What's up, y'all. Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I'm your
host, Jasmin dan Yale. Today is Saturday, March fourth. My birthday
was yesterday. It's been a hell of a week. It's been a hell
of a day. Um Man, it's just so much. It's so fucking
much. Um starting with my birthday. I had to cancel my birthday party
because I, um, it was a fucking snowstorm yesterday, and so now
we're still dealing with the remnants of that. You know, a lot of
niggas lost power. I saw a post on Instagram. I said, three
hundred thousand people lost power. Thank god I didn't, and thank god that
I was made aware of the snowstorm. I mean, I do be checking
the weather, but I hadn't checked it, you know, for the party,
because my y'all, like Detroit been smooth selling in this bitch with the
weather like it probably didn't snow with a good two or three times a whole
fucking winter. So I just wasn't even expecting that. And so one of
my home girls had told me a couple of days before, like girls,
gonna be a real bad snow storm off Friday, and I'm like, what
the fuck. So I had to make the executive decision to cancel the party.
People had already bought tickets. I had to refund people that money.
I had already put a lot of money into it, Like I had bought
all of the decorations and all of the shit that I needed. I hadn't
paid for the food or like the drinks or nothing like that yet. And
I didn't you know, I didn't pay you know, to rent the space
yet, thank god. Um. And I had bought myself a cake,
which I'm looking I didn't look at this cake two days in a row.
I ate a slice, yesterday, I ate a slice to day. I'm
like this big ass fucking cake. Who's gonna eat all this fucking cake?
So, um, I was able to give my money back for like the
decorations and shit like that. But another thing with the birthday, UM nine
gonna like yesterday. So yesterday I had taught a class on my birthday and
um, during the day, you know ninety five, it's my slide in
the class was really great, turned out, you know what, but not
I try to throw me for a looping class. I got kind of thrown
off because I M I created a new playlist for the class, and you
know, just trying to switch it up or whatever. I'm like, I
don't want to keep playing the same fucking playlist, But I also feel like
I'm in a space where Jasmine, you need to get comfortable with everything.
So keep that same motherfucking playlist until you know what I'm saying, till it's
time to really move on. You trying to do too much? You still
you still in the beginnings that you just started teaching. It's probably like,
yo, what fourth maybe fifth class? You could keep the same playlist.
Niggas is not paying attention like that, we're here for the yoga nigga.
So I created a new playlist and the length of the songs wasn't matching up
with how long I'm queueing the moves or how long niggas should be doing something.
So that kind of threw me off. And then for whatever reason,
like the speakers or the music whatever just kept fucking up, and I'm like,
oh, why are y'all doing this to me? So I ended I
was able to go back to my original playlist and it ended up working out.
But that was the only thing that really threw me. The class went
really well though, I mean, you know, I had my little end,
my little spiel at the end about my birthday, and I also talked
about it on Instagram the sign. I also talked about the significance of turning
thirty three. I guess I'll read, I guess I'll read all the little
post thirty three on three. Three is a true gift. Thirty three is
a master number in the connection to the divine with enlightened influence, meant to
guide and support humanity. Master number thirty three has the deepest desire to guide,
teach, and nurture others. It's symbolical spiritual evolution. I'm currently walking
into my greatest season. I could feel the transformative energy around my life.
I have trusted my intuition and walk my path. This led to a journey
of healing. Every day I was working on healing myself and it has inspired
so many others along the way. Black girl experiences every black girl's journey into
the mental, emotional, and spiritual side of healing. Yoga fell into my
lap when I needed it most. That encouraged me to heal physically. To
whom much is given, much is required. I've accepted my gift and I
will forever share with the world. Cheers to another year of life and leveling
up spiritually. Proud to say that I have become the best version of myself
at thirty three. Three. Other people told me that their life changed when
they turned thirty three, and I just really fucking believe it. You know,
people say that thirty three is Jesus year. You know, unfortunately a
lot of people die at thirty three. That's not where I'm going with it.
