WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.200 --> 00:00:10.599 You see something's going to happen. What's going to happen? 2 00:00:15.480 --> 00:00:28.679 What I Welcome back to the Occult Rejects. Today's guest 3 00:00:28.839 --> 00:00:32.759 is Tree Car author Ted X, speaker, dreaming guide and 4 00:00:32.840 --> 00:00:36.000 teacher working in the field of trans personal psychology with 5 00:00:36.079 --> 00:00:40.079 a focus on dreams, death, altered states of consciousness and 6 00:00:40.119 --> 00:00:44.840 psychedelic assistant therapy. She studied psychedelics and altered states through 7 00:00:44.840 --> 00:00:49.840 the Out of Trust, studied ecology, spirituality and paranormal through 8 00:00:49.840 --> 00:00:53.039 the Sofia Center at the University of Wales Trinity Saint David, 9 00:00:53.399 --> 00:00:56.960 and also studied at the Arthur Finlay College of Psychic Science. 10 00:00:57.679 --> 00:00:59.960 She teaches through the College of Psychic Studies in London. 11 00:01:00.600 --> 00:01:03.320 Is a faculty member at the Magical Path School of 12 00:01:03.359 --> 00:01:07.319 Witchcraft in New York. Has taught lucid dreaming practices at 13 00:01:07.319 --> 00:01:10.680 the Royal College of Art and also worked with platforms 14 00:01:10.680 --> 00:01:15.319 like the Psychedelic Society UK and She's Lost Control. She's 15 00:01:15.359 --> 00:01:17.640 the author of a wide range of books and projects, 16 00:01:17.640 --> 00:01:22.560 including Dreams, Conscious Dreamer, The Artist's Oracle, Espel a Day 17 00:01:23.120 --> 00:01:27.799 Dreamwork and now Technomancy, her forthcoming book from Watkins Publishing. 18 00:01:28.480 --> 00:01:32.200 Before stepping fully into the esoteric and therapeutic arts. She 19 00:01:32.239 --> 00:01:35.400 also had a background in music writing and film, including 20 00:01:35.480 --> 00:01:39.239 running the East London cult film Society Today is Born 21 00:01:39.719 --> 00:01:43.280 from twenty from two thousand and two to twenty twelve 22 00:01:43.599 --> 00:01:48.120 and collaborating musically with artists, including test Parts. Her official 23 00:01:48.159 --> 00:01:50.239 bio says she was born in nineteen seventy two and 24 00:01:50.280 --> 00:01:53.200 spent her early childhood on a commune in the southern 25 00:01:53.280 --> 00:01:56.400 United States, which she credits as part of her lifelong 26 00:01:56.400 --> 00:02:01.319 attraction to mysticism, the strange, and the unseen. Her TEDx 27 00:02:01.400 --> 00:02:05.640 talk asked a simple but potent question, can your dreams 28 00:02:05.680 --> 00:02:09.080 tell you something? And that same threshold sensibility seems to 29 00:02:09.159 --> 00:02:14.840 run through all her work Dreams, ritual grief, altered consciousness, symbolism, 30 00:02:15.080 --> 00:02:18.520 and the edges between ordinary life and the unseen. And 31 00:02:18.599 --> 00:02:22.240 now she's bringing that worldview into the digital age with Technomancy, 32 00:02:22.719 --> 00:02:25.560 tech Magic and Spells for the twenty first Century, which 33 00:02:26.000 --> 00:02:28.560 a two hundred and eighty two page book scheduled for 34 00:02:28.680 --> 00:02:32.120 release on May twelfth, twenty twenty six, according to the publisher, 35 00:02:32.240 --> 00:02:35.319 could be wrong, and the book explores sacred digital space, 36 00:02:35.400 --> 00:02:39.560 emoji signals, the smartphone as a modern wand social media 37 00:02:39.800 --> 00:02:45.000 as magical terrain and even ai as an oracular presence 38 00:02:45.280 --> 00:02:49.680 with magical practice. All right, that's enough out of me. 39 00:02:49.879 --> 00:02:52.800 Now let me introduce Sonre, who is co hosting the 40 00:02:52.800 --> 00:02:55.120 show with me today. Very happy to get you back 41 00:02:55.159 --> 00:02:57.000 on BUD. I like you when you're on the show. 42 00:02:57.000 --> 00:02:57.159 Man. 43 00:02:57.199 --> 00:02:59.199 You've got some good angles and great stuff to add. 44 00:02:59.599 --> 00:03:01.840 Please or let everybody know what is up with you 45 00:03:01.879 --> 00:03:03.879 and where they can find all your amazing work in 46 00:03:04.000 --> 00:03:04.479 your school. 