Speaker 1: Either ever since. So I'm really happy that we would
Speaker 1: definitely get to see your face and it actually meet
Speaker 1: the person behind your personality. You have a big one,
Speaker 1: and I love that you know how open you are
Speaker 1: about your beliefs and where you come from and kind
Speaker 1: of just how you are in life. So tell us
Speaker 1: a little bit more about what you've been up to,
Speaker 1: who you are, Let private talk get to know you
Speaker 1: a little bit more.
Speaker 2: I mean, I've been doing many things. I feel like
Speaker 2: recently I've been working more in the capacity of a
Speaker 2: developer because I think that while we have a lot
Speaker 2: of complaints about the governments of the world and the
Speaker 2: way things are running right now without creating alternative systems
Speaker 2: for people to be able to live in, than those
Speaker 2: complaints are slightly slightly annoying.
Speaker 1: I mean, like you a complain about it, but like what
Speaker 1: are you doing about it?
Speaker 2: Right? Like what are you actually changing? How are you
Speaker 2: moving people into a better space. We know that what
Speaker 2: capitalism has done has been hiding its deficits and destroying
Speaker 2: the environment and doing lots of crazy things, but what
Speaker 2: is what does post capitalism look like? Or what does
Speaker 2: an alternative system? So I've been more over the last
Speaker 2: like five six years, I've been more in the realms
Speaker 2: of developers, so building schools, hospitals, working taking care of
Speaker 2: often children amazing. One of my most proudest things that
Speaker 2: I've done in recent years is I rescue an elephant
Speaker 2: from slavery, and I'm going to go and do that again.
Speaker 1: So that's awesome. I think it's cool because it's one
Speaker 1: of those things I think why at the time for me,
Speaker 1: if I think about where I was in my life,
Speaker 1: the time frame that I'm saying when I first started
Speaker 1: following you is I was traveling a lot in the
Speaker 1: world and like seeing other sides where it was really
Speaker 1: cool and very inspirational to see not only the culture
Speaker 1: of where you are, but to really appreciate it, not
Speaker 1: just what's shown to you from like either social media
Speaker 1: or the media in general, because it's nothing what it
Speaker 1: really is. And myself of like going to I don't
Speaker 1: remember if it was Bally. I think it was Bali.
Speaker 1: I went to Bali and I did an elephant tour
Speaker 1: and I, you know, I have a picture with my friends.
Speaker 1: But after doing it, it was the saddest thing, but
Speaker 1: it was happy because I wanted to do it, but
Speaker 1: it was sad because you saw the like the elephants
Speaker 1: being slaved like you know, and again that's how they
Speaker 1: make their money. So it's like you give and take,
Speaker 1: like how do you know that's the they're living off
Speaker 1: the land. But as you know, liking animals and you know,
Speaker 1: seeing that, you know they're working on these tours and
Speaker 1: they're not getting a break and they're not doing all
Speaker 1: those things. So you see things a little bit more
Speaker 1: differently from the other side when you're in it. So
Speaker 1: that's why I feel like for you is having your
Speaker 1: reach and having your ability to do both is really
Speaker 1: cool to kind of, you know, segregate myself to like
Speaker 1: I wouldn't even like I said, I don't know how
Speaker 1: I found your page, but I'm happy that I did,
Speaker 1: you know. But we're definitely two different walks of life,
Speaker 1: but have the same belief systems, And that's why I
Speaker 1: feel like kind of what rooted us together.
Speaker 2: I think a lot of the world exists in macro
Speaker 2: and micro road cosms. You look in a lot of
Speaker 2: the time people are thinking and acting locally, and then
Speaker 2: when you travel you then start to think globally. You
Speaker 2: start to think like across the whole world, and then
Speaker 2: the cultures become more interesting.
Speaker 1: I mean it's like you take the rose colored glasses
Speaker 1: off because you have nothing other of them in to
Speaker 1: see what the reality is what you're in.
Speaker 2: Right. Well, that was twenty twenty for a lot of people,
Speaker 2: where all the clubs got shut down, all of the
Speaker 2: cinemas got shut down, all of the things that they
Speaker 2: used to do to escape where they were shut down,
Speaker 2: and then they had to be present. And so I,
Speaker 2: for a long time now have been present and that
Speaker 2: has allowed me to kind of For instance, before I've
Speaker 2: been to Thailand before because I go there to do boxing,
Speaker 2: but I'd seen the elephants before, but I never really
Speaker 2: went to go and inquire into how they were living
Speaker 2: and what was going on. And then when the were
Speaker 2: locked down, I was in Thailand, and so I just
Speaker 2: went to start seeing the elephants every day. And then
Speaker 2: I worked out how things were running, and I raise
Speaker 2: some money and we freed one of them that she's
Speaker 2: now free in a sanctuary. She's fifty six and she's
Speaker 2: living her vest of life.
Speaker 1: Oh that's so beautiful, that's really cool, Like how do
Speaker 1: you go about doing something like that?
Speaker 2: So in Thailand, elephants are taking their bread for working
Speaker 2: and people will pay for the elephants and for that process.
Speaker 2: And like a young elephant because they know they're gonna
Speaker 2: get because elephants can live to like eighty years, So
Speaker 2: a young elephant, they know they're gonna get at least
Speaker 2: like fifty sixty working years out of And you know
Speaker 2: each photo or each trek is like five dollars ten dollars,
Speaker 2: so you can see that that adds up. So you've
Speaker 2: got to go to the owner and then ask to
Speaker 2: buy them, and then if they agree, you go to
Speaker 2: the government where the elephants are registered, and then you
Speaker 2: would transfer the elephant into your name or to a sanctuary.
Speaker 2: So the elephant that we bought was like thirty thousand dollars.
Speaker 2: But there's another one that I want to get when
Speaker 2: I go back and free her, and I think that's
Speaker 2: going to be more like eighty thousand dollars and then
Speaker 2: they eat.
Speaker 1: What makes the but what's the what makes the like
Speaker 1: number change? Is it because of the age 'rh The
Speaker 1: one I.
Speaker 2: Got was fifty five or fifty four, and the one
Speaker 2: that I want to get is eleven. And so she's
Speaker 2: a baby and elephants.
Speaker 1: She so she would be a big ticket price because
Speaker 1: she could get a lot of money, right, But she's.
Speaker 2: She was, she was like, we had a real deep one.
Speaker 2: The thing about elephants is is they're huge, pacidrm sentient beings.
Speaker 2: They are a keystone species. They can communicate in ways
Speaker 2: that we can't communicate. So they have a frequency range
Speaker 2: that we can't even access, really low vibrations, and so
Speaker 2: the communication with an elephant is more like a feeling
Speaker 2: than like actually speaking, like they understand what you say
Speaker 2: if you train them to do that. But we had
Speaker 2: a really deep connection, and you know, to the point
Speaker 2: where when I left, she cried and I got pictures
Speaker 2: of like her crying and stuff, and I was like, oh,
Speaker 2: so when I come back, she's gonna remember because elephants
Speaker 2: have huge, huge memory banks.
Speaker 1: And so that's really me. That's really cool. I like
Speaker 1: that because for me, it's like you don't for myself,
Speaker 1: I when I go in there and knowing that I
Speaker 1: had a lot of empathy for what was going on,
Speaker 1: but you don't know how you can help, you don't
Speaker 1: know whatever. So I feel like there needs to be
Speaker 1: more conversations about how you can where you can go
Speaker 1: and do those things, you know, because sometimes it is
Speaker 1: a little deterrent because if going there is only you know,
Speaker 1: a situation sometimes that not everybody has the means to
Speaker 1: do that as well as doing you know. But it's
Speaker 1: cool to see what the capability of what you can
Speaker 1: do and what that can the process it takes.
Speaker 2: You have as much power as you decide that you have.
Speaker 2: It's just a lot of the time people become apathetic
Speaker 2: because they decide that somebody else is supposed to be
Speaker 2: responsible for their personal life choices, or somebody else is
Speaker 2: supposed to be responsible for their life. So a lot
Speaker 2: of people think they'll see a problem and they'll think
Speaker 2: I can't solve that, and then it will make them
Speaker 2: depressed because once you make an observation, you have an
Speaker 2: obligation and then you end up in it like a
Speaker 2: kind of a spiritual battle. When I see something, I'm
Speaker 2: just like, I want to fix it.
Speaker 1: Have you always been that way from your child or
Speaker 1: was there something that happened in your life that triggered
Speaker 1: you to go on this journey.
Speaker 2: I feel like there was a few There was a
Speaker 2: few stages. I knew when I was younger that something
Speaker 2: wasn't right, and I didn't.
Speaker 1: Know what was with yourself of the world.
Speaker 2: Both. I felt like myself had been conditioned into believing
Speaker 2: that selling drugs and like being aggressive, this was the
Speaker 2: way that I was supposed to be. But I knew
Speaker 2: that that wasn't right within me, and then the world
Speaker 2: was like conditioning me to that place. And then I
Speaker 2: joined the military, and then I realized the world very
Speaker 2: wasn't right because the military is obviously violence and all
Speaker 2: of these things that have been kind of paid for
Speaker 2: by the people of the countries, Like that's what tax
Speaker 2: like in this country. For instance, in the USA, one
Speaker 2: third of every tax dollar gets spent on defense, right.
Speaker 2: And though that might be good if it's like protecting
Speaker 2: the borders, it's not good if you like bombing loads
Speaker 2: of kids in Afghanistan, right. And so now I'm nineteen
Speaker 2: and I'm in Iraq in a war. So then I
Speaker 2: was like, oh, definitely things aren't right. But it allowed
Speaker 2: me to realize that a lot of people, when they
Speaker 2: want something in the world, they just go and get
Speaker 2: it or go and take it. And so I'm like, well,
Speaker 2: if I want something peaceful to happen, I need to
Speaker 2: make it happen. I can't wish or just manifest, like
Speaker 2: prayer only works if you put action behind it. So
Speaker 2: I'm like, ever since kind of I left the military,
Speaker 2: I've been making stuff happen.
Speaker 1: So you feel like that kind of shaped kind of
Speaker 1: like who you saw that you didn't want to become
Speaker 1: because of what it.
Speaker 2: Stood for definitely, and also seeing that power is not
Speaker 2: merely just an idea. It's something that you have to
Speaker 2: physically do. You can't just be like I feel powerful
Speaker 2: and therefore I am, but you know you're hiding behind
Speaker 2: Instagram when you need to be out on the streets
Speaker 2: doing something right.
