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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to the Trauma Therapists podcast. My name is gaming Person.

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<v Speaker 1>I interview incredible people who've dedicated their lives to helping

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<v Speaker 1>those who've been impacted by trauma. A big thank you

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<v Speaker 1>to our sponsors and our guests who are supporting this show.

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<v Speaker 1>So five four, three, two and one, our folks, welcome

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<v Speaker 1>back to the podcast. Very excited to have as my

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<v Speaker 1>guest today. Elizabeth Capelletti.

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<v Speaker 2>Elizabeth, welcome, Hi, awesome, thanks for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like waiting for that, All right, Elizabeth, Here we go.

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<v Speaker 1>Elizabeth is a trauma informed guide and practitioner who supports

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<v Speaker 1>individuals navigating deep healing and transformation, particularly through ketamine assisted work.

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<v Speaker 1>To approach emphasizes safety, presses and integration, helping clients make

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<v Speaker 1>sense of and embody their experiences beyond the session itself.

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<v Speaker 1>She's a creator of Awaken and Integrate, a gential trauma

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<v Speaker 1>informed workbook designed to support individuals through every phase of

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<v Speaker 1>the journey, from preparation to experience to post session integration,

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<v Speaker 1>holding space for truth, healing, and growth. Her work centers

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<v Speaker 1>on honoring each person's process while fostering lasting, meaningful change.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, Elizabeth, just a little bit about you before

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<v Speaker 1>we get going share with the listeners where you're from

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<v Speaker 1>originally and where you are currently.

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<v Speaker 2>I am from Orange County originally, and I am in

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<v Speaker 2>Orange County, so I kind of grew up moving around

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<v Speaker 2>different places in Orange County. But I am currently in

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<v Speaker 2>San Juan Capistrano and that's in Orange County, California.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so let's start. How did this begin

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<v Speaker 1>for you, this whole journey.

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<v Speaker 2>This whole ooh, yeah, it starts way way back. But

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<v Speaker 2>I you know, I definitely got into the field of

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<v Speaker 2>being a therapist because of growing up in a family

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<v Speaker 2>where it was a chaotic a lot of stuff going on.

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<v Speaker 2>And as I went on, I was actually going to

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<v Speaker 2>be a kindergarten teacher, but then I took a psychology

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<v Speaker 2>course and absolutely liked fell in love with it, and

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<v Speaker 2>so I was like, being the overachiever. I'm like, I'll

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<v Speaker 2>be a kindergarten teacher and then go back to school

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<v Speaker 2>to get my PhD. That sounds awesome and feasible. So

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<v Speaker 2>as I went on to college, I ended up switching

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<v Speaker 2>tracks to psychology. And my aim initially was to go

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<v Speaker 2>in to help to teach people to do something differently

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<v Speaker 2>than what I experienced as a child, Like my parents

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<v Speaker 2>got divorced, and it was just so much talking about

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<v Speaker 2>each other, and it was just such a difficult thing

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<v Speaker 2>for me. So I wanted to teach people to work

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<v Speaker 2>on themselves. I had high hopes. So when I actually

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<v Speaker 2>entered the field after getting my master's degree, which there's

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<v Speaker 2>a whole part i'll jump back to, I started working

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<v Speaker 2>in this field, working with a lot of kids, and

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<v Speaker 2>it destroyed me. Like I was working in the highest

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<v Speaker 2>level of care before residential treatment, and you know, most

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<v Speaker 2>of the time when they have associates or interns, they

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<v Speaker 2>give you a lot of cases. It was so intense

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<v Speaker 2>that they would only give us seven cases max. Because

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<v Speaker 2>of the level of intensity every case there was child

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<v Speaker 2>to be used. Domestic violence, like poverty, is just all

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<v Speaker 2>kinds of stuff. I was like going in the hood,

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<v Speaker 2>going to some pretty intense places. And I what I

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<v Speaker 2>had been struggling with since I was about fourteen was

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<v Speaker 2>an eating disorder and anorexia bolimia, like whole mixed body

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<v Speaker 2>image issues. And it would it would do this through

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<v Speaker 2>the years, you know, like get really intense, like less intense,

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<v Speaker 2>get really intense. And at that point, after I've gotten

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<v Speaker 2>my master's degree, and here I am to help people.

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<v Speaker 2>I tanked. I lost twenty pounds in two weeks. My

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<v Speaker 2>hair was falling out.

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<v Speaker 1>I while you were doing this work. Yeah, as a

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<v Speaker 1>trainee in a sense, yep.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. So I was like I needed to tap out,

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<v Speaker 2>I need to go get some help. And they were

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<v Speaker 2>so sweet, they were like, we love you, you can come back.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I am not coming back. I don't think

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<v Speaker 2>I can ever work with kids again.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, hang on, hang on, hang on one second.

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<v Speaker 1>So you talked about it's want to jump back a

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<v Speaker 1>second if I be here. You talked about your childhood

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<v Speaker 1>was very chaotic. Yeah, parents divorced, uh, talking back and

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<v Speaker 1>forth about each other to you, guys, you just heard it?

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<v Speaker 2>Or oh no, I was like a therapist well before

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<v Speaker 2>I became a therapist.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, I'm a little curious if we can talk

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit more about how you experienced that and

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<v Speaker 1>how that impacted you.

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<v Speaker 2>It was a lot, you know. I have two brothers,

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<v Speaker 2>an older one and a younger one, and there was

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<v Speaker 2>there was a lot when I was going to grad school,

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<v Speaker 2>there was these red flags that started coming up for me.

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<v Speaker 2>But I kind of meaning that we would learn about.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a red flag or kind of an indicator of

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<v Speaker 2>like some stuff happening when people have huge blocks of

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<v Speaker 2>memory that they don't have. And so so for me,

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of it I blocked out. I like literally

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<v Speaker 2>didn't remember most of my childhood. I can't remember a

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<v Speaker 2>lot before I ended up moving, when my parents got divorced.

