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Speaker 1: The street corner stank of shit and diesel exhaust. I

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counted seventeen cigarette butts on the pavement, seven of them

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stained with lipstick some other woman's mouth, some other night.

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The wind cut through my fishnet stockings like they didn't exist.

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I'd been standing here forty three minutes. Forty three smile,

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my husband said, his voice, coming from the boarded up

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laundromat doorway. You look like you're waiting for a bus.

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I didn't smile. The recriminations had been running on a

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loop in my head since he'd laid out the math.

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Ten thousand, one hundred and fifty dollars, the handbags, three

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of them Italian leather. The smell alone worth the price

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the shoes. That weekend in Cancoon, where I'd charged eighteen

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margaritas to the room, plus the room itself, plus the

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upgrade to Ocean View, because my friend Jessica said it

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was essential, I'd signed every receipt with a flourish, the

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way you do when the money feels imaginary. It wasn't

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imaginary to him. You're a kept woman who stopped appreciating

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the keeping, he'd said, dropping the credit card statements on

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the kitchen island. His voice had that terrifying calm, the

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one that meant he'd already decided everything. So now you're

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going to learn what money actually costs. You're going to

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earn back every dollar on your knees. I'd laughed, I'd

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actually laughed, because it sounded like a joke, like one

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of those dark things couples say when they're ang angry

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and then take back. But he wasn't taking it back.

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I can't believe what was happening. I was being pimped

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out by my husband to pay my debts. Headlights swung

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toward the curb, a sedan, dark and beat up, with

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that particular rattle of a car that's seen too many winters.

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The window hummed down. A black man's face emerged from

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the darkness, broad, heavy in the jaw, gold glinting on

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his ring finger. Married, then, or pretending not to be.

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How much? Before I could form a syllable, my husband

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materialized at my elbow fifty, the mouth one fifty, the cunt.

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The man's tongue moved behind his lower lip, Considering all right, no,

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I whispered. My husband's hand found the small of my

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back through the cheap fabric of my top. His fingers

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pressed in with a familiar intimacy that made my stomach turn.

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You have to learn, sweetheart. The alley stretched between two

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brick buildings, narrow as a coffin. A dumpster hulked against

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one wall, rust bleeding down its side like old scabs.

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The client the words sat in my mouth like a pebble,

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handed my husband a fold of bills. I watched him

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count it, licking his thumb between each note, methodical. Satisfied,

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he stepped back into the shadows until I couldn't see

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him anymore. I could only hear his breathing. The man unzipped.

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The sound was obscenely loud in the narrow space. His

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cock sprang free, thick and uncut, the head already glistening.

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The sight of it sent a jolt through my nervous system.

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Not desire, not exactly, but something adjacent, something my body

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recognized before my brain could veto on your knees, my

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husband's voice from the darkness. I dropped the asphalt bit

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through my stockings, immediately, gravel digging into my knee caps.

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The man's hand found the back of my head, not rough,

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but not asking either, just settling there. Heavy and warm.

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I opened my mouth and he pushed inside. The taste

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hit first salt, musk that hadn't been washed since morning.

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The texture of skin sliding over my tongue. I breathed

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through my nose and focused on the mechanics. Lips tight,

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tongue flat along the underside, the rhythm of give and take.

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My jaw stretched around his girth until the hinge ached.

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Saliva slicked him. Drool slipped from the corner of my

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mouth and dangled from my chin in a long, cool string.

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There you go. The man murmured, good fucking girl. The

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words landed in my chest and bloomed. My nipples tightened.

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I hated my nipples in that moment, with a pure,

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focused hatred. He didn't let me finish. His hand nodded

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in my hair and hauled me upward, spinning me around.

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My palms slammed against cold metal, the dumpster, its surface

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pitted and stinking of old meat. He kicked my ankles

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apart behind me, the crinkle of a condom wrapper, then

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the wet snap of latex. His fingers dug into my hips,

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right above the garter belt. He entered me in one

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thrust that emptied my lungs full. There was no other word.

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The sensation crowded out the cold, the smell, the shame,

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until all that existed was the thick pressure of him

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moving inside me. His The rhythm was brutal and efficient,

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each stroke shoving me forward against the dumpster. The metal rattled.

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My tits swayed with the impact, nipples scraping against the

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inside of my top. From somewhere behind me, I heard

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my husband's breathing quicken. The man grabbed a fistful of

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my hair and yanked my head back. My spine arched,

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the angle shifted, and he dragged across something inside me

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that made my vision go white at the edges. A

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sound came out of my throat, not a complaint, something higher, breathier.

