Speaker 1: Hey, guys, what is going on? I'm coming to you today.
This ain't really like an episode. This is more kind
of a public service announcement, I guess if you will.
I recently just released an episode that I did with
my buddy Stephen from the Biblical hit Men, and I
just released it and it's full context, but there's some
stuff missing that the people that was not there because
it was a live show or just hearing it on
the audio, don't have proper context for and I wanted
to provide that context for you. Before the show even
started with Steven, I had some really closed minded, you know,
Phariseic caring people. I hate to say it, but it
is what it is, folks. It's the same people that appear,
you know, right on the outside, but they're dirty on
the inside like the Pharisees were, and they were attacking me.
They were in the chat before the show even started,
calling me a Luciferian devil worshiper and I venerate a
falling angel God with my name and all this type
of stuff. And it's nothing new. I get it on
a weekly basis because these people are not good Berians.
And just like Proverb says, you know, the person that
makes up their mind before hearing out the matter is
a fool and is their folly. Jesus said, my people
suffer from lack of knowledge. So this is nothing new
to me. But after a while, I'm human, it gets
to you. So at the beginning of the show, I
was I was aggravated. I was upset because this happens
all the time to me by these same you know,
archetype type Christians quote unquote Christians. So when the show
started and he introduced me, that's why I made that
comment that I made. It was like, my show is
to promete this lens and yeah, I'm a devil worshiper
hell Satan out of anger and being facetious. I've always
been guilty of being a little bit of a hot
head and losing my temper every once in a while
and making smart up comments. And that's what that was there.
I'm human, I'm gonna make mistakes. I could have easily
edited that out, but I thought it'd be deceptive. And
I hope, I hope that most of you guys have
been with me long enough to know that that was facetious,
that you know my heart, you know my fruit and
not going to judge me on one bad joke or
comment because I lost my temper, But I wanted to
provide that context. Maybe some people that didn't see thelive
or knew the context of what was going on be
like that was just random. Why would he do that? Well,
that's why, because I was being gained up on an
attacked in the chat before the show even started, just
because of the name of my show. And then I
went on after that to explain the name of my
show and what it means. So I had people in
the comment section after this show was aired attacking me
saying that you know, yes, I am a dev warspurt
because I made that comment and done what I've done.
And then I had some people on my channel when
I re released it say they're never going to listen
to me again because the comment that I made. Well,
I just wanted to give you guys some context, okay,
and just for a moment, I want you guys to
step into my shoes. I love what I do, talk
about the Word of God, and I try to reach
those people that these Phariseic karens in quote unquote Christians
run out of Christianity where they're too good to even
talk to them. That's who I'm here to serve. And
I quit my job to do this full time, and
I had my income cutting half. Everybody's like, oh, you're
you know, podcasters make all this money. No, I do
this because I love it. I feel called to do it.
But I saved up my money while I was working
and doing this on the side, and paid off all
my debts so I could afford to take a huge
pay cut, and I did. My income has been cutting half,
So imagine that and doing what you do and constantly
being torn apart by the quote unquote Christians that you're
trying to feed. It's very disheartening. On a weekly basis.
I get calm and emails, but people just tear me apart.
Oh he's covered in tattoos. He shouldn't be talking about
the word of God. Oh he smokes, Oh my god,
he should be ashamed of himself. Never even show his
face and talk about the word of God. Oh. He
says words like shit and damn, shame on him. The
name of his show. He's been ready to falling God.
He's a devil worshiper. All these things on a weekly
basis and after a while. Man, I'm human, it gets
to him. I lash out. I'm like, I feel like
a corner dog that's been kicked and kicked and kicked,
and I'm back into the corner and I finally lash
out and I bite somebody. But then I'm the bad guy.
It's frustrating, folks. And then, on the other hand, what
little bit of money I do make off the show
from ads, I get hell about that on a weekly basis.
People complain about the ads. They say they love the show,
that listen to show every week, and it's crazy, guys.
