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<v Speaker 1>Hey, sorry, sorry, sorry, I know I haven't been answering

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<v Speaker 1>the phone. I get it. Yeah, no, I'm a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit busy right now, my darling. Can I call you

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<v Speaker 1>back and like, I don't know, a couple hours or something.

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<v Speaker 1>I can text you here and there maybe. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>turned my GPS tracker off. No, no, I can absolutely

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<v Speaker 1>see where you are. I can see you, but I've

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<v Speaker 1>turned mine off well because I just sometimes girls just

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<v Speaker 1>want to go out and do something. Baby, what are

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<v Speaker 1>you honey? I know it's been about what a day

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<v Speaker 1>and a half now, I just rip three days Jesus. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry. I'm sorry. You're right. I shouldn't have just

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<v Speaker 1>gone off the rails like that, But I mean I

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<v Speaker 1>left a note. I told you i'd be back in

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<v Speaker 1>a couple of days, that I was just going to

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<v Speaker 1>have some meet time. It happens, well, what did the

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<v Speaker 1>police say? See, the police told you give me some time.

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<v Speaker 1>I left note, the authenticated it. I told my manager, like,

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<v Speaker 1>everything's copa sidic Okay, what? Oh? Interesting? Well, no, we

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<v Speaker 1>heard about that two days before I left. Yeah, didn't

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<v Speaker 1>she like decide And it's not like it's unheard of.

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<v Speaker 1>After what happened, I mean, everybody found out that she was,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, a dirty, dirty jeter, and then me and

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<v Speaker 1>you had those couple of days of celebration, and well, AnyWho,

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<v Speaker 1>I decided to go have some mean time after celebrating

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<v Speaker 1>with you. I'm training for my next fat. No, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I don't know who I'm fat, and I

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<v Speaker 1>don't have a fat booked. But I'm sure as soon

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<v Speaker 1>as I come back, my manager will already have figured

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<v Speaker 1>out the details. And baby, no, no, no, baby, baby

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<v Speaker 1>baby Darling, sugar Sweetpete, No no, no, I'm not going

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<v Speaker 1>to come back any time soon. I need a couple

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<v Speaker 1>more days. Okay, fine, fine, you figured it out. You're

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<v Speaker 1>freaking Sherlock homes. Yes, I'm with her. Yes, I am

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<v Speaker 1>in a place I don't want you to come to.

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<v Speaker 1>She's alive. What did you think I would do to her?

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<v Speaker 1>I only kind of thought about, you know, doing that

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<v Speaker 1>to her, and that well, no, I haven't roughed her up.

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<v Speaker 1>I knew she had any more bruises or injuries to

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<v Speaker 1>her than that was going to be a problem. So

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<v Speaker 1>I did the thing that a lot of the spiders

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<v Speaker 1>did when I shared a better place. I am knocked

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<v Speaker 1>her out. No, we don't tend to knock each other up.

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<v Speaker 1>Just listen, would you. I knocked her out, and then

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<v Speaker 1>I took a bunch of pictures of her injuries. We

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<v Speaker 1>do this so that we can monitor how they're healing

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<v Speaker 1>up and if we get any additional injuries and whatnot.

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<v Speaker 1>It's part of the insurance thing that we have to

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<v Speaker 1>do too. So yeah, I took a bunch of pictures

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<v Speaker 1>of her injuries, and she hadn't and I have given

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<v Speaker 1>her absolutely no more. Well, yeah, no, I brought her

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<v Speaker 1>out to the car and I drove her to a

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<v Speaker 1>place that you know, it's just some property that I

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<v Speaker 1>know of now. Of course I don't own it. Any

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<v Speaker 1>would link back to me. Nobody comes out here. The

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<v Speaker 1>family that owns is have more or less abandoned it

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<v Speaker 1>for years and years and years and years and years.

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<v Speaker 1>They still own it, but it is whatever. And she's alive. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been making her sheets and drinks. Yes, she's hydrated.

