Speaker 1: And that's why I never read the comment.
Speaker 2: I just want to like, I'm not even gonna look
amazing tonight.
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we're all I have an angry clows.
Speaker 3: That is life.
Speaker 1: But that's hard, like unless it's like an NBA team
or something like.
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my guest today spent twenty years as a VP in finance.
In twenty twenty four, she walked away from a successful,
some might say safe career into the unknown world of
adult entertainment. But she will tell you that this isn't
a career pivot story. It's about a woman who spent
decades holding everything together through a brutal custody battle, years
of harassment, and a marriage that left her sexually repressed,
and who finally gave herself permission to find out who
she actually is. Let's welcome Taylor Vixon.
Speaker 2: Hello, thanks for having me.
Speaker 4: Of course, thanks for coming. All right, let's start from
the beginning. Okay, you spent over twenty years as a
VP level executive in finance before entering the adult industry
in twenty twenty four.
Speaker 1: What makes you decide to take such a drastic leap.
Speaker 3: Well, my current husband and I ran the lastyle. We've
been married ten years now, so not the ex husband
that you spoke of, but so we were in the lifestyle.
I think a lot of people in the industry kind
of started with that. It definitely opened up my eyes
sexually to a lot of things. It made me more
comfort with my body, with being you know, I discovered
being like kind of an exhibitionist. So obviously you kind
of have to be to be in this industry. So
when everybody was doing the OnlyFans craze, I guess you
could say during during COVID, when it went crazy and
everybody's making tons of money. Everybody was in the lifestyle
was doing that as well, and so we'd be hosting
a fool party because I used to host lifestyle events.
I'm like, where the hell did everybody go. They're all
in the freaking rooms filming content for OnlyFans, and I'm like, like,
we would film our own experiences like our own, but
we could never use it because we didn't have people's
names or IDs or anything like that, so we would
just film it for our own fun. And I'm like,
I'm missing the boat here, right, but I couldn't do
it because of my job, Like we had the company.
The last company I worked for was basically run by
a bunch of Mormons, and so OnlyFans was definitely. I mean,
most companies have clauses against being they consider this another job, right,
So even in OnlyFans, most companies have clauses. But there
was morality clauses and things like that, so that wasn't
even a thought in my mind. I mean, I didn't
even show my boobs on Facebook, or i mean even
just showing my face on our Facebook swinger groups and
stuff was you know, it was always something that worried me.
So but I kind of figured I was missing the
boat and I said. Finally, I was just like, screw it, Like,
I'm not getting any younger. I'm not going to just
miss this. This is fun for me. I really enjoyed it,
and so I started OnlyFans and my company found out
about it like a month later.
Speaker 1: How do they Okay?
Speaker 4: So I want to get to that story, but before
we get there, I just want to talk about the
transition from like the first one that you first were
you know, sexually repressed, to to becoming a swinger. So like,
what was the first time that you went to a
swinger party? And do you think it was every anything
that you did? You ever imagine yourself doing something like that?
Oh my god, absolutely not. I am the most, and
I still have problems with it now.
Speaker 2: I am the most.
Speaker 3: I get very embarrassed in public, especially in what we
call vanilla situations, so like a vanilla bar, So take
me out of the lifestyle, take me out of you know, porn.
Right if I walk into a bar, like, I don't
want to do anything that's like even karaoke is so embarrassing.
Speaker 1: Oh I won't do it. I mean so absolutely yeah,
I'm not.
Speaker 3: It's awful and so like I mean, I thought even
before the lifestyle. So my husband we just started talking
about fantasies. And I didn't even know what fantasies were.
Like really, I had didn't have fantasies, was never allowed
to have fantasies in my previous marriage, wasn't allowed to
have sex toys, wasn't a lot. I mean, I used
an electronic toothbrush as like a little vibrator, like how
sad is I was awful, But I just that was
just what I thought was normal. I thought, maybe, you know,
I just didn't I didn't win the girls, like the
ladies at the golf club, didn't talk about you know
that kind of stuff, right, you just didn't. So I thought, honestly,
I thought swinger parties were like eyes wide shut. I
thought it was like everybody's in their robes, and you know,
you go to this party and then all of a sudden,
everybody kind of gets more scantily clad, and then there's
an orgy in the middle of the floor. And I
mean some are like that, but I mean that wasn't
really reality. But we went to our first swinger I
guess it was like a club. There was a club
in Austin and we went there called collettes, and we
just were so nervous, and so we went up to
the room where you could basically just have sex, and
we're like, okay, well there's no one here, like we
just didn't talk to anybody, so like, maybe we'll just
have sex just us.
Speaker 2: And so we started having sex.
Speaker 1: And there was this.
Speaker 3: Very large lady at the end of the at the
end of the curtains, like peering in looking like she
was about to dive on top of them. It was
a little traumatizing, but we did realize that we liked
people watching.
Speaker 2: I realized I like that.
Speaker 3: And then from there, I guess we just kind of
like poor, I mean, just dove in head first.
Speaker 2: Before you know it, I was hosting.
Speaker 3: We were flying all around the country hosting takeovers and
things like that.
Speaker 2: It was so much fun.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 4: And then how did you guys navigate your relationship around this?
Like most couples have, you know, who are swingers generally
have open communication because you kind of have to. People
have different boundary, rease, different rules. What was your deal?
Speaker 2: You know, it was?
Speaker 1: It was hard.
Speaker 3: I mean I think everybody in any relationship has, you know,
like you said, communication issues or problems that come aarrived
in a normal relationship. But having other sexual partners in
your milial relationship is hard, I mean, and because every
little thing we'd experience, every little guy coming up and
just grabbing my boobs out of nowhere, or you know,
little things like when you're having sex, like you know,
how often do you look at your partner?
Speaker 2: How often do you look at what the person that you're.
