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<v Speaker 1>Redditors who had a dying confession but then lived what happened.

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<v Speaker 1>Story one. I used to work on construction with this guy,

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<v Speaker 1>let's call him Larry. One day on sight there was

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<v Speaker 1>this big mess with a scaffolding rig. A vehicle accidentally

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<v Speaker 1>backed into it while Larry was working underneath, and the

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<v Speaker 1>whole thing collapsed on top of him. It looked really

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<v Speaker 1>bad At the moment, he was pinned, bleeding from a

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<v Speaker 1>head wound and said he couldn't feel his legs. He

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<v Speaker 1>was absolutely convinced this was the end for him. While

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<v Speaker 1>a few of us were trying to lift the scaffold

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<v Speaker 1>and give him basic first aid, Larry kept asking for

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<v Speaker 1>someone's phone so he could call his wife, Susie. Our

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<v Speaker 1>supervisor handed one over, and Larry, believing these were his

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<v Speaker 1>final moments, poured his heart out over the phone in

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<v Speaker 1>the most dramatic this is it way you could imagine.

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<v Speaker 1>While fully sobbing, He told Susie he hadn't been the

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<v Speaker 1>husband he should have been. He confessed to having multiple affairs,

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<v Speaker 1>stealing from Susie's parents, creeping on their neighbor's daughter, and

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<v Speaker 1>doing drugs with Susie's sister. He was apologizing and asked

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<v Speaker 1>looking for forgiveness, thinking this would be the last time

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<v Speaker 1>they'd speak. Well, turns out Larry wasn't dying at all.

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<v Speaker 1>Once the scaffold was lifted. It turned out he'd only

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<v Speaker 1>been pinned by a few awkwardly fallen tubes and bracers.

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<v Speaker 1>They'd landed in just the wrong way to put pressure

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<v Speaker 1>on a nerve, which made his legs go numb. His

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<v Speaker 1>head injury only needed a handful of stitches, and outside

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<v Speaker 1>of some bruises, he walked away in weigh better shape

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<v Speaker 1>than we all expected. Susy didn't exactly appreciate the unexpected honesty.

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<v Speaker 1>By the time he got out of the hospital, he

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<v Speaker 1>had lost his house, his truck, custody of his kids,

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<v Speaker 1>and ended up with a pretty hefty monthly child support

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<v Speaker 1>and alimony situation. To top it all off, he got

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<v Speaker 1>officially written up at work for not wearing his hard

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<v Speaker 1>hat under the scaffolding, which was company policy. A while later,

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<v Speaker 1>I talked to another guy who was working with Larry

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<v Speaker 1>that day. Apparently the whole incident started because a forklift

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<v Speaker 1>picked up one of the storage carts for the scaffold pieces,

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<v Speaker 1>but it hadn't been properly secured, which which was Larry's responsibility.

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<v Speaker 1>Before we continue, do us a quick favor. Smash that

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<v Speaker 1>I was in a pretty bad accident a while ago

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<v Speaker 1>that left me with a concussion and a spinal injury

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<v Speaker 1>that needed emergency surgery. By the time I got to

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<v Speaker 1>the hospital, things were moving fast. The surgeon came in

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<v Speaker 1>and gave me the standard rundown of risks, but my

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<v Speaker 1>concussion brain completely latched onto one line, there's a very

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<v Speaker 1>small chance of death, and suddenly I was convinced I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't making it out of that operating room. In that

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<v Speaker 1>weird mix of panic and clarity that only comes when

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<v Speaker 1>you're concussed and think you're about to die, I had

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<v Speaker 1>one super specific regret hit me hard. I didn't tell

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<v Speaker 1>my brother I loved him enough. So with my phone

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<v Speaker 1>barely hanging on at like two percent battery, I called

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<v Speaker 1>him up. I told him I was proud of him,

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<v Speaker 1>that he should move on, live life to the fullest,

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<v Speaker 1>and basically gave him the emotional version of a farewell

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<v Speaker 1>letter in under a minute. Anyway, the surgery went great,

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<v Speaker 1>zero complications. I woke up groggy, but very much alive

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<v Speaker 1>and almost immediately saw my brother without missing a beat.

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<v Speaker 1>He smirked and said, so just because you survived doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>mean I can't still live my life to the fullest. Right.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't in either slash or situation. I obviously told

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<v Speaker 1>him he couldn't. Story three. So this happened during that

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<v Speaker 1>inland hurricane we had last year. The winds were insane,

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<v Speaker 1>trees were snapping, debris was flying around, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>huddled in the hallway of our house just waiting for

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<v Speaker 1>the roof to rip off. Genuinely thought the whole place

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<v Speaker 1>was going to come down. I remember sitting there, heart pounding, thinking, Yep,

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<v Speaker 1>this is it, this is how I go. At the time,

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<v Speaker 1>my roommate, whom I'd had a bit of a complicated

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<v Speaker 1>friendship slash flirtation situation with, was at work, and in

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<v Speaker 1>that moment of total panic and existential dread, I figured

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<v Speaker 1>if I was about to die, I didn't want to

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<v Speaker 1>go without saying something real, So I pulled out my

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<v Speaker 1>phone and sent her a text that said something like, Hey,

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<v Speaker 1>so I might actually die in this storm. Just wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to say I love you too much to risk not

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<v Speaker 1>saying it. If I somehow survive. See you tonight if

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. Sorry for the levity. Well, the house ended

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<v Speaker 1>up being almost completely fine ninety five percent and scathed.

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<v Speaker 1>Lost a couple of shingles, a tree branch dented the gutter,

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<v Speaker 1>but that was about it. When she got home from work,

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<v Speaker 1>she was smiling from ear to ear. She'd been feeling

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<v Speaker 1>the same way for a while, said, my apocalyptic panic

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<v Speaker 1>text kind of cleared the air. We decided to give

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<v Speaker 1>it a shot and actually dated for a while after that.

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<v Speaker 1>We're not together any more, but it ended on good terms.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd give the whole experience a solid seven out of ten.

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<v Speaker 1>Would confess my feelings during a near death situation again

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<v Speaker 1>if necessary. Story for when I was fifteen, I tore

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<v Speaker 1>my acl playing softball and needed me surgery. It was

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<v Speaker 1>a routine procedure, but teenage me didn't see it that way.

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<v Speaker 1>Once they gave me the anesthesia and I was good

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<v Speaker 1>and loopy my brain, I suddenly decided this was it

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<v Speaker 1>my final moment on Earth. I became completely convinced I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't going to make it off that operating table. As

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<v Speaker 1>they were wheeling me down the hall toward the ore,

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<v Speaker 1>I sat up, or tried to at least, and dramatically

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<v Speaker 1>shouted at a completely random orderly tell my family I

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<v Speaker 1>want to be an organ donor. I have zero memory

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<v Speaker 1>of this whatsoever, but my mom was standing nearby and

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<v Speaker 1>witnessed the whole thing. She still brings it up whenever

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<v Speaker 1>the topic of hospitals or organ donation comes up. We

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<v Speaker 1>still laugh about it now. At the time, I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>fully understand how organ donation actually worked. I had this

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<v Speaker 1>vague idea from TV and health class that organ donors

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<v Speaker 1>were walking around just one emergency away from being whisked

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<v Speaker 1>away to donate a kidney to a stranger. It honestly

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<v Speaker 1>freaked me out a bit. I thought it meant someone

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<v Speaker 1>could just ask for a piece of you and you'd

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<v Speaker 1>have to hand it over. Eventually, I realized that's not

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<v Speaker 1>how it works at all. You're not getting harvested just

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<v Speaker 1>because you're on a list. It's about helping others if

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<v Speaker 1>and when you truly can't be helped anymore. So I

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<v Speaker 1>educated myself, got over the weird fear, and signed up

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<v Speaker 1>to be a donor like I'd always wanted to. Funny enough,

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<v Speaker 1>I had a room eight years later who gave me

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<v Speaker 1>grief about it. He argued that you're going to be

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<v Speaker 1>so mad when they bring you back to life in

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<v Speaker 1>the future and you don't have your eyes, like we'd

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<v Speaker 1>reach a point in human history where full on resurrection

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<v Speaker 1>is on the table, but eyeballs are the one thing

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<v Speaker 1>science can't replicate, and out of all the people in

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<v Speaker 1>the world, I'm the lucky one they bring back still blind,

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<v Speaker 1>though because I checked a box at the DMV, the

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<v Speaker 1>logic was wild. Anyway, I'm thirty seven now and still

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<v Speaker 1>an organ donor and thankfully still in possession of both

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<v Speaker 1>eyes for now. Story five. My dad was recently diagnosed

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<v Speaker 1>with cancer, and after his initial surgery to remove the tumors,

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<v Speaker 1>he was in a rough spot week, in a lot

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<v Speaker 1>not in control. That was a scary realization for him.

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<v Speaker 1>Now let me give some background. My dad has always

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<v Speaker 1>been kind of selfish, the type of guy who really

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<v Speaker 1>only puts effort into things if there's something in it

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<v Speaker 1>for him or if it's convenient. My brother and I

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<v Speaker 1>were raised mostly by our mom and later on by

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<v Speaker 1>our amazing step dad, who's still a solid part of

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<v Speaker 1>our lives to this day. Growing up, my dad would

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<v Speaker 1>always make it clear that we weren't getting any kind

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<v Speaker 1>of inheritance. He planned to spend everything before he died.

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<v Speaker 1>He's been a bachelor for thirty plus years, no spous

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<v Speaker 1>and he'd repeat that no one's getting anything. When I

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<v Speaker 1>go like it was a badge of honor, my brother

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<v Speaker 1>and I always just shrugged it off. It's his money,

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<v Speaker 1>after all, and saying we didn't care was our way

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<v Speaker 1>of not letting it hang over us. So cut to

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<v Speaker 1>him lying in a hospital bed, genuinely thinking he might

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<v Speaker 1>be on his way out. He has this emotional breakthrough

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<v Speaker 1>and calls us both saying he's changed his perspective, says

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<v Speaker 1>he doesn't have to be in a pine box to

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<v Speaker 1>start giving, and wants to gift us each some money

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<v Speaker 1>while he's still around to see us enjoy it. We

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<v Speaker 1>were surprised but touched. It felt like a big shift

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<v Speaker 1>for him. There were some string attached, of course. He

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to approve what we used the money for. Fair enough,

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<v Speaker 1>my brother talked about putting in a new pool. I

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<v Speaker 1>brought up replacing floors and windows, which are things I

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<v Speaker 1>actually need but haven't been able to afford. Dad approved

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<v Speaker 1>both ideas and even seemed excited about them. He never

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<v Speaker 1>gave us an exact number, but the way he talked

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<v Speaker 1>it sounded like these would be significant gifts. A couple

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<v Speaker 1>of weeks later, the test results come back and it

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<v Speaker 1>turns out his cancer is very treatable and was caught early.

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<v Speaker 1>We were relieved. Both my brother and I had flown

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<v Speaker 1>out to be with him, helped take care of him

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<v Speaker 1>and support him through chemo. Then one day he sits

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<v Speaker 1>us down and says, now that I'm not dying, there

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<v Speaker 1>are still a lot of things I want to do,

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<v Speaker 1>so I'm not giving you guys the money. After all,

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<v Speaker 1>if you knew the man, you'd know this whole thing

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<v Speaker 1>was very on brand. Still, I won't lie. It stung.

