1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,720 Speaker 1: What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:05,879 Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're going to pick up 3 00:00:05,879 --> 00:00:10,359 where we left off with Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaire's 4 00:00:10,400 --> 00:00:13,599 Playboy Club. The next morning was goodbye for most of 5 00:00:13,640 --> 00:00:17,280 the visitors, leaving just the usual behind. Soaking in the 6 00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:19,640 sun and living it up in the lap of luxury 7 00:00:19,719 --> 00:00:22,239 is how the next few weeks were spent before having 8 00:00:22,320 --> 00:00:25,760 to get back to the dredges of the city. Sometimes 9 00:00:25,760 --> 00:00:28,079 we'd have to go to Saint John's Island for Jeffrey 10 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:30,800 to do some work in the office, listening to him 11 00:00:30,800 --> 00:00:34,439 on the phone, or coming down on some poor employee 12 00:00:34,439 --> 00:00:38,039 for something stupid like not answering the phone correctly. If 13 00:00:38,079 --> 00:00:39,799 I knew he was going to be a while, I 14 00:00:39,840 --> 00:00:42,520 would excuse myself for a bit of shopping. Not that 15 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,240 the Caribbean had much to offer in the world of fashion, 16 00:00:45,679 --> 00:00:48,159 but there was never an amount of bikinis one girl 17 00:00:48,159 --> 00:00:50,640 could own, and I loved all the little knick knacks 18 00:00:50,679 --> 00:00:53,520 I could find there. Flying back on a private jet 19 00:00:53,799 --> 00:00:56,320 was the best part, because I could transport just about 20 00:00:56,359 --> 00:00:59,200 anything I wanted back to my apartment, which was already 21 00:00:59,240 --> 00:01:03,479 filled with an assortment from my shopping adventures and collections 22 00:01:03,479 --> 00:01:06,879 of seashells from the Caribbean. The next big dinner party 23 00:01:06,879 --> 00:01:10,120 on the island had another significant guest appearance, being the 24 00:01:10,120 --> 00:01:13,120 one and only Bill Clinton. He's the only president in 25 00:01:13,159 --> 00:01:16,120 the world to be dismissed from his role as a 26 00:01:16,120 --> 00:01:18,879 world leader because he was caught with his trousers around 27 00:01:18,879 --> 00:01:22,280 his ankles and had the stain to prove it publicly, 28 00:01:22,400 --> 00:01:25,840 humiliating his wife and himself. He retired from his title, 29 00:01:26,120 --> 00:01:29,280 but not from his lifestyle. This wasn't a big party 30 00:01:29,319 --> 00:01:31,120 as such, only a few of us eating at the 31 00:01:31,159 --> 00:01:34,000 dinner table. There was Jeffrey at the head of it, 32 00:01:34,040 --> 00:01:37,079 as always. On the left side was Emmy, Golaine and I. 33 00:01:37,599 --> 00:01:40,719 Sitting across the table from us was Bill with two 34 00:01:40,760 --> 00:01:44,040 lovely girls who were visiting from New York. Bill's wife. 35 00:01:44,120 --> 00:01:46,920 Hillary's absence from the night made it easy for his 36 00:01:46,959 --> 00:01:50,400 apparent provocative, cheeky side to come out, teasing the girls 37 00:01:50,400 --> 00:01:53,799 on either side of them with playful pokes and brassy comments. 38 00:01:54,239 --> 00:01:56,760 There was no modesty between any of them. We all 39 00:01:56,799 --> 00:02:01,560 finished our meals and scattered in our own different directions. 40 00:02:02,079 --> 00:02:05,519 Jeffrey wanted his evening massage before bed, and Glaine and 41 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:08,439 Emmy went to their office to talk about something, leaving 42 00:02:08,520 --> 00:02:12,000 our guests of honor to find company elsewhere. Strolling into 43 00:02:12,000 --> 00:02:15,240 the darkness with two beautiful girls around either arm, Bill 44 00:02:15,439 --> 00:02:18,680 seemed content or retire for the evening. He wanted to 45 00:02:18,680 --> 00:02:20,960 have a hot bath before bed. Well. I began the 46 00:02:20,960 --> 00:02:23,919 massage in the tub, starting with his feet in calves. 47 00:02:24,080 --> 00:02:27,120 He wanted to end the night quickly. Never showing any restraint, 48 00:02:27,120 --> 00:02:29,039 he sat up on the edge of the tub and 49 00:02:29,159 --> 00:02:33,120 asked me to perform on a morley. I did my job, 50 00:02:33,159 --> 00:02:36,319 but that's all our relationship was these days, a dreadful job. 51 00:02:36,639 --> 00:02:38,840 Getting it over and done with as quick as possible 52 00:02:39,199 --> 00:02:41,319 was my hope. But I couldn't let him pick up 53 00:02:41,560 --> 00:02:44,360 on those vibes. To make him enticed, I had to 54 00:02:44,360 --> 00:02:47,479 act like his little porn star, knowing exactly how he 55 00:02:47,560 --> 00:02:51,039 wanted it. Only then would my duties be fulfilled and 56 00:02:51,120 --> 00:02:53,080 I would be able to go back to the reality 57 00:02:53,120 --> 00:02:55,919 of my complicated life. Before I could say good night, 58 00:02:56,159 --> 00:02:59,240 Jeffrey had one more request. He wanted me to tuck 59 00:02:59,319 --> 00:03:02,080 him under the blankets and fluff his pillows for him. 60 00:03:02,599 --> 00:03:05,919 Then I had to reach under the covers and massage 61 00:03:05,960 --> 00:03:10,080 his feet while watching him fall asleep. He even wanted 62 00:03:10,080 --> 00:03:12,560 me to wait like twenty minutes or so after he 63 00:03:12,599 --> 00:03:16,439 fell asleep before I could leave. It wasn't unusual for 64 00:03:16,520 --> 00:03:18,960 him to ask it, but God, I hated it. Never 65 00:03:19,039 --> 00:03:21,560 offering it, I would always wait for him to request it. 66 00:03:22,520 --> 00:03:25,120 Once he was snoring gently, I weiped my hands clean 67 00:03:25,120 --> 00:03:28,000 of the lotion and quietly close the doors to his room. 68 00:03:28,680 --> 00:03:31,719 Make my way up the outdoor spiraling staircase. I felt 69 00:03:31,719 --> 00:03:34,439 the breeze blow through my hair, and I looked up 70 00:03:34,479 --> 00:03:37,680 to the heavens. The stars shone so bright out here 71 00:03:37,759 --> 00:03:40,240 in the middle of nowhere, with no big city lights 72 00:03:40,280 --> 00:03:42,879 to hinder their effect. I could get lost in time 73 00:03:43,080 --> 00:03:47,360 staring into them. No matter how far gone I really felt, 74 00:03:47,479 --> 00:03:50,639 there was always something about a simple caress from the wind, 75 00:03:51,080 --> 00:03:54,400 or the reflection of the stars sweeping sky in the black, 76 00:03:54,439 --> 00:03:57,360 glossy ocean that would always remind me of my fond 77 00:03:57,360 --> 00:04:01,639 love of nature's blessings. Back in New York, there was 78 00:04:01,639 --> 00:04:04,599 nothing left of nature to adorn. It was a dwelling 79 00:04:04,680 --> 00:04:07,280 for those who no longer saw the use for trees 80 00:04:07,319 --> 00:04:11,159 without cages, or blue skies without clouds of man made 81 00:04:11,159 --> 00:04:15,599 fumes and gases. Unfortunately, if we weren't in the Caribbean, 82 00:04:16,240 --> 00:04:19,079 we were there in New York, hardly going back to 83 00:04:19,120 --> 00:04:22,079 Palm Beach, barely even seeing my family, my dog or 84 00:04:22,120 --> 00:04:25,240 TJ these days at all. In my parents' heads, I 85 00:04:25,279 --> 00:04:27,920 was all grown up and educated in the ways of 86 00:04:27,959 --> 00:04:31,600 the world and wealth, not needing them any longer. They 87 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:33,680 would just wait for my call once in a while 88 00:04:33,879 --> 00:04:36,600 to let them know how I was doing, and that 89 00:04:36,879 --> 00:04:40,439 was the extent of our restricted relationship. The road my 90 00:04:40,519 --> 00:04:43,199 life was let down never has kept me close to 91 00:04:43,279 --> 00:04:47,240 home anyways, So to me it wasn't anything unordinary, but 92 00:04:47,399 --> 00:04:49,680 still a sad existence to be without a family on 93 00:04:49,720 --> 00:04:52,680 my own. It would have been nice to have been missed, 94 00:04:52,680 --> 00:04:56,000 though rarely letting myself think like that. No room for 95 00:04:56,079 --> 00:04:58,959 pity in my heart. If I did, the floodgates could open, 96 00:04:59,199 --> 00:05:01,759 and I'd have enough in one lifetime to go around 97 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:04,879 a few times that they would have never been closed. 