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Speaker 1: Welcome to Hell. It's me Satan. Uh well, well, well,

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welcome back, Bestie's it's your mother. I'm here once again.

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We made it through what was arguably one of the

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hardest weeks of my life, very tough. Yesterday I had

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a birthday, which is kind of fun. The Internet has

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my birthday wrong, by the way, a few of you

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have come out been like we have the same birthday.

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The internet thinks I was moored on like August fifteenth,

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that's on my birthday. It's April twenty eighth. But anyway,

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you guys, before I happened to the episode, I need

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to promote these two shows because if people don't come

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to these shows and nobody's ever gonna let me on

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a stage again, and then I'm gonna have to quit

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comedy and then I'm gonna have to start prostitution. And

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that's somehow gonna all be your fault. So I have

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Raleigh on June seventeenth, and I have Nashville on June eighteenth.

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Please come see me. Tickets are on my site at

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Britney Schmidt dot com b ri I T T A

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N Y s C H M I T T dot

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com for tickets Okay, you guys, what a week. What

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a week. I'm so excited to be here with you.

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Happy Monday. The world is falling apart all around us,

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but we're gonna act like it's not. We're gonna ki

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ki for an hour and hang out. I'm gonna tell

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you guys about my birthday. It was very chill, very

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low key. Obviously, I was still very sad about Biggie,

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so I didn't do much. My sister flew in and

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we went to this little crab shack and Stuart called Krabby's,

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and we just ate all of the crab that we

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could possibly eat with our bare hands. I eat crabs

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like a fucking savage. I have butter running down my

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fucking arms. I'm one of the ones that puts a

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bib on. I put a bib on because crab shrapnel

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is flying everywhere. Nobody is safe around me when I'm

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eating crab. It is my favorite food. And I don't

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know what happened to crab during the pandemic, where all

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of a sudden is like a bazillion dollars. Do you

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guys remember when crab used to be like kind of

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expensive at a steakhouse, But It wasn't a bazillion dollars.

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It wasn't every US dollar you've ever made in your

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entire life. This place Crabby and Stewart. They do crab

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for two for one hundred dollars. The amount of crab

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that you get it would be, like, I'm not joking,

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one thousand dollars at a steakhouse. It is unbelievable. If

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you guys live in Florida and you're anywhere near Stewart,

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it's like this little sleepy, little fishing village and the

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crab is amazing. So we went there did that. I

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went with Max and my sister, and then my friend

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Paige who lives here, and my friend Eva, who I've

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made living here. So we just had like a nice, little,

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very chill dinner, like I went in sweatpants. And then

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the next day okay, so now my yes birthday was

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two days ago, so the next day we went fishing.

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Yesterday we went fishing. It was so fun. We had

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a perfect day. The water was so calm. Did we

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have some happy cabs mushrooms? Yes we did. And did

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I find out my sister's way cooler than I thought she? Yes?

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I did, because every time I was like, do you

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want this? Do you do this? She's like yeah, She's like,

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I'm a scientist. She's like, I work in a lab.

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She's like, I have friends who make like you know,

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so obviously we're all out here eating silicybin, mushroom caps whatever.

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My sister works in a lab. She's like, I had

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a guy make the whatever it's called she called. She

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told me the exact rivet above it Sillicen, Sillsen, whatever.

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I don't know. You can find it on the internet

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or in my sister's brain, but not in mine. She's like, yeah,

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I have like tripped balls before, and I was like,

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who the fuck are you? I was like, are you

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the coolest person ever? And you're just like not letting

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me know because my sister's like, she's great, but she's

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so much different than me. She's very like rigid and

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buy the book and like our whole life. Was like

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very much a rule follower and would like wrap me

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out if I didn't follow the rules. So now that like,

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I don't know, I'm like forgetting that we're almost forty

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and we're like grown to fuck and we're not, you know,

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tattling on each other. Anymore. It was always hurt just

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tattling on me. I never had anything to tattle on

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her about because she was such a good stewed in.

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But no, she's like, I've done that. Yeah, it's like

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I'm down. And then the girl on the boat had

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edibles and they were ten milligrams, so it's like, Heather,

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you cannot take that. You will lose it. And she's like, pretty,

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I take this all the time. I have migraines and

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it helps with my migraines. And I'm just like, oh

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my god, if I took ten milligrams, I would lose

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my mind. I was like, are you the fucking party

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rock sister? And I'm the nerd narc? Now, maybe maybe

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the tables have motherfucking turned And that's what happens. That's

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what happens in life. Goes on long enough, and everybody

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just changes their whole entire personality and they become different

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people and then you're like, WHOA, this version's way cooler.

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So we had the best day. We were on the water.

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we were just on the water and it was so

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nice and we were literally out there from eight thirty

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until two, and then on our ride end, we're like,

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let's just troll on the way and we had only

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caught three bonita fish and they're beautiful, but they're not

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good to eat because they're super bloody. And I'm like,

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I'm not gonna like drain a fish. You know, that's crazy.

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If you're gonna eat a fish, you should be able

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to just like fill ay it and listen. You guys

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probably don't know this about me. Well maybe you do.

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I'm a little bit outdoorsy, like I can filet a fish.

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I know my way around a filet knife all right,

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but I don't know much about about ocean fishing or

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deep sea fishing at all. But they were teaching me

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about bonita fish and they said that they're really tough

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and they're also very bloody, so you have to like

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drain them, and even when you do drain them, they're

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not great. So they're beautiful and they were like fun

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to catch, but nothing to write home about. But then

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on the way in, we caught a big mahi mahi,

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which was very exciting. My sister reeled it in. She

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lives in Wisconsin, so I was like, I'm gonna go

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more often, like I had so much fun. But yeah,

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she lived in Wisconsin. Lives in Wisconsin, so I was like,

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let her land the big one, and she did and

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it was really nice and really fun and we had

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a great time. And now I'm in my sweats and

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I'm hustling to give you guys a podcast before I

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leave for the weekend because I'm going to Chicago and

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Toronto to do shows with Reina Greenberg which are going

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to be so much fun, and by the time this

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is out, they will be over. But just know I'm

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on the road with her the following week two. Also,

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I'm doing the Boston and New York shows. I know

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there's some tickets still for the late show at the

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Grammercy Theater, so please come to that. And also, you guys,

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since you might be on YouTube already, and if you're not,

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you can click over there if you could do me

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a big favor and go to my Don't Tell set.

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Don't Tell, just release a set. I think I told

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you bye you guys about this when I filmed it.

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I mean, it is a It is a colossal bomb,

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Like if I wasn't a dead pan comic and you

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guys were able to see how how much I was

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panicking during that set. I would have been I would

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have been sweating like shack at the foul line if

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I didn't know that we could fix it. In edits,

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I was like baby Girls in her Bag. I was

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like that set was supposed to be twelve minutes long.

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It was eight minutes long because nobody laughed at anything.

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But if you guys could go watch it and give

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it a little love and push it up in the

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algorithm and share it if you can, don't tell is

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just an amazing platform. I want you guys to know

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about it anyway. They highlight all of the up and

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coming voices in comedy and you will be able to

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find some of the best comedians you've never heard about

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on there. And they have a great YouTube. So go

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subscribe to that and watch my set, click it, like it,

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comment on it because we want to like push it

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up in the algorithm because they do put out so

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many sets that it can get a little lost. But

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I would love for you guys to see it in

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comment and let me know what you think of it,

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and then just know behind the scenes, Mama bombed. Okay,

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they did fix it. You know. Here's the thing, you guys.

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Movie magic. It can make it look good when it

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wasn't good. Like I've seen people bomb irl, like hosting

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Saturday Night Live, and then once it comes out on

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Saturday Night Live site, it's all like laughing and it

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sounds like they crushed, and I'm like, that's very different

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than the experience we all had in the room. So

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it's movie magic, you know. And and for me, thank

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God for that, because a lot of times Mama will

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sit up there and eat a dick and I just

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have to not ma Mama, like this is what I

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was born for.

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Speaker 1: And then people are like in my comment and this,

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I caught a few strays I always do. People are

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always gonna call me a whore. They're like, she's ran

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through someone, guys, like I can smell her uti from here,

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and I was like, ken, you, it wasn't supposed to

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go through the screen. But that's why I was wearing

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a short dress because I needed to air it out.

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mean to you on the internet. And I'm like, yeah,

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welcome to hell, dude, Like, welcome to my whole entire existence. Anyway,

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I'm a little fuzzy today. I'm a little bit fuzzy today,

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but I'm here. Okay, So you guys wigged out at

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me last week, rightfully, so, because you guys, when I

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do this podcast, I am just I didn't know I

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had ADHD until I started doing solo podcasting, and then

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like tangents and rants and then I forget like my

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original thought. And I can't tell you how many scathing

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dms I got. I'm just kidding there and scathing. They're

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all very nice. You guys are so nice, but so

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many of you are Like you were supposed to tell

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us what we're doing for Skincare, that you're doing, and

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then you just went on a rant about how collagen

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topical collagen is a hoax, and then you told us

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not to use metacube, and then you fell off the

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deep end. Okay, I'm gonna tell you what I'm using it, and

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I'm also gonna tell you I'm experimenting a lot right now,

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so I'm finding things that work and things that don't work.

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And here's what you guys are seeing on my skin

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when I podcast that you need. And you're gonna be

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so happy to hear this. It is a cheapy, cheapy

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product that I am loving. Okay, it's called Lorel hang

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out Weight. I wrote it down Lorirel Loomy Glotian, Loriel

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Loomy Glocian. It is an illuminating glocian lotion. That's it.

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I'm not wearing makeup. This is just a Glocian and

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we love that name. Lorel Glotian. Don't use the metaicube.

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I've tried it, and here's the thing. I was so

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happy I had it yesterday because I didn't have any

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aloe in the house and I got Mama God sun burned.

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Like I really was applying SPF to my neck and

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face because that's the money maker. And I forgot about

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like forty percent of the rest of my body, Like

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my upper thighs look like Ahi tuo u. They look

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like bonita fish cut open, Like I'm like, are they

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gonna start bleeding or blistering or what's gonna go on?

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Because I was in the hot Florida sun for like

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eight hours. That's not the right math, but you know

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what I mean. And I was freaking out, and then

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I put the metacube all over my body and I

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it might not be good for you know, skincare, but

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after the fucking boat, you know. Okay, So no metacube,

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don't need it. Maybe that's just me personally. It made

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you know, you want your skincare to feel like nothing,

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like it's doing something, but also that like nothing is there.

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I felt like I had a plastic bag over my head.

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And while that makes me come, I you know, I

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don't need that for skincare. That's not what I need

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for skincare. Okay. So here's what else that I found

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that I am loving and I'm freaking out about. And

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it's cheap, and it's been around forever for a bazillion years.

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It's Korean skincare, but it's called Medeca Cream, m Adeca Cream,

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Medeca Cream. It's like thirty three bottles for a tube.

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I bought like four tubes because I tried one I saw.

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I'm like, I got into some corner of the internet

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where everyone's like, I wish I knew about this years ago.

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It's reverse aging. It makes your skin glow. It's and

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I'm always so skeptical. I'm like, Okay, it can't be that.

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It is that great. It is more than that great.

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It is unbelievable. I use it head to tits twice

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a day, and because it's so cheap, I don't feel

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bad about using so much of it, you know, when

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you're using something like a skinseuticles, which used to be

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by the way, that used to be my bread and butter.

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I loved that shit, and it is so nice. It

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is top of the line, but it's so fucking expensive.

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You're like, can I afford to even cover every square

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inch of my face? Or should I just do the

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problem areas? Or is everything a problem area? Is my

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whole face a problem area? I need to call the

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but beauty broker. But anyway, you feel no guilt about this. Okay,

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So in terms of serums and vitamin C, you do

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want to use vitamin C once a day. You want

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to use that in the morning. That will help with

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skin rejuvenation. And you know something else that my sister

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told me about, but I forgot hang on, it might

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be on my text. I think she texted me about it.

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Dana Naana.

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Speaker 3: No.

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Speaker 1: I just convinced her to get an iPhone, which is

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a really big day because she's been a Samsung Giry

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for a long time. Which why why, oh why?

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Speaker 2: You know?

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Speaker 1: Okay, my sister did say use She said, tell people

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to take vitamin C because it boosts college information. So

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simple but absolutely the best thing you can do. And

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then she apologized for being slow because she had a migraine.

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But that was last week. Except but we're over it.

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We forgot right. Our minds are like a black hole

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where things go out, they go in, and they never

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come out. Okay, So vitamin C, use a vitamin C

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once a day, whatever serum you're liking, use that. I

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have a few. I didn't write them down because I

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don't think any of them are remarkable. But I'm like

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freaking the fuck out about the Medeico cream and the

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Loreal Glocian and they're like cheap, and I love that

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because I usually am like a pretty I usually spend

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a lot of money on skincare, which is like great.

