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enjoy tonight's story. Hi, it's Devlin and welcome to another

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episode of Wild in Bed, your destination for salacious stories,

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passionate prose, and fingerlicking good fantasies. You know this podcast

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is best enjoyed laying on your bed. You might want

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to loosen any clothing or maybe completely naked as you

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surrender to my voice and give yourself permission to enjoy

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every word, every sound, every touch as if it was

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really happening to you right now. For the next thirty

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minutes or so, it's just you and my voice. This

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is your time, your time to relax, your time to

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let your inhibitions go, your time for sensuous pleasure. As

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you close your eyes and take a deep breath and

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just hold it for a moment and let it go

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with a sigh, letting all the stress of the week

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go as you listen to my words and hear my

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voice moving over and inside your body as you surrender

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to this week's story, ignoring the stings of brambles, I

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push heavily through the undergrowth. The pain of the thorns

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against my flesh, nothing is compared to what is aching

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inside my heart. Why, for fuck's sake, why when I

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scream my head looking up at the sky, tears burning

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my cheeks, dragging myself up the embankment, with the moonlight

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giving me something to guide me, and like a moth

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to the flame. As I returned to the one place

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I've always gone to think, the place where it all started,

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Not caring that I'm still in a three hundred dollar

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business suit, I plow through the mud, my shoes ruined,

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my skirt ripped on the side, No hands to help me,

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no words to comfort me, never again. As I reached

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the wall, I angrily hurled my bag at the ground,

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the full moon blurred by the tears flooding mercilessly from

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my eyes. You fucking promised, you promised to come back,

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both of you. My voiced hoarse from crying, I spin

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around with my arms outstretched somehow, hoping they can hear

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me always and forever. You said, lies, oh lies, And

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I U d not a hundred yards from the base.

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How did no one not see them? Planting it. How, how,

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just fucking how? As I sit on the stone, our stone,

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my arms tighten around me, as I raised my knees

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up to my chest, remembering that last night, the night

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I had become an adult by time and a woman

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by the touch of those two men. I couldn't choose

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between them, How could anyone? Both of them fueled my

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passion in so many ways. In some ways they were

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chalking cheese, But together there were more than any man

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I have ever met. And on that night, when we

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consummated our relationships, the three of us together, melting as

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one in perfect union, I new love, then a new passion, lust,

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deep satisfaction. They promised me forever. But now that has

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all been taking away from me. Please come back, Please,

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my God, I need you, I need you both. My

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voice is barely recognizable through the hill of tears. I

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can't go home. It's our home, us three, nothing but

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walls full of memories, broken promises and pain. Now motionless,

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my heart in my throat, I don't move, my body,

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numb as I wait for an answer, as I wait

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for any fucking thing. Minutes maybe hours drift by the

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moon glares at me, cold and unfeeling as a crisp

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night air begins to bite hard onto my skin. What

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happened to worry is always coming back here? Tell me,

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fucking tell me that was obviously bullshit. My screams echoed

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along the tree line. Not a sound, not a whisper

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in response, nothing to acknowledge the pain I feel right now.

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For the first time in my life, I have no one,

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not a single soul. I am completely alone, completely hopeless.

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The memories of that last night flooded my mind, the

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stories of how this place, this place where I gave

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them my innocence, this place where they told me people

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could always return to even after they'd lost their lives,

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the lies I'd believed, the romantic notions that were nothing

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but promises. In the dark, alone and desperate, I searched

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the clearing for an indication, a hint, a hope that

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they are here. With the stabbing pain in my chest unyielding,

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I'm struggling to catch my breath as the first stages

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of a panic attack take me back to when Dad died,

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to when Mum died. At least then I had the

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twins to lean on. I had hope, someone to talk to,

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someone to ease the heartache. Now there's no one Through

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the veil of panic, I scrabble for thoughts. I have

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to calm down, otherwise this will be my last resting place.

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But then again, that might not be a bad thing.

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At least I might have another chance to be with them.

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Grabbing my bag, I open the inner zip pocket and

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remove one of the joints that I keep tucked away

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for stress at work. I lift it between my lips,

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click the lighter to life, and breathe deep until the

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end of the filter paper crackles with an orange glow.

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After a long deep drag, I hold my breath for

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a moment, just long enough to give it time to circulate.

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Already the pain in my chest begins to subside. I

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slowly finish the entire joint, letting the weed do its work,

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letting my thoughts ease as much as they possibly can,

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and allowing the panic to subside. Still unable to think

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about now, tomorrow, or anything else, as if my mind

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had been barricaded by its own stone wall, all I

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can do is think, why why did you two go?

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Why did you leave me? The moon baths are clearing

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in a silvery glow, framing the center of the fireplace.

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In a cold, emotionless light, the night air bites even deeper,

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causing me to shiver violently. I reach into my bag

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and pull out a set of notes from work earlier.

