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Made a decision. Face sunny sum, I had a vision. What's sorry?

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It was up. Everybody choked on
my own spit. It's Monday morning,

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it's a Jewish holiday, yep,
and we have Sadie in our studio.

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It was nice enough to step in
because mister Marky Mark Wahlberg couldn't make

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it back. You what, I'm
a rebound. You are a rebound.

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You're special. Though we wanted you, I think we've been wanting you for

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a long time. I think I
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say? You were like, what
would I talk about? I don't know?

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So then I had Xander come in
and then Er was like, I'll

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talk about whatever. Xander was a
great guest, so you didn't no,

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no, no pressure, Sadie.
How's it going today? You had to

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wake up especially early for this,
even earlier than school. Uh no,

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about the same time. Yeah,
a little bit, a little bit,

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Sadie. Your hair is black now. When I think of you, and

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I think when people think of you, they think green blue hair, don't

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care hot pink. It was,
yeah, and it's still they're still blue

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in it, but you can't like
see it because they've washed. Oh really,

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so there's but it looks always there's
always a color, really, and

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you have a little nose piers nose
ring, very cute. Take us.

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Can you take us briefly through your
hair colored journey. I'm not sure that's

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gonna be a brief all right.
First grade it was pink, pink and

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green, red, blue, and
then second grade it was blue again.

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We did my whole head that year. I can't believe we remember you've been

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asking me right yeah, and you
weren't gonna do it, but then you

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were like, we have the color. Well remind people, I originally took

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you to Floyd's to get a streak
and it was hella expensive. So then

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I was like, oh no,
I'm doing this myself. I remember I

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showed you a picture like specifically of
this girl with like three streaks and you

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were like no, We're like,
oh my god. I'm like, oh,

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it's like too much for her.
So I made like a little loophole

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two streaks and little bunch of little
strands of think. Yeah, we did.

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We did a couple of like random
strands nice and then we were sort

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of like pot committed. As they
say in poker. You already had the

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streaks in your hair and they were
wearing out, so I had to like

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put more color in there. And
then you got good at it. Oh

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yeah, and I had a lot
of interesting I remember there was that one

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year right before school started, and
it was like the day or something before

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school and it wasn't you were not
happy with what you had and your mom

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had it like it was a whole
wild goose chase. Oh my gosh,

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tell them the story, Sadie.
Okay, okay, okay. So basically

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I wanted black and silver hair,
but it was like silver drinks. So

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we went to a hairdresser who said
that she could do it for like one

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eighty I think it was even last
like one twenty. She was it was

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very inexpensive, and we thought it
was like a good offer. I didn't

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really think about what like the expenses
to it. So we're like, okay.

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So first she cut my hair like
to like a bob, and you're

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like it's so long. I'm like, dude, that sounds like your mom.

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I'm like, I have a bob. Were you upset about it like

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it was that short? Yeah,
it was pictures. I looked. I

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looked back the other day and I'm
like, oh my god, you didn't

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like it. No, and she
was trying to make your mom's trying to

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make you feel better. But she
genuinely did think that it was m okay.

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But then she made this, so
she did the color. I gotta

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go on with the story. So
she did the color. Three days later,

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I look at it starts turning red. Oh now the silver starts turning

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red red? Oh now, yeah, So she said that we could like

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come back whenever something like happened when
she's a little sketchy, because like,

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why would we need to do that? But we did, So we went

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in. We got it redone.
It was not that much better. So

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then, and school had already started, no, not quite yet, but

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she was changing to better school.
Oh, this was the problem we had.

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Let we were leaving the middle school
that where she was, the little

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charter school, and we were moving
to a big public school, like three

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weeks into the school year. So
she wanted to, like, you know,

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she wanted her hair look quite far. And what grade? What grade

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were you going into? Eight?
Eighth grade eight? She was already in

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eighth grade at this point. Changing
schools, it's like a month. Yeah,

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that's a tough year to be going
to school with red hair when you

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know it gets better. Okay,
So with great intentions, thank you,

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my mom steps in and tries to
fix the problem. So we put some

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black dye dark brown, dark dark
brown, dark dark dark brown into my

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hair, and it looked and we
tried to bleep. We tried to take

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the strands that were supposed to beat
silver and put silver on them, did

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we yeah, silver hair? Then
that I think that didn't work. So

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then I decided I was just going
to cover your whole head, make it

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just dark brown, right, No, no, no, no. What

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you did was remember there was like
a big streak of silver, and you're

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like, I want to split this
up. So you put the dark brown

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over the silver, okay, and
then that strand turned green. Oh it's

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your whole your whole head turned green. Oh yes, oh no, oh

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that's right. She comes in trying
to be nice. So I dye her

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hair and then you and then I
tell you, what do I tell you?