Speaker 1: For sure, I think, I mean it's a powerful statement
Speaker 1: within itself with because it's like a lot of people
Speaker 1: don't get to those realizations sometimes ever, you know, and
Speaker 1: unless you really are willing to really do the work,
Speaker 1: or you feel as something inside of you, like as
Speaker 1: it seems yourself that is truly wrong and you can
Speaker 1: make a change because it's about the hard work that
Speaker 1: you put in. It's about what you know, breaking those
Speaker 1: barriers because who else is going to do it? And
Speaker 1: that's kind of why I feel like Also to why
Speaker 1: I gravitate it is because I kind of teeter the
Speaker 1: line of not knowing what my power really is to
Speaker 1: that extent, but knowing that I know I have power
Speaker 1: and I have beliefs in what the message is. So
Speaker 1: I feel like that's why again with the conversations here
Speaker 1: with privatoc, it's like not everybody knows each other fully,
Speaker 1: but having the open, the hard conversations of finding out
Speaker 1: what that means and where the synergy with exists with
Speaker 1: each other is a beautiful thing.
Speaker 2: I don't think any conversation is hard. I just well,
Speaker 2: and maybe if you've got emotional well.
Speaker 1: I think for some people, certain things people don't like
Speaker 1: to talk about certain topics or the fact of like
Speaker 1: what the real problem like issues are of like knowing
Speaker 1: that you know you can like you said, like I
Speaker 1: made the comment of not knowing that you could go
Speaker 1: to Bollywood, but you can do it if you want
Speaker 1: to put that behind it. But it's like again doing
Speaker 1: the work and knowing what that power really means and
Speaker 1: actually doing the work. And that's the most people don't
Speaker 1: want to do the work, and so it's like kind
Speaker 1: of making that middleman kind of happen. And that's kind
Speaker 1: of like where I feel like with you being so
Speaker 1: vocal where you are is kind of you being the
Speaker 1: middleman for your followers and who you've had that belief
Speaker 1: system kind of support what you're doing.
Speaker 2: I think, I think things become hard when you overthink.
Speaker 2: Like they say that procrastination is like masturbation. You're just
Speaker 2: fucking yourself, right, And a lot of the time people
Speaker 2: overthink themselves into inaction, and things come hard when you
Speaker 2: decide that you're not going to do anything about it.
Speaker 2: If you're going to do something about it, then there's
Speaker 2: a different type of heart. But at least it's like
Speaker 2: action is behind it and you have the positive reinforcement
Speaker 2: of seeing the results of your work, whereas if it's
Speaker 2: just for instance, you know, you see people at these
Speaker 2: Oscars and Grammys and you'll get a comedian like Ricky Gervais,
Speaker 2: for instance, will come up and start talking about pedophilia,
Speaker 2: and everybody's like whoa, Oh, I can't believe he's speaking
Speaker 2: about that because they're not willing to actually address it.
Speaker 2: That goes on and like take that out of.
Speaker 1: I mean, look at the world that we've lived in
Speaker 1: with all these like things coming out with powerful people
Speaker 1: having issues with those things. Is you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: it's like that taboo, as I'm saying, those things where
Speaker 1: it should be be taboo for us to speak about
Speaker 1: because it shouldn't happen and it shouldn't be hidden, it
Speaker 1: shouldn't be talked about in those things because that's kind
Speaker 1: of where those things happen.
Speaker 2: Well, I mean there is that too, but I'm just
Speaker 2: saying that to say, a lot of the things that
Speaker 2: people don't want to speak about is because they're not
Speaker 2: willing to do anything about it. And that's oh my,
Speaker 2: you're speaking, you're telling me about this. I don't want
Speaker 2: to know about this. Let's speak about something different. And
Speaker 2: I think twenty twenty for a lot of people where
Speaker 2: they had to confront issues that they never they were
Speaker 2: able to run away from before and now there's nowhere
Speaker 2: to run. So it's like Erica Baduce, when you can't
Speaker 2: go outside, go inside, and a lot of people had
Speaker 2: to go inside and deal with their own shit.
Speaker 1: I agree with that, myself included. You know, I had
Speaker 1: a lot of things that because being so busy and
Speaker 1: on the road and whatever, is like you deal with things,
Speaker 1: you know, surfacely because you have to, and it's every day,
Speaker 1: you know, you go. You go day by day, and
Speaker 1: that's just what it is. But there's a lot of
Speaker 1: things when everything was calm and still, there was things
Speaker 1: that I hadn't worked with or dealt with or didn't
Speaker 1: even know where even issues because there wasn't quiet time.
Speaker 1: There was always static because I created that because I
Speaker 1: wanted to have something to make me not deal with
Speaker 1: those issues. So it's like one of those words like
Speaker 1: so I see the change of like having to do
Speaker 1: that in the work. It's just it's fascinating to see
Speaker 1: how they put in the work to doing now and
Speaker 1: like what you stand by. So that's kind of also too,
Speaker 1: Like with you is me, you know, following you years ago,
Speaker 1: I feel like even some of your views and your
Speaker 1: beliefs have kind of changed from me being a fan
Speaker 1: of years before. And so at a certain time, I
Speaker 1: know that you made a post and I was like,
Speaker 1: I understand that people change and stuff like that, but
Speaker 1: it's like also and then you're not a judgmental person
Speaker 1: at all, But it's like our parallels are so different too,
Speaker 1: was a question of I've done pornography, I've done sex,
Speaker 1: I've done all these things that I'm open about too
Speaker 1: and not that you haven't done those things. I've been
Speaker 1: vocal too, it's but now your sigma or your viewpoint
Speaker 1: now it seems more negative about that. So for me
Speaker 1: was how do you still become or be so nice
Speaker 1: to me and things like that if your viewpoint changed
Speaker 1: on those things, Because I.
Speaker 2: Mean, this is the thing we aren't. You aren't that industry, right.
Speaker 2: My partner, she's an actress and she's a model. She
Speaker 2: is not that industry. She's not in boardrooms making the
Speaker 2: decisions as to what is next done in that space
Speaker 2: or place. People. I can love people, and I can
Speaker 2: love individuals without loving systems that support the I suppose
Speaker 2: the structure or well that support dissent from spirituality. Right,
Speaker 2: So I would say that, for instance, the music industry
Speaker 2: shouldn't be an industry because music is of the spirit
Speaker 2: and the voice is spirit. It's become an industry. So
Speaker 2: now people are making TikTok videos that then become songs
Speaker 2: that then become garbage that everybody has to listen to
Speaker 2: all time, right, And the reality is that, Actually, I
Speaker 2: don't believe that it should be a space where things
Speaker 2: of the spirit should be commercialized. I think things of
Speaker 2: the spirit should be not industrialized to the point where
Speaker 2: now people who aren't creative, like corporations, are controlling creativity
Speaker 2: because they're now influencing. We've got all this trash music,
Speaker 2: We've got these trash movies, We've got all of this
Speaker 2: trash coming out, and it's like the blind leading the blind.
Speaker 2: It's people who don't really know what spirituality is or
Speaker 2: they're not connecting with their spiritual self now sitting in
Speaker 2: boardrooms and making decisions for people who do know what
Speaker 2: that is. And now the people who did know what
Speaker 2: that is before and now having to play into a
Speaker 2: game of people who don't know what they're doing. So
Speaker 2: now it's like everybody doesn't really know what they're doing.
Speaker 2: And I think with pornography, I think pornography is not
Speaker 2: just sex. Right. For instance, if I put on my
Speaker 2: Instagram now a black man being shot to death by
Speaker 2: a white police officer, it will stay up there, right,
Speaker 2: But that is violence pornography. It's a type of pornography.
Speaker 2: If I was to put sex on my Instagram, that'd
Speaker 2: be taken down. Some people are making decisions as to
Speaker 2: what is okay and what is not okay, and usually
Speaker 2: the people who are making those decisions aren't right right,
Speaker 2: So like the people who influence health in the country,
Speaker 2: for instance, the people who decide what goes on with
Speaker 2: agriculture and what goes on with food aren't healthy themselves.
Speaker 2: And so I don't have any issue with individuals per
Speaker 2: se unless they're harm in others.
Speaker 1: But isn't part of what the content that you say
Speaker 1: that is harming others something that I'm partaking in because
Speaker 1: for me is I pride myself off no or being
Speaker 1: in tune with my sexuality, and I'm a spiritual person
Speaker 1: as well, and I no longer shoe porn for the
Speaker 1: last five years either. But I also still connect with
Speaker 1: my sexuality and I don't and I don't use it
Speaker 1: as a stigma for something. It's how I express myself.
Speaker 1: And so that's why for me, it's like, but if
Speaker 1: I'm also part of the problem because of I'm feeding
Speaker 1: into the play of what you're saying is, how is
Speaker 1: there where do you draw that line? Because how am
Speaker 1: I not somewhat of the problem in your view?
Speaker 2: I mean, I am not good right.
Speaker 1: Fact, And that's the saying I don't for you, it
Speaker 1: wasn't you know, the conversation here wasn't meant for that either,
Speaker 1: but it was just I've always been connected to you,
Speaker 1: and even after the comment, I didver straighted and I
Speaker 1: still follow and I still support everything that you do.
Speaker 1: But as myself and me defining who I am as
Speaker 1: an individual outside of my industry too, I still don't
Speaker 1: stray from what I've done, so for me, I try.
Speaker 1: I minored in sociology, so I'm very fascinated and about
Speaker 1: people and their culture of why your beliefs are the
Speaker 1: way your beliefs because they may be different than mine,
Speaker 1: and that is perfectly okay as long as it doesn't
Speaker 1: harm what I'm doing. To each his own, but I
Speaker 1: want to know why on certain things, to get a
Speaker 1: better understanding of what that really means. It's because for me,
Speaker 1: it's not a harmful thing. For me, it was a
Speaker 1: glorified thing that I glorified, not because someone made me
Speaker 1: do it, because I felt comfortable expressing myself in an
Speaker 1: artful way. That was my art. That's how I expressed myself.
Speaker 1: But in the heart In hindsight twenty twenty, there's also
Speaker 1: what you're saying as well, and you're not wrong with
Speaker 1: all the different types of porn and what's being targeted
Speaker 1: to people's fetishes in this and there's different you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, And I'm on a smaller scale, but
Speaker 1: being so passionate and like having that opinion is why
Speaker 1: I wanted, you know, to have that conversation.