47 00:03:05.599 --> 00:03:08.039 Yeah right, and thank you very much. Nick. I like 48 00:03:08.120 --> 00:03:09.639 doing this show. I like to thank you for more 49 00:03:09.680 --> 00:03:10.560 than I like doing my show. 50 00:03:13.400 --> 00:03:13.639 Yeah. 51 00:03:13.680 --> 00:03:15.680 My name is Sonri. I am the host of the 52 00:03:15.759 --> 00:03:19.240 Order of Chaost podcast and the Order of cast University, 53 00:03:19.840 --> 00:03:22.080 where you can, you know, come hang out with us 54 00:03:22.080 --> 00:03:24.680 if you want to and learn a system of magic 55 00:03:24.719 --> 00:03:29.159 I call chaos witchcraft god. But coming out in October 56 00:03:29.759 --> 00:03:34.400 with wiser and uh and yeah, I'm bad. Given introductions 57 00:03:34.360 --> 00:03:36.240 is good enough for awesome. 58 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:37.800 Thank you so much here and again thank you for 59 00:03:37.879 --> 00:03:41.800 joining us and Shre. Finally to you, is there anything 60 00:03:41.879 --> 00:03:43.759 that you would like to add or that I left 61 00:03:43.759 --> 00:03:45.599 out or anything you like to plug a promo? Please? 62 00:03:47.879 --> 00:03:50.039 No, No, you covered a lot. It made me feel 63 00:03:50.080 --> 00:03:52.719 like really old actually I was like, Wow, that's like 64 00:03:52.800 --> 00:03:56.120 my whole life like flashing up before my eyes. And 65 00:03:57.159 --> 00:04:00.240 but that's a good place to be to look can 66 00:04:00.240 --> 00:04:04.360 go Wow, there's some stuff that got experienced. 67 00:04:06.120 --> 00:04:09.039 You did the dance things so far, haven't you good? Good? 68 00:04:09.120 --> 00:04:12.080 Yeah, it was an impressive introduction on your partner and 69 00:04:12.120 --> 00:04:16.120 also an impressive bio and tree. I am embarrassed to 70 00:04:16.120 --> 00:04:18.160 say I was not familiar with you or your work 71 00:04:18.199 --> 00:04:21.160 before I was scheduled this meeting. But I'm taking a 72 00:04:21.160 --> 00:04:24.079 look at it now and I'm listening to a nixt 73 00:04:24.120 --> 00:04:27.279 introduction and I've already got a thousand questions. So it's 74 00:04:27.480 --> 00:04:31.800 wonderful to meet you, and very very cool, cool life 75 00:04:31.879 --> 00:04:32.319 you've led. 76 00:04:34.600 --> 00:04:37.240 Yeah, it's been a very weird and wonderful one. It's 77 00:04:37.279 --> 00:04:39.720 one of those ones where like as a kid, I 78 00:04:39.759 --> 00:04:41.839 was always scratching my head about like what am I 79 00:04:41.839 --> 00:04:43.639 going to be when I grow up. I'm just so like, 80 00:04:43.720 --> 00:04:46.600 I don't know I'll ever have a normal job, Like 81 00:04:46.639 --> 00:04:49.120 I just think that I was sort of set up 82 00:04:49.160 --> 00:04:51.319 from early childhood that I just I don't think I 83 00:04:51.319 --> 00:04:54.040 would have a normal job like I remember in the eighties. 84 00:04:54.240 --> 00:04:56.639 I think we might all be in the same age group. 85 00:04:56.920 --> 00:04:58.439 I was born in seventy two, if you guys are 86 00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:05.160 seventies eighty three. Yeah, in the eighties, it was really popular, 87 00:05:05.360 --> 00:05:08.959 especially in middle school junior high school, to to kind 88 00:05:09.000 --> 00:05:12.920 of like feed into like the old fashioned cooters, like 89 00:05:13.079 --> 00:05:16.120 your talents or skills, and then it would spew out 90 00:05:16.160 --> 00:05:20.560 this sort of like really long printed out kind of 91 00:05:21.800 --> 00:05:25.600 message of your best suit of jobs. And my best 92 00:05:25.600 --> 00:05:29.519 suited jobs were really like it didn't give me confidence. 93 00:05:31.120 --> 00:05:34.279 One of them was professional clown, which now I look 94 00:05:34.319 --> 00:05:36.720 back and think that's great, like actually like you know, 95 00:05:36.759 --> 00:05:42.920 the trickster, the clown, the pool. Another one was a 96 00:05:42.959 --> 00:05:47.560 religious leader, and I was just thinking, okay, how would 97 00:05:47.800 --> 00:05:50.199 like like a cult leader, like what does that mean? 98 00:05:50.399 --> 00:05:53.040 And then I think the third one was like an 99 00:05:53.079 --> 00:05:56.439 interior designer. But I mean look at my room, like 100 00:05:56.480 --> 00:05:59.480 I don't I don't think so, I'm I'm it's kind 101 00:05:59.480 --> 00:06:02.120 of mad and I've kind of got to organized chaos. 