Between just Apple and Spotify, I have twelve thousand subscribers
and listeners. I have less than ninety people that contribute
financially to the show. You can get an ad free
listening experience for four dollars a month, buy me a
coffee once a month for entertaining you and informing you.
And all my hard work. I have two Sony cameras
that are over three thousand dollars a piece, all my
camera equipment, my microphones, my lighting. I have easily ten
thousand dollars invested in just equipment. I pay out hundreds
of dollars monthly on subscriptions to edit and produce this content.
I clock probably fifty sixty hours a week of studying,
typing out scripts, reaching out to guests, and editing and
social media. And people don't want to contribute to the
show financially, that's fine. Listen to the ads. That's your
way to contribute to the show, and it not cost
you a time, and do it without complaining. You're still
getting a free episode. I'm still giving you access to
tens of thousands of dollars of my own money in
this equipment to educate and inform you. I'm clocking in
over fifty sixty hours a week and not getting paid
for it. So if you're not contributing to the show
financially and you're suffering through the ads, thank you. That's
how you contribute to the show. And so it's like
being tore down every single week about my tattoos or
I smoke, or the name on my show, or I'm
just a greedy shehill trying to make a buck and
forcing peace. People listen to the ads. I am torn
apart and attacked on a daily basis, guys, And I
know it's spiritual warfare, but I just wanted to come
on here and give a little context and give you
a little view behind the mic, and be vulnerable for
a minute, and know that when I made that comment,
in hindsight, yeah, I probably shouldn't have said it. I
probably should have just called the person out in the
chat and be like, no, you're wrong, Da da da
da dah. But I'm human. I lost my temper and
it was an implosion effect. You know, people picking, people picking,
people picking, tear me down, tear me down, tear me down,
and finally, you know, you have a straw that breaks
the camel's back. And that's what happened last night. And
it's just crazy, folks, these phariseic, judgmental, quote unquote Christians.
And I'm peting with the broadbrush here, folks, And I
hope you guys know that. But these quote unquote Christians
are some of the worst ugliest people I've ever met
in my life. Why would any non believer see someone
tearing down another brother or sister in Christ and being
ugly like that and being all phariseic and caring. How
is that going to attract a non believer? A non
believer is gonna be like, that's how they treat other Christians.
I don't want to know bar to that, and those
are the people that I'm trying to reach because of
those type of quote unquote Christians are killing the church
and they're running people off as a whole, as the Church,
the body of Christ. We have to do better and
not look for the boogeyman behind every corner or every
little wrong thing someone does to tear them down and
be a gotcha moment. It's the lifeboat theory, folks. It's
when people don't value themselves high and they feel like
they're on this boat and they're competing for resources. They
feel they have to establish a hierarchy. And the higher
up they are on this hierarchy, the more access they
have to the resources. So to get there, they have
to push people underneath them, they have to beat them
down and put themselves above them because basically they're insecurity
of themselves in wanting to exalt themselves. And that's what
we have here, folks. That's why Jesus said, plainly, remove
the log from your own eye before you try to
remove a spect from another, and good old boy language
that means mind your own damn businessorry about you if
you're being honest, and doing self reflection. You should see
how ugly and how messed up you are and undeserving
of God's love and salvation. But you get it anyway
because of His grace, mercy and love. How do you
expect to get grace, mercy and love if you're not
giving it to your fellow man? So you're never going
to get that log out of your eye. Folks, you
need to be worried about you not looking at other
people and trying to tear them down to make yourself
feel better, or being a good Christian for calling out
other people. No, you need to realize how ugly and
messed up you are and worry about you remove the
log from your own eye before you try to remove
a speck from another. And if you do that, you're
going to watch a lot of people come to Christ
and the church is going to grow. But like I said,
I'm getting off my soap box here, but I wanted
to just put out this little service announcement give some
people some context to what that was about in that
show I did with Stephen because I sawmon said it
best nothing news under the sun. I was being attacked
and tore down once again, and I did with it
on a weekly basis, and someone was calling me a
you know, a lucifery and devil worshiper because of the
name of my show and not even hearing me speak
or seeing the fruits of my tree, and I lost
my temper. Guys, I'm sorry, I'm human, but I think
instead of just you know, looking down at me for
my mistake and chastising me and you know, shunning me,
you need to put yourself in my shoes. How would
you have reacted if you know, you gave up path
for your income to talk about the Word of God
and educate and entertain people, spend thousands of dollars out
of your own pocket, and the people that you're trying
to feed are the ones tearing you apart on a
weekly basis because you're not perfect and calling out all
your flaws. After a while, you, if you're being honest,
you'd lose your temper too. Most people would have just
closed up shop and cried and went home. I'm a
little tougher than most, but like I said, I'm short temper,
and I'm hot headed, and I've been known to be
a little bit of a smarty like and after a while,
I do, I'll lose my temper and I lash out.
