WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.040 --> 00:00:18.480 Enogy cancelgeigsage, cansage. It's not sorryenogyag. 2 00:00:19.160 --> 00:00:22.399 Everyone loves to talk about letting go, but no one 3 00:00:22.480 --> 00:00:27.679 talks about those seasons where letting go would actually be detrimental, 4 00:00:28.440 --> 00:00:32.119 seasons where letting go isn't the answer. Holding on for 5 00:00:32.200 --> 00:00:37.399 dear life is the answer. Sometimes letting go would also 6 00:00:37.560 --> 00:00:43.759 mean self abandonment. Yeah, I'm bringing out the psychological therapy words. 7 00:00:44.200 --> 00:00:46.359 I'm just gonna throw them out later anyway and probably 8 00:00:46.359 --> 00:00:49.240 scream the F word. But it's fine. We can always 9 00:00:49.320 --> 00:00:53.159 start on our best butting But seriously, everyone that I've 10 00:00:53.200 --> 00:00:59.280 been talking to, including myself, hello, is going through something 11 00:00:59.560 --> 00:01:02.799 or another. This is not the season to let go. 12 00:01:03.079 --> 00:01:07.519 This is the season to lock in, baby little duckies. Okay, 13 00:01:07.560 --> 00:01:12.200 listen to me. We are in December. We are in December. 14 00:01:12.719 --> 00:01:15.079 The Year of the Snake is almost over. The Year 15 00:01:15.120 --> 00:01:17.719 of the Snake, of the shedding, of the letting go, 16 00:01:17.879 --> 00:01:21.040 of the saying goodbye, the revolving door, of the burning 17 00:01:21.079 --> 00:01:27.200 away karma. It's almost over. We have a couple of weeks, 18 00:01:27.519 --> 00:01:30.560 literally only a couple of weeks, and then we are 19 00:01:30.599 --> 00:01:34.480 going into the year of the fire horse momentum. It's 20 00:01:34.519 --> 00:01:38.480 a year of one new beginnings. It's a ten year, 21 00:01:38.560 --> 00:01:40.599 it's a one year, depending on how you break it down. 22 00:01:40.879 --> 00:01:46.879 Either way, it's new beginnings in co creation with the divine, 23 00:01:47.319 --> 00:01:53.280 new projects, a clean slate, new energy. Right now, we 24 00:01:53.319 --> 00:01:55.959 are at a threshold. We are at a portal. This 25 00:01:56.040 --> 00:02:00.920 is where you hold the hell on. I don't care 26 00:02:00.920 --> 00:02:03.400 if you're holding on by the skin of your teeth. 27 00:02:04.519 --> 00:02:10.639 You hold on moving into the air of the fire horse. 28 00:02:10.800 --> 00:02:13.800 We are being supported with fast energy. You want to 29 00:02:13.879 --> 00:02:17.360 make sure that you're giving yourself the best chance at 30 00:02:17.520 --> 00:02:21.319 starting again in twenty twenty six. And how are you 31 00:02:21.360 --> 00:02:24.400 gonna do that? I'm gonna tell you what's up? Positive bitches, 32 00:02:24.439 --> 00:02:26.360 how are you doing today? If you're hearing this episode, 33 00:02:26.360 --> 00:02:28.400 then you are meant to be here. So keep listening 34 00:02:28.879 --> 00:02:31.599 on a Bitch's Positive Podcast. Sometimes we are gonna laugh, 35 00:02:31.639 --> 00:02:34.159 other towns, Baby, we're gonna cry, but we will always 36 00:02:34.159 --> 00:02:37.400 walk away feeling our most empowered positive bitch self that 37 00:02:37.560 --> 00:02:40.800 is Babe in true connection with herself himself, human self. 38 00:02:41.159 --> 00:02:44.120 I don't care if you think you're an alien, you 39 00:02:44.400 --> 00:02:48.159 probably are. I want you here if you want to 40 00:02:48.199 --> 00:02:52.039 take back your power. Okay, on this podcast, we unbecome 41 00:02:52.080 --> 00:02:54.199 who we are not, so we can fully step into 42 00:02:54.360 --> 00:02:58.439 exactly who we came here to be. 