WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.120 --> 00:00:06.839 From workhouse connect in aj Benze fame. Uh, he'd liked 2 00:00:06.839 --> 00:00:09.119 to be walked on a leash and play really dirty 3 00:00:09.279 --> 00:00:12.519 kinky sex games. Is h the guy put the cock 4 00:00:12.800 --> 00:00:17.719 in the peacock network. Okay, bitch, Hey, everybody aj Benzi 5 00:00:17.760 --> 00:00:19.960 here with fame? Is it? Bitch? This is your daily 6 00:00:20.039 --> 00:00:27.600 Unfiltered podcast for December twelfth. Right, why do I always 7 00:00:27.640 --> 00:00:31.280 get the goddamn date? I know this date? Yeah, it's 8 00:00:31.280 --> 00:00:35.759 for December twelfth. All right, we're you know, we're twelve twelve, 9 00:00:35.920 --> 00:00:39.479 two oh two four. It's a great date. I know. 10 00:00:39.560 --> 00:00:42.359 I know why I got thrown off because today, as 11 00:00:42.399 --> 00:00:47.439 I'm recording, this is the eleventh of December, and uh 12 00:00:48.719 --> 00:00:54.439 tomorrow meeting. Today is you know, Frank Sinatra's birthday. Where 13 00:00:54.439 --> 00:00:56.880 I used to take Rocco to a restaurant in Beverly 14 00:00:56.960 --> 00:01:01.960 Hills called adolce Vita where Frank used to eat, and 15 00:01:02.000 --> 00:01:05.879 there's a booth with a plaque with his name on it. 16 00:01:05.920 --> 00:01:10.280 Across from his booth there's a Ronald Reagan booth and 17 00:01:12.640 --> 00:01:16.040 several years ago I took Rocko there to eat and 18 00:01:16.120 --> 00:01:21.040 have the sandabs. Oh sanddabs is so good, and of 19 00:01:21.079 --> 00:01:24.159 course I had to have Jack dangels on the rocks, 20 00:01:24.200 --> 00:01:28.400 just like Frank used to love. But those days are 21 00:01:28.439 --> 00:01:32.200 behind me anyhow. It's also like I said, the day 22 00:01:32.239 --> 00:01:38.480 that my nephew died, Jackie two years ago today, that's hard. 23 00:01:38.760 --> 00:01:44.799 It's hard, you know. I think about him so many 24 00:01:44.840 --> 00:01:48.079 times a day, and I try to say his name 25 00:01:48.120 --> 00:01:50.439 every day. You know. I don't know if you guys 26 00:01:50.480 --> 00:01:54.200 do that when you're missing a loved one, but especially 27 00:01:54.239 --> 00:01:58.200 a loved one you just never fucking thought would be gone. 28 00:01:58.319 --> 00:02:02.680 Like you know, I'm used to seeing people like my 29 00:02:02.719 --> 00:02:06.719 mother and father sick for a long time and then dying, 30 00:02:06.799 --> 00:02:10.199 my sister Lorraine sick for a while with cancer dying. 31 00:02:12.479 --> 00:02:15.759 I don't do well with my loved ones just disappearing 32 00:02:15.759 --> 00:02:19.800 in a day. That's hard. And I remember when it happened. 33 00:02:19.840 --> 00:02:23.800 You guys were there, many of you when I was 34 00:02:23.800 --> 00:02:27.280 at Rosalie's in Chicago and it was obviously Christmas time, 35 00:02:27.360 --> 00:02:31.840 and Jackie, even though he was fifty years old, still 36 00:02:31.919 --> 00:02:34.400 called his mother once or twice a day. That's the 37 00:02:34.479 --> 00:02:40.479 relationship we have with our Rosalie, and that was his mom, 38 00:02:40.599 --> 00:02:45.000 so of course he always did it. She's has always 39 00:02:45.000 --> 00:02:49.680 been great at giving us guidance and support and honesty, 40 00:02:51.680 --> 00:02:55.680 and he didn't call. I wonder why Jackie didn't call. 41 00:02:55.800 --> 00:02:58.280 I don't know. Ro It could be maybe he's working 42 00:02:58.400 --> 00:03:01.280 extra time to make money, you know, yeah, it could 43 00:03:01.360 --> 00:03:05.240 be the night time comes, no call again, and she's 44 00:03:05.319 --> 00:03:08.080 calling him, he's not picking up. He j what do 45 00:03:08.120 --> 00:03:12.120 I do? What do I do? This is row. We 46 00:03:12.199 --> 00:03:14.039 got to do a welfare check. I mean, this is 47 00:03:14.120 --> 00:03:16.199 this is a whole day and night. Now he hasn't 48 00:03:16.199 --> 00:03:19.240 called you, hasn't answered your calls or text. This is 49 00:03:19.280 --> 00:03:23.439 not good. The hardest thing was to do that welfare 50 00:03:23.639 --> 00:03:27.599 check man, because you know once you'd do that, you know, 51 00:03:28.240 --> 00:03:31.439 even though what's