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Speaker 1: Han't went the girl as. I'm hey everyone, and welcome
back to Bloody Angola Podcast. I'm your host Jim Chapman,
and i am starting a brand new series today. I'm
going to be calling fifty Shades of Evil Now. Each
week with this series, I'm going to be bringing you
the story of some of the most dangerous inmates in
each of the fifty states. This week, to start off
the series, I'm bringing you to Texas and I'm going
to tell you the story of Texas inmate Billy Joel Tracy.
And I did research this, y'all, and his parents were
not a fan of Billy Joel. Surprisingly enough, it just
so happens he has the same first and middle name,
but he is currently on death row at the Polunsky Unit,
where he is housed for one of the most brazen
acts of prison violence in recent Texas history. Billy Joel
Tracy was originally sentenced to life for aggravated assault and burglary,
and it was not long before he became a documented
menace behind bars. He racked up over twenty seven assaults
on correctional officers alone before he actually killed a forty
seven year old correctional officer. So let's get into it,
and I'm going to take you back to November thirtieth
of nineteen seventy seven. That's when Billy Joel Tracy was
born in the town of Zanesville, Wisconsin. And for those
not familiars, Zanesville is a rather large city sixty five
thousand residents. It's known for its outdoor recreation. It has
great hiking trails as well as recreational boating along what
is known as the Rock River. But Billy Joel he
was not really in that area long enough to enjoy it.
While still an infant, his family relocates to Dallas, Texas. Now,
this was the late seventies. Dallas, Texas at that time
was booming economically, and in his parents' mind, it seemed
like a good place to settle with their only child,
Billy and seek work. Now, while the Dallas area was
going through a major economic boom during that time due
primarily to the oil industry. The Tracy family not so much,
and when Tracy was around seven years old, they actually
move again, this time to Colorado, but three years later
they would return back to the Dallas, Texas area, in
specifically Rockwell County. Now, growing up through adolescents in the nineties,
Billy would start what I would call his descent into crime,
and he would gain kind of a reputation around the
Rockwell area as being very volatile. This would lead to
some psychiatric issues that would lead to his mother actually
hospitalizing him at twelve years old in a psychiatric hospital. Now,
his parents really all the documented details that I have
on his parents, they suffered from mental issues themselves. There
were allegations of physical abuse that would occur during Billy's upbringing,
and the household at this point would be considered very functional.
So he's going in and out of these psychiatric hospitals
and they're not really finding him. When I say they,
doctors are not really finding anything that would necessarily point
to him being mentally ill. So he would get released
pretty quick and he would return to his household. But
the issues with Billy would continue to persist. He was
just not a good kid man. He was always getting
into trouble, and by the time he reached seventeen years old,
his mother had enough. He was incorrigible, just a bad kid,
and she would kick him out of the house. So
Billy Joel Tracy, he's on his own at seventeen years old,
and he has to make his way right, no lifeboat anymore,
He can't go back home to mom and dad's house.
And it was just a few months later that he
gets arrested for retaliation against a witness to a crime,
and because he was a juvenile. While at this time
the records on that particular case were not released, they
were sealed. However, he does get a three year jail sentence,
which he starts serving, and after twenty months in prison,
he does get paroled on that jail sentence. And at
this point in time, it's July of nineteen ninety six,
so he's back out into the real world and he's
got to make his way again. The state of Texas
is not paying for him to have a room and
boarding food anymore. And he does get a job he's
performing primarily manual labor, and he also gets an apartment,
and hey, maybe this kid is scared straight by this point,
after serving those twenty months in prison, no way, not
a chance with this guy. In nineteen ninety eight, at
the age of just twenty years old, he makes the
biggest mistake of his short life thus far, when on
the evening of January twenty eighth of nineteen ninety eight,
he invites a friend over to his apartment for drinks.
This is in Garland, Texas. His friend brings along his girlfriend,
who is sixteen year old Casey Coon, and they start
drinking beer, primarily nothing super hard, and Billy starts making
sexually suggestive remarks to his sixteen year old Coon. Now
he's twenty years old. At this time, her boyfriend is
sitting right there in Coon. She's like, I was worried,
but I wasn't that worried because my boyfriend was right there.
