WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.519 --> 00:00:26.879 Weird things happen, weird, weird, weird. I think, you know, 2 00:00:26.960 --> 00:00:30.399 I think everyone is on a quest to figure out 3 00:00:30.679 --> 00:00:33.000 what are we doing here? Why are we here? And 4 00:00:33.039 --> 00:00:35.719 what are we doing here? And I know I am, 5 00:00:36.280 --> 00:00:38.000 I mean, and at some point in your life, if 6 00:00:38.039 --> 00:00:40.119 you haven't gone on that quest, you'll get to that quest, 7 00:00:40.200 --> 00:00:42.280 because no matter what things happen in your life, where 8 00:00:42.320 --> 00:00:43.880 you go, how much you have, how much you don't have, 9 00:00:44.200 --> 00:00:45.679 you get to a point where it's like, well, what 10 00:00:45.880 --> 00:00:47.960 is it? What are we all doing on this rock 11 00:00:48.280 --> 00:00:51.399 of you know, that's just kind of spinning through space 12 00:00:51.479 --> 00:00:55.520 and we were born into and then exit, you know, 13 00:00:55.600 --> 00:00:57.960 And like the meaning of life, I guess is always 14 00:00:58.039 --> 00:01:01.039 I've been taught to give life meaning. Uh but uh 15 00:01:01.439 --> 00:01:05.879 but what is the greater, bigger thing? And uh and 16 00:01:05.879 --> 00:01:08.280 and I don't I don't know, if you know, we 17 00:01:08.319 --> 00:01:10.000 can never get to the bottom of it. So it's 18 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:13.200 like peeling away onions layers to an onion. 19 00:01:14.280 --> 00:01:15.840 Yeah, I love that? 20 00:01:16.519 --> 00:01:16.680 Is it? 21 00:01:16.719 --> 00:01:17.879 Okay? If we start with that. 22 00:01:17.840 --> 00:01:21.000 Peter, Yeah, I thought we were recording, so he. 23 00:01:20.920 --> 00:01:23.200 Could it's it's recording, But you know, it's like it 24 00:01:23.680 --> 00:01:26.040 kind of starts when we say starts, So I think 25 00:01:26.079 --> 00:01:30.560 that's a beautiful start. I want to introduce our wonderful 26 00:01:30.560 --> 00:01:33.760 guest to the listener. We have Peter Fachinelli. I have 27 00:01:33.840 --> 00:01:36.959 to say, Peter, and I'm just being perfectly candid here 28 00:01:37.000 --> 00:01:40.159 because that's my style. You are, literally and this is 29 00:01:40.239 --> 00:01:42.599 like the most excited I've ever been to do an episode. 30 00:01:43.200 --> 00:01:47.959 I'm not don't don't tell Brad Payton. Well, I was 31 00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:50.920 with let's let's little do a little back back to history. 32 00:01:51.280 --> 00:01:53.599 I would just with I would just with you and 33 00:01:53.719 --> 00:01:57.000 Brad Payton a week ago, bradment and and my cousin 34 00:01:57.079 --> 00:01:58.640 dax Or you know who I think is going to 35 00:01:58.680 --> 00:02:01.159 do your show soon. He's been Yeah, and we had 36 00:02:01.159 --> 00:02:03.840 a lovely, lovely time with you guys and got to 37 00:02:03.920 --> 00:02:06.239 SkyWatch and your family was so kind and now I 38 00:02:06.280 --> 00:02:08.280 feel like we're all part of the same family. And 39 00:02:09.199 --> 00:02:13.639 uh and it was what a wonderful experience that we had. 40 00:02:13.919 --> 00:02:15.360 So thank you for that, and thank you for your 41 00:02:15.400 --> 00:02:18.199 family for that. And I'm excited too excited. 42 00:02:17.879 --> 00:02:19.840 To me Yeah, Well, like I told you, you're part 43 00:02:19.840 --> 00:02:22.560 of the family now. I think it's very obvious to 44 00:02:22.639 --> 00:02:25.879 the listener your background. But just to give for people 45 00:02:25.879 --> 00:02:29.439 who are listening, uh, Peter is an actor. He has 46 00:02:29.520 --> 00:02:32.319 been in a number of amazing movies. I'm sure they'll 47 00:02:32.360 --> 00:02:35.120 obviously immediately recognize Twilight. And I have to be honest 48 00:02:35.159 --> 00:02:38.360 with you. My wife and I just binge all five. 49 00:02:38.639 --> 00:02:41.520 Oh, go all the way? Okay, yeah, hell yeah. 50 00:02:41.560 --> 00:02:44.639 And so my brain is spinning right now with that. 51 00:02:44.719 --> 00:02:45.919 But it was just for fun. 52 00:02:46.319 --> 00:02:49.240 You know, you just saw him get his head cut off. 53 00:02:49.360 --> 00:02:55.039 Well sorry the twelve fifteen years. 