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<v Speaker 1>We didn't expect anything, but having the rug pulled after

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<v Speaker 1>it was offered like some grand gesture was rough. Story six.

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<v Speaker 1>My dad and mom divorced when I was really young,

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<v Speaker 1>like two or three, and while we were technically in contact,

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<v Speaker 1>it was never a father daughter relationship. He was more

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<v Speaker 1>like an old acquaintance I saw from time to time.

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<v Speaker 1>He didn't parent me. We'd grab lunch every now and then,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe a drink if we happened to be in the

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<v Speaker 1>same town, but it was always surface level. Over time,

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<v Speaker 1>I started to realize just how invisible I was in

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<v Speaker 1>his life. Once, not long before the pandemic, I ran

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<v Speaker 1>into him at a pub. I walked up and said hi,

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<v Speaker 1>I said, oh, I'm his daughter, the look on his

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<v Speaker 1>face was pure shock. That was the moment it really

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<v Speaker 1>sank in. My dad didn't talk about me, probably never

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<v Speaker 1>mention me at all. When he passed, it got even

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<v Speaker 1>more surreal. His funeral was across the country, and my

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<v Speaker 1>sisters and I went. Even though we weren't close to him.

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<v Speaker 1>We spent the day being asked if we were co workers.

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<v Speaker 1>Not a single person there, people who had known him

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<v Speaker 1>for decades, had any idea he'd even been married, let

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<v Speaker 1>alone had three daughters. It wasn't even angering at that point,

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<v Speaker 1>just hollow. We weren't in his will because there wasn't one,

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<v Speaker 1>but we did end up finding out he had savings bonds,

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<v Speaker 1>apparently all in my sister's name. She mailed out our

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<v Speaker 1>shares later on, along with photocopies and receipts. My cut

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<v Speaker 1>came out to just under thirty dollars. It's not about

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<v Speaker 1>the money. It never was. It was just the final

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<v Speaker 1>proof that we were never really part of his story.

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<v Speaker 1>The worst part, honestly, was watching some of his friends react.

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<v Speaker 1>You could see how blindsided they were. They felt awful,

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<v Speaker 1>like they'd missed something huge about someone they thought they

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<v Speaker 1>her deeply and that he was sorry he hadn't always

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<v Speaker 1>and not out of love. He'd been initially drawn to

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<v Speaker 1>arrived soon after and rushed him to the hospital. Turned out,

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<v Speaker 1>we shared a toned down version of what he'd said

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<v Speaker 1>it with grace. Honestly, though it was a bit awkward

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<v Speaker 1>for us, We'd always looked up to him, and hearing

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<v Speaker 1>that his marriage had started on such shallow terms was surprising,

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<v Speaker 1>to say the least. Funny enough, they're still together and

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<v Speaker 1>stronger than ever now. I think the whole incident made

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<v Speaker 1>Story eight. This isn't exactly the dramatic life or death

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<v Speaker 1>much blood. While I was still conscious and in pain,

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<v Speaker 1>for months. I'd been putting away money, about five thousand

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<v Speaker 1>dollars with the plan to surprise her with a down

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<v Speaker 1>her I wanted her to have the five thousand dollars

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<v Speaker 1>i'd saved, and asked her not to tell my family

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<v Speaker 1>about it. I passed out on the phone with her

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<v Speaker 1>after that, and when I woke up in the hospital,

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<v Speaker 1>she was right there beside me. She asked me what

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<v Speaker 1>That's when she started laughing. Turns out she'd been secretly

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<v Speaker 1>Two weeks later, once I was able to walk again,

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<v Speaker 1>we took all the money we had twelve thousand dollars

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<v Speaker 1>and went to buy her car. Then we went to

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<v Speaker 1>my mom's house in Florida so I could recover more comfortably.

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<v Speaker 1>Story nine. Not me, but my old boss's brother. He

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<v Speaker 1>stuff involving land mines and chemical weapons. One day, he

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<v Speaker 1>dropped the device. Alarms went off, lock down protocols kicked in,

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<v Speaker 1>and the three people inside were told to prepare for

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<v Speaker 1>the worst. Basically, they were advised to call their families

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<v Speaker 1>and say their good byes. It was that serious. He

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<v Speaker 1>tried calling my boss his brother multiple times to say goodbye,

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<v Speaker 1>but my boss kept ignoring the call, assuming it was

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<v Speaker 1>something casual or unimportant. Meanwhile, in the locked room, the

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<v Speaker 1>situation got even tenser. The device wasn't detonated, but no

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<v Speaker 1>one wanted to risk another move, So my boss's brother

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<v Speaker 1>stepped up and volunteered to finish disarming the bomb. His

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<v Speaker 1>logic was, if this thing's going to go off, I'd

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<v Speaker 1>rather it be quick than die slowly from whatever it's

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<v Speaker 1>packed with. Miraculously, he succeeded disarm the whole thing, no casualties,

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<v Speaker 1>no detonation. Now, every time his brother's phone rings, he

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<v Speaker 1>always picks up, no matter what story ten. This didn't

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<v Speaker 1>happen to me directly, but to a close friend, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was there when it happened. Two days before my

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<v Speaker 1>of nowhere, admitted to killing my friend's dad many years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>She said she found out he had been essaying a

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<v Speaker 1>disabled neighbor's child, and after that she couldn't live with

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<v Speaker 1>letting it go unpunished, so she claimed she started feeding

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<v Speaker 1>him rap poison. Now what's wild is that no one

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<v Speaker 1>ever suspected her. Everyone thought he just came down with

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<v Speaker 1>some mysterious illness. He was in the hospital for about

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<v Speaker 1>a month before he died, So we asked her, wait,

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<v Speaker 1>but he was in the hospital for weeks. Wouldn't they

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<v Speaker 1>have figured it out. She just looked at us and said,

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<v Speaker 1>that's why I told him not to eat that horrible

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<v Speaker 1>hospital food. I brought him food myself every day. We

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<v Speaker 1>were all just stunned, no idea if it was true

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<v Speaker 1>or if she was just saying something wild at the end.

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<v Speaker 1>But she passed two days later and no one ever

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<v Speaker 1>brought it up again. Whether it was a real confession

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<v Speaker 1>or something her mind created near the end, I honestly

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, but it stuck with all of us ever since.

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<v Speaker 1>Story eleven. This one came from my great grandmother, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was in her final days, completely out of it

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<v Speaker 1>on pain meds, and started having conversations with people who

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<v Speaker 1>weren't there. At one point, she began talking to me

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<v Speaker 1>but called me deb which is my aunt's name, so

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<v Speaker 1>she thought I was someone else entirely. And then she

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<v Speaker 1>just casually said her youngest nephew wasn't actually her nephew,

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<v Speaker 1>he was her great nephew. The woman he believed to

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<v Speaker 1>be his oldest sister was actually his biological mother. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't say a word about it at the time, just

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<v Speaker 1>let it slide and keep my mouth shut. Honestly, I

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<v Speaker 1>Fast forward about two years, her sister passed away, and

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<v Speaker 1>in the fallout, the truth came out from the niece,

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<v Speaker 1>who was actually the guy's mom. She finally admitted it

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<v Speaker 1>to him and it tore the family apart, huge fallout.

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<v Speaker 1>People stopped speaking to each other, old wounds reopened, and

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<v Speaker 1>it turned into full blown family warfare. So, yeah, she

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't just rambling. That confession was very real. Story twelve.

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<v Speaker 1>I was stationed in Hawaii when that infamous ballistic missile

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<v Speaker 1>alert came through, the one that said this is not

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<v Speaker 1>a drill. For a few long, horrifying minutes, we all

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<v Speaker 1>thought it was real. At first, there was this eerie calm.

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<v Speaker 1>I had just been sipping my coffee and scrolling through

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<v Speaker 1>Warhammer subreddits, enjoying a lazy Saturday morning. Then my phone

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<v Speaker 1>lit up with that alert. My brain did a hard

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<v Speaker 1>switch from weekend mode toll we might all die in

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<v Speaker 1>the next twenty minutes. I immediately called my wife. She

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<v Speaker 1>a solid distance away from where we lived on base,

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<v Speaker 1>so there was no realistic way to reach each other

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<v Speaker 1>in time. I gave her a rundown of what to do. Immediately,

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<v Speaker 1>get to shelter, avoid windows, stay underground if she could,

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<v Speaker 1>and told her to call her family. Then I called

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<v Speaker 1>my parents, who live on the East Coast. I told

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<v Speaker 1>them not to panic, that I loved them and that

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<v Speaker 1>no matter what happened, they'd always meant the world to me.

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<v Speaker 1>But I also told them I had to hang up Rachel.

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<v Speaker 1>My wife was out there alone and I needed to

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<v Speaker 1>make sure she was okay. I called her back. She

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<v Speaker 1>was trying to keep it together, but I could hear

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<v Speaker 1>the fear in her voice. I just talked to her,

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<v Speaker 1>told her how much I loved her, reminded her of

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<v Speaker 1>the best moments we'd had together, tried to keep her grounded.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know what else to do, so I just

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<v Speaker 1>It felt like we were either minutes away from death

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<v Speaker 1>or about to be launched into war. Either way, everything

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<v Speaker 1>was about to change. But nothing happened, no impact, no shockwave.

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<v Speaker 1>Eventually we found out someone had hit the wrong button.

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<v Speaker 1>It was all just a mistake, a very public, very

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<v Speaker 1>some anger, but oddly it also brought us all closer.

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<v Speaker 1>What messed with me most was how normal everything had

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<v Speaker 1>felt just moments before. One second, I was enjoying a

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<v Speaker 1>quiet morning. Next I was trying to soothe my wife

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<v Speaker 1>through what we thought were our final moments and prepping

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<v Speaker 1>to head to war. We joke about it now, between

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<v Speaker 1>surviving twenty twelve, the Great Recession, that missile crisis, and

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<v Speaker 1>a global pandemic, it kind of feels like we've been

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<v Speaker 1>Story thirteen. When I was younger, my grandfather on my

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<v Speaker 1>turned out to be tuberculosis. At the time, things were

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<v Speaker 1>tense in our family. My grandfather had always been a

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<v Speaker 1>very strict, traditional man. He had strong ideas about how

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<v Speaker 1>people should live their lives, and he pushed those expects

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<v Speaker 1>hard on both my dad and to a lesser extent, me.

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<v Speaker 1>It created a lot of resentment over the years, especially

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<v Speaker 1>between him and my father. Anyway, there was a moment

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<v Speaker 1>He pulled my Dad aside and for the first time

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<v Speaker 1>in his life opened up. He told him, I'm sorry

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<v Speaker 1>for being a terrible father to you, my son. I

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<v Speaker 1>pushed too hard, forced my beliefs on you and your boy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know you both resented me for it. I

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<v Speaker 1>was too strict, and I see that now. Maybe this

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<v Speaker 1>illness is karma, or maybe it's a wake up call,

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<v Speaker 1>but let it be a lesson to both of us.

