WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.480 --> 00:00:06.679 You created everything, what put a powerful being you are? 2 00:00:07.960 --> 00:00:11.480 You did these things, but now you're in a human body, 3 00:00:11.480 --> 00:00:13.080 you forget the power you have. 4 00:00:14.839 --> 00:00:19.000 What you do is what the whole universe is doing 5 00:00:19.559 --> 00:00:23.480 at the place you call here, and now you are 6 00:00:23.839 --> 00:00:26.839 something the whole universe is doing in the same way 7 00:00:26.879 --> 00:00:30.079 that a way is something that the whole ocean is doing. 8 00:00:32.200 --> 00:00:34.560 You're doing you're doing what. 9 00:00:38.840 --> 00:00:43.320 Welcome to metamistics where you don't know what you don't know. 10 00:00:43.960 --> 00:00:46.560 My name's Jonathan, I'm Sean, and today we have a 11 00:00:46.719 --> 00:00:50.679 very special first time guest. Welcome to the show. Joanne 12 00:00:50.880 --> 00:00:57.240 Mark Keasey Casey are CAZy? All right, Yeah, so it's awesome. 13 00:00:57.280 --> 00:01:00.119 We're really happy to have this conversation. One of the 14 00:01:00.159 --> 00:01:02.240 first authors that we've had on this book, and we 15 00:01:02.280 --> 00:01:04.920 were kind of talking or on a book in general, 16 00:01:05.760 --> 00:01:07.359 but we were kind of talking to you a little 17 00:01:07.359 --> 00:01:10.280 bit about about that before the show, about like, oh, 18 00:01:10.319 --> 00:01:12.480 what's the process of writing a book and getting it 19 00:01:12.480 --> 00:01:14.840 all out there and everything. But it seems to really 20 00:01:14.879 --> 00:01:17.480 be such an amazing feat and I definitely have a 21 00:01:17.480 --> 00:01:21.400 little bit of envy towards you for that very much. 22 00:01:23.040 --> 00:01:26.079 So if you would, could you let our listeners know 23 00:01:26.200 --> 00:01:29.159 about your book that is called The Game of Remembrance. 24 00:01:29.840 --> 00:01:34.879 Yes, so the Game of Remembrance, it's it's a book 25 00:01:34.879 --> 00:01:38.120 that dives into a lot of different things. So it's 26 00:01:38.239 --> 00:01:40.439 very hard to say it's, you know, one thing, but 27 00:01:40.480 --> 00:01:46.120 it's basically showing you how reality can be, whether you 28 00:01:46.239 --> 00:01:49.480 believe that it actually is a stimulation or that it 29 00:01:49.879 --> 00:01:53.319 you know, using video game language to better understand it. 30 00:01:53.319 --> 00:01:56.280 It kind of meets you wherever you're at. So I 31 00:01:56.680 --> 00:01:59.640 called a living book because every time you read it 32 00:01:59.680 --> 00:02:04.920 you might find something else. And also because it meets 33 00:02:04.959 --> 00:02:08.400 you at every level that you're at, it always will 34 00:02:08.400 --> 00:02:12.840 have some nuggets for you. So it goes into how 35 00:02:13.599 --> 00:02:20.360 different types of energies environmental, you know, other people, social media, 36 00:02:20.759 --> 00:02:25.120 how all those things impact your frequency, and then also 37 00:02:25.439 --> 00:02:27.879 how not only how the game works, but how you 38 00:02:27.919 --> 00:02:31.599 can take back the controller. So how do you reprogram 39 00:02:31.639 --> 00:02:35.560 your beliefs because ultimately it's your belief systems that are 40 00:02:35.639 --> 00:02:38.680 running and creating your reality for you. So if you 41 00:02:38.800 --> 00:02:41.479 believe that the world is against you, the world is 42 00:02:41.560 --> 00:02:44.639 going to consistently prove you right. Right, the universe always 43 00:02:44.639 --> 00:02:48.159 wants you to be right, So how can you take 44 00:02:48.199 --> 00:02:51.199 back that controller? And create the reality that you really 45 00:02:51.199 --> 00:02:51.800 want to live in. 46 00:02:52.560 --> 00:02:53.319 I love it. 47 00:02:53.360 --> 00:02:56.960 I love that you put it into like simulation mode, 48 00:02:57.120 --> 00:02:59.680 because I think that that is a that's a pretty 49 00:02:59.759 --> 00:03:03.840 good good idea. I don't, I mean, say what you 50 00:03:03.919 --> 00:03:06.919 want about the nature of this reality. We don't necessarily, 51 00:03:06.960 --> 00:03:09.159 I don't even think we have the words to describe 52 00:03:09.240 --> 00:03:12.479 what is actually going on here, but a simulation or 53 00:03:12.520 --> 00:03:13.120 a matrix. 54 00:03:13.159 --> 00:03:14.199 I always like to say, it's. 55 00:03:14.039 --> 00:03:17.039 A dream kind of all the same thing, actually, you know, 56 00:03:17.080 --> 00:03:19.360 whenever you really put it into that perspective. 57 00:03:19.599 --> 00:03:25.159 Oh exactly. I like the game language because then it 58 00:03:26.039 --> 00:03:28.400 you know, just like anybody that plays a game, what's 59 00:03:28.439 --> 00:03:33.680 the goals? Right, You have challenges, right, you build up skills, 60 00:03:34.159 --> 00:03:37.199 you know, and you know, ultimately you're trying to have fun. 61 00:03:37.840 --> 00:03:42.879 So so that's why I decided to make it that way. 62 00:03:43.240 --> 00:03:46.960 In that way because it was the best terms that 63 00:03:47.039 --> 00:03:49.960 I could come up with, the best wording to describe 64 00:03:50.120 --> 00:03:54.560 how the entire you know, the whole spectrum from you know, 65 00:03:55.120 --> 00:03:59.800 I describe atoms as pixels, right, So it's it's describing 66 00:04:00.159 --> 00:04:03.400 every piece of your reality to kind of digest it 67 00:04:03.919 --> 00:04:07.360 in a way that is in words that anyone can understand. 68 00:04:07.719 --> 00:04:10.800 So it mixes not just you know, the mystical world, 69 00:04:10.840 --> 00:04:13.039 but it's definitely based. You know, I have a lot 70 00:04:13.039 --> 00:04:17.800 of scientific back into how some of the some of 71 00:04:17.839 --> 00:04:23.639 the methods work, you know, psychology, neuroscience, quantum, you know, 72 00:04:23.680 --> 00:04:26.439 I have some quantum physics in there. So it's kind 73 00:04:26.480 --> 00:04:30.600 of takes all of those theories and kind of puts 74 00:04:30.600 --> 00:04:34.800 them all together in a way that anyone, like I said, 75 00:04:34.839 --> 00:04:37.399 anyone can understand it. So even if you're not spiritual, 76 00:04:37.399 --> 00:04:39.759 you know, don't want to take it on a spiritual level, 77 00:04:40.079 --> 00:04:42.920 but just want to figure out how to to take 78 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:46.279 your reality back, you can understand it. Like you don't 79 00:04:46.319 --> 00:04:50.720 need to have big, you know, these big spiritual definitions 80 00:04:50.800 --> 00:04:52.959 to really understand it. 81 00:04:53.360 --> 00:04:53.879 I love that. 82 00:04:54.040 --> 00:04:56.519 I love that that you taken consideration, you know, the 83 00:04:56.560 --> 00:05:01.199 psychological understandings of these things. Because like the video game 84 00:05:02.319 --> 00:05:05.000 analogy that you were making, you know, you can reprogram 85 00:05:05.000 --> 00:05:06.879 a video game, like a video game might have a 86 00:05:06.879 --> 00:05:09.639 certain set of parameters and things that you may not 87 00:05:09.759 --> 00:05:13.160 be able to do, or at least in our reality, 88 00:05:13.199 --> 00:05:15.079 the things that you don't believe you can do, and 89 00:05:15.120 --> 00:05:18.879 so you can reprogram the mind and have more fun 90 00:05:18.920 --> 00:05:19.160 in the. 91 00:05:19.120 --> 00:05:22.199 Video game exactly exactly. 92 00:05:21.879 --> 00:05:24.040 Yeah, and it seems like there's a you know what's 93 00:05:24.079 --> 00:05:25.920 fun about that is that, you know, as far as 94 00:05:25.959 --> 00:05:27.959 like programming the game, I feel like a lot of 95 00:05:28.000 --> 00:05:31.480 people put put on like a lot of challenges for 96 00:05:31.600 --> 00:05:33.639 themselves and they don't even know it. 97 00:05:33.680 --> 00:05:33.879 You know. 98 00:05:33.959 --> 00:05:38.720 Our one of our favorites, our magician friend Lord Byrones 99 00:05:38.879 --> 00:05:40.879 or shout out, he said that a lot of people 100 00:05:40.959 --> 00:05:43.160 just go around cursing themselves all day they don't even 101 00:05:43.160 --> 00:05:46.240 know it, you know, and just building these obstacles and 102 00:05:46.279 --> 00:05:48.680 they're just making their life harder than it needs to 103 00:05:48.720 --> 00:05:52.639 be almost like you know, it's a subconscious kind of 104 00:05:52.639 --> 00:05:54.839 programming that's going on, and they don't know that they 105 00:05:54.839 --> 00:05:56.879 have any power or any kind of control over it. 106 00:05:57.120 --> 00:05:59.759 So essentially you can kind of take it and like, 107 00:06:00.000 --> 00:06:01.879 all right, is my life really hard? Let me just 108 00:06:01.959 --> 00:06:04.040 lower that down to the easy setting for a little bit, 109 00:06:04.199 --> 00:06:06.000 you know what I mean, and like see how see 110 00:06:06.000 --> 00:06:09.040 how much fun it can be? Because you know, whenever 111 00:06:09.120 --> 00:06:12.600 you understand that, like you're the master of your own 112 00:06:12.680 --> 00:06:15.879 feelings and you're the master of your reaction, and you're 113 00:06:15.920 --> 00:06:19.439 the master of your awareness. It's like, man, the game 114 00:06:19.519 --> 00:06:22.240 does get a lot easier, you know it is it? 115 00:06:22.399 --> 00:06:22.560 So? 116 00:06:22.759 --> 00:06:25.279 Does it's especially when really clearious challenges. 117 00:06:26.000 --> 00:06:29.800 Yes, And when you talk about, you know, subconscious programs, 118 00:06:29.879 --> 00:06:33.040 that's kind of what I get into because we build 119 00:06:33.560 --> 00:06:37.720 these subconscious programs especially you know a lot of them 120 00:06:37.759 --> 00:06:40.680 come from before we're seven years old. Well we don't remember, 121 00:06:41.240 --> 00:06:45.000 you know, the things that occur that built those belief systems, 122 00:06:45.519 --> 00:06:48.600 you know, and they're passed on from generation. So if 123 00:06:48.639 --> 00:06:51.639 your parents didn't heal something in you, guess what, you're 124 00:06:51.680 --> 00:06:54.839 the one that has to heal it. But the magic 125 00:06:54.920 --> 00:06:58.680 of it, which I can only call it magic, yeah, 126 00:06:58.759 --> 00:07:02.519 is when you heal it within yourself, you actually heal 127 00:07:02.680 --> 00:07:06.920 your children. You actually help heal your you know, your 128 00:07:06.959 --> 00:07:10.879 parents and your grandparents, they might not all rise to 129 00:07:10.920 --> 00:07:13.839 where your you know, what your level of awareness is 130 00:07:13.879 --> 00:07:19.680 and understanding, but you can definitely see the shifts in them. So, 131 00:07:19.959 --> 00:07:21.480 I mean it's miraculous. 132 00:07:21.560 --> 00:07:24.920 And especially whenever you instead of looking at life as 133 00:07:25.040 --> 00:07:28.480 linear and you can see it as cyclical as almost 134 00:07:28.519 --> 00:07:30.920 all the ancients always talked about. I mean, that's that's 135 00:07:30.920 --> 00:07:33.279 the whole idea around the mind calendar, right, Like it's 136 00:07:33.319 --> 00:07:36.560 all cyclical and and all of the the the what 137 00:07:36.680 --> 00:07:39.319 is it called the you'd shoot? 138 00:07:39.360 --> 00:07:40.160 I forget what it's called. 139 00:07:40.199 --> 00:07:43.199 But there's another thing about Yeah, there's a bunch of 140 00:07:43.240 --> 00:07:45.279 other different ways that have looked at the nature of 141 00:07:45.319 --> 00:07:48.040 this reality is cyclical. But if the idea that you 142 00:07:48.120 --> 00:07:51.480 can go in and heal your your own seven seven 143 00:07:51.560 --> 00:07:56.160 year old childhood self and like, have that have other 144 00:07:56.240 --> 00:07:59.839 effects outside of just you, because it's really all you 145 00:08:00.079 --> 00:08:02.920 the end anyway, isn't it? Like I do you prescribe 146 00:08:02.959 --> 00:08:04.480 to the whole idea that everything is one? 147 00:08:05.639 --> 00:08:09.199 Yes? Yes, Now that doesn't mean that you have to 148 00:08:09.240 --> 00:08:12.240 agree with everybody's point of view. You know, we're all 149 00:08:12.279 --> 00:08:15.319 here to play different roles. And the sad you know, 150 00:08:15.399 --> 00:08:17.519 the thing that most people can't get behind is that 151 00:08:17.600 --> 00:08:20.399 everyone's playing their roles exactly the way they're supposed to, 152 00:08:21.639 --> 00:08:24.720 even if it's something where you would think would be negative. Right, 153 00:08:25.000 --> 00:08:27.759 but they all have a purpose. And when you can 154 00:08:27.839 --> 00:08:31.800 accept that and then start to realize that everyone's mirroring 155 00:08:31.879 --> 00:08:34.399 back to you because because this is the thing the 156 00:08:34.519 --> 00:08:37.919 universe wants you to heal, that's why people stay in cycles, right, 157 00:08:38.240 --> 00:08:41.039 It's because you need to break out of those by 158 00:08:41.159 --> 00:08:44.360 seeing what is happening that you need to change within 159 00:08:44.399 --> 00:08:47.639 yourself so you can move forward. But instead people get 160 00:08:47.679 --> 00:08:51.879 really comfortable because they can predict those cycles that they'll 161 00:08:51.960 --> 00:08:56.120 just keep repeating the same type of relationship, situation, whatever 162 00:08:56.840 --> 00:09:00.279 whatever is in that program, right, and. 163 00:09:00.200 --> 00:09:02.120 They get to a certain point where they just accept 164 00:09:02.120 --> 00:09:04.080 it as their reality. It's like, oh, I just can't 165 00:09:04.080 --> 00:09:06.440 get your break. That's just me, that's just my luck. 166 00:09:06.519 --> 00:09:09.600 That's just how you know, the cookie crumbles. But it's like, 167 00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:12.200 oh they can, they can just stop themselves and look 168 00:09:12.240 --> 00:09:14.440 inside and go, Okay, this is why I see that 169 00:09:14.639 --> 00:09:16.879 in that negative way. You know, let me change that 170 00:09:16.960 --> 00:09:19.840 about myself and then just kind of you know, one 171 00:09:19.840 --> 00:09:20.440 by one. 172 00:09:20.360 --> 00:09:24.559 It's like God's God's I guess some God's redheaded stepchild today. 173 00:09:24.679 --> 00:09:26.679 You know, it's like a man, get out of your 174 00:09:26.720 --> 00:09:29.080 own way. Like if you look at it that way, 175 00:09:29.120 --> 00:09:32.360 then yeah, Like it's amazing that people just don't catch 176 00:09:32.399 --> 00:09:34.240 on to that. They just assume that the worst is 177 00:09:34.240 --> 00:09:36.559 going to happen, and then the worst does happen, and 178 00:09:36.600 --> 00:09:37.840 they're like, why are. 179 00:09:37.759 --> 00:09:38.960 They not calling themselves? 180 00:09:39.080 --> 00:09:41.759 Yeah, why are they not calling themselves prophets at this point? 181 00:09:41.799 --> 00:09:44.320 You know what I mean, Like it's just so crazy, 182 00:09:44.320 --> 00:09:47.399 but just out of curiosity. How did you get to 183 00:09:47.480 --> 00:09:50.320 this place? You know, like all of this information you 184 00:09:50.360 --> 00:09:52.000 said you kind of held onto it for a couple 185 00:09:52.039 --> 00:09:56.600 of years. I mean, was there a certain like epiphany 186 00:09:56.639 --> 00:09:59.559 moment in your life or what was that? 187 00:10:00.480 --> 00:10:03.639 So a lot of my life I've been directed and 188 00:10:03.679 --> 00:10:06.720 not really realizing I was being directed to do things 189 00:10:06.799 --> 00:10:13.080 and to learn things. And but what really, you know, downloaded, 190 00:10:13.120 --> 00:10:15.480 I would say, all this information to me was when 191 00:10:15.480 --> 00:10:19.440 my my husband had passed away. And when that happened, 192 00:10:19.519 --> 00:10:23.120 thank you. When that happened, I went was not only 193 00:10:23.120 --> 00:10:25.519 going through the grieving process, but I was going through 194 00:10:25.519 --> 00:10:29.399 the awakening process at the same time. And it was 195 00:10:30.320 --> 00:10:35.320 the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced. But in the 196 00:10:35.399 --> 00:10:38.639 same aspect, I thought I was going crazy because I 197 00:10:38.679 --> 00:10:42.919 couldn't function at work, like I couldn't actually like comprehend 198 00:10:43.080 --> 00:10:48.200 regular emails. But I was understanding these huge, you know, 199 00:10:48.320 --> 00:10:52.440 philosophies and theories and was being guided to people I 200 00:10:52.480 --> 00:10:57.879 didn't even know I learned about, like Dolores Cannon and 201 00:10:58.480 --> 00:11:01.600 you know, all of that, and and it really started 202 00:11:01.600 --> 00:11:04.159 putting things into perspectives, Like there was a period of 203 00:11:04.200 --> 00:11:06.360 time where I was like the universe kind of pulled 204 00:11:06.360 --> 00:11:12.039 me away from all like all like regular entertainment and 205 00:11:12.080 --> 00:11:15.879 wanted me to do research. And I just did everything 206 00:11:16.000 --> 00:11:23.960 from different religions to quantum physics and science mysticism. You know, 207 00:11:24.039 --> 00:11:26.200 I was very much, of course, you know, into near 208 00:11:26.279 --> 00:11:30.759 death and you know, discussions around that because of my husband. 209 00:11:31.960 --> 00:11:34.159 But I was just guided the whole time, Like I 210 00:11:34.279 --> 00:11:36.559 was doing things to help myself that I didn't even 211 00:11:36.720 --> 00:11:39.879 know were things like I was tapping on myself to 212 00:11:39.919 --> 00:11:44.039 release the energy. Later on I found out that's emotional. 213 00:11:45.039 --> 00:11:46.399 Oh I can't even think what it's called right now, 214 00:11:46.399 --> 00:11:50.720 emotional something technique. So there was all these things that 215 00:11:50.759 --> 00:11:52.960 I was being guided to do that I've never even 216 00:11:53.000 --> 00:11:55.519 heard of. So like I thought I was going crazy. 217 00:11:55.559 --> 00:11:57.320 I'm like, I'm sitting around the house like beating my 218 00:11:57.399 --> 00:12:00.639 chest like I'm a freaking monkey. And but it but 219 00:12:00.720 --> 00:12:03.840 it made me better, like it, it shook it out 220 00:12:03.840 --> 00:12:08.200 of me and allowed me to heal. So when all 221 00:12:08.240 --> 00:12:11.799 this was happening, I was, you know, downloaded information. I 222 00:12:11.879 --> 00:12:17.039 started seeing how when I had changed myself, you know 223 00:12:17.080 --> 00:12:20.320 a few years before I met my husband, I had 224 00:12:20.399 --> 00:12:25.440 left a very toxic marriage. But because I was doing 225 00:12:25.480 --> 00:12:29.120 healing before that, That's what gave me the ability to leave, 226 00:12:29.639 --> 00:12:33.720 to be able to rediscover who I was and decide 227 00:12:33.759 --> 00:12:36.399 at that point who I really wanted to be, because 228 00:12:36.440 --> 00:12:40.399 I was never ever really truly myself. And that's when 229 00:12:40.440 --> 00:12:43.919 things just started, even though I wasn't in the place 230 00:12:44.120 --> 00:12:48.120 too like I wasn't close to my awakening quite yet, 231 00:12:48.159 --> 00:12:50.720 but I was already it was already starting to feed 232 00:12:50.799 --> 00:12:56.919 me information. And it's just it's just been a crazy ride, 233 00:12:56.960 --> 00:12:58.360 to be perfectly. 234 00:12:57.879 --> 00:13:00.360 Honest, dude, I can't imagine. I'm so sorry to hear 235 00:13:00.360 --> 00:13:03.120 about your loss. That is, I can't even imagine that. 236 00:13:04.159 --> 00:13:07.039 But you know, and you hear about it a lot, 237 00:13:07.200 --> 00:13:10.600 like as far as like people having like these wild 238 00:13:11.000 --> 00:13:15.600 mystical kind of experiences through trauma, which is really wild. 239 00:13:15.720 --> 00:13:18.120 Like that's like one of the main clinchers from what 240 00:13:18.240 --> 00:13:18.600 I hear. 241 00:13:19.360 --> 00:13:23.200 Well, I feel like you got to be like it's 242 00:13:23.200 --> 00:13:26.720 almost like you have to be broken down to your foundation, right, 243 00:13:26.879 --> 00:13:30.000 Like you can't it's really hard for you to build 244 00:13:30.039 --> 00:13:33.360 on top of old foundation. So you know, when he 245 00:13:33.440 --> 00:13:37.399 had passed, like literally all my belief systems were ripped away. 246 00:13:38.679 --> 00:13:41.279 So like things like that used to drive me, like 247 00:13:41.679 --> 00:13:44.759 money or you know, the way I looked or what 248 00:13:44.840 --> 00:13:47.399 people thought or any of those things. I didn't give 249 00:13:47.399 --> 00:13:51.600 a crap anymore. So I had no foundation, and I was, 250 00:13:52.039 --> 00:13:54.120 you know, I didn't know where I was going to 251 00:13:54.200 --> 00:13:56.919 go after so I was, you know, my I kind 252 00:13:56.919 --> 00:14:00.480 of just surrendered and was and wanted to stay open. 253 00:14:00.960 --> 00:14:03.720 That was the one thing that I said, you know, 254 00:14:03.799 --> 00:14:06.600 I wanted to be open to any kind of experience 255 00:14:06.639 --> 00:14:09.200 that he wanted to send to me. So in order 256 00:14:09.279 --> 00:14:12.120 to do that, I had to believe in anything. Like 257 00:14:12.159 --> 00:14:15.639 I I did not limit any of my beliefs and 258 00:14:15.679 --> 00:14:19.440 I still don't. Like I have theories and I have 259 00:14:19.639 --> 00:14:22.519 seen how things work, but I always want to keep 260 00:14:22.600 --> 00:14:26.080 my mind open to anything, because as soon as you 261 00:14:26.159 --> 00:14:29.600 shut it down, you start limiting it. Like for people 262 00:14:29.600 --> 00:14:32.399 who say, you know, magic's not real, right, like boom, 263 00:14:32.440 --> 00:14:35.720 so you'll never see magic, it's not real. Yeah, yes, 264 00:14:36.120 --> 00:14:39.320 So I don't want to limit my reality. I want 265 00:14:39.320 --> 00:14:42.000 to try to experience as much as I possibly can. 266 00:14:43.519 --> 00:14:45.679 And that's why I literally, like our tagline to the 267 00:14:45.720 --> 00:14:48.039 show is you don't know what you don't know, and 268 00:14:48.039 --> 00:14:50.360 and honestly, like even the stuff that you do know, 269 00:14:51.000 --> 00:14:52.879 you know, you kind of shouldn't all the way now. 270 00:14:53.320 --> 00:14:55.960 You know, it's like even that you probably just don't 271 00:14:56.000 --> 00:14:56.639 know all the way. 272 00:14:56.840 --> 00:14:58.960 Yeah, well, and you learn the more you know, the 273 00:14:59.039 --> 00:15:03.480 less you know. Like he just you know, when I 274 00:15:03.600 --> 00:15:05.840 came out of my awakening, I was in a different 275 00:15:05.840 --> 00:15:08.919 place than I'm even at now, Like I was like, oh, 276 00:15:09.240 --> 00:15:11.559 I know everything, Oh, everything's gonna be fine, And then 277 00:15:11.600 --> 00:15:13.440 it was like, oh, I have to go save the world. 278 00:15:13.639 --> 00:15:16.240 Then you know, you go through all these different phases 279 00:15:16.799 --> 00:15:18.960 and then you come back to being like, no, all 280 00:15:18.960 --> 00:15:21.519 you have to do is really save yourself, and the 281 00:15:21.679 --> 00:15:23.480 rest kind of works itself out. 282 00:15:23.840 --> 00:15:25.240 Yeah, there is beautifully said. 283 00:15:25.320 --> 00:15:28.600 There seems to be like a like a rapid evolution 284 00:15:29.000 --> 00:15:32.600 over time once you start like accepting things and looking 285 00:15:32.639 --> 00:15:36.120 into things and just being open minded and and you know, 286 00:15:36.279 --> 00:15:38.519 with all of that, you know, all that research and 287 00:15:38.559 --> 00:15:41.919 that being open minded, you know, it's just as important 288 00:15:42.000 --> 00:15:44.720 to learn new things as it is to unlearn things, 289 00:15:45.159 --> 00:15:48.919 right like that Sometimes is the block that's holding you know, 290 00:15:49.000 --> 00:15:52.519 you back, is your you're limiting beliefs of whatever you 291 00:15:52.519 --> 00:15:54.960 were taught whenever you were growing up. I mean, whether 292 00:15:55.000 --> 00:15:58.559 you were raised in some kind of religious household or 293 00:15:58.639 --> 00:16:00.879 just a strict household in general, didn't even necessarily have 294 00:16:00.960 --> 00:16:03.279 to be religious. But like you know, some people they 295 00:16:03.679 --> 00:16:06.759 carry on like that same energy from their parents and 296 00:16:07.080 --> 00:16:09.200 they're now they're treating their kids that way. And it's 297 00:16:09.279 --> 00:16:12.080 just it's an unlearning thing because a lot of people 298 00:16:12.159 --> 00:16:15.799 do most of this stuff unknowingly. It's just like a 299 00:16:15.919 --> 00:16:18.440 natural trigger. It's a natural response. It's what you were 300 00:16:18.519 --> 00:16:21.320 kind of like programmed to do at a very young age. 301 00:16:21.679 --> 00:16:23.879 Yeah, so it's it's pretty crazy. 302 00:16:23.919 --> 00:16:26.639 But oh, that that tapping you were saying, it's called 303 00:16:26.720 --> 00:16:28.240 emotional freedom technique. 