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<v Speaker 1>You are listening to the con Frondly Christianity podcast, and

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<v Speaker 1>today I'm welcoming back one of the guests from our

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<v Speaker 1>first ever season of our podcast, So those who've been

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<v Speaker 1>listening from the very beginning, we'll remember Lisa Fields. Lisa

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<v Speaker 1>is a Christian apologist who merges her deep biblical knowledge

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<v Speaker 1>with her heartfelt mission to share God's love. She's been

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<v Speaker 1>recognized by Christianity Today for her impactful work in the

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<v Speaker 1>African American community, and she's produced two documentaries, Unspoken and

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<v Speaker 1>Juneteenth Faith and Freedom. Lisa is the CEO of Jude

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<v Speaker 1>three Project and the author of the new book When

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<v Speaker 1>Faith Disappoints the gap between what we believe and what

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<v Speaker 1>we experience. Lisa, thank you so much for joining me again.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you for having me. Rebecca, it's joy for those.

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<v Speaker 1>Who aren't yet familiar with your ministry. I'd love first

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<v Speaker 1>for you to give us a little bit of a

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<v Speaker 1>taste of what Jude three Project is about, and yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>what that project's been working on and how people could

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<v Speaker 1>find out more.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, Well. Jud three is a Christian apologetics organization

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<v Speaker 2>dedicated to helping Black Christians know what they believe and

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<v Speaker 2>why they believe it, and we do that through a

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<v Speaker 2>number of ways. Of the documentaries you just highlighted June

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<v Speaker 2>teenth and Unspoken, we have curriculum, online courses, a number

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<v Speaker 2>of other things like podcasts. We have multimedia series such

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<v Speaker 2>as Why I Don't Go when I sit down with

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<v Speaker 2>young adults who left the faith. And we have our

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<v Speaker 2>national conference Courageous Conversations that has happens annually that merges

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<v Speaker 2>black scholars, professors, pastors, thought leaders together from conservative and

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<v Speaker 2>progressive spaces for conversations around conversations that are relevant for

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<v Speaker 2>the culture, such as the exclusivity of Jesus, the trustworthinians

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<v Speaker 2>of the Bible, sexuality. It runs the gamut of conversations

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<v Speaker 2>that we've held.

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<v Speaker 1>And what was it that first motivated you to want

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<v Speaker 1>to found the organization and get involved with that particular

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<v Speaker 1>sort of segment of the mission of the church.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it was my undergrad experience taking a class New Testament.

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<v Speaker 2>Our textbook was bar Ermit in terms of New Testament,

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<v Speaker 2>and that was the first time I had really questioned

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<v Speaker 2>my faith, questioned the scriptures in particular, And that was

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<v Speaker 2>when my father, who is a pastor, introduced me to

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<v Speaker 2>apologetics and getting apologetic apologist perspective on what I was

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<v Speaker 2>navigating in class. The reliability of the Bible and things

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<v Speaker 2>of that nature really helped me navigate that class. But

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<v Speaker 2>as I got more immersion in apologetics, I didn't see

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<v Speaker 2>any African Americans leading and I wanted to do something

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<v Speaker 2>about that. And so that was kind of the genesis

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<v Speaker 2>of me thinking about what it looks like for me

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<v Speaker 2>to help black churches and Black Christians and black skeptics

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<v Speaker 2>wrestle through hard questions about the Bible and about God.

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<v Speaker 2>And that kind of led me on the journey and

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<v Speaker 2>eventually I would started you through project. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's fascinating. Yeah. My understanding is that in the US,

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<v Speaker 1>Black Americans are disproportionately likely to have some form of

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<v Speaker 1>Christian background, and actually when I was more likely to

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<v Speaker 1>actually still be very much involved in Christian churches and

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<v Speaker 1>to hold sort of core biblical beliefs, what is it

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<v Speaker 1>would you say, as you've sort of been involved in

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<v Speaker 1>that particular kind of ministry in the last several years,

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<v Speaker 1>thinking about maybe some of the questions that folks might

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<v Speaker 1>have if they've been raised in the context of the

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<v Speaker 1>Black Church in America versus you know, folks who might

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<v Speaker 1>have been raised in other kinds of churches, Like, what

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<v Speaker 1>are the biggest sort of questions I guess or concerns

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<v Speaker 1>that folks have who have that particular background.