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<v Speaker 1>I love you. It hit my dad pretty hard. He

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't the kind of man to cry or show emotion much,

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<v Speaker 1>but I could tell those words meant something. For years,

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<v Speaker 1>he'd carried that emotional weight and Finally, hearing his dad

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<v Speaker 1>admit fault brought him some closure. Surprisingly, a few weeks later,

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<v Speaker 1>my grandfather's health unexpectedly improved. The TV was treated successfully,

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<v Speaker 1>and he fully recovered. Some time after he got I

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<v Speaker 1>asked him if he meant what he'd said back in

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<v Speaker 1>I meant it all. I was wrong, and I'm doing

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<v Speaker 1>my best now to live better. He eventually moved out

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<v Speaker 1>of the city and settled in a quiet rural area,

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<v Speaker 1>where he spent the rest of his life in peace, gardening, reading,

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<v Speaker 1>and enjoying nature. He mellowed out so much. The man

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<v Speaker 1>who once lectured and criticized us constantly became someone who

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<v Speaker 1>For a bit more context, my parents were teen parents.

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<v Speaker 1>They were young, in love and trying to figure things out.

416
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<v Speaker 1>My dad worked himself to the bone trying to provide,

417
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<v Speaker 1>and sadly he passed away from overworking. My mom eventually remarried,

418
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<v Speaker 1>but her new husband was nothing like my dad. He

419
00:21:47.240 --> 00:21:50.319
<v Speaker 1>was egotistical and harsh, the kind of person who never

420
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<v Speaker 1>tried to understand our families past. But despite all that,

421
00:21:54.119 --> 00:21:56.759
<v Speaker 1>I still think about that moment in the hospital between

422
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<v Speaker 1>my dad and grandpa. It didn't undo the years of tension,

423
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<v Speaker 1>but it was something real, and in the end, I'm

424
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<v Speaker 1>glad my grandfather lived long enough to reflect change and

425
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<v Speaker 1>leave this world with some peace in his heart. Story fourteen.

426
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<v Speaker 1>When I was deployed in a rock BALLID two thousand

427
00:22:13.519 --> 00:22:16.039
<v Speaker 1>four to two thousand five, I was part of a

428
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<v Speaker 1>small team that operated on base, but I wasn't really

429
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<v Speaker 1>part of a specific unit that men. I spent a

430
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<v Speaker 1>lot of my off duty hours alone, and looking back,

431
00:22:24.920 --> 00:22:27.759
<v Speaker 1>being isolated like that in a war zone didn't do

432
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<v Speaker 1>great things for my mental state. I even had a massive,

433
00:22:31.000 --> 00:22:34.079
<v Speaker 1>twenty plus person tent all to myself, which made the

434
00:22:34.079 --> 00:22:37.759
<v Speaker 1>place feel even more hollow. Rocket and mortar attacks were

435
00:22:37.799 --> 00:22:40.480
<v Speaker 1>pretty common on the base. The enemy would set up

436
00:22:40.480 --> 00:22:44.160
<v Speaker 1>makeshift launchers basically roof gutters buried in the dirt and

437
00:22:44.240 --> 00:22:48.240
<v Speaker 1>attach a timed fuse before disappearing hours later. The mortars

438
00:22:48.279 --> 00:22:51.319
<v Speaker 1>would hit, usually in volleys of three. Most of the

439
00:22:51.359 --> 00:22:55.559
<v Speaker 1>time they were wildly inaccurate, but not always. One airman

440
00:22:55.680 --> 00:22:58.079
<v Speaker 1>lost both his hands and legs to an attack, so

441
00:22:58.200 --> 00:23:00.480
<v Speaker 1>the danger was real, even if the hits were were rare.

442
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<v Speaker 1>One night, I was alone in my tent, just killing time,

443
00:23:04.440 --> 00:23:08.039
<v Speaker 1>probably reading or playing video games, when the loudest explosion

444
00:23:08.079 --> 00:23:10.640
<v Speaker 1>I'd ever heard went off. I didn't even hear it

445
00:23:10.720 --> 00:23:13.160
<v Speaker 1>as much as I felt it. The blast hit hard

446
00:23:13.160 --> 00:23:17.680
<v Speaker 1>and close. Then moments later, a second mortar landed even closer.

447
00:23:18.119 --> 00:23:20.759
<v Speaker 1>I heard debris and dirt pepper the outside of my tent.

448
00:23:21.200 --> 00:23:23.799
<v Speaker 1>That was the moment my body froze. I knew these

449
00:23:23.839 --> 00:23:27.359
<v Speaker 1>attacks usually came in threes, and the third could land anywhere,

450
00:23:27.519 --> 00:23:30.480
<v Speaker 1>including right on me. So in the few seconds I

451
00:23:30.519 --> 00:23:32.960
<v Speaker 1>thought I had left, my brain did what I guess

452
00:23:32.960 --> 00:23:34.960
<v Speaker 1>a lot of people's brains do when they think the

453
00:23:35.079 --> 00:23:37.559
<v Speaker 1>end is coming, and I made peace with it. I

454
00:23:37.640 --> 00:23:40.720
<v Speaker 1>mentally reached out to whatever higher power might be out there.

455
00:23:41.160 --> 00:23:44.480
<v Speaker 1>I remember thinking something along the lines of if you're there,

456
00:23:44.759 --> 00:23:47.160
<v Speaker 1>now's a good time to show up. I even made

457
00:23:47.160 --> 00:23:49.880
<v Speaker 1>a wild promise in my head if I survived this,

458
00:23:50.279 --> 00:23:53.240
<v Speaker 1>I'll become a priest. It was the most genuine moment

459
00:23:53.279 --> 00:23:56.960
<v Speaker 1>of desperation I've ever had. The third explosion never came.

460
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<v Speaker 1>Minutes passed, and then hours, and that was it. The

461
00:24:00.519 --> 00:24:04.920
<v Speaker 1>attack was over. I survived. Obviously, I didn't become a priest,

462
00:24:05.200 --> 00:24:08.480
<v Speaker 1>but that moment changed me. It's strange. I think I

463
00:24:08.559 --> 00:24:11.440
<v Speaker 1>might still carry some form of PTSD from that night,

464
00:24:11.799 --> 00:24:14.319
<v Speaker 1>but not in a typical way. I'm not haunted by

465
00:24:14.400 --> 00:24:18.400
<v Speaker 1>vivid flashbacks or anything, but it definitely shifted my perspective.

466
00:24:18.839 --> 00:24:21.640
<v Speaker 1>I've found that the big existential stuff doesn't FaZe me

467
00:24:21.680 --> 00:24:24.160
<v Speaker 1>any more. I don't get wrapped up in fear about

468
00:24:24.200 --> 00:24:27.400
<v Speaker 1>death or what's beyond this life. I've made my peace

469
00:24:27.440 --> 00:24:31.079
<v Speaker 1>with those questions, but ironically I have less patience for

470
00:24:31.119 --> 00:24:34.200
<v Speaker 1>the small day to day annoyances. My wife and kids

471
00:24:34.200 --> 00:24:37.079
<v Speaker 1>would probably say I can be irritable at times, and

472
00:24:37.119 --> 00:24:40.440
<v Speaker 1>they wouldn't be wrong. I still think about that night sometimes,

473
00:24:40.960 --> 00:24:43.519
<v Speaker 1>not because of the fear, but because it's the clearest

474
00:24:43.559 --> 00:24:46.279
<v Speaker 1>memory I have of feeling totally at the mercy of

475
00:24:46.319 --> 00:24:50.039
<v Speaker 1>something bigger than myself, and somehow I walked away from

476
00:24:50.039 --> 00:24:52.039
<v Speaker 1>it with a kind of peace. I didn't expect to

477
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<v Speaker 1>find Story fifteen. I guess mine's a little different. My

478
00:24:56.160 --> 00:24:59.680
<v Speaker 1>confessions and near death experiences never happened at the same time,

479
00:25:00.119 --> 00:25:03.000
<v Speaker 1>but they've shaped each other in weird ways. I've written

480
00:25:03.039 --> 00:25:05.920
<v Speaker 1>several letters in dark moments of my life, kind of

481
00:25:05.960 --> 00:25:08.880
<v Speaker 1>like goodbye notes, always thinking it might be the end,

482
00:25:09.359 --> 00:25:12.640
<v Speaker 1>but ironically writing those letters actually helps me not go

483
00:25:12.759 --> 00:25:15.599
<v Speaker 1>through with anything. I get so caught up in explaining

484
00:25:15.680 --> 00:25:18.279
<v Speaker 1>every little detail why I felt the way I did

485
00:25:18.519 --> 00:25:21.079
<v Speaker 1>and trying to absolve others of guilt that by the

486
00:25:21.200 --> 00:25:23.400
<v Speaker 1>end of it, I've processed so much that I no

487
00:25:23.480 --> 00:25:26.440
<v Speaker 1>longer feel like I'm in crisis. It's happened at least

488
00:25:26.480 --> 00:25:30.359
<v Speaker 1>five times. Writing became both my warning sign and my therapy.

489
00:25:30.839 --> 00:25:33.720
<v Speaker 1>On the flip side, I've made plenty of love confessions

490
00:25:33.720 --> 00:25:37.039
<v Speaker 1>to people over the years, driven by this constant feeling

491
00:25:37.039 --> 00:25:40.599
<v Speaker 1>that life is short and unpredictable, like why leave things

492
00:25:40.680 --> 00:25:44.880
<v Speaker 1>unsaid when we could die tomorrow. Unfortunately, those confessions never

493
00:25:44.960 --> 00:25:48.319
<v Speaker 1>quite landed. Either I was too late, or they ghosted me,

494
00:25:48.720 --> 00:25:51.400
<v Speaker 1>or they were already dating someone. But I still don't

495
00:25:51.400 --> 00:25:54.640
<v Speaker 1>regret saying it. I'd rather be honest and risk rejection

496
00:25:54.799 --> 00:25:58.720
<v Speaker 1>than let silence turn into regret. As for near death stuff, yeah,

497
00:25:58.799 --> 00:26:01.519
<v Speaker 1>I've had a few moments. I almost choked to death

498
00:26:01.519 --> 00:26:03.960
<v Speaker 1>on a peppermint when I was eight legit thought that

499
00:26:04.119 --> 00:26:06.839
<v Speaker 1>was it. Got threatened by a room mate who snapped

500
00:26:06.920 --> 00:26:09.359
<v Speaker 1>during a hotel stay on a band trip and pulled

501
00:26:09.400 --> 00:26:12.000
<v Speaker 1>a knife on me. A couple of years later, I

502
00:26:12.119 --> 00:26:15.319
<v Speaker 1>ended up in the hospital post wisdom tooth surgery because

503
00:26:15.319 --> 00:26:18.720
<v Speaker 1>the bleeding wouldn't stop. Turns out, the pain killers I

504
00:26:18.799 --> 00:26:21.640
<v Speaker 1>was given didn't play nice with my mild clotting issue.

