WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.200 --> 00:00:04.480 Hi, everybody, Welcome to tea time with Amy and bev 2 00:00:06.000 --> 00:00:07.280 l again. 3 00:00:08.080 --> 00:00:16.760 Good day again, Good moments again, Good moments, Yeah, good moments. 4 00:00:17.920 --> 00:00:28.960 I'm navigating being around a certain personality and really taking 5 00:00:31.960 --> 00:00:37.479 taking uh the opportunity life is giving me the opportunity 6 00:00:37.600 --> 00:00:41.200 to heal some other layers around this type of personality. 7 00:00:43.000 --> 00:00:45.479 Haven't been doing so well for the past couple months 8 00:00:45.560 --> 00:00:49.719 with it. I will get there. It's getting easier. But 9 00:00:50.560 --> 00:00:54.079 this is what we do. We are given an opportunity 10 00:00:54.159 --> 00:00:57.439 to heal and grow and shed layers and dig deeper. 11 00:00:57.679 --> 00:01:05.239 And I'm in it. So and I will say or 12 00:01:05.280 --> 00:01:08.319 do something or have an attitude and then a person 13 00:01:08.319 --> 00:01:11.120 will walk away and I'm just like, ah, I could 14 00:01:11.159 --> 00:01:13.640 have done better. You're not practicing what you preach. You're 15 00:01:13.719 --> 00:01:17.400 better than that, You're a coach, and give myself a 16 00:01:17.480 --> 00:01:23.760 talking to and then I'm like, well, I'll have another opportunity, 17 00:01:24.200 --> 00:01:27.120 no doubt. We'll keep working on this. 18 00:01:27.200 --> 00:01:31.480 So yeah, And from my perspective, it's great that you're 19 00:01:31.640 --> 00:01:34.879 expressing all this, because you know, it's easy to look 20 00:01:34.879 --> 00:01:37.000 at someone and think, oh, yeah, everything's going great all 21 00:01:37.040 --> 00:01:40.760 the time, and it's like it's a constant evolution. It 22 00:01:40.920 --> 00:01:42.959 just is and that's that's been a word for me 23 00:01:43.159 --> 00:01:45.719 since April first, because I was told it's time to 24 00:01:45.760 --> 00:01:48.560 start the evolution. So and it's interesting because if you 25 00:01:48.599 --> 00:01:51.920 listen to the last video, I start recognizing. I'm recognizing 26 00:01:52.000 --> 00:01:54.400 for myself all these things that are evolving within me, 27 00:01:54.879 --> 00:01:58.000 these new understandings. And then with all that being said, 28 00:01:58.079 --> 00:02:02.200 not to lose hope, because when I was going through 29 00:02:02.280 --> 00:02:03.719 a lot of the stuff that I was going. 30 00:02:03.519 --> 00:02:04.719 Through, I felt freaking lost. 31 00:02:04.760 --> 00:02:06.760 I didn't feel like I could give out any information 32 00:02:06.799 --> 00:02:10.039 to anybody. I didn't feel like I held value for anyone, 33 00:02:10.400 --> 00:02:14.719 and it was humbling, and it was just growing through 34 00:02:14.719 --> 00:02:17.120 this experience and just like you are right now going 35 00:02:17.159 --> 00:02:20.919 through growing through all this because we're learning so much 36 00:02:20.960 --> 00:02:24.240 more about ourselves. And it's okay, But there was sometimes 37 00:02:25.000 --> 00:02:27.919 in the last year that's been pretty heavy. I thought 38 00:02:27.960 --> 00:02:29.479 that this is the dark knight of a soul and 39 00:02:29.840 --> 00:02:32.159 this is what I'm going to get for a Kundalini awaking. 40 00:02:32.560 --> 00:02:33.360 Forget it. 41 00:02:33.719 --> 00:02:37.719 I am like, I am done, take me off the list. 42 00:02:37.759 --> 00:02:38.439 I'm over it. 43 00:02:38.479 --> 00:02:43.240 So we don't need to fast forward exactly. Peace peace out, bro. 44 00:02:44.120 --> 00:02:46.879 But that's exactly it. But it's but with all that 45 00:02:46.960 --> 00:02:48.520 being said, I had there was a lot of times 46 00:02:48.560 --> 00:02:50.840 that I felt lost. And it's even though I have 47 00:02:50.879 --> 00:02:54.800 an amazing Oh my gosh, Raymond's so amazing and he's 48 00:02:54.879 --> 00:02:59.120 walks this journey with me and we constantly evolved together too, 49 00:02:59.240 --> 00:03:02.039 and it's I'm thankful for all that, but sometimes when 50 00:03:02.080 --> 00:03:04.199 I was going through it, it feels like you're so alone 51 00:03:04.240 --> 00:03:07.759 because you know no one understands it. And I could 52 00:03:07.800 --> 00:03:09.360 have been I guess it could have been a victim 53 00:03:09.439 --> 00:03:11.879 mentality in a lot of ways. But I felt like 54 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:14.879 all the things that I've believed in thought and I 55 00:03:14.919 --> 00:03:17.159 felt grounded into and this is right. 