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Speaker 2: You're listening to Mattconnorton Unleashed on WMNH ninety five point

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three right now, the world radio premiere of the debut

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single from Moving On coming out February twenty seven.

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Speaker 3: Absolutely its end as we know it's it's fading now

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Speaker 5: And as I race it out, be off, save what

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Speaker 1: I'm thinking all the face wore the high respeed.

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Speaker 1: All your busics. We sing it.

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Speaker 4: Along so well, and now you acting that never.

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Speaker 1: I rode into.

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Speaker 7: I'm thinking of things the week the missed outs, and

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Speaker 1: Like week the world surpass.

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Speaker 8: And I'm inside here alone wing.

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Speaker 1: When horble so.

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Speaker 9: And as I see it out and saying better ball,

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I'm thinking all the things.

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Speaker 1: Get along so wealth and now you're acting nicey and everybody.

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Speaker 4: I roll into her some day I used to going

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Speaker 10: But I need to.

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Speaker 11: Go in fine my thing, some wine, a light.

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Speaker 12: A brand new spot there reis a light out in

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the distance and a breeze that bloats.

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Speaker 11: It calls my day, put it back?

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Speaker 10: Go will it fix?

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Speaker 5: Th and dim?

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Speaker 12: I go.

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Speaker 11: I welcome back, say, because oh, try showing you everything me.

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Then you reacted a temperary yeah, yellosy.

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Speaker 8: It was just temporary all the help.

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Speaker 10: You gave to me, and I was wrong about you.

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Speaker 5: Now I'm moving on.

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Speaker 12: I feel so foolish thinking that you were winning.

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Speaker 11: No, no, everyone charged fot me.

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Speaker 10: That's the thing.

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Speaker 5: It all comes.

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Speaker 11: It's such a come so well that there's so much

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Speaker 8: You everything of me anyway day tap Now I see

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Speaker 13: I was back now But doesn't matter what a neans.

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Speaker 14: Were gotten to because a good knights and a basket

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and a basket it was you cannot the wanding answer

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Speaker 2: Fun now.

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Speaker 2: It was just.

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Speaker 8: Never got as to me that was bobout.

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Speaker 2: There it is, moving on the new single from Kitlin Piper.

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Caitlin was with us today during the first hour of

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the show, so if you miss it, you definitely want

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to go back and give that a listen. Really enjoyed

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talking with her and I love her sound. And we

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have entered our number three Newmarrow trace of Matt Connorton Unleashed.

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For those of you listening live, it is a Saturday,

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February twenty one, twenty twenty six, and we are from

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the studios of WMNH ninety five point three FM and

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Glorious Chester, New Hampshire, the winter wonderland that it is.

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And of course you can stream the show from anywhere.

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show archives, et cetera, et cetera, and right now joining

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us here in studio, let's see there we go. We

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Speaker 5: Yes, Hi, how you doing that?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? Very well, very well. It's been also known as

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a little bit. Yeah, yeah, that's probably good. We were

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talking off air. It's been like three Has it really

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been three years since you've been on with us?

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Speaker 5: Yes? Three years?

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Speaker 2: Definitely, my god, yeah, because I do remember the last

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time you were here. It was at the old when

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we were on Elm Street. Yes, at the old place.

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And so this is pretty nice, huh. You like the

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you like the new uh? Or well, it's been a

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couple of years now, but it's it's still it does

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Speaker 5: The only thing I miss is the signature on the

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wall right right.

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Speaker 16: We could bring that back, something like maybe on a

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postal board or something like that or yeah, you never know,

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or like a banner or something that just have every

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every artist or someone that comes in here, your guests

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Speaker 5: But I missed that.

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Speaker 16: But otherwise this is a great location. Congratulations match for

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lessons on blessings. I known you for years, yes, like

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sixteen seventeen years, actually.

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Speaker 2: More than that, Jesus, A time goes so quick.

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Speaker 5: Two thousand and eight.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, you notice as we get older, too, it goes

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, flash of eyes.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I find that element rather unpleasant. I would like

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time to slow down.

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Speaker 6: Yeah.

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Speaker 16: When you're a kid, you're like, oh, it takes so

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long to get Oh, I know, birthday and this and that,

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Speaker 2: It's like when you're like when you're a kid, like

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when summer starts, it seems like it just lasts forever,

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you know it. But I know that. I mean a

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lot of it obviously is perception and it's psychological. But

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I did read something of a number of years ago

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that there's a theory that there might actually be something

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it's not just psychological, but there might literally be something

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neurochemical that happens in our brain as we get older

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that alters our perception of time.

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, I have to check that out.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it, you know, might all be bs.

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Speaker 16: But well, I had four concussions, so I'm like nervous

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because all the doctors are scaring me. I just actually

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I got injured about a month ago.

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Speaker 2: So oh, sorry to hear that. Yeah, why why have

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you had four concussions?

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Speaker 16: Well, different reasons, car accidents. I got injured on the

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bus recently about January.

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Speaker 2: Ninth, you got injured on a bus.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, well, we.

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Speaker 16: Can't really talk about it, but you know, I'm just

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saying I got injured really bad. Okay, and long story short,

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I've had four concussions, okay, and this was my fourth one.

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Speaker 5: But I guess the more concussions you have, you can

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get that brain disease.

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Speaker 2: Well boxes CTE.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, so I'm can you.

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Speaker 2: Yeah we are. We are on an eight second delay,

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so if the worst happens, I can catch it.

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Speaker 16: Okay, I'll try not, I'll be pleasant, thank you, welcome.

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you think of a concussion you hit, You've hailed from

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a different concussion, and then now it's like whoa, your

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brain is like delayed a little bit. I still have

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swelling and things like that. But it's crazy how life

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can change out of a second.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yeah, one hundred. So last night, because Friday nights,

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I'm here for Retrospectrum Radio with poly c and I'm

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one of the people on that show. And we also

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have a gentleman named Brooklyn Mike. I Brooklyn Mike. If

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you're listening, and uh, he was here, and he was

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very excited when we mentioned because Paul always gives me

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a chance to plug what the show is going to

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be Saturday morning. And he was very excited when I

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mentioned you were going to be on because he remembers you. Oh, yes,

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from your previous appearances on the show.

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Speaker 16: Yes, tell him myself Hello, if you're tuning in, Hello

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to you. Too bad you're not here with us. But yeah,

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next time, we'll have to plan it out that you

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are on with Matt.

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Speaker 2: That would be cool, That would be cool. Yeah, he's

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been on the show a few times recently. But I

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also so your show, the Icy Show. We should talked

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about that. And I'm not saying this to be funny.

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This is literally true. I had an epiphany this morning

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because it finally occurred to me. So I had never

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understood why you spell it the way you spell it.

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I see see why I never understood that. And it

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finally dawned on me this morning. And it happened while

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I'm looking at you. Your your name on messenger Jackie Brown,

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and I'm like, wait a minute, she spells Jackie with

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two seas. Yes, that has to be the reason. Yes,

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you know, talking about time and perception. I don't know

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how many years it's been now that you've been doing

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that show. Because it's all everything becomes a blur. But

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it finally occurred to me literally this morning. I was like, oh,

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Speaker 16: Yes, Yes, And the reason why I have two seas

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it's because of my name and also because I own

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my show. Yeah, so somebody already had it Icy why

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So that's why I had to change it with the

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two seeds. Okay, I could have did it different ways,

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but that's the way I wanted to go with the Jackie. Yeah,

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shout out to DZ to give mass of house records.

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He gave me my name, so salute to him.

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Speaker 5: Definitely.

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Speaker 16: I got to give the shout outs definitely because that's

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the reason why and my show's been around.

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Speaker 5: It will be eight years this June second.

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Speaker 2: Eight years. Wow.

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Speaker 16: Yes, and I've done over seven and twenty interviews local

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and international.

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Speaker 5: Yep, I'm trying to be like you, Matt. You're my

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role model.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Jenny was on with you recently?

