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Let's get into it. The monocher and smear of mid
neafluorescence billed its coal pallid light across the corridor as
they pushed a mail cart stat with battered file folders.
I'd never seen the office building like this, so hollow
and endless, as if the world outside had drained away,
leaving only miles of synthetic carpet, faceless gray cabinetry, and
a singing buzz of a dying bounced in the track
above my head. My footsteps, muffled by carpet tiles, still
echo faintly off the tile intersections, and window gas overlapping
with the distant whirr of air exchangers. After ires, the
place became vast more absence than structure, and every reflective
panel seemed to contain another mew off, centered and grainy
in a dim light. The task was plain on its face.
Begin reconciling the legacy personnel files. The directive had come
through plainly enough, a stack of personnel records and compatibility
locks to be manually cross referenced and restored to arkeevil order.
I'd been told to focus on filing Room nine and
neglected archives sweet beyond the seldom used north end of
level eight, and to take my time, trust you with
the details. My supervisor, Misser Hale, had said, that's why
we ask you a compliment, or so we should have felt,
but there was a strange flatness in his smile. I
checked the room number on a paper tape to the cot,
then looked up at the liming glass wall of the
elevator vestibule. The nearby doors, legal library, financed procurement all
closed tight. They keep it dark. The hallway curved, doubling
back on itsel, and it was easy to believe there
was no one left in the tower except for me,
an invisible custodium bushing a week's worth of existence between
empty cubes and locked doors. The only sound was the
tremor of plastic folders against metal, and occasionally the faint
slap of an huvak fen cycling on somewhere far behind.
I should have been used to solitude. Lay shifts had
become my own official post over the past month, and
each night, as colleagues abandoned their computers and left the
screens aglow for janitorial staff, the remaining trails of warmth
cold into something impersonal. The lights of the city outside
flickered below the slats of the window blinds, an accidental
reminder that other people, for something like people, still moved
and breathed beyond these towers. It was the loneliness that
made me glance behind me, not twice, but three times
in a single stretch of corridor. There had been a
reflection in the beveled window ahead, a pale shape near
the far copy room gone. When I turned fully to look,
I swallowed, blaming fatigue and half like for the unsettled feeling.
More than once in the periphery I caught other shadows
in the glass, never moving, just barely misaligned with my own.
As I moved past, cubicles to my left showed evidence
of hasty exodus. Coffee mugs, some marked as company issue,
only stood beside need its green savers, shares askew myles
parts angled aout victors, the impression not of work completed,
but abruptly abandoned. I ignored it and pressed on, turning
the cart with a practice touch, careful not to upset
my careful sorting of the folders. Filing Room nine late
the farthest freach tuched beyond facilities and a pair of
disused conference spaces. The carbid grew rougher, where too many
repair patches crossed, and a persistent undertone of old Fort
Copitona drifted in the air. My instructions were careful about security,
always badge in, never proper door. When I stopped at
the gray metal door marked as greatly f R nine,
a sharp chawal skated down my back. For the briefest moment,
the silence stacked up all at once, as if something
in those concrete walls listened. The keypad blinked, waiting my
thumb print recognized. A tremulous green dick flushed in the
relay unlocked. I reached for the top of the cart,
pulling my Supervisors folder from the pile. The name Charles
Hale stood and punchy black type on the tap below
it a stamped date j And seventeen, twenty twenty nine,
an impossible date six years from now. The folder itself
was heavier than mose, bulging with forms and photo sheets.
Several details address marital status. A transfer from a non
existent department didn't fit. Hale's photo was wrong too sharp
a hairline, deeper lines at the eyes, a style of
id badge that didn't yet exist. In the office files
for people who never arrived, or who perhaps had yet arrived,
made little sense. I flicked through confounding entries, emergency contacts.
I'd never heard Hale mention the performance summary reference in projects.
I didn't recognize a citation for a shadow compliance procul
dated August twenty twenty eight. My hand trembled against the
Manila as oppressed the door to Filing Room nine. The
air stirred a colder inside and tinged with something acrid,
as if hot circuitary had burned out at the back wall.
It took longer than I should have fered the overheads
in the acquiave room to flicker awake. The door clicked,
closing with a hush, and the noise of the larger
office fell away behind me, replaced by a softer, steeper stillness.
I stood at the threshold, clutching the future stamped folder
in one hand, balancing the rest of the files with
my hip as I swayed the two more forgotten lines.
Looking back now, that was the last moment in which
the ordinary rules of my world still simply quietly held.
I'd been with the Foam less than two months. My
transfer paperwork was still crisp when it slid from my
briefcase in those early mornings at home, the ink and
the welcome packet not yet faded by desk Lampclaire. My
old branch had been small, forty names, tops, and fewer faces.
During holidays. Here, nearly every four was identical. LEGIONYT grid
of numbered desks, administrative cubbies, and glass walled offices, each
with its fluorescent palette and a wavering hush. I'd been worn.
Things here move fast, files, vanish, managers cycled frequently. Ambition
is rewarded if you play at close, my new colleagues say,
though almost never to my face. There was something else too,
thicken the air of discretion, and something just shy of dread.
On my second week, before i'd learned quick routes between
copy services and Pyrol, I'd asked after a missing admine
mess iborough always present for peril, sign off suddenly gone.
My supervisor, mister Hale, wasn't in kind, just brisk shifted
to the Denver branch. No need to update de locks,
keep moving please, no goodbye lunch, not even a faded
name on the mail box in the sub basement. These
vanishings never caused alarm, just briefly. Some one would notice
a shelf newly bear a coffee mug gathering auven dust
and move on. Others too, seemed drawn down into their work.
I quickly recognized the firms and spoken customs. Coffee breaks
rigidly scheduled at for teen minutes lunch at noon sharp
the odd glance if he lingered over a sandwhich was
the wrong group. On Wednesdays, the break room would be fuller,
but conversation never strayed beyond project, pipeline or court filings
due dates. Nobody's spouts, hobby or petty was surfaced in
those first days. If I asked, even gently, how is
here weekend? Julia, Julia only smiled, eyes darting to the
glass wall before nodding, fine, thanks, we keep it moving here.
Julia was one of the few who would hemor me
at all, slipping me the inside tips for supply requests
and coffee passwood resets. Still, even she would not linger
when I asked we should work before the merger. Old
branch long gone. She had murmured voicelow best not to
dwell on old records. Here a childislux curiosity. She returned
to her desk postra closed off and avoided my gaze
For the rest of that week. Rumors went through the
digital grave. Van layoffs always just around the corner, or
perhaps a mass reassignment overseas as part of the merger.
In meeting rooms are sometimes caught end of discussion fragments. No,
just let them transition quietly. H R has discretion. Memos
about privacy and professionalism arrived even as the office entered
out in curious semi permanent ways. Someone's login would fail.
Their name is spelled in the directory, their voicemail over it.
In smaller rasures explained as mistakes, temp glatures, or on
boarding lacks. The building itself did little to dispel the gloom.
Wherever I went. Carpet pattern shifted mid hallway, as if
mapped for alternate furniture that never arrived. The elevators had
their own quirks. The up button remained lit even after
the car departed, sometimes pausing at unlabeled half flaws, as
if the machinery itself was uncertain. Codes and keepers multiplied
in odd corners. I double checked my badge. Every entry
lax ste was its own crime. Apparently, maintenance men passed
in stiff uniforms, silent, heads down, never returning a hello,
moving dollies of box records to doors marked only with
an indecipherable strain of numbers. Twice I asked after a
locked door in the labor contracts winging. Those are security offices.