505
00:26:21.960 --> 00:26:24.359
<v Speaker 1>What was supposed to be routine turned into a few

506
00:26:24.440 --> 00:26:26.960
<v Speaker 1>days of real worry, and then there's just the every

507
00:26:27.039 --> 00:26:29.920
<v Speaker 1>day chaos. I've had too many close calls on the

508
00:26:30.000 --> 00:26:33.200
<v Speaker 1>road thanks to reckless drivers weaving through traffic at one

509
00:26:33.279 --> 00:26:36.319
<v Speaker 1>hundred plus m p h on highways. It's made me

510
00:26:36.359 --> 00:26:39.680
<v Speaker 1>a ridiculously alert driver, but it also fuels that same

511
00:26:39.799 --> 00:26:42.400
<v Speaker 1>say what you need to say mentality. I guess all

512
00:26:42.440 --> 00:26:45.960
<v Speaker 1>those brushes with danger have reinforced my belief that anything

513
00:26:45.960 --> 00:26:49.480
<v Speaker 1>can happen at any time. Story sixteen. We had bought

514
00:26:49.519 --> 00:26:51.920
<v Speaker 1>a piece of land out in the woods and figured

515
00:26:51.920 --> 00:26:53.960
<v Speaker 1>we might as well put it to use by cutting

516
00:26:53.960 --> 00:26:56.880
<v Speaker 1>down some trees for firewood. It was just a casual

517
00:26:56.960 --> 00:26:59.880
<v Speaker 1>day of working out doors, nothing out of the ordinary,

518
00:27:00.119 --> 00:27:03.000
<v Speaker 1>but things took a dark turn after one point. We

519
00:27:03.000 --> 00:27:05.160
<v Speaker 1>were taking down what we thought would be the last

520
00:27:05.200 --> 00:27:07.759
<v Speaker 1>tree of the day. We cut it clean, but when

521
00:27:07.839 --> 00:27:11.160
<v Speaker 1>it fell it hit another tree. That second tree wobbled

522
00:27:11.200 --> 00:27:14.200
<v Speaker 1>and toppled into a third one, which ended up crashing

523
00:27:14.240 --> 00:27:18.440
<v Speaker 1>straight down on my coworker, total domino effect. It sounds fake,

524
00:27:18.720 --> 00:27:21.680
<v Speaker 1>but I swear it actually happened by some freak stroke

525
00:27:21.720 --> 00:27:24.920
<v Speaker 1>of luck. The tree didn't land completely flush with the ground.

526
00:27:25.400 --> 00:27:27.960
<v Speaker 1>It was slightly elevated by a stump or maybe the

527
00:27:28.039 --> 00:27:31.799
<v Speaker 1>terrain underneath, so it wasn't crushing him entirely. Still, it

528
00:27:31.880 --> 00:27:34.640
<v Speaker 1>was bad. The guy was pinned and in serious pain.

529
00:27:35.079 --> 00:27:37.559
<v Speaker 1>There were a couple of us there, and we immediately

530
00:27:37.640 --> 00:27:40.519
<v Speaker 1>rushed to help. While we were scrambling to move the tree,

531
00:27:40.839 --> 00:27:42.839
<v Speaker 1>he looked up at us and said he needed his

532
00:27:42.920 --> 00:27:45.559
<v Speaker 1>phone so he could call his wife. He just wanted

533
00:27:45.559 --> 00:27:47.799
<v Speaker 1>to tell her he loved her and say his good byes.

534
00:27:48.279 --> 00:27:50.599
<v Speaker 1>He genuinely thought he was going to die right there

535
00:27:50.599 --> 00:27:53.160
<v Speaker 1>in the woods. We managed to roll the tree off

536
00:27:53.319 --> 00:27:56.799
<v Speaker 1>after a few minutes of sheer panic and effort. Paramedics

537
00:27:56.799 --> 00:27:59.400
<v Speaker 1>came pretty quickly after we called, and it turned out

538
00:27:59.400 --> 00:28:03.039
<v Speaker 1>he had forebod broken ribs, but nothing life threatening. Definitely

539
00:28:03.039 --> 00:28:06.039
<v Speaker 1>a close call, though he made a full recovery, but

540
00:28:06.119 --> 00:28:08.799
<v Speaker 1>I think that moment really shook him. We all walked

541
00:28:08.839 --> 00:28:11.559
<v Speaker 1>away a little quieter and way more respectful of how

542
00:28:11.640 --> 00:28:16.759
<v Speaker 1>unpredictable nature and gravity can be. Story seventeen. This happened

543
00:28:16.799 --> 00:28:18.880
<v Speaker 1>to me a couple of years ago, and I still

544
00:28:18.920 --> 00:28:21.640
<v Speaker 1>think about it often. I was in a really dark place,

545
00:28:21.680 --> 00:28:25.559
<v Speaker 1>mentally overwhelmed with anxiety and self doubt. I had been

546
00:28:25.599 --> 00:28:28.440
<v Speaker 1>dating this guy for almost two years, but throughout our

547
00:28:28.440 --> 00:28:31.680
<v Speaker 1>relationship I kept having this sinking feeling that he was

548
00:28:31.720 --> 00:28:35.400
<v Speaker 1>being unfaithful. He always insisted I was just being paranoid,

549
00:28:35.640 --> 00:28:38.119
<v Speaker 1>that I was imagining things, and that I needed to

550
00:28:38.160 --> 00:28:42.039
<v Speaker 1>stop being so insecure. Over time, I started to believe him.

551
00:28:42.400 --> 00:28:45.359
<v Speaker 1>I began to think I was the problem. During that December,

552
00:28:45.680 --> 00:28:48.799
<v Speaker 1>things hit a breaking point. I truly believed I couldn't

553
00:28:48.839 --> 00:28:51.279
<v Speaker 1>take it anymore and made an attempt on my life.

554
00:28:51.720 --> 00:28:54.559
<v Speaker 1>Before I did, I called him and poured my heart out.

555
00:28:54.960 --> 00:28:57.240
<v Speaker 1>I told him I finally believed him that I was

556
00:28:57.279 --> 00:29:01.079
<v Speaker 1>sorry for being suspicious and accusing him of cheating, especially

557
00:29:01.079 --> 00:29:03.839
<v Speaker 1>with his only female friend, whom I had always felt

558
00:29:03.880 --> 00:29:07.559
<v Speaker 1>uneasy about. I apologized for being, in my mind, a

559
00:29:07.680 --> 00:29:10.920
<v Speaker 1>terrible girl friend. I took all the blame. I thought

560
00:29:10.920 --> 00:29:12.920
<v Speaker 1>it was the last thing I'd ever say to him.

561
00:29:13.279 --> 00:29:16.400
<v Speaker 1>But I survived. I ended up waking up and somehow

562
00:29:16.440 --> 00:29:18.720
<v Speaker 1>still made it to school the next day because I

563
00:29:18.720 --> 00:29:21.559
<v Speaker 1>had mid terms. No one around me had any idea

564
00:29:21.599 --> 00:29:25.279
<v Speaker 1>what had just happened. I was emotionally wrecked and physically drained,

565
00:29:25.519 --> 00:29:28.039
<v Speaker 1>but I showed up like nothing happened. And then he

566
00:29:28.079 --> 00:29:32.039
<v Speaker 1>ghosted me two full days of complete silence after almost

567
00:29:32.119 --> 00:29:34.960
<v Speaker 1>two years together. He didn't say a word. When he

568
00:29:35.000 --> 00:29:37.359
<v Speaker 1>finally did reach out, it was just to break up

569
00:29:37.400 --> 00:29:40.599
<v Speaker 1>with me. Shortly after, I found out the truth that

570
00:29:40.640 --> 00:29:43.240
<v Speaker 1>he had been cheating. Everything I had felt for months

571
00:29:43.279 --> 00:29:45.920
<v Speaker 1>was right, but he had manipulated me into thinking I

572
00:29:46.000 --> 00:29:50.640
<v Speaker 1>was just crazy and insecure, gaslighting at its finest. Looking back,

573
00:29:50.920 --> 00:29:53.279
<v Speaker 1>the part that stings the most isn't even the cheating.

574
00:29:53.680 --> 00:29:56.319
<v Speaker 1>It's the fact that I apologized to him that, in

575
00:29:56.359 --> 00:29:58.920
<v Speaker 1>what I thought were my final moments, I spent my

576
00:29:59.000 --> 00:30:02.119
<v Speaker 1>last energy trying to make him feel okay. I regret

577
00:30:02.160 --> 00:30:05.039
<v Speaker 1>that deeply, but if there's a silver lining, it's that

578
00:30:05.119 --> 00:30:07.599
<v Speaker 1>I made it. I've done a lot of growing since then.

579
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<v Speaker 1>Story eighteen. A few years ago, I went backpacking with

580
00:30:11.640 --> 00:30:13.839
<v Speaker 1>my brother and dad on a trail my dad had

581
00:30:13.920 --> 00:30:17.279
<v Speaker 1>dreamed about hiking for years He'd been reading guidebooks and

582
00:30:17.319 --> 00:30:20.240
<v Speaker 1>planning the route for nearly twelve months, so this trip

583
00:30:20.279 --> 00:30:22.640
<v Speaker 1>meant a lot to him. The plan was to hike

584
00:30:22.720 --> 00:30:25.240
<v Speaker 1>for a week, but from day one it was clear

585
00:30:25.319 --> 00:30:29.160
<v Speaker 1>my dad was struggling physically. My brother, who's in great shape,

586
00:30:29.200 --> 00:30:31.759
<v Speaker 1>would hike ahead with me for a bit, drop his pack,

587
00:30:32.000 --> 00:30:34.240
<v Speaker 1>and then run back to help Dad by carrying his

588
00:30:34.319 --> 00:30:38.079
<v Speaker 1>load to Meanwhile, I'd slowly make progress with my pack

589
00:30:38.279 --> 00:30:40.799
<v Speaker 1>and my brother's pack while they caught up. Not the

590
00:30:40.839 --> 00:30:44.119
<v Speaker 1>smoothest system, but we were making it work. I pushed

591
00:30:44.119 --> 00:30:46.200
<v Speaker 1>hard to make sure we spent at least one night

592
00:30:46.240 --> 00:30:48.759
<v Speaker 1>on the trail, since I knew how important it was

593
00:30:48.799 --> 00:30:51.640
<v Speaker 1>for our dad to experience it. As the day went on,

594
00:30:52.039 --> 00:30:54.799
<v Speaker 1>I found myself hiking alone, trying to get us to

595
00:30:54.839 --> 00:30:59.000
<v Speaker 1>the designated overnight shelter before dark. That's when things got intense.

596
00:30:59.480 --> 00:31:01.880
<v Speaker 1>I was alone, I owned tired, and a little on edge.

597
00:31:01.880 --> 00:31:04.960
<v Speaker 1>When the bushes just off the trail started shaking violently,

598
00:31:05.440 --> 00:31:09.200
<v Speaker 1>I froze. My first thought was bar The adrenaline hit hard.

599
00:31:09.640 --> 00:31:13.039
<v Speaker 1>I slowly backed away, trying not to make any sudden moves.

