1 00:00:09,480 --> 00:00:12,720 Speaker 1: The zipper on my denim skirt felt louder than it 2 00:00:12,759 --> 00:00:17,000 should have, a metallic shriek. In the silence of my bedroom. 3 00:00:17,079 --> 00:00:21,239 At one in the morning, I froze, held my breath, 4 00:00:21,719 --> 00:00:25,160 listened for the creak of floorboards in the hallway, the 5 00:00:25,199 --> 00:00:30,239 shuffle of my parents' footsteps. Nothing, just the hum of 6 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:35,159 the refrigerator downstairs, and the distant bark of a neighbor's dog. 7 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:39,640 I pulled the skirt up over my hips, wriggling into 8 00:00:39,679 --> 00:00:44,479 the tight fabric. The black crop top came next, a 9 00:00:44,560 --> 00:00:47,880 little thing I'd bought three weeks ago and hidden in 10 00:00:47,920 --> 00:00:51,880 the back of my closet, still smelling faintly of the mall. 11 00:00:52,439 --> 00:00:56,840 I'd been planning this night since my eighteenth birthday, fourteen 12 00:00:56,960 --> 00:01:02,320 days of imagining, fourteen nights of touching myself with one 13 00:01:02,359 --> 00:01:05,680 hand over my mouth while I thought about what might 14 00:01:05,799 --> 00:01:11,799 happen inside those doors. The club was called ven. I'd 15 00:01:11,840 --> 00:01:15,239 overheard two girls in the coffee shop talking about it 16 00:01:15,359 --> 00:01:21,000 in hushed, giggling tones. Everyone there is so free, one 17 00:01:21,040 --> 00:01:24,519 of them had said, and the phrase had lodged itself 18 00:01:24,560 --> 00:01:28,200 in my brain like a splinter. I couldn't work loose. 19 00:01:29,719 --> 00:01:34,319 My window slid open without protest. I'd greased the tracks 20 00:01:34,359 --> 00:01:38,280 with cooking spray the afternoon before. The drop from the 21 00:01:38,359 --> 00:01:42,920 porch roof to the lawn was maybe six feet, I'd measured, 22 00:01:43,239 --> 00:01:46,799 and my converse made barely a sound. When I landed, 23 00:01:47,200 --> 00:01:51,560 crouched and already running through the dark, the uber smelled 24 00:01:51,680 --> 00:01:56,680 like vanilla air freshener and someone else's cologne. The driver 25 00:01:56,840 --> 00:02:00,879 didn't speak. I watched the street lights slush across my 26 00:02:01,000 --> 00:02:06,200 thighs and thought about turning back. I didn't turn back. 27 00:02:07,640 --> 00:02:12,120 Then was tucked between a laundromat and a boarded up pawnshop, 28 00:02:12,319 --> 00:02:15,800 its entrance marked only by a red bulb above an 29 00:02:15,919 --> 00:02:20,360 unmarked steel door. The bouncer, a woman with a shaved 30 00:02:20,400 --> 00:02:23,479 head and a neck tattoo of a scorpion, looked at 31 00:02:23,520 --> 00:02:26,919 my id for a long time before nodding me through. 32 00:02:27,879 --> 00:02:33,159 First time, my voice came out a whisper. Yeah. She smiled. 33 00:02:33,439 --> 00:02:38,639 The smile was knowing, predatory, almost maternal. They're going to 34 00:02:38,759 --> 00:02:42,759 love you. The hallway beyond the door was black painted 35 00:02:42,800 --> 00:02:46,439 and narrow, music vibrating so deep I felt it in 36 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:50,360 my molars. Then the hallway opened into a room, and 37 00:02:50,400 --> 00:02:55,919 the room opened into a world bodies everywhere, couches in 38 00:02:56,080 --> 00:03:01,159 dark leather, low tables, curtains of red velvet partitioning off 39 00:03:01,199 --> 00:03:06,759 alcoves where shapes moved together in half shadow. The lighting 40 00:03:06,960 --> 00:03:10,719 was amber and bruise purple. A woman in a harness 41 00:03:10,759 --> 00:03:14,560 of black straps walked past, leading a man on a leash, 42 00:03:14,719 --> 00:03:19,319 and nobody stared. And that's when I realized nobody was 43 00:03:19,360 --> 00:03:22,919 going to stare at me either, not unless I wanted 44 00:03:22,919 --> 00:03:27,360 them to. But I wanted them to. I stepped further in. 45 00:03:28,240 --> 00:03:32,439 The music was something with a slow grinding beat, and 46 00:03:32,560 --> 00:03:37,520 my hip started moving without permission. A man looked up 47 00:03:37,520 --> 00:03:41,439 from the couch to my left, forties, maybe with salt 48 00:03:41,520 --> 00:03:44,800 and pepper stubble, and eyes that caught the light, and 49 00:03:44,879 --> 00:03:49,199 his gaze traveled my body like a hand. Well, hello, 50 00:03:49,680 --> 00:03:54,240 he said. His voice was low textured. Just what I've 51 00:03:54,240 --> 00:03:59,520 been looking for? Fresh meat, he said, I should have 52 00:03:59,560 --> 00:04:04,159 been a fan instead. Something hot unspooled in my stomach. 