Speaker 1: You'll be away five seventeen. Do you want to report
Speaker 1: a UFO.
Speaker 2: It?
Speaker 1: We don't want to report every thirty one.
Speaker 3: Do you wish to report a.
Speaker 1: UFO over Hey, we want to one.
Speaker 4: Of those data areas thirty one.
Speaker 3: Do you wish to find a report of any kind
Speaker 3: of it?
Speaker 4: I wouldn't know what kind of reports clouds.
Speaker 1: Time areas thirty one me neither.
Speaker 3: There were seven one golf. If it was anybody as
Speaker 3: above us to pass us, like thirty seconds ago, we
Speaker 3: were sending one of golf negative.
Speaker 1: Okay, OFFI the UFO.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's murder ten nine o'clock.
Speaker 4: Yes, I'll just passed over, I go.
Speaker 3: I don't know what it was, but it's from at
Speaker 3: least to three thousand feet above us. See, I passed
Speaker 3: out over the top of us.
Speaker 1: Ninety one one.
Speaker 4: You just called up to me before.
Speaker 1: They're after staying the airplanes?
Speaker 4: He is, I towere to God more calm in on
Speaker 4: an unidentified object every liberty four call or calm on
Speaker 4: an unidentified flying object? A right, We'll lock it on.
Speaker 5: Welcome to UFO Chronicles, a place where people share their
Speaker 5: experiences of the strange and unexplained. If you've had an
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Speaker 3: Hello everyone, and welcome to the first episode of twenty
Speaker 3: twenty six. I hope you all had a great Christmas
Speaker 3: and fully recovered from New Year's Eve, and I wish
Speaker 3: you all the best for the coming year. I'm Nick
Speaker 3: and this is the UFO Chronicles podcast. In this episode, Patricia,
Speaker 3: calling from Canada, walks us through a series of experiences
Speaker 3: that began in early childhood and continued across decades. She
Speaker 3: recalls reoccurring night terrors marked by paralysis and the presence
Speaker 3: of a dark, featureless figure standing in her bedroom doorway.
Speaker 3: Around the same period, she witnessed a UFO, a large
Speaker 3: metallic object moving silently just across the tree line before
Speaker 3: disappearing without a trace. Interwoven in these experiences of vivid dreams,
Speaker 3: episodes of dja vous and the gradual emergence of intuitive
Speaker 3: abilities that Patricia struggles to understand and control. Set against
Speaker 3: the backdrop of workplace trauma, serious illness, and a major
Speaker 3: personal change, she begins to question whether these moments are
Speaker 3: isolated incidents all part of a larger pattern Patricia is
Speaker 3: up next. But first, if you enjoy the show and
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Speaker 3: Now on with the show. Hello, Patricia, welcome to the podcast.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 3: It is great to have you with us today. And
Speaker 3: you're the first episode of twenty twenty six.
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, wow.
Speaker 3: To start off the new year. Okay, and you're calling
Speaker 3: from British Columbia, Canada.
Speaker 1: I am, I am, and we are being a wonderful green.
Speaker 3: Winter, wonderful green winter.
Speaker 1: Well, we're on the west coast and kind of south
Speaker 1: down the coast, so we don't have to get at
Speaker 1: the snow. We do in the mountains and they can
Speaker 1: stay there that we primarily get the rain. And that's
Speaker 1: okay by.
Speaker 3: Me, that's okay by you. Now, Patricia, you have some
Speaker 3: experiences to share with us. Would you like to start
Speaker 3: the beginning please, ma'am.
Speaker 1: I certainly will. Now I just have to end upon
Speaker 1: your podcast in twenty twenty three, and after listening to
Speaker 1: the wonderful variety of people you've had on on your podcast,
Speaker 1: I started looking back at things that have happened to
Speaker 1: me from a young age to today, and I never
Speaker 1: thought of then possibly being related until I started running
Speaker 1: it all down, and I thought, huh, naty, things are
Speaker 1: all we landed, so hints coming on your show, and
Speaker 1: here we go. I'll start off with my first UFO sighting.
Speaker 1: I was around four years old this nineteen sixty seven,
Speaker 1: figuring it was either early string or lathball because the
Speaker 1: leaves work on the trees. Now, we land out in
Speaker 1: the country only three neighbors, all of which had a
Speaker 1: farm dead end road that dead ends up on the mountains,
Speaker 1: so there's no one around. In the mornings after my
Speaker 1: siblings all went out to school, my mom and I
Speaker 1: were walk across the field and go visit an elderly
Speaker 1: nagger and Mom and her would have coffee in the
Speaker 1: morning and talk about their day, and I'd be in
Speaker 1: the living room watching TV because she actually got the
Speaker 1: cartoon channels run Kenna then't really got one channel that
Speaker 1: she got the good stuff. So I was in the
Speaker 1: living room and there was a big picture window facing southeast,
Speaker 1: and I were talking missus Charmley eight eight thirty in
Speaker 1: the morning, and I was looking at the window and
Speaker 1: there was this huge and then i'd say, thirty feet
Speaker 1: in diameter, a white, kind of unpolescant colored circle, big ball,
Speaker 1: and it was turning clockwise going through the treetops. Almost
Speaker 1: looked like little licks of flames coming off it. That
Speaker 1: really small, like there was no tail, no starts, they
Speaker 1: just this dig rotating circular disk ball going through the treetops.
Speaker 1: And I went past the point where I could see it,
Speaker 1: so I tore out of the living room, ran through
Speaker 1: the kitchen out to the back door, which would be
Speaker 1: now more looking west, and it was gone. And we're talking,
Speaker 1: this is a short distance for me to run, would
Speaker 1: take ten seconds, and it was gone nothing. So I
Speaker 1: came in the house. Course I had run past my
Speaker 1: mom and this Stanley friend and they were like, what
Speaker 1: do you do? What was that all about? I didn't
Speaker 1: say anything because I didn't really know what i'd seen,
Speaker 1: and also didn't think they delete me because it was
Speaker 1: so bizarre different. So yeah, I didn't tell anyone about this.
Speaker 1: Actually you're the first one, So there you go. World
Speaker 1: next yeah, I actually was thinking about it. Was following
Speaker 1: bad episode between the ages of four and eight, so
Speaker 1: nineteen sixty said, then to seventy one, I started having
Speaker 1: night time paralysis. I don't recall whether i'd still be
Speaker 1: awake or I got woken up, just this huge feeling
Speaker 1: of dread. I can't move, I can move my eyes.
Speaker 1: And I looked towards my door, my which is open,
Speaker 1: and there is a dark shape there. I can't say
Speaker 1: I saw a hand, orange legs, No, it was just this,
Speaker 1: the blowing dark, just a moving black shape. Didn't come
Speaker 1: closer that I'd say, what set and teeth away from
Speaker 1: me and I couldn't move. I felting under, falling asleep.
Speaker 1: After that, I just remember that horrible feeling of dread,
Speaker 1: seeing that black shape, not being able to steak or yell.
Speaker 1: The last time I saw it, I was able to,
Speaker 1: I think in my head, because I don't think I
Speaker 1: yelled out loud that in my head, I yelled something like,
Speaker 1: you can't hurt me, gone to text me, go away, Gone,
Speaker 1: will never let you hurt me. And it left. And
Speaker 1: that was the last time that I dealt with that
Speaker 1: night time terror palysis and seeing that black shaped. So
Speaker 1: next with the a paranormal experience, I was around nine
Speaker 1: years old, it would have been a string. So that's
Speaker 1: back to nineteen sixty eight. U sadly, the neighbor that
Speaker 1: we had coffee with, her husband was tragically killed in
Speaker 1: a car accident on the way they worked in the marning.
Speaker 1: We were, actually, my goodness, we were at her house
Speaker 1: in the morning having coffee when she got the phone
Speaker 1: call and I mender her answering the phone and then
Speaker 1: her just falling to the floor, just crying, and month
Speaker 1: took the phone. I heard her talk about the RCND
Speaker 1: and it was later that she told me that he
Speaker 1: had been killed on the way to work, falling Dad.