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This will bring your shadow 60 00:03:55.840 --> 00:03:58.120 to the light. You will discover hitting gifts you didn't 61 00:03:58.159 --> 00:04:00.680 even know that you were holding on to, and so 62 00:04:01.080 --> 00:04:07.319 much more. But without further ado, let's get into today's podcast. First, 63 00:04:07.439 --> 00:04:11.240 I need to talk about the distinction between holding on 64 00:04:11.599 --> 00:04:16.240 and clinging. Clinging comes from fear your lower self, a 65 00:04:16.319 --> 00:04:19.279 disregulated nervous system. If I lose this, I'm going to 66 00:04:19.360 --> 00:04:22.839 lose myself. Damn. How many of us have had ego 67 00:04:22.920 --> 00:04:26.639 deaths because we create our identity based on our external 68 00:04:26.920 --> 00:04:31.560 circumstance and environment rather than an internal decision. I'll say 69 00:04:31.600 --> 00:04:37.120 that again. How many of us have created self concepts, 70 00:04:37.480 --> 00:04:41.439 identities that have everything to do with what's going on 71 00:04:41.560 --> 00:04:43.959 outside of us and nothing to do with who we 72 00:04:44.040 --> 00:04:48.560 actually are. Raise your hand if you're a victim of yourself. 73 00:04:48.759 --> 00:04:53.279 Oh oh, awkward, Yes, I am raising my hand. I 74 00:04:53.560 --> 00:04:57.000 recently was thinking about when I was twelve years old. 75 00:04:57.120 --> 00:05:00.199 I had an ego death. When I was twelve yup 76 00:05:01.120 --> 00:05:05.079 in middle school. I remember being so stressed out because 77 00:05:05.120 --> 00:05:07.040 I went to a small Catholic school and there was 78 00:05:07.079 --> 00:05:10.959 only so many girls and my friend group. I loved them, 79 00:05:11.199 --> 00:05:14.720 but it was high stress. Every day someone was fighting 80 00:05:14.720 --> 00:05:17.839 with someone and I could just see the red sea 81 00:05:17.959 --> 00:05:20.199 happening in my friend group. I could see how we 82 00:05:20.199 --> 00:05:23.959 were really splitting into two separate groups, and I did 83 00:05:24.000 --> 00:05:27.199 not like it. You know, me you know I love attachment. 84 00:05:27.399 --> 00:05:30.360 You know that about me. I wanted my group to 85 00:05:30.399 --> 00:05:33.959 stay intact, and I saw that it was not. And 86 00:05:34.000 --> 00:05:36.600 this really caused me to have an ego death because 87 00:05:36.639 --> 00:05:39.839 I started thinking, well, who am I if I'm not 88 00:05:39.879 --> 00:05:43.240 part of this friend group? Who am I if I 89 00:05:43.319 --> 00:05:47.639 am not involved in this specific person's life? Who am 90 00:05:47.720 --> 00:05:50.720 I outside of this friend group? If they played sports, 91 00:05:50.759 --> 00:05:54.720 I played sports. I hated sports. I hated basketball. And 92 00:05:54.759 --> 00:05:58.399 there I was running up a hill. Literally, I'm not 93 00:05:58.480 --> 00:06:04.160 referring to that song up a hill, Nan, no stranger 94 00:06:04.199 --> 00:06:07.439 things I think. Anyway, I didn't like any of that. 95 00:06:07.759 --> 00:06:10.720 I didn't like it, but I did it all. I 96 00:06:10.759 --> 00:06:13.560 was in sports camp, lacrosse camp. I got so good. 97 00:06:13.560 --> 00:06:18.439 I was placed on a lacrosse travel team because I'm 98 00:06:18.439 --> 00:06:22.839 a Capricorn probably, but anyway, I would do all these 99 00:06:22.879 --> 00:06:24.879 sports because I didn't want to have this ego death 100 00:06:24.959 --> 00:06:27.959 of letting go of this friend group. And that was 101 00:06:28.000 --> 00:06:31.000 something that stemmed from even earlier than that. Childhood. We 102 00:06:31.120 --> 00:06:34.120 learned who to be based on the caregiver. We crave 103 00:06:34.240 --> 00:06:37.839 love from the most. That's how we create our identity. 104 00:06:37.879 --> 00:06:39.759 Oh mom wants me to be the good girl. I'm 105 00:06:39.839 --> 00:06:42.279 the good girl. Oh my friends want me to be sporty. 106 00:06:42.360 --> 00:06:45.959 I'm sporty. But then we become so hyper vigilant of 107 00:06:46.000 --> 00:06:49.439 our environment. We become so sensitive to the people and 108 00:06:49.480 --> 00:06:52.560 the environments and the circumstance outside of ourselves because that 109 00:06:52.680 --> 00:06:54.560 is the only way we know who we are. That 110 00:06:54.639 --> 00:06:57.560 is the only way we have any identity. Who are we? 111 00:06:57.639 --> 00:06:59.879 Without the friend group, without the city, without the boyfriend, 112 00:07:00.199 --> 00:07:04.600 without the family member. What happens when your physical reality 113 