WEBVTT 1 00:00:03.640 --> 00:00:06.519 And I just turned around and I call ass out 2 00:00:06.519 --> 00:00:06.799 of there. 3 00:00:06.919 --> 00:00:08.119 I was done. 4 00:00:08.359 --> 00:00:09.359 I wasn't dealing with them. 5 00:00:12.480 --> 00:00:15.240 The hypocrisy of the cult is one of the things 6 00:00:15.439 --> 00:00:16.600 that turned me. 7 00:00:16.559 --> 00:00:17.920 Away the quickest. 8 00:00:21.359 --> 00:00:23.839 When I turned my head lights on, it turned and 9 00:00:23.920 --> 00:00:24.600 looked at us. 10 00:00:25.440 --> 00:00:27.559 And one of the things I remember the most, where 11 00:00:27.559 --> 00:00:28.760 the eyes were glowing red. 12 00:00:31.280 --> 00:00:35.280 I see an orb of light. It is just circling 13 00:00:35.920 --> 00:00:37.960 these steps like it is waiting for me. 14 00:00:41.079 --> 00:00:45.159 And he begins to tell them that he saw UFO. 15 00:00:45.600 --> 00:00:51.560 They're basically like, what are you talking about. That's seven 16 00:00:51.600 --> 00:00:54.640 foot up on a tree, peeking around it, and that's 17 00:00:54.640 --> 00:00:57.439 where I saw the top of the muzzle, noose and 18 00:00:57.520 --> 00:01:00.399 the eyes. As soon as I made eye contact with this. 19 00:01:00.359 --> 00:01:07.319 Thing, I don't like death. Welcome back to Tenfoil Tells. 20 00:01:07.400 --> 00:01:09.959 I'm your host, Brandon Wright. Hid's episode. We're gonna be 21 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:13.280 joined by my guest, Kevin. Kevin is a targeted individual. 22 00:01:13.760 --> 00:01:14.920 You want to come on here to night and talk 23 00:01:14.920 --> 00:01:17.400 about some of his experiences, so I'm looking forward to 24 00:01:17.439 --> 00:01:20.200 talking to him about it before we bring Kevin on, 25 00:01:20.599 --> 00:01:22.079 You've ever had an experience and you would like to 26 00:01:22.079 --> 00:01:23.719 be on an episode of ten Foil Tels. 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Yeah, Like you said, my name is Kevin, and 55 00:02:34.400 --> 00:02:40.319 I am what you would consider a targeted individual. And 56 00:02:40.840 --> 00:02:42.719 you know, for those of you that have never heard 57 00:02:43.039 --> 00:02:48.000 the term targeted individual before, it's connected with another term 58 00:02:48.039 --> 00:02:51.680 you may be familiar with, which is gang stalking. So 59 00:02:53.520 --> 00:02:56.439 you know, I'll go back a few years. I would 60 00:02:56.520 --> 00:03:03.680 say probably about four or five years ago, began hearing voices, okay, 61 00:03:04.000 --> 00:03:07.560 and it was it was very obvious to me at 62 00:03:07.599 --> 00:03:12.919 the time that the voices were, uh, you know, entirely 63 00:03:12.960 --> 00:03:17.319 autonomous and sentient on their own. So what the things 64 00:03:17.319 --> 00:03:19.479 that they're saying were not a part of my long 65 00:03:19.560 --> 00:03:23.319 term memory or my you know, my my my database, 66 00:03:23.439 --> 00:03:26.159 you know, of memories and understanding like a lot of 67 00:03:26.199 --> 00:03:28.280 things that they were saying. I would have to I 68 00:03:28.280 --> 00:03:34.680 would have to look up and do Google searches on people, places, things, ideas, ideologies, 69 00:03:34.840 --> 00:03:37.560 theological views, world views, and like I'm like, I don't, 70 00:03:37.599 --> 00:03:40.159 I don't know what the heck this is. And then 71 00:03:40.479 --> 00:03:45.919 simultaneously it began happening to my girlfriend. So you know, 72 00:03:45.919 --> 00:03:49.280 it was like almost like a contagious psychosis or like 73 00:03:49.319 --> 00:03:58.240 a shared psychosis. And it started off almost like just narrating, 74 00:03:58.360 --> 00:04:02.159 you know, just narrating in the present moment, and eventually 75 00:04:02.159 --> 00:04:07.400 it turned into just very personal conversation. You know, my 76 00:04:07.520 --> 00:04:12.560 inner monologue became an inner dialogue, and to the point 77 00:04:12.599 --> 00:04:16.519 where I could actually hear