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Speaker 16: Yes, Yes, she was on The Icy Show about a

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week and a half ago. And we talked about how,

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you know, with the insurance not paying for medicine when

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people need medicine and people are dying because they can't

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afford medicine. I was at someone's house in New York

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last week and she needed her insulin and you know,

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it's crazy because her sugar's going high and she can't

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get her insolent. And that was a different state, So

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every state is different. What's going on in this world

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with the difference with the medications and you know what

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you need to have, and you know, what about the

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people that have asthma? What about the people that have cancer?

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You know, that need to be on a medication for

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life and stuff and they can't afford it. And it's like,

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it's crazy, it's sad. It's sad, And I'm glad Jenny's doing.

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Shut out to Jenny if you're tuning in, definitely, because

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where I've seen her about two years ago to where

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she's at now, she looks amazing and I'm so proud

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of her, and I'm glad she finally found, you know,

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a cure for her. But she shouldn't have to be

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suffering like that.

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Speaker 2: There's no cure. I mean, if you're talking about the complex. Sorry,

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complex pain complex regional pain syndrome. Sorry, there's no cure

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for that. So all she can all she can really

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do is manage it.

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Speaker 16: But she is.

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Speaker 2: But she is managing it. Well oh yeah, yeah, it's amazing. Yeah. Yeah,

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she doesn't let it stop her or slow her down

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Speaker 5: Keep on doing those rallies out there.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, absolutely, Oh, stay safe, she's doing great things. And uh,

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she's gonna be going to to DC on Monday. And yeah,

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say travel, travel, She's doing a lot. Yeah, So tell

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us more about the show, because obviously, I mean, I

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industry more than anything, right.

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Speaker 5: Yes, some business owners too.

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Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, well we'll tell us about like who are

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who are some of the people you've interviewed, and and

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and and why, like how do you how do you

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decide who you want to have on the show and

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all that.

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Speaker 16: I try to give everybody an opportunity to be on

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my show, you know, I believe everybody deserves a chance

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to be on a show if they can. Yeah, And

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my show is for you to expand and meet other people.

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That's why it's local. International, started with seven people following me,

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and now I got a salute to everyone that follows me.

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My whole team with worldwide collaboration. I'm with Legal Mob Entertainment.

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And also you know I have my own assistance. I

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got Diamond and Red Ruby and also on my street teams.

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So you know, it's like I have to give them

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a shut out because if it wasn't for them to

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believe in me and keep on growing. And DJ Slimebugs

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my co hosts for Bible studies. We do Bible studies

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on Sunday for the children. It's just something. Little my

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son is the one that started with me being my

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co host and then we he did one hundred episodes.

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That was his promise to God when he got baptized,

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and I was thankful. I was hoping he would keep

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on going. But you know it's time consuming because he

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is to study and everything. But my pastor, Minister Thomas,

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doctor Minister Thomas, he believes in my son. He really

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thinks he could see my son being a minister or pastor.

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I don't know about that right now, but he's going

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through some things. But that's every teenager. You know, he'll

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be sixteen, sixteen, imagine that Matt. Remember when we were

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at your show when I found out I was pregnant

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with my son.

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Speaker 2: We'll come back to that, yeah, yeah, because that is

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a story.

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Speaker 16: That's a great story, and I always think about that.

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But my show is basically about everyone that has something

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positive going and even people that are in jailing and

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they're never coming home. They've been on my show too,

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and you know they they they said that they're innocent.

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coming home. And so you know, my show is to

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give everybody that chance. Like even I have another show

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that's going to be coming out Ice. It's icy show

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Lost Angels. It's about if you have a lost someone

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you lost and you didn't you know, when you're at

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the casket and you wish you could talk to that

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person or wish to really talk out loud instead of

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just sitting there and crying, and you know, you want

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that last closure. So my show was to have that

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last closure with that loved one that they lost. At start,

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it was it should have been out I did the

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first episode. I haven't seen you a lot, Matt. It's

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a lot to catch up with you, But I don't

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know de Z's brother passed away. Yeah, it was three

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years ago.

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Speaker 5: And that was my brother.

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Speaker 16: That was my ace, my everything, like he was my like.

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I cried for three hundred and sixty five days when

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he died, every single day, and he was the only

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one that believed in my show and believed in me

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even when he was behind bars, when he was in

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jail fighting for his life, and he would contact me

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to make sure that I keep on going. I don't

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have that motivation anymore. That's someone that really believes in me,

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like that you could trust on everything, your life on

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the line, you know, and it's hard to come around

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those type of people, real solid people. So that took

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me for a toll because I lost my female ace

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and my right my male ace. So that broke my

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heart in pieces. And I was actually going to stop

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my icy show, but I had people contacted me because

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I did a post saying that I was going to

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stop it, and they said, no, you got to keep

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on going no matter what you're going through. And you know,

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I could keep on hearing him say to me, gee, girl,

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you better not give up. If you give up, like

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he's motivating me on things that like, you know, I

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done for people, but to really have it back with

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real love and showing that they're out to help you succeed,

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not out for themselves.

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Speaker 5: That's real.

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Speaker 16: Rear to find those type of people. And that's why

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I went to go see him in jail.

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Speaker 5: I went to I bailed him out. You know, he

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lived with me.

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Speaker 16: He's a good, solid person that had my back no

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matter what I was going through divorce, crying on the

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shoulder when nobody was there. You know, like yeah, real, real,

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real life stuff. But not to have that anymore, I

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needed to come out with the show.

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Speaker 5: I feel like.

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Speaker 16: For my two aces, because I know there's a lot

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of people out there that have lost a lot of

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people and they're getting younger and younger, and I want

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my platform to be for them to release that. But

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I wasn't strong enough because my show came out right

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before my brother died. I did his mother's She lost

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two of her children, one to that was my brother

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and the other one was too. Her daughter got stabbed,

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so she talked about it on my show, so I

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made that's my aunt. So I made her the first

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episode because she told me I should do something like that,

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and I was like, you know what, I'm going to.

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But then when I lost my brother, I was numb

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for three hundred and sixty five days, like I didn't

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know if I was coming or going, and going through

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a lot of stuff. But I kept my show going

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because I kept hearing him say it. And that's why

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with that new show, it's dedicating for people that lost

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the loved ones. So that will be coming out soon

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and then the Icy show. It's here to stay as

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long as I keep on having people on the show,

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artists and things like that. Like tomorrow we have a

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music show I'm a Judge. It's in Tat Massachusetts, will

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come out. It's at eight pm. It's ten dollars to

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get in. Show it to loud House that put it together.

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So yeah, it's just you know, keep on growing, Matt.

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That's what it is about it. And you know, life

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it's splash in my eyes, so we have to keep

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on doing what we want.

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Speaker 5: And like the acting.

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Speaker 16: You know, I remember coming on your show when we

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had the red carpet event. Yeah, so I've done a

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lot more acting, different movie clips. I was in Detroit

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and a couple of things. So wow, Yeah, I like

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the acting. So if you need an actress let me

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know on a.

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Speaker 5: Short film or something. I'm definitely that I feel like

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that's my passion.

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Speaker 2: Oh really yeah, okay interesting.

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Speaker 5: Yeah I never thought that, but yeah, yeah, definitely.

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Speaker 2: There's something really interesting you mentioned about interviewing people who

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are in prison who are not getting out, they're not

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coming at home. How do how does that work logistically?

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Speaker 6: Like?

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Speaker 2: Is that is that challenging to set that up where

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they're gonna be I assume they're going to be on

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a phone talking to you, like, how did how does

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is that hard to work out?

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Speaker 16: Well, they have a they have laptops, some have cell phones. Yeah,

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it's all different, but yeah, I mean they they were

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showing me stuff on the interview that was crazy, like

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they could pop their just sell like that. So they

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were showing things that the world isn't aware of about

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things that are happening in prisons, and they showed it.

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It was live on the show, and it's like, I

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wasn't expecting that, And I even said, whatever happens on

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this episode, I'm not responsible. I didn't know, you know,

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these lifers not coming home, and so it's like they

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don't even get an opportunity. They were saying people that

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their family is supposed to write to them or show

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or put canteen. They don't even so they have to

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figure out a way inside to survive. And it's sad,

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and you know, you think about I've seen something about

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the news yesterday about cancer is rising in the jails,

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and then you think about it.

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Speaker 5: It's the food.

