Jenny, I was thinking yeah, on the way in, I don't know
why. I was like, if Jenny and I had a shirt, what
would it say? And I was like, would it just say butt stuff?
Oh? I do like that because we talk about butt stuff so much,
between hemorrhoids, potty bidet, toots, guts, paints. Yeah,
I was gonna make gut issues eating eating something and it affecting you. But
butt stuff implies something else. But maybe that's funny. But then would anyone
wear a shirt this is butt stuff? Don't you remember? We didn't,
I know, make it, but we went to Valley Fair. Yes I
couldn't make it. Somebody and I was waiting in line and someone had a
shirt that said show me your buttthole on it, and I like, it's
so gross, it's so appropriate. And Valley Fair, by the way,
the one of the most inappropriate spots you could pick to wear a hat like
that. So I think but stuff might be a little like it could be
small BS and then people could be like, oh, it's just a BS,
but our true people know it stands for butt stuff. I do like
that. I do like that. It's not gonna happen, but I know
we're not getting merch. It's no chance. I was also gonna throw out,
even though we don't talk about this much on the podcast, but Fallen
has her classic line that she texts me every once. It's been a minute,
now, i's been a while, no a bit. Okay, Well
let's say that line first and then we'll talk about the thing that we do
send each other quite often now. So the first thing is is Fallen will
text me and be like you fucking or you sucking, and so usually I'm
obviously never doing either. There's a poll. There was a poll. Yeah,
just a poll. Yeah, casual mid middle of the day poll that
she'll text one day though, I think one of the last times you did
text me I'm actually doing one of the things. You took a while to
respond. She's like, I was just actually doing I was like, oh
wow, I was that never times out And then you sent me because there
was like during the middle of your show, so it's in the mididlea afternoon,
and then you sent me a beautiful video of Ted from from Motions singing
afternoon to Light. I forgot about that, but anyways, I need you
to start sending me those texts more often I missed that I am slacking.
Yeah. But then our other bit, which also was fell and started it
is she'd like grab your attention, so she'd do this door during the morning
show, and she'd grab your attention. You look over and she's flipping you
off. It's but now there's all these tiktoks and Instagram reels of people like
looking like they're about to do something cool and then all of a sudden they
put their hand up and they're flipping you off. So Pall and I send
each other. I don't know why. My favorite one still is the cowboy
boot one, you know, or it's like it comes over in cowboy boots
and you think it's legs, but it's like not, and then it's a
hand that comes out and flips you off, and I'm just so unexpected.
Why they're so funny? Yes, I love it good bit. So yeah,
we could get that, and we could get like a flipping someone off
emoji on a shirt too. I do like that got with something like the
worst people I know. Well, we'll sell farts too, and bidets,
little travel bidets or something. If we had our own booth at the State
Fair, we would sell traveling bidets. Yes, that would be clutch.
What if we had like just two bathroom stalls and to test them out,
we would be the hottest bathroom at the state Fair. I think we would
because we want that title. I mean no, probably not, because there
is always like a couple bathrooms that are just absolutely filthy, and so then
if they're like coming to ours and then just like completely demolishing it, then
we won't be the hottest bathroom in the No, it's true. I was
telling my friends about the grossest porta potti I've ever experienced in my life,
and it was in Washington State, in Forks, Yes, where Twilight Is
was filmed. We pull up because we're doing like Olympic National Park, and
my sister in law to be Laura goes, oh my god, years ago
when I was here, it was at a gas station porta potty outside.
She goes, that was the most disgusting porta potty I've ever been to.
And I was like, hilarious. I get out because I gotta go so
bad. I open the door, the shit is up to the seat.
I have never in my life seen a porta potty where the poop is up
to the Actually, I was like, oh, I come running out.
