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at Wmmhradio dot org. It's nine o'clock. Yes, it's really no day
five. I'm Anita mine who died. It's hope. I'm with the pot
Ron got back. I'm going Huk Talkie, I've got down since he's got
something on past down twenty twenty Massco and I felt like pot Man pop Man.
They just sing the same for nigros. They washed down the product and
murdered out. He broke down the coulture bit bunched with e goes like yay,
saying we just want the power to Peopa Pizzo. How they're holding the
remote nowadays seems like the troupe the seafol Me though I'm a rebel with one
cause this ball might set the middle of detect dogs. How she knowing is
something like Brett falls. I'm gonna need a breath because you go into the
long yard. Heard you playing like Kevin and get hard thinking number doll.
So probably I'll hit pause, swingle and lose the swing a circle. Working
for the bill Board in the night commercial art that'll put him in check.
Wait let me take a breath. Wait way up next, wingles, this
a winning circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial for you that'll
put them been checked. Wait let me take a breath. Wait will up
next? Wait a second verse. You gonna need a nurse, so the
boy tell us it intil we hit the first. Hold a noise because this
is gonna hit him. Wear hurts, polaroids. We got a rally strying
to bring this darn now we gonna turn into a garden. Were not the
same. I ain't like James Harden shoot for the stars, and no,
you can't guard him. I will not touch that brick. But no bags
parted. It feels like a sweek bush in my own world to found myself.
Often they tell me stop by saying we just started might oh my mind,
but keeth with my heart starving. I ain't eat a bit of been
a minute. But I treated like I'm papa and ate away my swinging,
just trying to reach limits that I never said I go. Can't stop it
him. Chris Wallace, we kick does ten toes and get doe a line.
No, this ain't know William not in ten do drap need to fix
and we giving out good dough. I will not stop. You will have
to come, Mike brow. We ain't gonna lose this winner's circle working for
the bill Board in the night commercial working matall put him in check. Wait,
let me take a breath. Wait, Wi up next. We ain't
gonna lose this winter circle working for the Billboard in the night commercial working,
Gotta put him in check. Wait, let me take a breath. Wait
way up next, Die, it's hope. I'm with the bot mine God
that I won Uncle shunk talkie. I've gone and since it's got something gonna
passed down. Twenty twenty, Massac on knife felt like batman man. Let
me let us when I walk out on the stage. Wait sure they are
here too, Mike check, Wake up, eynnoying, go to sleep?
Stress. Should I have within the hoodie of the button up steam press not
to think a Bugget me said? You say I need mens shouldn't have walked
up in his office offer weed breast he sells or she sells the seashells no
comment. We're not honest with the details. Feeling we're not right. It's
like it's in braill pokis goo oprah and its just turned Gail mean my bread.
Now make sure if it's not stale, dig your own hole. I
leave against you with pale or learn to follow cold money. You're not you
with bail streets hot. It's like we live in the hell. I remember
no ac middle of this summer, sweat pouring down my face, summer filling
up with hunger food in the French. But I left that for my butters.
Could have taken no more. Had to recover and see. I want
to knock you down. I want to see you in that position, but
it's about how you actually that position. When you're knocked down, it says
says, well you really are? Are you a part? Partit? To
you? Fast forward to a life I never wanted. The coma came faster
than they'll go to my stomach, the higher than you climbed in, the
further that you plumbing. Y'all should know I'm canyon. So when it didn't
keep on running, told God need a label and some funding. He looked
at me. Then you gotta teach him something taking and leave it. I'm
never showing no grievous Mama said, dropped the liquor. I took control of
my weekend. Still walk around with water print slapping there no reason, Mama
asks me, why I say, I'm fighting my demons these dollars, I
pledge your allegiance to the common man. Is this even? They see me
rocking? No change? I tell them that it is so freeing. I
know my wants and my needs. My don't was wise and believe me.
You see it's never been easy. Await you're playing Stevie. They robbing up
pocket flyings issue. You see on TV. So bbing on the climb hope
of time that could teach me? So bbing on the climb hope of time
that could teach me to teach me. It's waving on the clim hope of
time that could teach that. You're listening to w M and H get Commander,
don't get Supreme, Lina Matzell coming, Welcome everybody. Here we go.
It is that time again. Matt Connorton Unleashed and we are live from
the studios of w m n H ninety five point three FM in Glorious Manchester,
New Hampshire, on Canal Street. Of course, you can also stream
the show at wm Andhradio dot org, or go to my website Matt connorton
dot com slash live for all your live streaming options, social media links,
contact infos, show archives, et cetera, et cetera. Today is Saturday,
June twenty second, twenty twenty four, and I am not alone Jod
Morning Sunshine. Jenny is here at the news table. Yes, yes,
so that the first song that we open up with today is called We actually
played two from Hope the Rapper, but of course we're doing our our ten
weeks of world radio premieres of new singles from our friend Hope the Rapper.
This is week two and that track was called Winner Circle. That's what we
opened the show with. Great, great track, and then we I threw
in a bonus Hope the Rapper song, The Climb, because I love it.
I love the positivity of it. Great stuff and part of the reason
why too, I decided to play an extra an extra one is our first
guest today. This morning is a no show, so hopefully everything's all right,
but yeah he is. He did not arrive so anyway, but coming
up in the second hour, we have Mary Peters and Sue Smith from the
Sister Witch Company you are going to be joining us. And then in the
third hour we've got a great band called the Two Towns Band. It is,
so they will be with us here as well. But in the meantime
it is Jenny and I and there's never a shortage of things to talk about
ever. Also too, I see Melanie law Liberty from the Great State of
Vermont is in the Facebook live chat and says she's still laughing about Apparently she
finds my impressions to be very amusing. And I did one last night.
I don't do the impressions here, of course I do them. I save
that. I save that for retro Spectrum Radio with Polly C. It's not
fair, not fair. They were born from here. Yeah, you don't
do them here, and that's not fair, right, well, I protest.