00:07:04.680 --> 00:07:09.120 changes and you are attached to that circumstance to give 114 00:07:09.120 --> 00:07:14.360 you an identity? That is us clinging. So if you're 115 00:07:14.360 --> 00:07:18.560 doing that, perhaps let go. Perhaps let go and you 116 00:07:18.639 --> 00:07:20.720 can work one on one with me. I offer something 117 00:07:20.759 --> 00:07:23.800 called the self concept tune up, where we literally create 118 00:07:23.800 --> 00:07:28.279 an identity from the inside out. If you are clinging 119 00:07:28.959 --> 00:07:32.800 to your external environment because it's what is giving you 120 00:07:32.839 --> 00:07:37.240 an identity, you are going to feel stressed out. Why 121 00:07:37.240 --> 00:07:39.759 do we become so stressed out when things are starting 122 00:07:39.839 --> 00:07:41.759 to change but we're not ready to change with them. 123 00:07:41.800 --> 00:07:44.319 It's because that thing has been giving us an identity. 124 00:07:44.560 --> 00:07:49.000 And if that thing goes, Oh, no ego death, go death, 125 00:07:49.240 --> 00:07:52.879 que ego death at twelve years old, that is so 126 00:07:53.079 --> 00:08:00.759 different than holding on, persevering, sticking it out well when 127 00:08:00.800 --> 00:08:04.120 the going gets tough, Yeah, we gotta get tougher. Sometimes 128 00:08:04.519 --> 00:08:07.800 I want to talk about how to anchor and focus 129 00:08:08.279 --> 00:08:10.319 when you're in a difficult season and you just need 130 00:08:10.360 --> 00:08:14.920 to get through it. Holding on isn't clinging. It's not 131 00:08:14.959 --> 00:08:17.560 coming from fear. It's not you trying to control, because 132 00:08:17.560 --> 00:08:19.600 if this thing leaves, then you have an ego death. 133 00:08:19.879 --> 00:08:24.360 Holding on comes from I know this is temporary. I 134 00:08:24.560 --> 00:08:28.399 just have to keep going. It comes from regulated presence. 135 00:08:28.759 --> 00:08:32.600 It comes from even if this is hard, I'm still 136 00:08:32.639 --> 00:08:35.159 here with me and beyond that, God is with me, 137 00:08:35.720 --> 00:08:39.559 because in unknown seasons we still have a known God. 138 00:08:40.360 --> 00:08:45.840 Holding on sometimes is the bridge that gets us to 139 00:08:45.919 --> 00:08:49.960 our next quantum leap. Holding on is the golden ticket 140 00:08:50.080 --> 00:08:55.840 to that highest vibrational timeline. You can get there from here, 141 00:08:56.440 --> 00:09:05.919 but it may require holding on. Hard seasons make harder individuals, 142 00:09:05.960 --> 00:09:09.679 sometimes in the best way possible, sometimes not so much. 143 00:09:10.080 --> 00:09:12.960 When you go through trauma after trauma after trauma as 144 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:17.159 a child, that will really really disregulate you. We are 145 00:09:17.200 --> 00:09:19.799 not meant to go through that. I had my eradology 146 00:09:19.879 --> 00:09:23.240 read today where if you want to actually look him up, 147 00:09:23.279 --> 00:09:26.799 he was amazing. I posted about him today. His instagram 148 00:09:26.879 --> 00:09:31.320 is called Green Health and Wellness. He reads your eyes 149 00:09:31.360 --> 00:09:33.679 because eyes are not just the window to the soul, 150 00:09:33.759 --> 00:09:36.440 they're also the window to your body. Quinton, who was 151 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:40.519 doing my eradology, literally showed me the stress rings around 152 00:09:40.639 --> 00:09:43.600 my eyes and he says this comes from trauma when 153 00:09:43.679 --> 00:09:47.759 you're younger, trauma and heart season after his heart season. 