The woman from the gas station comes outside and she goes, there are bathrooms
inside. She must have seen me. And I go, oh, thank
god, and I come in. She goes, yeah, they haven't like
come to empty it from the weekend. I go, that's for the weekend,
like walking into it. Yes, And I was like God, And
I told Laura, I'm like, well, it's still the most disgusting porta
potty. Ever, how funny. And then so now it lives on is
the most disgusting porta potty I think in the United States. Gosh, I
mean mine probably was over one of the country festivals I've been to. Oh
god, yeah, it was always And let me tell you, those things
were emptied pretty consistently. I had. We would be partying all day in
the camp grounds whatever, and like the big old trucks would come through empty
in the port of potties and that's when we'd like all rush at right after
you like, oh right, freshies, freshies. That's amazing. So this
is we're gonna talk about on like our show. But I also it was
so funny because my mom, because she does literally nothing but scroll all day,
she actually does know what's going on trending wise a lot. So I
went to Nashville this weekend and we were all in the car and it's my
sister, my niece, myself, my mom, my sister's old neighbor Jen,
and her daughter Kenna. Because they're like best friends and they're amazing.
I like love them, and then my brother in law, So all women
and my brother in law and my mom was like, have you seen the
thing with the bear and the man? And I said Nope, can't say
that I have. And so she said, would you rather, as a
woman encounter, if you're alone in the woods, encounter a bear or a
man? And I sat there and I was like, this is a thing
going on. I was so confused for a minute. And everyone's like everyone
starts going bear, Bear, Bear, And then my brother in law was
like so annoyed because he's the only guy in the car, and he's like,
wait, seriously, you guys would all choose a bear over a guy?
And everyone was like yes, and he was like, you know,
kind of having the same this is. So it's a popular video on TikTok
where a girl asked it. Almost all women say the bear, and then
men are getting like so annoyed by it because they're like, that's so because
most men have the response of I'm a good guy. That's so shitty that
you would like rather run into a bear, And the women say it's because
we know exactly what we're getting with the bear, Like we know, yeah,
if it's a grizzly bear, we're probably gonna die. If the black
bear, maybe we can get away. But we know exactly what we're getting
with the bear. We have no idea what we're getting with the man.
Because the man could be like the brother in law, my brother in law,
who would be like, ah, yeah, here it's this way,
like let me help you out, super kind person, and that's what the
majority of men would be like. But we've seen too many things or had
too many personal experiences to know it is not one hundred percent going to go
like that. Yeah, it could be like the horrible stories you see where
you're chained up and trapped in someone's house forever. And so it's been a
really interesting debate. I was actually surprised my mom chose the bear as well,
because my mom is like, she's like gets pretty. She and I
disagree on a lot of things. That and so, but I was actually
surprised she said the bear and I was like, okay, And I've sort
of seen some of the debates. I don't think i've seen more of just
like memes or something on Instagram. Yeah that I haven't really seen any of
the TikTok like conversations about it. But yeah, I mean when I saw
the question, I was like, you're right. I think I would be
really creeped out running into if is the scenario just you'rre in the woods this
I believe that I have the video and I didn't. I like grabbed it,
but I haven't like completely watched it yet. And the idea is,
yeah, you're alone in the woods and you and you get to choose you
encounter them a man or a bear. Then I would say, yeah,
give me that bear. I mean, I go for walks and it's still
light out and I am like on high alert at all times of any random
person that's just like driving and slowing down by me and stuff. And it's
like, if I saw a bear, I know I'm dead. Like,
let's be honest, I'm probably dead. Yeah, I mean, don't get
me wrong, I don't want to encounter a bear. That's not like we're
asking for. Like if when we're in a national park, I'm like on
high alert too, Like what's that noise? Is there a bear around there?
What's it going to do? I don't have bear spray. I'd probably
spreare myself on accident. I would have to do bear spray with you to
the national parks you're going to. I didn't want. I was gonna say
I didn't Glacier I'm going to when we go to BAMF because that is like
Grizzly bear Central. I'm doing one of the gondolas where you actually they say
it's like a high grizzly spotting zone, but you'll be in a gondola.
Well, I'm not bringing the spray with me. I'm that sorry. I
should have. Oh okay. I was like, you can't fly with it,
as you know, right, So well you got fair. I got
in one way, but that's because that way I didn't check if I had
beariss brain. I know. My back was like you got barrass braid and
I was like, yeah, what's the big deal. Yeah. So they're
like you're going to buy it when you get there. I'm like, great,
how expensive is it gonna be when we get to Canada. I don't
know. Yeah, that's a good point. I'm sure it's fine. I'm
sure that much more expense. Why are you doing that trip again, June?