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<v Speaker 2>The biggest question is is Christian and white men's religion?

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<v Speaker 2>That's the question that we have to answer more often

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<v Speaker 2>than not in our context. Should I trust this faith

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<v Speaker 2>of faith that was given to a lot of our

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<v Speaker 2>ancestors through their slave masters and so, and the faith

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<v Speaker 2>the slave masters gave their slaves was very a very

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<v Speaker 2>contaminated version, a very incorrect version in a lot of ways,

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<v Speaker 2>and so kind of reframing that for people who were like, Hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm thinking about this, Should I trust this Bible? Should

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<v Speaker 2>I trust this book? Because it was used as a

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<v Speaker 2>tool of oppression? That's the questions we have to help people.

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<v Speaker 2>That's the main question that we have to help people

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<v Speaker 2>walk through when we're dealing with apologetics in my contexts.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's interesting. Yeah, for those not familiar with this

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<v Speaker 1>particular sort of area of history. One of the really

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<v Speaker 1>sort of startling things that I discovered as a sort

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<v Speaker 1>of looking into the history that you're referencing there is

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<v Speaker 1>the way in which the Bible was like specifically edited,

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<v Speaker 1>like the whole sections of the Bible were cut out,

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<v Speaker 1>and the areas of the Bible like put off limits

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<v Speaker 1>for black people living in America to have access to

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<v Speaker 1>you because it was like, oh, if we actually let

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<v Speaker 1>people who are currently enslaved see what they're you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>the whole of the Bible says, we're going to be

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<v Speaker 1>in all sorts of trouble. Like it's sort of kind

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<v Speaker 1>of telling I guess that the Bible had to be

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<v Speaker 1>so carefully edited and that often people were even like

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<v Speaker 1>preventing folks from learning to read because it was far

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<v Speaker 1>too dangerous to put an actual like copy of God's

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<v Speaker 1>word into the hands of people you're trying to oppress

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<v Speaker 1>and for them not to realize, oh Jesus is on

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<v Speaker 1>my side and not on your side. So very very

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<v Speaker 1>quickly there, So tell us these your recent book, which

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<v Speaker 1>I think just came out this summer, is that right?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell us what motivated you to want to write that

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<v Speaker 1>book and what are the particular kinds of questions and

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<v Speaker 1>concerns that you're wanting to address.

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<v Speaker 2>There, Yeah, the book When Faith Disappoints. And it's funny

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<v Speaker 2>because everyone was like, oh, I didn't expect this to

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<v Speaker 2>be your first book. We thought you would do something

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<v Speaker 2>that was more classical or traditional posts. But as I'm

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<v Speaker 2>just having conversations with people who left the faith, people

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<v Speaker 2>who were skeptical by the faith, I noticed a pattern

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<v Speaker 2>that a lot of it had to do with pain

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<v Speaker 2>at the core. Now, there were intellectual questions at the start,

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<v Speaker 2>but once you listen to them long enough, it always

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<v Speaker 2>led to pain for the most part, more often than not.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I was like, what does it mean for

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<v Speaker 2>me to write to the root of the issue and

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<v Speaker 2>not to just the fruit of the issue. If we're

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<v Speaker 2>starting this conversation about evolution and faith, but we ended

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<v Speaker 2>on you prayed for your mom to be healed and

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<v Speaker 2>she died of cancer. Like, what is the starting point here?

