Speaker 1: Hey, everybody, aj Benzi here with Fame as the Bitch.
Speaker 1: This is your free show for October eighteenth, twenty twenty four.
Speaker 1: Free show for those of you who still haven't gone
Speaker 1: to patreon dot com slash Fame is a Bitch. I
Speaker 1: know you will. It's five bucks. My faith is with you.
Speaker 1: The shows are just getting better and better with all
Speaker 1: this news crazy stuff happening, the Diddy case, Liam Payne
Speaker 1: dying suicide accident. Who knows everybody's losing one hundred pounds
Speaker 1: with this o zepic nonsense. Victoria's Secrets Fashion Show is back,
Speaker 1: but they still kept some trainees and some heavy hitters.
Speaker 1: I talk about all of it. You know where to
Speaker 1: go to get it. Meantime, those of you who are
Speaker 1: patrons and hurt yesterday's show, Sorry, sorry about it. My
Speaker 1: Patreon notifications been going off last night like crazy, and
Speaker 1: obviously Mike initially posted the wrong podcast. He posted the
Speaker 1: podcast he produces called The Death of Journalism by a
Speaker 1: good investigative journalist named John Ziggler. When you heard that beginning,
Speaker 1: you should have known there was a mistake. I don't
Speaker 1: know why anybody would have texted me saying, is this
Speaker 1: you is this your new show. No, I didn't change
Speaker 1: my name to John Ziggler. And even though I talk
Speaker 1: about how bad journalism is, I don't host that show.
Speaker 1: Mike produces it. Either way, it was a snap foo.
Speaker 1: Then when he fixed it, the sound was awful. You
Speaker 1: guys know I have aids when it comes to technology,
Speaker 1: But I don't understand what happened, because, like I said
Speaker 1: in the past, I always do a test run before
Speaker 1: I send the show. It sounded perfect. Maybe I was
Speaker 1: hearing myself through my laptop speaker. This time I hear
Speaker 1: myself in my headphone, so it shouldn't be a problem.
Speaker 1: But Mike posted the show with the correction. Now you
Speaker 1: can hear it. Fine, I don't sound like I'm under
Speaker 1: the pillow. Tony Soprano was trying to kill his mother
Speaker 1: with So that was fixed. So be patient. I know
Speaker 1: some of you going go back to the old way.
Speaker 1: The new way sucks. Well, just so you know last
Speaker 1: week's shows, which you all enjoyed, which people say, this
Speaker 1: is the best week ever. That hurricane time the Milton
Speaker 1: when Milton was hitting. You guys love those shows. I
Speaker 1: did those on Riverside, not the old way. So it
Speaker 1: was a snaffu has been fixed. It's not the site.
Speaker 1: It was a fuck up with my haunted microphone system
Speaker 1: and that should be gone now and let's now get
Speaker 1: on with the show. You know, I'm reading the papers.
Speaker 1: I always say the papers, even though it means I'm
Speaker 1: flipping through the internet. I wish. I love to go
Speaker 1: to a diner and grab the New York Post and
Speaker 1: have a couple of eggs over easy, the toasted, well
Speaker 1: toasted English muffeted and some nice butter on it. I
Speaker 1: like butter from Ireland. I don't know why, but I
Speaker 1: like the packaging. It just looks good. And some crispy
Speaker 1: bacon naturally, how crispy. When it falls, it should split
Speaker 1: up into one hundred pieces. That's how crispy. You grab
Speaker 1: a paper, you drink your coffee, and you flip your
Speaker 1: thumbs through that paper. There's nothing like it. And when
Speaker 1: you're done, you folded in half. You'd throw it under
Speaker 1: your arm pit and you walk back to your car,
Speaker 1: or in New York, you walk down the street. It's
Speaker 1: the best feeling. When I first got the gig as
Speaker 1: a gossip columners for the New York Daily News, I
Speaker 1: used to walk I lived on thirty six in Madison,
Speaker 1: and I'd walk to forty second Street and second half
Speaker 1: of you. It's a quick walk, Yeah, fifteen minute walk.
Speaker 1: I'd stop, believe it or not, and get a cigar
Speaker 1: in the morning, have my newspapers folded under my arm,
Speaker 1: the news and the posts. Gotta read the competition, gotta
Speaker 1: read my column. And I'd walked to work and I'd
Speaker 1: do the same thing on the way home. It felt
Speaker 1: so great to be one of the people in that
Speaker 1: city with a voice. Now it's like what happened to
Speaker 1: the gossip industry? Everybody became a gossip columnist. When I
Speaker 1: was a gossip columnist, that might have been fifteen of
Speaker 1: us in the whole country. Now everybody knows, everybody's in
Speaker 1: on the stories. And when it comes to my TV
Speaker 1: hosting career, what happened. Everybody became a TV store. Everybody
Speaker 1: gets fifteen minutes. How many followers you got, Oh, we're
Speaker 1: gonna put you in the movie, doesn't matter if they're talented.
