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<v Speaker 1>My love, what are you doing? Goodness? Gracious, this place

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<v Speaker 1>looks like a pig sty. This is why you didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want me coming to visit. No, I'll get this cleaned up,

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<v Speaker 1>lickety split.

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<v Speaker 2>And what.

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<v Speaker 1>No goodness? And your food choices, these are all warm

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<v Speaker 1>uppable meals like you don't have anything in here for

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<v Speaker 1>proper cooking. Lord, six alife? Lord?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you honest? To goodness? Are you using body soap

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<v Speaker 1>for hand soap? What do you mean they were two

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<v Speaker 1>for one?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, my goodness, are you? Is that a sheet over

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<v Speaker 1>your window?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>My goodness you this doesn't work at all. God, your

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<v Speaker 1>neighbor's dog is awful. Yeappy, hey's super cute. But someone

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<v Speaker 1>needs to go give him a bone or something back

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<v Speaker 1>to you, so don't what what do you mean your

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<v Speaker 1>phone's blowing up? Well, hit mute on it. No, we

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<v Speaker 1>have a serious conversation that we need to be having here. See,

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<v Speaker 1>you have been so down in the dumps lately. You

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<v Speaker 1>allow your coworkers to treat you like trash. Your boss

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<v Speaker 1>leans on you for absolutely everything, and yet doesn't have

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<v Speaker 1>a kind word to show for it. At the very least,

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<v Speaker 1>your friends are they're they're nice, but honestly, I think

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<v Speaker 1>they would be nicer if you weren't so stressed out,

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<v Speaker 1>so you weren't so crabby around them all the time. Yeesh.

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<v Speaker 1>Then let's get to the important piece. Look at you.

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<v Speaker 1>You haven't been practicing self care, have you. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>that kind of healthcare is perfectly fine, But one of

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<v Speaker 1>the our signs of depression is not taking a bath

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<v Speaker 1>daily or shower. Yeah, and that beard, trust me. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't mind you being a fuzzy fuzzy, but it looks

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<v Speaker 1>like a kid us a US trim of dead in it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, no, no, no, no no no, I'm here. Now

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna get you properly fixed up. We're gonna get

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<v Speaker 1>your spite. Yes, we're gonna clean your Do you know

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<v Speaker 1>cleaning your house isn't as much to do with cleanliness

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<v Speaker 1>as you think. I mean it does. Cleanliness is great,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want vermin in here. But the space where

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<v Speaker 1>you work, and you work from home, or rather you

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<v Speaker 1>spend a lot of time at home as well, the

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<v Speaker 1>space in which you work is a reflection, and you

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<v Speaker 1>spend those times as a reflection of your mental state.

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<v Speaker 1>All this stuff cluttered up here is representative of what's

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<v Speaker 1>going on in your mind. You don't realize how much

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<v Speaker 1>luder you'll feel if you just blitz crak clean your

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<v Speaker 1>room and you'll see, Well, you remember that last time

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<v Speaker 1>I came over and cleaned, you said for like two

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<v Speaker 1>three weeks afterwards you felt so much better. I saw

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<v Speaker 1>you brighten up. We begin to go have more fun

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<v Speaker 1>and whatnot. So yeah, that's exactly what I'm gonna do.

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna clean your room and then we'll sit down,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe we'll watch Uh you know, I've been meaning to

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<v Speaker 1>bet binge Big Bang theory for a while. The whole

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<v Speaker 1>universe is ana hot. Didn't say, oh, fourteen billion years ago,

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<v Speaker 1>expansion started by the Earth begin to cool, the Autochros

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<v Speaker 1>begin to drill knee they built the Sorry I got

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<v Speaker 1>I got a little bit lost in it. What what?

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<v Speaker 1>What Penny's hot? Oh No, I love all the like

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<v Speaker 1>geeky stuff that they get in on. I'm like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, crap, I'm one of them. Aren't that

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<v Speaker 1>why I don't really dress like one of the geeks.