Well, you know, here's the thing. And I don't know if
I should talk about this publicly or not, but just a little bit of
a peak behind the curtain. I did sign so when I re signed with
poly C to be the co host on Retrospectrum Radio, because you know,
every every ten years we signed a new contract, and so four years ago
when we signed for another he signed me for another ten years to be his
co host. And part of the deal was, you know, because he
pays me millions of dollars. But I yes, where's my part? Well,
it's in it. It's all tied up in equity or something, but
it's in a Swiss bank account that I can't I've already said too much.
But yeah, so part of the deal is I can only do the impressions
on his program. That's a that's just so retro spectrum Radio with Polly c
exclusive of Yes, I know, I know the nerve. Uh yeah,
Melanie says, it makes me sad. Jenny, thanks for bringing that up.
Yes, that is true. I did. I didn't bring it up.
If you brought it up, you started it. Yes, yes,
right, Melanie talking to you. But of course our retrospect from radio Friday
nights for maybe eleven pm live here on WMNH ninety five point three FM.
And of course if you miss it, you can go to wmnhradio dot org
and get the archive of the show, download the podcast, listen anytime you
like. Melanie says, all those secret uh, all those secret babies really
are a financial drain. Well my goodness, oh no, anyway, very
prolific isn't it. Well, I don't know if that's quite the word,
but I was going to say something else and it changed mid sentence. Also,
Hans Hans Smith, of course from the band Sepsis, is also in
the in the chat room. Welcome, Welcome, they will they're coming in
soon. Yes, actually the next week it is. It's next week the
ten am guest. Actually, Williams can definitely be coming in. I'm not
sure how many others may be coming in or not. Yes, give us
a load down on some of the big projects. They have some huge projects
coming in. And somebody's actually trying to call my cell phone right now.
Isn't that crazy? Oh well, we don't answer when we are on air.
No, we don't. And let's see. So And of course Swarmyfest
is going to be in November and we'll be involved. We will be there,
so excited about that. But we'll talk about that. Okay, we'll
talk about that, I'm sure in more detail when they come in. Also,
if you missed it last week here on the show, we had in
the third hour. I've got a ton of great feedback on it. Green
jelly or green jello. Not sure exactly what to call them at this point
we're here with us live in studio, and I have to say, and
I said this on social media, that was probably and no disrespect any previous
guests, of course, but that was probably the most fun I've ever had
on this show in terms of segments. That was. That was amazing.
So Bill mannspeaker, I'll tell you he can really talk. But if you
missed it, of course, it is in the archive. You can go
to wmhradio dot organ downloaded or my website Matt connorton dot com. And we
put it up on YouTube too. So what am I hearing anyway? I'm
hearing something not in the headphones but from somewhere else. So uh yeah,
so check that out. That was last Saturday. And it was cool too
because you know, they didn't have to come in because they played in Manchester
last night. They played I'm sorry not last night. Last Friday night,
they played at the Shas Skiing and you know, normally when when a band
is going to be on a radio show it's because they have something to promote
in that local market that night. But they had already played, they had
played the previous night, but they wanted to come in anyway, Saturday,
they were playing in Vermont, so they played at the Shasking here in Manchester
on Friday night and then Saturday morning they came in here. So that was
really cool too, because, like I said, usually usually you don't bother
to do that, you know, but they were nice enough to come in
anyway. And it wasn't just Bill. He brought many members of the band
with him, so that was a lot of fun. Anyway, check it
out. And if you're confused, just because probably if you don't know the
situation with the name, whether it's green Jelly or green Jello, if you
don't know, because it didn't really get explained during our conversation on the show.
But green Jello is what the name of the band was originally, and
they were I don't know if they were actually sued or if they were threatened
with a lawsuit, but green Jelly they changed their name to green Jelly because
the jell O Company or whoever it is that makes jello either threatened to sue
them or actually sued them, so they had to change their name to green
Jello, I'm sorry, from green Jello to green Jelly. They could no
longer have Jello in their name. But the problem. The problem there is
that I guess it's been a long time, so at this point, you
know, they can kind of still get away with calling themselves green Jello because
they almost seem to prefer to be called green Jello to green Jelly. But
uh, and that did that did seem to occur because Bill kept referring to
the band as green Jello, And that's why I asked him, are you
legally allowed to call yourselves green Jello? And he said, it kind of
doesn't matter at this point. So so that was the the confusion over the
name. But uh, yeah, so that was last week, so check
that out, uh if you uh, if you missed it. It was
a lot of fun, Like I said, a lot of very positive feedback
on the uh on that let's see uh six O three two five O six
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Welcome. Hello, how's it going? Hey? How do you say you're
I don't know how to pronounce your name. It's uh a a jousel Okay,
I wasn sure A joseld Rebel is here. Welcome and uh we do
have a few of your tracks here. Uh, why don't we play something
and then we'll talk for a bit? What do you You sent us three
and I made radio edits of of all three of them. Uh. So
we do have options. But what would be a good one to open with
and then we'll come back and talk about it is either let me done or
what made me? What? Maybe? Is the one I did for my
son. It's like a tribute song for them. Oh, let's play that
one first and then we can Uh, we can talk about that, okay,
okay, So this is what made me? It doesn't roll off my
tie a lot of people. I'll get it though, I'll get it all
right here. It is, this is This is called what made me?
Maybe? Don't cry, baby, don't cry no more. I'm so sorry
that I left you standing in the colode outside. I hope you know I'm
yours. Your mind, it's ju it's t maybe. I can't even sleep
it out you. I cannot replace this, No one can replace you.
I'm so you go crazy. I remember when I was just standing her in
hardcore? What I feel cold? I don't remember when I had no money.
You know, I am not sure that the cry Oh, I had
them enough for the best. Wiping my tears, I can be like the
rest deep down inside of the pressed. I remember them coming up with lash
because of my son. I was hurting. Yeah, I ain't want to
live no more, trying to battle all my demons and lost myself. I
put my whole family do paint. I know that they love me, but
I push them away. But I don't know what what's wrong with me?
Demons they calling me? All that's my sunny was part of me? Can
say goodbye? What's han me? I left my head out living with grand
no and I don't know what's wrong with me? Demons they calling me?