98 00:05:05,560 --> 00:05:08,319 Jeffrey's business was running well, from the looks of his 99 00:05:08,439 --> 00:05:11,360 attentiveness to the office he owned in the Upper East 100 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:16,720 Side of Manhattan. Alan Dershowitz's colleague in finances and personal solicitor, 101 00:05:17,040 --> 00:05:19,639 a bird of the same feather I had seen hanging 102 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:22,879 around the island and Jeffrey's Manhattan mansion. More and more 103 00:05:22,959 --> 00:05:25,879 these days, Alan had a taste for the young and beautiful, 104 00:05:26,399 --> 00:05:29,759 was a bias for a blooming business relationship between him 105 00:05:29,759 --> 00:05:34,160 and Jeffrey. After an explicit session of Jeffrey's vulgar pilgrimage 106 00:05:34,199 --> 00:05:36,560 into my body, we were interrupted by a knock at 107 00:05:36,600 --> 00:05:40,600 the door by Jeffrey's good friend Allan. I wrapped myself 108 00:05:40,680 --> 00:05:43,480 up in Jeffrey's pink bed sheets, which is the color 109 00:05:43,519 --> 00:05:46,160 of preference he chose to sleep in because it reminded 110 00:05:46,199 --> 00:05:48,879 him of the same color of his own words pussy, 111 00:05:49,360 --> 00:05:53,680 and covered my face from the unexpected intrusion. Jeffrey got 112 00:05:53,800 --> 00:05:56,560 up and wrapped a towel around his loins and answered 113 00:05:56,560 --> 00:05:59,560 the door completely calm, opening the bedroom door and letting 114 00:05:59,600 --> 00:06:03,600 Alan in. They began to converse about business immediately right 115 00:06:03,600 --> 00:06:06,759 in front of me. Jeffrey started to tell Alan what 116 00:06:06,920 --> 00:06:09,759 needed to be done while he jostled some notes down. Quickly, 117 00:06:10,279 --> 00:06:12,879 I peecked my head from underneath the covers, thinking they 118 00:06:12,879 --> 00:06:15,079 were too wrapped up in their work to notice me 119 00:06:15,240 --> 00:06:17,839 get up and get dressed, and Jeffrey turned back to 120 00:06:17,879 --> 00:06:20,439 me and told me to stay there. This would only 121 00:06:20,480 --> 00:06:24,199 take a second. Going back to Alan, he turned his 122 00:06:24,240 --> 00:06:26,959 focus back into work and hustled out a few more 123 00:06:27,079 --> 00:06:30,240 orders before letting Alan out the door and returning his 124 00:06:30,279 --> 00:06:33,279 attention to me. Sorry about that. Work never stops, and 125 00:06:33,439 --> 00:06:35,680 neither will the money coming in. How else am I 126 00:06:35,720 --> 00:06:38,920 going to make a million dollars while I'm sleeping? Jeffrey 127 00:06:38,959 --> 00:06:41,319 chuckled as he sat back down on the bed next 128 00:06:41,319 --> 00:06:45,000 to me. I laughed at his humor and mostly true statement. 129 00:06:45,279 --> 00:06:46,920 Then a strand of my hair fell in front of 130 00:06:46,959 --> 00:06:50,240 my face. Before I could get it, he put it 131 00:06:50,279 --> 00:06:53,519 back behind my ear and sweetly stroked my face. For 132 00:06:53,600 --> 00:06:55,959 a moment, we just looked into each other's eyes, and 133 00:06:56,040 --> 00:06:59,639 he nearly seemed almost human to me. It was bizarre 134 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:03,199 how he can could be so kind and gentle one moment, 135 00:07:03,879 --> 00:07:06,959 the second beforehand, I was being treated like no more 136 00:07:06,959 --> 00:07:10,720 than a common plaything left out for display, nothing more 137 00:07:10,720 --> 00:07:13,319 than an ego trip. Jeffrey got off on letting the 138 00:07:13,319 --> 00:07:16,720 ones he wanted to know that he could own anything 139 00:07:16,800 --> 00:07:19,879 and anyone he wanted in this world. I believe the 140 00:07:19,959 --> 00:07:23,639 sincerity behind his eyes but that vision would quickly fade 141 00:07:23,680 --> 00:07:26,560 away and I would be left second guessing why even 142 00:07:26,600 --> 00:07:30,120 fell for this deceitful tricks. For a moment, Jeffrey got 143 00:07:30,199 --> 00:07:32,079 up from the bed and asked me to join them 144 00:07:32,120 --> 00:07:35,360 for a shower in his bedroom, which was the entire 145 00:07:35,439 --> 00:07:38,639 top floor. He had a glass shower enclosed underneath a 146 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:42,160 glass skylight right in the middle of the room. It 147 00:07:42,319 --> 00:07:45,199 was a perfectly accessible feature for a man that loved 148 00:07:45,199 --> 00:07:48,319 both being clean and nude, but still an odd feature 149 00:07:48,360 --> 00:07:51,759 at that As I always did whenever I showered with him, 150 00:07:52,000 --> 00:07:55,000 I lathered aloofa with soap SuDS and would scrub his 151 00:07:55,120 --> 00:07:58,319 body up and down in between his toes, even behind 152 00:07:58,319 --> 00:08:02,800 his ears and of course his genitals area. The sunlight 153 00:08:02,839 --> 00:08:06,399 shone through the glass ceilings into where we were standing, 154 00:08:06,600 --> 00:08:09,399 making the moment feel more surreal. On top of the 155 00:08:09,439 --> 00:08:12,600 already popped his annex I had popped before the breakfast 156 00:08:12,639 --> 00:08:15,759 earlier that morning. Jeffrey was in such a lighthearted mood 157 00:08:15,759 --> 00:08:19,120 that day, making funny cracks at me and acting like 158 00:08:19,160 --> 00:08:22,680 a flirt. When I was finished washing them, he actually 159 00:08:22,720 --> 00:08:25,480 wanted to wash me too, which was another totally out 160 00:08:25,519 --> 00:08:28,439 of his character's suggestion for the rest of the day. 161 00:08:28,720 --> 00:08:31,639 He took me everywhere with him, the office and then 162 00:08:31,639 --> 00:08:34,600 to a friend's place, even just wanting to hang out 163 00:08:34,639 --> 00:08:37,039 with me for a while. I wasn't used to being 164 00:08:37,039 --> 00:08:39,519 treated like anything more than a dog on a leash, 165 00:08:39,559 --> 00:08:42,159 and when he acted like this, it just completely spun 166 00:08:42,240 --> 00:08:45,320 me around, confusing me even more. We were spending heaps 167 00:08:45,320 --> 00:08:48,200 of time together these days, a lot more than usual 168 00:08:49,039 --> 00:08:51,759 at the ranch. We would do things together alone, and 169 00:08:51,840 --> 00:08:55,240 not just the usual perverted things I was accustomed to 170 00:08:55,279 --> 00:08:58,360 doing with him alone. Horseback riding on the ranch during 171 00:08:58,399 --> 00:09:02,039 weekends away by ourselves, and movie nights snuggling up on 172 00:09:02,120 --> 00:09:04,759 the butt over a bucket of popcorn instead of having 173 00:09:04,759 --> 00:09:08,279 to massage his feet during the entire film became ways 174 00:09:08,879 --> 00:09:12,039 to alter my perception of my original notion that I 175 00:09:12,200 --> 00:09:15,000 wasn't his sex slave. I thought I was finally becoming 176 00:09:15,039 --> 00:09:18,559 his friend. When we went quad biking, he no longer 177 00:09:18,600 --> 00:09:20,879 wanted me to take my own bike. He preferred me 178 00:09:20,960 --> 00:09:23,440 to sit on the back of his holding onto him tightly, 179 00:09:23,759 --> 00:09:25,919 and even tried to teach me how to drive a 180 00:09:25,919 --> 00:09:29,480 manual stick shift car. He was definitely trying to show 181 00:09:29,480 --> 00:09:32,279 a softer side of himself. Different to the stone cold 182 00:09:32,320 --> 00:09:34,759 slave driver I had come to respect out of fear 183 00:09:35,080 --> 00:09:38,840 over the many years. Still a hard image to change 184 00:09:38,840 --> 00:09:41,279 after all that I had been through and seen over 185 00:09:41,320 --> 00:09:43,639 the years I had been with him. Nonetheless, he was 186 00:09:43,679 --> 00:09:47,120 still my boss, so I humored his attempts and matched 187 00:09:47,120 --> 00:09:50,080 his carrying demeanor, giving