Welcome back to the Black and Experience. I'm your host, Jasmine Danielle.
I see, I see, I see. Today was a good day.
Life is so fucking wild, bro, Life is so fucking wild, and
I fucking love it and I'm fucking grateful and man like, today was a
good day. And let me tell y'all how I know it was a good
day because it's so much. It's so much. Should should I Should I
start at the top of the day. Should I start at the top of
the day. Okay, all right, let me walk you out through it.
Let me walk you out through it. So today is Sunday, March
twelfth, Um. Today I taught my first Trap Yend class at the Trap.
Today was my first yend class. And if y'all know me, you
know how I feel about yen. I hate yen. I hate yen like
I'll do yen and yen be needed. Like, first of all, I'm
a nigga that go hard. It's fuck. I go hard with yoga like
I go hard with this shit. Like when I got in this ship,
I didn't know that I was gonna be addicted like this. I didn't know
I was gonna be doing this shit every day like I like, eat,
breathe, sleep, yoga, Like this shit is my life. So I'm
in it deep, you know what I'm saying. And I'm like, I
don't know, but I love that for me, you know what I'm saying.
It gives me a sense of purpose, It gives me. It gives
me that that drive to want to do something every day right and again just
for the betterment of myself. But I'm in it real deep and so and
when you win it deep and you win it like that, like with that
adrenaline rush. You want to be doing the fast off. You want to
be doing the hard stuff. You want to do the masculine stuff. That's
I feel like that's why I do it STNGA, But you gotta think that's
what I was raised on. I was birthed off of STNGA. Like and
I told y'all before that's like one of the most discipline, most rigorous styles
of yoga. That shit teach you the motherfucking it, teach you the foundation.
But it it just man, it's gonna bring out the dog in you
for real. And it's like, if you could do a STNGA, you
could do yoga. I mean, anybody could do yoga. But I'm just
saying just just the style. It's like, that's why I go so hard,
That's why I do it how I do it. But I hate Yen.
Like even though I feel like I'm a very feminine woman, I feel
like I'm a very I think i'm very in you know what I'm saying.
I'm a super emotional person. I'm a super you know, I'm a talker.
I'm a listener. I'm that girl. You know what I'm saying.
Like, y'all, y'all know what type of person I am, So you
would be like, damn, how do you hate Yen? It's so weird?
But I hate Yen because Yen is so slow and you gotta hold imposes
En and like it's just it's very slow. It's very slow. And one
thing that I've learned about myself, it's so weird because I feel like I'm
very slow to react. I feel like I'm slow to m I don't know
about that Jazz And I was gonna say I'm slow to make decisions. I'm
not. I'll make a decision like that. Um, I'm a decision like
that for I just thought about something. Yes, I'm making but I'm very
I'm very slow tempered, I'm very cool, I'm very calm, I'm very
collective, you know what I'm saying. Like, but there's still a sense
of me that likes to I'm always in flighter. I'm always in flighter,
fright, flight or fight. I'm always in flight or fight. I'm always
very anxious. I'm always very quick, quick, quick, quick, like
like something go happen or something like. So it's weird. And I said
that, um with me understanding that about myself, I understand why I move
so fast in my class when I teach. And that's one of the things
that I'm trying to improve on, is my timing and slowing down. And
you know, say, you know how you savor the moment when you eat
your foods. You want to taste it. You want to, you know
what I'm saying. When you eat some good when you eat some good ass
food, like, you want to savor it. You want to. You
know, you want to take your time. But when you're having some good
ass sex, you want to. You want to take your time. I'm
with it, you feel me, I'd be kind of Russians. I'm very
speedy. Gonzales through shit. But I think it's I think it's my anxiety
that does that to me. And so last night, well let's see,
I knew that I was teaching this class like over a week ago. I
don't know what day I found out, but I'm like, cool, I
got about it. I got a little bit over a week to prepare for
it, right, and I had did a little research and you know,
and I mean, I know about Yen and you know I've taken ye in
classes, but you know whatever, I'm just moving through the days. And
then the day started getting closer, and I'm like, bro, I gotta
really figure out what I'm gonna do for Yen. Like it's coming up,
It's coming up. It's different, it's you know what I'm saying. And
for whatever reason, I don't know if I'll ever stopped being nervous about teaching.