You wouldn't need excess, my manager explained when I pressed her,
But there's no one in the sign and sheet. He
smiled with the patience that hummed with warning. Some amenities
are managed off site. My own job, at least was
simple in theory, cross referencing and tracky old records, filing
digital requests, logging each change. Management commended my speed in accuracy. Then,
about three weeks in, mister Hale invited me to assume
the special reconciliation assignments, closing the office most nights to
finish arduous legacy file sorts. Each time he framed it
as an honor. You're careful, and that's rare here. Keep
an eye out for discrepances, just quiet diligence. I smiled
and nodded, pride and uneascoiling together. It was the regularity
of absence that eventually bled into discomfort. The workspaces emptied.
Old signs and nameplates were quietly discarded, and when I
mentioned any pattern at all, who used to sit by
the west window for responses ranged from nonchalant to quietly
clipped moved her eight Q. I think Julia would say,
voice barely above a breath. She once pressed a sugar
packet into my hand with trembling fingers, whispering, promise me,
don't ask too much about e char Ever, when I
asked what she meant, she only shook her head. I
laid autumn nobody, but I was assigned closing duties for
the record floors. It said it was a test of
my reliability. I pretend it discomforted me, but locked inside
my own tiny cell forescent lit silence, watching the monitors
when conflected behind me, it felt more like quarantine. Working
to as eye was sharp in my awareness that something
was fundamentally off. Every night the building revealed a little
more of its natural character, reflections that never matched my
own actions in the glass. The sudden shell near the
fine sweet security teams who passed faces averted, never speaking,
I was trusted with files nobody else wanted to touch,
and the arc of rooms, but especially filing Room nine,
became my whole world, a maze of shells, cabinets, and
secrets I was strangely compelled to respect. Filing Roumnine was
well loved. Most staffs seemed to avoid it altogether, sighting
its distant location and a persistent metallic smell that clung
inside the cinder black walls. The fluorescent tubes above weremsmatched,
so half the space flickered with the sickly yellow glare,
while the back aisles laid them in mouth dusted the
rickety shells bout under the weight of ancient binders, dust
etched every folded tab. When I paused the first night
to a climb at my eyes to the dimness, the
room felt oddly smaller outside and outside, like space had
folded in ways that geometry wouldn't allow. I set about
sloting folders back to their coated spots, careful to match
the classification key scrolled up on my assignment tablet. Some
folders sat out of sequence, jamming the rails, and more
than once I caught my own reflection in a warp
sheet of plexicles lining the supply cabinet. My features contorted instinct,
as though reflected from very far away. The oddities began
small personnel file alphabetize between two departments that shouldn't overlap,
hand letter divide as marked not with surnames but cryptic
sequences of four digit codes. Some folders had second shadowy
annotations in red pencils were flag reviewed or I exception
that didn't correspond to an ILLSTA counfind. I tried not
to dwell on the details, but my supervisors strange future
folder remained foremost in my mind. I boxed it temporarily,
planning to cross check the other files for similar anomalies.
But one after another, more irregularities surfaced. Files for James
Ferlon and In's mirror names I had never heard mentioned,
but listed as active on forms data decade apart. Some
pages heavily blatter. One document referenced an internal investigation predating
the company's own founding. On no When a trice the
personnel ledges to cross for reference the paper files, I
found a ledger for an An and Keys, a name nowhere
in the digital directory with enters that shot at employment
years before the firm supposed incorporation a memo's referencing backup
tapes that were intentionally erased log only no hard copy.
There was an inconsistency in the physical files, where one
cabin should have contained decades worth of quart oly locks,
gaps yawned and tied departments, and documented of folders with
only a single misfiled my own side. My hand hovered
above a divider and found behind it an envelope taped
to the steel. On the back, it simply re for
next to read now. Inside was a jagged scrap of
notepaper at the penmanship shaky, You're being watched. It starts
with the files. A chill ran through me, colder than
the rune's faint metallic draft. This was no misplaced file
or cryptochodic code. Someone had meant this for whoever next
managed these records. They'd left it behind, like a warning
or a beacon, and somehow I'd found it all my
very first full sort. I replaced the scrap, fingers numb.
The rest of my night passed and fits in false starts,
every movement slowed by the knowledge that not only was
nothing as it seemed, but that someone before me had
tried to flag. The danger then vanished. I left Filing
Room nine at two a m. The warning tuck deep
in my pocket. The next morning bled into drowsy waking,
my mind caught in loops office geometry, impossible intersections, the
snap of binders on metal rails, the electric throb of
overhead lights. Eventually I roused myself, resolving not to overreact.
I'd logged the anomalies, checked digital logs again, and seek
commons and explanations before giving in to nerves. But curiosity
had seated deeper each evening after as my cut traced
its circuit between department drop points and the archive, A
scrutinized ever more closely. The badge logs, the employee lists,
the subtle reshuffling of entire cabinets. The small coat annotated
anomalies became Patten's personnel files that didn't fit any recorded department,
or whose record seem piece together from disparate errors. I
launched a quiet side investigation, chotting missing folder numbers and
fact checking every file removal slip. I began to spot
the strange code, repeating I n expernal and more. Some
folders were filled with nothing but partially shreded print auts,
others contained blacked out forms. On my third night, returning
to filing Room nine, I began a systematic hunt for
more clues. With the door firmy shut, I lifted each
row of binders and checked behind dividers, below false bottoms,
even above the swinging light fixtures. Half Way through the
final row, my hand met resistance. Inside the bottom drawer
of a steel cabinet. Tip to the back wall. Beyond
sight was another envelope, heavier and thick with folded papers.
I ripped it loose inside four scraps. The first more instructions.
Never leave record room after cleaning crew arrives. Always replace
your own badge. Do not trust the issued versions. Digital
backups not safe. Note they watching employee thirty seven thousand
fifty four. A faint achered with of ozen wafted from
the stack, perhaps just lingering cleaning chemicals, perhaps have burned
up relay. The next page listed names many struck through
furlong keys. I bar the vanished abmen I'd noticed during
my first weeks. A note on the reverse read cycle
resets after each quarter. Names can be recycled. Avoid I
contact with a who or what was I another scrap
bore hand drawn floor mat my own floor, but with
the section between Filing Room nine and Supply room seat
inventory is locked. Go slash eye access the phrase roup
at room suckled in pen, under lining it again and
again until the paper threatened to tear at the bottom.
A final scrawl. If you see something off, walk away.
If not, D're already in it. I spent the remainder
of that night sleepless, checking every sound on reflection as
I worked during much if the following day, Julie cornered
me by the printer. Her tone was tightly controlled as
she whispered, have you been poking your round h R
cabinets again? I hesitated, just routine. Why she glanced at
the security cowra perched above the corner. Because if you
see anything strange, just it's better if you let it be.
Some people don't come back right or at all. Don't
talk to me about this to morrow, she said, voice
almost inaudible. Then she left me with a clipboard before
I could press her further. On my return to Filing
A Room nine that evening, Denise was a physical ache.
The badge reader stuck, requiring three tries once inside I
noticed a faintly out of place sent in electric since
tang stronger than before. I moved to the cabinet where
I'd found the first set of notes, and rifled through
the drawers at random, hoping for some further sign. Tap
beneath the drawer rail another bundle of tightly folded papers,
this time a detailed scheme of employee processing flows, time
blocked at a minute, annotated with warn watch for shadow
clearances overlapping names from the first set people recently vanish
appeared here again, checked and unchecked. A pressing suspicion took shape.
The notes detailed something like coordination recurring process by which
employees were shuffled or erased, not for standard at charter methods,
but by manipulation of both physical and digital records, completed
withouvarvis trace ghost employees was the phrase repeated identities who
had once been in the system, but who now no
longer existed anywhere in the arc of except for art
fragmentary mentions. I started searching the locks for direct evidence
of proging. On my next lunch break, I brought up
the axis records for the previous quarter, the week i'd
arrived there, had been six recorded badge ins to filing
room nine. Most listed I staff, no details cross reference
in those dates. With email archive, I found several staff
announcements for referencing sudden transfer opportunities and confidential offset sessions.