304 00:16:28.759 --> 00:16:31.360 That's it interesting, and that's something that you were just 305 00:16:31.399 --> 00:16:33.720 doing naturally because it felt good. It made you feel 306 00:16:33.720 --> 00:16:35.679 a little bit better in the moment, and it's like 307 00:16:35.919 --> 00:16:38.200 that nosis to just do that as well. 308 00:16:38.240 --> 00:16:40.840 I would feel that like I was feeling it like 309 00:16:41.000 --> 00:16:44.480 build up, and so I would like tap and it 310 00:16:44.559 --> 00:16:49.080 was like releasing that energy inside me. And every like 311 00:16:49.159 --> 00:16:52.519 I tried everything, like when he died, I tried everything 312 00:16:52.559 --> 00:16:56.519 I did acupuncture, I did past life regression. I did 313 00:16:56.600 --> 00:17:00.879 everything I could possibly do, and every bit of it 314 00:17:00.960 --> 00:17:04.079 helped me to learn more and it helped me to 315 00:17:04.119 --> 00:17:08.559 heal more. Because my goal was I wanted to to 316 00:17:08.640 --> 00:17:11.359 be able to live a life that you know, he 317 00:17:11.400 --> 00:17:15.720 would enjoy watching me live. And in order to do that, 318 00:17:15.880 --> 00:17:18.799 I needed to learn to love myself as much as 319 00:17:18.839 --> 00:17:24.839 I loved him and not allow other people to stop me. 320 00:17:25.400 --> 00:17:29.440 You know, in the beginning, I know I sounded crazy 321 00:17:29.480 --> 00:17:32.720 to people, and I was always thankful because the universe 322 00:17:32.759 --> 00:17:35.200 always gave me the right person to be around when 323 00:17:35.200 --> 00:17:37.759 I was in certain parts. You know, I thought I 324 00:17:37.799 --> 00:17:41.160 was going to be alone right after because I had 325 00:17:41.240 --> 00:17:44.440 moved to Florida and to be with him, and all 326 00:17:44.519 --> 00:17:47.839 my family was up north, so it was just me 327 00:17:47.920 --> 00:17:50.720 and him. And I was like, well, you know, as 328 00:17:50.720 --> 00:17:52.359 soon as he goes, like they're not going to get 329 00:17:52.400 --> 00:17:54.920 down here fast enough, I'm going to be in this 330 00:17:55.079 --> 00:17:59.160 period of like this dark energy like I was. What 331 00:17:59.319 --> 00:18:02.240 I thought was going to happen didn't happen at all. 332 00:18:02.839 --> 00:18:05.839 The things I was fearful of coming up to, you know, 333 00:18:05.920 --> 00:18:11.240 his death, I didn't experience, like as soon as he died, 334 00:18:11.279 --> 00:18:13.759 like he was right in my ear. I had some 335 00:18:13.839 --> 00:18:16.519 weird experiences with a friend of mine who's a psychic, 336 00:18:16.599 --> 00:18:19.200 Like he was going to her and telling her stuff 337 00:18:19.200 --> 00:18:21.799 to tell me, and I was having you know, when 338 00:18:21.839 --> 00:18:24.400 I had a vision, she had a similar vision, so 339 00:18:24.440 --> 00:18:27.160 it helped validate me, so I didn't think guy was 340 00:18:27.200 --> 00:18:33.440 going crazy like it was just everything was divinely orchestrated. 341 00:18:33.480 --> 00:18:36.160 And I feel that it still is. Like every part 342 00:18:36.160 --> 00:18:38.640 of my life, the jobs I've had, the things I've done, 343 00:18:38.720 --> 00:18:42.279 the people I've met, have all been part of my 344 00:18:42.559 --> 00:18:46.839 evolution and my tests to make sure that I am 345 00:18:46.920 --> 00:18:50.960 going to have healthy boundaries and I'm going to honor 346 00:18:51.039 --> 00:18:55.559 myself and my my authentic self, which I always tell people. 347 00:18:55.960 --> 00:18:58.559 I'm like, you know, stop being what other people want 348 00:18:58.599 --> 00:19:02.839 you to be. Be authentic self, because every time they 349 00:19:02.880 --> 00:19:05.240 do that, they like, you know when they say, you 350 00:19:05.279 --> 00:19:07.519 know they want to fit into the box. Well, when 351 00:19:07.559 --> 00:19:09.440 you fit into a box, you cut off all You're 352 00:19:09.440 --> 00:19:11.759 like a puzzle piece, and when you fit into a box, 353 00:19:11.759 --> 00:19:15.240 you cut those pieces off and those edges is what's 354 00:19:15.319 --> 00:19:18.640 the most important parts. And I did that for so long, 355 00:19:19.200 --> 00:19:22.960 like I let other people dictate who I should be. 356 00:19:23.799 --> 00:19:27.279 And when I really took back my power is when 357 00:19:27.640 --> 00:19:29.720 when my life really started to change. 358 00:19:30.440 --> 00:19:33.720 That is I heard this one thing, it said, just 359 00:19:33.720 --> 00:19:35.680 be yourself because everybody else is taken. 360 00:19:38.440 --> 00:19:41.240 Yeah, well God didn't make you, you know, the universe 361 00:19:41.279 --> 00:19:44.200 source whatever you want to call it. You know, you 362 00:19:44.200 --> 00:19:47.599 weren't created to be like everyone else. You work and 363 00:19:47.640 --> 00:19:51.039 created to be who you are. You all everyone has 364 00:19:51.079 --> 00:19:56.039 their own special role to play, and and the more 365 00:19:56.119 --> 00:19:59.880 you don't play that role, the harder your life actually is. 366 00:20:00.640 --> 00:20:02.720 In my opinion, Oh absolutely, And that's why. 367 00:20:02.759 --> 00:20:04.720 You know, when people come on our show, and we 368 00:20:04.759 --> 00:20:08.200 have live shows too, and sometimes people will describe an 369 00:20:08.200 --> 00:20:12.599 experience they had, we take it at that surface level. 370 00:20:12.799 --> 00:20:14.880 We look at that as in, that is a real thing. 371 00:20:15.000 --> 00:20:17.680 Just because that I haven't had that experience doesn't mean 372 00:20:17.720 --> 00:20:19.839 it's not real. And so we're all supposed to have 373 00:20:20.279 --> 00:20:23.119 different experiences. I think that's the whole point. But whenever 374 00:20:23.240 --> 00:20:26.720 someone goes, well, that's not possible, there's no way that's real, 375 00:20:26.759 --> 00:20:29.319 it's like, no, I think that's defeating the purpose. 376 00:20:29.359 --> 00:20:31.319 I think that that's really kind of holding us back. 377 00:20:31.440 --> 00:20:34.440 It's just it, you know, it discredits people. You know, 378 00:20:34.519 --> 00:20:37.279 whenever you say, oh I don't believe that happened, or 379 00:20:37.400 --> 00:20:39.920 that's not real or you made that up or whatever. 380 00:20:40.000 --> 00:20:42.960 I'm like, dude, an experience is an experience you know 381 00:20:43.160 --> 00:20:47.200 and like. And you see people talking like profoundly about 382 00:20:47.200 --> 00:20:49.680 their experiences, their experiences change their life. 383 00:20:49.759 --> 00:20:52.480 It changes their worldview. The lens that they look at 384 00:20:52.519 --> 00:20:54.599 this world is shifted now. 385 00:20:55.079 --> 00:20:58.480 And and you know, I actually so I have another podcast. 386 00:20:58.519 --> 00:20:59.680 It's a conspiracy podcast. 387 00:20:59.680 --> 00:21:02.559 We like a lot of alien like, you know, invasions 388 00:21:02.599 --> 00:21:06.480 and stuff like that, not invasion. But back in the fifties, 389 00:21:06.640 --> 00:21:10.359 there was this There was this little town in Texas, and. 390 00:21:11.720 --> 00:21:12.319 There was like. 391 00:21:12.359 --> 00:21:15.799 Twelve or thirteen different people that all experienced the same 392 00:21:15.839 --> 00:21:19.319 thing basically like this craft or this orb like object 393 00:21:19.720 --> 00:21:21.960 going down and landing in the center of the road 394 00:21:22.000 --> 00:21:24.240 as they're trying to drive their car and as they're 395 00:21:24.279 --> 00:21:28.599 approaching it, their car shut off and it doesn't work anymore. 396 00:21:28.640 --> 00:21:31.440 All the electricity you know, in the car is completely out, 397 00:21:31.519 --> 00:21:32.759 and so they get out of the car to take 398 00:21:32.759 --> 00:21:34.480 a good look at it, and as soon as they 399 00:21:34.480 --> 00:21:37.160 take a couple of steps closer, the thing vanishes and 400 00:21:37.200 --> 00:21:40.240 it just jumps up like light speed, right. And there 401 00:21:40.240 --> 00:21:43.400 were like ten different, ten, twelve, thirteen different accounts of 402 00:21:43.440 --> 00:21:46.559 this all on the same night in level in Texas 403 00:21:46.559 --> 00:21:50.400 back in nineteen fifty seven. And it wasn't even just 404 00:21:50.440 --> 00:21:53.519 regular like civilians, like there was a firefighter, there was 405 00:21:53.559 --> 00:21:55.880 a cop, there was a there was a farmer. There 406 00:21:55.960 --> 00:21:59.119 was like a bunch of these different kind of personalities 407 00:21:59.559 --> 00:22:02.920 and the government during that time that you know, to 408 00:22:03.440 --> 00:22:06.400 monitor to try and figure out like what's really going 409 00:22:06.440 --> 00:22:08.240 on with a lot of these UFO things. They had 410 00:22:08.279 --> 00:22:10.400 Project Blue Book, which in my opinion is kind of 411 00:22:10.400 --> 00:22:13.880 a scam, but back then, what they would have Project 412 00:22:13.920 --> 00:22:16.680 Blue Book and they would come and investigate, and you 413 00:22:16.720 --> 00:22:19.200 know what they chalked it up to, Well, these people were, 414 00:22:19.319 --> 00:22:22.680 you know, just experiencing some kind of mass psychosis. 415 00:22:22.359 --> 00:22:25.240 And made their car physically not work, and. 416 00:22:25.200 --> 00:22:29.400 They saw nothing except for ball lightning and Saint Elmo's fire, 417 00:22:29.440 --> 00:22:32.559 which is basically like another form of lightning. And it's 418 00:22:32.599 --> 00:22:36.880 like crazy, man, Like I feel yeah, yeah, And it's like, 419 00:22:37.279 --> 00:22:39.680 you know, you just discredited all these people. Imagine all 420 00:22:39.720 --> 00:22:42.039 those people that have to go throughout their lives now 421 00:22:42.440 --> 00:22:44.279 and they're like, man, am I actually crazy? 422 00:22:44.279 --> 00:22:45.400 Did I really not see that? 423 00:22:45.440 --> 00:22:45.599 Well? 424 00:22:45.599 --> 00:22:47.799 What about those other ten or twelve people that saw 425 00:22:47.839 --> 00:22:48.920 the exact same thing? 426 00:22:49.480 --> 00:22:52.160 And it's like, man, I don't know. 427 00:22:52.240 --> 00:22:56.599 I mean, look, you can't go around just believing everybody's everything. 428 00:22:56.680 --> 00:22:59.720 But just be open minded. That's all that it requires. 429 00:22:59.720 --> 00:23:01.880 I think, think absolutely. 430 00:23:01.839 --> 00:23:05.279 Yes, and don't you know, don't dismiss other people's experiences 431 00:23:05.279 --> 00:23:09.039 if you can't understand them, that's fine, right, Like, you know, 432 00:23:09.839 --> 00:23:12.559 there's certain things that you know, people experience that I 433 00:23:12.640 --> 00:23:16.680 don't quite understand, but that doesn't mean I don't think 434 00:23:16.680 --> 00:23:20.559 it's true, at least not to that person. And if 435 00:23:20.599 --> 00:23:23.200 you look at it again through the lens of a 436 00:23:23.279 --> 00:23:29.680 video game, right simulation, we are all experiencing different realities. 437 00:23:30.160 --> 00:23:32.240 Every single one of us, just I mean even just 438 00:23:32.279 --> 00:23:34.759 the three of us in this chat are experiencing this 439 00:23:34.880 --> 00:23:38.359 completely differently from each other because we're experiencing it through 440 00:23:38.359 --> 00:23:41.759 our own beliefs, our own experiences, our own thoughts. Right, 441 00:23:42.240 --> 00:23:47.200 So if you think about that on a global scale, 442 00:23:47.319 --> 00:23:53.839 and we're creating our own reality, right, these realities sometimes 443 00:23:53.960 --> 00:23:57.000 leak into each other, but they don't touch each other. 444 00:23:57.880 --> 00:24:02.000 So for instance, you know a lot of people get 445 00:24:02.039 --> 00:24:05.559 fearful of the government right now, or fearful of all 446 00:24:05.640 --> 00:24:10.599 these things that are happening, and I look at it like, well, 447 00:24:11.000 --> 00:24:15.880 it's somebody's reality, it's not necessarily mine. Yes, I don't 448 00:24:15.920 --> 00:24:18.759 pay attention to the news. I don't pay attention to 449 00:24:18.799 --> 00:24:22.839 any of that's distraction because again, I want to build 450 00:24:22.839 --> 00:24:25.559 my own reality. Right, So if I want to build 451 00:24:25.559 --> 00:24:28.160 my own reality, I got to keep all my energy 452 00:24:28.599 --> 00:24:31.920 as close to me as possible. So I'm only focusing 453 00:24:31.960 --> 00:24:36.720 on the things that are immediately interacting with me because 454 00:24:36.759 --> 00:24:41.920 that's my game. Right. So if people are you know, 455 00:24:42.640 --> 00:24:45.839 if people can detach from the thought that that might 456 00:24:45.880 --> 00:24:50.839 be part of their reality, they actually can be able 457 00:24:50.920 --> 00:24:55.640 to enjoy the reality because the suffering that I see 458 00:24:55.640 --> 00:24:59.200 and people are the worry, it's just it's it's taking 459 00:24:59.240 --> 00:25:04.119 away from them to enjoy the now. Yes, and this 460 00:25:04.160 --> 00:25:08.079 stuff has never gone away, like there's always been crazy 461 00:25:08.119 --> 00:25:11.240 stuff that's happened. You know, go back as long as 462 00:25:11.279 --> 00:25:15.599 you want, you know, there's always something happening. And you know, 463 00:25:15.680 --> 00:25:19.039 so if you can't create joy now, when will you 464 00:25:19.079 --> 00:25:20.119 ever create joy? 465 00:25:20.400 --> 00:25:20.599 Right now? 466 00:25:20.720 --> 00:25:23.880 You think constantly just waiting for it, just waiting for 467 00:25:23.920 --> 00:25:27.359 something to happen, to finally start living your life on 468 00:25:27.559 --> 00:25:29.559 this day, dude, I'm gonna be happy. 469 00:25:30.000 --> 00:25:32.720 Yeah, not right now though, I know. 470 00:25:32.880 --> 00:25:35.200 Yeah, it's silly when you think about it, because you 471 00:25:35.200 --> 00:25:37.119 think about it, what was it like? You know, there's 472 00:25:37.160 --> 00:25:39.519 all the crazy and we don't I'm not trying to 473 00:25:39.519 --> 00:25:41.680 turn this into a political thing, but you think about it, like, 474 00:25:41.839 --> 00:25:43.480 there's all the crazy things that are going on in 475 00:25:43.519 --> 00:25:46.359 politics today, you know, geopolitics all around the world. It's 476 00:25:46.359 --> 00:25:49.759 happening everywhere right like it's non stop. And then you 477 00:25:49.880 --> 00:25:51.920 just take a little you know, glance back at the 478 00:25:51.960 --> 00:25:54.359 pages of history and you're like, oh, wow, back in 479 00:25:54.400 --> 00:25:57.319 the sixties. JFK got shot. Back in the eighteen hundreds, 480 00:25:57.319 --> 00:26:00.400 Abraham Lincoln got shot, and you know even before or that, 481 00:26:00.440 --> 00:26:03.279 this wasn't even a country most of the seventeen hundreds. 482 00:26:03.319 --> 00:26:06.599 And it's like, man, shit is always going to go 483 00:26:06.640 --> 00:26:11.200 down at all times. And you know, I imagine that whatever, 484 00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:15.359 whatever kind of stuff is really going on in the world. 485 00:26:15.400 --> 00:26:17.440 It's not to say that you don't care about it, 486 00:26:17.440 --> 00:26:20.359 it's just that it's not a part of my reality today. 487 00:26:20.640 --> 00:26:23.880 And whatever you focus on is really the thing that 488 00:26:23.920 --> 00:26:26.880 you're really energizing. Because it's funny because you'll see people 489 00:26:26.960 --> 00:26:29.519 that are just glued to the news and they can't 490 00:26:29.559 --> 00:26:31.799 get enough of it. They're like, you know, if they 491 00:26:31.839 --> 00:26:34.200 hate somebody or they love somebody, oh look how good 492 00:26:34.240 --> 00:26:36.160 they did, Look how terrible they did. And it's just 493 00:26:36.240 --> 00:26:39.319 like picking and choosing, and you're allowing other people to 494 00:26:39.400 --> 00:26:42.440 dictate you know what you're feeling and how you're experiencing 495 00:26:42.440 --> 00:26:44.920 this reality. And so the idea that you can kind 496 00:26:44.920 --> 00:26:47.960 of go in there and code all of the bits 497 00:26:48.039 --> 00:26:50.559 of information as if it is kind of a video game, 498 00:26:51.119 --> 00:26:53.799 I think you absolutely can do that, just and just 499 00:26:53.799 --> 00:26:57.039 by taking control of your own moment to moment life. 500 00:26:57.119 --> 00:26:58.839 You know, don't put yourself in front of all the 501 00:26:58.880 --> 00:27:01.039 things that are going to you down. Why would you 502 00:27:01.079 --> 00:27:03.640 even do that, you know, it's almost like self sacrifice at. 503 00:27:03.519 --> 00:27:06.920 That point exactly. And if you look at it, I mean, 504 00:27:06.960 --> 00:27:09.640 if you really look at history like most people are. 505 00:27:09.680 --> 00:27:12.119 You know so much in what's happening right now, But 506 00:27:12.160 --> 00:27:15.440 if you look at history, you know we're humans and 507 00:27:15.480 --> 00:27:19.759 that we evolve very slowly, you know, so if you 508 00:27:19.880 --> 00:27:24.079 look you know, even yes, there's still violence in the world, 509 00:27:24.920 --> 00:27:27.960 but there's less if you really look at like, you know, 510 00:27:28.039 --> 00:27:31.039 at one point you could go kill your neighbor if 511 00:27:31.079 --> 00:27:34.839 they stole your goat, right, Like, that's not really a thing. Now, 512 00:27:36.359 --> 00:27:39.720 there's the And I really think the fact that we 513 00:27:39.839 --> 00:27:43.240 have so much access to information than we have ever 514 00:27:43.279 --> 00:27:48.160 had in our lives really also helps us to evolve 515 00:27:48.319 --> 00:27:50.720 and grow and be able to see things from different 516 00:27:50.759 --> 00:27:54.240 perspectives when before we were very limited. You can only 517 00:27:54.319 --> 00:27:57.279 read this book if it was in the library that 518 00:27:57.440 --> 00:28:00.160 you know, like that they approved for you to read. 519 00:28:01.279 --> 00:28:04.359 So so people need to start focusing on the fact 520 00:28:04.440 --> 00:28:08.240 that we are growing, we are getting better. It just 521 00:28:08.319 --> 00:28:12.039 takes us a long time, you know. I go back 522 00:28:12.079 --> 00:28:15.079 to like Jesus, right, he spoke about all this stuff then, 523 00:28:15.160 --> 00:28:19.559 and it's taken us this long to understand that Christ's consciousness, right, 524 00:28:19.640 --> 00:28:24.559 to understand to really love yourself as well as others. Right, 525 00:28:24.960 --> 00:28:27.519 it's not just it's not just a place to go 526 00:28:27.640 --> 00:28:30.920 on Sunday, you know, it's you really got to embody 527 00:28:31.599 --> 00:28:36.799 the beliefs and the teachings because it really opens you up. 528 00:28:36.799 --> 00:28:38.920 It's and it's a and he you know, he taught 529 00:28:38.920 --> 00:28:41.319 it in ways that people can understand. But you know 530 00:28:41.359 --> 00:28:44.359 he talks about, you know, the karma and and how 531 00:28:44.440 --> 00:28:48.039 these things come back to you and forgiving people, you know, 532 00:28:48.079 --> 00:28:50.839 because they don't know any better, like you know, when 533 00:28:50.839 --> 00:28:53.720 he scrucified, forgive them. They don't know what they're you know, 534 00:28:53.759 --> 00:28:56.200 and they don't know what they do they because they 535 00:28:56.240 --> 00:29:00.680 don't they're all stuck in these old programs of belief 536 00:29:00.759 --> 00:29:04.880 systems that don't allow them to you know, see everybody 537 00:29:04.960 --> 00:29:05.799 for who they are. 538 00:29:06.240 --> 00:29:08.640 Well, they just want people to be followers and obey, 539 00:29:09.000 --> 00:29:11.119 you know, like that's that's kind of and and to 540 00:29:11.160 --> 00:29:14.960 be honest, I was one of those like non player 541 00:29:15.079 --> 00:29:17.000 characters most of my life. I mean, just to make 542 00:29:17.000 --> 00:29:19.720 a simulation kind of game reference there, It's like I 543 00:29:19.759 --> 00:29:22.480 was an NPC most of my life, and and I 544 00:29:22.480 --> 00:29:25.119 didn't even know that I was being you know, programmed 545 00:29:25.119 --> 00:29:27.839 and manipulated and controlled, because I was just going along 546 00:29:27.880 --> 00:29:30.039 to get along, just like everybody else, you know, going 547 00:29:30.079 --> 00:29:33.039 to work and and and everything else that comes with, 548 00:29:33.160 --> 00:29:36.400 you know, your daily duty of life, and not even wondering, 549 00:29:36.559 --> 00:29:39.519 you know, like why did I never take a moment 550 00:29:39.559 --> 00:29:42.559 to think about where did I actually come from? You know, 551 00:29:42.640 --> 00:29:45.160 where was I existing before this? Am I? 552 00:29:45.400 --> 00:29:47.559 Where am I going after? And why? 553 00:29:47.720 --> 00:29:49.720 You know, and even back then you would see which 554 00:29:49.759 --> 00:29:51.519 I didn't even know the term back then. But it's 555 00:29:51.559 --> 00:29:53.920 like I didn't even know what synchronicities were, but I 556 00:29:54.000 --> 00:29:57.079 knew I've seen them, you know. And why is it 557 00:29:57.119 --> 00:29:59.400 that some movies speak to you? You know what I mean? 558 00:29:59.480 --> 00:30:01.880 Like why is it that a certain tone can put 559 00:30:01.920 --> 00:30:05.480 you into a certain like almost loving trance and being 560 00:30:05.519 --> 00:30:08.839 more open and being more forgiven and all of these things. 561 00:30:08.920 --> 00:30:11.799 And you know, it's once you have that wake up call. 562 00:30:11.839 --> 00:30:14.720 And everybody has their own kind of awakening process, and 563 00:30:15.079 --> 00:30:17.240 I mean some people have it all at once and 564 00:30:17.279 --> 00:30:19.519 some people. You know, it's it's happening a little bit 565 00:30:19.640 --> 00:30:22.279 day by day, you know, and it seems like kind 566 00:30:22.279 --> 00:30:25.599 of insignificant at the moment, right, but you stack those up, 567 00:30:25.720 --> 00:30:27.400 you know, a day after a day after a day 568 00:30:27.400 --> 00:30:29.519 after a week, after a month, after a few years, 569 00:30:29.759 --> 00:30:32.440 and all of a sudden, you're just like, you know what, 570 00:30:32.720 --> 00:30:34.119 I think, I'm not going to go to the mall 571 00:30:34.160 --> 00:30:36.359 today because I don't need to buy any more materialistic shit, 572 00:30:36.759 --> 00:30:41.200 you know, just after a while you get there, uh. 573 00:30:41.279 --> 00:30:44.920 I know. And women like and women it's even worse 574 00:30:45.160 --> 00:30:48.759 because you have to you know, they put into your head. 575 00:30:48.799 --> 00:30:50.480 You need to get your nails done, you need to 576 00:30:50.519 --> 00:30:52.960 get your eyebrows done, you need to get your you know, 577 00:30:53.039 --> 00:30:55.240 your hair done. You need to always have the highest 578 00:30:55.279 --> 00:30:57.599 fashion and all this stuff. But I'm not saying that 579 00:30:57.720 --> 00:31:01.519 you shouldn't do what makes you feel feel good about 580 00:31:01.559 --> 00:31:05.160 you and how you want to present yourself to the world. 581 00:31:05.599 --> 00:31:10.279 But feeling the need to to be and dressed like 582 00:31:10.359 --> 00:31:13.480 other people in order to fit in is not the 583 00:31:13.599 --> 00:31:19.200 same thing. And most of my life, like I was 584 00:31:19.279 --> 00:31:23.319 programmed very early, you know, especially if you if you 585 00:31:23.359 --> 00:31:27.200 grew up in the you know, the eighties early nineties, 586 00:31:28.880 --> 00:31:35.440 TV was over sexualized, like women's roles in TV. So 587 00:31:35.480 --> 00:31:37.359 like at a young age, I was like, yeah, you know, 588 00:31:37.559 --> 00:31:39.279 that's all I can be, is this? 589 00:31:39.799 --> 00:31:42.440 You know this like Jessica Rabbit. 590 00:31:43.160 --> 00:31:47.200 Yes, you know, like I have to be this role. 591 00:31:47.279 --> 00:31:49.480 Otherwise a man's not going to want me. They're not 592 00:31:49.519 --> 00:31:52.400 going to want me for me or my personality. I 593 00:31:52.519 --> 00:31:55.640 have to look a certain way or or you know, 594 00:31:55.720 --> 00:31:58.079 be promiscuous, you know what I mean, not promiscuous, but 595 00:31:58.240 --> 00:32:02.119 you know, be more open to allowing men to have 596 00:32:02.160 --> 00:32:04.200 more of what they want and less of what's good 597 00:32:04.240 --> 00:32:08.319 for me. And I started doing some of that subconscious 598 00:32:08.359 --> 00:32:12.319 reprogramming myself, and that's where I kind of started to 599 00:32:12.759 --> 00:32:16.240 start seeing how it affected my life because I had 600 00:32:16.279 --> 00:32:21.000 this belief that like sex equaled love and that really 601 00:32:21.160 --> 00:32:25.359 just that little belief threw off my entire you know, 602 00:32:25.480 --> 00:32:29.400 how my relationships were, how I would carry myself. And 603 00:32:29.759 --> 00:32:32.759 once I reprogrammed that as well as a bunch of others. 604 00:32:32.839 --> 00:32:36.319 I was able to heal enough to get my strength 605 00:32:36.400 --> 00:32:39.279 to leave a relationship that wasn't good for me, and 606 00:32:39.440 --> 00:32:41.799 be able to recreate who I wanted to do or 607 00:32:41.839 --> 00:32:46.559 who I wanted to be. And because of that and 608 00:32:47.160 --> 00:32:49.480 the universe guided me to be a reiki master. I 609 00:32:49.480 --> 00:32:51.799 didn't even know what reiki was and was like, you 610 00:32:51.880 --> 00:32:54.319 need to go find a reiki master. And I lived 611 00:32:54.319 --> 00:32:56.480 in the middle of freaking nowhere, and I'm like, where 612 00:32:56.519 --> 00:33:00.680 am I going to find someone to teach me this? How, 613 00:33:01.599 --> 00:33:05.519 somebody opened a shop near me and I started taking 614 00:33:05.519 --> 00:33:08.960 classes and I and I started to explore other things. 615 00:33:09.039 --> 00:33:13.839 And that was way before my awakening. And because of 616 00:33:13.880 --> 00:33:17.359 that knowledge and that experience, when I was going through 617 00:33:17.359 --> 00:33:20.599 my awakening, I started to see how everything tied together. 