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But then you guys are like, yeah, I can't afford

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this because nobody can even afford fucking groceries. We can

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barely afford to keep the lights on. You know, life

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is a little bit tougher than it used to be.

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Times are tough. And here's the thing. This is what happens.

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This is what happens on the back end of you know,

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it's not even the back end. We're six years out

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of it. But COVID when they printed all that fake money,

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they're like, here, we're just gonna put a trazillion more

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dollars into the economy. It's like, yeah, what happens on

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the back end. The dollar becomes watered down because we

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all got stimulus checks and money wasn't real for a minute,

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and now everything is inflated like a fucking balloon, and

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nobody can afford groceries. So I'm happy to give you

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guys some skincare that you might be able to afford

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and use and love and just feel a little bit

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better about yourself, because that's all that matters, is that

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you feel a little bit better every single day. And

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here's something I saw online this morning, and it was

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like a cartoon. Maybe it was Ai. It's like a

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little muppet being like giving your best each day is different.

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And that really resonated with me, because your best yesterday

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could be writing a chapter of your book. It could

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be taking yourself on a walk. It could be going

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to pilates. It could be picking up the kids. It

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could be dropping off the kids, it could be going

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to a sporting event, it could be whatever. Like, you

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could have a full, full day and then the next

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day when you're depleted and you're just a shell of

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yourself and you're just like a tiny little husk, which

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is what I've been feeling like a lot lately. And

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my best is getting out of bed and remembering to

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take my lexapro and not chipping my tooth on a

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loaded fucking gun. That's the same person doing their best,

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all right. Granted I don't have kids. I'm never gonna

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have a day where I drop kids off. And well

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maybe I will, but not anytime soon, because I don't

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have them. I just have an iud that apparently a

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man can smell through the internet. Oh no, that was

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a uti whatever, it's made a potato, same thing. Anyway,

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Life is good and God's got it. You know what

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I mean? bestI Life is good and God's got it.

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We're all losing our fucking minds here. We just have

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to hang on for dear life and try and enjoy

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before it's over. And the good news is when it's over,

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I get to go see my homies. A Biggie Smalls.

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I miss him so much. I will say they gave

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me it when they sent his ashes back. I have

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a little bit of an issue with the canister. I

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got his ashes back, and I'll be honest, it looks

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like a Stanley cup. It looks like a hard, coozy

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white claw holder. And I did get a spreading tube,

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but like I just thought, you know, it would be

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a little nicer. It looks it's not great. And then

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they gave me the little clay powprint and oh makes

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me so sad, but they gave me the little clay

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pop print. And his nails are so deep in it

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because he was due for a manicure. You know, I

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had him on the books for a manny petty and

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he didn't make it. So I sent the picture to Chris,

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and Chris is like, that's a nice reminder that we

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never cut a fucking toenails, which I thought was funny.

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And then this little circle necklace I'm wearing around my neck,

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I got this gold I got his nose print in

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a gold plated necklace, and that's that's really sweet and

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really nice and also really sad. I was trying to

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wear it with my I have my mom's engagement ring

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that I got made into a necklace too, and then

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I was wearing them together and I was like, I

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don't want, like my neck to be a cemetery, you

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know what I mean, Like, I don't want I don't

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want this spooky stuff around here. So now I'm just

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sticking to Biggie Bege has my well attention right now, Okay,

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I want to tell you guys something funny because you're

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my best friends. You're my best friends. I have no

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other friends, so I am now in this privileged position

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of dating somebody who is gen Z. And I don't

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know if it's gen Z or if it's just his friends,

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but I just want to tell you, guys, just so

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you know that guys are just like girls. Guys are

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just like girls. I have gotten close to one of

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Max's friends, who I adore. He is wonderful, he's very sweet,

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and he's handsome, and he is well I shouldn't say

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that nobody cares. Well, you guys care. I want you

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guys to care because he's single and he's an eligible bachelor. Okay,

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so if there's any hotties in New York they want

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to date this guy, let me know. But he's not

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gonna be happy about that. I'm gonna have to cut that.

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He's not gonna want me pimping him out. Let me

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start fresh. Okay. He's really funny and he's really great

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and he has a really dark sense of humor like me.

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And so we get along great. And he is dating

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for the first time in a long time. And he

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and when I tell you we kiki like girls, we

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kik like girls, He'll be like, what do I How

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do I respond to this text? What do I say?

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What do I do? He's like, she posted a story.

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I saw it, but I'm not gonna look at it

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from my main page. There's a man out there not

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looking at your shit for his main page and looking

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at it from a burner. I thought that was for

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the crazy girls. I thought that was reserved for us.

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I thought that was reserved for cuckoo nanner lady town.

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But the boys are doing it too. And here's what

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I mean. We need a quality because if the boys

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are being girly, then the girls can be boye and

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make more money. You know what I mean. I'm like,

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if they are the psychoanalyzing text messages he was, I mean,

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it was like phone a friend. It was like what

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are those things called back in the seventies when they

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used to have like party lines. It was like a

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fucking party line of all of his friends giving feedback

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on what to respond to a girl that he went

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on one date with. And then she responded and she

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gave him a blowoff text and he's like, I don't

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know what to say, and we ran through every single

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possible response together, and when I tell you the joy

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it brought my heart to know that men's viral, the

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way we spiral is finding balance, the world is healing.

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Men are falling apart because they don't know what to

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text you. And it made me so happy and also vindicated.

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I felt vindicated because I'm like, how many times have

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we been dating the wrong person or gone on dates

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with the wrong person? And here's why I'm saying the

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wrong person. Because the wrong person will make you act

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like this. The wrong person will make you call everyone

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in your contact list to see what their feedback is

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on what text you should send next. The wrong person

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will make you so insecure that you have to wrangle

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your friends and family into responding to something that should

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just be thumbed up. That's what the wrong person will do.

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The wrong person will make you spiral into next year.

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The wrong person will eat your whole YEurope, breadcrumbing you

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and giving you shitty, little like morsels of hope. That's

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what the wrong person will do. And it does it

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to men, and it does it to women. The wrong

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person will fuck your head up nine ways towards the weekend,

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all right. And to see him going through this, I

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was like, Oh my god, it's not just for the girls.

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Falling apart is for the boys too. Twenty twenty seven

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is the year, Well, it's not twenty twenty seven, whatever

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fucking year it is. Who cares. It's all a simulation.

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Nothing matters. We're all gonna die. But twenty twenty six

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is the year of falling apart. And that is not

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just for the girlies. That's for everyone. We're all allowed

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to fall apart. I'm so glad we all have the

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support systems to call each other and fall apart to

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you know what. And unfortunately all of our support systems

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are becoming chat GPT and or Claude, and I do

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think at some point our entire existence is just gonna

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be like the Spider Man meme of Claude and chatchept,

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going like responding to each other's face. Like we can't

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even process our own emotions. We can't even send text

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messages anymore without running it through the system. That's that good.

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We just found out about this shit like nine months ago,

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and now we're also heavily reliant on it. We don't

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even know how to respond to text messages without running

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it through the system. That's not great. The AI monster,

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the AI demon is coming for us. It's going it's

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gonna eat us alive. But in the process it will

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let us know how to respond to the fuck boy

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or fuck girl. That's making our central nervous system a

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little shaky. Okay, here's the other thing I'll say. When

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you go on a date and you drink, and if

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it doesn't go exactly the way you want it to

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the next day is gonna be really hard in destabilizing.

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And I hate that it would be hard and destabilizing

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if you were sober. I've had dates go the way

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I thought they were wonderful and then I don't hear

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from the person for weeks and I want to fucking puke.

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And that's I'm I don't drink, I don't have the

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anxiety in the morning, you know, but I, uh, yeah,

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I want to fucking puke. And I felt so bad

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for him because he was going through the same thing

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where he was anxious, and I was like, even if

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his nervous system was calibrated right now, which it absolutely

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is not, because he had five martinis last night. And

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at the big old age of in your thirties, you know,

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at the big old age of in your thirties late twenties,

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that's when it all starts to hurt. That's when the

469
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world starts to fall out from under you. After a

470
00:23:23,920 --> 00:23:27,359
night of drinking. You know that invincibility that you once

471
00:23:27,440 --> 00:23:31,119
felt when you drank turns into I am very, very

472
00:23:31,279 --> 00:23:38,240
very vincible. My mortality is here, it's present, and a

473
00:23:38,240 --> 00:23:40,720
lot of it's in my mind. I am going to

474
00:23:40,799 --> 00:23:44,200
kill myself. That's what it turns into a night of drinking. Okay,

475
00:23:44,240 --> 00:23:46,559
it used to be fun, Kiki, you wake up? Who cares?

476
00:23:46,599 --> 00:23:48,880
Nothing matters? Fuck you, fuck that, fuck this. I don't

477
00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:50,240
care if I fucked your man. I don't care if

478
00:23:50,240 --> 00:23:54,440
you did. Da da da da da. And then you

479
00:23:54,599 --> 00:23:57,200
get old and you turn into a big age where

480
00:23:57,200 --> 00:24:02,039
it's not fun anymore, and we don't like that. We

481
00:24:02,400 --> 00:24:04,599
don't like that. But anyway, I just wanted to let

482
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:06,519
you guys know that the guys are going through the

483
00:24:06,559 --> 00:24:10,079
same stuff the girls are going through. And also I

484
00:24:10,119 --> 00:24:12,519
will say I didn't love Max's advice to him because

485
00:24:12,559 --> 00:24:14,119
Max was like, oh, I used to do this, so

486
00:24:14,160 --> 00:24:15,799
I used to roll this shit. Do you know who

487
00:24:15,839 --> 00:24:17,640
the fuck you're talking to? Why you said? And I

488
00:24:17,759 --> 00:24:23,640
was like, okay, all right, easy killer. But it's true.

489
00:24:24,119 --> 00:24:27,359
It's true. Listen, we both have a past, and he

490
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:29,079
doesn't judge me for mine, so I won't judge him

491
00:24:29,079 --> 00:24:30,960
for his. But I will say this is very funny

492
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,880
and sweet and not sweet, but funny. It really made

493
00:24:33,920 --> 00:24:36,680
me laugh. He told me the other day. He told

494
00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:39,000
me the other day that when he was growing up,

495
00:24:39,119 --> 00:24:42,319
girls blogged about him in high school like fucking gossip girl,

496
00:24:42,759 --> 00:24:48,759
like they literally he was so hot and wanted that

497
00:24:48,839 --> 00:24:51,200
he had a whole blog dedicated to him, and that

498
00:24:51,480 --> 00:24:53,480
really made me laugh. Hang on, I want to see

499
00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:56,759
if I can pull some of them up, because he

500
00:24:56,880 --> 00:24:59,359
sent them to me and I was really really laughing.

501
00:24:59,519 --> 00:24:59,799
Speaker 3: Hang on this.

502
00:25:01,400 --> 00:25:03,519
Speaker 1: Our texts are just a lot of nudes and me

503
00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:09,519
sending him like BDSM bondage, harnesses and pictures of me crying.

504
00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:11,640
So in case you're wondering what it's like to date me,

505
00:25:11,759 --> 00:25:13,920
that's pretty much it. Okay, well I can't find him,

506
00:25:13,960 --> 00:25:15,440
but I remember what some of them said. One of

507
00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,759
them said, max A is so hot. He's like the equator.