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Speaker 16: The food is not healthy, and I don't understand why

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they don't turn around and make like it's simple. You know,

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we have indoor greenhouses. Make it in every single jail.

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Make it a job for one of the prisoners. Then

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it's money being you know, circulated, and they're maintaining it,

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and you know it's healthier for them. I guarantee the

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cancer will go down. I'm not a medical doctor, but

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I feel in my heart, just like the school lunches,

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if you switch it to healthiness or healthier per se

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what your the ingredients are not artificial. I feel in

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my heart old school, like my grandmother taught me, old

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school ways are better, less.

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Speaker 5: Ingredients, you're using natural herbs, you're not prosper.

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Speaker 16: Every process process, everything's processed. And I didn't even know

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when I was growing up. I'll be forty eight in June.

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I never even knew when I was growing up. You know,

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look on the ingredients, look on this. They don't teach

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you that I was going to school. And it's like, okay,

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that should be part of help. That should be part

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of schools. That should be MANATARB to show them or homec.

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Speaker 5: You know how you're learning.

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Speaker 16: About measuring things like that, that's perfect. Have it half

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of a year of cooking and half of a year

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learning about you know, what is this process? What it

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is this chemical that is going into you and studying

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it and I guarantee these it will make them open

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their eye a little bit more.

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Speaker 2: There's something I've always this is an unpopular opinion, but

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I've always felt that there's something deeply wrong in a

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on a societal level with us because you know, and

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and you know, RFK talks about you know, processed foods

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and how it hurts. And don't get me wrong, I

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think RFK overall is a lunatic. But I think the

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one thing he does get right where he doesn't sound

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completely insane is when he talks about processed food and

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how how much harm that's causing uh to to to people.

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And you know, but the the thing that I I

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don't understand is why. You know, almost almost right out

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of the shoot, when you're born, you've got all these

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people around you who allegedly love you, who are trying

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to shove as much fat and cholesterol and and sugar,

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which is you know, white sugar, which is poison into you.

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You know, almost almost immediately like you learn, like like

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you're taught again by these people who are supposed to

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be looking out for you. You're taught to like and

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enjoy the worst possible stuff for you. Oh, a birthday party,

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We gotta have some cake. Oh you want to treat yeah?

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Or here, have a cupcake. You know, it's it's weird.

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It it doesn't make any logical sense. And yet and

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you know, and then people are confused, like, well, oh why,

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you know, why is obese toy such a problem. Why

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why is it that with every generation we have higher

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and higher rates of diabetes? Because this is just this

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weird thing in our culture, and I'm sure it exists

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in other countries as well. But it's like like almost

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from the day, like nobody has a chance because almost

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from the moment you're brought into the world, you are

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taught to enjoy things that are going to slowly kill you. Right,

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It's it's so bizarre. I don't know why we do it,

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but we do.

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Speaker 5: Yes, so true, so true. It is true because I'm

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about when it comes to a birthday, you have to

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have a cake. That's just right then.

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Speaker 2: Well, yeah, you're taught that right from when you're little. Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Well when I was little, some birthdays I didn't even

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have a cake.

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Speaker 16: So I made sure anybody that I know that, if

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I rock with you, I'm making sure if it's your birthday,

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if I can make it. Lately, I've been working a lot.

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It's been crazy, but yeah, ah, cake is important. I

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feel like when you get to blow that candle out,

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it's different. It's like you're relieving your your past year

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to a new beginning, sure for your life, if it

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makes sense.

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Speaker 5: A little confused, but no, no, you got no.

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Speaker 2: I totally get that. But wouldn't it be nice to

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put that candle on top of a healthy snack?

477
00:29:58,319 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 12: Oh?

478
00:29:58,519 --> 00:30:00,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, even salad? I don't.

479
00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:01,119
Speaker 2: I don't.

480
00:30:01,279 --> 00:30:03,759
Speaker 5: I don't rock on it like I definitely do. Like

481
00:30:03,880 --> 00:30:05,599
if I do a kid's birthday party and stuff, I

482
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:07,160
do have fruit salad, reckless.

483
00:30:06,839 --> 00:30:09,279
Speaker 2: Salad maybe a protein bar. You could shove the camel

484
00:30:09,319 --> 00:30:11,319
into the protein bar if it's soft enough.

485
00:30:11,240 --> 00:30:13,519
Speaker 16: You know, yeah, definitely, there's nothing wrong with that. I

486
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:16,359
feel anything, or even a yogurt putting on.

487
00:30:16,599 --> 00:30:17,599
Speaker 2: Ooh, I like that idea.

488
00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:20,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, add some oats on top.

489
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:25,319
Speaker 2: Get that protein and yeah, absolutely, yeah, absolutely yeah. So

490
00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:29,599
that's that's my my rant on that. All right, we

491
00:30:29,720 --> 00:30:34,359
need to talk about how you found out, well, sort of,

492
00:30:35,279 --> 00:30:36,440
it depends.

493
00:30:36,119 --> 00:30:38,079
Speaker 16: On what I did. I found out I was pregnant

494
00:30:38,079 --> 00:30:40,720
with my son. It will be June will be, he'll

495
00:30:40,759 --> 00:30:44,000
be sixteen years old. But having a big party, you

496
00:30:44,279 --> 00:30:45,480
don't forget. Don't forget.

497
00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:48,880
Speaker 2: So so back how many oh god, how many years ago?

498
00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:51,240
Now it's so long ago, fifteen and a half. So

499
00:30:51,599 --> 00:30:54,920
at the time, a little little time travel here a

500
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:57,599
little and some people already some of our listeners already

501
00:30:57,640 --> 00:31:01,119
know this story. But so at that time, so we

502
00:31:01,240 --> 00:31:04,640
were at what was at that time Millie's Tavern. Yes, yes, show,

503
00:31:04,839 --> 00:31:09,599
doing a show. We had a show there, your partner

504
00:31:09,640 --> 00:31:11,440
de Z the Gift. Were you married at that point?

505
00:31:11,599 --> 00:31:13,200
Speaker 5: Yeah, my ex husband yes.

506
00:31:13,079 --> 00:31:17,359
Speaker 2: Okay, I couldn't remember if you were married yet. He

507
00:31:17,559 --> 00:31:19,599
was there. He was part of the show. You were

508
00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:22,039
part of the show somehow, right, were you on stage

509
00:31:22,039 --> 00:31:22,599
at some point?

510
00:31:23,319 --> 00:31:27,319
Speaker 16: Yes, well, actually Norm called me to the stage. Oh right, right, okay,

511
00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:29,839
he says, I have something to tell you guys.

512
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:33,759
Speaker 2: Right. So Norm Moody who I was his co host

513
00:31:33,839 --> 00:31:35,720
on a show called Norman Friends that we did right

514
00:31:35,759 --> 00:31:38,400
here in Manchester on Channel twenty three at the time

515
00:31:38,519 --> 00:31:41,480
for eight years. So for anyone who doesn't know, so

516
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:45,359
Norm was a psychic and my role on the show

517
00:31:46,279 --> 00:31:49,920
kind of evolved a little bit, but basically I was

518
00:31:50,079 --> 00:31:55,680
like the skeptical, sarcastic, smart ass sidekick, you know. I was.

519
00:31:55,799 --> 00:31:58,000
I was off in the fly and the ointment and

520
00:31:58,759 --> 00:32:02,839
you know, trying to not derail everything. But but I

521
00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:05,000
was kinda when I was a little I was kind

522
00:32:05,039 --> 00:32:07,599
of a menace in some ways, you know. And I

523
00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:09,599
was I was just colost for eight years. But we

524
00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:13,119
would do events outside of that, and so he was.

525
00:32:13,240 --> 00:32:15,519
I don't remember if it was like officially like a

526
00:32:15,599 --> 00:32:17,960
Norman Friend's event that we were doing, I don't remember.

527
00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:20,920
I just remember Norm was involved. There were musicians involved.

528
00:32:22,920 --> 00:32:24,559
You and d Z were a part of the show.

529
00:32:24,839 --> 00:32:28,839
And and yes, so that night Norm told did he

530
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:31,359
I can't remember though, did he did he tell you

531
00:32:31,519 --> 00:32:33,400
on stage in front of everyone?