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Don't just rinse it? Oh oh
yeah, don't put shampoo in it,

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just wash it out with some water. Oh yeah, I remember you

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telling telling the right, So that's
yes. So then she comes to me,

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and then I come to you and
I'm like, Mom, it's green,

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and you're like, I don't think
so, because I came to you

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on your desk when you still had
the desk and you didn't renovated the garage

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yet. It was like dark,
and You're like, it doesn't look green

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to me. And I'm like turn
on the light and sparing on the light

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and you're like, oh, yeah, it's a little green, like the

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kind of green like swamp green.
Swamp green. No, not a cute

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green, like a like a green, like a not a neat like a

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greenish tint that was not supposed to
be there. Yeah, so we start

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not mean. And this was like
a Saturday night, right, so we

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literally had Sunday to take care of
this problem. And a lot of times,

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like hair places are closed on Sundays, Sundays and Mondays. Yeah,

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so my mom starts frantically looking for
like hairdressers to do my hair and a

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lot of them were like no,
But then the hairdresser they just didn't want

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to touch it with a ten football. Is that No, It's just I

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just get like a new appointment for
her, or places were closed or I

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hadn't heard of the person any from
anywhere. Yeah, okay, so the

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hairdresser that is still my hairdresser now
and I only trust her. This was

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my friend Louisa, who has been
doing my hair for years and years and

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years. But for some reason,
I think I thought she would be just

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booked up, like but I texted
her and texted other people and she was

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like, yeah, bring her in, we get VIP proof. She goes,

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bring her in, but I make
no promises. I took a picture

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and she was like, oh,
girl, like, I don't know if

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I could fix that. So we
go in and she's like, oh,

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what did you do? And so
we go to wash it out. A

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bunch of just green and brown starts
filing out of my hair. She's like,

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what is going on? And we're
like yeah we so we're like we

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weren't state it was like some water. I was like what We're like.

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She's like, did you know watch
it out with shampoo or anything. We're

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like no, yeah, I was
like, oh I thought you were color.

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I don't know that. I'm not
a professional hairdresser. She makes fun

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of us for that to this day
every single time, like we've gone like

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five times since then. In.
Every single time we're going in the sink

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to rinse my hair, it's always
at one comments and it's so funny to

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me, gotta gotta wash it wash
it was yeah, word to everybody,

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got to wash that stuff out.
Yeah, So can you tell us how

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that transition was, Xander. When
Xander was here, he told us about

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just what a bad experience that school
was. Oh the school, Oh,

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you know, at the at the
football game and I went to I ran

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into my teacher and she started like
trash talking the teachers because I don't go

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there, Zippi Duda. Oh really, Oh, we've heard a lot about

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mister Zippiti Duda. Oh. One
of our Listenmyer's teachers messaged me and said

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that she knows somebody who was a
teacher at that school, and she told

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them the story without even saying the
actual name. But mister Zippi Dooda.

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And the teacher who she was talking
to knew exactly who we were talking about

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and can't stand him either, and
said, none of the none of the

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other teachers like him, No,
they don't. Literally they would talk about

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him while we were still at the
school because no one likes him. You

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mean the other teachers would talk about
him. Yes, wow, wow,

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I wasn't lying. Remember when I
told you that during the meeting for her

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five oh four? Uh, he
was like lying about Remember I told you,

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Sadie when he was when we were
when Dad and I were in the

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meeting store. And then he lied
and said that he didn't give very much

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homework. And then I was like, well, you do give like thirty

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problems a day and he was like
no, I've never I've never given that

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many. And then I didn't say
his actual name and didn't talks him no,

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no, like on the zoom oh, we're like showing the oh yeah,

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yeah yeah. I was like,
oh, well, let's well.

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So was the counselor who was there. He's like, well, let's well,

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let's let's everybody settle down. Let's
take a look. Let's look at

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one of the and I so we
did a screenshot of like her homework where

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it would be like how how many
problems there weren't it would be like this

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much out of thirty, this much
out of twenty five, and this much

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out of thirty and thirty this one
day, you know, right, Because

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I was trying to make it so
that she didn't have to do all thirty

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problems every day. I was trying
to get it so that she could do

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half right, you know, every
other problem. And he was arguing with

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me that she hardly has any homework, and I was arguing that she has

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a lot of homework for her and
the math is hard for her, right

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right, Yeah, But he lied
and got caught and your mother was vindicated.

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Do you know this one story about
when we were taking the map test

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no map m ap okay with the
zippity duda. Yeah. So basically it's

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just a test where it's not for
a grade, it's just for like the

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school, the state. Oh right, So he so he told us to

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like bring a book or bring paper
to like draw, like after you're done

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doing the math test. So I
did. I was like quietly drawing on

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like a piece of like scratch paper. Every single person was. But he

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had something with me that you didn't
like. So we the class was dead

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silent. He like walks over,
like slowly walks over like from his desk.

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I was like in the back of
the room because that's where he sat

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me. Right, he walks,
he slowly like walks towards me, puts

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his hand on the table. He's
like, what is this and like paper?