him the impression I was intrigued 188 00:09:50,360 --> 00:09:54,320 in our new kind of affair. His attentiveness led into 189 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:57,000 the warmer months that commenced the beginning of a long 190 00:09:57,000 --> 00:09:59,840 summer day that I looked forward to. I couldn't help 191 00:09:59,840 --> 00:10:02,879 but enjoy his eagerness to see me more relaxed these days. 192 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:06,159 He wasn't even bothering me to find alternate sources of 193 00:10:06,200 --> 00:10:09,679 girls for his twisted satisfaction anymore. And although I was 194 00:10:09,720 --> 00:10:13,200 still being used for his distorted sexual enjoyment, he further 195 00:10:13,240 --> 00:10:15,720 seduced me into believing I meant a lot more to 196 00:10:15,799 --> 00:10:19,279 him than I ever did. It all came to a 197 00:10:19,279 --> 00:10:23,200 sudden conclusion one sunny afternoon in the Caribbean. Jeffrey pulled 198 00:10:23,279 --> 00:10:25,960 up to the ladder's first step and climbed up the 199 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:28,559 next four steps to the top of the dock. His 200 00:10:28,720 --> 00:10:31,919 chest was heaving rapidly as he sat down, catching his breath. 201 00:10:32,399 --> 00:10:35,240 Golayne was the next one up, and then I followed 202 00:10:35,320 --> 00:10:38,879 lastly behind them. To me, it was invigorating snorkel around 203 00:10:38,919 --> 00:10:41,519 the shallow reefs within the radius of the dock, but 204 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:44,200 the Jeffrey that half an hour swim in the ocean 205 00:10:44,440 --> 00:10:47,600 was enough to over exert his aging limbs. I took 206 00:10:47,600 --> 00:10:50,559 off my snorkel gear and placed it in the storage bench, 207 00:10:50,720 --> 00:10:53,720 grabbing us a few towels at the same time, wrapping 208 00:10:53,720 --> 00:10:56,480 a towel around Jeffrey's backside and handing one to Golaane. 209 00:10:56,759 --> 00:10:59,080 I sat down next to them on the dock and 210 00:10:59,200 --> 00:11:02,559 we laughed how fit tigu. Jeffrey was poking fun that 211 00:11:02,600 --> 00:11:05,600 he really is getting older, a very touchy subject for 212 00:11:05,639 --> 00:11:08,080 the Vane at heart, but he didn't seem to mind it, 213 00:11:08,279 --> 00:11:11,240 probably knowing we'd never take the joke too far. We 214 00:11:11,279 --> 00:11:13,919 sat there in silence for a moment, and odd silence. 215 00:11:14,000 --> 00:11:17,559 At that Jeffrey looked at Glaine, and then Glayne looked 216 00:11:17,559 --> 00:11:21,039 at me, placing me once again in the spotlight. They 217 00:11:21,159 --> 00:11:23,600 both scooted closer to where I was sitting, and I 218 00:11:23,639 --> 00:11:26,759 felt something stirring in the air. The biggest turning point 219 00:11:26,799 --> 00:11:30,080 of events and all of my time spent with them. 220 00:11:30,200 --> 00:11:32,120 All Right, folks, we're gonna wrap up right here, and 221 00:11:32,159 --> 00:11:34,320 in the next episode we're gonna pick up where we 222 00:11:34,440 --> 00:11:36,960 left off. All of the information that goes with this 223 00:11:37,000 --> 00:11:40,759 episode can be found in the description box. What's up, everyone, 224 00:11:40,799 --> 00:11:44,759 and welcome to another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In 225 00:11:44,799 --> 00:11:47,519 this episode, we're gonna get right back to the memoir 226 00:11:47,600 --> 00:11:52,919 by Virginia Roberts The Billionaires Playboy Club. Jeffrey sat next 227 00:11:52,919 --> 00:11:55,159 to me and put his hand on my back and 228 00:11:55,200 --> 00:11:57,399 looked at me with a certain kind of sincerity I 229 00:11:57,399 --> 00:12:00,679 hadn't seen in him before. I want to first tell 230 00:12:00,679 --> 00:12:03,639 you that over the last few years, you have shown 231 00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:06,720 me the kind of devotion and loyalty that I believe 232 00:12:06,759 --> 00:12:09,519 is rare to find among people these days, qualities I 233 00:12:09,600 --> 00:12:13,759 hold in high regard. Bewildered by the whole scenario, I 234 00:12:13,879 --> 00:12:16,559 just nodded every time he paused, trying to grasp what 235 00:12:16,600 --> 00:12:21,200 his intentions were getting at. He continued to praise my nature, saying, 236 00:12:21,600 --> 00:12:24,320 I hope you know my appreciation for you embracing of 237 00:12:24,399 --> 00:12:27,360 my lifestyle. You have been achieving an aime for yourself. 238 00:12:27,399 --> 00:12:30,559 Among the friends I have introduced you to everybody says 239 00:12:30,639 --> 00:12:33,200 basically the same things about you, the same thing. I 240 00:12:33,240 --> 00:12:36,879 believe you are a delightfully funny girl who has developed 241 00:12:36,879 --> 00:12:39,759 into a mature, graceful young woman. And I could think 242 00:12:39,799 --> 00:12:42,519 of nobody else I'd rather have a child with than you. 243 00:12:43,720 --> 00:12:46,279 And just like that, he created a whole new dilemma 244 00:12:46,320 --> 00:12:48,960 for me to face. In utter shock from the completely 245 00:12:49,080 --> 00:12:52,200 unexpected proposition, And before I could even think of anything 246 00:12:52,240 --> 00:12:55,240 to respond with, Golainne made the finishing touches with the 247 00:12:55,240 --> 00:12:57,960 business end of the deal, starting with the prose before 248 00:12:58,000 --> 00:13:00,840 the cons you would have around on the clock nannies 249 00:13:00,879 --> 00:13:03,080 to help you. Jeffrey would pay for a mansion of 250 00:13:03,080 --> 00:13:06,399 your choice in either Upon Beach or New York, and 251 00:13:06,840 --> 00:13:09,440 as if the drum rolls were beckoning, you would have 252 00:13:09,480 --> 00:13:13,639 a hefty monthy allowance from Jeffrey's bank account. Astonished at 253 00:13:13,639 --> 00:13:17,200 their first offers, I nearly took the bait. Then she 254 00:13:17,320 --> 00:13:20,360 continued to finish the terms of our pre arrangement with 255 00:13:20,759 --> 00:13:23,000 but you would have to travel with the child where 256 00:13:23,080 --> 00:13:25,919 and when Jeffrey wanted you to be, and most importantly, 257 00:13:26,039 --> 00:13:28,240 you would have to sign a contract stating that Jeffrey 258 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:31,960 and you are not monogamous, and that the child will 259 00:13:31,960 --> 00:13:34,840 belong in Jeffrey's custody in the event of a falling 260 00:13:34,879 --> 00:13:37,320 out between the two of you. She kind of threw 261 00:13:37,360 --> 00:13:39,879 that last one out in there quickly, as if she 262 00:13:39,919 --> 00:13:42,080 could get away with me, not hearing that I would 263 00:13:42,080 --> 00:13:44,600 basically have to relinquish the rights to my own flesh 264 00:13:44,600 --> 00:13:47,559 and blood and surrender them to a life of servitude 265 00:13:47,559 --> 00:13:51,720 and abuse with these people. My maternal alarm bells went 266 00:13:51,759 --> 00:13:54,759 off straight away, and I already knew my answer. No 267 00:13:54,879 --> 00:13:57,240 way I could do that to any poor baby. God 268 00:13:57,279 --> 00:13:59,519 only knew what these monsters had in store for me, 269 00:14:00,080 --> 00:14:03,080 let alone a baby. But it was an instant reaction 270 00:14:03,200 --> 00:14:06,000 that saved me. I don't know, guys. I mean, I'm 271 00:14:06,039 --> 00:14:09,519 really young and never really even thought about having kids yet. Wow, 272 00:14:09,799 --> 00:14:12,559 I just don't know. I slicked my hand through my 273 00:14:12,639 --> 00:14:16,720 hair nervously and took in a silent breath. I had 274 00:14:16,759 --> 00:14:19,000 to go beyond what I was truly feeling and give 275 00:14:19,039 --> 00:14:21,600 them a feeling that I'd never let them down, putting 276 00:14:21,600 --> 00:14:24,000 an eager smile on my face and sucking up my 277 00:14:24,039 --> 00:14:26,720 guts intuition, I told them, you know what, let me 278 00:14:26,759 --> 00:14:29,320 get my certificates, a massage and have some time to 279 00:14:29,360 --> 00:14:33,039 prepare for this and get