Speaker 1: Give me somebody like I know that I'm off course
Speaker 1: for a second. Let me just say this. It's a great,
Speaker 1: terrific showrunner named Bill Lawrence. He's been around forever scrubs Friends.
Speaker 1: Well he didn't he wrote for Friends, he didn't run
Speaker 1: the show. So many shows. No, Now he's doing bed
Speaker 1: Monkey on Apple and just to show you how this
Speaker 1: business is, he's on location down and uh, I think
Speaker 1: the Florida Keys doing the show at Vince vall on
Speaker 1: bed Monkey on Apple TV. Great series. And somebody says,
Speaker 1: you know, we need to we need to cast a
Speaker 1: young girl, uh, to play the daughter. We need somebody
Speaker 1: young and very pretty, and you know, somebody with a
Speaker 1: lot of followers. And Bill Lauren says, well, my daughter
Speaker 1: is a singer and she's got you know, a few
Speaker 1: million followers. Why don't we bring her in. Of course
Speaker 1: she gets the part. Now, she does well in the show,
Speaker 1: but this is the mentality. Now, yeah, for that part,
Speaker 1: we need somebody with a two, three, four, five, six
Speaker 1: million followers because they think that guarantees them ticket sales.
Speaker 1: Why don't know how many followers River Fiend on the
Speaker 1: River Joaquin Phoenix has or Lady Gaga has. But the
Speaker 1: Joker Part two is absolute shit. No one's seeing it,
Speaker 1: despite the fact that between the two of them, god
Speaker 1: knows how many millions of people followed him. So it
Speaker 1: doesn't always work that way anyhow. Back to what I
Speaker 1: was saying, I'm reading the papers this morning. I get
Speaker 1: up like six o'clock in the morning, and I read
Speaker 1: for ninety minutes before I take Rocko to school. And
Speaker 1: I listen to podcasts when I'm driving, listen to podcasts
Speaker 1: when I come home, and I generally listen to my
Speaker 1: shows that I like for at least a few more
Speaker 1: hours till about eleven o'clock. Then I stop my show.
Speaker 1: But I read everything and get my hands on It's
Speaker 1: my job, so that's why I always do it. And
Speaker 1: I'm looking at these pictures of celebrities. I can't take
Speaker 1: how bad journalists are these days. But the adjectives they use.
Speaker 1: Lizzo shocks the world with weight loss, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I think Pearl Harbor was something that shook the world,
Speaker 1: not Lizo putting on a fucking bikini after making us
Speaker 1: think she just works out in the gym all day,
Speaker 1: when we really know she's got a trainer, she's got
Speaker 1: a trishnist, and she's on Ozepic as well. So thank
Speaker 1: you for your pictures now and then a view in
Speaker 1: the gym. How about showing us a video of you
Speaker 1: really sweating your ass off, or show us the video
Speaker 1: of you plunging the needle into your stomach. Look at
Speaker 1: she looks straight. I always said, she's got a pretty face.
Speaker 1: So keep doing what you're doing. It's good that you
Speaker 1: stop acting like being a fat pig is fuck wonderful
Speaker 1: and fine and healthy. Thank god you got off that kick.
Speaker 1: I remember Liza when she was putting donuts and ice
Speaker 1: cream in the blender. Yeah, she would do that on video,
Speaker 1: talking about how you have to love your body. Honey,
Speaker 1: when you walk around with one hundred pounds of extra weight,
Speaker 1: you might as well be walking around with cancer and
Speaker 1: not doing nothing about it. Justin Timerlake rocked a swade
Speaker 1: for Dora, as he sang to the crowd, really did
Speaker 1: he rock it. I don't think anybody wore for Doorra
Speaker 1: better than Gangsters or Alcohopolm, but Justin Timerlake rocked it.
Speaker 1: And of course the other night we get to see
Speaker 1: the Victoria's Secrets fashion shows back on TV. It's back, everybody,
Speaker 1: It's back. It's gonna be better than ever. No, it wasn't.
Speaker 1: It was nice. We got to see some of the
Speaker 1: old timers back, old Timer's beautiful girls back for a minute.
Speaker 1: We thought, hey, they're back to thinking about this is
Speaker 1: what men dream of, and some women give us the fantasy.
