WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.640 --> 00:00:04.679 Bottle Up Bitches is hosted by a horny married couple. Content may include adult 2 00:00:04.759 --> 00:00:08.400 language and themes. Check the description for more details. If your discretion is 3 00:00:08.439 --> 00:00:18.199 advised. It's Eason four. Welcome to Bottle Up Bitches, your favorite sex 4 00:00:18.280 --> 00:00:23.000 podcast, hosted by a horny married couple with me Rihanna Campbell and me producer 5 00:00:23.039 --> 00:00:27.359 man Adam. Sex shouldn't be taboo or embarrassing, so let's talk about it. 6 00:00:35.600 --> 00:00:40.000 I started it. You're not ready. You're not ready, you bitch? 7 00:00:40.880 --> 00:00:45.679 Hi Hi. Happy Fourth of July weekends. Everybody. Oh yeah, 8 00:00:45.719 --> 00:00:49.359 it's coming. It's gonna be out tomorrow. Ll No, it's the fourth 9 00:00:49.359 --> 00:00:53.240 of July is tomorrow as of the release of this episode. No, fourth 10 00:00:53.280 --> 00:00:56.240 of July is on Tuesday. Yes, but this episode gets released on Monday. 11 00:00:56.600 --> 00:01:00.119 So fourth of July is tomorrow. Yeah, on the release. When 12 00:01:00.119 --> 00:01:07.280 you're July week you sure you'll look like the fourth of July did that? 13 00:01:07.400 --> 00:01:11.359 The other day? I saw it ad for uh for for like it was 14 00:01:11.400 --> 00:01:14.040 like a restaurant or something. Oh no, it was on like it was 15 00:01:14.040 --> 00:01:17.000 on YELP in this like crazy loaded hot dog and I was like, and 16 00:01:17.079 --> 00:01:19.159 in my head, I went, makes me want a hot dog real bad. 17 00:01:19.519 --> 00:01:23.359 I like the way you said the way your hands did for loaded hot 18 00:01:23.359 --> 00:01:26.159 dog because it was look at the cohones on that hog. It was it 19 00:01:26.200 --> 00:01:29.959 was a big head like fries and nacho cheese on it, and it was 20 00:01:29.959 --> 00:01:33.519 a hand holding it. I love you, I love you. We had 21 00:01:33.560 --> 00:01:36.920 a hot dogs today. We did have honor of the fourth, an honor 22 00:01:36.959 --> 00:01:41.239 of the fourth, you know, so we did that take that England. 23 00:01:41.560 --> 00:01:47.120 Yeah, we went to Sonic. Oh oh, what's the sonic? Uh 24 00:01:47.280 --> 00:01:53.079 slogan? America's favorite drive in? Is that what it is? Sonic just 25 00:01:53.120 --> 00:01:56.120 like you like it? And that's not true. It's either America's favorite drive 26 00:01:56.159 --> 00:02:00.200 in or like best drive in, it's America's something drive in. Well, 27 00:02:00.280 --> 00:02:04.799 then we did it extra right because America is in the slogans say us wait 28 00:02:05.079 --> 00:02:12.360 Usa, Um well, Adams, Yeah, Well we've talked about this before 29 00:02:12.479 --> 00:02:15.280 that like we're not the biggest fans of like Texas, and we're not the 30 00:02:15.319 --> 00:02:19.800 biggest fans of like all the shitty things that our country does to ourselves and 31 00:02:19.840 --> 00:02:23.120 the other lands. But like as soon as we leave Texas or we leave 32 00:02:23.199 --> 00:02:29.319 the country, we're like these golers, don't fucking run. It's our pride 33 00:02:29.240 --> 00:02:31.639 yea. Um, well, I'm super excited this week about our better guests. 34 00:02:31.840 --> 00:02:36.599 Yeah, I know, we got a new house this week. Um, 35 00:02:36.639 --> 00:02:38.639 I feel like this episode is back to our roots. It is. 36 00:02:38.840 --> 00:02:42.719 It is such a good It is such a good episode because I was able 37 00:02:42.719 --> 00:02:46.400 to have girl time with a BF, so we get into it a little 38 00:02:46.400 --> 00:02:49.919 bit in the episode. But this week we had a good friend of mine, 39 00:02:50.240 --> 00:02:53.759 Coco correct and she's a doll, She's a treat her and I always 40 00:02:53.759 --> 00:02:58.280 have a good time. We used to do. We used to dance together. 41 00:02:58.759 --> 00:03:02.560 Take dance classes is not professional, y'all took you were in a dance 42 00:03:02.599 --> 00:03:06.280 class with the cho We took dance class. That's where we met and we 43 00:03:06.439 --> 00:03:08.719 got really close and I enjoyed the heck out of her. She's always such 44 00:03:08.719 --> 00:03:13.960 a delight and a treat um. So getting to just girl chat with her, 45 00:03:15.159 --> 00:03:16.439 mind you, is zero prep. So it's not like I hung out 46 00:03:16.479 --> 00:03:20.680 with her last week and then we recorded this episode. We get busy. 47 00:03:20.759 --> 00:03:23.919 She lives a little further up north now, so I hadn't seen her in 48 00:03:23.960 --> 00:03:27.400 a little while, so it was really fun just doing full on girl chat. 49 00:03:27.439 --> 00:03:30.039 And that's my favorite. Yeah. Editing the