The files themselves names, contact info, performance histories shured evidence
of manual edits, mtadated field's altered employment date, skipping years,
photo attachments swapped out for blank placeholders. Rattled, I dug
further combing through the badges left behind in an older,
rarely used admin desk. Had seen Julia cleaning the prior week.
It took a while to find the ri key, but
the drawer pop open Eventually. There tucked at the back
sat a handful of high plastic id badges. Faces I
didn't recognize, named absent from any current or pastaf list.
Some bore the markye tempt, a designation I'd never seen.
I pocketed to and re locked the drawer. Nerves jangling.
The tightening net of worry left me sleepless at home.
Shadows at my window felt less like exhaustion more like surveillance.
My badge began blinking irregularly when I attempted to badge,
and each night, sometimes red, sometimes green, randomly. My computer
loggin now required false reseets every session, facilities type my
cubicle from maintenance access pending, and stole in an event
that I had never requested. One night, half way down
the corridor toward the record rooms, I realized I was
being watched. A security guard rounded the corner one of
the graveyard chief men, face blank beneath his navy cap.
I ducked into the washroom, clutching the ID badges and
crumpled notes against my side until he passed. I waited,
hot thumping until his heavy boots were seated, and hurry
back up, counting every step toward the archive. I called
Julia from my car that night, breath fogging the hands
free receiver. She sounded different, strain, frightened. You can't fix this,
she said. I found things. Two old forms with my
name changed, breath the year changed, family name's gone. After
I refused to help management back date some records two
months just went missing. I can't remember where I was.
Don't dig any deeper, please, her voice broke. If you
value anything, leave it alone. The next day, something shifted files.
This had payed from my cart with no explanation. Cabinets
driveled twelve hours before now sat empty. The next evening,
all but one drawer and Filing Room mine hand wide open,
swung on their hinges, gutted the air shop with those on,
as if the room had been recently shocked or perched.
When I crossed reference my logs, where I could show
dearer checkouts, the digital audit history track nothing after the
previous Tuesday. My own idea now showed as unregistered for
multiple days, despite daily sign ins. I began to feel
time itself slipping sideways. That night, with the building hazy,
After a brief power tess, I forced myself back toward
Filing Room nine. All the careful advertising, the tidy ledger
balancing it was gone, replaced by frantic empty fragments of
forms lay strewn in the shadows near the back wall,
a single emergency like cast stretched silhouettes. I started to
lift a fall and fold it when I noticed the
metal of one cabinet was called wet with condensation despite
the persistent heat of the room. Fingering along the inside shelf,
I found a maintenance keyplane tip in place, wrapped tightly
and faded below electrical tape on its side, a sequence
written in permanent marker X forty nine slash apple. A
blackout sweat the far hallways. The humming in the walls
dove into a lower register, a sound like high frequency static,
filling the space beyond Filing Room nine. My phone glowed faintly,
guiding me in a deep shadow. Following the hastily draw
map from my notes, I ducked into the utility alcove
beside the record room. The panel at the end of
blank gray door, hardly bigger than a broom closet, now
made sense. I peeled away, faded out of order sign
and slid the new found keys into the lock. It
clicked with surprising smoothness. Inside the air was thick bracks
of humming. Seven notes crowded the bottom shelf, their status
lights blinking an anxious red and blue. All school cockboards
lined the plaster walls, bristling with pin memos, color coded
string and spuradsheets torn directly from legal pads. Loose sheaves
clusted below, ledgers, flagged forms, nameless diagrams. Above these, dozens
of sticky notes clustered in circle triangles, lines intertwining names
and initials. Many marked obsolete or exer. At the center,
a luminous OCD screen displayed a scrolling table employment data added,
log's history. I scrolled in furs one entry near the top,
my own name in all caps, with a note pending
revision Q two procol. To the right, a status field
flashed yellow, highlighting a weight observation phase. More name enters
scrolled by, and more, some labeled cycle, some simply red act.
The spreadsheet revealed routines of forced data rasure, real time
changes to employment and identity, photoblov swapped a dress fields
were written, all happening invisibly and with an almost mechanical position.
The digital lock history checked in a separate hidden tab
bore time stumps, mere minutes, old files being altered live
as I stood, reading between sticky notes and torn folders,
a handful of memosa pinned under a rusted thumb pack.
These explained the cycles first two phase an employee by
writing to higher log, then, if needed at a purge
every trace of their existence from all physical records, digital mirrors,
and even the recollections of living staff. If the subject resisted,
I was authorized to intervene directly. I leave quickly to
a chief labeled I acuti candidates. The list included people
I'd met on my first day, now marked removed slush recycle.
Each cross mark felt like a tally for someone a made.
My hand trembled. I checked my own file again, pending observation.
It still read below. A new note blinked awareness to
take to descoale. My breath caught over my shoulder. The
unmistakable metallic thought of a key in the outer door
echoed through the supply closet. I killed a monitor, tucked
the damning notes under my shurret, and pressed myself flat
against the wall. Shadows crept beneath the door. A slow,
measured step drew near. A cold dread more pure than
anything I'd ever known, sealed my throat. I grew up
quietly for the emergency exit, flinching his bare skin brushed
cold server boards. I managed to duck through a side
panel just as the access door's lock turned. The silence
that followed was complete, breathing poles between what had come
before and what soon would break loose. It was now
impossible to pretend I was only another diligent clerk, immune
to the strange currents of the firm. I'd seen the proof,
all files changed, people erase my own identity, cue for rewriting.
Whoever ran the system, they watched, the system itself was watching,
and I was now a threat. I flared heart threatening
to Clotte's way up my throat, and when I finally
staggered back down the endless corridor toward the comfortless a
crylock of the elevator. The office building seemed to have
shifted again, verdicee sharpened, corners stretched, and every glass panel
in every silent office suddenly held My silhouete blurred, jittering,
growing more rugged and unrecognizable with every flicker of the
failing light. I kept my breathing shallow, desperately hoping, however,
had triggered the outer door wouldn't notice. The trembling hinge
of the supper panel had slipped through. The staccato tap
of polished souls whispered closer, pausing at the threshold, as
if the person beyond could sense of remaining warmth in
the air. I focused my gaze, and the silverack's red
and blue indicate a light's painting the steel walled closet
in a nervous constellation. Each flickered was to shadows along
the uneven concrete floor, and under my tongue I tasted
a dry, metallic tang. A second key, this one fumbled,
impatient jangled in the adjacent utility lock. My heart stilled.
At any second the panel might be flung open. The
only way out if it came to that, would be
to break cover, and held myself out the far side,
toward the fire escaped stairs that, by my calculations, lay
three offices down. If the blueprints in the hand drum
map from the notes were right, there might be a
blind spot behind the water Maine insulation. If not, I
didn't allow myself to finish the thought. I heard a
quiet exhale, slow and unstressed, a soft clack, too soft
for metal, A tablet volumes, which may be what a
brushing of gloved hands over a sheaf of paper. What
followed was a prolonged silence, and then a brittle, almost
imperceptible voice. Nothing left, move on, recept badge cue, full
sweep goosefush prickled along my neck. The speaker was so
close I could see through the vented slot in the
supply panel the edge of a navy sleeve. Two buttons,
one gray, one black, not regulation a security contractor perhaps
or else i e themselves. For a few seconds, my
view was filled only by blowed movement, then the slow
passage of a flashlight beam along the back of the servers,
tracing for footprints or pat in the left by hasty handling,
the beam lingered on the rack where my fingerprint had
surely smaged a chroam. Finally, the silhouette drifted away, the
door clicking once, then dead bolting with a finality that
carried more threat than reassurance. Once the footfalls faded barely
audible beyond the acoustic insolation, I waited a full count
of sixty before daring to slide the supply panel open
an inch. The corridor lay down, choked with the dusty
musk of undisturbed air and lunar bright under the running
light overhead. The silence returned. They charged hash as if
the entire building was exhaling. After narrowly missing some unknown disaster,
I crept from the panel, flattening myself against the cabinet,
pressing the damning nuts. No gon tacy was swept down
the deep pocket of my slacks. My badge sparked a brief,
desperate green when I tested it on the nearest axis pad,
and I did not give myself time to think before
slipping out and letting the door swing shut behind me.