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<v Speaker 1>She texted you, She texted you. I saw I saw that.

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<v Speaker 1>Not when we were going back to our place that

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<v Speaker 1>she texted you and said that she needed to talk.

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<v Speaker 1>What is there to talk about? So after we had

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of fun that not. I woke up a

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<v Speaker 1>couple hours later. I meant to stay up until you

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<v Speaker 1>went to sleep, but honestly, like you just always get

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<v Speaker 1>me probably tired out so good. AnyWho, I got tired

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<v Speaker 1>and I went to sleep, and when I woke up,

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<v Speaker 1>I went through your phone and I saw that she

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<v Speaker 1>sent a couple more text messages. Yeah, well, I deleted them.

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't gonna exactly have you go in and freaking

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<v Speaker 1>talk to her. She sent some more text messages apologizing

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<v Speaker 1>for what she did, asking if you paid me to

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<v Speaker 1>do that because she doesn't think that we're actually together,

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<v Speaker 1>implying that I may possibly also be a cheater, which

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<v Speaker 1>I am not. I have never and I wouldn't and

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<v Speaker 1>then she that was a long time ago. I'm glad

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<v Speaker 1>to see that you talked to her. It wasn't cheating.

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<v Speaker 1>I honestly thought that he had broken up with me,

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<v Speaker 1>and I got weak and I loved him so much

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<v Speaker 1>that I went and just listen. It's not that friend's

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<v Speaker 1>episode is completely based off of things people do. Sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>we get really sad in those moments of loneliness, and

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<v Speaker 1>I went out and found someone just for the next day,

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<v Speaker 1>for them to be like, no, I don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>be on a break, I want to be with you

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<v Speaker 1>and I it was a miscommunication and even he understood.

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<v Speaker 1>So no, that's the only thing she ever had on me,

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<v Speaker 1>and I've been very public and very open about it.

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<v Speaker 1>I even told you about it. If you want to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to him, if you want to talk to the

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<v Speaker 1>other guy too, all of us agree on the situations

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<v Speaker 1>it is. I loved him. I loved him, but not

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<v Speaker 1>the way I love you. You're the one that taught

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<v Speaker 1>me true love, and the idea of losing you over

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<v Speaker 1>her lies her wicked lives because she needs to get

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<v Speaker 1>back at me for what I didn't even do to her.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't do anything to her. I set two men

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<v Speaker 1>free that night. She could have just she didn't do

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<v Speaker 1>any of that. I would have nothing on her except

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<v Speaker 1>for my hands, and I had no problem just having

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<v Speaker 1>that fight, being not square and fair. But she's the

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<v Speaker 1>one that chose this. So now she's the one who's

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<v Speaker 1>down here in this basement, clinging to life. So she

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<v Speaker 1>is alive. I have her on all kinds of fun medications.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh no, no, no, again, I told you, I am

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<v Speaker 1>making sure she stays alive. But she's on all kinds

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<v Speaker 1>of fun things, and I just have mannequins that I

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<v Speaker 1>dressed up as a whole bunch of stuff, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>using a gee bogey voices and scary freaking language to

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<v Speaker 1>keep her so petrified that when she walks out of here,

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<v Speaker 1>everyone is gonna think, especially as they get her drug tested,

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<v Speaker 1>then she just went on some drug bender, and everything

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<v Speaker 1>that she claims happened, they're gonna say, oh, well, it

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<v Speaker 1>must just be the drugs. So then everyone's not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>trust a dirty, filthy word that comes out of her mouth.

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<v Speaker 1>She'll be known as a cheater. She'll be known as

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<v Speaker 1>a liar, she'll be known as a drug adduct and

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<v Speaker 1>she'll be known as somebody who just shouldn't and couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>be trusted. And she'll know better than to ever talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you again. Maybe she's a special kind of miserable.

