1 00:00:13,759 --> 00:00:16,000 Speaker 1: Hello you guys, Welcome back to another episode of the 2 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:18,960 Hawtral Energy Podcast. I'm your host, Kayleie, and this is 3 00:00:19,000 --> 00:00:21,679 your weekly reminder that it's a new day, a new week, 4 00:00:21,719 --> 00:00:23,760 a new mindset, and another day for you to become 5 00:00:23,800 --> 00:00:26,239 the hot grail energy you want to attract. I need 6 00:00:26,280 --> 00:00:29,079 to start off by saying I apologize for this episode 7 00:00:29,079 --> 00:00:31,920 being up a day late. I feel like the podcast 8 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:36,560 has definitely been something that I can't always make a priority. Unfortunately. 9 00:00:36,920 --> 00:00:42,320 I feel like life has been truly the busiest it's 10 00:00:42,320 --> 00:00:45,320 ever been. Like I feel like I compare my life 11 00:00:45,359 --> 00:00:48,079 now versus like when we were planning the wedding, and yeah, sure, 12 00:00:48,119 --> 00:00:49,719 like planning a wedding was like a lot of work. 13 00:00:49,719 --> 00:00:51,679 But I feel like my life right now has been 14 00:00:52,479 --> 00:00:55,240 the busiest it's ever have And I think I've been 15 00:00:55,240 --> 00:00:57,600 putting a lot of stress on myself with trying to 16 00:00:57,600 --> 00:01:01,280 do everything with obviously being social media my full time job, 17 00:01:01,359 --> 00:01:05,599 like jumping on tiktoks, jumping on Instagram reels, trying to 18 00:01:05,599 --> 00:01:07,879 be as active as I can on YouTube while also 19 00:01:08,040 --> 00:01:12,159 recording an episode on a weekly basis is very tough, 20 00:01:12,239 --> 00:01:14,640 especially when you don't have anyone that's working for you. Like, 21 00:01:14,719 --> 00:01:17,719 I'm obviously a solo kind of gal. I am by 22 00:01:17,760 --> 00:01:21,959 myself doing it all, and I have thought about hiring someone, 23 00:01:22,000 --> 00:01:24,079 but I feel like I'm not there yet. I'd like 24 00:01:24,200 --> 00:01:28,280 to wait a little bit more until I do so. Obviously, 25 00:01:28,359 --> 00:01:33,239 I have a management team that helps me with my job, 26 00:01:33,280 --> 00:01:35,519 offers that I get throughout my social media. But the 27 00:01:35,519 --> 00:01:37,599 point is is that I don't have an editor for 28 00:01:37,640 --> 00:01:42,040 the podcast, I don't have an editor for YouTube anything 29 00:01:42,079 --> 00:01:43,920 like that, so I'm really just doing it myself. So 30 00:01:44,319 --> 00:01:47,239 I apologize if this episode is up a daily But 31 00:01:47,439 --> 00:01:50,400 the point is is that we really need to do 32 00:01:50,439 --> 00:01:53,159 a reset here. Okay, As I said, I have been 33 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:58,280 feeling very, very overwhelmed. I have been feeling like things 34 00:01:58,359 --> 00:02:02,760 have really just taken a tour earn these past few months, 35 00:02:03,280 --> 00:02:05,599 and I'd rather be real here. I'd rather be real 36 00:02:05,640 --> 00:02:08,199 and honest of like how things are going in my life. 37 00:02:08,240 --> 00:02:11,120 And this is a month where I really promise myself 38 00:02:11,120 --> 00:02:14,240 that I would try my best to reset and just 39 00:02:14,319 --> 00:02:17,919 feel like I can find solutions to the problems that 40 00:02:17,960 --> 00:02:22,520 I'm currently facing. And you know what the reality is 41 00:02:22,520 --> 00:02:24,680 is that we're all going through shit. Okay, We're all 42 00:02:24,719 --> 00:02:28,159 going through something in our life, whether it's small things, 43 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:31,879 big things, things that we just like want to work out. 44 00:02:32,280 --> 00:02:34,680 And I really wanted to make this episode about things 45 00:02:34,719 --> 00:02:38,039 that I'm currently going through that you could probably relate to, 46 00:02:38,319 --> 00:02:41,120 or things that you can do on your end to 47 00:02:41,439 --> 00:02:44,240 solve your own problems. Just how I'm going to share 48 00:02:44,439 --> 00:02:46,960 these problems that I'm currently going through and the solutions 49 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:48,719 to how I'm going to solve these problems that I'm 50 00:02:48,719 --> 00:02:52,360 currently going through. So essentially, I've created a shit list 51 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:54,960 of things that are shit in my life right now 52 00:02:55,120 --> 00:02:58,680 that are bothering me, and I want you to do 53 00:02:58,719 --> 00:03:01,039 the same. I want you to create a shit list 54 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:03,039 of things that are going on in your life currently 55 00:03:03,080 --> 00:03:05,639 that you're not proud of or things that are bothering you. 56 00:03:06,240 --> 00:03:07,919 And so you're going to look at this shit list 57 00:03:07,960 --> 00:03:10,479 and be like, Okay, I need to work on this, this, this, 58 00:03:10,479 --> 00:03:13,520 this right, And then you're going to create a getting 59 00:03:13,560 --> 00:03:16,240 my shit together list of things that you can do 60 00:03:16,400 --> 00:03:20,280 to help solve those problems that you're currently going through. 61 00:03:20,719 --> 00:03:22,439 And we're going to create a solution. We're going to 62 00:03:22,520 --> 00:03:25,479 create something that's going to make your life feel better 63 00:03:25,560 --> 00:03:28,800 if you tackle this problem that you've been facing right 64 00:03:28,840 --> 00:03:31,199 now in my life, I feel like we've been all 65 00:03:31,240 --> 00:03:33,680 over the map. We have been trying to prepare this 66 00:03:33,759 --> 00:03:36,240 house for move because we are leaving this house obviously 67 00:03:36,280 --> 00:03:39,080 and moving into the new house. We are still designing 68 00:03:39,280 --> 00:03:41,520 the new house, so I've been attending a lot of 69 00:03:41,560 --> 00:03:44,520 meetings with the designers, and there's a lot of like 70 00:03:44,840 --> 00:03:47,400 other people that I have to communicate with. It's not 71 00:03:47,520 --> 00:03:50,639 just the designers, it's the builders, it's the contractors, it's 72 00:03:51,120 --> 00:03:54,479 the manufacturers. Like there's so much communication that I'm trying 73 00:03:54,520 --> 00:03:58,319 to go through with other contractors and all that. So 74 00:03:58,520 --> 00:04:00,879 I'm dealing with that, I'm dealing with trying to prep 75 00:04:00,919 --> 00:04:04,520 this house for moving. I'm obviously trying to prep for 76 00:04:04,560 --> 00:04:08,319 pregnancy with my husband, which has been a whole other subject. 77 00:04:08,840 --> 00:04:12,520 Then obviously managing my job, and then just managing life, 78 00:04:12,560 --> 00:04:16,040 like managing relationships with friends, managing the relationship with your husband, 79 00:04:16,160 --> 00:04:19,439 your family, like trying to like also make that a 80 00:04:19,519 --> 00:04:23,120 priority while still you know, running your job and doing 81 00:04:23,120 --> 00:04:26,920 your job and doing all those other things. So I'm 82 00:04:26,959 --> 00:04:29,759 sure a lot of you are probably facing similar situations 83 00:04:29,759 --> 00:04:33,160 where it's like you feel like you're literally running multiple 84 00:04:33,160 --> 00:04:35,720 things at once and it's like you're feeling so overwhelmed 85 00:04:35,759 --> 00:04:38,000 that you're like, I don't know what to do, Like 86 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:39,480 you know what I mean. Like that's how I feel 87 00:04:39,519 --> 00:04:41,240 like I'm at in my life right now, where I 88 00:04:41,240 --> 00:04:44,079 feel like there's so much happening all at once that 89 00:04:44,120 --> 00:04:46,480 I'm like it's clearly impossible for me to do it 90 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:49,639 all at once, but like there is small things that 91 00:04:49,680 --> 00:04:52,399 I can do in my life to make me feel 92 00:04:52,399 --> 00:04:54,600 like I'm just feeling a little bit better about myself, 93 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:57,639 if that makes sense, And like there's just like many 94 00:04:57,720 --> 00:05:00,240 things that are going on in my life. Like, for