Speaker 1: Take away your trannies and your girls the weigh two
Speaker 1: hundred pounds. That's normally not a male fantasy period, but
Speaker 1: they thought to include a couple of trannies. And of
Speaker 1: course Ashley Graham, the plus size model Asthley Graham walks
Speaker 1: Victoria's secrets one way like she owns it. Stop. Have
Speaker 1: you seen Naomi Campbell walk down a runway? Have you
Speaker 1: seen el mcpheers and Stephanie Seymour, Cindy Crawford, Linda Tarling,
Speaker 1: Linda Evangelista, Christie I ain't going a lot, Helen Christiansen, Claudia Schiffer, anybody.
Speaker 1: Veronica Webb, who's not even my favorite, but she blows
Speaker 1: the doors off these girls. Now, christ can we stop?
Speaker 1: Can you give us all a break? With the desaurus
Speaker 1: you're obviously flipping through on your desk. I don't even
Speaker 1: know when it began that you had to. I had
Speaker 1: to write what a person was wearing to accompany the
Speaker 1: picture of them walking down the street after buying coffee.
Speaker 1: You're looking at the picture you're not gonna tell me
Speaker 1: what I'm looking at. This isn't a radio broadcast of
Speaker 1: a baseball game where you'd say, Babe, Ruth down the
Speaker 1: right side of the plate, Babe batting right. Hey here
Speaker 1: it comes to pitch from Christy Mathis and it's low
Speaker 1: and outside. Baby. You have to describe a game because
Speaker 1: we can't see it. Nowadays, we see everything. You ever
Speaker 1: considered that that kind of shit isn't really a story,
Speaker 1: you know what, Some things are just not stories. Even
Speaker 1: though you have a picture of something, it doesn't always
Speaker 1: need to be copy that accompanies it. For instance, Travis Kelly,
Speaker 1: Travis Kelcey, and Taylors Swift went to the New York
Speaker 1: Yankees playoff game against the Cleveland Indians. I'm not calling
Speaker 1: them the Guardians. What is a guardian? Somebody who watches
Speaker 1: outside the hotel room or your hospital room. They're the Indians.
Speaker 1: Why some of these teams have to change the name
Speaker 1: but others didn't, I don't get it. So only Indians
Speaker 1: are offended in certain parts of the country. Native Americans
Speaker 1: aren't upset about the names of the college football teams
Speaker 1: in southern Florida. It's so stupid is seven oles okay?
Speaker 1: Or is that bad? Travis Kelcey and Taylerswift go to
Speaker 1: a Yankee game rupp in a private suite naturally, and
Speaker 1: they're having their public displays of affection. Big deal. They're
Speaker 1: young and in love. It would be his story if
Speaker 1: they didn't kiss while they were together. Has the person
Speaker 1: who wrote this story or stories like this ever been
Speaker 1: in love? So I gotta read this shit. Travis Kelcey
Speaker 1: wants to go on his podcast and explain to his
Speaker 1: brother what that date was like. This is news Now.
Speaker 1: He goes on his podcast with his brother, which I've
Speaker 1: never listened to, and they talk about what it's like
Speaker 1: for him to date Taylor Swift. This is the podcast
Speaker 1: that got them millions of dollars. Travis Kelce's emotions were
Speaker 1: running high during his PDA pack date with Taylor Swift
Speaker 1: at the New York Yankees Cleveland Guardians game in the
Speaker 1: Bronx on Monday. The Chiefs tight end reflected on attending
Speaker 1: Game one of the American League Championship Series with his
Speaker 1: girlfriend as a Guardians fan in Wednesday's episode of his
Speaker 1: Due Heights podcast, and then he says it was with
Speaker 1: mixed feelings because I was there trying to have some
Speaker 1: fun with Tay and everybody. All our friends came. We
Speaker 1: had an unbelievable crew with us and hanging with us.
Speaker 1: It was fun. Wow. What a fucking breaking story. How
Speaker 1: did you get that? WHOA? I wish I could get
Speaker 1: a story like that? What an exclusive? Why isn't this
Speaker 1: front page news? And then this sentence. If I'm being honest,
Speaker 1: I don't think I'll ever get over this ridiculous mistake.
Speaker 1: But Travis, and Ohio native admitted watching the Guardians lose
Speaker 1: to the Yankees two to five was rugh. Two to
Speaker 1: five is this report of five years old? I know
Speaker 1: she's a woman, but don't they know the higher number
Speaker 1: always goes first. You know when your wife says the
Speaker 1: game is seven to thirty eight, No, hunt, it's thirty
Speaker 1: eight to seven, all right? But I thought, no, the
Speaker 1: higher number first. But I thought if I was talking
Speaker 1: about the Giants and they have seven, no, it's always
Speaker 1: the high number first. Hunt. We do this every year, Okay,
Speaker 1: Jesus Christ, I can't stand it. So I had to
Speaker 1: look up this reporter, quote unquote who wrote this story,
Speaker 1: and the New York Post has this nifty feature where
Speaker 1: you can find out about the person who wrote the
Speaker 1: article by clicking their name. So I did, and it said.
