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Speaker 2: Hey, it's sero and this is vocal dfrag. Vocal dfrag
and is asking yourself the questions and questioning the answers.
You know, I see it, I do it. I'm guilty
just as much as you are. We rely on other
people to help shape our decisions and our paths when
it comes to growing forward. We always ask people well,
what do you think? What would you do in this situation?
And then when it goes bad, you go, well how
can I get out of this? But you don't ask
yourself the questions, and I mean physically put yourself in
that moment of now. I started defragging in November of
twenty seventeen very dark period, very very dark. And the
thing is is that the reason why I started it
was who knows what's going inside my head and heart
beyond me? Nobody does. Nobody does, and so I'm supposed
to go talk with somebody to get something done. Well, yeah,
if you want to just stand in line for a
long period of time, because in twenty seventeen, you know,
trying to get a psychologist or anybody a psychotherapist to
help you out was a long line experience, and then
we went through COVID and it got even worse. So
it's one of those where you've got to be able
to be in control of your now and be a
survivor as well as an explorer, because the more you
get inside your head and heart, the more you realize
there's someone in there that you really don't know. Ask
yourself the questions and question the answers. I call it defragging,
and I do a vocal dfrag like this, because this
to me is volume, tone, and truth in writing. It's
my interpretation of the day when I come back to it,
and not where we are when I get to hear
the pitch, volume, and tone. This is vocal d frak
when you start feeling inside your head and heart exhaustion
that can't be explained. I mean, we can go around
the house all day and work on the backyard, the deck,
inside the house, vacuuming, doing the dishes, doing your everyday job,
your career. We can be running all over the place
with the kids to the baseball games, soccer practices, valet,
you name it. We are sitting there putting ourselves in
situations of change and challenge every day, and man, it
is stealing the wind from our soul. But the exhaustion
I'm talking about is something that is very difficult to pinpoint.
I hear a lot about this exhaustion inside the stories
of the elder generation. And that's one of the things
that through my Native American spirituality studies that I learn
was that when it comes to the elders, the younger
generation tends to look a different direction. Look, that's not
the fault of you nor I unless we decide in
that moment of now that we don't need to be
telling the story of those that were here before us.
And the question is is that do we even know
what your story is? Oh, I'm too exhausted I don't
want to dive into that. Oh there's more here than
I can even handle. Yeah, I get it. No, I
totally get it. And that's what the subject is, is
that when we reach that point of exhaustion that you
really can't explain. I mean, it's not like going to
the gym to work out and you're trying to catch
your breath. This is about catching something other than your
own life. And I'm not talking about capturing it and
trying to stuff it into a book. I'm talking about, Okay,
what has happened here and in the process of allowing
it to take place and to grow, and to hit
walls and fall off mountain cliffs and to dive into
waters that have no bottom? What exactly do we have
to show for any of this? Which seems like a
negative question until you realize there's probably a lot more
of you that you don't know about, and the absolutely
amazing things that you have done without you really diving
into it, because we have made it so simple to
shove things to the side, to brush it off our shoulder. Yeah,
it was a good time while it lasted. Because now
I'm in search of the next best high and we
do that we're so guilty of Okay, this project has done,
what's next? And that's one of the reasons why I
enjoy having conversations with book authors and actors and songwriters
and producers, and the reason why we all think that, oh,
he's just talking to famous people. Well, you know what,
if you really did listen to my podcast, you would
realize it is nothing about that. It is about getting
to know who the person is that is connected to
the artist, and from the work of that artist, you're
given words to read on a page or a song
to listen to. But we don't know that journey. We
just assume that it just naturally appears a cloud in
the sky. But do you ever take the time to
understand what the formation of that cloud was really trying
to require and collect before it became a thunderhead or
basically just a whisper of something from the past. And
there's no way that you can describe it to anybody
else because you saw it, they didn't, and they're gonna
look at you going, well, there's just another fricking cloud. Well,
sometimes that's what I think our life is all about.
As we get older in life, I mean, where does
elderly sit in, because if you talk to a twenty
one year old these days, they'll sit there and say,
I'm so old. At twenty one, you're old. Oh my god,
I'm so old. I don't remember at twenty one saying
that I was old. I just know that I had
a future that I was trying to get my hands
around so that I could find any type of success.
And then I had to define what success is. And
with success there's got to be failures. There's got to
be bent corners, there's got to be knees that ach
all night, and there's got to be screams in the
middle of your dreams and you're wondering what was I
screaming about. I don't know, but it was there. But
you become exhausted. I mean, this is the kind of
exhaustion that really if you sat in a room with
a doctor and said, dude, I can't explain it. You've
checked my blood, you looked at my heart, my lungs,
my brain, you've done the scans. You know everything about
me because you've got it right there and writing why
do I feel exhausted? And I'm often wondering The reason
why is because you're not letting it out. You're not
relieving the air that's built up inside your creative heart,
your creative soul and a brain that never turns off.
I mean when I sit down with all these musicians
that I say, are you addicted to creativity? And without
a blink in their eye, they go, yeah, I am.
And this is the result of it. We're exhausted. We
don't know what to do with the stored up energy
that's inside of us. We don't know what to do. Now.
We could ask a friend, we could ask a boss,
and the boss is just going to give you more
works because it really is all about one thing, and
that is multitasking. Well, do you have to multitask your
life as well? No, no you don't. If you could
find focus and build yourself around a single thought, everything
else is going to play out. But you're not going
to be mentally or physically exhausted from the adventure. Turn
it into fun. Make everything a power of choice. You
don't have a job. You choose to go to work
every single day. You made that choice. That means you're
in control. Yeah, but my boss is going to fire me.
You still made the choice. You made the choice to
go there and if your boss does, can you're ask
The thing is, you made the choice. You're still in control,
and I like those odds. I love being in control.
So ask yourself the questions. Then question yourself and sit
there and try to figure out what lives beyond this
self that you think you know, you think you know.
I could say that twenty five times and you're gonna go, well,
I do know who I am? Do you put it
on a page. Put it on a page and see
if you agree. Ask yourself the questions, question the answers.
I call it vocal deep ragging. I'm MARYL.