All that's my sunny was part of me? Can say goodbody's hat me?
I left my head out. I'm living a grand now, y'all. Y'all,
I had no way to tell people that my life isn't safe. I
wanted to win my own life for a better way. I put my pain
in every box music's might escape. I sat all the lowest in praying for
better days, but God blessed me with three more sons. I feel like
I'm never running front of pain right now I know and if you know right
now, because right now I'm a better man. Back then we understand.
Because right now you know what God, please don't understand right now why you
have to go take them away and all this paind that I haven't done right
now. I have to live through the worst all again. But right now
I am stronger to see him longer. That's my little Julian. I feel
like a fool again. I ain't get to see him grow up, turn
to a big man. I feel like you hate me. God, Please
don't let me fall again. I feel like you hey me, be crazy.
You took too for my babies, my heart ist faverg and whatever I
supposed. Right now, I think I need saying and why you am mighty
on on. I lost to all my babies, and I know that it's
impossible, but I dream of miracles to give up. I was right back
to me right and Moms that spirit shore for the game. I wish I
cant home my boys a game. Yeah, baby, don't cry, Baby,
don't cry no more. I'm so sorry that I left you standing in
the colude outside. I hope you know, muse your mind. It's you,
baby. I can't even sleep it on you. I cannot replace this,
No one can replace you. That is a Josel Am I saying it
right, a Josel the Rebel here on Matt connorson Unleashed on this Saturday morning.
Uh, he's here with Jenny and I and the track is called What
Made Me, And that is the as we were discussing off air. That
is the first time that's been played on the radio. So World Radio premiere.
So we're very uh, very happy to play that. And that is
you were saying too it Uh, that song has kind of been blown up
for you. You've been getting a lot of a lot of attention with that.
Yeah, I've been getting a lot of attention with that. Done like
competition in Holy Oak, mass it was, and uh, I guess the
competition was for to be able to go down to Atlantic Records. I battled
like thirty nine other artists. When I went down there, I showcased another
song and then I did that song and I pulled a lot of heart strings
and ended up winning Yeah, Crass. And then the Thursday after that,
I ended up going down to Atlantic Records talked to Bailey the inn R from
Atlantic Records. Oh wow, that was the first song I played for her
too, and she liked it. Oh no kidding, put her like I
mean, she told me to bring like seven songs and I bring like eleven
just in case, like seventeen songs just in case, and I ended up
playing eleven for her. She wanted to keep listening to more songs. Oh
no kidding, that's excellent. So it's really it was actually really good.
Good experience too. This is my first time going to New York City.
Yeah, first time experiencing all the traffic and yeah, it was crazy.
Do you have to get in the cab? No, I actually drove down
there. I have to be sixty five dollars for a park ye crazy man,
four hours, it's sixty five dollars for parking. And then yeah,
I don't know. I think, actually you're probably better off that way.
Last time I was there and I have to take a taxi, I thought
I was gonna die. I'd rather take a taxi. Yeah, I don't
take a taxi were you were you nervous, dude? Yeah, that's a
big deal. Or if you have to go over the tappan Zee Bridge,
what is it the Giant bridge? Uh, the George Washington Bridge. I
think, Oh, I don't know. I think they renamed I think they
call it. I think, yeah, I think they did rename it.
I think they did rename it. Yeah, it's a scary bridge. Yeah.
So, uh, the song we should talk about is this song is
very personal to you, very personal? Yes, yeah, we should.
We should talk about it. I mean it's a it's a heavy subject obviously,
but yeah, we should. We should talk about this first. Yeah.
So in twenty eighteen, I had my firstborn son. His name is
Jaden. He lasted about two months. He ended up passing away from SIDS.
Yeah, And for anyone who doesn't know, SIDS is a sudden infant
death syndrome, also often referred to as crib death. And I believe it's
kind of a mystery, right that. Yeah, they still don't know.
Yeah, they still don't know. Nobody really knows why it happens. Yeah.
Oh that's horrible. So two months, two months, Yeah, two
months he made it. He passed away in October October twelfth. It was
okay, so he's born August eighth, August seventh, and then he passed
away October twelfth. Wow. And that's where it really put me into a
dark place, dark hole, no doubt. That's the reason why I started
rapping making music. Yeah, because before I was like making music and it
wasn't wasn't anything serious. Yeah, my dad when like put me in the
studio and all that stuff. When I was like thirteen, it used to
be a DJ and my mom used to listen to like Spanish music and always
dancing and doing all that stuff. But yeah, so I got through that.
It was in my dark place started making music. I made a couple
of songs about my son's that was like at first there were like anger anger
songs. Yeah, and then I finally came to a compromise and made this
song. I was like really stuck on it. Yeah. I got the
first half. So the first half of that song is about my son Jayden,
and then I got stuck. So that part where it goes, God,
please don't understand right now, why'd you have to go take him away?
So that's that part is where I got stuck. And that song,
and then literally right after that, my fourth son that I was born.
His name is Julian. He made it about four months twenty days and he
passed away from six too as well. Oh my god. So right there,
I was able to finish the song. I know that's not really good
circumstances, but I was able to finish the song that way. Yeah,
making a song, sent it out to all my people, sent it all
my friends and they were like, Yo, that song is crazy, dude.
Yeah, uh yeah, and stuff like that. Yeah, you know,
I just went and finished the song, and so I kind of it's
like a tribute song for them, like, you know, I mean,
they're not alive here, but they're alive in my music. Yeah. Yeah,
And I'm happy to go around in the world to like perform that song.
Yeah. I mean it comes up on the show a lot, you
know, conversations about taking traumatic events and you know, some of the horrible
things that happen and trying to create art with it. And not only because
not only does it help you to work through it, it's it's kind of
like a therapy right when you do that, but also too, you know,
it might help others who have gone through similar things. And I don't
know any of the numbers on SIDS, but I know it's I've known people
who it's happened to, and it's I don't have any children, but I
can only imagine how horrible that is to experience that you have other kids.