Speaker 2: I think the problem, particularly for me, is with black
Speaker 2: people and the way that black people are portrayed in
Speaker 2: an inferior power dichotomy where we don't rule or control
Speaker 2: any of the industries that we enter into, whether it's
Speaker 2: the music, whether it's athletes, the million dollar slaves that
Speaker 2: we know that if you you know, you can beat
Speaker 2: your wife and not get kicked out of the NFL,
Speaker 2: but if you kneel down, you're gonna get kicked out
Speaker 2: of the NFL. My friend Colin got kicked out of
Speaker 2: the NFL. And I think one of the bigger problems
Speaker 2: that I have is when you are in a power
Speaker 2: dichotomy where you're at the bottom of that powered dichotomy,
Speaker 2: then anything that is done at the top is not
Speaker 2: something that you now get the end result of. So
Speaker 2: you don't get the money for any of that stuff,
Speaker 2: but you are getting the deficits, you're getting, the trauma,
Speaker 2: you're getting all of these things. The biggest viewers of
Speaker 2: ebony porn or white people, not Black people, right, And
Speaker 2: so I don't think personally, I don't think that. I
Speaker 2: don't think that adults who want to make adult decisions
Speaker 2: are being led astray by pornography as an industry. But
Speaker 2: I do believe that what is being taught or what
Speaker 2: is being told to be accepted. For instance, so my
Speaker 2: friend David Banner, he's a music artist, right, and he
Speaker 2: made this music video and in the music video, he
Speaker 2: made this music video, and in the music video, he
Speaker 2: killed a police officer who had killed a black man
Speaker 2: like who was unarmed, and it was off the back
Speaker 2: of the whole Mike Brown Ferguson thing that was going on,
Speaker 2: and that was banned, right. I think it's back up now,
Speaker 2: but they had to fight for it to get back up,
Speaker 2: and it was taken off his Instagram and all of
Speaker 2: these things, and so that was banned. That was taken off.
Speaker 2: That's not okay, right. But the things that are okay
Speaker 2: are things that I think are very much the the
Speaker 2: removal of black power, the removal of power of black
Speaker 2: people as a group. Where there's the community red zone
Speaker 2: in here, there's the mass incarceration, there's the war on drugs.
Speaker 2: You know, black people at the bottom of the economic barrel,
Speaker 2: so to speak. And so when black people are now
Speaker 2: allowed in music videos to make kind of the most
Speaker 2: not even allowed, they're pushed by their producers, by their
Speaker 2: labels to make the most highly sexual videos. But it's
Speaker 2: not creative. It's all the same thing. It's like copy paste,
Speaker 2: copy paste kind of right, exactly, because sexuality and people
Speaker 2: have very different ways of expressing themselves.
Speaker 1: And I definitely think it's overly sexual, even for myself.
Speaker 1: I think everything and now, like even in mainstream movies
Speaker 1: is like almost like a softcore porn. It's like why,
Speaker 1: But you know that's why. For me is kind of
Speaker 1: like why. I get the parallels on the arguments on
Speaker 1: both sides too, But being someone who has been in
Speaker 1: the adult industry prior to and forever till the day
Speaker 1: I die, probably people will always be like, well, she's done,
Speaker 1: she's important, it doesn't matter what you know, and that's
Speaker 1: so whatever. But the thing now, it's like now it's
Speaker 1: over saturated. It's over like now every video has to
Speaker 1: be your thongs out, you're half naked, you're doing it
Speaker 1: it's like it's like the like a pre porn thing.
Speaker 1: So in that part I understand because it's not factual,
Speaker 1: like it's overstimulating people's minds in a ways that you
Speaker 1: should you shouldn't, but that's why it's like, But where
Speaker 1: do you like drive the lawn?
Speaker 2: I think you draw the line where you start to
Speaker 2: remove power from people who aren't the actors and actresses
Speaker 2: and the creatives, the scriptwriters, story writers, and give it
Speaker 2: to corporations who don't have a clue what's going on.
Speaker 2: So then you then create, for instance, the beauty industry,
Speaker 2: the makeup industry. That's why Rihanna is doing so well
Speaker 2: with her friendly beauty, where she's now taken back some
Speaker 2: of the end results of her beauty and her femininity
Speaker 2: and her leading women to products whatever products those are, right,
Speaker 2: the makeup industry and the fashion industry are not controlled
Speaker 2: by women, but women are all let's say, the wigs
Speaker 2: and the weaves. You know, some Korean man or some
Speaker 2: Indian man has an entire business based on black women's hair,
Speaker 2: and we don't control any of the end result of that.
Speaker 2: Alcohol is another one. So we were massively addicted to
Speaker 2: alcohol and at the same time, we don't own really
Speaker 2: many alcohol companies. You might have like add or a
Speaker 2: jaz or a Lebron have something. But as much as
Speaker 2: we consume, we don't produce. And so I'm also not
Speaker 2: saying let's mass consume things that are going to be
Speaker 2: degenerative for our health. But at the same time, if
Speaker 2: we did, we might have more influence into what we're consuming.
Speaker 2: And that's my problem is that if you are expressing
Speaker 2: yourself sexually, let it be sexuality of your own creativity
Speaker 2: and have whatever spirituality or whatever you just want to
Speaker 2: fuck somebody, that's fine. But if it's like some crazy
Speaker 2: geek with some wild fantasy who's just super rich and
Speaker 2: he's just getting you to do crazy shit and then
Speaker 2: creating trends that where people are just fostering craziness out
Speaker 2: of somebody's mind who's just got money, that's the problem
Speaker 2: for sure.
Speaker 1: And I agree with that. I mean, I just had
Speaker 1: two episodes earlier today that I found about fetishers that
Speaker 1: I've never even knew existed, and it's all based off
Speaker 1: of idealisms of what you're speaking of. So I get it.
Speaker 1: It's because someone's bored, someone's too overstimulated, someone's to this
Speaker 1: whatever and they want to say, hey, now this is
Speaker 1: a trend. So I mean I understand that and I
Speaker 1: respect that, but.
Speaker 2: Yeah, only a problem when when when somebody who just
Speaker 2: has a fetish or a trend or whatever then has
Speaker 2: money to turn it into an industry, and if we
Speaker 2: haven't sat down and done the psychological evaluation of this person,
Speaker 2: for instance, we haven't sat down and done the psychological
Speaker 2: evaluation of people that say that, you know, it is
Speaker 2: okay to have sex with animals, right, But then now
Speaker 2: somebody's got you know, a billion dollars and said we're
Speaker 2: going to bang out all of these movies and now
Speaker 2: this is going to be the thing. It's like okay, right,
Speaker 2: then it becomes an industry and people are working in
Speaker 2: that industry and being exploited because of somebody is crazy.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, I definitely want to do any of that.
Speaker 1: But no, I definitely had to ask for me. It
Speaker 1: was like one of the things I was, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm definitely intrigued. I love having conversations like that. It's
Speaker 1: you know, to even just to have growth on even
Speaker 1: my inside of who I am and what you know,
Speaker 1: my you know, obviously it's a belief system of how
Speaker 1: I create myself? What is something or you can describe
Speaker 1: something that is exciting in your life.
Speaker 2: Right now, I am building a village in Congo and.
Speaker 1: I love your smile is lit up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, it's great. And I have adopted twenty two
Speaker 2: children per my organization, Iheat Africa, and we are basically
Speaker 2: creating an agricultural community that Africa doesn't need aid, it
Speaker 2: needs trade. So we're creating an agricultural community that is
Speaker 2: connected to international trade.
Speaker 1: So amazing.
Speaker 2: That for me is like civilization building now. So now
Speaker 2: I get to say, like what fuel is being used,
Speaker 2: and how the houses are looking, and kind of what
Speaker 2: system is being used in that area for sustainable energy
Speaker 2: and all of these types of things. So we just
Speaker 2: started building yesterday twenty five houses and we were going
Speaker 2: to build one hundred in the area, and we were
Speaker 2: going to build an orphanage and a school. And it
Speaker 2: allows me to get into my natural life conservation because
Speaker 2: that's where the last two hundred and fifty mountain gorillas
Speaker 2: are that I went to go and see. And so
Speaker 2: it's like for me, it's like you know, when you
Speaker 2: look to ancient civilization, when you look to ancient civilizations
Speaker 2: of old and you see, oh, the Egyptians were building
Speaker 2: pyramids and the Mayans were building pyramids, and you know
Speaker 2: these things in the jungle. It allows me to walk
Speaker 2: into that, so maybe you know, I can now be
Speaker 2: building things that will last for it starts small, but
Speaker 2: eventually I'll be building here.
Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure. But that's why I feel like it's
Speaker 1: like you're a doer. You do things. You know, you start,
Speaker 1: you have to start somewhere to like be at all
Speaker 1: the things that you're saying. So I think that's really
Speaker 1: you know, cool and very a cool thing to being
Speaker 1: part of. I think that's really neat. How do you
Speaker 1: if you wanted to support that? How could you support
Speaker 1: what you're doing? Is there some kind of fun that
Speaker 1: we can support here at Privetalc.
Speaker 2: I have the link in my bio and my Instagram.
Speaker 2: Also I have a five oh one C three, so
Speaker 2: if anybody needs the tax thing, then we can do
Speaker 2: the tax receipts and we can use that to build houses.
Speaker 2: And I have my foundation called IHA Africa, which is
Speaker 2: the five H one C three, which has its own Instagram.
Speaker 2: And also if you can't, if you don't have money,
Speaker 2: to give. Then just share the stuff because we're sharing
Speaker 2: lots of beautiful pictures and videos of the kids and
Speaker 2: the work that's going on. So yeah, just get involved.
Speaker 1: That's amazing. I love that. I definitely will make sure
Speaker 1: that we can share that and support you any way
Speaker 1: that we can. Is there anything you could instantly? If
Speaker 1: there is three skills you could instantly obtain, what would
Speaker 1: they be?
Speaker 2: I would like to be a polygon. I'd like to
Speaker 2: speak any language. Recently I learned Swahili, which is what
Speaker 2: they speak in Congo, and I think there's a lot
Speaker 2: of brown and black and melanated people who don't speak
Speaker 2: any indigenous languages at all, and that in of itself,
Speaker 2: I don't think it was God's plan to make everybody
Speaker 2: speak one language. Colonization made everybody speak English or Spanish
Speaker 2: or French. But I think being able to speak a
Speaker 2: bunch of different languages i'd be cool. I think also
Speaker 2: being able to play different instruments, but that's just time.
Speaker 1: And but do you play any instruments currently? None?
Speaker 2: I don't have time. I never have time. And then
Speaker 2: the other skill I think I would like to you're
Speaker 2: saying acquire or just have acquire The other skill I
Speaker 2: would like to acquire is I would like to know
Speaker 2: the medicinal use for every single plant that exists, because
Speaker 2: I like that. In Ghana, we're about to build a
Speaker 2: plant medicine school over the next two years and I'm
Speaker 2: going to learn. So that's cool.
Speaker 1: I love that, you know, when you don't know something,
Speaker 1: you're going to learn. There are so many as knowledge
Speaker 1: as power, and I feel like that's really cool to
Speaker 1: want to implement that in what you're doing. But saying
Speaker 1: that I don't know what it is, but you know
Speaker 1: what we can learn, right, because that's the only way
Speaker 1: it's going to get done.
Speaker 2: Right.
Speaker 1: Dating life, how is that looking?
Speaker 2: I have a partner, she's amazing. I've been with her
Speaker 2: now for two years and she is you know, I've
Speaker 2: never dated. Like dating was never something I was into
Speaker 2: because I felt like every time you would go out
Speaker 2: with somebody in those types of settings or situations, you
Speaker 2: basically are not meeting them. Chris Rup put it really well.