508
00:25:18,839 --> 00:25:21,839
The closer you get, the hotter he gets. Another one

509
00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:23,759
was like, I have a crush on max A and

510
00:25:23,799 --> 00:25:25,839
I want to talk to him, but I don't know how,

511
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:28,720
like girls posting on a forum in high school because

512
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:32,079
he was that hot. He was that hot, and he's

513
00:25:32,160 --> 00:25:36,480
still gorgeous, like obviously that's my motherfucking man. But okay,

514
00:25:36,519 --> 00:25:39,279
you guys This story in the news this week really

515
00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:41,400
made me laugh, and I hope it makes you laugh too,

516
00:25:41,559 --> 00:25:43,359
And it just reminded me that all of us can

517
00:25:43,400 --> 00:25:46,440
be pettier. Okay, there's this woman in Australia getting tried

518
00:25:46,559 --> 00:25:48,960
for the murder of four of her family members, her

519
00:25:49,039 --> 00:25:52,400
ex husband's family members, because she invited them to dinner

520
00:25:52,559 --> 00:25:57,000
and she cooked death cat mushrooms and they're beef struggling

521
00:25:57,079 --> 00:26:01,079
off and listen, death cat mushrooms are the edle's mushrooms

522
00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:06,000
on the planet. And she invited her ex husband, his parents,

523
00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:11,160
and his siblings under the guise of she had a

524
00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:13,839
medical emergency that she needed to share with the family

525
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:15,680
that she hadn't shared with her kids yet, but she

526
00:26:15,759 --> 00:26:18,880
needed their advice on how to do so. So obviously,

527
00:26:19,559 --> 00:26:21,480
you know her and her ex have a good co

528
00:26:21,680 --> 00:26:24,240
parenting relationship. They're going to do their best to keep

529
00:26:24,359 --> 00:26:27,039
you know, the kids in mind front and center. And

530
00:26:27,559 --> 00:26:30,599
they show up and she cooks a beef stroganof, not

531
00:26:30,720 --> 00:26:32,880
a lunchtime food. That would have been my first ding

532
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:34,440
ding ding. I would have been like, Hey, I'm not

533
00:26:34,480 --> 00:26:36,839
in the mood for a strogan off. That's gonna put

534
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:39,359
me into a fucking coma. It's gonna put me into

535
00:26:39,359 --> 00:26:41,319
a food comma, not like a death comma, like they

536
00:26:41,359 --> 00:26:45,240
did actually go into. So the only person that's and

537
00:26:45,319 --> 00:26:47,319
by the way, she invited her ex husband and he

538
00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:50,799
said not available. Everyone else showed up and there was

539
00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:54,960
only one survivor. The only person that survived was her

540
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:57,440
ex sister in law, and her ex sister in law

541
00:26:57,480 --> 00:26:59,880
told the court that she went. She told the family

542
00:27:00,079 --> 00:27:02,200
that she had cancer, and she needed to tell her

543
00:27:02,319 --> 00:27:05,000
kids that she had cancer. Basically, she's like, I found

544
00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:07,599
a lump on my elbow and it's cancer, which, by

545
00:27:07,599 --> 00:27:10,119
the way, elbow cancer is not the most threatening cancer

546
00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:13,279
anyone's ever heard of. That's a pretty bad story. But

547
00:27:13,359 --> 00:27:15,720
then she gets tried on stand and she's like, here's

548
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:18,240
I was reading the MPR article and it's like, here's

549
00:27:18,240 --> 00:27:21,720
important fact. She talks shit about her in laws. Yeah,

550
00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:24,519
everyone talks shit about their in laws. In laws are

551
00:27:24,559 --> 00:27:27,000
notoriously the worst people in the world, especially if you're

552
00:27:27,079 --> 00:27:33,880
the woman entering the relationship, because for whatever reason, boys men,

553
00:27:34,200 --> 00:27:37,039
boys to men, men to boys, whatever, they always have

554
00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:41,359
the weirdest fucking relationships with her mom, Like always, why

555
00:27:41,480 --> 00:27:46,279
is there always like sexual tension between moms and their sons.

556
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:49,559
What the fuck is that? And why aren't we calling

557
00:27:49,920 --> 00:27:52,359
the cops? Because I can't tell you I've never I

558
00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:55,480
never had this relationship personally because my ex stepmom was

559
00:27:55,599 --> 00:27:59,279
fucking tits, like she was the coolest lady ever and she,

560
00:27:59,519 --> 00:28:01,440
like a normal didn't want to fuck her son. But

561
00:28:01,640 --> 00:28:05,799
so many of my friends have are in relationships with

562
00:28:06,279 --> 00:28:11,720
mama's boys that have like weird fucking relationships with their mom,

563
00:28:12,079 --> 00:28:14,880
and they wouldn't date someone that their mom doesn't approve of,

564
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:19,279
and their mom approves of no one, and they always

565
00:28:19,319 --> 00:28:23,079
feel like they're in competition for the son's attention whenever

566
00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:27,680
they're around their mom. Like this mother son relationship needs

567
00:28:27,759 --> 00:28:29,920
to be studied. And also I think some of these

568
00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:32,240
moms need to go to jail, if I'm being honest.

569
00:28:32,319 --> 00:28:34,880
So I think her poisoning this lady with some mushroom

570
00:28:34,920 --> 00:28:37,039
caps was the nicest thing she could have done, because

571
00:28:37,079 --> 00:28:39,400
like she should be tied to a basement freezer. Like

572
00:28:39,519 --> 00:28:45,920
the way the way mothers interact with their sons, it's criminal,

573
00:28:46,039 --> 00:28:49,359
it's weird. It's like, yeah, he sucked on your titty,

574
00:28:49,440 --> 00:28:51,039
but like, get over it. It was a long time ago,

575
00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:54,599
you know what I mean, Like I I don't know.

576
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,200
I dated a few Mama's boys, and I can't with

577
00:28:57,279 --> 00:29:01,480
the Mama's boys. Like there's first of all, they're the worst.

578
00:29:01,599 --> 00:29:04,400
They're always the cheaters. The Mama's boys are always cheating

579
00:29:04,440 --> 00:29:05,759
because this is and I used to have a joke

580
00:29:05,799 --> 00:29:07,720
about this. It's like build a bitch, Like they're going

581
00:29:07,799 --> 00:29:09,680
around trying to build their mom They're like this one

582
00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:13,000
wears Paisley, you know, this one goes to church on Sunday,

583
00:29:13,079 --> 00:29:15,359
and this one's gonna fuck my dad. That's me. You know,

584
00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:19,160
that was the joke anyway. But but they they are

585
00:29:19,200 --> 00:29:22,519
the worst people. They're the biggest cheaters and they're fucking weird.

586
00:29:22,759 --> 00:29:26,400
There was this guy that I dated in college, and

587
00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:29,279
I say dated loosely because like we were not boyfriend

588
00:29:29,319 --> 00:29:31,400
and girlfriend, but we were like seeing each other and

589
00:29:31,480 --> 00:29:33,640
we liked each other. He was a basketball player, so

590
00:29:33,799 --> 00:29:37,119
like whatever, he was busy fucking literally everyone, including all

591
00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:39,160
of my friends. And then he got like mad at

592
00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:40,640
me because I was fucking his teammates, and I'm like,

593
00:29:40,680 --> 00:29:44,599
grow up, you know, that's like what we were doing. Yeah,

594
00:29:44,839 --> 00:29:48,680
he had issues, but so did I. We that was

595
00:29:48,759 --> 00:29:52,640
like peak alcoholism brit like I was a lunatic. But

596
00:29:52,880 --> 00:29:58,400
basically I ran into him and his soap. Basically I

597
00:29:58,519 --> 00:30:02,000
invited him to this basketball game and it was obviously

598
00:30:02,079 --> 00:30:04,400
he was not playing. It was, uh, the Lakers were

599
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:06,319
playing the Bucks. And I invited him to this basketball

600
00:30:06,359 --> 00:30:08,079
game and he's like, I can't go. I have to

601
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:10,079
meet with like my agent because it was the year

602
00:30:10,160 --> 00:30:12,119
he was gonna get drafted and go play in the NBA.

603
00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:14,079
And I was like, okay, cool, whatever I go to,

604
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,319
will call and tell me why I'm in. Will call,

605
00:30:16,359 --> 00:30:19,880
and I'm like, that's fucking blank. I'm not gonna say

606
00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:21,640
his name, but I was like, that's him, and I

607
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:25,880
was like hey, and he turns around and his mom

608
00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:29,359
turns around and she's like, and who the fuck is this?

609
00:30:29,799 --> 00:30:31,359
She didn't say that, but she meant it, you know

610
00:30:31,359 --> 00:30:34,240
what I mean. I could see her just her eyes

611
00:30:34,279 --> 00:30:36,240
were fucking cutting me in half. And she's like, and

612
00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:40,759
who do you think you are talking to my son?

613
00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:44,440
And I was like, yealled, shit is fucking weird. I

614
00:30:44,480 --> 00:30:46,200
didn't say. She was just so mean. She was so

615
00:30:46,799 --> 00:30:48,559
not nice to me, and like she didn't have any

616
00:30:48,599 --> 00:30:50,400
reason to be nice to me or not nice to me,

617
00:30:50,480 --> 00:30:52,319
but like, why would you just be nasty just to

618
00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:56,039
be nasty? And then I remember he got this tattoo

619
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:58,960
and it said Dynamic Duo and I was like, what's

620
00:30:59,079 --> 00:31:01,599
that And he's like, that's me and my mom and

621
00:31:01,680 --> 00:31:05,079
I was like, that's me. That's what me and Jessica

622
00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:08,519
call ourselves when we have a threesome. Like that's fucking weird,

623
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:14,200
that's crazy. Get that tattoo off your fucking arm, or

624
00:31:14,400 --> 00:31:18,200
marry her, marry your mom because obviously there's not room

625
00:31:18,279 --> 00:31:25,640
in this relationship for another woman. Anyway, that obviously didn't work.

626
00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:30,599
But yeah, I just think this woman who just was like,

627
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:33,319
I'm gonna kill his family, and she tried to kill

628
00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:35,079
him too. To be fair, I think I would have

629
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:36,920
rescheduled lunch until he came.

630
00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:37,400
Speaker 3: You know.

631
00:31:37,480 --> 00:31:42,319
Speaker 1: I think the main person, the main target, was missed there.

632
00:31:42,599 --> 00:31:45,680
But I really appreciate what she did here. Do you

633
00:31:45,759 --> 00:31:47,440
know how much hate you have to have in your

634
00:31:47,480 --> 00:31:50,400
heart to cook a beef strogan off at eleven am

635
00:31:51,319 --> 00:31:56,759
in the fucking hell pit of Australia, a hot dish

636
00:31:56,920 --> 00:32:02,440
in Australia on any day before noon. She woke up,

637
00:32:02,599 --> 00:32:06,359
she toiled, she sweat she forged for those mushrooms. She

638
00:32:06,519 --> 00:32:08,720
forged for those mushrooms. You can't go to the store

639
00:32:08,759 --> 00:32:13,160
and buy death caps. She she took up mushrooming. And

640
00:32:13,279 --> 00:32:15,400
I know that's not the word, but who fucking cares.

641
00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:17,640
You guys know what I'm talking about. She was like,

642
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:21,880
I'm gonna get She's like, I'm gonna get a fucking

643
00:32:22,599 --> 00:32:25,519
what's it called, not a microscope? A magnifying glass. She's like,

644
00:32:25,559 --> 00:32:28,079
I'm gonna get a magnifying glass. I'm gonna get a

645
00:32:28,079 --> 00:32:31,200
pair of gloves. I'm gonna get a book of all

646
00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:33,640
the deadliest mushrooms in the world. I'm gonna figure out

647
00:32:33,759 --> 00:32:37,200
which climate and ecosystem they grow in. I'm gonna hike

648
00:32:37,880 --> 00:32:41,000
in that climate and ecosystem until I find enough of

649
00:32:41,079 --> 00:32:44,680
these fuckers to kill a family, and then I'm gonna

650
00:32:44,759 --> 00:32:48,599
go home. I'm gonna wiped the flop sweat on my

651
00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:52,400
forehead like shack at the foul line. I'm going to

652
00:32:53,039 --> 00:32:55,359
take a shower. When I get out of that shower,

653
00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:57,920
I'm gonna fire up the crock pot, and then I'm

654
00:32:57,920 --> 00:33:01,599
gonna put the finest roast in that crock pot and

655
00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:04,759
I'm gonna make the most divine gravy that people. By

656
00:33:04,759 --> 00:33:06,359
the way, you do have to make this dish good,

657
00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:08,519
because if you make it poorly, people won't eat it

658
00:33:08,519 --> 00:33:12,000
and they won't want it. She's I'm gonna make the

659
00:33:12,079 --> 00:33:15,799
most divine beef strogan off you've ever had. It's so

660
00:33:16,039 --> 00:33:21,400
divine that you have to eat it before noon in

661
00:33:21,519 --> 00:33:27,119
the middle of swamp heat. Dick fuck Australia while I

662
00:33:27,279 --> 00:33:30,079
tell you I have elbow cancer. And here's the other

663
00:33:30,160 --> 00:33:31,799
thing we're not thinking about. Because I do think we

664
00:33:31,839 --> 00:33:33,559
need to give this lady credit. And I really like

665
00:33:33,640 --> 00:33:37,160
to see women in men's fields, and a serial killer

666
00:33:37,319 --> 00:33:39,720
is a woman in a man's field, and so I

667
00:33:39,839 --> 00:33:43,759
want to give her her kudos. Okay, Because she also

668
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:48,119
had to make another beef strogan off for herself, and

669
00:33:48,319 --> 00:33:51,400
she couldn't confuse the two because then she would have died,

670
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:53,440
and obviously we don't want that, because she's an evil

671
00:33:53,519 --> 00:33:57,119
genius and a mastermind. So she made two beef strogan

672
00:33:57,200 --> 00:34:00,240
offs and she kept them straight in her fridge. H

673
00:34:02,960 --> 00:34:05,359
And she invited her family over and she said, you

674
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:10,360
know this, this loose skin on my elbow here that

675
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:12,599
you guys have been making fun of for all those years. Well,

676
00:34:12,679 --> 00:34:16,920
just so you know, it's cancer and I'm dying. And

677
00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:18,599
I was just wondering if you could help me tell

678
00:34:18,679 --> 00:34:22,800
my children that I'm dying of elbow cancer because you

679
00:34:22,840 --> 00:34:25,000
guys made fun of my loose elbow skin for years

680
00:34:25,039 --> 00:34:27,199
and now I'm dying because of it. It doesn't that

681
00:34:27,239 --> 00:34:30,639
feel horrible? So while they're eating their fucking slop. While

682
00:34:30,679 --> 00:34:35,199
they're eating their fucking schlop, they feel a pit in

683
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:36,760
their stomach and they're like, we did make fun of

684
00:34:36,800 --> 00:34:40,119
that loose elbow skin, and we are sorry. And that's

685
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:42,119
you know, we shouldn't have done that. It was just

686
00:34:42,199 --> 00:34:45,639
a hard time in our family. And your elbowskin is atrocious,

687
00:34:46,719 --> 00:34:49,280
unlike this beef strogging off, which by the way, is delicious.