532
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 16: Yes, he actually called me to the stage and I'm

533
00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:39,079
like no, because I wasn't feeling good that night.

534
00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:40,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, I was moody.

535
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:42,119
Speaker 5: Yeah, I was just I.

536
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:44,200
Speaker 16: Wasn't feeling it. I didn't even want to go to

537
00:32:44,279 --> 00:32:48,319
the show. I just was I felt nauseous. Yeah, smells

538
00:32:48,359 --> 00:32:50,039
would bother me, and I'm like, maybe.

539
00:32:49,880 --> 00:32:53,079
Speaker 5: I'm getting sick. But I went because to support him.

540
00:32:53,279 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, And.

541
00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 16: He went to the stage and then Norm called me

542
00:32:59,119 --> 00:33:02,079
to the stage and then he's like, you need to

543
00:33:02,160 --> 00:33:02,640
come up here.

544
00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:03,480
Speaker 5: I need to tell you.

545
00:33:05,000 --> 00:33:11,640
Speaker 16: Something to both of you, to me and e Z.

546
00:33:12,200 --> 00:33:15,680
And I'm like, I'm looking at d Z. I'm like, damn,

547
00:33:15,720 --> 00:33:17,440
he cheated on me and I'm about.

548
00:33:17,160 --> 00:33:18,000
Speaker 5: To get told them.

549
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:20,359
Speaker 2: That's what I thought.

550
00:33:20,519 --> 00:33:22,759
Speaker 16: Yeah, that's what I was thinking. I'm like, I'm it's

551
00:33:22,799 --> 00:33:27,000
gonna be a we're gonna rumble on it. We're gonna

552
00:33:27,079 --> 00:33:31,160
get it all, we get to crack it. But that

553
00:33:31,319 --> 00:33:32,200
was a situation.

554
00:33:32,599 --> 00:33:36,359
Speaker 5: It's like, so how far along are you? And I'm

555
00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:40,079
like what, It's like, how far along are you? And

556
00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:43,880
you haven't not one, but you haven't two. And I'm

557
00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:45,839
looking at the z. I'm like, is this a prank?

558
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:51,079
Speaker 16: Because like, I know my body, but damn am I pregnant?

559
00:33:51,519 --> 00:33:54,160
Because I was just complaining to him on the way

560
00:33:54,319 --> 00:33:57,119
that I wasn't feeling good. So we're on the stage,

561
00:33:57,519 --> 00:33:59,880
I'm not feeling good. I feel like I'm gonna get

562
00:34:00,319 --> 00:34:03,079
I'm like, is this true or not? I'm like, I

563
00:34:03,119 --> 00:34:05,880
don't think so, and he's like, no, I'm serious. Norm

564
00:34:06,039 --> 00:34:08,719
kept saying that and he's like, you're gonna call me

565
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:10,679
in a couple of days and you're gonna tell me

566
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:11,880
that you're expected.

567
00:34:13,039 --> 00:34:13,880
Speaker 5: So I went home.

568
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:16,840
Speaker 16: We're going home, and I'm like, do you think that's true?

569
00:34:17,159 --> 00:34:19,920
And I don't know, So I'm like, let's stop. So

570
00:34:20,239 --> 00:34:24,360
I got a test the next day and I'm like, oh,

571
00:34:25,599 --> 00:34:28,599
I called D. I'm like, D come here, come here,

572
00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:31,639
and he comes running in. I'm like, look at this.

573
00:34:32,360 --> 00:34:34,719
I was like, I gotta do another one because I

574
00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:35,639
bought a couple of them.

575
00:34:36,199 --> 00:34:37,760
Speaker 5: I did it. I think two or three of them

576
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:38,639
are all positive.

577
00:34:39,199 --> 00:34:41,400
Speaker 16: I'm like, oh no, I'm I'm gonna call Matt right

578
00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:45,000
now and let him know that Norm was on point.

579
00:34:45,599 --> 00:34:48,440
And then the story gets even more crazy. So my

580
00:34:48,599 --> 00:34:51,039
son is a twin I lost my daughter. She was

581
00:34:51,079 --> 00:34:56,360
four months four months when I was pregnant, and when

582
00:34:59,079 --> 00:35:03,440
h we did the ultrasound and they're saying twins and

583
00:35:03,599 --> 00:35:06,480
I'm like, no way, So I screenshot it. I think

584
00:35:06,519 --> 00:35:08,280
I even sent it to you as I send this

585
00:35:08,559 --> 00:35:11,360
to Norm please, yeah, to let him know that he

586
00:35:11,719 --> 00:35:13,000
is on point.

587
00:35:13,159 --> 00:35:17,639
Speaker 5: Yeah, so yeah, he's how is he Well, he's dead,

588
00:35:18,199 --> 00:35:18,719
passed away.

589
00:35:18,800 --> 00:35:22,320
Speaker 2: He passed away yeah, oh wow, yeah, yeah, he's been

590
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:24,920
gone a few years now. Yeah. Wow.

591
00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:25,840
Speaker 5: He was a good guy.

592
00:35:26,360 --> 00:35:30,880
Speaker 2: He was Yeah, he you know, he'd had various health issues,

593
00:35:31,559 --> 00:35:34,760
so it was in some ways it was not necessarily

594
00:35:34,840 --> 00:35:37,119
a big surprise, but you know, and I hadn't been

595
00:35:37,159 --> 00:35:40,239
on the show with him for you know, several years,

596
00:35:40,320 --> 00:35:42,239
quite a few years at that point, so when he

597
00:35:42,320 --> 00:35:45,159
did pass away, so I wasn't, you know, up to

598
00:35:45,199 --> 00:35:48,440
speed on what was going on necessarily. But but yeah, yeah,

599
00:35:48,559 --> 00:35:50,400
so he is, uh he has he has left us.

600
00:35:50,480 --> 00:35:53,920
But but yeah, that is a that's a great story though, Yes.

601
00:35:53,880 --> 00:35:56,559
Speaker 16: Yes, definitely not every time I see you or Jenny,

602
00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:59,239
I always think of about that story because it's like,

603
00:35:59,719 --> 00:36:01,559
you know, oh, it's good memories.

604
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:04,039
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I remember too, and being pretty certain about

605
00:36:04,079 --> 00:36:04,920
it oh yeah, he.

606
00:36:05,000 --> 00:36:06,119
Speaker 5: Was precise right on top.

607
00:36:06,320 --> 00:36:07,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, right on.

608
00:36:08,280 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 5: He knew before I did.

609
00:36:09,559 --> 00:36:17,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, were you? Were you skeptical like going into that,

610
00:36:17,559 --> 00:36:20,239
like I don't know what your your feelings are generally

611
00:36:20,559 --> 00:36:24,079
about psychics and all of that. Like I'm a natural skeptic,

612
00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:26,960
but I don't know what your your feelings are.

613
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:30,519
Speaker 16: I actually like psychics. I feel like it could be

614
00:36:30,599 --> 00:36:34,639
a guide, that angel coming through the persons. Yeah, tell

615
00:36:34,719 --> 00:36:38,480
him something. Yeah, because I've had a psychic contact me

616
00:36:38,519 --> 00:36:40,599
in the middle of the night when my brother passed away,

617
00:36:41,440 --> 00:36:44,880
and she said he was going back and forth and

618
00:36:45,480 --> 00:36:47,679
she said she kept she was a.

619
00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:53,280
Speaker 5: Media and a psychic medium medium.

620
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:57,440
Speaker 16: Yes, and she said that she called me at eleven

621
00:36:57,440 --> 00:36:59,559
o'clock a night. I never answered when people will call

622
00:36:59,639 --> 00:37:02,679
on me on my messenger and I'm like, is this

623
00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:06,639
a stark girl, because I've had it happen like crazy stuff.

