This it's the two seventeen Recovery Podcast with Corey Winfield. Oh yeah, so
you probably want to get yours up a little a little bit closer. Okay,
you can grab just alright, yes, and co host Marnie Winfield.
I got nothing. Well, you know, let's let's talk recovery. Is
that are we supposed to finish that sentence or something? It is one a
third, twenty third September. Here we are. Yeah, all right.
My name is Cory Winfield, my name is Martin Field, and this is
the two seventeen Recovery Podcast from the Home studio. Feels good to be home
doing a podcast on a Saturday night. Last few days have been traveling.
M hmmm, a lot of trips to Potoski. You've been training full Yeah.
One was a facilitator meeting training so you can facilitate not just like AA
meetings and a means, but like just groups. I think it'd be great
for people who actually work in say, treatment centers, and they have to
run groups. It would be super super duper helpful for that because it just
kind of helps you transition and helps you kind of relax and just just some
tricks. Two days worth of those that was Monday, Tuesday, and then
recovery storytelling that was on Thursday and Friday, and I took Adam with me
and he was pretty excited. If you don't know Adam, he's I don't
want to say, shy, and not a lot of people are comfortable talking
in groups, so he's probably normal, you know, that's probably the normal
person thing. But he was really looking forward to it, and you know,
in recovery, being vulnerable and allowing yourself to experience things that you normally
want it is a good thing. And he had texted me before he left,
He's like, you know, I'm really looking forward to this, and
you know, I kind of stepping outside of my comfort zone a little bit.
I don't know if he worded it like that, but right you know,
I was proud that he was kind of taking that approach to it,
because he could have done the other thing and been like, man, this
is gonna suck. I'm afraid, I'm scared, and then it would have
sucked in he would have been afraid. But the fact that he went and
he opened up and it was good and it wasn't what a lot of people
were thinking it was going to be. You know, when you think recovery
storytelling, you think, oh, okay, I'm gonna learn how to tell
my story. Right, It's more about telling a story, not your life
story. And we have probably a thousand stories in there, you know that
you can just focus on and really tell that one. Well, sure,
and we're gonna have an event in October, and I think this would be
a perfect thing for that. You know, instead of having like just two
people get up there and tell their story or whatever, to have like ten
people just one little story, you know, for three to five minutes.
And I told you the other day that I was gonna tell you my story
and you're like, oh, maybe we should do it on the podcast,
And you want to do a podcast yesterday and I was like, nahs,
I So I figured we would tell it today at some point on this very
podcast. Son, go anywhere yet, keep listening. You can hear my
story. But I told it at the thing, and I thought I did
all right. It's funny when you break down one story over two days and
like retelling it. And Megan Perry is the name of the woman who does
this, and I guess she has groups online. I recommend taking it.
Try it. Out, but to tell the story, to dissect the story,
to find the point of the story, Like what's the most meaningful to
you in all the crap that you can leave out of the story that's not
important, you know, because you and I both know, Honey, when
we go to meetings sometimes and it's like a speaker meeting, you just look
around the room and like ninety percent of the people are just off on lala
land. How someone can say, Corey, this very disrespectful said that man.
Now, boys looked at Okay, you're the ten percent, but the
rest man are like, okay, I've heard this before, you know,
like if I were just dispelling like oh, I was a bad alcoholico and
I used to drink like half gallons and blah blah blah blah blah. You're
hunting right now, you know, Like people, we get it, like
you're here for a reason. We understand that, Like tell me some positive
stuff, you know, like give me something good. How would you do
it? That's but I would want to know, Like when I had three
months clean and I'd see someone talk, I'm like, Okay, I get
it. What's the trick, bro? You know? Like I thought there
was a trick to it. There's a secret that I'm missing out on,
Like what is it? What's going on? That's what I wanted to know.
So I think if more people took this training and actually told their stories,
and you know, you could really you could have the same people back
every week every month, there would be a different story, you know,
because like I said, we have thousands of them. Yeah, like we
could, like we'd do a theme, like I give the guys on the
blogs that we have two seventeen recovery dot com. Yeah, they're forced to
do that. They're for at least one of them. I'm going to give
them a theme and they have to, you know, abide by it,
and they have. They're starting to have fun with it. I think,
maybe not, I don't know, but I think it's opening their minds and
again letting them be vulnerable. I think they're doing a great job with them.
I think so. Yeah, and maybe some are. I mean,
anytime it's an assignment, there's a little bit of resentment that comes along with
it because it's like not your idea to have to do it. But at
the same time I think that it it's it's a positive kind of pressure.
