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Speaker 1: I truly really regret that I'm not able to go.
Speaker 1: I'm honestly really regretting it. But I'm going to have
Speaker 1: a newborn baby that's like three weeks old, so I'll
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Speaker 1: them for sponsoring our show. Now, Alex and I were
Speaker 1: talking about it before we started recording, and he thought
Speaker 1: it would be a really good idea to dig a
Speaker 1: little bit more into this. And I'm like, whatever you say,
Speaker 1: I mean, right right, right, whatever you say. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm in charge. Yeah, I'm more of the opinion. You
Speaker 1: just show and you just do, you know, and you
Speaker 1: don't talk, talk, talk talk about what you do. But sure,
Speaker 1: I mean you know, I'll humor you, I'll throw you
Speaker 1: a bone to make you doss island fed. But since okay,
Speaker 1: so let's go through the time. Like a hungry ghost
Speaker 1: over here. Yeah, that's right, that's right, and your greed
Speaker 1: consumes you. But in all seriousness, so Nick left the
Speaker 1: show in July. To you guys, it was August because
Speaker 1: it was you know, a week or so of like
Speaker 1: figuring out what we're gonna do, recording his last episode,
Speaker 1: all that, airing it at the end of August. But
Speaker 1: in reality he left the show on it was like
Speaker 1: July twenty eighth, or the night that he came over
Speaker 1: and was like, you know, I'm I'm gonna be phasing
Speaker 1: out of this, and Alex and I got to talking
Speaker 1: a lot like Okay, well that sucks. It's a bummer,
Speaker 1: but let's you know, figure out what's next to keep
Speaker 1: the passion of this alive and to keep it on track.
Speaker 1: And you know, none of that stuff was ever a
Speaker 1: question like, yeah, we're obviously going to still do this,
Speaker 1: but what's it going to look like, how's it going
Speaker 1: to be? What form will that take? The structure, the process, everything,
Speaker 1: We just you know, really decided to look at the
Speaker 1: whole picture and like where are we going to go
Speaker 1: from here? And it was a while, I think because
Speaker 1: of that transition period. It took us a while to
Speaker 1: really like get into the swing of things. And then
Speaker 1: the other thing that was crazy was we knew that
Speaker 1: you had a baby coming in December, so we were
Speaker 1: in this weird evolutionary period or you could say like
Speaker 1: a bardo based on you know, the last week's theme,
Speaker 1: but we were in this weird space of Okay, so
Speaker 1: Nick just left. We got to figure that out and
Speaker 1: what that's going to look like.
Speaker 2: And you know, it's like a hurry up and wait,
Speaker 2: because yeah, you don't know what the capacity is going
Speaker 2: to be after having the kid, and what life's going
Speaker 2: to look like.
Speaker 1: And yeah, hurry up and wait. That describes it very well,
Speaker 1: like we've got stuff to do, but also we're gonna
Speaker 1: have to wait. Yeah. So the point I'm making without
Speaker 1: going in circles is like we had to figure out
Speaker 1: how we were going to get through that period of
Speaker 1: you know, transitioning to the new feeling of the show
Speaker 1: without our third partner and the guy who typically fills
Speaker 1: the air time and the dialogue with me, to you know,
Speaker 1: growing into a whole new thing while also facing a
Speaker 1: wall in a few months where Alex was gonna have
Speaker 1: the most important thing in his entire life happened, and
Speaker 1: his baby be born and take off an entire month,
Speaker 1: so and there's the holidays anyway, you know, Christmas time,
Speaker 1: so we're like, what do we do? You know, so
Speaker 1: we it took a little bit to catch our stride,
Speaker 1: and then around about October, I guess some some things
Speaker 1: occurred to me. I mean, in the beginning when he quit,
Speaker 1: I knew that the new direction that I was going
Speaker 1: to want to go in. But in October something happened
Speaker 1: that confirmed it to me that this was the way
Speaker 1: to go, that it would, you know, be how it's
Speaker 1: supposed to be. And essentially what that is is I
Speaker 1: realized that in the past and there's nothing wrong with this,
Speaker 1: and it was very fun, but I realized that it
Speaker 1: wasn't sustainable for me and fulfilling to continue doing the
Speaker 1: content at random and because of the nature of the
Speaker 1: first you know, four years of the show and Nick
Speaker 1: not having lived here for those first three years, so
Speaker 1: that was insane. So our schedule was just like, hustle, hustle,
Speaker 1: hustle to make the show even stay alive with us
Speaker 1: all not living in the same town, and you know,
Speaker 1: figure out, okay, when he comes and stays two weekends
Speaker 1: a month. Each time, he stays, we have to do
Speaker 1: three episodes, which means throughout the week I had to
Speaker 1: hit you know, three topics worth of research or whatever
Speaker 1: to where I felt confident in some way to talk
Speaker 1: about something. Because there's a level of pressure I'm going
Speaker 1: to record something, I'm going to talk about it, and
Speaker 1: it's going to go out to the internet to thousands
Speaker 1: of people. There's a level of pressure or performance anxiety
Speaker 1: or whatever. So it was it was that hurdle of
Speaker 1: like trying to survive that state, and you know, I
Speaker 1: don't know what we're going to talk about for three
Speaker 1: topics this week. I mean that was the first three years,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So it was like, well,
Speaker 1: let's do a movie, then let's do a what if.
Speaker 1: Then we'll do like a topic, and that way will
Speaker 1: split the workloads so that we're not mentally burned out
Speaker 1: and we can sustain. And it went on like that
Speaker 1: for a while, and then he moved here for the
Speaker 1: last year that he was on the show, and you
Speaker 1: know the problem there is then I bought a house
Speaker 1: and I went through like so many months of construction
Speaker 1: and was completely mentally burned out and It's just the
Speaker 1: point is there were so many things that were like
Speaker 1: constantly being tossed up in the air where we you know,
Speaker 1: despite how well the show has done by some measures,
Speaker 1: to us, it's always kind of felt sometimes like hanging
Speaker 1: on by a thread. I mean, at least to me,
Speaker 1: like I'm not doing enough, I'm not getting out there enough,
Speaker 1: I'm not publishing enough, I'm not hitting it hard enough.
Speaker 1: Just hanging on, you know. And then and again that's okay,
Speaker 1: Like it was fun and we were learning and we
Speaker 1: were growing. And you look at like Joe Rogan, for example,
Speaker 1: he has how many episodes, he has two thousand or
Speaker 1: something episodes. Dude, for the first one hundred or two hundred,
Speaker 1: he probably was like, had no clue what he was doing.
Speaker 1: For anybody that does something in the beginning, they probably
Speaker 1: have no clue what they're doing. That's totally normal with art,
Speaker 1: with whatever. And you know, I'm not like knocking how
Speaker 1: we were what the show. I mean, it was great,
Speaker 1: it was pure. I still think of the older days
Speaker 1: of the show and the nostalgia of how that was
Speaker 1: and the process and the vibe and the fun of it.
Speaker 1: But I knew in my head and from episode zero,
Speaker 1: and also I should mention this is the most important
Speaker 1: part actually that along the way, I can't speak for you, Alex,
Speaker 1: but at least me personally, I went through extreme levels
Speaker 1: of growth and healing and maturity, where in the beginning
Speaker 1: of the show, I don't feel like I was very
Speaker 1: mature about the way that I presented myself to the world. Now,
Speaker 1: when I say mature, I don't mean like, you know,
Speaker 1: push your glasses up and tuck into your shirt and
Speaker 1: do your taxes and get a job. That's not what
Speaker 1: I mean. I just mean like emotionally mature or spiritually mature.
Speaker 1: I don't feel that I presented myself in a way
Speaker 1: that is without regret sometimes because I had a lot
Speaker 1: of trauma and I felt like I was lashing out.
Speaker 1: You know, there were certain aspects of me that I
Speaker 1: felt were, you know, getting revenge against that. Not that
Speaker 1: I thought that consciously, it was subconscious, right, I'm getting
Speaker 1: revenge to the people in the CIA who threaten to
Speaker 1: kill us or whatever what WASDIA technically, but you know,
Speaker 1: or the people that cyberstalked us online, or the people
Speaker 1: that harassed us or doubted us or mocked us, and
Speaker 1: somewhere in my mind, somewhere deep down, I was like,
Speaker 1: you know, fuck you guys, like I'm getting back at you,
Speaker 1: and you know, and that was wrong. And so that's
Speaker 1: another element too, that like throughout the years, it's this
Speaker 1: is our fifth year. We're going into the fifth year
Speaker 1: of the show. Wow, I know, right, that's insane, Like
Speaker 1: you're not even in high school for five years. But
Speaker 1: it's gone by in a flash. It really has, hasn't it. It
Speaker 1: feels like we just started.
