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Speaker 1: Hello, I'm welcomed stories all the time. Glad you are here.

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Let's get into it. Even imagining the word scrolled on

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that little scrap of paper paper made his head begin

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to pulse with pain. He'd found the paper in Spencer's desk,

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a curacy analog anomaly in a station full of technological interfaces.

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When his eyes first fell on the word, it had

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sent us spy avaggony through his brain, and he'd flung

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the paper away in terror. Since then, the mere thought

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of the word made the pain begin to surge again,

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and he'd learned to refer to it, even in his mind,

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as only the word. He had little hope of doving

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to the bottom of that mystery. However, he had only

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just figured out his name from viewing the station's personnel

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records and looking at the name patch on his uniform,

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Carl Jackson, Maintenance Technician. It hadn't taken long to put

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together a few more details about the situation. A thorough

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exploration of the station didn't take long. It was a

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bedbones outpost, then revealed it to be completely abandoned. Himself

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the only sign of life. The personnel records indicated there

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should have been three The other crew members, Rachel Spencer,

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the scientist, Stephen Crisp, the computer specialist, and Timothy Winn,

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the commanding officer, all gone without a trace. A quick

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check of the escape pod showed that both were missing.

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The only puzzle was if he was reading the scanners correctly.

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That the nearest habitable destination was far out of frange

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of any escape pod, But then again, maybe he forgotten

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how to read scanners. To the last reliable memory, he

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was leaving for the station, he didn't even remember arriving

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or any of these people he'd apparently been working with

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for six months. When he reached back to that time

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in his mind, he felt that strange, pulsing feeling rising again,

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and the word and the pain that came with it, threatening,

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surged back into the foreground history. He cleared his thoughts

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and brought them back to the prison. The first thing

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he could remember that belonged to the present, to his

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new reality, was waking up. P neery dim lighting of

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the control room, a pale, pinkish red minimum power mode

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message glowing on the top of every console display. Other

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than that gently ominous warning, all the displays were blank,

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save one, which contained only large green digits that appeared

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to be a count down timer. It was set to

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seventy two days and change and was counting down by

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the second seventy days. He still puzzled about the word,

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but he stirred gingerly around it. Were y of thinking it.

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Even thinking about thinking it brought the dread back, not

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just the physical pain, but an inexplicable foreboding he couldn't

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quite put his finger on. Besides, he had two other

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immediate mysteries to dread, the count on timer and the

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missing crew. What was the time recounting down to good

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or bad? Rescue war doux or nothing at all? Had

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some one just fumble fingered some buttons while being struck

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down by the calamity that had taken the crew? And

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that was the second ominous mystery, the disappearing crew. No

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matter which way you went with it, it was unsettling.

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If they'd taken off on the escape pods, why hadn't

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they taken him? Each pod was a two seater, I'd

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where would they have gone? Repeated scans had shown no

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viable destinations in range. And if they hadn't taken the pods,

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what had happened to them? What would happen to him.

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He might not make it seventy more days. He had

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to try to find out what happened and find out

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how to protect himself if necessary. He decided to start

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in Spencer's lab, where he'd found that misty's slip of

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paper with that word on it. He rubbed his eyes uneasily.

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What kind of science did she do? Anyway? He brushed

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through the local files and drafts on her terminal. It

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was all highly scientific and all above his head. He

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slowly gathered it was something to do with psychological brain's eyns.

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That explained why there was a glass jar of fluid

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on one shelf, which, according to the label, had once

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held a brain. It was empty. Now he couldn't make

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head nor tail of what kind of brain science she

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was doing, and was getting a completely different kind of

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headache now trying to puzzle out all these highly technical terms.

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Found his way back over to the common area, where

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he helped himself to a ration packet and managed to

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reboot one of the secondary terminals. It was stuck in

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low palmode like the rest of the station, with most

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of its functionality disabled, but he was able to start

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up mine sweeper which kept him busy for the rest

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of the day sixty five days. The rest of the

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first week saw a couple of setbacks and a triumph.

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From rifling around the quarters of Stephen Chris, the computer specialist.

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Jackson had managed to discover that there were crew log

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entries stored in the station's local network, but only CRISP

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and Captain when had access to them. Neither of them

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had been dumb enough to make the password, password, or

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anything easily guessable, so Jackson had gone digging through their

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personal effects, hoping to find a family member or an

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important date. It was no good. He typed in all

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combinations of names and dates he found in the personal effects,

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but it was all denied. Finally, on a desperate long shot,

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he decided to try the word and it seemed like

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someone of something didn't want him to remember. Seemed like

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exactly the kind of thing you'd do with a password

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to something you didn't want anyone to find. He first

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tried to log into Crisp's account. It took every ounce

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of woolpow he had, the pain escalating with every letter

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he typed, until finally he finished with the r hit

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enter and blacked out. When he awakened, he scrambled back

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up eagerly to look at the screen, which informed him

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that the username and password didn't match. He groommed, his head,

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still thundering, now with an added wave of nauser. He

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rushed to the bath room to vomit and spend the

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rest of his day in bair, his brain furiously punishing

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him for his inconsideration. It was until the next day

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that he felt well enough to try the password again,

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this time with Captain Wind's account. It didn't work either,

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unled to another day of bed rest. The next day,

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he found himself ruminating up in the control room, gazing

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out into empty space, pondering the insignificance of humanity, until

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he got bored and started walking around. Close to the window.

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He peered down and around at the station itself. It

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seemed like directly below him, almost out of sight, were

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some signs of damage, perhaps from a passing asteroid. He

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tried to check the computers to see what section it was,

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but the screens only continued to uselessly inform him that

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the station was in minimal parmer mode. Frustrated, he went

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back to the window and for the first time spot

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at some lettering on one of the station's beams. That

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is routine. Yes, he remembered now that was the station's name,

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and as soon as he had that thought, a sharp

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pain shot through his head, but quickly passed. A sudden

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flash of inspiration hit and he tried accessing Crisp's account again,

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this time using third as fateen as the password No

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good and dawn did. He tried it with Captain Wind's

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account and success. Crisp would have been disappointed with the

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captain's security practices, thought Jackson, and then wondered why he

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knew that, and then had to clench his teeth as

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another spasm passed through his head. He forgot immediately about

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the pain as it passed, as he found himself looking

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at a screen containing a long list of personal log

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interest Jackpot sixty days. His initial elation turned to disillusionment

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quickly when he realized all recent logs had been a race.

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Everything that remained only went up to three days before

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the incident or whatever it was. When his current memories

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first started in the countdown timer read seventy two days.

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He went immediately to the most recent available logs and

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found nothing of use it seemed like business as usual.

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Chris talked about ordering some equipment from headquarters and complained

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about it being outdated by the time it arrived. Captain

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when talked about his wife in some personal gardening project

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he was working on, Spencer was waiting for a few

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journals to get back to her about research papers she

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had submitted. He also found one of his omlogs. He

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had written a song and was playing it on the

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good It was surreal not to remember any of this.

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In any case, it seemed there were no immediate answers

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to be found hearer as to what had happened. He

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figured he could spend some time going through the older

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looks to see if he could pick up any hints.

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But first, there was another avenue he wanted tisplore. In

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his earlier investigations, he'd found several locked and sill doors,

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and now as he made his way down to the

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area where he estimated the damage section should be, he

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confirmed it was behind one of these doors, labeled terrarium.

