Made a decision. Face sunny sum, I had a vision. What's sorry?
It was up. Everybody choked on my own spit. It's Monday morning,
it's a Jewish holiday, yep, and we have Sadie in our studio.
It was nice enough to step in because mister Marky Mark Wahlberg couldn't make
it back. You what, I'm a rebound. You are a rebound.
You're special. Though we wanted you, I think we've been wanting you for
a long time. I think I asked you first, and what did you
say? You were like, what would I talk about? I don't know?
So then I had Xander come in and then Er was like, I'll
talk about whatever. Xander was a great guest, so you didn't no,
no, no pressure, Sadie. How's it going today? You had to
wake up especially early for this, even earlier than school. Uh no,
about the same time. Yeah, a little bit, a little bit,
Sadie. Your hair is black now. When I think of you, and
I think when people think of you, they think green blue hair, don't
care hot pink. It was, yeah, and it's still they're still blue
in it, but you can't like see it because they've washed. Oh really,
so there's but it looks always there's always a color, really, and
you have a little nose piers nose ring, very cute. Take us.
Can you take us briefly through your hair colored journey. I'm not sure that's
gonna be a brief all right. First grade it was pink, pink and
green, red, blue, and then second grade it was blue again.
We did my whole head that year. I can't believe we remember you've been
asking me right yeah, and you weren't gonna do it, but then you
were like, we have the color. Well remind people, I originally took
you to Floyd's to get a streak and it was hella expensive. So then
I was like, oh no, I'm doing this myself. I remember I
showed you a picture like specifically of this girl with like three streaks and you
were like no, We're like, oh my god. I'm like, oh,
it's like too much for her. So I made like a little loophole
two streaks and little bunch of little strands of think. Yeah, we did.
We did a couple of like random strands nice and then we were sort
of like pot committed. As they say in poker. You already had the
streaks in your hair and they were wearing out, so I had to like
put more color in there. And then you got good at it. Oh
yeah, and I had a lot of interesting I remember there was that one
year right before school started, and it was like the day or something before
school and it wasn't you were not happy with what you had and your mom
had it like it was a whole wild goose chase. Oh my gosh,
tell them the story, Sadie. Okay, okay, okay. So basically
I wanted black and silver hair, but it was like silver drinks. So
we went to a hairdresser who said that she could do it for like one
eighty I think it was even last like one twenty. She was it was
very inexpensive, and we thought it was like a good offer. I didn't
really think about what like the expenses to it. So we're like, okay.
So first she cut my hair like to like a bob, and you're
like it's so long. I'm like, dude, that sounds like your mom.
I'm like, I have a bob. Were you upset about it like
it was that short? Yeah, it was pictures. I looked. I
looked back the other day and I'm like, oh my god, you didn't
like it. No, and she was trying to make your mom's trying to
make you feel better. But she genuinely did think that it was m okay.
But then she made this, so she did the color. I gotta
go on with the story. So she did the color. Three days later,
I look at it starts turning red. Oh now the silver starts turning
red red? Oh now, yeah, So she said that we could like
come back whenever something like happened when she's a little sketchy, because like,
why would we need to do that? But we did, So we went
in. We got it redone. It was not that much better. So
then, and school had already started, no, not quite yet, but
she was changing to better school. Oh, this was the problem we had.
Let we were leaving the middle school that where she was, the little
charter school, and we were moving to a big public school, like three
weeks into the school year. So she wanted to, like, you know,
she wanted her hair look quite far. And what grade? What grade
were you going into? Eight? Eighth grade eight? She was already in
eighth grade at this point. Changing schools, it's like a month. Yeah,
that's a tough year to be going to school with red hair when you
know it gets better. Okay, So with great intentions, thank you,
my mom steps in and tries to fix the problem. So we put some
black dye dark brown, dark dark brown, dark dark dark brown into my
hair, and it looked and we tried to bleep. We tried to take
the strands that were supposed to beat silver and put silver on them, did
we yeah, silver hair? Then that I think that didn't work. So
then I decided I was just going to cover your whole head, make it
just dark brown, right, No, no, no, no. What
you did was remember there was like a big streak of silver, and you're
like, I want to split this up. So you put the dark brown
over the silver, okay, and then that strand turned green. Oh it's
your whole your whole head turned green. Oh yes, oh no, oh
that's right. She comes in trying to be nice. So I dye her
hair and then you and then I tell you, what do I tell you?