I don't want to say pressure. That's don encouragement to step outside their comfort
zone and try something different. And I think they're doing a great job of
it. Yeah, And when I think when I tell them, hey,
good blog or a great blog, or I usually tell them with how many
stars I rate them and then I leave a little gift. But sometimes I'll
see, like Adam or Mitch and black Man, that was a good blog,
you know, And I'm sure that it feels good to them. You
know, they know Mitch puts his heart and soul into it, and Adam
it takes a lot of time Tune really kind of dissects it, and you
know it's really good. So you know, the reward there's yeah, sure,
they'm like, I gotta do that super blog, you know. But
I think it feels good when they put a product out there that is good
and they're proud to show it to their girlfriends or you know, their kids
or their moms or whoever. Yeah, so yeah, I think it's a
good thing. But I'll have to get the other guys in the take the
training too. I think. Yeah, at some point, what's up at
you? Nothing? Just enjoying my weekend. It's nice we had our first
family visitor. Well actually my mom has seen the house, but family visit
where we've actually been able to show our house like in decent shape, like
for the most part, it's put together. And so that was that was
kind of a moment for me that like it was a real feel good moment,
you know, like we we have our we have our home, like
it's like play things are put away out of boxes and you know, for
the most part, ninety eight percent put away, I would say, and
it does. It feels like home. And I think that was just one
of it was just for me as a reflection of like how far we've come,
and you know, I love Yourian Barb and Uncle Rob and you know,
we had a great dinner with them and had some laughs and yeah,
so did a little shopping. Yeah, frame for my diploma, Yeah,
which is awesome. So I put that in my offices plural. Yeah,
that was pretty sweet. Yeah, yeah, man, Barbe, Uncle Robert
Gray and they give us a card and a little gift inside, and it
was just it was awesome. You know. Now we have a welcome home
card on the new fridge, you know, which which if we keep who
knows, But that's a whole another story. I'll get to that after Ashley
Furniture, which is not going to be on this podcast. Thank you You're
welcome, but no, And it's cool, you know, to see that
welcome home, you know, it was. It was a cool, cool
card, and it it's fun to have that kind of stuff, you know,
and to have our first family that's from out of town. I guess
you could say to stop buy and see it. And of course my mom's
like should have been me, well, anyone's welcome. Yeah, come no,
Mom, I think you're dealing with other stuff right now, Like,
yeah, you know, is what it is. Maybe we'll see you before
Thanksgiving wink wink. I don't think it's it's poiling too much there, but
I'm pretty sure I'm not. But the the family time that we get to
spend with people now, and to be available, to not be just a
drunk mess. We'd be dead, first of all, if we were still
drinking, you and I would both be dead. But to be still alive
and to be available for people when they do come around or you know,
I don't know, it's just it's just a it's a great feeling to be
present and to enjoy stories and laughs with people and white bitch. That's sorry.
I had to say that because my barb does listen to this podcast a
lot. And that story was funny. She was talking about she was in
Philadelphia and homeless people were just yell out why bitch, and she was like,
the only were talking to me. But then this other guy, I
was just like, bitch, and She's like, what is going on with
this? Like the city just yells bitch to people. Like so that's what
the white bitch came from. I shouldn't have had her say it. I
should have had a record because that's what it was funny. After she told
that story, Michael rob starts laughing and he's like, yeah, that's what
they want on the podcast, like that right. I was like, yeah,
it is for sure, but yeah it's it's nice. Yeah it really
is. So did you want to talk about anything else? You want to
get me get into the story. I've been I'm on I'm on pins and
needles here, Okay, I have to take a drink of my Power Aid,
my blue Power Aid. I can't read the name of it right now.
It's like very mixed, very power Aid zero. This podcast is brought
to you by them until they pay me to stop saying their name. Pay
you to stop saying it, like when you want to be associated with that
m power aid zero. Good. Okay. So the story is supposed to
be between three and five minutes. Okay, Okay, do you want me
to time it? I mean, you can't at me want, but I
don't think you have to. Okay, I won't so nervous now in front
of everybody telling this story. Everybody, nobody, okay, everybody, but
nobody right now at this very second timing it. I'm going to just an
idea. The fall of twenty eighteen. The first snow was on November thirty.
I'm outside my apartment complex with my pajama pants on and a T shirt,
and I'm looking at this cop. He has this confused look on his
face, and then I tell him, well, you can't arrest me.
You can't take me to jail. Five days later, when I'm released from
jail, I go back to my bachelor pad. I walk in and on
the counter is an unopened half gallon of alcohol. Let me start to drink.
And when I start to drink, it doesn't take me long. But
I see the Brady Bunch in my living room, and I remember from multiple
times going to the er for withdrawals. They always asked me, have you
ever hallucinated? And my smart asked response to them as always, how would
I know? And they would tell me you would know if you're hallucinating.
So I see the Brady Bunch and I know I'm hallucinating. I know they're
not there, and I remember thinking, wow, that's kind of crazy.