Back in filing Room nine, the disturbance was clear. Half
the cabinets hung open drawers jutting at odd angles, a
low electrical wine vibrating from the walls. I pressed the
notes under a stack of a knockouse old order forms,
swapping my shoes for the soft sold backups I kept
for long shifts. The next move had to be deliberate.
I checked my phone and it had no signal, the
same broken triangle I'd cinder in only one other fire drill,
pulling my office issued loner upon Wi Fi, I tapped
out a short message to Julia. Found something not say,
call me if you were okay. I send it to
her private email, then ease both the message in the
scent history, wondering dimly if any digital channel was actually secure,
or if all my keystrokes were In the end, just
more data points for the dosse voices from two doors
down security maybe or another shift of late archivistussed in
the corridor. I pressed my back to the cold wall
of the file room synopsus buzzing with the adrenaline folid.
When their voice faded again, the freeze in my limbs
thowed into a shaky resolve. I moved quickly down the
rat of shelving. Using the rattle of old bind eclipses
cover at the bottom of the obsolete tie you only drawer,
I dug out another envelope, this one heavy and yellowed.
Inside polaroids of office doors, empty cubicles, and disturbingly shots
of badge panels midwight, sometimes showing airscreens, sometimes only the
faint after image of a hand. Each photo was labeled
in severe block print with the same designation cycle pending
do not file lists on the backs recorded Redact three
fourteen AM Blue Team Sweep, none returned. One photo curled
at the ages contained a blurry figure in a navy
jacket standing inside what looked like my own cubicle, hands
resting on the keyboard, as though composing a message. I
stepped back from the cabinet, pulse quivering. The implication was clear.
The surveillance grew more personal the deeper an individual poked,
some one long before me had factored in every gradual
attempt to piece together. The puzzle. In the margins of
one folder was a note, if you read this, it's
not too later, as any trace you reached this far.
But that advice was now as useless as it was impossible.
I'd already been flagged. A rustle at the door, perhaps
just the negative pressure of air conditioning or the twitch
of a door walter. By time threw me into motion.
I gathered the scattered notes, slaughtered them inside a book
of compliance receipts I found left by the phone, and
darted down the hallway towards the central staircase. The lights
flickered at each landing, but by now I had memorized
every corridor's rhythm, every point where a few stepped too hard,
the motion senses above would activate and broadcast your prisons
to the building's maintenance locks. When I reached the lower
records corridor, just outside supply room seat, heavy fied doors
were propped open with unlabeled file boxes. I peered inside.
Along one wall, the remnant shadow of a recent clean
up shirt as a pale rectangle, no dust, as if
a locked item had been removed not an hour ago.
I slid my hand along the frame. The faint residue
of atise. I identified a recently detached label. Some one
was moving faster now as tripping even the cycles plotted
in the secret memos. I fished the maintenance key from
my pocket. When whether to risk or tracing my steps
toward the through per room. It was lightly under increased scrutiny.
Now still, if there was anything left, any shred of
evidence not yet swept away, it had to be found
tonight before another procull whe thereco clean. I circled back
to filing Room nine, eyes flicking over every lighted office window,
half expecting to find an unown face prest to the glass.
But the room remained empty, save for the hum of
the racks and the distant tick of realist switches. At
the faintest crack in the corner panel, just visible beneath
the fluorescence, I caught sight of a torn slip of paper,
carelessly jawned between the metal and plaster. I pulled up free,
almost not daring to hope. It was a personnel action report,
one of the forms I had seen only in template,
never actual use. But the name field was typed with
mine employee thirty seven thousand, fifty four stouts redraft protocol
level key three aware, slash up a memory cycle, slash
cord eye eliades at the bottom. A sigature line remained blank,
but in block letters the phrase awaight sette do not
alert subject. My hands trembled. What truly horrified me was
the form's existence, but the carelessness with which it had
been left behind, as though my fate had already been
decided and any ritual of secrecy was nar irrelevant. I
stuffed the slip into my note book, my mind tumbling
through possible exits and next moves. I drew up the
hidden notes once more, running my eye over the lists
of initials, ventle locks, and hapazard schedules of a phase
of vents. Thereby, designation appeared again and again, usually alongside
words like supervision required or lockdown trigger the server locks.
They were my only hope. Digital footprints, immutable given the
right approach, were tracing my steps to the through but
room I checked for pride locks were new surveillance cameras
all clear. I slid the key into the bat of lock,
slipped inside the hum here was stronger now, the pitch
of the server's betraying systems that overload a command prompt
blinked on the topmost terminal the windows, showing a plain
taxel of time stamped in real time. I eased myself
into the chair and tight hands and sturdy Query employee
thirty seven thousand, fifty four added history. Rows of ventrus
scrolled forthmost familiar in shape, but as I scanned the locks,
the edits became more recent and increasingly drastic. Last name abated,
how maddress purged were a kissedory merged denied emergency contact
field error, observational phase active. With every line, my reality
shared off for another fraction, an entry from only an
hour before work station sanitized current memory state contingent. I
looked for Julia type employed Julius c at its history.
Her enterans were a mess of redactions and time stamp gaps.
Spousal's status removed, location unknown, assimon ten slash a flight
for observation cone sweat beaded at my brow. A sense
of vertigo overtook me, the feeling of my own reality
being trimmed behind me. As I worked like grass moown
faster than it could grow without warning, the command prompt
flickered lines of coats puilling in a cascade of red
air flags alert slash loss system lock and scheduled access
detected cycle engage locking aedmon alert reset initiated. I jerked
away from the terminal. A thirding echo shot down the ductwork,
distant bots men's voices crisp, professional drawing, quick conclusions. Right
outside the light above the door flashed amber. I braced
for impact, but before any one entered, the slap of
a fire door near the stairwell clan shot and the
shouting retreated, a false alarm or a warning staged for
my benefit. I shook uncertain. Darting from the silver room,
I collided with the Jagata's cart, deserted except for a
crumpled soup coat and a half eaten doughnut, no sign
of the worker. I shuddered, uneven, breast scraping harsh in
my throat, and ducked through the fire door as it
swung slowly back on its hinge. Inside the main stair
were twined upward, lit by syclbly bulbs. As I climbed
stet echo oyne, I glanced at the directory plaque, expecting
familiar floor or numbers. That the lettering was scarred and
in complete. Fourgy four six floor X. The materials didn't
align with any blueprint had seen. None of it made sense.
A chill pinceed the base of my neck. If they
were rewriting more than just files and memories of the building, too,
was were stitched every time someone like me found too much.
Then I might never have a reliable PATHA. I rushed now,
not caring for caution. Each flight took me past locked
utility lobbis and photograph lent hallways, but each secrets felt
subtly off, as if old corridors had been reordered on you,
and familiar artwork replaced portraits that had always lanned these landings.
At each window, the city below was grainy, dreamlike. At
the next line, a motion light flickered on. I stopped short.
Julia gone and pale block my wave, eyes wide. Thank god,
you're still here, I whispered, voice drying to a crook.
My hands shook as I reached for her elbow. They're
writing us, they're doing it live. I saw your file.
She glanced past me, face twisting with fear. No time,
they're coming up behind us, she whispered, clutching a stack
of folders to her chest. It's wat gleaned at her temple.
The log's Julia, do you have anything on them? She nodded,
short and sharp. But it's not just files. They are
revising everything. I've already lost Day's hole. People in my
life are missing, my mother. She's not answering my calls,
my brother, nor records. They said I never mentioned a family.
My heart contracted. We have to get out of here.