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<v Speaker 2>There's little blips, but it's very it was very, very sparse,

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<v Speaker 2>and the ones there was things I remember hiding under

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<v Speaker 2>the table when my parents were fighting and screaming at

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<v Speaker 2>each other. I remember, you know, my brother was awful

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<v Speaker 2>to me. He still apologizes for that, so I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>trying to throw him under the bus here, but it

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<v Speaker 2>was there was a lot that at the time I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't really remember. And so as I look back, and

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<v Speaker 2>I've gone through all of these healing actually in the

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<v Speaker 2>in the aim to help other people. I've gone through

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<v Speaker 2>all these healing modalities to learn to help others, and

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<v Speaker 2>I've had tremendous healing because of it, and through it

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<v Speaker 2>has been a lot of uncovering of traumatic things that

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<v Speaker 2>I had wiped out and didn't remember. My body certainly remembered,

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<v Speaker 2>so the stuff that had gone on, and again I

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<v Speaker 2>want to be mindful not to throw people under the bus,

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<v Speaker 2>but there was infidelity, and then the person who you know,

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<v Speaker 2>entered in the middle of the marriage was then my

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<v Speaker 2>step parent, and so I had to go and like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>this person stole your dad and there you go, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, oh, hi, so she never had a chance.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's all this dynamic between mom and dad

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<v Speaker 2>and anyway, so just a lot of chaos there that

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<v Speaker 2>still to this day, it's not like I remember everything.

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<v Speaker 2>There's things in bits and pieces, and there's still some

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<v Speaker 2>things that are unanswered with certain things. But one of

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<v Speaker 2>the biggest things that impacted me is when I was fourteen,

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<v Speaker 2>I met a guy, a young man who had no

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<v Speaker 2>business hanging out with a fourteen year old, and so

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<v Speaker 2>he was eighteen nineteen, and as I have is going

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<v Speaker 2>to choke me up because I have three daughters and

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<v Speaker 2>one of them who's now fourteen, and when she started

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<v Speaker 2>to look well she was like twelve and started looking

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<v Speaker 2>like she was fourteen fifteen, I started having some like

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<v Speaker 2>repressed memories come up and realizing, wow, what I experienced

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<v Speaker 2>at that age. If a fourteen year old came to

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<v Speaker 2>me and told me what was happening with a nineteen

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<v Speaker 2>year old boy. I would have to report that as

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<v Speaker 2>sexual abuse and so like be I was like, I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't hold space for little Elizabeth for so long. I

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<v Speaker 2>just kept going, I think like so many of us do,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was all about taking care of everybody else's needs.

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<v Speaker 2>So the work that I have been doing here now

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<v Speaker 2>has been about holding space for me and helping clients

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<v Speaker 2>to hold space for themselves, because as I was able

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<v Speaker 2>to do that, and even I know you've had a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of guests on here that do the somatic work.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm trained in so many different modalities, EMDR and

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<v Speaker 2>you know, really connecting with the body. I was a

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<v Speaker 2>massage therapist too, so I could see at this point

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<v Speaker 2>now how they've all intersected and come together for my

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<v Speaker 2>own healing. But there were some before I did the ketamine,

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<v Speaker 2>there was some stuff coming up for me about repressed memories,

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<v Speaker 2>even before when I was fourteen, and there was this

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<v Speaker 2>physical somatic sensation that I would have And I can

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<v Speaker 2>remember this, like my body trying to tell me for

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<v Speaker 2>years and I would be like no, no, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 2>I can't go there. I can't go there. I can't

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<v Speaker 2>go there. And so my daughter she eats pasta, and

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<v Speaker 2>when she eats pasta, she eats it rather quickly, like

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<v Speaker 2>a puppy, and it's like, oh mom, it's stuck. It's stuck.

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<v Speaker 2>And so there was this moment I was like, honey,

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<v Speaker 2>it's okay, Like, just take a breath. I'm right here

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<v Speaker 2>with you. And it was this aha moment of like,

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<v Speaker 2>I need to do that for me, and so I opened.

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<v Speaker 2>This was about two years ago, I would say, roughly

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<v Speaker 2>a year and a half, two years ago. So I

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<v Speaker 2>and I can't remember the timeline, but I had had

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<v Speaker 2>some stuff. I was starting to get these things and

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<v Speaker 2>then my body I think at this point I can't

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<v Speaker 2>remember the exact timeline, but I started having like and

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<v Speaker 2>I've seen this with clients too, when they something triggers

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<v Speaker 2>them at forty, at thirty five, at whatever age, and

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<v Speaker 2>they're like, oh, I don't know if I'm allowed to

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<v Speaker 2>curse on here. Oh, Like I'm starting to remember some

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<v Speaker 2>things like this is what the hell right? And so

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm I'm really good at holding space for other

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<v Speaker 2>people and not judging them and honoring where they're at.