Speaker 2: And but the personal growth too, I mean, to your point,
Speaker 2: it's been insane, and I feel like I talk about
Speaker 2: that a lot like my my my personal spiritual journey.
Speaker 2: You know, the knowledge that that you've brought to me
Speaker 2: or and participated in altogether is incredible. Yeah, it's it's
Speaker 2: I'm a completely different person. And I tend to really
Speaker 2: avoid going back to some of those early episodes where
Speaker 2: but it's good. It means it means you grew right
Speaker 2: to be cringing at the old self. But still I'm like,
Speaker 2: man that for two different people. Now, would me in
Speaker 2: episode eleven, Alex or whenever I got a microphone?
Speaker 1: Yeah? Man, And at that time, you were like twenty
Speaker 1: three years.
Speaker 2: Ago twenty one, twenty nine. No, I'm twenty seven, so
Speaker 2: you were like twenty three something like that, yeah, or
Speaker 2: twenty two two, twenty three.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, I mean now you're twenty seven and you
Speaker 1: have a baby late. Yeah, it's just crazy and you've
Speaker 1: been married and like it's just insane like for us,
Speaker 1: And yeah, I guess I am glad we talked about
Speaker 1: this because we haven't done an episode in a while
Speaker 1: like this where we just got to talk without a topic,
Speaker 1: and it's nice to not have to always succumb to
Speaker 1: that pressure. What am I gonna talk about? What am
Speaker 1: I going to talk about? Whatever? Talk about whatever I want.
Speaker 1: But yeah, and there was a lot of growth too
Speaker 1: that happened in the background in our lives since we
Speaker 1: started the show. We're not in the same place we
Speaker 1: were then. We are now. My dad put out a book.
Speaker 1: You know, lots of amazing things have happened, the mass
Speaker 1: sky watches that came from this, and you know, I
Speaker 1: don't have to stay here and go through five years
Speaker 1: of all the incredible things that have happened and the
Speaker 1: hard things that have happened. But we have grown. But
Speaker 1: it always felt like, for whatever reason, we were hanging
Speaker 1: on by a thread and running on fumes, at least
Speaker 1: for me. So Nick left the show basically to the public.
Speaker 1: It came out in August, and I had time to
Speaker 1: think about, you know, the direction that I wanted to go,
Speaker 1: and I realized that I had to get serious that
Speaker 1: twenty twenty six was only a few months away. There's
Speaker 1: a lot of pressure there, and I had a responsibility
Speaker 1: most of all, to fill the void of this show,
Speaker 1: because you know, it's a whole different element going from
Speaker 1: having somebody who talks, you know, forty or fifty percent
Speaker 1: of the time and now it's basically mean ninety five
Speaker 1: percent of the time, you know, And that was a
Speaker 1: big mental hurdle to learn how to overcome, you know.
Speaker 1: But I realized that there was a thread that I
Speaker 1: wanted to pull. I wanted to start going in a
Speaker 1: certain line talking about things that mattered to me without
Speaker 1: like some sort of random This week, let's talk about Stargate,
Speaker 1: fun episode. But who cares? You know, I care.
Speaker 2: My coworker actually absolutely loves Stargate and that that's the
Speaker 2: only episode of ours he's.
Speaker 1: Watched a way that's funny. Okay, Well, let me take
Speaker 1: a step back and it's like Godzilla. Who cares. I've
Speaker 1: had people tell me they loved it and they're obsessed
Speaker 1: with Godzilla. I'm like, great, But you know, it's like
Speaker 1: I just decided I don't want to talk about niche
Speaker 1: things anymore. That was fun. I enjoyed it, every minute
Speaker 1: of that. I don't regret. It's it's like a part
Speaker 1: of and who knows, Like maybe someday I'll do stuff
Speaker 1: like that. Again, I'm not saying never, but I just
Speaker 1: realized I had to get serious, that there are troubling
Speaker 1: times ahead for humanity, and that I felt really compelled
Speaker 1: like I had to start pulling a certain thread. So
Speaker 1: when this begin was the episode called the Goddess and Alex,
Speaker 1: you probably didn't realize I was going to talk about this,
Speaker 1: but it's important, and some things have happened around that episode.
Speaker 1: And we recorded that episode in September. It's right after
Speaker 1: Nick quit, you know, and we had guests lined up
Speaker 1: and with this thread that I decided that I wanted
Speaker 1: to be pulling in between a lot of these episodes.
Speaker 1: There have been guests, which is fine, and that's like
Speaker 1: I still will do guests and I love doing them.
Speaker 1: But it started with the Goddess right, So we recorded
Speaker 1: that in September. Something happened in that episode. We talked
Speaker 1: about a story that I had never heard of, which
Speaker 1: was the Miraculous Medal. It's the one with Katherine Leboor
Speaker 1: in eighteen thirties and she basically sees all the lights
Speaker 1: on in the chapel and she goes outside to see,
Speaker 1: like what's going on. She walks into the church and
Speaker 1: the lady in the form of the Virgin Mary is
Speaker 1: inside the church and she, you know, Catherine goes and
Speaker 1: like kneels down and puts her head in her lap
Speaker 1: or whatever it says happens, which got laburee. Oh, labree, Catherine, laburee, labree.
Speaker 1: I didn't realize that we go ahead and say it.
Speaker 2: Someone I met, some very important uh lady I met
Speaker 2: at Riverfest wanted me to correct you.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that matters so much. I realized a long
Speaker 1: time ago, like it was no good to correct.
Speaker 2: I'm like, if there was an episode to correct you,
Speaker 2: it's probably gonna be this.
Speaker 1: Yeah, silly man. People people are so uptight about how
Speaker 1: people pronounce things. But I get it, you know, elaborated,
Speaker 1: that's the right way to pronounce it. So I'm going
Speaker 1: to lean into your French. I don't have any I
Speaker 1: was born in North Carolina, yet, man, I was born
Speaker 1: in the freaking country, dude, I don't, no, I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't know that stuff very well. I would love to,
Speaker 1: but I'm ignorant, exactly, I'm dumb. I'm simple. Actually, So
Speaker 1: something happened to me. I realized that, you know, this
Speaker 1: was this was a great story, that there was something
Speaker 1: to it. And I was like thinking to myself, oh
Speaker 1: my gosh, I want one of those medals. I really
Speaker 1: want one. And that was on a Wednesday, and several
Speaker 1: days go by. From Wednesday to Saturday, my wife and
Speaker 1: I were cleaning this room, the studio. We were reorganizing it.
Speaker 1: We were throwing old junk away. When Nick quit, we
Speaker 1: were all like, okay, well, let's kind of like streamline
Speaker 1: the room. We obviously he had stuff in here, and
Speaker 1: we took it and we gave it to him, and
Speaker 1: we were like, well, let's make it simpler. Alex did
Speaker 1: a lot of wire clean up stuff. Ginny puts some
Speaker 1: uh you know, paint on the walls and things like that,
Speaker 1: and cleaned out a lot of trash. She was in
Speaker 1: this room for like four hours on that Saturday, the
Speaker 1: very Saturday of the week that we recorded that episode,
Speaker 1: and she's going through y'all can't see it, but behind
Speaker 1: over by Alex there's a closet and there's like a
Speaker 1: cubicle cabinet with a bunch of different cubby with like
Speaker 1: boxes and trays of I mean, there's a ton of
Speaker 1: stuff back there, camera cases, tripods, just cords, cables, stuff
Speaker 1: like that, right, And there's like several little boxes of
Speaker 1: fan mail and things that fans have sent us to
Speaker 1: our po box. And Jenny starts going through it and
Speaker 1: she's like, Ryan, what are these And she pulls out
Speaker 1: like six of the Miraculous metal. I said, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I forgot Someone sent me that a year ago, but
Speaker 1: I had no clue what it was. It was just
Speaker 1: like a little plastic wrap envelope with the story printed
Speaker 1: on it and the metal and that came to me
Speaker 1: like a year ago and it was like, you know,
Speaker 1: here's one for every member of your family and for
Speaker 1: the guys on the show. And I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: that's sweet, and I put it in the thing. And
Speaker 1: I don't see my family for months at a time,
Speaker 1: so like I had the intention to give them one,
Speaker 1: but it was like I forgot it was in a drawer,
Speaker 1: you know, And so I thought that was an incredible synchronicity.