600
00:31:13.519 --> 00:31:15.319
<v Speaker 1>I made it back to the place where we'd left

601
00:31:15.319 --> 00:31:18.759
<v Speaker 1>My brother's pack, and thinking I might be in real danger,

602
00:31:19.160 --> 00:31:21.119
<v Speaker 1>I sat down and wrote a note to my wife

603
00:31:21.119 --> 00:31:23.640
<v Speaker 1>and kids. I told them I loved them and added

604
00:31:23.640 --> 00:31:26.960
<v Speaker 1>a line, don't be as stubborn as me. Then, just

605
00:31:27.000 --> 00:31:29.720
<v Speaker 1>in case, I pulled my driver's license out and stuck

606
00:31:29.720 --> 00:31:33.000
<v Speaker 1>it in my pants pocket, figuring if something happened, at

607
00:31:33.079 --> 00:31:35.799
<v Speaker 1>least they'd be able to identify me. With no cell

608
00:31:35.880 --> 00:31:38.759
<v Speaker 1>signal and panic setting in, I decided to try and

609
00:31:38.799 --> 00:31:42.319
<v Speaker 1>find my brother and dad. Safety in numbers right, but

610
00:31:42.400 --> 00:31:45.079
<v Speaker 1>as I was hiking back, I ran into another hiker

611
00:31:45.119 --> 00:31:48.440
<v Speaker 1>headed toward the shelter. Just seeing another person calmed me

612
00:31:48.480 --> 00:31:51.440
<v Speaker 1>down a little. I figured, if there really is a bear,

613
00:31:51.759 --> 00:31:55.079
<v Speaker 1>at least he'll spot it first, so I turned around

614
00:31:55.160 --> 00:31:57.799
<v Speaker 1>and went back toward the shelter with him. Turns out

615
00:31:57.799 --> 00:31:59.920
<v Speaker 1>that was the right call. I managed to get the

616
00:32:00.160 --> 00:32:02.640
<v Speaker 1>tent set up and everything ready by the time my

617
00:32:02.720 --> 00:32:05.559
<v Speaker 1>brother and dad showed up at dusk. When I told

618
00:32:05.559 --> 00:32:08.079
<v Speaker 1>them what happened, my brother shrugged and said it was

619
00:32:08.119 --> 00:32:11.359
<v Speaker 1>probably just a deer, but there were multiple signs posted

620
00:32:11.400 --> 00:32:14.160
<v Speaker 1>around the shelter warning about an aggressive black bear in

621
00:32:14.200 --> 00:32:17.480
<v Speaker 1>the area, so I'm not sure bear or deer. I

622
00:32:17.480 --> 00:32:20.359
<v Speaker 1>have never felt that kind of fear before I honestly

623
00:32:20.359 --> 00:32:22.880
<v Speaker 1>thought I was done for. I know now that black

624
00:32:22.920 --> 00:32:26.160
<v Speaker 1>bears rarely attack, and I probably wasn't in actual danger,

625
00:32:26.440 --> 00:32:29.200
<v Speaker 1>but in that moment, I was fully convinced my life

626
00:32:29.240 --> 00:32:31.799
<v Speaker 1>was on the line. My heart still races when I

627
00:32:31.839 --> 00:32:35.119
<v Speaker 1>think about it. The next day, thankfully, the trail was

628
00:32:35.200 --> 00:32:38.200
<v Speaker 1>mostly downhill and we hiked out as a group. The

629
00:32:38.279 --> 00:32:40.599
<v Speaker 1>trip didn't go as planned, but we all made it

630
00:32:40.640 --> 00:32:45.200
<v Speaker 1>out safe and ended up with some unforgettable stories. Story nineteen.

631
00:32:45.680 --> 00:32:48.359
<v Speaker 1>This isn't my own dying confession, but it involves my

632
00:32:48.400 --> 00:32:52.359
<v Speaker 1>biological dad, so I thought i'd share some background. My

633
00:32:52.440 --> 00:32:55.160
<v Speaker 1>parents split when I was just two years old. I

634
00:32:55.200 --> 00:32:58.640
<v Speaker 1>stayed with my mom, who later remarried and moved to Australia.

635
00:32:59.039 --> 00:33:01.839
<v Speaker 1>I didn't meet my bio logical dad until I was sixteen,

636
00:33:02.240 --> 00:33:04.839
<v Speaker 1>so he was pretty much a stranger to me. Fast

637
00:33:04.839 --> 00:33:07.759
<v Speaker 1>forward to my mid twenties. A few years ago, I

638
00:33:07.839 --> 00:33:10.119
<v Speaker 1>found out through my mom that he had been diagnosed

639
00:33:10.119 --> 00:33:13.079
<v Speaker 1>with cancer and given only about three months to live,

640
00:33:13.480 --> 00:33:15.680
<v Speaker 1>but he fought hard against it. When he was on

641
00:33:15.759 --> 00:33:18.759
<v Speaker 1>his deathbed, he made a confession to his three daughters

642
00:33:18.839 --> 00:33:22.079
<v Speaker 1>from another relationship. He told them about me that he

643
00:33:22.119 --> 00:33:24.680
<v Speaker 1>had kept me a secret all these years and gave

644
00:33:24.720 --> 00:33:28.160
<v Speaker 1>them instructions on how to get in touch with me. Miraculously,

645
00:33:28.400 --> 00:33:31.440
<v Speaker 1>he recovered and has now been cancer free for six years.

646
00:33:31.920 --> 00:33:34.880
<v Speaker 1>The weird part is none of those sisters ever reached

647
00:33:34.920 --> 00:33:38.440
<v Speaker 1>out to me honestly. Even though he's my biological dad,

648
00:33:38.680 --> 00:33:41.839
<v Speaker 1>he's still basically a stranger. My stepdad is the one

649
00:33:41.839 --> 00:33:44.200
<v Speaker 1>who raised me and has always been my real dad,

650
00:33:44.640 --> 00:33:47.400
<v Speaker 1>so I'm okay with not having contact with those sisters.

651
00:33:47.839 --> 00:33:50.960
<v Speaker 1>It's a strange situation, but it didn't really change much

652
00:33:51.000 --> 00:33:55.079
<v Speaker 1>in my life story twenty Back in twenty nineteen, I

653
00:33:55.160 --> 00:33:58.480
<v Speaker 1>hid an absolute breaking point. Within just a few months,

654
00:33:58.680 --> 00:34:01.759
<v Speaker 1>I lost my remaining family members and my dog all

655
00:34:01.799 --> 00:34:04.839
<v Speaker 1>in quick succession. It crushed me so deeply that I

656
00:34:04.880 --> 00:34:09.039
<v Speaker 1>completely stopped taking care of myself. I got severely dehydrated,

657
00:34:09.239 --> 00:34:13.679
<v Speaker 1>developed chest and throat infections, and my immune system basically collapsed.

658
00:34:14.159 --> 00:34:16.719
<v Speaker 1>My boyfriend was my rock through it all. He helped

659
00:34:16.719 --> 00:34:19.320
<v Speaker 1>me start eating and drinking again, and I even had

660
00:34:19.320 --> 00:34:21.960
<v Speaker 1>to go to the hospital for a Ford drip to rehydrate,

661
00:34:22.239 --> 00:34:25.760
<v Speaker 1>plus a heavy course of antibiotics. During this time, I

662
00:34:25.800 --> 00:34:29.159
<v Speaker 1>felt like I couldn't breathe properly. I was crying every day,

663
00:34:29.480 --> 00:34:32.239
<v Speaker 1>convinced that this was the end for me. Facing that

664
00:34:32.360 --> 00:34:36.039
<v Speaker 1>near death experience made me realize something important. I hadn't

665
00:34:36.079 --> 00:34:38.440
<v Speaker 1>truly told the people I cared about how much they

666
00:34:38.519 --> 00:34:41.480
<v Speaker 1>meant to me. So I reached out, telling my friends,

667
00:34:41.519 --> 00:34:44.760
<v Speaker 1>my boyfriend, and even talking to my pets. I even

668
00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:47.519
<v Speaker 1>went to my uncle's grave and finally patched up a

669
00:34:47.559 --> 00:34:51.360
<v Speaker 1>bunch of broken relationships I'd neglected or lost over the years.

670
00:34:51.800 --> 00:34:54.519
<v Speaker 1>I didn't die, of course, and eventually I got better,

671
00:34:54.920 --> 00:34:57.119
<v Speaker 1>but that brush with death pushed me to fix my

672
00:34:57.159 --> 00:35:00.719
<v Speaker 1>life in a way I never expected. Now everyone important

673
00:35:00.719 --> 00:35:03.400
<v Speaker 1>to me knows how I feel. I saved some friendships

674
00:35:03.440 --> 00:35:06.079
<v Speaker 1>I thought were gone forever, and I'm even closer to

675
00:35:06.119 --> 00:35:09.159
<v Speaker 1>my pets. It's kind of crazy, but thinking I was

676
00:35:09.199 --> 00:35:11.639
<v Speaker 1>going to die was what finally made me heal and

677
00:35:11.679 --> 00:35:15.800
<v Speaker 1>mend those broken bridges. Story twenty one. So mine wasn't

678
00:35:15.800 --> 00:35:19.079
<v Speaker 1>a dramatic car crash or life threatening illness. It was

679
00:35:19.119 --> 00:35:21.599
<v Speaker 1>a hash brownie that nearly made me spill my soul.

680
00:35:22.079 --> 00:35:24.519
<v Speaker 1>I had one at a friend's place, thinking it'd be

681
00:35:24.519 --> 00:35:27.360
<v Speaker 1>a chill time, but it hit me so wrong. My

682
00:35:27.440 --> 00:35:31.960
<v Speaker 1>blood pressure tanked. I couldn't breathe properly, and I genuinely thought, Yep,

683
00:35:32.000 --> 00:35:34.360
<v Speaker 1>this is how I go. I texted the guy who

684
00:35:34.440 --> 00:35:36.840
<v Speaker 1>gave it to me something along the lines of I'm

685
00:35:36.960 --> 00:35:40.400
<v Speaker 1>very intoxicated I might die today. As soon as I

686
00:35:40.480 --> 00:35:43.239
<v Speaker 1>sent it, I kind of shocked myself, like, if I'm

687
00:35:43.280 --> 00:35:46.119
<v Speaker 1>sending that kind of message, I must really not be okay.

688
00:35:46.639 --> 00:35:50.039
<v Speaker 1>So I ran to my mom for help. Yep, that desperate.

689
00:35:50.599 --> 00:35:53.480
<v Speaker 1>She basically went into full on panic mode, but did

690
00:35:53.480 --> 00:35:56.719
<v Speaker 1>her best. Started blowing air into my mouth, trying to

691
00:35:56.760 --> 00:35:59.440
<v Speaker 1>help me breathe, even though neither of us really knew

692
00:35:59.480 --> 00:36:01.760
<v Speaker 1>what we were doing. I had a brief moment of

693
00:36:01.800 --> 00:36:05.039
<v Speaker 1>clarity after that, where I felt okayish until it hit

694
00:36:05.079 --> 00:36:08.320
<v Speaker 1>me again harder. That second wave of panic had me

695
00:36:08.400 --> 00:36:12.000
<v Speaker 1>confessing everything I told my mom about the brownie, told

696
00:36:12.000 --> 00:36:14.480
<v Speaker 1>my whole family I loved them and thanked them for

697
00:36:14.599 --> 00:36:17.760
<v Speaker 1>everything they'd ever done. It was like this emotional purge

698
00:36:17.760 --> 00:36:20.599
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't stop. They rushed me to a doctor who

699
00:36:20.679 --> 00:36:23.119
<v Speaker 1>gave me an injection. I don't even know what it was,

700
00:36:23.320 --> 00:36:27.039
<v Speaker 1>but within a few hours I was totally fine again, physically,

701
00:36:27.079 --> 00:36:30.960
<v Speaker 1>at least mentally. I felt ridiculous, but also kind of

702
00:36:31.000 --> 00:36:34.440
<v Speaker 1>relieved For a little while. Afterward, things with my family

703
00:36:34.480 --> 00:36:37.920
<v Speaker 1>were really open and warm. We talked more, I felt

704
00:36:37.920 --> 00:36:41.559
<v Speaker 1>closer to them, but eventually we drifted back into our usual,

705
00:36:41.760 --> 00:36:45.079
<v Speaker 1>we don't really share feelings mode. Still, I think that

706
00:36:45.159 --> 00:36:47.280
<v Speaker 1>moment stuck with all of us a bit more than

707
00:36:47.320 --> 00:36:50.199
<v Speaker 1>we let on. Story twenty two. I was in a

708
00:36:50.199 --> 00:36:53.559
<v Speaker 1>pretty horrific car accident when I was twenty one. We're

709
00:36:53.559 --> 00:36:57.360
<v Speaker 1>talking full facial fractures, a broken jaw, a cracked forehead,

710
00:36:57.639 --> 00:37:01.119
<v Speaker 1>a shattered eye socket, and even brain damage. The doctors

711
00:37:01.119 --> 00:37:03.880
<v Speaker 1>didn't sugarcoat it. Either I wasn't going to make it,

712
00:37:04.199 --> 00:37:06.960
<v Speaker 1>or I'd survive, but with major impairments for the rest

713
00:37:07.000 --> 00:37:10.039
<v Speaker 1>of my life. They put me in a medically induced coma,

714
00:37:10.360 --> 00:37:13.199
<v Speaker 1>and when I finally woke up ten days later, everything

715
00:37:13.239 --> 00:37:17.239
<v Speaker 1>had changed, not just physically but mentally too. I realized

716
00:37:17.280 --> 00:37:19.559
<v Speaker 1>just how much time I had wasted being afraid to

717
00:37:19.599 --> 00:37:23.119
<v Speaker 1>live fully. At twenty one, I had barely done anything

718
00:37:23.159 --> 00:37:26.280
<v Speaker 1>outside the safe and comfortable path because I was always

719
00:37:26.360 --> 00:37:29.360
<v Speaker 1>worried about the future, and suddenly it hit me I

720
00:37:29.400 --> 00:37:32.360
<v Speaker 1>almost didn't get to have one. The recovery took years.