Speaker 2: He said, you're not meeting them. You're meeting their representative,
Speaker 2: and you're meeting all the good things about them, but
Speaker 2: not really meeting who they are.
Speaker 1: So especially the first time, right, right, So.
Speaker 2: I very quickly stopped doing that and like making it
Speaker 2: an event. And I'm not really into I'm an African man,
Speaker 2: so I'm not really into roman Antics, right, it's not
Speaker 2: kind of what I do.
Speaker 1: Like romantics, like being romantic, but it.
Speaker 2: Comes from roman Antics from Rome. I have nothing in
Speaker 2: my life has to do with Rome apart from my language.
Speaker 1: Okay, So meaning like, so are you not a romantic
Speaker 1: type partner?
Speaker 2: Oh, I'm definitely a kind and caring partner, but I'm
Speaker 2: not a chauvinistic kind of misogynistic. Let me show you
Speaker 2: how much I can do with my money so that
Speaker 2: you can feel special for a day.
Speaker 1: I'm like, let me make Yeah, But that's not necessarily
Speaker 1: a romantic. I think romanticism comes from more of like
Speaker 1: the thoughtfulness and like the planning of things and like
Speaker 1: wre the intent is not like what the intentions of
Speaker 1: something else.
Speaker 2: It's become tokenized though. It's become like that.
Speaker 1: I mean, like when there's Valentine's Day and those day
Speaker 1: of course it's like over like I mean for me,
Speaker 1: I feel like if it's not every day, like like
Speaker 1: I buy myself flowers every Sunday, like it's not like
Speaker 1: it's something that should be like, oh, once a year
Speaker 1: type thing. I definitely agree with those things, but I
Speaker 1: feel like there's other ways that you may as who
Speaker 1: you are as a partner. How do you show like
Speaker 1: being romantic with your partner.
Speaker 2: I will say to my partner, let's go to Panama
Speaker 2: and swim with whales, so you're.
Speaker 1: Like spontaneous travel trip, like pack a bag, let's go.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And also like making sure that my partner feels
Speaker 2: secure in our relationship and that she is she knows
Speaker 2: that that she's beautiful inside as well as outside. And
Speaker 2: I think also being able to not just be a
Speaker 2: support for her, but creating a support system around her
Speaker 2: of people who she would never usually meet, Like, for instance,
Speaker 2: a lot of young women in LA in particular, they
Speaker 2: need mentors and they don't have mentors, and they should have.
Speaker 2: I have like twelve different mentors. I am humble enough
Speaker 2: to admit that I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm going to say right right, because everyone knows everything. Everyone. Yeah.
Speaker 2: But at the same time, when my good friend Maya,
Speaker 2: she's the singer, like the singer Maya, she had broke
Speaker 2: something down to me in a way that I'd never
Speaker 2: thought of it before. Because I've never been a woman.
Speaker 2: She said that the reason why a lot of women
Speaker 2: aren't able to work together who are conventionally attractive, especially
Speaker 2: in acting and in modeling, is because since childhood they've
Speaker 2: been taught that a man is supposed to sweep them
Speaker 2: off their feet and is supposed to take care of them,
Speaker 2: and so in being told that the highest achievement for
Speaker 2: a young woman is to be married, other women then
Speaker 2: look like your competition, especially if there is a powerful
Speaker 2: man or you know, a nice man. And that's why
Speaker 2: a lot of women then end up don't fostering meaningful
Speaker 2: relationships because they don't see each other as a village
Speaker 2: of women. They see each other as a confirmation.
Speaker 1: I could see that for sure. I think that's a
Speaker 1: beautiful thing way to put it. I think that intentionally,
Speaker 1: when you are with a partner or whatever, your lives
Speaker 1: have to collide or whatever. So it's like, if that's
Speaker 1: something that you have in tune with yourself, who have mentors,
Speaker 1: it's important to keep that as a foundation for your
Speaker 1: partner as well. Is because it's as women it is
Speaker 1: sometimes you don't have that, and it's cool to see
Speaker 1: that inviting in a way because then I feel like
Speaker 1: that Maekes your relationship be able to grow in a
Speaker 1: way more expansive way. I like that craziest fan interaction.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had a crazy fan interaction happen to you?
Speaker 2: Uh? You know, there's been many. And the thing is
Speaker 2: is that fan is just Greek for fanatic, so we
Speaker 2: know where that is.
Speaker 1: And oh boy, do I know it my fans?
Speaker 2: Can I bet?
Speaker 1: I bet because you know, I'm a strong lady, so
Speaker 1: nothing too crazy happens. But I've heard stories and I've
Speaker 1: I've been a little part of mine. But as a male, though,
Speaker 1: you would think it wouldn't be as crazy. But I
Speaker 1: could see there's a lot room for like because you're
Speaker 1: such like a nice person in inviting, like you're easy
Speaker 1: to talk to. It's not like you know, so I
Speaker 1: feel like once they get an inn, they're like, right,
Speaker 1: so what, So what was the craziest story, the craziest.
Speaker 2: The craziest I can't even say on camera. There's been
Speaker 2: some crazy things.
Speaker 1: You don't have to stay the fan out. He's just
Speaker 1: gonna know.
Speaker 2: I say what happens, it's too crazy.
Speaker 1: But like some you're like, I'm currently an illegal battle.
Speaker 1: I cannot talk about those kids, right.
Speaker 2: But I think the craziest I was raising money because
Speaker 2: that's the other thing about me. I've been in the military,
Speaker 2: i've been on the roads, I've been in life. That
Speaker 2: kind of has given me a toughness that most people
Speaker 2: wouldn't expect from now how pleasant I can be, right,
Speaker 2: but you know, I still consider myself a boxer, So
Speaker 2: if anything happens, then I'm going to fight. I'm not
Speaker 2: just yeah, right, you get to take around the corner.
Speaker 2: And I was boxing to raise money for UH. I
Speaker 2: was boxing to raise money to build a hospital in Congo.
Speaker 2: And on my journey to doing that, there was a
Speaker 2: woman who decided that she was going to marry me.
Speaker 2: And I didn't know who she was, and so we
Speaker 2: would do some public workout events and it was just
Speaker 2: on my Instagram.
Speaker 1: You know, we're meeting. Were you a single man at
Speaker 1: this time? Was I even single?
Speaker 2: No? I wasn't single, Okay, And even.
Speaker 1: If I was single, I know, but that sometimes like
Speaker 1: leaves like for like, ugh, you know you're not you know,
Speaker 1: I don't know what happened yet, but I'm just saying
Speaker 1: it's like the openness of but when you're in a
Speaker 1: relationship like no, like okay, like what are you doing?
Speaker 2: Yeah? No, so And the thing is is that most
Speaker 2: time people don't respect your relationships. They even if I expect.
Speaker 1: You would respect relationship, they don't. But I'm never going to.
Speaker 1: I used to be like, here are you married? Okay,
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter, he's not here.
Speaker 2: Right, No, I do. But at the time, we did
Speaker 2: some public workouts and then afterwards we did like some food,
Speaker 2: so people could come and we'd eat food. But it
Speaker 2: was like I was like, all right, cool, you guys
Speaker 2: can come. And anytime I was inviting people to meet
Speaker 2: me publicly, it was like with like fifty boxes. So
Speaker 2: it's just like all my mandamn is like yeah, whatever,
Speaker 2: come because whoever can do anything there's back there. So
Speaker 2: this woman comes and she's shut a date. She sits down.
Speaker 2: We've just worked out, we've been doing pull ups and
Speaker 2: push ups and sparring and all this stuff. And she
Speaker 2: sits down next to me and she's looked at me
Speaker 2: and she's gone, I'm going to marry you. And I'm like,
Speaker 2: all right, whatever, some sitting there, I'm eating my food
Speaker 2: and stuff.
Speaker 1: Were you intimidated at that point or were you just
Speaker 1: there was like a joke.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I was just like whatever, but she had her
Speaker 2: whole head dress on and she was like and I
Speaker 2: remember she just she was sitting there with scissors and
Speaker 2: I'm like, why is she a sisss? She was trying
Speaker 2: to cut my hair? And now I was like, why
Speaker 2: is she trying to cut my hair? Obviously so that
Speaker 2: she trying to do some magic or whatever.
Speaker 1: A woodoo dollar over there. What she did to make
Speaker 1: you fall in love with her?
Speaker 2: I don't know what she was trying to do. Anyway,
Speaker 2: I did the boxing match. So the boxing match comes
Speaker 2: a few weeks after or a month after, and I
Speaker 2: won the boxing match, and she came to the boxing
Speaker 2: match and I had to hide from her because she
Speaker 2: was I was like around like seeing people and stuff,
Speaker 2: and I've seen her.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, where's my husband.
Speaker 2: I was like, no, I'm going upstairs. So I went
Speaker 2: upstairs because I have to keep my mind right. I
Speaker 2: can't be like, let me do with this crazy person.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna fight somebody. And then after the boxing match,
Speaker 2: I'm like, get my congratulations from everybody, thank you for coming.
Speaker 2: We raised like one hundred thousand, one hundred thousand pounds.
Speaker 2: To rebuild this hospital. The work had already been going on,
Speaker 2: so I'm really happy. I'm really happy. And then after
Speaker 2: the boxing match, I just see this, this this woman
Speaker 2: like standing right right at the end in the corner.
Speaker 1: It was like a dark presence she was.
Speaker 2: She was standing there and she was just like shaking
Speaker 2: like this, and I was thinking to myself, not today,
Speaker 2: like not today, And.
Speaker 1: Do you remember her.
Speaker 2: Speaking to myself? Not today?
Speaker 1: I know that.
Speaker 2: Let me get out of here. So we just tried
Speaker 2: to get me to the car as quickly as possible.
Speaker 2: And as I was going out to the car, she
Speaker 2: intercepted me and she gave me this bag and she's like,
Speaker 2: you need to take this to your house. You need
Speaker 2: to take this to your home. And I'm like, what
Speaker 2: is it? Is it a bomb? Or I didn't want
Speaker 2: to even look in the bag. I was like, what
Speaker 2: is this woman doing. When I got home, I realized
Speaker 2: that she had photoshopped pictures of me between her and
Speaker 2: her son and created a whole photo album of our
Speaker 2: future together and and she created like many many instagrams
Speaker 2: and she was it was crazy, and I was just like,
Speaker 2: I don't need that anymore in my life.
Speaker 1: Were you frightened. Were you've frightened? I mean that's a
Speaker 1: little that's a little like what is it that movie
Speaker 1: that Whitney Houston was in when.
Speaker 2: The Bodyguard Bodyguard? It's very like, yeah, no, it was.
Speaker 2: It was a bit mad and like to say that
Speaker 2: I think she got hold of like like something something
Speaker 2: of mine and it was in the book and I
Speaker 2: was like, how did she even get hold of that?
Speaker 2: And it's in the book? Should take? I was like,
Speaker 2: get this out of the house straight away.
Speaker 1: I don't want this thing in my bad juju.