618 00:33:21.240 --> 00:33:25.240 And I was given like instructions of how to combine 619 00:33:25.279 --> 00:33:30.960 different methodologies together so that you can reprogram your mind 620 00:33:31.160 --> 00:33:34.559 literally overnight. And so in my book, I teach you 621 00:33:34.599 --> 00:33:37.759 how to do it yourself, which doesn't really work as 622 00:33:37.839 --> 00:33:42.000 quickly because you're you're kind of doing it while you're conscious, right, 623 00:33:42.039 --> 00:33:44.680 so you're not really tapping into the subcontract. 624 00:33:44.720 --> 00:33:49.359 You still have to build that belief to correct. 625 00:33:49.359 --> 00:33:51.480 So you're building the belief doing the action, booing the 626 00:33:51.480 --> 00:33:53.480 belief doing the action, and it takes a little bit, 627 00:33:53.480 --> 00:33:57.000 but you'll get you there. But when I started, I 628 00:33:57.039 --> 00:34:00.799 opened a coaching business it's called Infinite Mindset Coaching, where 629 00:34:00.839 --> 00:34:07.079 I help people identify the beliefs and reprogram them as 630 00:34:07.119 --> 00:34:09.679 well as do energy healing at the same time to 631 00:34:09.760 --> 00:34:11.880 remove it from the body, because the body is like 632 00:34:11.920 --> 00:34:14.199 the last part of it. Like you can heal it 633 00:34:14.239 --> 00:34:15.760 in the mind, but you still got to heal it 634 00:34:15.800 --> 00:34:18.599 in your body, and their body needs to trust that 635 00:34:18.679 --> 00:34:21.519 you are going to behave in a certain way of 636 00:34:21.559 --> 00:34:24.119 this new belief to be able to actually calm down 637 00:34:24.199 --> 00:34:27.960 your nervous system. So this method, I've been able to 638 00:34:28.000 --> 00:34:32.960 help people literally change their lives overnight. And it has 639 00:34:33.039 --> 00:34:36.519 been such a blessing to be able to watch people 640 00:34:36.880 --> 00:34:41.400 like just go from being in such an unworthy, fearful 641 00:34:41.480 --> 00:34:45.519 state to loving life and doing things that they wouldn't 642 00:34:45.519 --> 00:34:47.639 have normally done because it makes them happy. 643 00:34:48.119 --> 00:34:51.480 You know what it is so crazy is so I 644 00:34:51.599 --> 00:34:54.800 recently started doing this thing because I'm really trying to 645 00:34:54.840 --> 00:34:57.840 get a lot more familiar with the taro and not 646 00:34:57.920 --> 00:35:00.800 necessarily needing like a cheat book to to read the 647 00:35:00.840 --> 00:35:03.679 definition from because and we've been doing this for over 648 00:35:03.719 --> 00:35:05.960 two years. We'll read a card at the end of 649 00:35:06.000 --> 00:35:08.440 every show and usually it correlates with, you know, the 650 00:35:08.599 --> 00:35:13.239 energy of the show, like like shockingly crazily every single time, 651 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:15.320 and and so. 652 00:35:15.159 --> 00:35:16.280 You relight on that book. 653 00:35:16.400 --> 00:35:19.000 So that's probably why we haven't learned as much as 654 00:35:19.000 --> 00:35:21.320 we should, because we're just like, we're just gonna look 655 00:35:21.320 --> 00:35:22.239 at the book because. 656 00:35:22.079 --> 00:35:23.679 The answer and move on, you know. 657 00:35:24.039 --> 00:35:27.880 Exactly, and you know what's and so ever since then, well, 658 00:35:27.920 --> 00:35:31.239 for the past week or so, I have been trying 659 00:35:31.280 --> 00:35:34.079 to pull a couple of cards every day, usually just 660 00:35:34.159 --> 00:35:36.159 like just trying to get more familiar with it. But 661 00:35:36.199 --> 00:35:40.239 I'll ask it a question, whatever, question, right like how's 662 00:35:40.280 --> 00:35:42.239 my mom doing? How are my kids doing it? You know, 663 00:35:42.280 --> 00:35:44.320 and just stuff like this, you know, kind of insignifant, 664 00:35:44.360 --> 00:35:47.639 not insignificant, but you know it just informative, kind of 665 00:35:48.840 --> 00:35:51.480 in a playful way. Right, Yeah, that's perfect. And so 666 00:35:51.639 --> 00:35:53.960 I was like, you know what, I haven't pulled one today. 667 00:35:54.320 --> 00:35:58.159 Let's see what Joanne's energy is going to be bringing tonight. 668 00:35:58.519 --> 00:36:01.679 And I should you know, hu, and and I hope 669 00:36:01.679 --> 00:36:04.599 you can relate with this, but it's the queen of 670 00:36:04.639 --> 00:36:08.639 cups and which is so crazy. And I have you 671 00:36:08.679 --> 00:36:11.599 know that deck that has like the cheater kind of 672 00:36:11.880 --> 00:36:15.039 definition on it, you know the beginner deck, and it 673 00:36:15.119 --> 00:36:21.679 says uh, femininity or yeah, femininity, compassion, kindness, empathy, supportive 674 00:36:22.119 --> 00:36:26.719 counseling or therapy, which is so spot on with what 675 00:36:26.760 --> 00:36:29.360 you're what like, I feel that energy coming through and 676 00:36:29.400 --> 00:36:31.760 then that's what you do with your infinite mindset coaching. 677 00:36:32.400 --> 00:36:35.000 Yes, yes, so crazy and I and I and I 678 00:36:35.679 --> 00:36:39.760 like tarot too, and I don't really follow the normal guidelines. 679 00:36:39.840 --> 00:36:43.159 I don't do a normal type of spread. I just 680 00:36:43.320 --> 00:36:46.519 do it however I feel called to. Sometimes it looks 681 00:36:46.559 --> 00:36:49.880 one way, sometimes it looks another. And I read the 682 00:36:50.000 --> 00:36:55.440 cards together as I'm intuitively guided. So taro is basically 683 00:36:55.480 --> 00:36:59.599 a focal point for your own intuition. So you don't 684 00:36:59.639 --> 00:37:02.960 necessy sarahly have to. If you're interested in learning taro, 685 00:37:03.159 --> 00:37:06.320 you can, you know, learn the formal definitions. Some of 686 00:37:06.360 --> 00:37:11.920 that might help, but I feel like it's it's your intuition, 687 00:37:12.119 --> 00:37:14.760 like it's just another tool to help you focus it. 688 00:37:15.880 --> 00:37:18.119 I did when I first started learning tarot, I was 689 00:37:18.119 --> 00:37:21.400 in tarot class. And they were saying that, like, use 690 00:37:21.440 --> 00:37:24.039 your intuition, don't read it for the meeting. And I 691 00:37:24.079 --> 00:37:25.920 looked at the card and I looked at the lady 692 00:37:25.960 --> 00:37:29.920 and I go, are you pregnant? And she said yes, 693 00:37:30.039 --> 00:37:37.599 nobody knew what gidding. So yeah, it's it's a way 694 00:37:37.719 --> 00:37:41.760 to kind of help, you know, because when so, I'm 695 00:37:41.800 --> 00:37:45.239 what I would call a clare sentient, which is just knowing. 696 00:37:45.719 --> 00:37:48.920 I am a little claire Audio, a little claire voyant, 697 00:37:48.920 --> 00:37:52.719 but mostly sentient. Like I'm mostly it's mostly thoughts. So 698 00:37:52.840 --> 00:37:56.440 when you're when you're clare sentient, and you have and 699 00:37:56.480 --> 00:38:00.920 it's just thoughts, trying to discern them from the ones 700 00:38:01.000 --> 00:38:05.119 that are coming in from your your autopilot and your 701 00:38:05.519 --> 00:38:09.800 your subconscious reprogramming. It can get confusing because you'll doubt it. 702 00:38:09.800 --> 00:38:12.960 For a long period of time. I doubted my intuition, 703 00:38:13.679 --> 00:38:16.599 and once I started to kind of trust it is 704 00:38:16.639 --> 00:38:22.079 when it started to be actually more accurate. And I 705 00:38:22.199 --> 00:38:25.519 use I do use taro. If my clients like Taro, 706 00:38:25.679 --> 00:38:27.480 I always like to give them a little Tarot when 707 00:38:27.519 --> 00:38:30.280 they come in and see me, just for fun because 708 00:38:30.360 --> 00:38:35.880 it's and every time I do it, it validates everything 709 00:38:35.960 --> 00:38:39.480 we talked about and also gives a little bit more 710 00:38:39.599 --> 00:38:43.719 information and it it and it's just fun, like it's 711 00:38:43.760 --> 00:38:47.760 just it's not supposed to be serious, but it does 712 00:38:47.880 --> 00:38:52.599 tell you, like weirdly enough, when my before my husband 713 00:38:53.199 --> 00:38:59.920 passed interesting story, I moved in with him August twelfth 714 00:39:00.320 --> 00:39:04.840 and he died August eleventh. We had exactly one year, 715 00:39:05.320 --> 00:39:07.960 three hundred and sixty five days, so I knew like 716 00:39:08.039 --> 00:39:11.119 it was all divinely orchestrated, like I saw it as 717 00:39:11.119 --> 00:39:13.960 it was happening, right, But in the beginning, when I 718 00:39:14.039 --> 00:39:17.920 first moved in, like this voice came to me and says, 719 00:39:18.639 --> 00:39:21.159 you know, you're gonna have to love him really hard 720 00:39:21.199 --> 00:39:24.400 and lose him. Are you gonna be okay with that? Now? 721 00:39:24.440 --> 00:39:26.679 He was older than me, so I was like, yeah, 722 00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:30.360 you know, one year, twenty years, whatever, no time was 723 00:39:30.400 --> 00:39:33.599 going to be enough. But because that voice came to me, 724 00:39:34.159 --> 00:39:38.159 like I lived every moment to the fullest with him, 725 00:39:38.400 --> 00:39:41.440 you know, like I tried very hard to make sure 726 00:39:41.519 --> 00:39:45.239 every day was amazing, and I'm so thankful I do, 727 00:39:45.360 --> 00:39:48.239 because I don't have any regrets over any part of 728 00:39:48.280 --> 00:39:53.519 our relationship. But when he got cancer, and I can't 729 00:39:53.519 --> 00:39:55.800 remember if I did the terror card right before or 730 00:39:55.840 --> 00:40:02.360 right after we got married in mart I mean to 731 00:40:02.400 --> 00:40:04.159 be honest, we were gonna get married anyways, but we 732 00:40:04.199 --> 00:40:06.639 got married that quickly because he needed a knee surgery 733 00:40:06.679 --> 00:40:08.280 and I need to put him on my health insurance, 734 00:40:08.559 --> 00:40:10.920 so that was kind of why we did it. We 735 00:40:11.000 --> 00:40:13.239 ended up finding out he didn't need a knee surgery. 736 00:40:13.559 --> 00:40:16.599 The next month, we found out he had cancer. And 737 00:40:16.639 --> 00:40:19.800 he went from being super strong to being completely dependent 738 00:40:19.880 --> 00:40:23.400 on me, wheel chair bound, like completely dependent. And when 739 00:40:23.400 --> 00:40:26.000 I did a tarot card reading, I got the Tower 740 00:40:26.079 --> 00:40:31.559 card and I was like, fuck like anyway, and I 741 00:40:31.639 --> 00:40:34.800 and and it really was like it it it was 742 00:40:34.840 --> 00:40:37.400 a tower. It took me down to my foundation and 743 00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:41.079 I had to rebuild it. But in the same aspect, 744 00:40:41.119 --> 00:40:43.679 like I said, it was one of the most beautiful 745 00:40:43.679 --> 00:40:47.519 experiences I've ever gotten to be A part of cancer 746 00:40:47.639 --> 00:40:53.440 is a is a wicked, wicked disease, but a part 747 00:40:53.480 --> 00:40:56.480 of me believes that we choose how we die or 748 00:40:56.519 --> 00:41:02.280 how we exit. And even though can is is difficult 749 00:41:02.320 --> 00:41:05.360 to watch somebody go through and take care of somebody 750 00:41:05.360 --> 00:41:09.960 who is you know, who has cancer, it is it 751 00:41:10.000 --> 00:41:13.320 has so many good pieces to it. It allows people 752 00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:18.039 the opportunity to build those relationships, you know, up fix 753 00:41:18.199 --> 00:41:21.159 anything that they need to fix before you know they leave. 754 00:41:22.519 --> 00:41:25.360 And I was watching as we were going to the 755 00:41:25.440 --> 00:41:30.280 hospital for all his care of how our relationship was 756 00:41:30.320 --> 00:41:34.840 affecting the nurses, and how our relationship was affecting his family, 757 00:41:35.239 --> 00:41:40.360 and how it just rippled out away from me, and 758 00:41:40.360 --> 00:41:42.920 and like I said, it was just it was just 759 00:41:42.960 --> 00:41:45.239 such a great thing. And and then you know, when 760 00:41:45.239 --> 00:41:47.920 you when you go through that, like I thought about it, 761 00:41:47.960 --> 00:41:49.679 at one point, I was like, well, what would have 762 00:41:49.679 --> 00:41:52.880 been the alternative? Right, the alternative was then I would 763 00:41:52.880 --> 00:41:55.280 have never met him, and he would have had to 764 00:41:55.320 --> 00:41:58.800 deal with this all by himself. And that is and 765 00:41:58.840 --> 00:42:01.920 I and that was not something that you know, I 766 00:42:01.960 --> 00:42:03.960 would have rather gone through what I went through. And 767 00:42:04.000 --> 00:42:05.960 he was the best person to go through with. I 768 00:42:06.000 --> 00:42:07.320 even said to him, I go, if I have to 769 00:42:07.360 --> 00:42:10.119 go through this experience, you were the best person to 770 00:42:10.119 --> 00:42:12.599 be with because he was always no matter how much 771 00:42:12.639 --> 00:42:15.239 pain he was in, he was always kind and considerate 772 00:42:15.280 --> 00:42:18.320 and loving. And I really think that's because of all 773 00:42:18.440 --> 00:42:21.519 the work I did before I had met him. You 774 00:42:21.559 --> 00:42:25.840 know a lot of people think, you know, they throw 775 00:42:25.840 --> 00:42:28.039 the word like twin flame and stuff for realm and 776 00:42:28.079 --> 00:42:30.400 at the beginning, like I was always like, I didn't 777 00:42:30.400 --> 00:42:32.639 know what a twin flame was till after he passed, 778 00:42:33.079 --> 00:42:36.760 and that came through as that was our you know, 779 00:42:37.079 --> 00:42:40.079 that was our period of evolution for both of us, 780 00:42:40.599 --> 00:42:45.280 and he was my catalyst. But the thing with twin 781 00:42:45.360 --> 00:42:48.559 flames is a mirror back to you everything you need 782 00:42:48.599 --> 00:42:53.039 to heal in yourself, and I thankfully healed a lot 783 00:42:53.079 --> 00:42:55.400 of stuff before I met him, because it could have 784 00:42:55.480 --> 00:42:58.800 been a lot harder if I didn't. So I always 785 00:42:58.840 --> 00:43:01.840 tell people if you're really looking for your person, and 786 00:43:01.880 --> 00:43:06.280 it doesn't like I said, twin flames, soulmate, whatever, they're 787 00:43:06.320 --> 00:43:09.960 always going to reflect back to you. So make sure 788 00:43:10.199 --> 00:43:14.440 you're in a good place yourself before you get into 789 00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:18.400 a relationship with someone, because it'll make it a lot 790 00:43:18.519 --> 00:43:23.239 easier and you'll have a much better connection because, like 791 00:43:23.280 --> 00:43:25.719 I said, the universe is always trying to show you 792 00:43:25.800 --> 00:43:26.960 where you need to heal. 793 00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:31.880 Yeah, man, that is so that's it feels right, you know, 794 00:43:32.199 --> 00:43:34.760 like that kind of stuff. And it's interesting because you 795 00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:38.119 know just the the duality of the situation. You know, 796 00:43:38.239 --> 00:43:41.159 you were there for him in his final days. You 797 00:43:41.159 --> 00:43:44.199 were almost like his his angel or his guy, you know, 798 00:43:44.360 --> 00:43:47.079 and and conversely he was helping you through something and 799 00:43:47.159 --> 00:43:50.280 he you know, I mean, no matter like how rigid 800 00:43:50.320 --> 00:43:53.199 the whole the whole thing was, Like I'm sure you 801 00:43:53.199 --> 00:43:55.840 would rather have not have gone through that, but it 802 00:43:56.039 --> 00:43:59.280 sparked something inside of you. And you know, look at 803 00:43:59.280 --> 00:44:01.559 what look at what came. You know, like here you 804 00:44:01.599 --> 00:44:04.119 are on this show and I'm sure many other shows, 805 00:44:04.280 --> 00:44:06.519 and you write in a book and like you're getting 806 00:44:06.519 --> 00:44:09.280 the message out there, and it's just so great. I'm 807 00:44:09.320 --> 00:44:11.239 happy to see that you were able to get something 808 00:44:11.360 --> 00:44:14.440 from such a horrible situation and rebound and turn it 809 00:44:14.480 --> 00:44:18.960 into something beautiful almost, like like manure makes mushrooms and 810 00:44:19.000 --> 00:44:22.440 flowers and all these things. Right, Like, it's just crazy 811 00:44:22.480 --> 00:44:23.440 how it all works out in. 812 00:44:23.360 --> 00:44:25.920 The end, dude. Not to mention just your your energy 813 00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:26.800 is just great. You know. 814 00:44:26.920 --> 00:44:29.360 Usually before a show, I always get like the butterflies, 815 00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:31.159 you know, I think that's that's a good thing. I 816 00:44:31.159 --> 00:44:33.039 think it's excitement too, a little bit in there. But 817 00:44:33.400 --> 00:44:34.880 as soon as you popped on, I was like, oh, 818 00:44:34.920 --> 00:44:37.440 I felt right at home. So letting you know, like 819 00:44:37.480 --> 00:44:38.800 your energy is great. 820 00:44:39.039 --> 00:44:41.599 Thank you. I try really hard to keep it nice 821 00:44:41.639 --> 00:44:47.039 and nice and clean and airy. Yeah yeah, I mean 822 00:44:47.320 --> 00:44:50.039 I can't say that. It's like I I know, everybody 823 00:44:50.079 --> 00:44:52.960 like talks about love and light and and you know, 824 00:44:53.079 --> 00:44:56.719 if you'll build up your frequency, everything will work out. 825 00:44:56.840 --> 00:44:59.960 But it's not that way, you know it. The suffer 826 00:45:00.519 --> 00:45:03.360 is easier, you get through it and you move through 827 00:45:03.400 --> 00:45:06.800 it quicker, but there's still work that you still need 828 00:45:06.840 --> 00:45:12.480 to do, and there is no growth without you know, 829 00:45:12.800 --> 00:45:16.159 the polarity, Like you really won't grow if you're not 830 00:45:16.599 --> 00:45:19.559 pushed or you know, now when you get to a 831 00:45:19.559 --> 00:45:22.039 certain point where you're like, Okay, this is my path 832 00:45:22.079 --> 00:45:24.199 and this is where I'm going, it's still going to 833 00:45:24.280 --> 00:45:27.480 fine tune you. You know, where I'm at now is 834 00:45:27.519 --> 00:45:29.639 not where I was. You know, even when he when 835 00:45:29.639 --> 00:45:32.079 he passed, and even a year after, like I still 836 00:45:32.239 --> 00:45:36.280 was like building up me again. So when I was, 837 00:45:36.480 --> 00:45:40.000 you know what I thought I knew and when I 838 00:45:40.079 --> 00:45:44.519 thought I was, I have changed even you know more 839 00:45:44.960 --> 00:45:48.320 so it just consistently, you know, like I said, the 840 00:45:48.400 --> 00:45:51.360 universe will put into your place where you need need 841 00:45:51.400 --> 00:45:54.840 to be refined. And when you take that, you know, 842 00:45:55.000 --> 00:45:59.960 pain or suffering or just even you know, a car accident, 843 00:46:00.119 --> 00:46:02.920 right something even that small you know, and you take 844 00:46:02.960 --> 00:46:05.400 it and you can alchemize it into something that's working 845 00:46:05.480 --> 00:46:10.079 for you. It changes the game, Like what are you 846 00:46:10.119 --> 00:46:12.800 gonna do with your pain? Like are you gonna let 847 00:46:12.840 --> 00:46:15.199 it make you stay where you're at and just suffer 848 00:46:15.320 --> 00:46:17.119 through it for the rest of your life? Or are 849 00:46:17.159 --> 00:46:19.519 you gonna change something and make your something, you know, 850 00:46:19.599 --> 00:46:21.000 make something beautiful out of it? 851 00:46:21.360 --> 00:46:25.159 Exactly always a reason, you know, there's always some kind 852 00:46:25.159 --> 00:46:28.639 of divine plan. You were saying earlier about how you 853 00:46:28.719 --> 00:46:32.280 kind of dipped your toes into like the magical kind 854 00:46:32.320 --> 00:46:35.639 of stuff, and I'm just kind of curious as to Like, 855 00:46:35.760 --> 00:46:37.880 all right, so you mentioned about you know, past life 856 00:46:37.880 --> 00:46:41.559 progression and reiki and stuff like that, but what of 857 00:46:41.639 --> 00:46:44.199 the magical realm have you really gotten into? 858 00:46:45.960 --> 00:46:48.760 So interestingly enough, like I said, I feel like my 859 00:46:48.920 --> 00:46:53.360 path has been kind of laid out even early, like 860 00:46:53.840 --> 00:46:59.480 my thirteenth birthday, my mom like introduced you know, me 861 00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.440 and my friend friends to like light as a board, 862 00:47:02.519 --> 00:47:05.000 stiff as a feather, you know, remember that, and like 863 00:47:05.719 --> 00:47:09.920 you know, Ouiji boards and seances and all that kind 864 00:47:09.920 --> 00:47:12.559 of crazy stuff. And you know, back then when I 865 00:47:12.719 --> 00:47:14.679 was you know, in that period of time, you know, 866 00:47:14.800 --> 00:47:17.320 the craft came out, you know, all the you know 867 00:47:17.440 --> 00:47:21.440 that stuff, and and so you know I even tried that, 868 00:47:21.599 --> 00:47:23.320 you know, I dabbled a little bit in it then, 869 00:47:23.880 --> 00:47:26.519 but then you kind of get into your adult world 870 00:47:26.559 --> 00:47:29.519 and you put it all aside. And then, you know, 871 00:47:29.639 --> 00:47:32.639 as I got older, you know, when when my husband 872 00:47:32.800 --> 00:47:34.960 got sick, you know, I was like, well, we're going 873 00:47:35.000 --> 00:47:38.880 to try everything that I could possibly think of. So 874 00:47:38.960 --> 00:47:42.320 we did, you know, some some rituals to kind of 875 00:47:42.320 --> 00:47:49.199 try to help heal him. But after that, like I 876 00:47:49.199 --> 00:47:52.159 I started even to be like, well I don't need 877 00:47:52.199 --> 00:47:54.760 it anymore. Like I don't really do like I'll do 878 00:47:54.880 --> 00:47:57.159 like the fun ritual maybe with the moon, you know, 879 00:47:57.239 --> 00:47:59.440 to let go of stuff just to make it a thing. 880 00:48:00.039 --> 00:48:02.360 But it's not I want people to understand it's not 881 00:48:02.400 --> 00:48:06.239 even necessary because your your higher self is always guiding you, 882 00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:13.360 right and with like manifestation, like I'm I don't try 883 00:48:13.400 --> 00:48:16.880 to do that either, because people, you know, I want 884 00:48:16.880 --> 00:48:19.480 to manifest money, I want to manifest a big house, 885 00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:21.559 I want to fance a car or whatever. You can 886 00:48:21.639 --> 00:48:27.039 only if you're manifesting material things. Number one, you're only 887 00:48:27.079 --> 00:48:29.760 manifesting from what you know. That doesn't mean it's going 888 00:48:29.840 --> 00:48:32.559 to bring you what you want, Like the happiness that 889 00:48:32.559 --> 00:48:34.679 comes with it has nothing to do with the thing 890 00:48:35.079 --> 00:48:39.480 that you're trying to create, so I tell my higher self, 891 00:48:39.519 --> 00:48:43.280 because your brain can only create what it knows. So 892 00:48:43.320 --> 00:48:46.119 if you want to create something new, you need to 893 00:48:46.280 --> 00:48:49.960 really like get rid of all the thoughts of what 894 00:48:50.000 --> 00:48:54.119 the past was and allow yourself to move into opportunities 895 00:48:54.159 --> 00:48:58.480 that didn't exist before. But what I'll manifest is like, 896 00:48:58.519 --> 00:49:02.039 all right, I want to feel joy, I want to 897 00:49:02.079 --> 00:49:06.039 feel peace. Bring me things that make me feel that 898 00:49:06.119 --> 00:49:08.679 way made me feel, you know. So I start with 899 00:49:08.719 --> 00:49:12.760 the feelings and I don't go to the things. And 900 00:49:12.800 --> 00:49:14.960 that's brought me, Like I said, it brought me a 901 00:49:15.000 --> 00:49:19.559 book that I hate writing. I'm not a writer. My husband. 902 00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:22.440 Weirdly enough, my husband that passed away, he was a writer, 903 00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:28.800 so maybe we merged in some way. But but I've 904 00:49:28.880 --> 00:49:33.119 never thought, you know, when I left my first husband, 905 00:49:33.400 --> 00:49:35.880 that I would have met my second, that I would 906 00:49:35.920 --> 00:49:38.920 be here doing this kind of stuff. The opportunities and 907 00:49:38.960 --> 00:49:42.519 the people that come towards me, it's just it's just 908 00:49:42.639 --> 00:49:46.079 amazing what will happen when you when you get out 909 00:49:46.119 --> 00:49:47.559 of your own way, right. 910 00:49:47.440 --> 00:49:49.880 When you're when you're not going into the resistance, you know, 911 00:49:49.880 --> 00:49:51.760 you're not constantly resisting. 912 00:49:52.119 --> 00:49:54.639 You made a reference about the tarot. 913 00:49:54.320 --> 00:49:57.079 And how it kind of meets you where you are, 914 00:49:57.360 --> 00:49:59.639 you know, and I thought it was interesting. It's kind 915 00:49:59.639 --> 00:50:02.440 of like an analogy for the universe itself. You know, 916 00:50:03.079 --> 00:50:05.719 you draw a card and it's like, oh, interesting, how 917 00:50:05.760 --> 00:50:08.760 that really relates to what I'm going through and all 918 00:50:08.760 --> 00:50:11.280 the struggle or whatever it is. Maybe it's something good 919 00:50:11.320 --> 00:50:13.639 coming your way. And I think that that's just how 920 00:50:13.679 --> 00:50:15.920 the universe works. And I think that the taro is 921 00:50:15.960 --> 00:50:18.280 just like a little tool to remind you like, hey, 922 00:50:18.679 --> 00:50:20.679 you know, we got your back, you know what I'm saying. 