Speaker 1: Leah Bitski Shocker, It's a Young Girl is a senior
Speaker 1: reporter for the for Page six covers all aspects of
Speaker 1: pop culture, including the British Royal Family, the American Royal
Speaker 1: Family all aka the Cardarean, and celebrity nightlife in New
Speaker 1: York City in Miami. She's worked at the Post since
Speaker 1: twenty sixteen after graduating from American University with a BA
Speaker 1: in Broadcast journalism and previously held positions at CNN and
Speaker 1: The Skim. She's got a passion for exploring New York
Speaker 1: City restaurants, traveling to New cities, working out, writing fiction,
Speaker 1: making delicious cocktails, and curating her future perse collection. Her
Speaker 1: favorite New York City activity is walking around a neighborhood
Speaker 1: with the cup of Jack's coffee and finding a nice
Speaker 1: fluffy dog to pet along the way. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: this is a newspaper. You know what my bio would
Speaker 1: have said. Aj Benzer is the writer editor of the
Speaker 1: Hot Copy in Downtown Gossip columns for the New York
Speaker 1: Daily News. He's been a journalists nineteen eighty five, where
Speaker 1: he began his career as a sports writer for Newsday
Speaker 1: before being plucked by The Daily News to write gossip.
Speaker 1: You can find Benza every night, typically out of four am,
Speaker 1: chasing down stories and women while he works his way
Speaker 1: through this city like a shark, drinking and consuming whatever
Speaker 1: is in his path in order to bring you the
Speaker 1: stories that nobody else can. He's typically at Boom, his
Speaker 1: buddy's restaurant Soho, dancing on a table with a pretty
Speaker 1: city girl, or in a tight booth with a murderous mafiosa. Yeah,
Speaker 1: there's my bio. Why are reporters being dispatched to write
Speaker 1: about two celebrit He's sitting down watching a ball game.
Speaker 1: There's no story to run, the picture and maybe a
Speaker 1: fifteen word description of what people are looking at. But
Speaker 1: it happens all the time, and it's got to stop. Meanwhile,
Speaker 1: what do we make of this horrible I need water?
Speaker 1: Hold on? What do we make of this horrible story
Speaker 1: about the one direction singer Liam Payne falling or jumping
Speaker 1: from his balcony of the hotel he was at in Argentina.
Speaker 1: You know about I don't know, maybe five six years ago,
Speaker 1: I said on this podcast that the guy had problems
Speaker 1: and there was a great concern to the band because
Speaker 1: of his drug and alcohol issues. And this has happened.
Speaker 1: This happened before his bandmate Zaye Mallick went bananas with drugs.
Speaker 1: But back then the guy was having a ball. He
Speaker 1: was on top of the world, so no one really
Speaker 1: cared that much, and he kept cranking out him you
Speaker 1: don't know, you know your beautiful girl, that kind of
Speaker 1: shit to catch you song. Basically, Liam Payne lived his
Speaker 1: storybook life, plucked from obscurity by Simon Cowell on The
Speaker 1: X Factor, then being deposited into a group he was
Speaker 1: managing called One Direction. And not only that, Liam also
Speaker 1: met the mother of his only child on that audition,
Speaker 1: Sheryl Cole. That was in twenty eight. They dated for
Speaker 1: two years and produced their son, Bear, who's now seven
Speaker 1: years old and probably just found out his daddy's gone.
Speaker 1: Heartbreaking now. Like I said back then, I'd also mention
Speaker 1: that Naomi Campbell reached out and plucked Liam Payne from
Speaker 1: stardom and dropped him in her bed and they had
Speaker 1: a wild flame, even to the point, as I said
Speaker 1: that she went out and spent tens of thousands of
Speaker 1: dollars on new clothes for him, because I assume Naomi
Speaker 1: needed to have him look better in pictures standing alongside her,
Speaker 1: and she needed people to see that she wasn't robbing
Speaker 1: the cradle, that he was, in fact a man who
Speaker 1: had his shit together, and he looked really good in
Speaker 1: his new clothes. But that was short lived. That went
Speaker 1: about four months. But he did call the sex with
Speaker 1: Naomi Cammell mind blowing. I don't know what that does
Speaker 1: to women, but whenever a guy reads that having sex
Speaker 1: with a certain girl's mind blowing, it does something to us.
Speaker 1: It piques our interest. Like when John Mayer said sex
Speaker 1: with Jessica Simpson was like sexual napalm. It makes a
Speaker 1: guy go a little bananas because we may think a
Speaker 1: particular person is pretty or sexy, and then you find
Speaker 1: out that the guy who was slepting it says it's
Speaker 1: mind blowing or napalm, and it makes you go, holy shit,
Speaker 1: what is she doing? What is she doing in that bedroom?