Speaker 2: Get this out of my house, out of my energy,
Speaker 2: and forever after that. Personally, I don't do that many
Speaker 2: public appearances or many public visits. I'll go out on
Speaker 2: my own to go and do stuff, but I won't
Speaker 2: be like, hey, I'm going to be here, because crazy
Speaker 2: people turn up as well as beautiful people. So this
Speaker 2: is this interview is the first interview I've done in
Speaker 2: four years.
Speaker 1: Oh thank you for coming to.
Speaker 2: I'm going to do more because I'm building the houses
Speaker 2: and stuff. But I was like, people just expect me
Speaker 2: to do stuff, and they expect me to do stuff
Speaker 2: that they think that I should do, not stuff that
Speaker 2: I actually want to do or stuff I'm interested in.
Speaker 1: Well, I appreciate that we're something that you're interested in,
Speaker 1: that you actually wanted to take the time to do that,
Speaker 1: because you know, for me, it's one of those things
Speaker 1: is I want to talk to people too that I'm
Speaker 1: fascinated by that, I want to get to know more
Speaker 1: and in all those things. So it's like, I hadn't
Speaker 1: seen anything really from you, and I don't like to
Speaker 1: wildly watch interviews from people's because I don't want it
Speaker 1: to take away from my own creative like or conversation
Speaker 1: and what it is. So I'm happy that you, you know,
Speaker 1: took the time. Was there a reason why other than
Speaker 1: you know, just the fact that people thought to do
Speaker 1: other things for interviews or that you kind of shied
Speaker 1: away from doing stuff I.
Speaker 2: Didn't feel like I've done enough?
Speaker 1: Okay a lot of people, So you're hard on yourself.
Speaker 2: Definitely. I'm a serial objective analyzer. So unless I think
Speaker 2: I have something to talk about, I'm not going to talk.
Speaker 2: Like really, if I'm doing something and I'm like, we're
Speaker 2: doing this, we're doing this, I need to galvanize energy,
Speaker 2: we're building this, then I'll talk. But I'm not just
Speaker 2: gonna be like listen to me or my life and
Speaker 2: all of these things, like yeah, even my own relationship,
Speaker 2: it's not that important. Like when you think of your heroes,
Speaker 2: you don't usually think of their relationship. You think of
Speaker 2: the work that they did when they were alive, or
Speaker 2: why they're you're a hero, not were they having a
Speaker 2: fight with their girlfriend or yeah, but.
Speaker 1: Nothing that it comes to the fight and things like that.
Speaker 1: Like so for me is like with my show, it's
Speaker 1: private talk, is that it's to get people like yourself
Speaker 1: and other people in different genres to talk about things
Speaker 1: that aren't just all the time that would talk about
Speaker 1: on other podcasts, and it gets you to open up
Speaker 1: a little bit more. Is because yeah, I don't want
Speaker 1: to know about your fight with your girlfriend, No, but
Speaker 1: I want to know you as a whole person, not
Speaker 1: just a piece of who you are, but your business
Speaker 1: and what you believe in is a piece of who are,
Speaker 1: but who your whole life is like is a lot
Speaker 1: more than it embodies. And to me, it makes you
Speaker 1: more real more where I feel like I can connect more,
Speaker 1: where it's like oh, like even with me, people are like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm like I love you. Some of all these things.
Speaker 1: They don't know me. They know how I have sex.
Speaker 1: So for me, I'm like, if you don't have a conversation,
Speaker 1: then I can change that car like that narrative, and
Speaker 1: I'm great with that. That's why I love meeting my
Speaker 1: fans and they're very interactive. But you just don't like
Speaker 1: you just you have to give. Like one thing I
Speaker 1: learned at my show is about the vulnerability. And one
Speaker 1: thing I never really had before is because I hid
Speaker 1: away from from my persona because that's just who it was.
Speaker 1: Now it's like showing a different side of Alexis, Texas
Speaker 1: because there's multifacets of to who I am. Like porn
Speaker 1: was just one thing that defines doesn't define me. It
Speaker 1: was a part of who like who I was, but
Speaker 1: it's not doesn't stop there. There's so many different things.
Speaker 1: So that's why I feel like with here, it's like
Speaker 1: asking questions about maybe you want to know about your
Speaker 1: dating life. Doesn't it stop there? But you know what
Speaker 1: makes you smile.
Speaker 2: In this order, children, animals, and people being happy.
Speaker 1: Biggest strength.
Speaker 2: Fearlessness. I don't have fear when it comes to I
Speaker 2: think that if you believe in God, then everything is
Speaker 2: in God's plan so existent, it's nonexistent. So I don't think.
Speaker 2: I think it's difficult to really believe in God and
Speaker 2: then have fear, you know, because God has got you
Speaker 2: no matter what, and and you are here for this time,
Speaker 2: in this reality, in this whatever we call this this reality,
Speaker 2: this liquid crystal VR projecting vessel for a short time,
Speaker 2: and while you're there, you should do whatever you spirit feels.
Speaker 2: And I think the fearlessness that I have has allowed
Speaker 2: me to travel to places most people would never go,
Speaker 2: and do work and make connections. That has made me.
Speaker 2: I feel interested enough in myself to be able to
Speaker 2: be happy. Because there's an African say that says that
Speaker 2: a young man who has traveled is wiser than an
Speaker 2: old man who stayed in the village's whole life. So
Speaker 2: I feel like I'm I'm there.
Speaker 1: I believe that. I love that. What about your bigger
Speaker 1: what is your weakness nor weakness you have one, I'm
Speaker 1: like him? Some people don't you know? You don't want
Speaker 1: to tap into that.
Speaker 2: No, Honestly, before I had weaknesses, for sure, I did
Speaker 2: inner work and got rid of them. I used to
Speaker 2: be I used to be addicted to sex when I
Speaker 2: was younger, Like, I spoke to a psychologist and she
Speaker 2: said to me, the reason why you're having sex is
Speaker 2: not reasons to have sex. And until I was able
Speaker 2: to go through that and overstand it and go through that,
Speaker 2: I was useless because I was always trying to have sex.
Speaker 1: Right, do you think you're a sex addict?
Speaker 2: One hundred percent? When during the time when I was
Speaker 2: in the military one hundred percent and I had a girlfriend?
Speaker 1: And what was the time length of that this existed,
Speaker 1: probably like like it was from when you started to
Speaker 1: have sex until you realized you had an issue, yes.
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, yeah, because the ways that I learned about
Speaker 2: sex porn because my father wasn't in my life and
Speaker 2: my mother was trying to raise three kids as a
Speaker 2: single mother, so she was open to conversations, but I
Speaker 2: also didn't feel like I could have conversations with her
Speaker 2: about sex because my mom. So I learned from some
Speaker 2: of the mandem who were elders and they were selling
Speaker 2: drugs and they were like criminals. They were just criminals.
Speaker 2: So the way that they looked at women wasn't in
Speaker 2: a way that was holistic or it was just completely misogynistic.
Speaker 2: So I learned that way about women. Then my mom
Speaker 2: had taught me other things about women. When it came
Speaker 2: to sex, I was just like, that's what it is.
Speaker 2: You've got to, like, you know, try and have sex
Speaker 2: for the longest and do all of these things. And
Speaker 2: then at which point I realized that actually I needed
Speaker 2: to stop doing that because it was taken up my
Speaker 2: time from like doing useful stuff.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Is so at the time that I started following you,
Speaker 1: had you watch any of my porn or did you
Speaker 1: even know who I was or did you see that
Speaker 1: I was just following you because I was verified.
Speaker 2: I sort of used following me because you were verified,
Speaker 2: because there was this app at a time. It's not
Speaker 2: it doesn't exist anymore, but you could just see who's
Speaker 2: verified and following you and who has a following, and
Speaker 2: I was like, well, I'm trying to do this thing
Speaker 2: in somebody. I'm trying to I'm not just trying to
Speaker 2: get as much energy there as possible. And then but
Speaker 2: I've probably seen it. I used to watch porn when
Speaker 2: I was young.
Speaker 1: There, I mean a lot of people too, like I
Speaker 1: feel like, in how old are you?
Speaker 2: I'm thirty four now.
Speaker 1: So I feel like it's like in that bracket of
Speaker 1: I'm thirty six about the thirty seven. But it's like
Speaker 1: it was just sometimes people watch porn. It doesn't even name.
Speaker 1: It just was there to watch. It wasn't like, you know,
Speaker 1: if there's elite people that have real like fan base
Speaker 1: of obviously why I like the taxes exist so myself,
Speaker 1: But a lot of people are like when you ask
Speaker 1: them like dating wise and be like, oh, well I
Speaker 1: watched a lot of porn, but I just not like
Speaker 1: I put a name to a face type of situation.
Speaker 1: But I always wondered, But why I liked you, know
Speaker 1: you as well, is because you always treated me as
Speaker 1: a not that I didn't know any way if you
Speaker 1: knew what my porn was or not, but it was
Speaker 1: always like who you were as what you identified on
Speaker 1: the page, like what you like stood for. So I
Speaker 1: always like I respected that and like everything that you
Speaker 1: had from like you sending me fruit and like you
Speaker 1: making being a part of whatever I thought was really
Speaker 1: great to be a part of. Because also because of
Speaker 1: who I am, a lot of times sometimes mainstream and
Speaker 1: things like straight away because oh well you do poorn,
Speaker 1: Like oh I don't want to be like attached to
Speaker 1: it or whatever, and I'm just like, I'm more than
Speaker 1: just that if you want to talk to me, but
Speaker 1: I'm also get it to like cool peace, Like I
Speaker 1: see you still watch my stuff. Whatever you want to say.
Speaker 2: No, no, it wasn't that. I know what. So, I
Speaker 2: have a lot of female friends from various walks of life.
Speaker 2: When when so something that I didn't share. When I
Speaker 2: was younger, just after I came out of the military,
Speaker 2: a close friend of mine was murdered in front of me,
Speaker 2: and some of the people that I believed should have
Speaker 2: helped me out at the time, because you know, he
Speaker 2: was murdered in front of me, I had his brains
Speaker 2: in my lab like I was, like in a very
Speaker 2: traumatic situation. Some of the people that I thought were
Speaker 2: cool and should have helped me out at the time didn't.
Speaker 2: The only person that actually helped me out at that
Speaker 2: specific time was my friend Meyer, who was a sex worker.
Speaker 2: And I when I was in this kind of sex
Speaker 2: addiction phase when I was like fourteen fifteen and I
Speaker 2: was selling drugs and all this stuff, a lot of
Speaker 2: my close friends were strippers and sex workers, and I
Speaker 2: found out very quickly that a lot of those people
Speaker 2: were the realist people because of the job that they do.