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As I scrunch a few up, I press the flame

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of the lighter against them. The amber glow that dances

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across the paper affords me that first hint of warmth,

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easing my shivers. Desperately trying to remember how the Twins

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had laid a fire, I grab any loose bits of

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dry twigs I can find and pile them slowly on

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the glowing pile of papers. Gradually, the flames spread and

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flicker across the twigs, hardly as impressive as the fires

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I'd seen the Twins numerous times, but it was still warmth.

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With my back against a stone, I huddle on the

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ground and bring my knees back up to my chest,

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with my thoughts lost in the gently dancing flames, my

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mind empty of anything but pain and agony and sadness.

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Although my eyes are stinging and dry from hours of

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crying from somewhere, another flood of tears cascades down my cheeks. Left, ye,

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you left me those a few when you said you

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never would. My voice cracks with desperate pain and loneliness.

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As the fire crackles and grows, the shadows dancing around me,

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circling me, thankful for the heat, however small. A nightwind

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picks up. Suddenly the trees begin to howl in empathy

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with my pain. Their resonant song somehow reminded me of

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that stupid drum beat that Crisp played. The dull, throbbing

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sound echoing around the clearing, with the wound, moving the

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trees as if they were swaying in time with the

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eerie dance of the fire. Somewhere in the distance, a

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crack of thunder warns of a coming storm. Strangely, the

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fire responds to the thunder and bursts into life, impossibly

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intense given the amount of twigs I've put on it.

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Mesmerized by the dance of the flames, the distant sounds

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of drums, there's surely just a figment of my imagination.

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It's as if the shadows are encompassing me, holding me.

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A whisper of the wind blows across my face. Suddenly

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I can feel my sanity vanishing into the void of anxiety.

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The fantasy of my imagination, removing any semblance of reality.

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The flames dance higher, more aggressively, as if trying to

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burst out from the confines of the fire, or try

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to escape whatever prison they are trapped in. Shadows move

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ominously around the circle, coming to life from the life

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giving warmth of the flames. All the time, the drums

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become louder, closer, the wind stronger, warmer, another breeze, another whisper, stronger, louder, closer, weir.

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The words echo, as if caught in some endless tunnel,

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or trapped in some far off well of despair. Edging

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back into the stone, unnerved and anxious by the drama

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unfolding around me, I search around the clearing for signs

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of life, A warm shiver lifting up my spine and

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the hair on my neck. Standing at attention, who's sir?

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I cry out, trembling, goosebumps peppering my skin, vulnerability dripping

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from every word. The wind whispers, the warm breeze caresses

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my face like a warm palm, gently wiping my tears away.

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I stand bolt upright in full panic and grab myself

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home from my bag, while looking around hurriedly, stress and

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fear and panic oozing from every pore. Whoever the fuck

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you are. I'm cooling the cops, holding up my phone

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to show I'm serious. It's screenlight glowing in the dark

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of the night. I and on my heel to look

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all around me. I really am going mad. My senses

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are all over the map, and mine can't handle all

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the pain. A wind blows the shadows around me, and

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it feels like a warm glow, holding me for a moment,

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wind whispering shadows engulfing me, holding me as the strength

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of the wind pushes against my face and presses the

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shadows against me. I close my eyes and succumbed to

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the will of the shadows, feeling my cheek press hard

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against a firm chest, listening to the gentle beat of

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a heart in time with the drums. Slowly, quietly, but

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there I can feel it, a body firmly pressed against me,

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my rock when everything else goes wrong, another crack of thunder. Strangely,

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the wind starts blowing in two directions at once, pressing

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a shadow behind me, strong arms holding me, comforting me,

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the press of biceps against me, holding me close, never

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letting me go. A moist breeze caresses my neck, in

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lighting a second set of goosebumps across my body. A

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submissive moan drops from my lips. I need you, don't go,

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I whisper. The tandem breezes blow around me, overlapping, gentle

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and sensuous. This shadow at the front of my body

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presses hard against every inch of me. The unmistakable sensation

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of a throbbing erection pushes hungrily into my belly. The

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drum beats become quicker, louder, closer with every passing second.

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That urge and pressure, that unnatural desire, pushes from behind me,

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swelling against my ass. The wind whips around me, quickly,

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deezing at my most sensitive ring and pushing gently inside, probing, exploring,

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swelling inside of me. It forces a loud moan from

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somewhere deep inside. The wet lips of my pussy stretches.

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The undeniable girth of passion pushes deep inside of me, thrusting, pushing, pulsing, fucking,

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Oh Jesus Christ, Yes, imperfect union. The throbbing shadow behind

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me pushes into my ass unforgivingly, harshly. It thrusts harder

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and harder, deeper, almost punishing. I pussy and my ass

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are full with top throbbing lust and two thick, warm cocks.

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Another breeze whips angrily at my clead, the sting replaced

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by the long gusts of wind, licking, tasting, sucking. Another

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strong breeze circles my nipples, biting them, sucking them so

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hard they ache, and forcing electricity burning through my body.

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Orm breezes press onto my lips and tease at my

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tongue with long, deep lashes, caressing my neck, whipping it gently.