102 00:06:02.160 --> 00:06:06.439 So I think I feel at you knowy three year 103 00:06:06.439 --> 00:06:09.040 old now just going like phew, I made it, and 104 00:06:09.079 --> 00:06:12.040 I think I know what I do now. But it's 105 00:06:12.079 --> 00:06:14.839 all the weird stuff. It's all the weird stuff. 106 00:06:15.560 --> 00:06:17.560 Did you did you ever have a normal job. Was 107 00:06:17.600 --> 00:06:18.680 that ever a part of your path? 108 00:06:21.240 --> 00:06:24.399 Let's see, did ever have a normal job? Well, very 109 00:06:24.600 --> 00:06:29.040 first job was flipping burgers at McDonald's for like a summer, 110 00:06:29.279 --> 00:06:33.439 so I mean most teenagers were doing that, and then 111 00:06:33.600 --> 00:06:36.439 like you know, having to do the grunt work with 112 00:06:36.439 --> 00:06:40.759 with with that, and quickly uh getting out of it, 113 00:06:42.079 --> 00:06:44.399 especially as a vegan, not not the best place to 114 00:06:44.560 --> 00:06:48.279 work when you're kind of vegan. 115 00:06:49.160 --> 00:06:50.360 Some dedication right there. 116 00:06:51.920 --> 00:06:54.439 Yeah, well Lena is to say it probably lasted about 117 00:06:54.439 --> 00:06:58.120 a month, but yeah, I mean in terms of normal jobs, 118 00:06:58.160 --> 00:07:02.600 not really. I mean we're probably teenage jobs. But quickly 119 00:07:02.639 --> 00:07:04.920 I was like, I can't work for the I cannot 120 00:07:05.000 --> 00:07:08.360 work for multi death corporations and for the man. And 121 00:07:08.439 --> 00:07:13.439 so he sort of pivoted into a like just become 122 00:07:13.480 --> 00:07:16.759 an entrepreneur, just you know, just look into things that 123 00:07:16.839 --> 00:07:18.959 are your talents and make something happen of it. So 124 00:07:19.319 --> 00:07:23.040 I basically started my first business at thirty years old, 125 00:07:23.639 --> 00:07:28.680 so in London, and I opened up like a cult 126 00:07:28.720 --> 00:07:33.759 film video film shop, video shop, and film club and 127 00:07:33.800 --> 00:07:37.319 around that for a very long time in London. So yeah, 128 00:07:37.399 --> 00:07:40.279 it was kind of like I just got to do 129 00:07:40.399 --> 00:07:43.480 what makes me happy, and so all the weird stuff 130 00:07:43.519 --> 00:07:45.839 makes me happy. 131 00:07:47.199 --> 00:07:50.759 I totally get that one thing. I guess I do 132 00:07:50.839 --> 00:07:53.199 want to kind of touch on at the beginning before 133 00:07:53.199 --> 00:07:55.560 we get into it, and not to make it like 134 00:07:55.600 --> 00:07:58.319 a making it a hit piece or looking at it 135 00:07:58.360 --> 00:08:00.000 in a weird way. I do want to kind of 136 00:08:00.079 --> 00:08:01.759 to get an idea what was it like growing like 137 00:08:01.800 --> 00:08:04.480 with the Commune in the United States, growing up like that, 138 00:08:04.839 --> 00:08:06.079 Just get an idea of like, you know. 139 00:08:06.240 --> 00:08:10.759 Yeah, there were really weird times in the early seventies 140 00:08:10.800 --> 00:08:14.560 because we had a lot of change going on, especially 141 00:08:14.560 --> 00:08:18.720 in the States, and you know, the sort of hippie movement, 142 00:08:18.959 --> 00:08:24.319 the psychedelic movement, and so a lot of change, social movement, 143 00:08:24.399 --> 00:08:27.959 social change, political change, Vietnam, you name it, right, So 144 00:08:28.000 --> 00:08:31.920 there was a real hunger to sort of living differently 145 00:08:32.000 --> 00:08:37.879 at that time. And so the commune slash cult that 146 00:08:37.919 --> 00:08:42.399 I grew up in a freak commune cult. So a 147 00:08:42.399 --> 00:08:45.200 lot of people who were ex hippies, X Vietnam vets, 148 00:08:45.320 --> 00:08:49.840 and people who had drug issues, drug problems. It's these 149 00:08:49.879 --> 00:08:52.240 sort of things were really apparent back then, like the 150 00:08:52.320 --> 00:08:54.840 Children of God, the Jesus People movement, all of these 151 00:08:54.919 --> 00:08:58.639 kind