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It was a solid door, and there seemed to be

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no chance of physically forcing it open. Any locking or

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unlocking function seemed to be unavailable from any of the

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computer terminals, probably another casualty of minimum power mode. There

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was a very good likelihood that the other locked doors

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also led to other damage sections, possibly sealed off for

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safety reasons. The terrarium, if that's what it was, was

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just the only one he could see from the control

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room window. Two of them were escape pod doors, and

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it was pretty easy to see through their portholes that

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the escape pods were gone, as he discovered earlier. Another

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locked door was labeled Quantum com Like the Terrarium, it

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had no window. It seemed like there was nothing more

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he could do on this front for now, so he

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decided to go back to the locks. Time to snoop

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around and his crewmage Private Lives fifty eight days. He'd

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found a spiral bound paper notebook. It's simple physical nature

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somehow comforting in this ominous world of blank screen machines

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that seemed to be grudge. In the smallest tidbit of information,

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he wrote down what he felt was some of the

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most important questions and observisions in its journey to try

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and piece together what happened, hoping that seeing it in

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written form would give him some insight besides off whatever

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caused him to lose his memory happened again, it would

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be invaluable to have it all written down somewhere. He'd

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seen a movie about this once. So far, he'd written

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important questions. What happened to the crew Spencer crisp when,

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what is the time recounting down to? What happened to

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my memory? Is the word related? Damage? Missing rooms, escape

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pods two of them gone, Terrium quandam calm one can

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computer functions minimal power mode one in every wacount and

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time as short range Scanner's mind sweep a Solitaire personal

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lock's crew Spencer brain signed his memory loss related no boyfriend,

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kind of frigid captain when bad security practices at a

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gardener has a wife at home? Cusper computer expert, cranky,

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neat freak, grammar plase, nay musically talented. The first logs

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he dived into were Spencer's, hoping to find out more

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about her research and how it might be related to

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his memories. For this, he started from the earliest logs

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about six months back. This got a little derailed when

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he found her calling him a creeper in one of

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the first logs, which drove him to go find his

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own log from the same day. From his own account,

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everything seemed perfectly friendly and harmless. In the log, he

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said he'd introduced himself and made small talk by asking

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if she had to borefriend what kind of guys she liked.

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He know, just friendly church chat. When she seen to Bristol.

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by saying he wasn't attracted to girls with short hair.

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It really seemed like she was overreacting. Most of her

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logs were about her work, however, and it didn't seem

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very promising. She was spending most of her time reviewing

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other people's papers, and officially was here to perform some

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kind of long term study and the effects of deep

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space isolation in the brain. It's pretty obvious that this

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is just a bunch of pointless busy wick made up

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to keep me out here in purgatory, she said bitterly

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in one lock, I wouldn't be surprised to follow the

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results I am sending back a going straight into the trash.

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which did sound suspicially like busy work. Collected another round

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of questionnaires from the crew to day, she said another

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exciting day of day to entry. This is really starting

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to cut into my solitaire time. After sifting through a

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number of similarly mundane entries, Jackson stumbled on one that

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made him sit up. Appeal for reinstatement rejected again, she

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said in frustration, I don't know what more they want

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from me. I have multiple copies of all the paperwork.

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I crossed every tea and dotted every eye. I received

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fully informed consent from every subject. There was third party

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reviewed every step they could confirm. Each volunteer was given

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the option to opt out at any time, and they

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No one filed a complaint. Even the worst case, it

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was only a temporary loss of a few days memory.

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Jackson put down the ration he was chewing on, rewound

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the log, and listened again and again. This was it,

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It had to be. What had this woman done to him?

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Fifty two days, he'd started to fall into a kind

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of routine. The lighting never changed in the only clock

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was the countdown timer. But he decided to try to

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force a daily twenty four IU routine to preserve a

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sense of normalcy and keep his sanity as long as

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he could. Midnight started when the countdown timer took down

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a day. He'd wake up every day at one thousand dollars.

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Solving mysteries was hard work. He needed his rest, had

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a morning ration, and go through a few logs. When

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he needed a break, he might play his guitar apparently

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he still remembered how, or play some month sweeper, or

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read a book. Crisp had some paperback novels, mostly Stephen King,

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which Jackson helped himself to. He'd eat lunch up in

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the control room, gazing out into space, and then do

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some exploration, picking a room and going over it in detail.

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He turned up some pretty private details going through personal belongings,

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but he figured as crewmates were either dead, in which

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case they wouldn't mind, or they had abandoned him, in

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which case they deserved it. He then allocated some time

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trying to see if he could get the computer to

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do anything else, but he had little luck. Even with

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the captain's password, he couldn't seem to get it out

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of minimal power mode. He wasn't even sure if he should.

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If he was waiting for rescue, it was probably best

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to conserve as much power as he could. He did

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manage to bring up the communications window one day, but

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it seemed to actually be broken. It wasn't a problem

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of access, it just simply didn't work. He also found

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that the sistants short range scanners did work, but limited

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usage to one scan a day. He'd usually do it

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just before dinner. Needless to say, the results were the

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same every time. Not then others would usually be in

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the common area keeping lunch in the control room, so

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they'd feel more like separate meals Every day felt monotonous enough.

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Already all he had to eat were the same fall

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wrap ration packs, so all he could change up was

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the location and his routine. Lunch time was for big

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thoughts and idle philosophy, while gazing into space and dinner

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was for thinking about his immediate plans. It was a

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good time for him to reflect on what he dug

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up during the day and tried to put all the

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pieces together and have a good think. Things were pretty

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quiet and though friendly in there. Now that he'dn'plugged all

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the machinery, there was no need for the refrigerator, the microwave,

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and the Russian packet processor since he had no fresh food,

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just packets. He initially had tried microwaving the Russian packs

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for variety's sake, but it didn't improve the flavor, so

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he just shut down all the kitchen gadgets and enjoyed

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the piece and silence in one room without blinking warning lights.

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After dinner, he'd relax with the game or a book

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before heading to bed. Forty seven day Spencer's logs. All

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the technical talk was giving him a headache. He promised

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himself he'd go through it more thoroughly later. He was

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now slowly making his way through Crisp's logs. This was

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arguably just as tedious and skip worthy because it seemed

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Crist's side project was writing an epic funtasy trilogy, and

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he was reading the entire thing as he wrote it

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into his personal video logs. Crisp's epoch was very badly

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written and hard to follow, which Jackson did not like,

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but it had a lot of sex, which he did like.

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Most of the sex was hid by attractive women and

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else with the main character, who seemed to look a

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lot like Crispin was for some reason a computer specialist,

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even though this was a medieval fantasy setting. When not

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reciting his story, Crisp had some interesting theories about hypothetical scenarios,

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like who would win in a zombie apocalypse. At first,

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Jackson thought this was easy the zombies, of course, Then

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he realized Crisp wasn't talking about the humans versus the zombies,

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but about the surviving humans and what kind of person

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would be willing to do what it took, no matter

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how horrific, to rise to the top in such a scenario.

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In Jackson's opinion, Crisp seemed to put much much more

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thought into this question than was warned considering the non

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existence of zombies. Crisp claimed to have brought his pet

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topic up at dinner and said a spirited discussion ensued.

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Jackson wondered if everyone else had enjoyed talking about worst

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case zombie scenarios at dinner. He paused Crisp's monolog and

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began to look at other logs for the same day.

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Ris was going on about zombies again at dinner, said Spencer,

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rolling her eyes. He really seems to get off on

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grossing everyone else out. Jackson literally turned green and ran

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out of the room, Although honestly, Jackson seems like he'd

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pass out at a paper cut. Jackson frowned, but he

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thought she might be right. He'd had to stop preading

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the Stephen King novels for a bit. They were giving

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him nightmares. He was pretty sure his ten year old

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cousin had been reading Stephen King and loving at so

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this was probably an extremely embarrassing thing to admit. I

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tried to see the good in everyone, said Captain Neearn.