721
00:37:32.840 --> 00:37:35.800
<v Speaker 1>For the first seven I genuinely believed my time was

722
00:37:35.840 --> 00:37:39.159
<v Speaker 1>still ticking down, like I had been granted a short extension,

723
00:37:39.639 --> 00:37:42.400
<v Speaker 1>so I lived like the clock was running out. I

724
00:37:42.440 --> 00:37:45.960
<v Speaker 1>took massive financial risks, stuff I'd never have considered before,

725
00:37:46.159 --> 00:37:48.639
<v Speaker 1>because in my mind, I was like, screw it, I'll

726
00:37:48.679 --> 00:37:52.559
<v Speaker 1>probably die soon anyway. Now I'm forty four, still here,

727
00:37:53.000 --> 00:37:55.840
<v Speaker 1>And honestly, I look back and laugh at how convinced

728
00:37:55.840 --> 00:37:57.719
<v Speaker 1>I was that the end was just around the corner.

729
00:37:58.079 --> 00:38:00.800
<v Speaker 1>I made a lot of impulsive decisions, but I also

730
00:38:00.880 --> 00:38:03.880
<v Speaker 1>lived way more boldly than I ever had before the accident.

731
00:38:04.320 --> 00:38:07.719
<v Speaker 1>It completely rewired how I view time, fear, and risk.

732
00:38:08.280 --> 00:38:11.559
<v Speaker 1>Story twenty three. This actually happened to my best friend,

733
00:38:11.880 --> 00:38:14.159
<v Speaker 1>and it scared the life out of me. They had

734
00:38:14.159 --> 00:38:16.239
<v Speaker 1>this horrible cough that had been going on for a

735
00:38:16.239 --> 00:38:19.480
<v Speaker 1>few days, and it got worse really fast, Like by

736
00:38:19.519 --> 00:38:22.400
<v Speaker 1>day two or three. They were coughing up blood, constantly

737
00:38:22.760 --> 00:38:25.760
<v Speaker 1>throwing up, and just overall sounding like their body was

738
00:38:25.800 --> 00:38:28.639
<v Speaker 1>giving up. They had ordered some kind of intense medical

739
00:38:28.679 --> 00:38:31.239
<v Speaker 1>equipment they thought would help, but it wasn't going to

740
00:38:31.360 --> 00:38:34.559
<v Speaker 1>arrive for another week, and they genuinely didn't think they'd

741
00:38:34.559 --> 00:38:37.320
<v Speaker 1>make it that long. Then I got the message it

742
00:38:37.440 --> 00:38:40.519
<v Speaker 1>was this long emotional text where they basically said stuff

743
00:38:40.599 --> 00:38:43.920
<v Speaker 1>like you made my life worth something and even if

744
00:38:43.920 --> 00:38:46.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm gone, our bond will still be strong. I barely

745
00:38:47.000 --> 00:38:49.000
<v Speaker 1>got a third of the way through it before full

746
00:38:49.079 --> 00:38:53.480
<v Speaker 1>panic hit. I immediately started calling and texting NonStop, totally

747
00:38:53.480 --> 00:38:56.840
<v Speaker 1>freaking out. I thought they were dying right then. Thankfully,

748
00:38:56.880 --> 00:38:59.800
<v Speaker 1>a couple of days later, the medical gear arrived and

749
00:38:59.840 --> 00:39:03.599
<v Speaker 1>it it actually worked. They got better, like completely fine now,

750
00:39:04.000 --> 00:39:07.199
<v Speaker 1>but that message burned into my memory. For a moment there,

751
00:39:07.440 --> 00:39:09.599
<v Speaker 1>I thought I was losing one of the most important

752
00:39:09.599 --> 00:39:13.599
<v Speaker 1>people in my life. Story twenty four, when I was seventeen,

753
00:39:13.920 --> 00:39:16.760
<v Speaker 1>I had a serious head injury, lots of blood loss,

754
00:39:16.960 --> 00:39:19.639
<v Speaker 1>and while waiting for the ambulance, I started blacking out.

755
00:39:20.039 --> 00:39:22.559
<v Speaker 1>I genuinely thought I might not make it. In that

756
00:39:22.639 --> 00:39:25.679
<v Speaker 1>weird moment of panic and clarity, I blurted out to

757
00:39:25.719 --> 00:39:28.199
<v Speaker 1>my parents that I'd actually hated them for the past

758
00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:32.199
<v Speaker 1>six years, not just anger, full on resentment. I told

759
00:39:32.280 --> 00:39:34.480
<v Speaker 1>them I had wished bad things on them, and all

760
00:39:34.519 --> 00:39:38.719
<v Speaker 1>of it just poured out before I lost consciousness. I survived, obviously,

761
00:39:38.800 --> 00:39:42.000
<v Speaker 1>and five years later we've never really talked about it again.

762
00:39:42.360 --> 00:39:45.400
<v Speaker 1>We sort of have this unspoken truce. I keep things

763
00:39:45.400 --> 00:39:48.320
<v Speaker 1>civil until I graduate college. They act like they never

764
00:39:48.360 --> 00:39:50.679
<v Speaker 1>heard what I said, and I don't stir the pot

765
00:39:50.679 --> 00:39:53.880
<v Speaker 1>with extended family. They don't treat me differently, and I

766
00:39:54.000 --> 00:39:57.639
<v Speaker 1>keep my real feelings to myself. Not exactly closure, but

767
00:39:57.760 --> 00:40:01.360
<v Speaker 1>it works for now. Story twenty five. Not sure how

768
00:40:01.440 --> 00:40:04.079
<v Speaker 1>much this counts, but a few days ago I found

769
00:40:04.119 --> 00:40:06.480
<v Speaker 1>a lump on my inner thigh. As a teen with

770
00:40:06.559 --> 00:40:10.519
<v Speaker 1>limited medical knowledge, my mind immediately jumped to cancer. I

771
00:40:10.639 --> 00:40:13.800
<v Speaker 1>panicked for a few minutes, thinking the worst, before calming

772
00:40:13.800 --> 00:40:17.719
<v Speaker 1>myself down. In that brief window of spiraling, I genuinely

773
00:40:17.760 --> 00:40:20.639
<v Speaker 1>thought I might not have much time left. It was weird.

774
00:40:21.079 --> 00:40:24.639
<v Speaker 1>I started seeing everything from a different lens, like none

775
00:40:24.679 --> 00:40:26.960
<v Speaker 1>of this really matters in the grand scheme of things,

776
00:40:27.199 --> 00:40:29.960
<v Speaker 1>because we're all going to die someday. But that doesn't

777
00:40:29.960 --> 00:40:32.840
<v Speaker 1>mean life isn't worth living. It actually felt like a

778
00:40:32.880 --> 00:40:36.119
<v Speaker 1>sobering reminder that life is short and fragile, and it's

779
00:40:36.119 --> 00:40:39.440
<v Speaker 1>okay to acknowledge that sometimes. It also made me think

780
00:40:39.440 --> 00:40:42.679
<v Speaker 1>about how insignificant we are in the bigger picture. We

781
00:40:42.800 --> 00:40:45.280
<v Speaker 1>often walk around thinking we're these one in a million

782
00:40:45.360 --> 00:40:48.159
<v Speaker 1>cases who somehow have more to offer the world before

783
00:40:48.199 --> 00:40:51.679
<v Speaker 1>we go, but that's just our ego talking. People die

784
00:40:51.719 --> 00:40:54.920
<v Speaker 1>every day. We don't get special treatment just because we're

785
00:40:54.960 --> 00:40:57.920
<v Speaker 1>self aware of it. That little moment of panic gave

786
00:40:57.960 --> 00:41:01.320
<v Speaker 1>me a crash course in Memento Mary, being mindful of death.

787
00:41:01.760 --> 00:41:04.800
<v Speaker 1>It's not a negative mindset, more like a reality check.

788
00:41:05.159 --> 00:41:07.400
<v Speaker 1>And just to end on a lighter note, if you're

789
00:41:07.400 --> 00:41:10.599
<v Speaker 1>a guy, lumps like this are actually pretty common. They're

790
00:41:10.639 --> 00:41:13.960
<v Speaker 1>often just fatty deposits or cysts that are totally harmless.

791
00:41:14.400 --> 00:41:17.159
<v Speaker 1>I've since learned that it's nothing serious, but I'm still

792
00:41:17.199 --> 00:41:19.519
<v Speaker 1>planning to get it checked when i can, just in

793
00:41:19.599 --> 00:41:23.719
<v Speaker 1>case story twenty six. It was a Saturday afternoon and

794
00:41:23.760 --> 00:41:25.559
<v Speaker 1>I had made up my mind that I didn't want

795
00:41:25.599 --> 00:41:28.639
<v Speaker 1>to be here anymore. I didn't outright tell anyone, but

796
00:41:28.719 --> 00:41:31.039
<v Speaker 1>I did what felt like my own version of a goodbye.

797
00:41:31.440 --> 00:41:33.679
<v Speaker 1>I ran as fast as I could to a nearby park,

798
00:41:33.960 --> 00:41:37.440
<v Speaker 1>hoping to find some peace and solitude. Before leaving, I

799
00:41:37.480 --> 00:41:40.880
<v Speaker 1>sent a few subtle quiet messages to some friends, just

800
00:41:41.039 --> 00:41:43.679
<v Speaker 1>enough so that if they were paying attention, they'd realize

801
00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:46.519
<v Speaker 1>something was wrong. The only public thing I posted was

802
00:41:46.559 --> 00:41:49.840
<v Speaker 1>a simple line, love y'all be good to each other.