episode. How did it 50 00:03:30.080 --> 00:03:36.240 feel like having more of a girl chat guest versus how we typically have more 51 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:40.280 structured, structured guests, but like you know, they're usually a business person 52 00:03:40.639 --> 00:03:44.520 or yeah, some type of professional. No, it was fun. It 53 00:03:44.639 --> 00:03:47.240 was like, you know, it was just like I just kind of it 54 00:03:47.319 --> 00:03:52.400 was definitely where I sat back a little bit more. I'm not as prevalent 55 00:03:52.919 --> 00:03:55.039 in this episode, just because y'all were, you know, running off. 56 00:03:55.120 --> 00:03:58.919 Y'all were running off at the mouth to the point at the end of the 57 00:03:59.000 --> 00:04:00.360 episode, and listeners we heard this, we had to like cut her off 58 00:04:00.360 --> 00:04:05.039 and be like because I think she was about to start a whole news story 59 00:04:05.080 --> 00:04:11.680 and or like, oh, if there's something that Coco is is a storyteller. 60 00:04:11.879 --> 00:04:15.480 Yeah, she has the details. She's going to tell you where, 61 00:04:15.519 --> 00:04:19.160 when, what, She's going to tell you what color, what time of 62 00:04:19.240 --> 00:04:24.639 day, what the temperature was, yea, and the weather. She's an 63 00:04:24.639 --> 00:04:28.680 incredible human. So it was so much fun getting to chat with her about 64 00:04:29.160 --> 00:04:32.800 you know, sex and learning. I never had that conversation with her learning 65 00:04:32.879 --> 00:04:36.839 about how she was more of like a late bloomer and you know, her 66 00:04:36.839 --> 00:04:40.600 whole years were much different. I need that piece. But it was a 67 00:04:40.600 --> 00:04:45.079 good time. Yeah, so really good girl chat for the ogs that know 68 00:04:45.319 --> 00:04:49.000 you know you're gonna love this episode. Anything you wanna add, no, 69 00:04:49.720 --> 00:04:57.160 no, you guys have an amazing day. Have a great Fourth of July. 70 00:04:57.639 --> 00:05:00.639 And if you're not listening to this during Fourth of July week, thank 71 00:05:00.680 --> 00:05:06.720 you for being here. And whatever holiday's coming up, Happy is Joy Coco's 72 00:05:06.800 --> 00:05:27.199 day, Horny and I don't like that I went for years and I still 73 00:05:27.279 --> 00:05:30.319 don't know how to twork Like they didn't teach I'm like, how are y'all 74 00:05:30.360 --> 00:05:31.360 not going to teach me how to move my butt? Like? How are 75 00:05:31.399 --> 00:05:36.439 y'all not going to sit and stay down and go like because it's not just 76 00:05:36.800 --> 00:05:41.120 it's not with your back though, Like we can work on. Yeah, 77 00:05:41.199 --> 00:05:45.040 you and I we're gonna You're gonna come to my house and you and I 78 00:05:45.079 --> 00:05:47.720 are gonna have a working session and I can get you. I would love 79 00:05:47.720 --> 00:05:51.000 it. And I'm sick. I'm dead serious. I can move my ass 80 00:05:51.160 --> 00:05:56.160 now, that's one thing. Listen. I'm maybe a bigger girl, but 81 00:05:56.519 --> 00:06:00.199 I can move. Okay, I can move. Okay, I know you 82 00:06:00.240 --> 00:06:02.759 can move. I've seen it. I loved watching you dance. It was 83 00:06:02.759 --> 00:06:05.680 always so much fun watching. Oh gosh. I did love it though, 84 00:06:05.720 --> 00:06:11.000 and I have gotten static and I've like I've gotten to the point where I'm 85 00:06:11.040 --> 00:06:15.199 like I want to move, Like I'm like I'm getting stir crazy in this 86 00:06:15.279 --> 00:06:20.720 house and me walking upstairs to go get some laundry and stuff. It's only 87 00:06:21.000 --> 00:06:25.560 be so satisfying. And at this point, I'm like I need to dance. 88 00:06:25.600 --> 00:06:28.480 Like it's got to the point where I've been known by the new neighbors 89 00:06:28.480 --> 00:06:30.879 as like the girl who dances as she walks her dogs. Like it's gotten 90 00:06:30.920 --> 00:06:36.279 to that point like I need to dance like I need I love that culture 91 00:06:36.560 --> 00:06:45.800 like us dancing freedom. I need to shine baby shine. Yes, oh 92 00:06:45.839 --> 00:06:49.160 gosh, yeah, but were you ever dating? Were you ever dating somebody 93 00:06:49.199 --> 00:06:54.160 when you were taking dance? No? No, no, you didn't get 94 00:06:54.160 --> 00:06:56.720 to use all those moves on. I mean I did, which is how 95 00:06:56.759 --> 00:07:00.040 I got married, you know, so you know that's how I got this 96 00:07:00.079 --> 00:07:03.959 one. I did a whole routine two for him, like it was like, 97 00:07:04.040 --> 00:07:09.240 yeah, for his birthday, had to like hotel girl. I mean 98 00:07:09.439 --> 00:07:15.040 like I was shown when out okay, yeah the