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He's like, did I tell you
you could use that paper? And

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like, yes, you literally told
me that. He's like I never said

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that. I'm like, yes you
did, and he grabs it like very

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harshally. He's like this, he's
like and he takes it and he like

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takes it over to his desk and
I'm like, dude, so he confiscated

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it from you drawing a piece of
right, that's bizarre. Didn't he also

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didn't you guys earn some special day
where you could go into like the game

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room, and then didn't he get
mad at one of the at the girl

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who had her air pods in He
was mad at this girl who had air

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pods in his class when we were
like weren't really doing anything. So we

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have this day where there's a room
at our school that has like some games,

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it has like dards, it has
like an Xbox, and you can

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go in there like once a month. Oh right, yeah, remember you

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telling me if they if all the
kids, what are like well behaved?

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Yea? So we all get to
go there. This one kid is so

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sad with mister Zapata is like hovering
over her doesn't matter. Yeah, yeah,

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go ahead, It's okay, it
doesn't doesn't matter. We don't go

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to that school anymore. Nobody knows
the name of the school. Yeah,

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go on. He's hovering over funny
that you made. You made his name

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zippity Dudac has stuck to the z. Yeah. I wasn't hiding it that

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well. They did that last time. He's hovering over her, and she's

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like, well, she's like a
little bit crouched up, like she's like

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sad. The whole time. He's
like lecturing her on her air pods,

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and then he's like, I'm gonna
watch you and he's like walking away,

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and she's just like sitting down and
I'm like, are you confesting them?

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And really? Oh even like are
you okay? And she'd say yeah,

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I'm like that is so sad.
He wasn't very nice. Yeah, okay,

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let's take a quick break and we'll
be right back. Okay, before

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we get to our hot Love is
blind talk, I told I asked Sadie

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ahead of time in the car.
I don't want anyone to think that I'm

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like blindsiding her, but I thought
it would be helpful to other parents to

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hear about a some of your struggles
with like mood and also with learning.

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You know, I thought it would
be interesting to hear from a kid's point

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of view. Yeah, I was
thinking about that on the way in today,

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thinking about you, and you'll remind
me a lot of me when I

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was a kid, and I wish
I had help, Like, you know,

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there was no ADHD was not a
diagnosis back then. I was just

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floating around just thinking like I was
just not being able to keep up with

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her everybody else. But yeah,
I want to hear about how you're you

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know, how it's like we hear
your mom's side of things, but like

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you're how it affects you. And
like when do you think you first realized

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Was it at middle school? Was
it that year that you first realized that,

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like you had real problems with like
sadness. No, it was in

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the sixth grade. Oh, in
the sixth grade, what t tell me?

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Oh uh, it was like it
was like a specific day. It

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was like I came home from school
and I started crying and I didn't know

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why. And dad came in and
he's like, dude, what's wrong?

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And I'm like, I don't know. So he like sits me down and

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he's like, listen, I had
this problem when I was your rage And

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I'm like what And he starts talking
about like depression and I'm like oh,

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and like that makes sense. It
clicked. But it wasn't like one time

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that you were crying right that.
I mean that's when I figured it out

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though, Oh, just because you
felt like you were you felt like that

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a lot. Yeah, and Dad
like that's when Dad like told me about

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depression. And I'm like, that's
me. Can you describe the feeling at

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all of of depression. It's kind
of it's different depending on like the situation

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of the day. Sometimes it just
feels like numb, Like I don't really

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feel sad, but I also don't
like feel excited or like happy. I

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just kind of like am there going
through the motions, going through the day,

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just like neutral, and like I
didn't really feel like excitement. Like

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if you said like, hey,
we're going to six Flags, I'd be

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like cool. I'd be like all
right, sounds good, and you'd be

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like, are you excited. I'm
like yeah, but I'm not quite sure

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how to show that. Oh that's
interesting. I did feel excited, but

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you just didn't know how to show
it or you didn't feel excited. It

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was kind of like I felt like
like I didn't like I feel like,

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yeah, like I'm gonna do something
like when you see kids bouncing up and

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down, like yeah, I was
excited, like yeah, yeah, it's

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just kind of like, oh,
like cool, Like I'm not like like

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I wasn't really capable of like feeling
or showing like very like exaggerated like emotion.

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So I was kind of just like
either mutual or like a little bit

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happy about something. Like I'd have
to like try really hard to show it.

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So I'd be like trying to like
smile and I'd be like, oh

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cool, right, that makes sense. But I feel like it was got

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way worse than that, though,
because I don't think we would have medicated

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you based on like just not being
able to express happiness, right, Yeah.

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I think it was like it started
getting bad bad, probably during I

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want to say, from what I
can remember, because it's a little bit

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blocked out of my memory sometimes I
don't know, but the things that I

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can have bad memories to me and
your mom, so don't feel bad,

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yeah, yeah, But to what
I can personally remember, I think it

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was around like the seventh and eighth
grade, like late seventh grade to eighth

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grade. I did not know what
was going on. I thought it was

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completely normal at first. I just
like lay in my bed and like be

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kind of like nonverbal, Like every
day I'd get home from school and I

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just wouldn't talk mmmm, And I
thought that was like fine. I thought

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it was normal. Like you'd be
like, how's your day, and I'd

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be like, uh huh, yeah, Well, you were also crying every

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day eighth by eighth grade. The
first week of eighth grade, I was

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bawling. When I got into the
car, I was rough. Well,

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the thing that's tricky, I think
it's important to note is that during your

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seventh grade year was COVID, so
it was actually you didn't when you were

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home and not having to go to
school, you were fine. It's kind

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of tricky because you weren't having to
socialize with people, which had been a

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bit of your struggle. Yeah,
you weren't super social. It was hard

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for you to like I feel like
make friends and feel connected at school.