56 00:03:17.240 --> 00:03:20.240 And it's like it was like a band they got 57 00:03:20.319 --> 00:03:21.960 ripped off of me and it's like no, no, this 58 00:03:22.080 --> 00:03:23.000 is an amus is true. 59 00:03:24.199 --> 00:03:26.199 Which is so amazing when I think about this, because 60 00:03:26.199 --> 00:03:27.360 if I go back to when I was. 61 00:03:27.319 --> 00:03:30.840 Having group over a year ago in April, that's when 62 00:03:30.840 --> 00:03:31.319 it stopped. 63 00:03:31.360 --> 00:03:34.280 When I go back to that timeframe, I realized I 64 00:03:34.319 --> 00:03:37.319 could have had people constantly like at a boy even 65 00:03:37.400 --> 00:03:39.879 doing a great job and staying in that space, and 66 00:03:39.919 --> 00:03:42.639 I could not grow anymore from that space. 67 00:03:43.360 --> 00:03:43.879 I couldn't. 68 00:03:44.479 --> 00:03:47.199 I don't from not to where I'm at right now, 69 00:03:47.400 --> 00:03:50.800 not how I've grown to the person, to the thoughts, 70 00:03:50.879 --> 00:03:54.759 to the allowing, the surrendering. 71 00:03:55.039 --> 00:03:56.599 There's so many things that I've done that. 72 00:03:56.599 --> 00:04:00.639 I was not even capable of doing that, and had 73 00:04:00.840 --> 00:04:07.520 many meltdowns and many little child my little girl came 74 00:04:07.560 --> 00:04:11.680 forward and like didn't understand these things. And now it's 75 00:04:12.159 --> 00:04:13.639 the light at the end of the tunnel, is that 76 00:04:13.840 --> 00:04:16.240 there is an understanding. And even still I would have 77 00:04:16.279 --> 00:04:19.959 glimpses we've talked about it, have like all of a sudden, 78 00:04:19.959 --> 00:04:22.040 we're on this little plateau and as everything's going great, 79 00:04:22.040 --> 00:04:23.920 and let's take a breath because we're about to dive 80 00:04:23.959 --> 00:04:27.600 in again. And now I feel like something has shifted 81 00:04:27.600 --> 00:04:31.319 to the point where everything feels like it's more easier 82 00:04:31.360 --> 00:04:35.519 to navigate, to flow with. When someone says, go with 83 00:04:35.600 --> 00:04:38.199 the flow, jump on your little lea or your lotus 84 00:04:38.240 --> 00:04:39.639 and float down the river. 85 00:04:40.480 --> 00:04:41.720 I get it. 86 00:04:43.079 --> 00:04:45.560 And now when I just say that, I can see 87 00:04:45.600 --> 00:04:48.079 myself holding on to the sides of you know, holding 88 00:04:48.079 --> 00:04:50.480 onto the pedals and like just with the big old 89 00:04:50.519 --> 00:04:53.480 smile on my face, water going by and just just 90 00:04:53.519 --> 00:04:55.639 seeing where it's going, just enjoying this journey. 91 00:04:56.160 --> 00:04:58.720 Yeah, but it was a loss. 92 00:04:58.839 --> 00:05:01.879 It was it felt lost, and if I let go 93 00:05:01.959 --> 00:05:04.120 of that there had to be any place to go to. 94 00:05:04.639 --> 00:05:07.079 It was all fine, It was all going exactly that 95 00:05:07.120 --> 00:05:09.000 word it needed to go to. It was just me 96 00:05:09.160 --> 00:05:12.399 slowly letting go of each strand of grass that was 97 00:05:12.439 --> 00:05:15.040 on the side of the bank of this river that 98 00:05:15.079 --> 00:05:17.160 I just wouldn't let go of, and then realize, oh, 99 00:05:17.160 --> 00:05:19.040 it's okay, this is so much more fun just to 100 00:05:19.120 --> 00:05:20.360 let go, Tosh. 101 00:05:20.439 --> 00:05:24.240 My hands don't hurt as much from gripping so tightly 102 00:05:25.759 --> 00:05:26.519 to what was. 103 00:05:27.959 --> 00:05:31.600 Yep, our little person inside just has a temper tantrum 104 