54 00:02:56.520 --> 00:02:58.319 Yeah, but no, you're right, man, I don't I don't 55 00:02:58.319 --> 00:03:00.360 want Brad to hear that. I was very excited for 56 00:03:00.400 --> 00:03:02.199 that episode two, but this feels a little different because 57 00:03:02.240 --> 00:03:04.280 we were supposed to do it in person and then 58 00:03:04.280 --> 00:03:06.319 you went home and I felt the scene from feeling 59 00:03:06.319 --> 00:03:08.240 in my gut like, ah, we ran out of time. 60 00:03:08.319 --> 00:03:10.960 What if I missed the mark And you've been kind, 61 00:03:10.960 --> 00:03:12.800 You've been gracious with your time. You still came and 62 00:03:12.800 --> 00:03:15.400 did it. That means a lot to us. So anyway, without. 63 00:03:15.120 --> 00:03:17.800 Further ado, I'm excited. I'm excited to be here. Yeah. 64 00:03:18.479 --> 00:03:22.840 So something that I think would be we talked about 65 00:03:22.840 --> 00:03:24.599 this at some point. I would love to get into 66 00:03:24.639 --> 00:03:26.919 an unbreakable boy, but maybe we can save that for 67 00:03:26.960 --> 00:03:29.199 a little bit. I want to talk out. I want 68 00:03:29.199 --> 00:03:30.800 to and you guys might not know about this, but 69 00:03:30.840 --> 00:03:32.400 he has a movie coming out next month. 70 00:03:32.840 --> 00:03:34.560 Yeah. Yeah, we talked about it. 71 00:03:34.560 --> 00:03:38.000 Basically, was like one of the key people of getting 72 00:03:38.039 --> 00:03:39.840 it out there, and I'll let him. 73 00:03:40.400 --> 00:03:42.039 I was a producer on it, and I found the 74 00:03:42.080 --> 00:03:45.039 book and was able to shepherd it to lions Gate. 75 00:03:45.080 --> 00:03:47.439 Lions Gate, you know, we were able to make it 76 00:03:47.719 --> 00:03:49.360 and now it comes out. So but we'll get into 77 00:03:49.400 --> 00:03:50.719 all of that after we get into that. 78 00:03:51.319 --> 00:03:53.360 I want to start with you, man. I was talking 79 00:03:53.360 --> 00:03:54.960 with Jenny this morning and I was like, you know, 80 00:03:55.000 --> 00:03:56.840 what would be really cool. She was like, you need 81 00:03:56.840 --> 00:03:58.080 to think about this and this and this, and I 82 00:03:58.120 --> 00:03:59.479 was like, no, you know what I want to know 83 00:03:59.560 --> 00:04:01.199 and what I think think the listener would love to know. 84 00:04:02.319 --> 00:04:05.680 I'm curious, Peter, when this spiritual journey began for you, 85 00:04:06.240 --> 00:04:09.639 because spending seventy two hours with you, it's very clear 86 00:04:09.800 --> 00:04:13.000 that you are an earnest seeker. And I kind of 87 00:04:13.039 --> 00:04:14.560 got a little giggle out of some of the things 88 00:04:14.599 --> 00:04:17.279 you said because in my mind I was so, oh 89 00:04:17.319 --> 00:04:19.920 my god, I'm meeting you. Know, Peter. I've seen you 90 00:04:19.959 --> 00:04:22.079 in all these movies growing up and I'm like, what's 91 00:04:22.079 --> 00:04:23.480 he going to be? Like, I didn't know you were 92 00:04:23.480 --> 00:04:25.879 coming for two weeks, right like two weeks before you came, 93 00:04:25.920 --> 00:04:28.800 it was like, whoa, this is really fast. And I 94 00:04:28.879 --> 00:04:31.040 had this expectation and then I met you, and you're 95 00:04:31.120 --> 00:04:34.920 like this down to earth like dude, you know, like 96 00:04:35.439 --> 00:04:39.800 the galaxies in the universe or like our consciousness man. 97 00:04:39.879 --> 00:04:41.920 And he was just saying all these things over the 98 00:04:41.959 --> 00:04:44.839 three days. That's like the things that we say. And 99 00:04:45.399 --> 00:04:47.800 I kind of had this giggle in my mind, like, oh, okay, 100 00:04:47.879 --> 00:04:50.800 so you're for real. You know, you're you're really for real. 101 00:04:51.160 --> 00:04:54.120 We're talking about the pyramids. So anyway, So what I'm 102 00:04:54.120 --> 00:04:57.240 curious about is like how this spiritual journey began for you? 103 00:04:57.519 --> 00:04:59.399 Have you always been this way? Is it a more 104 00:04:59.439 --> 00:05:00.000 recent thing? 