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<v Speaker 2>But what started coming up, was like what does this

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<v Speaker 2>mean about me? Like, oh my gosh, like if these

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<v Speaker 2>things happened to me, and it just was this whole

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<v Speaker 2>like and then wanting to know, wanting to try to

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<v Speaker 2>figure out what happened. And so I'd be driving my

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<v Speaker 2>kids to school and I'm like having these flashes of

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<v Speaker 2>things like come in, which doesn't feel great. And so

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<v Speaker 2>I at some point I had gone to a new

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<v Speaker 2>therapist and she said, you know, some stuff might start

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<v Speaker 2>to come up, and I just want you to just

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<v Speaker 2>space for and just like notice the feelings that are

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<v Speaker 2>coming up in your body. So that night, the pasta

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<v Speaker 2>incident night, I'm laying in bed and I started having

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<v Speaker 2>that sensation. And what the sensation was was like I

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<v Speaker 2>can't move my body like I can't move, like I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like my body's being held down, and a sensation

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<v Speaker 2>of this on my head and a very strong sensation

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<v Speaker 2>in my mouth, like like like pushing down on my

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<v Speaker 2>tongue and in my mouth. And I was like, very

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<v Speaker 2>it was very unsettled, and I'm like, it's okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>here for you. It's okay. We're not going to run away,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, just as I would as for a child,

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<v Speaker 2>and so a lot of tears came up, and I

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<v Speaker 2>can remember the next day coming to the office and

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<v Speaker 2>telling my friend, I'm like, oh my gosh, I mean

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<v Speaker 2>I think this is this might be like some sexual

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<v Speaker 2>trauma that was happening to me and I don't and

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<v Speaker 2>she's like validated. Actually, before I even said what I

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<v Speaker 2>thought it was, she was like, that's what it sounds

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<v Speaker 2>like to me. And so then more of this stuff

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<v Speaker 2>started to come up, and it was like the floodgates

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<v Speaker 2>were opened, and it was like, you know, PTSD starting

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<v Speaker 2>to happen. Like again, I'm having a hard time being

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<v Speaker 2>present with my kids because I'm getting flooded and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>wanting to know more and more and understand. And around

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<v Speaker 2>the same time, there's a place called renew Ketymine over

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<v Speaker 2>by me and they do ketymine infusions. Before this time,

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<v Speaker 2>about a year and a half maybe or I don't

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<v Speaker 2>remember exact timeline, but I had done I had done

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<v Speaker 2>the mushroom journey. I had done a couple mushroom journeys,

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<v Speaker 2>and the first one helped me so much with perfectionism,

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<v Speaker 2>like it was so powerful. The second one, I got

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<v Speaker 2>too much. I fell and hit my head and thought

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<v Speaker 2>I died. It was this whole retreat. There's like fifteen

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<v Speaker 2>people there. I forgot this. I'm sorry. My story goes

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<v Speaker 2>all over the place, but this was where stuff got unlocked.

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<v Speaker 2>This is where stuff got unlocked. Guy. So I go

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, I can remember bits and pieces. There

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<v Speaker 2>was at one point like literally screaming, there's like fifteen

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<v Speaker 2>people that have paid like a thousand dollars to be here.

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<v Speaker 2>I have like it's probably like a movie of Don't

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<v Speaker 2>do Mushrooms, Like this is probably what it seemed like.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm not here to say that because it was

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<v Speaker 2>actually a very transformational point for me. And afterwards, the

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<v Speaker 2>facilitator had said to me, honey, I think that there's

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<v Speaker 2>don't remember. And she goes on to share about through

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<v Speaker 2>one of her journeys she had a memory of being

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<v Speaker 2>sexually assaulted as a child, and she asked her her

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<v Speaker 2>mom about it later and they're like, yeah, that happened,

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<v Speaker 2>but they just didn't continue to talk about it. And

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<v Speaker 2>this and I'm like, oh god, So this was before

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<v Speaker 2>the pasta incident. This is, you know, leading us up

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<v Speaker 2>to here. Excuse the bouncing all over. So I'm losing

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<v Speaker 2>my mind. I go over to this Kademie place for

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<v Speaker 2>by the way, as a like as a referral base,

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<v Speaker 2>like let's network, right, I want to learn what you do.

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<v Speaker 2>And so by the time I go in there, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like bawling. I'm like, oh, this is go up, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>And they're like so awesome with me, and it's like

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<v Speaker 2>one me and then like a doctor and a nurse,

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<v Speaker 2>which is the only way I was ever going to

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<v Speaker 2>do a psychedelic again after that other experience. And so

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, forty five minutes, I think I can do this,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was the most I don't know, have you

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<v Speaker 2>ever had any Kedemian journeys. I've ever done that, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>and I know everybody's experience is different. Go ahead, no, no, no, okay.

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<v Speaker 2>So I go in, I say all this. It starts.

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<v Speaker 2>They give me prepped, take my blood pressure, put the

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<v Speaker 2>ivy in. They start doing a meditation and the meditation

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<v Speaker 2>is about like worthiness and being enough, which is something

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<v Speaker 2>I have struggled with my whole life. And I'm like bawling,

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<v Speaker 2>as this is happening, and then like the meditation ends

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<v Speaker 2>and the music starts and I'm in. I'm like in

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<v Speaker 2>the medicine, And the first thing I experienced was this

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<v Speaker 2>love supports me from God that was so incredibly powerful,

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<v Speaker 2>like I just felt. The only thing I can explain

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<v Speaker 2>is I've got three kids, and when my children were born,

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<v Speaker 2>especially my first one, it was like this love that

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<v Speaker 2>I could like I can't even explain, but it was

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<v Speaker 2>towards me. And then I continued to go and have these.

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<v Speaker 2>So for me, the experience with ketamine is it's different

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<v Speaker 2>than mushrooms in that like mushrooms, I was like very

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<v Speaker 2>the psilocybin very like whoa. Whatever I was seeing, it

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<v Speaker 2>was very like real for me that the ketamine is

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<v Speaker 2>more somatic, and the visuals I would see are more

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<v Speaker 2>like as if I were to ask you to close

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<v Speaker 2>but it's not as vibrant, like, oh my gosh, there's

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<v Speaker 2>a tree. So I started to have these like I

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<v Speaker 2>saw this mountain and underneath the mountain was the stalagmite

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<v Speaker 2>and this water running through and for whatever reason, for me,

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<v Speaker 2>like I understood what it meant. These symbols. I understood

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<v Speaker 2>what it meant. And and many years ago I went

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<v Speaker 2>through this training for hypnotherapy, which happened to be for

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<v Speaker 2>like sexual trauma. I didn't even realize that that's what

