Speaker 1: From Workhouse Connect and aj Benza fame. Uh, he'd liked
Speaker 1: to be walked on a leash and play really dirty,
Speaker 1: kinky sex games. He's uh the guy put the cock
Speaker 1: in the Peacock network. Okay, bitch, Hey, everybody, aj Benzy
Speaker 1: here with fame as a bitch. This is your daily
Speaker 1: Unfiltered podcast for August twelfth, twenty twenty six. Eight one
Speaker 1: two to zero two six. I like it, although there
Speaker 1: is an odd number, but we can, you know, we can.
Speaker 1: We can deal with that. It's been a while, couple
Speaker 1: of days. I gotta be honest. I since I've gotten
Speaker 1: home from Illinois, Oh my clock is just off. I'm
Speaker 1: I'm staying up till two fifty five in the morning,
Speaker 1: going to bed, waking up at three fifty Like what what?
Speaker 1: How can I get one hour sleep? I don't understand
Speaker 1: what's going on? You know. I did the podcast this
Speaker 1: morning with Mike and Kenny. We did everything was a
Speaker 1: bitch and I'm like, I woke up at seven am
Speaker 1: and I had a to do a podcast with Craig
Speaker 1: Kilbourne at eight am, and I love I Oh fucking crowd.
Speaker 1: Craig Kilbourne is the best. He came out with his
Speaker 1: talk show and change the game. I mean, I'm being
Speaker 1: honest watching him do his podcast. He used to announce himself,
Speaker 1: you know, he would say Greg Kilbourne and then run
Speaker 1: out to play that funky music white Boy. He was amazing.
Speaker 1: He had a lot of hot actresses and models that
Speaker 1: he'd have on. He'd chat with them and man, I
Speaker 1: love that show. And I'm like, oh, I got to
Speaker 1: do a show like that, and then I did. But
Speaker 1: the people at E who didn't want to know about
Speaker 1: that after four weeks, What can I tell you? But yeah,
Speaker 1: kill Bohmer's great. He begins. He ends each show with
Speaker 1: asking you your five favorite movies. I'm like Godfather one
Speaker 1: and two, Good Fellas, Brownstail, Casino, you can throw in Shortshank, Redemption,
Speaker 1: Slums of Beverly Hills, Sunset Boulevard, throw them all in there,
Speaker 1: because oh man, I love those movies. And you know,
Speaker 1: I didn't want to bring this up, but when I
Speaker 1: was at E and there was this really oh my god.
Speaker 1: She was such a sweetie, a beautiful girl with long
Speaker 1: black hair and dark eyes. And she worked on the
Speaker 1: weekends to be Princess Jasmine at Disneyland, right, I mean
Speaker 1: it was perfect. She had the long hair, the eyes,
Speaker 1: she was gorgeous. And you know, I ended up dating
Speaker 1: her and she told me, you know I used to
Speaker 1: killed one. I go, oh, really in my capacity? Well,
Speaker 1: you know, I was just like, I don't know. She
Speaker 1: was like an assistant in some bullshit, and he liked
Speaker 1: her a lot. There was a lot to like about her,
Speaker 1: trust me. And she told me one day that they
Speaker 1: were having some fun and he and he was getting
Speaker 1: people in his office and he says, stay in the closet,
Speaker 1: don't don't say anything, don't make a move. He put
Speaker 1: them in the fucking closet for like an hour. I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: why would he do that? Oh, it was no a
Speaker 1: big deal. It is a big deal. You can't be
Speaker 1: in the closet for an hour. You're a human being. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but he had a lot to lose. I don't get it.
Speaker 1: So I tried to bring it up by saying, hey,
Speaker 1: I had an assistant Mark and he that worked for you.
Speaker 1: Do you remember. He's like, no, I can't place it. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm sure you can't, But I tell you what. Creig
Speaker 1: Kilboyt has learned how to live the wonderful sweet life.
Speaker 1: This fucking guy. Check his Instagram page at this guy's
Speaker 1: living life. I mean he was on Sports Center then
Speaker 1: at his talk show. He's done nothing since then, although
Speaker 1: he's directing a movie about himself with some actors involved.
Speaker 1: I'm like what he's like, Yeah, I want to do
Speaker 1: this and this is where I've Yeah, he's directing a
Speaker 1: movie called The Life Golden. I love that title. The
Speaker 1: Life Golden, starring Lauren Jerman and Tom Byrne. Don't know them.