examp, sample, 95 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:02,160 something that I put on my shit list was I'm 96 00:05:02,279 --> 00:05:05,439 extremely behind on my laundry. My laundry room is literally 97 00:05:05,480 --> 00:05:07,240 a shit show right now. Am I proud of it? No, 98 00:05:07,839 --> 00:05:11,360 I've cleaned every other part of this house. I'm talking baseboards, 99 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:15,160 I'm talking mirrors, windows, you name it. I've done deep 100 00:05:15,160 --> 00:05:17,680 cleans of this entire house and deep cleaning my closets, 101 00:05:18,680 --> 00:05:21,199 you know, under my cabinets, in my sink. But for 102 00:05:21,240 --> 00:05:23,480 some reason, I put all my time and energy in 103 00:05:23,519 --> 00:05:25,639 doing those things versus, oh, maybe I should do a 104 00:05:25,639 --> 00:05:27,959 load of laundry. Maybe I should do a load of laundry, 105 00:05:27,959 --> 00:05:29,639 you know what I mean. Like that's an example of, like, 106 00:05:30,079 --> 00:05:32,079 this is not a big problem, but like it's a 107 00:05:32,079 --> 00:05:34,480 problem that bothers me that I've been ignoring that it's 108 00:05:34,519 --> 00:05:37,319 like I should probably find a solution to this problem 109 00:05:37,319 --> 00:05:40,319 that could maybe help me out in the grand scheme 110 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:42,879 of things. So that's kind of like an example of 111 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:45,600 like how I'm going to be sharing my shitless. And 112 00:05:45,680 --> 00:05:48,360 this is a judge free space. Okay, we do not judge. 113 00:05:48,360 --> 00:05:50,040 We do not judge about the things that I'm about 114 00:05:50,079 --> 00:05:52,279 to say, because I'm sure there is stuff that you 115 00:05:52,399 --> 00:05:54,720 may be not proud of right now with yourself that 116 00:05:54,759 --> 00:05:57,480 you want to work on. So that's kind of what 117 00:05:57,560 --> 00:05:59,120 I wanted to do in this episode. It was more 118 00:05:59,160 --> 00:06:03,079 so just to inspire you guys, to you know, write 119 00:06:03,079 --> 00:06:05,120 out a list of things that you might not be 120 00:06:05,560 --> 00:06:07,720 proud of right now or happy with right now that 121 00:06:07,800 --> 00:06:11,279 you want to change and make yourself just feel better 122 00:06:11,319 --> 00:06:14,199 going into the month of May of doing small little 123 00:06:14,199 --> 00:06:16,480 things to maybe help you get out of this problem 124 00:06:16,519 --> 00:06:19,879 that you're currently facing. And that's what I really wanted 125 00:06:19,879 --> 00:06:21,600 it to be about, is that I'm going to share 126 00:06:21,680 --> 00:06:24,120 my examples of things that are on my shit list. 127 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:25,879 I'm going to share examples of how I'm going to 128 00:06:25,959 --> 00:06:28,959 create solutions to these problems, and we're going to do 129 00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:32,040 it together. Here is my shit list, again a judge 130 00:06:32,120 --> 00:06:35,120 free space. We do not judge. Anything that's on this list. 131 00:06:35,199 --> 00:06:37,560 Firstly is my laundry. I need to get my shit 132 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:40,079 together and figure that out. I feel like I literally 133 00:06:40,160 --> 00:06:43,439 will just wash my socks and underwears and you know, 134 00:06:43,480 --> 00:06:45,600 my workout clothes when I need it, and that's about it. 135 00:06:46,000 --> 00:06:48,519 There are so many other things that I'm like, towels, 136 00:06:49,040 --> 00:06:51,319 things that I wear on a daily basis, like we 137 00:06:51,480 --> 00:06:53,839 just we need to clean that. So I think I've 138 00:06:53,879 --> 00:06:56,920 just been making everything else a priority that needs to 139 00:06:56,959 --> 00:06:59,959 be cleaned in this house and not the most important thing, 140 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:02,079 which is clothes that I wear on my body, which 141 00:07:02,120 --> 00:07:04,000 is obviously important. So I need to figure out a 142 00:07:04,000 --> 00:07:05,480 plan of how I'm going to get this laundry room 143 00:07:05,560 --> 00:07:08,839 back to its original state and also just like make 144 00:07:08,879 --> 00:07:11,920 it a priority to get laundry done. Another thing that's 145 00:07:11,920 --> 00:07:13,639 on my shit list is that I have a very 146 00:07:13,680 --> 00:07:15,879 bad night routine right now. And this is something that 147 00:07:15,920 --> 00:07:19,079 I've been currently working on a night routine for myself 148 00:07:19,360 --> 00:07:23,800 is definitely the top priority for me right now, because oh, 149 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,199 I've barely been getting sleep at night. I have been 150 00:07:26,240 --> 00:07:31,800 waking up extremely anxious, overthinking, just like I don't know, 151 00:07:31,839 --> 00:07:34,199 I wake up and I just like feel wired. I 152 00:07:34,199 --> 00:07:37,199 almost feel like I'm constantly thinking of random things, like 153 00:07:37,240 --> 00:07:39,680 why am I thinking about this one thing in the 154 00:07:39,680 --> 00:07:41,720 middle of the night, And then oh, I can't sleep 155 00:07:41,759 --> 00:07:44,879 for hours, and then it's six o'clock and I have 156 00:07:44,879 --> 00:07:47,240 to go to a pilates class, Like I am purposely 157 00:07:48,199 --> 00:07:51,399 like creating this anxiety for myself for no reason, and 158 00:07:51,480 --> 00:07:53,839 I'm overthinking about these things that I shouldn't have to 159 00:07:53,879 --> 00:07:56,680 overthink about in the middle of the night. So I 160 00:07:56,839 --> 00:08:00,519 need to work on a night routine for myself. Scrolling 161 00:08:00,519 --> 00:08:03,600 on my phone. You know, I'm addicted to my phone. 162 00:08:03,639 --> 00:08:05,560 I think we all have a slight addiction to our 163 00:08:05,600 --> 00:08:08,759 cell phone. And obviously I love scrolling, and it's part 164 00:08:08,800 --> 00:08:11,279 of my job, obviously is to be scrolling on social media. 165 00:08:11,319 --> 00:08:14,519 But I do think I'm consuming it probably too much, 166 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:18,040 and doing that before ben is probably the worst thing 167 00:08:18,079 --> 00:08:20,439 you can do, especially for your sleeping, because I feel 168 00:08:20,480 --> 00:08:23,839 like I have a hard time falling asleep and being 169 00:08:23,839 --> 00:08:27,600 on my phone and scrolling is probably not helping the situation. 170 00:08:27,839 --> 00:08:30,600 So working on a night routine is something that I'm 171 00:08:30,639 --> 00:08:32,039 currently working on, and I'm going to share with you 172 00:08:32,039 --> 00:08:34,799 guys things that I've been doing these past few days 173 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:37,919 of just like trying to have a better night routine 174 00:08:37,919 --> 00:08:40,519 for myself. Another thing on my shit list is I've 175 00:08:40,559 --> 00:08:44,559 been drifting away from my friends, not purposely, just accidentally. 176 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:46,679 As I said, I feel like there's been so much 177 00:08:46,720 --> 00:08:48,200 going on in my life right now that I've been 178 00:08:48,240 --> 00:08:51,519 having a hard time making my family a priority, making 179 00:08:51,519 --> 00:08:55,039 my friendships a priority, not reaching out. We're texting people saying, hey, 180 00:08:55,480 --> 00:08:56,879 you want to go for a walk, you want to 181 00:08:56,919 --> 00:08:59,279 go get a coffee, Like I feel like I'm constantly 182 00:08:59,279 --> 00:09:02,320 texting maybe my sister and my husband and my parents, 183 00:09:02,360 --> 00:09:04,600 and that's basically it. I barely even see my parents 184 00:09:04,639 --> 00:09:07,240 at this point. So I'm like, I need to make 185 00:09:07,320 --> 00:09:10,600 an effort this month of getting my connections back with 186 00:09:10,639 --> 00:09:12,279 my friends and my family, because I feel like you 187 00:09:12,320 --> 00:09:14,720 don't realize how important that is until you feel like 188 00:09:14,759 --> 00:09:16,960 you've been disconnected with those people, and then you're like, 189 00:09:17,000 --> 00:09:19,279 oh shit, wait, I need to make that a priority. 