154 00:09:47.799 --> 00:09:53.639 When we're younger, it definitely can cause disase in the body, 155 00:09:53.720 --> 00:09:57.320 can cause us to become avoidant or overly attached. But 156 00:09:57.600 --> 00:10:02.120 as an adult, I have to say, hard seasons make 157 00:10:02.399 --> 00:10:09.200 you a harder, more pristine, more clear vessel. My biggest 158 00:10:09.240 --> 00:10:14.120 breakdowns were my breakthroughs, my hardest breakups. We're the thing 159 00:10:14.200 --> 00:10:17.480 that catapulted me into a spiritual awakening, into writing the book, 160 00:10:17.519 --> 00:10:24.360 into finding myself. Hard seasons can collapse people into flight, freeze, 161 00:10:24.399 --> 00:10:27.720 or a piece, but they can also teach you how 162 00:10:27.759 --> 00:10:30.480 to lock in. They can also teach you how to 163 00:10:30.519 --> 00:10:34.840 get even more focused. Pressure makes diamonds. We know this. 164 00:10:35.240 --> 00:10:40.360 Resistance builds muscle. If you are going through it, yeah, 165 00:10:40.519 --> 00:10:42.720 you might have a second where you're fighting, fighting, freezing 166 00:10:42.799 --> 00:10:46.519 or appeasing that urge to quit, to ghost, to burn 167 00:10:46.559 --> 00:10:49.919 it down or spiritually bypass. That can just be our 168 00:10:50.039 --> 00:10:54.519 nervous system being completely burnt out. Okay, so take a breath, 169 00:10:54.799 --> 00:10:58.080 sit down, take a break, watch a movie. I just 170 00:10:58.120 --> 00:11:01.200 watched the movie I Origins. Highly recommend that it was 171 00:11:01.240 --> 00:11:06.759 so good. Not everything that feels unbearable is meant to 172 00:11:07.120 --> 00:11:12.159 just be escaped. It's not. It's not take a break 173 00:11:12.279 --> 00:11:14.799 when you need to. But some things are meant to 174 00:11:15.000 --> 00:11:19.000 be met slowly. Some things are meant for you to 175 00:11:19.159 --> 00:11:21.639 walk through, even if you have to go a little 176 00:11:21.639 --> 00:11:24.080 bit slower, even if you have to be at your 177 00:11:24.120 --> 00:11:27.480 own pace, even if you have to take rest every 178 00:11:27.559 --> 00:11:32.000 other stop, you still have to keep going. I was 179 00:11:32.000 --> 00:11:34.519 talking to one of my clients today and she's going 180 00:11:34.519 --> 00:11:37.279 through something very difficult, and she's such a beautiful soul 181 00:11:37.600 --> 00:11:41.039 and human and I told her, look, you have to 182 00:11:41.120 --> 00:11:43.440 keep going or you can roll over and die. But 183 00:11:43.559 --> 00:11:46.600 you can't roll over and die. The world is gonna 184 00:11:46.679 --> 00:11:49.600 keep turning with or without us. We can't roll over 185 00:11:49.679 --> 00:11:52.080 and die. We can roll over and take a second 186 00:11:52.080 --> 00:11:54.559 to breathe. We can roll over and take a second 187 00:11:54.559 --> 00:11:57.440 to rest. Some of us are exhausted, some of our 188 00:11:57.480 --> 00:12:01.200 nervous systems are caput. Okay, so take a second, take 189 00:12:01.240 --> 00:12:08.039 a breath. Everything's fine. But initiations often don't feel magical. 190 00:12:08.120 --> 00:12:13.240 Initiations often don't feel good. Initiations often feel like terrible, 191 00:12:13.320 --> 00:12:18.360 terrible shit, shitty mix shitterson. That's what initiation feels like. Heartbreak, 192 00:12:18.720 --> 00:12:21.799 nervous system crashing out. I'm gonna lose all of my 193 00:12:21.960 --> 00:12:26.440 shit in one second if anything goes wrong, that's an issue. Welcome, Hi, 194 00:12:26.519 --> 00:12:29.320 I'm shaking your hand. Welcome to initiation. That is what 195 00:12:29.440 --> 00:12:34.600 this is. Initiations do not feel good because you are 196 00:12:34.600 --> 00:12:38.720 being initiated into a new version of yourself, new abilities, 197 00:12:38.759 --> 00:12:42.720 new talents, new gifts, and yeah, it's gonna take training. 198 00:12:43.600 --> 00:12:46.960 The soul doesn't rush. Your ego is definitely gonna want you. 199 00:12:46.960 --> 00:12:48.840 Your ego is gonna want to give up. Your ego 200 00:12:48.919 --> 00:12:51.080 is gonna want to just say I'm gonna escape. I 201 00:12:51.120 --> 00:12:52.840 want to get I want to get out of this. 202 00:12:53.159 --> 00:12:54.919 I don't want to handle this, I don't want to 203 00:12:54.960 --> 00:12:56.919 do this. Your ego is gonna say, you know, I 204 00:12:56.960 --> 00:13:00.039 should just really walk out of this season. No, no, no, 205 00:13:01.240 --> 00:13:03.399 there are things to let go of. And again, we've 206 00:13:03.399 --> 00:13:07.159 been doing that all year. We've been doing that all year. 207 00:13:08.039 --> 00:13:10.360 We are letting go of things we think we have 208 00:13:10.440 --> 00:13:13.559 to cling to out of our ego, out of fear. 209 00:13:14.519 --> 00:13:17.720 We are holding on to our revision. We are holding 210 00:13:17.759 --> 00:13:21.360 on to our faith, we are holding on to our desires. 