624
00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:09,519
And I'm like nah, And then she's like, Jackie, I

625
00:37:09,639 --> 00:37:13,239
need to talk to you. She's like, you don't know me,

626
00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:17,480
but someone that is just passed is trying to cross

627
00:37:17,639 --> 00:37:20,000
over and they's stock they need to I need you

628
00:37:20,079 --> 00:37:23,920
to contact wow. And I'm like, Okay, is this lady

629
00:37:24,079 --> 00:37:26,679
really playing with me because you know social media, you

630
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:29,199
look at a picture, you just assume something like I'm

631
00:37:29,239 --> 00:37:34,480
not stupid. So long story short, I answered her and

632
00:37:34,599 --> 00:37:37,920
she goes, Jackie. I have three Jackies in my in

633
00:37:38,039 --> 00:37:41,320
my friend's list, and I have this person that's a male,

634
00:37:41,800 --> 00:37:46,920
dark skin. He's trying to cross over and he wants to.

635
00:37:48,000 --> 00:37:50,960
He wants to he needs to talk to you, and

636
00:37:51,119 --> 00:37:54,360
I'm like, it's my brother. Like it's my brother. I

637
00:37:54,519 --> 00:37:56,480
was like, oh my god. I started crying my eyes

638
00:37:56,559 --> 00:37:58,800
out and I'm like, okay. So this was probably like

639
00:37:58,920 --> 00:38:02,880
six months after he pass and you know, I felt

640
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:05,920
like when he crossed, when he passed, he didn't cross.

641
00:38:06,960 --> 00:38:10,559
I felt that, Yeah, just something I go to a

642
00:38:10,679 --> 00:38:13,719
cemetery live it was. It's just I take care of it.

643
00:38:14,079 --> 00:38:15,880
Speaker 5: Yeah, So I don't know.

644
00:38:15,920 --> 00:38:18,639
Speaker 16: I just felt that and people thought I was crazy

645
00:38:18,679 --> 00:38:21,079
and stuff. But when she contacted me, I knew I

646
00:38:21,199 --> 00:38:25,840
was right. And he was talking about how he passed.

647
00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:29,239
He he he said I was right, like my feeling

648
00:38:29,360 --> 00:38:33,039
about it and stuff like that, and he kept saying,

649
00:38:34,239 --> 00:38:36,280
drink lots of water, take care of your health.

650
00:38:36,599 --> 00:38:38,320
Speaker 5: That's something he would always say.

651
00:38:39,239 --> 00:38:42,679
Speaker 16: Yeah, And I said okay, because he used to work

652
00:38:42,719 --> 00:38:45,079
out and drink water every day, so he would like

653
00:38:45,199 --> 00:38:52,039
motivate me, and then he'd be he started going to

654
00:38:52,280 --> 00:38:54,960
debt Because I'm like, is this lady really serious?

655
00:38:54,960 --> 00:38:56,519
Speaker 5: I'm like, what else do you see?

656
00:38:56,960 --> 00:38:59,159
Speaker 16: He's like, well, I don't know how long he's gonna

657
00:38:59,199 --> 00:39:01,679
be here for, but I just want as long as

658
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:02,679
he's here to talk.

659
00:39:03,639 --> 00:39:05,360
Speaker 5: He has a lot of information to tell you.

660
00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:08,559
Speaker 16: So he was just going in and in and he

661
00:39:08,800 --> 00:39:11,920
was talking about our old memories together and I'm like,

662
00:39:12,039 --> 00:39:17,159
oh my god, this is really him. And the crazy

663
00:39:17,239 --> 00:39:19,440
thing is he's like, I come to your room every night.

664
00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:21,599
That's what he was saying to her. Like he was

665
00:39:21,679 --> 00:39:24,079
just saying like a whole bunch of stuff to me,

666
00:39:24,800 --> 00:39:27,159
and I'm like, this is overwhelming. He's like, I appreciate

667
00:39:27,239 --> 00:39:31,039
you going to the cemetery cleaning and up. He's saying

668
00:39:31,079 --> 00:39:34,320
that to me and everything. So I was like, oh, wow,

669
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:38,199
that's that's that's that's like. I felt grateful because I

670
00:39:38,239 --> 00:39:40,639
felt like he's talking to me. And then he brought

671
00:39:40,679 --> 00:39:42,400
up about my show. You know how I was telling

672
00:39:42,440 --> 00:39:46,079
you I was going to stop my show and he's like,

673
00:39:46,440 --> 00:39:50,119
you better not stop your show. He's like that he

674
00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:52,960
was telling me that, so, you know, he was just

675
00:39:53,000 --> 00:39:55,159
saying a lot of stuff and she was on point.

676
00:39:55,280 --> 00:39:58,880
She was on point, like I said, what's my favorite color?

677
00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:01,760
Because at first, like I I'm not, I'm like, what's

678
00:40:01,800 --> 00:40:04,800
my favorite color? And he's like blue, and I was

679
00:40:04,880 --> 00:40:07,840
like okay. I was like, say some crazy stuff what

680
00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:11,119
we did together, and he said some crazy stuff like

681
00:40:11,199 --> 00:40:14,239
he wasn't saying in like full sentences, but he was

682
00:40:14,320 --> 00:40:18,000
saying it like I would understand. So I was like, dang,

683
00:40:18,199 --> 00:40:21,199
he's really like really here. He was there for three

684
00:40:21,239 --> 00:40:24,119
and a half hours talking to me. It was like

685
00:40:24,360 --> 00:40:28,039
three o'clock in the morning. When she's like he's gone,

686
00:40:28,639 --> 00:40:30,000
and I was like wait because we were in the

687
00:40:30,039 --> 00:40:34,000
middle of a sentence and she goes, just no, he

688
00:40:34,119 --> 00:40:38,599
crossed over. It's gonna make me cry, but he crossed over,

689
00:40:40,400 --> 00:40:44,079
and I was with him and knowing that he's my ace,

690
00:40:45,119 --> 00:40:50,440
and like he went over, like I felt relieved, but

691
00:40:50,679 --> 00:40:54,800
also like that's what was I was feeling when I

692
00:40:54,920 --> 00:40:56,880
was going to the cemetery. You know what I'm saying,

693
00:40:57,039 --> 00:41:00,880
Like I knew what I was feeling that he didn't

694
00:41:00,960 --> 00:41:06,440
have that closure, you know, and I seen him like

695
00:41:07,480 --> 00:41:10,920
a week before he passed. I was looking for him

696
00:41:10,960 --> 00:41:13,119
when he was missing and stuff like I was on.

697
00:41:13,719 --> 00:41:15,920
It felt sick to me because I seen crows go by.

698
00:41:16,519 --> 00:41:19,320
Speaker 5: I was like, he's dead. And I was like I

699
00:41:19,480 --> 00:41:22,599
was spasing on everybody. I was not find my brother.

700
00:41:22,760 --> 00:41:23,320
Find my brother.

701
00:41:23,440 --> 00:41:25,320
Speaker 16: I was like, I don't want to hear it. And

702
00:41:25,400 --> 00:41:27,840
then when I got that call he got shot in

703
00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:30,679
the head. Oh my god, Oh my god, Like I

704
00:41:30,760 --> 00:41:34,480
wanted to lose. I started flipping. I had so much anger,

705
00:41:34,800 --> 00:41:36,199
Like anger.

706
00:41:36,159 --> 00:41:38,360
Speaker 2: But did you did you know before you got the call?

707
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:39,280
Like did you feel it?

708
00:41:39,960 --> 00:41:43,719
Speaker 16: I knew he passed, but the thing was it was

709
00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:47,719
his mom's birthday. And then when his mom's birthday, she

710
00:41:47,880 --> 00:41:49,800
called me and she's like, have you seen him? And

711
00:41:49,960 --> 00:41:51,920
I was like, no, I haven't seen him. I seen

712
00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:55,199
I thought you had a picture with him. She's like yeah,

713
00:41:56,000 --> 00:41:58,360
but no one's seen him for twenty four hours. I'm like,

714
00:41:58,559 --> 00:42:01,559
that's not like him. So I started making calls. I'm like,

715
00:42:01,639 --> 00:42:05,519
that's not like him. I'm like, we're like, I'm calling

716
00:42:05,599 --> 00:42:08,199
his phone, that's ringing and ringing. I was like, get

717
00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:11,559
his phone, get his phone, ping to find out where

718
00:42:11,679 --> 00:42:16,360
it where he's where his phone is? Trace that and

719
00:42:17,199 --> 00:42:19,239
I said that to the mom, and you know, I

720
00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:23,360
was kind of like hostile with but I felt it.