healthy. Then next year and 280 00:14:33,120 --> 00:14:35,759 we'll all think about having a baby together. It was 281 00:14:35,799 --> 00:14:38,480 crazy to even hear me say out loud, but from 282 00:14:38,559 --> 00:14:41,639 the expressions on their faces, I had fulfilled their wishes 283 00:14:42,360 --> 00:14:44,600 much reason to celebrate. That night, they were both in 284 00:14:44,600 --> 00:14:47,679 a cheery mood around the dinner table, except for me, 285 00:14:47,919 --> 00:14:50,759 who had taken double the dosage of xanext even cope 286 00:14:50,759 --> 00:14:53,120 with the high amount of anxiety I had been suffering 287 00:14:53,159 --> 00:14:56,200 from since we got back from the dock. I wasn't 288 00:14:56,240 --> 00:14:59,759 sipping the champagne that night, I was gulping it. When 289 00:14:59,799 --> 00:15:02,559 they're moods turned from cheerio to ranchi later that evening, 290 00:15:02,759 --> 00:15:05,159 it wasn't hard for me to comply. From the full 291 00:15:05,200 --> 00:15:07,480 effects of the state I was in, I would have 292 00:15:07,559 --> 00:15:10,639 agreed to just about anything, allowing them to treat themselves 293 00:15:10,679 --> 00:15:14,200 to ravishing the tender parts of my body. Over the 294 00:15:14,240 --> 00:15:16,960 next few weeks, everything went on as it normally would, 295 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:20,799 and not another mention of their proposal. My birthday was 296 00:15:20,840 --> 00:15:23,360 only a week away and I was turning nineteen that year. 297 00:15:23,679 --> 00:15:26,639 All I wanted was to get my certificates before I 298 00:15:26,679 --> 00:15:29,480 got any older and get trapped into this life for good. 299 00:15:30,200 --> 00:15:32,440 When the big day rolled around, I was in New 300 00:15:32,519 --> 00:15:35,639 York with Jeffrey and Galaine, sitting on my bed listening 301 00:15:35,639 --> 00:15:38,799 to MTV's channel Blair in the background of my room. 302 00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:41,600 I was penning my toenails when I was suddenly buzzed 303 00:15:41,639 --> 00:15:44,879 on the intercom. It was Jeffrey calling himself to ask 304 00:15:44,960 --> 00:15:48,240 to meet me in his office in ten minutes. Perfect 305 00:15:48,279 --> 00:15:50,519 timing to let my nails dry, I thought to myself, 306 00:15:51,159 --> 00:15:54,559 already contemplating his desire to come downstairs. I knew it 307 00:15:54,600 --> 00:15:56,879 had something to do with my birthday present, but I 308 00:15:56,919 --> 00:15:59,480 was more expecting the usual shopping money or a piece 309 00:15:59,519 --> 00:16:02,039 of jewelry. Definitely not what he had and sore for me. 310 00:16:02,440 --> 00:16:05,320 I knocked on the slightly jar door to Jeffrey's office 311 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:08,279 and heard him beckon me inside. Hello, what's up to? 312 00:16:08,559 --> 00:16:11,480 I asked in a cutee tone of voice. Walking over 313 00:16:11,639 --> 00:16:14,320 to his desk. He looked up at me, taking his 314 00:16:14,360 --> 00:16:17,759 reading glasses off while granting me a big smile. Come 315 00:16:17,799 --> 00:16:19,840 over here and sit down with me. As he ushered 316 00:16:19,840 --> 00:16:22,320 me to come sit on his lap, pulling me on 317 00:16:22,360 --> 00:16:24,320 to him, he had a funny look on his face, 318 00:16:24,360 --> 00:16:26,480 like he had something really big to tell me and 319 00:16:26,639 --> 00:16:30,759 was letting the anticipation build in the thickness of the silence. What. 320 00:16:31,240 --> 00:16:33,279 I laughed at the way he was looking at me now, 321 00:16:33,799 --> 00:16:37,360 First of all, happy birthday. Today was only the beginning 322 00:16:37,360 --> 00:16:40,120 of his announcement, and he proceeded to tell me how 323 00:16:40,200 --> 00:16:43,039 much you have wanted this for so long, and you 324 00:16:43,080 --> 00:16:45,559 are more than deserving of it. You're going away to 325 00:16:45,600 --> 00:16:48,840 Thailand to learn authentic time massage, and within eight weeks 326 00:16:49,159 --> 00:16:52,720 you'll receive a certificate for being qualified tie massage therapist. 327 00:16:53,240 --> 00:16:55,840 Astonished at his attempts to see me get what I wanted, 328 00:16:56,120 --> 00:16:58,360 not exactly the type of massage I was interested in, 329 00:16:58,440 --> 00:17:01,240 but it was a start and a first certificate for 330 00:17:01,279 --> 00:17:04,160 me to acquire. My eyes lit up and I threw 331 00:17:04,200 --> 00:17:06,640 my arms around his neck, planting a big kiss on 332 00:17:06,680 --> 00:17:10,720 his lips, which I rarely ever did. Wow, I don't 333 00:17:10,759 --> 00:17:13,200 know what to say. This is beyond my wildest dreams. 334 00:17:13,440 --> 00:17:15,920 Thank you so much. I did well to let him 335 00:17:15,920 --> 00:17:20,759 know that I appreciated his grandiose offerer. He went on 336 00:17:20,839 --> 00:17:23,039 to give me the details of where I'd be staying, 337 00:17:23,160 --> 00:17:25,960 the school schedules, and how much he loved TI Massage. 338 00:17:26,240 --> 00:17:28,319 Apparently it was the next big thing to hit the 339 00:17:28,319 --> 00:17:32,319 shores of America. He had planned out an entire itinerary 340 00:17:32,359 --> 00:17:34,920 for me. I was to depart at the end of August, 341 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:37,720 and he had already enrolled me in a class at 342 00:17:37,759 --> 00:17:40,359 ITM Massage School. I would only have a few days 343 00:17:40,359 --> 00:17:42,920 to settle in before I would be attending classes five 344 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:46,119 days a week, over eight hours a day. He even 345 00:17:46,200 --> 00:17:48,400 had an assignment for me to do while I was 346 00:17:48,440 --> 00:17:50,880 over there. I was to meet up with a girl 347 00:17:51,319 --> 00:17:53,680 who was also being put up at the Princess Hotel 348 00:17:53,839 --> 00:17:56,640 where I was staying. She had an Asian sounding name, 349 00:17:56,799 --> 00:17:58,920 so I just assumed that she was a local girl 350 00:17:59,119 --> 00:18:01,920 hoping for an opportunity unity of a lifetime if she 351 00:18:01,960 --> 00:18:05,359 only knew what she would be getting herself into. If 352 00:18:05,400 --> 00:18:08,839 I decided that she met Jeffrey's particular quota of approval, 353 00:18:09,079 --> 00:18:11,039 then she would be sent over to the US to 354 00:18:11,079 --> 00:18:14,480 meet with him or one of his esteemed colleagues. Besides 355 00:18:14,519 --> 00:18:17,359 the guilt of having to decide a stranger's uncertain fate, 356 00:18:17,960 --> 00:18:21,599 everything else sounded more than wonderful. Eight weeks gone from 357 00:18:21,640 --> 00:18:24,720 Jeffrey sounded like a lifetime away. And I couldn't be 358 00:18:24,720 --> 00:18:28,119 more excited at this chance. It was the opportunity of 359 00:18:28,160 --> 00:18:30,480 my lifetime and I wasn't going to waste a second 360 00:18:30,559 --> 00:18:33,319 of it. Colne came in a few minutes later, and 361 00:18:33,359 --> 00:18:35,960 the look on her face told me she already knew. 362 00:18:36,319 --> 00:18:38,559 I got up from Jeffrey's lab and gave her a 363 00:18:38,559 --> 00:18:41,039 big hug and told her, this is so nice of 364 00:18:41,079 --> 00:18:44,319 you guys, Thank you so much. She didn't share my 365 00:18:44,480 --> 00:18:48,400 enthusiasm of excitement. In a dul tone, she responded, I 366 00:18:48,440 --> 00:18:49,920 didn't have a thing to do with it. It was 367 00:18:49,960 --> 00:18:53,400 all Jeffrey's idea, but good luck. Anyways. She gave me 368 00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:55,960 her best impression of being a human for a brief 369 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:59,319 second and hugged me back. It was just her way, 370 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:02,519 and I had come to accept it. Depending on the 371 00:19:02,559 --> 00:19:05,480 level of slander her insults provoked, was just her way 372 00:19:05,480 --> 00:19:08,160 of telling you she cares without ever really showing it. 373 00:19:09,119 --> 00:19:11,799 Now that probably doesn't make sense to most people, but 374 00:19:11,920 --> 00:19:14,160 after all of the time spent with them, I had 375 00:19:14,160 --> 00:19:17,039 gone to understand a few of their quirky ways. Even 376 00:19:17,079 --> 00:19:19,240 if I didn't agree with them, they knew I would. 