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And then when you were just home, you were like, oh cool and

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just be in bed, and that
was kind of normal, like everybody was

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in bed right, yeah, school
from their beds or from the couch.

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But did you feel like a like
a like a little bit of a pressure

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was off of you so that you
didn't have to go to school, go

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to like socialize, not even just
like to get up and going to school

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five and like make a coffee while
the teacher was like lecturing us right on

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like home room, I'd be like
making coffee, like just roll away on

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my phone. I still managed to
get really good grades though, didn't I

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graduate with straight a's? Uh yeah, pretty close to it during COVID.

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That's awesome. But then when you
had to go when you change schools,

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when we went back with Hybrid,
it was you just you didn't really love

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the school. And then when eighth
grade started, I noticed that you were

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like, I don't care about the
school. I don't. You didn't your

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struggle of going back and seeing your
friends was like that was difficult. And

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did you were you excited at all
about going back at all? Or no?

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Nope, no I did not care. And this was before do you

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you don't mind talking? Do you
mind talking about medication? Okay, so

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this was before you were taking medication
yeah, okay, so yeah, like

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when school, school started, like
in person all the time, I a

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part of depression is constantly being like
exhausted and worn out. So I didn't

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really understand. So I'd on even
like the more chill days of school,

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like when nothing bad ever happened,
I'd get in the car so exhausted that

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I just like wouldn't want to talk. I just needed to like process.

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I'd get in the car. You'd
be like, how's your day, and

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then I'm like yeah, and you
were like what's wrong. I'm like,

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nothing, just wiped out. I
was just blank. I remember a day

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that I was getting really concerned about
you that I tried to ask you if

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there's anything that you like, do
you remember that or anything that makes you

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happy, anything that you've done that
multiple times? I remember one time in

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the car of anything, and then
one time in your room. That's that's

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concern, parental concern. Yeah.
I thought there was something going on with

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you that you couldn't think of,
like one thing that you like or enjoy

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doing or that makes you happy.
Right. Yeah. I remember one time

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we were in your room and it
was you and Dad. I felt pressured.

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I was like I'm on like a
game show and You're like, name

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three things that make you happy,
and I'm like, uh peopo. Yeah,

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I'm like getting back from school,
my dog, no homework, right,

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I'm like, I don't know like
stuff. So then we so then

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we got you help. Yeah.
So and were you seeing a therapist that

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I was, yeah, okay,
and it wasn't helping, like the talk

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therapy wasn't. Are your feet on
camera? I don't know, relax not

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for free, mom, but it's
my only feet account. You posted a

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picture of your foot on Instagram.
Go check it out, guys. It's

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still up. But she's like looking
okay, go ahead, But yes,

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got a therapist, right, I
got a therapist in the seventh grade summer

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and that was great. Still have
her? Oh good, that's nice being

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good yea. And yeah, I
remember one time my friend came over and

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you forgot I had a therapy appointment. So we left her at the house

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with Xander and I'm like, bye, I need to go do therapy right

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now. And he left her with
Xander and then Tally has done that before,

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don't feel bad. And I came
back and I'm like, all right,

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let's do something right, So therapy
helped a little. Yeah, but

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the psychiatrist, Alicia, did that
change the game for you a little bit?

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Do you feel like yes? So
the talk therapy was okay, but

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just wasn't cutting it it. I
felt like I needed medication, but because

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I was like I remember, I
was like, can I be medicated?

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I remember I asked you as like, can I be medicated? Because you

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had a friend who was who was
taking medication for depression and you identified with

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her and asked me about it.
A lot of teenagers do it, but

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at the time Dad was pretty dead
set against it. I felt like I

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just knew though. I'm like,
it's not situational, like it's not just

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like something that I can talk through. I feel like there's something actually wrong.

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And I do remember that your therapist
kind of agreed that maybe you should

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try medication, and you're like,
that's just wait. Well it's because Dad.

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I was okay with it, but
Dad was and I was right.

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I was correct. I should be
a therapist, you know, you're Yeah.

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So we took to the psychiatrist and
the psychiatrist talked to Dad. Yeah.

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So I ended up going on lexapro
first. It was two point five

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milligrams are very very small those just
to see if you were body because now

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I'm on twenty. That was two
point five. So what did how did

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it make when you first? This
is so interesting to me, So how

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did like when you first started the
two point five how did it did did

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you feel like tired? Did you
feel oh? Yeah, we're like,

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were you feeling like I first do
this? Yeah? Actually I don't think

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first I think the two point five
to the five milligram was the hardest.