But no, like when you think about shit like Nipsey Helseter that Nigga
die when he was thirty three, like that type of shit, like thirty
three really is like spiritual evolution. And I just feel like that's where I'm
at on my path, and you know, everything is really just coming together
to me, and so that is like the driving force in my life right
now. Like anytime anytime something try to throw me off, or anytime an
obstacle tries to come into my way, I just keep coming back to the
fact that everything is aligned. Everything is aligned. You gotta look at any
obstacle or anything that comes to throw you off your path. That shit is
a fucking illusion. And you can I accepted, do not accept the illusion,
do not accept the distractions, do not accept the obstacles. You got
to overcome them, bitches. So yeah, three people had told me that
their life changed one turn thirty three. Like I said, I just really
believe that. So yeah, the party. I canceled the party. I
was a little bit upset at first, and then I kind of came to
the realization about some things with that. So I had a long conversation with
my homegirl, Panda, my favorite. I had a conversation with her,
and she was just telling me, like, girl, if you don't treat
yourself like the queen that you are, you know what I'm saying, do
x Y and Z, do this, do that. It's about you.
Whatever you want to do, treat yourself. And I really had to come
back to that, and I think I kind of lost sight of my birthday.
Like I feel like I was really trying to do it for other niggas
more than I was trying to do it for myself. I care more about
the part party and more about what I was gonna do for other people versus
what it was gonna do for myself. When I mean, of course,
like I wanted a party. I haven't had a birthday party since my sweet
sixteen, so I was kind of excited about it. And it's also something
that I had been putting in the air for a minute, Like I didn't
talked about my birthday on Hella episodes on here like thirty three on three three.
That's so I don't like a party. Like so I think I really
just hyped myself up for it, even though I'm not even really like a
party person at this point in my life. And so I'm like, Jazzmine,
what is the gift for your birthday? What is the gift to yourself?
Like what? You know what I'm saying, what is this day about?
And I had to think, like, it's really about me and for
me, the gift nigga fucked. The party, fucked the outcome. The
gift to myself was the gift of yoga. Complete my yoga teacher training program,
becoming a certified yoga teacher, actually securing a job opportunity at the yoga
studio, you know what I'm saying. And to me, not to come
from like a braggadocious or egotistical type standpoint, but being the first person out
of my group to even you know what I'm saying, to have a job
at the studio, so like, and again, I feel like all of
that stuff is just a reflection of how much intention I put into what I
was doing, how much work and you know, like nigga, blood sweat
and tears to be where I am today. And again, like when I
wake up in the mornings on the days that I do teach, I'm waking
up with so much fucking gratitude. I'm in the car on my way They're
like, I'm so fucking happy that I'm waking up doing something that I love,
you know what I'm saying. Just being able to pour into others but
still being able to pour back into myself at the same time, Like I've
never been this happy in my life, you know what I'm saying. And
again it goes back to just turning thirty three and everything really aligning and all
of that, Like this shit, like I'm really watching my life change.
So that's the gift, the gift of being able to teach. The gift
is me accepting my gift from the universe, understanding that I do have a
purpose and you're here for a reason. You are here to teach you are
here to God. You are here to nurture, You are here to be
a light, you are here to shine you. You know what I'm saying,
That's the gift. Fuck the party, Fuck the party, this is
the gift. And then just the realization that, like bro, I worked
so fucking hard for this, like you know what I'm saying, and niggas
cannot Niggas can't take nothing from me. Niggas can't take nothing from me.
So that's that. And you know, yes, it was a crazy as
snowstorm yesterday. Oh I did end up treating myself. I treated myself to
a massage. I ended up going to Yen yoga right after that, treated
myself to dinner and a drink, you know what I'm saying, and just
whatever, Like the day was about me. And then I'm supposed to be
doing some more stuff tomorrow, maybe another massage, whatever, yoga like whatever,
but just a lot of fun ship but again, just treating myself.
Another realization that I came to and I shared this um yesterday on Instagram.
I had a whole little praise break in the car because Stump came on by
Kurt Franklin and I was just really feeling the fucking words, Like it was
a very powerful moment, Like it was, bro what a whole moment when
that song came on, and again I was just you know, reiterating the
fact that, like, I really worked my ass off to get to where
I am. So when y'all see these blessings raining down on your girl,
don't wonder how why where none of that, nigga, because it was due.
It was due to me. Another thing that I had shared was just
that, like, I'm very happy with where I am in my life right
now, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, because I was not always here.
It took a while to get here. And even though I am here,
I'm still learning every day. I still things are still being revealed to me
every day about myself, about my path, about my past, about my
patterns, about my childhood, about my traumas, Like this healing journey is
never ending, fucking right, But I'm just learning so much about myself.