688
00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:52,159
And she says, thank you for finally appreciating me. You know,

689
00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:56,880
I foraged those mushrooms myself in the forests, that's why

690
00:34:57,000 --> 00:35:02,079
it's so fresh. And they said, wow, we really underestimated

691
00:35:02,159 --> 00:35:04,119
you and we don't know why our son divorced you,

692
00:35:04,320 --> 00:35:08,679
and we are so sorry. And she said good while

693
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:12,440
she ate her unpoisoned version of the beast beef strogan off,

694
00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:17,800
and then just to look people in the eyes and

695
00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:20,599
give them a hug and say goodbye, I love you.

696
00:35:21,360 --> 00:35:24,239
I'm dying of cancer, so you're never gonna see me again.

697
00:35:25,239 --> 00:35:27,280
And they're like, well, that's a little extreme. We'll probably

698
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:29,039
see you again. It's elbow cancer. I don't think it

699
00:35:29,079 --> 00:35:32,480
could possibly be that aggressive, but we understand the sentiment

700
00:35:32,719 --> 00:35:38,440
and you know, take care, and she just just the

701
00:35:38,519 --> 00:35:45,880
evilest laugh. I'm never going to see you again. That

702
00:35:46,079 --> 00:35:49,880
was a promise. And here's the thing, you guys, women's

703
00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:53,159
and women in men's field, what a fucking what a

704
00:35:53,159 --> 00:35:55,239
beautiful story. And I think that's a beautiful story. And

705
00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:56,840
a lot of people are saying she got a life

706
00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:58,760
sentence and that's not enough time. And I'm like, that's

707
00:35:59,800 --> 00:36:03,960
too much time, because I think we really are undermining

708
00:36:04,039 --> 00:36:13,000
the accomplishments here. All right, Well, I don't know what

709
00:36:13,159 --> 00:36:16,760
just happened there. That was a tangent. I blacked out anyway, Okay.

710
00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:19,480
I sent a few things to Mike because I wanted

711
00:36:19,559 --> 00:36:24,039
to remember them, and that's how I remember things by

712
00:36:24,079 --> 00:36:26,880
sending them to Mike. Okay, so there's PMDD. Girlies out

713
00:36:26,880 --> 00:36:29,360
listen to this. And I know that because on my

714
00:36:29,480 --> 00:36:33,639
last podcast, we used to talk about PMDD a lot.

715
00:36:33,760 --> 00:36:37,840
I used to get that. I think it was specifically

716
00:36:38,079 --> 00:36:40,599
more before I got my iud in and I was

717
00:36:40,639 --> 00:36:43,679
on Lexapro. I would get like whooh, like there was

718
00:36:44,280 --> 00:36:45,679
four days out of the month where it was an

719
00:36:45,679 --> 00:36:47,639
absolute miracle. I made it out of those days. If

720
00:36:47,679 --> 00:36:50,639
you get like super fucking suicidal or like I'm a

721
00:36:50,719 --> 00:36:52,719
loser and I should die and everything is stupid and

722
00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:54,039
there is no point, then all of a sudden you

723
00:36:54,119 --> 00:36:56,440
start to bleed and you're like, Okay, everything makes sense now.

724
00:36:56,880 --> 00:36:59,079
I want you guys to listen to this because I

725
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:02,519
think it sounds like, according to the Internet, this works,

726
00:37:02,559 --> 00:37:04,320
and if it does work, I need you guys to

727
00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:09,000
try it and report back. And if it doesn't, don't

728
00:37:09,039 --> 00:37:11,599
be a fucking snitch, you know, like that ex sister

729
00:37:11,679 --> 00:37:13,159
in law who was like she was pretending to have

730
00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:17,920
cancer and then and then she fed us poison mushroom

731
00:37:18,079 --> 00:37:22,000
fucking beef strogan off. Okay, for any of you who

732
00:37:22,039 --> 00:37:25,880
have pmddcent symptoms which are like really really really heightened

733
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:29,119
PMS symptoms, like where you just want to fucking die

734
00:37:31,440 --> 00:37:34,440
during or before your period, then I need you to

735
00:37:34,599 --> 00:37:39,639
try pepsid ac and allegra together because I saw this

736
00:37:40,000 --> 00:37:44,199
on Instagram reels and I want to play this because

737
00:37:44,239 --> 00:37:45,920
I know it affects a lot of you, and if

738
00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:49,239
this works, I want to be some sort of a doctor.

739
00:37:49,679 --> 00:37:51,719
I am a healer. No, I just want you guys

740
00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:53,079
to be happy in free and not feel like you

741
00:37:53,119 --> 00:37:56,320
want to fucking die out a week out of the month. Okay, listen,

742
00:37:56,559 --> 00:38:04,360
listen away. I just feel a.

743
00:38:04,519 --> 00:38:09,679
Speaker 3: Wave of joy come over my brain and body.

744
00:38:11,760 --> 00:38:13,679
Speaker 1: Like somebody pressed a button. I think I took it,

745
00:38:13,800 --> 00:38:16,119
like maybe forty five minutes ago, took both of them,

746
00:38:16,119 --> 00:38:21,679
maybe forty five minutes ago. I feel like hyper.

747
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:23,039
Speaker 2: Hi.

748
00:38:23,079 --> 00:38:24,639
Speaker 3: My name is doctor Rubin. I'm a board sort of

749
00:38:24,639 --> 00:38:26,599
fied aalgist, and I am so happy to hear that

750
00:38:26,679 --> 00:38:29,239
she is doing much better at this time. This is

751
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:31,280
something that I'm seeing a lot on social media over

752
00:38:31,320 --> 00:38:33,559
the past couple of years, where women are reporting positive

753
00:38:33,599 --> 00:38:37,039
results for their PMDD symptoms when they take a combination

754
00:38:37,280 --> 00:38:42,119
of two antihistamine medications Allegra also known as fectsofenidine and pepsid,

755
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:45,239
which is known as femotidine. Even though femotidine is an

756
00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:48,800
anti acid, it actually works as an antihistamine. I am

757
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:52,280
an allergist who studies the abnormal immune system responses to

758
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:55,239
foreign substances, and so I'm going to give you my

759
00:38:55,400 --> 00:39:01,039
perspective on how histamine may be related to pm and

760
00:39:01,159 --> 00:39:03,360
tell you about what we know, but also highlight the

761
00:39:03,400 --> 00:39:05,519
fact that there's a lot of issues related to women's

762
00:39:05,559 --> 00:39:08,400
health where there's just not enough research out there. We

763
00:39:08,519 --> 00:39:10,119
need to do more, and this is a call to

764
00:39:10,280 --> 00:39:14,239
action because this significantly impacts a lot of women, as

765
00:39:14,320 --> 00:39:18,079
PMDD is a severe form of PMS, likely due to

766
00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:22,360
a hypersensitivity to the hormonal fluctuations that occur during the

767
00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:26,639
menstrual cycle, with changes in estrogen and progesterone that are

768
00:39:26,679 --> 00:39:31,559
cyclically happening and can cause debilitating symptoms potentially, and right now,

769
00:39:31,639 --> 00:39:34,679
the standard of care does not involve antihistamines because there's

770
00:39:34,800 --> 00:39:38,519
no clinical trials on this to really understand whether this works,

771
00:39:39,039 --> 00:39:41,559
but there is some evidence to suggest that maybe it

772
00:39:41,719 --> 00:39:47,199
does work because estrogen and progesterone interact with cells of

773
00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:51,480
your immune system, like massed cells, which contain histamine. That's

774
00:39:51,519 --> 00:39:53,920
the chemical that cause a lot of allergy symptoms, but

775
00:39:54,119 --> 00:39:57,840
histamine does a lot of other things besides itching hives

776
00:39:57,920 --> 00:40:02,760
and swelling. It can also regulate your mood hunger, it

777
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:06,239
can regulate your sleep. And so when you have these

778
00:40:06,280 --> 00:40:10,079
fluctuations and estrogen and progesterone, it can affect mass self

779
00:40:10,159 --> 00:40:14,360
activation and the number of histamine receptors where this chemical

780
00:40:14,480 --> 00:40:17,760
combine to and create different actions on the body. So

781
00:40:17,880 --> 00:40:22,199
when you take allegra and pepsid as different antihistamine collapses,

782
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:24,920
one that blocks the H one receptor and allegra and

783
00:40:25,039 --> 00:40:28,320
one that blocks H two receptors in pepsid, this may

784
00:40:28,440 --> 00:40:32,440
significantly improve symptoms for some women. Now, keep in mind

785
00:40:32,559 --> 00:40:36,039
that antihistamines can have potential side effects. You should always

786
00:40:36,079 --> 00:40:38,360
talk with your doctor if you're going to be starting

787
00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:41,360
any new medications. This is something that does need to

788
00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:44,639
be looked into more and more. A rareness needs to

789
00:40:44,679 --> 00:40:46,880
be raised so we can have a better understanding of

790
00:40:47,239 --> 00:40:49,280
if this works and how well it works, and how

791
00:40:49,360 --> 00:40:51,320
we can change clinical practice with this.

792
00:40:52,079 --> 00:40:52,320
Speaker 2: All the.

793
00:40:53,840 --> 00:41:01,239
Speaker 1: Tend to take allegra and pepsid ac is it PMDD? Okay?

794
00:41:01,599 --> 00:41:04,400
So I once I played that. I actually do remember

795
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:08,920
on the old podcast talking about antihistamines for PMDD, but

796
00:41:09,159 --> 00:41:12,119
that was like a specific combination of antihistamine. So I

797
00:41:12,159 --> 00:41:13,760
want you guys to try it and get back to

798
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:16,039
me and let me know how it works. If it works.

799
00:41:17,639 --> 00:41:19,559
I sent it to a bunch of my girlfriends who

800
00:41:19,719 --> 00:41:22,880
have PMDD And this is like crazy, how far behind

801
00:41:22,920 --> 00:41:26,119
times we are with women's studies. Like if men had

802
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:31,519
a period and if they were in this much pain

803
00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:33,920
all of the time, this shit would have been cured

804
00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:36,840
fifty years ago. Like the fact that they're like, we

805
00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:39,000
have no research to support any of this. They're not

806
00:41:39,079 --> 00:41:42,360
even researching it because they don't give a fuck. They

807
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:45,119
don't give a fuck. And here's the thing. My sister's

808
00:41:45,119 --> 00:41:46,559
a scientist and I talked to her all the time

809
00:41:46,639 --> 00:41:50,159
about this and she's like, it is such a misogynistic

810
00:41:50,199 --> 00:41:53,400
field still there. It is male dominated. She's a female

811
00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:58,119
scientist working exceptionally well in her field, but she still

812
00:41:58,559 --> 00:42:01,199
gets brushed to the back, thrown to the side, and

813
00:42:01,440 --> 00:42:05,840
not taken seriously because she's a woman. Women are so

814
00:42:06,119 --> 00:42:10,639
fucking smart. We can run circles around these fuckers, but

815
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:12,840
they just won't even let us. They won't even let

816
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:16,320
us do the studies in the labs. Like it's just

817
00:42:16,639 --> 00:42:18,760
it's crazy how much further ahead we could be if

818
00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:20,920
any woman was in charge of any of this, but

819
00:42:21,039 --> 00:42:22,480
we're not, so we just have to sit there and

820
00:42:22,519 --> 00:42:26,159
get kicked around. And and I just can't believe it's

821
00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:31,480
the year twenty twenty six. Allegedly, you know, if you

822
00:42:31,599 --> 00:42:33,719
listened earlier in this podcast, I said, it's twenty twenty seven.

823
00:42:33,719 --> 00:42:36,079
Who cares? Allegedly it's the year twenty twenty six of

824
00:42:36,159 --> 00:42:41,000
our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. So I saw this

825
00:42:41,159 --> 00:42:42,920
the other day and I'm reading it to you guys now.

826
00:42:43,000 --> 00:42:46,000
So the luteal phase occurring between ovulation and the start

827
00:42:46,039 --> 00:42:48,880
of a period. It's roughly twelve to fourteen days, which

828
00:42:48,960 --> 00:42:51,440
is all of the days. It's fifty percent of the

829
00:42:51,519 --> 00:42:55,360
days of a month, driven by high progesterone fluctuating estrogen

830
00:42:55,440 --> 00:42:59,280
leading to PMS symptoms in many women. What we go through.