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<v Speaker 2>And as I started to have more and more conversations

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<v Speaker 2>with people that were wrestling with God, pain was just

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<v Speaker 2>the overarching thing. And so people felt disappointed, and not

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<v Speaker 2>just being disappointed with people. It's one thing churchard is

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<v Speaker 2>one thing, but being disappointed with God, to me is

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<v Speaker 2>a whole nother thing. Because even sometimes the onset of

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<v Speaker 2>our complaints with people, really, if we dig back, it's like, God,

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<v Speaker 2>why did you even let this scenario happen in the

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<v Speaker 2>first place, Like, I'm mad at this person, But God,

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<v Speaker 2>you are all powerful on knowing and all loving, Like

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<v Speaker 2>why did you even let this even take place with

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<v Speaker 2>this person? So the issue is not solely with the person,

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<v Speaker 2>It's with God. And so it was like, how can

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<v Speaker 2>I write and minister to the hearts of people that

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<v Speaker 2>are wrestling with doubt? And I will deal with some

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<v Speaker 2>traditional apologetic questions throughout us. There's sprinkled in throughout, but

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<v Speaker 2>at the core, let's get to the heart of the issue.

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<v Speaker 2>Because if we get to the root of the issue

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<v Speaker 2>and I minister and share the Gospel to that issue,

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<v Speaker 2>I think we'll have more attraction in people giving God

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<v Speaker 2>another ear or rethinking the faith. And so that was

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<v Speaker 2>really the reason I wrote this, because I felt like

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<v Speaker 2>I want to minister to the heart of broken people

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<v Speaker 2>been disappointment and I want to share my own disappointments

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<v Speaker 2>because the disappointments that you experience are some of the

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<v Speaker 2>disappointments that everybody experiences in this life. It may look

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<v Speaker 2>different and may take different framings, but we all wrestle

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<v Speaker 2>with disappointment. And so the way to get through that

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<v Speaker 2>disappointment is to wrestle with God. And when they've disappointed,

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<v Speaker 2>I believe gives people the opportunity to wrestle with God

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<v Speaker 2>and to normalize it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's fascinating what you use the expression there of

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<v Speaker 1>applying the Gospel to the sort of heart of their

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<v Speaker 1>their concern. So tell us a little bit more about

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<v Speaker 1>that for those who maybe aren't familiar with even what

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<v Speaker 1>the gospel is or how it might apply to somebody's situation.

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<v Speaker 1>If they feel like, do you know what I prayed

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<v Speaker 1>for something and I didn't get the answer that I

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<v Speaker 1>was hoping for, or like, or I invested so much

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<v Speaker 1>in this church community and then I felt profoundly disappointed

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<v Speaker 1>by the treatment that I received, or you know, the

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<v Speaker 1>various different forms that that can take. What would it

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<v Speaker 1>look like for you to apply the gospel to those.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, one thing that I love about the Gospel is

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<v Speaker 2>the incarnational nature of it and what I mean by that.

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<v Speaker 2>Jesus came, took on flesh and dwelt among us, and

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<v Speaker 2>we don't often think about what it took for Jesus

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<v Speaker 2>to humble himself on that level and to take on

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<v Speaker 2>flesh live amongst us for thirty years and we don't

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<v Speaker 2>have much of what he said. It wasn't his time

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<v Speaker 2>to highlight who he was, and he listened to our concerns.

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<v Speaker 2>He interacted, He understood what it was like to be us,

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<v Speaker 2>and in his understanding, now he's able to intercede for

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<v Speaker 2>us on a deep level. He is our high priest

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<v Speaker 2>because he can identify with the struggles that we have

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<v Speaker 2>and do navigate on a daily basis in a unique

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<v Speaker 2>way that he wasn't able to identify with before he

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<v Speaker 2>came to earth. And I think as that is what

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<v Speaker 2>this book is is very incarnational. It's like sitting with

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<v Speaker 2>people in their hurts telling them that I hurt too.

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<v Speaker 2>Jesus says, like through the Gospels we see that he

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<v Speaker 2>hurts too. He experiences anxieties, frustrations, has difficult conversations. And

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<v Speaker 2>so in this book that I show like the way

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<v Speaker 2>that you suffer, I suffer, and the way that you suffer,

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<v Speaker 2>Jesus suffer that he doesn't. He doesn't leave the comforts

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<v Speaker 2>of heaven to live this perfect life. He has a life.