my own voice in my 78 00:04:16.680 --> 00:04:20.839 mind speaking with three other individuals at all times, two 79 00:04:20.920 --> 00:04:25.360 males and a female, and the male the one male 80 00:04:25.399 --> 00:04:28.839 and female sounded to be about my age, and the 81 00:04:28.920 --> 00:04:31.759 other male sounded probably to be older, maybe in his 82 00:04:31.839 --> 00:04:34.040 I'm forty four, so I'd say he's probably sounded to 83 00:04:34.040 --> 00:04:37.279 be in his fifties or sixties, and seemed to be 84 00:04:37.439 --> 00:04:39.680 like the the one that was in charge of the 85 00:04:39.720 --> 00:04:44.120 other two, very very bizarre, and you know, it just 86 00:04:44.480 --> 00:04:48.360 became like a like an open dialogue, and then it 87 00:04:48.680 --> 00:04:53.839 took a very negative, malicious turn, to the point where 88 00:04:54.720 --> 00:04:58.199 things that were being said were just very you know, 89 00:04:58.439 --> 00:05:02.720 crude in nature and and harming in nature, so you know, 90 00:05:02.879 --> 00:05:05.439 and and again I repeat this that you know my 91 00:05:05.519 --> 00:05:08.720 girlfriend was going through this at the same time, and 92 00:05:10.040 --> 00:05:11.759 you know a lot of times what happens with this 93 00:05:11.959 --> 00:05:14.839 is you know the things are being spoken to you, 94 00:05:14.879 --> 00:05:18.120 but they're in like a deeper recess of your subconscious 95 00:05:18.199 --> 00:05:22.199 or your unconscious, and if you don't hear it, it 96 00:05:22.360 --> 00:05:25.600 simply registers as a notion of your own cognition, and 97 00:05:26.319 --> 00:05:30.839 you're almost inclined to follow through with it, right, So 98 00:05:33.319 --> 00:05:36.120 you know, as time went on, it what happened was 99 00:05:36.439 --> 00:05:39.639 they almost began running a what I referred to as 100 00:05:39.680 --> 00:05:44.240 in an experiment exposure therapy program, and exposure therapy is 101 00:05:44.279 --> 00:05:48.000 a it's a form of cognitive behavior therapy where an 102 00:05:48.000 --> 00:05:51.759 individual is introduced to their deepest fears, usually in a 103 00:05:51.800 --> 00:05:56.519 safe environment. So what would happen in my mind was 104 00:05:56.519 --> 00:06:01.279 that entire recreations of things that I was holding onto 105 00:06:01.360 --> 00:06:04.399 resentment for, things that I was feeling guilty about or 106 00:06:04.439 --> 00:06:07.720 remorseful for in my past were completely played out in 107 00:06:07.800 --> 00:06:14.839 my mind. And I'm talking ex girlfriends, ex employers, childhood friends. 108 00:06:15.720 --> 00:06:18.480 I mean just entire scenarios where I would have to 109 00:06:18.639 --> 00:06:21.720 kind of replay and for some of these people in 110 00:06:21.800 --> 00:06:25.439 my mind, asking for forgiveness or you know, trying to 111 00:06:25.560 --> 00:06:29.839 justify my behavior, you know. So it it really kind 112 00:06:29.839 --> 00:06:31.439 of forced me to face a lot of things that 113 00:06:31.480 --> 00:06:36.639 I had been unwilling to face in my life. So 114 00:06:37.000 --> 00:06:38.920 you know, kind of fast forward. You know, once I 115 00:06:39.000 --> 00:06:43.040 kind of got through that phase, then it began taking 116 00:06:43.040 --> 00:06:47.160 on a whole other phase where you know, I was 117 00:06:47.279 --> 00:06:51.079 being exposed to like my fear of other people's opinions, 118 00:06:51.199 --> 00:06:52.519 you know, that was a big thing for me. I 119 00:06:52.519 --> 00:06:55.240 always had a very deep fear of what other people 120 00:06:55.240 --> 00:06:58.639 thought about me. So and I lived my life, you know, 121 00:06:58.720 --> 00:07:02.480 through this pretentious perception as if you know, I was 122 00:07:02.519 --> 00:07:05.519 so insecured and uncertain about myself that if I could 123 00:07:05.720 --> 00:07:11.000 convince you in your mind that I was this particular person, 124 00:07:11.040 --> 00:07:12.720 well then I could be convinced in my mind that 125 00:07:12.759 --> 00:07:15.439 I was that person, and I felt worthy, you know, 126 00:07:15.519 --> 00:07:18.600 I thought like I have value in that. But it 127 00:07:18.639 --> 00:07:23.720 was all live, So all the statements began revolving around 128 00:07:23.879 --> 00:07:25.759 or you know, they would start off with the pretext 129 00:07:26.319 --> 00:07:29.439 everybody here thinks, and it didn't matter what it was, right. 