105 00:05:00.920 --> 00:05:02.920 I mean, I grew up Catholic, so I grew up 106 00:05:02.920 --> 00:05:06.160 with some religion. I would say I'm more spiritual than religious. 107 00:05:07.439 --> 00:05:11.519 But you know, I think I think we've I mean 108 00:05:11.560 --> 00:05:14.360 I've always felt like there was a connection to some 109 00:05:14.560 --> 00:05:19.120 out outer source of something you know, and uh, you know, 110 00:05:19.160 --> 00:05:22.160 when you're when you're talking to it, it's listening and 111 00:05:22.160 --> 00:05:26.720 and it sometimes downloads things to you and uh, and 112 00:05:26.480 --> 00:05:30.839 and and so having that uh, this this thing to 113 00:05:30.839 --> 00:05:34.199 to be able to connect with uh, then you start 114 00:05:34.240 --> 00:05:36.800 to wonder, well, where's it coming from? Where? Where? How 115 00:05:36.800 --> 00:05:38.560 does it all work? And so I think I've always 116 00:05:38.560 --> 00:05:40.560 an aly had it. I mean I've read so many 117 00:05:40.600 --> 00:05:44.680 books on on on different religions and different things, and uh, 118 00:05:44.800 --> 00:05:46.480 you know, you think you have it in your hand 119 00:05:46.560 --> 00:05:48.800 and and then it kind of falls out like sand. 120 00:05:48.879 --> 00:05:52.240 And you know, I'm reading Tom Campbell's My Big Toe 121 00:05:52.319 --> 00:05:54.560 right now, and and I don't know if you read it, 122 00:05:54.600 --> 00:05:59.360 but it's eating take on consciousness and where we're you 123 00:05:59.360 --> 00:06:01.920 know how much. And it works. And you know he 124 00:06:01.959 --> 00:06:04.399 doesn't claim to have all the answers he claims to have. 125 00:06:04.560 --> 00:06:08.639 You know, this is his his, his dogma and uh 126 00:06:08.720 --> 00:06:11.920 and we're allowed our dogma. But but there's a lot 127 00:06:11.959 --> 00:06:13.360 of things that resonate and a lot of things that 128 00:06:13.360 --> 00:06:15.480 I feel like, oh, I think I understand and then 129 00:06:15.480 --> 00:06:17.000 I have to like listen to it ten times and 130 00:06:17.040 --> 00:06:20.079 I'm like I get it, and I but it's so huge. 131 00:06:20.120 --> 00:06:22.560 I think I said this before you. It's like it's 132 00:06:22.600 --> 00:06:28.240 trying to explain like the the the US presidential elections 133 00:06:28.279 --> 00:06:32.639 to the bacteria in your stomach. You know, bacteria in 134 00:06:32.639 --> 00:06:35.639 your stomach has its own little, you know, ecosystem, and 135 00:06:35.720 --> 00:06:39.480 it doesn't know what the bigger outer things that they're 136 00:06:39.480 --> 00:06:42.519 trying to explain a nuclear bomb to the bacteria study 137 00:06:42.600 --> 00:06:45.279 is like, nor would it care. But if something affected 138 00:06:45.319 --> 00:06:47.040 if a nucle momb went offer that, you know, our 139 00:06:47.079 --> 00:06:48.639 food supply, what all of a sudden, it's like, wait 140 00:06:48.639 --> 00:06:50.759 a minute, there's no food here. So everything kind of 141 00:06:50.839 --> 00:06:54.319 as above so below right, So it's things outside effect 142 00:06:54.560 --> 00:06:57.920 and then it affects us. But it's like consciousness in 143 00:06:57.959 --> 00:07:03.680 this book is just all one big swirling system, you know, 144 00:07:03.759 --> 00:07:07.360 as far as I could tell from from Tom Campbell's 145 00:07:07.480 --> 00:07:08.560 and I don't want to get it wrong, and I 146 00:07:08.560 --> 00:07:10.480 don't want to you know, quote undo. What I'm getting 147 00:07:10.519 --> 00:07:13.879 from it is like it's in a weird way, it's 148 00:07:13.920 --> 00:07:16.480 depressing and in a weird way it's freeing, you know, 149 00:07:16.519 --> 00:07:18.800 because you look at it and go, well, okay, well 150 00:07:18.800 --> 00:07:20.959 then what is the purpose? What is the purpose of 151 00:07:21.000 --> 00:07:24.839 all this? And like do you you know, end your 152 00:07:24.920 --> 00:07:28.120 story and you take a bow and end up going okay, 153 00:07:28.120 --> 00:07:30.000 now I have my life review and now I get 154 00:07:30.040 --> 00:07:32.279 to see what I've learned and grown or is it. 155 00:07:32.759 --> 00:07:38.120 You were just part of this this experience and you 156 00:07:38.120 --> 00:07:40.879 you're born, and you live, and you die and then 157 00:07:41.040 --> 00:07:44.600 you kind of dissipate into the sea of consciousness again 158 00:07:44.680 --> 00:07:47.360 and and you're no more important than an apple falling 159 00:07:47.399 --> 00:07:49.959 from the tree that kind of decomposes. And you know, 160 00:07:50.160 --> 00:07:53.800 and even that apple has significance because that apple that 161 00:07:54.240 --> 00:07:57.319 is born into the world and falls into the tree 162 00:07:57.399 --> 00:08:01.720 and decomposes is feeding the other you know, systems, And 163 00:08:02.279 --> 00:08:05.720 so we're all part of this big system that's swirling about. 164 00:08:05.759 --> 00:08:08.240 And I'm affecting you, and you're affecting me, and this 165 00:08:08.279 --> 00:08:11.600 podcast is affecting others and on a bigger global scale, 166 00:08:11.720 --> 00:08:15.360 like our consciousness is affecting other parts of the consciousness 167 00:08:15.560 --> 00:08:19.160 and so there's no real like you don't matter, But 168 00:08:19.639 --> 00:08:21.680 do we matter as much as we think we do, 169 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:24.800 as far as our ego selves, you know what I mean? 170 00:08:25.240 --> 00:08:28.279 And that's the depressing part, is like, Okay, so this 171 00:08:28.360 --> 00:08:30.839 little play that we're putting on and these characters that 172 00:08:30.879 --> 00:08:32.840 we're playing, and I'm playing the role of Peter Fashionelle 173 00:08:32.879 --> 00:08:35.399 today and you're playing the role run LEDs up. Like 174 00:08:36.600 --> 00:08:39.639 at the end of the day, I know it all matters. 175 00:08:39.720 --> 00:08:42.759 I know, we affect each other, but you know, hundreds 176 00:08:42.799 --> 00:08:45.720 of thousands of years from now, how much did that 177 00:08:45.720 --> 00:08:49.960 affect the consciousness system? Did it? Did I grow to it? 178 00:08:50.200 --> 00:08:53.399 Am I still when I when I dissipate into the 179 00:08:53.399 --> 00:08:56.679 sea of consciousness? Am I still? Like? Do I understand 180 00:08:56.759 --> 00:09:00.840 that I played this part you know years and years ago? 181 00:09:01.000 --> 00:09:03.960 Is time doesn't exist in and of itself. 182 00:09:03.600 --> 00:09:07.600 Right, so trippy. So really it comes. 183 00:09:07.240 --> 00:09:10.360 Really trippy because time and space don't really exist. It's 184 00:09:10.360 --> 00:09:12.960 a man made construct. So when you put all of 185 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:16.399 that together, it really feels like the bacteria trying to 186 00:09:16.440 --> 00:09:21.720 understand nuclear fission. You're just glazed over. And then I 187 00:09:21.799 --> 00:09:25.159 had an experience with you guys which was so wonderful 188 00:09:25.639 --> 00:09:29.600 and so you know, makes your heart glow with seeing 189 00:09:29.639 --> 00:09:32.600 these beautiful orbs in the sky that you know, at 190 00:09:32.639 --> 00:09:35.600 first your mind wants to go, well, that's a shooting star. 191 00:09:36.159 --> 00:09:39.919 And oh that's another shooting star. Oh there's another shooting star. Okay, 192 00:09:39.919 --> 00:09:42.440 maybe it's just raining shooting stars. Maybe six o'clock, like 193 00:09:43.080 --> 00:09:47.720 you know, a meteor shower. And I have videotaped like 194 00:09:47.759 --> 00:09:50.399 two of them because I was just like, they're so 195 00:09:50.480 --> 00:09:52.080 high up in the sky. And then I go home 196 00:09:52.120 --> 00:09:54.039 and I play the video and they're dancing balls of 197 00:09:54.120 --> 00:09:56.960 light and they're changing colors, and you're like, there's no 198 00:09:57.000 --> 00:09:59.440 way that's I mean, you know, meteor shower. That's not 199 00:10:00.200 --> 00:10:02.519 you know, your mind wants to make it into something else. 200 00:10:02.559 --> 00:10:05.240 