WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.680 --> 00:00:05.559 Oh yeah, I suck at this. You know what, I 2 00:00:05.559 --> 00:00:06.919 can only be myself. 3 00:00:06.919 --> 00:00:09.400 You don't take yourself serious, which I know, and that's 4 00:00:09.439 --> 00:00:11.560 what like I feel like exudes for me. It's about 5 00:00:11.679 --> 00:00:14.000 energy and like what you put that off and so 6 00:00:14.080 --> 00:00:16.559 it's like, right, life's too short to take yourself too serious. 7 00:00:16.559 --> 00:00:19.280 While they're business women, we get it done. But you know, 8 00:00:19.440 --> 00:00:21.679 sometimes things make you a little like you giggle when 9 00:00:21.719 --> 00:00:24.800 you're like when you're nervous, and I do, oh. 10 00:00:24.559 --> 00:00:27.160 My god, I don't even be knowing where to put myself, 11 00:00:27.199 --> 00:00:29.039 Like I want to cover myself under a pillow. 12 00:00:29.239 --> 00:00:31.000 But you're such like you're an artist, you're out there. 13 00:00:31.000 --> 00:00:32.920 How does that like correlate? How do you even like 14 00:00:33.159 --> 00:00:35.000 you're so shy at one point, but you're so like 15 00:00:35.280 --> 00:00:36.159 hear me here I. 16 00:00:36.119 --> 00:00:39.439 Am because when I'm on stage, it's like it's like 17 00:00:39.600 --> 00:00:43.200 where I can be free. So I'm just myself. But 18 00:00:43.920 --> 00:00:45.600 when I'm away from the stage, I'm kind of a 19 00:00:45.640 --> 00:00:48.600 little bit socially awkward and a little shy, and it 20 00:00:48.679 --> 00:00:51.840 takes It's I have a big personality, but it takes 21 00:00:51.880 --> 00:00:54.240 some time for me to like come out of that. 22 00:00:54.359 --> 00:00:56.920 Like you can give bread crumbs, right, you're like I 23 00:00:56.960 --> 00:00:58.320 give you a little bit and I'm gonna take it away. 24 00:00:58.359 --> 00:00:59.960 I'm gonna laugh at you, but I'm gonna come in. 25 00:00:59.840 --> 00:01:04.480 Back girl, exactly exactly. And I guess also because I 26 00:01:04.519 --> 00:01:06.799 don't know how you feel about this, but even being 27 00:01:06.840 --> 00:01:09.519 seen as a sex symbol or whatever the case may be. 28 00:01:09.879 --> 00:01:12.439 You know, you're often told all the time how sexy 29 00:01:12.439 --> 00:01:14.280 you are, how pretty you are, how you you know 30 00:01:14.519 --> 00:01:17.920 your body, You're this, you're that, and and you get it, 31 00:01:18.000 --> 00:01:20.599 but I don't know, it kind of loses a little 32 00:01:20.599 --> 00:01:24.159 bit of its strength, at least for me, and it 33 00:01:24.200 --> 00:01:26.000 only but makes me even more shy and know, like 34 00:01:26.040 --> 00:01:28.879 I have more pressure I have to maintain the sexiness 35 00:01:28.920 --> 00:01:30.040 and maintain this. 36 00:01:30.280 --> 00:01:32.000 You should always keep it, you know, you gotta keep 37 00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:34.719 it good for yourself. And that's sure because of what 38 00:01:34.760 --> 00:01:36.159 we do, not just because of what we do, but 39 00:01:36.200 --> 00:01:37.840 we're out in the spotlight and your people. 40 00:01:37.640 --> 00:01:38.400 See us and look at us. 41 00:01:38.480 --> 00:01:40.879 But I feel like it works with already. It starts 42 00:01:40.879 --> 00:01:43.519 with in our self work first, and then that makes 43 00:01:43.519 --> 00:01:46.640 you like so much more like it is exude like happiness, 44 00:01:46.640 --> 00:01:48.000 like you could just tell like, and then I feel 45 00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:50.519 like it comes in place of like the non nervousness 46 00:01:50.519 --> 00:01:52.640 is coming happening, like I just recently, like I'm single, 47 00:01:52.719 --> 00:01:53.959 So the dating world. 48 00:01:53.879 --> 00:01:55.239 Are you single? Ready to mingle? 