00:05:32.439 --> 00:05:38.240 and it shows out shows up in many different ways 105 00:05:40.439 --> 00:05:45.879 based mainly because we're operating from the eight year old 106 00:05:45.879 --> 00:05:51.000 seven year old zero to seven year old who only 107 00:05:51.079 --> 00:05:53.000 knew how to get that get their way by having 108 00:05:53.040 --> 00:05:54.959 a temper tantrum. And it didn't always work out that 109 00:05:55.000 --> 00:05:58.120 way either. Sometimes well in our generation, we just got 110 00:05:58.120 --> 00:06:08.600 in trouble for it. But our little I would say, 111 00:06:08.600 --> 00:06:12.279 like our person inside, who has already been programmed in 112 00:06:12.319 --> 00:06:15.600 that zero to seven time frame, is having the temper 113 00:06:15.720 --> 00:06:21.120 tantrum of change, the temper tantrum of it's not safe 114 00:06:21.199 --> 00:06:25.480 to do that right then, the temper tantrum of you 115 00:06:25.560 --> 00:06:31.439 can't trust these people. And the adult version of ourselves, 116 00:06:31.480 --> 00:06:35.800 who has now lived life and is very more has 117 00:06:35.839 --> 00:06:38.680 more knowledge and wisdom than that seven or eight year 118 00:06:38.720 --> 00:06:41.720 old per se as a human let's put at less 119 00:06:41.720 --> 00:06:45.920 preface as a human, not and as the spirit because 120 00:06:45.959 --> 00:06:49.560 that zero to seven year old very spiritual, very connected. 121 00:06:50.639 --> 00:06:55.000 But the human adult has more wisdom and knowledge than 122 00:06:55.040 --> 00:06:59.000 that little person that's still inside who doesn't feel safe 123 00:06:59.079 --> 00:07:01.839 or or is very scared, has a lot of fear 124 00:07:02.800 --> 00:07:05.879 because of the experiences that I would say you and 125 00:07:05.920 --> 00:07:08.519 I have had at that and those h fras at 126 00:07:08.519 --> 00:07:13.240 those timeframes. So they just having a temper tantrum. And 127 00:07:13.279 --> 00:07:17.120 so it's like you're battling two sides of yourself. This 128 00:07:17.120 --> 00:07:19.839 this adult version who has seen life, grown through life, 129 00:07:20.199 --> 00:07:24.040 had experiences, ready for something different. But that internal version 130 00:07:24.079 --> 00:07:28.279 of ourselves is like, no right holding us back. And 131 00:07:28.319 --> 00:07:31.319 so there's that still that fear, the angst or anxiety 132 00:07:31.360 --> 00:07:34.600 that shows up. That's that that says, don't do it. 133 00:07:35.199 --> 00:07:37.079 Don't let go of that blade of grass and just 134 00:07:37.160 --> 00:07:40.120 float down the river and enjoy yourself, enjoy the temperature 135 00:07:40.120 --> 00:07:42.079 and the breeze and all the thing. Don't do that 136 00:07:42.759 --> 00:07:45.319 don't relax. We we have to work hard. We have 137 00:07:45.439 --> 00:07:48.439 to we have to we gotta grind, we gotta we 138 00:07:48.519 --> 00:07:50.879 gotta show up, and we gotta do these things in 139 00:07:51.000 --> 00:07:54.920 order to get rewarded. And and we're like, no, I'm 140 00:07:54.959 --> 00:07:56.439 just gonna let go of that blade of grass and 141 00:07:56.560 --> 00:08:00.600 just float. And the sense of relief when you finally 142 00:08:00.639 --> 00:08:08.920 do that, the the physical shift that happens when you 143 00:08:09.199 --> 00:08:14.319 just surrender and be like, okay, here we are, let's 144 00:08:14.399 --> 00:08:18.399 just see what happens. Right, But it's giving our internal 145 00:08:18.439 --> 00:08:24.360 self that that safety and the sense of feeling okay 146 00:08:24.519 --> 00:08:29.279 by doing it. So one of my biggest things is 147 00:08:29.560 --> 00:08:32.240 speaking in front of people. That's like the top one 148 00:08:32.240 --> 00:08:36.600 of the top three fears for all people. The more 149 00:08:36.639 --> 00:08:39.039 I do it, the easier it gets. And you know 150 00:08:39.080 --> 00:08:41.440 you're talking about, you know, getting those kudos and pats 151 00:08:41.440 --> 00:08:44.320 on the back. I've been getting that because I've been 152 00:08:44.480 --> 00:08:48.799 I've done a few speeches over these past couple months, 153 00:08:50.240 --> 00:08:52.519 and every time I've had a lot of people come 154 00:08:52.600 --> 00:08:54.919 up to me and say, wow, I was really great. 