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But Crisp is a real and part of my language here,

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a real asshole. Every time he addresses me as captain,

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he does it sarcastically. I don't know how he has

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the energy to keep it up so long. To day

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at dinner, he went on one of those rants about how

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man is just an animal, and when survival is at stake,

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all of the civilization's stuff turns out to just be

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a prudence, all that tough guy Darwinian struggle stuff. Great

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dinner conversation, right. He was going into detail about some

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story involving a bear trap, rip in salmon's head open somehow,

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and maggots. The person was still alive once scunched up

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his face as if smelling something bad, very distasteful, not

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plausible at all. Really, Jackson looked sick and ran out

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of the room. Pocade Crisp just laughed and said he'd

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be the first one dead in his zombie apocalypse. I

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said he was being an ass, and he just said maybe,

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but I'm not wrong. Zombie could be coming straight at

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him and he'd drop up his gun and cry at it.

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Tell me I'm wrong. Then Spencer said that Crisp would

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be the first one dead because if they ever needed

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a devosion, every one would unanimously agree to throw him

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to the zombies to buy time for an escape. Crisp

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abruptly left at the point and said he had to

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go to work on his novel. I'm thinking of banning

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any talk of zombies at dinner, Jackson frowned. Crisp seemed

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like a deck. He found his own lock for the day,

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which didn't seem to add much information. Crisp seems like

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a dick. It said forty six days, but apparently that

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wasn't the end of it. He'll log a few days

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after the dinner incident, Jackson talked about recurring nightmares. It's

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really messing with my sleep. I think it's because of

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that story he told with the brain maggots and everything.

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He shuddered, what's even worse as he sent me some

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clips from I guess the movie he got it from,

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and I opened it without knowing what it was. It

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was really not cool. One thing, though, is that Spencer

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was actually really nice about it. She said I wasn't

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looking well and asked if I was okay. She said

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if I came by the lab, maybe there was something

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she could do. Jackson furrowed his brow and began to

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watch intently as he forwarded to the next log. So

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I saw Spencer about you know my problem, and it

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was actually really quick, and I think the nightmares are gone.

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I don't even remember what they were about. I don't

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even remember that. I guess Crisp started it off with

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a gross story or something. Spencer had to tell me

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about it. She said, you could set the thing on

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pretty shallow and it would just get mostly back of

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your mind stuffed for just a few days. I guess

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I'm a little bit fuzzy about some of the last

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three days, but who cares. It's just the same cap

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routine as every day man. Whatever. Anyway, I'm going to

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sleep like a log. Things seemed to go south just

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a few days later. I was doing my kitchen round

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to day when I got a red diagnostically out on

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the ration packet process of it this morning, so I

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opened it up to fix it, only I completely forgot

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how to do the repair. I know I just did

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one last week. So I went back to Spencer about it.

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Then suddenly she was this cold bitch all over again

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and said that wasn't possible, and maybe I just forgot

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how to do it on my own. I said I

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was going to talk to the captain about it, and

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suddenly she turned white like a ghost and started talking

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nice again. If you ask me, I think she wasn't

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supposed to be doing that kind of stuff at all,

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being to keep a note of that full later it

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might come in handy. Anyway, she said she'd do some

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digging into what might have happened, and also she was

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going to look up the ration packet process or repair

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instructions and take care of it for me until I

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got my memory fixed and any other repairs I forgot yup,

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definitely doing something she wasn't supposed to be. Spencer seemed

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to confirm this. I can't have him going to the

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captain if the skits to the board I'm done, but

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I don't know that. I don't know what. There's no

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mechanism about which she should have forgotten a long term memory.

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It's impossible. It can't have anything to do with the procedure.

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It's of course, I could try using the keyword on him,

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but that'll probably bring back his nightmarees too, and then

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he'll get mad about and go to the captain. Anyway,

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I suppose i'd better stop figuring out how to fix

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the Rusian processor. We've got a pile of fresh vegetables

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going bad. Keyword at a Beatelloh. He began to think,

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and the pain rose alarmingly like a tidal wave. No,

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he said to himself, No now, not blindly. He had

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to learn all he could first. In the next entry,

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the drama seemed to have moved on to a different topic.

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Walked into lunch to see the captain's golden spencer and

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saying that blowing some one out of an a look

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isn't very professional, and she was looking daggers at him.

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So I turned around and walked right back out. Captains

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on Log left it at that, So he eagerly pulled

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up Captain winn'slock. Sometimes I feel like I'm running a kindergarten.

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Spencer and Chris had some kind of lover's coral or another,

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and one thing led to another, and the next thing

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you know, she locked him in the air look and

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was threatening to blow him into space. I mean, we're

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professionals here. I understand Chris can be a bit much sense.

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I have reprimanded him myself several times, but only made

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a professional and appropriate manner. That speaks to a real

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lack of self control and rationality to resort to this

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kind of dramatic gesture. I may have to formally write

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her up. It did seem like pretty bizarre behavior. Jackson

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pulled up Spencer's Love to see what she had to

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say for herself. Either I'm taking crazy pills or everybody else's.

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Jackson is a harmless enough creepy minus the back milt thing.

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But Crisp straight up grabbed me from behind today and

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went for the goods. I managed to shake him off,

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but he kept coming back, so I opened the airlock

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door behind me and flipped him into it and shut

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it before he could get up. Then he started going

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on about how I was a bitch and I was

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of reacting, so I told him I'd show him of reacting,

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and I put my hand in the outer door button,

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and then he changed his tune real vast. He was

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peeing his pants and explaining how it was all a

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misunderstanding when Captain when came by and ordered me to

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let him out. I tried to explain what happened, but

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he seriously, all day, you both need to go to

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your quarters and think about what you did, as if

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he was talking to some squabbling children. I tried to

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sort out the Captain at dinner, but he seemed very

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grossed up by the slightest mention of anything sexual. If

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I noticed, he's a bit of a prudence that he

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didn't need to hear about what people did in their

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own time, but that here we must be professionals jucy,

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but apparently hadn't impacted his life in any way except

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maybe showing the Spencer at trouble getting alarm with people.

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This fact came up almost immediately again when he got

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back to his own locks. I didn't tell the Captain anything.

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I guess Spencer got busted for her research, and she

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keeps accusing me of being the snitch. I didn't say shit.

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Why would I I still need her to fix my

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memory holes. He took a couple of deep breaths. So anyway,

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between that and the airlop thing, she's undouble secret probation

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or whatever they call it here, and she's just super

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pissy all the time. Now, good luck at and that

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ration process are fixed, everybody, Hope you enjoy your roll.

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Green Spencer was indeed pussy. That eddiot really just went

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and did it. What was he thinking? Forget getting any

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help from now? The captain took away my rig, un

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locked it in the storage closet. He seriously gave me

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the very disappointed speech. He told me he was going

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to write me up and seriously going to blow them

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all out of the air up next chance I get.

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Jackson gave the situation as best and biased assessment and

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decided that he believed himself. But how did the captain

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find out? He would in stumble an answer until two

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days later. Forty four days focused on this particular question.

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Jackson did a quick skin through the locks, but it

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seemed like neither he himself nor Spencer ever figured this out.

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00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:49,200
He looked through Captain wins loves more carefully, but he

477
00:21:49,279 --> 00:21:51,720
also never mentioned his source his log merely began with

478
00:21:51,759 --> 00:21:53,960
the pretentious. It has come to my attention that doctor

479
00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:56,799
Spencer has been conducting an authorised research and added very

480
00:21:56,799 --> 00:21:59,720
little information, being mostly around about values and professionalism and

481
00:21:59,720 --> 00:22:02,279
disp appointment. Either the Captain had done a little independent

482
00:22:02,319 --> 00:22:05,440
snooping or Jackson decided it was the last suspect Crisp.