53 00:04:05,039 --> 00:04:08,280 First time he asked, and I realized I'd been asked 54 00:04:08,280 --> 00:04:13,560 that twice in ten minutes. Yeah, he stood. He was 55 00:04:13,639 --> 00:04:17,839 taller than i'd expected, broad shouldered, wearing a charcoal button 56 00:04:17,959 --> 00:04:21,240 up with the sleeves rolled to the elbows. I'm Paul. 57 00:04:22,319 --> 00:04:25,639 He extended a hand, and when I took it, he 58 00:04:25,720 --> 00:04:31,879 didn't shake. He held his thumb traced my knuckles. You're 59 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:35,199 going to get a lot of attention tonight. A woman 60 00:04:35,240 --> 00:04:40,759 appeared beside him, older fifties, perhaps, with silver streaked hair 61 00:04:41,000 --> 00:04:45,000 and lipstick the color of dried blood. Her dress was 62 00:04:45,120 --> 00:04:49,279 sheer and left nothing to the imagination. She cuped my 63 00:04:49,399 --> 00:04:54,240 chin and turned my face toward hers. Look at this one, 64 00:04:54,279 --> 00:04:58,959 She murmured, The things I could teach you. I opened 65 00:04:58,959 --> 00:05:02,240 my mouth to speak, but Paul's hand had moved to 66 00:05:02,279 --> 00:05:05,319 the small of my back, and the woman's hand was 67 00:05:05,360 --> 00:05:09,199 on my hip. And three more people had materialized from 68 00:05:09,240 --> 00:05:13,920 the shadows. A younger man with sleeve tattoos, a curvy 69 00:05:14,000 --> 00:05:17,560 woman in a latex body suit, another man with a 70 00:05:17,600 --> 00:05:23,560 shaved head and a runner's build. They encircled me, slowly, deliberately, 71 00:05:23,879 --> 00:05:27,519 the way water closes around a stone. You want to play, 72 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:31,560 Paul asked, his lips close to my ear. Say no, 73 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:37,040 and we back off. No hard feelings. Everyone here respects boundaries. 74 00:05:37,959 --> 00:05:41,360 I looked at the circle of faces. I'd never felt 75 00:05:41,399 --> 00:05:47,040 so wanted, so seen so completely. The center of gravity yes, 76 00:05:47,560 --> 00:05:51,600 I said, I want to. The alcove had a large 77 00:05:51,639 --> 00:05:56,360 circular bed and walls draped in crimson fabric. Someone dimmed 78 00:05:56,360 --> 00:05:59,959 the lights further. Someone else handed me a glass of wine, 79 00:06:00,519 --> 00:06:04,240 which I drank in three gulps. Then hands were on me, 80 00:06:04,839 --> 00:06:09,720 too many to count, too many to track. The latex woman, 81 00:06:10,199 --> 00:06:15,560 Mara I'd learn, unclasped my skirt with practiced fingers, while 82 00:06:15,600 --> 00:06:19,240 the silver haired woman tugged my crop top over my head. 83 00:06:19,839 --> 00:06:24,160 Cool air hit my nipples and they tightened instantly, drawing 84 00:06:24,199 --> 00:06:28,480 a low laugh from Paul. Eager little thing, he said, 85 00:06:29,079 --> 00:06:33,199 look at those. The tattooed man knelt behind me, his 86 00:06:33,319 --> 00:06:40,600 breath hot on my shoulder blades. What's your name, sweetheart, Cassie? 87 00:06:40,800 --> 00:06:46,519 The word came out, fractured, Cassie, he repeated, tasting it 88 00:06:47,279 --> 00:06:51,399 pretty name for a pretty slut. The word hit me 89 00:06:51,560 --> 00:06:55,199 like a slap. It should have stung, but instead it 90 00:06:55,319 --> 00:07:00,600 pooled warmth between my thighs. My breath caught. Paul noticed, 91 00:07:01,439 --> 00:07:04,800 Oh she likes that, he said, tilting my chin up. 92 00:07:05,600 --> 00:07:10,560 Say it again, filthy little slut. The tattooed man whispered, 93 00:07:10,600 --> 00:07:14,879 against my spine. You came here to get used didn't 94 00:07:14,920 --> 00:07:18,360 you to get filled up by strangers until you can't 95 00:07:18,399 --> 00:07:24,399 walk straight. I