Don't just rinse it? Oh oh yeah, don't put shampoo in it,
just wash it out with some water. Oh yeah, I remember you
telling telling the right, So that's yes. So then she comes to me,
and then I come to you and I'm like, Mom, it's green,
and you're like, I don't think so, because I came to you
on your desk when you still had the desk and you didn't renovated the garage
yet. It was like dark, and You're like, it doesn't look green
to me. And I'm like turn on the light and sparing on the light
and you're like, oh, yeah, it's a little green, like the
kind of green like swamp green. Swamp green. No, not a cute
green, like a like a green, like a not a neat like a
greenish tint that was not supposed to be there. Yeah, so we start
not mean. And this was like a Saturday night, right, so we
literally had Sunday to take care of this problem. And a lot of times,
like hair places are closed on Sundays, Sundays and Mondays. Yeah,
so my mom starts frantically looking for like hairdressers to do my hair and a
lot of them were like no, But then the hairdresser they just didn't want
to touch it with a ten football. Is that No, It's just I
just get like a new appointment for her, or places were closed or I
hadn't heard of the person any from anywhere. Yeah, okay, so the
hairdresser that is still my hairdresser now and I only trust her. This was
my friend Louisa, who has been doing my hair for years and years and
years. But for some reason, I think I thought she would be just
booked up, like but I texted her and texted other people and she was
like, yeah, bring her in, we get VIP proof. She goes,
bring her in, but I make no promises. I took a picture
and she was like, oh, girl, like, I don't know if
I could fix that. So we go in and she's like, oh,
what did you do? And so we go to wash it out. A
bunch of just green and brown starts filing out of my hair. She's like,
what is going on? And we're like yeah we so we're like we
weren't state it was like some water. I was like what We're like.
She's like, did you know watch it out with shampoo or anything. We're
like no, yeah, I was like, oh I thought you were color.
I don't know that. I'm not a professional hairdresser. She makes fun
of us for that to this day every single time, like we've gone like
five times since then. In. Every single time we're going in the sink
to rinse my hair, it's always at one comments and it's so funny to
me, gotta gotta wash it wash it was yeah, word to everybody,
got to wash that stuff out. Yeah, So can you tell us how
that transition was, Xander. When Xander was here, he told us about
just what a bad experience that school was. Oh the school, Oh,
you know, at the at the football game and I went to I ran
into my teacher and she started like trash talking the teachers because I don't go
there, Zippi Duda. Oh really, Oh, we've heard a lot about
mister Zippiti Duda. Oh. One of our Listenmyer's teachers messaged me and said
that she knows somebody who was a teacher at that school, and she told
them the story without even saying the actual name. But mister Zippi Dooda.
And the teacher who she was talking to knew exactly who we were talking about
and can't stand him either, and said, none of the none of the
other teachers like him, No, they don't. Literally they would talk about
him while we were still at the school because no one likes him. You
mean the other teachers would talk about him. Yes, wow, wow,
I wasn't lying. Remember when I told you that during the meeting for her
five oh four? Uh, he was like lying about Remember I told you,
Sadie when he was when we were when Dad and I were in the
meeting store. And then he lied and said that he didn't give very much
homework. And then I was like, well, you do give like thirty
problems a day and he was like no, I've never I've never given that
many. And then I didn't say his actual name and didn't talks him no,
no, like on the zoom oh, we're like showing the oh yeah,
yeah yeah. I was like, oh, well, let's well.
So was the counselor who was there. He's like, well, let's well,
let's let's everybody settle down. Let's take a look. Let's look at
one of the and I so we did a screenshot of like her homework where
it would be like how how many problems there weren't it would be like this
much out of thirty, this much out of twenty five, and this much
out of thirty and thirty this one day, you know, right, Because
I was trying to make it so that she didn't have to do all thirty
problems every day. I was trying to get it so that she could do
half right, you know, every other problem. And he was arguing with
me that she hardly has any homework, and I was arguing that she has
a lot of homework for her and the math is hard for her, right
right, Yeah, But he lied and got caught and your mother was vindicated.
Do you know this one story about when we were taking the map test
no map m ap okay with the zippity duda. Yeah. So basically it's
just a test where it's not for a grade, it's just for like the
school, the state. Oh right, So he so he told us to
like bring a book or bring paper to like draw, like after you're done
doing the math test. So I did. I was like quietly drawing on
like a piece of like scratch paper. Every single person was. But he
had something with me that you didn't like. So we the class was dead
silent. He like walks over, like slowly walks over like from his desk.