But if people wouldn't act the way they do, you
know you wouldn't. It's causeuld affect people. I mean, I'm
not trying to justify, but anybody in my situation would
have done the same or done the same or a
lot worse a long time ago. So guys, if you're
listening to this, I appreciate you. I appreciate you love,
I appreciate your support. Please, And that's why, that's why
I keep telling people all the time I'm not a ministry.
I'm not a ministry because I know, I know these
fair season, these Karen's is gonna put me on this
perfection platform and expect so much out of me, and
I know I can never achieve it. I'm not perfect.
I don't want that standard put on me, but even
now the standard is put on me, and of course
I'm falling short because I'm human. So I mean, keep
men your prayers, guys. Like I said, I'm attacked and
tore down by these quote unquote Christians that say they're
my brother and sister and that I'm here trying to serve.
So just pray that I get tough skin, because I
know their hearts are not going to be turned unless
the Lord does it. Maybe you pray for that too.
And yeah, and when you're listening to the show and
the ads start coming in, you get frustrated. Just remember, guys,
all the money out of pocket that I spend to
entertain and educate you, and you say you love and
enjoy the show. If you know, if you don't want
to pay the four bucks a month or don't have
the four bucks a month to contribute to the show
that you love and listen to every single week, then
you suffering to the ads. You should wear that as
a badge of honor. That is how you contribute back
to the person that's feeding you and contributing back to
the ministry that's feeding others. And that's your small way
of making sure that it continues and that I get
reimbursed for the thousands of dollars in equip in the
fifty sixty hours of labor that I put in producing
this show, and it costs you nothing and you still
get free content. And by suffering through those guys, I
appreciate it. And like I said, my income has been
cut in half. I'm not killing it over here, folks.
But like I said, over twelve thousand subscribers, of only
half of them would put four dollars a month into
the tip jar from the coffee bar that they're getting
at church every Sunday, i'd be doing a lot better.
I probably wouldn't even have to use the ads. But
because people don't do that, I have to have the ads.
I have to reimburse myself and get some of my
money back that I spend out to produce this show.
But I'm rambling, but I'm gonna get off your guys.
I love you's and I just wanted to give some
context of what happened last night in that episode that
you heard on the r RSS feed and let you
know why I said what I said and give some
context to that. And like I said, I'm gonna get
off here, but just pray for me. Pray the Lord
tuppings my skin. He makes me slower to anger, and
maybe I just need to turn off the comments or
don't even look at them, which is hard. It's so hard.
Because you do, you'll have eight or ten messages, and
four or five of them will be good ones. And
I love hearing those people saying they were blessed by
the show. How many emails and comments I've gotten from people,
Hey man, I love your show. I'll rededicated my life
to Christ. I'm excited to open up my Bible once again.
Thank you so much. Those are fuel for the fire,
and let me know what I'm doing has an impact.
I'm not just speaking into the void. It's given me
purpose that by reading those comments, you see all the
ugly ones too, So just pray for me, guys. I
love you these guys, hey man. Until next time, torch
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