already happened has happened, but you're more 52 00:03:31.520 --> 00:03:34.520 or less leaving it up to the gods, like we 53 00:03:34.639 --> 00:03:37.719 give up. We need someone to go check. And you 54 00:03:37.960 --> 00:03:44.479 feel so helpless when you give that information to people 55 00:03:44.560 --> 00:03:48.599 who can go do the checking. And of course it 56 00:03:48.680 --> 00:03:54.520 came back. You know, he was dead and sitting on 57 00:03:54.560 --> 00:03:57.840 the floor with his back against the couch, which he 58 00:03:58.120 --> 00:04:01.479 always did when he watched TV when I stayed with him, 59 00:04:01.479 --> 00:04:03.520 when I lived with him, I laid down on the 60 00:04:03.560 --> 00:04:06.159 couch to the left and he sat on the floor 61 00:04:06.879 --> 00:04:12.000 and kept kissing and playing with his two Yorkies, I 62 00:04:12.199 --> 00:04:16.040 Con and Jake. That's just the relationship they had. He 63 00:04:16.160 --> 00:04:18.920 let them crawl all over him and kiss him and 64 00:04:18.959 --> 00:04:24.160 lick him, and you know, and to know that he 65 00:04:24.199 --> 00:04:31.800 was there in that spot, I could only imagine what 66 00:04:31.839 --> 00:04:34.439 those little dog hees felt, you know what I mean. 67 00:04:34.480 --> 00:04:39.920 I'll sad. Oh God, I'm sorry to start to show 68 00:04:39.920 --> 00:04:44.439 off like this, but you know when Rosalie. I woke 69 00:04:44.560 --> 00:04:47.120 up to a text this morning with Rosie reminding us 70 00:04:48.399 --> 00:04:52.399 us being me, Joey and Joey's wife Julia, that today's 71 00:04:52.399 --> 00:04:57.839 two years since Jackie left us and I can't stand it. 72 00:04:58.319 --> 00:05:10.879 I can't stand it, you know, I'm sorry. Christmas time 73 00:05:10.959 --> 00:05:15.199 tomorrow is my sister Lorraine's birthday, who's gone. And of 74 00:05:15.199 --> 00:05:17.920 course my mother is a December twenty fifth when she died, 75 00:05:18.279 --> 00:05:22.680 you know, on Christmas morning. Either way, you know, we 76 00:05:22.720 --> 00:05:24.560 get through it, we get tough, we get through it. 77 00:05:24.800 --> 00:05:30.439 But when you lose people during the holidays, man, and 78 00:05:30.600 --> 00:05:32.519 there's some of you out there right now that are 79 00:05:32.560 --> 00:05:37.240 going through the same shit, it is tough. And I 80 00:05:37.279 --> 00:05:39.199 said it once and I don't think I can do 81 00:05:39.240 --> 00:05:43.519 it again. But she could go with Rosalie and jack 82 00:05:45.000 --> 00:05:51.199 to the Morgue and having to get on a plane 83 00:05:52.160 --> 00:05:54.920 and make arrangements at the last minute to go to 84 00:05:55.360 --> 00:06:00.079 Los Angeles from Chicago within ours because we got the 85 00:06:00.120 --> 00:06:03.439 message at like midnight. Now we gotta find a fucking 86 00:06:03.480 --> 00:06:06.319 plane to go. And we found something in five, six 87 00:06:06.360 --> 00:06:10.480 am whatever it was. We're tired, no one slept. You're 88 00:06:10.519 --> 00:06:15.680 sitting on an airplane and the thought of hey, we're 89 00:06:15.680 --> 00:06:20.079 gonna come down the aisle. There's coffee, water, alcohol, beverages, 90 00:06:20.360 --> 00:06:22.800 and it's like, oh, I guess the world just goes on. 91 00:06:24.079 --> 00:06:26.759 Of course it does. I know that, and you find 92 00:06:26.759 --> 00:06:33.279 yourself partaking in what the world goes on with And 93 00:06:33.319 --> 00:06:35.240 I look at Rosalie and Jackie. Yeah, I need to 94 00:06:35.240 --> 00:06:37.480 fucking drink. I don't care if it's nine am. I 95 00:06:37.519 --> 00:06:41.600 need to fucking drink. We gotta go, id Jackie. If ever, 96 00:06:41.759 --> 00:06:45.759 I didn't want to be straight, it's right now, and 97 00:06:46.560 --> 00:06:56.639 you know, we all did. I remember saying we got 98 00:06:56.680 --> 00:07:01.480 to the mortuary, I said, ROI cankle in, Okay, I said, bro, 99 00:07:01.560 --> 00:07:11.800 I just I can't walk in there. And then I 100 00:07:11.839 --> 00:07:15.560 saw her and jack just like getting ready to do it, 101 00:07:15.639 --> 00:07:22.720 you know, And I said, well, fuck, they can't be alone, 102 00:07:23.600 --> 00:07:32.160 I'll be with them, and it is the worst experience ever. Okay, 103 