Speaker 1: Can I tell you some I watched a movie the
Speaker 1: other night, Lay the Favorite. It's on Amazon product, not
Speaker 1: a big movie. It's sucking Bruce Wille's while he was
Speaker 1: still standing up and being Bruce. It's Vince Flawn. You know.
Speaker 1: It's bookies and gambling. And my goodness, this actress, Rebecca Hole.
Speaker 1: Where where has she been? I am? I am crazy
Speaker 1: about Rebecca Hole. This girl is on fire. Oh yeah, no,
Speaker 1: look up, Rebecca Hall. You have no idea? And watch
Speaker 1: that movie? What the hell is it called? I don't
Speaker 1: know Lay the Favorite. Watch Lay the Favorite and watch
Speaker 1: her smile, her dimples, her cheeks, her teeth. She's gonna
Speaker 1: she's gonna bowl you over. I mean, she really will yesterday,
Speaker 1: one of you reached out to me and said, heja
Speaker 1: you okay, I'm just considered. I'm fine. You know you
Speaker 1: you listen to me every single day of the week.
Speaker 1: There's gonna be days I don't sound that good, I
Speaker 1: don't feel that good. But that's just the way it is.
Speaker 1: You grabbed the mic and you do what the fuck
Speaker 1: you gotta do. But don't worry, man, I'm here, I'm cool,
Speaker 1: I'm good. Don't worry about me. And you know, I
Speaker 1: told Rosalie I didn't want to do this when when
Speaker 1: my brother in law Jack was alive. I just felt
Speaker 1: funny doing that. But you know, Rosalie dated sorry. When
Speaker 1: she was in high school, she was the head twirler
Speaker 1: and the quarterback at Neutrich High School in Brooklyn was
Speaker 1: a guy named Louis Day don't handsome as hell, looked
Speaker 1: like a young sly stallone. Rosalie was crazy about him
Speaker 1: and it, you know, I mean she still talks about Louis.
Speaker 1: You know. He was eventually the acting boss of the
Speaker 1: Luks organized crime family. They called them Louis Bagels or
Speaker 1: Cross Bay Lout because he was off the Cross Bay Boulevard.
Speaker 1: But he got he got sentenced to life in prison,
Speaker 1: no chance of parole. He killed two people, two mob informers.
Speaker 1: And you know, he's a fucking killer man, like the
Speaker 1: kind of killer that puts two bullets in the back
Speaker 1: of someone's head and puts a fucking burden in their
Speaker 1: mouth because they talk too much. That's that's what Louis did.
Speaker 1: He rose up quickly, you know, through the ranks. He
Speaker 1: was acting Coppo, then he was Consolieri, then he was
Speaker 1: acting boss. But you know he had two associates back then,
Speaker 1: uh Red Gilmore and who the hell was that a guy?
Speaker 1: Alfons de Arco. Yeah, Bruno Faciola. He's a rat. His daughter,
Speaker 1: who I love. She's gorgeous. She was on the The
Speaker 1: Mob Wives show. Oh god, she was so pretty. But
Speaker 1: that's her dad. And you know Louis, I mean, Louis
Speaker 1: was a major Mafio said, I'm always like Rosalie, you
Speaker 1: could have been a mom wife. I know, I mean
Speaker 1: you that was actually what you were gonna be. I know.
Speaker 1: He put a dead canary, all right, He got a
Speaker 1: dead canary and put it in a freezer. Then he
Speaker 1: arranged with two of his associates to get fat Schola
Speaker 1: into a garage, and when this guy saw the people,
Speaker 1: he ran, but Louis chased him down and dragged him back,
Speaker 1: and he was stamped. He was shot in the head
Speaker 1: and shot in both eyes, by the way, and they
Speaker 1: took that canary and put it in his mouth to say,
Speaker 1: you singing to the fence, You're gonna get your head
Speaker 1: blown off. They found nobody in Brooklyn days later, stuffed
Speaker 1: in the trunk of his own car. That's what New
Speaker 1: York City was like. I don't know where you live.
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know. I mean, this is what
Speaker 1: we grew up with in New York. We heard this
Speaker 1: all the time. It was kind of cool, like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, this guy just got his hands chopped off.