I was like in the back of the room because that's where he sat
me. Right, he walks, he slowly like walks towards me, puts
his hand on the table. He's like, what is this and like paper?
He's like, did I tell you you could use that paper? And
like, yes, you literally told me that. He's like I never said
that. I'm like, yes you did, and he grabs it like very
harshally. He's like this, he's like and he takes it and he like
takes it over to his desk and I'm like, dude, so he confiscated
it from you drawing a piece of right, that's bizarre. Didn't he also
didn't you guys earn some special day where you could go into like the game
room, and then didn't he get mad at one of the at the girl
who had her air pods in He was mad at this girl who had air
pods in his class when we were like weren't really doing anything. So we
have this day where there's a room at our school that has like some games,
it has like dards, it has like an Xbox, and you can
go in there like once a month. Oh right, yeah, remember you
telling me if they if all the kids, what are like well behaved?
Yea? So we all get to go there. This one kid is so
sad with mister Zapata is like hovering over her doesn't matter. Yeah, yeah,
go ahead, It's okay, it doesn't doesn't matter. We don't go
to that school anymore. Nobody knows the name of the school. Yeah,
go on. He's hovering over funny that you made. You made his name
zippity Dudac has stuck to the z. Yeah. I wasn't hiding it that
well. They did that last time. He's hovering over her, and she's
like, well, she's like a little bit crouched up, like she's like
sad. The whole time. He's like lecturing her on her air pods,
and then he's like, I'm gonna watch you and he's like walking away,
and she's just like sitting down and I'm like, are you confesting them?
And really? Oh even like are you okay? And she'd say yeah,
I'm like that is so sad. He wasn't very nice. Yeah, okay,
let's take a quick break and we'll be right back. Okay, before
we get to our hot Love is blind talk, I told I asked Sadie
ahead of time in the car. I don't want anyone to think that I'm
like blindsiding her, but I thought it would be helpful to other parents to
hear about a some of your struggles with like mood and also with learning.
You know, I thought it would be interesting to hear from a kid's point
of view. Yeah, I was thinking about that on the way in today,
thinking about you, and you'll remind me a lot of me when I
was a kid, and I wish I had help, Like, you know,
there was no ADHD was not a diagnosis back then. I was just
floating around just thinking like I was just not being able to keep up with
her everybody else. But yeah, I want to hear about how you're you
know, how it's like we hear your mom's side of things, but like
you're how it affects you. And like when do you think you first realized
Was it at middle school? Was it that year that you first realized that,
like you had real problems with like sadness. No, it was in
the sixth grade. Oh, in the sixth grade, what t tell me?
Oh uh, it was like it was like a specific day. It
was like I came home from school and I started crying and I didn't know
why. And dad came in and he's like, dude, what's wrong?
And I'm like, I don't know. So he like sits me down and
he's like, listen, I had this problem when I was your rage And
I'm like what And he starts talking about like depression and I'm like oh,
and like that makes sense. It clicked. But it wasn't like one time
that you were crying right that. I mean that's when I figured it out
though, Oh, just because you felt like you were you felt like that
a lot. Yeah, and Dad like that's when Dad like told me about
depression. And I'm like, that's me. Can you describe the feeling at
all of of depression. It's kind of it's different depending on like the situation
of the day. Sometimes it just feels like numb, Like I don't really
feel sad, but I also don't like feel excited or like happy. I
just kind of like am there going through the motions, going through the day,
just like neutral, and like I didn't really feel like excitement. Like
if you said like, hey, we're going to six Flags, I'd be
like cool. I'd be like all right, sounds good, and you'd be
like, are you excited. I'm like yeah, but I'm not quite sure
how to show that. Oh that's interesting. I did feel excited, but
you just didn't know how to show it or you didn't feel excited. It
was kind of like I felt like like I didn't like I feel like,
yeah, like I'm gonna do something like when you see kids bouncing up and
down, like yeah, I was excited, like yeah, yeah, it's
just kind of like, oh, like cool, Like I'm not like like
I wasn't really capable of like feeling or showing like very like exaggerated like emotion.
So I was kind of just like either mutual or like a little bit
happy about something. Like I'd have to like try really hard to show it.
So I'd be like trying to like smile and I'd be like, oh
cool, right, that makes sense. But I feel like it was got
way worse than that, though, because I don't think we would have medicated
you based on like just not being able to express happiness, right, Yeah.