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<v Speaker 2>He is perfectness. So don't get me wrong. He's without saying,

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<v Speaker 2>but his life is full of challenges. It's not just

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<v Speaker 2>the easy road. So he is sinless, but his life

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<v Speaker 2>still has challenges. And because if God doesn't escape challenges,

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<v Speaker 2>then us as humans will not like many other inflictions

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<v Speaker 2>of the righteous, the Lord will deliver us out of

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<v Speaker 2>them all. We don't escape suffering, but we do have

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<v Speaker 2>a suffering Savior that brings us comfort in our own suffering.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think that's what this book offers, that the

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<v Speaker 2>Gospel was a message that is not like where you

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<v Speaker 2>are escaping every hardship in this world. The gospel of

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<v Speaker 2>Jesus came and died experience deep suffering because he wanted

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<v Speaker 2>us to be reconciled back to the Father. And so

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<v Speaker 2>that their suffering isn't normal, that it is a suffering

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<v Speaker 2>the gospel message is that our Savior suffered, and so

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<v Speaker 2>because he suffered, we will suffer as well.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, people sometimes have the idea that when we're

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<v Speaker 1>talking about God, we're talking about a sort of remote deity.

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<v Speaker 1>Somehow he was like distant from the day to day

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<v Speaker 1>of your all my life, or especially from the really

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<v Speaker 1>dark valleys that we might walk through. In actual fact,

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<v Speaker 1>Christian message is that actually the God who made all

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<v Speaker 1>also died the most horrific death. Like that the suffering

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<v Speaker 1>of Jesus is at the center, as you were pointing out,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like at the center of the Christian message. And

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<v Speaker 1>into our suffering because actually that's like precisely what he did.

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<v Speaker 1>He carried all our our sicknesses and are sort of

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<v Speaker 1>that people I think people sometimes think, well, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>then like suffering came into my life, and now I

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<v Speaker 1>where that comes from, and that suffering can like really

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<v Speaker 1>deeply shake us. But at the same time, actually it's

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<v Speaker 1>like uh, running away from the one thing that gives

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<v Speaker 1>there walk us through a little bit, Lisa. I know

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<v Speaker 1>in your book you sort of break down different areas

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<v Speaker 1>of her that people might have experienced, and you sort

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<v Speaker 1>of group them together under some interesting framework. So I'd

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<v Speaker 1>love for you to give us just a sample of

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<v Speaker 2>So, I break it down our pain into seven categories. Personhood,

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<v Speaker 2>that's identity. Peace everybody's trying to find, especially in our

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<v Speaker 2>culture today, Peace, the pain, point of provision, like God,

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<v Speaker 2>will my needs be met? Pleasure? How can I experience joy?

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<v Speaker 2>Many people get into addictions because they're trying to find

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<v Speaker 2>some kind of pleasure in a life that is deeply painful. Purpose,

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<v Speaker 2>Why I am I hear? Protection? Like who will protect me?

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<v Speaker 2>In a life of challenge? Many people have experienced abuse

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<v Speaker 2>and they're like, why would a loving, all powerful God

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<v Speaker 2>allow this to happen? And then power. Sometimes people pursue

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<v Speaker 2>power because they felt so powerless, and they're like, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't want this pain to happen again, So let me

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<v Speaker 2>be in charge. Because if I'm in charge and I

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<v Speaker 2>can take control, then I can avoid painful experiences. Now

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<v Speaker 2>we know that's not the reality, but sometimes when we're traumatized,

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<v Speaker 2>we look for things to cope and try to free

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<v Speaker 2>ourselves from the hurt and the pain we're in. And

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<v Speaker 2>so those are the ways I frame it and break

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<v Speaker 2>down those pain points. And I love that they all

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<v Speaker 2>start with pee because I like but yeah, yeah, that