Speaker 1: Oh man, I really wanted these medals, and I had
Speaker 1: not only one, but I had six the whole time.
Speaker 1: How crazy, right, It's like I manifested the medal even
Speaker 1: though I already had it. A few nights later, my
Speaker 1: brother was over and it was actually Wednesday, the next Wednesday.
Speaker 2: Because this is the next episode following the Goddess, by
Speaker 2: the way, just to prove what you're saying, well, Chris
Speaker 2: Junior's episode is immediately following.
Speaker 1: Yes, he was here recording that week, but this was
Speaker 1: the next Wednesday. After we recorded it. My brother was over.
Speaker 1: It was really late at night, and the episode came
Speaker 1: out that day and it had tons of views, like
Speaker 1: it was just blowing up like at that By that point,
Speaker 1: it already had like ten thousand views, which for the
Speaker 1: first day that it was out. We don't get ten
Speaker 1: thousand views on an episode on YouTube. So me and
Speaker 1: Alex were like, oh my god, you know, it's crazy
Speaker 1: that we're you know, talking about this. That night, my
Speaker 1: brother and I I started to tell him about the story.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, Junior, I have one of these metals
Speaker 1: for you. I've been holding on to it for a
Speaker 1: few days. I start to tell him about the eighteen
Speaker 1: thirties story of Catherine Laboret and Labret or whatever, about
Speaker 1: what happened how you know, just you know, basically tell
Speaker 1: the story. And it was about eleven PM and my
Speaker 1: wife texts me and she says, did you turn on
Speaker 1: the light in the shed in the backyard. I was like, no,
Speaker 1: I haven't been out there in a week. And it
Speaker 1: has a coated padlock that you cycle through the It's
Speaker 1: like a manual lock with a number sequence. And only
Speaker 1: I know it. My wife didn't even know it. She
Speaker 1: can't remember it and she never goes out there. And
Speaker 1: I have tools out there, you know, mom over and
Speaker 1: all that stuff. So I go and I look out
Speaker 1: the back window and sure enough, the lights are on
Speaker 1: in my shed. And I was like, that's really weird.
Speaker 1: And Chris Junior is like, yeah, let's go check that out.
Speaker 1: And he grabs his nine milimeter like someone breaking in.
Speaker 1: I don't know, let's go investigate, and I grab my knife.
Speaker 1: I'm like, this is kind of weird. You know, you
Speaker 1: just never know what you're gonna bump out. There could
Speaker 1: be someone in there. So I walk up to my shed.
Speaker 1: The lights are on. Lock, it's locked, I unlock it.
Speaker 1: I walk in there. The switch is flipped on. The
Speaker 1: lights are on. Me and Jr. Are in the room
Speaker 1: and we're kind of like looking around, like, uh, how
Speaker 1: to how the lights turn on? And then we both
Speaker 1: heard a loud knock in the room and we looked
Speaker 1: at each other and it was like our whole bodies
Speaker 1: filled with static and we were like kind of stunned,
Speaker 1: and we didn't we didn't like for there was a
Speaker 1: few seconds we didn't speak, and it was like you
Speaker 1: heard that right, Like we we reacted to this sound.
Speaker 1: I was like you heard that right. It was like yeah,
Speaker 1: I heard that. And then we were like uh, and
Speaker 1: I started looking around the room. I'm like, Okay, there's
Speaker 1: nothing in here. Junior is like, was it a raccoon? No,
Speaker 1: it wasn't a raccoon. Uh. And we ruled out everything
Speaker 1: that it could have been that was physical or a
Speaker 1: person or something, and uh when when we realized that
Speaker 1: it was something supernatural, Junior it was funny, but he
Speaker 1: was also serious. He was he was being funny, but
Speaker 1: he was also so spooked that he was I don't
Speaker 1: know how to explain it, but like he was like
Speaker 1: im thinking that, you know, we don't really haven't reason
Speaker 1: to hover around anymore. And I was like, yeah, I
Speaker 1: think you're right man. You know, I'm I'm not trying
Speaker 1: to sit Oh, I have my flashlight. I'm not trying
Speaker 1: to sit around and play Scooby Doo with this shit
Speaker 1: and go, you know, figure out what's in the corner.
Speaker 1: And we flop the light, locked the shed and we
Speaker 1: got the hell out of there and we went inside,
Speaker 1: and then for like thirty minutes we were in shock,
Speaker 1: and we were like we were realizing nothing physically did that.
Speaker 1: I had a pile of doors leaned against the wall,
Speaker 1: like four doors. Those doors right there, they can't see them,
Speaker 1: but you can doors from around the house, a couple
Speaker 1: of doors that we had to get new doors because
Speaker 1: we changed the casing and all that. So I had
Speaker 1: like three or four full sized doors out there in
Speaker 1: my shed, and they were like a forty five degree
Speaker 1: slanted pile leaning against my wall. And it was like
Speaker 1: the sound came from inside that pile, like if you
Speaker 1: imagine a fish just like hard banging on wood. We
Speaker 1: were standing right beside it, and there was no thing
Speaker 1: in there with us, and we just like it dawned
Speaker 1: on us, Oh my god, there was an entity in
Speaker 1: that room with us. Oh my god, the story of
Speaker 1: Catherine labore The light was on in the chapel and
Speaker 1: she goes out to the chapel and the lady was
Speaker 1: in the chapel. Well, that just happened to me as
Speaker 1: I was I had the medal in my hand and
Speaker 1: I was telling my brother the story of Catherine Laboree
Speaker 1: going out to you know, the chapel and the goddess
Speaker 1: being in there. And while I was verbally telling him
Speaker 1: the story, at eleven PM, my wife texts me and
Speaker 1: I look, hey, the light's on on our shed. And
Speaker 1: in that moment, in the present, I wasn't thinking of
Speaker 1: the connection. It dawned on me after, Oh my god,
Speaker 1: I just had a Catherine labore moment. I didn't see
Speaker 1: the lady, but she had to be in that room
Speaker 1: with me, that there was something that, you know, did
Speaker 1: that loud bang, and we felt a presence like an
Speaker 1: electricity through our bodies. And that day was the day
Speaker 1: that that episode came out and by the end of
Speaker 1: the day it was up at like fifteen thousand views
Speaker 1: or something like that, or by by the you know,
Speaker 1: the second day or the third day, it was a
Speaker 1: crazy number that for our channel is very unusual. And
Speaker 1: I realized that it was it was the Goddess confirming.
Speaker 1: It was the you know, the lady confirming, like, you
Speaker 1: go on this path, follow this path, get serious, it's
Speaker 1: time to grow up, it's time to you know, help
Speaker 1: people and inspire people. So obviously I was really shook
Speaker 1: by that experience, and I went down a thread and
Speaker 1: I still don't know what I want to say with
Speaker 1: that thread is, but it's been more like a thread
Speaker 1: of my intuition compelling me to And again I didn't
Speaker 1: even want to talk about this. Alex insisted I wasn't
Speaker 1: gonna just come out and be like I have a
Speaker 1: plan for you know, it's like, there's no point. But
Speaker 1: Alex really insisted, So I'm just trying to make you happy,
Speaker 1: So I don't and it's working. What's working. I'm happy,
Speaker 1: Oh good, all right, Well, as long as you're happy,
Speaker 1: that's what matters. Because to me, I'm just like you
Speaker 1: just you do it. You don't say it.
Speaker 2: Well, I think it's just personally. I mean, maybe it's
Speaker 2: because I'm so close. I find it so fascinating and
Speaker 2: and I just feel like we've been on a banger streak,
Speaker 2: and I don't know, I feel like sometimes it's really
Speaker 2: cool to lift the veil and you know, hey, behind
Speaker 2: the show or you dive into deep topics, we're also
Speaker 2: people and we're kind of going through this at the
Speaker 2: same time. The listener is just at an advanced schedule
Speaker 2: because we are recording it. But like, you know, I
Speaker 2: feel like I'm growing right along there with the listener,
Speaker 2: you know, and I'm on my spiritual path the way
Speaker 2: that I imagine the people who listen to this are, you know.