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<v Speaker 1>She's a tap, a miserable where she self destructs. She

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<v Speaker 1>had something good. You loved her, you wanted to be

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<v Speaker 1>with her. You thought about marrying this woman, this vile,

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<v Speaker 1>wretched wench of a woman, and she went and broke

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<v Speaker 1>your heart. And then when she saw that you were happy,

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<v Speaker 1>she tried to ruin that she didn't take her just desserts.

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<v Speaker 1>I pummeled her in that ring and she wanted it

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<v Speaker 1>around too. Why because she wanted to take a title

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<v Speaker 1>from me and not because she wanted the title for herself. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't confirmed that she wanted to take it from

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<v Speaker 1>me because she thought that I was some set up

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<v Speaker 1>chick that you paid to go beat her up in

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<v Speaker 1>the ring and she wanted to go get her prit back.

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<v Speaker 1>Then when she caught in England that maybe, just maybe

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<v Speaker 1>there was something between us. She tried to rip you

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<v Speaker 1>from me. She took this from hurting you in the

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<v Speaker 1>past and me getting revenge for you, to her trying

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<v Speaker 1>to hurt us. And that is unacceptable. And if she

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<v Speaker 1>would have yes, baby, I know you wouldn't have done anything.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think that you would. It's not that I

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<v Speaker 1>think that you would. It's that she trod it. She

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<v Speaker 1>trod it. Now I get to watch her rods in

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<v Speaker 1>that corner. I get to watch her. She big eyes

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<v Speaker 1>bulge out of her head as I push some of

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<v Speaker 1>these mannequins closer to her, as I fling water on her,

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<v Speaker 1>and she thinks that it's blood as I make her

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<v Speaker 1>worst nightmares and neck in front of her faces. I

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<v Speaker 1>shove her into a teeny tiny little dog cage that

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<v Speaker 1>she fits in but fairly. And I sit there with

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<v Speaker 1>a chainsaw outside, just you know, having that engine. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna do any of I'm not gonna touch

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<v Speaker 1>her with any of this. No, when I I make

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<v Speaker 1>sure to remove anything that is harmful out of the house,

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<v Speaker 1>very very far away before I let her out. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not stupid. I'm not gonna exactly just leave her down

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<v Speaker 1>here with implements of you know, anything that would hurt me. No,

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<v Speaker 1>not at all. No, I ask myself. I even use

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<v Speaker 1>a voice changer whenever I talked to her. Hi, hi, darlin,

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe you shouldn't what No, I don't say darling. I

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<v Speaker 1>promise I'm really careful with what I say. I changed

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<v Speaker 1>my voice around. I use all kinds of different tactics

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<v Speaker 1>to make sure she won't know who I am. And again,

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<v Speaker 1>even if she does, no one's going to buy it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the girl that bade her up. She went missing

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<v Speaker 1>before I well, like, yeah, I snuck out. I snuck out.

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<v Speaker 1>No one saw me, No one knows where I went.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't take a phone. I took an old beat

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<v Speaker 1>up car with no GPS tracking in it whatsoever. I

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<v Speaker 1>left her cel phone. There was no way to track

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<v Speaker 1>her here and again like she just got beat up

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<v Speaker 1>and twice and humiliated. No one is looking for her,

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<v Speaker 1>No one cares and makes sense that she's missing. I

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<v Speaker 1>thought everything through, including how I'm going to ensure that

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<v Speaker 1>she will never ever ever come for you again. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>helping build a story in her head of stuff so

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<v Speaker 1>that when she gets babbling to those coops down at

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<v Speaker 1>the mental asylum, they're gonna give her lots of hugs.

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<v Speaker 1>They're gonna give her tons of FuG They're gonna put

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<v Speaker 1>her straight in a straight jacket. She ain't ever coming

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<v Speaker 1>out of that place, and then you'll be on mom.