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<v Speaker 2>is some of the ways that I think has been

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<v Speaker 2>helpful to frame it for people. And it's a theme

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<v Speaker 2>that I've seen just in doing this work for many years.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and I know one of the ways in which

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<v Speaker 1>people have sometimes responded to the kinds of challenges that

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<v Speaker 1>you're you're highlighting there is by preaching essentially a kind

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<v Speaker 1>of prosperity gospel, like a aversion of Christianity, which says

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<v Speaker 1>like if you if you only have faith, if you

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<v Speaker 1>you know, put your trust in God, and maybe if

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<v Speaker 1>you like often also like if you if you start

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<v Speaker 1>giving enough money to your church or whatever, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>whatever it is, like, there are certain things you can

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<v Speaker 1>you can do that will then basically guarantee like you

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<v Speaker 1>will have health and prosperity and like bad stuff won't

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<v Speaker 1>happen to you anymore. So help us understand, like why

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<v Speaker 1>why do you think that that message can be attractive

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<v Speaker 1>to people? And how is it sort of very different

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<v Speaker 1>from a biblical understanding of what the message with Jesus is.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think it's attractive because it's like it's an

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<v Speaker 2>easy fix that we're all looking for easy fixes, and

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<v Speaker 2>it's a way to take control. Like people don't think

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<v Speaker 2>of the prosperity gospel as a way to hake control,

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<v Speaker 2>but I think it is in a sense of like

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<v Speaker 2>if I do this, this will happen. You kind of

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<v Speaker 2>get control. If I give enough, then I will have

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<v Speaker 2>this outcome. So it's a way to control my life

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<v Speaker 2>by doing good things. The problem is the person who

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<v Speaker 2>lived a sinless life suffered, and so he did everything right.

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<v Speaker 2>There was nothing wrong, no sin in him, and so

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<v Speaker 2>it is really biblically dishonest to look at the text

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<v Speaker 2>and say God will bless you whenever you pray, or

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<v Speaker 2>God will answer every prayer. Jesus in the garden said,

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<v Speaker 2>if it's possible, can you remove this cup from me?

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<v Speaker 2>Like he didn't want to suffer, but he understood, not

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<v Speaker 2>my will, but God will be done, that this was

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<v Speaker 2>the road that God had chosen for the salvation of humanity.

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<v Speaker 2>And so if he didn't escape it, why do we

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<v Speaker 2>think we will? And God is not even requiring did

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<v Speaker 2>eye on a cross from most of us. We will

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<v Speaker 2>never die on a cross, you know. But He is

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<v Speaker 2>requiring that we navigate difficult conversations, difficult difficult lives on

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<v Speaker 2>some level, and it's not every season. We have our

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<v Speaker 2>peaks and valleys, but we cannot escape difficulty. And I

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<v Speaker 2>think you know, in the Gospel message, we see like

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<v Speaker 2>the most the perfect person that lived suffered, and that

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<v Speaker 2>to me, that cancels out all prosperity teaching.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, yeah, yeah, And he told his followers to expect

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<v Speaker 1>that they would suffer as well, Like it's yeah, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I think people don't have this idea that like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>if God really loved me, he could not intend for

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<v Speaker 1>me to suffer. And yet I think when we open

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<v Speaker 1>you can pick up pretty much any book in the

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<v Speaker 1>Bible and find that that is not true. That actually

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<v Speaker 1>often the people who are serving God most faithfully are

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<v Speaker 1>the ones who are suffering the most. That we can't

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<v Speaker 1>like draw this kind of correlation between the suffering that

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<v Speaker 1>we experience and God's favor, which also, like on the

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<v Speaker 1>flip side of that means that the fact that someone's

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<v Speaker 1>suffering doesn't necessarily mean that they have like broadered on

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<v Speaker 1>themselves by a particular sin. I mean, I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>that's another way people can get caught up and misled

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<v Speaker 1>is just to feel like, oh, because you know this

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<v Speaker 1>thing is happening in my life, or because I'm having

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<v Speaker 1>this like particular health problem or whatever it is, like

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<v Speaker 1>that must be a sort of form of God's judgment

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<v Speaker 1>on me. When you know, Jesus is very clear when

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<v Speaker 1>he's asked that question directly about a man who is

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<v Speaker 1>born blind, like did this guy sin or his parents?