831
00:42:59,519 --> 00:43:01,800
And I don't know what the metric was. I just

832
00:43:01,840 --> 00:43:04,119
saw this on Instagram and it was a doctor, so

833
00:43:04,239 --> 00:43:06,199
I trusted him. But I shouldn't do that, because I

834
00:43:06,280 --> 00:43:08,000
understand people can just put a lab coat on and

835
00:43:08,119 --> 00:43:09,920
like a pair of glasses, and I'm like, a doctor

836
00:43:10,039 --> 00:43:13,639
said this, So do your research. Do the research that

837
00:43:13,719 --> 00:43:15,159
I didn't do. You know, I do my best to

838
00:43:15,239 --> 00:43:17,400
not spread misinformation, but every once in a while it

839
00:43:17,519 --> 00:43:19,920
seeps out of me. But it said for men to

840
00:43:20,119 --> 00:43:23,159
experience what women go through in the luteal phase phase

841
00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:25,440
each month, they would have to age one hundred years

842
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:32,039
for their body to understand the kind of drastic change

843
00:43:32,079 --> 00:43:35,480
that we go through. And that is motherfucking crazy. Most

844
00:43:35,559 --> 00:43:38,280
men don't age one hundred years ever in their life

845
00:43:39,239 --> 00:43:41,360
like that, I mean, just the shit we go through

846
00:43:41,440 --> 00:43:43,320
as women. I just want to give you a high five,

847
00:43:43,440 --> 00:43:46,440
a round of applause, patch yourself on the back. I

848
00:43:46,519 --> 00:43:49,000
mean the fact that we have to also, did you

849
00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:51,199
guys see this? It was somebody with like a period

850
00:43:51,280 --> 00:43:54,199
cramped simulator simulator on the street of New York City

851
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:57,800
putting it on men and being like, and we just

852
00:43:57,880 --> 00:43:59,480
have to walk down the road and we're supposed to.

853
00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:06,320
And then they say, why aren't you smiling? And I'm like, oh, gee, Hank,

854
00:44:06,519 --> 00:44:08,239
I don't know why I'm not smiling. Maybe because it

855
00:44:08,320 --> 00:44:11,880
feels like there's an automatic weapon going off in my

856
00:44:12,519 --> 00:44:16,599
fucking uterus. Maybe it feels like there's I'm getting loaded

857
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:19,719
filled with caps from an AR fifteen right now, Hank.

858
00:44:19,800 --> 00:44:21,760
That's why I'm not fucking smiling. The fact I'm on

859
00:44:21,840 --> 00:44:23,960
two feet and I'm not horizontal for the rest of

860
00:44:24,079 --> 00:44:28,320
my life is a miracle. People expect too much from us,

861
00:44:32,159 --> 00:44:36,480
the rage, the fury. You guys, we're doing great. We're

862
00:44:36,559 --> 00:44:40,840
doing great, aren't we. We are doing great. I'm gonna

863
00:44:41,079 --> 00:44:42,639
share one more thing with you that I thought to

864
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:46,159
be incredibly healing, and it's a real thing. It's not

865
00:44:46,280 --> 00:44:50,800
an Instagram thing. So one second. Okay, So this other

866
00:44:50,880 --> 00:44:53,559
piece of advice that I wanted to talk about is

867
00:44:54,360 --> 00:44:57,760
how important it is to find friends who love themselves

868
00:44:57,920 --> 00:45:00,920
and love their lives. And listen, I'm not like the

869
00:45:01,039 --> 00:45:03,199
Queen of I love myself. I'm not the Queen of

870
00:45:03,320 --> 00:45:05,800
like I have an amazing life and everything is just great,

871
00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:08,280
and you know, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. Okay,

872
00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:12,400
but on a base level, I do really like myself.

873
00:45:12,639 --> 00:45:16,599
I am confident in myself and in my abilities. And

874
00:45:17,480 --> 00:45:19,760
I have noticed in the past when I bring people

875
00:45:19,880 --> 00:45:25,719
into my life that don't really like themselves that much

876
00:45:25,880 --> 00:45:29,360
and they don't really like their lives that much, they're

877
00:45:29,400 --> 00:45:32,280
really challenging people to forge friendships with. And they will

878
00:45:32,360 --> 00:45:35,199
take and take and take and take from you until

879
00:45:35,239 --> 00:45:37,119
you don't like yourself and you don't like your life,

880
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:38,559
and then all of a sudden, you're a husk of

881
00:45:38,599 --> 00:45:40,400
the person that you were when you met them, But

882
00:45:40,480 --> 00:45:42,480
you can't get out because now you're relying on their

883
00:45:42,559 --> 00:45:47,880
weird sort of suckibus energy where it's like you, guys,

884
00:45:48,000 --> 00:45:52,039
become this. You just have to be careful for the

885
00:45:52,079 --> 00:45:54,000
people that don't like their lives because if you're around

886
00:45:54,039 --> 00:45:56,000
them long enough, they will make you not like yours.

887
00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:59,599
And then they also secretly are like hating you or

888
00:45:59,679 --> 00:46:01,519
whatever you like about your life, and they give you

889
00:46:01,639 --> 00:46:03,639
like hater vibes and bad energy, and they fill you

890
00:46:03,760 --> 00:46:05,719
with enough bad energy that you start to not like

891
00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:07,719
your life. So you have to be very very careful

892
00:46:07,719 --> 00:46:09,280
about the energy that you put in your life. It

893
00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:12,480
is so sacred, it is so fragile, and that's why

894
00:46:12,559 --> 00:46:14,519
they say you are the sum of who you surround

895
00:46:14,559 --> 00:46:16,360
yourself with. So if you surround yourself with people that

896
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:18,199
hate your life, pretty soon you're gonna hate your life.

897
00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:19,840
So just be very careful of the people that you're

898
00:46:19,880 --> 00:46:24,800
letting in your life that they're not fucking haters, you know. Okay,

899
00:46:24,800 --> 00:46:26,280
I want to talk to you guys about one more thing.

900
00:46:26,519 --> 00:46:29,920
I did this forgiveness ritual that was so powerful to me,

901
00:46:30,039 --> 00:46:31,320
and I want to share it with you guys in

902
00:46:31,400 --> 00:46:33,119
case you guys are going through anything or if you

903
00:46:33,599 --> 00:46:35,679
you know, all of us surely have someone in our

904
00:46:35,719 --> 00:46:40,199
lives that we need to forgive, whether it's ourselves, our partners,

905
00:46:40,480 --> 00:46:45,679
our parents, our friends, our business partner, like whoever it is.

906
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:49,039
This this ritual really cleansed me. I was holding onto

907
00:46:49,079 --> 00:46:51,920
a lot of energy with the situation. And it's not

908
00:46:52,000 --> 00:46:54,719
one that I've talked about publicly, but it was I

909
00:46:54,840 --> 00:46:58,400
was holding onto a lot of energy and I couldn't

910
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,320
let it go, and I couldn't stop feeling bad about it.

911
00:47:01,599 --> 00:47:08,320
And I did this forgiveness ritual and it shifted something

912
00:47:08,639 --> 00:47:13,079
in me towards this other person that it was very powerful.

913
00:47:13,159 --> 00:47:15,800
So I just want to share this with you. So

914
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:17,760
what you need to do when you're doing this ritual

915
00:47:17,880 --> 00:47:21,119
is you close your eyes and you envision the person. Okay,

916
00:47:21,199 --> 00:47:25,079
so yousion. You envision the person that you're having conflict with,

917
00:47:25,320 --> 00:47:28,199
whether it is like an actual argument or if it's

918
00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:30,920
like a resentment you never told them about or whatever

919
00:47:31,039 --> 00:47:33,880
it is. Close your eyes, envision the person. Envision you're

920
00:47:33,920 --> 00:47:36,360
in the room with the person and envision you're looking

921
00:47:36,440 --> 00:47:39,360
them in the eyes. And then when you when you

922
00:47:39,480 --> 00:47:42,880
have them locked in, you start to say I'm angry

923
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:46,000
at you for and you just go and you say

924
00:47:46,119 --> 00:47:48,360
every single thing you're angry at them for, like I

925
00:47:48,480 --> 00:47:50,960
am angry at you for betraying my trust, i am

926
00:47:51,039 --> 00:47:53,320
angry at you for blah blah blah, I'm angry at

927
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:55,320
you for this, I'm angry at you for that, I'm

928
00:47:55,360 --> 00:47:57,599
angry at how you went about it. I'm angry at

929
00:47:58,320 --> 00:48:00,880
how you took no accountabilit I'm angry.

930
00:48:00,719 --> 00:48:01,000
Speaker 2: That you do.

931
00:48:01,119 --> 00:48:03,679
Speaker 1: But whatever it is, whatever the situation is, you say

932
00:48:03,719 --> 00:48:06,880
I'm angry until you've expended the tank and you can't

933
00:48:06,880 --> 00:48:08,559
think of another thing that you're angry at them for,

934
00:48:08,760 --> 00:48:11,559
and then you move on to I'm sad that I

935
00:48:11,679 --> 00:48:15,559
am sad that you didn't think I deserved better, I'm

936
00:48:15,679 --> 00:48:19,079
sad that you didn't think that, whatever it is, I'm

937
00:48:19,159 --> 00:48:21,119
sad that I'm sad, that I'm sad that I'm sad

938
00:48:21,159 --> 00:48:23,320
that until the sad tank is empty, and this whole

939
00:48:23,360 --> 00:48:25,079
time eyes are closed, you're acting like you're in the

940
00:48:25,119 --> 00:48:28,679
same room with them. It's like an energetic healing ritual. Okay,

941
00:48:29,679 --> 00:48:31,719
And then you say, I'm accepting that, I'm accepting that

942
00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:33,599
we no longer have the relationship that we used to have.

943
00:48:33,719 --> 00:48:37,159
I'm accepting that this thing was a fundamental change and

944
00:48:37,199 --> 00:48:38,400
we're never going to be able to go back to

945
00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:40,079
who we used to be. I'm accepting that. Bah bah

946
00:48:40,079 --> 00:48:43,840
blah blah blah. Okay, I'm in denial that. I'm in

947
00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:45,800
denial that somebody I love so much would do this

948
00:48:45,880 --> 00:48:47,519
to me. I'm in denial of that I used to

949
00:48:47,599 --> 00:48:49,880
think you were the world to me. I'm in denial

950
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:52,280
that da da da da da da da. Okay, until

951
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,800
you empty out the denial tank and then you say,

952
00:48:54,840 --> 00:48:57,400
I'm negotiating that I think that if I do this,

953
00:48:57,719 --> 00:48:59,719
then you'll do that. If I do this, then you'll

954
00:48:59,760 --> 00:49:02,000
do that. Because you did this, then I did that.

955
00:49:02,199 --> 00:49:04,639
Because any sort of negotiations, any sort of back and

956
00:49:04,719 --> 00:49:07,679
forth you're having with them, and then the last one

957
00:49:07,880 --> 00:49:10,280
if you you know whatever, for whatever reason, it didn't

958
00:49:10,280 --> 00:49:12,320
come out the negotiating. I'm going back and forth about

959
00:49:12,360 --> 00:49:13,760
whether or not I love you or hate you. I'm

960
00:49:13,800 --> 00:49:15,800
going back and forth about whether you should be in

961
00:49:15,880 --> 00:49:17,239
my life or you should not have a part in

962
00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:18,840
my life, or you don't get a seat to the

963
00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:22,119
show anymore. I'm going back and forth about whether or

964
00:49:22,159 --> 00:49:24,480
not I can have people like you and mine like

965
00:49:24,679 --> 00:49:28,960
those kinds of things. And you empty it all out,

966
00:49:29,119 --> 00:49:31,920
and you pour it all out until you have nothing left,

967
00:49:32,559 --> 00:49:35,079
and I'll be goddamned if you don't feel lighter and

968
00:49:35,239 --> 00:49:38,199
better and just more free after you do that. I've

969
00:49:38,239 --> 00:49:39,800
done this with a few people now. I did it

970
00:49:39,920 --> 00:49:43,639
one in a guided situation with my hypnotherapist, and then

971
00:49:43,760 --> 00:49:46,440
I've done a few more on my own. And here's

972
00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:49,760
something really crazy that will happen in my experience. I've

973
00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:53,760
had the person i've done it about reach out to

974
00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:58,480
me like right after I do it, really shortly thereafter,

975
00:49:58,639 --> 00:50:02,280
like within a week, three times out of three that

976
00:50:02,320 --> 00:50:04,480
person's reached out to me. And so I think it's

977
00:50:04,559 --> 00:50:08,360
like an energetic shift and healing that's like felt on

978
00:50:08,480 --> 00:50:13,079
a vibrational plane. It's obviously not spoken in the flesh,

979
00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:16,480
and you guys don't have the direct conversation, but it's

980
00:50:16,559 --> 00:50:18,679
like a conversation that you can have on kind of

981
00:50:18,719 --> 00:50:24,119
a conscious level with their consciousness and just free yourself

982
00:50:24,320 --> 00:50:27,039
of whatever is holding you back. Whatever is imprisoning you.