But it's so crazy because when I tell you, the anxiety came over
my whole fucking body, like about doing this class, I was sowing my
head. I was so nervous, Like I almost felt like I was making
myself sick thinking about how nervous. I was like, why are you so
fucking a president? All You're already a teacher. That's number one. You're
already teaching yoga classes. You're just teaching a different style and you're going slow,
like all you're doing is slowing it down. And I was just sowing
my head about it. So it got up into the point of yesterday when
I was like, I have to create a flow for the class. What
am I gonna do when I get to the you know what I'm saying.
I had previously created a playlist for the class. And that's the thing,
Like, I don't know if y'all niggas know, it's really an art to
creating a yoga playlist. It's really an art to that shit, especially how
you want the music to flow with the certain part of the routine and stuff
like, it's really an art to that shit. So previously I had just
created a little off the wall playlists or whatever, and I realized, I'm
like, this is not an end playlist. This is just songs that you
like, Jasmine, These are just R and B songs that you like.
And so, nigga, I'm telling you, this is probably about two days
before I've scrapped the whole playlist, Like this is not it. You like
you just like these songs like this is this is not the playlist for the
class, and so min I'm already in my head like fuck, like what
am I gonna do? I don't know how to flow together. I ain't
not the music whatever. So I don't know what day it was, and
I don't know if it was night or if it was morning. But I
just turned my my Apple Music on and you know, you got they give
you your own station like jazz and Danyale station based off of all of the
music that I like. We're just gonna curate a playlist for you. Boom
this, y'all station, this is what you would like. So I put
that on and sometimes it be songs on there that I don't even know or
never even heard. But again it's based off of the type of music that
I like. So I'm like laying their half sleep and I'm like, I'm
gonna just listening for songs that I like and that I can feel like this
is an end song. So I'm laying there And that's that's really how I
pick out how I like music for real. It's how it makes me feel
like I get into the words and all of that, or you know something
I don't even know, but it's really about how I feel. So any
song that I just felt was a vibe and then I'm like, yeah,
that's the end. And that's how I created the whole playlist. And I
also got a lot of compliments on my playlist, so that was good.
Um, so I created the playlist, I created my flow yesterday. UM
shout out to my white TT homies that helped me and consulting me with my
playlist. I mean, with with the with the flow and just the moves
and all of them what they think I should do and all of it.
I will say, like that's one thing about that whole group is like we
really be there for each other and just the trap period is definitely a fan,
it's definitely a tribe. It's definitely a gang. Like everybody supports everybody
for real and like niggas really go hard for the team. So that's our
super respect that some but I was up all night last night like I's like,
bro, I gotta I gotta figure this out. And then it was
just like it's not really like there could be an outline for what you can
do or what you can create, but ultimately it's whatever you create, So
it's no right or wrong answer, you know what I'm saying. So when
I'm creating and I'm like, it's this enough? Like is this going?
You know what I'm saying, I was just so on my head and I
was and I didn't really feel like it was completed because again it's no right
or wrong answer. So I'm like, is this right? Is it gonna
be complete? Is it gonna be enough? Like? And then again,
a nigga like me that's always in my fucking head anyway, and just a
person that moves through the ship, I'm thinking about the timing of the moves
and the music, and I'm like, bro, how long do I keep
niggas in these poses? And it was just so much and I was just
so overwhelmed, and I'm like, bro, like I was wrecking my fucking
brain about that shit. I did not go to sleep for a long time.
And then I had to like check myself and like I was having to
talk to myself and calling myself down and be like, bro, shit is
gonna be what it is? And also just be mindful of your intentions when
you know that's why it's important to really set your intentions with something that you
do put your best foot forward. But at the end of the day,
why are you doing all this worrying? Like, what is the worrying doing
for you? Just do what the fuck you're supposed to do. Set your
intentions, do your best, and it's gonna turn out how the fuck it's
supposed to. Why Why are you worrying yourself? Though? What are you
worrying about a lot of times in our life, our anxiety and our worries
and shit. First of all, it just be shit that don't even exist.