of things. And was it like, well, it was 152 00:08:58.799 --> 00:09:05.200 pretty much was a big formative impression since I was 153 00:09:05.440 --> 00:09:08.679 a form child growing up in the formative years there 154 00:09:09.480 --> 00:09:13.399 no television, no radio, no pop culture, no outside influence 155 00:09:13.480 --> 00:09:18.039 in terms of very sheltered. But then also seeing all 156 00:09:18.120 --> 00:09:23.679 like the kind of like adults acting in crazy ways, 157 00:09:23.919 --> 00:09:26.960 like you know, going around on the floor, possessed by demons, 158 00:09:26.960 --> 00:09:29.360 speaking in tongues like, you know, seeing all the like 159 00:09:29.480 --> 00:09:35.320 signs and wonders that that came that belief system, and 160 00:09:35.399 --> 00:09:37.159 so that's a lot to take in as a kid. 161 00:09:37.720 --> 00:09:43.279 And the good things were seeing one of us learned 162 00:09:43.320 --> 00:09:45.519 how to play instruments, So I played tons of different 163 00:09:45.519 --> 00:09:52.360 instruments and read a lot and was creative. So it 164 00:09:52.679 --> 00:09:57.480 helped develop extreme creativity in me, I suppose. And then 165 00:09:57.519 --> 00:10:01.720 also a really deep connection to like the mystical side 166 00:10:01.759 --> 00:10:04.720 of life, like dreaming. And I had a near death 167 00:10:04.759 --> 00:10:07.320 experience when when I lived there when I was four, 168 00:10:08.039 --> 00:10:13.799 so that also really really unlocked kind of super experiencer 169 00:10:13.919 --> 00:10:20.679 kind of situations and you know all the anomalous and strange, 170 00:10:20.759 --> 00:10:24.399 high weird situations that come from coming back from the 171 00:10:24.440 --> 00:10:28.039 brink of death, you know. So that was probably the 172 00:10:28.080 --> 00:10:31.519 biggest influence for a lot of the stuff that I 173 00:10:31.559 --> 00:10:36.360 support people and hold space for people in now as well. 174 00:10:36.519 --> 00:10:41.759 That so mix I was going to say, the ND 175 00:10:42.120 --> 00:10:44.919 probably is one of the most actually impactful things in 176 00:10:44.919 --> 00:10:47.879 your life, right, Oh for sure. 177 00:10:48.120 --> 00:10:51.159 Yeah, Like it definitely was, And it wasn't really until 178 00:10:51.279 --> 00:10:54.960 you know, like you just sort of real as you 179 00:10:55.000 --> 00:10:57.480 get older and you look back, You're like, yeah, your 180 00:10:57.519 --> 00:10:59.559 death experience, Yeah, I know, you just kind of put 181 00:10:59.600 --> 00:11:01.559 it on the sho shelf of experience of life. And 182 00:11:01.559 --> 00:11:05.080 then as I got older, I started to step into 183 00:11:05.120 --> 00:11:07.080 the role of like I'm a death duelist, so I 184 00:11:07.159 --> 00:11:10.519 hold space for people who are dying. So I've been 185 00:11:10.559 --> 00:11:14.879 doing that for the last fteen years, you know, and 186 00:11:14.960 --> 00:11:17.960 looking back and connecting the dots of all my experiences, 187 00:11:18.000 --> 00:11:21.600 I was like, whoa, it all started really that near experience, 188 00:11:21.720 --> 00:11:24.039 Like that's where it all started. In fact, like when 189 00:11:24.039 --> 00:11:26.240 my dad pulled me out of the ocean after the 190 00:11:26.279 --> 00:11:32.840 near drowning. He put me back to land, and the 191 00:11:32.919 --> 00:11:35.240 first thing he did was he took out his camera 192 00:11:35.279 --> 00:11:37.840 and he took a photo of me. That would have 193 00:11:37.840 --> 00:11:41.559 been like nineteen seventy six, And like years later, when 194 00:11:41.559 --> 00:11:44.480 I was a teenager going through the photo album, I said, Dad, 195 00:11:44.480 --> 00:11:46.000 why did you take a photo of me after I 196 00:11:46.000 --> 00:11:49.840 got back from the brink death? And he said, because 197 00:11:49.879 --> 00:11:53.039 can't you see your eyes in this picture? And I 198 00:11:53.159 --> 00:11:55.960 was like, look at my eyes and thought, wow, how 199 00:11:56.039 --> 00:11:58.200 did I not see that before? Like guys are like 200 00:11:58.279 --> 00:12:02.320 two black voids? And he said, your eyes changed and 201 00:12:02.360 --> 00:12:04.759 I wanted to capture that because it was so uncanny. 