49 00:01:55.400 --> 00:01:57.920 I'm ready to mingle? Oh wow, no, I take that back. 50 00:01:57.959 --> 00:01:59.719 I'm ready to mingle. But mingling out here in the 51 00:01:59.799 --> 00:02:01.680 data world that's really weird. And so now they getting 52 00:02:01.680 --> 00:02:03.799 through those waters, it's kind of weird. So the whole 53 00:02:03.840 --> 00:02:05.920 facetiming like it was a new guy and like and 54 00:02:05.959 --> 00:02:07.200 I'm like, I'm awkward on the funt. 55 00:02:07.239 --> 00:02:08.840 I'm like, how do I hold it? Where'd I put it? 56 00:02:08.879 --> 00:02:09.479 Like what do I do? 57 00:02:09.560 --> 00:02:11.360 And we're like super shy on like light, I don't 58 00:02:11.479 --> 00:02:11.759 like it. 59 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:14.840 Lighting is everything. Find the right lighting, and I gotta 60 00:02:14.840 --> 00:02:16.919 have production lights and be like, hey baby, let's face 61 00:02:17.360 --> 00:02:20.039 you know what to be honest, I almost I'm gonna 62 00:02:20.080 --> 00:02:22.479 take that back. If you really like someone and then 63 00:02:22.520 --> 00:02:24.360 you're just getting to know them, I think it's good 64 00:02:24.400 --> 00:02:27.639 to be able to see all their phases, the iboogers 65 00:02:27.680 --> 00:02:30.400 early in the morning. I want to show you everything 66 00:02:30.400 --> 00:02:32.560 that's messed up about me, show me you now early 67 00:02:32.599 --> 00:02:34.159 so I don't have to waste my time later on, 68 00:02:34.280 --> 00:02:35.800 because in the beginning, you know, we always shry a 69 00:02:35.800 --> 00:02:38.400 finesse and put this like, oh my god, I'm gonna 70 00:02:38.400 --> 00:02:39.479 tell you something fun fact. 71 00:02:39.520 --> 00:02:41.479 Let us know private talk on private talk. 72 00:02:41.680 --> 00:02:44.159 So before when when I, you know, when I was 73 00:02:44.240 --> 00:02:47.479 dating this guy or whatever, I would literally go to 74 00:02:47.479 --> 00:02:50.319 sleep with makeup on at least some foundation and a 75 00:02:50.319 --> 00:02:53.520 little like mascara and stuff and go to sleep. For you, 76 00:02:54.159 --> 00:02:56.560 I know, I will go to sleep like this and 77 00:02:56.560 --> 00:02:58.520 then like around three four o'clock in the morning, I 78 00:02:58.520 --> 00:03:01.159 have to go to the bathroom brush my teeth and 79 00:03:01.199 --> 00:03:04.680 then be like, good morning. You would do this regiment 80 00:03:04.800 --> 00:03:07.159 every day. I only did that for like a month, 81 00:03:07.199 --> 00:03:08.719 and I was like, this is a lot of work. 82 00:03:08.800 --> 00:03:11.159 I was just over it. Was like, look, okay, this 83 00:03:11.240 --> 00:03:12.719 is what you see, is what you get. This is 84 00:03:12.759 --> 00:03:14.639 me Get over it because it's a facade. I feel 85 00:03:14.639 --> 00:03:17.400 like it's like, yeah, we put things on like shapewear 86 00:03:17.439 --> 00:03:19.240 and this that whatever. But at the end of the day, 87 00:03:19.439 --> 00:03:21.000 if you're gonna go when you take off your braw, 88 00:03:21.080 --> 00:03:24.800 it's just sad. Just there, girl, look take it. I 89 00:03:24.879 --> 00:03:27.840 am exactly. So tell us a little bit more about 90 00:03:27.919 --> 00:03:29.520 you know, love and hip hop. Miami. 91 00:03:29.759 --> 00:03:31.879 I was the season for you. You got been terrible, 92 00:03:31.919 --> 00:03:34.080 you got really more intimate. I watched the show, so 93 00:03:34.120 --> 00:03:36.400 I'm a fan of the show, but it's one of 94 00:03:36.439 --> 00:03:38.479 the things where you know, you kind of I feel 95 00:03:38.479 --> 00:03:40.120 like you kind of evolved each season, so I feel 96 00:03:40.159 --> 00:03:42.000 like you kind of if maybe it's like you don't 97 00:03:42.000 --> 00:03:43.520 give a fuck anymore and this is who you are. 98 00:03:43.560 --> 00:03:45.080 Take me as I am. But how did that? 99 00:03:45.120 --> 00:03:47.159 You know, how are you responding to that? And like 100 00:03:47.199 --> 00:03:48.759 your fans and how are they taking it? Like how 101 00:03:48.800 --> 00:03:49.919 open you've been with the season. 102 00:03:49.960 --> 00:03:52.479 I've been very careful about my brand and how I 103 00:03:52.599 --> 00:03:54.479 move and how I you know, how I do things. 