It wants to justify. It doesn't want to believe because 201 00:10:05.279 --> 00:10:08.159 it wants to stay in this limited belief system. But 202 00:10:08.279 --> 00:10:10.559 I know that they're not and I know that they're 203 00:10:10.600 --> 00:10:12.600 not man made. There's no way that that's you know, 204 00:10:12.639 --> 00:10:14.240 no one put on a laser show for us that 205 00:10:14.320 --> 00:10:18.360 in that evening at six o'clock, especially for us, you know, 206 00:10:19.799 --> 00:10:22.440 and uh, and I know that they're not made of 207 00:10:22.480 --> 00:10:25.279 any kind of material that we could have created because 208 00:10:25.320 --> 00:10:27.759 of the shapes and the patterns that were it was making. 209 00:10:28.080 --> 00:10:29.840 And I have it on my Instagram if anybody wants 210 00:10:29.840 --> 00:10:31.360 to go see these, and you can zoom in and 211 00:10:31.399 --> 00:10:36.360 they're you know, there's shapes there, there's tetrahedron, there's uh, 212 00:10:36.480 --> 00:10:38.960 you know all there's a crow. It becomes in the cross, 213 00:10:39.000 --> 00:10:42.240 it becomes all these different shapes and colors. So you're going, okay, well, 214 00:10:42.240 --> 00:10:45.679 what is it if it's not man made and it's 215 00:10:45.720 --> 00:10:50.120 not you know, human then then is the spirits? Is 216 00:10:50.200 --> 00:10:55.519 it dimensional? Is it aliens crafts? And you still walk 217 00:10:55.519 --> 00:10:59.000 away with an unanswered questions, which which then makes you 218 00:10:59.039 --> 00:11:01.360 so frustrated, because I mean, I think I said this 219 00:11:01.399 --> 00:11:05.000 to your dad, like I feel so frustrated as him, 220 00:11:05.039 --> 00:11:07.799 because he was he had this experience and he was 221 00:11:07.840 --> 00:11:10.600 told certain things and then I'd be like, but what 222 00:11:10.639 --> 00:11:13.960 do I do with it now? So my cousin Dax 223 00:11:14.120 --> 00:11:15.960 was like so exciting. He was like, well, this is 224 00:11:16.039 --> 00:11:18.399 my goal, this is life changing. And I didn't want 225 00:11:18.399 --> 00:11:19.720 to be pessimistic, but I was like, but what do 226 00:11:19.799 --> 00:11:22.440 I do with it? Because I still have to, you know, 227 00:11:22.519 --> 00:11:24.679 feed my family and go to my job and make 228 00:11:24.759 --> 00:11:27.600 my movies and get my coffee and you know, eat 229 00:11:27.639 --> 00:11:29.759 my lunch. And but what do you do with it? 230 00:11:29.799 --> 00:11:33.000 Because I still don't know what it is or how 231 00:11:33.039 --> 00:11:36.639 to help it or how to help humanity in any way. 232 00:11:36.679 --> 00:11:38.480 And I know it all starts with the self. I 233 00:11:38.519 --> 00:11:42.559 get it. I still go what now? What? 234 00:11:42.639 --> 00:11:42.799 Now? 235 00:11:43.360 --> 00:11:43.799 What? Now? 236 00:11:44.320 --> 00:11:47.679 I love this Peter because when we were skywatching together, 237 00:11:47.799 --> 00:11:50.879 which was I guess two nights that we were skywatching, 238 00:11:50.960 --> 00:11:53.440 and over those two nights, we probably saw somewhere around 239 00:11:53.480 --> 00:11:55.600 one hundred and fifty lights, one hundred on the first night, 240 00:11:55.679 --> 00:11:57.720 on the second night, anywhere from I don't know thirty 241 00:11:57.759 --> 00:12:00.840 to fifty. And what I love about hearing you explain 242 00:12:00.960 --> 00:12:04.240 this to me now and such detail and with such 243 00:12:04.320 --> 00:12:08.320 enthusiasm is great because you were so quiet during the SkyWatch, 244 00:12:08.360 --> 00:12:10.639 and I didn't want to probe you. I didn't want 245 00:12:10.639 --> 00:12:11.559 to be like, what are you think of? What are 246 00:12:11.559 --> 00:12:13.519 you thinking? You know, and you were just kind of 247 00:12:13.519 --> 00:12:15.759 like quiet. You were sitting there, you were really chill. 