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My body clutches with lustful need, trying to hold back

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the orgasm that is already flooding over my body. My

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clip throbs relentlessly as the breeze licks at it, stinging

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it and then soothing with long, slow caresses. The swelling

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inside me pushes at my core, threatening to explode, as

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my body tenses in anticipation, in lust, in love, in

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absolute bliss, as my orgasm explodes hungrily Forcily, my body

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grasping at the throbbing desire inside as it explodes in

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my ass, in my pussy, feeding my entire lower body

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with the hot threads of thick come. I clapsed back

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against a stone and opened my eyes to the silvery

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glow of the moon, etching the images of Richard and

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Chris onto the shadows, the flames of the fire dancing

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over them, filling their images with a passionate glow. You

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came back. A gentle pressure pushes on my chest, as

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if a hand was being placed on my heart. We

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never left, always here, the unspoken words just seemed to

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appear in my mind. Sliding down the stone to sit

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on the ground, the shadows engulfed me more a warm embrace, protecting, safe, loving.

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Slowly reality dawns in my mind. Do I have to

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come up here every time I want to see you?

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Hoping for all that I am worth that the answer

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is no. Somehow I already know. Suddenly a stone drops

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from the top of the wall into the fire, cracking

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with the heat to night. You rest here, You will

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be safe with us. Tomorrow morning you can check that stone.

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It's a present. Hm hm. Sleep steals over me, not

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wanting this to end. For the first time in four years,

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I feel relaxed as I surrender to the desire of

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sleep that invades every cell. The sweet songs of birds

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awaken me in the bright morning sun. There are no drums,

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no shadows, and the fire is burned down to a

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few smoldering twigs. Wondering for a moment if last night

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was just a wild dream induced by my need and

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a more than ample dose of weed. Confused, I lift

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myself from the ground. The early morning sun caresses my

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face as I stand up to walk to the dying

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embers of the fire. The stone that fell into the

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fire last night still pulsates with an amber glow. Poking

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it with a stray branch from the ground, it shatters

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into dust. One golden glass like shard sits on top

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of the remains of the stone. No breeze, no whisper,

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just a thought, an intuition in my head, nervously touching

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the gold and shard just with my fingertip, expecting it

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to see my skin pulling back as soon as I

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touch it in nervous reaction. The gentle warmth of its

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glistening surface prizes me holding my breath. I must at

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all the courage I can, and grasp it firmly, pulling

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it from the smoldering embers, its warm, loving glows spreading

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over my hands, my arms. The constant tension I have

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felt for the past four years subsides. Putting it up

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into the morning sunlight, it glimmers with an inner glow,

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as if a light no two lights next to each

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other were shining inside. We are here always and forever.

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The thought appears not in my head, but in my heart,

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impermeates my whole body. Eventually, returning home, my bag falls

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heavily on the floor. As I walked through to my kitchen,

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A dull thud reminded me of all the things I

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would have emptied out of eat years ago. My twinge

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of loneliness moves over me as I hear my footsteps

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across the wooden floor, their echo reminding me that it

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is only me here now. Grabbing a bottle of water

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from my refrigerator, I drink heavily, quenching the dehydration that

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has burned at my throat this morning. With the bottle

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already half empty, a rush of light headedness forces me

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onto a barstall at my breakfast bar. The need for

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stability in this whirlpool of insanity too strong to bear anymore.

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For a moment, I study the bottle of clear water,

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desperate to cling to whatever sanity I have left am

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I to be cursed with the pain of insanity as

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well as a stabbing ache of anxiety, not knowing where

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reality ends, and my dream like fantasies begin. Resisting the

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urge to start another joint, fearing it might take me

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into a strom of madness and a life lived out

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in fantasy. I toy you with the one material thing

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from last night, the one real thing, the stone that

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sits in my pocket. Building up the courage to look

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at it again, I take a deep breath, studying it

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for a moment. It is glossy surface, reflecting gold warm

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light around my small kitchen. That glow seems to fill

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the whole room, noting for the first time that it

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is shaped like a tear drop. I fight the urge

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to cry again, my eyes still sting from all the

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tears that I have cried over the past twenty four hours.

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I don't think I have anything left to cry with. Slowly, gently,

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a warmth emanates from the stone, spreading through my whole body,

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the feeling of desperate, despair and loneliness subsiding with the

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wave of loving warmth. I close my eyes to submit

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to the feeling moving across my body. As I opened

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them again. The sunlight is captured beautifully by the stone,

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refracting it across every surface, the golden rainbow pushing shadows

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around me, embracing me. We are here, always, forever confused

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and lost. The shadows move closer around me, tightening their

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warm grasp on me, filling me with love and security

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as they press along my body, transforming into the bodies.

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I need the men. I love the desires that satisfy

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me endlessly. Hmm, Well, I hope that's got you in

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the motor a little sensuous fun. So until next time,

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and always with your pleasure in mind. This is Devil

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in Wild wish you use salacious dreams as you have

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