So one thing that I said was that, you know, I'm just so
happy that right now I don't have a narcissistic man in my life telling me
to dim my light, telling me to dim my celebration for myself. On
my birthday, you know what I'm saying, or just slowly trying to tear
me down or break me down. It's crazy when you realize it's kind of
you know, And this goes for anything in life. I feel like a
lot of times it's hard to see shit when you in it. Of course,
of course, niggas from the outside looking in, it's gonna be able
to tell you because they can see it, you know what I'm saying.
But when you end some shit, it's very hard to see, especially when
niggas gradually do things to you, or they, you know, subtly,
subtly do things to you, and then you look up one day and don't
even know who the fuck you are, how you got there, how this
happened, Like I'm not even the same person, no more so, m
But you gotta look at your patterns. You gotta especially your dating patterns,
your romantic relationship patterns and all. You gotta look at that shit. But
I was just saying that I'm so happy that I don't have a narcissistic man
in my life. That's you know, them in my life. And it's
so crazy because a lot of times, a lot of times it's so funny
that this is what I've realized about, you know, the past, with
my relationships and shit like that. It's that men, the men that pursue
me, they lay it on thinking the beginning, They lay it on thick.
They love me, They love the person that I am. They love
the personality, they love the aura, they love what I bring to the
table. Oh my god, you're so great. You're so fucking great,
until you're not great. The same person that you loved the door, admired
the same the same things that you love me for are the same things that
make you hate me when you get me. And then you don't want me
to be that person no more. You don't want me to be jazzmine,
you don't. You don't want me to be podcasts, but you don't want
me to be black girl experience. You don't want me to be the person
that I am. And it's like, do you not even like me?
Are you in competition with me? Why don't you want to see me shine
when you know that I'm a light? So you know, on my birthday,
being in the space that I'm at mentally, spiritually, and emotionally,
I was just so happy like that I didn't have a hate nask nigga on
my backer in the corner, throwing dirt, throwing salt. Don't do that,
don't post that, don't be yourself, you know what I'm saying,
or just trying to tear me down on my on my fucking day, and
it's salt. It's so fucking crazy. It's so fucking crazy. I've dealt
with that my entire fucking life. When NI is my entire life, and
God rest his soul. My first boyfriend, Chris King, that I've talked
about on here before. Baby, when I tell y'all from day one,
niggas didn't I want to see me shine. I thought about this yesterday.
I would never forget this that I had a hotel birthday party in the eighth
fucking grade and my family allows him to come, not to stay the night,
but just to come. You know what I'm saying, that's your boyfriend,
he can come to the party. He did not want me to shine.
This nigga took my birthday money for me at the party. I don't
know if he gave it back or what. And I remember like getting into
it with him. The nigga took my money on my birthday? What type
of person, bro, what type of person I look back at other relationships
in my life and just how people feel like they always want to have one
up on me. People don't want me to be successful, People don't want
me to shine. People do certain things. People people do things and very
like U I want to say, like low key manipulative ways, or you
know, just very in an underhanded way. People would do stuff, throw
rocks and hide their hands. You know what I'm saying, in ways for
you to not be successful or you know what I'm saying or whatever, and
these I'm talking about romantic relationships. I'm talking about romantic relationships. I'm talking
about niggas that would drink my bath water when they met me and then when
they get me. Bitch, you should humble yourself. Not not that nigga
ever said that, but basically, but you need to humble yourself. What
who are you? Who are you? But a nigga will have you feeling
like at the at the end of a relationship, you'll be looking in the
mirror like who am I? Who am I? Light gone? Light diminished?
And that's why I can't really fuck with society. Not saying that I
don't want to be married or no shit like that. I don't even know
what I really want. I don't know what I want, but I'll tell
you what. I'd be more happy being an independent person by myself and being
happy and having my peace within versus oh one of oh I gotta get married
or I gotta keep up an image for the word like I don't want that
because a lot of people don't be happy with that. And again, a
lot of women can't even shine or be their their best self in a relationship
because you gotta run behind a man and you got you know what I'm saying,
like, I don't want that. I don't want that. And another
thing that just came up for me just like today, like a whole another
situation. But it just really opened my eyes to a lot of my patterns
and why I fall into certain situations. And this situation is not really a
situation where a person is, you know, treating me one way in the
beginning and then flipping the script. But just like it just opened my eyes
to how I just fall into the same situations, and it made me think
about how I don't put myself first regardless of how I feel. One thing
that has constantly come up for me in romantic relationships is that in this period
across the board, I know I'm a very giving person. Y'all know I'll
pour into everybody else. You know, I'm a genuine spirit it like I'm
an overgiver. I'm a people pleaser, all of that shit. So think
about me being in my romantic relationships. Niggas is magnified times a thousand,
Okay, overgiver, people pleaser, doing the most for niggas, all of
that. And I've just realized that everything that I that I give to other
people or that overgiven and all of that shit, not only does it dram
your deplete me, but once should goes sour or whatever, it'd be back
to square one. Like, damn, I did all of this, I
gave all of this, I was this to this person, and I'll be
feeling like I'm left with nothing when in reality, I'm supposed to be giving
all of that stuff to myself. I'm always over and given to other people.