155 00:08:55.000 --> 00:08:58.240 That was touching. I enjoyed that. You know, you hit 156 00:08:58.320 --> 00:08:59.759 somebody the other night, tell me you know what you 157 00:08:59.799 --> 00:09:02.480 really you know how to capture the attention of the audience, 158 00:09:03.360 --> 00:09:09.679 and it feels good because it's building my confidence. So 159 00:09:09.799 --> 00:09:13.120 some things that we do, we do need that kudos 160 00:09:13.200 --> 00:09:16.840 for a while. But when you notice that, it becomes 161 00:09:17.200 --> 00:09:21.480 a need, and that's you're doing it just. 162 00:09:21.840 --> 00:09:23.440 For the approval. 163 00:09:24.519 --> 00:09:28.399 Now there's an issue, and if you don't recognize that, 164 00:09:28.519 --> 00:09:30.759 you're going to stay stuck in that and that's where 165 00:09:30.759 --> 00:09:38.519 you're going to live. Whereas when you recognize, oh, I'm 166 00:09:38.639 --> 00:09:41.799 staying stuck in this energy in this arena to get 167 00:09:41.799 --> 00:09:46.600 the approval of people who are and it's not a 168 00:09:46.600 --> 00:09:49.960 good or bad it's not a judgment, but they're at 169 00:09:50.000 --> 00:09:53.279 a lower vibrational frequency than I am, and I'm matching 170 00:09:53.320 --> 00:09:56.360 their energy to help guide them and coach them. I'm 171 00:09:56.360 --> 00:10:00.480 holding a little bit higher energy. But eventually it I've 172 00:10:00.519 --> 00:10:03.080 noticed it myself, it'll wear you down. And now you're 173 00:10:03.120 --> 00:10:09.799 matching them. And when you start recognizing that you are 174 00:10:10.840 --> 00:10:18.360 dependent on their approval and acceptance and quote unquote love, 175 00:10:19.960 --> 00:10:22.840 it's time to change something because that's not where you're 176 00:10:22.879 --> 00:10:26.840 meant to stay. And so for now, for me, getting 177 00:10:26.840 --> 00:10:30.360 those kudos is kind of a need in the sense 178 00:10:30.399 --> 00:10:33.639 that it's helping build me up and help me grow 179 00:10:33.679 --> 00:10:36.080 in my confidence that I am doing a good job. 180 00:10:36.480 --> 00:10:40.000 I am speaking to the people in the audience. I am, 181 00:10:40.320 --> 00:10:43.279 you know, planting seeds in whatever way I can't like, 182 00:10:43.639 --> 00:10:46.000 I am making a difference in speaking in front of people, 183 00:10:46.000 --> 00:10:47.120 and people letting me know that. 184 00:10:47.919 --> 00:10:48.240 Great. 185 00:10:48.799 --> 00:10:51.080 I need that right now because I still get nervous 186 00:10:51.120 --> 00:10:54.080 speaking in front of people, and that each time it 187 00:10:54.159 --> 00:10:56.879 helps me relax more and more because it's telling my 188 00:10:57.039 --> 00:11:02.200 inner person, we're okay and we're safe. Yeah, like the crowd. 189 00:11:02.440 --> 00:11:04.519 If the crowd laughs because I cracked a joke, not 190 00:11:04.639 --> 00:11:09.200 because I couldn't pronounce a word or not because I 191 00:11:09.200 --> 00:11:12.960 didn't get the answer right, that's our programming from school, right, 192 00:11:13.919 --> 00:11:16.480 all the kids laughed at us, and so, oh, climb up. 193 00:11:16.559 --> 00:11:21.240 Can't do that, that's not safe. I've messed up my words. 194 00:11:21.519 --> 00:11:24.279 I've had to repeat a sentence because I jumbled it up. 195 00:11:24.399 --> 00:11:31.159 I've stumbled. I've been shaking like no tomorrow trying to 196 00:11:31.159 --> 00:11:34.879 give a speech without my voice cracking so much. Right, 197 00:11:35.000 --> 00:11:38.320 so or I've gotten teary eyed because of something, and 198 00:11:38.360 --> 00:11:42.240 I've had to pause. My nose runs when I'm speaking. 