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<v Speaker 2>it was. Of course, the universe, God's calling me to

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<v Speaker 2>all these things, and I'm like, not me, I don't know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so they had he had done this exercise. I'm talking

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<v Speaker 2>literally like almost no, I want like close to twenty

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<v Speaker 2>years earlier, maybe it was fifteen years. And I was

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<v Speaker 2>always stuck on this part that this guy said, and

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<v Speaker 2>it was like he would go through this whole process

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<v Speaker 2>and it's like, you know, you have a knee, but

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<v Speaker 2>you're not a knee. You have an elbow, but you're

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<v Speaker 2>not an elbow. You have a head, but you're not

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<v Speaker 2>a head. You have a vagina, but you're not a vagina.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't call me a vagina, not a vagina. And then

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<v Speaker 2>like he had said, like they could never touch who

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<v Speaker 2>you are, Like whoever hurts you could never touch who

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<v Speaker 2>you are. And in that moment, however, many years later,

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<v Speaker 2>it clicked in this journey and I was like, oh

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<v Speaker 2>my god, that message was for me. I am not

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<v Speaker 2>what happened to me that could never define who I am,

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<v Speaker 2>and for me, it was they right, because there was

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<v Speaker 2>multiple incidents and situations and starting to realize and wake

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<v Speaker 2>up to like continued things that I had happened that

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't label as traumatic. But as I go back,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, oh my god, I said no, and this

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<v Speaker 2>guy who's six' eight continued to move forward AND i

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<v Speaker 2>would have said let it. HAPPEN i was, scared SO

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<v Speaker 2>i went along with. It and WHEN i left that,

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<v Speaker 2>SITUATION i was sobbing AND i did the whole scrubbing

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<v Speaker 2>myself in the shower and THEN i LOOKED i, would,

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<v Speaker 2>oh just. Didn't it was and AS i started to

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<v Speaker 2>hold space like that that affected. Me that impacted. Me

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<v Speaker 2>and so this journey about finding my voice and holding

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<v Speaker 2>space for me and being able TO i had been

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<v Speaker 2>working on studying the boundaries and all of, that but

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<v Speaker 2>like my life had been so much about performance and

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<v Speaker 2>being perfect and trying to show up a certain way

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<v Speaker 2>SO i could be, enough and so much over sexualization

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<v Speaker 2>because for, me the message was IF i show up

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<v Speaker 2>that way And i'm accepted that, way Then i'm enough

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<v Speaker 2>Until i'm not. Right so this ketamine helped me so

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<v Speaker 2>much with, that and that's WHEN i left that first.

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<v Speaker 2>Journey that first, JOURNEY i was, LIKE i felt like

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<v Speaker 2>my creativity was, unleashed like. Unleashed so SO i had

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<v Speaker 2>been singing to my kids and making up songs for

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<v Speaker 2>years and there was this one you don't have to

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<v Speaker 2>be afraid of a daddy Long. Legs my voice a

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<v Speaker 2>little shaky right, now BUT i was, Like i'm going

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<v Speaker 2>to record this song And i'm going to make a.

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<v Speaker 2>Book SO i left That kademy treatment AND i made

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<v Speaker 2>this kid's book On canva AND i went AND i,

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<v Speaker 2>LIKE i did, this and THEN i recorded the damn

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<v Speaker 2>song AND i was, Like i'll will record it in

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<v Speaker 2>my closet IF i have, to because this, GIRL i

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<v Speaker 2>have a voice And i'm going to use. It and

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<v Speaker 2>it was such a powerful thing for. Me so it's On.

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<v Speaker 2>Spotify husband's music is in the. Background and don't judge

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<v Speaker 2>me by WHAT i just. Did right. Now my voice

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<v Speaker 2>is a little, shaky you, KNOW i have a good.

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<v Speaker 2>VOICE i have a good, voice and so if you

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<v Speaker 2>want to go and listen to. It but it's the

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<v Speaker 2>whole thing is how you don't have to be afraid

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<v Speaker 2>of a daddy long legs and that you know their

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<v Speaker 2>mouth is so small they can't bite, you and this whole.

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<v Speaker 2>Thing BUT i also realized this book isn't just about a.

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<v Speaker 2>Spider it's about being able to know more about things

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<v Speaker 2>and understand, it because when you understand, it it's not so.

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<v Speaker 2>Scary AND i this is the other. PART i struggled

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<v Speaker 2>so much with anxiety in my, life and WHEN i

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<v Speaker 2>have started to do the psilocybin journeys and the ketamine

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<v Speaker 2>and the integration, work things completely shifted for. ME i

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<v Speaker 2>felt free, Because, wow, GUY i had been holding on

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<v Speaker 2>to these things that no, WONDER i was, Scared no.

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<v Speaker 2>Wonder let me just stop you for a second.

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<v Speaker 1>Year first of, all you're. Incredible you. Are you have

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<v Speaker 1>this incredible presence about you THAT i can, feel and

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<v Speaker 1>this openness and for you to come on here and

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<v Speaker 1>to be sharing what you're sharing is very. Powerful people

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<v Speaker 1>listen to, this and of course we're all going through

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<v Speaker 1>our own. Shit we, are and a lot of times therapists, feel,

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<v Speaker 1>WELL i don't want to disclose this or disclose out

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<v Speaker 1>or disclose. Out people are going to Think i'm not

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<v Speaker 1>enough Or i'm not educated in. Whatever and of course

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<v Speaker 1>there are, boundaries of, course but people listening to this

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<v Speaker 1>will so clearly be able to identify with your, story

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<v Speaker 1>and that is very. Powerful the other part of that

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<v Speaker 1>is it's people like you that we want to go, to,

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<v Speaker 1>right people like you who have the strength to be

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<v Speaker 1>able to talk about that and to do what you.