Jasmine overgive to yourself, people, please to yourself. Why the fuck
don't you speak up for yourself when people do shit that you're not cool with?
You know what I'm saying, why don't you, Why do you?
Why do you accept less than you deserve when you know what you deserve,
when you know you're not capable of giving me this. I'm worth more than
what you're presenting. I'm better than this situation. You know what I'm saying.
But you stick around, or you you try to have sympathy for people,
or you want to make shit work, or you know what I'm saying.
So today I just kind of came to the realization that, like,
stand the fuck up, bro, stand the fuck up. And not to
say that anybody is a bad person or anything like that, but I gotta
put myself first because people are gonna always do that for themselves. And so
I feel like being on this path of thirty three and um, you know,
just feeling like I'm spiritually aligned and everything is swalling into place. It'd
be little situations like that, that that tests me, that that that pulled
my car, Like all right, bitch, you in alignment. Now,
let's throw a little let's throw a little something in the game. Let's throw
a little something in again. Let's play a game. Let's play a game.
Jasmine, You're in alignment. Now, you see the opportunities coming.
You see the blessings raining down. Let's throw something in the game. Are
you gonna go against how you feel? Or are you gonna stand up for
yourself so that you can get some more blessings so you can continue on this
path and be smooth selling. We're giving you the signs. We're giving you
the signs, were giving you the signs you see in the red flags,
you see in the patterns. Bitch, we coming to you in your fucking
dreams. Baby. If you if you're not ready to be on this path,
I'm not gonna suggest or recommend that you get on it. If you're
not ready to really get in tune with yourself and really get on your spiritual
path, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna suggest that you do it. Because
this real shit over here. Baby. When when that shit start coming to
you? When your dreams? And trust me, because you know I talked
about this a couple of episodes ago where you know, I had a dream.
I was on my Martin Luther King and I try to talk myself out
of my dream. I try to talk myself out of what I already knew
and and not fuck a dream, but just my intuition period, I will
try to talk myself out of what I fucking know. I've been doing that
shit my whole life. I've been doing that ship with niggas since the first
time I ever fucked with a nigga. Why do you do that? Why
do you do that? Jasmine? And That's what I'm saying, Like I
really, after I cut a lot of certain a lot of niggas off,
where I cut certain energy off out of my life, I started to see
a shift. I started to see a change. I started to see how
I was getting on a path to alignment right now, I'm talking about recently.
I'm talking about very recently, But getting on that path, it's hard.
It's hard to let go of that ship. But it's like, baby,
I was drowning in the toxicity. That shit is all fun in games.
That shit feel good, you know what I'm saying, for the time
being. But then when you start to see the effects of what it does
to you mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically, that shit is not fun.
So that's why I don't understand. First of all, y'all know that
it's power in the tongue. I don't understand why people walk around and be
like, I'm on demon time. I'm toxic, I'm tired. Like that
shit is not fucking cute. Number one, We're grown as fuck because that
shit is not cute. Number two, there's power in the fucking tongue.