130 00:07:29.480 --> 00:07:31.759 I mean, I could I could have the thought, you know, 131 00:07:31.839 --> 00:07:33.519 I want to I want to go for a drive 132 00:07:34.519 --> 00:07:37.399 and immediately the voices of which I'm in. Everybody here 133 00:07:37.480 --> 00:07:39.759 thinks you should go for a drive. Everybody here doesn't 134 00:07:39.800 --> 00:07:42.240 think you should go for a drive, right, And when 135 00:07:42.279 --> 00:07:45.279 you're faced with that, you really just learned to start 136 00:07:45.279 --> 00:07:47.360 ignoring that. You know, You're like, I don't really give 137 00:07:47.399 --> 00:07:49.800 a shit what other people think about me. So then 138 00:07:50.040 --> 00:07:53.079 it moved on to a phase where I literally felt 139 00:07:53.120 --> 00:07:56.680 as if my mind was being torn into, as if 140 00:07:56.759 --> 00:08:00.759 the polarities of being a human, you know, the the 141 00:08:00.759 --> 00:08:10.120 the the extremes that we face good evil, pretty ugly worthy, worthless, stupid, smart. 142 00:08:11.639 --> 00:08:13.680 I was, you know, I was just being torn between 143 00:08:13.680 --> 00:08:16.480 these two. So at all times, and I'm telling you 144 00:08:16.560 --> 00:08:19.720 this went on for months and months and months. There 145 00:08:19.759 --> 00:08:22.759 would be multiple voices, and the one voice would say, 146 00:08:23.040 --> 00:08:25.160 I mean some of the craziest stuff, like one small 147 00:08:25.199 --> 00:08:28.680 step for man one giant leap for mankind. And you know, 148 00:08:28.759 --> 00:08:30.240 hearing me say that to you now, you're like, what 149 00:08:30.240 --> 00:08:32.120 the hell does that mean? But in your head, when 150 00:08:32.159 --> 00:08:35.679 you're really trying to find some sort of pacification for 151 00:08:36.519 --> 00:08:39.200 you know, for this confusion, you're like, oh, that must 152 00:08:39.240 --> 00:08:41.360 mean I'm doing good, you know, you know, like I'm 153 00:08:41.360 --> 00:08:45.919 really onto something extraordinary here, and then immediately they would 154 00:08:45.919 --> 00:08:48.600 be like, you're so stupid, right, and then it was 155 00:08:48.639 --> 00:08:50.559 like you're the smartest guy in the room, You're the 156 00:08:50.639 --> 00:08:53.080 dumbest piece of shit we've ever met. I mean, right 157 00:08:53.120 --> 00:08:55.279 after one, right after the next. And if you have 158 00:08:55.279 --> 00:08:57.720 an emotional attachment to what is being said to you 159 00:08:57.759 --> 00:08:59.840 and you continue to follow through this, you will quite 160 00:09:00.039 --> 00:09:06.240 really tear yourself into right. So again exposure therapy, and 161 00:09:06.759 --> 00:09:10.399 what you really have to do with this is learn 162 00:09:10.559 --> 00:09:13.639 how to not have an attachment to what is being 163 00:09:13.679 --> 00:09:16.279 said to you, right. You really have to seek your 164 00:09:17.039 --> 00:09:19.720 your present moment's self and the reality of who you 165 00:09:19.759 --> 00:09:21.720 really are in this present moment, right in the middle 166 00:09:22.039 --> 00:09:24.559 of all the extremes. Otherwise, you know, as long as 167 00:09:24.600 --> 00:09:26.720 you continue to have an attachment to them, you're just 168 00:09:26.720 --> 00:09:28.639 going to drive yourself insane, because as soon as you 169 00:09:28.679 --> 00:09:31.480 have an attachment to one extreme, they're immediately going to 170 00:09:31.559 --> 00:09:33.919 hit you with the next extreme. Or you can have 171 00:09:33.960 --> 00:09:36.840 a very simple thought like you know, I want to 172 