I felt safe at the time, so I was just
blowing off and ignoring those comments. Now, eventually she and
her boyfriend would leave. Her boyfriend brings her home where
Casey lived with her mother, and she get dressed for bed,
take a shower. She'd crack open the window to smoke
a cigarette, and around that time, much to her surprise,
Billy Joel Tracy appears at the window and he starts
tapping on it. She sees this, she tells him to
go away, and he not only ignores that request, but
he gets pissed and he basically bends the frame of
that window to gain entry into the house. And this
sixteen year old girl at this time, she is basically shocked.
So you have heard me discuss before the three f's fight, flight,
or freeze. That's the three responses people are going to
have to high stress scary situations. And in Casey's case,
it was definitely freeze. She just stood there, she was
unable to scream, and Billy Joel Tracy made his way
into her bedroom. Now, as soon as he gets in
her bedroom, he starts disrobing. He removes his shirt, he
takes off his shoes, and he attempts to kiss this
sixteen year old girl, Casey Khon. At this point, she
responds to that kiss and she bites the shit out
of his lip. In response to that, Billy Joel Tracy
hits her, knocks her to the ground, jumps on top
of her, and he starts strangling her to the point
she loses consciousness. So the next thing, Casey kuh knows
she's waking up, and she's in the back of Tracy's
car on the floorboard. She's bloody, she's very bruised up.
And upon noticing that she has regained consciousness in the
back of that car while he's driving Billy Joel, Tracy
just continues to beat on her. He then drives to
a park in Rockroll, Texas, and y'all, this is the
middle of the night, it's like three point thirty in
the morning. He pulls in that park, he pulls Casey
out of the car, he drags her in the woods,
and he just continues to relentlessly beat on her. Now,
about this point in time, a police officer by the
name of Paul Brett. He's driving by that park and
he happens to notice a car parked in the parking lot.
So he pulls up to investigate the situation, initially thinking
it's some underage kids drinking in the car or something
like that. But when he pulls up, he hears a
very faint scream, help me. It wasn't even a scream
that he would describe later as a loud scream. It
was very faint, but it was a scream that he
knew someone was in serious trouble. So the officer pops
his flashlight up in the tree line where he heard
that coming from in the park, and he sees Billy
Tracy on top of sixteen year old Casey Kohn. Now
at that point, Tracy sees the flashlight, he sees where
it's coming from, and rather than run away, he runs
straight at this police officer full speed. The police officer
shocked by this officer Britt, he draws his gun and
before he could even point it in the direction of
Billy Tracy, the two begin to fight in this park.
And keep in mind Billy Tracy young guy twenty years old.
He's not very big, maybe about five eight, but he
is very strong and very muscular. Now the police officer,
Paul Britt, he's no slouch himself, and he's still relatively
young as well. He's only thirty years old at this time,
and he's well built, muscular. So they start going at it,
and they literally fight for six minutes straight. They were
kicking each other, punching each other. And look, six minutes
straight of this, y'all, this is like an eternity in
a fistfight. No stopping, no resting, just swing after swing
after swing, wrestling with each other, etc. Fortunately, during this melee,
if you will, the officer was able to access his
radio on his shoulder and call for backup. What's running
through his mind at this time is, if I can
keep this guy off of me long enough and I
can continue to fight him long enough until backup arrives,
I may actually have a chance here. And shout out
to this officer that he was able to actually do
that just before he was totally exhausted and Billy Tracy
would start getting the best of him. Backup shows up.
So Billy Tracy sees this other officer arrive at the
scene and he haul's ass into the woods. Now, first
instinct from this officer he was fighting, Paul Brett was
to give chase to the suspect right but when he
took off to run after Billy, he notices this sixteen
year old girl, Casey Kuhn, was still alive. Now he
had assumed because she had moved during this whole six
minute fight, didn't even breathe that he could tell that
she was dead, but she wasn't. So rather than chase
Billy down these officers, Paul Brett and his backup. They
chose to render aid to sixteen year old Casey Kuhn,
which turned out to be the right decision because she lived,
although barely. She would suffer a broken orbital bon, a
broken nose, lost teeth, permanent vision damage, and she would
require facial reconcstructive surgery. So as soon as police would
get an ambulance and it would arrive and Casey Couhn
would be loaded onto that ambulance, it's time to find
this assailant. Alerts get issued for everybody to stay in
their house. Helicopters are deployed, and Billy Joel Tracy is
on the run. And police knew who he was because
they interviewed Casey Kuhn obviously at the Saint and she
said his name. So he's on the run and he
would break into several houses during this manhunt. He would
steal cash, he would steal food from these houses. And
eleven hours later, Tracy would make a mistake and break
into an occupied house. Now the people living there, Joyce
Lemons and her daughter, They obviously are startled by this.