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<v Speaker 1>And Jesus is like, no, that's neither of those things,

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<v Speaker 1>So that the glory of God will be revealed. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like we can kind of fall into that trap

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<v Speaker 1>as well, in the midst of suffering, and that's not

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<v Speaker 1>the The answer that we're given in Christianity is actually

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<v Speaker 1>Jesus's death on a cross at the at the center

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<v Speaker 1>of everything. What would you say, Lisa, I know, when

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<v Speaker 1>when I sit down to write a book. They're often

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<v Speaker 1>like pieces of it that I already kind of know

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<v Speaker 1>exactly what I want to say, and other pieces is

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<v Speaker 1>where I sort of learned as I go along, or

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<v Speaker 1>like it's like I discover kind of what needs to

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<v Speaker 1>be said in the process of writing it. And I'm curious,

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<v Speaker 1>as you said, down to write this book, I know

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<v Speaker 1>it comes out of like years of experience and conversations

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<v Speaker 1>and sort of thinking that you've done. But what would

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<v Speaker 1>you say with the main things that you learned, what

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<v Speaker 1>was surprised by or kind of discovered in the process

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<v Speaker 1>of even writing a book like this?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so interesting. Left. When I first started writing this book,

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<v Speaker 2>I was writing it, I thought I was going to

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<v Speaker 2>write it to people to help them have conversations with

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<v Speaker 2>people in pain. That's how I went into it. When

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<v Speaker 2>I sent the proposal in, my friend challenged me. She said, Lisa,

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<v Speaker 2>you can't write about pain and not write about your own.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I was surprised at how vulnerable this book

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<v Speaker 2>turned out to be. Yeah, I'm a very private person

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<v Speaker 2>that I'm hiding anything. I'm just naturally a private person

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<v Speaker 2>and so but I felt like it was necessary for

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<v Speaker 2>me to come out my comfort zone because it was

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<v Speaker 2>necessary for a connection for people who have been traumatized

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<v Speaker 2>and experienced deep hurts, that they didn't need me to

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<v Speaker 2>talk at them, they needed me to talk with them.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think I learned how vulnerable I could be

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<v Speaker 2>in writing that I didn't anticipate when I first started

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I think that's that really resonates with my experience

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<v Speaker 1>as well. That I feel like, especially if we're writing

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<v Speaker 1>about the questions that are at the heart of human

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<v Speaker 1>experience and that really impact people's not just their sort

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<v Speaker 1>of theoretical ideas about things, but actually their their lived experience.

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<v Speaker 1>That I mean, I certainly feel like I need to

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<v Speaker 1>kind of put myself into my books for better not

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm like especially interesting or whatever, but just because, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>as you point out, you can more like sit alongside somebody.

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<v Speaker 1>But it is a weird and vulnerable thing. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I've found enough out there that you know,

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<v Speaker 1>people I've never met, know all sorts of stuff about

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<v Speaker 1>me that I you know, my closest friends and have

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<v Speaker 1>known like five years ago. It's set of slightly slightly alarming,

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<v Speaker 1>but feels, I think, feels ultimately worth it. If if

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<v Speaker 1>we're able to to meaningfully help or encourage any you know,

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<v Speaker 1>other brothers and sisters or people who who may have

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<v Speaker 1>once been part of churches or identified as Christian, and

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<v Speaker 1>there now thinking, do you know what I feel like,

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<v Speaker 1>I've just been too hard and I don't I don't

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<v Speaker 1>have the faith or hope or or motivation to continue.