Speaker 1: He you know, when when I was a young kid,
Speaker 1: my father I had a friend named Freddie Mozzarella. Freddie
Speaker 1: was a big dude, three hundred pounds, white white Lincoln
Speaker 1: town car. He had a pull queue in the back
Speaker 1: window and he said, I don't play pool. I use
Speaker 1: it for other reasons we knew, and he would tell
Speaker 1: me over dinner how he punched padlocks open and put
Speaker 1: guy's teeth on the curb and smashed their head. And
Speaker 1: he said, there were chick lits all over the place.
Speaker 1: That's what I did. I mean, it was, this was
Speaker 1: Sunday dinner, and asked Freddy telling me everything, and my
Speaker 1: father's laugh and my mother's laughing, and you know, then
Speaker 1: you go to Rosy's backyard and the fucking ducks in
Speaker 1: Rosy's backyard would start chasing him, flying eight inches off
Speaker 1: the ground, and he'd be like, get the fuck. He
Speaker 1: was gonna shoot them. He had white pat and leather
Speaker 1: shoes and he'd run to the fence and go, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna shoot these motherfucking ducks. He was petrified of ducks.
Speaker 1: Those guys, man, those guys who were involved in uh
Speaker 1: in the mob or I mean, I wish you could
Speaker 1: know them, because some of them have just so many
Speaker 1: great stories. They're not what you read about the regular people,
Speaker 1: but they have this past obviously. But when you hear
Speaker 1: them talk and you hear them being scared about a
Speaker 1: duck or whatever the fuck heights or whatever, you just go, oh,
Speaker 1: they're normal like me. But they're not normal like us.
Speaker 1: They're crazy, right. I mean, there's a joke that begins
Speaker 1: with a man and he's got this beautiful garden with flowers,
Speaker 1: and plants, even vegetables. And somebody comes over and say, hey,
Speaker 1: it's a great garden. And the guy says God's best work.
Speaker 1: And the guy who owns the garden says, you should
Speaker 1: have seen it before he was in charge of it.
Speaker 1: So sometimes we can do things I hesitate to say
Speaker 1: better than God. But you're you're, you're, you're giving something.
Speaker 1: You gotta make it work. And whether it's a garden
Speaker 1: or a life or a show, whatever the fuck, you
Speaker 1: just gotta make it work, you know. I mean, I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: this show is going every which way, but Louis, but
Speaker 1: you know, we all walk around, like, let's be honest,
Speaker 1: we all walk we all walk around. Then we feel
Speaker 1: alive or we are alive, let's put it that way.
Speaker 1: But don't don't don't many of us feel dead? I mean,
Speaker 1: really think about it. We're walking around, but isn't there
Speaker 1: are times you feel I'm fucking dead. This is you know,
Speaker 1: so you always got to do something that makes you
Speaker 1: feel alive. And I've done that and it's got me
Speaker 1: in trouble because I've you know, I've done I've leaned
Speaker 1: over too far and I've gotten myself into shit because
Speaker 1: you know, I don't even know what to say. But
Speaker 1: you know, you want to feel alive, so you do
Speaker 1: whatever you can to feel alive. And sometimes that's dangerous,
Speaker 1: you know, sometimes it's whatever. But that's what you gotta do. Man.
Speaker 1: I mean, I'll tell you right now, are you ready
Speaker 1: for this? There's no Sammy Davis Junius out there anymore?
Speaker 1: There's not. There's not a lot of guys who's singing,
Speaker 1: dance act and can be fucking crazy for weeks on it.
Speaker 1: Who Who are where are they? Who is it Clony?
Speaker 1: Is Sean Pan? Is it Robert Downey? No, they're all
Speaker 1: caged up in there a million dollar mansions. They're not
Speaker 1: doing What the fuck these guys did the Sammy Davis
Speaker 1: is those were men being men. I don't know. I
Speaker 1: just kind of I thought about this and it made
Speaker 1: me crazy, you know, I just don't. I talked to
Speaker 1: Craig Kilbourne today about life and about Hollywood, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: it ain't the same. I call him Kilby. I love
Speaker 1: what he's done with his life. He's so cool. I'm like, Kilby,
Speaker 1: it ain't the same, man. I mean, we used to
Speaker 1: play basketball in open gym when let Himan first came
Speaker 1: out and Larry Bud Melman was on this show, and
Speaker 1: we'd sit there and go, did you see Larry Bud Melbourne?
Speaker 1: Who is this guy? This is the funniest thing in
Speaker 1: the world. And we were so into that. And then
Speaker 1: years later Craig Kilbourne show comes on. He was a
Speaker 1: sports center sports He was great at that. You could
Speaker 1: tell he had a fancy noess to his attitude. You
Speaker 1: could tell he had more to say behind the words.