Speaker 1: Things are kind of fuzzy. Are trying to remember the funeral? Yeah,
Speaker 1: not a whole lot of that. But what I do
Speaker 1: remender was three days after he passed, I'm in Dad,
Speaker 1: and I can hear someone chotting firewood at the nigger's house. Now,
Speaker 1: that's what he did, Aunty Knight. When he got home
Speaker 1: after his shift. He would that was his chore. He'd
Speaker 1: go out, he chot the firewood bringing in and that's
Speaker 1: how Iowings knew that he was home. And this went
Speaker 1: on for like four or five days, where I'd hear
Speaker 1: at night him chotting Thyomon, and so wh I One
Speaker 1: morning I asked my mom, who's helping out the nigger?
Speaker 1: Because I hear someone chotting Thyomon at night? And my
Speaker 1: I's like, no one, and no one's chopping firewood, So
Speaker 1: I was odd. I didn't say anything. I'd say it
Speaker 1: went on or maybe ten days, two weeks, and then
Speaker 1: it stopped, So I don't know. I thought that was
Speaker 1: kind of cool. The other thing again, around the age,
Speaker 1: I'd say from quarter or fourteen, I always had dweams
Speaker 1: that ended in me falling through a dark void and
Speaker 1: then physically hitting the nattress. And I mean I felt
Speaker 1: me hit the nattress and I was always falling dackwards.
Speaker 1: I didn't feel scared, like you know, scratching or anything
Speaker 1: like that, but it was an odd feeling of just
Speaker 1: falling dackwards to a dark void and then boom, hit
Speaker 1: the mattress. I didn't suddenly gas or air. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't know. I'm again, I'm trying to figure out how
Speaker 1: all these little episodes, how they connect, do they connect?
Speaker 1: I'd see around the age of ten Elendon twelve saw
Speaker 1: a lot of what I think are usos and this
Speaker 1: is myself and the Neigger kids. We actually got some neighbors,
Speaker 1: which was cool, some new people. We play flashlight tag
Speaker 1: a lot, where you know, we all go hide in
Speaker 1: a certain area's pitch dark, and the person who's it
Speaker 1: that's the flashlight, they have to come try and find
Speaker 1: you and under One night in particular, I was hiding
Speaker 1: on top of our dyke shand where we stored our bicycles,
Speaker 1: and I'm laying there and looking up at the stars.
Speaker 1: Now this is nineteen seventy door. There were a lot
Speaker 1: of satellites out there, and this star was coming moving
Speaker 1: along and then it stopped and then it went up
Speaker 1: tilly quick, and then down and then dak and then
Speaker 1: it started moving slowly forward again and then it repeated
Speaker 1: that went suddenly uptwilly quick. You know in mind it
Speaker 1: looked like up down is that north south? I can't
Speaker 1: under that? And then it just shot off like no,
Speaker 1: t walk just gone, didn't fad, It just shot off.
Speaker 1: And suddenly two other people in my group they yelled out,
Speaker 1: oh my god, did you see that? And I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: that was so cool, and then other people came out
Speaker 1: of hiding that had seen it as well, and we're
Speaker 1: the poor guy that was it with the flashlight. You know,
Speaker 1: it's like, what are you doing? You're all coming out
Speaker 1: of hiding. I had thinking that we were all so
Speaker 1: excited because it was weird. It was bigger than Venus,
Speaker 1: so it was a good size, and yeah, it was
Speaker 1: moving romantically, and then it just took off. So glad
Speaker 1: I had witnesses that I had seen that a lot
Speaker 1: in the night sky here, just smaller though that you know,
Speaker 1: quote unquote would look like Starr and then they start
Speaker 1: moving and then they do radically and then take off.
Speaker 1: So now it's cool. Now that's what. I don't know
Speaker 1: if this would be called precognition. I'm not sure. That
Speaker 1: January twenty eighth, nineteen eighty six, which once the Stage
Speaker 1: Shuttle disaster, I had a friend over and she was
Speaker 1: in the living room watching TV and I was in
Speaker 1: the kitchen. She called me over and so I came
Speaker 1: into the living room. They were, you know, showing the
Speaker 1: Stay shuttle and then they'd exploding, et cetera. And didn't
Speaker 1: I nine like, she was just you know, oh my god,
Speaker 1: what what's going on, and I'm thinking, Yeah, why aren't
Speaker 1: they showing these old news clips the subtle disaster, I mean,
Speaker 1: that happened quite a dite ago. Why aren't they showing
Speaker 1: it now? And why is she shocked? This is old news?
Speaker 1: But when I said it to her, I was like,
Speaker 1: why aren't they showing these old news clips? And she
Speaker 1: turned to me and was like, what do you mean?
Speaker 1: This just happened? And I just stood there silently, my
Speaker 1: gut twisted because it was so clear in my mind
Speaker 1: that this had happened a while ago. Again, I didn't
Speaker 1: say anything. I didn't know what to say. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: can't really say anything like that that ex to that
Speaker 1: extent has happened since I hope it doesn't. So, Yeah,
Speaker 1: that was interesting. I will talk about I don't again,
Speaker 1: I don't know his recognition, Dasia do whatever you want
Speaker 1: to call it that. I will talk about that a
Speaker 1: little later. The next interesting thing nineteen eighty eight. I
Speaker 1: was around twenty five years old. I was zach grad
Speaker 1: school at the time, studying getting my master's degree, and
Speaker 1: in a local coffee shop there was a combination coffee
Speaker 1: shop bookstore, really cool, and I my friends are in
Speaker 1: the coffee shop hard and I was looking through the
Speaker 1: stacks at the books there, and this shorter used around
Speaker 1: five book four. I'm by the leven. So this shorter
Speaker 1: black man with right daily blue eyes like that light
Speaker 1: blue came up to me and he asked if he
Speaker 1: could talk to me.
Speaker 2: And I'm kind of looking around, kind of going yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: you could talk to me.
Speaker 1: And he said, I have the message for you, you know,
Speaker 1: can we move to another location where it's a little
Speaker 1: quinder And I'm like sure, I mean, I'm in a
Speaker 1: safe place. So we moved to more qinder corner on
Speaker 1: the big store and he asked if he could take
Speaker 1: my hands, and so, oh, hey, no harm. So he
Speaker 1: held thy hands, my hands lightly in his and he
Speaker 1: said that he tramples a lot and he goes to
Speaker 1: where he's called, and that he will be leaving soon,
Speaker 1: that they'll compelled to give them a message before he left.
Speaker 1: So I'm kind of looking at and thinking, okay, continue,
Speaker 1: and he was like okay. He said that I am
Speaker 1: a new soul and I'm here on earth to earn
Speaker 1: my wings. And he said, now many tito will be
Speaker 1: drawn to you to me. They canceled my light and
Speaker 1: they he drawn to meet their guidance. That He also
Speaker 1: said that many would be angry at me and attacked
Speaker 1: me because my light would extone what highlight their darkness,
Speaker 1: and so I needed to dig the cared for bannal
Speaker 1: because of their anger towarrant me. Hence I de earning
Speaker 1: my wings. I just looked at him. I mean a
Speaker 1: little of it. They'll kind of right with the being
Speaker 1: a new soul because I don't feel like an old soul.
Speaker 1: But I again didn't know what to say, and I
Speaker 1: just said thank you, and I wished him well on
Speaker 1: his tripped his upcoming tripped and retarded ways. I found
Speaker 1: it again. I found it. I wasn't scared. I really
Speaker 1: didn't feel weird that I was cautious because I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: this gentleman, someone who got lesson that you know, he
Speaker 1: wants to feel steciled, so he does this. It's part
Speaker 1: of his I don't know, persona to make himself feel
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that he's got against I don't know, but yeah.