Speaker 3: With, like, well, I watch what he's doing, do am
my end of what I'm doing? And it's like this
perfect balance, and there's a lot of stuff that comes up,
and you just try to talk through stuff and try
to say, okay, this bothered me. Of course you you
put alcohol in the middle of that, and sometimes things happen,
so you know, but we're we're definitely stronger for it.
Speaker 2: It forces you to be communicative, all right.
Speaker 4: So you're in the swinger lifestyle and you know you've
got this job and you've decided that you really want
to like get on this. So was it were you
in actually just thinking that you wanted to start in
only fans? Did you have dreams of doing studio work eventually,
or was it only like personal content platforms to begin.
Speaker 3: I didn't even really watch a lot of porn, so
I was thinking only I mean, I knew porn was
out there, but I wasn't even thinking is that something
that I would do? So I was just thinking only
fans because it was like, Oh, everybody's making a ton
of money. This will be fun. It's the same stuff
I'm already doing, you know, let's go for it. And
then a friend had asked me that was also in
the industry. He said, well, are you going to do
mainstream too? You should just get an agent and see
what comes up. And I was like, Okay, why not?
Speaker 1: M M. And it was just like you decided to
say fuck it.
Speaker 4: But I feel like there must have been more than
just like the idea that you were missing out.
Speaker 1: Were you really like feeling stifled at your job or
did you love it?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Were you were you sad when you left?
Speaker 2: I loved what I did. I loved finance.
Speaker 3: I source capital for companies, I work with startups, I
work with credit challenge companies.
Speaker 2: I loved what I did. I really did.
Speaker 3: I will say though, it was right when I quit
was a time for the interest rates were really high
and really crazy, and it made doing what I did
very hard. As we all know, with interest rates, it
makes doing a lot of things hard. And so there
was a couple of really frustrating deals. I worked on,
very large transactions, like one hundred million dollar transactions, And
there was a couple deals that I worked on that
were so lengthy and so long and didn't come to
fruition at the end, and it was so frustrating. And
that just was kind of like I put all my
eggs in one basket and I just it was emotionally draining.
So that was kind of for me. I was like, Okay,
maybe there's something else out there for me.
Speaker 4: Do you feel kind of like you didn't have that
much control over the end result? And that was frustrating.
Speaker 2: Yeah, absolutely none.
Speaker 3: And it was like the hard I've had jobs before
where it was like the harder you work, the longer
hours you work, the more money you make. Right, because
I could just close deals, close deals, and this was
more just strategic, and it was really hard when stuff
didn't happen the way and you had no control over whatsoever.
Speaker 2: And it was like literally.
Speaker 3: Contracts were in hand and stuff got pull less minute
were like no. So I mean that was it's emotionally,
like when you're counting on something that I shouldn't have
before it actually happened. I mean lesson learned, but it
really takes like the wind out of your sails.
Speaker 4: Yeah, all right, So what happened when the company found out?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, it's such a crazy story.
Speaker 3: So the company was based up in the Northeast, up
and we had like a thing in Boston and we
had met this So I was doing swinger stuff at
this time, right, and so I barely just started the
only fans. This was back like February twenty twenty four,
and so we had met a guy, like a really
good looking guy on one of the one of the
swinger sites, and I decided I was going to meet
up with him at the one of the evenings that
I had free, and I was gonna film it and
basically FaceTime my husband so he could like film it,
like like we thought that would be really fun, just
for fun, Like I mean, I wasn't planning on using
it for my only fans.
Speaker 2: I was like, this is just gonna be fun.
Speaker 3: And that was actually the very first experience that I
ever did away from my husband, not in we did.
We did not other room stuff but not like out
of town, right, And I wasn't even doing mainstream porn
at the time, so this was like very new for us.
And I tagged the Encore Boston like and I put
something like work hard, Play Hard, but I didn't post
the guy in it or something, but I tagged and
it was under my Taylor Vixen because I just started
the Instagram.
Speaker 2: And I think that's how they found out.
Speaker 3: Because I think because you tagged the hotel, yeah as
Taylor Vixen, right, So I think someone from my work,
because it's all they're all based in Boston. I think
they looked in like Encore, who's this? Wait, that's not
who's that? Oh wait what who's this person?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: So I think like that was kind of stupid of me,
but I think that's how to been on they found out, Yeah,
because it was too quick and it was too close
after that.
Speaker 1: So what happened? Did you get a call? Did you
get an email?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: No, they they told me to come into the office
and so I was sitting there and honestly, all it
was was because I was new important at the time.
It was just the fact that I had an OnlyFans
and because I had averag that was back when you
could advertise, you know, on your links on Instagram, Like
I was advertising my only fans, and so they were
just like, you can't work here at the company and
have an only fan. So, you know, basically at that point,
I chose, like in that moment right there, like I
decided I was going to quit.
Speaker 4: So they gave you a choice. They were willing to
keep you on if you quit the only fans, Yes, okay,
but you you had made your mind up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And I think it was it was definitely in
the heat of the moment.
Speaker 3: But I was so angry at that point because I just,
I don't know, I just felt like there was there
had been some stuff that had happened recently at that
company with people and fraternization and stuff happening in the office.
And I was like, you've got to be kidding me.
And I was like, I'm not even doing anything. But
so I was just like at that point, I was
kind of on my my high horse, and I was like,
you know, yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 4: So you came from a world where image and reputation,
where everything you know, banking, finance, corporate hierarchies. How did
you manage the psychological shift of going from protecting your
professional image in such like a rigorous way to like
really putting yourself out there in the way that you do.
Speaker 1: Now.
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, it's hard.
Speaker 3: And you know, now we can't put as much on
Instagram anymore, so we have to be very careful. But yeah,
I mean, image was everything, and it still is to
an extent. But now it's really hard for me because
people say, oh, all publicity is good publicity. I'm like,
I still hard for me to wrap my head around
because like there has been some scenes before where you know,
I posted to some Instagram. I mean, just the haters
come out. I mean, the haters come out in full
force about anything. It's really hard. You have to have
a really thick skin. And so that's I think that's
hard in this industry in general, because there's always going
to be haters out there. It's definitely made me a
lot stronger because I don't really worry so much. I mean, I,
oh my god, I get all the time people think
I'm a man. I swear to god, I don't get it, Like,
oh my gosh, all the time, all the time Instagram,
Like who's that man, who's that man like drag queen.