Speaker 2: There's just no bullshit, so so then some of them
Speaker 2: can be right exactly. So then that had made me
Speaker 2: kind of judge that less because at the same time
Speaker 2: I was a little criminal, so I didn't have any
Speaker 2: moral high ground to kind of stand on. And even
Speaker 2: now I think more my moral disposition is that of
Speaker 2: once you make an observation, to make sorry. Once you
Speaker 2: make an observation, you have an obligation right And for
Speaker 2: me doesn't matter where you're from. Everybody enters into a
Speaker 2: spiritual battle when they see something wrong and then they
Speaker 2: do nothing about it, and we're all hypocritical. We're all
Speaker 2: hypocritical by living in systems that are benefiting from colonialism,
Speaker 2: benefiting from sexism, benefiting from racism, benefiting from all of
Speaker 2: these systems that make some small echelon of humanity richer
Speaker 2: than everybody else, et cetera, et cetera. And I think
Speaker 2: it's being able to know how to point out what
Speaker 2: is wrong and do something about it at the same
Speaker 2: time as still find a way to love everybody.
Speaker 1: Is there anything that you kind of regret that you
Speaker 1: never stood up for in that way that you or
Speaker 1: maybe you've re visited because it kind of like stood
Speaker 1: up back in your mind and you were like maybe complain,
Speaker 1: like you said, and you didn't do something. Is it
Speaker 1: something that kind of like stood out for you to
Speaker 1: go back to.
Speaker 2: When I was in the army, women was always getting raped,
Speaker 2: but I never saw it. But you you would hear
Speaker 2: after the weekend had passed. You would hear that there
Speaker 2: was like a rape case going on and this person's
Speaker 2: going to call and this person's going to court martial.
Speaker 2: And when I was younger, my mother she was abused
Speaker 2: by my father and she's a survivor of sexual violence.
Speaker 2: And that led me to do the work that I
Speaker 2: do in Congo, where I'm supporting survivors of sexual violence.
Speaker 2: I'm taking care of children who are survivors of sexual violence.
Speaker 2: I'm putting through school, I'm feeding them and providing them
Speaker 2: with job opportunities, et cetera. That made me, as a child,
Speaker 2: the man that I am now is who I wanted
Speaker 2: to be around me when I.
Speaker 1: Was a child, like a father figure exactly.
Speaker 2: So I think that in of itself has become my
Speaker 2: life work. But definitely there was things that I had
Speaker 2: heard of and I would i'd seen when I was
Speaker 2: younger that I learned through society, etc. And there's things
Speaker 2: that I've done and that I was part of, Like,
Speaker 2: for instance, there's no reason to knock people out or
Speaker 2: just be violent or whatever. Obviously in the boxing ring
Speaker 2: is different, but just to be violent or whatever when
Speaker 2: you could be a nice person. And so I think
Speaker 2: now I have aligned my comic position back in balance.
Speaker 2: But before like you should never go to the army
Speaker 2: and like train to kill people. That's not a real
Speaker 2: human cool thing to do. It's just.
Speaker 1: Makes you believe, you know for sure. And what's crazy
Speaker 1: is I had a family member of mine, my family,
Speaker 1: part of my family was very like in turmoil of
Speaker 1: what I chose to do. They didn't talk to each
Speaker 1: other for a while. But for me, I never asked
Speaker 1: them for their opinion, so it wasn't really heavy on
Speaker 1: my mind. But there was a fair me invent that
Speaker 1: we like went to and my uncle he told me,
Speaker 1: he was like, I don't want you to think that
Speaker 1: I ever judge you. He's like, I've done worse things
Speaker 1: of you, so for who, Like, who am I to judge?
Speaker 1: Who am I to say? You know? Anything different? Is
Speaker 1: like we all make our own choices. It's like who
Speaker 1: you are as a person. And that really stuck with me,
Speaker 1: was because that's to me is like you know, I
Speaker 1: say all the time, it's like we're all individual, we're
Speaker 1: all people. We all put our pants on every single
Speaker 1: day the same. As long as you respect me and
Speaker 1: my space and what I believe in or not even
Speaker 1: necessarily what I believe it, but respect me, then we're fine.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean as well? And is it
Speaker 1: something else? And that's just not like for me as
Speaker 1: like a human thing like kind like for me, it's
Speaker 1: like I don't have to agree with what you're saying,
Speaker 1: but I can respect you as a person. I can
Speaker 1: respect who you are like and what you what you
Speaker 1: speak for. You know. So I feel like that a
Speaker 1: lot of people forget about just common decency and respect
Speaker 1: for one another and fuck about like who you voted for,
Speaker 1: what your beliefs or whatever. It's just finding a common
Speaker 1: ground of like being human right, all love and peace
Speaker 1: and all those kind things that make us feel a
Speaker 1: little great.
Speaker 2: I think you have to judge, but just.
Speaker 1: Going to be judged.
Speaker 2: Don't judge from a place of ego, try to judge
Speaker 2: from a place.
Speaker 1: But that's the thing is everyone has judgment in a sense,
Speaker 1: but it's to me, I don't think it's judgment. That
Speaker 1: we have choices, you know what I mean. I can
Speaker 1: choose even if you tell me how it is. Doesn't
Speaker 1: mean I can't have to like sip aside you. I
Speaker 1: can choose to see Like I'm cool with knowing who
Speaker 1: you are, and when I see you, I will say
Speaker 1: hello to you like I do everybody else and respect you,
Speaker 1: but I don't have to support you. But again, like
Speaker 1: I think we can all coexist with each other and
Speaker 1: what that means. And that's why I feel like a
Speaker 1: lot of people, it's like, who are we to say
Speaker 1: because I did something when I was from in my
Speaker 1: twenties to my third like thirty, Like who are you
Speaker 1: to say that I'm any different of a person than
Speaker 1: you are? He is, she? You know? Anybody? Like why
Speaker 1: are we different? We're all it's only the same. What
Speaker 1: our top three rules? Three rules in your life that
Speaker 1: you abide by your code of honor, my code.
Speaker 2: Of honor, shock of bars, honor, live clean so that
Speaker 2: your works can be seen. Because I remember, it's funny
Speaker 2: a friend of mine a long time ago. He said
Speaker 2: to me, this is probably a UK joke and you
Speaker 2: probably won't get it, but he said, he said, you
Speaker 2: can build a thousand bridges and shag a single sheep
Speaker 2: and nobody's ever going to remember that you build a bridge. True,
Speaker 2: And obviously I'm not into sheep, sheep.
Speaker 1: Or a bridge, any of that stuff.
Speaker 2: But now I'm a developer. I need to make sure
Speaker 2: that the way that I live reflects the work that
Speaker 2: I do. I can't be you know, people expect that
Speaker 2: what they see on Instagram is going to be what
Speaker 2: they get in real life with most people. But most
Speaker 2: people on Instagram are lying like they're not portraying who
Speaker 2: they really are. It's just a piece of who they are.
Speaker 2: Me on Instagram, I've never done a pay promotion on
Speaker 2: my instag So I say, what the fuck I want
Speaker 2: on my Instagram. I do. What the fuck I want
Speaker 2: is a free space, and it allows me to show
Speaker 2: the world a world that I want to create for
Speaker 2: for people to think. Right. So it allows me to
Speaker 2: do that. And if I am now like some crazy
Speaker 2: like crazy drug addiction or crazy something, it's going to
Speaker 2: stop people from seeing that thing. They're going to be like, yeah,
Speaker 2: I hear what that person's saying, but did you know
Speaker 2: this is they're crazy, right, And I'm trying to do that.
Speaker 2: I'm trying to be as but.
Speaker 1: I think, but I think that that kind of aligns
Speaker 1: with again, who you are. And I think that from
Speaker 1: again as an outsider looking in from it. You know,
Speaker 1: it's it's your life path, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Like you, everything has been authentically like me. Like again,
Speaker 1: yes there are people that you know who have an
Speaker 1: Instagram life whatever, But I feel like I'm a pretty
Speaker 1: good judge of character from knowing that because I live
Speaker 1: in that world of seeing what that is. And again
Speaker 1: and I have done paid posts, but it's all based
Speaker 1: off what I want still, and nobody can dictate what
Speaker 1: I like. And so that's why I like your thing
Speaker 1: is very You say what you want because that's what
Speaker 1: your belief is. And I think that that's what stands
Speaker 1: about who your fan base is and who your core
Speaker 1: is and what supports you is because those people are
Speaker 1: too alike the same because people wouldn't find who you
Speaker 1: are get the similarities if they weren't somewhat in tune
Speaker 1: with themselves on a path that's leading to where you're.
Speaker 2: Going right, and I get you know, I've been ostracized
Speaker 2: many times. I have my Instagram account deleted. Lots of
Speaker 2: people won't, but I.
Speaker 1: Mean, I think social media and all those things I mean,
Speaker 1: and even media itself, it's you know, we're censored. You know,
Speaker 1: I'm shadow band. I have five point nine million followers,
Speaker 1: but I'm still not seen by people. I get twenty
Speaker 1: eight thousand likes on something because why because people I'm
Speaker 1: not allowed to like and it's nothing that in me.
Speaker 1: I'm the most PG probably like a thing that is
Speaker 1: because I know that just having my ass alone in
Speaker 1: the picture is going to get something that's like a problem.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I'm not even doing something. I'm more
Speaker 1: in close, you know what I mean. So's I get it.
Speaker 1: And that's why I feel like maybe I empathize more
Speaker 1: with someone like yourself. Is like you have such a
Speaker 1: big message to spread where it's like your reach ability
Speaker 1: to be so much more not solicitated because of what
Speaker 1: you're saying. And again it's not like not everything you're
Speaker 1: saying is a fact, but it's your belief and not
Speaker 1: you know, and there's a following behind that. So I
Speaker 1: think that's a beautiful thing.
Speaker 2: My truth is important for me, it doesn't need to
Speaker 2: be important for everybody else. And I have this thing
Speaker 2: where over the years many people have said, I don't
Speaker 2: agree with everything you say, but I respect you. And
Speaker 2: the reality is it's because I am a sovereign being
Speaker 2: in control of my own truth, and I don't say
Speaker 2: what I believe is true and people resonated with it
Speaker 2: than they do, and if they don't, then they don't.
Speaker 2: But I definitely ain't out here destroying people's lives and
Speaker 2: like doing illegal minding and all of that.
Speaker 1: Stuff, for sure. And it's not something I think maybe
Speaker 1: because it's you, because speaking your truth is in a
Speaker 1: forceful way. It's like you said, you receive the message
Speaker 1: how you want to, and that's again living true to
Speaker 1: yourself and your spirituality and who you are as a
Speaker 1: human being. Of why I feel like you are in
Speaker 1: the rights path of where you're supposed to be. What
Speaker 1: is the best advice you've ever gotten?
Speaker 2: Oh, gosh, I have so many, I have so many.
Speaker 1: Okay, let's say, what's the best advice you've ever given?