Speaker 1: And finally he gets a talk show and my goodness,
Speaker 1: he was great. Not only did he call, he announced himself.
Speaker 1: I mean, this is the best. He would be like
Speaker 1: ladies and gentlemen, Greg Gilbourt, and it was his voice,
Speaker 1: and he'd walk out with play that funky music, white
Speaker 1: boy behind him. I mean, he had every model on there,
Speaker 1: every chick who was hot. I gave him so much credit. Today,
Speaker 1: I'm like, Craig, no one has done it like you.
Speaker 1: You've learned to live your best life. You show us
Speaker 1: your best life. I'm in awe of what you do. Well,
Speaker 1: thank you, AJ And I just think I don't know
Speaker 1: what it's gonna air. He might hold it for a
Speaker 1: while because it's evergreen blah, blah blah, but I want
Speaker 1: them to do this show today. I don't think this
Speaker 1: show is going to be thirty minutes. I think it'll
Speaker 1: be shorter because I got a phone call today from
Speaker 1: an ex girlfriend, Rebecca Soda, and I love, Oh my god,
Speaker 1: that I love Rebecca. She was the best. She was
Speaker 1: my first New York City girlfriend. And you know, she
Speaker 1: was working at a bar, or a well not a bar,
Speaker 1: but a nightclub slash bar Cole Rouge, with which the
Speaker 1: Mafia owned. And I would go see her and I
Speaker 1: would just stare at her. Oh my god, that little
Speaker 1: pretty face, that bunch of black Puerto Rican hair, and
Speaker 1: that little five foot two body. Everything was perfect on Rebecca.
Speaker 1: She had these eyes that were so kind of sad,
Speaker 1: but they can turn happy in a minute. And you know,
Speaker 1: I couldn't date it right away because I knew she
Speaker 1: was dating somebody who was involved with the club. So
Speaker 1: I went to the Mafia guys. I said, listen, I
Speaker 1: really want to be with Rebecca. I don't know she's
Speaker 1: not happy with this guy, Nick, can you can you
Speaker 1: guys do something about this fucking kid. I mean, he walked,
Speaker 1: he climbed her fire escape, He walked into her sliding
Speaker 1: glass door. He was on top of her. Are you
Speaker 1: are you kidding me? Pal? No, that's what happened. I
Speaker 1: will take care of the pal and they took care
Speaker 1: of it. And Nikki never I don't know what happened
Speaker 1: to him. He wasn't killed, but he never went anywhere
Speaker 1: near Rebecca's apartment ever again. And her and I were together.
Speaker 1: When I met her, she was at the back bar.
Speaker 1: If you can just let me say this because it's important.
Speaker 1: I want this to be the free show. I want
Speaker 1: Rebecca to hear this because I love her. She's not
Speaker 1: doing well and that makes me sad. I walked in,
Speaker 1: Oh kind, I'm gonna cry. Sorry. I walked into the
Speaker 1: bar and she was in the back. Sometimes they have
Speaker 1: this little bar in the back for people, not the
Speaker 1: front bar, but the back bar, and Rebecca was there
Speaker 1: and I would just sit there and look at her
Speaker 1: and I was like God, I would say, you're so beautiful.
Speaker 1: I want to you know, I love to take you out. Well,
Speaker 1: I got a boyfriend, you know, and then little by
Speaker 1: little it became my boyfriend's a problem. And then I
Speaker 1: I took that news to the mafia and they took
Speaker 1: care of it, and I'm like, okay, now what We're
Speaker 1: gonna be together. And we were. And when I met her,
Speaker 1: Rebecca had lupus. Her two sisters had lupus. Her mother
Speaker 1: had lupus, I think. But her sisters were taking medication
Speaker 1: that made them heavy, like pregnant zone and things like that.
Speaker 1: And Rebecca never went that route. She went supplements and vitamins,
Speaker 1: and she changed her diet. I mean, when I would
Speaker 1: to her apartment, you have no idea the ship. She
Speaker 1: would unpack from her kitchen to make it. I mean,
Speaker 1: this sounds stupid, but she's the first person who made
Speaker 1: me eat mango, believe it or not. And I love mango.
Speaker 1: But she turned me on to it. But she wouldn't.