They run out the front door to a neighbor's house,
and that neighbor would call police. So police arrive at
the scene and Billy Joel Tracy climbs to the roof
of this three story house. He stands on the top
of it, on the peak if you can picture that.
He screams bye bye to the police, and he literally
does a backflip off of the house. He hits a tree,
a bunch of limbs, and then he lands in a
flower bed. And he's somewhat injured in this incident, but
nothing major. However, he was injured enough that police were
able to take him into custody right there in the
flower bed. Now, at this point, he goes to jail
and on July thirty first of nineteen ninety eight, he
gets sentenced for the attempted murder of Casey Kuhn, as
well as a slew of other charges. And when it
was all said and done, he ended up with two
life sentences plus twenty years for the burglaries that he
committed during those eleven hours on the run. And to
say that this guy was not a model prisoner when
he got to prison would be putting it lightly. As
soon as Billy Joel Tracy goes to prison, he's getting
written up left right in sideways. And he's a young kid, y'all,
twenty one years old at this time. He would spend
the majority of that early time in prison in segregation,
and every time he would get out of segregation and
go back into general population, his favorite thing to do
seemed to be assaulting other inmates and especially correctional officers.
He would flood his cell a lot, just to piss
off the officers on his tier and just to be
a menace. Twenty seven different assaults, y'all in a short
period of time. He eventually gets transferred because they just
can't handle him at this prison, and he gets transferred
to what's known as the Clemens Unit in Amarillo, Texas.
And look, Texas, they don't call their prisons prisons. They
call them units, and they all of course have different names,
and we're gonna mention many of those today because he
gets transferred so many times. But at this point, it's
November of two thousand and five that I'm going to
bring you to November twenty specifically, and Billy Joel Tracy
at this time was twenty seven years old. Now at
the time of the incident that I'm going to tell
you about, Billy was on the third floor of what
is known as the iPod. I know, I know, that's convenient,
but it's called iPod. They use letters there. And a
CEO working the pod at that time was a female
by the name of Katie Stanley, and she is on
the third floor of that tier in the iPod and
she's just walking the pod doing her job, right. And
look this particular prison, the Clemings Unit, they had cameras everywhere,
like three hundred different cameras, so this is all on
surveillance video. And you can see on that surveillance video
Katie Stanley walking that tear and you see Billy Joel
Tracy basically come out of nowhere and just jump on
her and he is raining down punches, he's kicking her,
and he's wielding a prison made shank. He stabs her
seven times, stabbing her in the neck, stabbing her in
the lungs, stabbing her in the kidneys. The attack was
so brutal, in fact, that the only reason he stopped
is because he lost his shank inside of her body. Literally.
When that happens, he gets up and he attempts to
throw her off the third floor of the tiered in
the surveillance video, you can see him kind of struggling
to pick her up and put her over that railing.
He eventually gave up on that and he just basically
lets her body fall to the ground and runs off
down the tier. Obviously, officers take him into custody in
the tier and they questioned him about the attack, and
Billy Joel Tracy said it was because his cell was
constantly getting tossed, and that primarily he was pissed because
his toothpaste kept getting confiscated and that someone had to
pay for that, and it just so happened that she
was the one working that day that it wasn't personal
against her. Now, in the trial that ensued, Katie Stanley,
who would live, she described Billy Tracy's face as being
completely blank during that attack. She said he had no
emotion whatsoever. Now for that attack, which clearly is a
case of attempt to murder, right, Billy Joel Tracy, he
receives just an additional forty five years, which you're serving
two life sentences. And that's what makes this guy say
dangerous or really any anybody that's serving life, is that
I have anything to lease. I mean, he got forty
five years on top of two life sentences. That's like nothing.