I'm like, I don't get it, but okay, you know,
I don't know.
Speaker 2: So that's that's kind of hard. That's kind of hard
to deal with.
Speaker 3: But I mean, you know, I try to just be
who I am, and that's the hard part because I'm
a very humble person. I'm not and that's the hard
part about being this industry is you got to be
you can't be humble. You got to be like out
there and put yourself out there. And so that's been
really challenging. But I just try to I just try
to be me.
Speaker 4: I feel like you're kind of like the same as me,
where you didn't grow up you know, we both were
this were like the same age, and we didn't grow
up in a world with cell phones. So like it's
very difficult for me to like take selfies on a
regular basis or like film myself when I'm out somewhere.
Like I just look at some people and they've they're
like filming their whole day on Snapchat like all the time,
and I just can't.
Speaker 1: It doesn't even occur to me.
Speaker 4: Same and then when I do, it does occur to me,
I feel stupid.
Speaker 1: I am who who cares that I'm eating fish right now?
Speaker 3: You know what I mean, it's one hundred percent for me,
about eight well forgetting, forgetting, yeah, and not wanting to
feel stupid. Yeah, I mean I look at like TikTok
all the time and I'm like, oh that's cute, or
I'll going to Instagram and I'll save safe same like,
oh that's cute.
Speaker 2: I can do that, and then I go.
Speaker 3: We come from we come from an age where you
don't want to cop Copying someone is bad. So it's
really hard for us because we didn't grow up like
that to wrap our head around copying's okay, maybe you
put your own personal spin on it, but that's this
whole generation and it's really hard for me to grasp.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: No, I mean I remember in high school it was like,
you know, that pressure to not like copy the popular
kid or like start you know. I mean, do you
remember like the day when you would wear like, I
don't know, you know, a band T shirt and somebody
would like a costume be like what songs do you know?
Speaker 1: Oh my god, like that only happened to us. Yeah,
you know, Like I.
Speaker 4: Remember I was actually surprised surprise. I was really into
punk when I was in high school. I was so
I had like Black Flagged, Kennedy's and Fugazi and people
be like how many, Like my best friend would.
Speaker 1: Be like, how many Black Flag songs?
Speaker 2: Do you know?
Speaker 1: Like milling them right now.
Speaker 4: It was just because the idea of pretending to be
somebody that you weren't was so the idea of selling
out right was.
Speaker 3: Now that all we are is somebody Like it's so crazy.
I didn't even think about that. Yeah, it's it's hard
for me, but I do and just taking the time
to do it. And then part of the problem is
the technology. It's like like my sixteen year old she
could film like a TikTok in five seconds, and I'm like,
I'll do something and I'm like I'm loading it into
cap cut and trying to edit.
Speaker 2: She's like, why are you doing that.
Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't know how to do it with
like the where you film it with the little thing.
Speaker 2: She's like, I can teach you. Mom. I'm like, okay, I.
Speaker 1: Know tech talk is a little bit complicated. I agree.
I struggled with it too.
Speaker 4: Sometimes let's talk about your who you were before you
became Taylor Vixon. You said that you grew up like
very sexual repressed. What does that mean for you and like,
how has the freedom that you find now like changed
your life?
Speaker 3: Well, it was mainly like I wasn't sexually repressed really
like when I was in like high school college. It
just became in this particular ten year marriage that I had,
and it was someone that was very insecure. I you know,
I was every time I was on a because I
worked a lot and I traveled a lot for work,
and so every time I was out of town, I
was apparently I was cheating, which I never did in
my life. I I was always accused of stuff, always,
and I'm just like, you know, five minutes extra at dinner,
I must be cheating or something. And it was just
and I was in a very male dominated industry, which
made it hard. I was going to you know, construction
expos and things like that. And don't get wrong, the
opportunity was there. These guys were These guys were like assholes,
you know. I mean, for the most part, a lot
of them were very you know, they had a little
bit of money and they just wanted to flund it around.
But just mainly like with the toys. You know, I
just got to a point where I didn't even have fans.
I didn't even know what fantasies were. Like, it was
just I just kind of lived in this shell, you know,
you'd have your sex every now and then, and like
that was it. Like that was my life, and I
was just like I just thought that was normal.
Speaker 2: I did.
Speaker 3: I had no idea because no one had ever asked
me about having fantasies or things like that. So it
was just, you know, my fantasies were paying off my
credit card debt.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: I still love those fantasies.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well me too.
Speaker 4: You mentioned that he also sent personal photos to your
family and called your workplace to try and damage you.
Speaker 1: I'm assuming this is after you got into the industry.
Speaker 3: No, actually was just the swinger stuff, so my husband, well,
and after the industry, because some of this stuff happened
after I dig in the industry. But like, yeah, so
like I think we went one time, we went on
chatter bait, just like fun or whatever, and once you
go like that particular site has a really hard time
because like people put it out everywhere, and so like
I had all kinds of like from my Facebook page.
We were in swinger groups. They like infiltrated everything. They
spent hours and hours him and the wife's printing out
photos and like putting them on my parents' door stuff.
Because we were going through custody battles at the time
and they were just trying to alienate me from my family.
They thought, oh, if we can convince basically the family
that she's an awful person and she's a whore, that
she's doing all these things. And I mean I got
accused of having crazy swinger parties at the house.
Speaker 1: Drugs.
Speaker 3: I mean, I've done more drug tests and that for
a few parts of that stint, it was awful.
Speaker 2: It was awful. It was I just.
Speaker 3: Couldn't believe that someone would do this. Of course, after
ten years, I walked away this little custody so.