190 00:09:19,320 --> 00:09:21,639 I need to get back out there I need to 191 00:09:21,639 --> 00:09:24,440 text my friends and like see them again and like 192 00:09:24,480 --> 00:09:27,159 connect with them. So that's one thing that I feel 193 00:09:27,159 --> 00:09:31,559 like I've been lacking at is just like not making 194 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:34,600 my friendships a priority and just like feeling disconnected from 195 00:09:34,639 --> 00:09:36,840 them because I feel like I've just been consuming other 196 00:09:36,960 --> 00:09:40,120 things and not making my friendships a priority. Another one 197 00:09:40,200 --> 00:09:43,879 is feeling I'm inspired. I feel like I've been in 198 00:09:43,919 --> 00:09:48,399 this rut with like creating content, but also just like 199 00:09:49,120 --> 00:09:51,440 I don't know, like in my life, I'm not feeling 200 00:09:51,519 --> 00:09:54,320 inspired by things, and I think that is something that 201 00:09:54,480 --> 00:09:57,720 some people go through, and we're going to talk about 202 00:09:57,960 --> 00:10:00,320 how we're gonna feel inspired again and doing thing things 203 00:10:00,759 --> 00:10:04,440 that could really help make yourself feel inspired again. I'm 204 00:10:04,480 --> 00:10:07,279 feeling stuck. I think that's another thing that's really common 205 00:10:07,279 --> 00:10:10,759 for people. I feel like I like know what I 206 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:14,200 want as like my big goals. But I think the 207 00:10:14,240 --> 00:10:17,000 point is is that we're supposed to create smaller goals, 208 00:10:17,039 --> 00:10:18,960 which we always talk about here on the podcast, but 209 00:10:19,080 --> 00:10:22,279 like smaller goals that will like make you feel really 210 00:10:22,279 --> 00:10:25,879 good each week each day, and not just focusing on 211 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:29,440 like that big goal that we have to achieve, and 212 00:10:29,519 --> 00:10:32,279 like also making slight changes in your day to day life. 213 00:10:32,320 --> 00:10:34,840 So that is something that I feel like I'm going through. 214 00:10:34,840 --> 00:10:37,159 I feel like I've been like living the same life 215 00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:40,679 of obviously like doing the same things and going to 216 00:10:40,759 --> 00:10:43,759 Pilate's and going on my walks, and like I love it. 217 00:10:43,840 --> 00:10:45,600 I do love it, but like I do also think 218 00:10:45,639 --> 00:10:47,759 that might be a sign of like, Okay, what can 219 00:10:47,799 --> 00:10:50,559 I change to like reinspire myself but also like make 220 00:10:50,600 --> 00:10:53,480 me feel less stuck, right, So kind of changing things 221 00:10:53,559 --> 00:10:55,879 up in your day day life could be a huge 222 00:10:55,919 --> 00:10:58,360 help as well. Another thing on my shit list is 223 00:10:58,679 --> 00:11:02,480 overthinking everything and just feeling anxious kind of goes hand 224 00:11:02,519 --> 00:11:04,879 in hand with my bad night routine. I'm trying to 225 00:11:04,879 --> 00:11:08,679 find ways to, you know, not make me feel as anxious. 226 00:11:09,159 --> 00:11:12,080 Anxiety is so freakin' real, and I'm so frickin' there 227 00:11:12,120 --> 00:11:14,840 with you if you're currently going through it. The last 228 00:11:14,879 --> 00:11:16,960 thing I want is to be on medication. I don't 229 00:11:17,159 --> 00:11:18,799 want to have to do that, but if I have to, 230 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:23,240 I will maybe do it. I don't know. I'm just 231 00:11:23,240 --> 00:11:25,320 like I'm not thinking medication yet because I'm like, you know, 232 00:11:25,360 --> 00:11:27,759 I haven't done these little things that could really help 233 00:11:27,840 --> 00:11:30,519 with my anxiety. So I'm doing everything I can to 234 00:11:30,559 --> 00:11:33,279 work on my mental health and find ways to like 235 00:11:33,360 --> 00:11:37,720 ease it by taking action instead of just resorting to medication. Right, 236 00:11:37,759 --> 00:11:39,440 we never want to just like resort to that. So 237 00:11:40,159 --> 00:11:43,480 really not loving that phase of my life of just 238 00:11:43,519 --> 00:11:46,840 overthinking things and being overly anxious. But hey, it's the reality, 239 00:11:46,919 --> 00:11:49,399 and that's what I'm currently going through. Not dressing up 240 00:11:49,440 --> 00:11:52,960 for myself anymore. I feel like I'm constantly wearing sweatpants 241 00:11:53,080 --> 00:11:56,519 twenty four to seven or active wear, and I'm like, Kayleie, 242 00:11:56,600 --> 00:11:59,600 you used to love dressing up and styling yourself and 243 00:11:59,639 --> 00:12:03,559 like going shopping buying things that like make you feel good. 244 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:05,679 And I feel like I've just dropped the ball on 245 00:12:05,720 --> 00:12:08,399 that completely and just like haven't found the love for 246 00:12:08,480 --> 00:12:10,919 fashion anymore, which is like kind of upsetting for me 247 00:12:10,919 --> 00:12:13,360 because I feel like I always used to love like 248 00:12:13,440 --> 00:12:16,639 styling my outfits for the day and like dressing up 249 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:19,000 for myself even if I wasn't going anywhere, I like 250 00:12:19,120 --> 00:12:20,759 wanted to make sure I put a cute outfit on 251 00:12:20,799 --> 00:12:23,159 for myself because I feel like it also like boosts 252 00:12:23,240 --> 00:12:26,200 your confidence, which obviously we don't want to lack confidence. 253 00:12:26,240 --> 00:12:29,000 That sucks, right, So I'm just in this phase where 254 00:12:29,000 --> 00:12:33,600 I'm like, I need to reevaluate my efforts of putting 255 00:12:34,399 --> 00:12:37,240 like effort in myself essentially, like I need to find 256 00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:40,360 that energy and love again of like dressing for myself 257 00:12:40,399 --> 00:12:43,879 and like feeling good about myself. So like wearing sweats 258 00:12:43,919 --> 00:12:46,200 has just not been the vibe, Okay, I need to 259 00:12:46,320 --> 00:12:48,559 change that. I need to stop wearing sweatpants all the 260 00:12:48,600 --> 00:12:51,639 time or active wear and actually dress cute and feel 261 00:12:51,639 --> 00:12:54,080 good about myself. And then the last one on my 262 00:12:54,120 --> 00:12:57,799 shit list is running late. I tend to run late 263 00:12:57,840 --> 00:13:01,440 to appointments or meetings and and I feel like this 264 00:13:01,519 --> 00:13:04,159 is something that I really wanted to improve on this year. 265 00:13:04,360 --> 00:13:06,120 And don't get me wrong, I feel like there's been 266 00:13:06,159 --> 00:13:09,000 months where I've been really good or there's been months 267 00:13:09,039 --> 00:13:11,240 where I'd been really bad. So I'm like, we just 268 00:13:11,279 --> 00:13:13,639 need to find a better game plan and honestly, just 269 00:13:13,679 --> 00:13:16,960 a better solution to this issue that just keeps coming back. 270 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:20,159 So that is definitely something that I've been shit at 271 00:13:20,200 --> 00:13:22,080 and I need to work on this month. So that's 272 00:13:22,120 --> 00:13:24,039 my shit list. That's everything that I can think of 273 00:13:24,120 --> 00:13:27,360 right now that I'm currently feeling unhappy with in my 274 00:13:27,440 --> 00:13:30,159 life that I'm like we need to figure out how 275 00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:32,679 we're going to solve these many problems, cause they're not 276 00:13:32,720 --> 00:13:34,919 big problems. I'm sure if you wrote a list down 277 00:13:35,000 --> 00:13:37,039 right now of all the little things that have been 278 00:13:37,039 --> 00:13:40,679 bothering you, whether it's like things that bother you with 279 00:13:40,799 --> 00:13:43,279 your job, or things that bother you in your home, 280 00:13:43,399 --> 00:13:46,159 or things that bother you in your routine, Like when 281 00:13:46,200 --> 00:13:48,399 you actually write them down, it's like, Okay, it's not 282 00:13:48,480 --> 00:13:51,320 that bad, but like, we can figure out a solution 283 00:13:51,399 --> 00:13:53,440 to this, Like we can figure out how to problem 284 00:13:53,480 --> 00:13:56,080 solve and make this not be a problem anymore and 285 00:13:56,120 --> 00:14:01,080 make yourself feel better about this situation. Let's talk about 286 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:04,120 my getting our Shit together list. So these are things 287 00:14:04,120 --> 00:14:05,840 that I just talked about, and these are going to 288 00:14:05,879 --> 00:14:07,919 be the solutions that I'm going to have to these problems. 