377 00:19:19,319 --> 00:19:22,480 For the sake of opinion, What did it matter? Anyways, 378 00:19:22,599 --> 00:19:25,359 what I thought I had been degraded in every other 379 00:19:25,400 --> 00:19:29,400 physical way. What's the difference from taking their mental abuse too? 380 00:19:30,119 --> 00:19:32,799 Not the exact choice of employers I would have chosen 381 00:19:33,279 --> 00:19:36,559 over again if given the opportunity, But here I was 382 00:19:36,640 --> 00:19:39,720 doing my very best to excel at their demands. I 383 00:19:39,799 --> 00:19:41,960 was sent home for a little over a week to 384 00:19:42,039 --> 00:19:44,799 pack for the long trip and make my rounds visiting 385 00:19:44,799 --> 00:19:47,920 my family before I left overseas on my first trip 386 00:19:47,960 --> 00:19:50,720 all by myself. It was great to see my family 387 00:19:50,759 --> 00:19:53,279 after such a long time away. My older brother and 388 00:19:53,319 --> 00:19:55,880 his wife even came down for a visit for the 389 00:19:55,920 --> 00:19:59,359 well wishing of my departure. Everyone of my family seems 390 00:19:59,359 --> 00:20:02,039 stoked at the prospects of my long journey and had 391 00:20:02,079 --> 00:20:05,359 led me down here. I was setting around the world 392 00:20:05,640 --> 00:20:08,160 in my teens and getting paid to study the course 393 00:20:08,200 --> 00:20:10,920 of my dreams at a cost that I only knew 394 00:20:11,079 --> 00:20:14,160 I would have to pay. It was a wonderful get 395 00:20:14,160 --> 00:20:16,359 together with all of them around, A great way to 396 00:20:16,400 --> 00:20:18,960 remember them. If I had only known it would be 397 00:20:18,960 --> 00:20:21,880 the last time I'd see them, I would have emphasized 398 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:25,160 my brothers how much I really love them both and 399 00:20:25,279 --> 00:20:27,640 how much I would miss them. In the decade to come. 400 00:20:28,240 --> 00:20:30,680 But I didn't know what my future might hold for me. 401 00:20:31,079 --> 00:20:33,400 I had nothing planned out. I was just hoping for 402 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:36,480 the right opportunities. I also had a few good friends 403 00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:39,039 to catch up with before I went. Every night was 404 00:20:39,079 --> 00:20:41,480 another party, and by the end of the week I 405 00:20:41,599 --> 00:20:45,160 had drunken enough to drown an irishman. On Saint Patti's Day, 406 00:20:45,759 --> 00:20:47,599 I was given the list to all my friend's email 407 00:20:47,599 --> 00:20:50,160 address and told to keep in touch. Yeah. Right, I 408 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:53,359 thought I was going to be too busy, too much 409 00:20:53,480 --> 00:20:57,200 fun to be thinking about sitting on a computer emailing people. 410 00:20:57,359 --> 00:21:00,079 But I told them I would anyway, save myself of 411 00:21:00,200 --> 00:21:02,839 the point of having to explain that in many different 412 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:07,200 ways to a group of already tipsy, slurring teenagers. Out 413 00:21:07,200 --> 00:21:10,160 of everyone who was really happy for me, TJ wasn't. 414 00:21:10,400 --> 00:21:12,799 He hated the idea of me leaving him to have 415 00:21:12,880 --> 00:21:15,839 a NonStop party in Thailand without him. He was just 416 00:21:15,839 --> 00:21:19,359 starting to seem like he was coming around and becoming good, 417 00:21:19,640 --> 00:21:21,799 and I didn't like having to leave him at such 418 00:21:21,799 --> 00:21:24,279 a vulnerable state. But in my young years, I had 419 00:21:24,319 --> 00:21:27,160 already realized I needed to do some things for myself, 420 00:21:27,440 --> 00:21:30,079 and this was one of them. There was still a 421 00:21:30,119 --> 00:21:32,799 huge amount of broken trust between us, trust that could 422 00:21:32,839 --> 00:21:35,880 probably never be rendered again. So I thought I was 423 00:21:35,920 --> 00:21:38,680 being decent enough letting him stay at my apartment while 424 00:21:38,680 --> 00:21:41,039 I was gone, but he was not to drive my 425 00:21:41,119 --> 00:21:44,480 truck at all. I paid too much money on insurance 426 00:21:44,519 --> 00:21:47,319 for that thing, and knowing his driving record, I didn't 427 00:21:47,319 --> 00:21:49,519 want the risk of something happening while I was gone 428 00:21:49,519 --> 00:21:51,880 for so long. He didn't agree with me at all, 429 00:21:52,240 --> 00:21:55,440 throwing a grown up tantrum all over my apartment, hitting 430 00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:59,720 the walls and doors, shouting the entire complex down. There 431 00:21:59,759 --> 00:22:01,759 was no I could say or do at this point, 432 00:22:02,519 --> 00:22:04,279 so I just put my dog on the lead and 433 00:22:04,279 --> 00:22:06,319 took her for a walk to calm down the situation 434 00:22:06,759 --> 00:22:09,440 and give me some time to be alone. Mary Jane 435 00:22:09,559 --> 00:22:12,559 was the only one I hated leaving behind. When we 436 00:22:12,599 --> 00:22:15,519 got back from the long walk, she barricaded my suitcase 437 00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:17,799 while I was packing the hand this amount of clothing 438 00:22:18,079 --> 00:22:20,920 that I always did. I was promising her I wouldn't 439 00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:22,680 be long and told her how much I loved her, 440 00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:24,880 giving her a big hug. I choked back on the 441 00:22:24,920 --> 00:22:27,240 tears that were swelling up in my eyes. It was 442 00:22:27,279 --> 00:22:29,359 like she already knew the night before I left to 443 00:22:29,359 --> 00:22:31,960 flew to New York that this would be my final trip. 444 00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:35,000 There was a commercial flight book for me in the morning, 445 00:22:35,240 --> 00:22:38,279 and I needed the rest that night to fully recover 446 00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:41,880 from my binge of celebration drinking. TJ crept into bed 447 00:22:41,960 --> 00:22:44,640 later that night and tried to redeem his behavior with 448 00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:47,799 sweet nothing's and dry humping my backside. It did nothing 449 00:22:47,839 --> 00:22:50,839 for me sexually. I didn't feel like that for him 450 00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:53,599 any longer, and the sooner he realized that, the better 451 00:22:53,640 --> 00:22:56,839 off he'd be. I told him I wasn't up for it, 452 00:22:56,960 --> 00:22:58,880 and he picked up a pillow and slammed the door 453 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:01,799 behind him. It didn't matter, I told myself. The next day, 454 00:23:01,799 --> 00:23:03,480 I was off and I wouldn't have to deal with 455 00:23:03,559 --> 00:23:07,000 him anymore. TJ caught a cab with me to Mia 456 00:23:07,319 --> 00:23:10,119 the airport in Miami. He walked with me to the 457 00:23:10,119 --> 00:23:13,839 furthest point he was allowed to and the security gates, 458 00:23:14,079 --> 00:23:16,839 and we stood in line together. It was almost heartbreaking 459 00:23:16,880 --> 00:23:19,839 seeing him cry. I told him I try to call 460 00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,799 him every day, attempting to give him optimistic ways to 461 00:23:22,839 --> 00:23:25,960 look at this time away from each other. In the end, 462 00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:28,519 he had me crying and I had to give in 463 00:23:28,559 --> 00:23:31,319 to the remaining feelings I had for him. One last 464 00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:33,839 kiss under the X ray bridge, and he vanished out 