202 00:12:04.799 --> 00:12:11.440 I thought, the pue my altar, so grab it and 203 00:12:11.519 --> 00:12:13.919 I need it to be on my altar because I 204 00:12:14.000 --> 00:12:17.120 need it to remind every day. I don't know if 205 00:12:17.120 --> 00:12:20.840 you can see how dark the eyes like voids? 206 00:12:22.480 --> 00:12:29.600 That absolutely wow, it looks like those It's not just 207 00:12:29.639 --> 00:12:33.799 your eyes. There's there's more going on I see, but yeah, wow. 208 00:12:34.799 --> 00:12:37.679 Yeah, so just staring into the void, I came back 209 00:12:38.360 --> 00:12:41.120 staring from the boy. So I I this lives with 210 00:12:41.159 --> 00:12:44.720 my altar because it remins me every day, momento more 211 00:12:45.360 --> 00:12:48.240 every day. It's like, you know, you I know how 212 00:12:48.240 --> 00:12:51.919 to sit with death, like I know how to hold 213 00:12:51.919 --> 00:12:55.919 compassionate presence for people who are scared to die. And 214 00:12:56.000 --> 00:12:58.159 so I have to become the four year old again, 215 00:12:58.240 --> 00:13:03.120 you know, in order to hold So yeah, anyway that 216 00:13:03.159 --> 00:13:06.919 these things shaped me into what I do today. So 217 00:13:07.519 --> 00:13:10.039 you know that list got in middle full of the 218 00:13:10.039 --> 00:13:15.679 clown and the religious leader is here, your designer. I 219 00:13:15.720 --> 00:13:17.879 don't know where that fits in, but I think what 220 00:13:17.960 --> 00:13:23.480 I'm doing now is sort of from the school of life. Really, 221 00:13:23.879 --> 00:13:27.240 you know, taught me what to do basically. 222 00:13:28.080 --> 00:13:31.799 Treat you just as taking a wild guess here, and 223 00:13:31.840 --> 00:13:34.240 I could be totally off. Just I'm just curious. You 224 00:13:34.399 --> 00:13:36.320 happen to have a lot of Scorpio in your chart. 225 00:13:38.360 --> 00:13:40.519 Yeah, I like scorpio sunn and rising. 226 00:13:42.720 --> 00:13:45.960 Astrology is so fucking real man, Yes, scored because the 227 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:49.080 scorpio loves to get close to death. Scorpio is death. 228 00:13:50.639 --> 00:13:54.039 Yeah, I know it's the eighth house kind of like, ah, 229 00:13:54.039 --> 00:13:57.080 there we go. And I've never been afraid of it. 230 00:13:57.159 --> 00:13:59.320 I mean, like even in the moments where I had 231 00:13:59.320 --> 00:14:01.759 that ND as a kid. And it's so hard to 232 00:14:01.840 --> 00:14:05.559 articulate this because obviously it's a little four year old. 233 00:14:05.600 --> 00:14:09.200 I'm not sitting there articulating it. It's like in retrospect, 234 00:14:09.399 --> 00:14:12.159 but I had a weird thing as a child where 235 00:14:12.519 --> 00:14:15.720 a really deep, deep memory, like I have memories of 236 00:14:15.799 --> 00:14:21.639 crawling around in my diaper and like very specific, veryific 237 00:14:21.759 --> 00:14:26.840 things and perspectives and vantage points even like sitting out 238 00:14:26.879 --> 00:14:29.919 in the grass and like looking at my little baby feet, 239 00:14:30.320 --> 00:14:33.240 I think like, wow, I look at my little feet. 240 00:14:33.279 --> 00:14:37.279 Like having sort of like the observer effect. I had 241 00:14:37.320 --> 00:14:40.840 that really early on SPIRED, so I was able to 242 00:14:40.960 --> 00:14:44.600 kind of like I don't know, like integrate that experience. 243 00:14:44.639 --> 00:14:46.720 But when I had the ANTE, I went to the 244 00:14:46.799 --> 00:14:50.519 whole other pace and had a real sense that the 245 00:14:50.559 --> 00:14:54.279 ocean was also conscious, and the ocean like was a 246 00:14:54.279 --> 00:14:57.039 an entity in its own right. But it did it didn't. 247 00:14:57.279 --> 00:14:59.919 It's like it was kind of like how I communed. 