couldn't form words. I nodded. Mara pushed 96 00:07:24,399 --> 00:07:27,879 me onto the bed, and the silver haired woman, Claire, 97 00:07:28,560 --> 00:07:32,720 straddled my face before I could orient myself. Her scent 98 00:07:33,000 --> 00:07:37,120 was musk and salt, and her thighs pressed against my ears, 99 00:07:37,360 --> 00:07:41,240 muffling the music to a distant throb. Show me what 100 00:07:41,279 --> 00:07:45,160 that mouth can do, baby girl, she said, lowering herself 101 00:07:45,199 --> 00:07:49,600 onto my lips. Make me proud. I'd never been with 102 00:07:49,680 --> 00:07:55,160 a woman before. My tongue moved awkwardly at first, searching, probing, 103 00:07:55,519 --> 00:07:59,560 until Claire's hand fisted in my hair and guided me there, 104 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:05,600 right there, don't stop eat that old cunt. Good use slut. Meanwhile, 105 00:08:05,959 --> 00:08:10,120 other things were happening to my body. A mouth closed 106 00:08:10,160 --> 00:08:15,319 around my left nipple, Paul's mouth, I recognized. His stubble. 107 00:08:15,879 --> 00:08:19,720 Fingers pushed inside me two or three I couldn't tell, 108 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,399 and they curled upward in a way that made my 109 00:08:22,600 --> 00:08:27,040 vision spark. The tattooed man had my right hand wrapped 110 00:08:27,079 --> 00:08:31,319 around his cock, guiding my strokes, teaching me his rhythm. 111 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:37,320 You're dripping, Paul observed, his voice thick with amusement. He 112 00:08:37,399 --> 00:08:41,480 lifted his head from my breast. The carpets soaked, and 113 00:08:41,559 --> 00:08:45,879 she's only been here five minutes. Boys, I think we 114 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:53,639 found an insatiable one. Laughter rippled through the group, not cruel, laughter, appreciative, 115 00:08:54,360 --> 00:08:58,840 like they'd discovered something valuable. Claire came on my mouth 116 00:08:58,960 --> 00:09:03,240 with a sharp cry, her thighs clenching, and I swallowed 117 00:09:03,399 --> 00:09:07,799 everything she gave me. When she dismounted, my face was 118 00:09:07,879 --> 00:09:11,480 slick from chin to nose, and Paul leaned down to 119 00:09:11,600 --> 00:09:15,200 lick a stripe across my cheek. Tastes good on you, 120 00:09:15,759 --> 00:09:19,840 he said. Now, let's see what else that mouth can do. 121 00:09:21,279 --> 00:09:26,440 What followed was ours, at least it felt like ours time, 122 00:09:26,559 --> 00:09:31,600 and then moved differently, syrupy and distorted, marked only by 123 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:34,559 the rhythm of bodies and the wet sounds of sex. 124 00:09:35,360 --> 00:09:37,960 Paul positioned me at the edge of the bed, so 125 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:41,600 I was on my knees, face height, with the crotches 126 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:46,200 of whoever stood before me. You're going to suck every 127 00:09:46,320 --> 00:09:50,879 cock in this room tonight, he told me, his tone casual, 128 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:54,960 like he was assigning chores, and you're going to thank 129 00:09:55,000 --> 00:10:00,480 them for using you. The tattooed man was first grasped 130 00:10:00,519 --> 00:10:03,720 my jaw and fed himself into my mouth, pushing past 131 00:10:03,799 --> 00:10:08,679 my lips until I gagged. Relax your throat, Claire coached 132 00:10:08,720 --> 00:10:13,399 from somewhere behind me. Breathe through your nose. I tried. 133 00:10:14,000 --> 00:10:16,840 Tears streamed down my cheeks, but I didn't pull away. 134 00:10:17,440 --> 00:10:21,000 Look at me, the tattooed man commanded, and I tilted 135 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:24,120 my eyes up. He held my gaze as he fucked 136 00:10:24,120 --> 00:10:29,080 my face with slow, punishing strokes. That's it, Take it, 137 00:10:29,720 --> 00:10:33,159 take all of it. When he came, it was with 138 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:36,279 a guttural groan, and the salt bitter heat of it 139 00:10:36,399 --> 00:10:40,159 filled my mouth. I held it on my tongue, unsure 140 00:10:40,399 --> 00:10:45,279 until Paul's voice cut through. Don't swallow yet. He cupped 141 00:10:45,279 --> 00:10:50,679 my chin, tilted my head back and kissed me deeply, filthily, 142 00:10:51,279 --> 00:10:54,720 his tongue plunging into my mouth and swirling through the 143 00:10:54,799 --> 00:10:59,120 mess there. He pulled back with a wet sound. Share 144 00:10:59,159 --> 00:11:03,559 it with me, he said, and I understood. He wanted 145 00:11:03,600 --> 00:11:07,200 me to pass the com back and forth between our mouths. 