Yes, I have two middle children. Okay. Jamil was my rainbow baby,
who was right after my firstborn. Yeah, so I mean he'd really
get to love that we were supposed to give him. Yeah right now,
he's good. Yeah yeah. And then I had my son Elijah. Yeah
yeah, and my son Jamil is about to be four on the twenty fourth.
And then my son Elijah's team. Oh wow, okay, very good,
very good. You mentioned too your dad. Is your dad a musician?
Oh he's a DJ. Yeah yeah, yeah. He used to call
them DJ old school three G Yeah, but yeah, goes by mister old
school now. Yeah, he's just like local local DJ. Yeah. Yeah,
he used to go to Rhoe Island DJ down there. It's good old
school DJ plays all the old school jams, all that stuff. Does he
still do it? Yeah? He's handicapped now from diabetes, oh wowing both
legs, but he's still had had another gig, I think it was the
eighth, June eighth, and he went down there. I said it was
good. Yeah, put all the music for them, you know, handicap
and all. He still does. He still works on cars, he still
does it. Good for him. Yeah, yeah, that's awesome, good
for him. So is that where your your interest in music started? Yeah?
When I was about thirteen, he'd always tried to get me down to
the basement because you are all his friends down there DJing, and he would
do some recording stuff like that, and I'd go down there and watch and
he'd like, Yo, son, good on your turn. I'm not doing
that. I don't rap, bro like I don't rap. Yeah, And
then I don't know. Eventually I caved. Yeah, and I did like
a cover song for like for te Pain I'm sprung, Oh no kidd like
a cover song, and he was like, see, I told you could
do it. Yeah. And ever since then, I'd started like making the
little rhymes on my phone and stuff like that and nice, but it never
got serious. It never got serious like that. Yeah. It wasn't until
five years ago until I started making music seriously. Yeah. Yeah, And
now you have you done shows with Hope the rapper. How do you guys
know each other. I've done Hope since high school. Oh no, kidding,
yeah, oh wow, since high school. Oh cool. I have
done shows with him where he's on a different set. He's has his own
sets. Yeahff like that. Yeah, but yeah, he's a really good
musician. Shout out to George. You know what I mean, he's good.
Yeah, we actually have a song coming together. Oh you do a
song? Yeah, song. I just gotta find the time actually going down
to LA to do a tour. Oh yeah, it's a for day tour
from the twenty six to the thirtieth BT week and we're doing that excellent.
Well you know you can come when you're ready to radio release that. Yes,
yes, we love the world. We love doing the World premieres here.
Yeah, we're doing uh, as you're probably aware. We open today
with Winter Circle, his newest single. Because I haven't heard that yet.
Yeah, yeah, we'll play it again to UH at the end of the
hour. But yeah, because we're doing uh. You know, he's releasing
ten ten new singles each week and we're doing a they're already they're already on
the streaming services by the time we plan but we we're doing the world radio
premieres of each one each week, so yeah, we really are big.
Oh yeah, yeah, no, we love that. And and he's he's
amazing. We had a great conversation when he was here. And I really
like the positivity of his music. Yeah, he has really good positivity in
his music. He keeps her like like less swears and stuff'shy like. His
music keeps you like, no swears and stuff like. I kind of keep
it like you know, yeah, I'm just me on it, you know
what I mean. Yeah, it took me a few minutes to do those
radio and yeah, let me let me down and let me down. Yeah,
there's a lot of nwords in there, but yeah, that was what
he said, a lot of nwords on there, you know what I mean?
On be an original rappropos and just me that's normally the way I talk
all the time. Took Yeah, it took me a few No, I
don't mind, No, I don't mind. But you now have radio in
it. It was worth it. Yeah, Yeah I can send those Yeah
yeah, yeah, absolutely, Well let's let's play another one. What should
we uh? Let me down? It's actually my biggest hit on oh on
Spotify. I think it's almost at one hundred K streams. Oh okay,
it's like ninety nine eight hundred something. I don't know. I actually haven't
checked today. I haven't checked today. It might be one hundred, might
be that. If not, we'll get it over the top, right,
Yeah, yeah, that's awesome. Yeah all right, let's while you're looking
that up, we'll go and play this. So this is uh, this
is al said it right, you did a rebel and uh, and this
is called uh, this is called let me down. Check it out,
ye staying with doll smoke. I want him give me, no, I
will him give me now. I stay by my dog lett again. I
don't come around because Sun bade me way. You have to let me down
now. I'm not then balk against you're thinking numb a clown thatt. You
is my home. And you know what I could tell let me singing me
chop a hit him? Now we beating pull up on me, you know,
twigging. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come
around, because get motivated. I think can be complicated. Most can say
they don't shoot what they're saying. It's heart. I trust when you're on
circle betrayed. You know they get letting them traps keep by the night.
You know they get letting wing them traps keep by the night. Now,
Monro, I ain't never coming home. Get the back. I gotta call.
I tell you wad let me alone. Why are you blowing on my
phone? Why are you blowing on my phone? You're coming at me?
You watch your tone. You're coming at me. You watch your tongue.
Don't you say you feel path me? Look out what you starting? I'm
gonna go over at it. Get started in my problem. Why y'all going
down on me? I guess I gotta go hard and knows tragedy. Just
hit them spinning magic, I got it. I won't hit them get me
now. I stay by my dog and let it in this swie. Don't
come around cause ups feding me while you have to let me down. Now,
I'm loving fun because you're thinking number clown got you was my home and
you know what peved it? I could tell lem me seeking to me chop
to hit him. Now we're beating pull up on me. You know,
twig, you have to let me down. That's why I don't come around.
I don't know what happened at people around me, or why they keep
switching and choosing the side. I always been true to myself. Being true
to myself, it got me to lose my mind. Homies been faking,
they moving too funny. I don't know love me that you're trying to play
me in. I don't know why I'm going so crazy. I don't have
the time, like why, why why are you acting fake? God at
time? Catch me Bama lonely while I stay my grind. I'm stuck in
my head from losing some friends, been dealing with pain, and I hope
that it is if I never pop, won't see me again. It goes
in the shadow, can see you through a line, and I don't know
why drive to my head Sometimes with searching for truth, the luck of his
life can switch up the past because I'm across tying, can switch up the
pace because I want my grind, because I want my grind now, I
don't have the time. No, no, no, get me, no,
I stay by my dolling in me. That's why I don't come around,
just fading me. Why you have to let me down now? I'm
looking fall against it? Why you were thinking I'm gonna cown you was my
home and you know what, I could tell the game chop and hit him.