Speaker 1: I mean, he wasn't causing any harm, and I didn't
Speaker 1: feel scared, and I just found it really interesting. I
Speaker 1: then went to my friends who were sitting in the
Speaker 1: coffee shop and I shared a little bit. I said,
Speaker 1: Jo'll just let this interesting gentleman back down with Davy
Speaker 1: Delive and that he said that I was a new
Speaker 1: soul and I'm here earning my wings. That's all I said.
Speaker 1: And yeah, they were just like, okay, what other anyhow,
Speaker 1: and they kept talking, so I didn't bring it up again.
Speaker 1: I just kind of get that to myself. So I
Speaker 1: welcome back to the whole earning my wings and the banners,
Speaker 1: because it actually did happen that I want to cover
Speaker 1: something first before I talk about those banners. Okay, here's
Speaker 1: where it gets done. Nineteen ninety five, I went around
Speaker 1: being study que I had the opportunity to travel with
Speaker 1: the colleague from work to her home, which was Czechoslovakia.
Speaker 1: I mean, now it's the Czech repnflict that that then
Speaker 1: it was Czechoslovakia, and I didn't speak a word of
Speaker 1: the Czech language to the court. She was my translator,
Speaker 1: et cetera. Was a wonderful trip, wonderful experience. That one
Speaker 1: night I went with her and a group of her
Speaker 1: friends were getting together this one lady's apartment, so I
Speaker 1: went along and they were all chatting away and anty down,
Speaker 1: and then my friend went translate what was going on.
Speaker 1: And at one point the lady, the owner of the apartment,
Speaker 1: brought out a dunch of drawings. They were basically like doodles,
Speaker 1: kind of just scriggles and doodles and nothing like, not
Speaker 1: like she's drawing a tree or building. There were more doodles,
Speaker 1: and she's showing her trends and she's got them laid
Speaker 1: out on the table, and my friend translates that this lady,
Speaker 1: while she talks to title on the phone, she just
Speaker 1: gets the urge to doodle. She knows they mean something
Speaker 1: that she doesn't know what. So my friend kid's talking
Speaker 1: to everyone else in check and I'm looking at this
Speaker 1: one drawing and something catches my eye and I'm saying
Speaker 1: to my friend, oh, look, well look here. I mean,
Speaker 1: I see this person and they're standing here, and now
Speaker 1: I see this, and the words just flow. The more
Speaker 1: I talk, the more I saw, And my friend is
Speaker 1: rapidly translating to her friend who's donning her hand, and
Speaker 1: I just keep talking and then it's like that's what
Speaker 1: I see. And then she puts another one in front
Speaker 1: of me and nod onto her hands. So I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: So I look at the doodle and again something catches
Speaker 1: my eye and I just start talking about what I see,
Speaker 1: and it's the theme is all people that they're dealing
Speaker 1: with situations, whatever, and they're at an intense they're at
Speaker 1: a point where they need to make a decision and
Speaker 1: that'll take okay, you know what direction they're gonna go.
Speaker 1: Pretty significant stuff that that's kind of the thing of
Speaker 1: everything I was seeing and dying the fourth one, I
Speaker 1: kind of stopped and looked at my friend. It's like,
Speaker 1: what's going on? And my friend tells me that I
Speaker 1: am describing exactly what's going on in each of those
Speaker 1: store people's lives, which blew me away. There's no way
Speaker 1: I could have known. And in a different country they're
Speaker 1: speaking of different language. What was this all about. The
Speaker 1: lady then hands me another one, another drying, and she's
Speaker 1: tapping it and smiling and saying please please. So it's like, okay,
Speaker 1: So I'm looking at at this and the drawing was
Speaker 1: like a giant X that really wide, and in the
Speaker 1: very center on the X was a small box and
Speaker 1: in the docks what I could see was a little
Speaker 1: stick tigger and one arm was reaching up towards the
Speaker 1: upper right cross of the X. That that makes sense,
Speaker 1: and the other arm was reaching down towards the left
Speaker 1: hand side, the bottom lying on the X. That that
Speaker 1: makes sense. And I looked at it and it's like, okay,
Speaker 1: this person is having to make a major decision now
Speaker 1: if you look, if they decide to go and towards
Speaker 1: this upper carniv X, their journey initially isn't going to
Speaker 1: be smooth. That once they get past that little bit
Speaker 1: of you know, rocky times, it's going to be really good.
Speaker 1: If they choose this path, it's going to work out
Speaker 1: really well and they are going to be so happy
Speaker 1: that it's not going to be easy. Actor it's going
Speaker 1: to be a little rock that then it's going to
Speaker 1: be smooth sailing. Now, looking down at this and their choice,
Speaker 1: it winds, I said, it's going to look really easy,
Speaker 1: really nice. Really oh yeah, this is what's meant to be.
Speaker 1: I said that it's a rap because if you look
Speaker 1: further down it is so dark. So scriggled in, I said,
Speaker 1: do not do not need this choice, because it'll look
Speaker 1: really easy and very welcoming. That then it's going to
Speaker 1: get darkly quick, and you're going to get destroyed. And
Speaker 1: the lady started crying because this was her doodle that
Speaker 1: she felt compelled to draw one night. And again I
Speaker 1: didn't know what was going on, so my friend translated.
Speaker 1: Of course, she was translating everything I was saying. And
Speaker 1: then the lady told her what was going on, and
Speaker 1: she translated to me like she had been. There was
Speaker 1: a group of self proclaimed witches who wanted her. They
Speaker 1: recognized her gifts, and they really wanted her to join
Speaker 1: their group.
Speaker 3: I don't know what you.
Speaker 1: Call a group of witches. That they were, you know,
Speaker 1: really lovely teetle and they really wanted they were really
Speaker 1: I guess containing her. I can't pick up and take
Speaker 1: a word right now, that really encouraging her to join them.
Speaker 1: She was leary and actually was starting to look into
Speaker 1: joining a church, a non denominational church, and pursuing more
Speaker 1: towards God, and maybe her gifts were more from God
Speaker 1: that she just wasn't sure because she didn't have good
Speaker 1: experiences in the task with churches that this was a
Speaker 1: non denominational one. So she was struggling which way to go,
Speaker 1: and she gazed on what I said She's like, oh
Speaker 1: my gosh, I'm going to follow the church. I was
Speaker 1: blown away. Nothing like this has been online radar. I
Speaker 1: neither did the Weedy Doors anything like this, So I
Speaker 1: just didn't know what to say. It was at that
Speaker 1: point that I started to really feel darning on the
Speaker 1: middle of my forehand. It was really uncomfortable, and I
Speaker 1: said that to my friend and the lady that was
Speaker 1: doing the drawings. She immediately kissed my forehand and it
Speaker 1: went away. So again, at the time, I just didn't
Speaker 1: know what to think about it at all. I also
Speaker 1: didn't know anything about chakras or crown chakra, which I'll
Speaker 1: get to later on. So yeah, after that we walked home.
Speaker 1: My trend who I traveled with her and her friends
Speaker 1: are just chattering into kind of like walking and trying
Speaker 1: me down all this, and I just walked quietly behind.
Speaker 1: I just yeah, I didn't know what to say, and
Speaker 1: I didn't talk about it at all when we got back.
Speaker 1: I think it was three months later when I myself,
Speaker 1: I work in an outreach clinic, so setter from the
Speaker 1: Name center where this friend I traveled with work. So
Speaker 1: I work in a community about yeah, fourteen minutes away.
Speaker 1: From the name Center. Anyhow, I was in the outreach
Speaker 1: clinic and a nether colleague I worked with. She was
Speaker 1: the intant development I work a lot with her on
Speaker 1: actually a tired speech language pathologists working with little kids
Speaker 1: special needs finarily, so I actually stared with her and
Speaker 1: she's the only person I have shared about what happened
Speaker 1: yeah on my trip, And she got all excited. She
Speaker 1: leapsed into her double bag and told out a tear
Speaker 1: of track dance that had a bleach mark on it.