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But from two point five you do
feel tiredness. That was my only side

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effect. That was tiredness. Like
there were supposed to be more side effects.

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I don't remember what they are because
I didn't have them. I just

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remember the tiredness was so much.
Yeah, like but like, how does

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a kid go to school? Have
to get up and go to school?

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Like it really she was just a
little tired. I don't know. Quickly,

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I just remember not remember the one
time where I got a pillow because

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I couldn't get to my room and
I slept on the living room floor like

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a good second, Like did it
make you that? Now? No,

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I don't didn't make it him I
ever done that? Did it make you

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feel dizzy or anything. No,
no, just just sleepy, like you

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just want to go to sleep.
There was a good week where I could

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not get up from like two point
five to five. It was for like

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two weeks. I don't remember that, but okay, I remember going from

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two point five to five and feeling
no more side effects. And that's when

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she was like, okay, let's
go to ten. That was after the

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two weeks. I think Dad still
remembers this. I was wiped out most

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of the day. That was when
I was like, I got home from

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school one day and I laid on
the floor. Okay, but that passed

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fairly quickly. Right, Yes,
this is not an anti lexibro thing.

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But after that, after like the
first two weeks, when it starts kicking

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in, I feel nothing like there
for me personally, no side effects.

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I didn't say that for everyone else, just like I don't have any.

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And yeah, and after the two
point five to ten, I didn't go

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from ten to fifteen. I went
straight to twenty and I fell in those

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side effects. Wow. And do
you feel like do you feel like it's

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it's something is making a difference in
your mood? Yes? Yeah, I

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never I never miss it anymore,
Like I don't think I've missed it in

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months. But like if I ever
missed it like one time, you would

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know that it's working. Because when
you miss it and it starts not working,

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well, that's a call a withdrawal
action. Yeah, I miss these,

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that's a that's a withdrawal feeling though. Yeah. Yeah, but do

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you notice it? But did you
notice when? Did you notice like a

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change in your mood or did you
or did you just not? Just was

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there a time where you were like, oh, I don't feel so sad

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all the time anymore? Yeah,
like did something click? It doesn't really

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click it just like you start,
you don't really notice it because like I'm

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not. I don't because like when
you're going through the day, I'm not

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like I feel sad, I feel
happy. Like it just kind of like

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happens. And that's why I don't
really remember when the like I started feeling

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happy, because like it just kind
of like gradually like sneaks up on you

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and then you're like oh wait,
and then like once you act, and

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then like if you ever like check
in, you're like, oh wait,

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I don't feel that like that,
like look at that I don't feel like

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it's that. I noticed that you
you're the way you relate to friends.

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I noticed that the way you socialize, that like the amount of energy you

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have for socializing is a lot more
on medication. Yeah, so with my

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one friend who you're gonna like recognize
when I say this, But like when

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I wasn't taking medication, we were
away, this is gonna sound bad,

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it's not. It's not. I
was way more relaxed and like cool with

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stuff, Like I didn't really have
opinion because I was very neutral. I

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got along with her way more because
we were both kind of like on the

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same level, right on the same
plane, right. But then I started

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taking my medication and we started kind
of like I started noticing like differences between

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us, Like I would actually want
to go and like do stuff. I'd

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be like, hey, do you
want to go to the mall? Get

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up and do stuff, and she'd
just be like no ah, and oh

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wait, like okay. So we
started kind of like growing apart because I

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started like wanting to be more social
and do more things and she was just

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still like at the neutral place,
like right, And I started relating to

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that lesson less. So I'm like, oh wait, this is probably like

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why, Wow, that's interesting,
and then you actually would bring up You

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got to the point where you were
able to like bring up, hey,

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this is what I'm not getting out
of this friendship. Yeah. Yeah.

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Neither of us are confrontational people.
So this one time I really had it,

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Like I was so done and I
needed to like confront her about like

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our friendship because it was one sided, fully like it was me right.

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00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:45,119
I don't really talk to her that
much anymore because I stopped reaching out as

409
00:36:45,199 --> 00:36:53,119
much. So it didn't really change
anything looking looking forward. But when I

410
00:36:53,199 --> 00:37:02,559
did confront her, she was so
she was like fiddling with like her candle

411
00:37:02,639 --> 00:37:07,119
and like playing with the flame while
I was like talking her. She was

412
00:37:07,159 --> 00:37:12,519
like taking a second to like talk
to her sister. She was like looking

413
00:37:12,559 --> 00:37:19,440
around her room. I'm like,
dude, what are you doing. She's

414
00:37:19,440 --> 00:37:23,400
like sorry, I'm like not really
good with confrontation. I'm like, you're

415
00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:30,119
not the one being You're not confronting
anything. I'm just talking to you,

416
00:37:30,320 --> 00:37:35,679
and she's like all right, I
have to go eat dinner. I'm like

417
00:37:36,800 --> 00:37:39,880
all right. But then she made
an effort for like a brief period after

418
00:37:39,880 --> 00:37:44,199
that, for like a week.
Yeah, and then she looky just like

419
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:49,400
forgot about it. I'm like,
all right, well, this doesn't really

420
00:37:49,400 --> 00:37:54,119
seem like kid's gonna work that well. Right, Should we talk about should

421
00:37:54,119 --> 00:37:57,800
we take another Oh, let's take
another break. Let's take a break.