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to worry about her coming out the woodwork,

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<v Speaker 1>trying to get her claws into you again. What do

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<v Speaker 1>you mean I shouldn't be worried about this? What do

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<v Speaker 1>you mean you just want it to be it is

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<v Speaker 1>just us. Look, I get it, You've never had anyone

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<v Speaker 1>in your life fight for you the way I'm willing

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<v Speaker 1>to fight for you. But damn it, you're fucking worth it.

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<v Speaker 1>So how about you just show some appreciation for the

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<v Speaker 1>fact that I'm making sure that nothing, and I mean

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<v Speaker 1>nothing is gonna become come in between us, your mine,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would hate to have to make sure that

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<v Speaker 1>you know that your mon Okay, No, I'm not saying

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<v Speaker 1>I would do all of this to you. Why would

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<v Speaker 1>I want to break your brain? Your brain is all

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<v Speaker 1>the other things that I think makes you so amazing. No, baby, baby, baby, baby,

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<v Speaker 1>remember I love you. I love you more than life.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm lovely more than the sea, i love you more

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<v Speaker 1>than the air. I love knowing that I get to

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<v Speaker 1>come home to you every night. Well, no, I know

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't come home to you these past few nights, baby,

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<v Speaker 1>but I have been tying up the loose ends that

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<v Speaker 1>you left behind when she left you. Had you kicked

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<v Speaker 1>her properly to the curb instead of just let her

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<v Speaker 1>tap dance all over your heart, let her hurt you

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<v Speaker 1>so bad that I had to go make sure that

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<v Speaker 1>she finally understood what you went through. You were tormented

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<v Speaker 1>all of that time, feeling inadequate, feeling not sufficient, feeling

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<v Speaker 1>like you weren't worth anything because of what she did

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<v Speaker 1>to you. So how about AH restore a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>of that dignity for you, and how that I make

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<v Speaker 1>sure that she doesn't come weaseling her way back. She's cute.

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<v Speaker 1>She knows way too much about you. She knows where

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<v Speaker 1>It's not that I don't think that you're loyal, It's

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<v Speaker 1>that I think that she has abilities. Mental abilities are feminine,

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<v Speaker 1>fem fatal errors that I don't want to take the chance.

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<v Speaker 1>Plus doesn't she deserve this? Think about it? Think about it,

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<v Speaker 1>her just sitting here feeling locked away and lonely, hopeless,

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<v Speaker 1>the way that you did me, playing voicemails of all

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<v Speaker 1>the people that don't care about her. They're just checking

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<v Speaker 1>in on her because they make money off of her,

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<v Speaker 1>proving to her that no one's looking for her or

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<v Speaker 1>worried about her. Do you know the entire time she's

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<v Speaker 1>been down here her cell phone, not a single text message,

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<v Speaker 1>not a single call of someone saying, hey, are you okay?

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<v Speaker 1>It's just a when are you coming back to work?

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<v Speaker 1>She's out so toxic that if someone's not getting something

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<v Speaker 1>from her, then they have nothing to do with her. Meanwhile,

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<v Speaker 1>you have me, you have a couple of your friends,

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<v Speaker 1>your family again. You you have it all. Baby. Now I've

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<v Speaker 1>got to get back to work. What oh yeah, no, no, no, no, no, no.

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<v Speaker 1>I uh I went and got myself a whole chicken.

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<v Speaker 1>We're not mixed up with some ketchup. Send it down

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<v Speaker 1>with some water, and uh, I just want to have

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<v Speaker 1>her seem carving up a nice, big, old little chicken.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm thinking about telling her it's something else and scaring

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<v Speaker 1>the every loving crap out of her. No, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>cook it up real nice. I'll clean off all the

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<v Speaker 1>all the ketchup, and I don't know, maybe I'll turn

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<v Speaker 1>it into some retisserie something and I'll feed it to

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<v Speaker 1>her bit by bit. She's gonna have a rotten, nice

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<v Speaker 1>little dinner. I'm gonna make some mashed potatoes by crushing

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<v Speaker 1>him with my feet. I'm gonna clean my feet first.