00:09:36.879 --> 00:09:40.600 go to Wendy's, right, and then you're immediately bombarded with 173 00:09:40.639 --> 00:09:43.399 a variety of voices. Why do you want to go 174 00:09:43.399 --> 00:09:46.360 to Wendy's. You don't like Wendy's, wendy sucks, Wendy's going 175 00:09:46.399 --> 00:09:48.759 to make you fat, Wendy's has terrible feard. You can't 176 00:09:48.759 --> 00:09:51.000 afford Wendy's. Why are you spending all your money at Wendy's. 177 00:09:51.000 --> 00:09:54.159 You love Wendy's. It makes it very difficult. Like most 178 00:09:54.200 --> 00:09:59.159 people that experience this, they have to hold off on employment. 179 00:09:59.679 --> 00:10:01.840 It's very difficult to hold a job while you're going 180 00:10:01.840 --> 00:10:06.320 through this in your mind. So let you know, kind 181 00:10:06.320 --> 00:10:09.159 of go into the gang stalking aspect of this. So 182 00:10:09.879 --> 00:10:12.519 again another term that people may not be familiar with, 183 00:10:13.039 --> 00:10:19.200 gang stalking. So gang stalking is when a group of individuals, 184 00:10:19.720 --> 00:10:26.399 for whatever reason, harass you right whether it's with workplace harassment, 185 00:10:26.600 --> 00:10:30.159 or it's with driving up and down your street, honking 186 00:10:30.200 --> 00:10:33.039 the horn at all hours of the night, motorcycles going by, 187 00:10:33.120 --> 00:10:34.679 or it could just be a group of people that 188 00:10:34.720 --> 00:10:38.679 are mobbing you on the street, or or you perceive 189 00:10:39.320 --> 00:10:42.440 people that are there taking your picture right, or maybe 190 00:10:42.480 --> 00:10:44.440 somebody's just standing out front of your house, like there's 191 00:10:44.480 --> 00:10:47.519 all kinds of things. It's ways to make an individual 192 00:10:47.600 --> 00:10:51.399 uncomfortable right in their own environment, in their own home, 193 00:10:51.480 --> 00:10:53.600 or even while they're out on the street and it's 194 00:10:53.639 --> 00:10:56.240 either a means to force somebody out of a community 195 00:10:56.399 --> 00:10:58.559 or it means to force you into some sort of 196 00:10:58.559 --> 00:11:03.279 like a rehabilitation center something like that. So I, you know, 197 00:11:03.320 --> 00:11:07.559 and this has been my experience with gang stalking. I 198 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:13.720 never experienced physical gang stalking, right. So for for me 199 00:11:13.840 --> 00:11:16.159 and my testimony and my experience with this, it was 200 00:11:16.200 --> 00:11:20.480 all completely in my head. So when you're dealing with 201 00:11:20.519 --> 00:11:24.600 heightened states of paranoia and you're hearing voices at the 202 00:11:24.600 --> 00:11:28.840 same time, the voices are can be very very mean, 203 00:11:28.879 --> 00:11:32.360 and they will actually often say, you know, that white 204 00:11:32.399 --> 00:11:37.080 truck has passed by three times. Right. And there's a 205 00:11:37.080 --> 00:11:38.799 an analogy that I like to use, and I call 206 00:11:38.840 --> 00:11:41.960 it the white truck of apaphenia. Right. So, apiphenia is 207 00:11:42.000 --> 00:11:44.799 a condition and it's kind of an onset of schizophrenia 208 00:11:45.120 --> 00:11:48.720 where it's almost like as if you're putting pieces of 209 00:11:48.720 --> 00:11:52.639 a puzzle together that that don't exist. Right. So, next 210 00:11:52.679 --> 00:11:54.399 time you're out and you're walking around the street, notice 211 00:11:54.399 --> 00:11:57.200 how many white cars that you just see in your 212 00:11:57.240 --> 00:12:00.559 in your daily routine. White cars are everywhere, white truck everywhere, 213 00:12:00.559 --> 00:12:02.840 White cars are everywhere. Well, if I'm walking down the 214 00:12:02.840 --> 00:12:05.639 street and night my brain registers a white truck just 215 00:12:05.720 --> 00:12:09.000 drove by, and I don't actually like pay too much 216 00:12:09.039 --> 00:12:12.000 mind to it. Well, it's registered in my brain. And 217 00:12:12.000 --> 00:12:14.799 then the voices will kick in and they'll they'll start 218 00:12:14.840 --> 00:12:17.159 with the nonsense. They'll say, that's the second time that 219 00:12:17.159 --> 00:12:19.320 white truck drove by. Keep an eye on that white truck. 