289 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:11,080 So one of them being feeling disconnected. I talked about 290 00:14:11,120 --> 00:14:14,320 how I feel like I've been super distanced with my friends. 291 00:14:14,360 --> 00:14:16,960 I feel disconnected. I feel like, you know, I haven't 292 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:20,559 made the effort of seeing them. So now I'm going 293 00:14:20,600 --> 00:14:23,200 to be taking the effort this month of reaching out 294 00:14:23,240 --> 00:14:26,679 to one person each week, planning something small, like it 295 00:14:26,720 --> 00:14:28,279 could be going on a walk, it could be going 296 00:14:28,279 --> 00:14:29,679 on a coffee date. It could be going on a 297 00:14:29,679 --> 00:14:32,559 dinner date. I've actually already done a really good job 298 00:14:32,600 --> 00:14:35,080 at this to the point where I will literally put 299 00:14:35,440 --> 00:14:40,600 texts my friend Alyssa to plan a walk date next week, 300 00:14:40,960 --> 00:14:43,360 so that's on my to do list. I literally will 301 00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:45,600 text her be like, hey, how are you. We need 302 00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:48,039 to catch up one e free next week, Let's go 303 00:14:48,080 --> 00:14:50,159 on a walk. I ended up seeing her yesterday. We 304 00:14:50,200 --> 00:14:52,240 had a great catch up. It was so nice to 305 00:14:52,279 --> 00:14:54,879 see her. Felt so connected. She texted me after saying, 306 00:14:54,879 --> 00:14:56,519 I'm so happy you texted me. I'm so happy we 307 00:14:56,519 --> 00:15:00,320 connected again. I felt really good about having that date 308 00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,159 with her because it felt like it was a great 309 00:15:02,159 --> 00:15:03,480 way to catch up. It was a great way to 310 00:15:03,480 --> 00:15:06,679 see her. I felt again connected with her because I 311 00:15:06,720 --> 00:15:09,440 reached out to her and wanted to see her. Not 312 00:15:09,480 --> 00:15:12,559 only that, I've actually seen three of my other friends 313 00:15:12,759 --> 00:15:15,320 last week and then this week as well, So within 314 00:15:15,360 --> 00:15:18,240 these what six days of May that we've been in, 315 00:15:18,720 --> 00:15:20,840 I've already seen four of my friends. So I have 316 00:15:21,000 --> 00:15:24,879 actually made the effort of reaching out planning something, like 317 00:15:24,919 --> 00:15:27,360 I said, something just as small as a coffee date 318 00:15:27,480 --> 00:15:30,240 or a walk or even just chilling with your friend 319 00:15:30,440 --> 00:15:33,879 in her kids playroom and playing with her kids and 320 00:15:34,120 --> 00:15:36,360 entertaining herself that way while catching up. I am not 321 00:15:36,480 --> 00:15:38,879 picky about what we do. I really just like want 322 00:15:38,919 --> 00:15:42,480 to get together and chat and yeah, just connect again. 323 00:15:42,600 --> 00:15:44,720 So that's been a really big goal for me, and 324 00:15:44,759 --> 00:15:47,919 I think just making the effort of even like as 325 00:15:47,960 --> 00:15:49,600 I said, adding it to your to do list, of 326 00:15:49,639 --> 00:15:51,799 saying you want to text this person or call this 327 00:15:51,840 --> 00:15:55,840 person to plan something makes yourself feel so good and 328 00:15:55,840 --> 00:15:59,799 you're again already feeling connected by reaching out and planning something. 329 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:03,159 Another thing is phone addiction. So obviously I've mentioned that 330 00:16:03,360 --> 00:16:06,279 I've been on my phone constantly, especially before bed, which 331 00:16:06,320 --> 00:16:08,440 is probably the worst time to go on your phone, 332 00:16:08,519 --> 00:16:11,440 is before you fall asleep. Like I'm consuming stuff that 333 00:16:11,480 --> 00:16:14,320 I just probably shouldn't be consuming before bed. So I've 334 00:16:14,360 --> 00:16:16,720 been making it a non negotiable to not be on 335 00:16:16,759 --> 00:16:19,240 my phone thirty minutes before bed. I've actually started to 336 00:16:19,240 --> 00:16:21,799 put my phone in an area in my bedroom where 337 00:16:21,879 --> 00:16:24,639 I don't feel the urge to grab it, so I 338 00:16:24,679 --> 00:16:27,240 actually have it, like in the far corner where we 339 00:16:27,399 --> 00:16:30,159 have obviously an outlet that I can charge it, and 340 00:16:30,279 --> 00:16:32,440 I use my hatch alarm clock as my alarm clock, 341 00:16:32,519 --> 00:16:34,679 so I don't need my phone for like my alarm 342 00:16:34,679 --> 00:16:36,320 in the morning, so I don't need it right by 343 00:16:36,320 --> 00:16:38,840 my nightstand or buy me twenty four to seven. So 344 00:16:39,320 --> 00:16:41,960 having it on my dresser in like the corner of 345 00:16:42,039 --> 00:16:45,200 our bedroom has been honestly a game changer because I 346 00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:48,399 don't feel the need to grab it. I'm usually watching 347 00:16:48,399 --> 00:16:50,159 a TV show a Zach But anyways, at the end 348 00:16:50,159 --> 00:16:52,279 of the day, I just I don't feel tempted to 349 00:16:52,279 --> 00:16:54,519 grab it right now, And I think that has been 350 00:16:54,759 --> 00:16:57,759 a really big game changer, is not feeling this urge 351 00:16:57,759 --> 00:17:01,360 to like grab my phone and scroll. So the phone 352 00:17:01,360 --> 00:17:03,279 addiction is real. I think we can all agree that 353 00:17:03,320 --> 00:17:07,559 everybody probably has a slight phone addiction. So finding times 354 00:17:07,640 --> 00:17:10,200 like you know, not going on it for thirty minutes 355 00:17:10,240 --> 00:17:12,720 before bed or waking up in the morning, maybe not 356 00:17:12,799 --> 00:17:14,519 going on it for thirty minutes in the morning when 357 00:17:14,559 --> 00:17:16,559 you want to have your routine and get things done, 358 00:17:16,599 --> 00:17:18,279 Like I feel like in the morning, I'm fine, I 359 00:17:18,319 --> 00:17:20,920 don't ever have this urge to grab my phone and scroll. 360 00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:24,319 I'm usually like turn off my hatch and I have 361 00:17:24,359 --> 00:17:26,640 to get to a workout right, so I book workouts 362 00:17:26,640 --> 00:17:29,319 in the morning. That way, I'm not scrolling aimlessly. Like 363 00:17:29,359 --> 00:17:32,319 I start my day immediately by getting a workout in, 364 00:17:32,559 --> 00:17:34,720 and that's how I kind of start my day, right, 365 00:17:34,839 --> 00:17:36,559 I have my breakfast, go on my walk, whatever the 366 00:17:36,559 --> 00:17:38,480 case I may be, so I don't always feel an 367 00:17:38,559 --> 00:17:41,119 urge to scroll in the morning. My issue is scrolling 368 00:17:41,200 --> 00:17:43,720 at night. So that's why I've been trying to make 369 00:17:43,880 --> 00:17:46,559 a routine for myself to really like limit my screen 370 00:17:46,599 --> 00:17:49,559 time and like focus on doing these things for myself 371 00:17:49,599 --> 00:17:52,759 to help with obviously multiple things like my anxiety and overthinking, 372 00:17:52,960 --> 00:17:55,799 which goes into my conversation of my next problem, which 373 00:17:55,839 --> 00:17:59,519 is overthinking and anxiety. So this kind of goes hand 374 00:17:59,519 --> 00:18:02,240 in hand with my bad night routine, which is what 375 00:18:02,240 --> 00:18:05,440 I've been trying to create, is a good night routine 376 00:18:05,440 --> 00:18:09,000 for myself to hope ease the overthinking and anxiety that 377 00:18:09,039 --> 00:18:12,559 I've currently have been going through. Journaling at night is 378 00:18:12,640 --> 00:18:15,400 something