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<v Speaker 1>It's fine. How is it different than my hands? Oh no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>she's not gonna get seasoned in this buy only season,

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<v Speaker 1>and she's gonna get his ketchup and that's too much

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<v Speaker 1>for her. I'll be home for sure tomorrow. Babby. You

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<v Speaker 1>are right I've been here for a while, and honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>I think she's very close to break and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>dump her on the side of the road, make sure

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<v Speaker 1>that the mental institution gets a phone call, and we'll

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<v Speaker 1>be off to the races from there. I love you, baby,

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<v Speaker 1>tell teasing. Hey, guys, is Zena Alexander here? So hm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Inspiration for this audio it's dark. It's dark. If you

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to hear something dark, click off. Now you

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<v Speaker 1>have been or skipped to. I don't know about two minutes.

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<v Speaker 1>I'll try to do it in under two minutes. I

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<v Speaker 1>during a breakup went to a really dark place. I

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<v Speaker 1>felt so alone and I I got nothing but messages

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<v Speaker 1>of people asking me for stuff, like there was no

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<v Speaker 1>really checking in on me and making sure. And it's

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<v Speaker 1>not because like I'd screwed over so many people. It's

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<v Speaker 1>because I had made myself so much of a recluse

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<v Speaker 1>during that relationship. I was not fostering the relationships that

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<v Speaker 1>I had with my friendships because I became so invested

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<v Speaker 1>in that relationship. So I remember this like impending dread

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<v Speaker 1>feeling when I was just completely left on my own

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<v Speaker 1>and didn't know how I was going to pick myself up.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't feel like I really had anyone there that

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<v Speaker 1>really cared, and it was a really dark period. So

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<v Speaker 1>that was kind of the info of what was going

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<v Speaker 1>to happen to the ex. But I also have been

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<v Speaker 1>there whenever a former ex tried to get back with

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<v Speaker 1>my partner at the time, and seeing the text messages

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<v Speaker 1>and getting that fear and wanting to do whatever I

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<v Speaker 1>could to make it to where they stopped talking. Now

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<v Speaker 1>this was after I mean, it's happened a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>different times, and sometimes it led to arguments, but I

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<v Speaker 1>never did anything to the ex's at least in those moments.

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<v Speaker 1>There was a couple of times that we saw them

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<v Speaker 1>out and about and they said some shit to me

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<v Speaker 1>and some stuff went down, but allegedly so because I

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<v Speaker 1>can't still talk about some of that stuff. I mean

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<v Speaker 1>I can allegedly, but anyho, I know that that place

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<v Speaker 1>where it's like, Okay, I trust my partner, but it's

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<v Speaker 1>not it's not that I don't trust my partner, it's that,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, someone who knows you on an intimate level

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<v Speaker 1>can do things to you. They can convince you and stuff,

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<v Speaker 1>They can talk to you into stuff, they can test

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<v Speaker 1>that loyalty, and it's easy to become confused. It's not

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<v Speaker 1>saying that someone's not loyal, it's that confusion sparks easily

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<v Speaker 1>from someone who knows you, someone who you've had those

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<v Speaker 1>intimate bonds with on some degree, some level, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>actually pretty easy to reignite some fires. And even if

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<v Speaker 1>someone's like, no, I'm completely done, I'm completely done, there

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<v Speaker 1>was something at some point that brought you to together,

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<v Speaker 1>be it altruistic or not. And so it's scary. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a very very scary place to be. Okay, so we

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<v Speaker 1>have officially I got the achievement from Vidiq that we

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<v Speaker 1>have hit three hundred thousand watch hours. That is crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>That means thirty four years worth of time has been

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<v Speaker 1>viewed on this channel alone. That's crazy. That is absolutely insane.