211 00:13:21.639 --> 00:13:25.279 And sometimes that means walking through sticky season. Sometimes that 212 00:13:25.360 --> 00:13:27.279 means going through something that we really don't want to 213 00:13:27.279 --> 00:13:30.720 go through. Sometimes that means being initiated into a situation 214 00:13:30.840 --> 00:13:33.279 that feels like shit and wanting to rush through it. 215 00:13:33.519 --> 00:13:37.360 But honestly, we have to eliminate the need, the urge 216 00:13:37.559 --> 00:13:41.240 to rush, and we gotta walk. We have to be slow. 217 00:13:41.840 --> 00:13:45.080 I always think of Jesus. Jesus doesn't run wildly, he 218 00:13:45.159 --> 00:13:47.799 doesn't rush. When you think of Jesus, you think of 219 00:13:47.840 --> 00:13:50.960 an ascended master, you think of a yogi. They're slow. 220 00:13:51.759 --> 00:13:55.360 Those people walk slow. They're not rushing. Oh my god, 221 00:13:55.360 --> 00:13:59.759 I gotta get here. And then they're no. They go slow, 222 00:14:00.200 --> 00:14:06.440 They take their time to listen, to feel. Divine timing 223 00:14:06.519 --> 00:14:09.039 is gonna invite you, it's gonna ask you, It might 224 00:14:09.080 --> 00:14:15.159 even pressure you. Can you stay present without reassurance? Can 225 00:14:15.320 --> 00:14:20.519 you stay in this moment without knowing every single other 226 00:14:21.120 --> 00:14:25.600 dot that needs to be connected? Can you stay present? 227 00:14:25.679 --> 00:14:28.080 Can you stay here. Can you stay in your body 228 00:14:28.600 --> 00:14:30.960 without knowing everything? Or are you going to try to 229 00:14:31.039 --> 00:14:34.919 rush this? I mean, WWJD, what would Jesus do? Jesus 230 00:14:34.960 --> 00:14:38.240 would not be rushing through the season. There is a 231 00:14:38.279 --> 00:14:41.600 book the Elimination of Hurry. Perhaps we need to invite 232 00:14:41.600 --> 00:14:44.480 that into our life right now. Perhaps we need to 233 00:14:44.639 --> 00:14:48.639 eliminate the hurry, the running like a chicken without a head, 234 00:14:48.679 --> 00:14:52.279 so we can actually hear ourselves and understand the golden 235 00:14:52.879 --> 00:14:57.720 nuggets in this initiation season. Faith is not believing things 236 00:14:57.799 --> 00:15:01.519 will work out. Faith is staying open and even when 237 00:15:01.519 --> 00:15:05.120 you don't know if they will, because on this podcast, 238 00:15:05.200 --> 00:15:07.360 we know, if it's not them, it's someone better. If 239 00:15:07.360 --> 00:15:10.559 it's not this, it's something better. If it's not this season, 240 00:15:10.720 --> 00:15:13.159 it's because it's gonna be in a better one when 241 00:15:13.200 --> 00:15:18.600 better things are aligned for us. There is such a 242 00:15:18.759 --> 00:15:23.480 hurry noss around the holiday season. There is so much chaos, 243 00:15:23.480 --> 00:15:26.919 and that's exactly what the matrix wants. Don't focus on 244 00:15:27.000 --> 00:15:31.879 what's important, your loved ones, your well being, self care. Instead, 245 00:15:32.240 --> 00:15:37.000 rush rush R no no. In this season, when we 246 00:15:37.200 --> 00:15:39.559 aren't sure how things are gonna work out, we aren't 247 00:15:39.559 --> 00:15:41.679 even sure if they're gonna work out. But really we 248 00:15:41.759 --> 00:15:45.159 know they are going to because we're positive. Bitchess, we 249 00:15:45.279 --> 00:15:49.840 are eliminating hurry. We are slowing down, but we are 250 00:15:49.879 --> 00:15:52.840 not giving up. We are not letting go of our faith. 