Speaker 1: I mean a lot of guys fell for Jessica Simpson
Speaker 1: when she did that stupid show with her ex husband
Speaker 1: Nick and she thought, uh tuna was chicken, because it's
Speaker 1: called Chicken in the Sea. It was a whole thing.
Speaker 1: She was so adorable and also so dumb, and that
Speaker 1: made a lot of guys get turned on by her.
Speaker 1: Then we find out that sex with her as sexual
Speaker 1: napop and that she even let guys like Dane Cook
Speaker 1: and and and and Johnny Knoxville and and Bam have
Speaker 1: a crack in her. Jesus Christ, I'm sure uh Dax
Speaker 1: Shephard did his well. I think every guy that was
Speaker 1: in a movie with her banger. Anyway, I've said this
Speaker 1: in the past. Naomi Campbell also had a fling with
Speaker 1: a longtime buddy of mine who was a producer at E.
Speaker 1: I never mentioned his name. Fuck it, it's Darren Madteron.
Speaker 1: He should be he should be happy. People know this.
Speaker 1: This happened many years ago, way before he was married.
Speaker 1: Not to worry about, but he was a producer of
Speaker 1: mine at E for the Gossip Show. Darren Good looking, tall,
Speaker 1: California dude, well spoken, had his shit together, raised right dressed.
Speaker 1: Good drove a little Miata which was weird, but look,
Speaker 1: that was his thing. Also one of his things which
Speaker 1: was fascinating to me. He lived out in Santa Monica
Speaker 1: and he'd invited girl over to go on dinner, and
Speaker 1: the girls would typically California, sometimes you live twenty minutes apart,
Speaker 1: like we all do, and a girl will drive to
Speaker 1: the guy's place and she'll park her car at his place,
Speaker 1: and they'll go to dinner in his car and return
Speaker 1: in his car, and then she'll leave to go back
Speaker 1: to her home in her car. Well, Darren had this
Speaker 1: thing down perfectly where he'd tell the girls come to
Speaker 1: my place where I live. You could park in the garage.
Speaker 1: It's a spot open view. But he also knew at
Speaker 1: a certain hour the garage wouldn't open, they couldn't get out,
Speaker 1: nothing bad happened. He wasn't some kind of maniac like
Speaker 1: a Pete Diddy, but that kind of in short, that
Speaker 1: the girl would sleep over. Interesting technique either way. He's
Speaker 1: minding his own business one day and Naomi Campbell spots
Speaker 1: him in some function, like I said, tall, good looking
Speaker 1: white dude, typical California guy, very polite, all about good
Speaker 1: vibes and shit like that, and they spoke briefly and
Speaker 1: before the function ended, she went up to him and said,
Speaker 1: I have to fight in Mexico tomorrow for a shoot.
Speaker 1: Do you want to come with me? After he couldn't
Speaker 1: believe this is even happening to him, He's like, yeah, sure,
Speaker 1: you're sure he've got nothing else to do, because no, no,
Speaker 1: it's fine. I'm clear, my schedules clear. And they flew
Speaker 1: to Mexico on a private jet and once they were there,
Speaker 1: he too also said the sex was mind blowing. I'm
Speaker 1: not sure what Naomi Campbell does under the sheets, but
Speaker 1: I'm sure a lot of what guys feel is the
Speaker 1: fact that they can't believe they're banging Naomi Campbell. Let's
Speaker 1: start with that, but either way, good for them. One night,
Speaker 1: he stays in, Naomi goes out to dinner with people
Speaker 1: she knows for a long time. They are politicians from
Speaker 1: another country. What have you, big shots? He stays back.
Speaker 1: She comes in whatever eleven thirty, and he sees her
Speaker 1: go to the safe in the room and puts something
Speaker 1: in the safe and lock it. And when she gets
Speaker 1: back to the bed, he asks her what's in the
Speaker 1: safe and she sheepishly told him I was giving a
Speaker 1: blood diamond as a gift from some Malaysian billionaire. And
Speaker 1: he's like, uh oh. His head's started to spend he's
Speaker 1: getting nervous. He suddenly felt he was in over his head.
Speaker 1: So the next morning, while she's at the gym or
Speaker 1: no she had to go to her modeling shoot, my
Speaker 1: friend packs up one to the airport and split. I
Speaker 1: don't think I would have done that, but my buddy
Speaker 1: doesn't have that crazy brain like I do. But he
Speaker 1: bolted me. I would have just thought to settle in.