Speaker 2: Oh? Now, the best advice I've ever given? I think
Speaker 2: the best advice I've ever given is is to anybody
Speaker 2: and to everybody is you can live with mistakes, but
Speaker 2: you can't live with regret. And I feel like a
Speaker 2: lot of the time people, rather than standing on their
Speaker 2: spirit and doing what they know that they have to
Speaker 2: do or what their intuition is telling them to do,
Speaker 2: they do something that is influenced by conditioning rather than spirit.
Speaker 2: And so I think my best advice is always go
Speaker 2: with spirit, even if you think you're going to make
Speaker 2: a mistake, because if you don't, you don't want to
Speaker 2: be the old person with regret.
Speaker 1: I love that. Do you remember your first celebrity crush?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 1: Did I ever you had to have a celebrity crush?
Speaker 2: Did I ever have a celebrity crush like that? You know?
Speaker 2: Do you know why? Because at the time, remember I
Speaker 2: told you I was addicted to sex. I was having
Speaker 2: sex with whoever I wanted to have sex with you, So.
Speaker 1: You were like really looking for like that other.
Speaker 2: I didn't even see like a relationship as an idea,
Speaker 2: as something that I was interested in. I was just like,
Speaker 2: who can have sex with?
Speaker 1: And so were you just like an habitual like sexual
Speaker 1: person and not really had any relationships until recently.
Speaker 2: No, I tried to have relationships. But when I had relationships,
Speaker 2: a lot of the people that I've was with, they
Speaker 2: were in a place of maybe growth and change or
Speaker 2: like some of the wrong time right wrong yeah, right person,
Speaker 2: wrong time, wrong person, right time. Maybe, But I I
Speaker 2: never And then the thing is is like now where
Speaker 2: I am. I'm friends with whoever I want to be
Speaker 2: friends with. So I've never really had that barrier of
Speaker 2: how do I get to that person or how do
Speaker 2: I So when I was younger, I was very much
Speaker 2: living in the present with the women that were around me.
Speaker 2: So I had you know, if you want to call
Speaker 2: them the baddies, they were all there. They were you were.
Speaker 1: Living your dream at fifteen.
Speaker 2: I was literally living my dream at fifteen, Like everybody
Speaker 2: who I thought was attractive, I wanted to be vials with.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, all right, I like that. All right, Well,
Speaker 1: we're going to play truth with Texas. This is going
Speaker 1: to be a little bit more riicier for you. Don't
Speaker 1: be too shy, okay, but we are going to do it.
Speaker 1: So how Truth with Texas works? If I can grab
Speaker 1: my cards over here, m hm. There are four cards.
Speaker 1: We will go through each card. Each one is an ace.
Speaker 1: Each ace suit is a different type of question from romantic, kinky, naughty,
Speaker 1: and spicy. You ask a couple of questions through each
Speaker 1: and then yeah, you survive cool truth with teclists. All right,
Speaker 1: here you go, first card, what are we get ace
Speaker 1: of diamonds? It's a spicy question. Let's see what we
Speaker 1: are going to know. Hm. Longest you've ever gone without.
Speaker 2: Sex seven months? Twice, once when I was in Iraq
Speaker 2: and once in twenty twenty when the world locked down
Speaker 2: and I was in Thailand and I saw my partner
Speaker 2: that I'm with now like for a week before she
Speaker 2: then came back here and I stayed in Thailand, and
Speaker 2: I was, you know, I was spending time with and
Speaker 2: I was happy. I was that That actually was one
Speaker 2: of the cleariest times ever in my life, was when
Speaker 2: I was just celibate and I was abstaining by a choice,
Speaker 2: not like there wasn't options.
Speaker 1: But I was just like, but of course, hmmm, have
Speaker 1: you ever stayed in a relationship for sex?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: No? Have you ever fallen asleep during sex?
Speaker 2: Yes, but not sleep like I've knocked out, like you
Speaker 2: knocked out, Not sleep like I've knocked out when I
Speaker 2: was having sex for the just no damn reason at all.
Speaker 2: I just went into a trance and I just wasn't there.
Speaker 2: So I was having sex. I was still be going
Speaker 2: shut because I haven't. I haven't drank since I was
Speaker 2: seventeen or eighteen, so so I've always had some and
Speaker 2: I've always been conscious. But I was having sex sometimes
Speaker 2: just to have sex. So I was just having go
Speaker 2: through themotions. But I wasn't there.
Speaker 1: You weren't there. Weren't there were they upset about it?
Speaker 2: There was there was enjoying themselves.
Speaker 1: They didn't know you weren't there.
Speaker 2: But I was not there. I was not present.
Speaker 1: Hmmm, let's see, have you ever dated somebody older?
Speaker 2: I've had sex with people older. I never dated somebody older.
Speaker 1: Though. How many like real relationships have you been in?
Speaker 1: I feel like you more like because the whole like
Speaker 1: sex addict thing. I feel like and especially because the
Speaker 1: male thing. Maybe because I'm biased because I'm a female,
Speaker 1: but you probably fucked a lot of ladies, but you
Speaker 1: weren't in real relationships like probably like three or four.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'll probably say real relationship literally four in my life.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I could see that for you. I don't know
Speaker 1: I'm psychic or not, but I just feel like when
Speaker 1: you're like figuring that stuff out, like you're not worried
Speaker 1: as much as like we're like sometimes females, we were
Speaker 1: emotionally base driven.
Speaker 2: Oh I definitely was not emotions exactly.
Speaker 1: So I'm like that comes for men and even myself
Speaker 1: really emotionally. It comes later on, but we think that
Speaker 1: you're emotionally ready for that as a female where it's
Speaker 1: like oh yeah, different, different, different questions. Have you ever
Speaker 1: been turned down for sex?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: No, never happened.
Speaker 2: No, it hasn't happened because I haven't.
Speaker 1: Don't put yourself in those situations.
Speaker 2: If it's going to be sex, then I know it's
Speaker 2: going to be sex.
Speaker 1: So if you you know, you have good intuition.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm very good at energy and also chemistry, so
Speaker 2: I don't need to read the rooms. Yeah. I don't
Speaker 2: force stuff.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, next card. See it's not so bad.
Speaker 1: I definitely lightened it for you. I have toades is
Speaker 1: a naughty question which is our favorite here at Private Talk.
Speaker 1: Handcuffs are blindfold back in your promiscuous days or maybe not?
Speaker 1: Do you still indulge? I?
Speaker 2: May I've been locked up before.
Speaker 1: So blind, so neither does it give you some kind
Speaker 1: of PTSCU.
Speaker 2: Look I was never enslaved, but I heard about the ship.
Speaker 2: So so you're like, no, no, just no.
Speaker 1: Do you like dirty talk?
Speaker 2: Not really, because you know, I think to get your
Speaker 2: mind into a space where you're sexually aroused. A lot
Speaker 2: of a lot of what that has become because of pornography,
Speaker 2: because of surface level conversations, like people like having small
Speaker 2: talk because the scared to actually really go deep. The
Speaker 2: rivers will flow the deeper you go, right, And when
Speaker 2: you have somebody's mind kind of they're present with you,
Speaker 2: you don't need to really, you don't need to well
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't feel you don't need to say
Speaker 2: stuff that's like shocking them to get them to that
Speaker 2: space you can get You can get them to that
Speaker 2: space naturally because they're just really into you. And that's
Speaker 2: why a lot of people have had climaxes, but not
Speaker 2: many people have orgasms, because climax is stimulated and orgasm
Speaker 2: is God's spirit and a lot of people ain't having
Speaker 2: sex with God. They're just having sex like just to
Speaker 2: have a release.
Speaker 1: I agree with that, and that's why I like also
Speaker 1: when you heavily speak on like the sexual things, I
Speaker 1: can understand it when you dissect it in a sense
Speaker 1: like that is because it depends like people can have
Speaker 1: sex for different reasons, like me and like in the
Speaker 1: like in like poorn, having sex was more of an
Speaker 1: animalistic like release of just whatever and no emotional content
Speaker 1: of what it meant to me as my personal life
Speaker 1: is where I need those filling things of where of
Speaker 1: like where if you don't speak to me whatever, like
Speaker 1: the emotional level, and like I always say, like I'm demisexual,
Speaker 1: like you have to be stimulated to me to make
Speaker 1: me actually want to be sexually stimulated to you, because
Speaker 1: it's easy just to be physical with anybody, but to
Speaker 1: be like sensual and to be like mind stimulated as
Speaker 1: a different level of growth. So I feel like it's
Speaker 1: a different higher expectation of orgasm than just being like, oh,
Speaker 1: this could happen, right. Have you ever faked an orgasm?
Speaker 2: Many times?
Speaker 1: Many times?
Speaker 2: Many times? You know.
Speaker 1: Why? I just realized that this was a thing. Like
Speaker 1: I had a conversation with one of my male friends.
Speaker 1: We were at dinner, and he casually told me this
Speaker 1: thing because he was saying about a situation and I
Speaker 1: was like, but wait, and he's like, why are you
Speaker 1: thinking about all the times that you could think someone
Speaker 1: could have fakedne it with you? And I'm like, no
Speaker 1: one's ever done it. He's like, but you don't know,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I really don't. But I didn't think
Speaker 1: that that would be a thing. So explain to us,
Speaker 1: Shaka bars.
Speaker 2: What's going on over here is definitely a thing because
Speaker 2: as I said before, I was having sex for reasons
Speaker 2: why you shouldn't be having sex. So therefore I was
Speaker 2: having sex with people I should I've been having sex
Speaker 2: with so though they were.
Speaker 1: But you say that, but were you simulate where you
Speaker 1: stimulated at that time? It was just you couldn't like,
Speaker 1: it wasn't satisfying overall.
Speaker 2: No, And at the time as well, a lot of
Speaker 2: the time, I was just doing it to you know,
Speaker 2: all right, this is the thing. This is a thing
Speaker 2: that a lot of people should learn. There's three different
Speaker 2: types of sex. Teachers here, right, there's three different types
Speaker 2: of sex. This is this. I was taught this by
Speaker 2: my master teacher. May he rest in peace, dot uh
Speaker 2: Layla or Layla Africa. There's three different types of sex.
Speaker 2: There is procreational sex. We know what that is. There
Speaker 2: is recreational sex, and then there is sex for regeneration.
Speaker 2: And what we keep doing is we keep doing recreational sex.
Speaker 2: So the Netflix and Chill generation is here. Right. When
Speaker 2: you're having sex to recreate something, you're not creating anything.
Speaker 2: It's escapism. It's sexual escapism, right. The same like with
Speaker 2: ganjo if you're han't ganger and I've done it before
Speaker 2: because life is hard.
Speaker 1: I shout out to my four twenty fives.
Speaker 2: If you are having ganja, right and you are not meditating,
Speaker 2: not ever once, but you're having it, you're opening up
Speaker 2: gateways and you're letting in any kind of energy without
Speaker 2: having any control of directing that. And so just like alcohols,
Speaker 2: I tell people they shouldn't mess with alcohol because we
Speaker 2: call alcohol spirits, right, but people don't know what spirits.
