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Speaker 1: Hey, Taro, And this is vocal D frag. Vocal D

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fragging is asking yourself the questions and questioning the answers.

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I do it in two places in a journal, which

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I've been doing since November of twenty seventeen. And I

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also do a vocal D frag so I can preserve

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the pitch, the volume and the tone. I do my

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vocal D frags while taking this walk through a beautiful

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force in South Charlotte, North Carolina. It's on these walks

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that I'm able to feel nature around me, to listen

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to the music of the birds, to see the deer,

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just to feel everything, including the sights of a tree,

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going over there, to touch a tree, to become a

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part of And then you talk about it. You ask

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the questions, you question the answers. This is vocal D

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freg I think this time around what I want to

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put focus on two words. Just listen. That's it. Just listen.

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If you get into any conversation at your place, a business,

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in your family, around the neighborhood, it just feels like

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and it sounds like everybody has a complaint. They're complaining

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about their jobs, they're complaining about how their body hurts.

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They're complaining about the high taxes, or they're complaining about politics.

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But are we listening. We know they're complaining because we

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do a really good job at tuning them out, shaking

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our head up and down to the left, to the right.

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We're there, But are we listening? Are we participating with

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the angst and or the lowness that whatever this world

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is brought to them is taking them down and out?

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What if we became better listeners and not always tried

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to one up them. Oh you know I did that too,

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Oh when I was thirty five. This is what I did. Really,

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that's what you're getting out of this conversation is a

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pissing match. There's no reason for that. All I'm asking

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is just listen. Listen to what they're saying, Listen to

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how you probably already went through it. But it doesn't

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mean that you have to bring your notebook with you

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and start comparing, you know, the different experiences. Maybe in

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their experience, they're learning something new that you could learn

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the next time that you fall into this pit or

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go into this rabbit hole. When I say defragging, I'm

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not saying to put yourself in a place of disappointment

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or to identify the beasts that are growing inside of you.

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What I'm saying is that ask yourself the questions, the

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simple questions. Just listen to the answers. Just listen, because

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the inner core of your mind, body, and soul, it's

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always going to have something to say. And it could

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be based on an opinion, it could be based on disappointment.

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But if you just listen, it leads you to the

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next question. Then you start digging a little bit deeper

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and you don't have to do a deep dive. Save

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that for later on. Because if you ask the right

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questions and deliver answers and then you come back with

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another question, oh, you're opening up a brand new door

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just by listening. If you notice I've said nothing about reacting,

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just listen. Take it in. It's there to be had,

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it's there to be experienced. I know it sounds like

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people bitching mown way too often because it is the

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ultimate escape for some people. They feel like if they

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can get it off their chest, it leaves open enough

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room for them to do it again and again and again.

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My sister in law is no different. I always feel

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sorry for my wife when she has to have that conversation,

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the same one over and over again. But what my

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wife does, she just listens. She doesn't have to offer

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any advice. She just gives her sister an opportunity to

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get it off her chest. And I think this is

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my biggest mistake in life, or at least one of them,

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because I've made a lot. When my sister was in

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her transition, all she spoke about was I want to die.

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I want to die, I want to die. And I

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thought I was listening, but know what I was doing.

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I was reacting. I was trying to get her mental

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and physical support. I was trying to put her in

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the right frame of mind so that she could help

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heal herself because the positive thinking, you know, that's what happens.

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But I wasn't listening. My wife listens to her sister.

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I chose to try to bring action and reaction to

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how my sister was experiencing life. And I do believe

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I was wrong. I believe that the steps that I

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took were in the wrong direction. So that's what I'm

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trying to share here today, is that maybe you're weighed

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down by other people's problems, situations, your own, your own body,

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that innercore of your system, saying but why, but why,

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but why but why? And it's taking you down, but

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you're not out. That's why you defrak. Just listen. I'm

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Maril and I spoke of defreg