00:07:32.199 --> 00:07:36.240 I gotta stop this. I'm sorry. My glasses were fogging up. 104 00:07:36.279 --> 00:07:42.480 I'm crying. The headsets pissing me off, fucking work. Okay, 105 00:07:42.519 --> 00:07:50.839 I'm sorry. I just can't take this shit. So many 106 00:07:50.920 --> 00:08:00.680 assholes in this world are still breathing and walking fucking 107 00:08:00.759 --> 00:08:09.279 hot all right, anyhow, Oh, I'm sorry, Gang. I just 108 00:08:09.319 --> 00:08:14.040 saw President Biden like an asshole trying to convince people 109 00:08:14.079 --> 00:08:18.560 because he said that he handed over the best economy 110 00:08:18.920 --> 00:08:23.240 in the history of America to Donald Trump. He I mean, 111 00:08:24.720 --> 00:08:29.560 how could anybody number one believe it? Number two deliver 112 00:08:29.720 --> 00:08:34.480 that line while keeping a straight face. I hope he 113 00:08:34.480 --> 00:08:36.879 shited his pants while he said that he's done it 114 00:08:36.919 --> 00:08:40.279 before he did it in the Vatican. I hope he 115 00:08:40.480 --> 00:08:44.639 shit his pants when he said I'm handing h Donald 116 00:08:44.679 --> 00:08:49.480 Trump the best economy the America's ever had. Really, Okay, Bernie, 117 00:08:49.480 --> 00:08:53.240 go back to the beach, you clown. Listen. I don't 118 00:08:53.279 --> 00:08:57.559 want to jump on a very old and infirmed man, 119 00:08:57.720 --> 00:09:01.799 but if he's gonna say shit like this and lie 120 00:09:01.879 --> 00:09:07.480 through his ugly capped teeth, then I gotta talk. The 121 00:09:07.519 --> 00:09:10.679 price of food is up twenty three percent, housing twenty 122 00:09:10.679 --> 00:09:14.960 three percent, energy twenty nine percent higher electricity, same thing, 123 00:09:15.440 --> 00:09:21.279 car insurance. You ready, it's up fifty seven percent. Overall, 124 00:09:21.559 --> 00:09:26.759 just living your life is twenty five percent more difficult, 125 00:09:29.080 --> 00:09:34.000 fucking idiots. Anyway, Look, I'm not gonna. I will say 126 00:09:34.039 --> 00:09:41.799 something fun about Christmas time and Jackie and oh my god, 127 00:09:42.000 --> 00:09:49.080 stop crying, fucking plussy. I'm nine years old when Jackie 128 00:09:49.120 --> 00:09:58.320 was born, right, and as the years went on, obviously 129 00:09:58.399 --> 00:10:05.840 we bathed together, played together. But during the Christmas time 130 00:10:07.120 --> 00:10:11.679 so fun. You know, we had so many gifts. It 131 00:10:11.720 --> 00:10:15.559 was like it was rude. It was rude. How many 132 00:10:15.600 --> 00:10:19.320 gifts were around my mother's tree. I mean, it was 133 00:10:19.399 --> 00:10:24.720 just crazy. Rosalie would bring over her presence from next door. 134 00:10:24.840 --> 00:10:28.200 Lorraine and Frankie would would bring theirs over and that 135 00:10:28.240 --> 00:10:31.200 would match my mother's total. And I mean the fucking 136 00:10:31.399 --> 00:10:35.279 presence were not only around the tree, but they went 137 00:10:35.360 --> 00:10:38.919 down the fucking hallway on cursing Lie apologize. They went 138 00:10:39.000 --> 00:10:42.759 down the hallway and I would stay home from school. 139 00:10:42.840 --> 00:10:45.039 My mother knew, like, okay, a j you can stay 140 00:10:45.159 --> 00:10:48.879 from school. Because I used to love to take my 141 00:10:49.080 --> 00:10:52.679 army men, right, my little army men. Rosalie would buy 142 00:10:52.799 --> 00:10:57.320 me packages of army men in the late sixties early seventies. 143 00:10:57.360 --> 00:11:01.600 She stopped at a five and ten cent store Row Road. 144 00:11:01.679 --> 00:11:05.000 By me army men, That's what I always said to her. RORO, 145 00:11:05.080 --> 00:11:09.840 by me army men. Okay, she's twenty one. I'm four 146 00:11:09.919 --> 00:11:12.799 or five years old. And I would take these army 147 00:11:12.840 --> 00:11:15.399 men and put them in all the boxes around the tree, right, 148 00:11:16.480 --> 00:11:18.840 and I would like it would be their mountain, you know, 149 00:11:18.879 --> 00:11:21.879 where they can shoot people and be snipers and get killed. 