Why do you want to be on demon time? Why you want to all
you a demon? I don't want to fuck with no nigga talking about he
a demon that scares me, that scares the light in me, Nigga,
It's very angelic over here. I'm walking around with a halo on in this
bitch. I don't don't. I don't want nothing to demonic on me,
near me, in me. Imagine what that shit do to you. So
being able to step away from certain situations and see how the shift in my
life, to see how shit changes, To see how good I feel when
I'm around like minded individuals, to see how good I feel when I'm around
my tribe. To see how good I feel, you know, just in
certain environments, versus how I feel when I'm with toxic people, when I'm
with people that I know I shouldn't be with what I'm doing, some shit
I shouldn't be doing. You know what I'm saying, and then again the
remnants of that stuff. So when I go to yoga in the morning and
I'm drinking a smoothie and all of that, there's a remnants that comes with
that. Throughout the day. You continue to vibrate high, you on a
certain vibration. Go fuck with a toxic nigga. Go do some shit you
ain't supposed to be doing. It's gonna be a remnant from that in your
life. You're gonna feel that shit, You're gonna see that ship the shit
around. It's gonna show in your life. So, like I said,
it's all funny games. So we on't demon time. We're doing this whatever,
Yeah, nigga, until you like, all right, nigga, my
life I'm drowning in toxicity. Bro. I feel like something has a hold
on my fucking life. Bro. That shit, that shit don't feel good.
So that but aside from that, just again just seeing myself keep I
keep being presented with certain situations and baby, the enter me, the little
jasmine in me is screaming like, bitch, please stand up for me,
speak up for me. When you feel a certain type of way, speak
on that shit, do that shit, like walk away from what don't serve
you? If something don't make you feel a hundred percent, baby, it's
not for you. Why do you want to stay in spaces that broke you,
that make you feel less than that don't give you what you need,
even though it might feel good or it might feel whatever, Like, why
do you do that? Too? So, and I'm not saying that all
people or every person that I don't was a bad person. I'm not saying
that, but you know a lot of times some of them niggas will is
bad. But also I just noticed like the more that I communicate, the
more that I speak up for myself, I activate that chakra. Uh you
know what I'm saying. The more I can get out of people, the
more I could get people to understand. And that's another thing you ought to
stand on all ten with motherfuckers. Okay, So when I'm having these conversations
with people, and not only am I getting them to see my point of
view, but I'm getting I'm getting people to understand the truth of the matter.
You're saying one thing, but you're showing me another. It's not adding
up. Is that fair to me? Is this fair to me? You're
saying this but is this fair to me? You're saying this, but you're
not showing this. You're saying this, but you know what I'm saying.
The little jasmine in me is like, yeah, yeah, bitch, stand
up. Only deal with things that make you feel good. Only deal with
things that are going to keep you on this thirty three path. Only deal
with shit that's gonna keep you on this path to alignment. You know what
I'm saying. Like, But again, I don't totally place blame on other
people, because one thing that I always say on here is that you gotta
understand and recognize that we are a co creator in every situation in our life.
You have to take accountability. You have to take responsibility for the role
that you play. Shit don't just happen to you. It's happening for you,
But shit don't just happen to you, Nigga. You play a part.
You play a part. A lot of people don't want to take accountability.
A lot of people are not self aware, a lot of people don't
want to do the work. And one thing that I'm not gonna do is
do the work for you, because i have my own fucking work to do,
and I've done a whole hell of a lot. And that's what I
said on Instagram yesterday. Wh don't talk about niggas, can't take ship for
me and all of that, Like I really did work. When I tell
y'all, this is my real fucking life. The ship that I speak about,
this is my real fucking life. And if you meet me, if
you see me, if you are around me, you know it. You
know that it's real because energy don't lie. And Nigga, my nigga,
you you could purp on the ground, but if you if you really know
somebody in real life, didn't you know how they live in I'm a walking
testimony of my life. Black girl experience is my real fucking life. This
healing journey, my real fucking life. I've been doing this shit for years,
nigga, and I really didn't even at a lot of the times.
A lot of the times, I didn't even understand what was happening. I
didn't even know what type of path I was on. I didn't even know
where I was going in life, nigga. I was just getting swept up
by the current of life, not even like you know what I'm saying,
just in it. Because again, when you in it. You can't really
see what's happening. You don't really know what's happening. But I'm grateful for
every individual in my life. I'm grateful for every person in my life weren't
bad. I'm grateful for all the situations that didn't work out, for all
the niggas that did me dirty, all the niggas that didn't meet bold,
because that led me to where I was supposed to be, and that actually
gave me strength. Even though I felt like that ship was breaking me the
fuck down, it was really building me the fuck up. And once you
get to a certain place in your life and you really understand your value and
your worth and what you want, and again I'm telling you this self.
Love of journey ain't no hole nigga. I was telling somebody today, I
cried today, and I'll be honest. Parent moment I could not like boohoo
praying, but I cried today. I shed tears today with a person that
I barely even know, and they apologize to me. They told me what
I did didn't deserve and all of that. But I told them, you
don't gotta feel bad for me, because everything that I'm experiencing in this moment
is because of me, and I'm aware of that self awareness. This is
happening because this is a pattern for me. This is what I do.