Tell someone, any body, I hissed, dragging her towards the
stairwell's final door, labeled only exit facilities. She stopped me
short voiced rayiss, if they have your name on the
pending observation list. It's already started. Every choice, every word,
it's all being waged if he pushed back at her voice,
called eyes flickering to a shadow. At the next landing,
where the redraft kicks in the chadow grew larger, Julia
shoved a handful of files into my back. Don't go
home to night. It's wars outside things he used to trust.
They might not be yours any more. I wanted to argue. Instead,
I nodded, equal pots, terrified, and somewhere under it all,
deeply relieved not to face the invisible alone. I looked
at Julia, taking in the tremble in her wrists as
she smoothed the folder she just urst into my back.
Even in the low blue light, her face carried a drawn,
from aturely aged quality. The skin about her eyes pull taut,
as though she survived a string of sleepless weeks. Her
words about lost family, about vanishing people, leaned on me
with a weight. I wasn't prepared to bear. The landing
stretch behind her irraally quite except for the hum of
distant generators and the muffle footsteps echoing through the stairwells,
I swallowed, struggling to clear the phantom dryness from my mouth.
We need evidence, not just memories, I managed. I motioned
for Julia to follow, but she hesitated, eyes darting back
down the staircase, where shadows pulled and re shaped themselves
with every passing moment. Her hands hovered over the railing,
not quite steady. I have logs, she whispered, downloaded them
last week, rate before my clearance changed. There on a
burner drive hidden in the maintenance closet on five. But
none of it will matter if we're cut. She was
already moving, quick, burned like steps down the threadbare carpet,
and I found stride beside her pulse thundering. Each floor
as we descended was subtly off signage replaced by blank steel,
familiar free in photos, swat for nothing but the logo
while friends block alattus against a backdrop of indistinguishable gray.
The air thickened, saturated with the same ozon tine scent,
more concentrated now as if the core of the building
lead stattic between us and floor five, stairwell wide and
momentarily only to snap tight again two levels below. The
sense of dislocation of corridors shifting behind our backs never eased.
We duck passed an empty landing door's labeled to supply
authorized only, and as Julia picked the maintenance lock with
shaking hands, I pressed my back to the cold cinned brick,
listening to the ascending threat blow Somewhere a floor down,
heavy footfalls landed with militaristic cadence, perhaps just night security,
or perhaps something less forgiving. She cracked open the door
with a hiss of protess, revealing a janitorial closet cluttered
with mobs and dusty fluorescent bulbs. Julius sifted through a
rout's nest of extension chords. Finally, un not in a
hard plastic case one of those free be corporate USB
handed out at legal tech conferences. Stuck to the side
was a torn bit of maskined hate mark decks first
slush P three. She pressed it into upon her finger tips,
sleeving damp prints everything I could get before the protocols
caught on. She rasped personnel data based snapshots system locks.
There are erra locks. Every time a file is edited
in real time. There's a hidden program that twns, damps
and water marks every change. Look for the string eye
urbis RPTE. It embedded in the silver locks that the
enforcement grew Integrity Enforcement ay E. I breed the initials
Suddenly everywhere, memories rushed back, the read ink notations, the
cryptic memos. They're not just a security team, Julia's eyes narrowed, shifting, haunted. No,
they're the real firm. The partners just do what they
are told. The rest of us were inventory. If we
fall behind, if we see too much, they rewrite the ledger.
And lately it's gotten faster at messer even the very
air in the cause at began to feel restrictive, as
though we were squatting inside a narrow in tunnel. Still
eacheck and brought new sands from the stair will beyond
a fragment of garbled radiostatic, a short burst of cliff voices,
a familiar shuffle of official shoes. We can't stay here,
I said, but let's get to the lobby. Find it
quite spot. Julie cut me off with a Stacado's shake
of the head. No, never, the lobby too mini camera
is too open, She tugged up my sleeve. The copy
room on three. No cameras, not since the merger. That's
where I hid before, when I felt my badge glitch,
I nodded, gripping the coal key drive so hard at ached.
On the way down, we kept close to the wall,
skipping the elevator alcoho entirely more than once. Julia halted,
listening with her whole body leaning forward, then motioned for
me to press on. My nerves were stretched thinner than
the wires behind the baseboard. The unadawned copy room, a
single table, two finicky printers, a windows fogged with years
of failed cleaning, provided a moment shield Julia closed the door,
then yanked a bat a blackout curtain across the narrow
glass strip. I plugged her drive into my Lona laptop,
muscles culled and ready to jolt at any interruption. The
machine seemed to boot more slowly than ever. The drugs
folders were organized by cryptic Q, two audit old names,
water marks, a redact images. I started with the logs
marked by dehenuous at the top, where the inchest ran
down in the dry compact joganautes seen on the hidden
server terminal. The difference now was what I understood. After
every year it confirmed line came a surge in access
request from the topmost tier re council link to three
letter groups I A bark xper more chilling. Still after
each flag to deletion cycle, there was a spike in
boardroom meeting locks time stemp minute after someone's erasure. It
was executive level ratification of vanishing the paperwork of unmaking.
My hands wanted to shake, I forced them steady. Julie
approached at the edge of the table, scanning the whole
way through an arrow slid in the curtain. What do
we do? She whispered, her voice frayed. We have to
keep tracing the links, show that the edits sync with
real disappearances, not just somewhere else in the system, but
here where people are erased from memory entirely, not just
bureaucracy reality. I scrolled further, as flickering over the lines,
she nodded, resigned, perhaps, or simply pass fere, just hurry.
I toggled deeper into the folders, this time opening mold names.
Here were spread she tables of saff going back, ears,
some cross out, others replaced with blanks. It was the
electronic equivalent of the old ledgers I'd found in fouling
Room nine, but studded through we air notations and up
style routting strings. Some employees appeared to occur, were surrected
under new names, or sometimes with only a digit changed
in their badges, but a good eighty percent one struck
never should again. There. My hand jolted as I recognized
the entries Furlong, Jay, keys, e iber m, moll erased,
and beside each a tiny water mark sel dull gray
eye yops, and among them my own id and Julia's
circled a fresh jolt of panica sensation, like standing at
the edge of a wind sky reproofed up. They flagged
both of us as aware, I whispered for a drying
We're in their escalation queue. That's why nothing about my
family matches, she answered quietly, there editing me too. I've
looked through my old emails. Some of them are different
than what I remember. Photos changed, even my own birthday
on my HA transcrit it's the wrong year. She pressed
her thumb into her rs, as if grounding herself. I
tried calling my mother last night. Her number is disconnected,
My LinkedIn page gone. Even my college for rege STORER
says they have no record. Her jaw set as though
she refused tears by wipor alone. This can't be possible,
I murmured, this would mean Julia shook her head, voice brittle.
It's not a normal database. I think they are using
the records, physical and digital, like a mold for what
every one else believes is true. If it's gone, nobody
even thinks to ask the old questions any more. She
bit her lip, glancing at the close copy room door.
We have to get out. The only chance is to
bring proof, not just logs, but something material, something they
can't edit. With the keystroke, A realization dawned. The original files,
the physical ledges, polaroids, a handwriting. That's what's different. That's
why they kept filing Room nine so far from everything else.
P central nerve, but also the garbage shoot. It's their
undw button. Julia is gay sharpened. If we take them,
they can't fully erase us. There's a chance our plan
can yield instantly. We would break for filing Room nine,
draws much original material as possible, then barricade inside and
tried to transmit what we had. At least one silver wreck,
Julius said was on an independent air gap network. I
glanced at my watch, just passed two. In three hours,
the cleaning crews and dayshift would return. We had until then,
We braced ourselves, checked the corridor, and began the trek,
silent swift, hugging every pocket of shadow. On the landing,
a security bouge panel flickered red, then stuttered to green.
On Julia's second try, metal on metal sounds echoed from
somewha far above, possibly more guards or perhaps the agents themselves.