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<v Speaker 1>Did that's the PERSON i want to go to and

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<v Speaker 1>have hold space for. Me SO i just want to

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<v Speaker 1>put that out. There it's very powerful and it's an

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<v Speaker 1>honor to really have you come on here and do.

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<v Speaker 1>That that's what this podcast is. About that's HOW i

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<v Speaker 1>started it BECAUSE i was listening to people share their,

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<v Speaker 1>story not just what they know and all their degrees

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<v Speaker 1>and all that other, stuff but who they. Are that's

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<v Speaker 1>how we. Connect thank, You so you're. Welcome so Damn, like, seriously,

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<v Speaker 1>man were you was there any fear at all going

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<v Speaker 1>into these psychedelic experiences or these ketemane Experience.

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<v Speaker 2>WHEN i tell, YOU i, mean IF i could bring

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<v Speaker 2>my friend in here and tell, YOU i MEAN i

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<v Speaker 2>was it was. Scary LIKE i didn't even my husband

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<v Speaker 2>knew THAT i had gone to this journey to do.

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<v Speaker 2>THIS i didn't tell him for weeks until afterwards BECAUSE

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<v Speaker 2>i LITERALLY i THOUGHT i. DIED i, literally LIKE i

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<v Speaker 2>think SO i was working on overcoming fear and there

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<v Speaker 2>it there was a swimming. Pool this Is. November there

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<v Speaker 2>was a swimming, pool AND i was, like how AM

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<v Speaker 2>i going to show That i'm. Brave i'm going to

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<v Speaker 2>go jump in the swimming pool with my clothes? On

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<v Speaker 2>and so he came out and this lady's husband who's

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<v Speaker 2>like this six FOOT i don't even know. What he's

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<v Speaker 2>a super tall, guy and he's, like what are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Doing like and and they had TAKE i guess part

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<v Speaker 2>of this is like they had taken a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>of ashroom, steer WHICH i don't know. What, ANYWAY i

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<v Speaker 2>go And i'm, like it's. COOL i got. This i'm being.

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<v Speaker 2>Brave SO i go AND i. JUMP i get in the,

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<v Speaker 2>POOL i get up to like my, thighs and it's fucking.

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<v Speaker 2>Cold it's. Freezing AND i get out and by the,

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<v Speaker 2>WAY i just generally have low blood. Pressure maybe this

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<v Speaker 2>is like part of what. HAPPENED i don't. Know SO

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<v Speaker 2>i get out of the pool And i'm, shaking and

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<v Speaker 2>then ALL i remember is like, TIMBER i literally fell

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<v Speaker 2>straight back like a tree onto, concrete and in that,

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<v Speaker 2>MOMENT i THOUGHT i, Died LIKE i THINK i had

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<v Speaker 2>a full on ego death at that. Point and SO

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<v Speaker 2>i was screaming BECAUSE i was in tremendous. Pain and

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<v Speaker 2>THEN i had three, girls one of them being LIKE

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<v Speaker 2>i don't know ten months. OLD i don't know how

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<v Speaker 2>she was at the, time AND i was, like oh my,

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<v Speaker 2>god the story's gonna BE i died doing. MUSHROOMS i

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<v Speaker 2>don't even do, Drugs, like what the hell right? Now

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<v Speaker 2>help other. People it was BECAUSE i Watched it's BECAUSE

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<v Speaker 2>i watched That netflix series On how To Change Your,

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<v Speaker 2>mind AND i was, LIKE i need to do this.

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<v Speaker 2>Work this is. Phenomenal and but you, KNOW i get

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<v Speaker 2>really excited AND i just jump in And i'm LIKE

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<v Speaker 2>i should try this, first and so you know that whole.

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<v Speaker 2>Thing SO i was and WHEN i tell, you, screaming

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<v Speaker 2>and there was one point she brings me in AND

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<v Speaker 2>i see my cards on the tape AND i freaking side,

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<v Speaker 2>Swipe oh my, god AND i screamed my side swipe.

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<v Speaker 2>EVERYTHING i, mean oh my. GOD i was like so mortified,

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<v Speaker 2>afterwards and THEN i felt like and Then i'm super.

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<v Speaker 2>Sensitive we're In San. JUAN i don't know IF i

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<v Speaker 2>was like channeling stuff or this is just BECAUSE i

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<v Speaker 2>fell and hit my, head BUT i felt LIKE i

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<v Speaker 2>was being burned at the stake and pulled, apart like

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<v Speaker 2>it was the. Gnarliest this is not a good poster

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<v Speaker 2>child right now for doing that. Work don't take too.

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<v Speaker 2>Much AND i knew when she this, is this goes

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<v Speaker 2>back to you when she gave it to. Us she

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<v Speaker 2>WHEN i did the, chocolates it was, chocolates AND i

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<v Speaker 2>didn't take the full. DOSE i took a little, bit

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<v Speaker 2>a little bit. More i'm. Good this was, hey this

435
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<v Speaker 2>is it was double the amount because it was like a.

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<v Speaker 2>Tea and then she was, like, oh since you've been,

437
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<v Speaker 2>microdosing it's. Okay INSIDE i was like, No BUT i

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<v Speaker 2>wanted to be the good, student wanted to be. PERFECT

439
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<v Speaker 2>i wanted to be UNTIL i wasn't so LIKE i was,

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<v Speaker 2>terrified totally scared to go do the. Kedemene and it

441
00:24:05.119 --> 00:24:06.920
<v Speaker 2>was completely, different by the, way WHEN i was on the,

442
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<v Speaker 2>mushrooms it was like twelve, hours not of that. Intensity

443
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<v Speaker 2>BUT i was not sober until like twelve or thirteen hours.

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<v Speaker 1>Later, wow, wow all, right let me let me just remind.