104 00:03:54.520 --> 00:03:57.400 I'm very analytical. I think before I do things, and 105 00:03:57.879 --> 00:04:01.360 sometimes you just don't have the answers to everything. This season, 106 00:04:01.400 --> 00:04:03.280 I wanted to showcase a different side of me and 107 00:04:03.319 --> 00:04:05.879 a more personal, intimate side of me with you know, 108 00:04:05.919 --> 00:04:09.919 my relationship with my father, with my mother, with my 109 00:04:10.039 --> 00:04:14.360 personal relationship just overall. I was very very open, and 110 00:04:14.560 --> 00:04:17.120 it kind of sucks because I learned that now I 111 00:04:17.120 --> 00:04:21.480 can understand other celebrities or other reality stars, how the 112 00:04:21.560 --> 00:04:25.439 relationship can fall apart and the pressure of society, your 113 00:04:25.480 --> 00:04:28.839 fan based you know, social media's opinion with what you're 114 00:04:28.879 --> 00:04:32.480 going on. Yeah, but people's opinions somewhat. As much as 115 00:04:32.519 --> 00:04:34.439 you say that it doesn't or it shouldn't, it can't 116 00:04:34.480 --> 00:04:36.879 affect a relationship. So that's why you should keep your 117 00:04:36.920 --> 00:04:39.879 personal life to your south. That's why it's called personal. 118 00:04:40.319 --> 00:04:42.519 But when you're in a when you're in a reality show, 119 00:04:42.879 --> 00:04:46.480 you really don't have no personal nothing. So so it 120 00:04:46.560 --> 00:04:49.120 is what it is. You know, I'm young, I'm still learning, 121 00:04:49.199 --> 00:04:51.680 I'm still growing, I'm maturing. I consider myself to be 122 00:04:52.079 --> 00:04:55.639 very mature for my age, but it's a learning experience, 123 00:04:55.639 --> 00:04:57.639 you know, just putting out my business, like as far 124 00:04:57.680 --> 00:05:00.920 as my management and how things weren't done properly and 125 00:05:00.959 --> 00:05:04.959 having to restructure. That took a lot of guts for 126 00:05:05.040 --> 00:05:07.000 me to make that public because you always want to 127 00:05:07.000 --> 00:05:09.319 make sure that everybody sees you as I'm a boss, 128 00:05:09.639 --> 00:05:12.279 you know this, and I got everything under control, and 129 00:05:12.720 --> 00:05:13.240 sometimes you. 130 00:05:13.279 --> 00:05:15.240 Really don't, you know, no, I feel like you know 131 00:05:15.279 --> 00:05:17.040 with aught that being said of being a boss sometimes 132 00:05:17.120 --> 00:05:19.040 is knowing when you don't have it under control and 133 00:05:19.079 --> 00:05:20.560 like really kind of fixing it. And I think the 134 00:05:20.639 --> 00:05:22.720 biggest part is like ego. It's our ego because it's 135 00:05:22.759 --> 00:05:24.639 like we build this big, you. 136 00:05:24.560 --> 00:05:25.560 Know, we are bosses. 137 00:05:25.639 --> 00:05:27.040 But then sometimes we don't know it all and that's 138 00:05:27.079 --> 00:05:29.720 the part of learning and like figuring maneuvering it because 139 00:05:29.720 --> 00:05:32.120 you can stay, even with a relationship, stay longer than 140 00:05:32.160 --> 00:05:34.120 you want to because it's comfortable. Yeah, but you know, 141 00:05:34.279 --> 00:05:37.920 but in return, it's not good for your brand necessarily 142 00:05:37.959 --> 00:05:40.639 because it's like, you know, either it's making you emotionally 143 00:05:40.680 --> 00:05:42.680 not there or you know, and because we're artists, it's 144 00:05:42.720 --> 00:05:44.759 like we have to give our all, like weel like, 145 00:05:44.759 --> 00:05:46.600 you know, it's it's as much as like you're on 146 00:05:46.600 --> 00:05:48.920 that stage. You know, it's a it's it's a presence, 147 00:05:48.959 --> 00:05:50.000 it's a persona. 