923 00:50:20.719 --> 00:50:22.719 And so I think that's really cool. And just like 924 00:50:22.760 --> 00:50:25.039 how you were saying, like these people that are coming 925 00:50:25.079 --> 00:50:27.920 your way and just everything's kind of going the way 926 00:50:27.960 --> 00:50:30.320 it's going. It's because you're on that wave, you know, 927 00:50:30.360 --> 00:50:32.400 you're on that in that flow state and things are 928 00:50:32.480 --> 00:50:33.559 just happening. 929 00:50:33.719 --> 00:50:34.840 And that's just how it works. 930 00:50:35.440 --> 00:50:40.440 Yeah, And the same things like license plates, animals, you know, 931 00:50:40.599 --> 00:50:42.400 like I love to if I see a weird you know, 932 00:50:42.440 --> 00:50:44.960 an animal that's you know, out of place, I'll look 933 00:50:45.000 --> 00:50:47.639 it up and say, what's the spiritual meaning of this, right, 934 00:50:47.920 --> 00:50:51.039 you know what's going on. But like, license plates are 935 00:50:51.079 --> 00:50:55.800 my thing. It's so crazy, Like I'm constantly surveillancing for 936 00:50:56.000 --> 00:50:59.719 license plates. Yeah, and I see angel numbers all the time. 937 00:50:59.800 --> 00:51:05.400 So now like unless it's repeating or bigger clusters, they 938 00:51:05.440 --> 00:51:08.360 don't really have much meaning anymore for me because I 939 00:51:08.400 --> 00:51:12.679 see them so often. But like I'll see the weirdest 940 00:51:12.719 --> 00:51:16.079 license plates, Like yesterday I saw one that said Superman 941 00:51:16.840 --> 00:51:21.119 literally and then right after it said what did it 942 00:51:21.159 --> 00:51:28.480 say win no win for TRX or something, and it 943 00:51:28.559 --> 00:51:31.480 was it was a TX model truck. So but I 944 00:51:31.519 --> 00:51:34.519 was like, maybe there's something more to that TRX. Right. 945 00:51:35.039 --> 00:51:36.880 So I go into chat and I'm like, here, these 946 00:51:36.920 --> 00:51:39.320 are the license plates I just got. What do you think? 947 00:51:39.679 --> 00:51:43.519 And they're like, well, the t REX is like the 948 00:51:43.719 --> 00:51:47.480 primal energy and you're you know, you're soaring through this 949 00:51:47.639 --> 00:51:50.199 and you're healing all Like it went in and started 950 00:51:50.239 --> 00:51:53.239 like describing it. Now sometimes it'll come back with like 951 00:51:53.360 --> 00:51:56.159 options of like I don't really resonate with that one, 952 00:51:56.719 --> 00:51:59.840 but you'll be able to feel if that's true to you, 953 00:52:00.119 --> 00:52:02.559 you like, does that make sense to where you're at? 954 00:52:02.960 --> 00:52:07.559 You know, use a little discernment on yourself. But but yes, 955 00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:10.320 like when you work walk in a world where you're 956 00:52:10.360 --> 00:52:15.679 consistently looking for clues, right because it's game, right, scavenger hunt, yep, 957 00:52:15.920 --> 00:52:18.400 you know, when you're looking for clues, it helps you 958 00:52:18.440 --> 00:52:21.480 to know which direction to go into or or where 959 00:52:21.480 --> 00:52:22.599 you're at and look. 960 00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:25.880 For the glowing item like, oh, that's probably the next step, right. 961 00:52:26.480 --> 00:52:28.480 It makes it so much more fun. 962 00:52:28.639 --> 00:52:30.079 Right now, that's cool. 963 00:52:30.119 --> 00:52:33.039 And you know, aside of the license plate, sometimes the 964 00:52:33.159 --> 00:52:35.760 universe will tell you just blatantly, you know. I know 965 00:52:35.840 --> 00:52:38.639 Jonathan has had an experience like this, But we just 966 00:52:38.760 --> 00:52:41.239 experienced something really cool because we took our car to 967 00:52:41.320 --> 00:52:44.039 this mechanic and it has like a it had like 968 00:52:44.079 --> 00:52:46.400 a slight oil leak, which is something you don't want 969 00:52:46.480 --> 00:52:48.119 for your engine, you know, because all of a sudden 970 00:52:48.119 --> 00:52:50.000 it could just all come out and your your engine 971 00:52:50.039 --> 00:52:52.480 just grenades, right, And so he was like, yeah, you 972 00:52:52.519 --> 00:52:53.920 know you should be able to because I'm not going 973 00:52:53.960 --> 00:52:55.760 to be able to get you until next week. He said, 974 00:52:56.199 --> 00:52:58.320 just come back next week. It's okay to drive, just 975 00:52:58.400 --> 00:53:00.639 keep an eye on the oil level. It'd be fine, 976 00:53:00.679 --> 00:53:03.159 you know, you know, but don't go driving to California 977 00:53:03.320 --> 00:53:06.159 or something, and we were planning on going to California. 978 00:53:06.320 --> 00:53:09.840 That was oddly specific for him to just randomly say 979 00:53:09.880 --> 00:53:10.400 it like that. 980 00:53:10.320 --> 00:53:12.880 Oh dude, it's all right, Well we know it's like. 981 00:53:13.119 --> 00:53:15.400 Yeah, you do get weird little things like that. Just 982 00:53:15.519 --> 00:53:16.480 that just happened to you. 983 00:53:16.599 --> 00:53:17.280 Yeah, it was. 984 00:53:17.559 --> 00:53:21.280 It was last year I went out to a conspiracy 985 00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:23.199 event and we were going to be like one of 986 00:53:23.199 --> 00:53:25.559 the hosts over there, right, but right outside of the 987 00:53:25.840 --> 00:53:27.960 It was actually in a comedy club is where it 988 00:53:28.000 --> 00:53:30.960 was being held at, right, and right outside we were 989 00:53:31.000 --> 00:53:33.920 standing outside with like a bunch of people that you know, 990 00:53:34.039 --> 00:53:36.199 came and you know, paid to get in and stuff 991 00:53:36.239 --> 00:53:38.719 like that, and just talking to everybody. And you know, 992 00:53:38.920 --> 00:53:41.760 me and Electro Nick we're standing outside just shooting the 993 00:53:41.800 --> 00:53:44.119 shit and you know, trying to see if we can 994 00:53:44.159 --> 00:53:46.079 find any orbs out in the sky and you know, 995 00:53:46.320 --> 00:53:47.480 just being weird as we are. 996 00:53:47.920 --> 00:53:51.440 And lo and behold, there's this old hippie. 997 00:53:51.039 --> 00:53:53.639 Guy that just comes up to us wearing like ripped 998 00:53:53.679 --> 00:53:56.119 shorts and his shirt is all the way open, and 999 00:53:56.599 --> 00:53:59.440 I mean barefoot, long hair beard. 1000 00:53:59.760 --> 00:54:01.199 Yeah, it looked like he. 1001 00:54:01.159 --> 00:54:03.440 Hadn't taken a shower in probably a month. Right, like 1002 00:54:03.519 --> 00:54:05.199 you could just smell the stink off him from a 1003 00:54:05.199 --> 00:54:08.199 while away or from you know, like from away, you 1004 00:54:08.239 --> 00:54:11.760 know what I mean. But he comes up, and at 1005 00:54:11.800 --> 00:54:14.239 that time, I was thinking, oh, man, you know what 1006 00:54:14.320 --> 00:54:16.800 I'm saving up. I really want a cabin in the woods, 1007 00:54:16.840 --> 00:54:19.280 like I've been. I told everybody on the show about it. 1008 00:54:19.480 --> 00:54:21.440 I was telling my parents and you know, my kids 1009 00:54:21.480 --> 00:54:23.920 about it. I was like, we're gonna be some wizards 1010 00:54:23.960 --> 00:54:25.880 living in the middle of the woods. I want to 1011 00:54:25.880 --> 00:54:28.880 get a cabin away from everything, you know, and maybe 1012 00:54:28.920 --> 00:54:31.159 we'll have some chickens and some goats and all that 1013 00:54:31.320 --> 00:54:34.519 the whole thing, right, And lo and behold, I meet 1014 00:54:34.559 --> 00:54:37.320 this guy and he's telling me this story and just 1015 00:54:37.400 --> 00:54:39.480 out of nowhere, and he goes, and that's why you 1016 00:54:39.519 --> 00:54:41.960 don't buy a cabin in the woods. I would tell everybody, 1017 00:54:42.000 --> 00:54:44.119 never buy a cabin in the woods. And I was like, 1018 00:54:44.360 --> 00:54:48.159 what the fuck is happening, you know, And and Nick 1019 00:54:48.440 --> 00:54:50.239 just like looked over at me, and I looked over 1020 00:54:50.239 --> 00:54:52.119 at him, and we both thought the same exact thing. 1021 00:54:52.599 --> 00:54:55.920 And it was like, man, that was some kind of 1022 00:54:55.960 --> 00:54:59.000 divine message to not do that. So, I mean, I 1023 00:54:59.360 --> 00:55:02.800 don't know why not, but I chose not to. You know, 1024 00:55:03.000 --> 00:55:05.599 it's like weird things like that just pop up in 1025 00:55:05.639 --> 00:55:06.760 your life. 1026 00:55:07.480 --> 00:55:10.480 But you're more aware like most people that would just 1027 00:55:10.519 --> 00:55:11.800 like right over. 1028 00:55:11.639 --> 00:55:14.199 There, couldn't mean anything to nobody else, right. 1029 00:55:14.079 --> 00:55:17.239 Yes, you're just looking for the information that's given to you, 1030 00:55:17.239 --> 00:55:19.119 you know, and almost look at you like you're on 1031 00:55:19.159 --> 00:55:22.599 a You're on a quest. And I think that's actually 1032 00:55:22.639 --> 00:55:25.719 what ques what Nick said. He goes, oh, that was 1033 00:55:25.719 --> 00:55:28.840 a quest move. And I was like, yeah, I think so. 1034 00:55:29.159 --> 00:55:31.119 The glowing character that you got to walk over to 1035 00:55:31.239 --> 00:55:33.159 and say like, hey, what's going on, He's like, oh, 1036 00:55:33.199 --> 00:55:35.079 your next mission you got to find the glider, you. 1037 00:55:35.119 --> 00:55:42.039 Know, he's all he's all like just it's so weird 1038 00:55:42.079 --> 00:55:45.920 how that stuff just happens. Oh you know what, earlier 1039 00:55:46.039 --> 00:55:49.280 you had mentioned the Craft the movie, right, and that 1040 00:55:49.440 --> 00:55:52.800 was so weird because I'm actually reading a book I 1041 00:55:52.840 --> 00:55:55.840 bought it over at like Barnes and Noble or Books 1042 00:55:55.880 --> 00:55:59.119 a Million or some shit, right and and and I 1043 00:55:59.559 --> 00:56:01.400 always go to the metaphysical section. 1044 00:56:01.519 --> 00:56:02.920 I don't even look at anything else. 1045 00:56:02.960 --> 00:56:04.639 I'm like, I want to see your selection of tarot 1046 00:56:04.639 --> 00:56:06.320 and oracle cards, and I want to see all your 1047 00:56:06.320 --> 00:56:07.800 magic and witchcraft books that's all. 1048 00:56:07.679 --> 00:56:10.599 I care about. Don't be holding out on me. 1049 00:56:10.719 --> 00:56:12.119 Yeah, yeah, that's all I care. 1050 00:56:12.280 --> 00:56:14.119 And so I go over there and I find this 1051 00:56:14.159 --> 00:56:18.320 awesome book and it's by an author. His name is 1052 00:56:18.320 --> 00:56:21.239 Matt Oran and he wrote this book and it's such 1053 00:56:21.239 --> 00:56:23.320 a cool looking book and I started reading it and everything, 1054 00:56:23.360 --> 00:56:24.880 and I was like, I gotta buy this thing. It's 1055 00:56:24.880 --> 00:56:27.480 called Mastering Magic. And I like the book so much 1056 00:56:27.519 --> 00:56:29.280 that I started to like look him up to try 1057 00:56:29.320 --> 00:56:31.679 and see, like can I follow him and see where 1058 00:56:31.679 --> 00:56:34.079 he's at on his journey and stuff like that. And 1059 00:56:34.119 --> 00:56:38.039 so he actually has a podcast, right and strangely enough, 1060 00:56:38.079 --> 00:56:41.519 his co host is one of the girls from The 1061 00:56:41.599 --> 00:56:46.559 Craft and Rachel True. Yeah, and I was like, what 1062 00:56:46.719 --> 00:56:49.440 are the odds of all of this? Like, man, that 1063 00:56:49.800 --> 00:56:52.599 is such a cool idea. But anyway, if anybody's interested 1064 00:56:52.639 --> 00:56:55.119 in that podcast, it's called The Circle is if you're 1065 00:56:55.159 --> 00:56:58.119 into all the magical kind of very similar to our show, 1066 00:56:58.360 --> 00:57:00.719 you know, like all the thing same things kind of 1067 00:57:00.719 --> 00:57:04.599 we talk about, but from an actual magician and somebody 1068 00:57:04.599 --> 00:57:07.320 who was in the Craft. So you know that's pretty cool, 1069 00:57:07.360 --> 00:57:11.480 pretty serious, dude, Yeah, yeah. 1070 00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:13.159 Have you ever found something that's out of place in 1071 00:57:13.199 --> 00:57:15.920 a bookstore that seems to be just there for you. 1072 00:57:17.639 --> 00:57:21.480 Interesting. I you know, there's a couple of tarot decks 1073 00:57:21.599 --> 00:57:24.480 that they weren't like multiples. It was there was like 1074 00:57:24.519 --> 00:57:27.280 only one and I'm like, this one's for me, then 1075 00:57:27.360 --> 00:57:29.400 I'm going to get that one, you know kind of thing. 1076 00:57:30.199 --> 00:57:32.239 But what what's your experience with that? 1077 00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:35.000 So I've had that happen actually a couple of times. 1078 00:57:35.039 --> 00:57:39.480 I had one was a book that was written by 1079 00:57:40.599 --> 00:57:43.840 and I can't even think of who wrote it, but 1080 00:57:43.880 --> 00:57:47.360 it was a monk and it was the only book 1081 00:57:47.840 --> 00:57:51.119 in the whole store, and it was written really weird, 1082 00:57:51.519 --> 00:57:54.639 like it was like on it was a weirdly shaped 1083 00:57:54.639 --> 00:57:56.960 but it was like it wasn't like a normal size book. 1084 00:57:57.000 --> 00:58:03.760 It was square and like the pages were like, oh, 1085 00:58:03.760 --> 00:58:06.559 I can't describe it. It had the pages were different 1086 00:58:06.599 --> 00:58:09.840 and the words were were like they were somewhere this way, 1087 00:58:09.960 --> 00:58:12.760 somewhere that way. It was some had like it rounds 1088 00:58:12.760 --> 00:58:16.000 and circles, but it was all these different pieces and 1089 00:58:16.599 --> 00:58:21.519 every piece was a different it was a different lesson 1090 00:58:21.599 --> 00:58:25.800 in there. And then I've had I had a shaman 1091 00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:29.199 tarot deck that I found up on a shelf in 1092 00:58:29.239 --> 00:58:32.519 the middle of a world trade books or a trade 1093 00:58:32.760 --> 00:58:36.360 store that was away from everything else. And that's been 1094 00:58:36.400 --> 00:58:38.599 like one of my favorite decks because it really gives 1095 00:58:38.599 --> 00:58:42.119 you a lot of information. It's like an oracle type 1096 00:58:42.159 --> 00:58:47.079 of deck where description. And then I got I went 1097 00:58:47.119 --> 00:58:52.800 to this little store in Saint Augustine that had oh now, 1098 00:58:53.239 --> 00:58:58.840 oh David Bowie. Yeah, the guy that did his artwork 1099 00:58:59.159 --> 00:59:03.519 for his albums, came up with a star tarot deck. 1100 00:59:04.199 --> 00:59:06.760 Wow, so I have like this. 1101 00:59:06.960 --> 00:59:11.480 They're beautiful cards. I only use them for special occasions, 1102 00:59:12.159 --> 00:59:15.199 but yeah, I have this beautiful deck from uh from there. 1103 00:59:15.280 --> 00:59:18.920 So yeah, Like it's sometimes I just find stuff that's 1104 00:59:19.159 --> 00:59:22.199 just there for me. Or like I went to this 1105 00:59:22.360 --> 00:59:26.719 crystal like convention and I really love this huge dragon 1106 00:59:26.760 --> 00:59:30.280 head that they had, but it was ridiculously overpriced. But 1107 00:59:30.360 --> 00:59:33.239 on my birthday, I was at the beach and there 1108 00:59:33.320 --> 00:59:37.159 was a smaller dragon head that was within my myrie 1109 00:59:37.440 --> 00:59:41.199 that was here. Happy birthday. You know, Like there's always 1110 00:59:41.239 --> 00:59:43.480 these weird things that seem to happen. 1111 00:59:43.679 --> 00:59:47.079 Oh that just reminds me. So I just like a 1112 00:59:47.119 --> 00:59:50.239 month ago, I moved out to Arizona. I live in Texas, 1113 00:59:50.239 --> 00:59:54.079 but I'm living temporarily out in Arizona. Right, And and 1114 00:59:54.400 --> 00:59:56.599 so I went out to this swap meet out here 1115 00:59:57.039 --> 01:00:00.840 and uh they had they had one stand that was 1116 01:00:00.880 --> 01:00:03.119 like metaphysical, you know. She had all the crystals and 1117 01:00:03.159 --> 01:00:05.559 the incense and the tarot cards and all these things, 1118 01:00:05.599 --> 01:00:08.039 and and I'm like, I'm immediately drawn to it. I 1119 01:00:08.039 --> 01:00:10.760 don't even care about looking at anything else, you know. 1120 01:00:11.199 --> 01:00:13.519 And so I go over there and you know, just 1121 01:00:13.519 --> 01:00:17.000 your regular things, and then I see there's this this 1122 01:00:17.159 --> 01:00:20.639 odin like from Norse mythology, this odin sitting in his 1123 01:00:20.840 --> 01:00:23.280 uh in his throne right, and he has his two 1124 01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:25.679 puppies next to him, and he's holding like this big 1125 01:00:26.000 --> 01:00:28.480 spear or sword or whatever it is. And I was like, 1126 01:00:28.719 --> 01:00:32.800 I need that, because I was like, I don't care 1127 01:00:32.840 --> 01:00:33.599 how much you cost. 1128 01:00:33.639 --> 01:00:34.159 I want you. 1129 01:00:34.559 --> 01:00:37.320 And I think she wanted sixty. I got her down 1130 01:00:37.360 --> 01:00:42.440 to fifty. But anyway, but so, but the reason behind 1131 01:00:42.440 --> 01:00:45.519 that is is because in my what was that my 1132 01:00:45.519 --> 01:00:48.159 my last past life regression. I've only ever had two 1133 01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:52.719 of them done to me. And my last past life regression, 1134 01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:56.280 I was like this guide or energy or something that 1135 01:00:56.360 --> 01:00:59.760 was kind of like a watcher over another planet and everything, 1136 01:01:00.119 --> 01:01:01.840 and not to bore you with the details or anything. 1137 01:01:01.880 --> 01:01:04.159 But I was like, yo, these people forgot about me. 1138 01:01:04.360 --> 01:01:06.679 I need to have more of an impact. And so 1139 01:01:06.760 --> 01:01:08.360 I go to the manager in the sky and lo 1140 01:01:08.440 --> 01:01:11.000 and behold it's Odin Right, just sitting in a throne 1141 01:01:11.320 --> 01:01:13.079 and he has the whole eye patch. And I knew 1142 01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:15.039 it was Odin Right, the beard and the whole thing. 1143 01:01:15.519 --> 01:01:17.559 And I was like, yo, I need to go make 1144 01:01:17.920 --> 01:01:20.519 like a better impact. And he goes all right, basically 1145 01:01:20.559 --> 01:01:22.119 like your wish is my command kind of thing. And 1146 01:01:22.159 --> 01:01:23.880 he takes his staff and he puts it on my 1147 01:01:23.960 --> 01:01:25.599 left shoulder and my right shoulder, and then as soon 1148 01:01:25.599 --> 01:01:27.760 as he touches my head with it, I'm coming out 1149 01:01:27.760 --> 01:01:29.760 of the womb as a human baby. And it was 1150 01:01:29.840 --> 01:01:30.760 like the craziest thing. 1151 01:01:30.840 --> 01:01:31.159 Wow. 1152 01:01:31.199 --> 01:01:34.000 And so now I'm like, all right, Odin he's one 1153 01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:36.400 of my boys. I got to keep him close. But yeah, 1154 01:01:36.440 --> 01:01:38.320 just the craziest things. You'll just see pop up out 1155 01:01:38.360 --> 01:01:41.159 of nowhere like that, you know, and some middle like 1156 01:01:41.800 --> 01:01:45.039 this is La Kevasu. It's literally an oasis surrounded by 1157 01:01:45.119 --> 01:01:49.000 nothing but desert everywhere, right, and just to go to 1158 01:01:49.039 --> 01:01:51.360 a swap meet on that day, I don't know. It's 1159 01:01:51.760 --> 01:01:53.960 It's weird how synchronousities work like that. 1160 01:01:54.159 --> 01:01:54.360 You know. 1161 01:01:55.679 --> 01:02:03.239 Yes, there's another author. Her name is Shanaz Soney. She 1162 01:02:03.719 --> 01:02:06.480 wrote The Quantum Being, and she was on Next Level 1163 01:02:06.559 --> 01:02:09.280 Soul and I saw her on Next Level Soul and 1164 01:02:09.360 --> 01:02:11.360 I was really interested in her book. So I got 1165 01:02:11.360 --> 01:02:13.920 her book, loved it. And then when my book was done, 1166 01:02:14.559 --> 01:02:16.079 you know, I was like, what the heck, I'll reach 1167 01:02:16.119 --> 01:02:18.800 out to her, see if I can send her a copy. Right, 1168 01:02:18.880 --> 01:02:23.800 so I sent her a copy the same timeframe. Well, 1169 01:02:23.880 --> 01:02:26.920 she she you know, responded, you know, said yes, she 1170 01:02:26.920 --> 01:02:29.079 would love to get a copy. I sent her copy 1171 01:02:30.199 --> 01:02:32.440 the same time I sent her a copy. She ends 1172 01:02:32.519 --> 01:02:37.320 up moving close, like she's like forty five minutes from 1173 01:02:37.360 --> 01:02:41.079 me now, and so now we we now we're hanging out. 1174 01:02:42.079 --> 01:02:45.280 So like it's like it's like weird things like that 1175 01:02:45.280 --> 01:02:50.519 that are happening all the time. So when things, you know, 1176 01:02:50.559 --> 01:02:52.880 when you are when I'm uncertain, like I don't know 1177 01:02:52.920 --> 01:02:54.920 what's going to happen next, or when I'm on that 1178 01:02:55.039 --> 01:02:59.519 precipice of change, I've learned that I can now trust 1179 01:02:59.639 --> 01:03:01.920 that I've things always just going to work out the 1180 01:03:01.920 --> 01:03:04.519 way I need it to, maybe not always the way 1181 01:03:04.559 --> 01:03:07.159 I want it to, but it's definitely always the way 1182 01:03:07.199 --> 01:03:07.760 I need it to. 1183 01:03:08.400 --> 01:03:08.960 Absolutely. 1184 01:03:09.480 --> 01:03:12.079 Like you said, it's in those moments where sometimes things 1185 01:03:12.119 --> 01:03:15.119 seem darker or it's difficult that you're going to learn 1186 01:03:15.159 --> 01:03:17.400 the most. You're you're going to garner so much more 1187 01:03:17.440 --> 01:03:19.480 from those times anyway. So even if it isn't a 1188 01:03:19.519 --> 01:03:21.800 thing that you wanted, it was what you needed. 1189 01:03:21.920 --> 01:03:24.119 So yes, Yeah. 1190 01:03:24.199 --> 01:03:28.239 The other thing I've learned which helped, which might help people, 1191 01:03:28.840 --> 01:03:32.880 is you know, where where you feel fear is where 1192 01:03:32.960 --> 01:03:37.960 your gateway is. Like that's like where you can expand through. 1193 01:03:38.480 --> 01:03:42.400 Anytime I feel fear and I push through it and 1194 01:03:42.519 --> 01:03:45.400 overcome it, then I am able to expand more and 1195 01:03:45.440 --> 01:03:49.000 I'm able to you know, do more. So anytime I 1196 01:03:49.039 --> 01:03:51.960 start feeling fear, I know that's the direction I really 1197 01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:53.960 need to run towards. 1198 01:03:53.679 --> 01:03:56.800 Right Wow, And most people just all lass and turn 1199 01:03:56.880 --> 01:03:59.599 back the other way, you know. And it's crazy how 1200 01:03:59.679 --> 01:04:01.840 those things are really just there to teach you. And 1201 01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:03.679 that's kind of something that we've been talking about a 1202 01:04:03.719 --> 01:04:07.400 little bit lately about how you know, anytime somebody's mean 1203 01:04:07.440 --> 01:04:09.960 to you or gives you a hard time, or it's 1204 01:04:10.039 --> 01:04:12.719 kind of like an obstacle that you that you kind 1205 01:04:12.719 --> 01:04:15.039 of got to go through or whatever. I mean, from 1206 01:04:15.079 --> 01:04:17.119 the tiniest little things of stubbing your toe in the 1207 01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:19.719 morning to somebody whatever. Like the worst thing that you 1208 01:04:19.800 --> 01:04:23.000 can imagine is just like if you look at them 1209 01:04:23.079 --> 01:04:26.880 as if they're your teacher every single time, and doesn't 1210 01:04:26.880 --> 01:04:28.280 even have to be a person, could be a thing, 1211 01:04:28.320 --> 01:04:30.000 could just be a random thing that happened to you, 1212 01:04:30.079 --> 01:04:32.440 whatever it is. It's like, if you look at them 1213 01:04:32.440 --> 01:04:34.599 as if it's your teacher, you can kind of catch 1214 01:04:34.599 --> 01:04:37.719 it and be like, oh, okay, so this is a challenge. 1215 01:04:37.760 --> 01:04:39.679 This is what this is like one of the levels 1216 01:04:39.719 --> 01:04:41.440 in the game that I kind of got to get through, 1217 01:04:41.760 --> 01:04:44.599 and until I beat this level, it's just gonna keep 1218 01:04:44.639 --> 01:04:46.960 on fucking recurring in my life. And that's what most 1219 01:04:47.000 --> 01:04:49.280 people have to go through, unfortunately. 1220 01:04:49.480 --> 01:04:53.960 Exactly because again, the universe wants you to heal, I mean, ultimately, 1221 01:04:54.000 --> 01:04:56.639 it wants you to grow, So it's gonna make you 1222 01:04:56.760 --> 01:05:01.000 keep repeating stuff until you finally learn your lesson. Some 1223 01:05:01.239 --> 01:05:03.400 lessons for me took me a lot longer than I 1224 01:05:03.440 --> 01:05:07.880 would like, but but that period of time taught me 1225 01:05:07.960 --> 01:05:11.039 a lot now that I'm able to look back on it. Like, 1226 01:05:11.199 --> 01:05:14.480 you know, they say hindsights or was it Hindsight's twenty twenty? 1227 01:05:14.920 --> 01:05:18.039 It really is like you really can't see sometimes why 1228 01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.400 things are happening to wag after they happened. But if 1229 01:05:22.440 --> 01:05:24.559 you really look back, like if you look back at 1230 01:05:24.559 --> 01:05:28.719 how far you know, everyone is growing, you know, and 1231 01:05:28.800 --> 01:05:31.280 if you really look back, you're able to see like, 1232 01:05:31.400 --> 01:05:34.559 I am not even close. I can't even identify with 1233 01:05:34.760 --> 01:05:40.199 earlier versions of myself. And that's when you really know 1234 01:05:40.320 --> 01:05:42.400 that you're transforming. 