465 00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:37,079 of my sight as I furthered down the terminal's long haul. 466 00:23:37,920 --> 00:23:39,559 All right, we're going to wrap up right here, and 467 00:23:39,599 --> 00:23:41,480 in the next episode dealing with the topic, we're going 468 00:23:41,519 --> 00:23:43,720 to pick up where we left off. All of the 469 00:23:43,720 --> 00:23:46,720 information that goes with this episode can be found in 470 00:23:46,759 --> 00:23:49,680 the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to another 471 00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:53,240 episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're getting 472 00:23:53,319 --> 00:23:57,640 right back too the Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaires Playboy Club. 473 00:23:58,319 --> 00:24:00,640 It was only a short flight to New York, and 474 00:24:00,680 --> 00:24:04,000 I couldn't wait until next week when I'd be jetting 475 00:24:04,039 --> 00:24:08,160 off to an exotic destination all by my lonesome. It 476 00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:10,240 was all I could think about, or talk about and 477 00:24:10,319 --> 00:24:13,720 dream about, finally my break. Glaine did what she did 478 00:24:13,759 --> 00:24:16,319 best that week and prepped me for everything I could 479 00:24:16,359 --> 00:24:20,559 imagine under the sun, does and domets, emergency numbers and 480 00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:23,440 Western Union locations were among some things on the list 481 00:24:23,640 --> 00:24:26,359 that she gave me. Like I said, she showed her 482 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,480 caring side in other ways. There was also the name 483 00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:31,599 of the girl I was supposed to be meeting, the 484 00:24:31,720 --> 00:24:34,960 room she was in, and what date she would be 485 00:24:35,000 --> 00:24:37,799 staying here. When I got out of Glaine's office, I 486 00:24:37,839 --> 00:24:40,720 was instructed to meet Jeffrey in his office. She had 487 00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:43,640 to stay back for some paperwork that she had to 488 00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:46,599 catch up on. Promto making my way up the red 489 00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:50,359 and gold trim carpeted staircase, I prepared myself for some 490 00:24:50,480 --> 00:24:53,759 major sucking up before I left. He would be expecting 491 00:24:53,799 --> 00:24:56,599 it for his recent generosity, or so I had thought. 492 00:24:57,160 --> 00:24:59,920 Opening those familiar heavy doors, the first thing I saw 493 00:25:00,119 --> 00:25:04,680 aw was an unfamiliar face standing over Jeffrey's shoulder. She 494 00:25:04,799 --> 00:25:07,119 was a tall girl with blonde hair twisted up in 495 00:25:07,160 --> 00:25:10,240 a professional looking knot. Her big smile was flashing at 496 00:25:10,279 --> 00:25:13,599 him with hints of her cheekiness to come, and she 497 00:25:13,680 --> 00:25:15,839 was dressed to kill, with a short, tight gray skirt 498 00:25:16,079 --> 00:25:19,440 and a matching suit jacket over the white button down blouse, 499 00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:23,400 revealing her voluptuous ample cleavage. She looked like the old 500 00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:27,079 college professor's wet dream. Once she introduced herself to me, 501 00:25:27,440 --> 00:25:31,880 a thick check accent presented itself. Her name was Nadiya Marsenkova, 502 00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:35,279 and Jeffrey looked just about as smitten as a victim 503 00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:37,880 of a love struck arrow from no one but the 504 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:42,200 Cubids themselves. Jeffrey further introduced her as a new assistant 505 00:25:42,240 --> 00:25:45,400 and massuse while I would be away, barely taking his 506 00:25:45,440 --> 00:25:48,119 eyes off her for one second. It was a bit 507 00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:50,759 of a blow to take being so easily replaced, but 508 00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:53,319 also a good part of me already knew this was 509 00:25:53,359 --> 00:25:56,680 expected off someone like him. Good for him, I thought 510 00:25:56,720 --> 00:25:59,559 to myself, Why should I have bitterness over someone I 511 00:25:59,640 --> 00:26:02,559 never had had intimate feelings for and knew had never 512 00:26:02,599 --> 00:26:05,079 really cared for me in the first place. Kissing her 513 00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:07,480 on the cheek and telling her my name, I was 514 00:26:07,519 --> 00:26:09,920 doing my best to Grin and Barrett. We hugged for 515 00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:12,799 a brief show of uniformity, but it was just that, 516 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:15,799 a show for Jeffrey to see when he was away 517 00:26:15,839 --> 00:26:18,279 for the moment, or she wasn't busy hanging off his 518 00:26:18,359 --> 00:26:21,960 every word. The way we all started out, she would 519 00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:24,400 stump me off, only to head off in another direction. 520 00:26:24,759 --> 00:26:27,200 A real bitch if anyone was to ask me, but 521 00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:30,119 no one would anyways, it wasn't my job to like her. 522 00:26:30,839 --> 00:26:33,400 Over the next course of days, it was my task 523 00:26:33,440 --> 00:26:36,160 to show her some of my techniques and massaging Jeffrey 524 00:26:36,359 --> 00:26:39,839 and the erotic side of finishing it off. Nadia despised 525 00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:42,519 me even more when Jeffrey told her to follow my 526 00:26:42,599 --> 00:26:45,599 lead during the massages as she tried to take over 527 00:26:45,839 --> 00:26:48,240 and do her own thing a few times. To me, 528 00:26:48,519 --> 00:26:51,559 it was quite funny her competitive side. I had nothing 529 00:26:51,559 --> 00:26:53,559 more to prove, so watching her put on an act 530 00:26:53,759 --> 00:26:57,319 of seduction and scream out of her body function during 531 00:26:57,319 --> 00:27:01,599 affect orgasm was nothing but entertaining in my eyes. After 532 00:27:01,640 --> 00:27:04,039 a few sessions together, it was my time to be 533 00:27:04,119 --> 00:27:07,400 off on another adventure, far far away from here or 534 00:27:07,480 --> 00:27:10,480 from the chains that I wore for way too long. 535 00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:14,039 Jeffrey had someone else to fit the chains that kept 536 00:27:14,079 --> 00:27:16,759 me so close to him. Even though she wasn't the 537 00:27:16,839 --> 00:27:19,440 nicest of girls, I still couldn't help but feel sorry 538 00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:23,160 for her. No girl should belong to someone out of servitude, 539 00:27:23,319 --> 00:27:26,839 But unfortunately it was the way our civilization has been 540 00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:29,400 for many centuries before us, and I don't see it 541 00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:33,200 changing anytime soon, or as long as perverts like Jeffrey 542 00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:36,200 are allowed to walk around freely and procure our daughters 543 00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:38,759 off the streets. Because he's got a lot of money 544 00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:43,359 to pay many many many people off throughout your confetti, 545 00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:46,559 because here I come, Chang Mai. My celebration started the 546 00:27:46,599 --> 00:27:49,240 second I landed. It didn't take long to make myself 547 00:27:49,279 --> 00:27:52,279 acquainted with a few fellow travelers and find the hotspots. 