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone and speaking With Elizabeth, kapaletti let's kind of shift gears, Here,

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<v Speaker 1>elizabeth what do? You what do you do? Now how

447
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<v Speaker 1>are you working with?

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<v Speaker 2>People So i've been in this place of doing therapy

449
00:24:31.480 --> 00:24:34.559
<v Speaker 2>And i've kind of like stepping into this coaching place

450
00:24:34.640 --> 00:24:39.079
<v Speaker 2>too Because i've, Transformed like you, KNOW i have had such.

451
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<v Speaker 2>Transformation SO i do. BOTH i do, ALL i integrate,

452
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<v Speaker 2>it and but my aim is to really help people

453
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<v Speaker 2>to just go from survival to safety and then from

454
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<v Speaker 2>safety to elevation and transformation and living their best damn.

455
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<v Speaker 2>Life finding your, voice the purpose and reason you're, here

456
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<v Speaker 2>shutting all the shit like. That that is WHAT i

457
00:25:01.359 --> 00:25:03.839
<v Speaker 2>am passionate, about and really working with people who are,

458
00:25:03.880 --> 00:25:06.759
<v Speaker 2>ready who are ready to do the. Work because there's a.

459
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<v Speaker 2>Difference WHEN i was struggling with the eating disorder and

460
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<v Speaker 2>going to, THERAPY i wanted to get, better but it

461
00:25:12.759 --> 00:25:15.480
<v Speaker 2>wasn't that level of like shit needs to change now

462
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<v Speaker 2>AND i will take accountability for. It, Right like these

463
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<v Speaker 2>people are a whack. ADOODLE i grew up with like

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<v Speaker 2>AND i know they cause a lot of, Stuff but

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<v Speaker 2>what AM i going to do?

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<v Speaker 1>Now all? Right, Right so when you work with people

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<v Speaker 1>how do you do? That what do you do someone

468
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<v Speaker 1>walks into your, Office let's say they are.

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<v Speaker 2>Ready number, one the first most important thing IS i

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<v Speaker 2>always want to help somebody to feel safe and to

471
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<v Speaker 2>feel seen and to feel. Connected and if you're looking

472
00:25:45.200 --> 00:25:48.000
<v Speaker 2>for a, therapist the most important thing is. Connection that's.

473
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<v Speaker 2>Huge and you, know either you get it or you

474
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<v Speaker 2>don't like it's people can usually, tell like on the

475
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<v Speaker 2>phone or you're diving or. Not and SO i feel

476
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<v Speaker 2>Like i'm a chef BECAUSE i Have i'm trained in

477
00:25:57.880 --> 00:26:02.559
<v Speaker 2>so many, things, HYPNOTHERAPY, amdr breath, work sound, healing, art,

478
00:26:02.599 --> 00:26:06.279
<v Speaker 2>THERAPY i mean like tons and SO i sprinkle it.

479
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<v Speaker 2>IN i mean FIRST i listen AND i hold space

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<v Speaker 2>and then as things come, up like just. Listening i'm

481
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<v Speaker 2>also an intuitive, EmPATH SO i feel. STUFF i feel

482
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<v Speaker 2>stuff before other people even you. Know it's LIKE i

483
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<v Speaker 2>could feel the, TEARS i could feel the pain, inside

484
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<v Speaker 2>And i'll be, like what you, know what's this? About

485
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<v Speaker 2>like what's going? On like what do you? Think SO

486
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<v Speaker 2>i have a very gentle approach Because i'm just NOT i,

487
00:26:28.039 --> 00:26:30.119
<v Speaker 2>MEAN i will confront things as, needed But i'll always

488
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<v Speaker 2>do it in a very gentle way BECAUSE i think

489
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<v Speaker 2>that when we're growing and, healing we need people to

490
00:26:33.680 --> 00:26:37.000
<v Speaker 2>point out our. Things so one of the THINGS i

491
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<v Speaker 2>have developed this program Called elevate That i'm essentially the

492
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<v Speaker 2>things That i'm helping people work through is, embodiment so

493
00:26:44.680 --> 00:26:49.680
<v Speaker 2>regulating the nervous, system, liberation releasing old, patterns identifying them

494
00:26:49.759 --> 00:26:53.359
<v Speaker 2>these trauma responses and, imprints, expansion being able to step

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<v Speaker 2>into a new. Identity i'm huge on, language so when

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<v Speaker 2>we SAY i can't or or whatever labels we put on.

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<v Speaker 2>Ourselves more last night and the guy, said you, know

498
00:27:02.319 --> 00:27:06.119
<v Speaker 2>he's been recovered alcoholic for many, years and he's, like oh.

499
00:27:06.200 --> 00:27:07.920
<v Speaker 2>Yeah the room's, Like i'm an alcoholic And i'm, LIKE

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<v Speaker 2>i thought you were a, Chiropractor, like you, know stepping

501
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<v Speaker 2>beyond the labels because you're so much more than. That

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00:27:14.240 --> 00:27:18.720
<v Speaker 2>those are symptoms just having a, vision having a clear

503
00:27:18.839 --> 00:27:20.759
<v Speaker 2>purpose on what you where you want to go in,

504
00:27:20.799 --> 00:27:22.559
<v Speaker 2>life and what you want to feel like having a

505
00:27:22.599 --> 00:27:24.839
<v Speaker 2>vision of that many of us having even allowed ourselves

506
00:27:24.920 --> 00:27:29.160
<v Speaker 2>to have that aligned. Action so helping people to really

507
00:27:29.200 --> 00:27:31.799
<v Speaker 2>take action towards the intention of what they want to,

508
00:27:31.839 --> 00:27:34.920
<v Speaker 2>do like that's that's in this and then the transformation

509
00:27:35.119 --> 00:27:38.559
<v Speaker 2>really sustaining change through integration and identity shifts and then,

510
00:27:38.599 --> 00:27:43.079
<v Speaker 2>expression finding your voice and using. It that's WHAT i

511
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<v Speaker 2>want to help people to. Do so you, know it's

512
00:27:45.960 --> 00:27:48.319
<v Speaker 2>a whole thing that just kind of, happens but really

513
00:27:48.359 --> 00:27:52.160
<v Speaker 2>that's in all of. It it's it's and it's the

514
00:27:52.240 --> 00:27:55.839
<v Speaker 2>core safety and. CONNECTION i want you to be excited to.