220 00:12:19.480 --> 00:12:21.399 Watch it doesn't come back around the corner again. That 221 00:12:21.440 --> 00:12:23.000 white truck's out to get you. I bet you. That's 222 00:12:23.039 --> 00:12:26.039 the FBI, that's the CIA. All this stuff goes on 223 00:12:26.039 --> 00:12:28.720 in the mind. Sometimes it's heard, sometimes it's not heard, 224 00:12:29.000 --> 00:12:32.120 but the trigger is already, it's put in place, and 225 00:12:32.200 --> 00:12:34.000 the next time that you see a white truck, which 226 00:12:34.039 --> 00:12:36.960 is probably going to be very soon, the trigger is 227 00:12:37.000 --> 00:12:39.000 set and immediately you feel as if you're being followed 228 00:12:39.000 --> 00:12:41.279 and that people are out to get you. And this 229 00:12:41.360 --> 00:12:43.840 happened for me a lot, you know, as I was 230 00:12:43.919 --> 00:12:48.600 kind of going through this phase. So what was happening 231 00:12:48.600 --> 00:12:50.679 with me, and I can't speak for the entirety of 232 00:12:50.679 --> 00:12:52.559 the gangs talking community when I say this, I can 233 00:12:52.600 --> 00:12:57.320 only speak personally for me, is that my brain became 234 00:12:57.399 --> 00:13:01.960 aware that it was under observation. It was entirely certain 235 00:13:02.519 --> 00:13:06.399 that it was not alone. And think about how scary 236 00:13:07.399 --> 00:13:11.159 of a concept that that is. Because your brain, your mind, 237 00:13:11.200 --> 00:13:15.080 it's this place of complete and tonal solidarity. Right, you 238 00:13:15.120 --> 00:13:17.960 can think anything, you can envision anything, and you are 239 00:13:18.000 --> 00:13:22.440 free of persecution. There is no there's no judgment. Your 240 00:13:22.480 --> 00:13:24.679 brain's no judgment zone. As long as it doesn't come 241 00:13:24.679 --> 00:13:28.080 out of your mouth, right, you're safe. Well, get rid 242 00:13:28.080 --> 00:13:30.799 of that, right, because now your brain is aware that 243 00:13:30.840 --> 00:13:36.320 it's not alone. And your brain's job is to make order, right, 244 00:13:36.360 --> 00:13:37.960 that's what it does. It makes sense of things by 245 00:13:38.000 --> 00:13:43.279 our surroundings, by our understanding, by our memories, by our experiences. 246 00:13:43.399 --> 00:13:47.360 It creates an understanding of our environment. Well, when something 247 00:13:47.399 --> 00:13:51.240 like this happens and your brain can't make understanding of it, right, 248 00:13:51.279 --> 00:13:53.000 it can't make sense of it in order of it, 249 00:13:53.240 --> 00:13:55.360 what it will do is it will seek an explanation 250 00:13:55.440 --> 00:13:57.799 outside of itself, because that's what it's doing. That's what 251 00:13:57.799 --> 00:14:01.600 the brain does. It finds in your environment as to 252 00:14:01.720 --> 00:14:06.080 why you have this sense that you are not alone, right, 253 00:14:06.600 --> 00:14:08.759 And what happens is that your mind becomes aware that 254 00:14:08.799 --> 00:14:12.480 it is under observation and it can't grasp the fact 255 00:14:12.519 --> 00:14:15.200 that it is not alone. So it seeks an explanation 256 00:14:15.279 --> 00:14:17.919 outside of itself. And this is why you get people 257 00:14:17.919 --> 00:14:19.720 that think their neighbors are out the game them. This 258 00:14:19.799 --> 00:14:22.320 is why you get people that think the police are 259 00:14:22.360 --> 00:14:24.759 watching them, that the FBI are watching them, that Homeland 260 00:14:24.759 --> 00:14:26.840 Security is out to get them. That these are all 261 00:14:26.840 --> 00:14:29.799 heightened states of paranoia with the brain. They can't understand 262 00:14:29.840 --> 00:14:34.120 what the heck is going on. And that's that's exactly 263 00:14:34.200 --> 00:14:36.279 what it happened for me. And once I was actually 264 00:14:36.399 --> 00:14:38.759 able to wrap my head around that fact that my 265 00:14:38.840 --> 00:14:41.639 body was not under observation, it was simply my brain. 