Speaker 2: And so it's I don't know, I just I just
Speaker 2: love giving a chance that like, hey, this is what's
Speaker 2: going on behind the scenes, and like, let's take a
Speaker 2: pause and reflect and together take a look back at
Speaker 2: these last handful of episodes and and tell you what
Speaker 2: we've been thinking outside of this studio.
Speaker 1: Really, that's fine, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's
Speaker 1: wholesome even thanks. But for me, it's like when you
Speaker 1: tell your goals, it makes you less able to achieve them, but.
Speaker 2: They don't have to talk about goals.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, it's not a big deal either. I'm
Speaker 1: just telling you why. I'm like, I don't even know
Speaker 1: what I'm thinking of.
Speaker 2: There is something you brought up in the last one
Speaker 2: if you're if you don't mean to interject here, I
Speaker 2: don't know.
Speaker 1: Sure you We were talking.
Speaker 2: About the Tibetan Book of the Dead last week and
Speaker 2: we were talking about what can you remind me of?
Speaker 1: The b word? The Bardo?
Speaker 2: The Bardo. You were explaining the Bardo towards the end
Speaker 2: and you said something about habitual patterns that in the
Speaker 2: liminal space and in your habitual habitual patterns is the Bardo. Yeah,
Speaker 2: So that got me thinking about do you remember because
Speaker 2: we got into this for a little while, but this
Speaker 2: is years ago where breaking your habitual patterns on purpose, interjecting,
Speaker 2: interjecting that little bit of chaos would induce some sort
Speaker 2: of experience with the random.
Speaker 1: Oh are you talking about random nodding?
Speaker 2: Yeah, kind of the app Well, more like the experience
Speaker 2: less of a company or an app.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I like you know, because a lot of times I
Speaker 2: listened to my intuition through through those changes in the normal.
Speaker 2: So like I will drive to and from work one
Speaker 2: normal way most of the time, but then there will
Speaker 2: be some sort of intuitive hit to be like, Okay,
Speaker 2: we're going to do it differently. Yeah, because I thought
Speaker 2: about doing it differently, So you have to pull that
Speaker 2: thread of going the alternate way home. And you know,
Speaker 2: there's all these theories about like jumping timelines by doing
Speaker 2: that and all this stuff. It just really got me
Speaker 2: interested and thinking about it again, especially as it relates
Speaker 2: to that Bardo, because you really kind of break that
Speaker 2: because the bardo exists because it's a liminal space because
Speaker 2: you're not thinking about it and you're more or less
Speaker 2: on autopilot. Yeah, so by breaking that, you're forced to
Speaker 2: almost live in the reality instead of in that liminal space.
Speaker 2: And I wonder if that's all connected, you know what
Speaker 2: I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know what you're saying. Yeah, I would say
Speaker 1: there's a connection. But to finish up the Goddess thing,
Speaker 1: I knew. I just I had this hunch like I
Speaker 1: have to talk about the goddess and call it the
Speaker 1: goddess because that's universal, and you know, keep it about
Speaker 1: the lady and let me just go through a line
Speaker 1: of topics that we've talked about and maybe you can
Speaker 1: get a clue of where I've been heading with this.
Speaker 1: So again, removing guests because guests are injecting a little
Speaker 1: bit of random you know. It's like sometimes with a guest,
Speaker 1: it's like we've been talking for a year and it
Speaker 1: finally works out schedule wise, or we just met and
Speaker 1: it's like, hey, your show is cool, want to come on?
Speaker 1: You know. That's that's separate to me. The main show
Speaker 1: has always been when it's just us and guests are
Speaker 1: like a very fun bonus and I don't really have
Speaker 1: any Because of the realistic nature of busy lives and schedules,
Speaker 1: it's very hard to coordinate linking up, you know, with
Speaker 1: other people sometimes. So that's just like you take them
Speaker 1: what you can get them. I have about ten guests
Speaker 1: right now that I should be calling, but Alex and
Speaker 1: I have been so focused on just trying to stay
Speaker 1: locked in, you know, So it's like removing the guests
Speaker 1: from our catalog. I'm just going to go back to
Speaker 1: the episode called the Goddess and then move through the
Speaker 1: thread of episodes that we've put out that are like
Speaker 1: main episodes where you can say canon. Keyword here is
Speaker 1: that in the first four years of the show, we
Speaker 1: would say it's been a while since we've done a
Speaker 1: canon episode, right like when Nick was on the show too.
Speaker 1: We haven't done anything canon. You know. We've done one
Speaker 1: on Star Wars, we've done one on Lord of the Rings.
Speaker 1: Just hypothetically, we've done what if, we've done this, we've
Speaker 1: done that. We haven't done one that's like about the
Speaker 1: phenomenon or something in a while. That was the vibe
Speaker 1: behind the set, you know, for four years, and now
Speaker 1: to me it's like I had been trying to focus
Speaker 1: on all of them being that way, at least to me,
Speaker 1: things that are important to me. So removing guests since October,
Speaker 1: it's been in order the Goddess. LED's a story Part one.
Speaker 1: Let's a story part two, because in the almost five
Speaker 1: years of doing this show, we had never by my design,
Speaker 1: had never fully told the story the Apocalypse. Interesting, well, uh,
Speaker 1: twenty twenty six is coming skipping through the guests, the
Speaker 1: Dark Force had to talk about that one. Huh, look
Speaker 1: what's coming out today? The Golden Age, the UFO phenomenon. Oh,
Speaker 1: let me back up, Yeah, I flopped that. There's the
Speaker 1: Dark Force, then the UFO phenomenon, then the Golden Age.
Speaker 1: We're getting somewhere there's an order to this, well, duh.
Speaker 1: I wanted to set up the Dark Force to then
Speaker 1: talk about the truth of the UFO phenomenon, which is
Speaker 1: that a lot of the lies out there are really
Speaker 1: the Dark Force, and that the Dark Force is the parasite,
Speaker 1: the mental the mitote or the wind to go or
Speaker 1: the Weaitiko or the arkon or you know same, it's
Speaker 1: it's the mental parasite. So I had to set that
Speaker 1: stage and then move into UFO and then talk about
Speaker 1: you know the reality of that. Then the Golden Age
Speaker 1: twenty twenty six awakening interesting and so in a few
Speaker 1: weeks span we did Apocalypse, Golden Age in twenty twenty
Speaker 1: six awakening. What comes after that initiation, Well, that's what's
Speaker 1: happening next for humanity. We're being initiated into the higher knowledge. Then, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, Egregres, why is that? I was just showing Alex.
Speaker 1: I had notes in my phone from November where I
Speaker 1: was talking. I'll just read them. It was h hold on,
Speaker 1: I closed it out, so I gotta pull it up.
Speaker 1: I had notes from November saying reality model, build that
Speaker 1: then talk about emanation theory and the afterlife and purgatory.
Speaker 1: So that was in November that I had been talking about,
Speaker 1: you know, setting the stage for you know, injecting that
Speaker 1: into the conversation. So eagergres thought forms the emanation theory
Speaker 1: of reality. So again, it's like it's so few and
Speaker 1: far in between some times that we get to record
Speaker 1: these because we get a guest or whatever pops up.
Speaker 1: But it's just this thread that we've been following, and
Speaker 1: you know, some other things have happened to me too.
Speaker 1: So a few months ago, my sister came over and
Speaker 1: it was one in the morning and we were getting
Speaker 1: home from the state of the world for him and
Speaker 1: my sister and I. This was before Christmas, and we
Speaker 1: were just kind of having a heavy conversation. I think
Speaker 1: the end of twenty twenty five was heavy for a
Speaker 1: lot of people, just energetically for the world really, and
Speaker 1: there were extreme solar flares going on and just you know,
Speaker 1: all kinds of events in the world. A lot of
Speaker 1: people were feeling bleak, a lot of people I know
Speaker 1: and have heard from, and just the general temperature, and
Speaker 1: Emily and I were just having a conversation and literally
Speaker 1: around one in the morning, we heard a voice in
Speaker 1: my kitchen and I thought it was my sister and
Speaker 1: she thought it was my Alexa, and then going through
Speaker 1: the process of ruling out everything, asking Alexa, checking the
Speaker 1: log you know, on the app, and asking her, did
Speaker 1: you just speak She's like, the last time I gave
Speaker 1: a notification was eleven am. It's like, okay, he wasn't her.