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<v Speaker 2>Come you might be, like oh, crap we're going to

516
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<v Speaker 2>work on this. Stuff she knows What i'm. Holding you

517
00:28:00.759 --> 00:28:03.359
<v Speaker 2>can't come around me and be like holding. Stuff And

518
00:28:03.400 --> 00:28:06.079
<v Speaker 2>i'm going to, know, Like i'm gonna totally know BECAUSE

519
00:28:06.119 --> 00:28:06.480
<v Speaker 2>i feel.

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<v Speaker 1>It what from your background allows you to do what you're.

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<v Speaker 2>DOING i Guess i've built up a lot of resiliency

522
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<v Speaker 2>from all the difficult Things i've been, through AND i,

523
00:28:23.440 --> 00:28:26.880
<v Speaker 2>WELL i can't forget my, spirituality my spiritual, connection because that's.

524
00:28:27.079 --> 00:28:30.599
<v Speaker 2>Huge it's led me through all of. This But i'm

525
00:28:30.599 --> 00:28:36.400
<v Speaker 2>pretty damn resilient and my desire to always want to

526
00:28:36.440 --> 00:28:39.319
<v Speaker 2>grow and. HEAL i think that that is what allows

527
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<v Speaker 2>me to do this. WORK i, THINK i don't, KNOW

528
00:28:45.880 --> 00:28:48.400
<v Speaker 2>i don't. KNOW i haven't really thought about that, specifically

529
00:28:48.480 --> 00:28:50.960
<v Speaker 2>BUT i think because of WHAT i WHAT i often

530
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<v Speaker 2>find MYSELFS i Actually myself's myself SAYING i set it

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<v Speaker 2>to a client the other day BECAUSE i think a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of you out, there maybe you're going through these,

533
00:28:59.559 --> 00:29:01.640
<v Speaker 2>things you, think what does this mean about? Me how

534
00:29:01.640 --> 00:29:03.519
<v Speaker 2>CAN i ever do? This how CAN i? EVER i,

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00:29:03.519 --> 00:29:05.720
<v Speaker 2>Mean i'll be honest with. You this is one of

536
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<v Speaker 2>my first times coming out and sharing all this. Stuff

537
00:29:08.519 --> 00:29:11.200
<v Speaker 2>so not That i've been, hiding but When i've been

538
00:29:11.240 --> 00:29:14.359
<v Speaker 2>sharing things and doing stuff on my social, Media i'm,

539
00:29:14.400 --> 00:29:14.799
<v Speaker 2>like what AM.

540
00:29:14.720 --> 00:29:15.000
<v Speaker 1>I going to?

541
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<v Speaker 2>Say what AM i going to talk? About other people

542
00:29:17.759 --> 00:29:20.759
<v Speaker 2>have it way worse than WHAT i went? Through or

543
00:29:21.440 --> 00:29:24.200
<v Speaker 2>what if somebody finds OUT i was dancing on tables

544
00:29:24.240 --> 00:29:26.359
<v Speaker 2>WHEN i was wasted at the. BAR i was really

545
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<v Speaker 2>good at dancing, Too but, like what if somebody was

546
00:29:28.440 --> 00:29:30.000
<v Speaker 2>a video of? Me, Now i'm, Like i'll own. IT

547
00:29:30.519 --> 00:29:32.319
<v Speaker 2>i shook. IT i didn't take anything, off and even

548
00:29:32.319 --> 00:29:35.000
<v Speaker 2>IF i did whatever it was WHERE i was, At

549
00:29:35.119 --> 00:29:37.400
<v Speaker 2>i'm not judging anybody. Else AM i gonna judge myself for?

550
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<v Speaker 2>That SO i had said to this young, GIRL i,

551
00:29:41.920 --> 00:29:45.079
<v Speaker 2>said WHAT i went through is Why i'm able to

552
00:29:45.079 --> 00:29:47.680
<v Speaker 2>do WHAT i do and the fact That i've overcome,

553
00:29:47.720 --> 00:29:50.920
<v Speaker 2>it because you, Know i'm still a work in. PROGRESS

554
00:29:51.160 --> 00:29:53.039
<v Speaker 2>i always will until the day THAT i. Die i'm

555
00:29:53.039 --> 00:29:57.160
<v Speaker 2>always working and. Growing so just because you're walking through

556
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<v Speaker 2>something like, ACTUALLY i would, say BECAUSE i can't tell

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<v Speaker 2>you how many people have told me this that are very,

558
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<v Speaker 2>sensitive AND i Thought i'm too sensitive to be a,

559
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<v Speaker 2>Therapist i'm, like that's what's going to make you a

560
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<v Speaker 2>damn good. Therapist that's what's going to make you really

561
00:30:10.160 --> 00:30:13.319
<v Speaker 2>good at what you do is because you're. Sensitive can you, imagine,

562
00:30:13.359 --> 00:30:15.920
<v Speaker 2>like how COULD i do this work and? Not you,

563
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<v Speaker 2>KNOW i HAD i not walked through WHAT i went,

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<v Speaker 2>Through so HOPEFULLY i answered your. QUESTION i.

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<v Speaker 1>Did, YEAH i appreciate, that you, know just jumping back

566
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<v Speaker 1>to when you were talking about working with those kids

567
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<v Speaker 1>and how a lot of things were coming up for.