Speaker 1: Apparently she had she was cleaning her bathroom, knailing on
Speaker 1: the tile, still simply, and this mark got on her
Speaker 1: track pants and it was the exact imprint of an
Speaker 1: intense quote. And of course she's taking there, must see
Speaker 1: something do this because she works with intents. So she
Speaker 1: was asking me if I could do a reading for her.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, this isn't a doodle. It's a bleach mark.
Speaker 1: Like I can't do, Like it's not the same that
Speaker 1: you know. She was like, no, no, no, just look
Speaker 1: at it and see if there's anything you can see
Speaker 1: the other thing. I said, Well, this isn't it. I
Speaker 1: do see something. I know you I kind of know
Speaker 1: what's going on in your world, So that's gonna mess
Speaker 1: things out, so and that Nope, she was really insistent.
Speaker 1: I thought, okay, So I looked at this bleach mark,
Speaker 1: and again I'm drawn to something in the in the
Speaker 1: gym scene. I can't tell you what. I'm just drawn
Speaker 1: to something. And I said, okay, well, hm, I see
Speaker 1: a little face here and it's looking angry. And then
Speaker 1: I just started talking again. I was staying on about
Speaker 1: something that was going on in her world. That I
Speaker 1: had no idea, not a clue, that this situation was happening,
Speaker 1: and that if she had something to do with her
Speaker 1: son and his new girlfriend, and she needed to her
Speaker 1: and husband needed to change change how they approached the
Speaker 1: girlfriend and dealt with her. If they didn't, it was
Speaker 1: gonna push her son away. That if they did things
Speaker 1: a little differently, and was really going to bring them
Speaker 1: together as a very strong Stanly unit going forward again,
Speaker 1: honor the blue. No idea, and I was daying on
Speaker 1: and this was a bitch mark, not a doodle.
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Speaker 1: So now afterwards, I really didn't know what to think
Speaker 1: about the soul. Now I do believe in God. I
Speaker 1: don't go to any church or anything that I do
Speaker 1: to believe in gone. And I'm like praying to Hill
Speaker 1: going or he heard them that who knows, saying Okay,
Speaker 1: I trust that this is a gift from you because
Speaker 1: it's all the stuff I've done. It was sertito. Yeah,
Speaker 1: basically we're at a point and in Tats, I keep
Speaker 1: using that word. They needed incarnation to help them make
Speaker 1: quote unquote the right decision, the death decision. And so
Speaker 1: I'm really you know, I paid, I said, listen, if
Speaker 1: they get discern you, I want to use it correctly,
Speaker 1: use it when it's needed. I'm not gonna approach a
Speaker 1: person and say, hey, do you want a doodle something
Speaker 1: corney and then I can tell you, you know, no,
Speaker 1: if someone needs help and I'm the one that can
Speaker 1: help them direct computing. I don't feel comfort go going
Speaker 1: out there and you know, looking for people and forcing
Speaker 1: things on them. If they're not read for the message,
Speaker 1: then no, I really feel if it's meant to be,
Speaker 1: then they're ready for the message. It'll happen. So that's
Speaker 1: kind of where I left that that it did. The
Speaker 1: whole greeting thing, reading of doodles or just readings does
Speaker 1: come back, and it's happening currently that I'll get to that. Okay,
Speaker 1: now I think next I'll talk about and this is
Speaker 1: again going back to the pre cognition possibility. This ay
Speaker 1: ages twelve to thirty two. I've always had vivid dreams.
Speaker 1: There's junk dreams. I call them junk dreams, which I
Speaker 1: just read playing it's in pieces on your day shows
Speaker 1: you see thanks to you left sand that. Then there's
Speaker 1: the real vivid. There's meaning behind this dream and one
Speaker 1: that me occurred over I'm older, bring inches twelve to
Speaker 1: thirty two. When's me trying to walk, I'm not scared.
Speaker 1: I'm not running away that It's like I'm walking to
Speaker 1: water that's up to my thighs. So you're trying to
Speaker 1: move douter that you can't because of the drag of
Speaker 1: the water. It's really slowing you down and it's exhausting.
Speaker 1: Now again, I'm not scared, I'm not trying to run away.
Speaker 1: That it's really hard to walk, dastard to two thousand
Speaker 1: and four. So we're talking what ten years more than
Speaker 1: ten years nineteen seventy five to ninetythis I had these dreams.
Speaker 1: In two thousand and four, I got definitively diagnosed with
Speaker 1: degenerative neuro muscular disorder that affects it's really rare, of
Speaker 1: course it is, and it's called oculothyngeal distal muscular districty
Speaker 1: and you can hear it now in my speech being slurred,
Speaker 1: that it affects all your voluntary they progressively become weaker
Speaker 1: and weaker. It's slow progressing jippy. That no treatment, so
Speaker 1: where there's little to no research, and as I started
Speaker 1: losing next day, that's exactly what I felt like walking
Speaker 1: through thiney water. The horney try, the more exhausted you get,
Speaker 1: you can do nothing about it. That's exactly what it
Speaker 1: was like. So yay or quick que cognitive dreams. I
Speaker 1: knew what was coming. So the dreams are trying to
Speaker 1: get to thinety water. Let's start around nineteen ninety five.
Speaker 1: And then they changed. Yeah, then started My dreams are
Speaker 1: no longer me walking and all that me floating, just
Speaker 1: floating about the forests around our farm. Yeah, they really
Speaker 1: gently floating above fields and task yours and new was well.
Speaker 1: What I found was if I, in my dream tried
Speaker 1: to direct where I was going, I started to lose altitude.
Speaker 1: As soon as I stopped thinking, oh, I really want
Speaker 1: to go over there, I really want to go over
Speaker 1: here and just let myself float, whether I get taken
Speaker 1: and just enjoy the ride, I went gain altitude and
Speaker 1: continue floating around. That was like really consistent. As soon
Speaker 1: as I tried to take control and direct, I'd start
Speaker 1: losing altitude. And I really thought about that, and my
Speaker 1: interpretation is more spiritual that if I just let God
Speaker 1: directly and you know, as opportunities come up though, take
Speaker 1: them and if it works, it works, that's where I'm entity.
Speaker 1: If something is real struggle then means I'm not supposed
Speaker 1: to do this. So that's kind of how I interpreted
Speaker 1: when my dream started to change that way, that you know,
Speaker 1: if I to just trust that I'm doing the right
Speaker 1: thing and just keep going the direction you're being directed.
Speaker 1: That makes sense then, So that was yeah, during moving on,
Speaker 1: and this is where it starts getting interesting with the
Speaker 1: whole earning my wings. A little bit after sis is
Speaker 1: again age study two, I had traveled to the Czech Retuggle,
Speaker 1: et cetera. My dream started to change. They were those
Speaker 1: nice floating dreams. And then instead of the whole losing
Speaker 1: altitude because I was trying to direct where I wanted
Speaker 1: to go, I was having struggle loading up de console
Speaker 1: quote unquote power lines nine nine three. These were real
Speaker 1: high dud electric tower lines. I was either trying to
Speaker 1: avoid running in them into them as I floaded up,
Speaker 1: or I once about them. This should be trying to
Speaker 1: avoid using altitude and kidding these tower lines. Now the
Speaker 1: interpretation these tower lines equate to tito in power dang on.
Speaker 1: So this was between the ages of twenty nine and
Speaker 1: thirty five, so nineteen ninety two to nineteen ninety eight.
Speaker 1: What happened. This was the job at the Senate. I again,
Speaker 1: I was in the outreach clinic, only went in to
Speaker 1: the main center once a week to do administrative take
Speaker 1: to work, meet with my supervisor, et cetera, et cetera.