Okay, we're very early season for bamp so I'm really really I didn't
know that, you know, yeah, because you would kind of just assume
it's like summer weather like here. Yeah. I think I think the weather
wise it'll be like average and decent, but it's if there's still snow on
some of the trails. But I'm just hoping maybe they had like a winter
similar to hours, so it'll be like fine, I'm hoping. I don't
know, we'll see. I don't have that answer for you. I just
saw the fuck Jenny. Well, I know I was gonna say. I
know that the East Coast I got hit more with snow than it has because
it was a el Ninal. I have really good friends that do a show
in Canada. I believe in that area, so I should just text them
and ask. I remember them having videos of how cold it was at one
point because they were like it was where they were the ones making the videos
where you lift like the noodles like the ramen out and they freeze in the
air. And I was like, oh, but I don't know if it
was snow wise or it was just like so cold. So to ask them,
you were in Nashville for your niece's graduation, right, I can't believe
she's graduated college already. I know that's college. Yeah, college. It's
crazy. And it was so interesting because we like, first of all,
the ceremony, we were there for freaking ever. I mean we got there
at like one to save seats. It started at three thirty. I was
like, no one told me it started at three thirty. One cool thing.
The graduation speaker, he was an animator for Disney for ten years,
and so he was like, you may have seen some of my work,
and he was like, the snowballs and beauty and the Beast was mine,
he said. The Simba's mom bathing him was him. The Pocahontas's hair he
said, because that was a character in itself. That was him. And
then like some stuff with like Jafar and Iago or whatever. But I was
like, that is so cool. But he quit because he had no life.
He was only working and he had kids, and he was like,
I want to like, well, he's religious too. He's like, I
want to like do something with more purpose, and I also want to like
actually be around for my family. So he quit. But he for ten
years had like his like dream job, and he started when he was like
twenty three too, which is crazy, like right out of like school,
got that job and he built his way up. But also so not only
that guy, but I texted Jenny the graduation party. My niece's graduation party
was like her and five friends had like a combined party. One of the
gals from Survivor was there. Never watched the show in my life, but
I was like, oh, Jenny and Tina love Survivor. I gotta get
a picture with this woman. She was super nice. Yeah, Mama Julie,
Mama Julie, Mama Jay. She was one of the people we thought
was going to probably make it till the end because she played a really good
physical game, but also like social game is a huge part of it too.
Okay, so she was in good like circles and had good allies and
stuff. But the problem was she was so liked by everyone that in the
end it comes down to three people and then everyone the last ten people that
got voted out. Maybe it's twelve. They vote on who they think should
win the million dollars, so they knew she would get voted on. I
can't remember exactly what happened, but I think she got a little blindsided to
get her out because they knew everyone loved her and she would most likely win,
So I knew she would make it pretty far. I wasn't surprised she
didn't make it till the end, though, because the point of the game
is obviously to win the money, and if you're up against someone that everyone
loves, yep, you're not gonna win the money. So my brother in
law loves that. He wants to audition for the show. He's asking for
tips from our stuff, and I go, Brian, you would be the
villain. My brother in law is one of those like everyone loves him,
but he will do shady shit to advance himself. Yeah, like with no
remorse. And I'm like, you would be a villain. But I think
he'd be a villain that people like, kind of like and kind of make
people laugh, But he would be I would. I mean, I don't
watch it religiously. I watch it since Andrew and I started living Together.
I watch it pretty frequently, but I just don't think the villains ever.
They do. Don't get me wrong, they have one before because people appreciate
like the game aspect of it. Sometimes when the villain gets all the way
to the end. Yeah, but a lot of times it's more down to
like the social and stuff, but also like your pitch. Everyone gets kind
of like a pitch I think at the end to be like this is why
I should get the money, blah blah blah. And everyone also gets to
ask a million questions and so of course everyone hurt because they somehow got blindsided.
Most likely to be voted off. Gotcha, But yeah, it's I
was. I didn't. Truthfully, I'm happy Tina was in that text like
combo with us, because that first picture you sent it was like a side
angle of her and I was like, I don't know who the fuck that
is. I took a creepy picture. I took a creepy picture because at
first, and I was like, why am I doing that? She's like
it wasn't like she was at a celebrity signing, like she was there interacting
and she was like really proud of being on that show and being known from
that show, like which I would be too. Yeah, so she like
loved talking about it and interacting. I would absolutely be the same as hers
too. Well, did you have a good time in Nashville? Did you
do anything? It was mostly just like graduations anything in Nationale nothing like Nashville.