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<v Speaker 1>You do you look back or how do you look

569
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<v Speaker 1>at that experience now having gone through everything you've gone.

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<v Speaker 2>Through, well the funny part was is that WHEN i

571
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<v Speaker 2>went back to work AND i answered AN, AD i

572
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<v Speaker 2>made SURE i wasn't going to work with kids, again

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<v Speaker 2>and THE ad was working with. Adults and WHEN i

574
00:30:55.839 --> 00:30:58.400
<v Speaker 2>called and they finally called me, back it was working

575
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<v Speaker 2>with kids AND i was, LIKE i Can't AND i

576
00:31:01.680 --> 00:31:04.799
<v Speaker 2>went in and it was vastly, different and so there

577
00:31:04.839 --> 00:31:09.240
<v Speaker 2>still was a lot of, stuff but it taught. Me,

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00:31:09.319 --> 00:31:11.599
<v Speaker 2>actually what it taught me is that it's not my

579
00:31:11.680 --> 00:31:15.119
<v Speaker 2>job to fix anybody. Else that was WHAT i learned

580
00:31:15.119 --> 00:31:16.920
<v Speaker 2>BECAUSE i thought that's that's WHAT i needed to. Do

581
00:31:17.039 --> 00:31:19.519
<v Speaker 2>and WHEN i let go of that AND i, Understood

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00:31:20.039 --> 00:31:22.359
<v Speaker 2>i'm a, Guide i'm a. TEACHER i am a. Healer

583
00:31:22.799 --> 00:31:25.640
<v Speaker 2>but healing happens like through, Me LIKE i feel like

584
00:31:25.720 --> 00:31:28.039
<v Speaker 2>from divine. Source if you want to Call, god whatever

585
00:31:28.119 --> 00:31:30.960
<v Speaker 2>word you want to, USE i Say. God it flows through.

586
00:31:31.000 --> 00:31:33.119
<v Speaker 2>Me and Sometimes i'm, like where the hell did that come?

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<v Speaker 2>From THOSE i WISH i had that on. Record that was.

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00:31:35.680 --> 00:31:40.359
<v Speaker 2>Amazing now my, JOB i can't fix anybody. Else how

589
00:31:40.440 --> 00:31:42.359
<v Speaker 2>CAN i work for one hour with somebody in a

590
00:31:42.359 --> 00:31:44.000
<v Speaker 2>week and they have all those other? Hours LIKE i

591
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<v Speaker 2>can't control?

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<v Speaker 1>That, elizabeth love, It love it all? Right how do

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<v Speaker 1>people learn more about you what you elevate?

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00:31:55.720 --> 00:31:59.039
<v Speaker 2>With, yeah elevate With elizabeth dot. INFO i couldn't get

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<v Speaker 2>the dot com, sorry, Guys so elevate With elizabeth dot.

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00:32:01.680 --> 00:32:05.079
<v Speaker 2>Info And i'm on social. Media elevate With elizabeth one

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00:32:05.400 --> 00:32:07.720
<v Speaker 2>for many of, them BECAUSE i couldn't just get elevate With.

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<v Speaker 2>Elizabeth i'm rolling with. It done beats. Perfect that beats

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<v Speaker 2>perfect right?

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<v Speaker 1>Now you had an offer for our, Listeners oh.

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<v Speaker 2>YES i do. So as you've seen and, HEARD i

602
00:32:20.960 --> 00:32:23.079
<v Speaker 2>have struggled with a lot of anxiety through my, life

603
00:32:23.160 --> 00:32:26.000
<v Speaker 2>and SO i have taken the twenty years THAT i have,

604
00:32:27.519 --> 00:32:29.880
<v Speaker 2>learned grown all the, trainings AND i put them all

605
00:32:29.920 --> 00:32:33.960
<v Speaker 2>into this one. Offering in this, program it's called Break

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00:32:34.000 --> 00:32:37.160
<v Speaker 2>free From, anxiety A return To, yourself and in, IT

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00:32:37.319 --> 00:32:41.319
<v Speaker 2>i share STORIES i have like so many things that

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00:32:41.400 --> 00:32:43.160
<v Speaker 2>kind of go into because a lot of us have,

609
00:32:43.200 --> 00:32:47.519
<v Speaker 2>anxiety don't even realize we have, It like, Legit i'm

610
00:32:47.559 --> 00:32:51.039
<v Speaker 2>just being, Smart i'm just being, Wise and SO i

611
00:32:51.119 --> 00:32:54.000
<v Speaker 2>go through what anxiety, is what's happening in your, body

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00:32:54.160 --> 00:32:56.960
<v Speaker 2>the many different, modalities and how to. Heal there's there's

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00:32:57.680 --> 00:32:59.839
<v Speaker 2>actual things that you can use in. That and so

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<v Speaker 2>if you use the coupon Code guy fifty CAPITAL g

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<v Speaker 2>so it won't be very, much AND i just my

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<v Speaker 2>hope is that you can also come and get a

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<v Speaker 2>lot from the social media stuff That i'm doing and

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<v Speaker 2>other free things THAT i offer to.

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<v Speaker 1>Awesome so that's Break free From. Anxiety, no just.

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<v Speaker 2>Go to elevate With elizabeth Dodo, oh Break free from.

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<v Speaker 2>Anxiety The return To self is WHAT i call that, program.

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<v Speaker 1>The return to. Self, okay, yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Because that's what it's all, about instead of avoiding. Ourselves you.

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<v Speaker 1>Know we'll have a link up here at the show

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<v Speaker 1>notes page at The Trauma therapists podcast dot. Com, elizabeth

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<v Speaker 1>awesome meeting, you AND i really appreciate you being.

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<v Speaker 2>Here, YEAH i appreciate you having. Me thank you so.

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<v Speaker 2>Much we'll be in, touch, okay