Speaker 1: All good, happy, happy, great staff. It was around sending
Speaker 1: the title work there, all good, no issues. Then what
Speaker 1: happened once the gentleman I worked with off and on
Speaker 1: in my outreach center. He was the chief stewart of
Speaker 1: our union. We didn't have any issues that I knew
Speaker 1: about that. He asked you at one point if I
Speaker 1: would be the assistant chief steward so that he wasn't
Speaker 1: able to make meetings or et cetera. Languid Dylan, and
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I didn't really know what it
Speaker 1: all meant. Well, subsequently, a couple months after that, he
Speaker 1: went the center, so I immediately became chief stewart. That
Speaker 1: big deal. So I when I went into the center
Speaker 1: of the one day week name center, I normally do
Speaker 1: the CEO on the organization and I worked for asked
Speaker 1: to meet with me and so no com Now I've
Speaker 1: always been until the Pauliana person still kind of am.
Speaker 1: I truly believe there's good and everyone and if they
Speaker 1: are nasty or something that happens, there's a good reason,
Speaker 1: you know, because down to the core they're really not
Speaker 1: damn people they just you know, they find a dwn
Speaker 1: time and that's figure it out and it's all good.
Speaker 1: Well braah rah. Well yeah, Unfortunately I that kind of
Speaker 1: got shattered because I ended up dealing with people that
Speaker 1: just when mean and nasty, dedictive, controlling, love to manipulate
Speaker 1: others to do their dirty work kind of people. And
Speaker 1: that's what I ended up dealing with. My first dealing
Speaker 1: with the CEO, he right away said if any staff
Speaker 1: mender coaches me with issues that I'm not to report
Speaker 1: to the union to We talked to him and he
Speaker 1: would deal with those staff members and I n easy
Speaker 1: was like, no, you know, that's not how it works.
Speaker 1: I mean, they talk to me and if it's a
Speaker 1: work related to that we can't resolved, then of course
Speaker 1: we might have to include the union that you know,
Speaker 1: we all work together, happy happy No. I was told
Speaker 1: that right that I was never to do that, no
Speaker 1: union adulment, keep things under the table, which I didn't
Speaker 1: because that's not what to do. Long in short, I
Speaker 1: became a target undenounced to me. Apparently the CEO and
Speaker 1: the on the six department heads had been doing misappropriating
Speaker 1: funds that was meant for the center. And I guess yeah,
Speaker 1: doing some illegal things that they thought I knew about,
Speaker 1: And so I became the focal point of their attacks.
Speaker 1: They were harassing me horridly doing you know, trying to
Speaker 1: wound my reputation and studying rumors and convincing other staff
Speaker 1: lenders because the department hands were really good putting on
Speaker 1: the act and crying during staff meetings, telling all the
Speaker 1: staffers that I was this horrible person bringing down the center.
Speaker 1: They were at a loss to what to do with me,
Speaker 1: and thu blah bah. So I started getting calls at
Speaker 1: home from staffers who were really angry, telling me I
Speaker 1: needed to quit, that how could I do this to
Speaker 1: the center, how could I destroy it? Now? I couldn't
Speaker 1: say anything because there was an investigation going on, just
Speaker 1: I didn't know about the money that I was told
Speaker 1: that I couldn't share any sort of things that are
Speaker 1: going on, just to stay quiet that it was deemed
Speaker 1: dealt with. So all I can say to the stats was,
Speaker 1: you know, when the truth comes out, it's really gonna
Speaker 1: hurt hang in there. I can't say much that just
Speaker 1: need to take that it's not going to be nice
Speaker 1: when the truth comes out, and took a while that
Speaker 1: it did. All those staff members, the determined heads and
Speaker 1: the CEO, they did get tired. They had to deal
Speaker 1: with the judicial system. When the anger trade that came
Speaker 1: to the Senate, he was really angry because I guess
Speaker 1: the enount that he did allowed to go on that
Speaker 1: hadn't been a dressed earlier. He was really angry about it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: they had to bring in debating counselors because the staff
Speaker 1: were understandingly very angry because they didn't like to they've
Speaker 1: been used. When you get that mixture of people who
Speaker 1: are like, no, no, no, there's no way I there's
Speaker 1: no way I could have been hundling. Yeah you were. Yeah,
Speaker 1: So my little light to expose their darkness kind of
Speaker 1: hearkens back to what that gentleman said in the bookstore.
Speaker 1: I won't deny that it totally. It did shadowy. It
Speaker 1: was really a hard wake up call that there are
Speaker 1: nasty people out there. So, yeah, tough time. Then we
Speaker 1: got to it now. During all of that, all the
Speaker 1: stuff going on in the center, my original department can
Speaker 1: she was really young. She supported me in that she
Speaker 1: was up against the wall with all the deader department cans.
Speaker 1: She actually ended up quitting. So her new atartment head
Speaker 1: was draught on and she was really I mean, obviously
Speaker 1: she was told I so congment that she needed to
Speaker 1: monitor me really closely, so I had to be getter
Speaker 1: than perfect with all my taperwork, et cetera. Now she
Speaker 1: had been I hadn't met her yet. It was her
Speaker 1: first week at the job. Anyhow, one night I had
Speaker 1: a dream and this was one of mine. Did the
Speaker 1: dream to precognitive, I guess. So I was seeing this
Speaker 1: inside this very tall kind of like a tower building,
Speaker 1: and I was sloathing floating us to these serious rooms,
Speaker 1: and behind me, underneath me, I could hear a very angry,
Speaker 1: gnarling dog that's chasing me. Now I feel really comfortable
Speaker 1: that I'm I'm gone with the aim to get out
Speaker 1: of this tower, this building, and everything's gonna be okay.
Speaker 1: Then I feel a tug on my hand and I
Speaker 1: look down and I see this woman looking up the
Speaker 1: me with this terrified base and I'm telling her, hey,
Speaker 1: it's okay, just keep holding my hand. We're gonna get out,
Speaker 1: We're gonna be safe. The next scene, her and I
Speaker 1: are standing outside of this tower and we can still
Speaker 1: hear the snarling dog running up the stairs, and she's
Speaker 1: hiding behind me on my arms up, protecting her, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, it's okay, You're gonna be okay, it's all safe.
Speaker 1: The next scene, the snarling dog is gone and it's
Speaker 1: actually was my CEO, and he's walking away from us,
Speaker 1: holding the hand of another name, and my thoughts are, oh,
Speaker 1: thank goodness, now he's going to be happy. That one's
Speaker 1: the dream. I will up to that, going, huh, that's more.
Speaker 1: In two days, I'm in the center on my one
Speaker 1: day and I'm scheduled to meet my new supervisor. I
Speaker 1: walk in the office and I nearly throw up. It's
Speaker 1: the baby from my dream.
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Speaker 1: And that's when I knew, okay, it's all gonna work out.
Speaker 1: It's all gonna be okay. Now. Subsequently, this new supervisor, Yeah,
Speaker 1: she really wrote me hard. I had to better than perfect.
Speaker 1: That she wasn't finding money, godless, this woman, she wasn't
Speaker 1: finding any problems. So she really started doing her own investigating.
Speaker 1: And that's when she's like, wait a minute, this is
Speaker 1: all lies. So one day, Hanna and the Young Witch
Speaker 1: clinic and I get this phone call and it's her
Speaker 1: and she is terrified. She's locked in her office. She's
Speaker 1: telling me that the tartment hands and the CEO are
Speaker 1: walking back and forth in front of her window because
Speaker 1: she just confronted them saying that all the accusations against
Speaker 1: me are lies, that she's not going to do their
Speaker 1: dirty work, that she thinks something various is going on
Speaker 1: and she's not going to be part of it. Now
Speaker 1: she's in the crosshairs of these twopartment hands. She is
Speaker 1: scared and she doesn't know what to do. So I
Speaker 1: took her down from the lanch and we got her
Speaker 1: out of the office that day with someone safe, because
Speaker 1: she was really scared. Anyhow, she was the catalyst that
Speaker 1: really brought the whole case together because she had been
Speaker 1: part of the group for a short period of time,
Speaker 1: so she was an insider. So when the case all
Speaker 1: came the door ardituration, et cetera, she was really keyed
Speaker 1: to what happened on the you know, getting resolved, et cetera.