1235 01:05:43.760 --> 01:05:46.280 And those those things real quick, those things that you 1236 01:05:46.320 --> 01:05:48.119 were saying that you might come to you like it's 1237 01:05:48.159 --> 01:05:51.159 the next level, right, and it seems really difficult or 1238 01:05:51.159 --> 01:05:54.760 some hard thing, right, And then once you overcome that thing, 1239 01:05:55.079 --> 01:05:58.480 that's not to say that that obstacle isn't going to 1240 01:05:58.519 --> 01:06:01.360 get in your way again, it's just seem very less 1241 01:06:01.719 --> 01:06:02.519 like an obstacle. 1242 01:06:03.320 --> 01:06:08.639 Yes, so healing is spiral, okay, so you have to 1243 01:06:08.719 --> 01:06:12.440 come back around. So you heal it first in the mind, right, 1244 01:06:12.519 --> 01:06:15.079 you're like, yes, I recognize I can't I shouldn't be 1245 01:06:15.159 --> 01:06:17.800 doing it this way, right, But then the test comes 1246 01:06:17.880 --> 01:06:19.559 up and it's like, all right, can you embody it? 1247 01:06:20.639 --> 01:06:23.559 And then it gets then you can make you know, 1248 01:06:23.639 --> 01:06:25.559 the first time, it might be harder to go through. 1249 01:06:25.639 --> 01:06:28.960 The second time it'll be a little bit less, But 1250 01:06:29.000 --> 01:06:31.480 then eventually it comes back around and it's just like 1251 01:06:31.719 --> 01:06:34.440 it just blows off of you, like it's no big deal. 1252 01:06:35.639 --> 01:06:38.320 I used to get very very angry, you know, when 1253 01:06:38.360 --> 01:06:40.960 I was younger, Like I would lose my keys and 1254 01:06:41.000 --> 01:06:44.679 I'd be losing my mind. Right now, like it takes 1255 01:06:44.719 --> 01:06:49.000 a lot for me to get angry because I know 1256 01:06:49.039 --> 01:06:52.119 that everything's divinely orchestrated. If I lost my keys, it's 1257 01:06:52.159 --> 01:06:55.480 because I needed to be a little bit later, so 1258 01:06:55.559 --> 01:06:58.400 I missed an accident, you know, like there's something, there's 1259 01:06:58.440 --> 01:07:03.519 a reason why I lost it. And once I started 1260 01:07:03.559 --> 01:07:07.719 recognizing that, and then also giving myself permission to be 1261 01:07:07.800 --> 01:07:11.679 a silly human, right like spilling things. You know, I 1262 01:07:11.719 --> 01:07:13.440 can be a little klutzy, and it would used to 1263 01:07:13.440 --> 01:07:17.519 get me very angry and or embarrassed, right, and then 1264 01:07:17.559 --> 01:07:20.280 when I started really well, you can be a silly 1265 01:07:20.360 --> 01:07:23.280 human every once in a while, and giving myself permission 1266 01:07:23.320 --> 01:07:25.079 to be Yeah, it's just me being goofy. 1267 01:07:25.440 --> 01:07:26.800 Just laugh at yourself instead. 1268 01:07:26.880 --> 01:07:28.960 Yeah, you know, there was one time where I had 1269 01:07:29.000 --> 01:07:32.039 like a hole, like I just poured this soda, and 1270 01:07:32.079 --> 01:07:33.639 I wasn't drinking a whole lot of soda, and I 1271 01:07:33.639 --> 01:07:36.159 think I was like really excited about this soda pod. 1272 01:07:36.159 --> 01:07:38.079 I think it might even have been like a mountain 1273 01:07:38.119 --> 01:07:41.639 dew or something just sweet like that, you know, ice 1274 01:07:41.719 --> 01:07:42.440 full to the top. 1275 01:07:42.559 --> 01:07:43.199 It was good to go. 1276 01:07:43.280 --> 01:07:46.440 I had it sitting next to me, and for whatever reason, 1277 01:07:46.920 --> 01:07:49.000 I think I was like holding it with my leg 1278 01:07:49.079 --> 01:07:51.480 like you know, just like up against something, and then 1279 01:07:51.519 --> 01:07:53.519 I just kind of forgot it was there, and then 1280 01:07:53.519 --> 01:07:55.559 I leaned over to do something and it just spilled 1281 01:07:55.599 --> 01:07:58.679 all over my back and all the way down my pants, 1282 01:07:58.679 --> 01:08:02.599 and I was just like, well, what of course, you know, 1283 01:08:02.719 --> 01:08:04.599 it's just like you just gotta laugh at yourself when 1284 01:08:04.599 --> 01:08:06.840 something like that happens, because I was so excited for that, 1285 01:08:06.880 --> 01:08:10.400 for that soda that you. 1286 01:08:10.400 --> 01:08:16.119 Were not meant to do the do on that right exactly. Yeah, man, 1287 01:08:16.239 --> 01:08:19.760 it is uh, it is quite wild. So all right, Well, 1288 01:08:19.800 --> 01:08:22.199 I want to learn a little bit more about some 1289 01:08:22.359 --> 01:08:25.560 more of the aspects of the simulation that you kind 1290 01:08:25.560 --> 01:08:27.520 of get into in your in your book, Like how 1291 01:08:27.560 --> 01:08:30.079 else can you really kind of lay it out and 1292 01:08:30.279 --> 01:08:33.319 portray it to anybody that might be on the fence, Like, oh, 1293 01:08:33.399 --> 01:08:36.479 simulation or a matrix sounds awesome, but how can I 1294 01:08:36.640 --> 01:08:38.880 change my mind to be able to look at it 1295 01:08:38.920 --> 01:08:39.479 in that way? 1296 01:08:40.800 --> 01:08:43.720 So it breaks like I said, it breaks down everything 1297 01:08:45.199 --> 01:08:49.640 like a computer game from that's your pineal gland. So 1298 01:08:50.319 --> 01:08:54.279 a lot of people don't understand that thoughts aren't actually 1299 01:08:55.119 --> 01:08:58.199 coming from your brain, right, like your memory and all 1300 01:08:58.239 --> 01:09:01.399 that really isn't stored in the brain. It's almost like 1301 01:09:01.800 --> 01:09:05.479 it's stored in the cloud, right, and your and I 1302 01:09:05.560 --> 01:09:09.399 describe the pineal gland like your Wi Fi router, And 1303 01:09:09.439 --> 01:09:14.920 it's like pulling in the information some stuff. It's your 1304 01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:17.640 subconscious pulling it in, right. It's it's some of those 1305 01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:22.720 programs aren't necessarily voluntary, but it's it's pulling it in 1306 01:09:22.920 --> 01:09:27.359 for you to either move, you know, heal something or 1307 01:09:27.680 --> 01:09:31.079 recognize that there's something that you need to do, or 1308 01:09:32.920 --> 01:09:35.840 or sometimes just your intuition giving you guidance on what 1309 01:09:35.920 --> 01:09:39.600 your next steps are. So I go into a lot 1310 01:09:39.920 --> 01:09:42.159 like that, you know, trying to break it down into 1311 01:09:42.279 --> 01:09:45.560 all the different pieces of the game. How your senses, 1312 01:09:46.079 --> 01:09:48.359 You know, your senses is really the only thing that's 1313 01:09:48.399 --> 01:09:51.479 really helping you maneuver through the game, right, And none 1314 01:09:51.560 --> 01:09:55.439 of them are actually things that like touch You're not 1315 01:09:55.640 --> 01:10:00.640 touching anything, right, Like, it's electrical impulses that telling your 1316 01:10:00.680 --> 01:10:03.560 brain that you're touching something and that this feels when 1317 01:10:03.600 --> 01:10:06.600 you taste something. You know, it's all electrical. We are 1318 01:10:06.840 --> 01:10:10.399 very much like I call us like organic robots. We 1319 01:10:10.439 --> 01:10:14.159 have an electrical system we have. You know, our heart 1320 01:10:14.359 --> 01:10:18.560 throws out this big humanity or humongous electromagnetic field way 1321 01:10:18.640 --> 01:10:22.279 past our bodies. So if it's putting past our bodies, 1322 01:10:22.279 --> 01:10:24.600 that means when people come into that field, they can 1323 01:10:24.600 --> 01:10:26.760 feel it. That's why when you you can feel other 1324 01:10:26.800 --> 01:10:31.840 people's emotions. Right, So it talks about how that all 1325 01:10:31.880 --> 01:10:36.119 impacts your life. How does your environment, who you're around, 1326 01:10:36.239 --> 01:10:40.000 what you're allowing in your life is dictating your reality. 1327 01:10:41.319 --> 01:10:45.399 It breaks down how you can, like I said, take 1328 01:10:45.439 --> 01:10:48.239 back the controller and change your beliefs, because your beliefs 1329 01:10:48.319 --> 01:10:51.439 create your reality. So if you believe that this is 1330 01:10:51.479 --> 01:10:54.039 the only thing that's this is truth right to you, 1331 01:10:54.840 --> 01:10:59.600 that will be your truth. So everyone is right, no 1332 01:10:59.640 --> 01:11:03.840 one is wrong. So so I don't put in the 1333 01:11:03.840 --> 01:11:06.840 book of how you should you know what your life 1334 01:11:06.840 --> 01:11:09.680 should look like. I don't tell you that you need 1335 01:11:09.720 --> 01:11:11.880 to do the good thing or the bad thing or 1336 01:11:11.920 --> 01:11:15.159 any of that. But I break down like karma. You know, 1337 01:11:15.760 --> 01:11:19.439 like how karma works. So that you know how these 1338 01:11:19.479 --> 01:11:22.760 things work, then you can choose what to do with it. Right. 1339 01:11:22.880 --> 01:11:25.239 So if like one of the biggest things that I 1340 01:11:25.319 --> 01:11:27.960 had to learn that I well not had to, but 1341 01:11:27.960 --> 01:11:30.600 that I learned early on when I decided I wanted 1342 01:11:30.640 --> 01:11:34.079 to take back my own identity and figure out who 1343 01:11:34.119 --> 01:11:38.319 I really was. Was I decided I was I wanted 1344 01:11:38.319 --> 01:11:40.720 to be a person of integrity. That was like my 1345 01:11:40.800 --> 01:11:44.960 first my first jump. And in order to do that, 1346 01:11:45.159 --> 01:11:48.159 I had to not lie anymore. Like I had to 1347 01:11:48.239 --> 01:11:50.800 know that everyone that talked to me knew that I 1348 01:11:50.880 --> 01:11:54.439 was always speaking the truth. So when you don't lie, 1349 01:11:55.359 --> 01:11:58.119 there's pieces to that. It's not like you just don't lie, right. 1350 01:11:58.359 --> 01:12:00.520 You have to number one, make sure you're not doing 1351 01:12:00.560 --> 01:12:04.119 things that you would want to lie about, right, So 1352 01:12:04.199 --> 01:12:07.479 you have to change your behavior. And then when you 1353 01:12:07.520 --> 01:12:11.840 do do something that is, you know, something you some 1354 01:12:11.880 --> 01:12:15.560 people would lie about, you have to hold yourself accountable, right, 1355 01:12:15.600 --> 01:12:18.640 you have to. You have to you know, say I'm 1356 01:12:18.680 --> 01:12:21.399 sorry or or I messed up, and you have to 1357 01:12:21.439 --> 01:12:25.880 hold yourself accountable and do better. So just that simple 1358 01:12:25.960 --> 01:12:30.279 thing has changed so much in your energy field. Because 1359 01:12:30.359 --> 01:12:33.800 every time you do something, you get three times of 1360 01:12:33.840 --> 01:12:36.680 it back. So if you do something negative, you're gonna 1361 01:12:36.680 --> 01:12:39.479 get three times the negative back. If you do something positive, 1362 01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:42.560 you're gonna get three times the positive back. So again, 1363 01:12:42.640 --> 01:12:46.119 it's not telling you how to use it or how 1364 01:12:46.159 --> 01:12:48.880 you should use it, but it's telling you what you're 1365 01:12:48.920 --> 01:12:54.880 doing and how it's affecting you. Media like how social media, 1366 01:12:55.079 --> 01:12:58.399 how you're in you know, your environment, music, all that 1367 01:12:58.520 --> 01:13:03.600 stuff impacts you because your brain doesn't know the difference 1368 01:13:04.079 --> 01:13:08.920 between real and TV. Your brain doesn't know the difference 1369 01:13:08.960 --> 01:13:11.960 between the words that you're speaking or other people speaking 1370 01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:16.159 to you, or music right, Like, there's a lot of 1371 01:13:16.239 --> 01:13:19.520 music out there that is that is not good for 1372 01:13:19.600 --> 01:13:22.880 your brain. I just you know, it's it's you know, 1373 01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:29.039 anything that's talking about violence or about you know, treating 1374 01:13:29.079 --> 01:13:32.960 women poorly, things like that. You know, yeah, it might 1375 01:13:33.000 --> 01:13:36.479 have a good beat to it, but really you're you're 1376 01:13:36.520 --> 01:13:41.720 screwing up your energy around you and how you speak. 1377 01:13:42.359 --> 01:13:44.680 You know, I've heard them say, you know you're you 1378 01:13:44.720 --> 01:13:48.720 know spells like when spelling right, it's you're casting spells 1379 01:13:49.239 --> 01:13:52.119 Because again, your reality always wants you to be right. 1380 01:13:52.680 --> 01:13:56.239 So if you say I'm fat, or I'm ugly, or 1381 01:13:56.359 --> 01:13:59.960 I'm this, or I'm that, you're pronouncing it is true 1382 01:14:00.199 --> 01:14:02.199 and the universe is going to reflect. 1383 01:14:01.840 --> 01:14:06.880 It back to you like say less yes. 1384 01:14:07.600 --> 01:14:10.960 But again it's also again if you it's still thoughts too, right, 1385 01:14:11.079 --> 01:14:13.119 So it's not just how you speak, but also how 1386 01:14:13.159 --> 01:14:17.600 you think about yourself. You know, are you a person 1387 01:14:17.760 --> 01:14:22.520 who thinks themselves as a kind person who you know 1388 01:14:23.199 --> 01:14:26.199 is able to work with people and and make a 1389 01:14:26.239 --> 01:14:29.039 better world, or are you thinking that other people are 1390 01:14:29.039 --> 01:14:32.199 out to get you and that you need to get 1391 01:14:32.279 --> 01:14:35.359 up on them first, and you know, or have to 1392 01:14:35.399 --> 01:14:39.439 prove that you're right, Like that's another thing like proving yourself. 1393 01:14:39.520 --> 01:14:43.840 You don't have to prove yourself to anyone. So it's 1394 01:14:44.319 --> 01:14:48.960 that yeah, waste of energy. Because again, people can only 1395 01:14:49.000 --> 01:14:53.079 see through their own lens. So if their belief systems, 1396 01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:57.920 like I have one of my relatives and I am 1397 01:14:58.119 --> 01:15:03.159 unable to communicate together. We have tried, I've tried multiple times, 1398 01:15:03.640 --> 01:15:09.399 but this person's belief system is so toxic to themselves 1399 01:15:10.319 --> 01:15:15.079 that everything I say they take as a criticism and 1400 01:15:15.119 --> 01:15:19.279 it's always showing in love. But because they believe that 1401 01:15:19.319 --> 01:15:24.039 they are not worthy, they believe that they are lower 1402 01:15:24.520 --> 01:15:31.800 or whatever. They project that outwards. So recognizing when it's 1403 01:15:32.000 --> 01:15:36.840 you versus another person's projection is also helpful. So it 1404 01:15:36.920 --> 01:15:38.760 kind of talks a little bit about that and how 1405 01:15:38.840 --> 01:15:42.279 other people affect you and how to be able to 1406 01:15:42.279 --> 01:15:47.159 say no right, like having those healthy boundaries. But then 1407 01:15:47.159 --> 01:15:50.720 it also goes into like I said, reprogramming your belief systems, 1408 01:15:50.760 --> 01:15:56.520 how do identify them, how to literally reprogram your own mind, 1409 01:15:57.000 --> 01:15:59.800 And it gives you an other tools and sources of 1410 01:16:00.000 --> 01:16:03.319 information of how you know, other methods to do that 1411 01:16:03.439 --> 01:16:08.239 as well, you know, somatic techniques as well as subconscious reprogramming. 1412 01:16:09.680 --> 01:16:12.279 And then it goes into more information about people that 1413 01:16:12.439 --> 01:16:16.079 you know, the boss levels and and the people that 1414 01:16:16.279 --> 01:16:19.800 are able to like push the game to its limits. 1415 01:16:20.239 --> 01:16:22.600 You know they have I don't know if I saw 1416 01:16:22.600 --> 01:16:24.359 this on your show or not. I think it was 1417 01:16:24.439 --> 01:16:28.079 on as well. But you've heard of the things that 1418 01:16:28.119 --> 01:16:31.680 they're teaching with children where they're covering their eyes, yes, 1419 01:16:32.239 --> 01:16:36.399 and and they're like teaching them to see without actually seeing. 1420 01:16:36.920 --> 01:16:40.079 Like that to me is the next level people that 1421 01:16:40.159 --> 01:16:44.319 can go in you know, sub freezing temperatures, and swim. 1422 01:16:44.840 --> 01:16:48.199 That is beating the levels. You know. So I talk 1423 01:16:48.279 --> 01:16:52.560 a little bit about you know, those extreme humans that 1424 01:16:52.680 --> 01:16:56.479 really push the push the game. But you can ultimately 1425 01:16:56.520 --> 01:16:59.800 experience anything you want as long as your beliefs is 1426 01:17:00.079 --> 01:17:00.960 the support it. 1427 01:17:01.680 --> 01:17:04.880 Yeah, dude, just become like metahuman. But you you know, 1428 01:17:04.960 --> 01:17:07.319 and this is so so important. You know. Not a 1429 01:17:07.359 --> 01:17:09.960 lot of people talk too much about the subconscious, and 1430 01:17:10.000 --> 01:17:13.119 I'm like, dude, it's literally the key. Like you have 1431 01:17:13.199 --> 01:17:16.680 to work on your subconscious. You have to understand and 1432 01:17:16.800 --> 01:17:19.800 and like become aware of what is going on in 1433 01:17:19.840 --> 01:17:23.039 your mind, those self limiting beliefs and self doubting beliefs 1434 01:17:23.079 --> 01:17:26.920 and these structures that you build you and you encompass 1435 01:17:27.119 --> 01:17:31.199 your own mind into something just with your limiting beliefs 1436 01:17:31.479 --> 01:17:35.159 and in getting out of your own way. That is, dude, 1437 01:17:35.640 --> 01:17:38.640 that is one of the biggest things that anybody can overcome. 1438 01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:40.399 Because you think about it. 1439 01:17:40.479 --> 01:17:43.520 If somebody cuts you off in traffic, or flips you off, 1440 01:17:43.720 --> 01:17:46.880 or says if you or whatever right, somebody just ruffles 1441 01:17:46.920 --> 01:17:50.279 your feathers the wrong way, that's probably one thing that 1442 01:17:50.279 --> 01:17:53.680 that person did to you that entire day. Meanwhile, compare 1443 01:17:53.720 --> 01:17:56.239 it to your own mind and how much shit your mind, 1444 01:17:56.279 --> 01:17:59.520 your mind talks on you, you know, like, oh, you're fat, 1445 01:17:59.600 --> 01:18:02.279 you're you're not good looking, you're not good enough at this, 1446 01:18:02.439 --> 01:18:05.159 you're too slow, you're too and it's always these like 1447 01:18:05.920 --> 01:18:08.359 man like some of the most degrading things that you 1448 01:18:08.359 --> 01:18:11.319 can imagine are constantly going on in your mind. And 1449 01:18:11.680 --> 01:18:13.439 first of all, whenever you find out that your thoughts 1450 01:18:13.439 --> 01:18:17.640 are not you and then stop believing those things that 1451 01:18:17.680 --> 01:18:21.439 aren't you anyway, and it's like, you know, we're our 1452 01:18:21.479 --> 01:18:24.279 own worst enemy whenever we don't know it. And it's 1453 01:18:24.319 --> 01:18:27.119 whenever you start to become aware that, like, yo, those 1454 01:18:27.119 --> 01:18:28.880 are just things that are going on in my mind, 1455 01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:30.840 and I can choose to accept them or I can 1456 01:18:30.920 --> 01:18:32.479 choose to not accept them. 1457 01:18:32.720 --> 01:18:33.520 You want to talk. 1458 01:18:33.319 --> 01:18:39.520 About like literally reality becoming some kind of like hogwarts 1459 01:18:39.640 --> 01:18:42.960 at that point, it's crazy, you know, like everything starts 1460 01:18:43.000 --> 01:18:45.439 to change once you get out of your way, and 1461 01:18:45.520 --> 01:18:47.800 it's easier said than done, of course, I mean everybody 1462 01:18:47.880 --> 01:18:50.079 has their own way, whether it is you know, like 1463 01:18:50.119 --> 01:18:55.119 a psychedelic experience or just going deep in meditation or 1464 01:18:55.159 --> 01:18:58.079 whatever the case. Maybe everybody has their own way. But 1465 01:18:58.239 --> 01:19:01.520 like just understanding, like and we've talked a lot about 1466 01:19:01.520 --> 01:19:04.640 like fear even right, like the the idea of fear 1467 01:19:04.760 --> 01:19:07.159 is something that you know, that is something that we 1468 01:19:07.279 --> 01:19:11.760 are manifesting, you know. And and like we've said before 1469 01:19:11.760 --> 01:19:16.000 about like how demons are essentially like just manifestations of 1470 01:19:16.039 --> 01:19:18.359 your own fear, you know, whether you don't, you have 1471 01:19:18.359 --> 01:19:20.479 to be demons, could be monsters, could be scary stuff 1472 01:19:20.520 --> 01:19:23.359 whatever that may be, right, and it has to be, 1473 01:19:23.600 --> 01:19:27.800 you know, it has to manifest in such a way unfortunately, 1474 01:19:28.439 --> 01:19:30.600 to make it a little bit more real, because I 1475 01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:33.079 guess we just you know, we need that we need 1476 01:19:33.119 --> 01:19:35.680 to see something as physical or real in some kind 1477 01:19:35.720 --> 01:19:37.199 of sense in order to take it serious. 1478 01:19:37.479 --> 01:19:40.199 Otherwise it's just going to and. 1479 01:19:40.199 --> 01:19:43.840 Some people, yeah, some people need the different experience everyone, 1480 01:19:44.319 --> 01:19:48.720 like I said, everyone's journey is very different. Somebody had 1481 01:19:48.760 --> 01:19:51.720 asked me the other day about, you know, channeling information, 1482 01:19:52.600 --> 01:19:56.640 and I think I think the information that you can 1483 01:19:56.760 --> 01:20:00.800 channel is only based on what you need in them, 1484 01:20:00.960 --> 01:20:05.600 like at that time, like like anything that's ego based 1485 01:20:05.920 --> 01:20:08.319 is never going to work. So if you're trying to 1486 01:20:09.000 --> 01:20:11.680 learn to do stuff so that you're powerful and I'm 1487 01:20:11.720 --> 01:20:13.760 going to be able to protect myself more like that 1488 01:20:13.960 --> 01:20:18.720 ego centric type of mentality that's not going to work, 1489 01:20:18.840 --> 01:20:24.119 Like you really need to be using it to grow, right. 1490 01:20:24.199 --> 01:20:27.640 It's not so that you can prove that I'm better, right, 1491 01:20:27.720 --> 01:20:31.640 It's it's I'm looking for this information to help me grow, 1492 01:20:32.039 --> 01:20:34.479 show me what I can help, you know, what can 1493 01:20:34.520 --> 01:20:37.680 bring into me, and then once you maybe get to 1494 01:20:37.720 --> 01:20:41.800 a certain level of what I would say humility, like 1495 01:20:42.159 --> 01:20:46.119 you can help and bring more channeling in for other people. 1496 01:20:47.079 --> 01:20:49.800 But I really think a lot of the information you 1497 01:20:49.840 --> 01:20:54.399 can only access when you're at a specific like again, 1498 01:20:54.479 --> 01:20:59.399 look at the game. I look at the game like like, 1499 01:20:59.520 --> 01:21:02.000 think of it, like every version of you is in 1500 01:21:02.039 --> 01:21:08.039 a box, right, and it scales from the darkest version 1501 01:21:08.079 --> 01:21:11.880 of you to the lightest. And that's probably not the 1502 01:21:11.880 --> 01:21:14.399 best scale because there's also in between all the different 1503 01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:16.920 professions you could have had and all these different things. 1504 01:21:17.000 --> 01:21:21.199 Right when you're moving through it, you can only move 1505 01:21:21.520 --> 01:21:24.760 so much. You can't go from one all the way. 1506 01:21:24.880 --> 01:21:27.439 I mean you really, I mean you could if you 1507 01:21:27.479 --> 01:21:30.800 did something hugely dramatic, like if you were a saint 1508 01:21:30.840 --> 01:21:33.760 and then decided to murder someone, Right, that's one way 1509 01:21:33.840 --> 01:21:37.800 to jump jump huge timelines to a different version of you. 1510 01:21:38.279 --> 01:21:41.359 But most of the time you're only moving within a 1511 01:21:41.479 --> 01:21:46.239 few parameters of each other, and you're doing it every like, 1512 01:21:46.680 --> 01:21:50.800 every bill a second, like you're shifting different versions of 1513 01:21:50.840 --> 01:21:55.119 you every like frames of a screen. So it depends 1514 01:21:55.119 --> 01:21:57.520 on where you're at in that moment. So if you 1515 01:21:57.640 --> 01:22:00.920 know that you can only move within the little parameters, 1516 01:22:01.399 --> 01:22:03.760 then you know that you don't need to take these 1517 01:22:03.840 --> 01:22:09.239 big leaps, but just take slow steps towards each You 1518 01:22:09.279 --> 01:22:13.319 know each thing, and eventually you get there. But it's 1519 01:22:13.520 --> 01:22:16.479 easier to do it the small way because again, you 1520 01:22:16.520 --> 01:22:18.560 have to bring your body along, right. It's not just 1521 01:22:18.640 --> 01:22:20.720 a mind game, right, So you got to bring your 1522 01:22:20.720 --> 01:22:25.039 body along, and your nervous system needs that smaller step 1523 01:22:25.079 --> 01:22:27.520 because if you take those big jumps, like if I 1524 01:22:27.600 --> 01:22:30.159 went from losing my husband to be on a podcast 1525 01:22:30.199 --> 01:22:33.079 with you with a book in like two days, my 1526 01:22:33.159 --> 01:22:36.840 whole nervous system would shut down, right, So you have 1527 01:22:36.920 --> 01:22:40.359 to know and understand you're bringing this body with you. 1528 01:22:40.640 --> 01:22:42.760 I always call it like the child, right, You got 1529 01:22:42.760 --> 01:22:44.520 to you have to bring the body with you. So 1530 01:22:44.560 --> 01:22:46.359 you've got to make sure it feels safe. You got 1531 01:22:46.399 --> 01:22:49.359 to make sure it's good so that you can anchor 1532 01:22:49.439 --> 01:22:51.880 those things in and really fully embody them. 1533 01:22:51.960 --> 01:22:54.319 Dude, this is like, this is something I've been thinking 1534 01:22:54.319 --> 01:22:55.960 about too, and I think we've talked about it. But 1535 01:22:56.079 --> 01:23:01.079 like the idea of Jesus calling God fought and like 1536 01:23:01.359 --> 01:23:03.640 just think about that for a second, Like what if 1537 01:23:03.920 --> 01:23:07.319 you know your higher self or you know your uh 1538 01:23:08.000 --> 01:23:10.960 piece of the source or whatever that is, is your 1539 01:23:11.000 --> 01:23:14.000 higher self, and then like your meat suit is like 1540 01:23:14.159 --> 01:23:16.359 your son, you know what I'm saying, if you start 1541 01:23:16.359 --> 01:23:18.600 to look at it from that way, and so you know, 1542 01:23:18.760 --> 01:23:21.239 like Jesus the Father whiy of you forsaken me and 1543 01:23:21.279 --> 01:23:23.359 that whole you know, kind of system of a down 1544 01:23:23.359 --> 01:23:24.239 song and whatever. 