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He grunted once twice, then drove deep and locked there

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through the latex. I felt the pulse of his release,

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the way his grip on my hip tightened into something

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almost possessive. He stayed inside me for three long breaths,

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then pulled out. The condom came off with a wet snap.

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He tied it and bizarrely hung it from a nail

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jutting out of the brick wall. It dangled there, a

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pale trophy, swinging slightly in the night air. He laughed

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a short barking sound, and walked back toward his car

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without looking at me. I stayed bent over the dumpster.

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My thighs were trembling so hard. I could hear my

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stockings rustle footsteps, my husband the soft rasp of a

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tissue he'd finished two. I could see the evidence on

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the ground near his shoes, a dark splatter on the concrete.

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He wiped his hands, then passed me a tissue. You

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did well. His thumb brushed my cheek, smearing mascara only

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ten thousand ago. The second car was an older sedan.

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Two men in the front, gray hair paunches, the kind

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of men who played golf on weekend and yelled at

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cable news. My husband did the deal, pocketed the cash,

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two for one special. One of them joked, and the

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other one laughed with his whole gut back in the alley,

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knees on asphalt. Two cocks. The first one took my

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mouth thinner than the first man, longer, hitting the back

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of my throat every time until I gagged and tears

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streamed down my cheeks. The second one pushed between my

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tits and fucked the channel there while I held my

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breast together, the position absurd and degrading, and making my

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cunt throb in a way I refused to acknowledge. They switched.

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The one from my tits pushed into my mouth, tasting

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of my own sweat and the faint chemical tang of

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latex residue. The one from my mouth moved behind me,

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and no condom this time, I noticed, but I was

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too far gone to protest. Slid between my thighs from behind,

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not entering, just rubbin against the wetness there, slicking himself

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with it. Christ she soaked, he said, sounding genuinely surprised.

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I wanted to die. I wanted more. They finished on

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my chest, thick white streaks across my exposed tits, and

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I knelt there, gasping while they zipped up and walked

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away without a backward glance. My husband appeared with tissues

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and a water bottle, his hand on my shoulder, steady

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and warm. You're getting good at this. The third car

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was an SUV. Four women, spilled out boots and leather jackets,

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mean smiles, hungry eyes, short hair, and various shades of deliberate.

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The driver did the negotiating, while the others looked me

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over like I was a cut of meat. How much

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for all of us? They they always paid. Then I

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was in the alley with four women circling me, their

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boots scuffing the asphalt on your knees. Pretty thing, the

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tallest one said, and shoved me down. I ate cunt

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for what felt like hours. The first woman was sharp

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and musky, grinding against my face until my jaw ached.

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The second was sweet and clean, shaved bare, her thighs

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clamping around my ears as she rowed my tongue. The

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third flooded my mouth with a pissy taste the moment

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I touched her so wet it dripped down my chin

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and pooled in the hollow of my throat. They took

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turns flipping me, pulling my hair, slapping me, positioning me.

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A mouth worked between my legs while I ate someone else,

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the double sensation making my mind go blank and staticky.

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Look at her. One of them crooned and a hand

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came down on my ass. The sting spread across my

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skin in a hot wave. Dirty little lesbo wife, I

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moaned into the wet heat of another woman's cunt, unable

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to stop myself, unable to want to. By the time

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they left, I was a ruin pussy, juice smeared across

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my face, hair a rat's nest, stockings shredded at the knees.

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I knelt on the asphalt, spitting and wiping my mouth

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with the back of my hand, my body humming with

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a strange, exhausted electricity that felt terrifyingly close to satisfaction.

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Good night, my husband said, helping me to my feet.

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His hands were gentle, now almost tender. He wrapped his

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jacket around my shoulders and guided me toward the car.

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Let's go home. Maybe tomorrow night will be better. Tomorrow.

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The word hit me like a slap of cold water.

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I stopped walking. My knees were still shaking. Tomorrow. My

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voice came out raw, scraped clean of dignity. He grinned,

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not cruelly, not kindly either, something in between that I

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didn't have a name for. Yet. We're not even a

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grand in yet, sweetheart, You've got a lot of learning left.

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He opened the passenger door for me, like we were

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on a date. I slid inside. The leather was cold

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against the backs of my thighs through the windshield. I

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watched the street corner recede as we pulled away, the dumpster,

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the boarded up laundromat, the nail in the brick wall,

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where that first condom still dangled like a promise of

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everything still to come. And tomorrow they'd be more condoms

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hanging from nails. Those handbags were not worth it. I

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