Speaker 1: And this voice was a woman's voice, but it spoke
Speaker 1: very fast, and it sounded like wah wah wah wah,
Speaker 1: like on the Peanuts, you know, Charlie Brown when the
Speaker 1: adults speak and you can't understand it and it sounds
Speaker 1: like gibberish. But it was a woman's voice. And when
Speaker 1: my sister and I realized that we had both heard
Speaker 1: it and then went through that same process I went
Speaker 1: through with my brother. We ruled out everything. We were like, okay,
Speaker 1: I guess we got to be positive, you know, the
Speaker 1: lady's speaking to us. That night, I went to sleep
Speaker 1: and I had a dream. And when I woke up
Speaker 1: the next day and I got in the shower, I
Speaker 1: was like washing my hair or something, you know, how
Speaker 1: like you can and this is totally real. Like it's
Speaker 1: not a theory, but like you know, a lot of
Speaker 1: times when you get in the shower, you go into
Speaker 1: a meditative trance state. It's like a ritual, a process
Speaker 1: where you just you get into the groove of doing
Speaker 1: the water. It's cleansing to where you just go into
Speaker 1: sometimes altered states Albarda Alvardo, Yeah, but seriously, Like and
Speaker 1: I just was in the shower and it just like
Speaker 1: clearly flashed into my mind the dream I had the
Speaker 1: night before, and I was just like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I just you know, sometimes throughout the day you get
Speaker 1: a flash and you're like, oh, I remember my dream.
Speaker 1: And in my dream it felt real and a being.
Speaker 1: It wasn't the Lady, but it was a glowing light being.
Speaker 1: It spoke to me and it said, if you want
Speaker 1: to understand us, you have to raise your vibration. So
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'm going to work on raising
Speaker 1: my vibration. Just by Alex and I have been talking
Speaker 1: about this, you know, prayer, meditation, and the way of Light.
Speaker 1: That wasn't on the list that I just but that
Speaker 1: was the conclusion that I had been building through the
Speaker 1: whole time, was the way of Light. I wanted to
Speaker 1: set that stage, you know, working up towards that episode.
Speaker 1: That's why I did Dark first and then progressed into
Speaker 1: you know, the Way, because I believe that's that's that this,
Speaker 1: this knowledge, although trivial, is the most it's what it's
Speaker 1: all about. This is the awakening of humanity. That it's
Speaker 1: about remembering our true nature, which is that we are
Speaker 1: divine and that our body is a temple for God,
Speaker 1: so that we have to It's like as above, so below, well,
Speaker 1: what's above? It's God? Right, So we are God, but
Speaker 1: not I am God. That's the ego, that's the left
Speaker 1: hand path, not the I Am God and the lucifer
Speaker 1: sense that you're above no no, no, no, no, no
Speaker 1: no no. You are a reflection of God. You are
Speaker 1: the image of God. But paradoxically so not only are
Speaker 1: you divine and that spark is within you, but it's
Speaker 1: like a paradox that you also have to humble yourself
Speaker 1: to the higher forces. So there is a God above you.
Speaker 1: People don't like that. They like they don't like authority.
Speaker 1: They want to be this, you know, liberated, rebellious, you know,
Speaker 1: not liberated in the good way either, but liberated in
Speaker 1: the free to degeneracy and do what they want with
Speaker 1: no consequence. That's wrong, it's not the way. The true
Speaker 1: way is through you are constantly on the journey of evolution,
Speaker 1: and that you in order to evolve, in order to grow,
Speaker 1: you have to aspire to embody the light. You have
Speaker 1: to live in the light. You have to embody the
Speaker 1: teachings of Christ. It's the best example because you know, Tibetan, Buddhism,
Speaker 1: all that stuff. It's great, it's fantastic. It's damn sure,
Speaker 1: not easy to understand for the majority of the world,
Speaker 1: and it's very esoteric. For the seekers, it's wonderful, you know,
Speaker 1: it's amazing. But I believe that the story and the
Speaker 1: message in the Teachings of Christ are the most distilled
Speaker 1: and easily available and understandable version of that message. Christ
Speaker 1: consciousness is the way. And you know, the point is
Speaker 1: not to say you got to be a Catholic and
Speaker 1: you got to you know, can confess the nice and
Speaker 1: creed or whatever it is that they say, and you know,
Speaker 1: do mass and all that stuff. No, that's wrong, that's
Speaker 1: not the point. It's not about who you worship, it's
Speaker 1: not about do you believe in Jesus or not. I
Speaker 1: don't care about that. The point is you have to
Speaker 1: embody it's a vibration. You have to think of it
Speaker 1: like physics, like tuning forks. If you have one that
Speaker 1: says one hundred hurts and one that says two hundred
Speaker 1: hertz and you go ding, they're not going to resonate,
Speaker 1: They're going to clash, and they're not going to be
Speaker 1: in harmony. So the hundred hurts is not in alignment
Speaker 1: with the two hundred hurts, no matter how hard you
Speaker 1: want it to be. One of them is higher on
Speaker 1: a higher octave of vibration, many octaves of vibration. So
Speaker 1: you have to embody the ideals of the higher teachings
Speaker 1: to evolve and human form the teachings of Christ. Or
Speaker 1: you could think about it like the Way, the way
Speaker 1: of life as I like to call it, because it's universal.
Speaker 1: It's the heart. It's being centered in the heart and
Speaker 1: having a coherence between the mind and the heart. Which
Speaker 1: what is of the heart? Well, love, kindness, humility, virtue, justice,
Speaker 1: all of the ideals of Christ, the seven virtues. So
Speaker 1: Christ followed the way he taught, the way he said,
Speaker 1: I am the Way and the truth and the life.
Speaker 1: For none can get to the Father except through me.
Speaker 1: Jesus never said worship me as God. He never did that.
Speaker 1: That only ever came around after he was killed. People
Speaker 1: took over, like the Apostle Paul and others, and they
Speaker 1: added all these creeds. If you like, separate all the
Speaker 1: text of the New Testament and you create a list
Speaker 1: and you're like, okay, doctrine number one, doctrine number two,
Speaker 1: doctrin number three, where did they come from? Or you
Speaker 1: take all the different apostles and you list all their doctrines.
Speaker 1: Jesus's doctrine was like, don't worship me, don't take a
Speaker 1: master or a rabbi. Worship God alone. For God is
Speaker 1: light and spirit and truth. And there are two laws
Speaker 1: or two commandments. Really love your God with all your heart,
Speaker 1: mind and soul, and love your neighbors, you love yourself,
Speaker 1: and that the sin. He even goes on to say
Speaker 1: this with the Sermon on the Mount. I'm pretty sure
Speaker 1: in the Book of Matthew, if it's not that specifically,
Speaker 1: it's definitely in there. He talks about the sin is
Speaker 1: not when you harm someone with your fist, but it's
Speaker 1: with the thought to harm them with your fist. So
Speaker 1: when you really need, we should do a gospel series,
Speaker 1: because we've never really done that. I've been avoiding it
Speaker 1: for a long time. That would be really fun, actually,
Speaker 1: and I would like to take time for that one.
Speaker 1: But you can very clearly see that there is an
Speaker 1: alignment between even the canonical teachings of the man Jesus Christ.