As for Katie Stanley, not only did she recover, but
shout out to this lady. She actually continued to work
as a CEO after her recovery. So after this incident,
Billy gets transferred to another prison and that is a
Robertson unit. This is in Abilene, Texas. And just four
years later, in January of two thousand and nine, he
attacks yet an another correctional officer, this time by the
name of Brian Lomas. And Billy. At this point he
had quite a reputation as an extremely dangerous inmate, and
he also had what you would call special circumstances when
handling him. He would be under constant guard and he
was transported everywhere by officers. But despite this, somehow this
guy managed to be caught with contraband pretty frequently, everything
from homemade screwdrivers to needles to razor blades. His cell
would be searched often, and he would develop a particular
disdain for CEO Brian Lomas now Lumais. During one of
these cell tossing INCIDENTUS confiscated Tracy's mail and as I
describe to you, a few minutes ago. This guy does
not like it when officers take stuff out of his cell.
He not only viewed this as a personal attack, but
he also felt as though he had no choice but
to retaliate. So it's safe to say that Correctional Officer
Brian Lomas was on his shit list after that. Well,
in January of two thousand and nine, Tracy was escorted
to the shower area by CEO Brian Lomas. He takes
his shower and upon it finishing, he is to be
transported back to his cell. When out of the clear
blue sky, Billy Joel Tracy brandishes what's known as a
razor whip, which essentially is a shank made out of
disposable razor blades, and he starts slashing Brian Lomas's face. Now,
he was restrained initially, but he managed somehow to slip
out of these cuffs and the slash to the CEO's
face were so severe that his face required two hundred
stitches to close the cuts and led to permanent facial scorn.
So he gets convicted after a trial of assault on
a public servant and guess what he gets an additional
ten years. That's it, and again Billy Joel Tracy is
moved to yet another prison, this time to the Huge Unit,
which is in Gatesville, Texas. And at this time he
is thirty three years old. So let's get to April
of twenty fourteen, and at this time, with the new
convictions for all those assaults on correctional officers, Billy is
serving two life sentences plus an additional seventy five years.
He didn't have a whole lot to lose and obviously
has no intent to get better or even try to
rehabilitate himself, so he starts plotting an escape and he
hooks up with two other inmates to devise the plan.
And it's important to note that these two accomplices, if
you will, and Billy Tracy, they were all in what's
known as AZAG, which is administration segregation, So they were
locked down twenty three hours a day and they're only
allowed out for an hour a day for recreation, exercise, etc.
But somehow Billy managed to smuggle in tools, and these
tools would be used by these three inmates to cut
bars in the exercise area of the prison. Now to
conceal this, they would paint over the cuts and they
would use matching paints so that the cuts would not
be noticeable, and they would actually communicate in Spanish when
the CEOs were around that they knew did not speak Spanish.
Even though Billy was not of Spanish descent, he was
fluent in the language. But fortunately, over time some astute officers,
they would notice some irregularities in the bars and they
would halt that escape before any breach had taken place.
I mean, could y'all imagine this guy, Billy Tracy breaking
out of prison. Holy smokes. So this incident in twenty
fourteen led to Billy Joel Tracy's transferred to yet another prison,
and in this case a murder. So let's go to
July fifteenth of twenty fifteen, and Billy Joel Tracy at
this time is housed at the Telford Unit. This is
in New Boston, Texas, And I'm going to tell you
about an incident involving a relatively new correctional officer at
that time, a forty seven year old by the name
of Timothy Davidson. Now he had actually he started at
the prison just seven months prior. He had no prior
experience in corrections. He had relocated from another state after
his brother who happened to work at the prison teaching inmates.
He gets him an interview at the prison. It went
well and they hired him. He was a father of
two daughters and he was assigned to the AgSe Guinnett. Now,
fellow officers would describe him as somewhat quiet, always on time,
always ready to work, very eager to learn. Just a
joy to work with this guy. So on the morning
of July fifteenth of twenty fifteen, around nine o'clock am,
Billy Tracy is being escorted by Officer Davidson from a
day room, which, y'all, that's one hour per day of
recreation room for the inmates. That's where their wreck area is.