Uh huh. No. We stopped and we went to Jenny's ice Cream,
which that's everywhere now, and I didn't get any because I had just
eaten like all the desserts at the graduation party. And I was like,
what is wrong with you people? Why do you want ice cream? Like
well, one ish cream? I was like, all right, that's fair,
that's fair. I did not Well, I had like stuff going on
this weekend, but not anything super exciting. I'm just like, I'm really
leaning into and an older lady. Now. I noticed your boos look like
they're sagging a little bit. Well, those have been taking for a while,
but the goodness, my nipples haven't, so they still appear to be
perfier than what they are. When you take your top off, your nips
just sing forever. Yeah, exactly, that's a fautiful that's such a disturbing
image, you know what? That just why did this image just pop in
my head? Remember in easy A when she opens up the cart, I
just like think about that if I like flash my boobs right now, I
want to be love that for you, Jenny. Mine have never been like
that. I think at birth mine we're a little like downward facing. Not
really. I mean I think my nips are okay. I think my nips
are pretty central, but my boobs, yeah, they've lost a little gravity.
The best part about what this conversation just turned into was the fact that
I was about to go into the fact that I am a gardener now and
now we're talking about sage boobs and high and or normal size or not normal
size. But everyone's nipples are normal. Yeah, Jenny know what I'm saying.
What I say when making me feel it, my nips aren't normal.
Hey. Also, I did see you do your gardening. I'm very proud
of you. Thank you. I mean you should fucking know your mom literally
does landscaping. If you didn't know anything, i'd question you. But I
tell you, Andrew had zero trusted me, Like as if I didn't fucking
grow up with a mom who, like her entire life is landscaping. And
I used to work with her in summers. Now, granted, I was
more of your bulky like beastie girl who helped I carried the molt ended rock
and stuff. I didn't do so much of the actual planting of plans.
Your mom just yality and like hey, thicky, grab the mult God,
those were like some of my She's like, I got a molt job on
Wednesday, you're coming along? And I was like, y, But so
I do know how to garden. I just have never really gotten into it,
even though my mom loves to. Did she give you are those irises
you put in? Or are they daffodils or tulips? There's daffodils and iris
is I look at me. I'm a genius, Jenny, I know.
And of course, like those are only going to last for however long and
then but at least they're perennials, so they'll come back every year. It's
nice. Yeah. And then there's like a whole other section. I didn't
even show that, like circles around our sun room that I also did that
was mostly hostas. But this dog caper that we watch all the time,
I love him. That little shit started eating all the hostas and so they
weren't planned, and we're just like, yeah, positioning them. I'm like
FaceTime on my mom. She's telling me where to put things, how to
do it whatever. I thought you knew how to do it, and now
I'll do it. So you I didn't tell make the story. I ride
your blog and my mom sends me along. Okay, So I didn't see
where Cindy was on FaceTime during that video of you just doing it all on
your own number one, she got a shout out as the landscape designed by
caption, so she does get credit, yes, but we're on FaceTime and
my mom just like thought it was hilarious. And I was like shocked because
she used to get so angry when bunnies would eat plants in our yard.
And she's like, Joe Caper again, see what he does. And I
was like okay, and so like Caper's running around and the next thing I
know, he is like just fully grabs one of the plants, runs across
the yards. Oh my god, a monster egg Caper. So anyways,
he was my little buddy. He didn't eat any of the plans of the
video. I did, but it was fun and I did it well.
But Andrew thought it was going to take like four hours, and it took
me. It took me probably like two and a half because I was recording
videos and looking at whatever. But my mom so she gave me all of
the plants. She also gave me like mushroom composts and eggshells and all this
shit. So that's why I was like, Mom, I don't understand what
I'm doing. I thought I just dug a hole and put the damn planned
in, Like what. And she's like, well, you need to mix
those things together. Put it in the hole, mix it in the hole.
Then you need to dig it back out. And I was like,
why am I putting it in the hole and then digging it back out?
And then my sister's like, uh, my little sister lives at home.