that actually a lot of you guys recommended because 379 00:18:15,400 --> 00:18:18,200 I did post the video about just me and trying 380 00:18:18,200 --> 00:18:22,079 to build a night routine for myself currently, and Zach 381 00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:24,640 also has been pushing me to journal at night and 382 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:28,640 like brain dump and express how I'm feeling about this 383 00:18:28,720 --> 00:18:32,359 certain situation and express how I'm feeling. So that is 384 00:18:32,400 --> 00:18:34,759 something that I feel like I should do because I 385 00:18:34,759 --> 00:18:37,000 do think that would help a lot. Is just like 386 00:18:37,079 --> 00:18:40,200 brain dumping how I'm feeling, especially before bed. I feel 387 00:18:40,240 --> 00:18:41,839 like I would usually do that in like my notes 388 00:18:41,880 --> 00:18:44,759 in my phone, but again we're trying to avoid being 389 00:18:44,799 --> 00:18:46,839 on a cell phone, so this is why we need 390 00:18:46,839 --> 00:18:51,160 to resort to a journal. So anyways, obviously there's always 391 00:18:51,160 --> 00:18:53,720 things that we can do to improve things that we're 392 00:18:53,720 --> 00:18:55,880 currently going through. So I feel like journaling is something 393 00:18:55,880 --> 00:18:59,119 that I do during the day obviously, and like use 394 00:18:59,119 --> 00:19:00,640 my planner for like any of my day, but I 395 00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:03,359 don't really think about using it at night, So it 396 00:19:03,440 --> 00:19:06,240 might be worth me purchasing a journal that I can 397 00:19:06,279 --> 00:19:10,119 bring dump and like express how I'm feeling, especially before beds. 398 00:19:10,119 --> 00:19:13,200 So before sleeping, I feel like I've gotten everything out 399 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:15,119 that I'm overthinking. I don't have to think about it. 400 00:19:15,160 --> 00:19:19,039 And so obviously with dealing with this overthinking and anxiety, 401 00:19:19,119 --> 00:19:22,200 I'm also not having the best sleeps. So I've been 402 00:19:22,240 --> 00:19:25,960 really trying to adjust my night routine by adding two 403 00:19:26,039 --> 00:19:30,519 to three new habits to support a more relaxing environment 404 00:19:30,559 --> 00:19:32,839 for myself and just all in all support my sleep 405 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:36,079 because I just haven't been getting the best sleeps. Some 406 00:19:36,119 --> 00:19:39,200 of you guys said magnesium, which I have been using 407 00:19:39,240 --> 00:19:42,960 the ritual magnesium, which has helped a little bit. I 408 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:44,759 wouldn't say it's helping fully. I don't know if I 409 00:19:44,759 --> 00:19:47,559 need a higher dosage or not. But one time when 410 00:19:47,559 --> 00:19:51,240 I did a higher dosage up magnesium with a different company, 411 00:19:51,920 --> 00:19:55,160 I had the opposite effect of where I felt more 412 00:19:55,200 --> 00:19:57,920 wired and more awake, and then I couldn't sleep but 413 00:19:58,079 --> 00:20:01,559 all throughout the night. Like I don't really want to 414 00:20:02,519 --> 00:20:05,279 like find something stronger. I'd rather just like stick to 415 00:20:05,359 --> 00:20:08,480 something that works. But I don't know. So the ritual 416 00:20:08,480 --> 00:20:11,519 magnesium has helped a little bit, but like, yeah, I 417 00:20:11,519 --> 00:20:13,160 don't want to go down the road of like trying 418 00:20:13,200 --> 00:20:15,839 something stronger because I've done that before and it's done 419 00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:18,279 literally the complete opposite effect, which I was really shocked 420 00:20:18,319 --> 00:20:20,359 about because I'm like, it can't be the magnesium, Like, 421 00:20:21,079 --> 00:20:24,160 you know, I've never felt wired in the middle of 422 00:20:24,160 --> 00:20:27,079 the night before and till now, and literally my doctor 423 00:20:27,200 --> 00:20:30,160 was like, if you take too much magnesium, like if 424 00:20:30,160 --> 00:20:33,039 you take too strong of a dosage, which I have 425 00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:35,480 done in the past, as I said, it could do 426 00:20:35,519 --> 00:20:37,519 the opposite effect, which I had no idea about. So 427 00:20:37,519 --> 00:20:41,359 that's something I learned. But right now I'm really just 428 00:20:41,359 --> 00:20:44,279 trying to do other things like kim emeal tea before bed. 429 00:20:44,759 --> 00:20:47,640 Hot showers before bed hot showers have actually been the 430 00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:50,480 biggest game changer. Heat for me is like the most 431 00:20:50,519 --> 00:20:53,000 relaxing thing ever. I've also been trying to use my 432 00:20:53,039 --> 00:20:56,039 heating pad on the bed just to like have some 433 00:20:56,079 --> 00:20:58,160 sense of comfort, if that makes sense. I don't need 434 00:20:58,200 --> 00:21:00,880 it for like muscle recovery or anything like that. I'm 435 00:21:00,920 --> 00:21:04,079 really just using the heating pad for enjoyment because I 436 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:08,880 really find it very relaxing. So anything with heat has 437 00:21:08,920 --> 00:21:11,240 been like a really big game changer just for like 438 00:21:11,279 --> 00:21:15,400 relaxing myself and then just like doing a little form 439 00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:20,119 of self care, whether it's like a face mask, you know, eyepatches, 440 00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:24,440 reading red light therapy mask, like just like finding something 441 00:21:24,480 --> 00:21:28,039 that brings me some like comfort in doing some self 442 00:21:28,079 --> 00:21:32,160 care makes me feel really relaxed, And the whole point 443 00:21:32,200 --> 00:21:35,039 is really just to make my body feel very relaxed 444 00:21:35,039 --> 00:21:39,079 before bed and not feel tense or stress. So that's 445 00:21:39,119 --> 00:21:41,240 kind of like what I'm doing currently. It's definitely a 446 00:21:41,359 --> 00:21:45,400 work in progress. I'm like documenting my experience on TikTok 447 00:21:45,480 --> 00:21:48,119 just because I feel like that's something that I've just 448 00:21:48,200 --> 00:21:50,000 been shitited at lately and I just like need to 449 00:21:50,039 --> 00:21:52,640 work on it. So that's currently what I've been going 450 00:21:52,640 --> 00:21:55,799 through with my night routine. In terms of the laundry problem. 451 00:21:55,920 --> 00:21:58,319 How are we going to solve this? We're going to 452 00:21:58,319 --> 00:22:01,319 be doing loads of laundry. So I've been trying to 453 00:22:01,319 --> 00:22:03,680 do one to two loads every single morning before I 454 00:22:03,759 --> 00:22:05,599 leave for my workout class. So I've made it a 455 00:22:05,640 --> 00:22:08,759 non negotible to wake up, make my bed, you know, 456 00:22:08,839 --> 00:22:11,720 do my skincare, brush, my teeth, get changed, into my 457 00:22:11,720 --> 00:22:17,039 workout clothes. Literally throw whatever color I see, whether it's white, grays, colors, 458 00:22:17,519 --> 00:22:20,039 throw it in the laundry. Do it. Then when I 459 00:22:20,039 --> 00:22:23,160 get home from plates, go upstairs, throw it in the dryer, 460 00:22:23,680 --> 00:22:26,319 eat my breakfast, do whatever, and then I'll quickly fold everything, 461 00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:28,160 put it away, and then I move on with my day. 462 00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:30,640 So my goal right now is to not like do 463 00:22:30,920 --> 00:22:33,680 multiple loads at once and feel overwhelmed. I'm really just 464 00:22:33,720 --> 00:22:35,359 trying to do like one to two loads a day. 465 00:22:35,920 --> 00:22:38,960 So it sounds so funny because it's just like it's laundry, 466 00:22:39,079 --> 00:22:41,720 you know. I think everyone has difficulty keeping up with 467 00:22:41,759 --> 00:22:44,359 their laundry. It's just an annoying task that I personally 468 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:47,200 don't love. Like Zach is so on top of his 469 00:22:47,279 --> 00:22:49,799 