Speaker 1: So then again on the last part on that dream,
Speaker 1: the general then the CEO came from a very strict
Speaker 1: religious family, and it was after all this stuff at
Speaker 1: the center and him getting fired that he actually came
Speaker 1: out of the closet. He moved further west with his
Speaker 1: boyfriend and Gayton the business together, and I guess he's
Speaker 1: never been happier. Kind of blew everyone out of the
Speaker 1: longer I had no clue, and yeah, so there you go.
Speaker 1: Yeah I love James, I really did.
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Speaker 1: Dreams Changing. We're now year two thousand occurring. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: then dreams are definitely they Yeah, they started changing. I'm
Speaker 1: no longer dealing with the power lines like I haven't
Speaker 1: worked since nineteen ninety seven, no longer with the center,
Speaker 1: so I'm away from all. Huh So around two thousand,
Speaker 1: my day dreams are no longer dealing with power lines.
Speaker 1: That I'm still in a building that I'm trying to
Speaker 1: get out of. I'm not scared now, I'm hunting or
Speaker 1: not walking that I'm hunting around looking for an exit,
Speaker 1: a door or a window that I can get out
Speaker 1: on so I can be free, I can breathe, i
Speaker 1: can be outside. Yeah, I see an exit that it's
Speaker 1: just too slow. And then things started to change because
Speaker 1: I realized I could actually touch through a window. Like
Speaker 1: the window would be like a bumble, I could push
Speaker 1: through it. Not good the window that I could with
Speaker 1: the little effort, I could get to the window by
Speaker 1: touching to it, and then I could be I'm outside,
Speaker 1: or I mean a much larger building that I have
Speaker 1: a lot more freedom to move around the way I feel.
Speaker 1: The meaning behind the dream is that I'm no longer
Speaker 1: confined to an institution, confined to Yeah, just confined to
Speaker 1: These are the rules you must solve these rules, these
Speaker 1: guidelines that I'm a lot, I have a lot more
Speaker 1: freedom to d me not d whatever keitle are dictating
Speaker 1: I need to be. Now, when I think get outside,
Speaker 1: I'm find I'm hungering around. You know those eight chairs
Speaker 1: from the sixties, Well, it's like an eight chair that
Speaker 1: the deck is only halfway up and it's silverere. I
Speaker 1: actually hunt the color, hungering around on this on this
Speaker 1: hunter chair. The one I find really interesting now is
Speaker 1: when I hovered, when I was like in the task
Speaker 1: over the trees and if I try to control it
Speaker 1: and lose altitude, and when I was hunding in feather
Speaker 1: trees and just let it take you where I want
Speaker 1: I do. I was always hidden from people, and I
Speaker 1: wanted to be hidden. I didn't want them to see
Speaker 1: what I was doing. I didn't want to scare them
Speaker 1: or treak them out, like beause this is kind of
Speaker 1: an unusual thing that you're able to floaw the down trees,
Speaker 1: and so that this time while I'm hunting, people can
Speaker 1: see me and they don't care. They're not freaking out,
Speaker 1: they're not making a big deal on it or questioning it.
Speaker 1: They're just accepting it. Some people are smiling as they
Speaker 1: see me do this amazing thing floating around. It's accepted
Speaker 1: my interpretation. The gifts meeting me where I was really
Speaker 1: hesitant with this whole needing thing because it's really unusual.
Speaker 1: I don't know where it's coming. It's coming from a
Speaker 1: higher source. I don't want to draw attention. I don't
Speaker 1: like attention. That was when I was originally huddering. Now
Speaker 1: I'm a lot more comfortable with it. I don't mind
Speaker 1: people knowing about it. Some people are smiling that maybe
Speaker 1: they are going to approaching they need help. That's kind
Speaker 1: of what my feelings are with that. So this whole
Speaker 1: diagnosis that I have the oculotor angeo istal muscular distridy,
Speaker 1: what's weird. There's no history in my family. I do
Speaker 1: not have the genetic marker. Yet all the symptoms, the
Speaker 1: muscle diapsies, they're dang on with this disorder. When I
Speaker 1: was going through all the horrible stuff at the center,
Speaker 1: I mean, it destroyed my gut because I was under
Speaker 1: a lot of stress, kept on the happy, happy face
Speaker 1: because I couldn't see, couldn't let them see they're again
Speaker 1: to me, So yeah, it did affect me physically and emostionally.
Speaker 1: The gut is the lot of natural tassels, say, is
Speaker 1: the your brain actually and it chellnically will tell the
Speaker 1: drain what the body needs. So it tells Dane, okay,
Speaker 1: you need you are this, you need you are that.
Speaker 1: So then the drains the engine and delivers what needs
Speaker 1: to go were. It really makes you wonder this whole
Speaker 1: wonderful thing I have when it's because it attacks like
Speaker 1: so if anyone out there knows how to fix that,
Speaker 1: I'd love to hear them. Okay next Living born twenty
Speaker 1: twenty two February. To preface this again, is this precognition
Speaker 1: and I getting intonation? I am not a reader? Never happened.
Speaker 1: Maybe eight years of university killed out that the only
Speaker 1: sound reading exhausting, even like a really good dog. I
Speaker 1: love it that like one chapter in. Honestly, I don't
Speaker 1: know if my imagination gets detor of me and my
Speaker 1: drain gets worked too much that reading has never then
Speaker 1: pleasurable because it it exhausts me. I can't say really,
Speaker 1: I mean, JR. Token, I've read that the people will
Speaker 1: talk about their day that authors and I don't have any.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, but yeah, they're the way. In twenty twenty two,
Speaker 1: I had a really did odd gene for me, one
Speaker 1: that actually I felt for the first time other I
Speaker 1: felt compelled to immediately write it down. So I gone
Speaker 1: up and I wrote down the content of the dream,
Speaker 1: and the words kept coming, and they kept coming. I
Speaker 1: ended up writing a novel in a month, and like,
Speaker 1: just all these thoughts came in my head and like
Speaker 1: I really up to two in the morning and it's like,
Speaker 1: oh no, there's more into Okay, I'll write that down.
Speaker 1: And I got it all written down because I needed
Speaker 1: it out of my hand, like it was just constantly there.
Speaker 1: Got it all went down, thought okay, great, done, I'm done. Yay,
Speaker 1: I got it all out right, I'm done, right, dang it.
Speaker 1: I get another did dream. Second novel gets written again
Speaker 1: because I'm not a writer, I don't like it again.
Speaker 1: I get another divided dream, A long and short. I've
Speaker 1: written three. They're kind of on the verge of novel novel.
Speaker 1: Never in a million years did I either think on
Speaker 1: my bucket list I would write a novel, let alone three.
Speaker 1: I had a couple of people look at it. One
Speaker 1: once that Ian Ferguson, he's the winner on the Mee
Speaker 1: Cowk Award. He's written a couple of books and he
Speaker 1: read it, read my first novel and he's like, this
Speaker 1: is good. You need to work on editing it. And
Speaker 1: so where is his coming from? I don't know that.
Speaker 1: It's like young adult speculatives. I sigh, really positive, encouraging
Speaker 1: kind of stuff, not dark that. Yeah, so that's got
Speaker 1: my head scratching. The there you go now connecting. And
Speaker 1: this is where you come in, Nick, because in one's
Speaker 1: August twenty twenty three that I was getting money to
Speaker 1: Dan and I was, yes, you know, Google left here
Speaker 1: play BBC podcast. Well misunderstood me, which it does quite often,
Speaker 1: and it said UFO Chronicles podcast playing, and it played
Speaker 1: one of your episodes and I was hooked. And anyhow
Speaker 1: I listened two a couple on the episodes and one
Speaker 1: don't wonder who it was that they indicated that they
Speaker 1: reached out too, you know, they said something to get
Speaker 1: down to the beings who are out there, who loved
Speaker 1: the protecting, you know, they wanted to make a connection.