150 00:11:21.879 --> 00:11:26.960 And I would sit there and put these little army 151 00:11:27.039 --> 00:11:30.799 men around the boxes. And Mia Mary would always make 152 00:11:30.879 --> 00:11:40.960 fun of me because she would hear me go, go, oh, Age, 153 00:11:41.039 --> 00:11:45.759 are you killing everybody? Hey? Mary, stop stop talking. Oh 154 00:11:45.840 --> 00:11:48.600 my god, you're killing so many people all right. You know. 155 00:11:49.600 --> 00:11:54.600 She just wanted to get involved. And then Jackie would 156 00:11:54.679 --> 00:11:57.360 join me. When I saw Jackie was young enough and 157 00:11:57.399 --> 00:12:00.600 he started to like army men, there would I didn't 158 00:12:00.600 --> 00:12:02.360 want to go to school. I wanted to stay home 159 00:12:02.440 --> 00:12:09.120 with him and play with those army figurines on the 160 00:12:09.120 --> 00:12:15.960 boxes around the Christmas tree. Oh God, I'm sorry, guys, 161 00:12:16.000 --> 00:12:23.000 this is so stupid. I couldn't anticipate this anyhow, Let 162 00:12:23.039 --> 00:12:26.960 me try to laugh. You know, Rosalie, as we got 163 00:12:27.000 --> 00:12:33.840 older and became young men and men roll with, you know, 164 00:12:34.840 --> 00:12:38.519 buy the most presents for all of us. But she 165 00:12:38.559 --> 00:12:41.799 would always do this thing that we would always malign 166 00:12:41.879 --> 00:12:44.720 her for and give her a shit for. You know, 167 00:12:44.799 --> 00:12:49.240 she'd see a shirt at Macy's that she deemed this 168 00:12:49.480 --> 00:12:53.320 is a beautiful shirt my brother and my son's need 169 00:12:53.879 --> 00:12:56.519 for the next dinner party, for the next whatever the fuck, 170 00:12:57.080 --> 00:13:01.480 and she'd buy us all the same shirt. And then inevitably, 171 00:13:01.519 --> 00:13:04.440 on Christmas Eve, as we're opening our gifts, Me, Joey 172 00:13:04.480 --> 00:13:07.360 and Jackie would give us so much shit. Ma, bro, 173 00:13:08.519 --> 00:13:11.600 why do we have the same purple fucking shirts? I 174 00:13:11.639 --> 00:13:14.399 don't know. It's good, you look good in purple. It's 175 00:13:14.519 --> 00:13:18.000 light purple, it's not dark purple, I know, but why 176 00:13:18.039 --> 00:13:21.720 do we have the same shirts? A row? And Jackie 177 00:13:21.759 --> 00:13:26.000 and joy Ma just stop doing this. But it became 178 00:13:26.039 --> 00:13:31.200 a thing. And you know, Jackie's thing was to wrap 179 00:13:31.279 --> 00:13:34.679 gifts up for his family and just it could be 180 00:13:34.799 --> 00:13:36.919 like a little diff but he put it in a 181 00:13:36.960 --> 00:13:39.559 big ass box. Then they open it up and it's 182 00:13:39.559 --> 00:13:42.080 a smaller box like a Russian doll kind of thing, 183 00:13:42.399 --> 00:13:44.480 and it took ten to fifteen minutes to get to 184 00:13:44.519 --> 00:13:53.399 the present. We all did that shit anyhow. I know 185 00:13:53.600 --> 00:13:56.000 I'm emotional because you know it's two years to day, 186 00:13:56.200 --> 00:14:02.879 but also because what I mentioned gone, My birthdays tomorrow 187 00:14:03.919 --> 00:14:11.679 and Christmas time. We just we had a ball who 188 00:14:11.720 --> 00:14:16.919 didn't right? Okay, I gotta stop. I'm sorry, it's been 189 00:14:17.200 --> 00:14:24.039 fourteen minutes to be blubbering. I'm really sorry. But some 190 00:14:24.080 --> 00:14:26.679 of you listen because I'm real. I don't, you know, 191 00:14:26.879 --> 00:14:32.519 hide my emotions. So in the podcast game, that's good 192 00:14:33.399 --> 00:14:36.000 speaking the podcast. I was listening this morning to uh 193 00:14:36.200 --> 00:14:41.639 Joe Rogan had Quentin Tarantino and Roger Avery on. I'm 194 00:14:41.679 --> 00:14:43.960 not sure how many of you guys know Roger Avery, 195 00:14:44.399 --> 00:14:48.120 Quentin Tarantino's partner. He was a screenwriter, still is a screenwriter. 