Speaker 1: Hey, hey, hey, I'm bad. Listen. I know that what
Speaker 1: I'm about to talk about some people will not like it.
Speaker 1: Little feelings are gonna be hurt, toes are gonna be
Speaker 1: stepped on. But it's all right. You will be okay.
Speaker 1: I promise you you'll be okay. This is not to
Speaker 1: hurt or harm. It is to help. It is to encourage,
Speaker 1: It is to educate, it is to inspire. But hey,
Speaker 1: you have to take it however you take it. Millions
Speaker 1: of people in this world label themselves and then use
Speaker 1: it as a crutch. Okay, I have to let that
Speaker 1: seek in for a couple of minutes or seconds. I
Speaker 1: should say, millions of people in this world label themselves
Speaker 1: and then use it as a crutch. Let's talk about
Speaker 1: it in all honesty. How many people have you seen
Speaker 1: in person, on television, over the radio, on podcast, on
Speaker 1: social media, etc. How many people have you seen? Some
Speaker 1: you know, some you don't know, mostly you don't know.
Speaker 1: How many people have you seen that say they have
Speaker 1: some type of mental illness? Oh okay, listen, I've done
Speaker 1: episodes about mental illness. I was in the field for
Speaker 1: thirteen fourteen years. For a long time, I worked with
Speaker 1: juvenile services, detention centers, corrections, psych hospitals for the military,
Speaker 1: so military and civilian. And I'm here to tell you
Speaker 1: that I never met one person that was truly born
Speaker 1: with a disorder. Now I've I've been in the school
Speaker 1: system having class or or or teaching classes to individuals
Speaker 1: who were born mentally challenged and with obvious physical impairments.
Speaker 1: But I'm talking about specifically individuals who developed PTSD, bipolar,
Speaker 1: schizophrenic depression, anxiety over the years. If you knew people
Speaker 1: when they were little kids, you wouldn't you wouldn't have
Speaker 1: heard them say those things or saw signs of those things.
Speaker 1: What happens is and I'm not giving any money for this, soul.
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't have no reason to sit here
Speaker 1: and make anything up, or glamorize something or or lie period.
Speaker 1: What happens is people go through life and they go
Speaker 1: through it comes from negativity, some form of negativity. People
Speaker 1: go through life, many many, many go through life, and
Speaker 1: they go through trauma as young children. I mean, some
Speaker 1: people go through the most atrocious things you could ever
Speaker 1: imagine a child going through. I mean, horrible, horrible, horrible things.
Speaker 1: I'm not even gonna list those things because I've done
Speaker 1: it several times on different episodes, but horrible things as
Speaker 1: a child and are traumatized, and a lot of those children,
Speaker 1: most of those children are not able to cope. So
Speaker 1: they go through that trauma and then they go continue
Speaker 1: through their developmental stages into adulthood carrying that same stuff
Speaker 1: because they didn't know how to cope. With Some people
Speaker 1: lives are changed forever because of what they went through
Speaker 1: as a little kid. So you go through the trauma
Speaker 1: as a little kid, and you go to adulthood harboring
Speaker 1: the same feelings and thoughts, and then on top of
Speaker 1: what you already have going on, you get into relationships
Speaker 1: and normally with people who are like minded, people who
Speaker 1: are struggling to When I say struggling, I'm talking about
Speaker 1: internally mentally. And all that does is compile what you've
Speaker 1: always carried with the things that you're adding to that
Speaker 1: in stress develops outside of what you always carry. Stress develops,
Speaker 1: and because of unhealed hearts and minds, people are blind
Speaker 1: to a lot of things. So people are seeking love
Speaker 1: and all of these things. They meet individuals who rehabit
Speaker 1: in their lives and don't understand why these people are
Speaker 1: wreaking habit in their lives, so it's more stress. On
Speaker 1: top of that, the person you love can't love you back,
Speaker 1: or the person you love is mistreating you, treating you know,
Speaker 1: just doing you any kind of way, or taking advantage
Speaker 1: of you, and the list is endless. So you develop
Speaker 1: all of the stress from that. Then the stress from
Speaker 1: your employment or unemployment and all of that is just
Speaker 1: breaking you down by little. It's breaking you down. And
Speaker 1: people get into the workforce, whether it's celebrity, politician, janitor
Speaker 1: at the school, teacher, judge, police officer, doctor, I mean
Speaker 1: any in every profession you can name, you have unhealed
Speaker 1: hearts and minds. So people are fully grown adults, but
Speaker 1: they have their mental status is still that of that
Speaker 1: young person. And that's why they make the choices and
Speaker 1: the decisions that they make. That's why they allow the
Speaker 1: things that they allow into their life. That's why they
Speaker 1: get into the things that they get into because they
Speaker 1: have not healed. That's why they continue to go in
Speaker 1: and out of relationships with similar people, or they go
Speaker 1: back for a double dose or what they got out
Speaker 1: of us. I mean, I can just go on and
Speaker 1: on and on and on. But it all, it all
Speaker 1: goes back to what I said earlier, unhealed hearts and minds.