199 00:11:42.320 --> 00:11:44.600 And then it's like all these things and you know what, 200 00:11:46.360 --> 00:11:50.480 I survived every single one of them, and that each 201 00:11:50.600 --> 00:11:53.399 time gives me more and more of a sense of 202 00:11:53.919 --> 00:11:59.000 safety and relief within myself to know I can do this. 203 00:12:01.279 --> 00:12:02.679 And it's like confirmation too. 204 00:12:02.840 --> 00:12:05.159 It's when when you're getting that afterwards. To me, it 205 00:12:05.480 --> 00:12:08.159 feels good to have the confirmations. It kind of it 206 00:12:08.240 --> 00:12:10.120 kind of gives you the idea that you're on the 207 00:12:10.200 --> 00:12:12.519 right path, that you're going in the right direction. 208 00:12:12.679 --> 00:12:16.559 This feels right, it does. I remember the first time. 209 00:12:16.360 --> 00:12:20.000 That you and I had a group together, that we 210 00:12:20.039 --> 00:12:24.320 sat down in front of an eye I was I 211 00:12:24.360 --> 00:12:27.159 was kind of nervous about it, but I remember being 212 00:12:28.440 --> 00:12:30.120 I felt like I was going to do something wrong, 213 00:12:30.759 --> 00:12:32.759 and I think that's where my most of my stuff 214 00:12:32.799 --> 00:12:35.000 came from. But then it's like, as we were sitting 215 00:12:35.039 --> 00:12:38.559 there talking, it never there's some things in life that 216 00:12:38.759 --> 00:12:41.159 feel so right, and that felt so right. It just 217 00:12:41.159 --> 00:12:46.120 felt like this was a natural process, the progression. So 218 00:12:46.159 --> 00:12:49.120 it's like we just sit and see how it plays out. 219 00:12:49.159 --> 00:12:52.360 You know, as we're growing, Like you've talked about, you know, 220 00:12:52.480 --> 00:12:54.879 even with your job, how much you've gained from it, 221 00:12:54.960 --> 00:12:56.679 and you and you're doing it with from a place 222 00:12:56.679 --> 00:13:00.440 of gratitude, which also opens the doorway for more more 223 00:13:00.480 --> 00:13:02.159 of the things that you want. And it's like, Okay, 224 00:13:02.200 --> 00:13:04.320 I've learned everything I can from this and now it's 225 00:13:04.399 --> 00:13:06.639 on to the next So there's going to be some 226 00:13:06.799 --> 00:13:11.480 new stuff coming forward. And that's fun. It's fun when 227 00:13:11.480 --> 00:13:14.279 we recognize it from this perspective. It's not fun when 228 00:13:14.279 --> 00:13:17.759 we recognize it from everything that you said earlier about 229 00:13:17.759 --> 00:13:22.200 the child, the inner child and all these feelings and gosh, 230 00:13:22.840 --> 00:13:26.559 you freaking nailed it. Really all put words to a 231 00:13:26.559 --> 00:13:28.799 lot of the things that that's how I felt growing up. 232 00:13:28.840 --> 00:13:29.919 You know, it's kind of scary. 233 00:13:29.960 --> 00:13:34.200 And it's also knowing that when my inner child has 234 00:13:34.279 --> 00:13:35.600 comes forward, it's. 235 00:13:35.240 --> 00:13:37.960 She's being seen. She's being seen. 236 00:13:37.759 --> 00:13:41.080 For this, and it's like we're gaining different information from it, 237 00:13:41.159 --> 00:13:43.200 so it kind of changes the whole programming. 238 00:13:43.519 --> 00:13:46.480 As soon as we do that stuff. I don't feel, like. 239 00:13:46.960 --> 00:13:49.240 I've said before, and I understand it now that I 240 00:13:49.240 --> 00:13:51.039 don't feel like I have to go digging for the 241 00:13:51.080 --> 00:13:55.519 things inside of me, because otherwise I'm constantly searching inside 242 00:13:55.519 --> 00:13:56.440 of me for what's wrong? 243 00:13:56.519 --> 00:13:59.519 Why did this happen, Why did that happen? How could 244 00:13:59.559 --> 00:14:00.679 I do differently? 245 00:14:00.720 --> 00:14:03.639 But but by me asking how can I do things differently? 246 00:14:03.679 --> 00:14:05.919 How can I show up better for myself and in 247 00:14:06.000 --> 00:14:09.840 all my relationships, I start being things start happening and 248 00:14:10.159 --> 00:14:13.120 it's all different because I have it created a different 249 00:14:13.159 --> 00:14:17.399 asking withinside of myself. Excuse me, because I want the 250 00:14:17.399 --> 00:14:19.919 good relationships. I want to have the good experiences. I 251 00:14:19.960 --> 00:14:24.080 want to have the flow the conversations. I'm not a 252 00:14:24.080 --> 00:14:26.759 person that does very well in shallow conversations. 