248 00:15:00.240 --> 00:15:02.639 It was sort of like it was saying sort of 249 00:15:02.679 --> 00:15:06.159 like it's not nothing personal, it's not personal, that you're 250 00:15:06.240 --> 00:15:09.440 doing nothing personal. And there was a sort of like 251 00:15:09.679 --> 00:15:13.200 understanding and a non attachment connected to that, like oh okay, 252 00:15:13.279 --> 00:15:15.559 and but I'm okay, I'm not in pain any like 253 00:15:15.879 --> 00:15:20.320 fucking drowning and salt water and you know, scrambling to 254 00:15:20.399 --> 00:15:23.320 try to grab those posts of the dock and it 255 00:15:23.720 --> 00:15:27.799 sliced my up from the barnacles and I just went 256 00:15:27.840 --> 00:15:30.840 to this other place. But what was what really impacted 257 00:15:30.879 --> 00:15:33.679 me was that I was shown like I had I 258 00:15:33.840 --> 00:15:35.960 was like a nonlinear time and I was able to 259 00:15:35.960 --> 00:15:39.080 see like what was coming next like the future, and 260 00:15:39.159 --> 00:15:43.120 I saw like all the emergency vehicles land to the beach, 261 00:15:43.279 --> 00:15:47.639 like getting there, my parents giving reports, my parents distraught, 262 00:15:47.720 --> 00:15:51.080 like beyond belief, and them never finding my body again. 263 00:15:51.559 --> 00:15:54.480 And the grief I felt for my parents and empathy 264 00:15:54.519 --> 00:15:59.000 and compaction I felt for them was unbelievable, was like cosmic. 265 00:15:59.080 --> 00:16:02.200 It was I can't oh, it's like deep love and 266 00:16:02.279 --> 00:16:05.000 knowing like I've always been with them and they've always 267 00:16:05.000 --> 00:16:08.559 been with us all together, and uh, I had more 268 00:16:08.639 --> 00:16:12.559 concern for them they did about me being dead or dying. 269 00:16:12.720 --> 00:16:17.000 You know. It was very interesting and so yeah, that's 270 00:16:17.120 --> 00:16:20.080 kind of I think one of the big initiators of 271 00:16:20.080 --> 00:16:24.679 my life and in a very scorpio moment. So it's 272 00:16:24.799 --> 00:16:26.960 it's made me not afraid of death. Like literally, like 273 00:16:28.200 --> 00:16:31.879 a few years later, my grandpa died and I understood 274 00:16:32.120 --> 00:16:35.240 where he went, like I just kind of understood, all 275 00:16:35.360 --> 00:16:37.600 is okay, And when they are in the casket at 276 00:16:37.639 --> 00:16:39.639 the wake, I was super comfortable just going up to 277 00:16:39.679 --> 00:16:42.159 him holding putting my hand in the casket and holding 278 00:16:42.159 --> 00:16:45.919 his hand and touching him and by real going what 279 00:16:45.960 --> 00:16:48.480 are you doing? You can't do that? But then I 280 00:16:48.519 --> 00:16:50.639 was like the teenager that was like, you know, when 281 00:16:50.679 --> 00:16:52.720 there was a death in the circle of my mother 282 00:16:52.840 --> 00:16:55.960 or granny's family, like, oh, come to the wake, I'd 283 00:16:56.000 --> 00:16:59.080 be like, all right, little weirdo, Okay, yeah, sure you 284 00:16:59.120 --> 00:17:03.639 can come around. So it's always like very scorpio, just 285 00:17:03.919 --> 00:17:06.319 comfortable around that. I wanted to be around it and 286 00:17:06.880 --> 00:17:09.160 not in a morbid way, but I just kind of 287 00:17:09.160 --> 00:17:11.880 felt like, I don't know, just I need to be 288 00:17:11.920 --> 00:17:16.119 in those spaces to help people. So a bit of 289 00:17:16.119 --> 00:17:17.920 that service orientated. 290 00:17:18.519 --> 00:17:22.359 That's okyo, Yeah, that's wild. Pick that scorpios on it. 291 00:17:24.359 --> 00:17:29.480 Well, I'm in my observation right just from doing this 292 00:17:29.559 --> 00:17:33.559 for for half my life. A little more scorpio, the 293 00:17:33.640 --> 00:17:37.279 more scorpio energy, more scorpial placements you have in your chart, 294 00:17:37.319 --> 00:17:41.640 the more people around you will die or the other 295 00:17:41.680 --> 00:17:45.000 option is that you will die and come back, And 296 00:17:45.160 --> 00:17:48.039 the stronger the scorpio placements, the more likely that is. 297 00:17:48.519 --> 00:17:52.240 And it's you know, astrologies. I'm not going to sit 298 00:17:52.240 --> 00:17:54.799 here and say it's one hundred per always dead on accurate, 299 00:17:54.880 --> 00:17:58.039 but it's like ninety eight percent fucking dead on accurate. 