248 00:12:16.159 --> 00:12:18.080 I noticed you were in the zero G and you 249 00:12:18.120 --> 00:12:20.679 were filming and you were getting your footage. And the 250 00:12:20.720 --> 00:12:23.360 whole time I was thinking, I wonder what's going on 251 00:12:23.399 --> 00:12:25.600 in Peter's head? I wonder, I wonder what you think 252 00:12:25.600 --> 00:12:27.759 about this? So to hear you explain this to me 253 00:12:27.840 --> 00:12:31.200 is very surreal. It's very exciting to like see how 254 00:12:31.240 --> 00:12:32.919 your gears have been turning about this. And I think 255 00:12:32.960 --> 00:12:34.840 you're right. I've been there my whole life, like what 256 00:12:34.879 --> 00:12:38.399 do we do with it? And I think what I've 257 00:12:38.480 --> 00:12:41.840 naturally come up with is like just be the best 258 00:12:41.879 --> 00:12:44.039 I can be, you know, just try to share this 259 00:12:44.120 --> 00:12:46.919 with people and just try to glow like those beautiful 260 00:12:46.919 --> 00:12:49.879 bright lights and just be the kindest person that I 261 00:12:49.919 --> 00:12:52.480 can be and help others to see like, hey, there's 262 00:12:52.480 --> 00:12:56.159 something freaking going on up there, you know, and in here. 263 00:12:57.000 --> 00:13:00.159 I think what's funny is like, it's hard because I 264 00:13:00.240 --> 00:13:04.159 understand the plight that you and your your family have 265 00:13:04.320 --> 00:13:08.759 because even sharing it with my family or friends, and 266 00:13:08.840 --> 00:13:10.799 you want to show them and you show them footage. 267 00:13:10.799 --> 00:13:12.519 Now I have foot your your dad didn't even have 268 00:13:12.519 --> 00:13:16.639 footage for like the first one years. Yeah, five years 269 00:13:16.720 --> 00:13:19.480 no footage. People are like, sure you saw that, but 270 00:13:19.559 --> 00:13:22.279 I have footage, and people are looking at it going, oh, yeah, 271 00:13:22.320 --> 00:13:28.039 that's interesting, and then that's it and that's it. Yeah, 272 00:13:28.159 --> 00:13:29.919 they don't know what to do with it either, or 273 00:13:30.000 --> 00:13:32.200 they'll go, well you sure it wasn't this? Are you 274 00:13:32.240 --> 00:13:35.279 sure it wasn't that? And or you know, I sent 275 00:13:35.279 --> 00:13:38.080 to a couple of friends and you know, teasingly he 276 00:13:38.240 --> 00:13:40.240 shot a star. It was like, look I see it too, 277 00:13:40.279 --> 00:13:43.159 and it's like he was his own around and to 278 00:13:43.200 --> 00:13:46.039 be like, but that's not funny, because like, that's I saw. 279 00:13:46.200 --> 00:13:49.759 This is what I saw. I'm like, I mean, I 280 00:13:49.799 --> 00:13:53.279 think people's go to is to either make fun of it, 281 00:13:54.120 --> 00:13:59.240 rush it off, or or rationalize it before they go 282 00:14:00.039 --> 00:14:02.519 Oh that was I believe, you know what I mean. 283 00:14:02.720 --> 00:14:05.559 It's like they they even now the government's coming out 284 00:14:05.600 --> 00:14:07.320 and saying, you know, these things, we don't know what 285 00:14:07.360 --> 00:14:09.200 they are, and you know they're not I don't think 286 00:14:09.240 --> 00:14:10.879 they're human. They're not man made. 287 00:14:10.919 --> 00:14:11.399 You know. 288 00:14:13.200 --> 00:14:15.639 People are. And they're like and next on the news, 289 00:14:18.200 --> 00:14:21.240 you know, gas prices are up, and he's like, right 290 00:14:21.279 --> 00:14:23.559 over the people's dead. Because it's just. 291 00:14:24.600 --> 00:14:25.879 I think a lot of people don't know what to 292 00:14:25.879 --> 00:14:26.440 do with it. 293 00:14:26.919 --> 00:14:28.720 That's I think that's it. And I'm one of them. 294 00:14:28.759 --> 00:14:30.360 I was like, so now what do I do it? 295 00:14:30.480 --> 00:14:33.519 Until they come down and they're like, okay, this is 296 00:14:34.240 --> 00:14:37.320 how it all works, which is like, okay, but why 297 00:14:37.360 --> 00:14:40.559 didn't you give me the instruction manual because you know 298 00:14:40.600 --> 00:14:42.559 I want an instruction man. I guess we do have 299 00:14:42.600 --> 00:14:45.440 an instruction manual. Rights. It's just like like you said, Ryan, 300 00:14:45.600 --> 00:14:47.559 you live a good life, don't be mean to people, 301 00:14:47.879 --> 00:14:52.759 you know, don't kill