He's escorting Billy back to his single cell, which incidentally
is SELL sixty six on what's known as EPOD. Now,
Tracy at this time obviously well known how dangerous he is,
and his hands are handcuffed behind his back as he's
being escorted. Now by this point, due to his reputation,
typically Billy Joel Tracy would be double cuffed. However, for
whatever reason, he was just in single cuffs with his
hand behind his back. So as the correctional officer in
Billy Tracy. They start ascending the staircase that leads to
Billy sell. Billy slips one of his hands out of
those handcuffs, and remember he had a history of doing that.
He actually mastered somehow how to slip out of handcuffs
and Officer Davison does not notice this. They continue walking
up those stairs. You can see that in the surveillance videos.
They reach the top of these stairs and Billy, out
of nowhere, suddenly punches Officer Davidson in the face and
he hits him so hard he knocks the correctional officer
to the floor. And he then grabs what's known as
a metal tray slot bar out of the waste belt
of the officer. And y'all, this is a metal bar
used to open a cell door slide tray to pass
food through that cell. It's about sixteen inches long. Think
of it as a crowbar with a bent end, a
slightly bent end. So he starts beating Officer Timothy Davidson
directly on the head with this slot bar, and he
continues to do that even after Davidson loses consciousness. And
when he's done, he picks up Davidson's body and he
throws him unconscious headfirst down the first flight of metal
stairs that they just walked up, and he paused just
long enough to grab the officer's pepper spray out of
his duty bell. So the officer goes down them stairs
still unconscious, and he starts spraying this pepper spray in
the air. And the reason that he did that was
to keep officers from coming up the flight of stairs
without choking, etc. After all that, he calmly turns around,
walks into his cell and awaits the Special Response team
to extradite him. Now, Correctional Officer Timothy Davidson, he's airlifted
to the hospital. He has massive injuries to his face,
and later his injuries were described as making his face unrecognizable.
He's succumbed to his injuries just a few hours later
and he dies. Over ten thousand people attend the funeral
of Correctional Officer Timothy Davidson. The entire state of te
Axis was appalled at the brutality of this incident. Now,
as I told you, the entire event was caught on
cameras throughout the prison, so there was no denying that
Billy was responsible, and he was of course immediately subdued
upon them entering his cell, he will respond by calling
the staff stupid for not having at least a lieutenant
guarding him. And he admitted right off that he was responsible, saying, quote,
maybe it will be another guard next time. Billy would
go on to say that the reason he did that
was the correctional officer owed him a cell phone for
five hundred dollars that he gave the correctional officer. But
no evidence, of course, exists of this, and it's widely
known this was total bullshit, and he claimed that he
just wanted to assault the guard, he didn't want to
kill him. But I mean, you hit this guy at
least six times with essentially a crow bar after he's unconscious,
then throw him down a flight of stairs head first.
Bring that bullshit somewhere else. You absolutely intended to kill
this guy. Now, during the trial, they instituted some major
security measures, including installing a giant bolt in the floor
where he would sit at the desk for his trial,
and they would lock his shackles into the bolt, and
that was to ensure he would not be able to
get up at all during the trial. And the question
was not whether he was guilty or not guilty. They
had all that on surveillance video. The question was what
type of punishment is he going to get for this?
There was no remorse, There was no emotion at all
during the entire extent of this trial. The jury watched
the entire video of the attack in the brutality of it,
and that would cement Billy's fate because that surveillance video
is just horrific. So, after trial, he was found guilty
in the murder of correctional officer Timothy Davidson, and the
jury I only had to deliberate for just an hour
to find that guilty verdict. He was sentenced to death
by lethal injection on November fifteenth of twenty seventeen for
that murder at the age of thirty nine years old. Now,
after this, Billy Tracy was transferred to the Alan Polunsky Unit.
This is in Livingston, Texas, and that's where their death
row is. And as you would expect, there were a
ton of appeals and all those appeals were eventually exhausted. However,
as of this recording, in January of twenty twenty six,
Billy Joel Tracy, who is now forty eight years old
still sits on death Row with one hundred and eighty
other inmates in Texas currently awaiting execution, and he's currently
widely known as the State of Texas' most dangerous inmate.
So before I wrap this one up, Billy Joel Tracy.