I have the Brady Bunch in my apartment. And that's the last thing I
remember until my phone was buzzing because my mom had texted me. As I
read the message, just says Corey, when are you going to pay your
rent? And I replied, I'm going to pay it on Monday. The
next thing she wrote was honey, it's Wednesday. And when she said that,
I could feel the sick in my body. I could feel the alcohol
in my body, and I rolled over. I looked at my door to
my bedroom and I could see the door handle was through the dry wall,
like I had stumbled into it or something. I looked down on the floor
as I get out of bed, I see about six or seven empty half
gallons and I'm stumbling my way through the hallway, I get to the kitchen.
I see this blue mixing bowl and in it is an open package of
cream cheese and I had put cocoa mix on top of it, and the
hand mixer was out next to it. I don't know what I was trying
to make, but I was glad that I didn't turn on the oven.
That's the moment I realized that I had just lost four days and don't remember
anything. And then I had blacked out and maybe I did drive, maybe
I did almost kill somebody. So I decided then that I was gonna just
do what the court wanted. Before I was thinking about fighting charges and stuff
like that. So I get sentenced your probation and they said I had to
do whatever the drug support place wanted me to do. River Wood and bent
Harbor suggested I go ninety days to a year, and I found a place
I had ninety days and thought that would be great, because you know,
I had stuff to do. I didn't want to go a year. Before
I left, a covery coach grabbed me and pulled me in his office and
said, Corey, what's it gonna take? And I started to dispute the
normal well once I get married and half kids, and he stopped me,
which looking back now, I just would have been a drunk father, drunk
husband. But he told me to shut up. He said, shut up,
Corey, I don't want you to tell that to me. You need
to tell that to yourself. And you have a long bus ride to northern
Michigan, so think about that. You know, what do you put about
alcohol? And I'm on the bus just struggling thinking about it. I'm like,
what do I do? You know, what do I do? What
do I do? You know? I told my mom I'm never drinking again,
my sister or family, it doesn't matter. I've doesn't matter. And
I get to treatment and I'm trying to learn about myself and I'm laying in
bed still thinking about this, like what what do I put about of alcohol?
And I'm laying in bed and it hits me. When I was on
the radio back in my radio queer, my early twenties, I had heard
a commercial that I had done and I was so drunk in that commercial,
almost so embarrassed. I drove back to the station as quick as I could,
and I redid it, knowing that tens and thousands of people have heard
that commercial already I don't know how many times, and just that fear of
losing my job in the embarrassment of being that drunk. So I swore to
myself I would never drink on the air again. So that's one thing I
put above alcohol. And people have been telling me Corey, you need to
start a podcast, but I was clueless on what to do. And I
started thinking that I need to do it on my recovery, which is also
very scary because I was hiding it. I thought, you know, I
was hiding my addiction to alcohol. But I did. I started the podcast,
and I had no idea it was going to be so freeing. It
was just like kicking the doors off of it, you know, like coming
out saying, boom, I'm in recovery. You know, you can judge
me for my past, but I don't live there anymore and I'm moving forward.
And then I realized too that by doing this podcast and by talking about
being in recovery and how life is getting better but not every day is the
greatest. But that's a great way for me to move forward and help other
people at the same time. That's great. Yeah, it was really good.
I don't know, it wasn't I think I told six minutes. Yeah,
I told it better the other day I did it, and I think
three and a half. But that's crazy because you start to remember a little
bit more and you tell a little bit more. Well, I think if
it sounds so scripted that that you lose people because and then you'll you trip
over yourself trying to remember the exact way you wrote it, and that can
screw things up to Yeah, you know, but there was some stuff I
could have took out. But yeah, I mean that's the kind of thing
we did though your story and to you, those little details I think make
it unique and important and they're awesome my wife, So I mean, but
but you get the point of that, you know what I'm saying. I'm
just saying, if somebody else would have told their story and it was six
minutes instead of five, I could have left some other stuff out. What's
I mean? The stories are are great when they're I mean, you kept
my attention the whole time. I mean, I've heard it many many times,
but like this is the most organized you've ever told it. Yeah,
So thank you. What was her name, Megan Perry? Thank you and
Perry. Thank you, Megan Perry. We've been waiting for you for years
now. No, they were like, oh, you did a good job,
but they told everybody that, you know. I'm just like, okay,
but m yeah, I think I was more on point. But I
mean I had just told it, like, you know, a hundred times,
and then we had to like do it with the three minutes and then
two minuts and then one minute, you know, and then you had to
like it was it was very It was very crazy and cool how you like
really dissect the story, you know, and make it on point. And
you know, if we had ten people telling even six minute stories, you
know, that's that's a good hour to phil and I would rather see that
than one guy just up there just talking sometimes. Oh am you telling the
story? Oh? I just got up too early? Okay, all right,
Well I guess we'll just in the podcast with a story. Then.