196 00:14:48.159 --> 00:14:52.399 I'm very, very talented, and they you know what a 197 00:14:52.399 --> 00:14:54.559 lot of people don't remember or don't care to know, 198 00:14:54.759 --> 00:14:58.039 is Roger Avery. After they got famous with pulp fiction 199 00:14:58.159 --> 00:15:03.039 and reservoir dogs, Roger Avery had a big old car 200 00:15:03.080 --> 00:15:10.519 crash up in Ojai, California, And you know he was 201 00:15:10.600 --> 00:15:14.759 driving in speeds excess an excess of one hundred miles 202 00:15:14.759 --> 00:15:19.399 an hour, wrap his car run a telephone pole. He 203 00:15:19.440 --> 00:15:25.919 was drinking and a guy in his car was a 204 00:15:25.919 --> 00:15:30.799 friend from Italy who just was a newlywed. He died 205 00:15:31.679 --> 00:15:35.240 and Roger Avery's wife was seriously injured. But this guy 206 00:15:35.399 --> 00:15:40.240 died and you know, that put Roger Avery in jail 207 00:15:40.480 --> 00:15:45.720 for a year and a five year you know, probationary 208 00:15:45.840 --> 00:15:49.440 kind of situation. But I mean, the guy was an 209 00:15:49.480 --> 00:15:54.720 Oscar winning screenwriter on pulp fiction and he got a 210 00:15:54.840 --> 00:15:58.679 jail sentence behind bars. But what he did, and I'm 211 00:15:58.720 --> 00:16:03.200 bringing this up because you know I've said this before. 212 00:16:03.320 --> 00:16:08.639 Hold on, yeah, I'm sorry, I've been crying for fifteen minutes. 213 00:16:08.919 --> 00:16:12.039 I've said this before. But you know, people who need 214 00:16:12.080 --> 00:16:16.720 to write, people who live to write, doesn't matter where 215 00:16:16.720 --> 00:16:19.440 they are. They got to get their words down on paper. 216 00:16:20.039 --> 00:16:24.039 And Roger Avery is I'm not gonna say languishing, but 217 00:16:24.080 --> 00:16:26.639 he's in a prison. It's kind of a country club 218 00:16:26.759 --> 00:16:31.200 kind of place. But still the door shut, you don't 219 00:16:31.240 --> 00:16:35.840 have freedom. There's still a hole that he was in 220 00:16:35.960 --> 00:16:38.480 that you have to deal with. Where you sit next 221 00:16:38.480 --> 00:16:41.919 to the bucket you shit in and piss in. It's awful, 222 00:16:42.720 --> 00:16:46.559 but you know, he was the main reason why that 223 00:16:46.600 --> 00:16:52.960 person died. So that's the punishment. But the fact that 224 00:16:53.159 --> 00:16:58.200 Roger Avery would go to Twitter somehow while he was 225 00:16:58.279 --> 00:17:02.080 in jail, and he would go through these, you know, 226 00:17:02.639 --> 00:17:06.799 one hundred and forty character takes, and he began to 227 00:17:06.920 --> 00:17:10.720 build up a really a vivid portrait of what it 228 00:17:10.799 --> 00:17:14.279 was like to be in Ventura County jail. And he 229 00:17:14.720 --> 00:17:19.519 would he would tweet things out like sickness spreads throughout 230 00:17:19.559 --> 00:17:24.839 the facility, like brush fires, and number thirty four, which 231 00:17:24.920 --> 00:17:29.039 was him, Number thirty four is helpless to avoid the 232 00:17:29.079 --> 00:17:36.319 outbreak and inevitable infection. And you know, God, I've only 233 00:17:36.359 --> 00:17:40.880 been in jail three different times for twelve hours. It's 234 00:17:41.240 --> 00:17:43.880 it's the worst feeling when the door shuts behind you, 235 00:17:43.960 --> 00:17:47.000 when the fucking blogoney sandwich comes out, when the lights 236 00:17:47.000 --> 00:17:53.319 are still on and you're in a fucking you're in 237 00:17:53.400 --> 00:17:57.519 a cell with ten guys man and they got to 238 00:17:57.559 --> 00:17:59.680 take a shit in front of you, and the lights 239 00:17:59.680 --> 00:18:02.519 are on. The lights don't get dim when it's nighttime. 240 00:18:02.799 --> 00:18:05.759 The lights are on and there's a guy across and 241 00:18:05.799 --> 00:18:08.359 you're taking a dump and it's diarrhea and it's four 242 00:18:08.400 --> 00:18:10.400 point thirty in the morning and there's a light on 243 00:18:10.599 --> 00:18:12.880 and we all see him and smell him and hear it. 244 00:18:14.039 --> 00:18:16.079 And there's another guy in the corner pissing in the 245 00:18:16.119 --> 00:18:21.160 corner because the toilet's not available. It's horrible. And that's 246 00:18:21.200 --> 00:18:26.440 only twelve hours in. So Roger Avery went through this 247 00:18:26.599 --> 00:18:33.880 awful shit, and he admits he deserved it. But he 248 00:18:33.960 --> 00:18:37.039 got a year in jail, five years probation and for 249 00:18:37.160 --> 00:18:42.480 that man's thought to charge. But what he did while 250 00:18:42.480 --> 00:18:44.839 he was in there, I mean, everybody thought that's the 251 00:18:45.000 --> 00:18:49.119 end of his writing career. Right in nineteen ninety five, 252 00:18:49.240 --> 00:18:52.319 this guy won an Oscar with Tarantino for the script 253 00:18:52.359 --> 00:18:56.079 they wrote for Pulp Fiction. Okay. He also directed Killing 254 00:18:56.160 --> 00:18:59.160 Zoe I love that movie and The Rules of Attraction. 