He's written several articles, if you will, while on death Row,
discussing his daily life, etc. And I want to read
one to you, which, to me is the very definition
of Billy Joel Tracy's narcissism. So it reads November fifteenth
of twenty seventeen, I was sentenced to die by lethal
injection for the death of Timothy Davidson, a Texas Department
of Criminal Justice guard. After being sentenced to death, I
was immediately taken from the courtroom by Department of Correction
transportation officers and driven to the Polunsky Unit in Levings
in Texas, where the men of Death Row are housed
in solitary confinement. Four hours after being sentenced to die,
I find myself inside a cell the State of Texas
had spent the previous two weeks modifying for me in
anticipation of me receiving the sentence of death. The specifically
modified cell is housed on twelve billing a pod one
section and is the section named death Watch. The death
watch section is for those death row inmates whose appeals
have run out and have received their execution date their
date to die. They each are given at least ninety
one days to prepare some last ditch appeals and get
their affairs in order before the state section execution starts.
On this section, they are kept away from other death
row inmates who have not received execution dates. The death
watch section has fourteen cells, all with cameras inside the
cells in the upper left corner with a view of
the entire cell. There are monitors inside, two separate control pickets,
two different warden officers, and a surveillance office where the
footage inside the sales can be viewed. A Texas senator
even has access to this live footage. There's zero privacy.
The cameras were installed years ago under the pretext of
helping prevent suicide attempts, allegedly so Texas could preserve the
condemned life until they were ready to extinguish it themselves.
And you know what, he's absolutely correct on that it
is the state's job to see out the sentence that
was imposed by the people of said state. And you
can't just kill yourself because that's not what your sentence is.
Your sentence is to die via the state in which
you were convicted in. And so yeah, that's their job
to keep you alive so that they can kill you.
I'm glad you acknowledge that the death watch section has
more than one in dark purpose. Texas is infamous for
getting the maximum amount of suffering it can out of
each taxpayer dollar. Texas also houses inmates it doesn't like
on death watch inmates who do not have execution dates.
Under the guise of security, Texas puts inmates on death
watch without an execution date, so they will have to
endure living with a camera inside of their cell. But
more importantly so they are surrounded by men with just
days from death, constantly reminded of their doom, and constantly
suffering the loss of friends. Imagine the only people you
are around are those with a few months to live,
getting to know them, watching them experience their last days,
then finally watching them be led away to be killed.
Now expllate that over the years. Can you imagine the
psychological impact this would have on someone? Three other death
or inmates have been housed on death watch as punishment. Y'all,
this is this guy's what is he smoking here? Two
were moved after nine and thirteen months. The thirty has
been in this section over eight years and has endured
over one hundred men being led to their death. Fifteen
were his friends. In twenty eighteen, he gave up on
his appeals because he could no longer take the psychological
trauma of watching men live out their last days. His
words to me were quote, I'm done, Billy, I'm done.
He later decided to continue his appeals at the urging
of his family, but not because he wants to live.
The cell my captor spent two weeks modifying as a
psychological torture chamber. It's the only sell in Texas like it.
They cut the steel table and shelf off the wall.
They cut the still locker box where we store our
property that was welded underneath the bunk. This is so
I have no comfortable place to write, eat, or store
my property. Well, you know what, that's what freaking happen.
When you assault twenty seven different correctional officers and kill
one of them, it's your fault, not anybody else's. He
goes on to say, I must store my property and
bags on the floor. This is a very bad situation
in prison because the sewage pipes back up all the time.
When that occurs, the raw sewage being flushed down the
toilets backs up and comes out of the drains set
into the floor outside of the cells. One such drain
is two feet from my cell door. Multiple times the
drains have backed up and the sewer water has flooded
into my cell, causing me to lose everything it touched
on my floor. When this happens, I must pile all
my uncontaminated property onto my bunk. Same dude bitching about
this that would flood his cell hundreds of times in
the past, just to piss the correctional officers off. He
goes on to say, this leaves me no place to
sit or lay, so I must just stand in the
sewer water or sit on my toilet until a maintenance
crew can unclog the pipes. I've had to stand sit
like this for hours at a time. This creates extreme
anxiety on me. When I go to sleep with a
cell flood, I'm always waking up to check my floor
for water. I cannot ever truly relax with no table
to eat from. I must set my tray of food
onto my sink. My toilet is directly under my tray
of food. Eating directly over a toilet is an appetite killer. Again,
you put yourself in prison, and you put yourself in death.