Speaker 1: I was gonna as then nuts.
Speaker 3: But most of the shit, I mean, most of this
ship came out that it was it was lies, and
you know, someone shows their true colors. That just takes
long enough.
Speaker 4: It's also heartbreaking to you know, because it's not only
like telling wise about you, but trying to keep you
away from your.
Speaker 3: Absolutely absolutely, which I mean no, I mean, like, no
amount of money was.
Speaker 1: My dead body? Would you take my daughter for me?
Exactly exactly?
Speaker 2: And you know, I know.
Speaker 3: The sad thing was is at the end of the day,
I was like, if you could just be normal, just
be normal, be normal. No, I'm a good mom and
you know, but it was crazy, Like, I mean, she
she knows everything I do.
Speaker 4: So I was gonna ask if I mean you said
she's sixteen sixteen, Yeah, yeah, so I at this stage
she's probably parted out well.
Speaker 3: Unfortunately, during an early part when she was like nine,
so kind of mid she got sat down and showed
all the photos of me.
Speaker 2: So that's where things really took a.
Speaker 3: Turn and are wow yeah, oh yeah, it was crazy.
We had CPS involved and oh my god, yeah crazy.
Speaker 2: It was awful.
Speaker 3: So unfortunately I didn't really she didn't know what I
did obviously prior to that, because all we were doing
was swinger stuff at the time, and we would just
go travel and my parents. She'd stay with my parents
and we just go away for comes to you like
anybody does. Yeah, I mean, we kept it completely separate.
She had no idea and so unfortunately I was forced
to talk to her about stuff very early on.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and how did she take it?
Speaker 3: Well, she took it Okay, she was too young, but
like later when she was like I would say, like
early teens.
Speaker 2: At first it was really cool.
Speaker 3: She thought it was cool because like kids that age
are like, oh, how many followers do you have? Oh
my mom has one hundred thousand fower two hundred three
hundred ths.
Speaker 1: She's like, oh cool.
Speaker 3: But the minute one kid opens their mouth and says, oh,
when you can have OnlyFans just yeah, because kids are nasty.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that's when things start to get a little like.
Speaker 3: So you go where one day it might not be
cool because someone might have said something to her, and
then it goes back to being cool again because someone's like,
oh my god, your mom has a lot of followers
or something like that.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I can never navigating teenagers is just challenging.
Speaker 1: I can't wait.
Speaker 2: She definitely believes like, you stand up for who you are. You.
Speaker 3: You know, she knows that these kids these days, they
know the pressures that society, how they look at adults,
they know the sexualization of every single thing. I mean,
that's that's the way they've been raised. Yeah, So she
definitely understands that because it's shoved in your face twenty
four hours a day on Instagram and TikTok.
Speaker 4: And how do you manage being a mom and doing
this work like practically, like when you like when you're
out of town, like right now, is she with your husband?
Speaker 1: Does she stay with like your family? Like how do you?
Speaker 4: And I'm assuming she knows what you're going to go do? Yeah, yeah,
she asked you how work was. Are there like certain
because I know that like for me, there were certain
things that my parents shared with me, you know, because
my parents were pornographers.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 4: I remember my mom did is shoot for a penthouse,
I think in Cabo, and she's got this beautiful shot
of this girl and it was like the shape of
her body echoed the mountains in the background and it
was on the edge of a boat.
Speaker 2: That was great.
Speaker 4: And I remember her like taking the magazine and like
trying to cover the nude parts but like really wanting
to show me. I was like a teenager I think
at the time, and she's like, look at this. You
can't look at the rest of the magazine, but look
at this page.
Speaker 1: And I was like, that's great, mom.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean she knows, like I mean, obviously I
don't talk to her, she knows what I'm going at
on for shoe and things like that. I mean, the
travels hard. She's my husband's there, thank god. And she
used to, you know, stay with my parents. My parents
live in Texas, but you know we're in Vegas now.
But yeah, I mean she's sixteen now, she's pretty pretty
self sufficient. She's she's got friends as well, so she's
always she's always taken care of. I mean, I swear
when I'm there, I feel like she all she doesn't
stay in a room the whole time, so it's like like, come.
Speaker 1: Down, be present.
Speaker 4: And I know, I try to remind myself of that
because my daughter's super attached to me, and like guilt
trips that shit out of me when I like, oh yeah,
if I even go out for a night like with friends,
or even if I go to like I try to
go to like an a meeting like a few times
a month, and she.
Speaker 1: Just gives me the biggest guilt trip and.
Speaker 4: She's just like, you won't be here to enjoy Harry Potter,
But mommy love you, and I'm like, I love you too,
but like I need to do something. I need to
have time for myself sometimes. Yeah, she's like, I give
you plenty of time.
Speaker 1: Tears.
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, I gave you two days in the
last six months.
Speaker 1: That's all you get.
Speaker 2: It's such a cute age, though, I know so.
Speaker 4: And I try to That's why I try to, like
and that's why I don't go to like a lot
of events. I don't go to a lot of parties
because I realized that, like that is fleeting, and there
will come a time.
Speaker 1: That she's sixteen and she will stay in her room
the whole time and she won't want talk to me.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and when she does, like all of a sudden,
her arm around jaelping in the kitchen, it's like, Mom,
I'm like, what do you want?
Speaker 2: Seriously? I mean, and I know, and she does want.
Speaker 1: Something every time.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm like, you can't just come give
your mama hug.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: But it'll come full circle when she's a I mean,
you know, I'm I don't know your relationship with your
parents was like. But once I got older, I kind
of realized what it was like to try to raise
a family and what it was like to be a mom.
Speaker 2: And I was like it's hard. Yeah, it's hard. It's hard.
Speaker 4: Taylor, you decided to do scenes. Tell me about your
first scene. Did you get an agent first or did
you book your own scene first.