I think it was like it started getting bad bad, probably during I
want to say, from what I can remember, because it's a little bit
blocked out of my memory sometimes I don't know, but the things that I
can have bad memories to me and your mom, so don't feel bad,
yeah, yeah, But to what I can personally remember, I think it
was around like the seventh and eighth grade, like late seventh grade to eighth
grade. I did not know what was going on. I thought it was
completely normal at first. I just like lay in my bed and like be
kind of like nonverbal, Like every day I'd get home from school and I
just wouldn't talk mmmm, And I thought that was like fine. I thought
it was normal. Like you'd be like, how's your day, and I'd
be like, uh huh, yeah, Well, you were also crying every
day eighth by eighth grade. The first week of eighth grade, I was
bawling. When I got into the car, I was rough. Well,
the thing that's tricky, I think it's important to note is that during your
seventh grade year was COVID, so it was actually you didn't when you were
home and not having to go to school, you were fine. It's kind
of tricky because you weren't having to socialize with people, which had been a
bit of your struggle. Yeah, you weren't super social. It was hard
for you to like I feel like make friends and feel connected at school.
And then when you were just home, you were like, oh cool and
just be in bed, and that was kind of normal, like everybody was
in bed right, yeah, school from their beds or from the couch.
But did you feel like a like a like a little bit of a pressure
was off of you so that you didn't have to go to school, go
to like socialize, not even just like to get up and going to school
five and like make a coffee while the teacher was like lecturing us right on
like home room, I'd be like making coffee, like just roll away on
my phone. I still managed to get really good grades though, didn't I
graduate with straight a's? Uh yeah, pretty close to it during COVID.
That's awesome. But then when you had to go when you change schools,
when we went back with Hybrid, it was you just you didn't really love
the school. And then when eighth grade started, I noticed that you were
like, I don't care about the school. I don't. You didn't your
struggle of going back and seeing your friends was like that was difficult. And
did you were you excited at all about going back at all? Or no?
Nope, no I did not care. And this was before do you
you don't mind talking? Do you mind talking about medication? Okay, so
this was before you were taking medication yeah, okay, so yeah, like
when school, school started, like in person all the time, I a
part of depression is constantly being like exhausted and worn out. So I didn't
really understand. So I'd on even like the more chill days of school,
like when nothing bad ever happened, I'd get in the car so exhausted that
I just like wouldn't want to talk. I just needed to like process.
I'd get in the car. You'd be like, how's your day, and
then I'm like yeah, and you were like what's wrong. I'm like,
nothing, just wiped out. I was just blank. I remember a day
that I was getting really concerned about you that I tried to ask you if
there's anything that you like, do you remember that or anything that makes you
happy, anything that you've done that multiple times? I remember one time in
the car of anything, and then one time in your room. That's that's
concern, parental concern. Yeah. I thought there was something going on with
you that you couldn't think of, like one thing that you like or enjoy
doing or that makes you happy. Right. Yeah. I remember one time
we were in your room and it was you and Dad. I felt pressured.
I was like I'm on like a game show and You're like, name
three things that make you happy, and I'm like, uh peopo. Yeah,
I'm like getting back from school, my dog, no homework, right,
I'm like, I don't know like stuff. So then we so then
we got you help. Yeah. So and were you seeing a therapist that
I was, yeah, okay, and it wasn't helping, like the talk
therapy wasn't. Are your feet on camera? I don't know, relax not
for free, mom, but it's my only feet account. You posted a
picture of your foot on Instagram. Go check it out, guys. It's
still up. But she's like looking okay, go ahead, But yes,
got a therapist, right, I got a therapist in the seventh grade summer
and that was great. Still have her? Oh good, that's nice being
good yea. And yeah, I remember one time my friend came over and
you forgot I had a therapy appointment. So we left her at the house
with Xander and I'm like, bye, I need to go do therapy right
now. And he left her with Xander and then Tally has done that before,
don't feel bad. And I came back and I'm like, all right,
let's do something right, So therapy helped a little. Yeah, but
the psychiatrist, Alicia, did that change the game for you a little bit?
Do you feel like yes? So the talk therapy was okay, but
just wasn't cutting it it. I felt like I needed medication, but because
I was like I remember, I was like, can I be medicated?