It just be shit that you be making up in your head, scaring
yourself, making yourself nervous, over analyzing shit for like, why are you
worrying yourself? So whatever, I ended up putting it together, and then
I woke up before my alarm went off, of course, and I was
just reviewing it whatever, all of that. I'm getting ready for the day.
I'm on my way there, I'm like, And then that's another thing,
that the time went forward an hour today and I forgot that it was
gonna do that. So when I woke up and I was looking at the
clop I thought it was earlier than what it actually was. So when by
the time I look at my phone and realized the real time. I'm like,
dang, I'm not late, but it's still this is not how I
move. Like I'm I like to, you know what I'm saying, Like,
I don't like to be rushed. And that's the thing that so I
do have anxiety and I do kind of be da but still like I like
to be on time and I like to be early, and I like to
you know what I'm saying, I don't like to be rushed in that sense,
So you know, I pressed for time, but I'm like, dang.
So in my mind, I'm like, I want to get a smoothie.
I want to have something on my stomach before I go. And I'm
looking, I'm in the car. I'm like, fuck, Beyond don't even
open until ten o'clock. Today. It's Sunday morning. The classes at nine,
I'm in the car at ate something. I'm like, what the fuck?
I just knew like a smoothie was gonna set my day off. I'm
like, damn. So then I'm like, fucking let me just look up
a little coffee shop or something get like. And then that was the thing
too. It was cold this morning, so I'm like, let me get
a smoothie. Would have been cold. I would have been like boom,
nigga like chills. So I'm like, let me get a coffee or something.
So I found this little place called Bikes and Coffee or bike is it?
Bikes and Coffee? Coffee and Bikes some shit kind of down in the
Wayne State area. I go on that bitch, order a little vanilla latte
or whatever. They're like, oh, we only do alternative milk. I'm
like, okay, that's cool, I'll do almond milk. She's like,
okay, cool, rainy up whatever. I'm waiting on my little latte.
She give it to me. She was like, oh man, we didn't
have almond milk, so I had to make it with old milk. And
we had a whole conversation about old milk. And I'm like, oh milk,
it's straight. It's just not my favorite, so mine. You gonna
asked for almond milk And she's like, yeah, well, I had to
make it with old milk, but I'm gonna refund you your money and you
know you can get it for free. And I'm like, bad, you
know what I'm saying. So to me when I happened. When I walked
out, I posted that shit on my Grandma. I'm like, free coffee
for the wind meet me at yend. Like that was my confirmation from the
universe that my day was gonna be great. That's that's how I knew it
was gonna be a good ass day because that was the universe telling me.
You know what I'm saying that it was the Universe give to me. And
that could be something very small to somebody else, or it might be nothing
to you. You know what I'm saying, But to me, that just
solidified it. That was my confirmation. So when I get there, I'm
still the nurse, a little crazy or whatever. I'm chatting with my people
about a couple of things or whatever. You know, I will say,
I got my people that come into my classes, and it's still growing every
day. But on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, them's kind of like my
people. It will be a little people that sprinkle in, but for the
most part, there gonna be my people. Sunday it's not my day,
you know what I'm saying. So it's a whole different crowd coming in and
it was supposed to be somebody else teaching a class. So it was kind
of you know, the Sunday people and then my people came to. But
it was definitely a four class and it was an amazing class. When I
tell you, my class went perfect to me. And I don't even believe
in perfection. That I don't even believe perfect it's real, like you know
what I'm saying, Like perfection is just not a thing. I don't.
I don't, I don't really believe in it. But today my class was
perfect. That ship was flawless. I couldn't. I couldn't believe how seamless
it was, like how effortless it was, especially for a nigga that hates
in a person that move so fucking fast, like in Astunga. Astana is
fast, it's upbeat, it's intense, but you still slow through the count,
you still slow through the breathe, and you still slow while they hold
in the poses, and I still be speedy guns olets through that beach.