shit with laundry, I'm the complete opposite. It's just something 470 00:22:49,839 --> 00:22:51,640 that I'm not good at, I'll be honest. So that 471 00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:53,400 is something that I'm trying to do this month is 472 00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:56,160 just like make it a little mourning non negotiable and 473 00:22:56,240 --> 00:22:58,359 my morning routine to just get it done. So I'm 474 00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:00,880 hoping that I'll have my laundry done fully this week 475 00:23:01,039 --> 00:23:04,119 because I've been making that a non negotiable. Another thing 476 00:23:04,160 --> 00:23:05,839 that was on my shit list that we're going to 477 00:23:06,640 --> 00:23:09,680 solve is feeling stuck. I think this is a big 478 00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:12,319 one for a lot of people, is just feeling like 479 00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:16,759 maybe every day feels the same, or feeling like you're 480 00:23:16,799 --> 00:23:20,039 just like needing some type of change. And it could 481 00:23:20,039 --> 00:23:21,920 be the smallest thing. It could be changing up something 482 00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:24,319 in your routine, it could be changing up your environment. 483 00:23:25,119 --> 00:23:28,400 I think like forcing yourself to be in a new 484 00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:31,480 space is definitely a good idea. And a new space 485 00:23:31,559 --> 00:23:34,319 meaning like instead of working from home, maybe start working 486 00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,680 at coffee shops more, or you know, maybe change your 487 00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:42,480 bedroom furniture around, maybe you know, change the gym that 488 00:23:42,519 --> 00:23:45,200 you're going to. I know, for me, I've been obviously 489 00:23:45,279 --> 00:23:47,079 going to like the same workout studios for a long 490 00:23:47,079 --> 00:23:50,279 period of time. I have been feeling the urge to 491 00:23:51,160 --> 00:23:54,079 not change, but like add something into my routine. Instead 492 00:23:54,079 --> 00:23:56,799 of just like doing pilates multiple times a week, I've 493 00:23:56,799 --> 00:23:58,920 been trying to do strength workouts again. So I've been 494 00:23:58,920 --> 00:24:01,359 doing two strength workouts a week and then two pilates 495 00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:04,839 classes a week, and I've been wanting to look at 496 00:24:04,839 --> 00:24:07,440 getting a gym membership. Right now, I'm just using the 497 00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:09,720 weights at my home, which is fine, but I feel 498 00:24:09,720 --> 00:24:11,519 like because I've worked from home, I need to be 499 00:24:11,759 --> 00:24:13,559 out more and like get out of the house more. 500 00:24:13,640 --> 00:24:15,480 So I've been trying to figure out a gym that 501 00:24:15,519 --> 00:24:18,839 I can get a membership too. I also love Matt Plates, 502 00:24:19,119 --> 00:24:22,440 and I used to do a hot Matt pilates class 503 00:24:23,240 --> 00:24:25,680 a few times a week, but I haven't been wanting 504 00:24:25,720 --> 00:24:27,839 to do the heat of workouts. I've been wanting just 505 00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:31,680 to do like a normal pilates class. And there's a 506 00:24:31,799 --> 00:24:37,200 new pilate studio opening up next month. And Guys, if 507 00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:40,720 I could describe the perfect esthetic for a pilate studio 508 00:24:40,759 --> 00:24:44,119 that you would see on Pinterest, this place is giving 509 00:24:44,400 --> 00:24:48,440 that exact Pinterest vibe, like literally matches my Pinterest board. 510 00:24:48,519 --> 00:24:51,720 So I'm so excited because not only are they doing 511 00:24:51,759 --> 00:24:54,400 matt plates, but they're also doing yoga, which yoga is 512 00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:56,799 another thing that I really want to get into for again, 513 00:24:57,319 --> 00:25:02,000 distressing anxiety, stretch for my back all that. Like everyone's 514 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:03,880 always like to me, Killy, you need to get into yoga, 515 00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:06,079 And I know, I know I need to get into yoga. 516 00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:08,440 I just don't like any of the yoga studios that 517 00:25:08,480 --> 00:25:11,519 are near me. I've tried literally every single yoga studio 518 00:25:11,519 --> 00:25:14,079 you can think of that are nearby, and I absolutely 519 00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:17,920 hate it. It's just not worth it. And I like convenience. 520 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:20,759 Like I'm not saying every studio in Ottawa is shit. 521 00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:22,839 I'm just saying that, like I'm not going to travel 522 00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:26,279 forty minutes or thirty five minutes to all the way 523 00:25:26,319 --> 00:25:28,680 downtown to like go to the best studios there and 524 00:25:28,759 --> 00:25:32,000 then drive thirty five minutes home. Like I like the 525 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:36,119 convenience of being in something that's in close proximity. And yeah, 526 00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,559 so I'm really excited about this new place opening up. 527 00:25:38,599 --> 00:25:41,119 I think that's going to make me feel really excited 528 00:25:41,519 --> 00:25:44,359 to try something new, kind of like again branch out 529 00:25:44,359 --> 00:25:46,559 of my routine and try something new for my routine, 530 00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:51,440 and a new environment just kind of feels exciting new change. 531 00:25:52,279 --> 00:25:54,000 So yeah, so it could be like little things like that. 532 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,559 It could also be like, if you've been a gym 533 00:25:56,599 --> 00:25:58,240 girl for a while and you've been kind of like 534 00:25:58,319 --> 00:26:02,240 over just like doing strength workouts, maybe change it up 535 00:26:02,240 --> 00:26:04,599 by doing, like, instead of working out in the gym 536 00:26:04,640 --> 00:26:06,440 like five times a week, maybe do it two times 537 00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:08,799 a week and then the other days try different workout 538 00:26:08,799 --> 00:26:13,599 classes out like maybe try spinning, try pilates, try whatever, right, like, 539 00:26:13,720 --> 00:26:16,079 just try and change it up. So I think that's 540 00:26:16,119 --> 00:26:18,720 something that I'm currently working on. It's kind of changing 541 00:26:18,799 --> 00:26:21,480 up my routine and like making it a little bit 542 00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:25,319 more different by being in new environments. So that's something 543 00:26:25,359 --> 00:26:28,079 that I'm currently working on. My problem of constantly being 544 00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:30,720 in sweatpants, Okay, we're going to actually make the effort 545 00:26:30,839 --> 00:26:34,359 of dressing up once or twice a week by wearing 546 00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:36,920 clothes that make me feel good. And again, it could 547 00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:38,599 be for me wanting to go to a coffee shop. 548 00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:41,240 It could be me working from home. Still, like, I 549 00:26:41,279 --> 00:26:43,880 also feel like I've actually done a really good job 550 00:26:43,920 --> 00:26:46,880 at not buying new clothes for myself. Last week was 551 00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:49,839 the first time I was shopping in like forever, Like 552 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:52,480 I think I bought two things in Toronto when I 553 00:26:52,480 --> 00:26:56,519 was a zach and that's it. Like literally, I've I 554 00:26:56,559 --> 00:26:58,759 have not boughten myself anything. Like of course I received 555 00:26:58,799 --> 00:27:01,519 pr from brands, which I I truly do appreciate, but 556 00:27:01,599 --> 00:27:04,079 like when it comes to like buying clothes for myself, 557 00:27:04,079 --> 00:27:05,720 like I've done a really good job this year of 558 00:27:05,759 --> 00:27:08,400 not doing so, which I'm not complaining about. I'm actually 559 00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:10,519 proud of myself for doing that. But I do feel 560 00:27:10,519 --> 00:27:12,319 like when a new season comes around, I do feel 561 00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:15,599 like this sudden urge of like wanting to style fun 562 00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:18,559 pieces and like buy fun things for a new season. 