The eye an elevator descended with a mechanical side, but
never arrived. We waited hearts and our throats until the
indicator stilled. Half way to Filing Room nine. As we
rounded a cold, mockingly familiar turn, my phone pained, once,
then twice, as sound it should never have made. With
the sim card forced into airplane. I froze. Julius stared
at me, eyes wide on the screen, a simple message,
black textonic great background employee thirty seven thousand, fifty four,
escalation and progress. Please return to your assigned workspace. I
silenced it, but our speed increased. Filing Room nine stoleum,
battered and dented from years of careless hand trucks as
keep had looked unremarkable, but the bad scanner cycle frantically red, green, violet,
then back. Shuley tried first, her access denied, I braced
myself and swiped entrance. Granted for one moment pure luck.
We slipped inside, shutting the door softly behind us. The
room felt transformed in our absence. The whine of servers
blended with the a hifrid clocks as the overhead lights flickered,
stuttering tighter and tighter. Files in the first row, once
full and carefully sorted, were now in partial disarray. Folders
appended dust mote angling in the light from open drawers.
The ozone sent sharp is the bite of a live wire.
Shuley lost no time. She doved the bottomed cabinets, pulling
out enfuls of ledges, polaroids, the same envelope of daming
nose I tucked away days before I slid behind the
stacks and unearthed the old, crumbling admon log's years of
override requests, many with the distinctive scarlet stamp obsolete eye certify.
We stack what we could across two chairs. I snapped
solf on photos, toggling eppline mode, sending each buster and
often encrypt account I had set up as a disaster foaldack.
Julia murmured passwords under her breath, connecting her drafted alone
remaining analog phone socket, trying to paing evidence to any
outside number that would take it. The air grew denser,
A pressure built in the room, as if every cubican
should become twice as heavy, thick with more than dust.
The lights over the main file racks blinked, extinguishing one
by one. We moved faster, her nerves lancing through our hands,
and then Julia yelped stumbling back from a file drawer.
They've deleted half the archive, she cried, holding up fold
as filled with blank dividers, the text on their faces
visibly fading, as if by slow chemical reaction. In several
only a pale impression of a name remained, letters dissolving
under her touch. An overhead really thudded, shooting shadows like
birds across the battered ceiling tiles. Julia's phone vibrated, freezing
out as the new air message appeared, cycle redrafted logging ends.
She stared at it, then at me, as while they're
killing the back, she whispered. I scanned the room. The
faints biland of the p a system silent for so
many months, crackled to morbid life of OS four. That's
a true voice than a collaborative memor fuse from a
dozen similar registers drifted in. Employees thirty seven thousand, fifty
four and thirty eight thousand, one hundred eighty seven. You
requested in Conference zero for compliance review, please vacate filing
Room nine. Immediately, my limbs prickled. Now there was no
listed Confidence zero. No one i'd met any the branch
had ever heard of such a place. We can stop,
I whispered, find anything with your name, anything you remember
that's real, she complied, hands desperate. Now we gathered all
that survived into a battered bankers box, then braced against
the heavy steel file carts, wedging them across the door
and dragging two silver trunks as a makeshift barricade behind
us Through the vented partition. The corridor outside grew busy,
first the tap tap of expensive leather shoes, then a
lulling hush, indistinct, ominous, as if people were communing wordlessly.
Julie crouched and huddled against the box of files. We
have what we need, now we wait, I nodded, reviewing
our evidence. My phone, though disconnected, still captured. Image is
now more urgent because I've onlyarly snappole or it revealed
details changing as I watched. Labels faded in real time
on one, my name Stoughter, dropping the l as I
took the photo and out chairs hail. Julia pointed at
her own folder, jaw clenched. They were accelerating. Then the
corridor fell silent. All motion ceased. The small access light
outside the door glowed red, then blue. We crouched together,
barely daring to breathe. A knock delicate the light I
measured pause. Then the door handle turned locked. The barricade
held barely. The voice came clear and cool from the
other side. Mister Hale, open up, he said, with tired authority.
You're causing a disruption, serious audit non compliance. You realize
what this means, don't you. I looked at Julia. She
shook her head. Mute. I press my temple to the door,
steel panel, addressing the voice. We found the edits, the ghosts, staff,
all the changes. You can't keep this hidden. It's illegal.
This is more more in date or retention. This is reality.
A faint chuckle, not cruel, almost paying. Nobody will believe.
If you're not the first to see behind the calendar,
you won't be the last. Another step. We are raised
to keep the system running, order, a living order, not
just files. The alternative is collapse. You know how vollttle
things can be when people are too curious. We aye you,
We fix the gaps. Julia broke in voice iron, you
have no right. You're not God's. You can't just redact
people and expect the world not to notice. Pail's tone coold.
The old bureaucratic mask, returning, we don't expect anything. That's
the power of the wrecker. Once the lines are changed,
reality he is to them. There's a comfort in it,
almost mercy. Most people don't even know what's missing. A
metallic scrape, as if a second key inserted. Were you
not happier before all this, before you sot to digging.
I heard unfamiliar motion, tadness maybe or remorse. A press
back whispering to Julia, keep sending the files. Any channel
to the door, I said, we know about the cycles.
We know they're tied to boardroom ratification. We have physical evidence. Footsteps,
Then the muffled sound of Hail speaking into phone or
perhaps a radio. His words inoscinct faded into white noise,
barely audible over the server hum Then, as quickly as
they'd faded, the door vibrated. Some one, multiple someones pressed
and from the other side, their presence only discernible by
the slight bowing of the steel. An alarm blared, sudden
and jarring, red emergency lights bling through up filing room nine.
An automated voice, clipped and synthetic turned overhead security lockdown,
compliance review and progress. Please remain in your assigned location
until review completes. Julia Hunch shuddering, her phone screen flickering
through a barrage of air codes. Final chance, Hail called closer,
restrained by effort. You can surrender the files. You can
be revised painlessly. We can't raise every one. You know.
The world needs order. What you remember now you'll forget,
just like all the others. I pressed my lips together,
daring myself to speak. You won't get them, all the ledgers,
the physicals. Thoure too many points of failure, even for
your group. You can't control every copy in every recall.
Another sigh, lance deeper and more dangerous. The entire row
of foul cabinets behind a snapped open triggered remotely, papers
fluttering out as though caught in wind. The lights warped,
colors breaking across Julia's face, red and blue and white
as they air changed character, metallic like the aftermath of lightning.
The corridor soide filled, the rush of bod is so
close that breaths made the file room's door tremble on
its hinges. Then mister Hale's voice returned, but gentler than before.
We maintain order to survive. Without structure, memories, nothing, Everything slips.
You can have your lust stand in there if you want.
But in the end you'll be written. You'll be comfortable again.
You won't remember missing anything. Julia, voice low but steady.
We are not inventory till the others let us go. Then,
from somewhere behind even hail the peace, which a computerized
female voice, the final stamp of faciless administration. Your record
is obsolete. Something in me of ancient anger days corched
and bone deep snapped. I turned to Julia. We can
fight them from outside, even if only half true. It
gave me a shard of resolve. I yank the analog
phones cord from the wall, stuffing it along with the
bank box under my arm. We go for the fire
door now, Julia nodded, teeth clenched. Without waiting, we heaved
the server trunk aside, shove, freed the last cart, and
jerked the door inwards with every ance of strength. The
corridor beyond was lined with people, men in tailored suits,
faces flickering and the half light blurred as if caught
at a faulty live stream. At their front hail jawset
arms crossed over a dark, featureless badge. He didn't move
for us, didn't blink. In one motion, Julia and I
surged through the narrowing gap. Hands reached grasp swiped our sleeves,
but momentum carried us clear of their ranks. My shoulders
slammed the door to the stairwell open. The bank box
wedged firmly beneath my other arm. Julia, lighter on her feet,
half pulled me forward with surprising strength. Behind us, the
crowd of faceless agents poured after silent, efficient and eerily synchronized.