148 00:05:50.199 --> 00:05:53.759 Yeah, so I definitely express that side. And then even 149 00:05:53.759 --> 00:05:57.720 with my personal relationship, which has been a little bit 150 00:05:57.800 --> 00:06:00.360 tough for me because obviously, and I'm sure it's tough 151 00:06:00.360 --> 00:06:02.639 for him, is his first time doing reality TV and 152 00:06:02.920 --> 00:06:07.360 obviously getting judged and everybody's opinions. You know, as much 153 00:06:07.360 --> 00:06:09.399 as he may say that it didn't, obviously it affects 154 00:06:09.480 --> 00:06:11.600 you because you know, you want people to see you 155 00:06:11.639 --> 00:06:14.480 in a different light, and it was just a lot, 156 00:06:14.600 --> 00:06:16.759 it was just a lot of pressure. I only but 157 00:06:16.879 --> 00:06:18.920 wish him the best in his career and his music. 158 00:06:19.000 --> 00:06:23.000 We are currently not together, but we maintain a beautiful friendship. 159 00:06:23.399 --> 00:06:26.160 I wish him nothing but the best, and I will 160 00:06:26.199 --> 00:06:29.519 continue to help and support him in any possible way. 161 00:06:30.000 --> 00:06:31.480 And it is what it is, you know what I mean? 162 00:06:31.600 --> 00:06:33.839 Like life is not perfect. There isn't a guidebook to 163 00:06:33.879 --> 00:06:36.279 how to live your best life. You just you learn 164 00:06:36.319 --> 00:06:39.199 as you you know live. So you say you're currently single, 165 00:06:39.240 --> 00:06:43.920 are you ready to mingle? Sure about that? I am 166 00:06:44.000 --> 00:06:47.279 ready to continue focusing on my career and my music 167 00:06:47.360 --> 00:06:51.839 and my business and restructuring, you know, my foundation. I 168 00:06:51.839 --> 00:06:53.959 think that all those things will happen in due time, 169 00:06:54.319 --> 00:06:56.399 but my focus is just on me right now. I'm 170 00:06:56.399 --> 00:06:58.800 in the best moment of my career, of my life, 171 00:06:58.800 --> 00:07:02.199 of my youth, and that's my priority at this moment. 172 00:07:02.240 --> 00:07:04.920 If it comes, my arms will be welcoming. 173 00:07:05.160 --> 00:07:07.399 Like, hey, you can say those things, but you know 174 00:07:07.439 --> 00:07:09.600 you can't control how their people perceive you. And so 175 00:07:09.839 --> 00:07:12.560 how many people are you know, celebrity wise or regular 176 00:07:12.600 --> 00:07:13.439 guys in your dms? 177 00:07:13.439 --> 00:07:14.160 Because you know, you. 178 00:07:14.079 --> 00:07:16.079 Know, you're a public figure now and your you know 179 00:07:16.199 --> 00:07:18.920 reality TV, right, a lot of people watch it all 180 00:07:18.959 --> 00:07:23.199 over so you can't see when you see your relationship online. 181 00:07:23.959 --> 00:07:25.879 How many people are on your d I'll tell you that. 182 00:07:26.560 --> 00:07:33.160 To truth, I'll tell you this. I have I get 183 00:07:33.160 --> 00:07:37.000 about I don't know anywhere between fifteen hundred dms a day. 184 00:07:37.759 --> 00:07:39.439 I do get a lot of dms, so I don't 185 00:07:39.480 --> 00:07:41.399 have an opportunity to see all of them. I do 186 00:07:41.480 --> 00:07:44.319 my best, SUSSI. But I I will say that, yes, 187 00:07:44.360 --> 00:07:49.040 I've had a lot of athletes, businessmen, you know, rappers, this, that, 188 00:07:49.240 --> 00:07:51.959 everything you can imagine. Let's say a lot of verified 189 00:07:52.439 --> 00:07:56.399 right those blue checks they're coming out anything. I've had 190 00:07:56.399 --> 00:08:01.040 a lot of those. And sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. 191 00:08:01.279 --> 00:08:04.600 And I also think that not everybody is meant to 192 00:08:04.639 --> 00:08:07.279 be dealt within that matter. Some people are just good 193 00:08:07.360 --> 00:08:10.480 friends and good people to have around for business. You know, 194 00:08:10.600 --> 00:08:13.000 sometimes you don't want to mix business and pleasure, so. 195 00:08:12.920 --> 00:08:14.800 You just not respond to those damns then or do 196 00:08:14.800 --> 00:08:16.319 you hit them up and it's just business. How do 197 00:08:16.360 --> 00:08:17.680 they know it's business and not pleasure? 