Speaker 1: When I say the man Jesus Christ, I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1: Just be blasphemous to say, wasn't divine because a lot
Speaker 1: of people get really upset about that. It's not what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. When I'm saying the man Jesus Christ, I'm
Speaker 1: seeing the actual read letters of Jesus Christ in the Bible,
Speaker 1: versus what the man Paul said about Jesus or what
Speaker 1: the man Timothy said of I don't care about what
Speaker 1: they said as much. Some of it has value, some
Speaker 1: of it has been added, and scholars debate if it's authentic,
Speaker 1: and YadA, YadA YadA. I don't care about all those
Speaker 1: little chripes and all those little details. It's the message,
Speaker 1: it's the way, it's the intention behind your thoughts. Do
Speaker 1: no harm, be good, be This world is fucked up
Speaker 1: because we've forgotten this. And even Christians, some of them
Speaker 1: are the worst for this that they think, oh, you know,
Speaker 1: I go to church, I'm good. You know, I can
Speaker 1: be snorting coke on a Saturday night and banging strippers
Speaker 1: and partying and you know, doing hard criminal drugs and
Speaker 1: activities and then go to church with Sunday. I'm fine,
Speaker 1: I'm good. It doesn't matter. That's exaggerated. But there are
Speaker 1: people like that that they think just because they're saved,
Speaker 1: that you know, well, you know, I'm a Christian, you're not,
Speaker 1: so you know, you like, it doesn't matter what you think,
Speaker 1: and that's not right. That's not the point. It's not
Speaker 1: about what you believe or whatever. It's about your actually
Speaker 1: the vibration of your being. And you know, I wanted
Speaker 1: to talk about the Eaglegers so bad because you have
Speaker 1: to realize that whether you believe that Jesus Christ died
Speaker 1: on the cross and rose from the dead or not,
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter because we know, especially you know, if
Speaker 1: we consider Tibetan Buddhism to be important or valid or
Speaker 1: have any sort of truth in it, and you know,
Speaker 1: Western esoteric traditions and it goes on and on down
Speaker 1: the line that you could see all these examples of
Speaker 1: them saying that the universe is thought, and that we
Speaker 1: manifest through thought, and that even we are manifested through
Speaker 1: the thought of God. So the very notion of billions
Speaker 1: of souls throughout the last two thousands of years charging
Speaker 1: the symbol of Christ, whether he physically exists or not,
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. He's real and there is a power
Speaker 1: behind this psychic force. And I'm telling you that there
Speaker 1: are traditions around the world that when they initiate you
Speaker 1: and to their sanctum, they understand this better than you
Speaker 1: and me, and they invite this force to be embodied
Speaker 1: into you or a priest or a preacher or a
Speaker 1: bishop or whatever. They understand that there is a power
Speaker 1: behind this force, and they channel it into you when
Speaker 1: they you know, the laying on of hands or whatever.
Speaker 1: These forces are very real, these mental forces, the thought forms,
Speaker 1: and the invisible world. So it doesn't really matter if
Speaker 1: you believe Satan is literal or not, or Jesus is
Speaker 1: literal or not. The universe is composed of many different
Speaker 1: subtle layers of emanated thought form, from invisible immaterial down
Speaker 1: to the expressed gross material, and our consciousness is in
Speaker 1: every layer in between, existing simultaneously. It's a multiverse, but
Speaker 1: not like you see in the movies. It's more like
Speaker 1: a psychic one where you're being exists in all realities simultaneously.
Speaker 1: So when you believe something consciously or unconsciously, your mind,
Speaker 1: through its psychic faculty, is latching onto and attaching to
Speaker 1: this force and inviting in to have a resonance in
Speaker 1: your being. So that's why it's so important to align
Speaker 1: with the light. You don't have to believe in Jesus.
Speaker 1: You have to believe in the message to and it
Speaker 1: doesn't have to be Jesus. You know, it could be whatever.
Speaker 1: I just think it's the best one. I think. It's like,
Speaker 1: you've got seventy years to live, stop wasting your time.
Speaker 1: It's about efficiency that we talked about this months ago.
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, if I gave you an ar
Speaker 1: assault rifle or a sling shot, and it's like, you know,
Speaker 1: thirty people are about to come and try to kill
Speaker 1: you and take your wallet and break into your house
Speaker 1: and murder your son, Like which one do you want?
Speaker 1: What the ar? It's efficient? Why you know I wouldn't
Speaker 1: waste time with you know what I'm saying, Like, I'm serious,
Speaker 1: like and in some respect the search for truth and
Speaker 1: the search for a cult knowledge or the hidden knowledge
Speaker 1: or whatever, there comes a point where you become more
Speaker 1: or less like a metaphysical scientist, and you're sifting through
Speaker 1: so much crap that you're just trying. You're trying to
Speaker 1: get to truly what works, what's the quickest path, what's
Speaker 1: the truth? Right? And it goes full circle when people
Speaker 1: go through, you know, it seems like it comes back
Speaker 1: to Christ. You go full circle too. I was an atheist,
Speaker 1: you know, I used to be a Christian and then
Speaker 1: I became an atheist, or then I became a whatever
Speaker 1: and I lost my religion. And then eventually you go
Speaker 1: through all these different things in life and you come
Speaker 1: full circle and you realize, well, Christ is real. I
Speaker 1: wasted so much time, you know what I'm saying, Like,
Speaker 1: I don't care about the literal details. I don't care
Speaker 1: if he had a virgin birth. I personally don't know
Speaker 1: that that happened, or that it matters that it happened.
Speaker 1: Why why should I care about that? Just because it's
Speaker 1: so stressed as part of the Divinity by the authorities
Speaker 1: of the Roman Catholic Church, Like I don't really care
Speaker 1: about the things that they're obsessed about. I know he lived.
Speaker 1: I know that there are a lot of really interesting
Speaker 1: people in this world who have alternative views. That you know,
Speaker 1: things like He and Mary Magdalene had children, and that
Speaker 1: you know they there's alternative versions, like the non Commodity Library.
Speaker 1: It's such a mystery. I think there's also a level
Speaker 1: of I think you have to have a level of
Speaker 1: detachment to and search for the truth, and you have
Speaker 1: to be humble, and you have to realize, well, I'm
Speaker 1: not going to know everything, and that's okay. I don't
Speaker 1: have the ability to know everything. Maybe I'm not ready
Speaker 1: to know everything. I don't need to know everything. I
Speaker 1: want to know what I need to grow and to
Speaker 1: keep going. So anyway, I just want to distress. Like
Speaker 1: this message that I've been sort of seeking really for
Speaker 1: almost five years to get at was not just like
Speaker 1: you know, beating around the bush, but like the importance
Speaker 1: of Christ and the connection of the Lady in Christ.
Speaker 1: That's been very important to me and I've been intentionally
Speaker 1: trying to set that stage since the Goddess episode in
Speaker 1: October and now to when we just recently had the
Speaker 1: Way of Light. So there you go, Alex. You wanted
Speaker 1: me to talk about the threat I've been pulling. That's
Speaker 1: been the thread. But again it's it's like, I want
Speaker 1: to stress that I'm not a fundamental. I wouldn't identify
Speaker 1: as my myself as a Christian. I would not say
Speaker 1: I'm a Christian. I would say this is what when
Speaker 1: I think of my head, because people are like all
Speaker 1: the time online, are you a Christian? How I would
Speaker 1: say I'm a follower of Christ. I don't care about
Speaker 1: the religion.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just want to comment about that coming full
Speaker 2: full circle, It's like, yeah, I was, you know, Christian,
Speaker 2: right Catholic, but I wouldn't have considered myself even calling
Speaker 2: myself a Catholic. I did not have a relationship with
Speaker 2: God or with Christ. So the slip into atheism, agnostic,
Speaker 2: you know, not knowing what's going on to come full circle,
Speaker 2: not back to Christianity, not back to Catholics.
Speaker 1: Is I'm not back to labels, but back to Christ.
Speaker 2: You know that He was there the whole time for me,
Speaker 2: but I did not have eyes to see, and it
Speaker 2: took going to the bottom and coming back around to
Speaker 2: you know, fully realize this, this is what I've been missing. Yeah,
Speaker 2: I thought that was beautiful, great, great tangent, which one, well,
Speaker 2: all of it, but this last half.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean something that I do genuinely believe. I
Speaker 1: do believe in the ascension of Christ. I do believe
Speaker 1: in the light body. I believe that is possible. And
Speaker 1: again I don't get like when I stopped being a
Speaker 1: fundamental Christian that was nine years ago. I was like
Speaker 1: twenty two or even more, maybe it was like twenty
Speaker 1: two or twenty three, and I realized, okay, you know
Speaker 1: this is I learned about gnossism basically, and it made
Speaker 1: me realize, okay, you know, the way that I grew
Speaker 1: up wasn't exactly the whole truth, and there's more to it.