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<v Speaker 1>But uh, what I'm just saying, what did you call

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<v Speaker 1>me last time? You called me a lipstick geek? All right,

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<v Speaker 1>So we're gonna ask some new rules. I'm gonna check

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<v Speaker 1>in with you and I don't. We're gonna get your

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<v Speaker 1>water and take up too. All I want you to

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<v Speaker 1>do is drink two glasses of water from now. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna check it on you in the morning, and then

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<v Speaker 1>for that, I'm gonna check it in the morning for

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<v Speaker 1>a shower. You're gonnake a shower, start your day. Then

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<v Speaker 1>I will check in on your beard weekly, then once

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<v Speaker 1>or maybe twice a week. We're gonna go twice. In

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<v Speaker 1>the beginning, we're gonna have you spot clean. Just take

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<v Speaker 1>all the trash out, dishes go into the dishwasher, and

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<v Speaker 1>clothes go over to the laundry area.

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<v Speaker 3>That's it.

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<v Speaker 1>And then we're also going to already that's why your

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<v Speaker 1>phone is blowing up. I blocked all of your ex's

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<v Speaker 1>and just people in your life who aren't nice to you.

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<v Speaker 1>We can start letting some of them back in once

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<v Speaker 1>we get you to a better headspace. What do you

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<v Speaker 1>mean listen here, you haven't been taking care of yourself

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<v Speaker 1>and as your girlfriend. Girlfriend, Yes, I decided I'm your girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm no longer just a friend of yours. I have

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<v Speaker 1>loved you for long enough, and so no one's got

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<v Speaker 1>to take care of you. And if I'm already doing

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<v Speaker 1>quite a bit to take care of you anyways, and

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<v Speaker 1>I love you and I want nothing more than to

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<v Speaker 1>get you nice, rat and tat, so you can feel

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<v Speaker 1>exactly how tat I can be. I will absolutely be

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<v Speaker 1>your girlfriend. I guess it is traditional for you to

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<v Speaker 1>ask me, but I don't really want to answer questions

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<v Speaker 1>right about now. I just want your compliance. Goodness. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I understand you've always been quite the bratty little thing,

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<v Speaker 1>but I know exactly how to get you in a

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<v Speaker 1>new and I want see you when I talk low

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<v Speaker 1>and right in.

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<v Speaker 3>Your ear like this, and ah, just.

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<v Speaker 1>Roll my tongue a on that lobe. You become putty

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<v Speaker 1>in my hands. So you have two options. You can

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<v Speaker 1>do as I say and be good and we can

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<v Speaker 1>get this place nice and cleaned up real quickly, and

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<v Speaker 1>you can.

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<v Speaker 3>Be a good boy for me. Or you can have

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<v Speaker 3>me sit here and nag you more and more and

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<v Speaker 3>more until I wear you down.

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<v Speaker 1>And I will still sit here cleaning anyways. And if

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<v Speaker 1>I have to be the one to drag you to

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<v Speaker 1>that shower, I will absolutely do it. Really. Oh, look

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<v Speaker 1>at you. Oh, don't try to hide your face. I

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<v Speaker 1>can see how blushing you are. That shower. M M.

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<v Speaker 1>It's calling you, isn't it. Let's go ahead over to it.

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<v Speaker 1>You get to it. I will you know what, we

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<v Speaker 1>still have time for grocery delivered. I would have some

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<v Speaker 1>groceries to be delivered, and I will whip you up

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<v Speaker 1>a nice meal, and I'm gonna get started on cleaning

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<v Speaker 1>up this. How is then we don't have to watch

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<v Speaker 1>Big Bang Theory. We can watch whatever you want. There's

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<v Speaker 1>still some decisions. Will that you have minor ones? What? Oh? Okay, well,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess it would be healthy to talk about that. Sure, yeah, no,

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<v Speaker 1>I meant it. You're not talking to those people anymore. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>you do have to talk to your coworkers at work,

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<v Speaker 1>but you don't have to try to talk to them

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<v Speaker 1>outside of work. In fact, at work, I want you

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<v Speaker 1>to do very minimal amounts of talking. You're not doing

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<v Speaker 1>anybody's extra work. You're not going to help anybody beyond

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<v Speaker 1>what is outside of your job description. And if anyone

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<v Speaker 1>says anything to you two fingers swinging, we can get

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<v Speaker 1>you another job. You are highly valuable. You're going to

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<v Speaker 1>be so easy to find another job for and we

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<v Speaker 1>will find something that is the perfect fit for you.