Speaker 2: They just know we're going to drink and then afterwards like, oh,
Speaker 2: I'll never drink again, right, and they do that often right, Right, So,
Speaker 2: when you have sex for procreation, you're making a child.
Speaker 2: When you have sex for recreation, you are making yourself
Speaker 2: stay in the same space, but you're not growing. And
Speaker 2: then when you have sex for regeneration, which is part
Speaker 2: of a technique that I learned many years ago called ejaculation,
Speaker 2: where nothing comes out, but you then rechannel that within
Speaker 2: yourself that way as a mask.
Speaker 1: Is this something that you do with a partner, by yourself.
Speaker 2: Any time forever. So unless I'm trying to make a child,
Speaker 2: I will.
Speaker 1: Oh, okay do that.
Speaker 2: So the thing is is so the intentions of what
Speaker 2: that is the intentions, but also physically if you look
Speaker 2: at like so DNA, for instance, sperm contains DNA. Each
Speaker 2: sperm has the equivalent memory or the equivalent information of
Speaker 2: thirty six megabytes, and men ejaculate between four hundred to
Speaker 2: six hundred million sperm every time they ejaculate. So essentially,
Speaker 2: ejaculation is the equivalent of running twenty miles for a
Speaker 2: man every time he does it. You have to replace
Speaker 2: that potential life giving fluid some way, and you just
Speaker 2: strip your whole body of all of its trace, minerals
Speaker 2: and all of it. That's why you can have like
Speaker 2: sex hangovers. As men. You can be like having too
Speaker 2: much sex and you get headache.
Speaker 1: And females can do the same thing. They say, you're drag.
Speaker 2: Right, right, And so when I learned about ejaculation. Sorry,
Speaker 2: when I learned about ejaculation, I have done it ever since,
Speaker 2: so since like twenty thirteen, twenty twelve, I've just that's it.
Speaker 1: But that's not the only way, or.
Speaker 2: Is it no, because there's procreation, So for me, because.
Speaker 1: You have a partner, So I feel like if you
Speaker 1: are single, then I can understand the ejaculation because it's
Speaker 1: more you said spiritual, right.
Speaker 2: Or like, well you're The thing is is you can
Speaker 2: ejaculate but still achieve orgasm. So that's the thing. Is
Speaker 2: what we have with porn, for instance, is you have
Speaker 2: this whole idea that masculinity is a chattee of the
Speaker 2: money shot and you've got to get coming out right.
Speaker 2: But when you take that energy and put it back
Speaker 2: in and it goes from your root shacker all the
Speaker 2: way to your crownschecker, it allows you to become in
Speaker 2: a state of sexual enlightenment and that feels spiritual, set
Speaker 2: it feels great, Whereas when you ejaculate you just feel drained.
Speaker 2: So unless I'm actually creating a child, I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1: But isn't that only a mind state not a physical state?
Speaker 1: I mean, obviously it's both because you're in an ejaculation process.
Speaker 1: But I mean again myself, I'm I'm spiritual, I meditate,
Speaker 1: I do all those things, and I know what my
Speaker 1: mind can achieve. But you're saying because I thought that
Speaker 1: it was just only doing it inward and not actually
Speaker 1: ejaculating as well. But you're saying that too. Is how
Speaker 1: do those two coexist? Because wouldn't you reach the same
Speaker 1: expansion if you were inwardly doing the.
Speaker 2: Work ejaculation for procreation, ejaculation for regeneration. Recreation is something
Speaker 2: I haven't.
Speaker 1: Do with But all of that's still mindset, isn't it,
Speaker 1: because you're still ejaculating.
Speaker 2: Given an example, if you are trying to create a baby, right,
Speaker 2: and you are ejaculating to try and create a baby,
Speaker 2: you should be eating.
Speaker 1: But are you doing this baby as an intentional purpose?
Speaker 2: As an intentional purpose, that's the only reason should ejaculate.
Speaker 2: Because if you if if you could ejaculate, but you
Speaker 2: couldn't orgasm or you couldn't climax through an ejaculation, right,
Speaker 2: So if you all right, if you if there was
Speaker 2: no physical reward for ejaculation the same as ejaculation, then
Speaker 2: I would say ejaculate. But because there's a better physical
Speaker 2: reward for ejaculation, and you achieve the same thing. You
Speaker 2: can have sex for as long as you want.
Speaker 1: See that's where I'm like, I get all of that.
Speaker 1: That's what I'm just saying. But wouldn't it still just
Speaker 1: be the difference, That would just be the mindset of
Speaker 1: what that is because you're still doing Obviously you're not
Speaker 1: doing it to have the baby. You're doing it for.
Speaker 2: Ask any man after he's ejaculated.
Speaker 1: Here is a problem. I don't have a dick. I
Speaker 1: don't understand what happens to you. I think about my
Speaker 1: own session.
Speaker 2: Ask any man after he's ejaculated. What is like when
Speaker 2: you go to the gym.
Speaker 1: There is they can't That's why like when they like,
Speaker 1: I get all that.
Speaker 2: No, I'm trying to keep all my power.
Speaker 1: I get that.
Speaker 2: That's it.
Speaker 1: I get that.
Speaker 2: I need it. I need it. I have so much.
Speaker 2: I need things to do. I have so much.
Speaker 1: I'm busy. I can't be doing all of this.
Speaker 2: Get tired.
Speaker 1: I get it. Okay, Okay, you learn you learn here
Speaker 1: at private talk. I like it all. Right. Next card?
Speaker 2: Are we doing older cards?
Speaker 1: I told you you're doing every card? We're doing a
Speaker 1: sup clubs. It's a kinky question. Where's my kinky card? Okay?
Speaker 1: Hmmm any fetishes?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: Have you ever been in an orgy?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: How many people?
Speaker 2: Like seven or eight?
Speaker 1: Mm?
Speaker 2: Okay, But you know it was It was strange though,
Speaker 2: because is when I those ages and we didn't call
Speaker 2: them orgital. We just called him gangbang, Like I guess
Speaker 2: it's the same thing, same thing, right, But when were
Speaker 2: those ages and there was lots of girls in the
Speaker 2: area who was promiscuous, and we was also promiscuous. We
Speaker 2: were seeing stuff on porn and it was like, right,
Speaker 2: let's go and do it. Then for a lot of
Speaker 2: people at that age, they ain't able to recreate those
Speaker 2: type of things.
Speaker 1: They're just like And that's where I feel like when
Speaker 1: like the whole thing of like when they say like, oh, porn,
Speaker 1: it's I mean again, I think you should be educational.
Speaker 1: You take what you can from it, but it's not
Speaker 1: realistic to everyday like, especially if you're doing it at
Speaker 1: the level of fifteen something whatever, like you have no
Speaker 1: idea what the fuck you're doing. You think you do.
Speaker 1: You're trying to recreate a scenario, but it's not anything.
Speaker 2: When it's like supposed to me, It didn't looking back
Speaker 2: on it, it didn't make any sense. But because the
Speaker 2: thing is is like there's no other guy in my fantasy, right,
Speaker 2: it's just not the thing. But there was a couple
Speaker 2: of my friends there and then there was like, you know,
Speaker 2: four or five women there well, and we were swapping
Speaker 2: women and whatever. But then I was like, I don't
Speaker 2: really want to ever be near my friend when he's
Speaker 2: aroused because that's just not my type of life. But yeah,
Speaker 2: I was fifteen.
Speaker 1: But if you were in your situation, where was you
Speaker 1: and like the seven different girls and not your friends
Speaker 1: all for it at that time? And I think that
Speaker 1: that's a lot of the thing too, is like why
Speaker 1: I feel like it's unrealistic with the porn thing as
Speaker 1: far as like the partner's situations is because realistically you're
Speaker 1: the person, Like not a lot of people like to
Speaker 1: to fuck people with their friends, Like it's a it's
Speaker 1: not really common, you know what I mean? And you
Speaker 1: know imporant they're usually probably aren't friends, they don't know
Speaker 1: each other. It's all a stage situation. So you try
Speaker 1: to really like do that thing. And then even with
Speaker 1: the girls, it's like I don't want to fuck your
Speaker 1: friend because what if I like you and then then
Speaker 1: you think I want to fuck your friend? Right, So
Speaker 1: now we're creating Austin Areo said, I aren't even warranted
Speaker 1: because people just want to fuck.
Speaker 2: And then people think they can bring that into marriage
Speaker 2: and it doesn't work.
Speaker 1: Oh, it definitely doesn't work. I've been married, I've been
Speaker 1: divorced happily, and we're here all right. Last card is
Speaker 1: an Ace of Hearts, which is a romantic question. Would
Speaker 1: you consider yourself a romantic?
Speaker 2: Not into romanantics?
Speaker 1: Okay? Biggest turn on? How did your lady get your attention?
Speaker 2: She had a pure soul. She was a very beautiful spirit.
Speaker 2: And she's also plant based. I've been plant based for
Speaker 2: many years now. She's also plant based. And the crazy
Speaker 2: stuff in the world that I saw, she allowed me
Speaker 2: to because she didn't know a lot of the stuff
Speaker 2: that I was even speaking about at the time. She
Speaker 2: knows more now. She allowed me to escape that in
Speaker 2: just happiness and joy. And that's why I like spending
Speaker 2: a lot of time with children and animals because they
Speaker 2: don't think, oh, what's going to happen in ten years time,
Speaker 2: and all of.
Speaker 1: The they haven't been exposed to as much, you know, life,
Speaker 1: that sometimes makes us a little bit more jaded in
Speaker 1: certain topics.
Speaker 2: So biggest turn on is pure soul and confidence. If
Speaker 2: somebody is not confident, then it's just like you're gonna
Speaker 2: it's not good.
Speaker 1: Not good. Favorite place to be kissed.
Speaker 2: For?
Speaker 1: What for life?
Speaker 2: Are you talking sexual? You're talking spiritual?
Speaker 1: Spiritual?
Speaker 2: Spiritual? Right here?
Speaker 1: I like that. Let's see last question. Perfect date night
Speaker 1: for you? You're a busy man. You have a lot
Speaker 1: going on, but you like to, you know, still make
Speaker 1: sure your lady is perfect. What would be a perfect
Speaker 1: date night for the two of you?
Speaker 2: Perfect date night I think is a fire on the
Speaker 2: beach in the tropics and music and friends and dancing.
Speaker 1: I like that. All right. That concludes Truth with Access.
Speaker 1: You did a great job. Thank you so much for participating.
Speaker 1: Is there anything you would like to ask me?
Speaker 2: Yes, I would like to ask you. Do you now,
Speaker 2: having as many people in the world as know who
Speaker 2: you are and know who you are, do you feel
Speaker 2: responsible now that you have the same attention as queens
Speaker 2: of old would have. Do you now feel responsible to
Speaker 2: do more on this earth for the people of this earth?