Now we beating pull up on me, you know, twigging. You
have to let me down. That's why I don't come around me. Step
on, no, step on, that is let me down. That is
a jous the rebel. I'm getting confident with that. Yeah yeah, yeah,
that was really good, better than most people. The most people.
Where does the name come from? By the way, Actually my dad gave
me that name. My dad name my uncle tom Oh do kidding me?
Yeah? Oh cool. My uncle told me to mess around like like just
you know, a j a ji a joos and then like door like they
just start calling me that and I'm like, you know what I mean.
And then when I was trying to make her raping, that's what you want
to make your wrapping, I don't know as we already call you that,
and it's like all right, it's like, ye, it's unique. Nobody
has that, so I guess perfect. I mean, yeah, yeah,
yeah, that's awesome. Uh yeah, uh he's here with us of course
live in studio on this Saturday morning, and which so you were looking up.
Uh what made me is is that the one that's almost two hundred thousand.
Let Me Down, Let Me Down is okay, yeah, I just
released uh what made me? Oh? Okay, yeah, so let Me
Down, and that'll be crossing that that barrier today probably one hundred k.
Go listen to it on Spotify now, not right now, in a little
bit. Yeah, yeah, jack that number up. Let's get him over
the top today. Yeah yeah. Yeah. We were kind of talking off
air about how hard that is and and how Spotify now is like they're not
they're not not paying people for any songs under a thousand. Yeah, yeah,
which I don't agree with that. A lot of people are complaining about
it. But the only thing is it's I mean, you're talking about pennies.
I don't care. They pay like fraction of a penny. I don't
care. Yeah, well they don't pay enough number one, But I don't
care. It's still your song, it's still your revenue that that you're making
for them, and they're keeping it whatever, penny, quarter, a penny
whatever, they're keeping it. Yeah, and they're ripping off artists by going,
oh, you have to have this minimum of a thousand plays, and
nobody gets paid except us until then no, I think it's a ripoff.
I think it's doing artists wrong. I'm really not. I'm not a fan
of Spotify because of these things. Well, Apple Music's like fraction of a
pennies too. Yeah, it's ridiculous. The one that pays the most is
title. Title pays a penny for stream and it doesn't seem like much,
but that's it's a lot more than the zero points zero zero three, right,
Spotify pays and then apples zero points there's zero eight Yeah, yeah,
I mean it's so hard for artists to make money these I think part of
why people are getting back into records even I've seen they said last year records
so outsold. Really, I wonder how it compares and in regards to streaming
though, I mean, I think artists make more on an album than they
do on streaming any day of the week. It's really you You're you're making
most of your money off of your merchandise. Yeah, yeah, I have
a merchan pasee too. Yeah. Yeah, it's called Tea Spring. Oh
yeah, I'm familiar with that. Yeah, I use it's like digital right
now. Yeah. I made it because you know, I figured I get
something out there right right. I mean I got at a couple of tests
sweatshirts and stuff like that. Oh cool, wear them to the shows people,
So where do you get those from? I show website and stuff like
that. Excellent? Excellent. You were talking too often about when you do
what made me live and what goes into that. Oh, because in that
it's a good stage performance. Uh. I have these two canvases of my
two boys, and I have either my fiancee and my sister hold hold one
of them on each side. Yeah, and then you know, every time
I performed the song, they have a visual of my of my son.
So that makes the performance even even better. And people are just quiet and
they're focused. Yeah, like everybody in the room is everybody's tensions on me.
Like nobody's talking to each other. It's like people's cameras are out,
people's flash lights are out. Right. I mean, I just did a
show in New York. Every show I go to, I do that song.
Yeah. I don't like to do the same venue. I don't like
to do the same venue and do the same song, So I do different
songs if it's the same venue. Yeah. But I just recently did a
show, so I won the show in Holyoak, went down to Atlantic Records,
did that, and then I went down to Rhode Island. I did
another competition, another battling another forty or another thirty nine artists. I was
actually the first set on Rhode Island is where I was born and raised when
I was nine years old. Yeah, I came out here. So when
I went to Rhode Island, I had like so many people that showed up,
Like, so, I had like at least thirty people that showed up.
Yeah, so the venue only held like seventy something people. Oh really,
I had thirty of them. Yeah. So the competition was for five
hundred dollars and then whoever bring the most people got another one hundred, two
hundred dollars. So I went there. You know. I did two other
songs that did let me down, and I did another song called Bombshell It's
not ready, It's not ready for radio. Yeah, and then I did
what made Me. I always closed with that song. Yeah song, it's
like my song I'm originally there to do. I'm originally there to do that.
I'm out here for my sons. I wouldn't be out here wait if
it wasn't for them. It wouldn't be rapping. Yeah, out here doing
that and it's got me to many places. Yeah, I mean I'm heading
to LA. I just went to New York opened for Connie Diamond. The
performance out there. I won the five hundred dollars, actually went seven hundred
dollars. And that's what keeps opening more opportunities every time I win these competitions,
more people. He asked me, Yo, you want to come.
I was supposed to go do the Three Headed Goat with Charlie Clips. I
think George is doing that too, but I'm not gonna be able to make
that. Oh he wanted to do a new song that we're doing. Yeah,
I just haven't found the time to get my song recorded yet. Oh
okay, I've been really busy with LA stuff. My first time going to
l Away, Yeah, living five days. Yeah, like another world.
I hear. It's like walking into another world. Yeah, and it's going
to be hot. Yeah. I'm taking my first flight, my first time
taking an airplane really. Yeah, first time ever born an airplane or anything.
So I'm nervous about that too, first time being away from everybody.
I'm not gonna have anybody I know out there. My man You've got everybody
you know right in your hand. I know, but it's just it's different.
