Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction unplugged because we will always say
yes to creativity, totally uncut because we all make mistakes.
So turn it into a tool. This is arrow unplugged,
hey Saro, And this is vocal d frag. Defragging is
asking yourself the questions and then questioning the answers. I
say it that way because we tend to run to
a lot of people for answers. And you think, Bobby
down the street knows my life. He hasn't lived in
my shoes. Why am I running to Bobby for answers?
That's just the way we are. It's the way that
we're raised. We get in these circles with friends and
we think that this is the one and only way
because this friend looks to be having a great life.
I want to be like them. They're always smiling, They're
always buying new things. I want their life. Do you
do you? Is that buying really a happy time or
are they using that buying to put some shadows over
the dark times. That's what defragging is, where you ask
the questions. I do it written journal, and I also
do it here the vocal DFRAG because it became a mission,
a calling dude, why are you being so damned selfish
with your writing in a d FRAG journal when a
lot of people around the world need to know what
defragging is where they can ask themselves the questions and
then question the answers. This is vocal d frag kind
of a heavy subject in this week. This came to
me and my writing, especially after while I was defragging,
I said, so, is there a subject at all this week?
And I said no, I'm empty. I said this one's
totally out of my hands, and I swear to God,
not even three seconds later, something hit my page and
it said this writing, are you just telling a story?
Is it your story? And my answer, remember, ask the
question and then question the answer. My answer was this, no,
it's not my story, it's my exploration. And from that
moment came another thing. Now I know why people don't
write their stories. They don't use a journal because in
their own personal explorations, they don't like what they're locating.
And when you don't like what you locate, what do
we do? We turn and we walk away. That one
moment that could have been the needle in the haystack,
And because during our personal explorations. You know, those thoughts
in your head, it's still writing. Yeah, those those dark thoughts,
those thoughts of fear and anxiety, it's still writing. I
don't care if you put it on a page or
you keep it in your head and heart. You're still
writing your thoughts. So I asked the question, is it
your story or is it your exploration? It's a very
easy subject to talk about, but it's very difficult to digest.
I've ump be in to creative minds all the time
that always ask me questions. And what I do in
return is I say, don't ask me what you're thinking.
Ask yourself. Now tell me what your answer is. And
what happens is is that gives them an opportunity to
kind of lay out the groundwork of Oh well, I
kind of wanted you to say this to me. I
didn't want to hear it from me. See what I mean,
Your explorations are things that you don't want to face,
and so when you don't want to face it, we
turn and walk away or we try to ignore it.
I was writing in my defrank journal this morning about
how I am not the person I was between nineteen
eighty one and nineteen ninety two, eleven years of my
life that still haunt me even today. Am I writing
the story or am I exploring? I'm sure not living
in that past. I just know where I've been. I
heard a preacher recently tell me. He goes, sometimes you
need to sit down with a piece of paper and
just say I give this energy away to the higher power.
And see a lot of people when they do something
like that, they expect to be fixed immediately. But the
preacher man said one thing. He said, let the anxiety
move through you, and the next step is awareness. See
what I mean the exploration. We're always seeking something. We
want that new car, We're seeking to have the best
things on Amazon Prime Day. We want something so that
we can hide what it is that we don't want
to face during our daily explorations. We're on a journey.
I wish people would admit that, But people go, yeah,
I'm living day by day. But that's very difficult to
do for not only me, but probably for you as well,
because we allow the writing or the scrolls in our
head to control whether we are writing our own story
or are we exploring? And I asked that question, what
are you doing? Which is the one that carries the
most importance. Now answer it in a way that's going
to lead to another question. If it is exploring, then
my thing would be what are the things that you're
exploring that's keeping you from reaching a higher level of
a better self. Asking the questions than questioning the answers.
It's not judgment. It's not putting yourself on the spot
and then going, well I failed myself again. Well, you
know what, I failed myself every day. But how I
picked myself back up is I asked the questions and
I questioned the answers, and I realized, you know what,
that wasn't a failure, that was just a baby step.
So it didn't go the way I wanted it to.
So dinner last night, I burnt the chicken. Does that
mean my life as a chef in my own kitchen
is over? Oh? Hell no. I just won't pull that
move ever again. See allow the anxiety to move through you,
because the next step is awareness. We're seeking something and
what we seek. Maybe a reason why we're trying to
hide and why we hide is because we don't want
to sit in what we're thinking about. We want to
break free of the things that we're thinking about you. See,
our mind is constantly writing. You don't have to do
it on a page. You don't have to do it
on social media. Your mind is constantly writing. It's trying
to find something, and when it doesn't find what it's
looking for, then you're going to become anxiety filled and
you're going to be stressed out. There are many times
in my daily writing that I want to share a
story because I know that my eyes aren't the only
eyes that are going to touch these pages in the
years and decades ahead. I want to share the experience.
I want to bring life to the page in a
way of oh my god, that really happened. No way,
Well it's in his own words here, Okay. We all
have that. We're all storytellers because we live off the story.
But in the moments of exploring the future eyes or
the dear future reader, what happens is they're not going
to understand the exploration, just as much as we don't
under the exploration that we're living right now. I once
had an editor for my second book, Anotherenty twenty one Thoughts.
She wrote to me and said, I can't do this.
I can't edit this book. It's too sad, And I
thought to myself, it's too sad, and it's too sad.
It's a book of realism. No, I just can't believe
that this stuff was happening to you. It's too sad
for me to think that you went through this. And
that's when I sat down with her and I said,
you have to understand what I went through could actually
be the answer for somebody else who is going through
or the signs of them going through it are right
there in front of them that you may not understand
where I was during those times that I was writing,
not the story but the exploration. But somebody will pick
this up and they will hold in their hands an
opportunity to find peace over anger. So I'll ask again,
very simple. When you are writing, remember thinking is writing.
You're writing that story. You've got scrolls in your head
by the way that you think when you are writing.
Are you telling a story or are you exploring? I
invite you to do both. It's an amazing adventure. But
you've got to ask the questions and question the answers.
Get to know you before you get to know the
new neighbor. Johnny Bay, Yeah, he's got a cool name.
He must be a radio disc jockey or a rock
star Johnny Bay. Do you know his story, do you
know his explorations? Then stop assuming I'm Eryl and that's
vocal dfrak