I remember I asked you as like, can I be medicated? Because you
had a friend who was who was taking medication for depression and you identified with
her and asked me about it. A lot of teenagers do it, but
at the time Dad was pretty dead set against it. I felt like I
just knew though. I'm like, it's not situational, like it's not just
like something that I can talk through. I feel like there's something actually wrong.
And I do remember that your therapist kind of agreed that maybe you should
try medication, and you're like, that's just wait. Well it's because Dad.
I was okay with it, but Dad was and I was right.
I was correct. I should be a therapist, you know, you're Yeah.
So we took to the psychiatrist and the psychiatrist talked to Dad. Yeah.
So I ended up going on lexapro first. It was two point five
milligrams are very very small those just to see if you were body because now
I'm on twenty. That was two point five. So what did how did
it make when you first? This is so interesting to me, So how
did like when you first started the two point five how did it did did
you feel like tired? Did you feel oh? Yeah, we're like,
were you feeling like I first do this? Yeah? Actually I don't think
first I think the two point five to the five milligram was the hardest.
But from two point five you do feel tiredness. That was my only side
effect. That was tiredness. Like there were supposed to be more side effects.
I don't remember what they are because I didn't have them. I just
remember the tiredness was so much. Yeah, like but like, how does
a kid go to school? Have to get up and go to school?
Like it really she was just a little tired. I don't know. Quickly,
I just remember not remember the one time where I got a pillow because
I couldn't get to my room and I slept on the living room floor like
a good second, Like did it make you that? Now? No,
I don't didn't make it him I ever done that? Did it make you
feel dizzy or anything. No, no, just just sleepy, like you
just want to go to sleep. There was a good week where I could
not get up from like two point five to five. It was for like
two weeks. I don't remember that, but okay, I remember going from
two point five to five and feeling no more side effects. And that's when
she was like, okay, let's go to ten. That was after the
two weeks. I think Dad still remembers this. I was wiped out most
of the day. That was when I was like, I got home from
school one day and I laid on the floor. Okay, but that passed
fairly quickly. Right, Yes, this is not an anti lexibro thing.
But after that, after like the first two weeks, when it starts kicking
in, I feel nothing like there for me personally, no side effects.
I didn't say that for everyone else, just like I don't have any.
And yeah, and after the two point five to ten, I didn't go
from ten to fifteen. I went straight to twenty and I fell in those
side effects. Wow. And do you feel like do you feel like it's
it's something is making a difference in your mood? Yes? Yeah, I
never I never miss it anymore, Like I don't think I've missed it in
months. But like if I ever missed it like one time, you would
know that it's working. Because when you miss it and it starts not working,
well, that's a call a withdrawal action. Yeah, I miss these,
that's a that's a withdrawal feeling though. Yeah. Yeah, but do
you notice it? But did you notice when? Did you notice like a
change in your mood or did you or did you just not? Just was
there a time where you were like, oh, I don't feel so sad
all the time anymore? Yeah, like did something click? It doesn't really
click it just like you start, you don't really notice it because like I'm
not. I don't because like when you're going through the day, I'm not
like I feel sad, I feel happy. Like it just kind of like
happens. And that's why I don't really remember when the like I started feeling
happy, because like it just kind of like gradually like sneaks up on you
and then you're like oh wait, and then like once you act, and
then like if you ever like check in, you're like, oh wait,
I don't feel that like that, like look at that I don't feel like
it's that. I noticed that you you're the way you relate to friends.
I noticed that the way you socialize, that like the amount of energy you
have for socializing is a lot more on medication. Yeah, so with my
one friend who you're gonna like recognize when I say this, But like when
I wasn't taking medication, we were away, this is gonna sound bad,
it's not. It's not. I was way more relaxed and like cool with
stuff, Like I didn't really have opinion because I was very neutral. I
got along with her way more because we were both kind of like on the
same level, right on the same plane, right. But then I started
taking my medication and we started kind of like I started noticing like differences between
us, Like I would actually want to go and like do stuff. I'd
be like, hey, do you want to go to the mall? Get
up and do stuff, and she'd just be like no ah, and oh
wait, like okay. So we started kind of like growing apart because I
started like wanting to be more social and do more things and she was just
still like at the neutral place, like right, And I started relating to
that lesson less. So I'm like, oh wait, this is probably like
why, Wow, that's interesting, and then you actually would bring up You
got to the point where you were able to like bring up, hey,
this is what I'm not getting out of this friendship. Yeah. Yeah.