1545 01:23:24.319 --> 01:23:30.159 But uh, but no, it's interesting. Yeah, yeah it's. 1546 01:23:30.119 --> 01:23:33.560 And then it's true because and that's what people forget too, 1547 01:23:33.880 --> 01:23:36.600 Like you know, your higher self's guiding you, but you're 1548 01:23:36.600 --> 01:23:40.319 guiding your body like you're the god of your body. 1549 01:23:40.760 --> 01:23:43.279 How you take care of it, you know, how you 1550 01:23:43.319 --> 01:23:47.960 love on it, what you feed it, whether it's food, entertainment, whatever, 1551 01:23:48.840 --> 01:23:52.800 that's all how your body's learning to trust you, and 1552 01:23:52.840 --> 01:23:55.520 how your body is learning to like I said, it's 1553 01:23:55.600 --> 01:23:55.960 like a. 1554 01:23:55.960 --> 01:24:01.119 Child at your temple. Yeah, you know, you think about it, 1555 01:24:01.279 --> 01:24:03.880 and you were talking a little bit about alchemizing earlier, 1556 01:24:03.920 --> 01:24:06.520 and that's what we talk a lot about, like transmutation, 1557 01:24:07.079 --> 01:24:10.399 and oh man, that that can really cause. You don't 1558 01:24:10.439 --> 01:24:13.079 even know that you can transmute a bad thing into 1559 01:24:13.119 --> 01:24:15.720 a good thing. But you know, once you start to 1560 01:24:15.800 --> 01:24:20.000 understand you know, the whole, like hermetic principles and stuff 1561 01:24:20.039 --> 01:24:23.239 like that, you understand that, like all emotions and energy 1562 01:24:23.359 --> 01:24:26.359 is on a pole, that everything is polar right, and 1563 01:24:26.439 --> 01:24:28.560 so if you look at the pole and you know, 1564 01:24:28.600 --> 01:24:32.359 obviously the worst end would be let's just say anger, 1565 01:24:32.479 --> 01:24:34.720 and the best end would be like totally blits the 1566 01:24:34.760 --> 01:24:37.960 fuck out, like it's on the same pole. You can 1567 01:24:37.960 --> 01:24:40.640 transmute that. Of course, it's easier said than done. But 1568 01:24:40.720 --> 01:24:43.880 if you're super pissed off, you should almost get excited 1569 01:24:44.119 --> 01:24:47.640 because that energy is created now, and it's on a pole, 1570 01:24:47.680 --> 01:24:49.800 and you can just move it like like that little 1571 01:24:49.880 --> 01:24:51.880 that toy, you know, whenever you're a little kid, just 1572 01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:54.600 sliding the beads across the pole. That way, I'm gonna 1573 01:24:54.600 --> 01:24:56.880 take this bead from anger and bring it all the 1574 01:24:56.880 --> 01:24:59.880 way over to happiness, because that energy is the same thing. 1575 01:25:00.039 --> 01:25:02.399 It's just you know, looked at in a different way. 1576 01:25:02.880 --> 01:25:07.520 Yep, it's the same amount of energy. Yeah, energy is energy. 1577 01:25:08.399 --> 01:25:10.640 That's all that positive if you look at it that way, 1578 01:25:10.680 --> 01:25:12.439 it's just a matter of where on the pole it is. 1579 01:25:12.720 --> 01:25:17.039 Well and and emotion is just energy and motion, right, 1580 01:25:17.199 --> 01:25:21.399 So it's it's it has it's part of the experience. 1581 01:25:21.640 --> 01:25:25.159 So if everything is literally flowing through you, you're not 1582 01:25:25.720 --> 01:25:28.640 You're not moving through reality the way most people think 1583 01:25:28.640 --> 01:25:32.199 you're moving through reality. Really it's more like reality is 1584 01:25:32.239 --> 01:25:36.319 moving through you. So if you're if the emotion, so 1585 01:25:37.199 --> 01:25:41.920 certain experiences have to have certain emotions, Like you can't 1586 01:25:41.960 --> 01:25:44.760 like go through grief and not go through sadness, Like 1587 01:25:44.800 --> 01:25:48.800 that's not going to happen, right, So it's it's how 1588 01:25:49.319 --> 01:25:52.920 easily it can pass through you. If you if you 1589 01:25:53.039 --> 01:25:55.720 sit and stick on it, it's going to stick to 1590 01:25:55.760 --> 01:25:57.439 you and it's just going to stay there and it 1591 01:25:57.560 --> 01:26:00.920 literally will weigh your body down. Have enough of these 1592 01:26:01.119 --> 01:26:06.039 like emotions, So feeling it is allowing it to pass 1593 01:26:06.119 --> 01:26:09.800 through you. So just if you recognize, like I said, 1594 01:26:09.800 --> 01:26:14.279 it's energy, you need to feel it. Stop, you know, 1595 01:26:14.800 --> 01:26:19.479 stopping yourself and pushing it down because it's just I 1596 01:26:19.520 --> 01:26:21.880 swear that's what gives us a lot of the diseases 1597 01:26:21.920 --> 01:26:26.039 and issues that we can have. It's just pushing it 1598 01:26:26.079 --> 01:26:30.319 down until you know you're fully weighted by every freaking trauma. 1599 01:26:30.399 --> 01:26:32.560 And I and I'll be honest, like, I've had a 1600 01:26:32.800 --> 01:26:37.479 lot of trauma, you know, like my husband's grief. Even 1601 01:26:37.520 --> 01:26:40.399 though it was probably the hardest thing to work through, 1602 01:26:41.079 --> 01:26:45.840 it was the easiest out of all the traumas I've 1603 01:26:45.840 --> 01:26:49.560 had to deal with. So if I can alchemize, you know, 1604 01:26:50.399 --> 01:26:52.880 and be able to forgive people that have, you know, 1605 01:26:53.119 --> 01:26:57.479 created immense harm to me, anybody can freaking do it. 1606 01:26:57.560 --> 01:26:59.680 And why would you want to hold on to that? 1607 01:27:00.159 --> 01:27:03.600 Because if you do, you're only You're the only one suffering. 1608 01:27:04.199 --> 01:27:07.960 You're not. They say, what is it like? Anger is 1609 01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:12.840 like you drinking poison and hoping it kills the other person. Yeah, 1610 01:27:12.920 --> 01:27:16.359 so you know, letting it go is for you, not 1611 01:27:16.479 --> 01:27:20.079 for them. They don't care one way or another regardless 1612 01:27:20.079 --> 01:27:23.079 of how you feel. So why have it destroy you? 1613 01:27:24.560 --> 01:27:28.680 Be better in spite of them, show them that they 1614 01:27:28.680 --> 01:27:31.079 are not going to hold you back, and that you're 1615 01:27:31.119 --> 01:27:33.560 going to live a much better life than they could 1616 01:27:33.640 --> 01:27:38.000 ever imagine for themselves. Because people in those states are 1617 01:27:38.039 --> 01:27:40.880 going to get stuck in their cycles like people that 1618 01:27:40.920 --> 01:27:45.560 are hurting other people. Unless they do major changes in themselves, 1619 01:27:45.960 --> 01:27:49.319 they're going to be miserable, like their karma is going 1620 01:27:49.399 --> 01:27:52.760 to be coming and cycling around. So you have the 1621 01:27:52.800 --> 01:27:55.600 opportunity to take that energy that they put on you 1622 01:27:55.720 --> 01:27:57.720 and change it into something good. 1623 01:27:58.119 --> 01:28:00.560 I mean, if you think about it, just putting it 1624 01:28:00.600 --> 01:28:04.479 in terms of like a computer for example, like every 1625 01:28:04.640 --> 01:28:08.600 single well, I don't know what's I'm not super super 1626 01:28:08.640 --> 01:28:10.560 good with computers, but if you think about like a 1627 01:28:10.560 --> 01:28:14.439 hard drive for example, or a processor even better, like 1628 01:28:14.720 --> 01:28:17.279 a processor to a computer. You know, you can have 1629 01:28:17.399 --> 01:28:23.199 the nineteen eighty eight you know, Mac desktop, and then nowadays, 1630 01:28:23.239 --> 01:28:25.399 you know, you got the twenty twenty five version of 1631 01:28:25.439 --> 01:28:28.000 the Mac desktop, and you can do a lot more 1632 01:28:28.039 --> 01:28:30.319 things on the newer one than you could the older one, 1633 01:28:30.479 --> 01:28:33.680 just be just based on you know, the the amount 1634 01:28:33.720 --> 01:28:37.159 of data that it it's abled, it compute, you know 1635 01:28:37.399 --> 01:28:40.359 that whole thing, And so you can do something really 1636 01:28:40.399 --> 01:28:43.319 really bad on your iMac, right, like you can I 1637 01:28:43.359 --> 01:28:46.319 don't know, like I'm not even gonna think of whatever 1638 01:28:46.319 --> 01:28:48.800 the worst thing that you can do, but just imagine 1639 01:28:48.840 --> 01:28:51.159 whatever the worst thing would be, right, and then you 1640 01:28:51.199 --> 01:28:54.039 can also do something really amazing. You know, you can 1641 01:28:54.079 --> 01:28:56.560 do amazing things with a computer. It's just an engine. 1642 01:28:56.600 --> 01:28:59.039 But all all of it is, it's just like you're 1643 01:28:59.079 --> 01:29:01.720 working with energy. Really if you think about it, like 1644 01:29:01.960 --> 01:29:05.840 and so the same scale that you know, the amount 1645 01:29:05.880 --> 01:29:07.279 of bad things that you can do on a computer, 1646 01:29:07.279 --> 01:29:08.680 where it's the amount of good things you can do 1647 01:29:08.720 --> 01:29:10.720 on a computer. You can start a charity on a computer, 1648 01:29:10.880 --> 01:29:13.680 you know what I mean, Like you can become an 1649 01:29:13.800 --> 01:29:16.840 ordained minister on a computer. Like you can do almost anything, 1650 01:29:16.920 --> 01:29:19.199 especially nowadays, on a computer. But you can also do 1651 01:29:19.279 --> 01:29:21.920 a lot of horrible shit on the computer. Right, And 1652 01:29:22.640 --> 01:29:26.119 if all of it is just like computing power and energy, 1653 01:29:26.479 --> 01:29:28.319 then just see if for that scale that it kind 1654 01:29:28.359 --> 01:29:31.000 of is, and kind of like relate it to your life, 1655 01:29:31.079 --> 01:29:34.119 because you're right, this reality is so much more like 1656 01:29:34.119 --> 01:29:36.319 a matrix or a simulation than most people even give 1657 01:29:36.359 --> 01:29:39.319 it credit to. You know, whenever The Matrix came out, 1658 01:29:39.439 --> 01:29:41.640 like back in the nineties, whatever was it, like ninety 1659 01:29:41.680 --> 01:29:44.760 five or ninety sixty nine, I think was it ninety nine? Okay, 1660 01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:47.239 But whenever that movie came out, you know, it got 1661 01:29:47.239 --> 01:29:49.239 a lot of people thinking, And to be honest, I 1662 01:29:49.239 --> 01:29:52.479 didn't even watch that movie until I was like twenty eight, 1663 01:29:52.600 --> 01:29:53.800 twenty nine or something. 1664 01:29:53.840 --> 01:29:54.239 Crazy. 1665 01:29:54.479 --> 01:29:56.680 I saw it in a theater, dude, I know I'm 1666 01:29:56.720 --> 01:29:58.720 jealous of that, and just was blown away. 1667 01:29:58.720 --> 01:30:01.079 I don't even think I understood the complexity of what 1668 01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:03.760 the story I was really trying at that age. I 1669 01:30:03.760 --> 01:30:07.079 think I was eleven ten or eleven something like that. 1670 01:30:07.199 --> 01:30:09.319 But yeah, dude, that's a yeah. 1671 01:30:09.399 --> 01:30:11.840 Like I didn't understand that there was deeper meaning and 1672 01:30:11.880 --> 01:30:16.439 symbolism until actually till I rewatched it right like, I 1673 01:30:16.520 --> 01:30:22.079 rewatched them all like right around like when my husband 1674 01:30:22.159 --> 01:30:24.159 was ill. We sat there and watched all of them, 1675 01:30:24.159 --> 01:30:25.800 and then I started seeing all. 1676 01:30:25.680 --> 01:30:27.319 Of the pieces to it. 1677 01:30:27.399 --> 01:30:31.119 I'm like, oh my god. And then then after my awakening, 1678 01:30:31.199 --> 01:30:33.039 I was like, I gotta watch it again and see 1679 01:30:33.079 --> 01:30:33.600 if I can. 1680 01:30:33.479 --> 01:30:34.920 Get more out of it. 1681 01:30:34.840 --> 01:30:37.960 It is like it's crazy, like every time you watch it, 1682 01:30:38.079 --> 01:30:39.600 you find more pieces to it. 1683 01:30:39.840 --> 01:30:42.399 Yeah, And it feels like every time you awake or 1684 01:30:42.560 --> 01:30:45.359 you know, you know that you're you know, gradually evolving 1685 01:30:45.520 --> 01:30:47.319 a little bit. You know, as the days and weeks 1686 01:30:47.319 --> 01:30:49.880 and all that stuff goes by, you almost feel like 1687 01:30:49.880 --> 01:30:52.159 you're looking at everything through a new set of eyes. 1688 01:30:52.640 --> 01:30:55.760 Like literally not even figuratively, like I feel like there's 1689 01:30:55.800 --> 01:30:58.560 a lot of things I'm learning again for the first time, 1690 01:30:59.199 --> 01:31:02.039 you know, which is so oh crazy, Like I still 1691 01:31:02.079 --> 01:31:04.359 have my old brain, but I almost don't. 1692 01:31:04.199 --> 01:31:06.640 Even have access to my old thoughts anymore. 1693 01:31:07.159 --> 01:31:10.640 Right, so weird. Yeah that's an interesting thought. 1694 01:31:10.920 --> 01:31:13.319 Yeah, yeah, I mean, you know, of course, whenever I 1695 01:31:13.359 --> 01:31:15.600 was a little kid, and of course like crazy things 1696 01:31:15.600 --> 01:31:18.760 that happened, But you don't necessarily like I don't anyway, 1697 01:31:18.840 --> 01:31:22.479 I don't even remember how I used to think, you know, 1698 01:31:22.640 --> 01:31:26.760 Like it's super strange, just like my processor was, Like 1699 01:31:26.760 --> 01:31:31.119 I've swapped processors or something, and I always feel like, an, you're. 1700 01:31:30.960 --> 01:31:34.640 A completely different version and that person, that version of 1701 01:31:34.680 --> 01:31:38.640 you doesn't operate that way. So you've shifted your game 1702 01:31:38.720 --> 01:31:41.359 into a different like like I said, like if you 1703 01:31:41.399 --> 01:31:43.520 had all your versions of you in a box, you've 1704 01:31:43.520 --> 01:31:47.439 shifted so far away from that original version of you 1705 01:31:47.960 --> 01:31:52.520 that they're totally different people. And when I when I've 1706 01:31:52.560 --> 01:31:55.119 seen that, I've actually, like I said, I feel like 1707 01:31:56.520 --> 01:31:59.520 I feel like even the same people are in your life, 1708 01:32:00.119 --> 01:32:01.399 but even they're different. 1709 01:32:02.279 --> 01:32:05.079 Yeah, you look at them differently for sure. 1710 01:32:05.880 --> 01:32:08.840 Oh yes, yes, definitely, Like I used. 1711 01:32:08.720 --> 01:32:10.399 To look up to a lot of people, and now 1712 01:32:10.439 --> 01:32:12.760 that I'm like kind of thinking how I do, I'm like, 1713 01:32:13.079 --> 01:32:14.359 I don't know if I should be looking up to 1714 01:32:14.399 --> 01:32:19.319 them as much anymore, you know, no, But. 1715 01:32:19.319 --> 01:32:22.439 Then you'll also recognize I don't know if you noticed this, 1716 01:32:23.039 --> 01:32:28.039 but when you're at a certain energy level, people like 1717 01:32:28.159 --> 01:32:31.800 certain people with certain energy like they don't like they 1718 01:32:31.840 --> 01:32:34.640 can't even they don't even come into your space. 1719 01:32:36.680 --> 01:32:38.319 I find it hard to connect with a lot of 1720 01:32:38.319 --> 01:32:40.840 people nowadays, to be honest with you, because there's just 1721 01:32:40.920 --> 01:32:44.319 a lot of mundane shit that people just entertain themselves with. 1722 01:32:44.359 --> 01:32:47.359 And I'm like, you know, I would much rather be 1723 01:32:47.479 --> 01:32:51.319 talking about like what created this? You know what I'm saying, 1724 01:32:51.479 --> 01:32:54.720 Like why why do I exist? Like let's get into that. 1725 01:32:55.159 --> 01:32:57.680 Like I don't care, Like the weather's. 1726 01:32:57.319 --> 01:32:58.760 Going to be the weather we start. 1727 01:32:59.359 --> 01:33:01.560 Yeah, Like I keep on seeing these posts on Facebook 1728 01:33:01.600 --> 01:33:03.800 by these people who are like they're like, why are 1729 01:33:03.800 --> 01:33:06.359 people complaining about the gas prices? Like You're gonna pay 1730 01:33:06.359 --> 01:33:09.239 for it either way, you know what I mean? Like 1731 01:33:09.319 --> 01:33:12.760 you got to get for me to be eventually, but yeah, 1732 01:33:12.800 --> 01:33:13.119 it is. 1733 01:33:13.159 --> 01:33:14.199 It is very interesting. 1734 01:33:14.239 --> 01:33:16.000 But uh, and I do talk about that in the 1735 01:33:16.000 --> 01:33:22.640 book of Why We're Here. So basically, So basically, if 1736 01:33:22.680 --> 01:33:28.119 you think about think about God, universe singular you know, 1737 01:33:28.199 --> 01:33:34.119 the singular point. If you are all knowing you, like 1738 01:33:34.199 --> 01:33:38.880 even you can't see all of you, right, so you 1739 01:33:39.279 --> 01:33:42.920 need others to reflect back to you, you so that 1740 01:33:43.079 --> 01:33:47.359 you can better understand you. So so God, you know, 1741 01:33:47.439 --> 01:33:49.479 think about it, think about even if you were God 1742 01:33:49.560 --> 01:33:51.199 was a human, And I guess that's the best way 1743 01:33:51.239 --> 01:33:53.479 to describe it, because you know, you can't think, you 1744 01:33:53.520 --> 01:33:57.079 know outside of what your capacity is. But if you 1745 01:33:57.119 --> 01:34:02.159 were all alone all the time knows everything you're like, 1746 01:34:02.239 --> 01:34:03.279 wouldn't that be boring? 1747 01:34:04.319 --> 01:34:04.399 Like? 1748 01:34:04.960 --> 01:34:11.680 Right? So, so the universe wanted to see how they 1749 01:34:11.720 --> 01:34:15.479 would be in different roles, and then they build the 1750 01:34:15.920 --> 01:34:18.800 you know, the opposite. So like, so God built the 1751 01:34:18.920 --> 01:34:23.640 opposite of him. So the shadow or lucifer or whatever 1752 01:34:23.760 --> 01:34:28.560 freaking thing you want to follow to see his mirror 1753 01:34:28.960 --> 01:34:32.159 to reflect back the opposite so he can identify who 1754 01:34:32.199 --> 01:34:36.239 he is, because we only understanding ourselves through contrast. Right, 1755 01:34:36.880 --> 01:34:39.359 you have two things, what are you? Right? Are you 1756 01:34:39.399 --> 01:34:41.720 good or bad? Right? Well, that's a little bit can 1757 01:34:41.760 --> 01:34:44.520 be a little gray too, but ultimately you know you 1758 01:34:44.640 --> 01:34:49.039 have that polarity, and then you then you're like, okay, 1759 01:34:49.079 --> 01:34:52.079 well this is even with me. Like when my husband passed, 1760 01:34:52.119 --> 01:34:54.199 before I had the experience, I thought it was going 1761 01:34:54.239 --> 01:34:57.119 to be something completely different than what it was till 1762 01:34:57.159 --> 01:35:02.359 I actually was in the experience. Right. So so if you 1763 01:35:02.479 --> 01:35:06.000 take away your memory of who you are, right, I 1764 01:35:06.039 --> 01:35:08.079 don't know I signed up for this, I don't know 1765 01:35:08.159 --> 01:35:11.039 I did this plan? Right, And and stick yourself in 1766 01:35:11.119 --> 01:35:13.439 a game, how are you going to still behave the 1767 01:35:13.439 --> 01:35:14.399 way you thought you were? 1768 01:35:15.199 --> 01:35:17.359 It's gonna be totally you know, how would it. 1769 01:35:17.319 --> 01:35:19.760 Be if I if I added these beliefs. It's almost 1770 01:35:19.800 --> 01:35:21.640 like a like I do want to say, like a 1771 01:35:21.680 --> 01:35:24.800 science experiment, but kind of like that, right, Like I 1772 01:35:24.840 --> 01:35:27.439 want to see what if I put these things together? 1773 01:35:27.720 --> 01:35:30.319 What if I did this? How would I grow here? 1774 01:35:30.800 --> 01:35:31.880 How would this happen? 1775 01:35:32.000 --> 01:35:32.199 Right? 1776 01:35:32.279 --> 01:35:35.920 So it's we're all here to help the collective, you know, 1777 01:35:36.039 --> 01:35:40.079 evolve and grow, but we're all individually trying to understand 1778 01:35:40.119 --> 01:35:47.760 our own, our own, our own fractal of source because 1779 01:35:48.520 --> 01:35:51.039 we can't all be source, right, we have to be 1780 01:35:51.239 --> 01:35:54.600 a little offset of what source is so that we 1781 01:35:54.640 --> 01:35:57.520 can see it through different types of lenses and perspectives. 1782 01:35:57.800 --> 01:36:00.600 Oh dude, I heard somebody say it was one of 1783 01:36:00.640 --> 01:36:05.239 the great philosophers of another time. But basically like uh uh, 1784 01:36:05.800 --> 01:36:08.720 you know, you can never look yourself in the eyes. 1785 01:36:08.800 --> 01:36:11.279 I mean there's mirrors in everything, but genuinely to be 1786 01:36:11.319 --> 01:36:13.960 able to look yourself in the eyes, nobody's ever You're 1787 01:36:14.000 --> 01:36:15.600 never going to be able to do that. You're never 1788 01:36:15.640 --> 01:36:17.239 going to be able to kiss your own lips, You're 1789 01:36:17.279 --> 01:36:19.239 never going to be able to like bite your own 1790 01:36:19.319 --> 01:36:21.640 teeth and all these other things. And so you would 1791 01:36:21.800 --> 01:36:24.159 if you're really trying to get a good look at yourself, 1792 01:36:24.199 --> 01:36:27.399 then you know, maybe God would or the universe or 1793 01:36:27.439 --> 01:36:31.079 the Source or whatever would just like kind of shatter 1794 01:36:31.279 --> 01:36:34.479 everywhere big bang or whatever that case, whatever it may be, 1795 01:36:34.840 --> 01:36:36.720 in order to be to really see itself. And I 1796 01:36:36.720 --> 01:36:41.000 almost wonder, like put into this like dualistic kind of reality, 1797 01:36:41.479 --> 01:36:46.039 is this like the sources way of like you know, 1798 01:36:46.119 --> 01:36:51.039 each one of us is the sources uh, individual piece 1799 01:36:51.079 --> 01:36:54.199 of shadow work that it's doing. You know, like oh wow, 1800 01:36:54.920 --> 01:36:58.039 through each through each person, because everybody has highs and lows, 1801 01:36:58.079 --> 01:37:00.359 Like there's nobody that skates through life. And if you're 1802 01:37:00.359 --> 01:37:02.079 a trust fund baby, I mean you're gonna find something 1803 01:37:02.079 --> 01:37:03.119 to complain about you know. 1804 01:37:03.560 --> 01:37:06.359 Right, I mean even I mean even you know, amongst 1805 01:37:06.399 --> 01:37:09.239 some Buddhas, they still go through suffering, right, they still 1806 01:37:09.279 --> 01:37:11.960 have growth. Yeah, just because they come at it from 1807 01:37:11.960 --> 01:37:15.039 a peaceful place doesn't mean that they still aren't growing 1808 01:37:15.119 --> 01:37:19.680 and experiencing life. But yeah, it's it's. 1809 01:37:21.279 --> 01:37:26.119 It's like you're, oh, what was her name. I'm trying 1810 01:37:26.119 --> 01:37:31.079 to think, Oh, the nun. We were just talking about 1811 01:37:31.079 --> 01:37:37.680 her the other day. None, Yeah, damn, I can't remember 1812 01:37:37.720 --> 01:37:41.119 her name. Mother Teresa. There we go, but mother Teresa 1813 01:37:41.279 --> 01:37:43.760 she goes. And this was so interesting, but she said, 1814 01:37:44.399 --> 01:37:48.199 whenever I look at everybody, I see Christ in everybody, 1815 01:37:48.840 --> 01:37:51.359 And it's like, man, that is so if you look 1816 01:37:51.399 --> 01:37:53.920 at it that way, if you understand that, let's just 1817 01:37:53.960 --> 01:37:55.840 be honest, bro, like what they're talking about with the 1818 01:37:55.920 --> 01:38:00.000 Christ like, that's another way of saying that you're one, right, 1819 01:38:00.079 --> 01:38:02.760 like if everybody, if Price is in everybody, then that's 1820 01:38:02.800 --> 01:38:05.239 just another way of saying, hey, we're all the same thing. 1821 01:38:05.880 --> 01:38:08.479 And if if I can like, no, Mi, stay you, 1822 01:38:08.920 --> 01:38:11.760 like the divine within me sees the divine within you, 1823 01:38:12.239 --> 01:38:14.359 then if we just looked at each other that way, 1824 01:38:14.439 --> 01:38:17.399 how crazy? How much different of a world would. 1825 01:38:17.159 --> 01:38:19.640 This be easier it would be to not get so 1826 01:38:19.760 --> 01:38:21.600 pissed off at somebody for cutting. 1827 01:38:21.319 --> 01:38:23.439 You off, you know, just the little things. 