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<v Speaker 1>If you were talking sort of directly now to somebody

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<v Speaker 1>in that position, Lisa, like maybe someone who grew up

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<v Speaker 1>part of a church, and then, for one reason or another,

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<v Speaker 1>has come to the conclusion that like, actually their faith

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<v Speaker 1>is disappointing them so much that they they don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to be a follower of Jesus anymore. They they want

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<v Speaker 1>to distance themselves, Like maybe there's some other way of

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<v Speaker 1>finding hope and meaning and purpose in this world. Would

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<v Speaker 1>you what would you want to say to that person

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<v Speaker 1>Nata listening to us now, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I would want to if I was sitting with them,

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<v Speaker 2>I would spend some time listening to them, but I

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<v Speaker 2>also would encourage them to wrestle with God. I end

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<v Speaker 2>each chapter with a prayer, and it's a real meant

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<v Speaker 2>to be a vulnerable prayer, like to help them frame

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<v Speaker 2>what wrestling with God looks like. In each pain point

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<v Speaker 2>and one of the prayers, I can't think of which

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<v Speaker 2>one is. Like God, I don't I don't even know

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<v Speaker 2>if you're truth, I mean, if you're read on anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if this is all made up. This

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<v Speaker 2>is like a figment of my imagination. But I'm going

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<v Speaker 2>to give you one more chance to prove yourself to me.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think going to God and saying laying all

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<v Speaker 2>your cards on the table, like I've just I'm so broken.

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<v Speaker 2>I have no idea if I should trust anything I've

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<v Speaker 2>It all just seems made up to me. Your people

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<v Speaker 2>don't seem to actually really practice what they preach. And

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<v Speaker 2>I've been so devastated by hurts and traumas in my

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<v Speaker 2>life that I see no way that this is true,

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<v Speaker 2>that you love me, that you're there and laying all

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<v Speaker 2>your cards on the table to God. I think it's

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<v Speaker 2>one of the most transformative things we can do. Several

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<v Speaker 2>years ago, a little over two years ago, I implement

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<v Speaker 2>laying it all out, and the transformative thing that's happened

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<v Speaker 2>in my heart through that, the hurts and frustration and

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<v Speaker 2>feeling like God, I don't want to do this anymore,

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<v Speaker 2>all have been helped in those moments where I'm wrestling

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<v Speaker 2>with God. And I believe that God meets us in

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<v Speaker 2>our honesty in deep, profound ways. And so I would

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<v Speaker 2>just challenge those who are on the fence and walk

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<v Speaker 2>away to lay all your cards on the table before God,

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<v Speaker 2>even if you're like am I talking to an imaginary person?

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<v Speaker 2>Give God a chance to help you wrestle through all

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<v Speaker 2>your frustrations with him. And sometimes we have so much

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<v Speaker 2>bottled up because we can't. We're like, I can't tell

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<v Speaker 2>God this, He'll strike me down if I vent to him.

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<v Speaker 2>I tell him that I don't like him, or I'm

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<v Speaker 2>mad at him, or I resent him. But he's he's

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<v Speaker 2>able to handle all of those things. I remember I

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<v Speaker 2>was in the therapy session two years ago when I

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<v Speaker 2>was in deep like no, this was actually twenty twenty

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<v Speaker 2>into twenty twenty, maybe going into twenty twenty one, just

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<v Speaker 2>frustrated so much. It happened losing my mentor my grandfather,

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<v Speaker 2>just being overwhelmed by ministry and not having structure a

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<v Speaker 2>devotional life like I needed to because I was overworking

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<v Speaker 2>and I just burned out. And I remember in therapy,

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<v Speaker 2>my therapy said how do you feel about God? And

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<v Speaker 2>I said, I resent Him? And the words ran out

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<v Speaker 2>of my mouth faster than I could catch him. And

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<v Speaker 2>the more I started to process that with the Lord,

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<v Speaker 2>the freer I became. And so I think that we

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes just have so much pent up frustration towards God,

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<v Speaker 2>not towards we have been a frustration towards the people God,