146 00:11:07,919 --> 00:11:11,799 We did it time and time again that night, different men, 147 00:11:12,159 --> 00:11:16,600 different women too. Mara had a strap on. She called Veronica, 148 00:11:17,000 --> 00:11:19,799 and she made me choke on it, while Paul kissed 149 00:11:19,840 --> 00:11:24,360 the tears from my cheeks. Each time someone new spilled 150 00:11:24,399 --> 00:11:27,960 onto my tongue, and each time Paul was there to 151 00:11:28,039 --> 00:11:32,720 kiss me afterward, to taste what they'd left behind. You're 152 00:11:32,840 --> 00:11:38,080 my favorite, he whispered, his lips, brushing mine, sticky and warm, 153 00:11:39,039 --> 00:11:45,120 my perfect little cumbucket. The words should have horrified me. Instead, 154 00:11:45,360 --> 00:11:49,720 I pressed my thighs together and moaned. Someone else's cock 155 00:11:49,960 --> 00:11:55,440 was already waiting. I don't remember leaving. Then the details 156 00:11:55,519 --> 00:11:59,720 dissolve into static. The uber ride with my skirt on backward, 157 00:12:00,159 --> 00:12:03,799 the climb back through my window, The way my thighs 158 00:12:03,840 --> 00:12:07,840 trembled so badly I nearly slipped off the porch roof. 159 00:12:08,639 --> 00:12:12,039 My bed sheets were cool and clean, and I crawled 160 00:12:12,080 --> 00:12:16,559 into them without showering, still tacky with dried sweat and 161 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:21,759 other things. Sleep hit like a freight train. Morning arrived 162 00:12:21,840 --> 00:12:26,039 too bright and too loud. My alarm blared at seven, 163 00:12:26,360 --> 00:12:30,919 and I dragged myself upright, wincing at tenderness in places 164 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:34,639 I didn't know could be tender. The mirror showed a 165 00:12:34,679 --> 00:12:38,679 girl with tangled hair, bruised lips, and a faint mark 166 00:12:38,759 --> 00:12:42,759 on her collar bone that I couldn't explain. I covered 167 00:12:42,799 --> 00:12:47,320 it with concealer and hoped for the best. College was 168 00:12:47,360 --> 00:12:53,320 a blur. My first class introduction to English literature was 169 00:12:53,360 --> 00:12:56,039 in a lecture hall on the third floor of the 170 00:12:56,120 --> 00:12:59,960 Humanity's Building. I slid into a seat near the bed, 171 00:13:00,759 --> 00:13:03,799 rested my head on my palm, and waited for the 172 00:13:03,879 --> 00:13:10,120 professor to appear. The door opened. A man walked in charcoal, 173 00:13:10,200 --> 00:13:15,000 button up sleeves, rolled to the elbows, salt and pepper, 174 00:13:15,120 --> 00:13:19,960 stubble eyes that caught the light. He set his briefcase 175 00:13:20,039 --> 00:13:24,159 on the lectern, scanned the room, and stopped when he 176 00:13:24,240 --> 00:13:29,919 found my face. His expression didn't falter. The smile that 177 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:35,399 spread across his features was slow, deliberate, and devastatingly familiar. 178 00:13:36,639 --> 00:13:40,840 Class he announced, his voice carrying to every corner of 179 00:13:40,879 --> 00:13:45,039 the silent hall, the voice that had whispered filth into 180 00:13:45,080 --> 00:13:49,679 my ear twelve hours ago. I'm your new teacher, mister Keenan. 181 00:13:50,480 --> 00:13:54,000 He held my gaze, and I think we're all going 182 00:13:54,039 --> 00:14:03,399 to get on splendidly, blendidly. I hoped you enjoyed today's 183 00:14:03,639 --> 00:14:08,200 sexy story. If you love this podcast, leave an Apple review, 184 00:14:08,639 --> 00:14:11,720 Share what sexy fantasies you want to hear. Maybe we 185 00:14:11,759 --> 00:14:15,399 can make your dirty dreams come true. See you soon.