Speaker 1: So people start developing anxiety. Never had anxiety before, but
Speaker 1: they start developing anxiety. And let me say this, when
Speaker 1: it comes to anxiety, I think other things can cause
Speaker 1: anxiety too, like all this stuff in the air. You know,
Speaker 1: we're breathing in these microwaves. You know that I could
Speaker 1: be wrong about that, but I'm I'm kind of leaning
Speaker 1: towards it. But we're gonna take that out of the equation. Okay,
Speaker 1: But I just wanted to mention that. But people open
Speaker 1: themselves up to so much stress trying to obtain this,
Speaker 1: trying to obtain that, the inability to love self, trying
Speaker 1: to be famous, getting famous, and trying to stay famous.
Speaker 1: I mean, doing nefarious things to get ahead, allowing people
Speaker 1: to do horrible things to them to get ahead, going
Speaker 1: along with wrong to get ahead. I mean, people are
Speaker 1: chasing the mighty dollar hard and they doing things that
Speaker 1: they should never do. They're going along with things they
Speaker 1: should never go along with. In all of this stuff
Speaker 1: from I mean p p peop darks, darks, barks, barks,
Speaker 1: dark from every corner that you open yourself up to
Speaker 1: who wouldn't be stressed, And then on top of it,
Speaker 1: people don't know how to manage it. So you have
Speaker 1: mental illnesses that are developed in stress, anxiety, depression, bipolar,
Speaker 1: schizophrenic because you're harboring all of this new stuff as
Speaker 1: an adult, compiled with what was already there that you
Speaker 1: never healed from. So when you when you don't know
Speaker 1: how to handle your stress, your stress will handle you. Fact,
Speaker 1: when you don't know how to handle your stress, your
Speaker 1: stress will handle you. It will give you a ride
Speaker 1: for your money. It will rehab it in your life
Speaker 1: when you open yourself up to and you welcome anxiety
Speaker 1: and depression and all of that stuff in your life.
Speaker 1: It'll stick around. When you think the medications and the
Speaker 1: booze and the this and that is what is keeping
Speaker 1: it at bay, it's not. It alters you for a minute,
Speaker 1: but once you come off of whatever it is, you
Speaker 1: right back and square one again. So people are leaning
Speaker 1: and depending on things and different tools. But you gotta
Speaker 1: do inside work so the outside can work properly for you.
Speaker 1: You must do inside work. Most people don't. Most people don't.
Speaker 1: You go through life the same the very same year,
Speaker 1: after year after year after year. You equip for many
Speaker 1: things in life, but you are not equipped for the
Speaker 1: journey of life. You're not equipped for the journey of
Speaker 1: life because you have not allowed healing to occur. So
Speaker 1: now you get these different mental illnesses and you run
Speaker 1: with the label and you use it everywhere. Oh, I
Speaker 1: have this, I have that. Because you listening to a
Speaker 1: woman that I could definitely say that I have PTSD.