Neither of us are confrontational people. So this one time I really had it,
Like I was so done and I needed to like confront her about like
our friendship because it was one sided, fully like it was me right.
I don't really talk to her that much anymore because I stopped reaching out as
much. So it didn't really change anything looking looking forward. But when I
did confront her, she was so she was like fiddling with like her candle
and like playing with the flame while I was like talking her. She was
like taking a second to like talk to her sister. She was like looking
around her room. I'm like, dude, what are you doing. She's
like sorry, I'm like not really good with confrontation. I'm like, you're
not the one being You're not confronting anything. I'm just talking to you,
and she's like all right, I have to go eat dinner. I'm like
all right. But then she made an effort for like a brief period after
that, for like a week. Yeah, and then she looky just like
forgot about it. I'm like, all right, well, this doesn't really
seem like kid's gonna work that well. Right, Should we talk about should
we take another Oh, let's take another break. Let's take a break.
I like talking about this. Oh yeah, we could talk about love is
playing on our regular Yeah, because you know, I you know, I
Natalia just started talk therapy back. She's just started it, and she's got
a lot of friends that that that have all different types of medication. Some
are for mood, some are for ADHD all that stuff, and you know,
she's interested in medication, and so I don't know yet. We're just
in a very beginning. So it's just interesting to me to talk to a
teenager, you know, and see like how it's like affected you positively,
and you know, and how that you've been you were open like a lot.
You know, some kids are not open to it, and then some
kids are like, yeah, bring it on, you know, as like
yeah, yeah, I was suggesting it right right, Well, because you
know your body, like you know, how what you know, when you
when you started feeling like a positive of act, you know, and it's
interesting that you have a friend that's she not on medication. I don't even
really remember the friend that you're talking about, what you're talking about. I'm
not the one that we were, just the one that also has probably has
depression. Okay, is she on any medd Do you know if she's or
if she's in therapy or anything. I don't think she's in therapy. I
do think she takes meds icy Okay, but that but she wasn't at that
time, right, Yeah, yeah, interesting, you know that's that's makes
makes sense. Yeah, And so when you started taking the medication, did
you feel like you had energy, like energy to actually like get up and
go to school, like I know school sucks and nobody wants to go to
school, but did you notice a different, like a shift in that like
he felt a little like okay, I can do like I'm okay. Yeah,
Like I used to like go to school straight out of my bed.
I wouldn't take off the clothes I was wearing right from when I was sleeping.
I would, but to be fair to you, that's the style.
No, Like I would like wear like my sleep t shirt it looked like
a rag if it had to, and I'd like put on like the easy
shoes. I would like brush my teeth for a second, so I'd forget
to brush my hair. Sometimes it was disgusting and I'd go to school right
because you just weren't in. You didn't didn't nothing, It wasn't you just
was feeling kind of like yeah, no, but like I actually like,
do make an effort to not look disgusting and kind of school? I think,
uh, like, do you notice a difference because now you go to
a different school that you like a lot more, But you will. I
will say that you're a kid who hated school every day from kindergarten through eighth
grade, all of eighth grade, and we kind of changed schools quite a
bit. And in some ways I don't want to say to appease you,
but to try to like maybe that's the problem. Like I remember in fifth
grade, we were going to move you to a different school away from all.
I would have had kids in three different schools just because you hated schools
so intensely, and it was I always felt like, well, it must
be the school. It wasn't the school. After five schools, we've kind
of realized it wasn't in school, right. Well, it's sometimes is kind
of the school. But yeah, like your elementary school, I think was
a good school, but it was just really hard for you. Yeah,
So when now that I think, what I'm wondering, and maybe what Lynette's
wondering too, and maybe Kaylin silently wondering, is when you started at this
newer school that you go to that you've been at the same school for ninth
and now tenth grade. Do you think it's that the schools a lot better
for you or do you think it's a combination of the school is better and
your mood is better because you seem to like enjoy some aspects of school.
Now, I think I think it's both. I love small schools. I
think it was so so hard going to a big school that moved fast.
They didn't care about you, like you were a number. Right, Big
schools move very quickly, and I was a naturally exhausted person. And so
going to a small school is a lot better because it's a lot more managed
bowl. Like the struggles that a big school has is not a problem at
like a small school. Like what the teachers, they really know you,
Like my teacher, he he's so nice, Like I don't even I'm not
even taught by him this year. I was stopped by him last year.