hotel hotel, pulled up 99 00:07:15.040 --> 00:07:20.120 the chair, honey, Okay, did some of those repetitive moves and she 100 00:07:20.279 --> 00:07:25.560 taught me. Okay, he does he's never seen them, never seen them, 101 00:07:25.879 --> 00:07:28.879 he was like, and he's like, he was like, um, 102 00:07:29.639 --> 00:07:31.519 I've never seen someone. He was like, for you not to have like 103 00:07:31.839 --> 00:07:36.319 professionally grown up like from a little girl dancing and stuff like that. He 104 00:07:36.399 --> 00:07:39.319 was like, you really not a dance He was like, you know how 105 00:07:39.360 --> 00:07:42.639 to dance like a girl who like dance, like even dance professionally like a 106 00:07:42.680 --> 00:07:46.560 stripper. Like he was like, you know how to move your body? 107 00:07:46.600 --> 00:07:49.439 I was like, oh, for real, okay, And he don't fluff 108 00:07:49.920 --> 00:07:54.120 he is. I wish he fluffed more, but he does not know a 109 00:07:54.199 --> 00:07:57.079 fluff. So when I got that compliment, I knew at least it was 110 00:07:57.120 --> 00:08:00.600 true. I was like, yeah, I got this, you know, 111 00:08:00.959 --> 00:08:03.480 you know I got this. It's it's just like it's just like right before, 112 00:08:03.639 --> 00:08:09.519 like when you know you're giving someone some head and you know, like 113 00:08:09.680 --> 00:08:13.680 they started moving and then it starts to like get gets kind of stiff, 114 00:08:13.879 --> 00:08:16.360 and then you can feel like I'm You're like, you know I got you, 115 00:08:16.920 --> 00:08:22.079 I got you. It's that move. It's that it's that feeling that 116 00:08:22.279 --> 00:08:26.360 you know you got somebody like you. Yeah, like you talking all that 117 00:08:26.480 --> 00:08:30.839 mess and man, man can be taken talking some mess about y'all. Yeah, 118 00:08:30.920 --> 00:08:33.679 I got this, I got this, and I've blend. The more 119 00:08:33.120 --> 00:08:37.519 stuff they talk, the less they really don't win. Okay, it's the 120 00:08:37.600 --> 00:08:43.159 quiet ones. It's the quiet ones that like you'd be like, oh, 121 00:08:43.200 --> 00:08:50.039 okay, okay, I agree, Yeah, I completely agree. If there 122 00:08:50.080 --> 00:08:52.399 I nothing has to be said, nothing has to be said. It's all 123 00:08:52.440 --> 00:08:56.440 action. They don't have to say a single Yeah, they're not gonna tell 124 00:08:56.480 --> 00:08:58.559 you what they're gonna do. They're just going to do it. And I 125 00:08:58.600 --> 00:09:01.480 will say, like, that's kind of like what happened with me, like 126 00:09:01.600 --> 00:09:05.519 with my like my first experience. So I was like a late bloomer. 127 00:09:05.519 --> 00:09:09.200 I'm gonna say label I was intentional, Okay, like I was. So 128 00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:15.759 I was so type a even with my first time. So it's hilarious. 129 00:09:16.159 --> 00:09:20.440 Um, I I'll never forgive Like it was more of a decision. That's 130 00:09:20.440 --> 00:09:24.279 a sad part. It was more of like a decision. So I was 131 00:09:24.360 --> 00:09:28.799 in college and I was living with my best friend from like middle school, 132 00:09:28.639 --> 00:09:33.679 and like her and I took very different paths in life, and um, 133 00:09:35.240 --> 00:09:37.519 like I was this is when I was like heavily about in church, Like 134 00:09:37.559 --> 00:09:41.720 I was like a youth minister. So like I was not trying to like 135 00:09:41.840 --> 00:09:46.600 have sex, like I was good plus like it just it was just the 136 00:09:46.679 --> 00:09:50.200 stigma of like I was also just scared, like I just it was I 137 00:09:50.279 --> 00:09:54.080 was just scared like if I had text, I was gonna get pregnant because 138 00:09:54.159 --> 00:09:58.279 like one of my sisters got pregnant really really early in life because like you 139 00:09:58.320 --> 00:10:05.120 know, like our mother was away. Like I have a very interesting background, 140 00:10:05.279 --> 00:10:09.279 so like my mother was away for part of our life because she had 141 00:10:09.279 --> 00:10:13.200 went to prison, and so we were being raised by our grand Our grandmother 142 00:10:13.240 --> 00:10:18.240 really strict always took us a church. We we lived in church. And 143 00:10:18.639 --> 00:10:20.960 um, So like my oldest sister, she had had her first kid in 144 00:10:22.039 --> 00:10:26.240 like sixteen, mind you I was six because there was ten years difference between 145 00:10:26.399 --> 00:10:28.799 us. So like I just thought, like, you have sex, you 146 00:10:28.840 --> 00:10:33.279 get a baby like um. And then another one of my sisters she was 147 00:10:33.440 --> 00:10:37.039 she was younger, so she was like a lot