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<v Speaker 1>That is nuts to me. And we're closing in on

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<v Speaker 1>a record number of likes as well. I want to

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<v Speaker 1>say it's like one hundred fifty thousand. I can check

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<v Speaker 1>that right now that you come here. I just I

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<v Speaker 1>can't believe that you guys are helping me YouTube. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we are. Sorry, We've already achieved one hundred and fifty

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<v Speaker 1>thousand likes. We're on track to hit in the next

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<v Speaker 1>couple of days one hundred and seventy five thousand likes.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't think I've owned one hundred and

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<v Speaker 1>seventy five thousand of anything in my life. That is

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<v Speaker 1>a huge number. That is absolutely insane to me. I

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<v Speaker 1>can't thank you guys for everything that you've done. And

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<v Speaker 1>I did a poll over on Patreon and I put

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<v Speaker 1>it for everyone, so even if you are just a

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<v Speaker 1>free like, you can actually follow me on Patreon without

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<v Speaker 1>subscribing or paying the time. And I put a pull

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<v Speaker 1>up saying with you guys like longer formed content on

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<v Speaker 1>Patreon and I am overwhelmingly you guys said yes, And

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<v Speaker 1>I know that seems like nonsensical, like of course you would,

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<v Speaker 1>but sometimes content's just at a perfect level. I did

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<v Speaker 1>ten minutes other versions of my stuff and you guys

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<v Speaker 1>were liking that, and then people said, okay, but I

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<v Speaker 1>want the one that's on YouTube as well, so I

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<v Speaker 1>started adding that so it became extended cuts. But I

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<v Speaker 1>also really like doing longer form content. I like having

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<v Speaker 1>more time to tell character develop so and this is

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<v Speaker 1>easy for me, this is not hard. I love doing

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<v Speaker 1>this telling stories is something I've always wanted to do.

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<v Speaker 1>It's something I've always done. I literally, in fourth grade

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<v Speaker 1>got the An Brandon Award for writing, which is a

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<v Speaker 1>Texas thing like all of Texas kids from every school

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<v Speaker 1>district and only one child is picked per grade gets

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<v Speaker 1>an An Brandon Award. I got the n brand and Award

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<v Speaker 1>that is for writing and it was great, and I

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<v Speaker 1>It's just something I've always been into. So yeah, AnyWho,

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<v Speaker 1>this is not a problem for me, like telling my

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<v Speaker 1>little crazy stories is. It's actually cathartic. This has actually

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<v Speaker 1>become a form of therapy that even my therapist is

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<v Speaker 1>recognizing for me, so that's a great thing. Anyways, I

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<v Speaker 1>love you guys. I'm just blathering and babbling, but all

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<v Speaker 1>of that to say, I love you guys. And if

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<v Speaker 1>you want more content or content in different formats, feel

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<v Speaker 1>free to ask the worst. The worst dance I'll say

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<v Speaker 1>is no, and I'll say it politely, but yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't mind doing it, so thank you. And I do

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<v Speaker 1>plan to post more stuff on Patreon for those who

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<v Speaker 1>are not subscribed, so even if you're not paying, stuff

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm pretty sure that is not too spicy, like

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<v Speaker 1>it's fine, it's just too spicy for YouTube. I might

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<v Speaker 1>also be posting over there because there's some stuff that

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<v Speaker 1>like YouTube will flag me for and I'm like, why

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<v Speaker 1>did you flag and it's like that was an adult sound.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, that was just be kissing something. What the

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<v Speaker 1>hell did you think I was doing. I've had some wholesome,

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<v Speaker 1>truly wholesome stuff get flagged, so I might start posting

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<v Speaker 1>it over there and just making it free as a

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for you guys, maybe especially as we hit

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<v Speaker 1>different milestones. We'll see. Anyways, I love you guys more

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<v Speaker 1>than bacon, and I will see you in the next video. Bye.