300 00:17:59.079 --> 00:18:01.319 You know, there's always at the rule, but. 301 00:18:03.559 --> 00:18:06.319 It tracks, and that's interesting what you say about like 302 00:18:06.440 --> 00:18:10.400 a load of deaths around you, because I basically had 303 00:18:10.440 --> 00:18:13.960 these uncanny synchronicities all my life, really initiated as a 304 00:18:14.000 --> 00:18:18.559 teenager where I have a lot of friends who are 305 00:18:18.640 --> 00:18:21.759 dying or their parents were, and I was really there 306 00:18:21.839 --> 00:18:25.559 for those situations but without fear. And then these crazy 307 00:18:25.759 --> 00:18:30.240 episodes which have been following my whole life where I'm 308 00:18:30.400 --> 00:18:34.279 in about public and I'm the person who is there 309 00:18:34.440 --> 00:18:38.319 when someone's run over by a car, someone is thrown 310 00:18:38.359 --> 00:18:43.359 off their bike, somebody has fainted on the escalator and 311 00:18:43.480 --> 00:18:45.799 or fallen down the stairs, and they're like literally I'm 312 00:18:45.839 --> 00:18:48.519 the first there. And it got to the point where 313 00:18:48.599 --> 00:18:52.880 it's happened so much, my friends and my partner pointing 314 00:18:52.880 --> 00:18:55.039 it out like every time we go out something like 315 00:18:55.480 --> 00:18:58.039 you know, I started getting the complex like I sort 316 00:18:58.039 --> 00:19:01.960 of like you know, grim Reaper or something that was 317 00:19:01.960 --> 00:19:05.920 making it happen. But one of the biggest moments that 318 00:19:06.119 --> 00:19:10.640 happened I did finally say, okay, Universe, what's going on, 319 00:19:10.759 --> 00:19:13.400 what's this all about? And did a bit of dream 320 00:19:13.440 --> 00:19:17.359 work around it. It was like within a very short 321 00:19:17.400 --> 00:19:20.000 amount of time and within a year period in London, 322 00:19:20.440 --> 00:19:24.079 like I kept getting it over and over where people 323 00:19:24.119 --> 00:19:28.039 were literally falling at my feet in these accidents. I 324 00:19:28.079 --> 00:19:33.359 had this one situation on Carnaby Street in London. It 325 00:19:33.400 --> 00:19:36.319 was a busy Christmas season. I was walking down the 326 00:19:36.319 --> 00:19:38.839 street and it was really crowded, so it's not, you know, 327 00:19:39.559 --> 00:19:41.680 unusual for a person just to stop dead in their 328 00:19:41.720 --> 00:19:45.200 tracks and like throughout they're going. But this guy stopped 329 00:19:45.200 --> 00:19:47.799 dead in his tracks and then he started to slowly 330 00:19:47.839 --> 00:19:50.920 fall backwards into me and I like caught him and 331 00:19:50.960 --> 00:19:53.960 as he was down, like what is going on? I 332 00:19:54.000 --> 00:19:55.799 saw that he had a needle that he had just 333 00:19:56.119 --> 00:19:59.319 plunged into his arm and he was o ding and 334 00:19:59.559 --> 00:20:03.640 literally od in my arms and so you know, obviously 335 00:20:03.680 --> 00:20:07.559 called the emergency services and got him there. They saved 336 00:20:07.559 --> 00:20:10.720 his life, but it was like I'm falling into my 337 00:20:10.839 --> 00:20:13.680 arms kind of thing. Like that's just one example, but 338 00:20:13.759 --> 00:20:16.160 one that I'll just circle back to. This sort of 339 00:20:16.160 --> 00:20:20.359 like scorpio thing where it doesn't like causing this was 340 00:20:21.279 --> 00:20:24.160 like at another market in London, walking down the street 341 00:20:24.200 --> 00:20:27.480 in October and this man was in front of me, 342 00:20:28.279 --> 00:20:32.440 a big, big guy, and he stumbled and leaned against 343 00:20:32.440 --> 00:20:34.880 the wall and so like it was kind of like 344 00:20:35.119 --> 00:20:37.839 looked like he might have fallen to me. So I 345 00:20:37.920 --> 00:20:40.039 kind of propped up and went, hey, are you okay? 346 00:20:40.480 --> 00:20:43.640 Would you like to come sit down on this bench? 347 00:20:44.359 --> 00:20:47.039 And as soon as I touched he started to crumble 348 00:20:47.079 --> 00:20:49.839 and I just had a no one like this is serious. 