721
00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:26,400
I felt like, that's my ace, that's my everything, and

722
00:42:26,519 --> 00:42:28,800
you're gone. Like I felt it because I was at

723
00:42:28,840 --> 00:42:31,599
the beach. I went to the beach that morning and

724
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:34,519
I seen the crows go by, and when I seen that,

725
00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,480
I threw up. And then when I threw up, I

726
00:42:37,639 --> 00:42:40,000
was like someone died. And the person I was with,

727
00:42:40,159 --> 00:42:44,000
they're like, no, that's just you're just saying. I was like, no,

728
00:42:44,239 --> 00:42:46,800
when I get like this, someone died, I feel it

729
00:42:46,880 --> 00:42:49,800
inside me and my soul is empty, like it's weird.

730
00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:50,880
Speaker 5: Like I could see.

731
00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:54,800
Speaker 16: Psychic things like little things, and I seen I seen

732
00:42:54,920 --> 00:42:57,719
woods and I kept seeing woods like a vision, and

733
00:42:57,800 --> 00:43:00,760
I'm like, someone's dead in the woods. I'm like, something's

734
00:43:00,840 --> 00:43:03,599
not right. And then his mom called me right when

735
00:43:03,599 --> 00:43:08,079
those crows were going by. I was like, traces my phone.

736
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:10,760
I'm gonna be on the I'm getting a car, I'm

737
00:43:10,880 --> 00:43:13,000
going to look for him. I'm gonna find him. I'm

738
00:43:13,039 --> 00:43:16,039
gonna find him. And she's like, oh, don't don't panic

739
00:43:16,079 --> 00:43:17,920
too much. I'm like, no, it's been twenty four hours.

740
00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:20,440
Someone nobody's seen him. I was like, it's not right

741
00:43:20,519 --> 00:43:23,480
because I already seen what was happening. Yeah, So I

742
00:43:23,559 --> 00:43:27,599
turned around, I got the car. My girl was driving me.

743
00:43:27,960 --> 00:43:28,639
Speaker 5: It pinged to me.

744
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:30,960
Speaker 16: Interested in the Hampshire where we're at ninety five point

745
00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:33,920
three FM. We're out here with Matt Connaughty s out

746
00:43:33,960 --> 00:43:36,519
to Matt. But it pinged out here, but it was

747
00:43:36,599 --> 00:43:40,800
all woods and his mom sent me the address I'm going.

748
00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:46,039
So my girl came to gribbed me. My godson's mom king.

749
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:50,320
She picked me up and we went to the woods.

750
00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:54,000
We're heading into the woods and I'm like some like,

751
00:43:54,119 --> 00:43:58,280
I just something wasn't sitting right. I'm five minutes from

752
00:43:58,320 --> 00:44:02,440
the woods, and I said, I feel like he's dead.

753
00:44:02,480 --> 00:44:06,559
I smelled blood and I was like, he's dead. And

754
00:44:07,079 --> 00:44:10,000
I got that call and his mom is telling me

755
00:44:10,159 --> 00:44:13,280
he's dead. She's like, get to Lynn, immediately, get to Linn.

756
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:18,119
Get to the house. Oh shoot. I was like, flip

757
00:44:18,159 --> 00:44:20,920
the car around because we're out here. Lynn is what

758
00:44:21,960 --> 00:44:22,960
hour and a half from here?

759
00:44:23,199 --> 00:44:24,480
Speaker 2: From here on probably an hour.

760
00:44:24,960 --> 00:44:27,880
Speaker 16: Yeah, So I'm like, oh, I have my friend. I'm

761
00:44:27,960 --> 00:44:30,079
like I'm gonna I'm gonna take a car. I need

762
00:44:30,199 --> 00:44:30,679
someone's car.

763
00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:32,519
Speaker 5: I need to be mobile. I need to be done

764
00:44:32,559 --> 00:44:32,719
in it.

765
00:44:33,039 --> 00:44:36,000
Speaker 16: My girl gave me her car. I shot over there.

766
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:39,599
I was like, this is a horror movie. I seen

767
00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:42,280
the ye I can't even get to the street. I

768
00:44:42,360 --> 00:44:45,880
see cop cars everywhere, the yellow tape. They blocked the

769
00:44:45,920 --> 00:44:50,679
whole street, Layton Street off and I'm like, oh man,

770
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:51,639
this is nuts.

771
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:52,440
Speaker 5: This is nuts.

772
00:44:52,639 --> 00:44:55,000
Speaker 16: Like I need to get over there. That's my family,

773
00:44:55,039 --> 00:44:56,760
that's my aunt's house, you know. So I'm like, what

774
00:44:56,960 --> 00:45:00,199
the heck's going on? I turn around, I get to.

775
00:45:02,960 --> 00:45:03,559
Speaker 5: Stop a shop.

776
00:45:03,599 --> 00:45:05,360
Speaker 16: I'm gonna I'm gonna leave the car and I'm gonna run.

777
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:08,000
I'm gonna run over to where they're at. It's like

778
00:45:08,320 --> 00:45:12,199
maybe five streets away. So I get to the car,

779
00:45:12,760 --> 00:45:16,280
I mean to the the parking lot where stopping shop is,

780
00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:23,440
and I see the the body go by, and I

781
00:45:23,599 --> 00:45:26,000
was like, damn, that's my brother. But I felt like

782
00:45:26,119 --> 00:45:32,840
it was him saying goodbye to me because it was

783
00:45:32,960 --> 00:45:35,639
me and his one on one for him to go by,

784
00:45:36,679 --> 00:45:39,719
and how all of it. I kept spending the block

785
00:45:39,760 --> 00:45:42,800
for forty five minutes, so I felt like it was

786
00:45:43,239 --> 00:45:46,280
him delaying to see him, you know what I mean.

787
00:45:46,920 --> 00:45:50,119
But that didn't stop me. I went to the where

788
00:45:50,199 --> 00:45:52,800
he was and I didn't know that they don't clean up.

789
00:45:53,719 --> 00:45:59,440
I almost fainted, flipping, flipping, But it's like, you know,

790
00:45:59,599 --> 00:46:03,719
that's my brother forever. And everyone could say, oh, he's

791
00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:05,639
different skin tone, but you don't.

792
00:46:05,440 --> 00:46:08,400
Speaker 5: Know what we've been through. Like he was the one

793
00:46:08,440 --> 00:46:09,519
that was solid for me.

794
00:46:09,719 --> 00:46:13,559
Speaker 16: If I needed to cry about breaking up with his brother,

795
00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:16,519
about the divorce and things like that, that was the

796
00:46:16,599 --> 00:46:22,239
one I could go to and trust on everything, on everything,

797
00:46:22,440 --> 00:46:25,039
because that's my son's godfather and uncle, you know what

798
00:46:25,119 --> 00:46:25,400
I mean.

799
00:46:25,480 --> 00:46:30,719
Speaker 5: So it's like family, family, but you don't know when

800
00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:32,920
life is gonna be tossed.

801
00:46:33,079 --> 00:46:34,119
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, exactly.

802
00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:37,480
Speaker 16: And it's like people need to appreciate life, not take

803
00:46:37,599 --> 00:46:41,000
life for granted. I don't have time for hating. I

804
00:46:41,039 --> 00:46:45,960
don't have time for being jealous of someone. We need

805
00:46:46,079 --> 00:46:49,119
to unite, We need to come together. We need to

806
00:46:50,159 --> 00:46:54,559
be together and fight for our life right now because

807
00:46:54,719 --> 00:46:59,079
everything was a turmoil and it's like, you know, our

808
00:46:59,199 --> 00:47:02,760
children need a life for the future, and if we

809
00:47:02,880 --> 00:47:04,840
don't make it better for them, what life are they

810
00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:05,400
going to have?

811
00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:07,280
Speaker 5: Right It's just a turmoil.

812
00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:09,880
Speaker 16: Yeah, I mean, like I said, well, we used to

813
00:47:10,000 --> 00:47:13,519
leave the doors unlocked, your neighbor you could trust and

814
00:47:13,599 --> 00:47:15,800
things like that. Now you gotta double up, locked everything,

815
00:47:15,960 --> 00:47:16,599
check everything.