Speaker 1: Although Naomi Campbell's gorgeous in a lot of ways, but
Speaker 1: I'd been with her in in the sense of being
Speaker 1: a friend, and I've hung out with her. We've gotten
Speaker 1: high together at Oliver Stone's house. I've been around her
Speaker 1: a few times. She's wicked. She'll pull you in. She's
Speaker 1: good at that. But he's got a story to tell
Speaker 1: her for a long time. But some models are like that.
Speaker 1: Stephanie Seymour was so sex crazed and at some point
Speaker 1: wanted to get back at was an Axel row. I
Speaker 1: think she had a fight with Axel before she left
Speaker 1: Axel for Warren Baty, which she did while she was
Speaker 1: on the phone with Warren and home with Axel. That's
Speaker 1: how cold blooded she is. But another time she had
Speaker 1: this doctor who was performing a breast exam. I don't
Speaker 1: think he was an obgu ann, but he was a
Speaker 1: doctor performing a breast exam. And she's pissed at Axel
Speaker 1: Rose for some reason. And she just flat out told
Speaker 1: the doctor, I'm going on a trip tomorrow to whatever
Speaker 1: fancy island it was, let's say the Maldives. Do you
Speaker 1: want to come with me? And this guy was like
Speaker 1: a sixty year old doctor and she's thirty something and
Speaker 1: looking like all get out. Of course, he cleared a
Speaker 1: schedule and went with her. I mean, these chicks are
Speaker 1: like men. They want something, they go get it. Anyhow,
Speaker 1: point is, Liam Payne had an amazing time with Naomi
Speaker 1: Campbell and other women. Since he was such a superstar,
Speaker 1: isn't it cruel? His last name is pain. It's you know,
Speaker 1: we're all learning about the pain this guy was through.
Speaker 1: I had a girl I dated whose last name was Greeves,
Speaker 1: and I said to her, you know, your name is
Speaker 1: a sentence. You know, let's say her first name was Susan,
Speaker 1: Susan Greaves, it's a sentence. And she did grieve for
Speaker 1: a long time about things that happened in her life.
Speaker 1: It's the weird trick God plays on you. But everyone
Speaker 1: thought his bandmate Zaane Mallick was gonna be the one
Speaker 1: who jumped off of balcony one day, but it was
Speaker 1: pretty Liam instead. And I've read all the reports. There's
Speaker 1: even a snapchat video he posted with his girlfriend. He
Speaker 1: looks absolutely fine. They said it was done an hour
Speaker 1: before he died. I don't believe that. I think it
Speaker 1: was posted a few days before that happened, because the
Speaker 1: girl in the video was his girlfriend. And now reports
Speaker 1: are saying she split two days ago to get out
Speaker 1: of town because he was acting erradically. So that makes
Speaker 1: sense because that video he looks calm as a daisy,
Speaker 1: and she said he was getting too rowdy and unpredictable.
Speaker 1: Even the guy at the front desk had called police
Speaker 1: because the guy upstairs, the guest, was breaking things. He
Speaker 1: was gonna demolisge the room, and the guy told police,
Speaker 1: I'm scared, told dispatch, I'm afraid he's gonna jump or
Speaker 1: kill himself. And as the guy's talking to the dispatch,
Speaker 1: he hears a loud thud and he basically told them,
Speaker 1: you know, just send an ambulance. Like he knew he
Speaker 1: was dead. He jumped, And now there's a newly released
Speaker 1: audio audio autopsy report, and it says that he may
Speaker 1: have been unconscious, unconscious when he jumped or fell from
Speaker 1: that balcony in Buenos Aires, and that two women were
Speaker 1: in his room in the hours before his death, even
Speaker 1: a hotel employee or two. And they're reporting that the
Speaker 1: position of his body on the ground, as well as
Speaker 1: the injuries he sustained, indicate that he didn't, you know,
Speaker 1: have like a reflex posture to protect himself. I didn't
Speaker 1: even know you could tell that. So they think he
Speaker 1: might have fallen while he was in a state of
Speaker 1: semi or total unconsciousness. It's also said. And it's also
Speaker 1: said that all these indications were that he was alone
Speaker 1: when he jumped to his death, and that he'd been
Speaker 1: going through some kind of you know, outbreak due to
Speaker 1: substance abuse. They found white powder on the floor, obviously tinfoil.
Speaker 1: The guy was smoking something crack math. We don't know yet,
Speaker 1: I vote cocaine, probably maybe a mix of fentanol. Who knows.
Speaker 1: It's happening all over the place now. But they called
Speaker 1: the cause of his death polytrauma, internal and external hemorrhaging.
Speaker 1: Cranial brain injuries would have been enough to cause his death.
