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Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction, unplugged because we will always say

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yes to creativity, totally uncut because we all make mistakes.

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So let's turn it into a tool. This is arrow unplugged,

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hey Sarow, And this is vocal defrag.

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Speaker 2: Defragging is asking the questions and questioning the answers, not

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other people, asking yourself the questions and then questioning the answers.

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We all have mindsets, we have mood swings, doubt, fear, shame, guilt.

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But are you asking the questions? How did you get

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into this place? It doesn't just happen. You have to

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learn how to study the mind, body, and soul and

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get in touch with that inner core to find out, Hey,

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why am I this way? Asking the questions, questioning the answers.

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I defrag in two different forms. The first form is

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in a journal, I stream think when I'm doing it.

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That means no judger, no procrastinator, no perfectionist. It is

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one hundred percent on the wall on that page. And

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you go back and you study it and you learn

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that why did I have such a bad day today?

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Why did I have a victory today? All of the

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things are sitting right there in front of you in

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the way of better understanding the trails and the travels

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that were all stepping onto each day. Another way that

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I do the defragging is I do a vocal dfrag.

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The reason why we do this right here is because

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I talk with so many creative people, from authors, actors, musicians,

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and we talk about d fragging and they go, how

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come I didn't know anything about this? And I asked

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myself that question in my journal in a d FRAG journal,

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I was like, why doesn't anybody know about this? How

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can we do this? And the one thing I didn't

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want to do was create a vocal dfrag that had

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something to do with my normal d FRAG journal. Putting

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me in a place where it's like, Okay, I'm gonna

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bear my all took you completely out of the picture.

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What I try to do here is I try to

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present an opportunity for you to say, I want to

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try this defragging thing. I want to see how my

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life can change in a way that is going to

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be toward the positive or a better understanding of who

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I am and why I am. This is vocal d fragging.

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One of the things that men go through is the

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grumpy man syndrome. I've been studying a lot about that

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because my father was a very, very grumpy man. I

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grew up disliking my father. I always thought that he

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hated us. But as I grow into the shoes and

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the age that he once wore, one of the things

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that I don't want to do is to become that

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grumpy old man with some sort of syndrome. I've been

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doing some research on this, and what I've read is

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that it really doesn't set in until a man is

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seventy years old. Well, you know what, my dad was

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ahead of his game. Then they say that it's about testosterone.

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They say that it's about an aging man who looks

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back at his life and kind of reviews what he did,

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what he didn't do, what he didn't get to have,

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and now, what the hell, what are we going to do?

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So men tend to get grumpy, and that's the one

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thing I don't want to do or become. I don't

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want to become that man who holds onto his frowns,

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or that man that's so easily torched because somebody walked

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on your lawn. So in dealing with it, I'm asking

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you the question, how do you present yourself to others

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when you know that your mindset is not locked in

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on how they are delivering their energy. Daily writing helps

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me stay aware and stay ahead of where I want

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to go in mental thinking. Listen, here's a thing. We

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all have a lot on our mind and inside our heart.

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Right now, I believe that we are COVID nineteen PTSD.

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We went through some tough times and nobody. Nobody wants

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to sit there and say, yeah, mentally, I got a

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little injured. Yeah I got it, I got it. We

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can recover without going to the mental doctor. Is that true?

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Grumpy old man syndrome? Have thirty year olds become grumpy

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old men? I talk to a lot of twenty five

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year olds that I already call themselves. I'm just an

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old guy, and they kind of shut up when I say, dude,

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when you get up to where I am right now,

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you know then you have a bitch. But even at

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sixty one, I am bitching about being an old guy.

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What I'm trying to do is prevent myself from wearing

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the image of an old guy. And that starts with

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how I present myself in public and how I present

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myself in the mirror in the bathroom. How I feel

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when I'm daily writing or when i'm defragging. So I ask,

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how are you making your way through the stains through

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those moments that you didn't find victory? You know, those

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days where you knew you should have gotten that job,

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but somebody else did. Those those moments when you got

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into Amazon You're going to buy all of these things

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and your credit card didn't go through, and all of

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a sudden, for two days, you're so upset and disturbed.

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How do you make your way through your storms so

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that somebody doesn't call you a grumpy old man or

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a grumpy woman? What do they call a resting bitch face?

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Speaker 1: Ooh ooh.

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Speaker 2: When I first learned about that, that didn't sit well

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in my heart at all. It's like, well, yeah, I

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can see why you call with that, but is that

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how you feel? And if it's how you feel, are

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you asking some questions and questioning answers. Taking walks like

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I'm doing right now, I call this a transition walk.

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A daily walk will help you with your mindset and

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your mood swings. Doing something physical and not having to

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spend money, not having to go out and eat, not

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having to do something that basically becomes a situation that

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you've become addicted to. Is how you get through those

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moments where you're going to be labeled grumpy, pissed off.

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I don't like hanging out with them because they're always

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bitch about something. Sometimes it feels good to bitch. But

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when people start walking away from you because they don't

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like your energy or your source of conversation, now we

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got a problem. How long do you think that's going

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to take to heal when people start having a conversation

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with you again. It takes a long time to retrust someone,

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or has My wife once told me, I can forgive you,

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but it doesn't mean I'll ever trust you again. Oh

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oh man, right there, it's one of those grumpy old

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man syndrome groans the grunts. Now I'm gonna have to

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write about it in the d frag journal. How do

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you deal with people who like you but they don't

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trust you? Question would be why do they like you?

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See if you can answer that on a page or

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on a vocald frag ask the questions question the answers.

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Are you headed toward grumpy old man's syndrome and resting

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bitch face? I'm Marilyn that spoke of the c