Do you want to tell one? No? I don't. Oh we should
work on I didn't go to I didn't go to a training. Oh you
can take it online. I can. Yeah, yeah, Megan Perry,
check it out. I might. Yeah. Well, thanks for listening.
I guess we'll get off it We're gonna do a fantasy football podcast one day
podcast. I mean like during fantasy football, like during the games or what
no, like before them. But see, we're still in intrie at least
I am. I'm like watching stuff, trying to do other stuff that I
think it'd be too busy to try to do a podcasts. So, like
my number one pick is out for the season, yeah Chubb. Yeah,
So it just goes to show you all that like planning and figuring out you
do sometimes it doesn't mean nothing. Yeah, it's not funny though, And
then I kind of felt bad because of what I did to you because then
Nick Chubb being out, I was like, I'm gonna get his back up.
I'm gonna spend all my fab money on it. You're like what,
because then you realize you had to spend all your fab money. Yeah,
so I kind of bullied you into spending all your family. But if you
didn't spend all your familiy, I was gonna spend all mine. I needed
him because I haven't played you yet, and I was like, yeah,
I'd rather play you without a running back. I mean, that's just that's
how cutthroat it is. Man. Jeez, you do you take it seriously?
Yeah, you know, and that's correct me because people are grabbing cream
hunt. If you know football, you know what I'm talking about. Man,
Like the dude there's a reason why he wasn't on a team, and
he's like I was waiting for the right moment. No, you signed with
the same team that cut you, dude, Like, come on, bro.
Yeah, So I think the Ford guys the way to go with that.
So that's my fantasy advice. There you go, there's my fantasy football
podcast advice. Yeah, go with Ford. Run him this week. I
don't care if he's I think he's playing against Tennessee, which a normal fantasy
football show would know this, but we're not playing it. It's not like
my story. Yeah so yeah that and then start golf against Atlanta. Start
Kyle Pitts. Tyrone this is the week because I think Tyrone benched them,
but this this is the week for Kyle Pitts, trust me. Yeah.
Yeah, that's a little tips. Yeah, that's all that's all you get
from me. Maybe I'll just do three three tips, just just the three
tips. Got it? Yeah, thanks for listening to seventeen recovery dot Com.
We have tickets to see the Ancient Aliens show, which I don't know
if this is a new It says it's twenty twenty two, but there's like
a new segment or new season or something. I guess it's not new,
but something that we stumbled upon and Hulu, I think. But anyway,
ancient astronaut theorist theorists they call themselves something like that. That's what they call
themselves in the Ancient Alien or Alien. But it's really cool, and I
gotta start looking up some of the stuff they're saying, because I've read reviews
and people are like, oh, no, man, they're just making that
shit up. But there's some documents that they've shown where the government's like,
yep, we got bodies, we've got aircraft that we have picked up and
taken and it's not from this earth. And I gotta start looking for those
documents and like start actually searching for them because some people are like, Oh,
this is just it's a TV show. It's fiction, So this is
this show going to be you watching them? Panel? Yes, there's there's
details on what's going on at two seventeen Recovery dot com. Just go to
there and go to the contest page and scroll down, Okay, and you
can actually click the link to buy tickets. And I think there's more details
okay, but last time I checked, there wasn't a lot of tickets left
to buy, right, so you know, feel free, Like I said,
sign up online. You know, maybe you'll win a pair. And
it's in Calazoo yep, Caldazoo State Theater. Okay, what date November third?
Be there? How fun? Yeah, we're gonna be at Portapaloosa this
Friday, and we're gonna have a box that's gonna say enter to wind tickets.
Yeah, so people can sign up there as well. And we sponsored
the to the sober Eats truck this particular event. Yeah, if you're in
the Travers City area or you just want to make a trip up hang out
with some people in recovery, that's cool too, free free tackles. Hell.
Yeah, there's gonna be games. There's a bunch of meetings, Like
there's a meeting like every hour on the hour, Yard games, Cornhole.
I don't know if they have an eukre this year. I didn't see it
on there. Yeah it might not, but it'll be fun. Come say
hi to us. We're gonna be podcasting from there. Yeah, I know,
Adam Tyrone and myself. I think Justin has to take somebody to treatment
that day, and Mitch is taking somebody to an appointment with the Law of
People. Yeah, that's what we do. Well, we will, we
will be there though, We'll be there. Yeah, come by and see
us Addiction Treatment Services. It's ten ten South Garfield Avenue, like ten to
four and sign up Ancient Aliens Man awesome which Yeah, today Adam told me
it was into the world or something. Somebody was saying. I don't know.
I can't keep up, but I'm glad that it wasn't me too.
So we get to watch football tomorrow right anyway, Enjoy the rest of your
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