253 00:14:26.799 --> 00:14:27.399 I just don't. 254 00:14:27.440 --> 00:14:31.720 It's not it's not appealing to me, and it's which 255 00:14:31.799 --> 00:14:34.759 is nice. I'm the person that's going through the cash 256 00:14:34.799 --> 00:14:37.799 register or the cashier at the stores and they're telling 257 00:14:37.799 --> 00:14:41.120 me all their stuff, of everything they've experienced in the 258 00:14:41.200 --> 00:14:45.159 last several years, and it's like, I'm kind of surprised 259 00:14:45.159 --> 00:14:47.320 because there's more people that are around, but it just 260 00:14:47.320 --> 00:14:49.120 goes to show you where we're at. People are ready 261 00:14:49.159 --> 00:14:52.799 to expand and they don't want to be limited by 262 00:14:53.000 --> 00:14:56.559 all of our experiences and programming that we've had already. 263 00:14:56.960 --> 00:15:01.039 So it's this is pretty fun. It's pretty fun. I 264 00:15:01.159 --> 00:15:04.399 enjoy it. I'm thankful for you. I don't tell you 265 00:15:04.480 --> 00:15:06.720 probably enough of that, but I am thankful for you 266 00:15:07.240 --> 00:15:09.559 because you did see a lot of things in me 267 00:15:09.759 --> 00:15:14.039 that I did not see, and you've stuck around with 268 00:15:14.240 --> 00:15:18.279 all of it, and you've done very well in my dad, 269 00:15:20.759 --> 00:15:21.360 So thank you. 270 00:15:21.759 --> 00:15:22.919 Wait, don't stop, keep going. 271 00:15:22.960 --> 00:15:29.799 I was, but that changes the energy, right, And if 272 00:15:29.799 --> 00:15:32.000 we find more people that were doing that, like, find 273 00:15:32.039 --> 00:15:34.159 the things that they're doing that are that feel good 274 00:15:34.240 --> 00:15:36.200 to you and say something about it, because so many 275 00:15:36.240 --> 00:15:38.519 times I didn't. I don't think I ever stopped and 276 00:15:38.559 --> 00:15:40.519 told my mom how beautiful she was. I don't really 277 00:15:40.559 --> 00:15:43.559 don't think I did. I don't think anybody ever said 278 00:15:43.559 --> 00:15:45.159 that to me. So I didn't know how to approach 279 00:15:45.200 --> 00:15:47.720 that kind of stuff or even have a desire to. 280 00:15:47.840 --> 00:15:49.960 But now it's like, well, I tell her, I tell 281 00:15:49.960 --> 00:15:54.320 her how beautiful she is. And because the relationships continue, 282 00:15:54.320 --> 00:15:57.120 they don't just stop because they they left their physical 283 00:15:57.519 --> 00:15:58.279 or their avatar. 284 00:15:58.639 --> 00:16:00.600 I wouldn't even call it physical. It's just an avatar 285 00:16:00.720 --> 00:16:00.919 to me. 286 00:16:02.159 --> 00:16:07.399 So I called this a human spirit vehicle. 287 00:16:10.840 --> 00:16:12.799 What are you driving today, my HSD. 288 00:16:13.080 --> 00:16:18.360 Yeah, it's a different color today. It's got some hearts 289 00:16:18.399 --> 00:16:19.279 and it's pink. 290 00:16:19.360 --> 00:16:21.360 But that's right, that's right. 291 00:16:21.399 --> 00:16:23.679 I like it. 292 00:16:23.639 --> 00:16:24.200 It's a fun. 293 00:16:25.720 --> 00:16:33.960 Yeah, that's uh. Going back what I was talking about 294 00:16:34.000 --> 00:16:38.600 as far as the need and the dependency on others. 295 00:16:40.240 --> 00:16:44.399 That's how I coach is I don't want you dependent 296 00:16:44.440 --> 00:16:51.559 on me. And in the past couple of years, I've 297 00:16:51.600 --> 00:16:58.240 had some clients who have blossomed tremendously from us spending 298 00:16:58.320 --> 00:17:02.919 time together. Now watching them and the joy that they're 299 00:17:02.960 --> 00:17:06.960 experiencing in life and the things they're pursuing in their 300 00:17:06.960 --> 00:17:13.960 life is that's what matters. That's what matters, right, And 301 00:17:14.359 --> 00:17:18.640 so it's important that if you in general audience that 302 00:17:19.480 --> 00:17:22.920 if you are feeling dependent on somebody for your happiness 303 00:17:24.240 --> 00:17:29.759 two to uh, you know you need them around so 304 00:17:29.920 --> 00:17:33.000 that you know, you know when you have conversations, they're 305 00:17:33.000 --> 00:17:36.759 gonna lift you up, they're gonna bring better energy, they're 306 00:17:36.799 --> 00:17:40.039 gonna make you happy to you know those words that 307 00:17:40.079 --> 00:17:46.440 we use. When you're dependent on that, there's some healing 308 00:17:46.519 --> 00:17:52.519 to be done, some internal healing. So I I, for 309 00:17:52.599 --> 00:17:56.079 several years now have looked at it as if I 310 00:17:56.200 --> 00:17:59.240 enjoy myself, I can be with myself, I can laugh 311 00:17:59.279 --> 00:18:03.240 with myself, me by myself in a room, not listening 312 00:18:03.240 --> 00:18:05.880 to anything. I could just laugh if I want to laugh, 313 00:18:06.599 --> 00:18:10.880 and I don't need somebody to do that to trigger 314 00:18:10.920 --> 00:18:18.839 that in me. So, when you're dependent on outside sources, 315 00:18:19.440 --> 00:18:22.519 is it helpful? Yeah, absolutely, it's helpful. Bev and I 316 00:18:22.559 --> 00:18:25.519 get on here and we have these conversations. It lingers, 317 00:18:26.000 --> 00:18:29.119 you know, for a while. And with the conversations we have, 318 00:18:29.200 --> 00:18:36.319 I contemplate and it's beneficial. However, I am not dependent 319 00:18:36.759 --> 00:18:40.519 on these conversations to help me grow and learn and 320 00:18:40.599 --> 00:18:50.119 expand and be joyful and have glimpses of excitement, don't. 321 00:18:50.359 --> 00:18:53.279 I don't need her and I don't need other people 322 00:18:53.319 --> 00:18:55.559 to do that for me. That's up to me to 323 00:18:55.640 --> 00:19:00.119 do that. So I just want people to understand and 324 00:19:00.200 --> 00:19:04.680 the difference that when you're dependent on somebody, you're saying 325 00:19:05.559 --> 00:19:08.440 you need somebody to throw you the rope to pull 326 00:19:08.519 --> 00:19:12.640 you out of the quicksand you can do it on 327 00:19:12.680 --> 00:19:16.119 your own. You can. And I say that in a 328 00:19:16.200 --> 00:19:19.359 sense of you're the one that can pick up a 329 00:19:19.400 --> 00:19:21.720 podcast or listen to a podcast, or pick up a 330 00:19:21.720 --> 00:19:24.160 book and read some words, or maybe for you it's 331 00:19:24.200 --> 00:19:29.079 the Bible. I don't there's some kind of spiritual context. 332 00:19:30.759 --> 00:19:34.680 There are resources that will help you do that, which 333 00:19:34.720 --> 00:19:38.880 is very beneficial. And those are tools, right, There are 334 00:19:38.880 --> 00:19:42.319 so many tools availables available to us to help us 335 00:19:42.880 --> 00:19:46.079 shift our energy. One of my go tos listen to Abraham. 336 00:19:46.680 --> 00:19:48.880 I get in a funk, I go listen to Esther Hickson. 337 00:19:49.119 --> 00:19:52.799 Abraham helps me every single time, and sometimes I have 338 00:19:52.880 --> 00:19:56.079 to listen to it for days. Yeah, just keep listening 339 00:19:56.079 --> 00:20:00.640 to their recordings every single day to help shift me. 340 00:20:01.599 --> 00:20:05.039 But I'm taking the initiative and I'm doing the work 341 00:20:05.279 --> 00:20:08.440 to help make that happen, to help shift my energy. 342 00:20:10.039 --> 00:20:14.319 Whereas Bev and I could have a conversation and she 343 00:20:14.400 --> 00:20:16.160 could lift me up or I could lift her up. 344 00:20:16.680 --> 00:20:19.920 But if I become dependent on her to lift me 345 00:20:20.079 --> 00:20:24.519 up every single time, then there's some healing and growing 346 00:20:24.599 --> 00:20:28.240 that needs to take place. So just kind of giving 347 00:20:28.279 --> 00:20:31.200 people an idea of what we're really talking about when 348 00:20:31.200 --> 00:20:32.559 we're saying those things. 349 00:20:33.039 --> 00:20:35.920 Yeah, because we're guides. We're just a guide. I'm a 350 00:20:35.960 --> 00:20:38.839 guid guide someone back into themselves. I'm not going to 351 00:20:38.880 --> 00:20:43.599 fix you. I'm not responsible for you, for anybody. I mean, 352 00:20:43.640 --> 00:20:45.759 I'm responsible when my grandkids are with me to make 353 00:20:45.799 --> 00:20:48.799 sure they stay safe, but they're actually great teachers for myself. 