people, don't cheat, and there's that 302 00:14:52.960 --> 00:14:55.519 code of ethics. That's a nice instruction, man. But like 303 00:14:55.600 --> 00:14:59.480 we know so little, so little, and so that's why 304 00:14:59.480 --> 00:15:02.960 I think I'm such on this this quest of trying 305 00:15:02.960 --> 00:15:06.919 to figure out things because you know, you look at 306 00:15:06.919 --> 00:15:09.960 our past and it's a lot of lost history, and 307 00:15:10.000 --> 00:15:12.240 they want to try to explain things away. You know 308 00:15:12.240 --> 00:15:14.080 what I mean? I think I you know, I wrote 309 00:15:14.080 --> 00:15:17.720 a book, a young adult novel, and it was a 310 00:15:17.759 --> 00:15:20.240 dystopian novel, and in it I put like, you know, 311 00:15:20.320 --> 00:15:22.720 the world was kind of like all full of cement, 312 00:15:22.799 --> 00:15:25.519 broken cement, and people would go scavenging and they would 313 00:15:25.559 --> 00:15:28.639 find this the CD. They kind they put a finger 314 00:15:28.679 --> 00:15:29.679 in it and they're like, what do you think this 315 00:15:29.759 --> 00:15:31.559 is for? It is that it's a pocket mirror. Look 316 00:15:33.639 --> 00:15:36.080 as like that's what we do. We find things in 317 00:15:36.120 --> 00:15:38.480 the deserts, like oh, yeah, they buried, they're dead in there, 318 00:15:38.519 --> 00:15:42.440 and like they must have dragged these ginormous rocks ten 319 00:15:42.519 --> 00:15:45.399 thousand miles, you know, across the sand. How'd they do that? Oh, 320 00:15:45.440 --> 00:15:50.679 don't worry about that. Look over there and there's like 321 00:15:51.120 --> 00:15:53.480 laser cut stones. And then you're like, well, have they 322 00:15:53.480 --> 00:15:56.320 cut that with haverin chisel? Yeah, you know they had 323 00:15:56.320 --> 00:15:58.679 copper copper chisels back then. There's no way you could 324 00:15:58.679 --> 00:16:01.480 cut that rock. I don't don't ask that, Yeah they don't. 325 00:16:01.799 --> 00:16:03.600 They just kind of make up stuff. So we've made 326 00:16:03.679 --> 00:16:07.360 up this history about things we've found that we've had 327 00:16:07.360 --> 00:16:09.320 this lost history that we don't really know who we 328 00:16:09.360 --> 00:16:12.159 are and we don't really know what we're doing here, 329 00:16:12.279 --> 00:16:14.360 and then we just kind of like try to live 330 00:16:14.360 --> 00:16:16.639 as good of a life as we can within. But 331 00:16:16.759 --> 00:16:19.600 like I'd like to know, I'd like to know. I'm 332 00:16:19.639 --> 00:16:23.480 on the quest of like, okay, well, what's the what 333 00:16:23.600 --> 00:16:26.240 is the bigger thing? And that's I guess a lot 334 00:16:26.240 --> 00:16:28.559 of religions try to solve but in a you know, 335 00:16:28.559 --> 00:16:30.679 when you have religion, it becomes organized and it becomes 336 00:16:30.720 --> 00:16:32.519 about other things, you know what I mean. So I 337 00:16:32.559 --> 00:16:35.399 try to stay in the spirituality, right, you know, which 338 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:37.480 is not like my religion is better than your religion 339 00:16:37.519 --> 00:16:38.960 or we're going to go to toe to toe about it. 340 00:16:39.440 --> 00:16:43.639 You know. It's like spirituality isn't about what's best and 341 00:16:43.679 --> 00:16:46.440 whose ideas are best. It's about for me being open 342 00:16:46.519 --> 00:16:49.399 to it all, you know. And you know, and so 343 00:16:49.960 --> 00:16:53.279 I am. I mean, I don't have any definitive answers. 344 00:16:53.279 --> 00:16:57.519 I don't think anybody does, right, So to say I 345 00:16:57.639 --> 00:17:01.120 have the definitive answer, it's impossible to say that. 346 00:17:01.960 --> 00:17:05.000 Yeah, I think a lot of the like confusion and 347 00:17:05.039 --> 00:17:07.200 the desire to be like what does it all mean? 348 00:17:07.240 --> 00:17:09.480 What do I do with this information? I feel like 349 00:17:09.480 --> 00:17:12.359 a lot of that probably comes from the whole like 350 00:17:12.559 --> 00:17:17.000 dance of duality between like your your meat body and 351 00:17:17.039 --> 00:17:20.599 your soul body, you know, because they are separate, but 352 00:17:20.680 --> 00:17:23.680 we feel like they're the same because it's like, you know, 353 00:17:23.720 --> 00:17:26.200 it's me, it's me, I'm me, I'm my soul or 354 00:17:26.240 --> 00:17:27.960 I'm my body or I'm whatever. 