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Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction unplugged because we will always say

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yes to creativity, totally uncut because we all make mistakes.

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So turn it into a tool. This is arrow unplugged,

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hey Saro, And this is vocal d frag. Defragging is

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asking yourself the questions and then questioning the answers. I

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say it that way because we tend to run to

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a lot of people for answers. And you think, Bobby

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down the street knows my life. He hasn't lived in

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my shoes. Why am I running to Bobby for answers?

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That's just the way we are. It's the way that

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we're raised. We get in these circles with friends and

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we think that this is the one and only way

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because this friend looks to be having a great life.

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I want to be like them. They're always smiling, They're

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always buying new things. I want their life. Do you

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do you? Is that buying really a happy time or

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are they using that buying to put some shadows over

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the dark times. That's what defragging is, where you ask

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the questions. I do it written journal, and I also

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do it here the vocal DFRAG because it became a mission,

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a calling dude, why are you being so damned selfish

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with your writing in a d FRAG journal when a

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lot of people around the world need to know what

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defragging is where they can ask themselves the questions and

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then question the answers. This is vocal d frag kind

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of a heavy subject in this week. This came to

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me and my writing, especially after while I was defragging,

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I said, so, is there a subject at all this week?

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And I said no, I'm empty. I said this one's

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totally out of my hands, and I swear to God,

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not even three seconds later, something hit my page and

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it said this writing, are you just telling a story?

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Is it your story? And my answer, remember, ask the

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question and then question the answer. My answer was this, no,

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it's not my story, it's my exploration. And from that

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moment came another thing. Now I know why people don't

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write their stories. They don't use a journal because in

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their own personal explorations, they don't like what they're locating.

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And when you don't like what you locate, what do

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we do? We turn and we walk away. That one

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moment that could have been the needle in the haystack,

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And because during our personal explorations. You know, those thoughts

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in your head, it's still writing. Yeah, those those dark thoughts,

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those thoughts of fear and anxiety, it's still writing. I

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don't care if you put it on a page or

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you keep it in your head and heart. You're still

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writing your thoughts. So I asked the question, is it

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your story or is it your exploration? It's a very

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easy subject to talk about, but it's very difficult to digest.

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I've ump be in to creative minds all the time

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that always ask me questions. And what I do in

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return is I say, don't ask me what you're thinking.

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Ask yourself. Now tell me what your answer is. And

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what happens is is that gives them an opportunity to

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kind of lay out the groundwork of Oh well, I

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kind of wanted you to say this to me. I

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didn't want to hear it from me. See what I mean,

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Your explorations are things that you don't want to face,

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and so when you don't want to face it, we

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turn and walk away or we try to ignore it.

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I was writing in my defrank journal this morning about

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how I am not the person I was between nineteen

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eighty one and nineteen ninety two, eleven years of my

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life that still haunt me even today. Am I writing

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the story or am I exploring? I'm sure not living

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in that past. I just know where I've been. I

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heard a preacher recently tell me. He goes, sometimes you

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need to sit down with a piece of paper and

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just say I give this energy away to the higher power.

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And see a lot of people when they do something

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like that, they expect to be fixed immediately. But the

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preacher man said one thing. He said, let the anxiety

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move through you, and the next step is awareness. See

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what I mean the exploration. We're always seeking something. We

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want that new car, We're seeking to have the best

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things on Amazon Prime Day. We want something so that

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we can hide what it is that we don't want

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to face during our daily explorations. We're on a journey.

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I wish people would admit that, But people go, yeah,

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I'm living day by day. But that's very difficult to

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do for not only me, but probably for you as well,

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because we allow the writing or the scrolls in our

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head to control whether we are writing our own story

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or are we exploring? And I asked that question, what

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are you doing? Which is the one that carries the

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most importance. Now answer it in a way that's going

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to lead to another question. If it is exploring, then

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my thing would be what are the things that you're

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exploring that's keeping you from reaching a higher level of

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a better self. Asking the questions than questioning the answers.

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It's not judgment. It's not putting yourself on the spot

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and then going, well I failed myself again. Well, you

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know what, I failed myself every day. But how I

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picked myself back up is I asked the questions and

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I questioned the answers, and I realized, you know what,

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that wasn't a failure, that was just a baby step.

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So it didn't go the way I wanted it to.

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So dinner last night, I burnt the chicken. Does that

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mean my life as a chef in my own kitchen

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is over? Oh? Hell no. I just won't pull that

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move ever again. See allow the anxiety to move through you,

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because the next step is awareness. We're seeking something and

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what we seek. Maybe a reason why we're trying to

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hide and why we hide is because we don't want

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to sit in what we're thinking about. We want to

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break free of the things that we're thinking about you. See,

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our mind is constantly writing. You don't have to do

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it on a page. You don't have to do it

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on social media. Your mind is constantly writing. It's trying

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to find something, and when it doesn't find what it's

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looking for, then you're going to become anxiety filled and

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you're going to be stressed out. There are many times

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in my daily writing that I want to share a

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story because I know that my eyes aren't the only

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eyes that are going to touch these pages in the

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years and decades ahead. I want to share the experience.

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I want to bring life to the page in a

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way of oh my god, that really happened. No way,

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Well it's in his own words here, Okay. We all

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have that. We're all storytellers because we live off the story.

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But in the moments of exploring the future eyes or

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the dear future reader, what happens is they're not going

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to understand the exploration, just as much as we don't

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under the exploration that we're living right now. I once

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had an editor for my second book, Anotherenty twenty one Thoughts.

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She wrote to me and said, I can't do this.

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I can't edit this book. It's too sad, And I

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thought to myself, it's too sad, and it's too sad.

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It's a book of realism. No, I just can't believe

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that this stuff was happening to you. It's too sad

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for me to think that you went through this. And

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that's when I sat down with her and I said,

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you have to understand what I went through could actually

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be the answer for somebody else who is going through

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or the signs of them going through it are right

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there in front of them that you may not understand

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where I was during those times that I was writing,

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not the story but the exploration. But somebody will pick

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this up and they will hold in their hands an

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opportunity to find peace over anger. So I'll ask again,

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very simple. When you are writing, remember thinking is writing.

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You're writing that story. You've got scrolls in your head

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by the way that you think when you are writing.

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Are you telling a story or are you exploring? I

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invite you to do both. It's an amazing adventure. But

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you've got to ask the questions and question the answers.

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Get to know you before you get to know the

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new neighbor. Johnny Bay, Yeah, he's got a cool name.

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He must be a radio disc jockey or a rock

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star Johnny Bay. Do you know his story, do you

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know his explorations? Then stop assuming I'm Eryl and that's

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vocal dfrak