Speaker 3: I did get an agent. I was out in Florida,
so I was living in Orlando. So I got an
agent and it was like a Florida agent. So he
one of those, one of those. So I did one
of the I did the Hot Mills fuck, which I
think a lot of people do for their first they
do firsts, right, So.
Speaker 1: There's there's certain brands that are very much about like
New Talent.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was actually a really good experience. They were
great to work with. I mean they're known. They kind
of handhold you. I just remember like they do very
natural makeups. I was like, you know, I was like
I felt like I was just like the lights were
so bright and but it was a great title with
Tyler Nixon. He was a sweetheart, so lovely seen.
Speaker 1: Him in such a long time.
Speaker 2: Yeah, he's I worked with him a lot back in
the time.
Speaker 3: Yeah, he just he just put me everywhere I needed
to go, and so it was a great day. Everything
was just went super smooth. The only thing that was
so funny was that. I guess they film and like
kind of like a condo type place like an Arizona
like a condo building or apartment condo building or something
like a high rise type thing. And I'm very very loud,
and I was very loud, and they basically kept telling
me to I'm like, we're filling a porn here, like
maybe we'll at the right place, maybe put some so
I guess the episode is called I'm a Screamer or
something like that.
Speaker 4: I've had that issue where I've had to shoot in
locations where the neighbors could hear or we're in a backyard,
and I've had to like ask people to like to
get down, and it's difficult because it's like you don't
want to take away from the intensity of the scene,
but we also don't want the cops called true.
Speaker 2: True. Yeah not.
Speaker 3: There are so many places that I don't really think
there's anywhere that's you're really technically allowed, you know, for
the hoas.
Speaker 2: And homeowners and airbnbs and all that, you know, hotels.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's tricky ask for forgiveness, not permission.
Speaker 4: I mean you can get like basically like getting a
film permit, there's a lot of things built around that
to protect the neighbors.
Speaker 2: Gotcha.
Speaker 4: So like there's a lot of like conditions where you
can't obstruct streets, you can't take all the parking, you
can't like disturb the neighbors, like all that.
Speaker 1: Kind of stuff.
Speaker 2: So gotcha.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so even if you get a permit, it's actually
more like you can't even more.
Speaker 2: So, yeah, I got youa it makes sense.
Speaker 4: Okay, So you did that first scene and how did
you feel about it.
Speaker 1: After it was done?
Speaker 2: I loved it.
Speaker 3: It was so cool, Like to me, I'd never you know,
even though I had started only fans and stuff like,
it wasn't the same as like being It was so
weird though, because before that scene came out, even with
only I never even had showed my boobs on Twitter.
Speaker 2: And then all of a sudden like whoa, yeah spread.
Speaker 1: I was like, course, wow, because they put it everywhere.
Speaker 2: They put it everywhere, and I was like, here we go. Yeah.
Speaker 3: I was like, and they get it out fast because
they want that first one to be out before you
start doing other stuff. And so and I think I
think you even have to agree to something like that,
Like I don't real they want that to be your
first scene that's released, but that makes sense. I can't remember,
but yeah, so it was like, holy crap. I was like,
here we go, and then after that it was it's
just it's just fun. Filling in Miami. Outside isn't fun,
but you know, hair everywhere and are you glased xpis Miami? Yeah,
I am too.
Speaker 1: You are awesome. It's my first time there. Super cool.
Speaker 4: I'll be doing like pool side and interviews and the
red carpet and all that kind of stuff.
Speaker 3: So yes, at the new hotel this year. So interesting
to see about the Sycamore. Well, I haven't ever been,
so this will be my first experience.
Speaker 1: I know. That's what everyone keeps telling me.
Speaker 3: It's so bring anything you could possibly bring to keep
yourself cool.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've heard cold towels.
Speaker 3: I was actually thinking about even getting one of those
little cold like those things that are like electronic.
Speaker 2: It's that hot. Wow.
Speaker 4: I mean when I would shoot outside in hot weather,
I had those special cooling towels. Yeah, and I would
pack them in ice and stuff.
Speaker 3: But yeah, can't wait wait, I'd be wearing my hair up.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Same.
Speaker 4: So you actually got a v and most performer of
the your nomination in your first year, is that right?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was.
Speaker 3: Technically it was my second year, so my first year,
this was my second. This one that just happened in
January my first year, I got nominated for the MILF
Fan Award, which was really cool because I mean at
that point I'd only been in the industry for like
three months or four months, So that was amazing because
the fan awards are sometimes people like downplay them, but
it was really cool just to be nominated for that.
And then this year I got nominated for the actual
I guess call it the Critics Critics AVN MILK for
Former of the Year, So that was amazing. I mean,
it was such an honor to be up there with
those ladies that have been in the industry for a very,
very long time.
Speaker 2: So I am very humbled.
Speaker 4: Is that a goal that you work towards or do
you not believe awards are important?
Speaker 2: I think all awards are important.
Speaker 3: I've just always been one of those people that I
don't expect something because I don't want to be disappointed.
So I mean, anything that comes my way is definitely exciting,
but I don't I definitely never expect anything, just because
I mean there's so many factors involved with all that too,
so you just you never know.
Speaker 2: I mean I don't know, but yeah, I mean it's
of course it's important.
Speaker 3: I mean everybody wants to be recognized in any way,
shape or form, whether it's likes on your post, whether
it's number of followers. So I mean anything that anybody
recognizing something positive, even a comment on a scene, like
that's the coolest thing. Is like when the fans will
post like a scene and typically they post it before
I even know it's coming out, and they're like, oh,
this particular scene is really hot. I mean I just
love that stuff. I mean that to me is really important.
What do you think is one of the best scenes
you've done? My new Milfi scene I really loved that
is fairly new with Dan Damage and Hollywood Cash. That
was my first threesome on scene, so that was a
really good one. They do such a good job in production.
