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Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction, unplugged because we will always say

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yes to creativity, totally uncut because we always make mistakes.

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So why not turn it into a tool. This is

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arrow unplugged.

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Speaker 2: Hey it's zero, And this is vocal d frag. This

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is where we go to ask the questions, to question

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the answers. I do this on a transition. Walk a transition.

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Walk through this beautiful forest in South Charlotte, North Carolina.

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We all go through several transitions in one day. It's

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not a mood swing necessary what it is. It's a transition.

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It's a whole, entire body transition. Be it from job

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to job or task to task. You're going through a transition.

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And sometimes we get caught up in ourselves. It's almost

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like somebody has taken a stick and they've put it

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in the spokes and it's say what what just hit me?

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Oh I'm in a grumpy mood. Now leave me alone.

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I can't handle it. It's a transition. Understanding what triggers

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you is one thing, but growing with your transitions and

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becoming aware of how you transition is a beautiful place.

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You don't have to agree with it all the time,

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but it is a moment that has been given to

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you to learn from. You have all those thoughts that

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keep playing over and over in your head, those transitions

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boom boom right after another, after another after another. So

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today on vocal d frag, I'd like to make the

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subject get it out and stop living it. Stop living it.

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Seems simple, right, No it does not. Huh uh. I'm

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a daily writer because I want to get it out

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of me. I convince other people to daily write because

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I want them to get it out of them. But

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here's the thing where a lot of people make their mistakes.

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You write it out or you vocalize it out, like

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we're doing, but then we go back and we listen

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to it or we read it. You can't do that.

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That's no different than those bad thoughts in your head

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and heart. You keep reliving it. Get it out, don't

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relive it. It's a tough thing to do because we

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all think that we're designed to be brilliant with our memories,

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when in fact, the memory is what's getting in the

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way of so many things that you need to be

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doing in your everyday world. We are to be mindful

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of our present and grow with our moment of right now.

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But if we're thinking about it and then we're going

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back to relive it, we're not going anywhere. We're just

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standing here spinning or chasing our tail like a dog.

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Get it out, don't relive it. It's a journey, and

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it's one that really does require self discipline, not in

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an angry way, but in more of a caring way,

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but not in a parenting way or a care takerway,

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a caring way, in the way of saying, I'm going

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to ask some questions and then I'm going to question

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your answers. By questioning the answers, that means we're moving

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in forward motion. Get it out, don't relive it. A

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good example of that is with my daily writing. I

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have twenty nine years of journals, several different journals, all

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properly taken care of. They're in weather proof, airtight containers

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that when you do go back and you open it up,

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they stink like hell. And I think that's just what

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happens with writing. The smell of ink and everything else

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in the everyday life. Maybe the life stunk like hell,

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and it's trying to get out and become a part

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of this life. But because it's locked up it ain't

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going to become a part of this life. I don't

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go back and read the writing because in reading the writing,

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you're reliving that moment, and what would be my interpretation

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this time around? When it comes to seeing what I lived,

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The interpretation might be judgment. The interpretation might be, oh,

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I feel sorry for him, he was having a bad day.

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What is your interpretation today versus what you put on

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paper din or fifteen years ago. How about this what

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you put on paper ten or fifteen minutes ago. So

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that's why I try to encourage people to write. Just

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don't go back and reread it, don't do it, don't

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relive it. You're putting yourself back in that mental place

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where you're going to start feeling sorry or angry about

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something that you have done. I battle with this almost

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every single day, and that's the reason why I take

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a transition walk, because when I do get into those

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moments where I'm doing this comparison living, I can't shake it.

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It's very difficult. So therefore I use my defragged journals

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to wake up the system of choice. The inner core

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is always going to question, it's always going to be

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its own self because it doesn't always like what the

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outside self is doing. I s where you get physicalference

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between your physical being and your inner being. There's got

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to be a communication level that has equal ground to

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be heard. You've got to be able to have that conversation,

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and in doing so by way of defragging. Be it

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in a journal or be it on your smartphone, get

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it out, but don't relive it. Let it flow freely

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from you. You know they always say that an artist,

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it really doesn't belong to them. It belongs to the world.

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What about your thoughts? What about those things that keep

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taking you down, those worries, those things that bring on

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so much anxiety that it trips you up because it

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keeps playing over and over in your head. And if

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you took the time to defrag, to keep a little journal,

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to bitch, to moan, to celebrate, to dream, it's amazing

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the feeling when you have that sense of freedom inside

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your soul. I'm not preaching like a preacher. I'm not

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talking like a teacher. I'm just an everyday person who

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has spent the past twenty nine years of his life

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trying to understand the reasons why we should all put

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pen to paper and learn how to write, but don't

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go back to relive it. There are many things that

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I've done in my forty four years of broadcasting that

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really do need to be talked about, to be sorted out,

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to be listened to. Years after I went through many,

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many times of great pressure, challenge, depression, oh and burnout.

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I would love to go back there and see how

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that kid survived, because there might be some things I

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need today, But I play by that rule. I don't

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go back to the writing to relive it. Whatever I

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need in my moment of now is awareness, and through

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awareness we can grow forward. Try sometime write something down

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and then just throw it away. Get it out of

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your system. Then throw it away, just get rid of it.

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You're not going to reread it. I don't want you

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to just throw it away. And I think that's what

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I do when I put my journals inside these really

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cool airtight containers, because it's my way of just saying,

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go away, thank you. We had a great time together,

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but we're not going to have another day together. So

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getting it out but not reliving it. It's a running theme.

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And if I say it enough, maybe it'll finally sink

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in and you'll go. You know what I could have

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should have been a better something, but because I wouldn't

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let it go, I didn't get to do everything to

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make me something. I'm just in anything. Oh so now

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there's judgment against you on that you could have been something,

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but you ended up being just in anything? Was it

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part of your dreams? Was it part of your decisions

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to find peace? Where in your life are you finding peace? Piece?

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Is it true piece? Or does she have to go

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buy it? Writing is free, so it's reliving it. But

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we don't want to go there because it's going to

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cost you something. I'm eron and that's vocal. D Frank