251 00:15:52.879 --> 00:15:55.480 We are not letting go of our vision. We are 252 00:15:55.480 --> 00:15:59.879 not letting go of our desires. We might be neutralizing that, 253 00:16:00.399 --> 00:16:03.080 we might be opening ourselves up. And what do I 254 00:16:03.200 --> 00:16:07.600 mean about that? Que the law of substitution. If you 255 00:16:07.639 --> 00:16:10.200 are to tell me, Ceci, I need Brad to be 256 00:16:10.279 --> 00:16:12.080 the man I marry. I need it to be Brad. 257 00:16:12.879 --> 00:16:16.159 That is you clinging. That's not you holding on. Be 258 00:16:16.279 --> 00:16:19.879 so for real. That is you clinging, not you holding on. 259 00:16:20.639 --> 00:16:23.720 Clinging is trying to force our will over thy will. 260 00:16:23.879 --> 00:16:28.360 How fun I've tried it. It was terrible. I would 261 00:16:28.480 --> 00:16:31.399 never recommend it. It was the worst thing I've ever done. 262 00:16:31.759 --> 00:16:34.759 And I'm so happy I don't do it anymore. Now. 263 00:16:34.799 --> 00:16:38.919 What I do is not cling. So I let go 264 00:16:39.360 --> 00:16:42.960 of three D circumstance, but I hold on to my vision. 265 00:16:43.639 --> 00:16:46.519 And I say to myself, I know the type of 266 00:16:46.600 --> 00:16:49.600 man that I want. A man in his masculine, a 267 00:16:49.639 --> 00:16:54.240 man who is awake to his own attachment system, a 268 00:16:54.279 --> 00:16:57.360 man who knows how to create physical abundance. A man 269 00:16:57.399 --> 00:16:59.720 who has a relationship with God, a man that is healthy, 270 00:16:59.720 --> 00:17:01.759 a man who has a head on his shoulders. Hello, 271 00:17:02.080 --> 00:17:05.960 where are YEA? Where are ye? Anyway? I'm not going 272 00:17:06.039 --> 00:17:08.680 to scream up my future husband right now and ask 273 00:17:08.799 --> 00:17:11.240 him where he is a million times. I am instead 274 00:17:11.319 --> 00:17:13.160 going to get back into this episode here. I am 275 00:17:13.319 --> 00:17:17.240 reeling myself back in. Ha ha. I don't get stuck 276 00:17:17.279 --> 00:17:20.039 on a specific person. Brad has to be my husband. 277 00:17:20.119 --> 00:17:22.960 I say no, it's either Brad or someone better. I 278 00:17:23.039 --> 00:17:25.759 let go of the specific person, but I hold on 279 00:17:26.359 --> 00:17:29.119 to my vision. It has to be this because this 280 00:17:29.359 --> 00:17:33.160 is what I truly desire. It has to be this 281 00:17:33.240 --> 00:17:36.880 feeling of safety, of security. That's what I hold on to. 282 00:17:37.319 --> 00:17:41.200 So sometimes we have to neutralize the specifics of the 283 00:17:41.240 --> 00:17:44.000 three D and tune back into what is my heart 284 00:17:44.000 --> 00:17:45.799 telling me? What is my heart telling me? What is 285 00:17:45.799 --> 00:17:49.440 my heart telling me? The law of substitution is always 286 00:17:49.480 --> 00:17:52.440 at place. So if it's not them and you let go, 287 00:17:52.559 --> 00:17:54.920 you release, but you hold onto your vision, your idea, 288 00:17:55.079 --> 00:17:58.839 your concept, your desire. The universe immediately will send out 289 00:17:58.839 --> 00:18:02.279 a replacement. It's like when you pick one grape that's moldy. 290 00:18:02.319 --> 00:18:04.519 You're like, hey, oh, you throw it away, But then 291 00:18:04.559 --> 00:18:06.200 you go back to the vine and you pick a 292 00:18:06.240 --> 00:18:09.640 new one. That is how the law of substitution works. 293 00:18:09.799 --> 00:18:12.599 But you have to loosen up your grip enough that 294 00:18:12.680 --> 00:18:16.640 you allow in that highest vibrational match to actually come 295 00:18:16.759 --> 00:18:21.039 on into your reality. So many people right now that 296 00:18:21.160 --> 00:18:25.200 I'm talking to hell, even myself, we get so obsessed 297 00:18:25.200 --> 00:18:26.759 with what we see in the three D. It has 298 00:18:26.880 --> 00:18:31.759 to be this building, this house, this position, this partner. 299 00:18:33.079 --> 00:18:35.799 We don't leave any room for the divine to do 300 00:18:35.880 --> 00:18:38.440 its thing. And when you give up, the first thing 301 00:18:38.480 --> 00:18:42.160 you're giving up actually is resistance, and funny enough, that 302 00:18:42.279 --> 00:18:44.440 is when everything falls into place. Why is it that 303 00:18:44.480 --> 00:18:46.680 when so many people say, as soon as I stopped 304 00:18:47.000 --> 00:18:50.359 obsessing over finding my husband, he walked into my life 305 00:18:50.400 --> 00:18:53.799 Because you gave up resistance. You didn't forget you wanted 306 00:18:53.799 --> 00:18:57.319 a partner. You didn't act so detached and so avoidant 307 00:18:57.559 --> 00:19:03.160 that you forgot you wanted love. No, let your grip loosen. 