I thought like I was just gonna be you know, oh my god,
I can't slow it down, baby. I was in my divine, feminine
energy and yen, it didn't even feel like I just felt it felt like
second nature to me. That shit was like it was done with ease,
and I was just so fucking proud of myself and I couldn't believe that I
was sowing my head about it. So it's like, but I love that
for me because it's an Now it's a balance because I love both. I
love Astana because I like to go hard, but the Yen is what's gonna
slow me down. It's gonna allow me to like really be me. But
either way, I talked. I talked my shit in both classes. That
was another thing um Sonya had told me today. She was like, in
you, that's that's that's my home girl. She ordered in me. She
really like a she really liked an older sister. Like if I had an
older sister like her kids probably like almost my age, well not almost my
age, but her she got grown kids, so you know what I'm saying.
She ordered in me, but that's like my sister. And it was
so funny afterwards, like I was just getting my feedback from her about the
class and she was like, Jazmine, you had me crying on the mat
today and I'm like what. She was like, yes, and she's a
fucking tourist and she like she she had a space in her life where she
feels like she is opening up more emotionally or whatever. But she was like,
you had me crying on the mat, so like that really like touched
my heart and let me know like I really be impacting lives, bro,
Like I really, I really touched people for real, and I was deep
in. I just got back all this great feedback. She was like,
I literally could not say nothing about the class. It was perfect, the
timing, the music, just the vibe, what you was saying. Everything.
She was like, I'm so proud of you. And it's so crazy
because she hasn't been to an Ashina class hit and so again for me to
just be so nervous and be like, oh, it's fucking yen, like
if it's just the way that it turned out, like that was the start
to my good ass day. And then following that, I was able to
stick around for Jessica's class, who was in my yoga teacher training. She
did a phenomenal job. I was so fucking proud of her. Like,
first of all, I love when people stayed true to themselves, you know,
just being authentic. She definitely all throughout the yoga teacher training, she
always had like a creative, unique way that she wanted to do stuff,
and that's exactly how her class was, and it flowed and it was just
it was good as fuck. Like I was so proud. So that was
great. And then oh, okay, so one of my favorites from my
class, Lauren, somebody that's somebody that I met through yoga that's been coming
to my classes and like really built a relation and shit with her, like
a beautiful, beautiful spirit, beautiful like you know how to say, like
you know how some people just be cool or whatever, but it's some people
that like are beautiful people, like you have a beautiful soul, like you
could just tell, like she just wanted those type of people, like just
a beautiful soul. So, um, her grandfather passed away, Like was
it on my birthday? I think it was on my birthday and so like,
you know, I've been communicating with her just a little bit or whatever,
and so it was I think it was last night. I texted her
and was like, uh, you know, hey, m basically like I'm
doing a yend class tomorrow at nine. Like I don't know if you up
for it or whatever, but if you are, just come or whatever.
You know what I'm saying. No pressure though, and she said that she
was gonna come. Oh she said at last minute though. I think she
said to me this morning that she was gonna come, and I'm like,
cool, whatever, come through. She came to the class and at the
end she was like it was so good. She was like I knew he
was gonna give me what I needed today, blah blah blah whatever. So
we're just sitting there talking about it or whatever, and then she was like,
I would love for you to come to She's like, do you have
anything to do to that at four o'clock and I'm like, nah. She
was I would love for you to come to like this little memorial thing that
she was doing for her grandfather. She was like, we're gonna be playing
sound bowls and all that or whatever. And I'm like, absolutely, y'all
come, you know what I'm saying. So I'm like, where's it that
She was like, it's that Bloom Transformation mind jaw sidebar. During my yoga
teacher training, Jamil had the owner of Bloom Transformation come in and just talk
to us, just like, um, I would want to say, did
I keep the flyer um I don't want to put words in Nigga's miles,
but I would definitely say like, maybe she does like Raiki