422
00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:01,119
I like talking about this. Oh
yeah, we could talk about love is

423
00:38:01,159 --> 00:38:06,519
playing on our regular Yeah, because
you know, I you know, I

424
00:38:06,639 --> 00:38:10,400
Natalia just started talk therapy back.
She's just started it, and she's got

425
00:38:10,440 --> 00:38:15,320
a lot of friends that that that
have all different types of medication. Some

426
00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:22,320
are for mood, some are for
ADHD all that stuff, and you know,

427
00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:25,320
she's interested in medication, and so
I don't know yet. We're just

428
00:38:25,360 --> 00:38:30,679
in a very beginning. So it's
just interesting to me to talk to a

429
00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:36,679
teenager, you know, and see
like how it's like affected you positively,

430
00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:40,760
and you know, and how that
you've been you were open like a lot.

431
00:38:40,800 --> 00:38:44,800
You know, some kids are not
open to it, and then some

432
00:38:44,920 --> 00:38:46,880
kids are like, yeah, bring
it on, you know, as like

433
00:38:47,639 --> 00:38:52,000
yeah, yeah, I was suggesting
it right right, Well, because you

434
00:38:52,039 --> 00:38:55,559
know your body, like you know, how what you know, when you

435
00:38:57,760 --> 00:39:01,039
when you started feeling like a positive
of act, you know, and it's

436
00:39:01,119 --> 00:39:07,039
interesting that you have a friend that's
she not on medication. I don't even

437
00:39:07,039 --> 00:39:12,960
really remember the friend that you're talking
about, what you're talking about. I'm

438
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:16,320
not the one that we were,
just the one that also has probably has

439
00:39:16,360 --> 00:39:22,079
depression. Okay, is she on
any medd Do you know if she's or

440
00:39:22,119 --> 00:39:29,480
if she's in therapy or anything.
I don't think she's in therapy. I

441
00:39:29,639 --> 00:39:34,920
do think she takes meds icy Okay, but that but she wasn't at that

442
00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:40,480
time, right, Yeah, yeah, interesting, you know that's that's makes

443
00:39:40,599 --> 00:39:45,880
makes sense. Yeah, And so
when you started taking the medication, did

444
00:39:45,880 --> 00:39:51,320
you feel like you had energy,
like energy to actually like get up and

445
00:39:51,360 --> 00:39:53,199
go to school, like I know
school sucks and nobody wants to go to

446
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:58,719
school, but did you notice a
different, like a shift in that like

447
00:39:58,760 --> 00:40:04,039
he felt a little like okay,
I can do like I'm okay. Yeah,

448
00:40:04,079 --> 00:40:09,800
Like I used to like go to
school straight out of my bed.

449
00:40:12,039 --> 00:40:17,079
I wouldn't take off the clothes I
was wearing right from when I was sleeping.

450
00:40:19,679 --> 00:40:22,599
I would, but to be fair
to you, that's the style.

451
00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:28,800
No, Like I would like wear
like my sleep t shirt it looked like

452
00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:35,840
a rag if it had to,
and I'd like put on like the easy

453
00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:42,480
shoes. I would like brush my
teeth for a second, so I'd forget

454
00:40:42,519 --> 00:40:46,199
to brush my hair. Sometimes it
was disgusting and I'd go to school right

455
00:40:47,079 --> 00:40:52,760
because you just weren't in. You
didn't didn't nothing, It wasn't you just

456
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:57,119
was feeling kind of like yeah,
no, but like I actually like,

457
00:40:57,960 --> 00:41:02,559
do make an effort to not look
disgusting and kind of school? I think,

458
00:41:02,800 --> 00:41:07,239
uh, like, do you notice
a difference because now you go to

459
00:41:07,280 --> 00:41:10,960
a different school that you like a
lot more, But you will. I

460
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:19,119
will say that you're a kid who
hated school every day from kindergarten through eighth

461
00:41:19,199 --> 00:41:22,119
grade, all of eighth grade,
and we kind of changed schools quite a

462
00:41:22,119 --> 00:41:27,000
bit. And in some ways I
don't want to say to appease you,

463
00:41:27,119 --> 00:41:30,320
but to try to like maybe that's
the problem. Like I remember in fifth

464
00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:35,719
grade, we were going to move
you to a different school away from all.