Speaker 1: I mean, she just she changed her whole lifestyle to
Speaker 1: not have the loopus effector like her sisters. And I
Speaker 1: would be with her, you know, we were dating. We
Speaker 1: would to other two three years and I'd be doing
Speaker 1: my nightly rounds doing gossip and I get a call
Speaker 1: from her and she called me pie. I called her Schmants.
Speaker 1: I don't even know why, but she was Schmantz. I
Speaker 1: was Pie Hi Pye. What's on? What's up? Smarts? Can
Speaker 1: you come by? Can you get me? Can you give
Speaker 1: me chicken and raisin? Come over? I've got the snipers
Speaker 1: in my back. That meant her spine was hurting her
Speaker 1: so much from her loop as. I'd run to the
Speaker 1: bodega downtown and get her chicken and rice and bring
Speaker 1: it up to her apartment on twenty fourth Street. The
Speaker 1: building was called Penny Lane, and I'd run up there,
Speaker 1: and oh she loved it. She set up in bed
Speaker 1: so happy, and he was fucking crazy. She had the
Speaker 1: craziest hair, Rebecca. I mean, it just was everywhere, man,
Speaker 1: but it was so sexy, and I'd lay with her
Speaker 1: for a while. I said, Mama, I got to go
Speaker 1: back out of you. Okay, it's okay. Bye, I'm okay now,
Speaker 1: I feel good, Thank you, Pye, and I go back
Speaker 1: out and do my rounds. The only time I took
Speaker 1: her out, oh my god, it was a horrible thing.
Speaker 1: I mean, she said, I want to go out with you,
Speaker 1: all right? Where do you want to go? Wherever you go,
Speaker 1: I want to be with you. So I'm going to
Speaker 1: Bowery Bar tonight, you know. I start there and then
Speaker 1: I moved to different places. I want to go it's okay,
Speaker 1: come with me, you know. I go to Bowery Bar
Speaker 1: and I see this knock out across the room looking
Speaker 1: at me and like kind of trying to say something
Speaker 1: to me. And I said to Rebecca, who is this? What?
Speaker 1: Hold on, han, I'll be right back. I go over
Speaker 1: to the girl beautiful, she's Princess X. She's at Polonia,
Speaker 1: Princess ex girl, and she's telling me I love your show.
Speaker 1: I watch you on the Gossip Show. Blah blah bah again,
Speaker 1: here's my number. Call me. I'm in La. If you
Speaker 1: come out, we'll hang out. I take her number. Rebecca's like,
Speaker 1: why the fuck would you? I said, Becky, it's just
Speaker 1: part of the job, honey, It's just it's just that's
Speaker 1: why they want to take you out, because you were
Speaker 1: going to be crazy about this kind of shit. It
Speaker 1: happens to me all the time. Well, fuck cutting out.
Speaker 1: Don't don't get mad at her. She's just trying to
Speaker 1: be you know, in the pages and you know relevant
Speaker 1: what have you. Don't worry about it. And I went
Speaker 1: to La and I called out Bolonia and we had
Speaker 1: we had lunch at some coffee shop on Melrose, and
Speaker 1: she was into God she was a born in young Christian.
Speaker 1: I mean there was I mean, it was like, what
Speaker 1: am I doing here? All she talked about was God.
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, Chuck Ank Gill, you know, can I
Speaker 1: see Vanity please? I mean, you know I dated the
Speaker 1: chick wu dance for Prince in the video. The way
Speaker 1: you make me feel, I forget her name. I don't
Speaker 1: know what her fuck her name really cute girl. I've
Speaker 1: been around Prince's ex girlfriends. Him and I have the
Speaker 1: same taste, but that killed me that day that Rebecca
Speaker 1: saw that. So I've been trying to reach out to
Speaker 1: her for weeks, well months, because she loved Jack. She
Speaker 1: loved Papa, I mean they're both Puerto Rican and the
Speaker 1: way she treated Jack whenever she was at the house
Speaker 1: was in I mean she adored him, and adored Rosalie too,
Speaker 1: and Joey, Jackie. Everybody loved Becky. I mean, Becky was
Speaker 1: a sick You have to know this. There was a
Speaker 1: time when you know, Rebecca and I were not getting
Speaker 1: along and she was I mean, by the way, I
Speaker 1: fucking loved her, But there was a time when it
Speaker 1: wasn't going good and I was gonna pick her up
Speaker 1: and take it at Rosalies on a Sunday morning. But
Speaker 1: she wasn't ready. But bah bah, and she's calling me,
Speaker 1: and I'm with Johnny Boy and Jackie in the Mercedes
Speaker 1: going along Island. I got Rebecca on speakerphone and she's
Speaker 1: going turn the car round that Johnny Boy and Jackie.