483
00:22:05,519 --> 00:22:07,279
He sighed and screwed up his courage to go through

484
00:22:07,279 --> 00:22:10,440
crispslos again, trying to carefully skim passed his manuscript readings

485
00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:12,559
without missing any usefuler size. It was in the middle

486
00:22:12,559 --> 00:22:14,200
of the chapter on the Island of Snake Women that

487
00:22:14,279 --> 00:22:16,680
he struck gold. I did some reading on snakenatomy, and

488
00:22:16,720 --> 00:22:18,680
this might not work, so I might end up deleting

489
00:22:18,680 --> 00:22:20,759
the part or funny little fat by the by. I

490
00:22:20,759 --> 00:22:22,720
found a little bug in the dated deletion code where

491
00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:24,799
if the task happens to be interrupted, the dat is

492
00:22:24,839 --> 00:22:27,160
not actually deleted and can still be easily accessed by

493
00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:29,440
someone with a proper no hot He tapped his head proudly.

494
00:22:29,519 --> 00:22:31,559
I was going to fix it, but then I decided

495
00:22:31,559 --> 00:22:33,680
to myself, maybe we can think of this as a

496
00:22:33,680 --> 00:22:35,559
feature and not a book. With things the way they are,

497
00:22:35,640 --> 00:22:37,000
it might be a good idea to take a look

498
00:22:37,000 --> 00:22:38,839
at the very things people don't want you to see.

499
00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:41,640
He never explicitly talked about routing out Spencer, but on

500
00:22:41,720 --> 00:22:44,279
the very next entry he did say finger steepled and

501
00:22:44,359 --> 00:22:47,000
self satisfaction. Lock the bowl in an alock, get the haunts.

502
00:22:47,079 --> 00:22:49,559
Forty three days, Jackson finally found what he thought might

503
00:22:49,599 --> 00:22:51,720
be the rig that Spencer had talked about in her lap,

504
00:22:51,759 --> 00:22:53,920
looking like it had been kicked carelessly. Under a table

505
00:22:54,079 --> 00:22:56,119
was a small skull cap with protruding wires. These all

506
00:22:56,240 --> 00:22:58,799
edged desktop sized device with its own small screen, not

507
00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:01,599
connected to the station network, which made sense that she

508
00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:03,240
was trying to keep it in the dunlow. It was

509
00:23:03,279 --> 00:23:05,319
often stayed off no matter what he did, either it

510
00:23:05,359 --> 00:23:07,440
was broken or he didn't know the right combination of

511
00:23:07,480 --> 00:23:09,880
switches and buttons to turn it on. The ventilation system

512
00:23:09,880 --> 00:23:12,759
continued to ham quietly at the station terminals continued the steady,

513
00:23:12,799 --> 00:23:15,279
gentle blinking. The most prominent control was a large dial

514
00:23:15,319 --> 00:23:17,240
tenned all the way up. If he was remembering right

515
00:23:17,359 --> 00:23:19,240
in his logs, the device was on a very low

516
00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:21,519
setting when Spencer had helped him with the Nightmass. Maybe

517
00:23:21,519 --> 00:23:23,519
it had been used again. Or maybe he was just

518
00:23:23,559 --> 00:23:25,559
looking at the ron dial. In any case, it seemed

519
00:23:25,599 --> 00:23:27,119
she'd been able to get it back at some point

520
00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,680
after the captain had confiscated it. While he was visiting

521
00:23:29,759 --> 00:23:31,920
scenes of crimes, he decided to go back out the

522
00:23:31,920 --> 00:23:34,559
airlock as well, disappointing a neither the nar out door

523
00:23:34,559 --> 00:23:36,720
would open. That didn't seem to be anything seriously wrong

524
00:23:36,759 --> 00:23:38,400
with either as far as he could see, so he

525
00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:40,319
guessed this might be a result of the minimal power. More,

526
00:23:40,519 --> 00:23:42,839
he peered through the window, not sure what he expected

527
00:23:42,839 --> 00:23:44,640
to see the pea puddle from when Crisp was covering

528
00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:47,240
in fear and begging. In any case, it was completely empty,

529
00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:49,359
which made sense for an airlock. He was about to

530
00:23:49,359 --> 00:23:51,200
go when he spotted the faintest hint of something and

531
00:23:51,279 --> 00:23:53,200
nervening edge of the door of a dry liquid between

532
00:23:53,240 --> 00:23:55,319
the door and the frame, only the smallest edge of

533
00:23:55,319 --> 00:23:57,279
which crept out beyond the seal. It was dark and

534
00:23:57,359 --> 00:23:59,640
road brand and almost certainly blood. Forty two days He

535
00:23:59,640 --> 00:24:01,640
wished that this was one of those fancy science stations,

536
00:24:01,640 --> 00:24:03,160
so that the computers were You could just pop in

537
00:24:03,160 --> 00:24:04,880
a blood sample and it would tell you the blood

538
00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:06,599
belonged to a forty eight year old male of South

539
00:24:06,599 --> 00:24:09,400
American ancestry who had dark hair and a prediluction to alcoholism,

540
00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:10,880
and what with that limp or matched it to a

541
00:24:10,880 --> 00:24:13,359
crew record or something. In any case, there was nothing

542
00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:15,160
like that. All he knew was that there was blood

543
00:24:15,160 --> 00:24:17,440
in the door. Perhaps it was something sinister, but perhaps

544
00:24:17,519 --> 00:24:19,759
someone had just got their handcock closing it. He felt

545
00:24:19,759 --> 00:24:22,359
no closer to answers, only more distout. His return to

546
00:24:22,359 --> 00:24:24,680
the logs was rewarded with only in a pleasant episode

547
00:24:24,680 --> 00:24:26,480
that fulfilled no other pupps other than to make him

548
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:28,960
feel bad about himself and dislike his crewmates even more.

549
00:24:29,039 --> 00:24:30,880
It started with a sort of slow mold found in

550
00:24:30,880 --> 00:24:33,079
the storage room that was one of us where disturbing

551
00:24:33,160 --> 00:24:35,640
kinds often found in deep space with moving tentacle like

552
00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:37,880
protrusions that made them seem extra alive. This one was

553
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:40,720
a flushipping kin apparently made sounds both the standard squish

554
00:24:40,759 --> 00:24:43,680
sands and something multiple crew members described as a scrimming cat.

555
00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:45,839
It was a greedy ananimasy that someone needed to clean

556
00:24:45,839 --> 00:24:48,279
this out, and it was agreed almost unanimously that Jackson

557
00:24:48,319 --> 00:24:50,119
was the one to do it. I'm at maintenance ignition,

558
00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:52,559
not a janitor. It's not my job to clean stuff,

559
00:24:52,599 --> 00:24:54,440
but they don't seem to care. I mean, I thought

560
00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:56,599
these bases were supposed to be self cleaning, and I

561
00:24:56,599 --> 00:24:58,599
guess it's mostly my job, but when it comes to

562
00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:00,920
something that ah alive, it's kind of not up to

563
00:25:00,960 --> 00:25:02,839
the job, he complained in his log I tried to

564
00:25:02,920 --> 00:25:04,880
argue that Spencer should do because it's a life form

565
00:25:04,960 --> 00:25:07,200
and she's a scientist, but she just said she wasn't

566
00:25:07,240 --> 00:25:09,480
a kind of scientist, and the captain nacturally took her

567
00:25:09,519 --> 00:25:11,920
side on this for once and said she wasn't allowed

568
00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:14,359
to do scientist stuff anymore anyway. Chris just laugh and

569
00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:16,160
said this was my chance to get my first killed

570
00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,440
and finally become a man. Not helping Spencer and her

571
00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:21,240
account seemed and sympathetic. He actually tried to argue with

572
00:25:21,240 --> 00:25:23,039
me that it might be sentient because it was moving

573
00:25:23,039 --> 00:25:24,960
and making noises, and I had to explain to him

574
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,079
that a thousand species of space moles had been studied

575
00:25:27,079 --> 00:25:29,440
already and they all move off scream for both, and

576
00:25:29,519 --> 00:25:31,119
it'd been proven beyond the doubt that they have no

577
00:25:31,279 --> 00:25:33,440
brain or central nervous system. Might as well that worked

578
00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:35,759
up over baby mildiud. He came back anile later at

579
00:25:35,759 --> 00:25:37,960
covered in goop with his whole thousand yards stay, going

580
00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:40,119
as if he'd been in a natural war for Christ's sake,

581
00:25:40,240 --> 00:25:42,119
and going on over and over again about how he'd

582
00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:43,920
heard his scream as he shot it out the air locked.