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<v Speaker 2>but we don't often realize how much pin up frustration

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<v Speaker 2>we have towards God. And this book, I believe, gives

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<v Speaker 2>people the freedom and to wrestle with Him on the

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<v Speaker 2>things that He's allowed in our lives that we don't like.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's interesting hearing you talk about that. It's making

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<v Speaker 1>me think of a number of the psalms where David

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<v Speaker 1>often is crying out to the Lord. And sometimes it's

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<v Speaker 1>in ways where you sort of think, oh, like David

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<v Speaker 1>should have kind of cleaned that up before he before

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<v Speaker 1>he prayed that prayer, or and certainly before it ever

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<v Speaker 1>made its way into the Bible. You know, if David's saying, like, Lord,

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<v Speaker 1>where are you? What are you doing? Why aren't you

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<v Speaker 1>helping me? Have you forgotten me? Like I think you

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<v Speaker 1>have forgot like the crying out that comes from from

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<v Speaker 1>desperation and her and that we are we're given words

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<v Speaker 1>in the scriptures to like voice that that actually I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in a I think one of the things I'd encourage

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<v Speaker 1>someone to do is like pick up the Book of

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<v Speaker 1>Psalms and start reading, because you'll see you'll see a

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<v Speaker 1>whole lot of help of hope and praise to God

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<v Speaker 1>and join God's salvation. And you'll see a whole lot

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<v Speaker 1>of pain and frustration and like doubt and crying out

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<v Speaker 1>and not knowing and confusion and like all all the

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<v Speaker 1>things feeling submerged and drowning, and like your enemies are

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<v Speaker 1>just winning all the time, and how can this be?

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<v Speaker 1>How can this be happening? If if you're following the Lord,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think sometimes seeing those words, you know, literally

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<v Speaker 1>slap bang in the middle of the Bible. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>if you open your Bible, if you grab a Bible

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<v Speaker 1>and seat of open it up right in the middle,

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<v Speaker 1>you're probably in the Book of Psalms and seeing some

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<v Speaker 1>of that and to be like, oh, it's not that

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<v Speaker 1>that relating to the Lord ends there, but that actually

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<v Speaker 1>it's we can't hide anything from Jesus anyway, So like

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<v Speaker 1>pretending that we can, and like nursing feelings or thoughts

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<v Speaker 1>that is if as if he doesn't already see them

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<v Speaker 1>as is foolish. But really to to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>say like, this is where I am, this is how

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<v Speaker 1>I'm feeling, this is I don't understand, I'm struggling to

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<v Speaker 1>believe and crying out in the midst of that, I

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<v Speaker 1>think is yeah, kind of can can help us come unstuck?

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<v Speaker 1>I guess And if we're if we felt stuck in

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<v Speaker 1>faith at least it's been a joy to chat with

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<v Speaker 1>you and hear some more about your your work since

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<v Speaker 1>I think it was was it two years ago that

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<v Speaker 1>we first And if you're someone listening to this and

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<v Speaker 1>some of what Lisa said as especially resonated with you,

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<v Speaker 1>grab a copy of her book, When Faith Disappoints the

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<v Speaker 1>gap between what we believe and what we experience. You

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<v Speaker 1>could also check out Jude three project online if if

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<v Speaker 1>you wanted to get connected with some of the resources

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<v Speaker 1>that have been developed there. You guys have been listening

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<v Speaker 1>to the Confriendly Christianity Podcast. You can follow us on Twitter,

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<v Speaker 1>you'd love for us to explore in future, or even

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<v Speaker 1>a guest that you'd love to for me to chat

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<v Speaker 1>with in future, And especially if you're someone today who

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<v Speaker 1>is feeling some of the pain that Lisa has been referencing,

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<v Speaker 1>feeling some of the disappointment, and that I will pray

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<v Speaker 1>for you this week. I don't know your name, but

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<v Speaker 1>Jesus does, and I would love to just spend some

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<v Speaker 1>time this week praying for you, guys.