So trying to think. Let me see, I just did
a scene for Naughty America with Brian Droller that was
really good. I just got like sopping wet in the
shower and that was fun.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I like to do stuff that's like not on the bed,
so anything that's not on the bed. I love to
get creative in the kitchen and just do stuff where
you have to get I just shot a scene for
Not America for Trophy Wives. It's going to be really
hot with Aaron Jones, and we were like on top
of the counters and it.
Speaker 1: Was all over the place.
Speaker 4: I remember. So when I used to direct for a
Digital Playground, they went through this phase where they were
like so sick of like bedroom scenes that they literally
had this rule where I could not choot.
Speaker 1: A scene like in a bedroom.
Speaker 2: I love that, Like I.
Speaker 1: Wasn't you love that?
Speaker 4: A lot of people I worked with did not love
that because kitchen counters are not comfortable.
Speaker 2: Well, and even in the shower when I did that, like.
Speaker 1: The shower is my biggest nightmare.
Speaker 3: It's hot because you didn't get the reflections the mirror,
but like you might slip and crack your head open.
Speaker 2: I know, I was like pressed up again.
Speaker 1: Shower scenes give me so much anxiety.
Speaker 3: It's like, you don't really have to get wet. I'm like,
aren't we doing a shower scene? She's like, you don't
mind getting wet. I'm like, listen, I don't have anything
to do after this, Like I gotta go home and
like wash my hair anyway, So that is totally fine. Well,
probably shouldn't said that because I was literally like, I
mean I looked at myself in the mirror afterwards and
I was like, oh my, don't worry.
Speaker 2: People love that, and I was like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, they do, they do, But yeah, I get it.
What do people get wrong about the adult industry?
Speaker 3: Oh gosh, you know, I think mainstream society, you know,
we are all normal people trying to put food on
the table for our families. We've all got normal lives
outside of the industry.
Speaker 2: I think that that's it sucks.
Speaker 3: I mean, they think everybody thinks that we are, you know,
crackhoors with washed up strippers with daddy issues. And you know,
there probably are a few nothing wrong with that.
Speaker 4: There's a few of those in every industry in the world.
Speaker 3: You know, most of us are here because we choose
to be here. We absolutely love what we do and
we choose to be here and we're living life and
we're having fun, and this is what we choose is
our profession.
Speaker 2: And you know, I.
Speaker 3: Think I would say at least ninety percent of the
adult industry is probably those people that we're here.
Speaker 4: Because we love it, I think, especially now that you
know people have so much like control over their careers
and their content and stuff like that.
Speaker 3: Absolutely, yeah, I mean, and it's it's just insane that
mainstream society has such a stigma on just sex in general,
and we choose to live in a world that is
more open minded about many things.
Speaker 4: So it's interesting because the same financial system that you
worked in decades for is also one of the biggest
obstacles that adult creators face, right debanking, payment process or discrimination.
So how does it feel looking at that world like
now from this other side?
Speaker 2: It sucks? It absolutely sucks.
Speaker 4: Do you understand like some of the reasoning behind some
of the choices that these financial institutions make having worked
in that world, you know, where as opposed to like
a lot of creators sometimes be like, I don't know
why they do this.
Speaker 2: Like yeah, you know why?
Speaker 3: Yeah, they do it Primarily the finance because the banks
have different regulations for at risk for risky industries, So firearms, cannabis, sex,
every industry is like that, they've got to hold funds
for certain longer periods of time before they pay, like
the credit crud processors to pay. So it's all about
It's all about their pocketbook, That's what it's about. Things
like chargebacks because of the chargebacks, because of that kind
of stuff, and because the industry is such changing regulations
and potentials for lawsuits and things like that the banks
have and there's a lot of cash stuff involved and
everybody thinks, oh, adult leads to other things that are legal,
and so there's all that stigma associated with it. And
while I get it, it's more I think at a
higher level, it's not the it's not the bank's laws.
It's the laws that are we set and give to
the banks that they have to do with regards to holding.
Speaker 2: Funds and things like that. So it sucks. Yeah, I
mean it's affected me for sure.
Speaker 3: I mean I just even walking with a legitimate business
and trying to get a bank account is next ti impossible.
Speaker 1: Let's talk a little bit about your OnlyFans.
Speaker 4: What has been like the most interesting uh interaction that
you've had with a fan, whether like positive or negative.
Speaker 3: Most of my fan interactions have been great. I don't
really tolerate a whole heck of a lot. So once
someone starts getting The one thing I hate though, is
like when guys try to try to start being like
like like guys be dominating, so like I don't like
people to take call me daddy, Like that's like the
big turn off for me. So I'm like, you gotta
earn that, baby. So I mean like that kind of shit.
I've had some weird requests.
Speaker 4: My favorite are like when guys come in and they're
like take it, bitch, and I'm like, I'll take your
fucking tip before you call me that. Like you know
what I mean that they just don't want to spend
any money, but then they want to talk a certain
way to you, like.
Speaker 2: I'm the same way.
Speaker 3: I had a I had a really weird request one
time for a custom video and I actually had to
go research this to do it. And I had to
go research all of the symptoms of like a heart attack,
and so I had to go through my whole day.
Speaker 1: So wait, hold on, they wanted you to fake having
heart attack?
Speaker 3: Okay, Yeah, So I basically had to go through from
getting up to going to work, what I do, like
working out, like having lunch, what I did throughout my
whole day. He wanted me to kind of start to
have these heart attack symptoms come on and like get
through the day, and then at the end of the day,
he wanted someone to find He wanted me to actually
have the heart attack, and then he wanted someone to
walk in the room and find me and then use
like a defibrillator to resuscitate me. Huhm or not whatever.
Speaker 2: It was my choice.
Speaker 1: Oh, it was your choice whether or not you survived.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Interesting, So my.
Speaker 2: Thought, Okay, so here's the crazy thing.
Speaker 4: I felt like, you have to survive because otherwise you're
technically faking like a snuff film.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Well, he was a heart surgeon too, so I'm thinking
to myself, like, okay, you're going in for a triple
bypass right, and you're laying on the table and he
like gets all his stuff on. He walks over and
he's like, hold on a minute.