583
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:45,880
He said he'd never be able to forget the screams.

584
00:25:45,920 --> 00:25:48,319
Maybe it was a little harsh, but they said, wow,

585
00:25:48,359 --> 00:25:50,279
if only we had some kind of device that could

586
00:25:50,319 --> 00:25:52,960
do something about that. He didn't say anything, just went off.

587
00:25:52,960 --> 00:25:55,359
I'm assuming to cry. I don't know. Maybe that was

588
00:25:55,440 --> 00:25:57,119
kind of rough, but he should have known better, and

589
00:25:57,160 --> 00:25:59,119
to open his big mouth about my research. I'm the

590
00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:01,400
one that has to deal with my whole career being destroyed.

591
00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:03,039
He only is to deal with having to clean up

592
00:26:03,039 --> 00:26:05,240
a sly mold. Captain Winn also did not have, in

593
00:26:05,319 --> 00:26:07,960
Jackson's eyes, a great response. Jackson came to me saying

594
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:09,799
he had knightness that the mold came back, and I

595
00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:12,240
told him it had been his professional responsibility, out of

596
00:26:12,279 --> 00:26:14,440
respect himself and others, to make sure he got all

597
00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:16,319
of it and to bleach all the surfaces, and if

598
00:26:16,319 --> 00:26:18,000
it did come back, it would be a good life

599
00:26:18,079 --> 00:26:20,119
lesson about making sure to do a task thoroughly. He

600
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,079
seemed more inclined to wallow in self pett eve and

601
00:26:22,119 --> 00:26:24,200
to take advantage of this teachable moment. But I have

602
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:26,440
a feeling that this wisdom will sink and eventually crisp

603
00:26:26,480 --> 00:26:29,000
pose and surprisingly. Think about it, ten thousand years ago,

604
00:26:29,039 --> 00:26:31,000
when men were men, when the only people who passed

605
00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:33,000
on their genes were brute for survivors willing to do

606
00:26:33,079 --> 00:26:35,119
whatever it takes, this guy would have been populating the

607
00:26:35,160 --> 00:26:37,759
belly of a sabertoothed tiger. All this technology is filling

608
00:26:37,799 --> 00:26:39,759
the human race with these useless soft balls of dough.

609
00:26:39,839 --> 00:26:42,000
I can't wait for the next cataclysm to weep them

610
00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:44,319
all out. With some trepidation, Jackson went back down to

611
00:26:44,359 --> 00:26:46,559
the storage room to go over it with a fine toothcomb.

612
00:26:46,559 --> 00:26:49,119
Despite everyone's coping, he'd apparently done a great job. It

613
00:26:49,279 --> 00:26:51,680
was early cleaned, the metal surfaces potless, not a single

614
00:26:51,720 --> 00:26:54,279
sign of a Tevai mold creature. This, thought, Jackson proudly,

615
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:56,920
was indeed professional quality work. Forty one days, he was

616
00:26:57,039 --> 00:26:59,440
rifling through Spencer's love again, trying to see if there

617
00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:01,279
were any clues as to how to get her rig working.

618
00:27:01,359 --> 00:27:03,079
When he found in the death drawer of the paper again,

619
00:27:03,119 --> 00:27:05,200
he'd completely forgotten it was still there. He now found

620
00:27:05,200 --> 00:27:07,559
the familiar handwritting starring him in the face, and read

621
00:27:07,599 --> 00:27:10,200
it and thinkingly before he realized too late what it was.

622
00:27:10,319 --> 00:27:12,319
The word is low star. A pulsive pain shot through

623
00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:14,240
his head, and he tensed up, prepared for the worst.

624
00:27:14,279 --> 00:27:16,319
But though it searched inbearably for a few seconds, it

625
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:19,279
suddenly faded with him still standing, and an image flashed

626
00:27:19,279 --> 00:27:21,720
into his mind, a memory a circuit diagram and a

627
00:27:21,759 --> 00:27:23,720
series of steps how to repair an agri court three

628
00:27:23,759 --> 00:27:26,720
imnous one lashing packet process at rppminus one hundred and

629
00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:28,599
twenty four. He drew in a breath. Perhaps he had

630
00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:30,839
to try it, he spoke hestantly in a whisper. Lowes

631
00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:34,240
saw again harder, and he fell to his knees as time,

632
00:27:34,400 --> 00:27:37,079
but something was coming back, falling into his thoughts, something

633
00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:39,559
darkened and pleasant, A bare trap of brain maggot, A

634
00:27:39,599 --> 00:27:42,480
man who wasn't quite dead. No, no, no, he said,

635
00:27:42,559 --> 00:27:44,559
shaking his head and then his whole body. Trying to

636
00:27:44,559 --> 00:27:47,240
disrupt his strain of thought with mindless, vigorous action. He

637
00:27:47,279 --> 00:27:48,839
banded his knee on a chair, and it hurt so

638
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:50,720
much it managed to push aside the awful thoughts for

639
00:27:50,799 --> 00:27:52,720
the moment, but it kept creeping back throughout the day,

640
00:27:52,759 --> 00:27:54,400
and he had to keep warding it off by banging

641
00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:57,039
his fist in the wall lardly singing nonsense sons under

642
00:27:57,039 --> 00:27:59,960
the desperate destructions. After Tina, he went back to the lab,

643
00:28:00,160 --> 00:28:02,720
reached into the desk drawer, eyes averted, and crumpled up

644
00:28:02,759 --> 00:28:04,839
the paper. Forty days after he was able to think

645
00:28:04,880 --> 00:28:07,119
clearly through the incident, he came up with some guesses.

646
00:28:07,119 --> 00:28:09,279
Of the first memories that returned were the Russian process

647
00:28:09,279 --> 00:28:12,119
of repair instructions and crisps awful anecdote, which were the

648
00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:14,599
first thing Spencers of Us had helped him forget. Obviously,

649
00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:16,599
he'd gone on to forget a whole bunch more, probably

650
00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:18,400
due to the device being used on him again. That

651
00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:20,200
stood to reason that if he tried the word again,

652
00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:22,880
he'd probably start recovering the next things he'd forgotten. At

653
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:25,079
some point he'd get back to the final three days

654
00:28:25,079 --> 00:28:27,039
that were missing from the locks. He'd have to go

655
00:28:27,119 --> 00:28:29,160
through an awful lot of stabbing, headaches and months of

656
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:31,440
what sounded like terrible memories to get there. Perhaps he

657
00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:33,119
could deal a little bit every day. It wouldn't be

658
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:34,880
so bad in small dose. As then he had time,

659
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:36,880
he tried to prepare himself as tired. He ate his

660
00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:39,519
lunchtime Russian packet, used the toilet, played a bit of

661
00:28:39,519 --> 00:28:41,920
guitar to relax, cleared the bed, and sat down. If

662
00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:44,240
he passed out, he wanted to make sure he landed safe.

663
00:28:44,279 --> 00:28:46,359
A low star, he said firmly. Thoughts came in a

664
00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:49,119
rush of a flash, colored slime, mold, denticles reaching out

665
00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:51,119
something that he could swell, looked like an apple, and

666
00:28:51,200 --> 00:28:53,759
the screaming. The screaming not like a cat at all,

667
00:28:53,799 --> 00:28:56,000
but human in torment. His precautions turned out to be

668
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,240
a good idea, because he passed out when he came to.