548 00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:55,079 In the hustling city. It was like nowhere I had 549 00:27:55,119 --> 00:27:58,759 ever been before. The streets were aligned with stalls offering 550 00:27:58,759 --> 00:28:02,640 an assortment of souvenirs, clothing, and knick knacks. Everyone lived 551 00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:06,400 so freely and was in such great spirits. The party 552 00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:09,200 raged on until the wee hours of the morning, and 553 00:28:09,279 --> 00:28:12,880 people became best friends overnight. From the second I got there, 554 00:28:13,039 --> 00:28:15,200 I knew Thailand was going to be a lot of fun, 555 00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:18,640 and I was right Popping bottles of champagne, dancing all 556 00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:21,880 night to the beat of every club's rhythm along my way, 557 00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:24,839 and carrying on like it was my birthday. Every night 558 00:28:25,200 --> 00:28:28,880 was a repetition I could definitely get used to. During 559 00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:31,400 the day, I was a real good girl, the teacher's pet, 560 00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:35,559 even showing the credibility of my experience in massage from 561 00:28:35,599 --> 00:28:38,240 over the last few years and already ahead of the class. 562 00:28:38,599 --> 00:28:41,119 The teacher was using me to help instruct the others 563 00:28:41,359 --> 00:28:44,839 with demonstrations, mostly in a class full of males. It 564 00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:47,200 wasn't a surprise that I made friends with the quite 565 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,799 a few of them, some of them with ulterior motives, 566 00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:52,160 but for the most part, the sleeves bags were none 567 00:28:52,160 --> 00:28:55,079 of my concern. I had already dealt with a lifetime 568 00:28:55,079 --> 00:28:57,119 of them to be able to spot one out and 569 00:28:57,160 --> 00:29:00,839 scure clear of his approaches. Out of the entire class, 570 00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,759 I had made friends with the only one girl from Wisconsin. 571 00:29:04,079 --> 00:29:06,359 She was a plain looking girl with big brown puppy 572 00:29:06,359 --> 00:29:09,680 dog eyes and a long drawn out accent. Her first 573 00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:12,519 time leaving the States, or Wisconsin itself for that matter, 574 00:29:12,759 --> 00:29:14,920 so it was easy to acknowledge that she was a 575 00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:17,759 little taken aback by all of the bustling city life. 576 00:29:18,400 --> 00:29:20,799 So becoming her friend felt like I was doing a 577 00:29:20,799 --> 00:29:26,400 good deed showing her around the hotspots of Chang May nightlife. Eventually, 578 00:29:26,599 --> 00:29:29,160 I even invited her to stay at my hotel. She 579 00:29:29,200 --> 00:29:31,640 was running out of money to party every night, then 580 00:29:31,720 --> 00:29:34,519 pay for school on top of her accommodation. It was 581 00:29:34,559 --> 00:29:37,200 all becoming too much out of her small budget, so 582 00:29:37,319 --> 00:29:39,279 I thought about it and offered her a bed in 583 00:29:39,319 --> 00:29:41,920 my room. I had two of them anyway. Plus, she 584 00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:44,000 was a really nice girl, and if I could help 585 00:29:44,039 --> 00:29:47,119 make her first time out of the country an unforgettable experience, 586 00:29:47,319 --> 00:29:49,599 then I was also gaining something from it as well. 587 00:29:50,759 --> 00:29:54,160 The first month quickly passed me by having such an 588 00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:56,640 incredible time on my own and putting my heart into 589 00:29:56,720 --> 00:30:00,400 learning time massage. It seemed to just fly past uteenly. 590 00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:02,680 I had to call in and check in with Jeffrey 591 00:30:02,839 --> 00:30:06,960 and Galane, letting him know my whereabouts and progression in class. 592 00:30:07,440 --> 00:30:10,559 Counting down the time left until my course finished, Jeffrey 593 00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:14,319 was anticipating my departure back to New York. I can't 594 00:30:14,319 --> 00:30:17,400 wait to get my first time massage from you. I've 595 00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:19,920 got you booked to come straight back to New York 596 00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:22,680 for my first one as soon as your course finishes 597 00:30:22,759 --> 00:30:26,720 next month. His eagerness put a twisted, familiar nod in 598 00:30:26,799 --> 00:30:30,079 my stomach, reminding me of the dream I have to 599 00:30:30,119 --> 00:30:33,000 awake from soon and the reality of a certain homecoming 600 00:30:33,039 --> 00:30:36,200 I would be arriving too. It's such a great course. 601 00:30:36,599 --> 00:30:38,960 Thank you so much for sending me here to learn this. 602 00:30:39,279 --> 00:30:42,279 You're going to love my new area of expertise. I'm 603 00:30:42,319 --> 00:30:45,000 having such an amazing time over here. I had to 604 00:30:45,079 --> 00:30:47,839 let him know how much I appreciated what he had 605 00:30:47,880 --> 00:30:50,359 done for me, and he loved the head swell that 606 00:30:50,359 --> 00:30:53,160 it would make him feel as well. Hitting the thought 607 00:30:53,200 --> 00:30:55,319 of going back to him, I wasn't going to let 608 00:30:55,359 --> 00:30:57,519 that put a damper on my spirits. While I was 609 00:30:57,559 --> 00:31:00,160 still out here, it was my time to party harder 610 00:31:00,359 --> 00:31:04,200 than ever before. Every night was a new adventure for me. 611 00:31:04,799 --> 00:31:07,200 Chang May was in maze of places to get lost in, 612 00:31:07,519 --> 00:31:11,240 and the vibrant city was my playground. The way I 613 00:31:11,279 --> 00:31:13,720 saw it, this was my last chance to get out 614 00:31:13,759 --> 00:31:16,559 and break free, letting loose my inner girl. It felt 615 00:31:16,559 --> 00:31:19,839 so good to take the lead of my own life. 616 00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:21,960 It was an average evening getting ready in front of 617 00:31:21,960 --> 00:31:25,519 the bathroom mirror on just an average Sunday, though unbeknownst 618 00:31:25,519 --> 00:31:28,200 to us girls as we sat there chatting away carelessly, 619 00:31:28,519 --> 00:31:31,039 this night was already written in the stars. For me. 620 00:31:32,640 --> 00:31:34,519 It was a very long time ago now, when I 621 00:31:34,559 --> 00:31:36,480 was still a young child, and I sat looking up 622 00:31:36,519 --> 00:31:39,319 to those same stars from my bedroom window with my 623 00:31:39,359 --> 00:31:42,319 hands pressed tightly together as I cried for God to 624 00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:45,359 hear my prayers. All I asked him for was death. 