Especially it's gonna be my first time performing that song without none of my
regular people that usually show up to my shows. So I'm gonna be doing
these these songs in front of strangers, you know what I mean. Yeah,
that's what makes me. It's making me more nervous too as well.
Yeah, ros to you. That takes a lot to the courage is to
get on a plane I have cross the country. I'm happy that I have
one person with me, at least that I know, my manager, you
know what I mean. I have one person that's coming with me. You'll
make new friends while you're out there. You'll come home with more than you
had. Yeah, that's everybody keeps saying. Rex Shattuck is in the Facebook
live chat. Hello, that's a new name in there, Shattuck. Yeah,
that's my fiance. Are there? Oh I misread that back, Shaduck.
I'm sorry, Yes, very good, very good. By the way,
where do you record? I recorded sound Shuttle. It's in Boxford,
Mass seven. Engineers. Name is Nikki six. Ever since I linked up
with him, it's been really good. He knows my sound. Now like
I get there, what I do is I record at my house. I
get to memorized, you know. I mean I already have it, don
what I want for autotune or yeah, you know, so you kind of
make a demo. Yeah. So when I get there, it's already in
my head. I'm able to do two three songs in a two hour time
span. Oh really saying for ye last time I did four songs in a
two hour session. Wow. I mean I get there, get the songs
according and I just let the engineer do his work. Yeah, he already
knows my sound and then the only thing he has to mess away is my
features. You know what I mean feature songs. I do have a solo
album coming out pretty soon, but I have a feature album coming out hopefully
when I come back from LA and trying to get that situated. Now for
those who don't know, can you explain what that is when you talk about
features? Oh, features just another presson on another artist on your song.
So the feature album is people that's part of my group. So I have
another one with good bars and Hope the rapper. We gotta get those songs
recorded in order for me to drop my album because I wanted to get them
on there. Ye. So that song that me and Hope we're doing,
that's going on there, and then the song with Me and Good Bars is
going on there. Excellent, I think, oh yeah, yeah, he's
been on the show. Well he actually he was on a couple times when
he was still in Sepsos. Yeah yeah, I think he left steps Yeah
he did. Yeah. Yeah, and then he's coming on soon, right.
I think we have him in July. I think it's July. Double
check the calendar. I'm looking yeah, I'm looking forward to to uh talking
to him. He will be here on July sixth, Yeah, because than
studio, because when he was here with Sepsist obviously you know, they were
talking about band stuff. But I'm but I'm also looking really looking forward to
talking to him just because he's he works with so many people. Yeah,
he's also good rappers too. Yeah yeah, good rappers too. Uh.
He actually kind of paved the way when it goes to studios, and I
still go to his studio A long time ago. Actually did my first music
video, the songs called now you Know Okay. Yeah, it was the
first music video I did. Me and Good Bars in there. He recorded
it, he edited all that stuff. Is is that on YouTube? That's
on YouTube? Yes, it's an old one, but yeah, people still
go like, I got to know a lot of kids. They're going there
and they're like, yeah, they were singing. Now you know that song
is old, excellent sing that song. Oh that's good though, I mean
it's a timeless that's that's really good. So now the what's his name again?
The producer that you work with ni Okay? Does he spell like the
guy from Ali Crue Nikki six? Uh? Well, anyway, I assume
it's not the same guy. But no, but it sounds like so is
So he doesn't just engineer, he actually produces. He produces. Yeah,
he plays like the actual instruments, and he doesn't do the beats I haven't
gotten. I have gotten two beats from him, but I haven't used him
yet. I got the full exclusive rights from him. I'm just wait.
I'm trying to come up with the perfect song for those beats. But usually,
like YouTube beats, I go buy them, you know, I'll go.
I don't know they for some reason my whatever I'm thinking. So a
beat pops up and I'm just like, oh, I like that one.
Yeah, I don't even have to really look for beats because I feel like
my phone is always reading what I'm thinking. Yeah, I go on there
and I go to YouTube and like the first couple of beats, I look
at it and like, like those ones, let's go go on their beat
stars and I'll just pay for the pay for the beat. That's usually how
more of a alotic artists like to gravitated towards a lot of way of listening
to, like a bogie with the hoodie pology is my favorite artists. I
used to listen to some old schoo rappers like uh Lil Wayne and you know
jay Z and all that stuff. Yeah, not really a big fan of
the school of the old school wave. Dad growing up was like hard on
the fifty cent, oh on fifty So I kind of like, you know
what I mean, that's music. Ah, Whenever I think of fifty cent,
uh, this is a little bit of a side street. But whenever
I think of a fifty cent I think of the first time I ever heard
in the club and I was and I was in the car and I heard
it, and the first time I heard it, I really really liked it.
I thought, Wow, it's really catchy. It was gonna be a
huge hit. And literally I think it was the second or third time I
heard it, I was like, I really don't like this. I was,
I was, I was just over it's so fast. I don't know.
That's just the first thing I ever think that I think of. I
think of his the feud that he had with Jerrule, which was hilarious.
Yeah, like a song by jewelryl in New York, the song goes Hard
actually made another song. I've cover a couple of songs that are that are
unfinished for my solo album. I kind of I guess Swagger jacked a little
bit of of his flow, you know what I mean? Yeah, you
come from New York. I kind of like stole a little bit of that,
but I put it in my own. Yeah. Yeah, I'm just
waiting to get that out. Do you have any kind of an et a
on the solo album? Do you know what I have? This feature album?
I'm supposed it's supposed to have already been out. Oh, the feature
albums coming first. Feature albums comes first, which is why when I come
back from l A, my first priority is getting the photo shoot done and
then getting those songs recorded with mister good Bars and hope the rapper should be
all set, Yeah, cool, should be all set and then it's gonna
I should be up by hopefully August. No see, no, I don't
know, probably like next month. The tracks that we're hearing today, are
these not the future album but the solo album? Are these? Let Me
Down? Let Me Down's going on there? Yes's going on there and then
reminiscing and what made me He's gonna go on my soulout? Okay, cool,
cool, excellent, excellent. Are you doing any shows? Do you
have any shows around here in the area coming up? Or you got other
stuff you're focused on? I know, but the La one I have a
show the twenty seventh and the twenty ninth that are a part of Mia snows
tour that she's doing. I'm actually going with Scott Morris. He's doing that
the show I won in Rude Island. He's doing that. Asked me,
he goes, you know you called him? He goes, so, y'all
like your music. He's like, have you ever performed out of New England?