803
00:41:50.280 --> 00:41:52.760
<v Speaker 1>That was all I wanted to leave behind a small

804
00:41:52.800 --> 00:41:55.400
<v Speaker 1>piece of me out there one last time. The park

805
00:41:55.519 --> 00:41:58.440
<v Speaker 1>was more crowded than I expected, and the beautiful day

806
00:41:58.519 --> 00:42:01.320
<v Speaker 1>made it impossible to find thee I was searching for.

807
00:42:01.760 --> 00:42:04.039
<v Speaker 1>But the bigger surprise was that some of my friends

808
00:42:04.159 --> 00:42:08.760
<v Speaker 1>noticed the tone of what I'd done. They immediately reached out, calling, texting,

809
00:42:08.960 --> 00:42:12.119
<v Speaker 1>and messaging, and they talked me down just by being there.

810
00:42:12.519 --> 00:42:15.239
<v Speaker 1>Their ability to read between the lines and sense what

811
00:42:15.320 --> 00:42:17.599
<v Speaker 1>I was going through saved me. I know it's not

812
00:42:17.719 --> 00:42:21.519
<v Speaker 1>the dramatic, tearful deathbed confession many might expect, but in

813
00:42:21.559 --> 00:42:24.639
<v Speaker 1>a way, that simple post and those few messages were

814
00:42:24.639 --> 00:42:27.719
<v Speaker 1>my confession. I don't have any big secrets or regrets.

815
00:42:28.280 --> 00:42:30.400
<v Speaker 1>Just to hope that people would be kind to each other.

816
00:42:30.840 --> 00:42:33.360
<v Speaker 1>I didn't go through with it, and looking back now,

817
00:42:33.639 --> 00:42:38.159
<v Speaker 1>I'm incredibly grateful. Story twenty seven. When I was around thirteen,

818
00:42:38.519 --> 00:42:41.559
<v Speaker 1>I got really sick from food poisoning, which turned out

819
00:42:41.559 --> 00:42:44.639
<v Speaker 1>to be botulism, which is pretty serious and can be deadly.

820
00:42:45.119 --> 00:42:47.599
<v Speaker 1>I remember my mom was driving me to the hospital

821
00:42:47.800 --> 00:42:51.039
<v Speaker 1>as the symptoms started hitting me hard. I was completely

822
00:42:51.079 --> 00:42:53.920
<v Speaker 1>convinced that I wasn't going to make it. It wasn't

823
00:42:53.960 --> 00:42:57.079
<v Speaker 1>exactly a confession, but I couldn't stop thinking about how

824
00:42:57.159 --> 00:43:00.000
<v Speaker 1>devastated my mom would be if I died. I kept

825
00:43:00.079 --> 00:43:03.079
<v Speaker 1>apologizing over and over, telling her it was my fault.

826
00:43:03.119 --> 00:43:06.039
<v Speaker 1>She'd have to suffer through losing me. I kept replaying

827
00:43:06.119 --> 00:43:08.119
<v Speaker 1>in my head how the pickled fish I ate didn't

828
00:43:08.119 --> 00:43:10.920
<v Speaker 1>taste right and why I even ate it. The worst

829
00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:12.840
<v Speaker 1>part was that it was my mom who had given

830
00:43:12.840 --> 00:43:15.400
<v Speaker 1>it to me and encouraged me to eat it. She

831
00:43:15.440 --> 00:43:18.079
<v Speaker 1>doesn't even eat fish herself, so she had no way

832
00:43:18.079 --> 00:43:20.960
<v Speaker 1>of knowing it was spoiled. I can't even imagine how

833
00:43:21.000 --> 00:43:23.400
<v Speaker 1>she would have coped if I actually had died that day.

834
00:43:23.840 --> 00:43:26.519
<v Speaker 1>The guilt and grief would have been unbearable, not just

835
00:43:26.599 --> 00:43:29.639
<v Speaker 1>for her, but for my dad too. Botulism has a

836
00:43:29.679 --> 00:43:34.159
<v Speaker 1>relatively high mortality rate, so it wasn't an irrational fear. Luckily,

837
00:43:34.480 --> 00:43:37.280
<v Speaker 1>I got to the hospital in time and received treatment.

838
00:43:37.760 --> 00:43:40.760
<v Speaker 1>I pulled through, and while the whole experience was terrifying,

839
00:43:41.159 --> 00:43:43.719
<v Speaker 1>it really made me realize how much my family means

840
00:43:43.760 --> 00:43:46.639
<v Speaker 1>to me. It also showed me how fragile life can be,

841
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:49.559
<v Speaker 1>and how important it is to appreciate the people around

842
00:43:49.599 --> 00:43:52.800
<v Speaker 1>you while you still can. Story twenty eight. This one's

843
00:43:52.800 --> 00:43:56.079
<v Speaker 1>a bit wild and honestly still confusing to me. So

844
00:43:56.400 --> 00:43:58.880
<v Speaker 1>my friend was seriously ill and near the end of

845
00:43:58.920 --> 00:44:01.360
<v Speaker 1>his life. While I was out of the room one day,

846
00:44:01.639 --> 00:44:03.559
<v Speaker 1>he told my then wife that I was having an

847
00:44:03.599 --> 00:44:06.760
<v Speaker 1>affair with another woman. The thing is I wasn't, not

848
00:44:06.880 --> 00:44:10.119
<v Speaker 1>even close. The strange part is that she never mentioned

849
00:44:10.159 --> 00:44:12.679
<v Speaker 1>this to me or anyone else while he was alive.

850
00:44:13.159 --> 00:44:15.280
<v Speaker 1>It was only after he had passed away that she

851
00:44:15.440 --> 00:44:17.719
<v Speaker 1>finally brought it up. I'm not sure if it was

852
00:44:17.760 --> 00:44:20.280
<v Speaker 1>some sort of twisted joke from him he was always

853
00:44:20.320 --> 00:44:23.079
<v Speaker 1>a prankster, or if his illness he had brain cancer

854
00:44:23.519 --> 00:44:26.119
<v Speaker 1>somehow affected his mind and made him say things that

855
00:44:26.159 --> 00:44:29.360
<v Speaker 1>weren't true. There's also a chance she was just trying

856
00:44:29.400 --> 00:44:32.280
<v Speaker 1>to mess with me for reasons I don't fully understand.

857
00:44:32.719 --> 00:44:35.400
<v Speaker 1>To this day, I have no idea what really happened

858
00:44:35.519 --> 00:44:37.480
<v Speaker 1>or why he said what he did. Was it a

859
00:44:37.480 --> 00:44:41.440
<v Speaker 1>cruel joke, a symptom of his illness, or something else entirely,

860
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:45.159
<v Speaker 1>I guess I'll never know. Story twenty nine. Back in

861
00:44:45.159 --> 00:44:48.360
<v Speaker 1>twenty nineteen, I hit a really low point and ended

862
00:44:48.440 --> 00:44:51.480
<v Speaker 1>up attempting to off myself. Before I went through with it,

863
00:44:51.800 --> 00:44:53.679
<v Speaker 1>I sent out a few messages to some of my

864
00:44:53.760 --> 00:44:56.760
<v Speaker 1>closest friends, I took the chance to thank them for

865
00:44:56.800 --> 00:45:00.159
<v Speaker 1>being good friends over the years. I also apologized for

866
00:45:00.199 --> 00:45:03.320
<v Speaker 1>being pretentious during middle school, a phase I'm not proud of,

867
00:45:03.559 --> 00:45:06.159
<v Speaker 1>but wanted to acknowledge. None of them knew what was

868
00:45:06.199 --> 00:45:09.159
<v Speaker 1>really going on at the time, But looking back, those

869
00:45:09.199 --> 00:45:12.119
<v Speaker 1>messages felt like my way of saying goodbye or clearing

870
00:45:12.159 --> 00:45:15.360
<v Speaker 1>the air. What surprised me most was that, after everything,

871
00:45:15.719 --> 00:45:19.400
<v Speaker 1>our relationships actually improved. Maybe it made them realize how

872
00:45:19.480 --> 00:45:21.960
<v Speaker 1>much they mattered to me, or maybe it opened up

873
00:45:22.039 --> 00:45:25.480
<v Speaker 1>space for more honest conversations between us. I didn't end

874
00:45:25.519 --> 00:45:27.719
<v Speaker 1>up going through with it, and I'm glad I didn't.

875
00:45:28.320 --> 00:45:32.559
<v Speaker 1>Story thirty, it wasn't exactly a deathbed confession. In fact,

876
00:45:32.760 --> 00:45:35.599
<v Speaker 1>it was almost the opposite. My mom spent the last

877
00:45:35.639 --> 00:45:38.000
<v Speaker 1>fifteen to twenty years of her life building up a

878
00:45:38.039 --> 00:45:42.480
<v Speaker 1>carefully curated fictional version of her past. To anyone outside

879
00:45:42.480 --> 00:45:45.840
<v Speaker 1>our family, neighbors, church members, and co workers. She was

880
00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:49.719
<v Speaker 1>a saint. She painted herself as someone endlessly kind and patient,

881
00:45:50.159 --> 00:45:54.039
<v Speaker 1>someone who had overcome hardship with grace. Meanwhile, the truth

882
00:45:54.039 --> 00:45:57.039
<v Speaker 1>at home was much messier and far more painful. Our

883
00:45:57.079 --> 00:46:00.400
<v Speaker 1>relationship had been strained for years, but when she got sick,

884
00:46:00.599 --> 00:46:03.039
<v Speaker 1>I still stepped up to help her. I didn't want

885
00:46:03.039 --> 00:46:05.159
<v Speaker 1>her to be alone in her final days, so I

886
00:46:05.199 --> 00:46:07.440
<v Speaker 1>stayed with her in her room for an entire week.

887
00:46:07.840 --> 00:46:11.039
<v Speaker 1>That time was complicated, to say the least. Even near

888
00:46:11.079 --> 00:46:13.760
<v Speaker 1>the end, she was still trying to control the narrative.

889
00:46:14.239 --> 00:46:16.800
<v Speaker 1>She timed her final calls to her sister, whom we

890
00:46:16.880 --> 00:46:19.960
<v Speaker 1>hadn't spoken to in decades, and even to her attorney,

891
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:23.719
<v Speaker 1>deliberately trying to avoid any revelations until after she passed,

892
00:46:24.000 --> 00:46:26.400
<v Speaker 1>like she wanted to win by keeping up appearances one

893
00:46:26.480 --> 00:46:29.199
<v Speaker 1>last time. I didn't learn the full extent of what

894
00:46:29.239 --> 00:46:31.679
<v Speaker 1>she had been saying to people until after her death,

895
00:46:32.079 --> 00:46:35.079
<v Speaker 1>but even in those final days I caught glimpses of it.

896
00:46:35.519 --> 00:46:38.559
<v Speaker 1>I overheard her encouraging her sister when she could barely

897
00:46:38.639 --> 00:46:42.599
<v Speaker 1>speak to send me harassing texts. I eventually confronted her

898
00:46:42.639 --> 00:46:45.320
<v Speaker 1>about it and cleared things up with her sister directly,

899
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:48.320
<v Speaker 1>but it left a sour taste in my mouth. Her

900
00:46:48.320 --> 00:46:51.800
<v Speaker 1>coworkers came in full of admiration, calling her a saint

901
00:46:51.880 --> 00:46:54.559
<v Speaker 1>and raving about how sweet and patient she'd always been.

902
00:46:55.079 --> 00:46:58.400
<v Speaker 1>One of her supervisors came in and introduced herself to me.