563 00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:22,519 So I do think a shopping spree is due. I 564 00:27:22,559 --> 00:27:25,079 did buy a few things last week from Aritzia and 565 00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:28,279 Dynamite that I just wanted for like going out clothes. 566 00:27:28,319 --> 00:27:32,519 So when you know it's someone's birthday or you know 567 00:27:32,599 --> 00:27:34,319 my girlfriends want to go out for dinner, I feel 568 00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:36,240 like I have like two to three good outfits now 569 00:27:36,279 --> 00:27:37,880 where I'm like, these could be like my go to 570 00:27:37,920 --> 00:27:40,839 outfits to wear. I'm also traveling this year to Europe, 571 00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:43,240 so saph and I are going to Portugal in the summer, 572 00:27:43,279 --> 00:27:46,119 so I really want to obviously find cute outfits for that. 573 00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:49,319 So I think I'm just like waiting for things to happen. 574 00:27:49,319 --> 00:27:52,680 But it's like, girl, just buy yourself something nice. Dress 575 00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:55,400 the way you want to dress, and feel good and 576 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,200 feel confident in the things that you want to wear 577 00:27:57,279 --> 00:28:00,640 and not feel ugly and worsewetpam. It's an active war 578 00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:02,039 all the time. Like I just like you need to 579 00:28:02,079 --> 00:28:05,640 branch out and start dressing up more running late for 580 00:28:05,759 --> 00:28:09,400 appointments or meetings. This is something that I actually tried 581 00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:13,039 today for the very first time. I had a appointment 582 00:28:13,160 --> 00:28:15,599 before recording this podcast episode. You guys are going to 583 00:28:15,640 --> 00:28:17,480 see this day, to be honest, because I filmed a 584 00:28:17,519 --> 00:28:21,960 full day in the life today for TikTok and Instagram, 585 00:28:22,039 --> 00:28:24,519 So you guys are going to see everything that's happened 586 00:28:24,519 --> 00:28:26,839 before this, which has just been once again a shit 587 00:28:26,839 --> 00:28:30,599 show of a day. But I had an appointment downtown Ottawa, 588 00:28:30,799 --> 00:28:33,680 and downtown takes some time to get from where I am, 589 00:28:34,279 --> 00:28:37,640 and there's also no parking, so of course I have 590 00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:41,759 to take time to find a parking spot. And there's traffic, right. 591 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:44,039 So the one thing that I suck at when it 592 00:28:44,039 --> 00:28:46,839 comes to like traveling to places to attend meetings or 593 00:28:46,880 --> 00:28:51,000 appointments is that I think everywhere takes ten to fifteen 594 00:28:51,039 --> 00:28:54,599 minutes to get which is not the reality. It takes 595 00:28:54,640 --> 00:28:58,920 way longer. Like, it takes way longer than that because 596 00:28:59,240 --> 00:29:01,319 you have to take into a affect the traffic or 597 00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:04,279 unexpected you know, things that could happen when you're driving there, 598 00:29:04,279 --> 00:29:08,599 obviously car accidents, whatever, Oh, can't find parking, there's street parking, 599 00:29:08,599 --> 00:29:10,880 there's no parking lot there, So like I've sake all 600 00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:14,200 those things into account. So I literally set a timer 601 00:29:14,759 --> 00:29:17,759 for how long I had to get ready and actually 602 00:29:17,759 --> 00:29:20,319 be out the door in order to make it to 603 00:29:20,359 --> 00:29:23,839 my appointment ten to fifteen minutes early, which is what 604 00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:27,920 I wanted. So I ended up setting a timer, and 605 00:29:28,240 --> 00:29:30,440 let me tell you guys, I got there fifteen minutes early, 606 00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:34,039 which I never get to an appointment fifteen minutes early, 607 00:29:34,039 --> 00:29:37,079 to be fully honest, I usually get there like maybe 608 00:29:37,119 --> 00:29:40,960 two minutes before, or like literally on time or five 609 00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:43,920 minutes late. Like usually that's just my world. I just 610 00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:46,759 like I'm always like running to get to somewhere and 611 00:29:46,920 --> 00:29:48,920 be there within that timeframe. So the fact I was 612 00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:52,279 there fifteen minutes early, I'm going to say the timer worked. 613 00:29:52,359 --> 00:29:54,519 So I'm a timer girl. I'm going to be setting 614 00:29:54,519 --> 00:29:57,920 timers to keep myself on task. I get easily distracted. 615 00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:00,319 I have ADHD. I'm going to be honest here, So 616 00:30:00,480 --> 00:30:03,960 I think having the timer just like makes me walk 617 00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:06,680 in and like I realize, like, Okay, I need to 618 00:30:06,680 --> 00:30:09,279 get all this done before this time, and it just 619 00:30:09,279 --> 00:30:13,519 creates like that motivation and that urgency of like needing 620 00:30:13,519 --> 00:30:15,519 to get shit done before I leave. I have talked 621 00:30:15,559 --> 00:30:17,640 about this in the past too, but like setting timers 622 00:30:17,680 --> 00:30:19,880 for yourself when you're trying to get task done around 623 00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:23,160 the house also really helped. So if you've been feeling 624 00:30:23,559 --> 00:30:25,920 like a lack of motivation or just like there's shit 625 00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:27,880 around the house that you've just been ignoring that you 626 00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:30,759 like you need to get back into. I'm telling you 627 00:30:30,799 --> 00:30:33,640 right now, if you set a timer, you are going 628 00:30:33,680 --> 00:30:36,400 to feel so productive and you're going to see how 629 00:30:36,440 --> 00:30:38,759 much you can actually get done in thirty minutes or 630 00:30:38,839 --> 00:30:42,200 sixty minutes and complete tasks around your house that you've 631 00:30:42,240 --> 00:30:46,640 been avoiding and just feel so much more accomplished. So 632 00:30:47,160 --> 00:30:49,880 I do think that setting timers are a big game 633 00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:53,200 changer for anything. Whether it's like running late for appointments 634 00:30:53,200 --> 00:30:56,160 and you want to keep yourself on track, set a timer, 635 00:30:56,400 --> 00:30:58,079 or if you want to get shit done around the 636 00:30:58,079 --> 00:31:00,359 house and you feel like you need some thing to 637 00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:04,440 keep you motivated or again on task, set a timer 638 00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:06,559 for you to clean and tidy up around your house 639 00:31:07,119 --> 00:31:10,119 and it does wonders. So I'm a timer girl. I 640 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:14,000 think timers work. So that's a tip for anyone that 641 00:31:14,039 --> 00:31:17,079 feels like they need something to hold themselves accountable for 642 00:31:17,279 --> 00:31:20,839 or just like actually like have the motivation and urge 643 00:31:20,839 --> 00:31:22,839 to get things done. And the last thing that was 644 00:31:22,880 --> 00:31:25,640 on my shit list that I need to improve on 645 00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:30,359 is just feeling inspired again, and I've been feeling uninspired. 