Speaker 1: So I've always been a follower of Christ, but I
Speaker 1: sort of rebelled against, you know, my fundamental teachings as
Speaker 1: an immature, young twenty something year old does it's just
Speaker 1: you know, rebel and or immature sometimes And I would
Speaker 1: always think like, okay, well, I know people alive today
Speaker 1: who miracles happen and crazy supernatural things. I mean I've
Speaker 1: been privy to a lot of stuff, So there was
Speaker 1: no doubt in my mind that the man Jesus two
Speaker 1: thousand years ago, because of the following that has amassed,
Speaker 1: that there was something to this that made ripples throughout consciousness.
Speaker 1: He had a crowd of five thousand as all the
Speaker 1: texts go about him. That's pretty huge for back then, dude.
Speaker 1: And you know, so he was clearly something amazing and
Speaker 1: he was doing something powerful. But back then, I was like,
Speaker 1: but what does it matter? Liked, you know, maybe he
Speaker 1: did die, maybe he does have bones on earth, maybe
Speaker 1: the virgin birth didn't really happen. That's where I was
Speaker 1: back then, And I was like, but that doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: It doesn't make him any less special. He was still
Speaker 1: an amazing human with an amazing message, and he performed miracles,
Speaker 1: and you know, by all the counts and purposes, he
Speaker 1: was divined. And now I've come full circle and I
Speaker 1: kind of do believe that he truly did transfigure into
Speaker 1: it being of light and ascend And I don't think
Speaker 1: his bones exist. What does it matter. It's just my opinion,
Speaker 1: you know, like, who cares? It's the message, But I
Speaker 1: think it's possible and I think a lot as possible.
Speaker 1: And the whole reason that we followed this path and
Speaker 1: that he incarnated into this plane was to show us
Speaker 1: the way to embody the light and to know and
Speaker 1: believe in the light, and how to live the true
Speaker 1: way and what we can achieve when we live this
Speaker 1: path and we believe in the teachings. But it's not
Speaker 1: just about believe, it's about action. We talked about in
Speaker 1: the Tibetan episode, it was about the passive, feminine, experiential
Speaker 1: and wisdom. That's belief, and we talked about the active
Speaker 1: which is UH you know, your your your actual projection
Speaker 1: into the world. You know, Like even even in Shivik
Speaker 1: Hinduism they talk about Shakti and Shiva or a gnosticism,
Speaker 1: we talk about the logos and the sofia, Like one
Speaker 1: element of you is the belief, the passive part, the wisdom,
Speaker 1: the experience, that nosis, having, having the actual, the the
Speaker 1: knowing of UH, you know, the divine and seeing through
Speaker 1: the illusion. But then the masculine part, the logos, is
Speaker 1: the knowledge and it's the action. Like you have to
Speaker 1: have discipline, you have to have focus, you have to aspire,
Speaker 1: and you have to strive. So you have to have
Speaker 1: the masculine and the feminine or you will not awaken.
Speaker 1: It's just a fact. It's just the blueprint of reality,
Speaker 1: you know. So like you have to embody both. You
Speaker 1: have to be the Magdalene and the Christ. You know,
Speaker 1: you have to be the Father and the mother. You
Speaker 1: have to be both. That doesn't mean what you think.
Speaker 1: It means other than you have to have knowledge and wisdom.
Speaker 1: You have to have action and devotion, contemplation. You know,
Speaker 1: it's a mystery, it's a paradox. You have to embody
Speaker 1: both of those forces. So you can't you can't evolve
Speaker 1: if you're stagnant and you're not taking steps to better yourself.
Speaker 1: That doesn't mean be a powerlifter, but maybe, like you know,
Speaker 1: start eating better and start a routine of exercise and
Speaker 1: daily meditation and prayer, practice doing things that push your mind,
Speaker 1: body and spirit to grow. And it's not a sprint.
Speaker 1: It's a very humble and steady marathon, right and we
Speaker 1: fail every day, But the point is to aspire. Every
Speaker 1: little kid from the nineties watching Dragon Ball Z and
Speaker 1: they're like, damn, I'm fired up. I want to do
Speaker 1: push ups or whatever you know, I want to do
Speaker 1: martial arts. It's like that before the spirit. That's what
Speaker 1: Christ is. It's an icon, it's a it's it's it's
Speaker 1: a it's a force that you invite in that you
Speaker 1: embody to evolve and achieve the solar initiation, right, because
Speaker 1: it's that solar force. We already did a whole episode
Speaker 1: on that, The Way of Light. But anyway, did I
Speaker 1: miss anything? I mean, is that what you wanted out
Speaker 1: of me?
Speaker 2: Well? That was beautiful. I don't think there was no
Speaker 2: clear direction. There's nothing to miss. It was perfect. It
Speaker 2: was just as it should have been.
Speaker 1: You know, I did forget one more thing, go ahead, Fred. So,
Speaker 1: I had the experience in the Shed back in October
Speaker 1: or September. Actually I thought that episode came out in October.
Speaker 1: It might have actually been in September. I can't remember now.
Speaker 1: It's probably September, four months ago, so October September, it
Speaker 1: doesn't really matter. It was a while ago, October month.
Speaker 1: It was November, definitely not November. But anyway, So I
Speaker 1: had that experience with the shed, and then back in December,
Speaker 1: I had the one where the voice spoke to me
Speaker 1: and Emily and then about three weeks ago, I had
Speaker 1: another one where well, I mean, I've had multiple, but
Speaker 1: these are all connected in my mind. I had another one,
Speaker 1: and it was two weeks before the release of the
Speaker 1: Epstein files. Thank god it did. I made the connection
Speaker 1: after they came out. But I was laying in bed
Speaker 1: one night and I shifted into I wouldn't say it
Speaker 1: was an out of body state, but it was definitely
Speaker 1: an expanded state. It's hard to explain until you've experienced
Speaker 1: it because it's a spectrum of experience where you can
Speaker 1: be fully out of the body, or you can, you know,
Speaker 1: not really be aware of the body, but you're still there.
Speaker 1: I don't know how to explain it, but either way,
Speaker 1: I was having something happen, some sort of psychic message.
Speaker 1: A voice spoke to me basically, and it said, never
Speaker 1: address the darkness, only address the light. And it, you know,
Speaker 1: led me to understand. It said that with words. It
Speaker 1: wasn't audible, like what I experienced with my sister was
Speaker 1: in here. It was in my head and it was
Speaker 1: like I had this the way I could describe it
Speaker 1: as synesthesia. If people out there are familiar with synesthesia,
Speaker 1: It's like I'll be laying there, and then it's like
Speaker 1: the inner vision of my mind's eye completely like dissolves
Speaker 1: through this boundary to where it's like I'm not really
Speaker 1: in my physical body, but I'm in a blackness and
Speaker 1: there's like things around me, and it's like perfectly clear,
Speaker 1: like I'm actually there. I don't know how to explain it,
Speaker 1: but it happens. And my dad experiences this too a lot.
Speaker 1: And yeah, it spoke to me and it said, never
Speaker 1: addressed the darkness, only addressed the light. And it sort
Speaker 1: of made me to understand, like when we put out
Speaker 1: the Dark Force of the UFO Phenomenon episode, what did
Speaker 1: I do? I addressed the darkness. We got a lot
Speaker 1: of criticism and a lot of people were upset over
Speaker 1: my opinions, and you know, whether whether I eloquently portrayed
Speaker 1: the or not. It made me understand what, you address
Speaker 1: the darkness, so when you do that, you invite it
Speaker 1: to attack you. So I was like, wow, I never
Speaker 1: thought about that. So I said that, you know, never
Speaker 1: addressed the darkness, only addressed the light. You have to
Speaker 1: address the light, not only the force. But it made
Speaker 1: me to understand to the people it didn't say, don't
Speaker 1: study it didn't say, you know, you don't look away,
Speaker 1: good practice, but that's not what it was saying. It
Speaker 1: was basically saying, keep it positive, keep it about the light,
Speaker 1: moving forward. And then boom Epstein stuff came out two
Speaker 1: weeks later, and it was like immediately I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: the phenomenon was telling me, you know, how to navigate this,
Speaker 1: not to go and make it about this too much,
Speaker 1: or talk all about this or you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Who knows, maybe I would have. Everybody wants to say
Speaker 1: I know it all alone, and I did, you know,
Speaker 1: but a lot of people did. But that's not the point.