266 00:14:42.320 --> 00:14:44.960 That's my brain had come in contact with something that 267 00:14:45.840 --> 00:14:49.559 was foreign, right, or it was something that has has 268 00:14:49.559 --> 00:14:52.200 already been there, right, And maybe it's just the part 269 00:14:52.240 --> 00:14:54.159 of our brain that Carl Jung refers to as the 270 00:14:54.159 --> 00:14:58.440 collective unconsciousness, and that veil between the collective unconsciousness and 271 00:14:58.480 --> 00:15:03.240 my personal unconscious torn right, making me aware of things 272 00:15:03.279 --> 00:15:06.360 that I shouldn't have been aware of. So as time, 273 00:15:06.480 --> 00:15:10.039 you know, so once I had that realization, things really 274 00:15:10.080 --> 00:15:13.120 calm down for me. You know, I stopped seeking an 275 00:15:13.159 --> 00:15:16.240 explanation outside of myself. I stopped blaming others for my 276 00:15:16.279 --> 00:15:19.759 heightened sense of paranoida and fear, and I began solely 277 00:15:19.799 --> 00:15:23.039 focusing on my mind, right, so like what is going 278 00:15:23.080 --> 00:15:25.440 on in my mind that is that is causing this. 279 00:15:26.200 --> 00:15:27.919 And once I was able to do that, that's when 280 00:15:28.120 --> 00:15:30.559 you know you really start almost I want to say, 281 00:15:30.559 --> 00:15:33.360 developing a relationship with these voices, because ninety nine percent 282 00:15:33.399 --> 00:15:35.600 of what they say is complete and total nonsense and 283 00:15:35.720 --> 00:15:39.679 bullshit and lies. But every now and then, one percent 284 00:15:39.679 --> 00:15:42.279 of the time you get some actual, like really true insight. 285 00:15:43.120 --> 00:15:47.120 But the bulk of the insight and the bulk of 286 00:15:47.159 --> 00:15:50.360 the enlightenment that you get through this is because of 287 00:15:50.360 --> 00:15:53.840 the lies. Right. So if you're told lie after lie 288 00:15:53.840 --> 00:15:56.240 after lie after lie, you'll you'll follow down each one 289 00:15:56.279 --> 00:15:58.399 of those dead end roads and smack your head into 290 00:15:58.440 --> 00:15:59.759 the brick wall that's at the end of each one 291 00:15:59.759 --> 00:16:01.919 of them dead end roads, right, But you'll have learned 292 00:16:01.919 --> 00:16:04.559 something as you went down there, right, And with each 293 00:16:04.559 --> 00:16:06.120 dead end road that you go down, you pick up 294 00:16:06.159 --> 00:16:11.919 something else entirely along the way. So that's that's one 295 00:16:11.960 --> 00:16:14.279 aspect of being a targeted individual, and that's one sign. 296 00:16:14.399 --> 00:16:16.879 Is one one of the major signs and symptoms is 297 00:16:16.919 --> 00:16:18.559 that you begin to hear voices that you know are 298 00:16:18.559 --> 00:16:22.559 not of your own accord. They are entirely sentient, autonomous 299 00:16:22.600 --> 00:16:26.679 like I said, and intelligent all on their own. They 300 00:16:26.720 --> 00:16:29.639 will feed off of your present moment thought, but they 301 00:16:29.679 --> 00:16:32.759 also won't they'll speak of things that are completely unknown 302 00:16:33.360 --> 00:16:37.320 to you, you know, the individual. Another major sign and 303 00:16:37.320 --> 00:16:40.600 symptom of being a targeted individual's dream manipulation. I started 304 00:16:40.639 --> 00:16:45.240 getting very very heavy, lucid dreams where the same voices 305 00:16:45.240 --> 00:16:47.519 that I hear throughout the day, I'm hearing in my dreams, 306 00:16:48.039 --> 00:16:52.039 and they seem to be orienting and dictating and constructing 307 00:16:52.360 --> 00:16:55.759 my dreams. And these dreamscapes, as I referred to them, 308 00:16:55.799 --> 00:16:59.799 we're entirely oriented towards me. And this fear exposure therapy 309 