354 00:20:48.839 --> 00:20:49.440 So you know. 355 00:20:50.279 --> 00:20:51.680 But it's looking at a lot of that stuff, and 356 00:20:51.720 --> 00:20:54.920 I know there's been a lot of people explore the 357 00:20:54.960 --> 00:20:57.039 information that's flowing out there. There's been a lot of 358 00:20:57.079 --> 00:20:59.440 people that have been put into a guru status that 359 00:20:59.519 --> 00:21:05.119 have actually been shown to not be very what people thought, 360 00:21:05.319 --> 00:21:07.759 not saying they didn't have valuable information that came forward. 361 00:21:07.799 --> 00:21:10.240 But it's to not idolize another. It's not to get 362 00:21:10.240 --> 00:21:13.680 wrapped up in that, and to recognize if you do 363 00:21:13.839 --> 00:21:14.359 have someone. 364 00:21:14.440 --> 00:21:16.440 If you're talking to Amy all the time. 365 00:21:16.240 --> 00:21:19.000 And she does lift you up, it's recognizing you have 366 00:21:19.119 --> 00:21:22.000 that within selfs that's all that. It's a mirror to 367 00:21:22.039 --> 00:21:24.079 you to let you know that you have this. And 368 00:21:24.440 --> 00:21:27.279 I love listening to Abraham as well. I've just listened 369 00:21:27.279 --> 00:21:30.200 been listening to her in the last few days, honestly, 370 00:21:30.759 --> 00:21:33.960 just a little random stuff because it's it lifts. It's 371 00:21:34.640 --> 00:21:37.319 it's not so much the words that are being stated. 372 00:21:37.480 --> 00:21:40.279 It's it's so much about the energy that I feel. 373 00:21:40.559 --> 00:21:42.440 And when you just tune into that, I could probably 374 00:21:42.480 --> 00:21:44.599 when I haven't tried doing it, I probably just watch 375 00:21:44.680 --> 00:21:48.000 a video with her talking, but I usually see, you know, 376 00:21:48.039 --> 00:21:51.200 they usually have animated stuff going on with her talking, 377 00:21:51.480 --> 00:21:54.000 and I probably would pick up just as much as 378 00:21:54.039 --> 00:21:57.039 I would by listening to the words, it's it's an 379 00:21:57.240 --> 00:22:00.799 energy thing, it's it's being. It's an alignment, and you 380 00:22:00.839 --> 00:22:03.519 feel more aligned when you're listening to that kind of stuff. 381 00:22:04.799 --> 00:22:07.519 I do, and I know you do because it and 382 00:22:07.559 --> 00:22:09.839 it really does. It really helps. And I like to 383 00:22:09.880 --> 00:22:11.799 listen to Alan Watson and stuff too because there's a lot, 384 00:22:12.559 --> 00:22:17.279 a lot of awesome information. It's just so philosophical. There's 385 00:22:17.279 --> 00:22:19.960 so much information that's out there that we can find. 386 00:22:19.960 --> 00:22:23.519 But again, just like you stated, it's not a matter 387 00:22:23.599 --> 00:22:27.480 of being dependent on those it's a matter of it. 388 00:22:26.359 --> 00:22:29.960 It's the opportunity for it to come forward right that moment, 389 00:22:29.960 --> 00:22:32.440 because there's a message for you. It's nothing, it's just 390 00:22:32.480 --> 00:22:34.880 a brief thing, just like I was telling you earlier. 391 00:22:35.920 --> 00:22:37.880 For me, everything is a message, and so for me, 392 00:22:37.960 --> 00:22:40.960 i've seen a pair of peaguine falcons flying around together. 393 00:22:41.000 --> 00:22:41.920 There's a message for that. 394 00:22:42.279 --> 00:22:45.480 I've been able to witness the paraguine falcons sitting in 395 00:22:45.519 --> 00:22:46.920 the nest on some eggs. 396 00:22:47.240 --> 00:22:47.920 That's awesome. 397 00:22:48.359 --> 00:22:50.119 I was driving to work the other day and I 398 00:22:50.160 --> 00:22:54.119 know that antelope are fast moving and they're quick on 399 00:22:54.160 --> 00:22:57.240 their feet, but it's like they were and also cautious 400 00:22:57.240 --> 00:22:59.440 and kind of looking around to see where they were 401 00:22:59.440 --> 00:23:01.720