She's like, you need to like fertilize it first, and she's chiming in
and I was like what. I was like, can you just watch what
I'm doing and tell me if I'm doing about Okay? Yeah, I so
I do not do any of that stuff, but I did, like by
just stuff this weekend too, because we keep trying to add arts. The
people who lived in our house before us did such a beautiful job, and
we Dolly has ruined everything as far as well not everything. The big tree
by our front door had hostas all around it. Dolly was laying on them.
That was her spot. So she killed most of those and like put
pee and stuff all those things. But like we also have like that weird
stuff where like there's you know where we have rock and different things like and
then there will be like that material that you use for landscaping under and then
it's hard to dig and it's so annoying. So we have to find like
good spots for it. But I found a free rosebush this weekend on Marketplace.
Jenny Oh. I was like, Jake, we're going to Chaska.
Get in the car and I was a grab of shovel and gloves. He's
like, what did we sign up for? And he I made him get
out because all of fell sleep in the car and go dig it up with
this woman in Chaska. You had to go dig it up. She didn't
show that. No, that's the road you you want it. It's free,
but you got to dig it out. But she helped him. He
was like out there, Jenny, this was like intense. It was like
he was digging up a tree. It was so much more than he thought
it was. They were both out there sweating. They're roll on both sides.
It was a huge roast bush. Should say A probably was big and
B the roots of that are probably pretty hard to get out. Yeah,
and you need obviously the right amount of roots for it to like be transported.
He got it. He got it. So we went got some plants
at a store anyway, because I'm trying to just get more perennials because I'm
too lazy for those annual bullshit. And we haven't planted the rose bush.
Yep, we have that and my winter seeds. So I've planted my first
little babies from the ground or into the ground. Are you proud of them?
Ja? I am proud. Did you show it to me somehow?
I put it on my Instagram stories, but now I deleted it. Yea,
I did see something. You deleted it or it's not there anymore.
I don't let I have a hard time letting things expire on my Instagram stories.
Now I'll be like, oh, I'm bored with that, and I'll
delete it. I don't know what's going on with me, Okay. It
also like You're one of the top people that normally show up at like the
beginning of stories when I go to Instagram because you're obsessed with me going it
is, and same for you and mind. My algorithm has been weird lately
that all of a sudden, I'll look and it'd be like twenty hours ago
a new story from Fallon and I hadn't seen it, And I was like,
what the fuck? Why did I not see this already? Aren't you
clicking on me anymore? Showing up my front one? So I was like,
what happened there? But anyways, yeah, gardening. It was super
fun and you also learned what gardening means recently. That doesn't mean guardening with
plans, I know. I didn't know that it was taking at a bowl
or smoking. I didn't know that, and I only saw I saw that
on TikTok like five months ago. A girl was doing like a story time.
She's like, you know, I was guardening the other day, blah
blah blah, she's going into it, and I go, she wasn't guardening,
Yeah, what what was she by that? And whatever? And then
I finally realized what it was. So now I've started to see it more
and more. Yep, but yeh smoking weed. Hey guys, right after
this, I'm gonna give you a little update on my anxiety. We've talked
about it in the past, but first I just want to chat real quick
about cacaw Bliss. Fallon and I have been talking about this stuff for a
couple of months now. Yep, it's so good. I know that Fallon
has been working it into some recipes at home, but for me personally,
I just stumbled upon this instagram where she does all these overnight oats and it's
just different kinds of flavors of stuff. But I worked in the cacaw blest
to one of them recently and it's probably my favorite one. But it's very
simple. You basically just make your oats overnight, you put in the cacaw
Bliss, they sit overnight, it's ready to go in the morning, and
it's just a delightful, healthy dessert. Uh huh. So I've been loving
that. Okay, that's kind of what almost like minds like a healthy dessert
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and stuff too. But it's literally one cup cottage cheese, two tablespoons of
the cacaw bless, and then two tablespoons of pure maple syrup and then you
put that like a blender or food processor, and then you pour it in
like one of those little dishes. And it's chocolate mouse and it's so good.