Speaker 1: We said that to each other a million times, turn
Speaker 1: the car around. Because she wanted me to come back.
Speaker 1: I said, no, I'm not coming back. You were what
Speaker 1: the fuck were you? You were thirty minutes late? Fuck it?
Speaker 1: But I'm you know, oh my god. But she loved
Speaker 1: Jack and when he got cancer, I think the third time,
Speaker 1: she was like, Papa, here's supplements, here's vitamins, here's the books.
Speaker 1: You have to read. She gave him everything. He's like, oh, Rebecca,
Speaker 1: I don't think after Papa, you have to read this.
Speaker 1: She was such a sweetheart. And I remember we at
Speaker 1: some point went to Atlantis, right the Bahamas, Me, Rosalie,
Speaker 1: jack the kids, being Becky, and it was great. It
Speaker 1: was beautiful down there. And she woke up one morning
Speaker 1: in a bad mood. I don't know why, but I
Speaker 1: was a whipper snapper and I'm like, we go to
Speaker 1: the pool. I'm like, can you change your fucking attitude?
Speaker 1: And she's like, change your fucking attitude. I said, I
Speaker 1: will leave you so fast your head will spind. And
Speaker 1: that became a her and I said to each other
Speaker 1: for the next two years. Because I wasn't gonna leave her.
Speaker 1: I could never leave her. I loved it too much.
Speaker 1: But that statement was like, fuck you, I will leave you.
Speaker 1: Oh really okay, But I'm thinking about her a lot
Speaker 1: because I called her today, well, she called me after
Speaker 1: many messages on Facebook, and she's like, Pie, what's going
Speaker 1: on with Papa. I said he's gone, honey, Jackie's gone popy.
Speaker 1: She had no idea. I said, no, baby, it's all
Speaker 1: different now. Oh Pie, I'm so sorry. How about you?
Speaker 1: And she's not doing well. She's not doing well, she's sick.
Speaker 1: Why do I hear Why do I hear? Do you
Speaker 1: hear this noise in the fucking microphone? I don't know.
Speaker 1: I feel like I hear wind, there's no fan, there's
Speaker 1: no ac on. I don't know why I hear win anyhow,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, and I'm like, oh, Becky, you know it's
Speaker 1: it's it's just different, baby. Oh, And she talked to me.
Speaker 1: We had an hour conversation and she's not doing well.
Speaker 1: Oh my god. She just texted me, how about this?
Speaker 1: How about this? I said, hearing your verse, hearing your
Speaker 1: voice turned to our past. You were the sexiest, baddest,
Speaker 1: sweetest girl I ever had. I want to come see you.
Speaker 1: I want to make you feel better, baby. And she said, oh,
Speaker 1: she said, I want to feel I feel too far
Speaker 1: gone at least to be seen right away, but you've
Speaker 1: inspired me to try harder. This disease is so painful.
Speaker 1: Oh man, Now you have to understand. Like when I
Speaker 1: fell in love with Rebecca, it was, you know, cataclysmic.
Speaker 1: It was like, oh my god, the first check in
Speaker 1: New York City, I felt for I mean, I was overborn.
Speaker 1: And she told me stories, and I've told you this
Speaker 1: story about how her brother Eddie had aids oh well,
Speaker 1: he was gay and he wanted to escape his father
Speaker 1: because her father was abusive. So he told Rebecca, who
Speaker 1: was five years old with that crazy fucking curly hair,
Speaker 1: that little body. Oh my god, she was so fucking
Speaker 1: she's so beautiful. And he's like, Becky, here's my suitcase,
Speaker 1: lower it down tomorrow morning when I'm on the Street,
Speaker 1: and she did that for him. A five year old
Speaker 1: chick did that for a nineteen year old brother. I can't.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry that I can never forget it. I can't
Speaker 1: unsee it. To me, it's the most beautiful, romantic thing
Speaker 1: you can do for a sibling, to help him escape.
Speaker 1: Are you fucking kidding me? Rebecca? And anyhow, we had
Speaker 1: a long talk today and shen't do him well. And
Speaker 1: she's in Tampa. I'm happy that she's, you know, in Florida.