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<v Speaker 1>What you deserve happiness. You see what your problem is, baby, baby,

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<v Speaker 1>I love I get to say that hour together, my love.

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<v Speaker 1>Your problem is you don't understand what you're worth. You

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<v Speaker 1>don't see the fact that you have so much potential

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<v Speaker 1>and you care so much about the people around you.

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<v Speaker 2>You work so hard.

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<v Speaker 1>You are willing to take on other people's work just

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<v Speaker 1>so that they can be happy, just because you get satisfaction.

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<v Speaker 1>You derive satisfaction off of what other people think about you,

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<v Speaker 1>because you think solow of yourself. I'm here to help

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<v Speaker 1>you see exactly what you're worth so that people start

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<v Speaker 1>wanting to give to you. It's that song, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>Some of them want to use you, some of them

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<v Speaker 4>want to be used by you. Some of them want

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<v Speaker 4>to abuse you. Some of them want to be abused

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<v Speaker 4>by you. You're willing to allow yourself to be abused,

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<v Speaker 4>and in response, people are abusing you because you have

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<v Speaker 4>a kick me signed on you, and you actually feel

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<v Speaker 4>happy when they kick you because at least they paid

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<v Speaker 4>attention to you. You never learned how to get positive attention.

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<v Speaker 4>So if you don't know how to get it. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>going to force you to learn how to get it

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<v Speaker 4>by extracting all of the negative shit in your life

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<v Speaker 4>out of it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just gonna suck it all out. I will definitely

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<v Speaker 1>be sucking something else out too, but that is a

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<v Speaker 1>treat if you're a good boy. So we're going to

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<v Speaker 1>pull all of that out of your life and then

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<v Speaker 1>slot back in only the things that make the most sense.

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<v Speaker 1>And if something is in your life currently that we

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<v Speaker 1>can't slot out immediately, we're gonna find a replacement for it.

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<v Speaker 1>And you're gonna learn to derive your happiness off of

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<v Speaker 1>positive things that actually keep you happy. Because allowing people

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<v Speaker 1>to kick you may feel nice in the moment that

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<v Speaker 1>they paid attention to you, but then when you have

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<v Speaker 1>to pick yourself up out of the mud and you

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<v Speaker 1>look up and you see that they're gone, it still hurts.

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<v Speaker 3>What.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I'm not trying to you know what. I am

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<v Speaker 1>trying to fix you. Yeah. No, it makes me feel

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<v Speaker 1>good to fix broken boys. But I also know that

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<v Speaker 1>at least this time with you, the broken person that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to fix, is at least worth it. Uh.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I've gotten.

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<v Speaker 1>The honor of being around you for all of this

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<v Speaker 1>time and getting to see the true gymn that's shining

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<v Speaker 1>deep inside of that soul. You try to suppress those

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<v Speaker 1>feelings down. You try to pretend like you're big, tough

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<v Speaker 1>and don't have any feelings, but Bain doesn't actually exist.

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<v Speaker 1>Bain just wants a hug, and a hug you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to get now, Come here.

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<v Speaker 2>You, Hey, guys, this is Inen Alexander here.

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<v Speaker 1>Jesus goodness. So I didn't talk about this before because, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I knew when I deleted a bunch of videos and

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<v Speaker 1>made some changes that it was going to hurt my

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<v Speaker 1>analytics on YouTube, and I actually feared going under twenty

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<v Speaker 1>nine thousand. We almost did too, and then I know

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<v Speaker 1>it was going to bounce back at some point. Actually

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<v Speaker 1>even considered making a second channel like Method did and

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of restarting from there. But things worked out.