I keep ending up in situations like this. Why because there's something that I
need to change. There's something that I need to do. When I tell
y'all that I'm an overgiver and whatever, and I do. I do want
compaign ship, I do want love, But what I need to understand is
that I have to give that stuff to myself. My cup is still not
fool yet, and that's my problem. A nigga had eighty percent and I'm
over here trying. Oh well, let me pour a little in your cup.
Let me let me give you something. No letting niggas pour into their
own cups. Baby, You at eighty percent, you need to keep pouring
into yourself. Get to a hundred first. But first, yeah, not
even a hundred, nigga. When you get to that overflow is when niggas
can start grabbing shit up. You know, you put your cup on.
My little tea cup right here is on a plate. When the water is
pouring over. You could bring your cup over and put it up under that
bitch and get some water at that point in the overflow. But I'm not
even there yet. Yeah, I'm gonna keep getting my feelings hurt. I'm
gonna keep getting the dagger to the heart until I pour into myself fully,
until I show up for myself fully, until I deal with my insecurities fully.
And I'm cool with that. I'm cool with being able to say that
what did make me happy? You know what really makes me happy. It's
hearing the truth about myself from other people. Just knowing that, you know,
even though a lot of times people take my kindness for weakness or I
get taken advantage of or whatever, at the end of the day, niggas
is gonna give me my flowers. Don't like damn Jesine, I ain't gonna
lie. You were a solid ass individual. You were a real ass,
and you got a good ass her your genuine as fuck. My best friend
put on my birthday post, she said that what's she saying something about like
she's the purest human that I know. I don't give a fuck about any
talking about Oh you got to drip on this my whatever. We'll be in
the club popping bottles that are Somebody told me I'm the purest human. They
know. I take pride in that somebody told me that I'm the first person
that has come in today life that actually cared about them, don't want nothing
from them, that I was pouring into them, that I was helping them,
that I was you know what I'm saying, being a being a positive
person to them, that's the type of shit that I care about, you
know what I'm saying. And again, but being all of that to other
people when I really need to be that to myself. So again, being
on this this path, this thirty three, this year, the blessings and
just you know, really filling a line and all of that. When the
obstacles come, when when that illusion hit, when all of this shit hit,
when them red flags pop up, it's like, hey, do not
proceed, nigga, do not proceed because how many times have you been through
this before? How many times do you gotta do this? How many times
have you gotta hit your head? How many times? Like I don't want
to keep doing that, man, I don't want to keep living that life.
I don't want to have to keep learning unnecessary lessons. I don't want
to keep hurting myself. I don't want to keep putting myself through shit that
I don't have to go through just because it feels good in the moment.
You know what I'm saying, Like, it don't be worth it. It
don't be worth the heartache, It don't be worth the pain. It don't
be worth the like in the end, like damn, I gave my oil
or I gave this and like really never got nothing in return. That shit
does not feel good. So I am just trying to stay on my path
and I'm just trying to continue to focus on myself, stay prayed up,
stay affirmation, to stay focused, keep doing my yoga every day because that
shit is a lifestyle and it helps with my mental stability, my spiritual stability,
my physical stability. You know what I'm saying. It makes me feel
grounded, It wakes me up, it gives me purpose. I enjoy it
like I enjoy teaching, and I enjoy being that forever, like you know
what I'm saying, Like, and then it's just a fucking by period.
So my birthday was cool. Like I said, I got to treat myself.
I got to I had a moment with myself to really just reflect on
what does my birthday mean? To me. And that's another thing, like,
like, what does my birthday mean to me? And not even just
you, your butherfucking birthday. So even for y'all, not just your birthday.
Of course, be all about yourself on your birthday, celebrate yourself,
go all out whatever, treat yourself. But nigga, fuck a birthday.
Treat yourself like that. Every day, Nigga, act like every day is
your birthday. Act like every day is a reason to wake up and smile
and be like nigga another day in this bitch, like every tree, every
day like your birthday. And another thing that I realized, like I always
feel like I do have good energy for the most part. You know,
some days you got your off days where you're not gonna feel like that.
But for the most part, I definitely feel like I always carry good energy
with me with everywhere I go. I feel like I light up a room.