669
00:28:58,559 --> 00:29:00,799
He decided to put this experiment on hold. In definitely

670
00:29:00,839 --> 00:29:04,000
thirty nine days, the nightmares were back. Of course, good job, Jackson,

671
00:29:04,119 --> 00:29:07,000
he told himself. The screaming mold, the festering maggots, and

672
00:29:07,079 --> 00:29:10,160
Chris Gordon over Jackson's discomfort, telling him to grow repel Already,

673
00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:12,960
this last part, as far as Jackson remembered, wasn't in

674
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,400
the locks, which meant it might be his actual memory.

675
00:29:15,440 --> 00:29:17,599
It wasn't the most useful of memories, but it gave

676
00:29:17,640 --> 00:29:19,039
him hope that he was on the way to getting

677
00:29:19,039 --> 00:29:21,359
more back. He tried to counteract the new horrors living

678
00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:23,119
in his thoughts by filling his mind with the most

679
00:29:23,160 --> 00:29:26,200
offensively bowing content he had access to. Captain wins Locks

680
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,359
tea side almost in relief as he watched Captain when

681
00:29:28,400 --> 00:29:30,680
described what he'd learned from a management book he was reading,

682
00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:33,640
He finally summarized, excitedly, just from these case studies, it

683
00:29:33,640 --> 00:29:35,799
sounds like one can see some really remarkable changes in

684
00:29:35,839 --> 00:29:38,240
team dynamics when going from two updates a week to three.

685
00:29:38,279 --> 00:29:39,960
What I've really loved to see is if this supplies

686
00:29:40,000 --> 00:29:42,279
equally to written updates verses in person. I can't wait

687
00:29:42,319 --> 00:29:44,039
to get back on an assignment where I can apply

688
00:29:44,160 --> 00:29:45,880
some of this stuff. I've tried my best with what

689
00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:48,160
I have here, but you can't help people who don't

690
00:29:48,160 --> 00:29:49,640
want to be helped. I've done my best to and

691
00:29:49,640 --> 00:29:52,079
still values of professionalism and civility in a big picture

692
00:29:52,119 --> 00:29:54,680
grow of mindset. They've completely lost themselves in self pity

693
00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:56,359
and petty squabbles. So I tried to tell myself it

694
00:29:56,359 --> 00:29:58,720
doesn't reflect on my leadership skills and the mental menty

695
00:29:58,759 --> 00:30:00,960
relationships are two way streat. But it's wearing me down.

696
00:30:01,119 --> 00:30:03,640
Damn it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I get heated over this,

697
00:30:03,799 --> 00:30:06,599
My wisdom calendar's court of the days, This too shall pass.

698
00:30:06,640 --> 00:30:08,440
What could be more appropriate? All I have to do

699
00:30:08,519 --> 00:30:10,200
is hold on and continue to do my duty to

700
00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:12,359
the best of my abilities for ninety eight more days.

701
00:30:12,359 --> 00:30:14,319
Once the relief ship arrives, I can hand off this

702
00:30:14,359 --> 00:30:16,240
smester to another pro soul and it will be the

703
00:30:16,319 --> 00:30:18,720
trial to bear. Jackson squinted and pause the playback. He

704
00:30:18,839 --> 00:30:21,279
checked the lot's date, today's date, and the count and timer.

705
00:30:21,440 --> 00:30:23,759
He did some calculations on his fingers. He double and

706
00:30:23,759 --> 00:30:26,400
triple tech to be absolutely sure before allowing himself to hope.

707
00:30:26,440 --> 00:30:28,839
Because he were on the count and timer perfectly coincided

708
00:30:28,839 --> 00:30:31,519
with the expected arrival of this relief ship. Knowing full

709
00:30:31,519 --> 00:30:33,240
well that the other crew members would have called him

710
00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:35,640
a pansy for it, Jackson broke down in tears. After

711
00:30:35,799 --> 00:30:38,119
watching the ominous numbers tickdown for so long, it was

712
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:39,799
such a relief to know that they were taking down

713
00:30:39,799 --> 00:30:41,359
to rescue and not to do them thirty days of

714
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:44,119
the nightmares were actually getting a bit less terrifying, slowly

715
00:30:44,160 --> 00:30:47,799
decreasing in horrific imagery and increasing in strange, unimportant seeming memories,

716
00:30:47,880 --> 00:30:50,559
lettle snippets and phrases. After a really bad zombie scene

717
00:30:50,559 --> 00:30:53,480
and one dream faded into Crisp Colin heympathetic reminiscing about

718
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:56,519
prehistoric times when men were men, and then smotly proclaiming

719
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:58,640
the date it is easily accessed by anyone with the

720
00:30:58,680 --> 00:31:01,440
proper know how, upon which Jackson suddenly woke up. He

721
00:31:01,440 --> 00:31:03,839
felt like he'd heard something important, but struggled to pass

722
00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:06,119
it out in his woozy half sleep mind, deleted date

723
00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:08,319
acts and deleted date. He jumped up and got back

724
00:31:08,359 --> 00:31:10,680
into Crisp's locks, skimming around to find where he talked

725
00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:12,960
about that. It took about naire, but he finally located

726
00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:14,720
as Crisp explained the trick with a great deal of

727
00:31:14,759 --> 00:31:17,079
technical top that went over Jackson's head, and it made

728
00:31:17,079 --> 00:31:19,279
sense where he'd ignored it the first time. Around this time,

729
00:31:19,319 --> 00:31:21,559
he got some technical books and notes from Crisp's room,

730
00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:24,640
and when sentenced by sentence through Crisp's explanation, looking everything

731
00:31:24,759 --> 00:31:27,079
up until he finally felt he had to handle an ID. Yet,

732
00:31:27,079 --> 00:31:29,160
if he understood correctly, this was a bug that didn't

733
00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:31,880
apply to all deleted data, just a really small fraction

734
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:34,279
where the system had a hiccup during deletion. The system

735
00:31:34,319 --> 00:31:36,480
was supposed to detect any hiccups and try again, but

736
00:31:36,519 --> 00:31:38,759
because of a mistake on for Cris's part, it didn't.

737
00:31:38,759 --> 00:31:41,240
The data would just remain there and listed. A deleted

738
00:31:41,279 --> 00:31:43,599
log wouldn't show up be in, for example, the loog list,

739
00:31:43,680 --> 00:31:45,359
but if you knew the exact place to lock, the

740
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:48,279
computer would show it to you. Unfortunately, finding the proper

741
00:31:48,359 --> 00:31:50,160
jumble of numbers and let it sounded like it were

742
00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:53,000
taken entire courts on computers. Fortunately he had some time

743
00:31:53,119 --> 00:31:55,039
twenty one days, and he was really starting to enjoy

744
00:31:55,039 --> 00:31:57,279
a learning about the ins and outs of computers courtesy

745
00:31:57,319 --> 00:31:59,799
of Crisp's library. He'd been intimidated from learning the sort

746
00:31:59,799 --> 00:32:02,119
of in his whole life, as he and everybody around

747
00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:03,480
him just took it as a given that it was

748
00:32:03,519 --> 00:32:06,000
only for briny college types. There's a sort of half measure.

749
00:32:06,079 --> 00:32:08,400
He decided to take a machine maintain its course, figuring

750
00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:10,039
it was the coosest to normal guy could get to

751
00:32:10,039 --> 00:32:12,119
the glamorous high tech life. But it turned out there

752
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:14,160
was really nothing magical about it at all. All it

753
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:15,839
came down to was giving a computer a bunch of

754
00:32:15,839 --> 00:32:18,039
instructions and making sure he did it exactly away the

755
00:32:18,039 --> 00:32:20,279
computer wanted to hear it, otherwise it would find a

756
00:32:20,319 --> 00:32:22,559
loophole durid rom sort of light making a deal with

757
00:32:22,559 --> 00:32:24,240
the devil. When he got out of this jam, he

758
00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:26,519
figured he might get serious and take some computer courses.