198 00:08:17.839 --> 00:08:20.720 Well, because I'll make it clear, like if you're ever like, oh, 199 00:08:20.879 --> 00:08:24.000 you know, you know as a woman, you know how 200 00:08:24.000 --> 00:08:24.439 to do it. 201 00:08:24.560 --> 00:08:25.959 What if a girl comes in your dam and she's 202 00:08:25.959 --> 00:08:27.360 like a moda? Can they take you on on a day? 203 00:08:27.399 --> 00:08:29.480 Oh? I've had a lot of those, who a black girl, 204 00:08:29.560 --> 00:08:32.000 you want all of this girl? She wants all of that? 205 00:08:32.519 --> 00:08:33.879 What if she wants? No? 206 00:08:33.879 --> 00:08:36.960 No, I never dipped your toe and the lady palant. 207 00:08:37.600 --> 00:08:41.480 Listen, I've done a few things in my lifetime. You 208 00:08:41.559 --> 00:08:44.200 want the truth or supposed to be on that. I'm 209 00:08:44.279 --> 00:08:47.279 very open with my sexuality. I have. I think that 210 00:08:47.279 --> 00:08:48.720 that when it comes to that, you should be able 211 00:08:48.759 --> 00:08:51.120 to be open minded and try different things, and then 212 00:08:51.120 --> 00:08:52.399 at least you can say if you like that or 213 00:08:52.399 --> 00:08:56.120 if you didn't. So I don't like it? Hi, Mom, 214 00:08:56.159 --> 00:08:58.480 who are you? I know that you're in this live watching. 215 00:08:58.519 --> 00:09:02.679 I love you so much and that's right. With that 216 00:09:02.840 --> 00:09:05.879 being said, Pink, pink, close your. 217 00:09:05.759 --> 00:09:07.559 Ears real quick, air mauss. A lot of needs to 218 00:09:07.600 --> 00:09:09.240 tell private talk, Okay. 219 00:09:09.399 --> 00:09:12.200 I Like I said, I've been very open with my sexuality. 220 00:09:12.240 --> 00:09:14.159 I've tried many things, you know, and I can't say 221 00:09:14.159 --> 00:09:17.559 that there's things that I haven't tried and in different 222 00:09:17.600 --> 00:09:20.279 places I have tried at all, because that's what you're 223 00:09:20.320 --> 00:09:23.360 supposed to know. So I don't know. I'm just fun 224 00:09:23.399 --> 00:09:25.799 with it, you know, I'm fun with it. The only 225 00:09:25.799 --> 00:09:28.039 thing I have been well, no, actually funny enough since 226 00:09:28.159 --> 00:09:30.720 I guess I can talk to you about that. No threesomes, 227 00:09:31.240 --> 00:09:34.159 no orgies, my list of questions, no three ESMEs or 228 00:09:34.279 --> 00:09:36.759 orgies or anything like that. Which, by the way, did 229 00:09:36.799 --> 00:09:38.480 you hear about the corona and everything that's happening and 230 00:09:38.519 --> 00:09:41.759 now they have like these orgy specials. No girl, I 231 00:09:41.759 --> 00:09:43.759 have to help you up with this tea. I don't 232 00:09:43.759 --> 00:09:45.600 really know too much, but okay, I saw on the 233 00:09:45.639 --> 00:09:48.799 social media get in New York they have I don't know, 234 00:09:48.840 --> 00:09:51.159 these these places where they do the orgies and stuff. 235 00:09:51.240 --> 00:09:54.919 It's like seventy five thousand dollars the membership, which is 236 00:09:55.000 --> 00:09:58.960 crazy because for seventy thousand, for seventy five thousand dollars 237 00:09:59.000 --> 00:10:00.440 a year, there for. 238 00:10:00.480 --> 00:10:02.639 Not only just like you know what, they're fetishes, but 239 00:10:02.679 --> 00:10:04.639 their protection. I'm sure all kinds of things. These are 240 00:10:04.639 --> 00:10:07.480 people that have fetishes that they're high big people, but 241 00:10:07.559 --> 00:10:09.399 they don't want you to know me to note until 242 00:10:09.559 --> 00:10:11.679 you pay that seventy five thousand dollars too, and then 243 00:10:11.679 --> 00:10:13.600 you're not saying shit because you're all in it. 244 00:10:13.720 --> 00:10:15.840 One on that's shoot. For seventy five thousand dollars, you 245 00:10:15.840 --> 00:10:19.120 should be getting squeezed out every day. A couple of times, 246 00:10:19.120 --> 00:10:22.200 like there should be no excuses, but yeah they have. 247 00:10:22.720 --> 00:10:24.639 But people were concerned with the corona. They're like, oh 248 00:10:24.679 --> 00:10:26.440 my god, how are you gonna get freaky like this now? 249 00:10:26.679 --> 00:10:28.600 And you know do orgies and everything? But okay, I 250 00:10:28.600 --> 00:10:29.679 guess you know they're healthy. 