Row Texas has also welded metal plates with small holes
in them over the inflow and overflow air vents. This
restricts the heat and air conditioning into my cell to
such an extent that it's made my cell a hot
box in the summer and an ice box in the winter.
I'm almost always an extreme temperature inside of this cell.
What is worse is the outflow vent, the vent that
sucks the air out. Because slowly the screen will fill
up with dust. It ends up looking like the filter
in a dryer when you don't clean it out for
a long time. A metal plate over the vent. The
only way to clear it of the caked up dust
is to put my mouth over each hole and repeatedly
suck the dust into my mouth and throat, then spit
it out. There are thirty holes. I dread doing this.
I'm left coughing for hours afterward. I must do it,
though if I do not, the cell becomes even more
oppressive when no circulation. Well, poor guy. My cell door
was also rebuilt, adding a steel box over the food
slot so the guards can open it and set whatever
item inside the box and close it. Then they open
a smaller door so I can reach into the box
for items. Two layers of plexiglass were placed over the
outside of the door, covering the two observation sleds. More
metal was welded to the bottom and sides of the
doors so the door sealed. This restricts airflow and makes
it hard for others to hear anything I say. This
guy needs to figure out where he's at. Right on
top of all that, I'm also only allowed to recreate
all alone outside with a supervisor standing there watching me
the entire time. The reckyard has two cages in it
designed for two people to utilize, yet I am the
only one allowed to recreate alone alone every day outside
and inside myself alone alone except for when I have
a visitor. Even then a supervisor stands directly behind me
to intimidate my visitor. Living under such oppression would be
hard for anyone to cope with. It's even harder to
endure for someone like me who has a disability. I
have severe organic brain damage. The neurological issues I deal
with cost issues commonly seen in people with mental illness.
I grew up in and out of mental institutions because
my brain damage was unknown and misdiagnosed as one mental
illness or another, most commonly intermitte explosive disorder. I've never
received treatment for my brain damage and when unknown until
the day I committed the crime in nineteen ninety eight
that I received a life sentence for Texas. Treatment plan
for me has been to warehouse me in long term
solitary confinement. Solitary confinement which is proven to only worsen
people with the impulse aggression problems like I have. I've
spent almost nineteen years of the last twenty one and
a half in solitary. At the time of the crime,
I'm on death row flour I've been in solitary for
nine and a half years, and now at the time
of writing this piece, I've been in solitary for fourteen
and a half of the past seventeen years. As brutal
as my living conditions are hardest by far to endure psychologically.
Isn't this cell recreating alone and living under constant surveillance
or standing for hours in sewage. It's living around men
who are living out their last days. Over the past
eighteen months that I've lived on Death Watch, I've made
more friends than in all of my other years incarcelready combined.
Something about living so close to death causes most to
drop their fronts and open up with each other. It's
how we cope, I guess, reaching out to others for help, support, comfort,
and understanding. I have become very close, very quickly, with
several of these men, only to watch them taken away
and poisoned until their lives are over. I've watched sixteen
men walk away to their death. I've been in mourning
since January twenty eighteen, a morning that starts over and over,
with layer upon layer added, and I know it will
never end. I must wish that all of these men
were assholes and repugnant personalities, so I wouldn't mourn them.
Several times, imost decide to quit getting to know any
of these men, just to hibernate within myself, to armor
my heart and not allow anyone else in. And y'all,
I just can't take any more of that. You noticed,
it's all about him. It's all about Billy Joel Tracy
and how he's suffering in prison. No acknowledgment of the
fact that he he was in prison for the attempted
murder of a sixteen year old that he tried to
rape when he was twenty and then when he gets
in there, he tries to kill two correctional officers and
kills a third, and he just can't understand why he's
being constantly watched, why they're so mean to him in prison,
and why his living conditions are so bad. That is
the definition of a narcissist, and that's Billy Joel Tracy.
There you have it now. Next week I will continue
with this series fifty Shades of Evil, and I'm going
to go to another state. Will it be yours? Well?
Check us out next week to find out. And until
next time for Bloody and Gola, I'm Jim Chapman, Peace, I.
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