Speaker 4: He's like, well, I know, I'm a little bit concerned
that a heart surgeon is turned on by the idea
of saying having a heart attack. Seriously, I don't ever
want that guy to operate on me.
Speaker 3: It was it was crazy because my my husband actually
I was like he could hear me in the room,
like doing the heart attack thing, and I was like, babe,
come in here, and like I need you to do
that because we didn't have He's like just fake, like
you have the paddles or whatever. So I was like,
I was like, okay, he heard me like hit the
floor and he walks and he's like, oh fuck no.
He's like huh, Like you know, he has a lot
of people in his life that passed away.
Speaker 2: He's like that was too real for me. He's like,
I wouldn't do it. I had to like find someone
to help me. He's like, I'm not doing this.
Speaker 1: That is so wild.
Speaker 4: Yeah, what does a fan attachment look like when it
goes too far? And how do you handle that without
burning the relationship down? Like do you ever get guys
that like want to take it a step further beyond
like where you're comfortable.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and all the time sometimes I try to state
my boundaries like really early. But yeah, I mean, definitely
the relation people think you're in a real relationship, I
mean the fantasy. I try to keep it fantasy, you know.
I try to make sure that I look for like
little indications of like certain things, and then I try
to always steer it back to the to the fantasy.
Speaker 4: I mean, cause that's that's what it is, right. I mean, yeah,
I feel like most guys get that send bigger tips.
But there's definitely some people I think who are looking
for like an actual companion, and it's There was this
one guy that used to, you know, initially like tried
to have a real relationship with me, and I was like,
this is like not happening, Like I tried to be
very clear about that, but then he would go and
get like catfish by all these other girls on OnlyFans
and he'd come and he'd tell me like, oh, I
met someone.
Speaker 1: She's the one.
Speaker 4: I just have to send her this money because her
mom's in the hospital. Oh my god, I'm going to
move in with her. And I'd be like this is
not real, like I'm telling you right now, and he
wouldn't listen to me. Sure enough that would fall through,
she'd take his money. Then he'd find someone else, and
it was like it got to a point where I'm
just like I give.
Speaker 2: Up, Like it might as well be me taking your money.
Speaker 4: I know, but you know what I mean, Like he
just he really didn't want like he didn't want to
believe that, you know, he wasn't destined for a you know,
future with this twenty year old girl. The guy was
like sixty five, and I was like, can you just
can you meet someone your own age?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I mean.
Speaker 3: And here's the problem though, a lot of the ones
that are are clearly married right are in relationships, are
living in the fantasy and it's really hard. It's like,
wait a minute, You're they're wanting you to be like
exclusive with that, like and I'm like, wait a minute,
but you're married or what?
Speaker 2: Is just the hardest thing. It's so odd to me sometimes.
Speaker 3: But you know, we deal in fantasy, so as long
as you try to keep it in that fantasy lane.
But it's the ones that I get the most.
Speaker 2: I used to have.
Speaker 3: I used to have a free page and I finally
just had I pretty much have shut that down. I
just use my main Taylor Vixen only fans because hey,
hey hey, it's like I look back and it's or
it's like I have a couple of guys.
Speaker 2: It's like they send me the same photo.
Speaker 3: They send me the same photo every day for like
six months, this every single day, and I'm like, finally
you sent me the same like at least use a
different photover something. But it's just like I just try
to get everybody over to my subscription page because so
they're going to get the most attention anyway.
Speaker 4: Well, generally, the people that are willing to pay for
subscription are the people that are honestly more worth to
like have that like relationship with, because otherwise it's funny
how people treat you a lot better when they're getting
you money.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Well, and I've heard too that the people on the
free pages, even if you like if you put something
on your wall, like if you have a free page,
because you're a lot to put stuff on your wall
that someone can download, like for twenty bucks. Yeah, people
are very it's very easy to pirate that. So they said,
you're better off just doing a subscription because at least
people are paying for the subscription and you can't put
stuff on the wall that way.
Speaker 2: You have to DM or.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. I mean so that kind
of takes me back to what you were talking about with,
you know, mean nasty comments that you would get. How
do you like separate yourself from the trolls on the internet,
Like how do you handle your men health in an
industry where people attack you every single day.
Speaker 3: It's so hard. It's so hard stay grounded. I mean
I just tried to, Like I said, I just try
to be me, but it is so hard. Like I
did a I did a collab one time with this
cute guy, this young guy out in Florida had a
lot of followers, but he was doing he was starting
to he was a straight guy, but he was starting
to do a lot of gay stuff on his only fans.
And at the time this kind of wasn't happening, but
then it kind of did.
Speaker 2: Like right at that point where we did a little collabor.
Speaker 1: Was he shooting scenes with other men or he was like.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I think just I think he was mainly
doing only fans. He wasn't even mainstream, but he had
a big following, like on TikTok Instagram.
Speaker 4: I mean, this is the thing, Like, if you're a
guy who's got an only fans and you're doing well,
the majority of your audience, they're not women, right, They're
just not.
Speaker 3: But let me tell you, you think people on Instagram are mean?
Gay male fans of gay performers are awful, awful, this
crusty bitch or pussy looks like a raisin.
Speaker 2: And I mean they were just they were like they
were like, who is this old hag?
Speaker 3: I mean it was awful. It was truly awful. And
I think one night, I think I just sat there
and cried. I was like, oh my god, oh my god,
I said, I said, I do never again. Well, I
do collab with somebody who's at least not sharing the
same fan base as me, just because I feel like,
you know, you do collabs because you're trying to get
your name out. You're trying to cross promote, and you
want to promote to someone like if I want their fans.
Speaker 2: To be my fans, my fans to be their fans.
I feel like we didn't have that.
Speaker 1: Cross Yeah, that makes sense.