251 00:10:29.720 --> 00:10:32.039 So you is that what you're's on your porn category 252 00:10:32.080 --> 00:10:33.279 list that you watch as orgies? 253 00:10:33.559 --> 00:10:35.960 You know do them? But you obviously no, no, no, I've 254 00:10:36.000 --> 00:10:38.080 watched it. No, I watch everything. I think. That's what 255 00:10:38.080 --> 00:10:39.639 I'm saying. How do you know what you like if 256 00:10:39.639 --> 00:10:40.120 you don't watch it? 257 00:10:40.279 --> 00:10:42.200 What their search history? If I looked at your computer 258 00:10:42.279 --> 00:10:43.000 or your phone right now? 259 00:10:43.000 --> 00:10:46.960 Girl? What you looking at? I'm not ready for you 260 00:10:47.000 --> 00:10:47.480 know that game? 261 00:10:47.519 --> 00:10:48.600 It's like, let's see the. 262 00:10:48.639 --> 00:10:50.840 Last five pictures in your phone? Can't you even play 263 00:10:50.840 --> 00:10:53.879 that game? I couldn't the last five pictures on my phone? 264 00:10:53.879 --> 00:10:55.720 Oh yeah, No, I'm pretty boring. You're not gonna find shit, 265 00:10:56.000 --> 00:10:58.159 and and I'm very panicky, so I don't take no 266 00:10:58.159 --> 00:10:58.799 freaky pictures. 267 00:10:58.879 --> 00:11:00.919 By the way, nothing on the cloud that's gonna like 268 00:11:01.000 --> 00:11:02.639 disappear and be like privatizing me. 269 00:11:02.759 --> 00:11:04.519 Oh my god, am Mauta, you lied to us? Have 270 00:11:04.600 --> 00:11:06.720 you saw if you saw my tits or something. 271 00:11:06.480 --> 00:11:08.639 Like that or whatever, like sexual you really like, you 272 00:11:08.720 --> 00:11:10.840 like because if you if you saw it or whatever, 273 00:11:10.960 --> 00:11:12.360 you're kind of match, you know, but. 274 00:11:12.720 --> 00:11:17.440 Really exactly black and black. If if if I had 275 00:11:17.480 --> 00:11:19.000 any pictures like that, I don't feel that I would 276 00:11:19.000 --> 00:11:20.440 be I would feel any type of way about it. 277 00:11:20.480 --> 00:11:22.399 You know. I think that now, with the way that 278 00:11:22.440 --> 00:11:26.759 society has changed, seeing a woman's bud or her breast 279 00:11:26.919 --> 00:11:29.360 or whatever is not really a thing anymore. It's not 280 00:11:29.399 --> 00:11:31.240 as like taboo as it was. It's not as taboo 281 00:11:31.279 --> 00:11:33.320 as it was anymore. And and it's my body. Like 282 00:11:33.320 --> 00:11:34.600 what you see is what you get. This is what 283 00:11:34.639 --> 00:11:36.799 it is now. If you were to see a freaky 284 00:11:36.840 --> 00:11:40.240 picture where like I'm spread like this and you're seeing 285 00:11:40.399 --> 00:11:45.320 like you know, like my porn. Oh, if I'm spread 286 00:11:45.360 --> 00:11:47.519 like this and you're seeing all the way inside of 287 00:11:47.559 --> 00:11:50.159 my brain, okay, I would be concerned about that. All 288 00:11:50.399 --> 00:11:52.720 to your brain, girl, Yeah, like you just like annel. 289 00:11:53.559 --> 00:11:55.679 No one wants to go see that's that's too much. 290 00:11:55.799 --> 00:11:57.799 But if it's just like a sexy picture or whatever, 291 00:11:58.279 --> 00:12:00.279 it's okay, it's not that bad. 292 00:12:00.559 --> 00:12:02.039 So no, so no, all the way to the brain, 293 00:12:02.080 --> 00:12:03.080 there's no tunnel. 294 00:12:02.759 --> 00:12:06.360 No, no, no, no, no, you're not spreading it. I'm not 295 00:12:06.360 --> 00:12:09.720 spreading it. Like ever sent nude pictures to your partner. 296 00:12:10.039 --> 00:12:13.399 I have, and I have regretted it afterwards. 297 00:12:13.440 --> 00:12:15.240 Why because they like held it against you, or because 298 00:12:15.279 --> 00:12:16.720 you're like, what are they doing with those pictures? 