Speaker 1: So I thought, what the heck? Oh sorry, Now I
Speaker 1: pray that I've never done in meditation. At this point,
Speaker 1: I didn't know about chakras or any of that, so
Speaker 1: I'm kind of naive on that side of the world
Speaker 1: that I thought i'd try. I said, okay, I'm meeting
Speaker 1: out to the things out there who love me, protect me,
Speaker 1: and have my dest interests in mind. Immediately I had
Speaker 1: burning at the center top of my crown. I don't
Speaker 1: get bankings. I rarely get headaches. This is out of
Speaker 1: the bay on dying away. Well, I've been talking to
Speaker 1: you this whole time. It's been burning real good, so
Speaker 1: that's kind of shocking. And I said, okay, if that
Speaker 1: is you, can you please stop the burning? And it stopped,
Speaker 1: and I'm I'm a logical person. I'm like, okay, am
Speaker 1: I leading into this? So I said, okay, if that
Speaker 1: is you, I'm going to ask again if it's you,
Speaker 1: do the guilt the dirn. I'm feeling a good and
Speaker 1: it started durning and Nick, it's not a light dirn,
Speaker 1: like it's a dern, and it feels like it goes
Speaker 1: from the center of my head down around three inchance
Speaker 1: maybe is kind of where it stays. Again, nothing like
Speaker 1: this has ever happened, and I still struggle with it,
Speaker 1: like it's in two years on. I ask for guidance,
Speaker 1: like what does this mean? One of my stolls to
Speaker 1: do with this is this energy? Like am I supposed
Speaker 1: to direct it somewhere? And so how I mean? I'm
Speaker 1: not hearing voices, I can't say anything necessarily in my dreams.
Speaker 1: And the journey is four seven like sometimes it's not there.
Speaker 1: When it's not there, as soon as I ask to connect, boom,
Speaker 1: it's immediately there. I thought. You know, of course we're thinking,
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, if this energy you're sending me, can
Speaker 1: heal me? Please direct it where it needs to go. Well,
Speaker 1: un torch Leeds did two years and I continue to decline.
Speaker 1: Dang it. So I continually ask for guidance. What's the turkois?
Speaker 1: Because this is really un anomaly and I sometimes so
Speaker 1: I say, okay, I can feel the presence the darning.
Speaker 1: Then it changes to like a light tingling, cooling tingling
Speaker 1: feeling that kind of rolls totally across my thought that
Speaker 1: I had down towards my ears. It's doing that right now,
Speaker 1: like a cool tingling sensation. Yeah, what it's doore, I
Speaker 1: don't know. And then again I have no idea who
Speaker 1: to reach out to Tony that he can should. I
Speaker 1: more intimation about it because I don't want to just
Speaker 1: sit here passively. I'd like to be more active and
Speaker 1: what's going on. I want If there's something, I'd like
Speaker 1: to use it for good I don't know, like channeling,
Speaker 1: and it's for what turpiss like for these doodle things. Now,
Speaker 1: with all that something which started early twenty twenty four,
Speaker 1: so until the year into when this unknowing you want
Speaker 1: to call it connection things happened. It's just before I
Speaker 1: wake up, so I'm not quite fully awake that I'm awake,
Speaker 1: you know, can't You're in that in between thing, and
Speaker 1: I feel really light headed, like I'm floding. That it
Speaker 1: feels like I'm floding halfway out of my body. That
Speaker 1: sounds really weird when I say it out loud. They Yet,
Speaker 1: I'm very aware of my body. I can feel it
Speaker 1: on the mattress, can wiggle my toes, I'm touching my fingers.
Speaker 1: I can check my breathing because I'm thinking, Okay, you're
Speaker 1: life headed. Are you not breathing deeply? No? My breathing
Speaker 1: is easy and smooth, So I'm like, okay, is this
Speaker 1: astro projection, because I've heard that on your podcast. If
Speaker 1: this is you know, the things that are reaching out
Speaker 1: that I trust guide me, Let's see where this is going. Like,
Speaker 1: I'm not scared, I'm intrigued. I really want to take
Speaker 1: this further. So I'm saying, okay, I'm curious, like you know,
Speaker 1: I'm with you, I trust you guide me. And it'll
Speaker 1: last anywhere from two to five minutes and either I
Speaker 1: you know, it's interrupted because my dog's darker cat jumps
Speaker 1: on me, or it just stads away again. I'd say
Speaker 1: this happens really once every one to two months. That
Speaker 1: it's never gone any further than that feeling like you're
Speaker 1: halfway on your body, and it's always just before I
Speaker 1: wake up. Also, yeah, that's way after these things started happening.
Speaker 1: This would be summer on twenty twenty four. I had
Speaker 1: never did they dream? Now? Is this wishole? Thinking that
Speaker 1: the dream was that there that is something and being
Speaker 1: something was touching the bottom of my feet were touching,
Speaker 1: putting pressure on various starts of nine feet start down
Speaker 1: thirty seconds, and then they covered my feet again with
Speaker 1: my banket gently patted nine feet and it like it
Speaker 1: felt really comforting, really like like a mom would could
Speaker 1: a blanket on the day and then you know, get
Speaker 1: the daivy a little rub down their deck and then
Speaker 1: walk away. That's exactly how it felt. And then it
Speaker 1: was done. I didn't see anything, but it felt so neal.
Speaker 1: Now again, wish for thinking on my part, because I
Speaker 1: think that'd be really cool. I don't know that I'd
Speaker 1: never had a dream like that. That one's really odd,
Speaker 1: I guess inside. Nick long and Short, thank you so
Speaker 1: much for your podcast because it was because of you
Speaker 1: and all the wonderful people that had been on that
Speaker 1: it really got me thinking about all the little things
Speaker 1: that had happened in my life that I never thought
Speaker 1: as one big picture has led me to today I'm
Speaker 1: kind of following kind of what all that's gone on,
Speaker 1: and I am starting to do reading STU people. I
Speaker 1: was also encouraged actually ended up seeing a guy that
Speaker 1: was to a friend who was a psychic reader gentleman,
Speaker 1: really sweetheart, and he also really encouraged me to start
Speaker 1: doing g being to Tito and so what I did,
Speaker 1: because I mean I did doodles and a bleach work,
Speaker 1: So I thought, okay, so I tried it down on
Speaker 1: countle friends just you know, told them on answering. I
Speaker 1: sat them to draw a tee and then I sat
Speaker 1: down with them and it worked and worked really well,
Speaker 1: and the same thing. It's tito. I've done quite a
Speaker 1: few of them now and it's all the same. They're
Speaker 1: at a point should I did? Should I did? And
Speaker 1: the words that I shared with them has given them
Speaker 1: a lot of clerity and tasted long. It's so cool.
Speaker 1: So my methods are not like other keeps or where
Speaker 1: you know, they got to tear a carns or something
Speaker 1: like that. This is a drawing and I just tell
Speaker 1: the words that come to my mind and it means
Speaker 1: something to them because of course I don't know on background. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's been a cool journey.
Speaker 3: It's been a cool journey. Wonderful stuff. Patricia, you did
Speaker 3: just great.
Speaker 1: Thank you, no I, and again thank you for the
Speaker 1: patience of your audience who with the speech nothing as
Speaker 1: clear as I'd like it to be.
Speaker 3: You did fine.
Speaker 1: I guess I just was on a role.
Speaker 3: You were on a roll exactly. You had some help there. Well,
Speaker 3: thank you for sharing all that for us. It has
Speaker 3: been certainly quite the journey for you.
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, and again, always been a caretaker kind of person,
Speaker 1: and I love it. And if I can give people,
Speaker 1: you know, the words that they're supposed to hear from
Speaker 1: whatever higher places, is coming from stuff that can help
Speaker 1: them only cow I'm in like a dirty sir.