Speaker 1: Also internal and external hemorrhages in the skull, throat, stomach,
Speaker 1: and limbs. Yikes. Look, the kid was struggling for a
Speaker 1: long time, and whatever happened the other day, something compelled
Speaker 1: him to get high as hell and irresponsible as hell.
Speaker 1: And either he jumped or he fell. I say jumped.
Speaker 1: Of course he jumped. You know. I don't have a
Speaker 1: suicidal bone in my body, But sometimes are you like this?
Speaker 1: Sometimes I'm sitting down or driving a car, and I
Speaker 1: think of a crazy scenario where I'm where I'm in
Speaker 1: a room where there's a balcony and it's kind of
Speaker 1: a low wall that you can easily jump over and
Speaker 1: kill yourself. And I put myself in this position, and
Speaker 1: I see this low wall in my room with no guardrails,
Speaker 1: and it gives me the chills, like, oh, I can't
Speaker 1: be near a room like that. Not that I want
Speaker 1: to kill myself or even have that thought, but just
Speaker 1: the image of it. It's right there. If you want
Speaker 1: to end it, it's right there, and you're guaranteed to
Speaker 1: die depending on what floor you jump from. Gives me
Speaker 1: the chills. But look, man, I think he jumps. I
Speaker 1: feel bad for him. No one ever prepares these kids
Speaker 1: for the life they have with fame or after fame,
Speaker 1: that's even more important. They can trot it out at
Speaker 1: young ages and they're made to perform like show ponies.
Speaker 1: They got money pouring in from every direction. Forget one direction,
Speaker 1: this is many directions. And then they grow up and
Speaker 1: you know you're a part of a group suddenly that
Speaker 1: is no longer together. Do you feel like no one
Speaker 1: has any use for you when you're no longer this
Speaker 1: long haired teenage heart throb who's gone through puberty, And
Speaker 1: now what, Yeah you got a lot of money, Yeah
Speaker 1: you've shagged a lot of chicks, But now what? The
Speaker 1: guy didn't know how to be an individual. Like the
Speaker 1: same thing applies to Justin Bieber. I don't think he
Speaker 1: knows how to just be himself, the kind of thing
Speaker 1: that all of us have aced since childhood. I don't
Speaker 1: think he knew how to be a responsible adult. Even
Speaker 1: parenting seemed too much for him. And like I said,
Speaker 1: now the mother of his kid has to explain to
Speaker 1: their baby that you can't see daddy anymore. It's just sad.
Speaker 1: It's just tragic all around. Go back and look at
Speaker 1: the video that I just sang off key to what
Speaker 1: makes you Beautiful? In that video, Liam is sitting on
Speaker 1: the railing of a staircase going down to a beach,
Speaker 1: and it's eerie to look at. You'd think, was that
Speaker 1: the way he was sitting before he fell? If he fell,
Speaker 1: was he thinking about that superstardom that was to come?
Speaker 1: As he made that video, you get to thinking about
Speaker 1: how tough fame is to go through. My sister and
Speaker 1: I have talked about this. When I began to fall
Speaker 1: down the ladder and come back down to earth. She
Speaker 1: at one point I heard her telling somebody on the
Speaker 1: phone that, you know, my brother, he loved, he loved
Speaker 1: being where he was, but maybe it's so hard to
Speaker 1: have had something and then lose it or have it
Speaker 1: taken away from you. And she was explaining this to
Speaker 1: somebody who I guess asked her how I was doing
Speaker 1: this is many years ago, and she got it right.
Speaker 1: Sometimes when you have something and it's fame or stardom
Speaker 1: or popularity, what have you, and then it's gone or
Speaker 1: taken away, if you don't have people around you that
Speaker 1: can that can be there for you to be stable mates,
Speaker 1: so to speak, your bound to fall, pardon the post,
Speaker 1: and it's a bad fall. And you look, you know.
Speaker 1: His bandmates all had a ball, even though it's hard
Speaker 1: for them to move through life as a star. Zaye Malik,
Speaker 1: of course, has had his issues in life, but he
Speaker 1: seems to have come out the other end. Okay. He's
Speaker 1: got that kid with Gigi Hadid and he was always
Speaker 1: struggling with personal demons for years, including a big drug
Speaker 1: addiction which led to that fight he had with Gigi's mom,
Speaker 1: Yolanda and the baby. Anybody who knows Liam Payne will
Speaker 1: tell you the guy had personal demons for a while,
Speaker 1: substance abuse, mostly weed and cocaine and alcohol and alcohol
Speaker 1: is the absolute worst. At the same time, the kids
Speaker 1: suffered from anxiety, and he struggled with fame. When you
Speaker 1: mix all that shit together, it's a recipe for disasters.
Speaker 1: Some people survive, some cannot, and then there's the app
Speaker 1: rocket ship. His buddy Harry Styles was on ever since
Speaker 1: the group split up. I mean, Harry's selling out arenas.