816
00:47:17,239 --> 00:47:17,840
Speaker 5: It's crazy.

817
00:47:19,280 --> 00:47:22,440
Speaker 2: The reason, by the way, so uh, the reason I

818
00:47:22,599 --> 00:47:24,880
asked you about did you did you feel like you

819
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:25,599
felt him leave?

820
00:47:25,960 --> 00:47:26,119
Speaker 12: You know?

821
00:47:26,960 --> 00:47:30,760
Speaker 2: Is because this relates to someone you've met but who

822
00:47:30,880 --> 00:47:33,239
is no longer with us. Do you remember Steve Blake?

823
00:47:34,159 --> 00:47:35,320
Speaker 5: Why that sound familiar?

824
00:47:35,599 --> 00:47:39,519
Speaker 2: So you and de Z were on his podcast. This

825
00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:41,440
was a lot. This would have been around the same

826
00:47:41,559 --> 00:47:45,159
time you would come up to Manchester. We we were

827
00:47:45,239 --> 00:47:47,079
doing his podcast at a diner.

828
00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:50,440
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, I remember that. Yeah, he passed away.

829
00:47:50,559 --> 00:47:53,119
Speaker 2: He passed away. Yeah, he's been He's actually been gone

830
00:47:53,119 --> 00:47:57,119
for for quite a while now. But but so I

831
00:47:57,400 --> 00:47:59,599
will just because it I don't know, it feels like

832
00:47:59,639 --> 00:48:01,360
the moment to do it, I guess because we're talking

833
00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:03,920
about it and it's someone you know or knew. I

834
00:48:04,039 --> 00:48:05,800
know you didn't meet him, you didn't him very well,

835
00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:07,199
but you probably met him a few times because he

836
00:48:07,199 --> 00:48:11,519
was always around. Yes, but Steve, So there was a

837
00:48:11,639 --> 00:48:16,239
night remember remember Styling Souls. We used to do events

838
00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:18,679
there and I did hypnosis there. So there was a

839
00:48:18,760 --> 00:48:22,000
night that I was there after a a hypnosis session

840
00:48:22,079 --> 00:48:24,480
with somebody, and I'm there at the computer and I'm

841
00:48:24,599 --> 00:48:29,400
just doing whatever I was doing. And I've never this

842
00:48:29,559 --> 00:48:31,719
is something. Not only have I never shared this publicly,

843
00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:35,320
I've never told anyone this. I've never told anyone this.

844
00:48:36,480 --> 00:48:39,119
I'm sitting there. It was probably I don't know, around

845
00:48:39,599 --> 00:48:41,920
eight thirty nine o'clock at night, I'm kind of getting

846
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:45,679
ready to go home, and all of a sudden, I

847
00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:48,800
just felt I felt very heavy, like I felt this

848
00:48:49,079 --> 00:48:54,039
enormous loss, and I actually started crying, like really crying,

849
00:48:54,159 --> 00:48:58,280
and I'm not a crier, and I had no idea

850
00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:01,280
what was happening to me. I don't know, you know,

851
00:49:01,360 --> 00:49:04,360
And It'll lasted a few minutes, but I just felt

852
00:49:04,559 --> 00:49:06,960
like this enormous sense of loss all of a sudden,

853
00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:10,719
and I was crying, and it was very very strange.

854
00:49:12,079 --> 00:49:14,519
Hasn't nothing. I haven't experienced anything quite like that since.

855
00:49:15,159 --> 00:49:17,559
But yeah, it was just odd. And then when I

856
00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:20,280
was done and I pulled myself together for you know,

857
00:49:20,400 --> 00:49:22,920
whatever reason this was happening to me, you know, I

858
00:49:23,159 --> 00:49:26,360
went home and whatnot. And then first thing in the

859
00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:32,599
morning the next day, I get a call and it's Esther,

860
00:49:32,760 --> 00:49:33,880
who was Steve's wife.

861
00:49:34,400 --> 00:49:34,639
Speaker 12: Wow.

862
00:49:35,119 --> 00:49:37,360
Speaker 2: And as soon as I heard her voice on the phone,

863
00:49:37,519 --> 00:49:40,039
I knew, Like before she even told me, I knew,

864
00:49:41,960 --> 00:49:46,559
and I now looking back on it, you know, look,

865
00:49:46,599 --> 00:49:48,159
I'm not one of these people who says, oh, there

866
00:49:48,199 --> 00:49:51,440
are you know, no coincidences. Of course there are coincidences.

867
00:49:51,519 --> 00:49:54,440
But but she told me, you know, because I asked,

868
00:49:54,440 --> 00:49:56,440
I said, well, when did he pass? She said, you know,

869
00:49:56,519 --> 00:49:58,400
she was vague about the time, but she said, last night.

870
00:49:58,679 --> 00:50:02,199
I found him. Last night. He was he was unconscious.

871
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:07,719
And I've just always kind of thought, because I don't

872
00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:11,639
know how else to explain what I was experiencing, it

873
00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:16,760
just seemed to me, I think I felt him leave.

874
00:50:17,119 --> 00:50:20,559
Speaker 16: Yeah, and I felt that when I see the crows,

875
00:50:21,760 --> 00:50:25,679
I just didn't know who it was precise died. Yeah,

876
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:28,159
And I lost my aunt prior to that, my grandmother

877
00:50:28,239 --> 00:50:32,159
and my ace. Like I said in many like Rest

878
00:50:32,199 --> 00:50:35,679
of Soul, Legend King og Don Hazel, he was the

879
00:50:35,960 --> 00:50:40,000
director of the movie he passed away, then legend La La,

880
00:50:41,079 --> 00:50:43,920
that's the lady I go in Don Hazel against the movie.

881
00:50:44,039 --> 00:50:46,199
Speaker 5: I go against her in the movie, Oh Okay.

882
00:50:46,239 --> 00:50:49,760
Speaker 16: He passed away one year after Don haesel So it's

883
00:50:49,840 --> 00:50:52,079
like all these funerals, I can't even hear from one,

884
00:50:52,679 --> 00:50:54,480
and it's just getting hit. I got hit with like

885
00:50:54,599 --> 00:50:59,880
eleven in two years, and they were all close to me,

886
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:05,000
and my heart was like ripped this way, ripped this way,

887
00:51:05,320 --> 00:51:08,840
ripped this way, and it's like my brothers. Though in

888
00:51:09,039 --> 00:51:15,559
my other ace Keana restaursoul angelized. I felt those two

889
00:51:16,159 --> 00:51:23,199
when I say I felt it my Quanna, that's my godson's.

890
00:51:24,840 --> 00:51:27,519
Speaker 5: Mother. I was actually supposed to be due on her.

891
00:51:28,639 --> 00:51:30,840
Speaker 16: My son was supposed to be due on my birthday,

892
00:51:30,880 --> 00:51:32,880
but I wanted to be selfish June nineteenth.

893
00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:36,360
Speaker 5: It's a holiday now, baby, but.

894
00:51:38,480 --> 00:51:41,039
Speaker 16: My son was supposed to be do We were both

895
00:51:41,079 --> 00:51:44,719
pregnant at the same time, our whole pregnancies, and we

896
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:46,079
both found out we're having a boy.

897
00:51:46,280 --> 00:51:51,159
Speaker 5: We were a static and long story short, when she passed.

898
00:51:55,559 --> 00:51:57,920
I felt it. I seen it. I had a dream.

899
00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:01,159
I had a dream she was in a ballroom.

900
00:52:02,159 --> 00:52:06,719
Speaker 16: All in beige dressed beige shirt and she was in

901
00:52:06,760 --> 00:52:09,719
a big ballroom, makeup, looking beautiful, dancing.

902
00:52:10,519 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 5: And I got that call when I was having that dream,

903
00:52:13,920 --> 00:52:18,320
and I felt so sick. I started yelling the grandmother.

904
00:52:18,559 --> 00:52:20,119
Speaker 2: I was like no, my aunt.

905
00:52:21,280 --> 00:52:24,119
Speaker 5: I was like, no, I was just wear her last night.

906
00:52:24,239 --> 00:52:28,519
There's no way, no way. And she's like, no, it's true.