I feel like I'm a positive person. Blah sah blah. But on
my motherfucking birthday, nigga, when I tell you, I live up every
room I was in. When I was at Coney Island, eat my food
I was in that bitch had Nigga, just oh my god, oh my
god. And it's your birthday, Oh my god. But like, just
the energy when I walked in a gas station. Baby, the gas station
is probably the most low vibrational place on the fucking earth. Like, I
don't know, trust me, when you want the gas station, it's just
low vibes, nigga, low fucking vibes when I went in that bitch,
because you know, I played the lottery, I played my numbers for my
birthday, all that shit. But baby, just the inner that I brought
in, like I could tell that I was just lightening up everybody else,
making everybody else feel good. Niggas was talking to me, and niggas like
oh whatever. And again I did bring up the fact that it was my
birthday. But again that's what I'm saying, like, don't just go around
with that energy because it's your birthday and it's like, you know whatever,
that's cool, But go around with that energy every day and see how you
change. You know what I'm saying, because again, say you walk into
the gap. First of all, Again, the gas station being the lowest
vibration on the fucking earth most times, niggas being their drunkest hill whatever,
you know, whatever, but imagine walking into the gas station and somebody just
coming here just energy just off bad as fuck, Like you know what I'm
saying. Think about it, how think about how it affects other people.
So imagine if you walk into the gas station with high vibes, with good
energy and you're putting that off every that Again, it transferred. Energy is
not created or destroyed. It's only transferred. So wherever you go, give
a good energy period, whatever you put out into the universe, you're gonna
get it back tenfolds. It may not come when y'all wanted to, it
may not come when you ass It's gonna come when you need it, though,
And baby, when they come back, it's gonna rain. It's gonna
rain on you. And I just feel like that's where I'm at in my
life right now, Like that ship is just raining on me. Period.
Blesses, the rain down on may la la la la la if all oh
man rain down man if all rain period rain period Right Like, I'm there,
I'm here, I'm here, I'm here. I'm present for all of
my blessings. I'm present for all of my abuntance. I'm present for all
of the prosperity coming to me, nigger. I'm here, I'm here,
I'm in the moment. Thank you, I'm here, I see it,
I receive it. It's mine like I worked for this. I work to
get to this motherfucking moment. So excuse me while I shine. And if
you got a problem with it, that's just an indicator that you need to
figure out what the fuck is going on with yourself. Shout out to Kat
from the trap. I appreciate her. She kept telling me the other day.
She was like girl. She just kept telling me, like you really
a light, like you just really a good person. She's like, girl,
you that girl. She kept saying that to me. You that girl.
And I'm like, thank you. And I think that number one.
I was just grateful to hear somebody tell me that. You know what I'm
saying, to acknowledge my light, to acknowledge my shine, to give me
my flowers. A lot of people don't do that. But again, the
light in me sees the light in you. I see the light and Cat
too, you know what I'm saying. So for her to be able to
give me that respect and to give me that acknowledgement, I see that in
her as well, you know what I'm saying, But it just felt really
good to hear somebody say And when I say, she kept saying it to
me like you that girl that she just kept bringing in my head like you
that girl. And I'll be telling myself that too sometimes. But it's like
you need to tell yourself that all the time. Jasmine, you are that
fucking girl. That's why the role was so fucking hard. That's why the
struggle was so fucking tough. Because you are that girl, Nigga. That
shit ain't just gonna be given to you on a silver platter. Nigga,
you don't have to go through you don't have to go through the trials and
the tribulations. You're gonna have to rise from the ashes like the phoenix.
Why, because you are that girl. I'm the one that got away for
a lot of niggas. You know something, I ain't gonna lie. There
have been times in my life where I just sit and I think, like
dang, you know, I internal lot shit like dang, why did he
do this? Or why did this happen? Or did he not see who?
Did he not see my light? Did you not know? I would
he ran away? From you, Jasmine, because you are that girl.
He's not one hundred percent of his masculine energy. He's not there. He's
not he hasn't come to that place of self awareness. He's still a and
afraid little boy. You scared. I scare a lot of niggas. I
intimidate a lot of niggas. Why because you are that girl? When I
sit and I wonder why the niggas that pursue me and admire me and adore
me try to break me down? Why do they do that? Because you
are that girl and they're not there. They're not mentally strong enough in their
own masculine energy to be the man that that you know what I'm saying.
They're not there yet. You are that girl.