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So I haven't talked about this on the podcast yet, but I thought I
would bring it up because it has been a pretty consistent conversation with Fallon and
I over the last handful of months. But I've talked about obviously having some
anxiety issues as of recent and I had mentioned like I'm going to look into
maybe get a medicine and all that stuff, and I just wanted to give
a little bit of an up date that I am actually taking anti anxiety medication
now. And I already had a full breakdown on the morning show today,
So I'm not going to break down on the podcast, right nice okay about
it, But I am not going to lie and say it was like really
hard for me to schedule that appointment and start taking the medicine because I don't
know why I don't. I understand that brains can have chemical imbalances, and
medicine is to put you back in balance, and I totally like I get
that in everything, but for some reason, it felt like it was the
easy way out for me, or actually, I shouldn't say that. I
don't think it was an easy way out. I think I had such a
fear that it wouldn't work that I was scared to even try it. That
was like an which is just like anxiety at its prime, like immediately assuming
the worst, you know, And so I think it was a lot of
that, but like also a little bit of the stigma of taking medication,
because I mean, for the most part, I do a lot of things
to keep my mental health at a good place. So yeah, I just
started. I'm almost at like three weeks, and my psychiatrist did say it'll
probably take about three weeks to really like start kicking in. A lot of
people say six to eight weeks really And I can definitely tell that there's been
a difference because philon noses I was hitting some really low lows, like it
had gotten pretty bad, like I was isolating myself. I wasn't looking forward
to doing things I was anxious doing normal things that I would never be anxious
about doing because of a fear of feeling anxious. Like it's just this fucking
cycle that happens when you start to get into this mental state with anxiety.
So I just had gotten to such a bad point that I was like,
I have to try something new, yeah, because everything I have been doing
is not working anymore. And I'm still seeing a therapist because when I talked
about it on the show, people were like, make sure you still talk
to your therapist, that's important. I totally am still gonna see my therapist,
and that has been helpful as well. But like I said, it
just was to a point where I needed more help than what therapy was giving
me. And so I'm like getting back to what I feel is more of
my normal self. But I'm not going to lie and say that I'm normal.
It has been a major roller coaster in the last few weeks. Like
one week I felt awful, the next week I felt completely fine, and
then the next week I had like a few bad days a few good days,
and it's just kind of all over the place. Yeah, So I
just wanted to say thank you to I know from talking about it on this
podcast. A lot of people have reached out to me, have given me
their experience about medication and truthfully hearing that really it did help me. It
did help me hear from other people that they were kind of similar in their
ways. I'm like, I don't need medication, and it helped them.
So I think that it was really helpful, and I hope be talking about
it can maybe help you if you've been considering doing it, and even if
it doesn't work right away. I will say one thing that Falan said to
me last week, because I was having a really hard time. Now I'm
going to start crying. I was just having such a bad day because I
was like not doing good, doing good, then not doing good again,
and I was upset because it had been a couple of weeks of taking the
medicine, so I thought I would just be on the up and up.
And I was like, I'm stressed, like what if the medication doesn't work
whatever? And Fallan literally just was like, you can't think that way.
It's going to work, and if it doesn't work, they'll put you on
something else and they'll figure it out. And it's like sometimes someone just like
giving you that reassured. It really helps you when you're spiraling and thinking it
like just feeling that way. So yes, I just want to say for
anyone who maybe you're just trying medication for the first time, like give it
some time and if it really after a while is not working, then talk
to your doctor and try something else. I haven't gotten to that point yet.
I think that mine has been working. But yeah, so if you
want to hear more tears, you can definitely listen to the Morning Joe podcast
because they all came out this morning. But I know, I came in
and I was like, any will you do a video? And she was
like not today. I cried all day in the morning shadow, Oh god,
what happened. When he told me, I was like, oh okay,
I was like sorry. I was like, god, okay, well,
I'm glad you. I think it probably also will help just that you
got that off your chest. It did in general, it really did,
and like I never want I truly, I just I wish that people.
I know that the world is a hard place sometimes, but like I truly
never wish upon anyone to have anxiety, depression, any kind of mental health
issues. Like I really I feel your pain, and I haven't experienced all
kinds of different ones that other people have experienced, you know, but I
feel your pain of just wanting your brain to be happy and good and feel
normal. But I do really love that I have a platform to be able
to talk about it with the podcast here, but then also the morning show
because to just hear the interaction I've had just from our podcast talking about it,
but then on the show this morning, like if it helps even one
person talking about it, like it makes me feel better that I talked about
it because I was nervous to talk about it on the show. I mean
I immediately started feeling anxious, Yeah, just going into the conversation. And
then I would just also say that like if you have never experienced stuff yourself,
but you know someone else who's going through some mental health issues, just
like being there for them and asking how they are is like one of the
best things you can do. And sometimes they don't want to talk about it,
and sometimes they do. And then one thing I would say to not
do is don't tell someone to stop overthinking things, and don't tell them to
just get up and go for a walk, because when you're not in a
good mental space, You're not able to do things that you normally would do.
