaker 3: us do our cursive and we got graded on it.
Speaker 2: So I'm proud of that that I.
Speaker 3: Can write cursive and uh, I like philosophy and psychology,
Speaker 3: and I like poetry, and but you know, and not
Speaker 3: just that, I mean I like.
Speaker 2: What's actually real and.
Speaker 3: Real and the hard reality that people don't want to
Speaker 3: think about. And that's why I watched the movie I said,
Speaker 3: starts out with this picket fences and then all of
Speaker 3: a sudden, the guy has a stroke and it's very
Speaker 3: happy sunny day in the neighborhood and it's spend. There's
Speaker 3: these beetles underground or whatever they are, and it's the
Speaker 3: underbelly of the society, and a lot of people won't
Speaker 3: put them.
Speaker 2: I won't know about it, or they know what they
Speaker 2: don't want to know, and they won't live live in
Speaker 2: they don't take the risks.
Speaker 3: And that's why also too, I respect the industry that
Speaker 3: And then like the girls that I know and the
Speaker 3: guys and the directors and the people that put work
Speaker 3: into an industry where their vone because in a lot
Speaker 3: of ways and it puts them at risk and they
Speaker 3: take the risk.
Speaker 1: And yeah, can I just point this one last thing
Speaker 1: out real quick? You have pointed out a million times the.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go to quick trip and get some I'm
Speaker 2: gonna get it. I'll get a soda up out.
Speaker 1: You have pointed out a million times about how you
Speaker 1: admire these people because they work as hard, they committed
Speaker 1: to it, they take the risks. That's you. You're in
Speaker 1: that category. I just want you to recognize. I hope
Speaker 1: you recognize that. I think you do. I'm not questioning
Speaker 1: you on that, but all these things that you admire,
Speaker 1: you're doing that too. And you can go to bed
Speaker 1: at night feeling good that you are doing it. You should,
Speaker 1: you should.
Speaker 2: I should think of it like that, because because I
Speaker 2: know it's hard.
Speaker 3: There's so many times where you're standing there alone, you're
Speaker 3: just looking to buy your groceries and then either waiting
Speaker 3: for an uber or a us and or you're just
Speaker 3: alone with the body that you.
Speaker 2: Work with and.
Speaker 3: You have to find out who you are still and uh,
Speaker 3: you don't always feel.
Speaker 2: You are allowed to know who you are.
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Speaker 1: I'm talking to you everything in the episode.
Speaker 2: I've had fun and that's not like if I want
Speaker 2: to like start doing like stand up open mics, just
Speaker 2: staying about like comedy, because for me, it's like a
Speaker 2: lot of people don't think like, oh, how how is
Speaker 2: that funny? Like, but like you, you can make people
Speaker 2: laugh if you can be.
Speaker 3: Honest and be honest about your own insecurities, your own mistakes,
Speaker 3: your own reality, and it's vulnerable and if you could
Speaker 3: be honest about it, it's not trying to make somebody laugh,
Speaker 3: it's just be a light about it. To just be
Speaker 3: a light about the harsh, harsh stuff. And I have
Speaker 3: fun doing that because when you hurt, you know, and
Speaker 3: then you can just say things you know what.
Speaker 2: I mean, I know exactly what I mean. Thanks figuring
Speaker 2: it out.
Speaker 1: No, we're all still figuring out. Scott. Thank you so
Speaker 1: much for coming on with me tonight.
Speaker 3: I appreciate you. Thank you bye tonight.