younger. She was like 148 00:10:37.039 --> 00:10:41.879 twelve almost thirteen when she had her first kid. So like I was just 149 00:10:41.919 --> 00:10:46.639 like, oh my gosh, like I just created a boy's men baby. 150 00:10:46.759 --> 00:10:52.000 Like so I was just like I'm not having sex. It was partly like 151 00:10:52.039 --> 00:10:54.639 my religious background, but it was just like also it was just like your 152 00:10:54.639 --> 00:11:01.360 life ends, because like I would see them and I would I would see 153 00:11:01.360 --> 00:11:03.399 them and they'd be like, you know, I can't live my life. 154 00:11:03.399 --> 00:11:07.080 I want to do this with my life and all this other stuff, and 155 00:11:07.120 --> 00:11:11.559 I'd be like, okay, all right. So like you have a baby, 156 00:11:11.600 --> 00:11:13.200 then like you pretty much like your life ends and their life begins. 157 00:11:13.240 --> 00:11:16.879 It's about the children, which I mean I get that, and so I 158 00:11:16.960 --> 00:11:22.519 was just like, okay, no sex, and so like I was doing 159 00:11:22.559 --> 00:11:24.399 good and then like I'll never forget. We were in our apartment. I 160 00:11:24.480 --> 00:11:28.919 was looking for my phone and I couldn't find I always lose stuff. So 161 00:11:28.039 --> 00:11:33.480 like my best friend called me and like we were all looking for my phone. 162 00:11:33.480 --> 00:11:37.519 So she put her phone down and as I'm walking past the couch, 163 00:11:37.200 --> 00:11:43.759 I see on her phone that she has me named underneath her phone as forty 164 00:11:43.840 --> 00:11:50.759 year old Virgin. No as me as Coco, right, like she has 165 00:11:50.840 --> 00:11:56.080 me as forty year old Virgin. And I was just like, I mean, 166 00:11:56.120 --> 00:11:58.240 I was kind of mad, but then I was just like, oh 167 00:11:58.279 --> 00:12:01.639 my gosh, it's so like I left the house I found my phone and 168 00:12:01.679 --> 00:12:05.960 like I remember driving to the school. We were in college and driving to 169 00:12:05.039 --> 00:12:07.960 my class and was just like, oh my gosh, like I could be 170 00:12:09.080 --> 00:12:13.240 driving and I could like get hit by a car and I'm gonna be a 171 00:12:13.320 --> 00:12:16.039 virgin, like I've never lived my life. I'm like I need. I 172 00:12:16.120 --> 00:12:20.120 was like, you know what, like that conft me for this one sin 173 00:12:20.840 --> 00:12:24.240 and so I was like I think I'm gonna have sex, so like I'm 174 00:12:24.279 --> 00:12:28.559 so type Like I was just like I started writing out a list. Okay, 175 00:12:28.559 --> 00:12:31.039 I was like I need to have someone who's experience. I was like 176 00:12:31.080 --> 00:12:33.480 I don't want to have someone who's trying to figure this out with me. 177 00:12:33.919 --> 00:12:35.559 So I was like I need to get one of these football players because I 178 00:12:35.600 --> 00:12:39.480 always had like football players, basketball players like all trying to come after me. 179 00:12:39.519 --> 00:12:43.480 And I'd be like mh good, Like okay, you cute though you 180 00:12:43.639 --> 00:12:46.919 cute like it's just me. But then I was like, you know what, 181 00:12:48.240 --> 00:12:52.600 let me start that's but that's funny because you give off like basketball WiFi 182 00:12:52.840 --> 00:12:56.399 what that is so crazy? Like you do because you're like the right, 183 00:12:56.440 --> 00:13:00.759 like I mean this with love, like you're a boogie lady, like you 184 00:13:00.879 --> 00:13:03.600 like your nice. You like your nice things, Like you always look really 185 00:13:03.639 --> 00:13:07.320 good, like you dress like you'd like to dress up, Like you show 186 00:13:07.440 --> 00:13:11.960 up you know, wherever we're going, always looking hell and nice, nails 187 00:13:11.000 --> 00:13:15.399 done well. And I've only been in like the same room with you a 188 00:13:15.440 --> 00:13:18.679 couple of times, but you walk into room and take charge. Yeah, 189 00:13:18.759 --> 00:13:22.480 and that's what I got. You know. People tell me all the time 190 00:13:22.440 --> 00:13:26.360 and maybe that's why I'm in the industry that I'm in, but it's like 191 00:13:26.120 --> 00:13:30.440 I don't realize it. And I always wonder that when I was in high 192 00:13:30.440 --> 00:13:33.799 school, like all the basketball guys would be like trying to talk to me. 193 00:13:33.919 --> 00:13:37.080 I'm like, I'm some like little nerd girl who and like it would 194 00:13:37.120 --> 00:13:41.000 be funny because like I was wondering why, like all the coaches wanted me 195 00:13:41.039 --> 00:13:43.360 to be a manager, so I was the football manager, I was the 196 00:13:43.440 --> 00:13:50.720 basketball manager. And I just remember being