903
00:46:58.920 --> 00:47:02.360
<v Speaker 1>I recognized her name immediately. My mom had always spoken

904
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:05.159
<v Speaker 1>of her with bitterness and anger, but in that moment,

905
00:47:05.239 --> 00:47:08.000
<v Speaker 1>I realized why her boss had seen through the act.

906
00:47:08.400 --> 00:47:11.400
<v Speaker 1>That's probably why my mom disliked her so much. For

907
00:47:11.440 --> 00:47:14.119
<v Speaker 1>a long time, I carried the emotional weight of who

908
00:47:14.159 --> 00:47:17.760
<v Speaker 1>she really was because publicly everyone had been fooled. It

909
00:47:17.800 --> 00:47:19.880
<v Speaker 1>felt like no one knew the real version of the

910
00:47:19.920 --> 00:47:23.119
<v Speaker 1>person I'd grown up with. When she passed, I didn't

911
00:47:23.119 --> 00:47:26.239
<v Speaker 1>feel relief so much as release. I'd already mourned the

912
00:47:26.280 --> 00:47:29.000
<v Speaker 1>mother I wished I had, the one the world thought

913
00:47:29.039 --> 00:47:32.519
<v Speaker 1>she never really existed, except in stories she told others.

914
00:47:33.039 --> 00:47:35.920
<v Speaker 1>Story thirty one. A few years ago, I had a

915
00:47:35.960 --> 00:47:38.760
<v Speaker 1>near death experience from what was either a severe asthma

916
00:47:38.800 --> 00:47:41.960
<v Speaker 1>attack or an allergic reaction. We still don't really know

917
00:47:42.079 --> 00:47:45.159
<v Speaker 1>for sure. All I remember is suddenly waking up and

918
00:47:45.239 --> 00:47:48.679
<v Speaker 1>realizing I couldn't breathe. My mom was crying and screaming

919
00:47:48.719 --> 00:47:51.239
<v Speaker 1>for help on the phone, and I genuinely thought that

920
00:47:51.320 --> 00:47:53.360
<v Speaker 1>was going to be it. The next thing I knew,

921
00:47:53.719 --> 00:47:56.079
<v Speaker 1>I was in the ambulance, with my mom still crying

922
00:47:56.079 --> 00:47:58.599
<v Speaker 1>next to me, and a paramedic on the other side,

923
00:47:58.639 --> 00:48:01.760
<v Speaker 1>frantically trying to find a hospital that could take me in.

924
00:48:02.199 --> 00:48:05.599
<v Speaker 1>The weirdest part is that the cause was never officially identified.

925
00:48:06.000 --> 00:48:09.079
<v Speaker 1>That day, I had eaten some glazed peanuts, so my

926
00:48:09.159 --> 00:48:11.800
<v Speaker 1>mom thinks I had a delayed allergic reaction to those,

927
00:48:12.280 --> 00:48:14.559
<v Speaker 1>but the paramedics said that would have been too late

928
00:48:14.599 --> 00:48:17.440
<v Speaker 1>for the timing to make sense. The doctors leaned more

929
00:48:17.480 --> 00:48:20.199
<v Speaker 1>toward an asthma attack, but then we found black mold

930
00:48:20.280 --> 00:48:23.400
<v Speaker 1>behind my bed, not just a little but a solid patch.

931
00:48:23.840 --> 00:48:26.320
<v Speaker 1>So now I'm pretty convinced it was the mold that

932
00:48:26.360 --> 00:48:30.320
<v Speaker 1>triggered it. Story thirty two. This isn't my story exactly,

933
00:48:30.559 --> 00:48:33.519
<v Speaker 1>but it's about my ex's grandma's best friend, and it's

934
00:48:33.519 --> 00:48:36.480
<v Speaker 1>one that really stuck with me. So this woman was

935
00:48:36.519 --> 00:48:39.360
<v Speaker 1>given a prognosis of just about two weeks to live.

936
00:48:39.880 --> 00:48:42.280
<v Speaker 1>She had been holding in a lot for years, grudges,

937
00:48:42.559 --> 00:48:45.960
<v Speaker 1>feelings about friends and family. She'd never really said out loud,

938
00:48:46.320 --> 00:48:48.480
<v Speaker 1>but once she found out she was facing the end,

939
00:48:48.960 --> 00:48:51.760
<v Speaker 1>she finally let it all out. She expressed all the

940
00:48:51.800 --> 00:48:55.320
<v Speaker 1>frustrations and disappointments she'd kept bottled up for so long,

941
00:48:55.760 --> 00:48:59.119
<v Speaker 1>alongside that she gave away almost all of her possessions,

942
00:48:59.440 --> 00:49:03.320
<v Speaker 1>including her beloved prize winning cat, something she'd treasured deeply

943
00:49:03.360 --> 00:49:08.199
<v Speaker 1>for years. But then something unexpected happened. About ten days later,

944
00:49:08.559 --> 00:49:12.079
<v Speaker 1>she made what doctors called a miraculous turnaround. She ended

945
00:49:12.159 --> 00:49:15.800
<v Speaker 1>up living for another couple of years, longer than anyone expected.

946
00:49:16.199 --> 00:49:19.440
<v Speaker 1>Those extra years were complicated. She spent much of that

947
00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:22.519
<v Speaker 1>time estranged from the people she'd confronted and gone off on,

948
00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:26.119
<v Speaker 1>but she stayed close with those she truly loved. She

949
00:49:26.199 --> 00:49:28.400
<v Speaker 1>often said that she wished she had been honest with

950
00:49:28.440 --> 00:49:31.559
<v Speaker 1>everyone much earlier in her life, that maybe things would

951
00:49:31.559 --> 00:49:34.079
<v Speaker 1>have been different if she hadn't held so much inside

952
00:49:34.119 --> 00:49:37.039
<v Speaker 1>for so long. As for the cat, well, I don't

953
00:49:37.039 --> 00:49:40.119
<v Speaker 1>actually know if she ever got it. Back Story thirty three,

954
00:49:40.639 --> 00:49:43.000
<v Speaker 1>a friend of mine was in the ICU after being

955
00:49:43.000 --> 00:49:45.960
<v Speaker 1>in a coma for almost two weeks. He was hooked

956
00:49:46.000 --> 00:49:49.800
<v Speaker 1>up to around eight different ivs and monitors. Ironically, he

957
00:49:49.920 --> 00:49:53.159
<v Speaker 1>might have survived sooner if the hospital hadn't accidentally given

958
00:49:53.239 --> 00:49:56.320
<v Speaker 1>him a staff infection in his blood. His family actually

959
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:59.440
<v Speaker 1>ended up receiving a settlement over that, but that's another

960
00:49:59.519 --> 00:50:03.000
<v Speaker 1>story anyway, While he was fully aware that he probably

961
00:50:03.079 --> 00:50:05.760
<v Speaker 1>wasn't going home, he asked to see a reverend to

962
00:50:05.800 --> 00:50:08.960
<v Speaker 1>make a confession. When the clergy showed up, my friend

963
00:50:09.000 --> 00:50:12.119
<v Speaker 1>asked for a very specific minister by name, some one

964
00:50:12.119 --> 00:50:15.440
<v Speaker 1>who wasn't around any more because there were serious accusations

965
00:50:15.440 --> 00:50:18.800
<v Speaker 1>made against him during his time in the ministry. Apparently

966
00:50:19.079 --> 00:50:21.679
<v Speaker 1>that minister had fled and gone off the grid. My

967
00:50:21.800 --> 00:50:24.320
<v Speaker 1>friend looked at the reverend, then back at me, and

968
00:50:24.400 --> 00:50:27.039
<v Speaker 1>said that the missing minister was behind the power station

969
00:50:27.159 --> 00:50:30.039
<v Speaker 1>on the state line in the swamp, maybe one hundred

970
00:50:30.119 --> 00:50:33.079
<v Speaker 1>yards into the trees. The reverend asked if my friend

971
00:50:33.079 --> 00:50:36.840
<v Speaker 1>wanted absolution, and instead he basically flipped him off and

972
00:50:36.920 --> 00:50:39.840
<v Speaker 1>told him to leave. From that moment, it was clear

973
00:50:39.880 --> 00:50:42.920
<v Speaker 1>that my friend was dropping a heavy accusation that this

974
00:50:43.000 --> 00:50:45.880
<v Speaker 1>missing minister was dead and buried out in that swamp.

975
00:50:46.320 --> 00:50:49.599
<v Speaker 1>My friend survived, but that confession lingered with us all

976
00:50:50.119 --> 00:50:53.079
<v Speaker 1>story thirty four. Awhile back, I had to get my

977
00:50:53.159 --> 00:50:56.880
<v Speaker 1>wisdom teeth removed. Now, dental visits have never been my thing.

978
00:50:57.320 --> 00:51:00.400
<v Speaker 1>I've always been terrible at handling them, like I've panic

979
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:03.559
<v Speaker 1>way more than most people. Because of that, my dentist

980
00:51:03.639 --> 00:51:06.719
<v Speaker 1>decided to put me under general anesthesia for the procedure,

981
00:51:07.079 --> 00:51:10.480
<v Speaker 1>which felt like a relief at first, but before the surgery,

982
00:51:10.760 --> 00:51:13.480
<v Speaker 1>I was convinced something was going to go wrong. Maybe

983
00:51:13.519 --> 00:51:16.760
<v Speaker 1>it was anxiety, maybe paranoia, but I wrote a seven

984
00:51:16.800 --> 00:51:19.920
<v Speaker 1>page letter and left it under my keyboard. I figured

985
00:51:19.960 --> 00:51:22.760
<v Speaker 1>if something happened and I didn't wake up, someone would

986
00:51:22.800 --> 00:51:24.880
<v Speaker 1>find it. It was a mix of a letter to

987
00:51:24.920 --> 00:51:27.679
<v Speaker 1>my loved ones and some random thoughts I wanted to

988
00:51:27.719 --> 00:51:31.239
<v Speaker 1>get out. After the surgery, I came home feeling totally

989
00:51:31.280 --> 00:51:33.800
<v Speaker 1>out of it. I won't lie, I was pretty high

990
00:51:33.800 --> 00:51:36.840
<v Speaker 1>and not exactly myself. I ended up burning the letter

991
00:51:36.920 --> 00:51:39.800
<v Speaker 1>because well, I was relieved to be alive and didn't

992
00:51:39.800 --> 00:51:42.880
<v Speaker 1>want to dwell on those dark thoughts anymore. But that

993
00:51:42.960 --> 00:51:46.440
<v Speaker 1>third day after getting my wisdom teeth out was absolutely brutal.

994
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:49.760
<v Speaker 1>The pain, the swelling, the feeling like I was trapped

995
00:51:49.760 --> 00:51:52.920
<v Speaker 1>in my own head. It was the worst, but I survived,

996
00:51:53.079 --> 00:51:56.000
<v Speaker 1>and honestly, it made me realize how much our fears

997
00:51:56.039 --> 00:51:58.880
<v Speaker 1>can sometimes trick us into preparing for the worst, when

998
00:51:58.920 --> 00:52:01.400
<v Speaker 1>really we just need to hold on a little longer.

999
00:52:01.840 --> 00:52:04.719
<v Speaker 1>Thank you for watching. If you enjoyed this video, be

1000
00:52:04.800 --> 00:52:07.599
<v Speaker 1>sure to give it a thumbs up, subscribe and hit

1001
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