907
00:52:28,559 --> 00:52:31,960
You need to get over here. Everyone's over here, the cops.

908
00:52:32,719 --> 00:52:36,280
I'm like what. I'm like, no, I what time is it?

909
00:52:36,559 --> 00:52:38,880
I was like lost, like I just dreamt of her.

910
00:52:39,280 --> 00:52:41,400
Speaker 16: There's no way. I'm like, there's no way on my fine,

911
00:52:41,480 --> 00:52:44,519
my ace. And you know, I had to clean up

912
00:52:44,559 --> 00:52:47,960
the blood on her bed because it's my godson's room.

913
00:52:48,840 --> 00:52:50,440
Nobody wanted to do it, and I'm like I'm not

914
00:52:50,599 --> 00:52:52,800
I'm not gonna leave it. I gotta clean it, you

915
00:52:52,880 --> 00:52:55,760
know what I mean. So everyone's like put gloves on,

916
00:52:56,079 --> 00:52:59,039
put this mask, and I was like, no, I'm not

917
00:52:59,159 --> 00:53:02,719
gonna do that. That's my best friend. Like and I

918
00:53:02,800 --> 00:53:07,679
didn't even think to put loves or anything because that's

919
00:53:07,760 --> 00:53:11,760
my best friend. To know that that's her blood leg oh,

920
00:53:12,480 --> 00:53:15,400
you know. So it's like visions I seen.

921
00:53:17,519 --> 00:53:22,559
Speaker 5: That's it. And when I seen her the night before,

922
00:53:23,719 --> 00:53:29,559
that feeling I got, like when we go like this

923
00:53:29,719 --> 00:53:33,000
to each other, and I got a feeling I was

924
00:53:33,119 --> 00:53:35,719
never going to see her again. I felt it.

925
00:53:36,039 --> 00:53:38,320
Speaker 16: I felt it, and if I ever get that feeling,

926
00:53:38,440 --> 00:53:41,039
I got it with my brother and I ran back

927
00:53:41,119 --> 00:53:43,199
to him to give him a hug and a kiss

928
00:53:43,760 --> 00:53:47,159
because I got that failing that I'll never see them again.

929
00:53:47,599 --> 00:53:51,960
And when I get that feeling, that's why I always say,

930
00:53:52,239 --> 00:53:55,159
when you love somebody, you have to say I love

931
00:53:55,199 --> 00:53:59,679
you to them and give hugs and be affectionate, because

932
00:53:59,760 --> 00:54:03,119
you know, know today's not promise, never mind tomorrow, and

933
00:54:03,199 --> 00:54:07,880
that's very important. No matter like suicide is such a high.

934
00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:11,559
We just lost lost that raper. He was twenty something

935
00:54:11,679 --> 00:54:15,800
years old this week. And you know, it's okay to

936
00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:17,679
get help. If you ever feel like you want to

937
00:54:17,719 --> 00:54:21,679
hurt yourself or you want to harm someone, it's okay,

938
00:54:21,880 --> 00:54:25,320
get the help first before you do it, because your

939
00:54:25,440 --> 00:54:29,519
family is going to suffer tremendously. And if you hurt

940
00:54:29,599 --> 00:54:33,960
somebody or kill somebody, it's going to hurt two families,

941
00:54:34,079 --> 00:54:37,760
not one, but two, your family and their family. So

942
00:54:37,920 --> 00:54:42,000
it's important because people don't understand that that you know,

943
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retaliation or whatever the case may be, is no, that's

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not the way, and we need to reach out to

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this younger, younger generation.

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Speaker 5: The youth needs us.

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Speaker 16: They're lost for sauce, very lost for sauce. You know,

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we got to start getting them back how we were

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growing up and unite and with everyone, because now it's

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not about unite. You know, it's different cultures, different gangs,

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different society, society, and you need to unite. Everybody needs

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to unite and come together. That's that, that's what we

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need to do. We need to keep praying. I say,

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keep your prayer, peace up, prayers up, positive, and that's

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what we need to do.

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Speaker 2: Well, very well said. So we are. We are rapidly

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running out of time. It goes so quickly.

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Speaker 5: Wow, we did. We managed a lot of stuff making

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I feel accomplished, and I.

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Speaker 2: Knew we would, but I do want to make sure

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so before we run out of time. The Icy Show.

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We want to remind people about that. Where to find

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it when it's I don't know if you're on any

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kind of a set schedule or if it's just it's

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on when it's on, or.

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Speaker 16: I got you mate, so you can check me on

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my podcast The Icy Show. Uh, it is local internationally.

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It is at six pm Easter time. It's I try

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to be on daily, but you know, sometimes with life

970
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and working and everything, it gets pushed back the day.

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But it is always lined up and promoted anybody that

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is on my show. I try to do a month out.

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We are booking until.

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Speaker 5: April right now.

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Speaker 16: Good morning Jay's Sunshine. She's one of a great model.

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She has the brands in Boston, so check her out.

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Also everybody on Worldwide Collaboration that's Family Iced to show

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Family Worldwide and Legal Mob Entertainment Queen Miss b K.

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So everybody keep on shining. Don't let nothing stop you.

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You know, like I said, there's a lot of evil

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out there, and I believe in the power of the

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prayer that we can change that by keep on praying

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over the evil.

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Speaker 5: And we could do that.

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Speaker 16: Just stay positive and keep on doing. No one's life

986
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is perfect. Everyone's going through something, but always no prayers work.

987
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Remember our grandparents, our ancestors, they used to pray for us.

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Speaker 5: That's why we're still here. Yeah, you know, and that's

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what I gotta say.

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Speaker 16: And also shut out to the Jails and Wilkins, Barber Sharp,

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Mark Stelli and yeah, the list goes on your boy

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custom clothes.

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Speaker 5: Though. I can't forget you.

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Speaker 16: Guys, and so everybody, you know, if I forgot you,

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you know, I apologize, But you know you're all blessings

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in my eyes. And you're a shining star from the

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Icy Show. You know that's important. We're all stars and

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we gotta we get our star when we go to heaven.

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But also our star is here now.

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Speaker 2: So and when's your next one? When's your next edition

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of the show?

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Speaker 5: It is this week.

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Speaker 16: I don't have my book with me, Matt, I'm sorry,

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but follow me Jackie Brown with two c's j A

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C C I E.

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Speaker 5: Brown.

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Speaker 16: Check me out on YouTube hashtag Icy Show I C

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C Y S H O W W and shut out

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to Mimi Diamond and Red Ruby. Salute to all three

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of my Queen's done, my assistants. Much love and respect

1011
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to all of you. And you know, always we're all royal,

1012
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but keep the loyal going and that's important because people

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don't do that nowadays. Right And also you know the

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Ice shows eight year anniversary is coming up on you's

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not good?

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Speaker 5: So I will be given free eighty lunches out every year.

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Speaker 16: I always do how many years I'm out there, So

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I provide eighty three lunches, it will be ninety because

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I always do ten more and then they'll always go

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less than an hour and a half. It's a good

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feeling because everyone smiles, and smile goes a long way

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instead of being miserable and mad and angry all the time.

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Speaker 5: That's the problem. People need to smile, being easy on

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the gas out there and stuff like that.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I agree. Well, this has been wonderful. It's

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wonderful to have you here. We got to do this

1027
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more often. Let's not let another what three years go by?

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Speaker 16: Yes, one more thing, Matt, I'm sorry, don't forget tomorrow night,

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eight pm, Massachusetts. I will be a judge tomorrow. It's

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the Ladies All Performance Rate lineup. Come check us out

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Bayhalla's in the building from Boston six one cheven. She's

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another judge and show up to loud House one more

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time for asking me to be a judge on your platform,

1034
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and let's get it tomorrow night top in Massachusetts, a

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PM type security and let's go respect excellent.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much, and uh, of course thank you

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to Caitlin Piper and of course Jim from Howleen Hawk

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also for joining us today. If you miss any part

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of today's show, it will be up in just a

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little bit at Wmnhradio dot org and of course at

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my website mattconnorton dot com. And that's gonna do it

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for us for now. We're out here, ge girl again.

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Thank you so much, you N point three, Matt Collinson.

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Let's go bye, everybody,