Speaker 1: The point is there's enough people out there talking about
Speaker 1: super dark stuff. I feel really compelled to help people
Speaker 1: find the light and to you know, hold hands and
Speaker 1: help people not be afraid and to not let that
Speaker 1: dark force have power over them and keep them in fear.
Speaker 1: So it's like the phenomenon said, address the light. Okay,
Speaker 1: it's enough for me. So that happened to me. And
Speaker 1: then I had another one not really related to these three,
Speaker 1: but it was interesting, so I just figured I'll share it.
Speaker 1: I had another one of those moments where it was
Speaker 1: like a synesthetic dissillusion of my consciousness where it's like,
Speaker 1: just like you know, it's like your even though your
Speaker 1: eyes are closed and you're wide awaken, you can see
Speaker 1: behind your eyelids and sometimes you get little colors and
Speaker 1: speckles in there. And then it's like, imagine that complete
Speaker 1: dissolves to where you're not really aware of your physical body.
Speaker 1: It's not like you're out of your body, but it's
Speaker 1: like you're detached from I really can't explain it, it's complicated,
Speaker 1: but something like that happened. And I just saw a
Speaker 1: vision of like a grid pattern of like an army
Speaker 1: of millions of orbs around me, just constantly monitoring me
Speaker 1: and shining light down on me and protecting me and
Speaker 1: propelling me forward. So I was like, okay, yeah, that's interesting.
Speaker 1: And I went back and I read my notes from
Speaker 1: my monros To retreat I did last July, which was guidelines,
Speaker 1: and I had a similar experience there. It's hard to
Speaker 1: remember sometimes because on a six day program you're doing
Speaker 1: like four or five hours of meditation a day for
Speaker 1: five days, so you forget a lot of the things
Speaker 1: that you experience, and that's why you're supposed to journal.
Speaker 1: But I had the same vision. I saw an army
Speaker 1: of millions of orbs of light around me. So this
Speaker 1: is a thing that keeps coming back from me in
Speaker 1: these expanded states. And I had a psychic at the
Speaker 1: side games. Her name was Dana, not Dana Kippl, who's
Speaker 1: an amazing human and is a friend of mine who's
Speaker 1: been on the show. But it was a different Dana.
Speaker 1: And she was just like I met somebody with her
Speaker 1: that I didn't know, but they they had like were
Speaker 1: at the minrostitute together and this she was an older lady.
Speaker 1: They probably about like fifty, and they became friends at
Speaker 1: Gateway and she was like, you gotta meet her, dude,
Speaker 1: she's for real. Something happened to her at the Gateway
Speaker 1: and it's like she opened up and now she hears
Speaker 1: spirits but like it's not bullshit, it's for real and
Speaker 1: it's like God and it's angels. And I was like,
Speaker 1: h I'm intrigued to you do you do you? And
Speaker 1: I didn't feel a weirdness from her. I felt a
Speaker 1: very realness like she was just truly something was happening
Speaker 1: to her. She was probably like nineteen or twenty or
Speaker 1: she wasn't like some older, kookie looking. She was pretty
Speaker 1: normal looking, you know, young lady who seemed like something
Speaker 1: was really happening. So I was like, very interesting, do
Speaker 1: you have do you could I ask not to test
Speaker 1: you or to you know, catch you off card, but like,
Speaker 1: you know, I'd really like to know if you see
Speaker 1: anything around me. She didn't know me, she didn't know
Speaker 1: who I was or what I was about. And she said,
Speaker 1: I've never seen this around anyone, but I see an
Speaker 1: army around you, and there's a feminine presence and I've
Speaker 1: never seen this many angelic entities around someone in my life.
Speaker 1: And that's a trend throughout my life that multiple people
Speaker 1: have told me, Like when I get reiki readings and
Speaker 1: every time when they get to my solar plexus they
Speaker 1: start freaking out. I've had like three different people tell
Speaker 1: me that too, at least where they do the reki
Speaker 1: thing and they get to the solar plexus and they're like,
Speaker 1: holy shit, I've never seen one so massive. I've never
Speaker 1: seen the like your force field can't be impenetrated. I'm like,
Speaker 1: what does that mean? You know, I don't know. I'm
Speaker 1: like I'm seeking answers, like what does this mean? But
Speaker 1: there's this thing that keeps popping up. And the reason
Speaker 1: I chose the name James for my son was because
Speaker 1: at the side games that was two days when Friday
Speaker 1: was when the side game started, or it might have
Speaker 1: been Thursday, but whatever, the first day was was two
Speaker 1: days after we found out we were having a baby,
Speaker 1: and we didn't know if it was going to be
Speaker 1: a boarder girl yet and we've had a girl name
Speaker 1: picked out for years, but we were like, but if
Speaker 1: it's what if it's a boy, you know, like what
Speaker 1: We had a few names, but nothing one hundred percent said.
Speaker 1: I had been kind of in my mind tossing James around,
Speaker 1: but it never brought it up because it wasn't real.
Speaker 1: And I was like, well, dang, I really have to
Speaker 1: figure out a boy's name. And Jenny was like, why
Speaker 1: we don't have the gender picked? You know, I'm not picked,
Speaker 1: but you know what I mean, like, we don't know it,
Speaker 1: and uh, there's no point in discussing that if we
Speaker 1: don't know, And I was like, no, I really feel
Speaker 1: like I'd like to figure out a boy name. I
Speaker 1: really want to figure it out, like desperately. The drive
Speaker 1: to side games, it was like all we talked about
Speaker 1: was the baby. And I kept coming back like, what
Speaker 1: about a boy? What about what about Arthur? What about James?
Speaker 1: And Alex of course picked Arthur and he had no
Speaker 1: clue we had been saying that. But I was like,
Speaker 1: I really like James. I really like James. It's special
Speaker 1: to me. It's the brother of Jesus, it's my uncle's name,
Speaker 1: it's your great great grandfather's name. And she's just like, yeah,
Speaker 1: you know, it's probably. I feel like it's going to
Speaker 1: be a girl. And then somebody at the side games
Speaker 1: on the last day, not Dana, that was I'll just
Speaker 1: take a step back. So this guy named Jay by
Speaker 1: the way, he works at mon Rose tut and his
Speaker 1: name is Jay. Nobody there knew we were having a baby.
Speaker 1: I didn't even tell my parents. And he comes up
Speaker 1: to me on the last name and he goes Ryan,
Speaker 1: A message came through for me today that I feel
Speaker 1: like I have to tell you. I don't know what
Speaker 1: it means, but I just keep hearing the word big brother,
Speaker 1: big brother, and I was like, ooh, maybe that'll make
Speaker 1: sense soon. Thank you Jay. And in my head, I
Speaker 1: was like, it's gonna be a boy because my grandfather,
Speaker 1: Ted is the big brother of my uncle James, and
Speaker 1: I wanted to pick that name because my nephew is
Speaker 1: Ted and then you know James. So in my head,
Speaker 1: I was like, that makes sense, that's not too much
Speaker 1: of a leap. It's gonna be a boy, and I
Speaker 1: get to pick the name James, and this is a sign.
Speaker 1: And then that night when Dana told me all that
Speaker 1: other stuff about the feminine presence around me and the
Speaker 1: army of angels and all that, she said, and I'm
Speaker 1: getting a message too, something about there's a j name,
Speaker 1: a j name is coming through, something like jazz men,
Speaker 1: and I was like, that's close to James. Like that's
Speaker 1: that's pretty freaking close, you know, just switch some letters
Speaker 1: around and remove. So I just I knew and I
Speaker 1: picked that name, and it was like a couple of
Speaker 1: weeks later we found out he was gonna be a boy.
Speaker 1: So I don't know how I got onto that. But
Speaker 1: I really don't know how I got onto that. I
Speaker 1: guess it was to just tell the story of Dana,
Speaker 1: you know, seeing the beings around me connected to my experience.
Speaker 1: But and then I felt like James's name was given
Speaker 1: to me. Uh, it came to me, and then it
Speaker 1: was confirmed by the messages from from those other people,
Speaker 1: and yeah, it's just weird man, just weird and he's
Speaker 1: ourage negative. So hi, guys. Weird things happened in the weird, Weird,
Speaker 1: Weird