255 00:18:59.359 --> 00:19:04.640 He co wrote and produced the Robert Sameekas film Bey Wolf. So, 256 00:19:04.960 --> 00:19:09.160 I mean he was doing big things and his time 257 00:19:09.200 --> 00:19:13.160 inside was hard, and he sent out tweets to tell 258 00:19:13.240 --> 00:19:18.359 people how fraid he was, how every few hours, like clockwork, 259 00:19:18.400 --> 00:19:22.119 the guards flashed there. They're flashed light in your face 260 00:19:23.640 --> 00:19:26.920 just to make sure you don't sleep and you stay exhausted. 261 00:19:27.039 --> 00:19:30.240 They did that when I was in there, just overnight. 262 00:19:30.359 --> 00:19:34.000 They do it and you sit there. You get a pillow, 263 00:19:34.960 --> 00:19:36.960 well not really a pillow. You got a blanket you 264 00:19:36.960 --> 00:19:39.880 can put under your head, and one blanket you put 265 00:19:39.880 --> 00:19:42.200 over your body, and you lay down on a piece 266 00:19:42.240 --> 00:19:49.440 of concrete. And like Avery said, as he tweeted, the sheets, 267 00:19:49.480 --> 00:19:54.079 the clean sheets reeked a sweat of a thousand men. 268 00:19:54.599 --> 00:19:58.759 That's a good rider, man. Breakfast porridge is made with 269 00:19:58.920 --> 00:20:01.960 oats from sat with a picture of a horse on them, 270 00:20:02.039 --> 00:20:06.920 labeled not intended for human consumption. The windows let in 271 00:20:06.920 --> 00:20:10.279 a little light, and I'm subjected to random stripped down 272 00:20:10.319 --> 00:20:15.720 and cavity searchers by a leering, rotund officer. This is great. 273 00:20:16.119 --> 00:20:19.200 I mean, it's great to have people on the inside 274 00:20:19.319 --> 00:20:22.920 tell you exactly what the hell's going on right. Oh 275 00:20:22.960 --> 00:20:26.920 my god, it scares me. It chills me to my bone, 276 00:20:27.079 --> 00:20:29.759 he said. Night is the worst night falls, and the 277 00:20:29.799 --> 00:20:33.200 only real activity is an endless recounting of the terrible 278 00:20:33.240 --> 00:20:37.200 and pointless events that brought us all to this sad place. 279 00:20:37.640 --> 00:20:39.759 I know, you know what, you know what you meet 280 00:20:40.480 --> 00:20:44.759 when you're in a jail cell. You meet remorse and regret, 281 00:20:45.160 --> 00:20:49.079 and they come at you fucking hard, and you have 282 00:20:49.160 --> 00:20:55.400 to accept them because they're right. But I listened to 283 00:20:55.480 --> 00:20:58.240 him on the Joe Rogan Show today with Clinton Tarantino, 284 00:20:58.440 --> 00:21:02.799 and I give him a lot of credit for knowing 285 00:21:03.079 --> 00:21:06.240 he needed to write to stay sane, to stay alive, 286 00:21:06.799 --> 00:21:11.039 and that impressed me. The dedication to write, the hunger 287 00:21:11.119 --> 00:21:14.240 to get words down on paper. And he was writing 288 00:21:14.279 --> 00:21:17.480 with like put puck golf pencils, ten weedy three inch 289 00:21:17.559 --> 00:21:21.839 pencils man on paper. And he wrote a movie script 290 00:21:21.920 --> 00:21:27.839 while he was incarcerated. But because prison officials always confiscate 291 00:21:27.960 --> 00:21:32.599 letters that inmates send, Avery had to make believe he 292 00:21:32.680 --> 00:21:37.119 was writing to his lawyer, right. And you know officials, 293 00:21:37.119 --> 00:21:41.000 prison officials can't mess with anything that you send to 294 00:21:41.039 --> 00:21:46.920 your lawyer because it's attorney attorney client privilege. So any 295 00:21:46.960 --> 00:21:49.319 time there were there coming around the cells to look 296 00:21:49.359 --> 00:21:53.960 for shives or weapons, whatever drugs, he would take his 297 00:21:54.160 --> 00:21:58.599 pages and shove them in an envelope that already had 298 00:21:58.599 --> 00:22:01.920 his lawyer's name and address it right, so they can't 299 00:22:02.000 --> 00:22:04.799 touch that shit. And then when they were gone and 300 00:22:04.839 --> 00:22:07.400 the papers were, you know, written the way he wanted, 301 00:22:07.680 --> 00:22:13.319 he would lick the envelope close and send it off right, 302 00:22:13.680 --> 00:22:18.240 And then his attorney would take those pages and give 303 00:22:18.279 --> 00:22:22.160 them to his to Roger Avery's daughter and she would 304 00:22:22.200 --> 00:22:25.960 then type them in to a screenplay format at home. 305 00:22:26.240 --> 00:22:30.160 So he was, you know, writing a screenplay or two 306 00:22:30.319 --> 00:22:32.960 while he was in car. I love that. I love 307 00:22:33.200 --> 00:22:40.640 that this guy had to write the commitment not for nothing. 