Speaker 1: I could definitely say that I should be depressed, full
Speaker 1: of anxiety. I mean I literally should should be just
Speaker 1: unable to be doing what I'm doing now. I am
Speaker 1: so serious because I've been through the storm. I'm going
Speaker 1: through the storm right now. I've told you for months,
Speaker 1: I'm going through something that I will have to live
Speaker 1: with for the rest of my life. And most people
Speaker 1: will not be able to handle it. Most will not
Speaker 1: be able to handle it. I know it for fact,
Speaker 1: because it is horrific. But guess what, I don't give
Speaker 1: in to anything or no one because I know things
Speaker 1: gonna happen in life, and I mean things will happen
Speaker 1: that it's so unexpected you would never think it would
Speaker 1: happen to you in a billion years. But when it happens.
Speaker 1: You just gotta take that punch in the face or
Speaker 1: in the gut, regroup, and keep it moving. Because I
Speaker 1: can't speak for anyone else but myself. I refuse to
Speaker 1: give what God gave me my life. I refuse to
Speaker 1: give it up and succumb to what somebody else done.
Speaker 1: Let it ruin me, or if someone passed or way,
Speaker 1: let it warn me, because I can't handle it. Because no,
Speaker 1: you know why, Because we all gonna pass away one day,
Speaker 1: some way, somehow, some unexpected, some horrifically. It's gonna happen.
Speaker 1: No one is exempt. So in my mind, I understand
Speaker 1: that tenfold. I understand that tragedy is gonna come. I
Speaker 1: understand that. I literally understand that. I understand that the
Speaker 1: storm will bring waves that they rock me from side
Speaker 1: to side. But it's gonna come sooner or later. I
Speaker 1: just don't choose to give my power to no situation,
Speaker 1: no person, nothing, I just don't. Yes, I hurt like
Speaker 1: everyone else, I cry like everyone else, I feel things
Speaker 1: like everyone else, but I don't allow it to overtake me.
Speaker 1: I just don't. I can'tnot do it, and I don't
Speaker 1: care what people think about me because those who know
Speaker 1: me and know what I'm dealing with. If they may
Speaker 1: look at me and just can't understand why I'm not
Speaker 1: just somewhere broken into a million pieces. No, I refuse
Speaker 1: to do that. I refuse to do it because if
Speaker 1: not me, it be somebody else. Do I like it? No,
Speaker 1: it's the worst thing ever, but it is what it is.
Speaker 1: So I'm not claiming no PTSD, no depression, none of that.
Speaker 1: I'm not labeling myself and you're not gonna label me.
Speaker 1: Well you can, but it don't mean it to me.
Speaker 1: So people look at me like a crazy one, you know.
Speaker 1: They look at me like, what is wrong with her? Well,
Speaker 1: I'll tell you what's wrong with me. What's wrong with
Speaker 1: me is I believe in Jesus Christ, the Soulling and God,
Speaker 1: the Father and the Holy Spirit. And you don't have
Speaker 1: to believe. I'm just saying what I stick and stay
Speaker 1: with what I believe, and nothing or no one is
Speaker 1: greater than that to me. And as I say it,
Speaker 1: it's not that I don't love. I don't hurt another. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I go through it all like anybody else. I'm not
Speaker 1: made of stone. I'm still flesh, blood and bones. But
Speaker 1: I just don't give into things. I just don't. And
Speaker 1: you know what, every day I pray, I say, Lord,
Speaker 1: no matter what, I don't care if the sun fall
Speaker 1: out the sky right as my feet, let me be
Speaker 1: able to withstand it. That's my prayer. I pray that
Speaker 1: every single day, no matter what happens, Lord, let me
Speaker 1: be able to withstand it. And I'm ooh, y'all just
Speaker 1: don't know. You just don't know how He's given me
Speaker 1: power to withstand what I'm going through. And I hurt
Speaker 1: and I cry sometimes, but I don't stay there. I
Speaker 1: don't stay there. So I'm just saying, when you label
Speaker 1: yourself and use it as a crutch, that don't allow
Speaker 1: any room for healing to occur. It just don't it.
Speaker 1: Just don't. People label themselves for a lifetime. They label
Speaker 1: their children just because you don't take time and discipline
Speaker 1: your children and have structure and boundaries and things like that.
Speaker 1: You let them run them up. Now you label them
Speaker 1: or they have this, they have that. No, they need discipline,
Speaker 1: they need structure. And I'm not saying that it's the
Speaker 1: case for every parent, but a lot of them it is.
Speaker 1: It definitely is. So just be careful about doing those things.