1828 01:38:23.840 --> 01:38:25.960 Yeah, it's like, oh, then you then you bring in 1829 01:38:26.000 --> 01:38:29.359 the whole idea of like accountability. You know, like you 1830 01:38:29.399 --> 01:38:32.840 were saying as far as not wanting to lie to somebody, 1831 01:38:33.000 --> 01:38:35.239 then you look at that somebody as if they are you, 1832 01:38:35.760 --> 01:38:38.479 and that person knows exactly and sees right through you 1833 01:38:38.560 --> 01:38:41.199 because it knows you and you know it and everything else. 1834 01:38:41.239 --> 01:38:43.800 It's like, well shit, you know if you can just 1835 01:38:44.159 --> 01:38:46.920 believe that and just go through life. 1836 01:38:46.720 --> 01:38:50.399 Like that, oh, it's like oh, it's like yeah, yeah, 1837 01:38:50.479 --> 01:38:53.960 it's like you know, whatever person that is not you 1838 01:38:54.520 --> 01:38:57.800 imagine and this is like such a brain fuck, but 1839 01:38:57.960 --> 01:39:02.119 like whatever person that is not you. So literally, everybody 1840 01:39:02.119 --> 01:39:05.319 that's not you, if you look at them and think 1841 01:39:06.279 --> 01:39:09.920 they are me, if I was in their circumstance, then 1842 01:39:10.319 --> 01:39:12.920 oh my god, it changes the entire game. Like talking 1843 01:39:12.920 --> 01:39:15.680 about loving your neighbor and your neighbor as yourself is 1844 01:39:15.760 --> 01:39:18.520 literally that at that point, Like yeah, you can sit 1845 01:39:18.560 --> 01:39:21.000 there and say I would never murder, I would never 1846 01:39:21.079 --> 01:39:24.880 do drugs, I would never do whatever, right, But like 1847 01:39:25.239 --> 01:39:27.479 you don't know that unless you were them. But the 1848 01:39:27.560 --> 01:39:30.000 only way that you can really start to understand, which 1849 01:39:30.039 --> 01:39:33.960 is understanding, is the exact opposite of judging, right, And 1850 01:39:34.039 --> 01:39:37.640 so instead of judging, and try and understand and be like, 1851 01:39:37.800 --> 01:39:39.800 put yourself in their shoes and look at all the 1852 01:39:40.239 --> 01:39:42.760 consequences and all the crazy things that person had to 1853 01:39:42.760 --> 01:39:45.560 go through. Then you know you're you're gonna be a 1854 01:39:45.640 --> 01:39:48.239 lot less you know, likely to sit there in judgment 1855 01:39:48.319 --> 01:39:51.800 and more you know, empathetic almost even the worst things 1856 01:39:51.840 --> 01:39:55.359 that you can imagine. It's like you probably would have 1857 01:39:55.479 --> 01:39:57.560 done the same thing if you were in their shoes. 1858 01:39:57.600 --> 01:39:59.680 And not even just like a you. 1859 01:39:59.600 --> 01:40:03.760 Know, like their their household, but like every single situation 1860 01:40:04.079 --> 01:40:07.319 they were in to the t would make you that person. 1861 01:40:07.439 --> 01:40:11.000 Every thought that they agree with, Yeah, it's your belief systems, right. 1862 01:40:11.079 --> 01:40:15.880 I don't think anybody's really like I think everybody thinks 1863 01:40:15.880 --> 01:40:20.079 they're doing the right thing for themselves. I really do. 1864 01:40:21.119 --> 01:40:24.680 It's their belief systems that are a little you know, off. 1865 01:40:24.800 --> 01:40:26.960 And that's when you can start having more compassion for 1866 01:40:27.039 --> 01:40:29.640 people because you can start to say, oh, I see 1867 01:40:29.680 --> 01:40:31.680 why you're the way you are. That doesn't mean you 1868 01:40:31.760 --> 01:40:35.479 have to agree, right, you don't have to be like Okay, 1869 01:40:35.520 --> 01:40:39.840 I'm gonna support you as a KKK member, right, you 1870 01:40:39.880 --> 01:40:42.319 know what I mean, Like you don't have to support them, 1871 01:40:42.359 --> 01:40:45.199 but you you don't have to add to the fire. 1872 01:40:45.319 --> 01:40:50.199 You don't have to judge, you know, people's situations and 1873 01:40:50.279 --> 01:40:54.399 show them with love. But when we were saying and also, 1874 01:40:54.640 --> 01:40:57.319 if you realize that you're a piece of you know, 1875 01:40:57.359 --> 01:41:00.520 you're a piece of God playing out this this role, 1876 01:41:01.520 --> 01:41:05.680 then the more you can embody well who you're really 1877 01:41:05.760 --> 01:41:11.560 supposed to play, then you're allowing God to live through you. 1878 01:41:12.319 --> 01:41:16.079 Like you're allowing God to see the world through you 1879 01:41:16.439 --> 01:41:20.560 as you were supposed to be seen. And that's I 1880 01:41:20.560 --> 01:41:23.000 think that's where it really comes down to, is is 1881 01:41:23.119 --> 01:41:25.279 are you living a life that God would want to 1882 01:41:26.680 --> 01:41:30.239 live through you? Like are you are you doing? You know, 1883 01:41:31.079 --> 01:41:33.119 do you love yourself that if you were God? You 1884 01:41:33.159 --> 01:41:36.359 know what I mean? Like right when people people hate 1885 01:41:36.399 --> 01:41:39.439 saying that, Like when and I and I actually had 1886 01:41:39.479 --> 01:41:41.039 a you know, there was a program in me when 1887 01:41:41.039 --> 01:41:44.000 I'm like, yeah, I'm God, Like I'm a peace of God. 1888 01:41:44.199 --> 01:41:47.119 Like like people have like their egos like back up 1889 01:41:47.119 --> 01:41:49.520 and they're like wait a minute, you can't be gone. 1890 01:41:49.560 --> 01:41:52.079 You know what I mean like like when Kayanne West 1891 01:41:52.119 --> 01:41:54.640 and I'm God like people lost their minds. 1892 01:41:54.720 --> 01:41:55.159 Yeah, but. 1893 01:41:58.720 --> 01:42:02.079 Yeah, you know, but we all are. It's not that 1894 01:42:02.239 --> 01:42:03.600 I'm special and you're not. 1895 01:42:04.520 --> 01:42:04.960 Yeah. 1896 01:42:04.960 --> 01:42:07.560 Well, and looking at it from like the video game 1897 01:42:07.640 --> 01:42:11.319 kind of standpoint, if you just imagine, like, for example, 1898 01:42:11.359 --> 01:42:14.000 like street Fighter was one of my favorite games growing up, right, 1899 01:42:14.119 --> 01:42:16.079 like played it on the PlayStation. That was my shit 1900 01:42:16.479 --> 01:42:19.359 and I was addicted to it. But if you just 1901 01:42:19.399 --> 01:42:22.880 imagine that, like, all right, today, in this game, in 1902 01:42:22.960 --> 01:42:25.960 this match, I'm going to be a Honda, you know 1903 01:42:25.960 --> 01:42:28.159 what I'm saying, and like I'm gonna e Honda. I'm 1904 01:42:28.159 --> 01:42:31.039 gonna fuck somebody up because he's a big old bitch, right, 1905 01:42:31.119 --> 01:42:33.439 And and then the next and then then you win 1906 01:42:33.479 --> 01:42:35.039 it and you're like, you know what, I want something. 1907 01:42:34.840 --> 01:42:35.640 A little bit harder. 1908 01:42:35.640 --> 01:42:37.720 I want some more of a more of a challenge, 1909 01:42:37.720 --> 01:42:40.880 and maybe you go with I don't know, Like I mean, 1910 01:42:40.880 --> 01:42:43.680 I wouldn't say that Ryu is like anything worse than 1911 01:42:43.760 --> 01:42:45.840 e Honda, but let's just say that that's a step down, 1912 01:42:45.960 --> 01:42:48.880 right or Nash or any of them. It's like every 1913 01:42:49.000 --> 01:42:52.920 single every single character that you're portraying is exactly what 1914 01:42:53.079 --> 01:42:56.319 you would do if you were them, and so everybody 1915 01:42:56.319 --> 01:43:00.960 else like, so now, Sean, you're you're doing exactly what 1916 01:43:01.039 --> 01:43:03.720 I would do if I was shown in that sense. 1917 01:43:03.760 --> 01:43:05.560 And it's like, yeah, such a weird way to put 1918 01:43:05.600 --> 01:43:06.960 it in a video game. But I think that that's 1919 01:43:07.239 --> 01:43:09.079 that's kind of the closest you can get as far 1920 01:43:09.119 --> 01:43:10.159 as an analogy goes. 1921 01:43:10.880 --> 01:43:12.760 Absolutely, I love. 1922 01:43:12.680 --> 01:43:16.880 I love Mario. Mario has always been my like nostalgia, 1923 01:43:17.039 --> 01:43:20.279 you know, but if you really think about it, I 1924 01:43:20.720 --> 01:43:24.279 love this analogy of it because what does he do? 1925 01:43:24.520 --> 01:43:31.039 He eats mushrooms, he gets superpowers, right, stave the feminine 1926 01:43:31.960 --> 01:43:33.920 right from the lizard brain? 1927 01:43:34.319 --> 01:43:36.520 Yeah, yeah, right. 1928 01:43:36.960 --> 01:43:39.520 And and the thing is, when you are playing, you 1929 01:43:39.520 --> 01:43:42.560 don't care how many times Mario hits his head off 1930 01:43:42.600 --> 01:43:46.039 the bricks. You don't care how many times he falls 1931 01:43:46.159 --> 01:43:49.760 and hurts himself or you know, dies, because you know 1932 01:43:50.359 --> 01:43:53.239 that Mario's going to be able to respond and you're 1933 01:43:53.239 --> 01:43:55.960 gonna be able to try that level again. Well, that's 1934 01:43:56.079 --> 01:43:59.319 kind of what we're doing, Like we're we're always able 1935 01:43:59.359 --> 01:44:03.199 to correct and change and grow or you know, come 1936 01:44:03.239 --> 01:44:05.680 back and try it again and do it a different way. 1937 01:44:06.760 --> 01:44:11.680 So taking life a lot less seriously and realizing you're 1938 01:44:11.760 --> 01:44:15.720 just you're you're playing a game like have more fun, 1939 01:44:16.279 --> 01:44:21.079 you know, stop wasting time, like time is the only 1940 01:44:21.159 --> 01:44:25.199 thing that really allows us to be able to perceive 1941 01:44:25.279 --> 01:44:29.600 this reality because time really isn't real. And I got 1942 01:44:29.640 --> 01:44:32.640 that reality check. This is something I don't share very often, 1943 01:44:32.720 --> 01:44:38.520 but I'll share here. So when my husband passed, I 1944 01:44:38.600 --> 01:44:41.319 wanted people to take picture. I wanted somebody to take 1945 01:44:41.359 --> 01:44:44.399 pictures because I didn't want to forget that moment where 1946 01:44:44.439 --> 01:44:48.239 I'm saying my goodbyes and all that. So I had 1947 01:44:48.279 --> 01:44:52.720 them take pictures. And during my goodbye, my my psychic 1948 01:44:52.800 --> 01:44:56.680 girlfriend called me on the phone, and of course I 1949 01:44:56.800 --> 01:44:59.199 was busy, so I took my watch and I you know, 1950 01:44:59.359 --> 01:45:04.000 dismissed the call, but they captured her phone call on 1951 01:45:04.159 --> 01:45:08.640 my watch in the picture with a timestamp. Later on, 1952 01:45:08.800 --> 01:45:10.800 after he passed, you know, I texted her and said, 1953 01:45:10.800 --> 01:45:13.800 you know, he's gone, and blah blah blah. And later 1954 01:45:13.840 --> 01:45:17.560 on I find out that her call log says she 1955 01:45:17.840 --> 01:45:25.520 called me like twenty five minutes after the photo was taken. 1956 01:45:25.920 --> 01:45:27.359 After the photo was taken. 1957 01:45:28.079 --> 01:45:32.399 Yes, so my timestamp in my reality is she called 1958 01:45:32.399 --> 01:45:35.560 me at like nine ten, and in her reality, she 1959 01:45:35.640 --> 01:45:37.279 called me at like nine thirty five. 1960 01:45:37.720 --> 01:45:39.199 Oh my god. 1961 01:45:39.720 --> 01:45:42.920 So we have I have actual photographic like in my phone. 1962 01:45:42.960 --> 01:45:45.560 I have the proof that these two things happened at 1963 01:45:45.680 --> 01:45:48.399 different physical times and we were in the same time 1964 01:45:48.479 --> 01:45:50.960 zone because it was like an hour, it was like 1965 01:45:51.000 --> 01:45:55.800 thirty five minutes or twenty yes, but yeah, so that's 1966 01:45:55.840 --> 01:45:58.800 where my brain was like wait a minute, hold on out. 1967 01:45:58.880 --> 01:46:00.800 And so I'm going through the way, I'm getting all 1968 01:46:00.800 --> 01:46:05.159 this crazy you know, other information, and I'm like, okay, 1969 01:46:05.279 --> 01:46:10.560 So so then time is just how you perceive it. It's 1970 01:46:10.000 --> 01:46:14.640 not it's not it's not exactly the way we think 1971 01:46:14.680 --> 01:46:19.319 it is. And sometimes that time can shift based on 1972 01:46:19.359 --> 01:46:21.640 the way you're experiencing it. I've had times where I've 1973 01:46:21.640 --> 01:46:25.279 been able to like literally feel like time was slowing down. 1974 01:46:26.600 --> 01:46:28.399 And then there's times where you know, time feels like 1975 01:46:28.439 --> 01:46:33.399 it's really fast, but it's just your perception of it, your. 1976 01:46:33.199 --> 01:46:35.880 Experience with it. Yeah, I think we had an experience 1977 01:46:35.880 --> 01:46:38.680 with that. Actually, at one point we did a meditation. 1978 01:46:38.760 --> 01:46:42.239 I think the meditation was fifteen minutes long based on 1979 01:46:42.279 --> 01:46:45.399 what time we started that. Our guest said actually that 1980 01:46:45.479 --> 01:46:48.479 there was like ten minutes lost or something like that. 1981 01:46:49.159 --> 01:46:50.720 I didn't get to look at it and see it, 1982 01:46:50.880 --> 01:46:54.000 to have that experience of knowing for sure, like what happened, 1983 01:46:54.000 --> 01:46:56.279 but for sure there was like ten minutes that was 1984 01:46:56.359 --> 01:46:58.119 like just unaccounted for. 1985 01:46:58.479 --> 01:47:00.319 And I was like, wait a minute, what you know? 1986 01:47:00.439 --> 01:47:02.000 Like, and that just goes back to what you were saying, 1987 01:47:02.039 --> 01:47:04.960 as far as we all have our own reality, you know, 1988 01:47:05.039 --> 01:47:06.439 how else can you explain that. 1989 01:47:06.680 --> 01:47:10.000 Just existing outside of time in general? Right, it's all 1990 01:47:10.079 --> 01:47:11.680 an illusion anyway, you know. 1991 01:47:11.760 --> 01:47:13.399 And I can't tell you how many times where I 1992 01:47:13.399 --> 01:47:15.800 don't even know what time it is, but I'll just like, oh, 1993 01:47:15.880 --> 01:47:17.640 I think it's probably this time, and then I'll go 1994 01:47:17.720 --> 01:47:20.279 look and I'm like spot on, you know, and it's like, 1995 01:47:20.479 --> 01:47:21.399 how did I know that? 1996 01:47:21.920 --> 01:47:25.800 You? Yeah. I keep a timer so whenever we're whenever 1997 01:47:25.800 --> 01:47:28.239 we're recording, just so I know, like how how long 1998 01:47:28.239 --> 01:47:30.399 we've been going, so we don't get too lost, and 1999 01:47:30.479 --> 01:47:32.399 maybe we go for three hours and I wasn't planning 2000 01:47:32.399 --> 01:47:34.960 on keeping you that long or something like that, And 2001 01:47:35.079 --> 01:47:37.520 I'll keep a timer on it, and almost every time 2002 01:47:37.560 --> 01:47:39.680 I look down at it, it's like one hour and 2003 01:47:39.720 --> 01:47:42.600 eleven minutes, one hour and forty four minutes, or thirty 2004 01:47:42.600 --> 01:47:45.079 three minutes. It's always like something crazy, not whenever I 2005 01:47:45.199 --> 01:47:47.399 try to do it, but just like almost like I 2006 01:47:47.479 --> 01:47:50.279 had half a thought to even look at the time, 2007 01:47:50.640 --> 01:47:53.680 you know, like almost, not even on purpose. And it's 2008 01:47:53.720 --> 01:47:56.079 just like the craziest thing about how it always I gives. 2009 01:47:55.840 --> 01:47:58.720 That a lot, almost a lot of times I look 2010 01:47:58.720 --> 01:48:01.560 at the time it's one one, you know, eleven eleven 2011 01:48:01.760 --> 01:48:04.479 or two two two or three three, three or four, 2012 01:48:04.760 --> 01:48:07.239 and I'm like, oh, I guess somehow I'm on line today. 2013 01:48:07.319 --> 01:48:09.279 That's how I look at I'm like, I'm lined. I'm 2014 01:48:09.319 --> 01:48:11.079 still you know, tracking. 2015 01:48:10.720 --> 01:48:13.439 The right, you know, yep, your level of awareness is 2016 01:48:13.479 --> 01:48:16.399 still right there. I had two to two today actually. 2017 01:48:17.239 --> 01:48:20.279 And that's the other thing, like remember, like like you 2018 01:48:20.319 --> 01:48:26.319 can get messages and songs in in street signs and wherever, 2019 01:48:27.560 --> 01:48:30.479 but because it's your reality, it's only going to mean 2020 01:48:31.880 --> 01:48:34.880 what it needs to mean to you. Mean you are 2021 01:48:35.960 --> 01:48:39.880 I can't tell you how to interpret your reality. I 2022 01:48:39.920 --> 01:48:43.920 can show you how to look for things and how 2023 01:48:43.960 --> 01:48:47.760 to give them meaning for you, but they're ultimately yours, 2024 01:48:48.399 --> 01:48:52.479 you know. I get a lot of message through songs, 2025 01:48:54.079 --> 01:48:55.800 you know, where I'm at, what I need to know, 2026 01:48:56.359 --> 01:48:59.159 or just sometimes it's just a boose like a Hey girl, 2027 01:48:59.199 --> 01:49:00.399 you got this kind of thing. 2028 01:49:00.479 --> 01:49:04.000 You know, dude, you ever did you ever wake up 2029 01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:05.279 with a song in your head? 2030 01:49:07.359 --> 01:49:10.119 Wake up? I don't know about wake up. I get 2031 01:49:10.239 --> 01:49:13.800 random songs in my head. Sometimes I don't even know 2032 01:49:13.840 --> 01:49:16.239 what the words are. Like I start humming it and 2033 01:49:16.239 --> 01:49:18.840 I'm like, wait a minute, I know what's what? And 2034 01:49:18.880 --> 01:49:21.439 I go to a husband, I'm like, what is this song? 2035 01:49:24.159 --> 01:49:26.600 Sometimes you can figure it out. Sometimes my hummin ain't 2036 01:49:26.640 --> 01:49:27.680 that great, but it's. 2037 01:49:27.520 --> 01:49:28.560 So weird whatever. 2038 01:49:28.600 --> 01:49:31.760 It just happens out of nowhere like that, like just I'll. 2039 01:49:31.640 --> 01:49:34.119 Get the words. Sometimes I'll get the words and I'll 2040 01:49:34.159 --> 01:49:36.640 be like, oh, isn't that interesting? Is that what I'm 2041 01:49:36.840 --> 01:49:38.119 what I need to know right now? 2042 01:49:38.279 --> 01:49:41.000 Like just look into the lyrics? 2043 01:49:41.119 --> 01:49:43.119 Yeah, at that point, And somebody told me that because 2044 01:49:43.119 --> 01:49:47.279 I've almost my entire life, I've been waking up just 2045 01:49:47.359 --> 01:49:49.319 about every day with a song in my head. As 2046 01:49:49.359 --> 01:49:51.439 like the moment I wake up, there's a song that 2047 01:49:51.560 --> 01:49:54.880 like I was listening to or I was singing in 2048 01:49:54.960 --> 01:49:56.960 my dream, and it carried over to the time that 2049 01:49:57.000 --> 01:49:58.560 I woke up. I don't even I don't know why 2050 01:49:58.600 --> 01:50:01.720 it happens, and I don't it's a good one. Maybe 2051 01:50:01.760 --> 01:50:04.359 it's like a psychic thing. I don't know, but I 2052 01:50:04.399 --> 01:50:04.720 hope so. 2053 01:50:05.720 --> 01:50:07.960 But this in what was one of the songs that 2054 01:50:08.039 --> 01:50:09.920 you like. 2055 01:50:09.960 --> 01:50:12.159 It's not like an apocalypse. No. 2056 01:50:12.319 --> 01:50:16.039 Usually, usually it's songs that like I haven't heard in forever, 2057 01:50:16.399 --> 01:50:19.359 like this morning, Like I'm not gonna lie, it's Christmas 2058 01:50:19.359 --> 01:50:21.640 in this house all year long, Like I want to 2059 01:50:21.640 --> 01:50:23.520 listen to Christmas music all the time. But it had 2060 01:50:23.560 --> 01:50:26.079 been a while since I listened to Christmas music, and 2061 01:50:26.119 --> 01:50:28.960 so whenever I woke up, I was I was singing 2062 01:50:29.039 --> 01:50:32.880 like a Michael Bouble Christmas song in my head, and 2063 01:50:32.920 --> 01:50:35.479 I was like, I haven't even listened to that in 2064 01:50:35.520 --> 01:50:38.720 probably months, you know, at least, and you know, we're 2065 01:50:38.720 --> 01:50:41.399 coming up on the Christmas season and super excited and everything. 2066 01:50:41.439 --> 01:50:42.920 And then I wake up with that song and I'm like, 2067 01:50:43.840 --> 01:50:45.880 you know, and at first you don't even notice that 2068 01:50:45.920 --> 01:50:47.720 it's in your head. It's kind of like playing in 2069 01:50:47.760 --> 01:50:50.760 the background, you know, and then like you catch yourself, 2070 01:50:51.039 --> 01:50:52.800 you know, maybe once you had to sip a coffee 2071 01:50:52.840 --> 01:50:55.399 or whatever, and yeah, it was just the craziest thing. 2072 01:50:55.399 --> 01:50:58.000 And I didn't even bother looking into the lyrics to 2073 01:50:58.000 --> 01:50:59.279 see how it pertains in my life. 2074 01:50:59.399 --> 01:51:01.119 Somebody told me that. They were like, all. 2075 01:51:01.079 --> 01:51:04.239 Right, that happens you. Maybe there's a message in that song. 2076 01:51:04.279 --> 01:51:06.159 Go look at the lyrics and see what it's saying, 2077 01:51:06.520 --> 01:51:08.520 and there could be some kind of message from the 2078 01:51:08.560 --> 01:51:10.840 other side, you know, in those songs could be. 2079 01:51:10.840 --> 01:51:14.680 That, or it could also be if it's a song 2080 01:51:14.760 --> 01:51:19.279 that's significant value, like it's the song from your wedding 2081 01:51:19.560 --> 01:51:22.840 or the song from like the it has like actual 2082 01:51:22.880 --> 01:51:25.720 meaning to it. It might be connecting you with that 2083 01:51:25.800 --> 01:51:30.880 person or a message from that memory or like, but 2084 01:51:30.960 --> 01:51:33.399 you it's all about you to decode it because it's 2085 01:51:33.399 --> 01:51:37.840 a game. Like it's like decode your game because it's 2086 01:51:37.880 --> 01:51:39.640 constantly trying to tell you stuff. 2087 01:51:39.720 --> 01:51:42.520 Oh dude, especially if life has no meaning other than 2088 01:51:42.520 --> 01:51:43.479 what you apply to it. 2089 01:51:44.119 --> 01:51:46.039 There you go, that's that's what we're saying here. 2090 01:51:46.199 --> 01:51:48.560 Yeah, so what do you want to apply to it? 2091 01:51:48.800 --> 01:51:49.039 Right? 2092 01:51:50.279 --> 01:51:54.600 You're the creator. Create something that you're that's worth it, Like, 2093 01:51:54.760 --> 01:51:58.239 create something that you want to be happy to get 2094 01:51:58.279 --> 01:52:02.880 up and do and and I always tell people not 2095 01:52:03.119 --> 01:52:06.760 doing something is still a choice. 2096 01:52:07.000 --> 01:52:08.159 Yeah, yeah, big time. 2097 01:52:08.479 --> 01:52:10.760 Well, I mean I feel like we could talk to 2098 01:52:10.760 --> 01:52:12.079 you forever because we just like. 2099 01:52:12.079 --> 01:52:13.920 Relate on this thing. 2100 01:52:15.279 --> 01:52:18.640 Yeah, yeah, so if you could, Oh, wait, actually, Sean, 2101 01:52:18.720 --> 01:52:20.279 we have a tarot card that we need to read. 2102 01:52:20.560 --> 01:52:23.199 Yes, dude, let's not forget that we got the Hanged Man. 2103 01:52:23.760 --> 01:52:24.720 Oh, get out of here. 2104 01:52:24.800 --> 01:52:26.760 That's my favorite tarot card of all time. 2105 01:52:27.560 --> 01:52:29.840 If anybody in a minute, too, if. 2106 01:52:29.680 --> 01:52:33.199 Anybody looks at the logo, you'll see that me and 2107 01:52:33.239 --> 01:52:37.439 Sean are both holding tarot cards and mine is a 2108 01:52:37.560 --> 01:52:38.640 hanged man on the front. 2109 01:52:38.920 --> 01:52:39.720 Sean put it on. 2110 01:52:39.680 --> 01:52:40.119 There for me. 2111 01:52:40.239 --> 01:52:44.199 Perfect. It's perfect for the book because it's all about 2112 01:52:44.239 --> 01:52:46.119 seeing things through a different perspective. 2113 01:52:46.359 --> 01:52:50.399 Yep, yep, limiting beliefs and yeah, letting go of those things. 2114 01:52:50.720 --> 01:52:54.760 Yes, yes, so it's kind of a tradition over here 2115 01:52:54.880 --> 01:52:57.439 to read from the book, and eventually we're going. 2116 01:52:57.359 --> 01:52:57.800 To get to it. 2117 01:52:57.920 --> 01:53:00.199 But right now, you know, right now, I do kind 2118 01:53:00.199 --> 01:53:02.199 of want to read it, even though you, I mean, everybody. 2119 01:53:01.880 --> 01:53:04.640 Gives it, gives you more. It's just more right. 2120 01:53:04.680 --> 01:53:08.000 And you can also throw in your own little interpretation, 2121 01:53:08.039 --> 01:53:09.319 because I'd be interested to hear it. 2122 01:53:09.520 --> 01:53:14.119 Sure. So the Hanged Man, Uh, when you are suspended 2123 01:53:14.199 --> 01:53:16.760 upside down, there is time to reflect and see things 2124 01:53:16.800 --> 01:53:20.279 from a new perspective. The Hanged Man offers the unusual 2125 01:53:20.319 --> 01:53:23.680 gift of suspended time. We were just talking about time 2126 01:53:23.800 --> 01:53:27.319 is like not real, uh. His presence is associated with 2127 01:53:27.359 --> 01:53:29.439 the time period that is meant to help shift your 2128 01:53:29.479 --> 01:53:32.760 perception of a situation. The hang Man is suspended by 2129 01:53:32.760 --> 01:53:35.119 one leg upside down from the tree of life. His 2130 01:53:35.199 --> 01:53:37.720 hand appears to be tied behind his back. His free 2131 01:53:37.800 --> 01:53:40.560 leg is crossed behind the bound leg and appears relaxed 2132 01:53:40.600 --> 01:53:42.800 and resting. He has nowhere to go, so he is 2133 01:53:42.840 --> 01:53:45.760 able to sit quietly in reflection, which shows on his face. 2134 01:53:46.039 --> 01:53:49.960 He is calm, almost pensive, rather than distressed. Yellow illumination 2135 01:53:50.039 --> 01:53:53.479 surrounds his head, suggesting spiritual enlightenment is occurring during this 2136 01:53:53.600 --> 01:53:54.399 time of pause. 2137 01:53:54.760 --> 01:53:58.840 This is a time to surrender, not struggle. Yeah, that's 2138 01:53:58.880 --> 01:53:59.800 like the perfect. 2139 01:53:59.439 --> 01:54:01.479 Message for that for this see what I'm saying, Like 2140 01:54:01.560 --> 01:54:05.079 every show it's something so spot on, and you know 2141 01:54:05.640 --> 01:54:06.760 it just never gets old. 2142 01:54:07.399 --> 01:54:11.199 Yes, And the Hayman like it's like like he voluntarily 2143 01:54:11.479 --> 01:54:15.399 put himself in this position. It's not a he wasn't 2144 01:54:15.439 --> 01:54:19.039 like forced right, Like he's relaxed his one leg. He 2145 01:54:19.039 --> 01:54:21.680 can untie his other leg anytime he wants. His hands 2146 01:54:21.680 --> 01:54:24.600 are free, you know, but he's able to see through 2147 01:54:24.600 --> 01:54:25.640 the different perspective. 2148 01:54:26.119 --> 01:54:29.239 He's choosing to look at something a little differently because 2149 01:54:29.319 --> 01:54:31.720 the way that he was looking at it before has 2150 01:54:31.880 --> 01:54:33.920 kind of got him a little stagnant. So it's like, 2151 01:54:33.920 --> 01:54:35.720 all right, let me just flip this around and see 2152 01:54:35.720 --> 01:54:36.199 what's up. 2153 01:54:36.279 --> 01:54:37.359 Not satisfactory? 