646 00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:34,200 I've been feeling stuck. I've been feeling like I just 647 00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:37,160 like need to change up my environment or just like 648 00:31:37,640 --> 00:31:41,400 do something different. Right. So it's hard for me specifically 649 00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:44,960 because you know, some of these things that I feel 650 00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:47,400 like help for me, which is like you know, rearranging 651 00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:48,920 my space. So like last year, I feel like I 652 00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:51,240 flipped my entire bedroom around, which I feel like really 653 00:31:51,240 --> 00:31:53,279 helped it. I felt really inspired when we changed my 654 00:31:53,279 --> 00:31:56,640 bedroom around, and then I changed it back this year. 655 00:31:57,160 --> 00:31:59,720 But I've been wanting to change up like spaces in 656 00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:02,920 my head. But financially, that's really stupid of me because 657 00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:06,720 I'm moving, like I'm literally leaving this house in four months. 658 00:32:06,759 --> 00:32:09,640 So I think for me, I'm like obviously being impatient 659 00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:11,160 and I just like want to move into my new 660 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:15,160 house because i know I'm going to feel so inspired again, 661 00:32:15,319 --> 00:32:18,400 so excited. It's a new space, you know, it's change. 662 00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:20,960 It's a house that like obviously like we put so 663 00:32:21,079 --> 00:32:24,240 much love and energy towards that we are just so 664 00:32:24,359 --> 00:32:28,039 excited for. But I think I'm feeling uninspired almost because 665 00:32:28,039 --> 00:32:30,440 of that, where it's like I know that I have 666 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:33,119 this new house coming that I'm feeling uninspired in my 667 00:32:33,200 --> 00:32:35,160 space that I currently am in, where i feel like 668 00:32:35,279 --> 00:32:38,279 I'm like not really putting any effort into it because 669 00:32:38,279 --> 00:32:42,079 I'm putting so much effort into the next, the next thing, 670 00:32:42,200 --> 00:32:45,319 the next best thing, right, So I feel like I'm 671 00:32:45,359 --> 00:32:47,799 starting to outgrow this place. And as much as I 672 00:32:47,839 --> 00:32:50,079 love it, and like I do still think it's such 673 00:32:50,079 --> 00:32:52,160 a beautiful house, Like I love my house. It's just 674 00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:54,039 the point is is that I feel like I'm just 675 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:57,200 ready for the next I'm ready for the next step 676 00:32:57,240 --> 00:32:59,200 of my life, and I feel like I'm just like waiting, 677 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:01,119 you know, I'm just like sitting here waiting and like 678 00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:04,480 wanting to just go into it. And so I think 679 00:33:04,519 --> 00:33:07,960 my energy right now is just chasing something new. I 680 00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:10,559 can just feel that I'm craving change and I just 681 00:33:10,599 --> 00:33:13,240 like really want to start this new chapter in her 682 00:33:13,240 --> 00:33:15,799 life of like being in this new house. And I 683 00:33:15,839 --> 00:33:18,319 don't know, I think that's okay to feel that way. 684 00:33:18,599 --> 00:33:21,079 I know there's small things that I can do, like 685 00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:24,400 changing up my routine, And if you have the luxury 686 00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:27,559 of like changing up your bedroom or changing up your 687 00:33:27,599 --> 00:33:31,319 home to make yourself feel inspired, I highly recommend doing so. 688 00:33:31,480 --> 00:33:33,400 Like I just can't right now because it doesn't make 689 00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,359 sense for me to do that, but if you can 690 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,519 do that, I do find it actually really helps. Like 691 00:33:38,559 --> 00:33:40,799 me changing my bedroom last year was like such a 692 00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:44,599 nice refreshing feeling and just like a really nice change 693 00:33:44,640 --> 00:33:47,160 that I felt like I wanted for so long, and 694 00:33:47,279 --> 00:33:51,319 I felt really inspired again. After doing that, So I 695 00:33:51,319 --> 00:33:54,519 don't know, those little things do actually make a huge difference. 696 00:33:56,000 --> 00:34:00,200 But yeah, right now I'm just like craving change and 697 00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:03,359 I'm creating my new chapter. Also side note, this kind 698 00:34:03,359 --> 00:34:06,279 of goes with the phone addiction one where obviously I 699 00:34:06,319 --> 00:34:08,239 need to stop scrolling at night and I've been trying 700 00:34:08,239 --> 00:34:10,480 to not go on my phone for thirty minutes and 701 00:34:10,519 --> 00:34:12,800 also put my phone in an area where I won't 702 00:34:12,840 --> 00:34:15,320 grab it. But I talked about reading a little bit, 703 00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:17,480 but like, reading for me is something that I really 704 00:34:17,559 --> 00:34:20,000 want to make a goal this year and this summer alone, 705 00:34:20,039 --> 00:34:23,800 because I feel like it stimulates your mind. It's something 706 00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:27,320 to consume that's probably better than just consuming random videos 707 00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:30,400 and content on social media. So I'm trying to be 708 00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:32,880 better at picking up a book and reading for scrolling, 709 00:34:33,079 --> 00:34:35,039 and I don't know, I just think it's way more 710 00:34:35,079 --> 00:34:38,639 beneficial to do that first scrolling on my phone. So anyways, 711 00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:41,400 that is my shit list and the things that I'm 712 00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:44,840 doing to get myself back on track and solve those 713 00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:48,320 problems of getting my shit together. I really wanted to 714 00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:50,639 create this episode just because I really wanted to inspire 715 00:34:50,679 --> 00:34:54,079 you guys to create yourself your own shit list and 716 00:34:54,599 --> 00:34:58,079 finding ways to solve your problems of getting your shit 717 00:34:58,159 --> 00:35:02,360 together again by yeah, problem solving and finding ways to 718 00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:05,239 find solutions to your problems. So that's kind of like 719 00:35:05,239 --> 00:35:07,880 what I wanted to make this episode about. Obviously, we're 720 00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:10,119 in a new month, we're so close to a new season. 721 00:35:10,159 --> 00:35:12,159 I really just wanted to make this episode about you 722 00:35:12,360 --> 00:35:17,159 resetting and finding yourself again, going into this new month 723 00:35:17,360 --> 00:35:20,559 and just finding the motivation and inspiration again. So I 724 00:35:20,599 --> 00:35:22,960 hope you guys enjoyed this episode. 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