983
00:50:27,199 --> 00:50:31,519
Because resentments are miniature prisons within our body and when

984
00:50:31,559 --> 00:50:33,480
we don't let go of them, they control us, they

985
00:50:33,559 --> 00:50:38,320
own us, they wreck us. So do that ritual if

986
00:50:38,320 --> 00:50:42,039
you're struggling with anyone in your life, and most of

987
00:50:42,119 --> 00:50:44,000
us are struggling, but just take the time because it

988
00:50:44,119 --> 00:50:48,239
is a form of self care to forgive people. Forgiveness

989
00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:50,800
is a form of self care. And that's a bitch

990
00:50:50,840 --> 00:50:54,519
because it's also fucking work and I don't like it. Okay,

991
00:50:54,599 --> 00:50:57,519
I am going to roll into bad vice. We're bringing

992
00:50:57,559 --> 00:51:01,000
it back, and you guys have and sending me stuff,

993
00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:04,360
which is great because I need you guys to send

994
00:51:04,519 --> 00:51:06,199
in for this in order for us to have an

995
00:51:06,239 --> 00:51:12,000
interactive relationship. So please DM the Talkin' Schmidt Instagram with

996
00:51:12,119 --> 00:51:13,840
your bad vice and I will do my best to

997
00:51:13,920 --> 00:51:17,239
read yours. Uh Okay, so this one, Haybrid, I've been

998
00:51:17,239 --> 00:51:18,599
a fan of yours for so long and I love

999
00:51:18,599 --> 00:51:21,280
you so much. Thank you, love you too. I need

1000
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:24,000
some bad advice. About eight months ago, I started talking

1001
00:51:24,039 --> 00:51:26,280
to this guy and at first he seemed like everything

1002
00:51:26,360 --> 00:51:29,199
I could want. Taller than me, I'm five nine, sweet,

1003
00:51:29,320 --> 00:51:31,400
not ugly, and we were on the same page about

1004
00:51:31,400 --> 00:51:33,119
a lot of By the way, if somebody who described

1005
00:51:33,159 --> 00:51:36,000
me as not ugly kill me and we were on

1006
00:51:36,039 --> 00:51:38,000
the same page about a lot of stuff like religion

1007
00:51:38,079 --> 00:51:40,880
and finances, well, then I got to know him. He's

1008
00:51:40,880 --> 00:51:42,679
a really nice guy, but there are a few things

1009
00:51:42,760 --> 00:51:45,559
I can't ignore. He's thirty four, which means he's ten

1010
00:51:45,639 --> 00:51:48,480
years older than me, but that isn't what bothers me.

1011
00:51:48,960 --> 00:51:51,760
It's that he's thirty four and living with his mother

1012
00:51:52,960 --> 00:51:56,280
run for the fucking hills. His best friend is his

1013
00:51:56,400 --> 00:52:00,440
ex girlfriend no who still wants him, and he's insecure

1014
00:52:00,480 --> 00:52:02,519
about the fact that I make more money than him,

1015
00:52:02,719 --> 00:52:05,239
when in an ironic twist, he doesn't have a job.

1016
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:07,719
He's been training for a new career, but in the

1017
00:52:07,800 --> 00:52:10,719
meantime turned down everything else he's been offered because it's

1018
00:52:10,760 --> 00:52:13,280
beneath him or seems like a scam, like he's too

1019
00:52:13,320 --> 00:52:15,559
good to wait tables and stuff like that, even though

1020
00:52:16,960 --> 00:52:19,519
it would only be temporary. The more we've been hanging out,

1021
00:52:19,599 --> 00:52:22,039
the more disillusioned I've become with him. For example, the

1022
00:52:22,119 --> 00:52:24,000
last time we hung out, he lectured me on how

1023
00:52:24,079 --> 00:52:28,519
women are keeping themselves single and women objectify men based

1024
00:52:28,599 --> 00:52:31,679
on their bank accounts, and they objectify us based on

1025
00:52:31,760 --> 00:52:35,960
our bodies. So isn't fair fair bitch? Okay, but everything

1026
00:52:36,039 --> 00:52:39,000
he was saying was just broad generalizations that aren't even

1027
00:52:39,039 --> 00:52:41,039
really true. I could go on, but we could fill

1028
00:52:41,039 --> 00:52:43,639
an entire podcast episode on every single red flag this

1029
00:52:43,719 --> 00:52:45,760
guy has. I was wondering how I can end this.

1030
00:52:45,880 --> 00:52:48,159
We're just friends, but he's developing some feelings for me,

1031
00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:50,639
even though I've made it very clear we will only

1032
00:52:50,719 --> 00:52:52,920
ever be friends. I considered a slow ghost, but that's

1033
00:52:53,000 --> 00:52:55,760
just shitty. Any badvice is welcome. I also wanted to

1034
00:52:55,800 --> 00:52:58,039
say I love you, and it's inspiring how vulnerable you

1035
00:52:58,119 --> 00:53:00,599
can be. You've been a constant mechanism for regulating my

1036
00:53:00,679 --> 00:53:02,960
nervous system because you make me laugh and speak your

1037
00:53:03,000 --> 00:53:04,960
truth without giving two folks, and I love you for it.

1038
00:53:05,039 --> 00:53:07,320
I love you so much. Thank you. This means the

1039
00:53:07,360 --> 00:53:10,679
world to me. Honestly, you know they asked me what

1040
00:53:10,800 --> 00:53:12,840
I do and who are doing for? And it's you.

1041
00:53:13,320 --> 00:53:15,679
It's you, and it's anyone who's writing in anyone listening.

1042
00:53:15,760 --> 00:53:18,039
I read all of your dms. I know you guys

1043
00:53:18,079 --> 00:53:19,559
have sent me so much love in this last week

1044
00:53:19,599 --> 00:53:22,280
with Biggie, I honestly can't respond because then I reopened

1045
00:53:22,280 --> 00:53:26,639
that grief wound and I can't. Like I'm like comfortably

1046
00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:28,679
numb right now. So just no, I love you and

1047
00:53:28,719 --> 00:53:31,760
your support means the world to me. But I see it,

1048
00:53:31,880 --> 00:53:33,920
I love it, I appreciate it. I can't respond to

1049
00:53:33,960 --> 00:53:36,960
all of you. Okay, so this guy is a nightmare.

1050
00:53:37,119 --> 00:53:39,360
Good news is you guys aren't actually dating I don't

1051
00:53:39,400 --> 00:53:44,159
think um, you started talking to this guy. Yeah, so

1052
00:53:44,320 --> 00:53:46,199
you're not actually dating him, so you don't need to

1053
00:53:46,239 --> 00:53:49,960
break up with him. A thirty four year old that

1054
00:53:50,079 --> 00:53:54,760
lives with his mom. That's a non starter for me because,

1055
00:53:55,199 --> 00:53:56,920
like I was saying before, what are you doing with

1056
00:53:57,000 --> 00:53:59,000
your mom? Why are you hanging out with your mom

1057
00:53:59,119 --> 00:54:01,239
so much? It's fucking weird to live with your mom.

1058
00:54:01,760 --> 00:54:05,280
And imagine imagine having a kid, and you're like, oh, fuck,

1059
00:54:05,400 --> 00:54:07,239
the next eighteen years of my life I have to

1060
00:54:07,320 --> 00:54:09,840
shelter and feed this little motherfucker. And then it becomes

1061
00:54:10,079 --> 00:54:13,920
thirty four years. Thirty four years, that's not a gamble.

1062
00:54:13,960 --> 00:54:16,639
I'm willing to take. Your thirty four year old son

1063
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:19,320
moves back in and is like, hey, where's the captain crunch?

1064
00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:23,559
Speaker 2: I got a boner, clean out my fucking clean my socks,

1065
00:54:23,639 --> 00:54:28,519
my crunchy socks, like I can't what No, get a job,

1066
00:54:28,719 --> 00:54:29,960
And that's the other thing, get a job.

1067
00:54:30,039 --> 00:54:32,119
Speaker 1: Nothing is beneath any of us. And I need to

1068
00:54:32,159 --> 00:54:33,400
say that, and I need to say that with all

1069
00:54:33,480 --> 00:54:36,159
my heart and my whole fucking chest. I will wait

1070
00:54:36,239 --> 00:54:38,480
tables again. And it's not to say I'm better than

1071
00:54:38,519 --> 00:54:40,199
this guy who's going to school to figure out what

1072
00:54:40,280 --> 00:54:42,719
his career is. But all of us need to be

1073
00:54:42,880 --> 00:54:45,280
humbled and know that nothing is beneath any of us.

1074
00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:48,639
Are we trained and qualified to do more than that? Maybe? Yeah,

1075
00:54:49,079 --> 00:54:50,639
But at the end of the day, money is money

1076
00:54:50,679 --> 00:54:53,519
and you need to get to work. You can't be

1077
00:54:53,639 --> 00:54:55,280
mad that I make more money than you when you

1078
00:54:55,400 --> 00:54:57,880
don't do anything except for judge people that work in

1079
00:54:58,000 --> 00:55:01,679
jobs that you deem beneath you. But is being a

1080
00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:06,360
contributing member of society beneath you? No, being a non

1081
00:55:06,440 --> 00:55:10,480
contributing zero is your whole fucking problem here. He's just jealous.

1082
00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:13,599
He's jealous and he's angry, and he's not I'm sure

1083
00:55:13,599 --> 00:55:16,119
he's not jealous of servers. He's jealous and he's angry,

1084
00:55:16,320 --> 00:55:19,199
And it is true that women objectify bank accounts. That's

1085
00:55:19,239 --> 00:55:22,119
like we've been objectified by our bodies for years and

1086
00:55:22,239 --> 00:55:27,320
years and years. But like, here's the thing. Money comes

1087
00:55:27,400 --> 00:55:32,000
and goes. It's never actually, it's never actually the sense

1088
00:55:32,039 --> 00:55:36,800
of safety that we think it is. But in our minds,

1089
00:55:38,760 --> 00:55:40,840
it would be nice to not have to work quite

1090
00:55:40,880 --> 00:55:42,480
so hard. It would be nice to have a man

1091
00:55:42,559 --> 00:55:45,639
that can provide for you. It would be nice to

1092
00:55:45,760 --> 00:55:49,519
do some of those things. And in the same right, like, yes, men,

1093
00:55:49,679 --> 00:55:54,880
women are objectified by men, but like also, like I

1094
00:55:54,960 --> 00:55:57,039
think it's a free country and we're all allowed to

1095
00:55:57,079 --> 00:55:59,079
do what we want and judge people and deep people

1096
00:55:59,119 --> 00:56:02,119
based on whatever we want. And it's a shame that

1097
00:56:02,360 --> 00:56:05,360
our bodies get so objectified by society at large. It's

1098
00:56:05,400 --> 00:56:08,559
not just men, it's everyone. It's women critique other women

1099
00:56:08,719 --> 00:56:10,360
worse than men do. Men don't even know what the

1100
00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:13,119
fuck's going on. If I came home today with red

1101
00:56:13,199 --> 00:56:18,000
hair down to my fucking kneecaps, Max wouldn't notice. It'll

1102
00:56:18,039 --> 00:56:19,840
be like, oh, you got a tune or something like.

1103
00:56:19,920 --> 00:56:23,519
You wouldn't even notice. Guys don't actually notice. They know

1104
00:56:23,599 --> 00:56:27,159
what they like and they're like Guzunglos like but what,

1105
00:56:27,719 --> 00:56:30,960
and then we're not allowed to want the safety of you. Also,

1106
00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:33,719
it's not always about the money, by the way, it's

1107
00:56:33,840 --> 00:56:36,679
mostly for me. It's not about the money. It's about

1108
00:56:37,039 --> 00:56:39,639
your ambition and how hard of a worker you are,

1109
00:56:40,000 --> 00:56:42,840
and how dedicated you are to making a fucking difference

1110
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:45,880
if you're sitting on your mom's couch in the basement

1111
00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:51,320
playing Xbox, just getting mad at the matriarchy because we

1112
00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:53,599
want somebody who does a little something with their life.

1113
00:56:53,599 --> 00:56:55,920
Why don't you get off your ass and go throw papers?

1114
00:56:56,360 --> 00:56:58,760
Why don't you get off your ass and go fucking

1115
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:01,639
work at a diner. And here's the other thing that's

1116
00:57:01,679 --> 00:57:04,000
crazy is he deems those jobs beneath him. But if

1117
00:57:04,039 --> 00:57:05,760
he did any of those jobs, he would feel better

1118
00:57:05,800 --> 00:57:08,800
about himself, because any of us doing anything makes us

1119
00:57:08,840 --> 00:57:10,760
feel better than sitting on our ass and doing nothing.