349 00:20:50.359 --> 00:20:53.160 And he went down and he was turning purple and 350 00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:57.920 like clutching his chest. He was having a massive cardiac arrest, 351 00:20:58.000 --> 00:21:00.720 so like a lot of panic, and so we were 352 00:21:00.759 --> 00:21:04.000 like giving him CPR and like a few of us 353 00:21:04.279 --> 00:21:06.240 were having a go at really trying to help him 354 00:21:06.279 --> 00:21:11.759 while people called emergency services. And literally I just this 355 00:21:11.839 --> 00:21:14.880 is knowing, like this guy is going to die. And 356 00:21:14.960 --> 00:21:17.440 so while they were everyone's trying to help and work 357 00:21:17.440 --> 00:21:20.160 on him, I was just keeping his head in my 358 00:21:20.279 --> 00:21:24.880 lap and just literally stroking his arm, saying you're not alone, 359 00:21:25.599 --> 00:21:28.880 You're not alone, You're not alone. And his eyes were 360 00:21:29.079 --> 00:21:33.799 fixed open and up into the sky and streams of tears. 361 00:21:33.920 --> 00:21:36.920 Just it was like he could see something. It was 362 00:21:36.920 --> 00:21:41.319 like looking into the realms and and his last breath 363 00:21:41.480 --> 00:21:45.119 just on the exhale he passed, and it was like, 364 00:21:45.279 --> 00:21:48.200 what the fuck was the Sufky comedy to be? And 365 00:21:48.519 --> 00:21:51.880 it was like a community thing because it was just me, 366 00:21:52.000 --> 00:21:54.720 there's a few other people and then we heard this 367 00:21:54.799 --> 00:21:59.720 woman start screaming. About a minute later, by this time, 368 00:21:59.799 --> 00:22:02.359 the ambulance came and they were like liberating this guy. 369 00:22:03.000 --> 00:22:05.480 It was awful because it was like he had already 370 00:22:05.480 --> 00:22:07.839 been dead for a good twenty minutes, but they have 371 00:22:07.960 --> 00:22:12.200 to try. And this woman and these two women and 372 00:22:12.240 --> 00:22:15.400 this child came running back and they're like, dad, Dad, 373 00:22:16.279 --> 00:22:18.599 And they came back. They had were walking ahead in 374 00:22:18.640 --> 00:22:20.559 the market and they didn't realize that their dad had 375 00:22:20.680 --> 00:22:24.799 like kind of fallen behind and had this situation happened. 376 00:22:24.839 --> 00:22:29.240 So they came back and found their their dad and 377 00:22:29.359 --> 00:22:32.640 husband and son. Because it was the mother, the wife 378 00:22:32.640 --> 00:22:35.680 and the child to see that, and I just they 379 00:22:35.720 --> 00:22:38.920 were freaked, and I just was hugging them like a 380 00:22:38.960 --> 00:22:41.000 total stranger and like hugging with them. I stayed with 381 00:22:41.039 --> 00:22:44.599 them all day, you know, hugging and like gave them 382 00:22:44.599 --> 00:22:47.039 my number. And it was so it was that that 383 00:22:47.200 --> 00:22:49.319 situation where I said to the universe, like, what is 384 00:22:49.359 --> 00:22:52.240 going on? Like, am I some kind of grimmer? Yeah? 385 00:22:52.400 --> 00:22:58.799 The triple scorpio thing, And the universe gave me the answer. 386 00:22:58.920 --> 00:23:00.480 When I was waking up in the morn, warning like 387 00:23:00.519 --> 00:23:04.680 a succession of like visions in the pompic state, and 388 00:23:04.720 --> 00:23:07.480 it was like literally a connect the dots situation, like 389 00:23:07.720 --> 00:23:12.440 since you're near death, experience this this stuff all through 390 00:23:12.440 --> 00:23:14.559 your life with these people falling at your feet and 391 00:23:15.240 --> 00:23:17.839 you know, in grave danger or on the urge of 392 00:23:17.880 --> 00:23:20.920 death or dying arms. This is happening for a reason, 393 00:23:20.920 --> 00:23:23.559 because this is what you're meant to be doing. And 394 00:23:23.599 --> 00:23:26.359 so I woke up with this Eureka moment, like meant 395 00:23:26.400 --> 00:23:29.440 to be doing? Like what are you, like, like, I'm 396 00:23:29.480 --> 00:23:32.119 not a paraetic, Like I'm not a nurse, I'm not 397 00:23:32.160 --> 00:23:35.640 a paramedic, you know. So I got on to Google 398 00:23:35.680 --> 00:23:38.759 because it is kind of tech oracle kind of thing 399 00:23:38.799 --> 00:23:41.240 to do sometimes when you're like stumped, and I just 400 00:23:41.319 --> 00:23:44.640 typed in like emotional support at death, because that I mean, 401 00:23:44.680 --> 00:23:48.079