super uncomfortable because like they would be 197 00:13:50.759 --> 00:13:54.000 like, I mean, oh, Coco, look at that ass, And 198 00:13:54.080 --> 00:13:56.440 I'd be like, why are they looking at I'm like such a little nerd, 199 00:13:56.559 --> 00:14:01.200 like repressed, little church girl. And it was always like, I 200 00:14:01.240 --> 00:14:03.679 mean, because here's the thing, man, if I had my high school 201 00:14:03.759 --> 00:14:07.559 body, now, who Jesus knew what he was doing when he made me 202 00:14:07.559 --> 00:14:11.039 a little thick, okay, because I was just like, yeah, I 203 00:14:11.159 --> 00:14:15.799 was like it was it was my body was it was noise. It was 204 00:14:15.960 --> 00:14:18.799 noise. Okay. I was curbed in all the right places okay. And 205 00:14:18.840 --> 00:14:22.000 I was playing still like I was in sports cell. So I was like 206 00:14:22.120 --> 00:14:26.720 toned and everything. But like the guys would come after me. It was 207 00:14:26.799 --> 00:14:30.799 like and like I never forget, like when I got to college, like 208 00:14:30.799 --> 00:14:35.000 one of the guys, I remember like running into him and he was like 209 00:14:35.039 --> 00:14:39.120 a big shot um in high school and like got like got like scholarships and 210 00:14:39.159 --> 00:14:43.600 stuff to play M D one and all that, and so I had ran 211 00:14:43.879 --> 00:14:48.360 into him later a little bit in life. He was still hello fine, 212 00:14:48.240 --> 00:14:52.960 still hello fine, And I was just like man, like I could be. 213 00:14:52.159 --> 00:14:56.799 I probably could have been a basketball wife of probably could have been um, 214 00:14:58.200 --> 00:15:00.759 but yeah, I was just for that time, I was like already 215 00:15:00.759 --> 00:15:03.559 doing my career thing and like my career taking off, and I was just 216 00:15:03.600 --> 00:15:07.120 like, okay, well, I mean I may not be making like millions 217 00:15:07.159 --> 00:15:09.080 like a basketball player, but like I'm doing my thing here, you know. 218 00:15:09.679 --> 00:15:15.440 But he was not that smart, and so I was like it was 219 00:15:15.480 --> 00:15:18.039 a very much a turn off. So like this guy that I'm like, 220 00:15:18.039 --> 00:15:20.759 okay, I think i'm you know, by this time, I'm sexually active, 221 00:15:20.759 --> 00:15:24.360 so I'm like, okay, I'm ready for this. And then and 222 00:15:24.399 --> 00:15:26.879 then like when we sat down and was talking, I was like, there 223 00:15:26.000 --> 00:15:30.559 is no substance here, like so that's you know, that's just one of 224 00:15:30.600 --> 00:15:33.720 the things that I need, Like I need to be intellectually stimulated, like 225 00:15:35.279 --> 00:15:39.600 to get there with someone. I need to be It's like a playful mind, 226 00:15:39.679 --> 00:15:43.000 like I need you need to be ambitious, though, like I need 227 00:15:43.039 --> 00:15:46.440 to see that drive. It is just so sexy on a man, like 228 00:15:46.559 --> 00:15:50.440 even though I come with my own money game, right, So it's not 229 00:15:50.480 --> 00:15:54.759 necessarily like I need a guy for that because he's got something. It's just 230 00:15:54.879 --> 00:16:00.360 more of like it's just like I'm holly ambitious, so I'm attracted as someone 231 00:16:00.360 --> 00:16:03.799 who's ambitious, who's gonna have drive, who's gonna be out there. And 232 00:16:03.799 --> 00:16:06.000 it's so funny because some many of my friends were like, girl, whoever 233 00:16:06.039 --> 00:16:07.840 you end up when you need to have somebody who's gonna handle like all your 234 00:16:07.960 --> 00:16:11.879 drive and who you are, And I'm like, I don't even get it. 235 00:16:11.919 --> 00:16:15.679 I'm just being at me, like I don't think I'm animated, but 236 00:16:15.720 --> 00:16:19.759 I get that that statement and that characteristic a lot that like I'm just highly 237 00:16:19.799 --> 00:16:22.279 animated, and I'm like, I don't know, but I've been like that 238 00:16:22.320 --> 00:16:25.720 even as a little girl. When I was in church, they'd be like, 239 00:16:26.080 --> 00:16:27.480 you know, like you're such a kind heart, and I would always 240 00:16:27.519 --> 00:16:30.360 help out and do stuff at church. And it's like the one I feel 241 00:16:30.399 --> 00:16:34.559 like ritique that the older women would give me is like you're just very animated 242 00:16:34.679 --> 00:16:38.960 constance. You know, you might want to, you know, take it 243 00:16:40.000 --> 00:16:41.000 down if you not, just and I'd be like, I don't know, 244 00:16:41.039 --> 00:16:45.360 I'm just being me, y'all like this that's it. But yeah, Like 245 00:16:45.440 --> 00:16:48.759 so I was like, so my list, I was like I need this 246 00:16:48.960 --> 00:16:55.840 basketball guy or football guy, like whatever I'm gonna do. And I was 247 00:16:55.919 --> 00:17:00.399 working like at a tech company, but it was just like something like at 248 00:17:00.519 --> 00:17:06.440 night and so I was like making my list and stuff like that, and 249 00:17:06.519 --> 00:17:11.160 there was like this guy who came through. It was like a little bigger 250 00:17:11.200 --> 00:17:12.480 guy. But I also like Teddy Bears. That's another thing. So I 251 00:17:12.519 --> 00:17:15.440 like, really I have like a streams of guys that I like. So 252 00:17:15.480 --> 00:17:22.880 either they're really like big, tall, muscular and like play play a sport 253 00:17:22.000 --> 00:17:25.480 or they have to be kind of big and like a teddy bear kind of 254 00:17:25.519 --> 00:17:30.319 look like a cold teddy bear. So like he came in and I just 255 00:17:30.319 --> 00:17:34.319 remember like some girls like talking about like, oh yeah, he gets around 256 00:17:34.680 --> 00:17:38.599 he you know whatever, like he's really smart and he gets off this like 257 00:17:40.079 --> 00:17:42.680 vibe, but like you know, he's a player. And I was like, 258 00:17:42.839 --> 00:17:47.519 hmmm, checklist, you know, kind of like that. I was 259 00:17:47.559 --> 00:17:52.759 like that may work, and so he was like it was something I was 260 00:17:52.799 --> 00:17:55.319 considering. But then I was still like looking on campus because I'm like, 261 00:17:55.359 --> 00:17:57.319 yeah, I'm on campus whatever, you know, still considering my options. 262 00:17:59.279 --> 00:18:02.440 And so I was like, yeah, I need to get my life together. 263 00:18:02.480 --> 00:18:06.200 I need to figure this out. But I was like I need someone 264 00:18:06.240 --> 00:18:08.799 who's gonna like take time. And I was just like, most likely probably 265 00:18:08.839 --> 00:18:12.759 were like a football guy or something. He's probably just gonna like he's so 266 00:18:14.000 --> 00:18:17.039 used to getting it, like he's probably not gonna take his time, and 267 00:18:17.079 --> 00:18:19.680 I need someone to take their time. So I was like, I'm being 268 00:18:19.799 --> 00:18:22.759 very intentional. Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah. So I was like I'm 269 00:18:22.799 --> 00:18:26.279 telling you I was thinking it through. So although I probably like shouldn't have 270 00:18:26.279 --> 00:18:29.359 been thinking about like this, like, oh, I probably should be trying 271 00:18:29.359 --> 00:18:32.240 to find someone. I really like, I really wasn't dating anyone at the 272 00:18:32.319 --> 00:18:34.920 time, like because I really was focused on school and was like trying to 273 00:18:34.920 --> 00:18:38.839 do my life or whatever. And at this point too, like this is 274 00:18:38.880 --> 00:18:44.359 when like my sister wasn't doing so well. Sorry, like my eyelash is 275 00:18:44.400 --> 00:18:48.640 like not cooperating. Right now, You're fine, And how how old are 276 00:18:48.680 --> 00:18:53.599 you? You said? I was like nineteen almost twenty at this point. 277 00:18:53.640 --> 00:18:57.119 It was actually on my birthday when I finally did everything, so it was 278 00:18:57.160 --> 00:19:02.720 like twenty, but it was nineteen when I saw the story search. That's 279 00:19:02.759 --> 00:19:04.920 not like Bloomer, your sister needs to chill out with the forty year old 280 00:19:06.039 --> 00:19:08.200 version. Yeah, well yeah, yeah. That was like my best friend, 281 00:19:08.240 --> 00:19:11.599 like she was like four year old vision and I was just like, 282 00:19:11.880 --> 00:19:17.799 it's not gonna get that. It's not like it was not so um oh 283 00:19:17.920 --> 00:19:19.240 no, it was. I was twenty two, twenty one. Sorry, 284 00:19:19.319 --> 00:19:22.759 that's what it was, because I was, oh, well, you know 285 00:19:22.759 --> 00:19:27.480 what, your friend has a point on that one whatever, whatever, I'm 286 00:19:27.519 --> 00:19:30.759 just kidding. No, that was you. I lost my Virginia around the 287 00:19:30.799 --> 00:19:34.119 same time as that, yeah, you're like twenty. It was like, 288 00:19:36.039 --> 00:19:38.240 so I was like around there, so definitely wasn't in high schools. In 289 00:19:38.279 --> 00:19:41.960 college, everybody was doing stuff around me, and I never forget Like when 290 00:19:41.960 --> 00:19:45.880 my friend would bring my best friend would bring people home, I'd be like, 291 00:19:45.319 --> 00:19:48.319 oh, okay, like, oh you just met him at that party. 