625 00:31:46,039 --> 00:31:48,799 My precious life was already such a hopeless battle that 626 00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:52,079 I felt too small to fight alone for it. Begging 627 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,960 him to deliver me from this cruel world. I would 628 00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:57,400 pray for all my pain and that it would go 629 00:31:57,440 --> 00:32:00,480 away for good. My only clause in my prayers was 630 00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:02,920 the possibility that there was somebody in this world that 631 00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:05,759 I was meant to love, something much bigger than I 632 00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:09,680 could have ever even imagined. This invocation was forgotten about 633 00:32:09,720 --> 00:32:12,559 long ago until tonight. I wish I had known that 634 00:32:12,559 --> 00:32:15,039 that night I sat crying beneath the stars, that it 635 00:32:15,039 --> 00:32:18,000 would all be different one day, that I hadn't sold 636 00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:21,079 myself short to the accustomed lifestyle I was brought up 637 00:32:21,119 --> 00:32:24,480 to believing was acceptable. It was this night my very 638 00:32:24,519 --> 00:32:27,640 soul was about to cosmically collide with the man that 639 00:32:27,720 --> 00:32:30,759 I was always meant for, the man my heart already 640 00:32:30,759 --> 00:32:33,319 belonged to and would know from the instant we met. 641 00:32:33,759 --> 00:32:36,440 This night would be the first day to the beginning 642 00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:41,079 of my new life to come. I blushed my cheeks 643 00:32:41,200 --> 00:32:44,000 and put my miscaa on before me and my girlfriend 644 00:32:44,079 --> 00:32:46,400 headed back out to hit the town. We were dressed 645 00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,799 to kill and looking for something to do. When we 646 00:32:48,880 --> 00:32:51,119 ran into a few of our classmates at one of 647 00:32:51,119 --> 00:32:54,119 our favorite drinking spots. They were meeting up for some 648 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:57,839 drinks before a muy Thai kickboxing tournament. It sounded like 649 00:32:57,960 --> 00:33:00,759 fun when they invited us along to watch it with him. 650 00:33:01,559 --> 00:33:03,720 The massive crowd lined the street where the fight was 651 00:33:03,759 --> 00:33:07,200 being held, and once I got inside the arena, it 652 00:33:07,359 --> 00:33:09,440 was push and shove to try and find a spot 653 00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:12,480 to watch from The friends that we were hanging out 654 00:33:12,519 --> 00:33:15,000 with were meeting up with another group of guys that 655 00:33:15,119 --> 00:33:17,720 were training for the kickboxing tournaments that we were watching. 656 00:33:18,559 --> 00:33:21,400 Then it happened. It was the first moment that I 657 00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:23,759 laid eyes on the man that I would love for 658 00:33:23,799 --> 00:33:26,599 the rest of my life. I wasn't expecting the most 659 00:33:26,680 --> 00:33:29,119 amazing time of my life to happen right here and then, 660 00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:31,960 but it did, and I would never be the same again. 661 00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:35,319 Destiny fell right smack into my lap and there was 662 00:33:35,359 --> 00:33:39,359 no stopping it. It wasn't just his smoldering appeal that 663 00:33:39,519 --> 00:33:42,119 was obvious at first sight. It was the entire package 664 00:33:42,119 --> 00:33:45,480 of mannerism and chivalry that made him stand out of 665 00:33:45,519 --> 00:33:48,519 the crowd, stepping right out of the pages of the 666 00:33:48,519 --> 00:33:50,960 fairy tales I used to read. He was nothing like 667 00:33:51,160 --> 00:33:54,480 I had ever come to known before. Watching him close 668 00:33:54,519 --> 00:33:57,200 a distance, he was playfully shadow boxing one of the 669 00:33:57,240 --> 00:33:59,880 guys from my massage class, and it was at that 670 00:34:00,119 --> 00:34:03,119 moment that this had some stranger first caught me staring 671 00:34:03,119 --> 00:34:06,880 at him from top to toe. This athletically built man 672 00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:09,800 was intriguing to watch. I couldn't take my eyes off him, 673 00:34:10,039 --> 00:34:12,920 like I was magnetically drawn to his power of attraction. 674 00:34:14,079 --> 00:34:16,760 He further interested me when he wasn't acting like the 675 00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:19,760 majority of harping dogs that would jump at the eyes 676 00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:23,320 I was giving him now. Instead, he coyly played hard 677 00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:26,440 to get, making me work for any conversation with him. 678 00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:29,840 The fight started and the men were going berserk, screaming 679 00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:32,280 at the fighters in the ring, offering either fight or 680 00:34:32,360 --> 00:34:36,400 their support or discrimination, depending on whom they were batting for. 681 00:34:36,920 --> 00:34:39,159 It was like watching a primitive scene out of the 682 00:34:39,239 --> 00:34:41,559 days when the cavemen ruled the earth, but it was 683 00:34:41,599 --> 00:34:45,159 as equally alluring to watch unfold the sweat, the blood, 684 00:34:45,400 --> 00:34:49,719 and the absolute brunt fascination of it all. After the 685 00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:53,920 fight and all of the men repped up from the fight, 686 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,239 I suggested that we head to the pizza joint in 687 00:34:56,280 --> 00:34:58,679 front of the Princess hotel where I was staying for 688 00:34:58,840 --> 00:35:01,440 a late night snack. I met at my goal to 689 00:35:01,440 --> 00:35:04,880 make myself known to this appealing stranger in the Tuck Tuck. 690 00:35:04,920 --> 00:35:06,880 On the way there, I made sure I sat next 691 00:35:06,880 --> 00:35:09,639 to Robbie, scooting my knees closer and closer to him. 692 00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:12,960 On the short ride. He continued his chase by moving 693 00:35:12,960 --> 00:35:15,119 further away from me, a game of cat and mouse 694 00:35:15,159 --> 00:35:18,079 that I loved. When he answered back the array of 695 00:35:18,079 --> 00:35:21,320 my questions, he had the cutest, aussy accent that drove 696 00:35:21,360 --> 00:35:25,480 me absolutely wild. Gradually we got to know each other 697 00:35:26,639 --> 00:35:29,079 better over a pie of Pepperoni pizza and two cans 698 00:35:29,079 --> 00:35:31,679 of coke. To me, he might as well have been 699 00:35:31,679 --> 00:35:34,000 the only other person in the restaurant. He knew he 700 00:35:34,039 --> 00:35:36,599 had my undivided attention, and I think he liked it. 701 00:35:37,239 --> 00:35:39,280 There was no one like him that I had ever 702 00:35:39,320 --> 00:35:41,760 met before, and I knew there was no other who 703 00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:43,960 could make me feel the way I felt that the 704 00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:47,440 first sight of him being charming and suave was all 705 00:35:47,440 --> 00:35:50,840 an accidental front. It was easy to read him immediately. 706 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:53,679 It wasn't hard to see his sweet side holding the 707 00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:56,599 door and pulling out my chair at the restaurant, I 708 00:35:56,679 --> 00:36:00,000 was already smitten. After pizza, he walked me across the 709 00:36:00,199 --> 00:36:02,440 street to my hotel, where we made plans to meet 710 00:36:02,519 --> 00:36:04,639 up again. There was no kiss, good night or anything 711 00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:07,320 like that. No, he was too polite for that. He 712 00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:11,119 wanted to prove himself different and different. He was walking 713 00:36:11,159 --> 00:36:14,400 through the hotel's revolving doors. I watched as he walked away, 714 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:17,800 and when he was finally out of sight, I sung 715 00:36:17,880 --> 00:36:20,440 my way up to the room. Floating on cloud nine, 716 00:36:20,559 --> 00:36:22,760 I was free falling into a deep pit of love. 717 00:36:23,559 --> 00:36:25,280 All right, we're gonna wrap up right here, and in 718 00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:27,519 the next episode, dealing with the topic, we're gonna pick 719 00:36:27,599 --> 00:36:30,119 up where we left off. All of the information that 720 00:36:30,159 --> 00:36:33,480 goes with this episode can be found in the description box.