Yeah? And I was like, no, I've just done like mass
different parts of masks for Island stuff like that. Yeah, and he's like,
you know, he's like, what you do on coming on to me
to LA And I was sick. He's like, yeah, everything's gonna be
up out of pocket because you're not sound artist yet, so everything's out of
pocket. Everything's paid to play. Yeah, seems to know if you can
afford. I was like, yeah, I got you. Yeah, you
know. Then that's how we came to that. So four days nice for
days. This is awesome for you. I'm really excited for seven. Twenty
seventh. I'm doing a show and I think it's North Hollywood, okay,
and then it's twenty ninth. I have another one. But in between this
podcast and stuff like that. Yeah yeah, yeah, you got to make
the most of the trip, right Yeah. Well yeah, I'm just following.
He's leading the way I'm following. Yeah. No, that's cool.
It's cool that And I feel like, I don't know, I've always felt
like I see it a little bit more in hip hop that I mean,
you see it in all genres, but mentorship is so important when there's when
there's people who see something in you, who are willing to help you,
you know, instead of just saying you know, Oh, this guy's got
all this talent, but I'm just gonna let him swims like about Scott Morris,
like he just took me on. He asked me what I can afford.
I told him I can afford, and just like all right, boom,
send me all the paperwork. Yeah, I think I need to fill
out everything seemed legit. Yeah, yeah, wow, that's good. I
had to book my flight. I thought we were driving down there, honest,
So oh really a day day? It was like a one day,
twenty four hours. I was like, wow, it's a long drive.
And then if I figured out when you sent me the the forms, oh
take a flight? Yeah. Yeah, So you've never flown, never flown?
Are you're flying out of Manchester or Boston? Yeats? I can give
you some tips. I fly a lot, you do too, I've been
I was always asking around. I was asking around, like I was asking
my bosses. I was asking a lot of people that's flown. Couldn't really
give me anything. They said, just make sure you're there early. Yeah.
I think I'm like three hours or three weeks away from my next trip
something like that. Minnesota. Oh okay, I've never been there either.
Yeah. The important thing is to get there, you know, get to
the airport early, just to be super organiz early. It needs to be
like, what a couple hours. Yeah, I'd get there at least two
hours early. Yeah. I have no idea where the terminals are. Nothing
like, yeah, will chat, I'll help you. Because to me,
that's the stressful part about flying is dealing Like it's not the being in the
big metal tube twenty thousand feet in the air of that part so easy.
It's it's just dealing with the airport past security all right stuff. That's where
the stress is, right in my opinion. Yeah, I had to figure
out what size the bag is you can bring so oh yeah, I paid
for a check bag. Then I figured out that the the carry on bag
was like it's supposed to be twenty two inches, and I was like,
I could have fit everything in there. Oh, but I already paid for
the check bag. So I got the big luggage. Yeah, it's going
to pack my stuff? Yeah yeah, get my clothes ready. I know
they were going to LA So I got to watch out for colors down there,
yep. I did not know that. Yeah, especially in the rap
game, you got to just watch out for your colors out there, especially
in no red and blue. That's where like bloods and crips originated from it.
Like, don't wear anything that makes sense, Like you know, you
don't want to go out there wearing I mean, my favorite color is blue.
I have outfits that are blue and red. But yeah, not going
to bring those colors down there. That makes me wear like more neutral colors,
you know what I mean, like purple yellow, And that never would
have occurred to me, but that totally makes sense. Yeah, I don't
want anybody taking me Yeah, certain type of way, you know what I
mean, start trouble, Yeah, exactly down the start trouble. No,
that's not something you need. No. Can you imagine someone in the crowd
like, oh, this guy's I'm not ready for all that. Noight here
for five days, hoping that it opens up a lot more opportunities. Yeah,
I can't. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a child.
That's not something that I can imagine. But I am absolutely amazed by you
and your ability to have taken this tragedy that actually incited this mass creativity inside
of you that's just coming out of you in such a positive energy. It's
just really commendable. It really is. His birthday is coming up next month,
No, no kidding, bul six, Yeah, birthday's going to be
one years old. Wow. So yeah, this past month, you know,
I've been a little bit depressed. But yeah, it's like some you
know, some days, I'm like I don't even want to go to LA
you know what I mean? Yeah, I already poked my flight, you
know what I mean? Yeah, Yeah, yeah, already booked my flight.
Some days I just want to be like I don't want to make music.
Yeah I'm still there. Yeah, and what I gotta do, Yeah,
still being a father to my kids. Yeah, I mean from there,
there's probably a lot of fathers out there that y'all help them. Yeah.
Yeah that the song did blow up really fast. Yeah, it's actually
that's where I'm going to l A, you know what I mean? Yeah,
So yeah, im down there. I want to go perform that song
down there. I talked to some people down there, like uh, and
they were like they didn't even know what SIDS was really Yeah, I didn't
even know what. I'm like, Oh, it's his I'm like, it's
Sudden Infant death intrum. It's like the baby's brain is pretty much tells them
to stop breathing or Yeah, they say it can happen on your on on
the baby's stomach or the baby's back, but it happened on both. So
my firstborn was on the stomach, my my and my son Julian was on
his back. So yeah, Jenny was looking up up numbers. Rely,
any out of one hundred thousand older and born thirty eight point four will die
from said, there's roughly twenty five hundred babies that die every year from sudden
infant death syndrome. And these numbers are coming from March of twenty twenty three,
So, I mean, it is rare, but you know, there's
there's enough of a number there that you know, but the theory is still
out. We haven't we haven't pinpointed it down. Nobody knows. They'll find
My money's on something genetic that maybe haven't pinpointed yet. Yeah, maybe they'll
when they do the gene testing on it, maybe they could find something.