Speaker 1: I said, I'm coming out there in a month or
Speaker 1: so to see Mike and Kenny. And I know it's
Speaker 1: far from you, but maybe you can come over. I'll
Speaker 1: pay for it. Just come by, just hang out with us.
Speaker 1: And I mean, we had so many great times. We
Speaker 1: would go to the There was a theater named the
Speaker 1: Angelica Theater on Houston Street that shot a lot of
Speaker 1: independent or European movies, and you know, we'd always be like,
Speaker 1: you know, by the way, there's something I gotta say this.
Speaker 1: I don't think we do it anymore. There's something so
Speaker 1: wonderful to say to someone you love, let's go to
Speaker 1: the movies. Let's go see a movie like it doesn't
Speaker 1: even happen that much anymore. But it used to be
Speaker 1: such a big deal. You know, let's go, let's go
Speaker 1: jump in the car or walk get to the theater.
Speaker 1: I'll buy the popcorn with candy and the drinks. You
Speaker 1: sit down, let's just watch a movie. It was just
Speaker 1: I don't think that happens much anymore. I don't even
Speaker 1: know why. It's such a simple thing. But I guess
Speaker 1: we have shit on our phone that's more interesting. I
Speaker 1: don't know, but I remember I'd call Becky and let's go,
Speaker 1: Baby's let's go to the Angelica. I want to see
Speaker 1: such a sudden she was like, okay, pie. And you know,
Speaker 1: I'm not to say everything wasn't great. There were times
Speaker 1: when our relationship got bad, and unfortunately for her and
Speaker 1: for me, I began to uh fall for Kara and
Speaker 1: I had to leave Becky. It was the worst feeling
Speaker 1: in the world, because she was like she felt like
Speaker 1: family to me. But I knew with what I was
Speaker 1: doing and where I was going in my life and career.
Speaker 1: I as much as I loved Becky, and she was
Speaker 1: just gonna give me problems. Where'd you go? Who'd you
Speaker 1: talk to? What'd you do? I couldn't do that. There
Speaker 1: was another girl in New York and New York, Christine,
Speaker 1: who I love Christine, I mean, not for nothing. Christine
Speaker 1: maybe was the person I should end up, but she was,
Speaker 1: Oh she's so beautiful, she's so great, so Italian. But
Speaker 1: she didn't like you know, I said, Chris, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: go fucking bananas. You're gonna hate me. I got so
Speaker 1: many people to meet and things to do. Nowadays they
Speaker 1: all understand it, but back then, when you're in your
Speaker 1: twenties and thirties, you can't even fathom. What do you
Speaker 1: mean You're not gonna be I gotta go. I gotta go, baby.
Speaker 1: And that's what I said to Rebecca, and it broke
Speaker 1: my heart because she was such a sweet, beautiful, loving
Speaker 1: person and I'm so happy I found her. And she
Speaker 1: called me today. I'm never gonna not talk to her.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call her every day or two to make
Speaker 1: sure she's okay, because I mean, I just I love her.
Speaker 1: I'll always love her, and I don't want to see
Speaker 1: her unhappy or ill. I don't know what I can do,
Speaker 1: but I remember when I first met her, and I've
Speaker 1: told you this before her eyelashes were out, and she
Speaker 1: was weak, and I says, Becky, you're gonna come to
Speaker 1: my house in loy Al and we're gonna put you
Speaker 1: in the sun. We're gonna give you a steak. We're
Speaker 1: gonna fucking put you in the salt, the salt water
Speaker 1: of the bay. You're gonna get better. And she did.
Speaker 1: Every day. Her eyelashes came back. She was healthy, she
Speaker 1: was eating meat. It was like amazing. I said, this
Speaker 1: is what you gotta do. Bet. But you know, we
Speaker 1: didn't stay together forever, but she was and is the
Speaker 1: great one. You know, there's a handful of people in
Speaker 1: our lives that'll be considered the great one. Rebecca was
Speaker 1: hum I could cry even saying it. She was serving
Speaker 1: me a great one and I love her and I
Speaker 1: don't want her to be ill. Sorry, I just thought
Speaker 1: today's show was better if I just spoke candidly to
Speaker 1: you guys about her. And you know I care about her.
Speaker 1: So that's it. Oh God, all right, I gotta stop crying.
Speaker 1: That's your show. Fam is a bitch. August twelfth, twenty
Speaker 1: twenty six. I'm aj Benz. I'm broken up, but you
Speaker 1: can understand why and i'll talk to you tomorrow.