Half way down the stairs, the engravings in the steel
risers sands floor's ear before free a floor X. Each
label as we blowed past shifted, some vanishing entirely, replaced
with ringing blankness. Our memories stuttered in defiance of and
I found myself doubting which four we had started on
which we needed to exit to reach the ground. Julius
squeezed my palm, grounding me in that wobbing geometry. At
the next landing, the fire door jutted inward, jammed at
a caution sign emergency exercise authorized only I round the
bar with my elbow. It's one wide, leading to an
empty service corridor, led only by one exit lights. There
was no time to stare. We sprinted shoes, muffled on
sponge industrial matting until the whole king left them, pressed
us toward in the mark' stare set plunging to a
sub basement. Ground four has to be this way, Julia panted.
But when we burst through the final door, the madness
of the cycle became clear. The lobby, once tall and glassy,
now appeared smaller, more anonymous as edges, indistinct. The locations
of the reception desk, the big wall, clock, the vestibule,
everything was subtly shifted, as if the firm's firy foundations
were redrafting themselves to match some hidden schomatic. Worse, the
staff at the security desk did not look up, did
not blink, even as Julia and I staggered forward, breathless,
clutching the battery box of evidence. Each wore the same
subtle pin with eye onnellow, their faces as bland as
placeholder avatars. We need to leave a Julia hissed. They
don't stop, just walk if they don't say anything here,
we crossed the open space, every step stiff for fear.
Nobody moved to intercept us, until just as our shoes
hid the vestibule the glass doors, myglock snapped red and locked.
A chime, then silence. A female agent stepped forward from
the security desk. Her features were peculiarly generic, forgettable, yet
subtly intrusive, as though built from compulsive memories. Employees, you
are not clear to remove our caval material. Please return
all firm property and prepare for compliance review. She extended
an upturned handed delicate, but a stance brooke no debay.
I fixed my eyes on the eggs of panel desperation flaring.
The old badge from before, one of the ghost badge
is marked as vy attempt still sat in my pocket,
tucked under a folder. I palmed it, pressed it to
the maglock a pause. The reader flashed unsteady violet, then
a soft green. The glass parted, hinging back with a
pneumatic shutter. I yanked Julia's arm and we ran, not
looking back, not wasting pressure seconds. Night air bit my cheeks,
Asphalt slick withdow, filled my lungs. The city had never
felt less real and more savagely alive. Its blinking, noisy
indifference our only absolution. We cut north, ducking between parking
towers and dumpsters until the block and the vas glassy
spire of the foam faded behind us. Only then did
we slow, breathless, battered and victorious, Or so I thought
in those first damous moments, We fled the business district,
circling aimlessly until the street lamps angled gray and homely,
and finally collapsed in the shadowed entry of a closed restaurant.
Our prize, bank, box, battered phone, handful of notes sat
heavy between us. We can go back, Julia whispered, at last,
Where what are we now? I licked, dry lips, shaking
my head. Willie's ends, I replied, But we're not erased yet,
as long as we can remember, as long as we document,
She nodded, stock now beyond tears. We waited for dawn,
each ere thick with alertice, our senses tuned for the
footsteps of pursuers. The city moved on blithe and we
remained gathered in the makeshift light, to cradling evidence whose
wake never be shared fully with another soul ash. The
following days were a rushblur, both acutely vivid and alarmingly blank.
Julia and I split each taking half the files on
the digitized log folder. We agreed on check ins using
disposable numbers, rotating rendezvous in places I never thought to
visit before, abandoned shopping centers, backstreet cafes, two mediocre to
attract pattern seekers. But things began to slip. At first,
the world simply closed ranks. The law firm's webs had
vanished over night, replaced by a holding page bland with
placeholder text and generic legal disclaimers. New sites that once
referenced high profile client cases returned only no results found
even LinkedIn in labor databases. My own resume, awards and
press releases simply purge, as if tracks had never been laid.
I'd attempt to pin colleagues, a partner I had once
charted with about old jazz records, a legal secretary who
had given me advice about health coverage. Their numbers rang,
but when I identified myself there was only hollow confusion. No,
I don't know you, or worse, ye must have the
wrong number. I've worked here ten years, never heard that name.
When I pressed for details about people, I remembered a
mess I burr alan Key's callers gave brisk blank ancers,
sometimes correcting my questions with an unfamiliar confidence that role
doesn't exist here. No, I work in peril now sorry,
busy at home. The effects intensified on my bookshelf. A
family photograph of my mother and late father taking around
my high school graduation now showed them familiar faces, their
eyes the right shade, but the arrangement slightly off. My diploma,
which had always sat on the top shelf, was simply gone.
My mail bills, subscription reminders bore misspelled versions of my name.
Sometimes an entire letter would be addressed to someone I'd
never heard of, but with mustreet and apartment number correct.
Julia too was unraveling. One midnight call, her voice wavered,
I'm forgetting things. My favorite book suddenly old. The details
are wrong. My old dog has a different name in
family emails. Cousins swear he was a Golden Retriever, not
a spaniel. She coughed into the phone. I barely remember
my own birthday. Now, I'm so sorry if I go under.
I wanted to reassure her, if they changed enough, data
would our very thoughts on school. I said nothing, only
promised to keep the records moving, even as notes and
locks remained physically in our hands, even as the photos,
in some cases resisted digital rot The changes gripped forward
to sinking with some invisible system. All details replaced ioli
or simply vanishing from memory. I read journals, inscribing reminders
to myself, my own handwriting becoming foreign by morning. On
the third day, my bank accounts zeroedm email passwords ceased working.
Then the e mail itself free directed to an empty page.
My apartment leaset went missing on the registry. The place
was now owned by someone named Hayes. My landlord shrugged,
you must be mistaken. I took to carrying all my
remaining files everywhere, adopting erratic routes, burning old backups, scrubling
new passwords and hidden places. Each patch of safety grew
ever more temporary. At times, I'd sit in a cafe,
hard racing. Certain half the city might walk through the door,
and by simple an attention eraise me through their refusal
to acknowledge my presence. One night, having cycled through every
redundancy I could create, I tried to reach my mother again.
The number once must a memory returned in valid. I
sat fallen between sweating palms, where I was already on
the cuspath forgotten. My own reflection blowed in the glass
of my device, the certainty of my own history dissolving
in tear ash, I woke to the ring of a
doorbell that had until that morning always been silent. On
my third bare welcome Matt stood a courrer, a man
whose uniform had no badge, no insigniare. He handed over
a thick manilla envelope, nodding only once before departed silently
down the stairwell, his step measured, and even inside a
redacted copy of my personnel fall, thick with black bars,
facts jittering in contradiction, my birthday, three afflicting years, legal
name half stroked through hail and Hayes alternating in block print,
employment history, every entry crossed out, except for filing Room
nine obsolete phase, the final page in that unmistakable shaky
hand had first encountered weeks ago, read an uneven graphite erase,
not forgotten Room nine weights. My hands quivered. The compulsion
was insant, bone deep, running from the base of my
neck down my spine and ache, an absence and unignorable summons.
I realized that then, truly what the notes had meant
from the beginning, we do not escape the archive. We
never truly leave the record. That's why, even now, with
my identitiest forebbers may welcome mat, I return again and
again in memory, not fully sure if memory is only
another format to be redrafted. Another file floating through the
gap between rooms, between cells, between those who remain and
those quietly for ever raced. As I sat there, the
redacted file trembling in my hands, I tried to sturdy
my breathing. I could still feel its mass, the thick
sheaf of pages and evenly sliced by blank spaces, in
black lines in the pit of my chest, to restless
circling tread spun tighter with every glance at my own handwriting,
and the parts that seemed to drift and blur her
even as I read them. A car passed outside, headlights
slicing briefly through the thin curtain of my apartment window.