Yeah, yeah there's a gene or something, because it did happen to us
twice, so right right, yeah, maybe they'll find something, could be
something there. But yeah, so statistically it's rare, but it's more common
than than most people realize. Yeah, twenty five hundred children dying a year
is a is a decent number. Yeah, yeah, and they just don't
know why yet. It's just it's all it's been a medical mystery. Ye
that just hasn't been unraveled yet. Hopefully, as science grows and genetic and
all that kind of thing happens, you know, we'll find a reason be
able to stop it. What you're doing is phenomenal because you are raising awareness,
you are bringing attention to it. But next year, I wanted to
do like a sid's awareness tour free, you know what I mean. That's
a great idea. Wanted to do like, you know, free tour,
you know what I mean. I actually have my mom's ex fiance, Uh
he's he's the one that printed up like the thing everything for that and I
actually really liked it when he printed that up for me, and I was
like, yeah, that actually sounds really good, like, you know,
for SIDS awareness. And that's good. You know, a free tour.
Don't get get nobody has to pay nothing, you know what I mean,
go there, set up the venues. But I just got to make a
couple more songs. Yeah, that sounds amazing. You'll definitely have to come
back and tell our audience about it, yeah, I mean, and then
I just always gonna have my team open up for me do whatever, you
know, PG songs. You know, I hope the rapper will be good
Yeah yeah, looking like mean and trying to do like shows, I mean,
and like a local tour you know, I mean not now you wear
it's too far. Yeah. Yeah, so that everybody can make it,
and everybody works, everybody has their own schedules. So we're gonna just get
that situated. Yeap. You might even be able to get the March of
Dimes involved. Oh yeah, good call possibility. Yep, yeah, that
makes sense. That makes sense. Well we are we are approaching the top
of the hour. I want to make sure we get one more of your
your tracks and uh so we're what's the one we didn't play? Reminiscent?
Reminiscent? Yeah, so that's a song. It was about when my mom
was in her dark days. My mom was in her dark days. It's
the beginning of it, and then it's about like New Hampshire and how people
like did you dirty people? Did me dirty? Happened forever. That's what
let Me Down was about. Okay, Yeah, I kind of got that
from the lyrics. Yeah yeah, And and I think there's people that was
closest to my circle that let me down, you know what I mean.
Yeah, yeah, I'm just tired of that. Very relatable. We we
certainly all had that. We certainly all have had that happen. Yeah,
trying to make sure I have it here. So what we'll do is,
yeah, we'll play that and then uh after that too, I'm gonna I'm
gonna play again the Winter Circle, the brand new track from Hope the Rapper
as we continue our ten weeks of world radio premieres of Hope the Rapper singles,
which we're very happy about. Love his stuff and love what you're doing.
Man, this is great, This is great. A Jusel the Rebel.
What should people know about how to find you online? Uh? You'll
find me on everything. We should spell a j U s D E L
d A R E b E L and you can find me on every platform.
And please go to Spotify. Spotify. We got to get that over
a hundred thousand, yeah, yeah, those to one hundred k. Almost
there. Yeah, I bet it happens today. Hopefully there's no hope.
There's only no something. Didn't Yoda say something like that, there is hope
because he's on he's going to be playing after that. There you go exactly,
They're literally there, literally is there? Literally is hope? Yes,
and that too? All right A Josel the rebel, Thank you so much
for coming in. Man, thank you, this has been great. And
give this a listen. This is reminiscing. It was so crazy. You
were never home. So many nights that have felt a lunge deeping. That
darkness had to get in my zone and they wish I can see you more,
not that I am grown, and you think I don't love you,
but I know that you're wrong, and it's crazy. You think that w
was crazy and sing. We used to hanging every day with link go to
the store, set off for lunch, to go about everything. Your brother
junior passing, watching, drawn yourself in your paint. Now new mission.
That's a different sector. I'm here now talking to start collecting. Move to
a different section. Hey, because I'm upset. It's one false move.
You better. I hope you have protection. There's no regret. My hands
are forced to lead the weapon too much son can get you, so keep
it stepping no cap gate city. What I'm repping. I missed the mold
days for its drive mail hunk go getting those with them. Days when they
called you broke. Now where the day's them sayings again? That called you
bro turned into a well you have that back when they need you, when
they see your time, keep it and stacked. They don't see you now
they be hating, know me. I get green like the eagles. I
do the wish way theise. I do this fecial for my peoples, straight
facts, moving forward. And my time is dudy. Yes, ain't got
no tougher back. And for this like it's tennis, I reinvented this new
cold and laws invented and never settence. My song gone and reminiscing. And
then as time is taken like broken family, my first is the press and
broken. Now I'm back, let's get it. You're hurt. Twenty twenty.
I got a tonnel vision because then the booths where again said and don't
you need to get it? Come from a herd. They have a pop
up existant bro. They locked up. She kind of miss him. Nash,
New Hampshire, you know how we live in Should I tell all my
I did get come from them transits? You know how we do to all
my sisters, adition, proud of you and long night sentis through going hard
is what I'm trying to do. These other rappers they know comp tissue.
No, you'll place no more propositions. It's not the quantum physics. You
ain't gonna beat me. You know my position without the proper vision. They
can't see it to go over their kitchen. Speak only when spoken to,
Because now what it is. If you're gonna make it, then you gotta
be a humble due. Don't let the devil get a hold of you.
Stop doing from what you're supposed to do. I'm moving to send you all
this message in I'll hope you read it. Sure you decided me y'all wasn't
seeing if y'all have strengthen I ain't want to believe me for y'all fight.
You know, demons, the little temptation be part of your weakness and make
different choices of the issue being. And that's the fact. Like again,
to put it into that, how come these chigains all took up on the
internet never been into that at Ben a threat them shots five with the missiles.
That man, you're greeting mission like they get man pack it back,
So y'all a history. May I can lose I need of victory, man,
I can risk another injury with pain and stuff for in their misery.
You're feeling me if it's my money, y'all and disagree if you ain't about
that. Actually, all that talkings for their birds and sugar physically the nerg
that's rushing into me