299 00:12:16.720 --> 00:12:19.600 Well? One, what are they doing? Two? You know, you 300 00:12:19.639 --> 00:12:21.399 never know where you're going to be later on in life. 301 00:12:21.440 --> 00:12:23.600 You know, when you're young, because I'm going to be 302 00:12:23.679 --> 00:12:26.039 very transparent. When you're young, you think that, oh, you know, 303 00:12:26.120 --> 00:12:28.200 this is just fun. Later on, as you mature and 304 00:12:28.200 --> 00:12:31.519 you're growing this and that, you know, some people will 305 00:12:31.559 --> 00:12:34.559 try to hold those things against you. So you know, 306 00:12:35.360 --> 00:12:38.279 I have regretted. I have regretted sending them. And because look, 307 00:12:38.320 --> 00:12:40.200 at the end of the day, we're not even together anymore. 308 00:12:40.360 --> 00:12:42.159 So why you got my sexy pictures? Give me my 309 00:12:42.240 --> 00:12:43.840 pictures back? Give my pictures back? 310 00:12:44.559 --> 00:12:46.000 I have an only fans, and I get paid for 311 00:12:46.000 --> 00:12:47.919 those sexy pictures. Sorry, guys out there, you're not the 312 00:12:47.919 --> 00:12:48.679 only ones that get them. 313 00:12:48.759 --> 00:12:52.320 They get to get coffee paste, copy paste, copy paste. 314 00:12:52.320 --> 00:12:54.679 There's like about three in rotation that get the same pick. 315 00:12:54.720 --> 00:12:57.720 You know. Oh well, they're upset right now listening to it. Yeah, 316 00:12:57.759 --> 00:13:00.399 don't feel so special. Okay, don't feel so spec have fans? 317 00:13:00.399 --> 00:13:02.120 I got to please? How how much do you charge 318 00:13:02.159 --> 00:13:03.919 per picture? Well, it's different. 319 00:13:03.960 --> 00:13:05.879 So my only Fans is a subscription based thing. I 320 00:13:05.960 --> 00:13:08.559 think it's paid. It's four dollars for a subscription and 321 00:13:08.559 --> 00:13:11.159 then you know, then it goes. There's other things inside, 322 00:13:11.159 --> 00:13:12.840 so like if I have videos or pictures that they 323 00:13:12.840 --> 00:13:16.919 can unlock them inside the service. Okay, so it's it depends, Okay, 324 00:13:16.960 --> 00:13:18.720 it is okay, but you know what I see what 325 00:13:18.840 --> 00:13:20.279 my stuff is, you know, four dollars. So it's like, 326 00:13:20.320 --> 00:13:21.159 you know, it's right, that's right. 327 00:13:21.200 --> 00:13:22.879 You know what I like the way that she is 328 00:13:22.879 --> 00:13:25.759 controlling her body and her business. You want to see 329 00:13:25.759 --> 00:13:26.600 all my goodies giving me. 330 00:13:27.080 --> 00:13:28.879 You know, there's girls out there that are doing it 331 00:13:28.919 --> 00:13:30.600 free for the gram and just because it's you know 332 00:13:30.639 --> 00:13:32.480 what I mean, and no shame, nor harm, no foul. 333 00:13:32.480 --> 00:13:34.279 But for me, it's like I'm a businesswoman and I 334 00:13:34.279 --> 00:13:37.120 didn't choose. I didn't know going into this business. You know, 335 00:13:37.320 --> 00:13:39.120 so long ago when I was twenty one when I started. 336 00:13:39.440 --> 00:13:41.919 I'm thirty four now. So for me, it's like at 337 00:13:41.919 --> 00:13:43.360 the beginning of what I did, it I was like, young, 338 00:13:43.399 --> 00:13:45.679 dumb and full of come. I wanted to express myself 339 00:13:45.720 --> 00:13:47.919 and how I feel like, that's how my art was. 340 00:13:47.960 --> 00:13:49.320 How you do music? Were you shy? 341 00:13:49.480 --> 00:13:51.840 Were you embarrassed in the beginning, I was shy because 342 00:13:51.840 --> 00:13:54.120 I like, the first time was very h It was. 343 00:13:54.120 --> 00:13:54.919 A reality type thing. 344 00:13:55.000 --> 00:13:57.240 Was when reality porn first started coming around here, and 345 00:13:57.320 --> 00:13:59.120 so I like held my tits and I was like, 346 00:13:59.159 --> 00:14:00.679 oh my god, he's watched me for the first time, 347 00:14:00.679 --> 00:14:02.240 because it's like, you know, I've never had someone watch 348 00:14:02.279 --> 00:14:04.039 me and never whatever. But I was always an exhibitionist 349 00:14:04.080 --> 00:14:06.159 to the point where my body is a temple and 350 00:14:06.200 --> 00:14:07.960 it's how I express myself in art. And I never 351 00:14:08.519 --> 00:14:10.200 was like I was like the girlfriend that I always 352 00:14:10.200 --> 00:14:11.519 had guy friends, but I show them how to take 353 00:14:11.519 --> 00:14:12.840 a brow because I wanted to see what their dicks 354 00:14:12.879 --> 00:14:14.360 look like. I'm like, hey, let's play a game. I 355 00:14:14.360 --> 00:14:15.799 want to see what they look like. I didn't touch them. 356 00:14:16.039 --> 00:14:17.080 I just wanted to look see what they look like 357 00:14:17.120 --> 00:14:18.639 because I was curious. And I'm like, I'll teach you 358 00:14:18.639 --> 00:14:19.600 how to pick a broth. 