465
00:41:36,119 --> 00:41:38,599
I would have had kids in three
different schools just because you hated schools

466
00:41:38,639 --> 00:41:43,639
so intensely, and it was I
always felt like, well, it must

467
00:41:43,679 --> 00:41:49,840
be the school. It wasn't the
school. After five schools, we've kind

468
00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:53,159
of realized it wasn't in school,
right. Well, it's sometimes is kind

469
00:41:53,199 --> 00:41:57,039
of the school. But yeah,
like your elementary school, I think was

470
00:41:57,079 --> 00:42:00,159
a good school, but it was
just really hard for you. Yeah,

471
00:42:00,199 --> 00:42:04,440
So when now that I think,
what I'm wondering, and maybe what Lynette's

472
00:42:04,440 --> 00:42:08,840
wondering too, and maybe Kaylin silently
wondering, is when you started at this

473
00:42:08,960 --> 00:42:13,079
newer school that you go to that
you've been at the same school for ninth

474
00:42:13,119 --> 00:42:17,519
and now tenth grade. Do you
think it's that the schools a lot better

475
00:42:17,599 --> 00:42:21,199
for you or do you think it's
a combination of the school is better and

476
00:42:21,239 --> 00:42:25,079
your mood is better because you seem
to like enjoy some aspects of school.

477
00:42:25,119 --> 00:42:35,079
Now, I think I think it's
both. I love small schools. I

478
00:42:35,119 --> 00:42:40,119
think it was so so hard going
to a big school that moved fast.

479
00:42:40,400 --> 00:42:45,079
They didn't care about you, like
you were a number. Right, Big

480
00:42:45,159 --> 00:42:53,000
schools move very quickly, and I
was a naturally exhausted person. And so

481
00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:59,960
going to a small school is a
lot better because it's a lot more managed

482
00:43:00,159 --> 00:43:08,760
bowl. Like the struggles that a
big school has is not a problem at

483
00:43:08,800 --> 00:43:16,320
like a small school. Like what
the teachers, they really know you,

484
00:43:17,239 --> 00:43:28,239
Like my teacher, he he's so
nice, Like I don't even I'm not

485
00:43:28,360 --> 00:43:30,960
even taught by him this year.
I was stopped by him last year.

486
00:43:30,320 --> 00:43:35,679
But I will just go and chill
out with him at lunch and he gets

487
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:39,360
me food, Like he looked at
my grades and he was like, nice,

488
00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:45,960
do you want a bar? And
I love that He's like and I

489
00:43:46,039 --> 00:43:49,880
was walking into class one time and
he stops me. He's like, Sadie,

490
00:43:50,880 --> 00:43:57,000
I got some Japanese gummies? Do
you want? Yes, he's talking

491
00:43:57,039 --> 00:44:02,440
about of course. And then my
teacher, who's he's not here this year,

492
00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:08,960
but he was here last year.
I struggled in math, but he

493
00:44:09,000 --> 00:44:15,320
would stay overtime for me, like
past tutoring hours too, Like he would

494
00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:23,159
go over overtime because I needed help
with math and he would really he really

495
00:44:23,199 --> 00:44:29,639
helped, And that's awesome. This
is the teacher I love. That's the

496
00:44:29,679 --> 00:44:34,639
teacher that I wrote an email too
that at first Sadie was so upset because

497
00:44:34,920 --> 00:44:40,639
remember m Yeah, he's still he
still like talks to me too, Like

498
00:44:42,199 --> 00:44:45,519
we had this like inside joke.
It's like weird. It's like about boxes

499
00:44:45,719 --> 00:44:50,519
on the whiteboard. It's a really
weird joke. But he on Instagram,

500
00:44:50,559 --> 00:44:54,360
he sent me a picture of like
when I drew, like a bunch of

501
00:44:54,400 --> 00:44:59,679
like three D boxes on his board, and he's like, I'm so happy

502
00:44:59,760 --> 00:45:08,079
to me and my friends. You're
like a hundred mini boxes on his lightboard

503
00:45:08,159 --> 00:45:15,280
when he wasn't in class, A
little joke on him. That's the best.

504
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:17,559
This is the teacher that told her
you're spacing out, you're not listening,

505
00:45:17,960 --> 00:45:22,280
remember, right, I remember I
sent that email. He was like,

506
00:45:22,800 --> 00:45:25,639
oh, it's like all right,
I got it. And then he

507
00:45:25,679 --> 00:45:30,960
was so nice to you after that, so nice after that, like he

508
00:45:30,119 --> 00:45:36,760
pade like extra attention. I love
that. That's awesome. He was gassed

509
00:45:36,840 --> 00:45:40,559
up about you being obsessed with him
too. Oh he was, well,

510
00:45:40,599 --> 00:45:45,320
because you know me, if I
don't like something, I'll let you know

511
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:47,239
it. But if I do like
something, you'll never hear the end of

512
00:45:47,239 --> 00:45:52,880
that either. So when he wrote
me that email back, I was not

513
00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:57,840
listen. I was not going to
go carrying out on like the beginning of

514
00:45:57,840 --> 00:46:00,599
a brand new school. It's really
nice about it, but I was just

515
00:46:00,639 --> 00:46:05,199
like, hey, here's what my
daughter's saying that Like you said to her,

516
00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:09,639
Sidney call you like an airhead.
Oh yeah right, oh yeah,

517
00:46:09,880 --> 00:46:13,639
and that's right. And I was
like, listen, you know, I

518
00:46:14,159 --> 00:46:17,480
get it like she could probably seem
like she's spacing out, but she's not.