00:17:00.320 --> 00:17:04.160 that I had him going through, right, so, you know, 310 00:17:04.200 --> 00:17:05.880 like I said, it felt like my mind was being 311 00:17:05.880 --> 00:17:09.160 split in half. So I began having these dreams where 312 00:17:09.160 --> 00:17:13.279 I was stuck in almost like like a honeycomb kind 313 00:17:13.279 --> 00:17:17.160 of thing, like a vasoline honeycomb, completely unable to get out, 314 00:17:17.200 --> 00:17:19.680 almost like a bug caught in a spider's web. And 315 00:17:19.720 --> 00:17:21.640 I'm struggling, and the more i struggle, the more I'm 316 00:17:21.680 --> 00:17:23.519 just sinking or I'm getting into a fight with two 317 00:17:23.519 --> 00:17:26.200 individuals on the street, and the ones pulling my neck 318 00:17:26.240 --> 00:17:27.880 one way and the other ones pulling my neck the 319 00:17:27.920 --> 00:17:30.119 other way. You know, these dreams where I'm just being 320 00:17:30.640 --> 00:17:33.079 corn into and I can't seem to get out, and 321 00:17:33.119 --> 00:17:36.480 I would wake up in these heightened states of fear. Right, 322 00:17:36.519 --> 00:17:38.279 And then, to make matters worse, when you wake up 323 00:17:38.319 --> 00:17:40.839 in these heightened states of fear, the voices are right 324 00:17:40.880 --> 00:17:43.359 there just to egg you on. You know, you coward, 325 00:17:43.759 --> 00:17:46.279 You're a complete and total coward. I can't believe we 326 00:17:46.359 --> 00:17:48.680 picked this guy. This is the guy that you picked. 327 00:17:48.960 --> 00:17:51.319 Oh my god, what a waste he is. I mean, 328 00:17:51.440 --> 00:17:57.559 just absolutely terrible, nightmarish things. Right, So that was a 329 00:17:57.559 --> 00:18:02.319 big part of it, was the dream manipult. So I 330 00:18:02.799 --> 00:18:06.359 eventually I came to the understanding, right, and this is 331 00:18:06.400 --> 00:18:11.119 my understanding and to the belief right that what happens 332 00:18:11.519 --> 00:18:18.039 is at all times, right, we are dreaming, okay, and 333 00:18:18.079 --> 00:18:21.039 this has actually proven scientifically. Not to say that you 334 00:18:21.079 --> 00:18:24.519 and I right now are in a dream, but I'm 335 00:18:24.559 --> 00:18:27.720 saying that you and I and the recesses of our 336 00:18:27.759 --> 00:18:31.920 minds are creating a dream. Right. We only visit these 337 00:18:32.000 --> 00:18:35.279 dreams when we sleep, Okay, But we are at all 338 00:18:35.319 --> 00:18:38.279 times awake. You know, even while we're awake, we are 339 00:18:38.440 --> 00:18:42.079 recreating an entirely different perception of this reality. And if 340 00:18:42.079 --> 00:18:43.440 you look into some of the work that has been 341 00:18:43.480 --> 00:18:47.240 done by doctor Leslie Ellis, she's a dream clinician, that 342 00:18:47.559 --> 00:18:50.599 this is her specialty and her and a lot of 343 00:18:50.599 --> 00:18:53.000 other dream clinicians have found this out through testing that 344 00:18:53.079 --> 00:18:56.160 at all times we are creating an entirely other reality 345 00:18:56.160 --> 00:18:59.240 and entire other reality in our minds to help us 346 00:18:59.319 --> 00:19:03.759 cope with and get through this environmental reality that we 347 00:19:03.799 --> 00:19:07.319 call earth, that we call you know, life, And these 348 00:19:07.359 --> 00:19:09.920 realities can be extreme. Think about how extreme your dreams 349 00:19:09.920 --> 00:19:13.759 can be, right, but each one is a coping mechanism. 