2154 01:54:37.640 --> 01:54:40.800 Yeah, right, So the spiritual message behind it, it says 2155 01:54:40.880 --> 01:54:44.279 unexpected moments of pause can lead to new spiritual insights. 2156 01:54:44.439 --> 01:54:47.119 Gaining a new perspective on your situation helps you expand 2157 01:54:47.159 --> 01:54:49.920 your beliefs. Take time to reflect and surrender to the 2158 01:54:49.920 --> 01:54:53.800 present moment as fully as you can. All right, well 2159 01:54:53.880 --> 01:54:57.199 that is about as perfect as it gets. I'll say 2160 01:54:57.199 --> 01:54:59.239 that that is a spot on. 2161 01:54:59.479 --> 01:54:59.920 I love it. 2162 01:55:00.439 --> 01:55:03.640 And so look, if anybody wants to be able to 2163 01:55:04.000 --> 01:55:06.079 reach out to you, how would they be able to 2164 01:55:06.119 --> 01:55:08.199 find you? Your book and all your social media is 2165 01:55:08.199 --> 01:55:08.680 and everything. 2166 01:55:09.439 --> 01:55:13.920 Sure, so on my website is uh Infinite Mindset Coaching 2167 01:55:14.000 --> 01:55:17.239 dot org. You can go on there if you want 2168 01:55:17.239 --> 01:55:21.640 to book a session a free discovery girl. I have 2169 01:55:22.000 --> 01:55:24.119 the book you know, links for the books in there. 2170 01:55:24.800 --> 01:55:28.359 My social media for the Infinite Mindset Coaching is Infinite 2171 01:55:28.399 --> 01:55:32.119 Mindset Coaching. But most of the stuff I do social 2172 01:55:32.159 --> 01:55:37.000 media wise is Joanne Marcasey M A R C H 2173 01:55:37.159 --> 01:55:42.560 E S E Dot infinite mindset on Instagram. That's probably 2174 01:55:42.600 --> 01:55:45.880 where I'm the most active. I have the TikTok and 2175 01:55:45.960 --> 01:55:49.600 all the other stuff, but Instagram seems to be my 2176 01:55:49.600 --> 01:55:51.920 my platform of choice. 2177 01:55:52.279 --> 01:55:52.840 Perfect. 2178 01:55:53.039 --> 01:55:55.279 All right, Well, look, we're gonna put all those links 2179 01:55:55.279 --> 01:55:56.840 down on the show notes to your book and to 2180 01:55:56.920 --> 01:55:58.960 your website and everything else. We're gonna have that down 2181 01:55:58.960 --> 01:56:01.600 there so everybody can just kind of like super hyperlink 2182 01:56:01.680 --> 01:56:03.640 their way over there, and it'll make it a little 2183 01:56:03.640 --> 01:56:05.840 bit easier for people to come check you out. But yeah, 2184 01:56:05.880 --> 01:56:07.640 we really appreciate you coming on the show as a 2185 01:56:07.720 --> 01:56:10.439 very enlightening conversation and lots of fun. 2186 01:56:10.479 --> 01:56:12.159 Look, thank you so much. 2187 01:56:12.159 --> 01:56:12.960 Of the energy. 2188 01:56:13.319 --> 01:56:16.199 Yeah again, yeah, of course, thank you. 2189 01:56:16.319 --> 01:56:16.680 Thank you. 2190 01:56:17.000 --> 01:56:17.079 So. 2191 01:56:17.319 --> 01:56:18.920 Right now, what we're gonna do is we're gonna get 2192 01:56:18.920 --> 01:56:21.159 over to the meditation. But before we do, we want 2193 01:56:21.159 --> 01:56:22.399 to say, look, if you want to be able to 2194 01:56:22.399 --> 01:56:24.199 get these shows a couple of days in advance, you 2195 01:56:24.199 --> 01:56:25.920 want to be able to listen to the shows completely 2196 01:56:25.960 --> 01:56:28.560 commercial free. 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Energy is good. 2229 01:57:38.359 --> 01:57:42.279 Yes, yes, so yeah, I guess with that being said, 2230 01:57:42.359 --> 01:57:47.159 if Joanne Mark Casey came here and she's on you anything, 2231 01:57:47.600 --> 01:57:51.279 it's that you don't know what you don't know, So don't. 2232 01:57:51.159 --> 01:57:52.039 Just get weird. 2233 01:57:52.840 --> 01:58:02.600 Stay weird. Right, that's a good right. Yeah. Yeah. 2234 01:58:02.800 --> 01:58:05.039 I felt like I just like woke up from a nap. 2235 01:58:05.359 --> 01:58:07.880 I felt like I was dreaming. 2236 01:58:07.960 --> 01:58:09.359 It was pretty good. 2237 01:58:09.399 --> 01:58:13.000 Yeah, dude, I actually I was starting to think of, 2238 01:58:14.199 --> 01:58:16.159 you know, some of the things that our guest was saying, 2239 01:58:16.199 --> 01:58:19.439 and as far as you know, just kind of being 2240 01:58:19.439 --> 01:58:21.720 in that flow and how the universe kind of just 2241 01:58:21.760 --> 01:58:24.880 shows you kind of what you need to see according 2242 01:58:24.920 --> 01:58:27.279 to where you are, and you know, and I think 2243 01:58:27.279 --> 01:58:29.560 it got into some of it was like you know, 2244 01:58:29.680 --> 01:58:32.159 the how maybe how everything. 2245 01:58:31.880 --> 01:58:35.279 Started right, And she went on to say as. 2246 01:58:35.119 --> 01:58:38.520 Far as like we kind of like agreed to certain 2247 01:58:38.560 --> 01:58:40.960 things and how that kind of all took place, and. 2248 01:58:40.920 --> 01:58:43.720 I was just thinking like, and that's and that's cool. 2249 01:58:43.800 --> 01:58:45.800 You know. I think it's really interesting to look at 2250 01:58:45.800 --> 01:58:46.279 it that way. 2251 01:58:46.319 --> 01:58:49.159 And but I think it's really interesting to look at 2252 01:58:49.199 --> 01:58:51.880 it as in, like, at least in my reality, how 2253 01:58:51.920 --> 01:58:55.680 I've been looking at it is what if? What if 2254 01:58:56.520 --> 01:58:58.800 none of this was even supposed to happen? You know 2255 01:58:58.800 --> 01:59:01.079 what I'm saying, Like the universe the way that it 2256 01:59:01.119 --> 01:59:04.720 turned out, Let's say that there was trillions and trillions 2257 01:59:04.760 --> 01:59:07.279 and I don't even know a bigger number to say, 2258 01:59:07.319 --> 01:59:10.720 you know, the possibilities that the universe could have been right, 2259 01:59:11.399 --> 01:59:14.840 And this is the only version of the universe that 2260 01:59:14.880 --> 01:59:17.760 could have been something that had an earth, that had people, 2261 01:59:17.800 --> 01:59:21.039 that had life, that had brains with a capacity to 2262 01:59:21.119 --> 01:59:26.239 even ponder the beginning, right, And so in that sense, 2263 01:59:26.319 --> 01:59:30.239 I feel like like how we talk about, you know, like, 2264 01:59:30.319 --> 01:59:33.680 oh life, maybe there is no one purpose. It's kind 2265 01:59:33.680 --> 01:59:36.920 of just whatever you whatever you want that purpose to be. 2266 01:59:37.560 --> 01:59:40.600 I feel like that lines up even better, you know, 2267 01:59:40.840 --> 01:59:45.159 like if there is no actual specific purpose for Jonathan 2268 01:59:45.319 --> 01:59:47.880 or for me, it's just what I want my purpose 2269 01:59:47.960 --> 01:59:50.800 to be. That's kind of what I follow those breadcrumbs, 2270 01:59:50.840 --> 01:59:54.560 and I kind of just experience the things I'm supposed 2271 01:59:54.560 --> 01:59:57.239 to experience according to kind of how I'm looking at 2272 01:59:57.279 --> 01:59:58.840 things and kind of what I want. 2273 01:59:58.680 --> 01:59:59.800 To see from the universe. 2274 02:00:00.119 --> 02:00:04.880 So I feel like if this universe was just kind 2275 02:00:04.920 --> 02:00:07.199 of I don't even want to say, an accident, because 2276 02:00:07.239 --> 02:00:09.640 even saying that the universe that we exist and now 2277 02:00:09.720 --> 02:00:14.319 was an accident still kind of suggests that there was 2278 02:00:15.239 --> 02:00:19.079 an alternative intention right of the universe itself. And so 2279 02:00:20.039 --> 02:00:22.960 I don't know, I think even even saying that the 2280 02:00:23.079 --> 02:00:25.720 universe was just kind of like this is just how 2281 02:00:25.760 --> 02:00:27.479 it is, and it's always kind of been that way 2282 02:00:27.479 --> 02:00:30.439 in and expanded and whatever, I don't even think that 2283 02:00:30.479 --> 02:00:32.840 takes the magic out of it, you know what I'm saying. 2284 02:00:33.039 --> 02:00:34.439 No, I think I don't know. That's just kind of 2285 02:00:34.439 --> 02:00:35.199 what I was thinking about. 2286 02:00:35.520 --> 02:00:38.159 It's probably multiple ways to really look at it. I mean, 2287 02:00:38.199 --> 02:00:41.560 in all of its speculation, you know, especially we know, 2288 02:00:41.840 --> 02:00:44.399 especially whenever they talk about the Big Bang, how was created? 2289 02:00:44.439 --> 02:00:47.319 The Universe's creat what was like thirteen point six million 2290 02:00:47.399 --> 02:00:49.720 years ago or something crazy like that or whatever. 2291 02:00:49.760 --> 02:00:51.720 The millionaires or billion I. 2292 02:00:51.640 --> 02:00:55.720 Think it actually is billion. And then and then they're like, well, 2293 02:00:55.800 --> 02:00:58.159 our math could have been wrong. So it's actually like 2294 02:00:58.319 --> 02:01:00.880 twenty seven point two billion years old, and it was 2295 02:01:00.920 --> 02:01:05.560 like doubled the length. So I mean, there's still jury's 2296 02:01:05.560 --> 02:01:07.239 still out on that. I mean, how how do you 2297 02:01:07.279 --> 02:01:11.079 even go back that much time? You know what I mean? 2298 02:01:11.199 --> 02:01:14.479 And so, I mean, I think it's just like anything else, 2299 02:01:14.560 --> 02:01:18.479 it's whatever meaning you apply to it. You know, if 2300 02:01:18.479 --> 02:01:21.720 there's something like if you feel like, because there is 2301 02:01:21.760 --> 02:01:24.600 no set answer, I mean, to be honest with you, 2302 02:01:24.640 --> 02:01:25.399 it's all speculator me. 2303 02:01:25.439 --> 02:01:27.520 If there was, I feel like we'd all kind of agree, 2304 02:01:27.840 --> 02:01:29.920 or at least most of us, would, you know, like 2305 02:01:30.000 --> 02:01:34.159 the evidence would be so like obvious, you know that 2306 02:01:34.199 --> 02:01:36.039 it would be like, oh, we got it figured out, 2307 02:01:36.159 --> 02:01:36.720 you know what I mean? 2308 02:01:37.119 --> 02:01:39.720 Well, and yeah, and it very well could have just 2309 02:01:39.880 --> 02:01:43.800 existed forever maybe. And then there's some people that suggest that, 2310 02:01:43.880 --> 02:01:46.840 like maybe we don't even exist and we're just like 2311 02:01:47.000 --> 02:01:50.000 experiencing the reality as if our universe got sucked into 2312 02:01:50.000 --> 02:01:52.319 a black hole or something like that. 2313 02:01:52.720 --> 02:01:56.159 We would know if if that was the case, you know. 2314 02:01:56.199 --> 02:01:59.159 How I'm saying, And there's no way of knowing, And 2315 02:01:59.239 --> 02:02:01.159 so I don't know. I think that it's really up 2316 02:02:01.199 --> 02:02:04.479 to whatever fits best for you. Like I like to 2317 02:02:04.600 --> 02:02:09.359 imagine that, you know, mainly beat. I just watched Avengers 2318 02:02:09.399 --> 02:02:13.279 Infinity War earlier again for like the whole time, and 2319 02:02:12.920 --> 02:02:15.800 uh and doctor Strange he's like, he's like, I just 2320 02:02:15.880 --> 02:02:20.119 ran a simulation of all of the possibilities of all 2321 02:02:20.159 --> 02:02:23.840 the possible outcomes and all the possible futures and everything, 2322 02:02:24.319 --> 02:02:27.720 and they they said, like how many did you run? 2323 02:02:27.760 --> 02:02:32.159 It was forty million, six hundred and five, and. 2324 02:02:32.159 --> 02:02:34.760 Which how many did we win? Just one? 2325 02:02:35.439 --> 02:02:37.479 Right, you know, And maybe it is something like that, 2326 02:02:37.720 --> 02:02:41.039 you know, like maybe maybe there is only one way. 2327 02:02:41.479 --> 02:02:44.000 Maybe there's a million different ways. I mean, maybe there 2328 02:02:44.079 --> 02:02:48.479 are forty million different possibilities of how life really pans out. 2329 02:02:48.640 --> 02:02:51.880 But everybody meets in the end the same place kind 2330 02:02:51.880 --> 02:02:54.640 of thing, you know. I mean, And look, if time 2331 02:02:54.680 --> 02:02:58.439 is an illusion we're talking about like a human physical 2332 02:02:58.680 --> 02:03:01.199 thing as far as even the universe, as far as 2333 02:03:01.239 --> 02:03:04.279 time goes, I mean, it doesn't even pertain to exactly 2334 02:03:04.359 --> 02:03:05.119 what we are. 2335 02:03:05.680 --> 02:03:05.960 I mean. 2336 02:03:06.560 --> 02:03:09.439 And if we believe that, you know, energy can't be 2337 02:03:09.439 --> 02:03:13.000 created or destroyed, and that means that we exist literally 2338 02:03:13.239 --> 02:03:14.079 for infinity. 2339 02:03:14.319 --> 02:03:16.199 So there's not even a number that you can put 2340 02:03:16.199 --> 02:03:18.880 on that. So even whenever the universe was. 2341 02:03:20.479 --> 02:03:23.319 Right, that's what I'm saying, Even whenever the universe was created, 2342 02:03:23.840 --> 02:03:28.119 that just that's just whenever, like physical time it was created, 2343 02:03:28.600 --> 02:03:31.560 you know. So that's not even when we were created. 2344 02:03:31.800 --> 02:03:35.079 Because if we're energy and we can't be created or destroyed, 2345 02:03:35.439 --> 02:03:39.079 then that means that we have always and will always exist. 2346 02:03:39.720 --> 02:03:42.560 So it goes even beyond the Big Bang or when 2347 02:03:42.560 --> 02:03:45.640 the universe started, because the universe is just the material 2348 02:03:45.720 --> 02:03:51.159 manifested reality. Uh, it's it's a reality that we find 2349 02:03:51.199 --> 02:03:54.239 ourselves in. Right, It's not all the all the be 2350 02:03:54.359 --> 02:03:58.479 all end all kind of thing. I don't think. I mean, 2351 02:03:58.520 --> 02:04:01.199 because you think about it, like what if you know, 2352 02:04:01.279 --> 02:04:05.720 what if we existed in other universes and we were 2353 02:04:06.319 --> 02:04:11.000 aliens or we were watchers, or we were literally God 2354 02:04:11.159 --> 02:04:13.760 and that's who everybody was praying to us kind of thing, like. 2355 02:04:13.720 --> 02:04:14.560 It literally could be. 2356 02:04:14.840 --> 02:04:17.840 It could be that, like you're just an amoeba at 2357 02:04:17.880 --> 02:04:21.640 the bottom of a pond and you're interacting with other 2358 02:04:21.720 --> 02:04:25.279 amoebas and you're creating like new things, you know what 2359 02:04:25.279 --> 02:04:28.560 I mean, like evolutionary style or whatever. Yeah, I think 2360 02:04:28.600 --> 02:04:30.720 we probably existed as all of it. And that's something 2361 02:04:30.720 --> 02:04:32.960 that like even Dolores Cannon said, she goes, it was 2362 02:04:33.000 --> 02:04:35.119 probably a lifetime that you lived as a rock dude, 2363 02:04:35.439 --> 02:04:37.560 you know, like there's probably a lifetime you lived as a. 2364 02:04:37.520 --> 02:04:38.640 Blade of fucking grass. 2365 02:04:38.880 --> 02:04:40.640 Well, I mean, and that makes sense too when you 2366 02:04:40.640 --> 02:04:42.920 think about it, when you have those experiences and you 2367 02:04:43.000 --> 02:04:45.199 have that feeling of oneness and you look at the 2368 02:04:45.239 --> 02:04:48.439 tree and you say, oh, you know, like that thing 2369 02:04:48.520 --> 02:04:52.000 is definitely has something going on, whether it's consciousness or 2370 02:04:52.279 --> 02:04:53.960 whatever you want to call it. You know, there's that 2371 02:04:54.000 --> 02:04:59.560 oneness that that that individuation or not individuation, but you're 2372 02:04:59.560 --> 02:04:59.840 not so. 2373 02:05:00.079 --> 02:05:01.680 Print from it. 2374 02:05:01.800 --> 02:05:03.840 So if you were a tree at one point, then 2375 02:05:03.880 --> 02:05:06.119 maybe that's what you know what I mean, I don't know. 2376 02:05:06.239 --> 02:05:09.159 Well, and it's not the wood that you're connecting with, 2377 02:05:10.119 --> 02:05:12.840 you know, like it's not even the individual fibers of 2378 02:05:12.880 --> 02:05:16.239 the wood that you're connecting with. It is whatever is 2379 02:05:16.439 --> 02:05:22.319 keeping that tree alive, right, you know what energy itselves? Yeah, yeah, 2380 02:05:22.359 --> 02:05:25.880 and I think that that's what is familiar, you know, 2381 02:05:26.119 --> 02:05:28.000 like a tree, a tree is a tree, just like 2382 02:05:28.000 --> 02:05:30.840 a human body is just a human body. So it's 2383 02:05:30.880 --> 02:05:33.119 another car, you know, I do I've had like thirteen 2384 02:05:33.199 --> 02:05:36.000 fourteen cars in my lifetime. If I identified as one 2385 02:05:36.039 --> 02:05:39.479 of them, man, I'd be literally having to Fred Flintstone 2386 02:05:39.520 --> 02:05:41.640 my ass to work or to the grocery store every 2387 02:05:41.680 --> 02:05:44.520 day because that thing I either wrecked or you know 2388 02:05:44.520 --> 02:05:47.000 what I mean, like or the engine blew out or whatever. 2389 02:05:47.119 --> 02:05:52.000 So even identifying as Sean is putting you in such 2390 02:05:52.039 --> 02:05:55.640 a tiny little box. And so that's kind of the 2391 02:05:55.680 --> 02:05:58.039 way I like to look at things. And just I mean, 2392 02:05:58.079 --> 02:05:59.920 you know what it was like whenever I hip the 2393 02:06:00.279 --> 02:06:02.119 you did. You were a fucking I don't even know 2394 02:06:02.159 --> 02:06:02.560 what you were. 2395 02:06:02.640 --> 02:06:03.319 You were just an. 2396 02:06:03.279 --> 02:06:05.840 Energy, an orb or something, right, But you. 2397 02:06:05.800 --> 02:06:07.159 Were just infinite. 2398 02:06:07.279 --> 02:06:09.760 There was no beginning, there was no end, and I 2399 02:06:09.800 --> 02:06:12.159 mean you were an observer, but you couldn't have cared 2400 02:06:12.199 --> 02:06:14.319 less about what was gonna happen because you understood the 2401 02:06:14.359 --> 02:06:15.760 cyclical nature of life. 2402 02:06:16.239 --> 02:06:20.359 Yeah, and like infinite nature of it. No use getting saying. 2403 02:06:20.319 --> 02:06:23.479 No use getting upset over spilled milk, I mean, it 2404 02:06:23.560 --> 02:06:24.720 has to happen. 2405 02:06:24.520 --> 02:06:28.000 And scheme of things, right, yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't know. 2406 02:06:28.039 --> 02:06:29.840 It just got me thinking because I started thinking about 2407 02:06:29.840 --> 02:06:32.479 the what is it called the dow right And it's 2408 02:06:32.479 --> 02:06:37.199 almost like that effortless action. And so it's like then 2409 02:06:37.199 --> 02:06:39.199 I got to think I thought about that first and 2410 02:06:39.560 --> 02:06:42.359 based off what she was saying, and then thinking about 2411 02:06:42.359 --> 02:06:45.479 like not trying to like force things, right, trying not 2412 02:06:45.600 --> 02:06:48.520 to force a you know, a square peg into a 2413 02:06:48.560 --> 02:06:52.560 triangle hole, right, because I feel like in order to 2414 02:06:52.640 --> 02:06:55.199 just kind of be at your best, you need to 2415 02:06:55.279 --> 02:06:59.079 just be yourself and not constantly trying to force things. 2416 02:06:59.119 --> 02:07:02.159 And that goes in in any situation you can think of. 2417 02:07:02.279 --> 02:07:04.800 You know, if you're forcing yourself to go to this 2418 02:07:04.960 --> 02:07:08.439 job that you fucking hate, right, it's like you're forcing 2419 02:07:08.640 --> 02:07:11.840 and I feel like that's not in our nature. Like 2420 02:07:12.000 --> 02:07:15.840 nature itself isn't forcing anything. No, it's just naturally, it's 2421 02:07:15.880 --> 02:07:16.920 just doing it. 2422 02:07:17.640 --> 02:07:17.880 You know. 2423 02:07:18.079 --> 02:07:20.880 It all goes through a cycle. You know, think about 2424 02:07:20.920 --> 02:07:23.399 like the lifespan of a leaf. You know, at one 2425 02:07:23.399 --> 02:07:26.000 point it was nothing, and then at a certain point, 2426 02:07:26.079 --> 02:07:29.560 you know, spring came and water came and sunlight and wind, 2427 02:07:29.640 --> 02:07:32.239 and next thing you know, you're a little a little 2428 02:07:32.319 --> 02:07:35.840 leaf sprout, that's you know, sprouting off of the tiniest 2429 02:07:35.880 --> 02:07:38.159 little you know, twig. 2430 02:07:38.760 --> 02:07:42.479 Right. And I'm sorry, no, I was just. 2431 02:07:42.399 --> 02:07:44.319 Gonna say, And eventually you're gonna go through that cycle, 2432 02:07:44.399 --> 02:07:46.680 fall is gonna come, You're gonna die. It falls back 2433 02:07:46.680 --> 02:07:49.159 down to the ground, and eventually that sediment that you 2434 02:07:49.199 --> 02:07:50.800 know forms at the bottom of the ground, not even 2435 02:07:50.840 --> 02:07:54.840 just sediment, but you know, the the whatever the forest floor, right, 2436 02:07:55.399 --> 02:07:59.880 and that is ultimately what helps preserve the land and 2437 02:07:59.880 --> 02:08:01.880 the dirt and all the different nutrients and all the 2438 02:08:01.920 --> 02:08:05.840 bugs and everything else until eventually that life cycle comes 2439 02:08:05.880 --> 02:08:08.680 back around again and what you know it there's more 2440 02:08:08.760 --> 02:08:09.680 leaves that show up. 2441 02:08:09.840 --> 02:08:10.039 You know. 2442 02:08:10.399 --> 02:08:12.600 Yeah, and I yeah, So I was just thinking, like 2443 02:08:12.640 --> 02:08:15.119 how cool actually to think about it in that way, 2444 02:08:15.640 --> 02:08:17.680 not that you have to necessarily take that on as 2445 02:08:17.680 --> 02:08:18.359 a belief. 2446 02:08:18.159 --> 02:08:20.600 Or what have you. As far as like life not 2447 02:08:20.760 --> 02:08:21.960 even being like. 2448 02:08:22.079 --> 02:08:25.720 The the purpose of the universe, you know what I mean, 2449 02:08:25.760 --> 02:08:27.319 Like you look out and you don't see a whole 2450 02:08:27.319 --> 02:08:29.600 lot of life. You know, everything's just kind of you 2451 02:08:29.600 --> 02:08:32.159 see energy, you see you know, stars and things like this, 2452 02:08:32.319 --> 02:08:34.800 but as far as life as we know it, like 2453 02:08:34.920 --> 02:08:38.279 humans and animals, and you don't see that. And so 2454 02:08:38.359 --> 02:08:42.960 it almost seems like life itself wasn't the the purpose 2455 02:08:43.079 --> 02:08:46.880 or the ideal plan for the entire universe. Yet here 2456 02:08:46.920 --> 02:08:49.600 we are. And so when you think about it that 2457 02:08:49.640 --> 02:08:53.520 way you almost transmute it and say we're here in 2458 02:08:53.640 --> 02:08:58.720 spite of the universe not necessarily specifically planning us. 2459 02:08:59.199 --> 02:08:59.960 Well, just here we are. 2460 02:09:00.479 --> 02:09:03.039 And you know what I mean, all of the energy 2461 02:09:03.119 --> 02:09:08.119 that has ever been is all that there will ever be. Yeah, 2462 02:09:08.359 --> 02:09:10.920 you know, so like because there's no such thing as 2463 02:09:10.960 --> 02:09:15.279 non existence, Like you can't not exist. It's not possible, 2464 02:09:15.439 --> 02:09:18.760 like it it literally it's like zero like you know, 2465 02:09:18.880 --> 02:09:21.000 zero is not even a number, it's just a placeholder, 2466 02:09:21.600 --> 02:09:21.840 you know. 2467 02:09:23.079 --> 02:09:23.640 And sane. 2468 02:09:24.640 --> 02:09:26.119 Yeah, yeah, that's about it. 2469 02:09:27.119 --> 02:09:29.439 So yeah, dude, I just love thinking about that kind 2470 02:09:29.439 --> 02:09:31.039 of stuff too, So I'm happy you brought that up. 2471 02:09:32.119 --> 02:09:35.880 Yeah, yeah, what were you experiencing, dude? 2472 02:09:38.399 --> 02:09:38.920 You know what? 2473 02:09:39.039 --> 02:09:41.039 I felt like I was about to fall asleep, not 2474 02:09:41.119 --> 02:09:45.119 fall asleep, but I was like super super super deep 2475 02:09:45.359 --> 02:09:47.520 like theyd uh you know to where I was like 2476 02:09:48.079 --> 02:09:51.079 I forgot I was even meditating actually, like I was 2477 02:09:51.199 --> 02:09:56.600 just trying to go nowhere, you know, and just just 2478 02:09:56.920 --> 02:10:01.600 like recharge, you know, setting your phone on the charger 2479 02:10:01.640 --> 02:10:03.439 for the night, you forget about it, you wake up. 2480 02:10:03.479 --> 02:10:06.600 It's yeah, man, love it. 2481 02:10:06.960 --> 02:10:09.199 I think that's why like gurus and yogis and shit, 2482 02:10:09.279 --> 02:10:11.000 they they say that they don't even need to sleep, 2483 02:10:11.039 --> 02:10:13.439 but for like three or four hours at night, Well, 2484 02:10:13.479 --> 02:10:16.640 they're not wasting as much energy as we are. Well well, 2485 02:10:16.640 --> 02:10:18.640 and also think about all the rest they get in 2486 02:10:18.680 --> 02:10:21.239 their meditation. If they're meditating two, three, four times a 2487 02:10:21.319 --> 02:10:23.600 day for half an hour to an hour, a couple 2488 02:10:23.720 --> 02:10:28.920 hours or whatever, you're you're like not burning anything, right, 2489 02:10:29.000 --> 02:10:29.800 And how much. 2490 02:10:29.720 --> 02:10:32.239 Your energy could you exhaust if you're just blissed out 2491 02:10:32.439 --> 02:10:33.079 all day long. 2492 02:10:33.199 --> 02:10:35.800 Well, and there's no energy to exhaust whenever you're in 2493 02:10:35.840 --> 02:10:40.640 a state of rest anyway, you know, so I'm pretty 2494 02:10:40.640 --> 02:10:43.560 freaking cool dude. Anyway, all right, well, we got a 2495 02:10:43.920 --> 02:10:47.640 nice long list of a lineup for guests coming on 2496 02:10:47.680 --> 02:10:50.720 the show and it's gonna be awesome. Can't wait for that. 2497 02:10:51.119 --> 02:10:53.319 Lord Byron's going to be coming on this Wednesday night 2498 02:10:53.359 --> 02:10:56.640 for Wednesdays, Yes, so be on the lookout for that. 2499 02:10:56.640 --> 02:10:59.359 That's gonna be a fun one. And uh many more 2500 02:10:59.439 --> 02:11:02.640 awesome guests coming in the future. So yeah, we uh 2501 02:11:03.359 --> 02:11:04.640 we'll see all on flip side. 2502 02:11:05.199 --> 02:12:17.039 I guess keep