Speaker 3: Life can be hard, and we come to some of
Speaker 3: these crossroads and we don't know what to do, We
Speaker 3: don't know which direction to go. You just kind of
Speaker 3: help people along, don't you give them the motivation and
Speaker 3: the power to do that exactly?
Speaker 1: And I mean at this point in my life I
Speaker 1: am permanently in a wheelchair and live rather isolated, which
Speaker 1: I do not mind. I love my son.
Speaker 2: You know, I still have that dirty desire to help
Speaker 2: and to help where I can't. You know, I've done
Speaker 2: readings to Zoom and stuff like that, and yeah, it
Speaker 2: feels really good.
Speaker 3: You know, I'm not going to try and pronounce that
Speaker 3: your diagnosis you've had since two thousand and four. It
Speaker 3: is indeed very rare, isn't it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, the initials are all tea as in Paul and
Speaker 1: and of course I got the extra distal part. So yeah,
Speaker 1: and again I totally get why there's little to know
Speaker 1: research because there's so few that have this. You really
Speaker 1: need those research monies to go to the diseases and
Speaker 1: disorders that are affecting a lot more people.
Speaker 3: Right, doesn't seem to have really doesn't seem to hold
Speaker 3: you back. You know, you still have a lot of drive.
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, yes, And I'll clean that on the
Speaker 1: Dutch hericage. You know, stomping.
Speaker 3: That's it, isn't it. It's you know, not giving up.
Speaker 3: You know, whatever life froze at you, you just got
Speaker 3: to keep on moving.
Speaker 1: You really do. And actually speaking on much. When I
Speaker 1: was writing the novels and reaching out to editors, I
Speaker 1: reached out to a gentleman called Stuart Ross's and he
Speaker 1: was asking about my background, and so I told them,
Speaker 1: you know, okay, well this is where I came from,
Speaker 1: this is my background, this is where I'm at. And
Speaker 1: he said, You've got a really interesting life. And the
Speaker 1: other thought, I'm writing a memoir and it's like, no,
Speaker 1: because why I'm with teeth wanna it's just boring stuff.
Speaker 1: He's like, no, because of the way I've handled grief
Speaker 1: and how I look at things, you know, how you
Speaker 1: deal with loss, And because he talked about how Tito
Speaker 1: weren't allowing him to grieve. Just get overrid or you know,
Speaker 1: come on, move on, rah rah yay, oh, come on, Tito,
Speaker 1: Tito need to gree and we all go through the
Speaker 1: stages of grief at a different rate. You need to
Speaker 1: be respected, your feelings need to be respected on how
Speaker 1: you deal with grief, and so this on and a conversation,
Speaker 1: He's like, you need to write this down because with
Speaker 1: even with all my physical loss, I was constantly okay.
Speaker 1: So I can no longer hold the garden to role.
Speaker 1: And I lived the gardening, so how can I adapt it?
Speaker 1: And I think outside the box and come up with
Speaker 1: a whole new funky way of holding garden tool so
Speaker 1: I can keep reading those dang dandelions out of my fat. Then,
Speaker 1: so thanks on that I did reather meanmoir, And it
Speaker 1: has an associated website where I have I display all
Speaker 1: the adaptations I've done as I've lost my physical strength
Speaker 1: so I can continue living in my home and so
Speaker 1: not you know, waiting for the physio and yot to
Speaker 1: come up with something. I came up with my own
Speaker 1: maguither type adaptations. And so my website is one that
Speaker 1: I encourage teitle to add to it, like if you
Speaker 1: come up with some cool trick that helps you continue
Speaker 1: to say the access your environment, tell me about it.
Speaker 1: Let's put it on the website so title can be
Speaker 1: encouraged and don't give up hope.
Speaker 3: That's what it's all about. Don't give up hope. Grief
Speaker 3: is something we all have to face at some point.
Speaker 3: But your book A Life Worth Grieving, what I'll do is, Patricia,
Speaker 3: I'll put that on the website, okay, And it's available
Speaker 3: on Amazon.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's available on Amazon, and it's a positive read.
Speaker 1: I talk about grief as a child, and you know
Speaker 1: how it's for the greether and the person standing next
Speaker 1: to the greether. I talk about karensus who needs children
Speaker 1: and the complexity of the Greek they go through, and
Speaker 1: also how you can help losing a Karen being a
Speaker 1: single mom, dying choice, and it's amazing all the done
Speaker 1: stuff that happens when you do that. But yeah, it
Speaker 1: covers the whole gamut that it's all. This is what
Speaker 1: you can do to help yourself and your friends to this.
Speaker 3: So, Paulianna, you do also have a website, So if
Speaker 3: there's anyone out there which would like a psychic reading
Speaker 3: from you. They can reach you at a message for
Speaker 3: you dot c.
Speaker 1: A yeah, and if they want to send directly like
Speaker 1: an email and Gmail, it's the same thing on message
Speaker 1: for you now at gmail dot com. So the number
Speaker 1: four the letter you and that's the word now. So
Speaker 1: a message for you now at gmail dot com.
Speaker 3: Perfect. I will put all your information below and on
Speaker 3: the website, okay, because there's a lot of people out
Speaker 3: there which are listening and they're driving, or they're they're
Speaker 3: out when they haven't got a pen or a pencil available,
Speaker 3: so I make everything available down below.
Speaker 1: Okay, awesome, I'm so excited. This is so cool.
Speaker 3: You've done just great. Was there anything in your in
Speaker 3: your family history possibly relating to any of these gifts?
Speaker 3: Did any family members ever speak of having precognition or
Speaker 3: even had the ability to do readings?
Speaker 1: No? Now, was it something they would talk about. I
Speaker 1: don't know. I mean, oh, my family is in the Netherlands,
Speaker 1: but no, I don't recall. Is it the cousins that
Speaker 1: I'm still in touch with?
Speaker 3: No, normally, or to be honest with you, it could
Speaker 3: have skipped several generations and you just maybe never heard
Speaker 3: about it. But there could well be someone and maybe
Speaker 3: just never spoke about it, kind of kept it inside,
Speaker 3: which people won't share what they these feelings and the
Speaker 3: visions maybe that they were seeing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, no, and I totally get it, and also
Speaker 1: you know their personality. Like myself, I don't like attention.
Speaker 1: It's one thing to be standing before a classroom or
Speaker 1: auditorium and weren't teaching, because I did teaching. I taught
Speaker 1: dance classes and did a lot of lectures at university
Speaker 1: and taught underground. Says that's that attention is different than
Speaker 1: the attention of oh, you have this gift and you're
Speaker 1: going to do something that can be seen as I
Speaker 1: don't know, magical under this world. It's a different type
Speaker 1: of attention.
Speaker 3: I agree, Yeah, yeah, I know exactly what you mean, Patricia.
Speaker 3: I really appreciate you coming on and sharing all that
Speaker 3: for our listeners. It's been interesting, certainly a fascinating journey
Speaker 3: for you.
Speaker 1: Yes, it has been, and it continues it continues.
Speaker 3: Indeed, Well we wish you a wonderful year ahead twenty
Speaker 3: twenty six.
Speaker 1: Okay, wonderful, Thank you and God bless you all out there. Behave, behave.
Speaker 3: The world needs to behave all right, okay, take care
Speaker 3: of yourself, Patricia, okay, and we will speak soon, ma'am.
Speaker 3: Thank you bye for now. Well that's for the first
Speaker 3: episode of Hopefully a Wonderful Year ahead. So keep yourself
Speaker 3: updated and connected with the show on x Facebook and Instagram.
Speaker 3: And if you have an encounter that you'd like to
Speaker 3: share on the podcast, you can email me at UFO
Speaker 3: Chronicles at gmail dot com, or you can reach out
Speaker 3: to me via the contact page on my website UFO
Speaker 3: Chronicles podcast dot com. A big thank you to Patricia
Speaker 3: for sharing tonight, and thank you all for listening. I
Speaker 3: will be back next week. Till then, stay safe and
Speaker 3: keep watching the skies. Goodbye to