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<v Speaker 1>Looks like we're going to be okay. We are now

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<v Speaker 1>back contract headed towards thirty k which we're doing a

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<v Speaker 1>thirty hour livestream for that. I'm super stoked because we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna actually be doing a Perge night. Perge Night is

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<v Speaker 1>still happening. I'm so stoked about that. I think it'll

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<v Speaker 1>be a lot of fun and we're gonna actually start

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<v Speaker 1>getting it planned on the Patreon server. So if you

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<v Speaker 1>guys would like to participate and you don't mind Slash

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<v Speaker 1>can subscribe on Patreon, you absolutely can join. I might

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<v Speaker 1>make a separate discord, but like I won't be participating

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<v Speaker 1>in it, just specifically for Twitch streaming, So if you're

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<v Speaker 1>like subscribed on Twitch, you can also get access there

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<v Speaker 1>you don't want to be on Patron, And I might

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<v Speaker 1>also be opening up my YouTube memberships, which I'll do

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<v Speaker 1>the same thing with Twitch that will get you into

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<v Speaker 1>the same server. Why wouldn't I put it in the

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<v Speaker 1>other server because YouTube and Twitch I can't do NSFW distinctions,

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<v Speaker 1>so it would be a completely safer work server. But

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<v Speaker 1>the idea being so that you guys can sign up

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<v Speaker 1>for the Perche nights. So if you would interested in that,

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<v Speaker 1>please leave me a comment down below, and if you can't,

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<v Speaker 1>if you can't subscribe via YouTube memberships or Twitch, that's

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<v Speaker 1>perfectly fine. Like the fact that you even watch my

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<v Speaker 1>Let alone leave ali like blows my mind. I'm so

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<v Speaker 1>stoked by anyways, inspiration so today's video. I know you

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<v Speaker 1>won't believe this, but Zena is a little bit of

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<v Speaker 2>Xena likes to.

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<v Speaker 1>Find broken boys and I do tend to actually clean

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<v Speaker 1>their houses and cook for them. It's the thing that

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<v Speaker 1>I do. And so then there's self worth and has

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<v Speaker 1>It usually ends up with me getting left. Once they

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<v Speaker 1>realize what their self worth is, it's great. So this

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<v Speaker 1>today's story has happened multiple times. There's no one in

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<v Speaker 1>particular person, but I was. I was. I always become

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<v Speaker 1>the girlfriend who sends reminders to take a shower, to

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<v Speaker 1>during the week, I would pop by and I would

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<v Speaker 1>end up doing it. Have they done their dishes? Have

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<v Speaker 1>of different boyfriends where I'd go over and cook an

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<v Speaker 1>That's me, It's what I do. I tend to be

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<v Speaker 1>the caregiver because it's a it's a psychological thing, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a I want to be the thing I wish I had.

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<v Speaker 1>I am very yandraish in the way that like, if

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<v Speaker 1>I'll take it until I break. But that's also because

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<v Speaker 1>I don't let people in legitimately, I'll keep you at armslength,

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<v Speaker 1>can't I keep people at arms length until I can

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<v Speaker 1>trust them, Like people who are always talking about themselves

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<v Speaker 1>and whatnot, and they're not like showing interest to other people.

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<v Speaker 1>like once I let someone inside, oh my god, it's

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<v Speaker 1>with my friends and with my lovers, like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>I will take everyone out of your life that I

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<v Speaker 1>think is toxic to you. Let them say something nasty

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<v Speaker 1>to you, let me get a bad vibe, and watch

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<v Speaker 1>what will happen. There have been several guys in which

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<v Speaker 1>I went through and I blocked a whole bunch of people,

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<v Speaker 1>it's over. I've had every single one of them come

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<v Speaker 1>been so much better since. Sorry really bad for me,

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<v Speaker 1>even bad people. I believe some people are bad for

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<v Speaker 1>other people. These people did not gell well. They were

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<v Speaker 1>not contributing to their life, so it worked out. I've

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<v Speaker 1>been therapy and I am not about that is a

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<v Speaker 1>toxic trait. Can never be with someone if you're a

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<v Speaker 1>partner who's like trying to make you cut off people

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<v Speaker 1>without like like it's not the best trait. It's not

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<v Speaker 1>the best trait. And I've been in therapy, so I

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<v Speaker 1>don't make those demands anymore. It's perfectly okay to talk

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<v Speaker 1>it out and have you both come to the conclusion

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<v Speaker 1>and decide, but it's not okay to like, forcibly have

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<v Speaker 1>it happened anyways, Love you guys. I'm not a therapist.

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<v Speaker 1>I probably shouldn't be talking on these this type of stuff,

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<v Speaker 1>but I love you guys. Don't talk to you the

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<v Speaker 1>next one.

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<v Speaker 4>Bye.