308 00:22:40.680 --> 00:22:44.920 Maybe that commitment keeps you alive, right, But it reminded 309 00:22:45.000 --> 00:22:50.240 me of what I saw in the film Quills, right 310 00:22:50.680 --> 00:22:55.599 DeRemer Quills. Jeffrey Rush played the Marquis de Sade, a 311 00:22:55.720 --> 00:23:00.960 seventeen hundreds writer, which just happened to share my birthday 312 00:23:01.000 --> 00:23:05.279 of June second. The Marquis Decide went to prison because 313 00:23:05.279 --> 00:23:09.079 of all his crazy ideas and writing about you know, 314 00:23:09.319 --> 00:23:14.160 fucking and this is a very puritanical world. And along 315 00:23:14.240 --> 00:23:17.200 comes the Marquis Decided is talking about all sorts of 316 00:23:17.240 --> 00:23:21.400 crazy shit, you know, and he he lived his words. 317 00:23:21.440 --> 00:23:25.200 He had sex with young people, young boys, young girls. 318 00:23:25.240 --> 00:23:29.160 He did. It's awful. So when he went to prison, 319 00:23:29.200 --> 00:23:32.240 he eventually got moved to different prisons here and there, 320 00:23:32.319 --> 00:23:36.240 and the final place he was sent to was an 321 00:23:36.279 --> 00:23:41.039 infamous prison and bess Steel and that was the like 322 00:23:41.119 --> 00:23:45.720 the late seventeen eighties. And then he got freed finally, 323 00:23:47.039 --> 00:23:52.480 but he had a crazy time in there, and he 324 00:23:52.559 --> 00:23:58.279 actually admitted that the one thing that didn't change while 325 00:23:58.279 --> 00:24:00.400 he was in while he was in prison was his 326 00:24:00.440 --> 00:24:06.000 libido and his sexual imagination. And during his period of 327 00:24:06.039 --> 00:24:10.880 being in prison, he had secretly written a number of 328 00:24:10.960 --> 00:24:14.880 pornographic stories that were published. If you saw the movie, 329 00:24:14.920 --> 00:24:19.440 you know how he sneaked the words out and the 330 00:24:19.480 --> 00:24:25.880 manuscripts out. It was brilliant, and he eventually got widely 331 00:24:25.920 --> 00:24:30.400 published under a different name. But people began to know, 332 00:24:30.599 --> 00:24:35.440 this has to be the Marquis de Sade, right, this 333 00:24:35.559 --> 00:24:39.359 guy went to jail from seventeen seventy seven to seventeen 334 00:24:39.480 --> 00:24:41.880 ninety and he wrote a bunch of novels and other 335 00:24:41.960 --> 00:24:45.920 things and they were all smalled out of prison, and 336 00:24:45.960 --> 00:24:50.319 once he got released, was storing the French Revolution. He 337 00:24:50.400 --> 00:24:53.279 began to pursue the career of writing, and he became 338 00:24:53.359 --> 00:24:59.160 politically active as well. But now he got too sexual, 339 00:24:59.359 --> 00:25:05.160 got in prison again, almost got the guillotine. He was 340 00:25:05.279 --> 00:25:08.519 arrested in eighteen oh one because he wrote too many 341 00:25:08.559 --> 00:25:12.480 pornographic novels and got put in jail again, and then 342 00:25:12.640 --> 00:25:15.839 got sent to an insane asylum, and he finally died 343 00:25:15.880 --> 00:25:20.599 in eighteen fourteen. But you gotta read some of his works. 