308 00:19:03.799 --> 00:19:06.720 You held on to what you desired. You held on 309 00:19:06.799 --> 00:19:09.279 through that season. You kept moving forward, you kept waking up, 310 00:19:09.319 --> 00:19:10.960 you kept going to work, you kept working out, you 311 00:19:11.079 --> 00:19:14.000 kept focusing on yourself and your health and your wellness. 312 00:19:14.319 --> 00:19:17.680 You held on and you kept moving forward. We have 313 00:19:17.839 --> 00:19:21.680 to keep walking, baby, even if you got a crawl, 314 00:19:21.920 --> 00:19:24.640 just keep moving forward. I don't care if you cry 315 00:19:24.759 --> 00:19:30.799 yourself a whole entire river of tears, and row row, row, row, 316 00:19:30.960 --> 00:19:33.920 row your freaking boat to the next season. I don't 317 00:19:33.960 --> 00:19:35.920 care what you have to do to get there. But 318 00:19:36.039 --> 00:19:41.160 you must keep going. You must keep going. There have 319 00:19:41.240 --> 00:19:44.599 been so many times where I was so tired. I 320 00:19:44.640 --> 00:19:47.359 wanted to stop posting. I didn't want to make a podcast. 321 00:19:47.799 --> 00:19:50.799 I didn't want to write another sentence in my book. 322 00:19:50.880 --> 00:19:52.920 I just wanted to give up on men. There have 323 00:19:53.000 --> 00:19:55.519 been so many times where I wanted to quit the waiting, 324 00:19:55.720 --> 00:19:59.920 quit my vision, quit on God, quit being the strong one. 325 00:20:01.799 --> 00:20:04.839 But no, but no, why would I do that. That 326 00:20:04.960 --> 00:20:07.680 is what the devil would want. And the devil mm 327 00:20:07.720 --> 00:20:11.440 mmm mmm mmm mmmm. The devil is no friend of mine. 328 00:20:11.519 --> 00:20:13.160 I put the devil in his place, and I said, 329 00:20:13.400 --> 00:20:19.480 not today, not today. I didn't hold on because I 330 00:20:19.640 --> 00:20:21.640 was confident it was going to work out. I didn't 331 00:20:21.680 --> 00:20:24.119 hold on because I had always faith that it was 332 00:20:24.160 --> 00:20:26.359 going to work out. I didn't hold on because I 333 00:20:26.519 --> 00:20:29.759 knew everything was fine and dandy. I held on because 334 00:20:30.079 --> 00:20:33.079 there was something in me that refused to give up 335 00:20:33.319 --> 00:20:36.720 on me. I spent way too much of my reality 336 00:20:36.839 --> 00:20:39.599 abandoning myself for other people. I spent way too much 337 00:20:39.640 --> 00:20:43.039 of my reality abandoning my own wants and desires and 338 00:20:43.839 --> 00:20:45.880 just doing what the crowd wanted me to do, whether 339 00:20:45.880 --> 00:20:48.920 it's playing basketball or playing lacrosse, because I created an 340 00:20:48.960 --> 00:20:52.240 identity outside of myself instead of deciding who I was 341 00:20:52.319 --> 00:20:56.279 and being rooted in my own divinity. I held on 342 00:20:56.640 --> 00:20:59.799 because I refused to do what maybe most of the 343 00:21:00.000 --> 00:21:02.799 people in my life have done, which is either betray 344 00:21:03.039 --> 00:21:05.519 or abandon me, or give up on me, or just 345 00:21:05.680 --> 00:21:07.960 not hear me or see me. I'm not gonna do 346 00:21:08.039 --> 00:21:13.160 that to me. This is personal. This is personal. Your 347 00:21:13.279 --> 00:21:16.160 life is your very own revolution. Your life is your 348 00:21:16.319 --> 00:21:21.799 very own reclamation. You can't give up. You can't give up. 349 00:21:21.920 --> 00:21:26.680 You have to hold on. This is not a dead end. 350 00:21:26.920 --> 00:21:30.319 You might be in a waiting season, in a reset season, 351 00:21:30.400 --> 00:21:33.440 in a season where your body needs rest. You might 352 00:21:33.519 --> 00:21:36.799 be under divine pressure. But that's what it is. Divine pressure. 