350 00:19:14.240 --> 00:19:16.799 Very fear based dreams are a way for you to 351 00:19:16.839 --> 00:19:20.240 get through fears in your actual life. Right, very awkward dreams, 352 00:19:20.319 --> 00:19:22.279 very anxiety were it in dreams? Well, these things are 353 00:19:22.279 --> 00:19:25.839 still going on even while you're awake. And what begins 354 00:19:25.839 --> 00:19:30.400 to happen with the targeted individual is that those two realities, 355 00:19:30.559 --> 00:19:32.079 the one that you're creating in your head and the 356 00:19:32.079 --> 00:19:35.440 one that is actually here, co mingle. There's there's a 357 00:19:35.480 --> 00:19:38.640 confluence of these realities. Somehow, there's a part of the 358 00:19:38.680 --> 00:19:42.119 brain where that that is usually segregated off it's not 359 00:19:42.200 --> 00:19:46.279 segregated anymore. And your nightmares that you are creating literally 360 00:19:46.480 --> 00:19:49.640 spill over into your awake state of mind, and you 361 00:19:49.680 --> 00:19:52.359 begin to hear these voices, You begin to see people, 362 00:19:52.400 --> 00:19:55.599 You begin to make up entirely different environments that you're 363 00:19:55.640 --> 00:19:59.599 running through, you know, And it is my belief that 364 00:19:59.640 --> 00:20:05.160 this is what happens with schizophrenia as well. So I'll 365 00:20:05.240 --> 00:20:09.559 keep moving forward and we'll kind of step into, you know, 366 00:20:09.680 --> 00:20:11.400 some of the phases that I went through as far 367 00:20:11.480 --> 00:20:14.119 as a belief system about what all this was and 368 00:20:14.160 --> 00:20:18.119 what I was dealing with. So obviously, at first I 369 00:20:18.359 --> 00:20:22.400 thought it was normal people like, you know, neighbors. I 370 00:20:22.440 --> 00:20:24.880 thought neighbors were messing with me. I thought my parents 371 00:20:24.880 --> 00:20:27.759 were in on it. I thought I went through the 372 00:20:27.799 --> 00:20:30.359 whole list of things, you know, maybe somebody that i'd harmed, 373 00:20:30.359 --> 00:20:33.799 the next employer, a girlfriend that had, you know, that 374 00:20:33.960 --> 00:20:36.799 was doing this out of spite, you know, just anybody, 375 00:20:36.839 --> 00:20:39.240 anybody ran, somebody with money that could afford to do this. 376 00:20:40.319 --> 00:20:42.920 And then you know, as time goes on and you're like, 377 00:20:42.960 --> 00:20:45.000 how the heck is this twenty four to seven? This 378 00:20:45.119 --> 00:20:47.680 is twenty four to seven, there's never anybody there. You're 379 00:20:47.720 --> 00:20:50.599 looking for cameras in your apartment, you're looking for microphones, 380 00:20:50.640 --> 00:20:54.079 you're looking for anything hidden, never finding anything, of course, 381 00:20:54.480 --> 00:20:56.440 but you're losing your mind this whole time. Well then 382 00:20:56.480 --> 00:21:00.400 you go bigger, Right, Maybe it's the government, right, Maybe 383 00:21:00.400 --> 00:21:04.240 it's the government doing some sort of satellite surveillance behavioral 384 00:21:04.279 --> 00:21:08.720 modification program on and experimenting you know, you know, on 385 00:21:08.759 --> 00:21:13.160 its on its citizens. And then you really have to 386 00:21:13.160 --> 00:21:17.279 think about that possibility, you know, And and the one 387 00:21:17.359 --> 00:21:19.160 I'd say one of the main things that got me 388 00:21:19.200 --> 00:21:21.440 away from that train of thought was the thought, well, 389 00:21:21.440 --> 00:21:24.680 who the hell am I? Right, Like, I'm some I'm 390 00:21:24.680 --> 00:21:29.319 some forty four year old forklift operator that you know, Like, 391 00:21:29.519 --> 00:21:32.279 who am I that you know that? They my my 392 00:21:32.400 --> 00:21:34.680 senator doesn't know who I am. The mayor of my 393 00:21:34.799 --> 00:21:38.119 town doesn't know who I am. The freaking librarian over 394 00:21:38.160 --> 00:21:40.200 at the library, she doesn't know who I am. I 395 00:21:40.279 --> 00:21:41.920 might know two of my neighbors, and I don't even 396 00:21:42.000 --> 00:21:45.039 know them by name, right, So I'm like, yeah, I'm 397 00:21:45.079 --> 00:21:49.559 not really anybody special that this would happen to. And then, 398 00:21:49.839 --> 00:21:53.359 you know, you try to find a causation for this right. 399 00:21:53.440 --> 00:21:56.319 Your brain is desperately seeking like, what the hell caused this? 400 00:21:56.400 --> 00:21:58.480 What did I do? Right? You want to blame yourself, 401 00:21:58.519 --> 00:22:01.640