1120
00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:12,679
And I can say that confidently because I've sat on

1121
00:57:12,719 --> 00:57:14,760
my ass and done nothing and it feels fucking horrible.

1122
00:57:15,039 --> 00:57:17,440
That's why they say idle hands are the devil's workshop.

1123
00:57:18,519 --> 00:57:19,960
So I think you need to tell him that. You

1124
00:57:20,039 --> 00:57:22,159
say idle hands are the devil's workshop. Your axes in

1125
00:57:22,199 --> 00:57:23,760
love with you. Your mom might be too you need

1126
00:57:23,840 --> 00:57:26,119
to get out of the fucking basement, stop playing Xbox.

1127
00:57:27,159 --> 00:57:29,360
And also, we're not dating. That's all you need to do.

1128
00:57:29,519 --> 00:57:30,559
You need to be like, hey, I just want to

1129
00:57:30,599 --> 00:57:32,920
be very clear that we're not dating and this is

1130
00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:34,880
never going to turn into anything. I think we're different

1131
00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:38,039
on some fundamental levels. That's all you gotta say. Just

1132
00:57:38,039 --> 00:57:42,039
say fundamentally. I think we're going in different directions. Hit

1133
00:57:42,119 --> 00:57:44,320
him with it. We're going in different directions because you

1134
00:57:44,400 --> 00:57:47,760
know what you fucking are. You're fucking going in different directions.

1135
00:57:48,119 --> 00:57:50,360
All right, besties, I love you so much. I hope

1136
00:57:50,360 --> 00:57:52,360
you have a great week. Happy Monday. I will see

1137
00:57:52,360 --> 00:57:54,400
you next week. I'm going to do a really quick

1138
00:57:54,480 --> 00:57:58,159
Artist's Way. Oh and one more thing, I'm doing the

1139
00:57:58,199 --> 00:58:00,719
Patreon this week. I'm doing the pa this week. So

1140
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:02,480
if you guys want a little extra tea, a little

1141
00:58:02,599 --> 00:58:06,199
scalding hot tea stick around, sign up for the Patreon.

1142
00:58:06,239 --> 00:58:09,960
I'm doing it real cheap, like one dollar. If you

1143
00:58:10,039 --> 00:58:12,039
guys can give mom a one dollar a month, it

1144
00:58:12,119 --> 00:58:15,920
would really really be so helpful. There's enough of you

1145
00:58:16,079 --> 00:58:18,639
where each of you. If you gave me one dollar

1146
00:58:18,679 --> 00:58:21,679
a month for the little extra hangout time, I could

1147
00:58:21,679 --> 00:58:23,800
really make this podcast something special, and I really believe

1148
00:58:23,800 --> 00:58:26,199
that we could do it together. So hang out if

1149
00:58:26,239 --> 00:58:28,559
you can on the Patreon and if not, I'll see

1150
00:58:28,639 --> 00:58:31,920
you next week. Okay, love you by Okay you guys, Hi,

1151
00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:35,840
what's up? Artists way, besties. We're gonna go a little

1152
00:58:35,920 --> 00:58:38,239
quick through this week. It's week two. We're only going

1153
00:58:38,320 --> 00:58:39,519
quick cause I have to get to the airport and

1154
00:58:39,519 --> 00:58:43,639
I don't want to spank flight. If you're still hanging on, great,

1155
00:58:44,000 --> 00:58:47,559
can you guys comment or DM and let me know

1156
00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:49,519
if you guys are enjoying this, if you're liking this,

1157
00:58:49,639 --> 00:58:52,360
if you're still hanging on. It's week two. This is

1158
00:58:52,400 --> 00:58:54,519
where people start to bail. We start to decide, you

1159
00:58:54,639 --> 00:58:56,400
know what, this is too hard. I don't like it.

1160
00:58:56,800 --> 00:58:58,559
We have a lot of voises in our head. Mostly

1161
00:58:58,639 --> 00:59:00,519
the sensor that comes in is like, this is stupid,

1162
00:59:00,559 --> 00:59:02,480
this is dumb, this is all not working for me.

1163
00:59:02,559 --> 00:59:06,679
It's not worth it. So if you guys could comment, DM,

1164
00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:08,360
let me know if you're still hanging on. I want

1165
00:59:08,400 --> 00:59:09,960
to make sure that I'm doing this for someone and

1166
00:59:10,039 --> 00:59:12,360
not just myself. Even if it is just for myself,

1167
00:59:12,360 --> 00:59:13,840
I'll keep going, but I just want to see if

1168
00:59:13,880 --> 00:59:17,199
any of you guys are are hanging on. So Week

1169
00:59:17,280 --> 00:59:21,159
two is all about recovering a sense of identity. And

1170
00:59:21,280 --> 00:59:24,000
here's the thing. When you start going sane, it feels

1171
00:59:24,159 --> 00:59:27,440
just like going crazy. Okay, So it's gonna feel things

1172
00:59:27,440 --> 00:59:31,760
are gonna feel really uncomfortable. You're sort of inner child

1173
00:59:31,880 --> 00:59:34,679
that's been squished down into a fucking well for so long.

1174
00:59:34,760 --> 00:59:37,400
It's gonna be like, ah, it feels very scary up here.

1175
00:59:37,400 --> 00:59:38,800
I've been in the dark for so long. I don't

1176
00:59:38,840 --> 00:59:40,400
know if I want to come out if you'l spooky

1177
00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:45,559
up here. So as we start to gain strength as creatives,

1178
00:59:45,639 --> 00:59:48,360
just remember so will our self doubt. Those voices are

1179
00:59:48,440 --> 00:59:50,239
going to get louder and louder, and they're going to

1180
00:59:50,280 --> 00:59:53,079
tell you how stupid this work is and how productive

1181
00:59:53,119 --> 00:59:54,480
it is and how it's just a waste of time

1182
00:59:54,519 --> 00:59:56,519
and how you don't have time for it and you know,

1183
00:59:56,800 --> 00:59:59,679
nothing really matters, and this is this isn't gonna work.

1184
00:59:59,760 --> 01:00:02,559
So so you're going to start to hear things being like, oh,

1185
01:00:02,599 --> 01:00:05,119
this is just temporary. Okay, fine, I did the morning pages,

1186
01:00:05,159 --> 01:00:07,599
but like, who cares, you know what I mean. So

1187
01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:09,880
there's a lot of alignment that's going on, But there's

1188
01:00:09,880 --> 01:00:11,320
also going to be a lot of voices telling you

1189
01:00:11,440 --> 01:00:13,960
that stumb it's a waste of time. Just know that's

1190
01:00:13,960 --> 01:00:18,199
all very normal and keep going. So buying into those

1191
01:00:18,280 --> 01:00:21,000
thoughts are going to keep you stuck, and we don't

1192
01:00:21,039 --> 01:00:23,760
want to be stuck, okay, So we can neutralize those

1193
01:00:23,840 --> 01:00:27,239
once we recognize them as a creative virus. Affirmations are

1194
01:00:27,239 --> 01:00:31,079
a powerful antidote for self hate, which commonly appears under

1195
01:00:31,079 --> 01:00:33,400
the mask of self doubt. So that's really important. The

1196
01:00:33,480 --> 01:00:36,679
self doubt is self hate, which is really hard to

1197
01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:38,679
accept for a lot of us because we don't. A

1198
01:00:38,719 --> 01:00:41,480
lot of us don't identify as self loathing. I do, obviously,

1199
01:00:41,519 --> 01:00:43,599
you guys know that about me. I do, but a

1200
01:00:43,639 --> 01:00:45,079
lot of us don't. A lot of us are in

1201
01:00:45,159 --> 01:00:49,000
our mindset like no, I'm good, I love myself, I

1202
01:00:49,079 --> 01:00:53,159
love my life, everything's good. So the self doubt that's

1203
01:00:53,239 --> 01:00:56,119
starting to perk up in the creative recovery, just know

1204
01:00:56,280 --> 01:00:58,960
that is a form of self hatred, and we just

1205
01:00:59,079 --> 01:01:01,199
need to take care of our little baby inner artist

1206
01:01:01,320 --> 01:01:04,159
and not expose it to too many outside threats. We

1207
01:01:04,239 --> 01:01:07,679
don't need, you know, our friends or family or relatives,

1208
01:01:07,719 --> 01:01:10,559
anyone kind of getting in the way of our emotional recovery, Okay,

1209
01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:13,679
and so the sense of safety and acceptance is the

1210
01:01:13,760 --> 01:01:16,920
most important thing. And there's something that we go over

1211
01:01:17,039 --> 01:01:20,320
in this chapter called poisonous playmates. Poisonous playmates are people

1212
01:01:20,360 --> 01:01:22,960
that you surround yourself with that are sort of squelching

1213
01:01:23,079 --> 01:01:25,679
out this inner artist that's trying to come out. So

1214
01:01:25,719 --> 01:01:28,840
imagine it's like a ground hog, remember that game Whack

1215
01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:30,840
a Mole. Like you're just like one of the groundhogs

1216
01:01:30,880 --> 01:01:32,880
popping out, and like someone's gonna be like bop and

1217
01:01:33,039 --> 01:01:35,079
just fucking hit you in the head. Those are gonna

1218
01:01:35,079 --> 01:01:41,199
be people that like sitting on the bench and being cynicist, cynicism,

1219
01:01:41,280 --> 01:01:48,360
having cynicism, skeptists, skepticists, skeptical, skeptical. You guys, my brain's

1220
01:01:48,400 --> 01:01:50,599
not working after yesterday. I was out in the sun

1221
01:01:50,679 --> 01:01:56,480
for way too long. But yeah, they basically realize that

1222
01:01:56,599 --> 01:02:00,239
here's the thing with creative recovery. Creative recovery is a

1223
01:02:00,360 --> 01:02:03,719
lot like recovery from drugs and alcohol. Were the people

1224
01:02:03,800 --> 01:02:07,400
that you used to party with aren't gonna want you

1225
01:02:07,440 --> 01:02:09,760
to get sober because what that does is that puts

1226
01:02:09,800 --> 01:02:11,639
up a mirror for them to get sober and for

1227
01:02:11,679 --> 01:02:13,400
them to realize they have a problem, and to also

1228
01:02:13,480 --> 01:02:15,159
realize that they could get well if they did a

1229
01:02:15,199 --> 01:02:17,079
few simple things. But they're not willing to do that

1230
01:02:17,159 --> 01:02:19,360
because they don't want that mirror shining on them. So

1231
01:02:19,440 --> 01:02:22,320
when you start to creatively recover the people around you

1232
01:02:22,440 --> 01:02:25,039
that you felt safe with, like the people that you

1233
01:02:25,360 --> 01:02:28,840
mocked bad actors on TV with, or the people that

1234
01:02:28,920 --> 01:02:30,760
you went to a play and you're like, ugh, that

1235
01:02:30,920 --> 01:02:34,239
was so cringe, or the people that you like, you know,

1236
01:02:34,400 --> 01:02:36,119
saw a piece of art out in the world and

1237
01:02:36,159 --> 01:02:37,480
they're like, I could do that, and you're like I

1238
01:02:37,519 --> 01:02:40,320
could do that too, And you start to get well

1239
01:02:40,360 --> 01:02:42,760
and you start to create and you start to be creative.

1240
01:02:42,840 --> 01:02:44,800
Those people are not gonna want to see you get well.

1241
01:02:45,079 --> 01:02:46,719
Those people are gonna want to keep you down. It's

1242
01:02:46,760 --> 01:02:52,239
like crabs in a bucket, right, So just remember remember that. Also,

1243
01:02:52,320 --> 01:02:55,239
remember creativity is blocked by our falling in with other

1244
01:02:55,320 --> 01:02:57,480
people's plans for us. So a lot of our creativity

1245
01:02:57,519 --> 01:03:00,480
throughout our lives has been blocked by using what our

1246
01:03:00,519 --> 01:03:04,159
parents tell us to do, doing what our partners want

1247
01:03:04,239 --> 01:03:06,639
us to do, rather than doing what our heart song

1248
01:03:06,760 --> 01:03:08,519
wants us to do. So just make sure you follow

1249
01:03:08,559 --> 01:03:11,840
that creative heart song because that's going to be really important.

1250
01:03:11,960 --> 01:03:15,079
And just remember the great Creator has gifted us with creativity.

1251
01:03:15,199 --> 01:03:20,000
Our gift back is to use it. So you have

1252
01:03:20,119 --> 01:03:22,320
to be an example through your own recovery. That's the

1253
01:03:22,440 --> 01:03:26,599
only way that I've found works in both creative recovery

1254
01:03:26,639 --> 01:03:29,000
and regular recovery. Like you just have to show people

1255
01:03:29,079 --> 01:03:31,880
you can do it and listen, Like, my recovery is

1256
01:03:31,920 --> 01:03:35,760
not perfect, whether it's drugs and alcohol or it's creativity.