759
00:32:26,599 --> 00:32:29,039
Chris made three times what he did, and Jackson had

760
00:32:29,039 --> 00:32:31,319
a feeling he wasn't one of the better computer specialists.

761
00:32:31,319 --> 00:32:33,039
That didn't seem too far out of reach or for

762
00:32:33,119 --> 00:32:35,720
Jackson to get at least a certificate, double his salary

763
00:32:35,839 --> 00:32:38,079
and maybe start working on a real degree part time.

764
00:32:38,160 --> 00:32:40,920
Thus motivated, he slowly put together the foundation he needed

765
00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:42,839
to solve the whole deleted data problem. He built a

766
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:44,839
little script that was able to find a few pockets

767
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:47,160
of undeleted data and tell him exactly where to find them.

768
00:32:47,200 --> 00:32:49,240
Peo pulled up the first one. It was upon video

769
00:32:49,319 --> 00:32:51,039
and it had been deleted by Crisp. But he began

770
00:32:51,079 --> 00:32:53,480
to delead it and then has stated, after a few

771
00:32:53,480 --> 00:32:55,720
more moments of evaluation, he moved it into her his

772
00:32:55,759 --> 00:32:57,839
own directory, saving it for later, and he pulled up

773
00:32:57,880 --> 00:32:59,720
the next one. It was one of his own logs,

774
00:33:00,119 --> 00:33:02,359
the deleted three days. He was disheveled and crying, and

775
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:04,599
the lighting was dim like it was now, Unlike all

776
00:33:04,599 --> 00:33:07,119
the other previous logs, everything's gun routed. It wasn't supposed

777
00:33:07,160 --> 00:33:08,880
to be like this. It can be. Someone's got to

778
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:11,440
figure out something, right, They've got to. I don't want

779
00:33:11,480 --> 00:33:13,440
to die. I can't. I just don't want to die.

780
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:15,400
I just can't. I just can't. I can't do it.

781
00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:17,640
It went unlike this, expressions of his wish not to

782
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:20,400
die alternating with terrified, pitiful blubber, and it was painful

783
00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:22,839
to watch. But Jackson bit his lip and start intently

784
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:25,119
scanning every frame here to know if there was anything

785
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:27,279
further to be learned. It turned out there wasn't, and

786
00:33:27,319 --> 00:33:29,240
the only real outcome of the whole exercise was to

787
00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:32,000
feel worse about himself. Against seventeen days, at some point

788
00:33:32,039 --> 00:33:33,759
he came to the decision that he was going to

789
00:33:33,799 --> 00:33:35,960
drop the bast and focus on the future. A rescue

790
00:33:35,960 --> 00:33:38,160
ship was probably on its way. If he could make

791
00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:40,519
it till then someone else could figure out what had happened.

792
00:33:40,559 --> 00:33:43,319
Whatever it was, there didn't seem to be any immediate danger,

793
00:33:43,440 --> 00:33:45,559
and any looking danger it had plenty of time to

794
00:33:45,599 --> 00:33:48,000
show itself. In the meantime, it was probably more worth

795
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:50,039
his time to study up on computers or get better

796
00:33:50,039 --> 00:33:52,400
at guitar than to give himself more nightmares or force

797
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:54,440
himself to look at more on flattering examples of his

798
00:33:54,519 --> 00:33:57,200
cowardly character. Fourteen days and he was still watching logs,

799
00:33:57,240 --> 00:33:59,960
but now he decided to focus on the personal, trivial details,

800
00:34:00,039 --> 00:34:01,960
trying to get to know these strangers he'd a poundly

801
00:34:02,039 --> 00:34:03,920
worked with for so long. Spencer talked a little bit

802
00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:06,279
about her family in brief moments where she wasn't focused

803
00:34:06,279 --> 00:34:08,360
on her research and her grievances with the board. Got

804
00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:10,360
another message from home. Dad wants me to give it

805
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:12,480
up and go home, be a dental haggienist or something.

806
00:34:12,559 --> 00:34:14,679
I gave it a good try, he said, but maybe

807
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,920
some things aren't meant to be. I just wish I

808
00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:18,639
think I could show them. I think they'd see if

809
00:34:18,679 --> 00:34:20,840
I could only get my papers published. I mean, there's

810
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:24,159
never been anything like it. I'd get headlines and regular papers, prize,

811
00:34:24,199 --> 00:34:26,480
maybe even an appointment at the Science Federation. As soon

812
00:34:26,519 --> 00:34:28,599
as I can just get even just one major publication,

813
00:34:28,679 --> 00:34:30,199
I think I could go back for a visit, go

814
00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:31,960
back and hold my head up and just enjoy the

815
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:33,639
time and see them and see ella tend not have

816
00:34:33,679 --> 00:34:36,440
to worry about anything about dental Haggius skills, our teacher

817
00:34:36,440 --> 00:34:38,800
training programs, or any other backup plans. One of the

818
00:34:38,800 --> 00:34:41,239
deleted laws was just Crisp being vulnerable to He had

819
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:43,440
styled his hair in this figure. It looked ridiculous. He

820
00:34:43,519 --> 00:34:45,320
seemed to be somewhat aware of this and kept self

821
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:47,920
consciously rearranging it, trying to put together a new photo

822
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:49,559
for my date net profile. I think it's time to

823
00:34:49,559 --> 00:34:51,360
give it another try. I now think the reason I

824
00:34:51,400 --> 00:34:53,280
never got any bites on my last one was not

825
00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:56,039
any deficiency on my part, but simply a misunderstanding of

826
00:34:56,039 --> 00:34:58,039
the common and spoken signals in the date in market,

827
00:34:58,079 --> 00:35:00,360
he said, taking at his Crisp Colle shirt. I've watched

828
00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:02,519
a few very enlivening videos on this, and i think

829
00:35:02,559 --> 00:35:05,039
I'm ready to put out much more successful revised provar

830
00:35:05,119 --> 00:35:08,039
I'm focusing on instinctive signals of reproductive success that women

831
00:35:08,079 --> 00:35:10,440
are wired to respond to, such as a more powerful stance,

832
00:35:10,599 --> 00:35:13,599
more alpha gaze, and more assertive dominant language. I really

833
00:35:13,639 --> 00:35:16,159
think I've unlocked at his time. Of course, I'm realistic

834
00:35:16,159 --> 00:35:18,559
about this. I don't expect to be flooded with responses,

835
00:35:18,639 --> 00:35:20,119
or at least to think I would count it as

836
00:35:20,119 --> 00:35:22,199
a success if I just got one response. In fact,

837
00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:24,119
if I just got one response, I'd put it on

838
00:35:24,199 --> 00:35:26,039
hole for a bit, just to be fair to the women.