519
00:46:17,679 --> 00:46:21,840
She just shuts down when she doesn't
understand stuff. It's too hard for

520
00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:24,880
her, says early in the year. She can seem like she's not listening,

521
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:29,280
but she is. She she just
can't take it in anymore. And

522
00:46:29,599 --> 00:46:31,880
here's why she has a five four, And here's like a little bit about

523
00:46:31,920 --> 00:46:37,239
her history. And then he wrote
me back the most beautiful email where he

524
00:46:37,320 --> 00:46:42,079
was like, oh my gosh,
I'm devastated that I hope I didn't burn

525
00:46:42,079 --> 00:46:45,719
a bridge with your family. I
never said anything crazy like. I wasn't

526
00:46:45,760 --> 00:46:46,440
like I'm so mad at you.
I was just like, yeah, I

527
00:46:46,480 --> 00:46:49,920
just want to give you some insight. And he was like, I'm so

528
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:52,239
sorry if I made her feel that
way, And I'm so glad you gave

529
00:46:52,239 --> 00:46:57,440
me this information. And we don't
have we as teachers don't know why kids

530
00:46:57,480 --> 00:47:00,599
have a five of four. We
just know they have one and right in

531
00:47:00,639 --> 00:47:04,320
the front of the room or whatever. It's easy for us to think they

532
00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:09,039
have that instruction because they don't listen
right or whatever. So when once he

533
00:47:09,119 --> 00:47:13,000
knew that, he was like,
I'm going to talk to CD and I

534
00:47:13,400 --> 00:47:15,960
really want to help. How can
I help your family? So yeah,

535
00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:19,639
so I wrote him back and I
was like, I'm in tears right now,

536
00:47:19,679 --> 00:47:22,480
like this is the most beautiful email. And then now yeah, now

537
00:47:22,519 --> 00:47:25,760
he thinks it's so cute. Now
he's like, who's picking you up from

538
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:32,079
school today? My dad? He's
like, oh, it's like, okay,

539
00:47:34,280 --> 00:47:40,079
that's so cute. And his little
girlfriend is the other math teacher at

540
00:47:40,079 --> 00:47:45,000
the school. Oh, how cute. They're the cutest couple ever. Wow,

541
00:47:45,599 --> 00:47:51,880
they're so adorable. But hel and
she is still here and I have

542
00:47:52,039 --> 00:47:55,440
her this year. Oh nice,
I got I got both of them.

543
00:47:55,599 --> 00:48:01,599
I got the couple right. And
she said selfies of Mirror and Xander to

544
00:48:01,719 --> 00:48:08,960
flex on mister Tran. It's like
cute, it's not funny. She's like,

545
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:15,280
get the picture. I'm like,
for what she's like from mister Trann,

546
00:48:15,039 --> 00:48:22,760
that's adorable. And yeah, and
she's just as good as he is.

547
00:48:22,960 --> 00:48:25,079
Is she just as good as the
teacher is. Yeah, yeah it's

548
00:48:25,079 --> 00:48:36,280
good and no, yeah, oh
I just faced out for saying but anyways,

549
00:48:36,760 --> 00:48:39,000
I don't remember. Okay, I'm
kind of say, but you like

550
00:48:39,079 --> 00:48:43,480
going to a small school, yeah, and you love all your teachers.

551
00:48:43,480 --> 00:48:45,599
This year, right, yeah,
except for the except for one, but

552
00:48:45,639 --> 00:48:52,760
that's a long term sub. My
teacher is back this week. Oh yeah,

553
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:57,199
yeah, all your teachers. Is
that the best? When you like

554
00:48:57,320 --> 00:49:00,280
all your teachers, there's nothing better? Right, Yeah, it's really good.

555
00:49:00,519 --> 00:49:05,239
Yeah, that's great. I'm happy. I'm happy for you, and

556
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:09,599
I have the sub for a foreign
language, which is so bad. What

557
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:14,599
foreign language? Is it? Spanish? Spanish? Yeah, I was a

558
00:49:14,679 --> 00:49:20,039
Spanish sub, so it was not
I was not doing well in that class.

559
00:49:20,760 --> 00:49:23,239
My grades were Dude, it's tough, but I vanished. It's a

560
00:49:23,320 --> 00:49:29,159
tough it's tough language. Are so
glad you came in today. See,

561
00:49:29,800 --> 00:49:34,559
it was so fun talking to you, and it's really interesting. Yeah,

562
00:49:34,719 --> 00:49:39,480
especially having a teenager you know,
and teenage girl that like, you know,

563
00:49:39,599 --> 00:49:44,760
we'll we'll, I'll keep you posted
on how she does. But thank

564
00:49:44,760 --> 00:49:49,599
you so much for being so open. Of course. Yeah, I love

565
00:49:49,639 --> 00:49:53,880
you. Say dybody, thank you, Klin. You're a parent. Now,

566
00:49:55,039 --> 00:50:05,360
don't fuck it up thing still day, letting go