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Speaker 1: Arro dot net a r oe dot net. It is

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more than just a podcast, it is a podcast network.

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If you like me, when I get in the car

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or I'm sitting at the office, I want to have

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the power of choice. What am I in the mood for.

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I don't want to just settle for anybody's subject. So

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that's why I created street Speak. It's Alexa and my

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real self having a conversation. It's the digital world versus

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somebody who actually lived it. Street Speak on ero dot

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net a r r oe dot net. Enjoy the exploration.

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Speaker 2: Hey, it's sero and this is vocal dfrag. Vocal dfrag

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and is asking yourself the questions and questioning the answers.

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You know, I see it, I do it. I'm guilty

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just as much as you are. We rely on other

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people to help shape our decisions and our paths when

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it comes to growing forward. We always ask people well,

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what do you think? What would you do in this situation?

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And then when it goes bad, you go, well how

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can I get out of this? But you don't ask

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yourself the questions, and I mean physically put yourself in

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that moment of now. I started defragging in November of

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twenty seventeen very dark period, very very dark. And the

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thing is is that the reason why I started it

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was who knows what's going inside my head and heart

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beyond me? Nobody does. Nobody does, and so I'm supposed

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to go talk with somebody to get something done. Well, yeah,

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if you want to just stand in line for a

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long period of time, because in twenty seventeen, you know,

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trying to get a psychologist or anybody a psychotherapist to

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help you out was a long line experience, and then

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we went through COVID and it got even worse. So

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it's one of those where you've got to be able

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to be in control of your now and be a

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survivor as well as an explorer, because the more you

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get inside your head and heart, the more you realize

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there's someone in there that you really don't know. Ask

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yourself the questions and question the answers. I call it defragging,

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and I do a vocal dfrag like this, because this

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to me is volume, tone, and truth in writing. It's

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my interpretation of the day when I come back to it,

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and not where we are when I get to hear

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the pitch, volume, and tone. This is vocal d frak

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when you start feeling inside your head and heart exhaustion

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that can't be explained. I mean, we can go around

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the house all day and work on the backyard, the deck,

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inside the house, vacuuming, doing the dishes, doing your everyday job,

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your career. We can be running all over the place

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with the kids to the baseball games, soccer practices, valet,

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you name it. We are sitting there putting ourselves in

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situations of change and challenge every day, and man, it

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is stealing the wind from our soul. But the exhaustion

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I'm talking about is something that is very difficult to pinpoint.

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I hear a lot about this exhaustion inside the stories

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of the elder generation. And that's one of the things

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that through my Native American spirituality studies that I learn

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was that when it comes to the elders, the younger

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generation tends to look a different direction. Look, that's not

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the fault of you nor I unless we decide in

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that moment of now that we don't need to be

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telling the story of those that were here before us.

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And the question is is that do we even know

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what your story is? Oh, I'm too exhausted I don't

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want to dive into that. Oh there's more here than

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I can even handle. Yeah, I get it. No, I

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totally get it. And that's what the subject is, is

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that when we reach that point of exhaustion that you

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really can't explain. I mean, it's not like going to

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the gym to work out and you're trying to catch

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your breath. This is about catching something other than your

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own life. And I'm not talking about capturing it and

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trying to stuff it into a book. I'm talking about, Okay,

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what has happened here and in the process of allowing

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it to take place and to grow, and to hit

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walls and fall off mountain cliffs and to dive into

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waters that have no bottom? What exactly do we have

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to show for any of this? Which seems like a

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negative question until you realize there's probably a lot more

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of you that you don't know about, and the absolutely

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amazing things that you have done without you really diving

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into it, because we have made it so simple to

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shove things to the side, to brush it off our shoulder. Yeah,

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it was a good time while it lasted. Because now

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I'm in search of the next best high and we

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do that we're so guilty of Okay, this project has done,

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what's next? And that's one of the reasons why I

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enjoy having conversations with book authors and actors and songwriters

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and producers, and the reason why we all think that, oh,

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he's just talking to famous people. Well, you know what,

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if you really did listen to my podcast, you would

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realize it is nothing about that. It is about getting

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to know who the person is that is connected to

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the artist, and from the work of that artist, you're

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given words to read on a page or a song

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to listen to. But we don't know that journey. We

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just assume that it just naturally appears a cloud in

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the sky. But do you ever take the time to

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understand what the formation of that cloud was really trying

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to require and collect before it became a thunderhead or

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basically just a whisper of something from the past. And

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there's no way that you can describe it to anybody

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else because you saw it, they didn't, and they're gonna

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look at you going, well, there's just another fricking cloud. Well,

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sometimes that's what I think our life is all about.

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As we get older in life, I mean, where does

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elderly sit in, because if you talk to a twenty

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one year old these days, they'll sit there and say,

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I'm so old. At twenty one, you're old. Oh my god,

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I'm so old. I don't remember at twenty one saying

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that I was old. I just know that I had

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a future that I was trying to get my hands

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around so that I could find any type of success.

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And then I had to define what success is. And

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with success there's got to be failures. There's got to

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be bent corners, there's got to be knees that ach

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all night, and there's got to be screams in the

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middle of your dreams and you're wondering what was I

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screaming about. I don't know, but it was there. But

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you become exhausted. I mean, this is the kind of

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exhaustion that really if you sat in a room with

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a doctor and said, dude, I can't explain it. You've

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checked my blood, you looked at my heart, my lungs,

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my brain, you've done the scans. You know everything about

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me because you've got it right there and writing why

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do I feel exhausted? And I'm often wondering The reason

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why is because you're not letting it out. You're not

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relieving the air that's built up inside your creative heart,

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your creative soul and a brain that never turns off.

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I mean when I sit down with all these musicians

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that I say, are you addicted to creativity? And without

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a blink in their eye, they go, yeah, I am.

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And this is the result of it. We're exhausted. We

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don't know what to do with the stored up energy

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that's inside of us. We don't know what to do. Now.

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We could ask a friend, we could ask a boss,

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and the boss is just going to give you more

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works because it really is all about one thing, and

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that is multitasking. Well, do you have to multitask your

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life as well? No, no you don't. If you could

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find focus and build yourself around a single thought, everything

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else is going to play out. But you're not going

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to be mentally or physically exhausted from the adventure. Turn

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it into fun. Make everything a power of choice. You

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don't have a job. You choose to go to work

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every single day. You made that choice. That means you're

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in control. Yeah, but my boss is going to fire me.

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You still made the choice. You made the choice to

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go there and if your boss does, can you're ask

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The thing is, you made the choice. You're still in control,

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and I like those odds. I love being in control.

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So ask yourself the questions. Then question yourself and sit

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there and try to figure out what lives beyond this

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self that you think you know, you think you know.

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I could say that twenty five times and you're gonna go, well,

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I do know who I am? Do you put it

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on a page. Put it on a page and see

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if you agree. Ask yourself the questions, question the answers.

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I call it vocal deep ragging. I'm MARYL.