355 00:17:28.039 --> 00:17:31.839 But in reality, well, what's the question, right? What is me? 356 00:17:32.359 --> 00:17:35.000 Yes? You are actually all of it? 357 00:17:35.200 --> 00:17:38.039 Yeah, because there's like I have a hand, Does that 358 00:17:38.119 --> 00:17:40.839 mean am I my head? If I lose my arm? 359 00:17:40.960 --> 00:17:42.000 Do I become less? Mean? 360 00:17:42.279 --> 00:17:42.759 Exactly? 361 00:17:42.880 --> 00:17:45.240 If I lost my arms and legs? Am I still 362 00:17:45.279 --> 00:17:47.960 not me? Right? You know what I mean? Ye, there's 363 00:17:48.000 --> 00:17:51.039 so many What is The me is the essence of 364 00:17:51.039 --> 00:17:53.599 the consciousness inside of you. That's the only mean you 365 00:17:53.640 --> 00:17:56.400 really have. Everything else is this, uh, you know, this 366 00:17:56.559 --> 00:17:59.319 mask of the persona that you've adopted. And also the 367 00:17:59.400 --> 00:18:03.000 me is very it's it's interchangeable, a right, So like 368 00:18:03.160 --> 00:18:05.359 I am right now, the mea that I'm talking to 369 00:18:05.359 --> 00:18:07.680 you is the guest on Bledsoe said, so, uh, the 370 00:18:07.759 --> 00:18:09.880 me I'm also an actor. The me is I'm also 371 00:18:09.920 --> 00:18:12.799 a father, I'm also a husband. I'm also the son 372 00:18:13.119 --> 00:18:16.880 of somebody. You know. Uh, there's so many means. So 373 00:18:16.880 --> 00:18:19.720 we're all dancing around playing all these parts of means. 374 00:18:20.279 --> 00:18:23.079 You're like, well, who's the real meed behind all that? 375 00:18:23.160 --> 00:18:26.880 Isn't any of those it's the awareness awareness, yea, of 376 00:18:27.079 --> 00:18:28.160 all of those means. 377 00:18:28.279 --> 00:18:30.960 Yeah, like watching it all happen, it's the it's like 378 00:18:31.039 --> 00:18:34.200 that infinite awareness behind it all. And I think, like 379 00:18:34.680 --> 00:18:37.680 I think the reason I don't know, just in my intuition, 380 00:18:38.000 --> 00:18:41.000 purely not, you know, And there are some ancient texts 381 00:18:41.000 --> 00:18:44.039 that would suggest that this might be what's going on, 382 00:18:44.160 --> 00:18:47.519 But I feel like it's we're little pieces of God 383 00:18:47.680 --> 00:18:50.559 or the infinite like consciousness, whatever you want to call it, 384 00:18:50.680 --> 00:18:53.720 the big energy, the big ball of energy. We're little 385 00:18:53.759 --> 00:18:55.759 pieces of it. All of us are little pieces of it, 386 00:18:56.039 --> 00:19:02.319 and we're here to experience life for that thing because 387 00:19:02.359 --> 00:19:04.640 if it if it was just a floating ball up 388 00:19:04.680 --> 00:19:08.480 in space, it it doesn't really have anything to experience. 389 00:19:08.759 --> 00:19:08.960 You know. 390 00:19:09.599 --> 00:19:12.079 The whole energy can never be created or destroyed. It 391 00:19:12.440 --> 00:19:14.839 was always there, and then it just started breaking off 392 00:19:14.920 --> 00:19:18.720 pieces of itself and turning into people and grass and trees, 393 00:19:18.759 --> 00:19:22.480 and animals and so that it could experience everything and learn. 394 00:19:23.759 --> 00:19:26.000 You know who who was it was? It was it 395 00:19:26.160 --> 00:19:29.640 Amy that said no learning in heaven. There's no there's 396 00:19:29.640 --> 00:19:32.480 no learning in heaven. And I think so I believe 397 00:19:32.480 --> 00:19:34.880 it was. But but that really stuck with me, that 398 00:19:35.039 --> 00:19:38.440 you can't learn anything in heaven because it's perfect. Right. 399 00:19:38.759 --> 00:19:41.839 Yeah. Well, I I used to say this to people, like, 400 00:19:42.279 --> 00:19:48.039 if you were all conscious, all knowing, uh, infinite being, right, 401 00:19:48.599 --> 00:19:53.279