Speaker 1: Be careful about labeling yourself because we all go through
Speaker 1: and I guarantee you most other people listening have now
Speaker 1: gone through what I'm going through. And when I say
Speaker 1: horrific on the tenth power on the tenth level and above.
Speaker 1: But I will not, I will not allow it to
Speaker 1: take me out. I just want and I'll take it
Speaker 1: to the grave because what is done is done. It
Speaker 1: can be redone. So I just have to live with
Speaker 1: it for the rest of my life. You know, when
Speaker 1: you empower or you give power to people to destroy
Speaker 1: you mentally, it's going to happen. When you give power
Speaker 1: to things to destroy you mentally, physically, in every way,
Speaker 1: it's going to happen. I just choose not to do it.
Speaker 1: I just choose not to do it. So I'm just saying,
Speaker 1: you can be better, but you have to want to
Speaker 1: be better. Every day that we live, you, me, all
Speaker 1: of us, we have a chance to be better than
Speaker 1: the day before. We have the opportunity to change our lives.
Speaker 1: We have an opportunity to become to become the best
Speaker 1: that we can be. But most people don't. They live
Speaker 1: day in day out going through the motion the same
Speaker 1: exact way for years, not even remotely trying to be better.
Speaker 1: And that is a disservice to yourself. It's a disservice
Speaker 1: to yourself, to your children, to your relatives, your friends,
Speaker 1: anyone in your circle. Is a disservice because you are
Speaker 1: not the best that you could be. And you know what,
Speaker 1: that's it. That's all I'm saying on it. Tak it
Speaker 1: for what is worth. Everything that I've said is with love.
Speaker 1: So if you want to, if you want to talk
Speaker 1: to me about it, you want to go more in
Speaker 1: depth about things on how am I the way that
Speaker 1: I am? I don't know any other way to tell
Speaker 1: you than what I've told you. But I'm willing to
Speaker 1: talk to anybody, anybody because, like I said, I guarantee
Speaker 1: you most of you have not dealt with what I'm
Speaker 1: dealing with, you know. And as far as losing someone, yeah,
Speaker 1: I lost someone, Well guess what since twenty eighteen, I've
Speaker 1: lost about thirty people. I know, it's from twenty eight
Speaker 1: to about thirty maybe thirty one, thirty two people in
Speaker 1: my life since twenty eighteen. It took my mom, my dad,
Speaker 1: my grandson. I mean, I can go on host of
Speaker 1: aunts and uncles, cousins, all of those people in such
Speaker 1: a short time. So I mean death in tragedy, and
Speaker 1: I mean different ways, different ways, So I mean some
Speaker 1: very tragic, but it's just life. We don't know how
Speaker 1: we're going. That's why I want to live right as
Speaker 1: I live, because on the other side, I want to
Speaker 1: be in the right place. That's for me. I can't
Speaker 1: speak for any of you. It's for me. That's what
Speaker 1: I choose for my life because guess what if I
Speaker 1: walk outside of my door and someone take my life,
Speaker 1: I'm okay because I know I've lived the best that
Speaker 1: I could. I know that I live with intention of
Speaker 1: being the best that I could be intentionally, so I'll
Speaker 1: be good on the other side. I don't fear none
Speaker 1: of that because it's gonna happen one day. It's gonna
Speaker 1: happen one day. We all will leave this natural body
Speaker 1: one day. I just pray that you end up on
Speaker 1: the right side, on the other side of life, the
Speaker 1: right side. So that's all I'm gonna say. I'm leaving
Speaker 1: it right there. I just want you to know if
Speaker 1: you deserve better, you can be better. You just have
Speaker 1: to want it. Thank you for listening. Please share this episode.
Speaker 1: Much love to each and every one of you. I
Speaker 1: encourage you that to be grateful every day. Stop worrying
Speaker 1: about what you don't have, be grateful for what you got,
Speaker 1: because when you're not grateful, then you're seeking and you're searching,
Speaker 1: and you're to do anything and in everything for something
Speaker 1: and it's not even worth it. Please share this episode.
Speaker 1: I end every episode is the same, and I hope
Speaker 1: and I pray, I pray you do it, thank on it.