1257
01:03:35,840 --> 01:03:38,480
I struggled with my morning pages this week. I'll be honest.

1258
01:03:38,519 --> 01:03:40,039
I did them, but I did like a page and

1259
01:03:40,079 --> 01:03:43,119
a half instead of three pages. So like I'm struggling

1260
01:03:43,199 --> 01:03:44,639
on this journey with you guys. I don't want you

1261
01:03:44,679 --> 01:03:46,480
to think that I'm doing it perfectly, but I'm doing

1262
01:03:46,559 --> 01:03:48,679
my best. And just like remember when you're doing those

1263
01:03:48,719 --> 01:03:51,119
morning pages, that is your time between you and God.

1264
01:03:51,559 --> 01:03:55,239
So it's really important. It's really important to not prioritize

1265
01:03:55,280 --> 01:03:58,960
getting coffee with your partner and you know, doing other

1266
01:03:59,039 --> 01:04:00,920
things in the morning. You need to have a little

1267
01:04:01,000 --> 01:04:03,159
routine and build this into it because it's it is

1268
01:04:03,320 --> 01:04:06,320
like a direct channel between you and God. Okay and

1269
01:04:06,440 --> 01:04:08,880
your own healing is the greatest message of hope for

1270
01:04:09,000 --> 01:04:11,639
anyone else. And this chapter is one of my favorite

1271
01:04:11,679 --> 01:04:14,320
chapters because it talks about crazy makers. Crazy makers I

1272
01:04:14,360 --> 01:04:16,519
have talked about before. I've had them in my life

1273
01:04:16,679 --> 01:04:20,719
throughout my life for a long time. Some of my

1274
01:04:20,840 --> 01:04:24,599
best friends have been crazy makers, like absolute crazy makers

1275
01:04:24,719 --> 01:04:27,400
and crazy makers. I've talked about this before, but those

1276
01:04:27,440 --> 01:04:31,280
are the personalities that create storm centers. They are often charismatic,

1277
01:04:31,400 --> 01:04:35,119
frequently charming, highly inventive, and powerfully persuasive, and for the

1278
01:04:35,199 --> 01:04:38,280
creative person in the vicinity, they are enormously destructive, you

1279
01:04:38,360 --> 01:04:40,559
know the type. Charismatic but out of control, long n

1280
01:04:40,639 --> 01:04:43,360
problems and short on solutions. Crazy makers are the kind

1281
01:04:43,360 --> 01:04:45,119
of people who can take over your whole life to

1282
01:04:45,159 --> 01:04:47,840
the fix of your uppers. They are irresistible, so much

1283
01:04:47,920 --> 01:04:50,679
to change, so many distractions. So crazy makers in this

1284
01:04:50,960 --> 01:04:53,800
is like it's a fun word, but I think in

1285
01:04:53,920 --> 01:04:57,880
real life these are actually clinically unwell. People like these

1286
01:04:57,920 --> 01:04:59,920
are people I've been so drawn to in my life,

1287
01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:04,199
whether they're borderline or bipolar or whatever they are, because

1288
01:05:04,239 --> 01:05:06,719
they're so unpredictable and they're so all over the place,

1289
01:05:06,760 --> 01:05:08,639
and they're so up and down, and it is it

1290
01:05:08,800 --> 01:05:12,039
does breed a sort of addictive relationship. And then when

1291
01:05:12,079 --> 01:05:14,559
you pour all of your energy into trying to predict

1292
01:05:14,639 --> 01:05:16,760
what fucking mood we might get today, or trying to

1293
01:05:16,840 --> 01:05:19,840
figure out where you fall in this person's good graces

1294
01:05:19,960 --> 01:05:23,039
or bad graces today, that can take away all of

1295
01:05:23,079 --> 01:05:25,760
the energy that you're supposed to be putting towards your creativity.

1296
01:05:26,039 --> 01:05:28,920
So these people are excellent for us to stay blocked.

1297
01:05:30,079 --> 01:05:32,639
But they're larger than life. They acquire that status by

1298
01:05:32,679 --> 01:05:35,320
feeding on the life energies of those around them. So

1299
01:05:35,480 --> 01:05:38,840
these are oftentimes famous people. In my circle, they're usually

1300
01:05:38,880 --> 01:05:43,280
famous people. I can think of a few. But what

1301
01:05:43,400 --> 01:05:46,599
I will say is just because in my circle they're

1302
01:05:46,639 --> 01:05:49,559
oftentimes famous people, that doesn't mean that I didn't have

1303
01:05:49,639 --> 01:05:51,199
them when I was growing up. When I was growing up,

1304
01:05:51,239 --> 01:05:53,199
my mom was the crazy maker of the house. And

1305
01:05:53,440 --> 01:05:58,559
these people will hijack your time schedule. They discount your reality.

1306
01:05:58,639 --> 01:06:00,880
No matter how important your deadline or how critical your

1307
01:06:00,920 --> 01:06:04,119
work trajectory at the moment, crazy makers will violate your needs.

1308
01:06:04,599 --> 01:06:09,840
Crazy makers triangular sorry, crazy makers triangulate those that they

1309
01:06:09,960 --> 01:06:12,719
deal with and What that means is pit people against

1310
01:06:12,760 --> 01:06:15,559
each other. They create drama, they create chaos like they

1311
01:06:15,599 --> 01:06:18,800
are always the epicenter of the nuclear family. They are

1312
01:06:18,840 --> 01:06:22,280
the nucleus of fucking insanity. Okay, they break deals, they

1313
01:06:22,400 --> 01:06:27,280
destroy schedules, they expect special treatment. They're expert blamers. Nothing

1314
01:06:27,400 --> 01:06:30,280
is ever their fault. It's always your fault, and they

1315
01:06:30,400 --> 01:06:32,159
believe that in their head to be true. Whether or

1316
01:06:32,159 --> 01:06:34,880
not they created a situation out of fucking dust, out

1317
01:06:34,920 --> 01:06:37,960
of thin air, they will one hundred percent have a

1318
01:06:38,159 --> 01:06:41,039
fucking point list of why it's all your fault. They

1319
01:06:41,119 --> 01:06:44,440
hate schedules, they create drama, they hate order. They deny

1320
01:06:44,559 --> 01:06:47,360
that they're crazy makers. If crazy makers are that destructive,

1321
01:06:47,400 --> 01:06:49,320
what are we doing involved with them? The answer, to

1322
01:06:49,400 --> 01:06:51,559
be brief but brutal, is we're crazy. We are that

1323
01:06:51,719 --> 01:06:55,599
crazy ourselves, and we are that self destructive. So yes,

1324
01:06:55,719 --> 01:06:58,599
as black creatives, we are willing to go almost any

1325
01:06:58,679 --> 01:07:01,519
lengths to remain blocked. As frightened and abusive as life

1326
01:07:01,559 --> 01:07:04,360
with a crazy maker is, we find it far less threatening.

1327
01:07:04,960 --> 01:07:08,960
The challenge of far less threatening then the challenge of

1328
01:07:09,000 --> 01:07:11,719
a creative life on our own. Using this fear as

1329
01:07:11,760 --> 01:07:14,960
our excuse, we continue to allow others to abuse us.

1330
01:07:16,559 --> 01:07:18,880
So you get into like this tortured tango with these people,

1331
01:07:18,920 --> 01:07:20,519
and here's the thing, you can two step right out

1332
01:07:20,519 --> 01:07:22,239
of that bitch. So if you have a crazy maker

1333
01:07:22,280 --> 01:07:24,519
in your life, start to Homer Simpson into a bush

1334
01:07:24,559 --> 01:07:27,360
with them. Just start to walk backwards, because I promise

1335
01:07:27,400 --> 01:07:30,320
you they will take every ounce of energy and every

1336
01:07:30,400 --> 01:07:33,039
ounce of your life blood until you throw in the

1337
01:07:33,079 --> 01:07:36,960
white towel. Okay. So skepticism is going to be the

1338
01:07:37,000 --> 01:07:38,840
inner enemy. That's going to be the key thing that

1339
01:07:39,360 --> 01:07:41,840
keeps us from ourselves. Like I said earlier, it's the

1340
01:07:41,920 --> 01:07:45,039
self doubt. It's the oh, but what if this doesn't work.

1341
01:07:45,119 --> 01:07:48,280
It probably won't work it, you know. It's you have

1342
01:07:48,400 --> 01:07:50,400
to be so talented to get ahead in this field.

1343
01:07:50,400 --> 01:07:52,599
There's a point zero is your one percent chance you

1344
01:07:52,679 --> 01:07:56,280
make it in this field. It's that skepticism. It's often

1345
01:07:56,440 --> 01:08:00,559
factually based fears that we've picked up along the way

1346
01:08:00,599 --> 01:08:03,039
to keep us from sort of creating at the highest level,

1347
01:08:03,199 --> 01:08:08,360
or any level at all. Okay. One of the things

1348
01:08:08,480 --> 01:08:12,960
most worth noting in creative recovery is our reluctance to

1349
01:08:13,000 --> 01:08:15,719
take seriously the possibility that the universe just might be

1350
01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:19,079
cooperating with our new and expanded plans. We've gotten brave

1351
01:08:19,199 --> 01:08:21,680
enough to try recovery, but we don't want the universe

1352
01:08:21,720 --> 01:08:24,279
to really pay attention. We still feel too much like

1353
01:08:24,359 --> 01:08:26,960
frauds to handle some success when it comes. We want

1354
01:08:27,000 --> 01:08:31,960
it to go okay. So here's the antithesis to this

1355
01:08:32,399 --> 01:08:34,840
is going to be attention. Paying attention to your life,

1356
01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:37,439
paying attention to the beauty, paying attention to the details.

1357
01:08:37,479 --> 01:08:41,000
Bad things can be happening to you, but the creativity

1358
01:08:41,119 --> 01:08:43,239
is in the paying attention. And sometimes it takes an

1359
01:08:43,359 --> 01:08:45,479
enormous amount of pain for us to pay attention. I

1360
01:08:45,520 --> 01:08:47,960
don't know if you guys have ever noticed that when

1361
01:08:48,000 --> 01:08:51,520
you have something horrifying happened to you, you remember every

1362
01:08:51,560 --> 01:08:53,720
single detail of the day. Like when Biggie died. I

1363
01:08:53,880 --> 01:08:56,800
remember where the moon was, I remember what it looked like.

1364
01:08:56,840 --> 01:08:59,640
I remember how the water, how the moon was shining

1365
01:08:59,720 --> 01:09:02,800
on the I remember the billboards that we were passing

1366
01:09:02,880 --> 01:09:05,920
on the way to the er. I remember everything. I

1367
01:09:06,000 --> 01:09:08,600
remember his little eyes, I remember the blanket he was in.

1368
01:09:08,760 --> 01:09:13,359
I remember everything about that. But oftentimes, if you want

1369
01:09:13,520 --> 01:09:16,680
to not have something horrifying happen in order for us

1370
01:09:16,720 --> 01:09:18,479
to pay attention. Then you just have to pay attention.

1371
01:09:18,600 --> 01:09:19,920
And one of the best ways to do that, I

1372
01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:21,920
think is when you're in your morning pages, to look

1373
01:09:21,960 --> 01:09:24,600
around and to be like, the beautiful lilies are blooming,

1374
01:09:24,680 --> 01:09:25,880
the lizard found his son.

1375
01:09:26,039 --> 01:09:26,199
Speaker 3: You know.

1376
01:09:26,680 --> 01:09:29,560
Speaker 1: I think we used to pay a lot more detail

1377
01:09:29,600 --> 01:09:31,760
to the life around us because we weren't so constantly

1378
01:09:31,840 --> 01:09:34,399
distracted by social media. So if we can stay off

1379
01:09:34,439 --> 01:09:36,479
our phones and just look at the life around us,

1380
01:09:36,560 --> 01:09:41,359
pay attention. God is in the details, and just remember

1381
01:09:41,439 --> 01:09:45,239
all of this work is working through God. And I'm

1382
01:09:45,239 --> 01:09:47,039
really proud of you guys for being on this journey.

1383
01:09:47,159 --> 01:09:50,439
I did do an artist state this week. I got

1384
01:09:50,520 --> 01:09:52,279
a paint by numbers and I did a little paint

1385
01:09:52,319 --> 01:09:55,119
by numbers and that was super fun. I'm sorry to

1386
01:09:55,159 --> 01:09:55,640
rush through this.

1387
01:09:55,880 --> 01:09:56,920
Speaker 3: I just have to go.

1388
01:09:57,359 --> 01:09:58,840
Speaker 1: I have to get out of a plane. But I

1389
01:09:58,920 --> 01:10:00,479
love you so much and I hope to see you

1390
01:10:00,479 --> 01:10:03,199
on the Patreon and I will talk to you in

1391
01:10:03,399 --> 01:10:04,520
five minutes. Okay.

1392
01:10:04,600 --> 01:10:04,800
Speaker 2: Bye,