It's just it's just not how it works. And I've just I've had
both ends where I've had the very supportive friends like Fallin and Andrew and so
many other people, But then I've had other people I'm very close to who
have told me, like, your life is good, like what do you
like? What is what's making you so anxious? And it's like I wish
I knew. If I knew and I get to stop it, I would,
yeah, because yeah, So anyways, that was a little mental health
update, and I think also very appropriate with it being mental health Awareness months.
Absolutely well, I'm so happy that you did it, and I can't
I'll never know what you've gone through mentally as your friend, as someone who
loves you. It's been very hard to watch because you are just a strong,
independent person, and like that, I think that you start questioning that
about yourself, like like you, it makes you think that you're like weak
and like what's wrong with me? And I'm ruining everyone around me their lives
and why am I like this? And like all the things, And then
that just makes it even worse that you're thinking like that, and all your
friends and the ones that truly love you really want is just you to be
happy and to and to get back where you feel good. And so I
know how scared you were about the medication. And then it wasn't even just
like that. It was like such a fucking process to find someone in network
and that could do it. It was like, such, I'm like,
dude, this should be a lot easier. It's not even like you like
imagine now, and it makes you think about people who don't even have insurance,
like Jesus. So I was just so proud of you for continuing continuing
to because there were just like so many like stop signs along the way,
like halting you from just trying to do this thing that you were already stressed
out about. So I was really happy you found it and you were able
to go through with it and try something different. Yeah, I like will
say this as someone who is very frugal, I had gotten to such a
point where like I didn't care about if I was going to save money or
not. I just like needed to find someone. But Fallan knows that I
went through this process of just calling and trying to make sure someone was in
network and trying to make sure something was covered, and we got screwed before
because liked, not through that, but through something else where they said they
were in the network and then you got the bill and like nope, we
weren't, like what the hell? Yeah, So I just on top of
like feeling anxious, I didn't want, like, I also have a lot
of anxiety when it comes to money, so I didn't want to add that
pile that back on. So I was just trying for a while. But
I will say that, like, your mental health is worth so much more
than like saving some money. And if you're at a point where you just
feel really like so so low like and you need help, just get it
and you'll figure out the bill later. Because I had gotten to that point
where I did figure it out, but I was to the point where I
was like, I don't care anymore. I'm just scheduling this appointment and if
my insurance covers it, great, If it doesn't, it doesn't, but
I need like the help. So yeah, but I want to just I
know we get all like mushy gushy on here sometimes, but I want to
say just like thank you to Falin because she's always been such a friend.
No, you have well been some less friend of me through everything, and
it's like ditto. It's so nice to come in and like have someone to
talk to a but then someone who will listen, and even if you don't
maybe understand exactly what I'm going through, you give such reassuring advice, you
know, like especially when you're feeling like anxiety and depression and you're just like
you're not seeing like the good of the future, and Fallin just always like
helped me see a lot of things. And I I have to give Andrew
a big shout out to because that man has I mean I have cried in
my bed and he has once again I'm going to get sad. He is
like laid there with me and like been there for me. So yeah,
yeah, thank you. Well, we love you. I know Andrew loves
you so much. So just and you're also like just the best friend too,
so you always are there for me, and I know you're there for
Andrew too, So we're all we're all so lucky have each other. Yeah,
well, thank you for sharing that because I think that will help people,
and that is like the point of like what we do I mean,
we obviously like free concert tickets, yes, but it's nice to be like,
if we experienced something, kind of like normalize it or talk about it
and hopefully help people fill us alone. I think that's always our goal with
the things that we do, most of them. Some things are just annoying
and we acknowledge that and that's who we are. We can't change that.
So like when you said that, when I flash someone, it sounds like
this forever. Yeah, for sure, went back down. I think,
well, I think that's it. Thank you for listening. Have a great week.