But I will just go and chill out with him at lunch and he gets
me food, Like he looked at my grades and he was like, nice,
do you want a bar? And I love that He's like and I
was walking into class one time and he stops me. He's like, Sadie,
I got some Japanese gummies? Do you want? Yes, he's talking
about of course. And then my teacher, who's he's not here this year,
but he was here last year. I struggled in math, but he
would stay overtime for me, like past tutoring hours too, Like he would
go over overtime because I needed help with math and he would really he really
helped, And that's awesome. This is the teacher I love. That's the
teacher that I wrote an email too that at first Sadie was so upset because
remember m Yeah, he's still he still like talks to me too, Like
we had this like inside joke. It's like weird. It's like about boxes
on the whiteboard. It's a really weird joke. But he on Instagram,
he sent me a picture of like when I drew, like a bunch of
like three D boxes on his board, and he's like, I'm so happy
to me and my friends. You're like a hundred mini boxes on his lightboard
when he wasn't in class, A little joke on him. That's the best.
This is the teacher that told her you're spacing out, you're not listening,
remember, right, I remember I sent that email. He was like,
oh, it's like all right, I got it. And then he
was so nice to you after that, so nice after that, like he
pade like extra attention. I love that. That's awesome. He was gassed
up about you being obsessed with him too. Oh he was, well,
because you know me, if I don't like something, I'll let you know
it. But if I do like something, you'll never hear the end of
that either. So when he wrote me that email back, I was not
listen. I was not going to go carrying out on like the beginning of
a brand new school. It's really nice about it, but I was just
like, hey, here's what my daughter's saying that Like you said to her,
Sidney call you like an airhead. Oh yeah right, oh yeah,
and that's right. And I was like, listen, you know, I
get it like she could probably seem like she's spacing out, but she's not.
She just shuts down when she doesn't understand stuff. It's too hard for
her, says early in the year. She can seem like she's not listening,
but she is. She she just can't take it in anymore. And
here's why she has a five four, And here's like a little bit about
her history. And then he wrote me back the most beautiful email where he
was like, oh my gosh, I'm devastated that I hope I didn't burn
a bridge with your family. I never said anything crazy like. I wasn't
like I'm so mad at you. I was just like, yeah, I
just want to give you some insight. And he was like, I'm so
sorry if I made her feel that way, And I'm so glad you gave
me this information. And we don't have we as teachers don't know why kids
have a five of four. We just know they have one and right in
the front of the room or whatever. It's easy for us to think they
have that instruction because they don't listen right or whatever. So when once he
knew that, he was like, I'm going to talk to CD and I
really want to help. How can I help your family? So yeah,
so I wrote him back and I was like, I'm in tears right now,
like this is the most beautiful email. And then now yeah, now
he thinks it's so cute. Now he's like, who's picking you up from
school today? My dad? He's like, oh, it's like, okay,
that's so cute. And his little girlfriend is the other math teacher at
the school. Oh, how cute. They're the cutest couple ever. Wow,
they're so adorable. But hel and she is still here and I have
her this year. Oh nice, I got I got both of them.
I got the couple right. And she said selfies of Mirror and Xander to
flex on mister Tran. It's like cute, it's not funny. She's like,
get the picture. I'm like, for what she's like from mister Trann,
that's adorable. And yeah, and she's just as good as he is.
Is she just as good as the teacher is. Yeah, yeah it's
good and no, yeah, oh I just faced out for saying but anyways,
I don't remember. Okay, I'm kind of say, but you like
going to a small school, yeah, and you love all your teachers.
This year, right, yeah, except for the except for one, but
that's a long term sub. My teacher is back this week. Oh yeah,
yeah, all your teachers. Is that the best? When you like
all your teachers, there's nothing better? Right, Yeah, it's really good.
Yeah, that's great. I'm happy. I'm happy for you, and
I have the sub for a foreign language, which is so bad. What
foreign language? Is it? Spanish? Spanish? Yeah, I was a
Spanish sub, so it was not I was not doing well in that class.
My grades were Dude, it's tough, but I vanished. It's a
tough it's tough language. Are so glad you came in today. See,
it was so fun talking to you, and it's really interesting. Yeah,
especially having a teenager you know, and teenage girl that like, you know,
we'll we'll, I'll keep you posted on how she does. But thank
you so much for being so open. Of course. Yeah, I love
you. Say dybody, thank you, Klin. You're a parent. Now,
don't fuck it up thing still day, letting go