Speaker 1: He's become the image of this new masculinity, even though
Speaker 1: he wears dresses and photo shoots for magazine spreads and
Speaker 1: he had a controversial relationship with the actress Olivia Wilde,
Speaker 1: and then he went with the very pretty black Canadian
Speaker 1: actress Taylor Russell. Harry Styles is Top of the World.
Speaker 1: Liam Payne was suffering with his demons, even though he
Speaker 1: was able to hold a relationship down with a number
Speaker 1: of beautiful and famous women. But years before he died,
Speaker 1: he spoke really honestly about his time in the band
Speaker 1: and how he had to endure the mess of scheduling
Speaker 1: and having to deal with sold out tours before an
Speaker 1: album was even recorded. I know it sounds like all
Speaker 1: uptown problems, rich people problems, but their problems nonetheless, and
Speaker 1: Liam Payne said, there's no stop button. You've got no
Speaker 1: control over your life. That's why I lost complete control
Speaker 1: of everything. After they toured for six years, he was
Speaker 1: saying to people, I need to stop otherwise it's gonna
Speaker 1: kill me. And after leaving the band, he began to
Speaker 1: see that he was struggling to break the habits of
Speaker 1: partying all day, staying up all night, over working himself.
Speaker 1: Those are traits that develop while he was in the group.
Speaker 1: And he said to a newspaper, at some point, you're
Speaker 1: either gonna end up a crazy child star who dies
Speaker 1: at whatever age, or you're gonna live life and actually
Speaker 1: get on with it. And he said he remembered going
Speaker 1: to therapy and the guy was like, what do you
Speaker 1: like to do? And he didn't know how to answer
Speaker 1: that question. And how about this for a sad quote,
Speaker 1: He said, there have been a lot of people in
Speaker 1: trouble with mental health and aren't really getting the help
Speaker 1: that they need. And I think that's a bit of
Speaker 1: a problem in our industry. It's the same shit that
Speaker 1: happens to everyone that's been happening since the seventies, well
Speaker 1: way before that. Liam, But he said, you know what
Speaker 1: the traps are, and if you're lucky enough like me
Speaker 1: to be able to get out of that scenario and
Speaker 1: back into a sense of normalcy, then you know it's
Speaker 1: a bit different. But he said that going on stage
Speaker 1: or going out in public was like putting on a
Speaker 1: Disney costume. He said he was drunk a lot of
Speaker 1: the time while he performed because there was no other
Speaker 1: way to get his head around what was going on.
Speaker 1: He talked about the anxiety and the stress from fame,
Speaker 1: and he said that his mental health was under pressure
Speaker 1: because of his inability to have the freedom to go
Speaker 1: anywhere as a public figure. He said, when you're in
Speaker 1: a band, the best way to secure us was to
Speaker 1: lock us in our rooms. And what is in the
Speaker 1: room a mini bar. So I had a party for
Speaker 1: one that seemed to carry on for many years of
Speaker 1: my life. And then you look back at how long
Speaker 1: you've been drinking Jesus Christ. It's a long time, even
Speaker 1: for someone as young as I am. There's also turmoil
Speaker 1: between the band members over the years, with his ex
Speaker 1: fiance Maya Henry saying that Zaye Malick was the one
Speaker 1: direction person who threw her rex up against the wall
Speaker 1: during a backstage fight at a concert years ago. And
Speaker 1: I guess this last girlfriend of Liam Paynes had some
Speaker 1: similar scenarios to talk about. Look, man, that's solid drunk behavior.
Speaker 1: And I've been there, so I'm not in the position
Speaker 1: to judge a kid or these kids, but I know,
Speaker 1: like he probably found out the hard way. Sometimes when
Speaker 1: your hands are the cause of a very dark moment
Speaker 1: in your life, it's it's scruciatingly unforgettable. You can try
Speaker 1: as hard as you want, you can't forget it. Try
Speaker 1: as hard as you can, but it never goes away.
Speaker 1: It can follow you around and haunt you, even mock
Speaker 1: you in its own evil way. I mean, I did
Speaker 1: bad things too. All the bad things I did I
Speaker 1: still see when I close my eyes. You know why,
Speaker 1: because they play on the back of my mind eyelids,
Speaker 1: and after many years have passed, a picture comes in
Speaker 1: perfectly clear. End in HD not HD as in high death.
Speaker 1: HD as in how destructive, how dumb, how dire. So
Speaker 1: it's important to remember that whenever we read or learn
Speaker 1: about sad stories like these, we got to just take
Speaker 1: it to heart that fame does not automatically equal mental stability.
Speaker 1: I'm aj Benz. So that was your free show for
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