353 00:21:36.839 --> 00:21:42.359 It's the catalyst. It's initiation. You're not behind. Your light 354 00:21:42.519 --> 00:21:46.680 is being condensed so you could be laser focused and 355 00:21:46.880 --> 00:21:48.720 move through this season. And if you're dealing with a 356 00:21:48.799 --> 00:21:52.640 lot of difficult emotions, you probably know what I'm gonna say. 357 00:21:52.759 --> 00:21:56.400 Get my Art of Alchemy course. Let that course guide 358 00:21:56.440 --> 00:21:59.720 you on how to shift your emotions into your fuel, 359 00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:02.359 your pain in your power. I've already been there, I 360 00:22:02.559 --> 00:22:06.039 know how to get out what often feels like this 361 00:22:06.160 --> 00:22:10.960 stagnation is an invitation for integration. So learn how to 362 00:22:11.079 --> 00:22:13.680 integrate with the Art of Alchemy, learn how to take 363 00:22:13.759 --> 00:22:17.160 that pain into power. And if you're still listening, and 364 00:22:17.200 --> 00:22:20.880 and if you're still here, you know you are powerful enough. 365 00:22:21.200 --> 00:22:23.440 You know you are meant for more. You know you 366 00:22:23.599 --> 00:22:25.799 can't just let go, even if your ego wants to, 367 00:22:26.000 --> 00:22:28.200 even if your inner child is freaking out, even if 368 00:22:28.240 --> 00:22:31.359 your nervous system is tired, you are still listening because 369 00:22:31.400 --> 00:22:33.440 you know, like you know, like you know, you have 370 00:22:33.559 --> 00:22:35.279 the power to get through this, and you know, like 371 00:22:35.359 --> 00:22:37.599 you know, like you know, you have to keep going 372 00:22:37.680 --> 00:22:39.599 and you can't give up on yourself, and you cannot 373 00:22:39.680 --> 00:22:44.200 abandon yourself when you need yourself the most. You know 374 00:22:44.400 --> 00:22:46.359 how it feels to be abandoned. You know how it 375 00:22:46.480 --> 00:22:48.920 feels to be betrayed. You know how it feels for 376 00:22:49.000 --> 00:22:52.279 people to misunderstand you. You cannot give up on you 377 00:22:52.440 --> 00:22:56.359 like other people have. You cannot let go of this desire, 378 00:22:56.519 --> 00:22:59.079 of this dream like other people just let you go 379 00:22:59.160 --> 00:23:02.640 like you're a piece of trash. Okay, they didn't have 380 00:23:02.759 --> 00:23:04.240 eyes to see that was evident. 381 00:23:04.440 --> 00:23:05.319 But you do. 382 00:23:06.720 --> 00:23:11.440 You do, and that's why you have to hold on 383 00:23:12.079 --> 00:23:15.680 to yourself, to your vision, to your dream. Maybe even 384 00:23:15.759 --> 00:23:18.759 hug yourself if you need to. Our own touch lowers, 385 00:23:18.839 --> 00:23:23.400 our cortisol Okay, you don't need to figure everything out 386 00:23:23.480 --> 00:23:26.240 right now, You don't need to have all the answers, 387 00:23:26.319 --> 00:23:29.400 but you have to stay with yourself. You have to 388 00:23:29.720 --> 00:23:34.960 stay present. Hold on not to the outcome, not to 389 00:23:35.039 --> 00:23:37.960 the outcome, not to the specific person, not to the 390 00:23:38.039 --> 00:23:40.759 ex You have to let go of, hold on to 391 00:23:40.880 --> 00:23:43.960 your breath, your body, your becoming. You are blooming. You 392 00:23:44.039 --> 00:23:48.279 are blooming. You are blooming. Tis the season of holding on, 393 00:23:49.000 --> 00:23:52.400 Tis the season of blooming. Tis the season of waiting. 394 00:23:52.759 --> 00:23:55.799 Why don't we just romanticize the waiting period? It is 395 00:23:55.960 --> 00:23:58.119 kind of flirty and cute and fun and he he, 396 00:23:58.680 --> 00:24:00.599 you know what I mean, If you think about it, 397 00:24:00.720 --> 00:24:02.920 when you first start dating someone. That's when it's the 398 00:24:03.000 --> 00:24:07.319 most flirty and interesting and fun. Right now, you're in 399 00:24:07.480 --> 00:24:10.720 a flirting phase with your reality. You're not really sure. Ooh, 400 00:24:10.839 --> 00:24:13.519 is my reality gonna kiss me today? Ooh? Is my 401 00:24:13.720 --> 00:24:17.480