839
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:29,519
And well, no sense spreading myself too thin. This, he coughed,

840
00:35:29,519 --> 00:35:31,920
and then straightened up, standing up, putting his hands on

841
00:35:32,000 --> 00:35:33,840
his hips and throwing his head back. This is going

842
00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:35,760
to be the time someone is finally going to see

843
00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:37,800
what I've got. And he shot such a ridiculous glance

844
00:35:37,840 --> 00:35:40,400
at the camera, simultaneously full of much imposturing and desired

845
00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:43,480
to please, that Jackson had to laugh. Captain w wife,

846
00:35:43,519 --> 00:35:45,239
whom he constantly talked about as a gift in the

847
00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:47,639
Blessing and generally sounded like the most generic wife in

848
00:35:47,679 --> 00:35:49,960
the world. However, he at his moment, Darla keeps talking

849
00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:52,400
about children, and I'm certainly not against it, but I

850
00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:55,079
really worry sometimes about how it might impact our careers,

851
00:35:55,199 --> 00:35:58,000
especially when we're still climbing the ladder. I'm at all

852
00:35:58,000 --> 00:35:59,960
the traveling. She really wants them, and I do think

853
00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:01,760
think it would be maybe quite nice sometimes to look

854
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:03,320
at a new little person that is like a little

855
00:36:03,360 --> 00:36:05,960
hurt a little yet the same time that maybe mix

856
00:36:06,039 --> 00:36:08,000
the fish she makes when she eats something sire or

857
00:36:08,039 --> 00:36:10,400
shakes his head the way I do. I don't know

858
00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:12,800
what's so special about it, but well I must shake

859
00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:15,199
it in some kind of unique way. It always seems

860
00:36:15,239 --> 00:36:17,840
to make darle a laugh. Jackson didn't need to learn

861
00:36:17,880 --> 00:36:21,599
about himself. He'd only lost six months of memories. He

862
00:36:21,679 --> 00:36:24,000
knew why he'd come here, his modest background and his

863
00:36:24,039 --> 00:36:27,159
modest goals. Up until now, he didn't really have any

864
00:36:27,159 --> 00:36:30,599
particular ambitions for his future, not even Crisp's little dream

865
00:36:30,639 --> 00:36:32,920
of getting one woman to be impressed with him. He

866
00:36:33,039 --> 00:36:36,480
just wants to get by. But now maybe he could

867
00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:39,079
make something of his computer thing. It opened up so

868
00:36:39,119 --> 00:36:41,639
many possibilities. He just had to make it off the station.

869
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:45,360
Seer days, his heart was beating like a dance track.

870
00:36:46,000 --> 00:36:48,320
His pre dinner time, short bringed scown had picked up

871
00:36:48,320 --> 00:36:51,199
an approaching ship. Only moments later, he could dimly make

872
00:36:51,239 --> 00:36:53,760
out a visual in the window and Not long after that,

873
00:36:53,840 --> 00:36:57,639
a voice crackled over the loudspeaker, A woman's voice, that

874
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:00,639
is minus fourteen. Do you read this is the uf

875
00:37:00,679 --> 00:37:05,039
S Philip K. Dick Jackson scrambled to the microphone. Yes,

876
00:37:05,119 --> 00:37:09,360
he shouted, Yes, I'm here. Repeat, that is minus fourteen?

877
00:37:09,559 --> 00:37:13,320
Do you read I'm here? I'm here, Jackson shouted into

878
00:37:13,360 --> 00:37:16,559
the microphone, over and over, flipping switches and pressing buttons frantically.

879
00:37:17,199 --> 00:37:19,199
It's no good, said a male voice coming from the

880
00:37:19,199 --> 00:37:22,159
same speaker. Oh my god, when's the last time they

881
00:37:22,199 --> 00:37:25,639
were supplied? Harper? Said the female voice. A fainter voice

882
00:37:25,679 --> 00:37:28,880
belonging to neither of the first two, replied, unintelligible to Jackson,

883
00:37:29,440 --> 00:37:32,119
dumb If they haven't had a foods apply for that long,

884
00:37:32,239 --> 00:37:34,639
I don't know if there's any body left to our

885
00:37:34,719 --> 00:37:38,079
Captain Weston, the comm's channel has been open the whole time.

886
00:37:38,639 --> 00:37:42,440
It's fine. I don't think anybody's listening anyway. I'm here,

887
00:37:42,480 --> 00:37:45,880
I'm here, cried Jackson. Frantically. He tried waving his arms

888
00:37:45,920 --> 00:37:48,239
at the window, hoping they'd be able to see. In

889
00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:50,159
any case, we should dock and see if we can

890
00:37:50,159 --> 00:37:53,480
find any survivors or recover any well, move into dock

891
00:37:53,559 --> 00:37:56,519
and turn off the comm's channel. The ship slowly approached,

892
00:37:56,559 --> 00:37:59,239
looming larger and larger in the window, but it would

893
00:37:59,239 --> 00:38:01,480
be a while yet, and Jackson realized there was nothing

894
00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:04,039
to do but wait. He sat back and opened his

895
00:38:04,079 --> 00:38:06,800
dinner ration packet, squeezing it into his mouth and cheered

896
00:38:06,840 --> 00:38:11,000
contemportively as he watched the supply ship silently drift near. Suddenly,

897
00:38:11,079 --> 00:38:14,239
his teeth hit something hard. Wincing, he pulled it out

898
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:17,320
of his mouth. It was a wedding ring. He froze

899
00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:20,760
for what felt like an eternity, horror rising in his throat,

900
00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:24,559
both horror and food. He vomited violently on to the floor.

901
00:38:25,159 --> 00:38:27,639
He tried to push it all away. There was only

902
00:38:27,679 --> 00:38:29,800
the nail. He had to just stay in the now.

903
00:38:30,320 --> 00:38:33,599
The rescue ship was here. He must get up. He

904
00:38:33,679 --> 00:38:37,000
must go to the airlock and greet them, leave everything behind.

905
00:38:37,679 --> 00:38:40,679
His legs would not move. He remained there on his knees,

906
00:38:40,719 --> 00:38:42,880
bowed over onto the floor, clutching his head and able

907
00:38:42,880 --> 00:38:45,239
to stop what he knew he had to do. Low Star,

908
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:49,519
he said between gritted teeth. Whilsawt losar images poured from

909
00:38:49,559 --> 00:38:53,480
his brain faster than he could process them. Screams, human

910
00:38:53,519 --> 00:38:56,440
screams from human mouthslound in the airlock door with a

911
00:38:56,480 --> 00:39:02,320
knife with a crowbar. The body is the kitchen Rusian packet, processor, clothes,

912
00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:06,639
debris stuffed into the escape pods, the storage room, the

913
00:39:06,679 --> 00:39:09,920
memory device, throwing the cap to the floor, stumbling out

914
00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:12,360
of the lab with his last ounce of consciousness and collapsing,

915
00:39:12,880 --> 00:39:15,880
waking up to an empty station and a blank mind

916
00:39:16,039 --> 00:39:19,280
and an ample supply of Russian packs. Tear a streamed

917
00:39:19,320 --> 00:39:22,360
from his eyes. The pain had subsided, but he still

918
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:24,440
clutched his head as it throbbed with something like hot

919
00:39:24,480 --> 00:39:28,239
and as cold at the same time, something unbearable, unthinkable.

920
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,159
Crew of the Philip K. Dick. The crew finally arrived

921
00:39:31,199 --> 00:39:34,239
after a brief hiccup. The air locked door was non functional,

922
00:39:34,239 --> 00:39:36,320
apparently due to someone jamming one of the doors with

923
00:39:36,360 --> 00:39:38,800
some kind of object at some point. They'd had to

924
00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:41,519
cut it open with a laser torch. As search team

925
00:39:41,519 --> 00:39:44,480
methodically explored the station while Captain Weston sent a preliminary

926
00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:47,400
report of the station back to headquarters. She then went

927
00:39:47,440 --> 00:39:49,599
down to the ale Of to meet the returning search team.

928
00:39:50,159 --> 00:39:53,440
Yet it's a puzzling situation said Sir Arno, wiping his

929
00:39:53,440 --> 00:39:57,920
bra No sign of the crew whatsoever. No bodies, asked

930
00:39:57,920 --> 00:40:01,679
Western in disbelief. Sir No shook his head. Not a

931
00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:05,159
one ham. So much for the starvation theory, said Western.

932
00:40:05,800 --> 00:40:07,880
That's for sure, they weren't low on feed at all.

933
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:10,440
In fact, when we checked the common area, the processor

934
00:40:10,559 --> 00:40:12,920
was running and we found about one hundred fifty pounds

935
00:40:12,960 --> 00:40:16,599
of new RUSS packets fresh out of processing. And that

936
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:19,119
is the end. Thank you for listening, and I will

937
00:40:19,119 --> 00:40:28,079
see you in the next one.