I realized the city beyond was standing, few cars than
I remembered for a those days, this color at the court,
the air itself acquiring a muted, chalky character. I found
my eyes drawn to the file again, to the final words,
Room nine weights, the impulse stronger than fear was to
go back. It didn't matter that the building was off
limits to me. Now my axis revoked name struck off
every plausible list. It was as if every race name,
every lost hour over the archives now pulled a single
locus of gravity, pulling me back toward its center. I
resisted at first, stain plowted in my thirdbair chair. I
thumbed through my notebook, searching for some lost hitherto things
as they truly were. The pages, My careful, cramped notations
had their own inconsistencies, Now some interests of reference colleagues.
I didn't recognize notes written in shorthand, and no longer
understood my writing, too, seemed to shift as my astrace,
the lines a cull in a letter, a date malformed.
I set the notebook aside, pressing finger tips to my scalp,
trying to remember if I could just hold these facts
inside me just one day longer. But the pressure grew stranger.
It wasn't quite a vlwaice, more resonance moving up from
the floor into my bones coat check complete the cycle.
The city aside had gone oddly silent, even the hum
of distant traffic. The comfort that things carried on somewhere
fell away. This simptness, I realized, was a patent to
the cystin clearing space before another redraft. I gathered my jacket,
the bank box with its residue of files and photos,
my breath missing in a sudden cold. The streets to
the last Fern's building were on familiar rally ways, bending
at off angles. Side streets vanishing were I remembered shops.
Each step toward the tower is seamed, eraised a layer
of my former life, until only the blank focus of
the task remained. I passed under street lights that blink blue,
then white, then off, until I was walking blind, directed
by muscle, memory and need. The firm's entrance was as
I had seen at last, the glass doors and let
the badge paneled dormant. I pressed my palm to the glass.
At first nothing happened, but then with a quiet internal snake,
the panel lit from me ye alone, A single line
of green na seen to pulse with recognition. Welcome five nigh.
The door glided open. Inside the lobby was empty, no security,
no bored receptionists with badges, only the echo of footsteps
my own. I clutched the box tighter. Moving past the
empty desk into the body of the building, the lights
of a flickered on, one at a time, pixelating the
path ahead. The elevator called to me a purring, insistent hummon.
When I stepped inside, the panel showed only two options,
basement and nine. I pressed nine. The car shuddered, light
strobing in silent unease, ascent or descent hard to say.
When the door was parted, they revealed the corridor I
knew best, endless, great, the distant spill of fluorescence, the
faint hang of aging ozon, and start of shift coffee uncold,
except now the whole had been contorted, lengthened. Every door
along a rope marked with codes instead of departments. I
intic obsolete storage audit three, no personnel, no signs of life.
The door to Filing Room nine was ajar. It shouldn't
have been. I push it open, every sense prickling inside.
The air was thin and cold, as though the pressure
had been bled out. De smote feathered in the beams
of the still flickering overheads, caught in the updraft from
a vent that should have been silent. After IROs I
stepped across the threshold of the floor, creaking, My shoes
left no echo. I could see with each step that
the files on the shelf shifted, photographs curling and uncurling,
names flickering along spines like the ink displays in slow
intentional error, driven up by random and decay, but by updates. Live.
The silver rack in the corner still blinked, still alive,
still working. Everything looked as it had been, snatches of memory,
and yet each detail felt subject to review, as if
the room itself was being edited. Old polaroids when I
skimmed them, faded at my touch. One showed mister Hale
as a young man, then as a face, as barge,
then nothing. Employer looks stuttered in and out of sequence.
I stepped to the center of the room, drawn to
the battered desk I duced as my sorting table. There
at the top it was a single Manila envelope, thicker, older,
its flap and sealed and curling back. I reached for it.
My heart fluttered brittle inside my own file again, but different.
This time. The pages were fresh and damaged. My photo
as it had been at the small branch, smiling reel,
my old emergency contact, my former address tiny details that
now seemed impossibly alien. But below the header in block
read ink, subject, obsolete, slush, memory, lock and stable. A
note hastily scrawled. If you read this, you can still
choose walk away now, lose yourself in the city. Stay
understand what you are. I backed away, swallowing against a
rolling swell vertigo. My memories pulsed and counterpoint scenes from
Shilded's great thin recollections of conversation switching into low Eater's
friend's faces replaced one by one. In the corner the servace,
green flicker painting my shadow on my alarm, across its
TeX's feet. New enters appeared. Thirty seven thousand, fifty four
items were filed, FaZe, recovery, slash were right. A presence
made itself felt then, not with footfuls or words, but
as a change in the quality of the air, a
pressure at the back of my neck. I turned, and
there in the doorways stood mister Hale or not Hale,
exactly his features which had known so well, and bold
and recomposed to every few blinks, settling into a face
that was not quite any face I could recall. He returned,
he said, weary and surprised. I thought you might most
do when the fhal isn't settled. I licked my lips.
Why me, my voice rasped in the static air. He
glanced around, gazed, oddly tender. All the records matter, but
not equally, somehow easier to fit back into the ledger.
But he was a He shrugged. There is always backflow,
something left behind. I lifted the box, defensive. Why erase
at all? Why erase us? Faint smile? You still think
in terms of us in them? This isn't malice. It's containment.
Too much detail, too many confecting records, breaks consensus. There
has to be a single story, or none of us
stay real very long. The more you look, the more
ways your pattern doesn't delight. The Ledger's the last agreement.
Everything else is triff. But people disappear, I said, lives,
not just files. His eyes rooted sad and met mine. Yes,
but there are worse things than being forgotten. Every place
writes itself, that least here, if the cycle is cleaned,
sometimes something of USI vibes anyway, Sometimes it's enough, he gestured,
not unkindly toward the opened envelope, by held, you still
have a choice. Take the box, walk out, Let yourself
become someone else, somewhere else. After a while, it won't matter.
You don't remember this place. And if I stay my
mouth was dry, tong thick with unrealized questions. You'll see
the ledger from the other side. You'll know how the
cycle works. You won't quite be you, but there'll be
a spot for as long as you can keep it.
He stepped back, frame himself in the doorway for a moment.
His outline was luminous against the corridor's dim gray perspective.
What do you do now becomes the record for as
long as memory holds. I shook literally fingers dancing across
the ragged box of files, the odd facts of my
former self. I looked up once, and he was gone,
leaving only the echo footsteps that belonged to nobody. I
could follow, a slow and familiar sort of conspread through me.
I set the files down, stabilizing them into a single,
coherent stack. I trace a finger along my name what
I thought was my name on the cover of the
last and mark ledger. Already the letter is shifted subtly,
promising mutability. Safety in repetition mayde safety in surrender. But
as I stood in Filing Room nine, I found I
could not let go, not entirely. The part of me
still tethered to a vanished mother, to Julia's trembling hand,
to every vanished name in a ledger refused the luxury
of forgetting that defines, however small scene, to slow the
blowing effects at the edges of the room. Through the
widow thessayre of Filing Room nine, the hum of the
silvers became a kind of lulla by a signal sent
out upon a wire whose receiver might never exist, but
that was in the sender, in the persistence, in the
refusal to flat line. I pressed my pump to the
battered disk, close my eyes, and whispered the names I
could still remember, out loud, quietly so the ledger would
record them. The air prickle heavy, aware, the world flexed,
reasserting itself, perhaps a little thinner where I'd press back,
But still there somewhere a door click shut, And within
the silence of the records, with their seams and gaptain
head and histories, I felt something shift, not a raisure,
not quite survival, but an uneasy, unresolved persistence. The pattern
would cycle again. Some one else, some day might find
their records twisted them onder and here seeking themselves. I
would be waiting, Nahol, but not wholly gone. Room nine waits,
and so yes do I. And that is the end.
Thank you for listening, and I will see you in
the next one.