Speaker 3: And the girls that liked him were like young, cute girls,
like they're not gonna subscribe to my only fans either.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but it was awful. It's awful. People are so
mean and there's so many trolls out there. You just
your skin just gets thicker every day.
Speaker 1: But you could do what I do and not read
the comments.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't read the comment comments.
Speaker 1: You can say what you want. I'll give a ship
because I don't read them.
Speaker 3: But then people get mad if you don't read the
So I try to like as much stuff. I try
to comment back, but it's like, all of a sudden,
you be like, m.
Speaker 2: Why did I do this today? You know, depending on
what your mood is for the day.
Speaker 1: Are reading the comments? Are my only fans?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Yeah, of course, not anywhere else. Yeah, Instagram and Twitter
are Twitter is actually pretty good. Twitter is a lot
of fans and industry people.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're right. Do you read all the comments on
Twitter and they're lovely?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Actually, everyone's super nice to me on Twitter, And for
the most part, I don't. YouTube is where Yeah, YouTube
is wearing a lot of the most amount of hate
is on YouTube. Yeah, because the way the algorithm works,
people are getting they get my podcasts in their feed,
but they're not necessarily looking for it, and so they're
a good thing.
Speaker 1: It's a good thing.
Speaker 4: But sometimes you get the people who like are very
anti the industry and they come in and like, but at.
Speaker 2: Least they're talking about it.
Speaker 4: It's that all promotion, all of publicities good of Is
there anyone in the industry that you look up to
or who inspires you?
Speaker 2: Oh, gosh, well besides you.
Speaker 1: Oh, I knew you were gonna say that.
Speaker 3: You know, honestly, all all of the people that are
in this industry and have longevity males and females. You know,
on the guy's side, you've got you know, Mick Blue
and Kieran Lee and Mani Ferrara, those males that have
been in the industry, you know, Zach Wilde, been this
in a long time, that are just doing really well
and have stayed and because they all know how hard
it's for guys in this industry.
Speaker 2: For multiple reasons, right.
Speaker 3: And then on the female side, kinder lust A, Lexus Fox,
Penny Barber, all My Mills, you know, Riggan Fox, Chase Sites,
all the ladies that are just kicking ass and have
been in the industry for let's say ten plus years
and that have navigated through families and other careers and
kids and are still rocking it and are still trying to,
you know, do everything they can to stay relevant and
stay beautiful and keep up with the new technologies and
the tiktoks and the.
Speaker 2: More power to them, you know.
Speaker 3: I mean, that's or, as Brittany Andrews calls it, tiki tukies.
Speaker 1: You guys say that she does.
Speaker 2: She does.
Speaker 3: I mean, yeah, I mean anybody with longevity in this industry,
and you know obviously the producers and directors too, I
mean we all take a lot of shit. It's I mean,
I know how much I've experienced, and I've been industry.
Speaker 2: I've barely seen the industry.
Speaker 3: Well, I've seen the industry change a lot, even in
two years that I've been in it. Not even I
can't imagine what you've seen ten years, fifteen years. It's
changing and evolving and going from this to that. Yeah,
I mean, I would have loved to have been around
in like the nineties day like because that's when I
actually did used to.
Speaker 2: Watch porn like The Pirates and all that, like the
Jesse j Yeah.
Speaker 4: I loved like around and I went to the premiere
he did. Yeah, I went to the movie premiere at
the Orpheus Theater.
Speaker 2: No way.
Speaker 4: It was actually really funny because like you would think,
so it was like there's like five it's like seats
five hundred people, right, Like the whole industry came. It
was like a big deal, and there's the red carpet
and all this kind of stuff because it was like
the highest budget. It was the most expensive porn movie
ever made at the time.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And it was funny because you know, we all
go in there and everyone's dressed to the nines. But like,
I gotta tell you, it doesn't matter how long you've
been in the industry, watching a porn movie with the
five hundred other people is awkward, Like you don't matter
who you are. Like we would get to the sex
parts and like we all work in porn, but it
was just everyone would.
Speaker 1: Be like it was just weird.
Speaker 4: It felt weird, Like I think for me, you know,
because obviously, like no one's going to masturbate in the theater,
right and generally when people watch porn, they don't usually
watch that's.
Speaker 2: What you know, where you go to the theater to
watch it even still.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah yeah yeah, but usually like you know, those
were few and far between, or they were like peep
shows you had your own room or whatever. Yeah, but yeah,
it was like and for me, like, if I don't
have a camera between me and like what's going on?
If I'm not like but on something actively that I'm doing,
it's it is kind of weird.
Speaker 1: And it was weird.
Speaker 3: It was that, Yeah, because that was back in the
day of DVDs, the DVD Yeah, right, so you would
go buy a DVD and watch it at home with you.
Speaker 4: They had it, they had the PG version at Blockbuster.
No way you could rent pirates at Blockbuster.
Speaker 3: I swear to God, God, I remember walking through a
Blockbuster store. Yeah, those the good old days.
Speaker 1: There's like so many people watching this wing. What the
fuck is Blockbuster?
Speaker 4: I know they're like once upon a type people Netflix
didn't exist.
Speaker 2: Only see it in movies now I know, I know,
my God.
Speaker 4: All right, well, Taylor, thank you so much for coming on,
Thanks for having me, and we of course we've got
the bonus Q and A for my Patreon members.
Speaker 1: A lot of people sending questions for you.
Speaker 4: You thought you've got a significant amount of famils out there.
Thanks guys, But for now, can you tell everyone where
they can find you online?
Speaker 2: Yeah? Most of my social media is just at Taylor Vixen.
Speaker 3: Make sure you use two x's Instagram, Twitter OnlyFans, TikTok YouTube.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try to start doing more stuff with my YouTube.
Speaker 3: She's inspiring me over here, and then Taylor Vixon dot com.
It's a work in progress, but most of my links
are there as well, so.
Speaker 4: Thanks and you guys of course can find me at
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