359 00:14:19.440 --> 00:14:20.519 But you ain't carrius no more. 360 00:14:20.600 --> 00:14:23.200 Girl, girl, I'm in it. But you know what's funny 361 00:14:23.279 --> 00:14:25.000 is like I've been in the business for so long. Yeah, 362 00:14:25.039 --> 00:14:26.799 I haven't shot, you know, in over four years. But 363 00:14:27.159 --> 00:14:29.600 being said is I still learn new things all the time. 364 00:14:29.679 --> 00:14:32.279 So here's here's okay. So I'm gonna interview her because 365 00:14:32.279 --> 00:14:33.799 at this point I feel like you guys already know 366 00:14:33.840 --> 00:14:35.519 all about me, and if you don't go google me. 367 00:14:35.559 --> 00:14:36.960 But right now, look, we're gonna get to you too. 368 00:14:36.960 --> 00:14:39.039 But I'm gonna let you tease and entertain because it's 369 00:14:39.039 --> 00:14:40.960 how we're getting you feel more comfortable when I tell 370 00:14:41.000 --> 00:14:41.519 you my truth. 371 00:14:41.639 --> 00:14:45.080 I love listening to her Natalie, because she's beautiful, she's confident, 372 00:14:45.639 --> 00:14:47.960 and she knows what she's talking about. But the fact 373 00:14:48.039 --> 00:14:50.039 that I feel that a lot of people have all 374 00:14:50.080 --> 00:14:52.799 these curious questions, like, for example, like I was explaining 375 00:14:52.799 --> 00:14:54.480 to you off air, I used to have a friend 376 00:14:54.519 --> 00:14:57.399 who was a porn star and she was married, she 377 00:14:57.440 --> 00:15:00.120 had children, she had her husband actually her husban, and 378 00:15:00.200 --> 00:15:03.559 later on got into directing and editing a lot of 379 00:15:03.600 --> 00:15:06.399 her films. And I never understood how that happened. So 380 00:15:07.080 --> 00:15:10.440 for you, you currently don't do it anymore. But how 381 00:15:10.559 --> 00:15:13.039 was that transition of well, this is work and then 382 00:15:13.080 --> 00:15:15.879 when work is over, I still have my significant other 383 00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:19.480 or dating or whatever? Was that hard? Was it hard 384 00:15:19.480 --> 00:15:22.200 for you to date after they knew what you did 385 00:15:22.799 --> 00:15:25.360 and did you? How was that connection on and off? 386 00:15:25.720 --> 00:15:28.399 So private talk? Amta doesn't know Miss Texas very well, 387 00:15:28.440 --> 00:15:30.279 but I don't know me right now. 388 00:15:30.200 --> 00:15:32.919 So I'm gonna give you no recap. We're a background 389 00:15:32.919 --> 00:15:35.279 of my history. So in the business, I was married 390 00:15:35.279 --> 00:15:38.600 in the business to performer as well, and so for me, 391 00:15:40.000 --> 00:15:42.720 I was married, I was married for together for five years, 392 00:15:42.720 --> 00:15:44.639 married for three Okay, with that being said, is he 393 00:15:44.679 --> 00:15:47.399 was in the business before me. I established my career 394 00:15:47.440 --> 00:15:49.440 while us being together, YadA YadA. 395 00:15:49.480 --> 00:15:52.159 But for us, it was like the only. 396 00:15:52.000 --> 00:15:54.159 Way it worked was because we had open lines of 397 00:15:54.200 --> 00:15:56.240 communication of what we liked, what we didn't like, what 398 00:15:56.240 --> 00:15:58.440 we were comfortable seeing each other do. Or if like, hey, 399 00:15:58.480 --> 00:16:00.399 if you have a good day at work, cool, don't 400 00:16:00.399 --> 00:16:01.759 brag about it, do whatever you want to do. Or 401 00:16:01.759 --> 00:16:02.639