344 00:25:21.319 --> 00:25:26.039 You gotta read Justine, and you gotta read Juliet. This guy, 345 00:25:26.839 --> 00:25:32.599 I mean, don't forget the word sadism derives from his name, 346 00:25:32.759 --> 00:25:38.039 Marquis de Sade sad say say it isn't that's him. 347 00:25:38.279 --> 00:25:43.200 This guy was seducing young people in prison, and he 348 00:25:43.240 --> 00:25:47.559 was finally declared insane. They said he had libertine dementia, 349 00:25:48.599 --> 00:25:52.119 was put in an asylum. But I know most of 350 00:25:52.160 --> 00:25:54.720 you don't know and don't care. It's too much work 351 00:25:54.759 --> 00:25:57.519 age a it's such an old thing, you know, how 352 00:25:57.559 --> 00:25:59.799 many hundreds of years ago. I'm not gonna want this 353 00:25:59.839 --> 00:26:03.440 day and the language. No, no, no, you have to. 354 00:26:04.720 --> 00:26:06.880 If you're just starting out and have a little bit 355 00:26:06.920 --> 00:26:09.240 of interest in the Marquis Decide, you should look at 356 00:26:09.240 --> 00:26:13.440 the at the story Justine. It's a little shorter than 357 00:26:14.279 --> 00:26:18.799 the story Juliet, but they're kind of similar. All right, 358 00:26:19.039 --> 00:26:22.559 Read Justine and Juliet. Ninety five percent of you won't. 359 00:26:23.319 --> 00:26:26.640 But if you don't read it, then see the movie Quills, 360 00:26:26.720 --> 00:26:30.119 which came out, Oh my God twenty five years ago, 361 00:26:31.279 --> 00:26:34.319 and the Marquis Decide was portrayed by Jeffrey Rush, who 362 00:26:34.359 --> 00:26:36.559 I can't stand as a human being because I had 363 00:26:36.559 --> 00:26:40.000 an argument with him at the restaurant I go because 364 00:26:40.039 --> 00:26:42.480 I moved my seat back and I hit him and 365 00:26:42.519 --> 00:26:45.000 he was like, excuse me. I said, oh, I'm very sorry. 366 00:26:45.039 --> 00:26:47.079 Well I expect you wouldn't be. And I said, oh, 367 00:26:47.160 --> 00:26:50.279 fuck yourself, Marquis de Sade, this ain't the movies. I'll 368 00:26:50.279 --> 00:26:54.839 fucking knock you out. I did say that it's so bad. 369 00:26:55.240 --> 00:26:57.559 Of course I was high, but you know, I gave 370 00:26:57.599 --> 00:27:03.240 him the what for. But see the movie Quills, because 371 00:27:03.319 --> 00:27:05.720 Jeffrey Rush does an amazing job, and you got to 372 00:27:05.799 --> 00:27:09.960 see what this guy did, what he eventually had to 373 00:27:10.119 --> 00:27:13.640 do to get his words out there. He eventually when 374 00:27:13.640 --> 00:27:17.000 they took away the paper and pen, what else could 375 00:27:17.039 --> 00:27:20.519 he do? How about I write with my own shit? 376 00:27:21.440 --> 00:27:24.880 And that's what he did. He penned words with his 377 00:27:24.920 --> 00:27:30.799 own excrement as ink while he spent thirty two years 378 00:27:30.799 --> 00:27:33.319 of his life in jail. Thirty two That sounded like 379 00:27:33.319 --> 00:27:38.519 Barbara Walters thirty two years in the clink. I don't 380 00:27:38.559 --> 00:27:41.079 know what the equivalent of that is. You know, like, 381 00:27:41.880 --> 00:27:44.759 you may like him, maybe it's not for your taste, 382 00:27:44.759 --> 00:27:48.039 but it's hard to ignore what this guy did while 383 00:27:48.079 --> 00:27:50.279 he was alive. And I don't know, Like I said, 384 00:27:50.440 --> 00:27:53.720 I don't know the equivalent of what it might be 385 00:27:53.799 --> 00:27:58.160 for a podcaster. I mean, would it be me taping 386 00:27:58.200 --> 00:28:00.720 a show while I'm on the toilet? I don't know. 387 00:28:00.759 --> 00:28:04.720 But don't hold your breath. Well, actually, if I'm taping 388 00:28:05.079 --> 00:28:08.079 a show on the shit, then please do hold your breath. 389 00:28:08.119 --> 00:28:12.039 But really, you got to see what the Marquis Decide 390 00:28:12.079 --> 00:28:15.279 went through and how he had a hunger like Roger 391 00:28:15.440 --> 00:28:19.920 Avery to get his words out so that they can 392 00:28:20.000 --> 00:28:23.319 mean something. That is just awesome to me. That's a 393 00:28:23.359 --> 00:28:26.240 superpower to me. And you know, I read a lot 394 00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:31.400 of the situation with what happened to the Marquis Decide. 395 00:28:31.440 --> 00:28:36.480 I was on a website, you know, The Guardian. The 396 00:28:36.519 --> 00:28:39.200 Guardian is a website. It's a you know, well, I 397 00:28:39.240 --> 00:28:43.480 mean it is. It is a lefty website. But get this, 398 00:28:45.119 --> 00:28:48.200 here's the letter I get from the Guardian at the 399 00:28:48.359 --> 00:28:51.359 end of the story about what Marquis Decide did. Hey, 400 00:28:52.440 --> 00:28:56.359 throughout the tumultuous years of the first Trump presidency, we 401 00:28:56.480 --> 00:29:00.680