292 00:19:48.680 --> 00:19:52.799 Okay, y'all okay, Like it was just so foreign to me. 293 00:19:52.880 --> 00:19:55.240 I was like, Okay, well, she's free, she's lived her life. 294 00:19:55.480 --> 00:19:59.079 And that was the thing, Like I never judged anyone else because like, 295 00:19:59.240 --> 00:20:03.200 everyone's journey is their own. So like, even if I'm like because 296 00:20:03.200 --> 00:20:06.720 of my religious context, like I choose to do live my life a certain 297 00:20:06.759 --> 00:20:08.519 kind of way, I don't ever be like, girl, are you doing 298 00:20:08.599 --> 00:20:11.640 crazy? I just want to make sure, like, hey, you safe. 299 00:20:11.640 --> 00:20:12.680 That's the only thing I was telling you. Wrap it up? Did 300 00:20:12.720 --> 00:20:15.440 you wrap it up? That's all I ask? Be safe, you know, 301 00:20:15.839 --> 00:20:18.000 make sure you don't get no kids or no diseases. You can't get 302 00:20:18.079 --> 00:20:22.839 rid of them, okay, because that's the thing. This new generation, 303 00:20:23.000 --> 00:20:27.000 oh symphilis and all kinds of stuff is running rampant. I'm gonna need y'all 304 00:20:27.079 --> 00:20:33.160 to get y'all lives together. Okay, I'm not telling y'all like uh, 305 00:20:33.599 --> 00:20:36.160 and then maybe a feel like they don't know what a condom is a birth 306 00:20:36.240 --> 00:20:40.359 control. I'd be like, listen, y'all do y'all do well, there's 307 00:20:40.519 --> 00:20:45.559 no sex education. There's all these there's no sex education hardly anywhere anymore. 308 00:20:45.599 --> 00:20:48.559 And the ones that do have it's so bare minimum and they always just preach 309 00:20:48.599 --> 00:20:52.839 abstinence. It's a whole thing. It isn't like I'm gonna tell you like 310 00:20:52.039 --> 00:20:56.319 just someone I'm telling that was nothing that helped me in high school when they 311 00:20:56.359 --> 00:20:59.519 did that a whole lot of time, I don't know if you had this 312 00:21:00.000 --> 00:21:07.519 when they showed all the like goreds and him humanoids but like gross and herpes 313 00:21:07.680 --> 00:21:11.799 there that Yeah. Then when they showed that on someone's balls and then they 314 00:21:11.839 --> 00:21:15.799 were showing it on a girl's genitalia, I was like hell now. And 315 00:21:15.839 --> 00:21:18.599 then I was another thing. I had a very liberal science teacher. I 316 00:21:18.720 --> 00:21:22.039 loved her. She was from England and sure enough, I think it was 317 00:21:22.160 --> 00:21:26.880 ninth grade of tenth grade, and I'm pretty sure it was not school authorized, 318 00:21:26.880 --> 00:21:30.880 but she didn't care. She was definitely in our biology class, our 319 00:21:30.920 --> 00:21:33.319 ap biology class. Featuring a bunch of nerds, which we probably wouldn't get 320 00:21:33.440 --> 00:21:37.279 no play, But I mean it is what it is. I was well 321 00:21:37.319 --> 00:21:40.000 diversified, Like I was one of those people who, like I was smart, 322 00:21:40.079 --> 00:21:41.839 but I also was athletic, so I kind of have friends everywhere. 323 00:21:42.119 --> 00:21:45.319 But that was not the majority of the other kids in the classroom. But 324 00:21:45.440 --> 00:21:51.839 it also helped to be like, yeah, someone who had friends. They 325 00:21:51.839 --> 00:21:55.160 didn't have a lot of friends. But she was telling us, she was 326 00:21:55.200 --> 00:21:56.960 like, turning them lights. She's like when your first self, who were 327 00:21:56.960 --> 00:22:02.000 expence turning them lights. Look that up, look at them balls. You 328 00:22:02.119 --> 00:22:04.119 open her up, you look at her and you see her. She was 329 00:22:04.119 --> 00:22:07.480 like, if you're gonna share your bike with somebody, don't mean being all 330 00:22:07.519 --> 00:22:11.839 shot now acting like you can't look at the genitalia. So like I remember 331 00:22:11.880 --> 00:22:15.000 her saying that, like, listen, if you're gonna be an adult and 332 00:22:15.319 --> 00:22:21.000 have sex, like do adult things, okay, Like you need to look 333 00:22:22.359 --> 00:22:25.839 look all around. Okay, you better put your mouth on something. You 334 00:22:25.920 --> 00:22:29.039 might want to take a quick a few seconds, take a look at the 335 00:22:29.119 --> 00:22:33.960 equipment and make sure not just for size, make sure it's safe. Okay, 336 00:22:33.240 --> 00:22:37.200 listen, And she was like and for people who can't crabs. She 337 00:22:37.279 --> 00:22:40.599 was like, you literally see them. They're literally little crabs. So for 338 00:22:40.680 --> 00:22:44.960 you not to have seen them crabs, you really was being irresponsible with your 339 00:22:45.000 --> 00:22:48.079 life. And I was like, I was never forgetting this food because she 340 00:22:48.119 --> 00:22:49.559 was married to an Asian guy, so her last name was food, but 341 00:22:49.599 --> 00:22:56.880 she was white. But she was like listening. She was like about it 342 00:22:56.039 --> 00:23:00.519 telling us a schooling us about sex. She was like, they're there's no 343 00:23:00.640 --> 00:23:04.039 reason for you to have ScDs and stuff like that. She was like, 344 00:23:04.039 --> 00:23:07.599 you got to be looking around. It's just don't don't be afraid to ask 345 00:23:07.640 --> 00:23:11.680 someone for the papers. That was another thing me less another reason I've not 346 00:23:11.759 --> 00:23:15.039 had a lot of sexual partners because I'd be asking for them papers. Okay, 347 00:23:15.119 --> 00:23:19.160 let me see your last time you was tested. Okay. Yeah. 348 00:23:19.200 --> 00:23:23.160 They don't talk about that, even even in a positive way. They don't 349 00:23:23.200 --> 00:23:29.720 really discuss getting tested very often. Even the more progressive people that I've been 350 00:23:29.759 --> 00:23:33.119 around that that teach about sex or sex sex education, they don't talk about 351 00:23:33.119 --> 00:23:36.799 that enough that you should go get tested and if you are sick, even 352 00:23:36.839 --> 00:23:41.640 if you are safe. Partners like you, my first only said Okay, 353 00:23:41.640 --> 00:23:45.480 cool, guess what I'm gonna need to be because that person probably had two 354 00:23:45.559 --> 00:23:48.119 or three others and it's but people don't think about like you're having sex with 355 00:23:48.160 --> 00:23:52.200 that person. The persons has sex with those people, So you're having sex 356 00:23:52.240 --> 00:23:55.359 with all those other people. It's the eye of multiplier. And when you 357 00:23:55.440 --> 00:23:59.759 get into that numbers game, I'm highly analytical of Minor and acon. Trust 358 00:23:59.799 --> 00:24:03.720 me, you don't want to think about the multiplicity okay, of how many 359 00:24:03.720 --> 00:24:07.079 people you are really having sex with when you have sex with one individual because 360 00:24:07.079 --> 00:24:11.039 their cultures And I'm about to get super sciency on that, Like your's DNA 361 00:24:11.079 --> 00:24:15.240 that's left in you from every time you have sex with someone else. Like 362 00:24:15.319 --> 00:24:19.279 so that's why sometimes some people's babies were having some trace that don't align with 363 00:24:19.319 --> 00:24:25.799 the daddy. You know. Yeah, if you had a lot there's like 364 00:24:25.839 --> 00:24:29.160 a cat like a cat situation, like a cat litters. Yes, you 365 00:24:29.240 --> 00:24:32.640 cat, your cat litters. Okay, you're gonna have some red hair. 366 00:24:32.720 --> 00:24:36.079 You can be like where does red hair come from? Okay, but that's 367 00:24:36.079 --> 00:24:37.319 when then people be like, this ain't my baby. And then you get 368 00:24:37.319 --> 00:24:40.720 a test and you're like, okay, there's my baby. Yeah, but 369 00:24:40.920 --> 00:24:44.920 it's yeah, it's yes, well they're certain like diseases that you can pass 370 00:24:44.960 --> 00:24:48.240 along through sex that you don't even have to have sex to get. Well, 371 00:24:48.279 --> 00:24:51.640 yeah, men are carriers for HPV. Yes, men are carres race 372 00:24:51.680 --> 00:24:53.680 MAB. They're not gonna show it, that's not gonna happen. And so 373 00:24:53.880 --> 00:24:57.640 like a lot of times people don't even know that they're carriers. And that's 374 00:24:57.640 --> 00:25:03.039 why it infects like almost ninety percent of women because and it's so high, 375 00:25:03.039 --> 00:25:06.319 it's so common, so like most likely you have it. I mean like 376 00:25:06.759 --> 00:25:11.079 one of us have it or have half had it and not Noah, like 377 00:25:11.640 --> 00:25:15.279 you like, it's just so common now, Like when it happened to me, 378 00:25:15.359 --> 00:25:18.079 I was just like, oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, and 379 00:25:18.200 --> 00:25:19.359 like because you know, yeah, it says any they were like my doctor 380 00:25:19.440 --> 00:25:22.079 was like you're fine, it's okay, Like it's gonna go away, and 381 00:25:22.640 --> 00:25:26.599 like it's you know, it's the only thing I've ever had, but it's 382 00:25:26.599 --> 00:25:29.599 just like that's something. He was like, it's nine percent of women, 383 00:25:29.759 --> 00:25:33.359 like you would have to be like only have been a virgin and they have 384 00:25:33.440 --> 00:25:37.519 a virgin for your possibility to be so down. And I was just like, 385 00:25:37.599 --> 00:25:41.920 what, well, HPV doesn't go away. Well they say that it 386 00:25:41.039 --> 00:25:45.480 can like it cannot turn into like cancer or whatever. Yeah. Yeah, 387 00:25:45.839 --> 00:25:48.640 yeah, like lays it like lays dormant until Yeah, the potential for it 388 00:25:48.720 --> 00:25:52.039 to turn into something. Said, Yeah, my sister has hpv UM. 389 00:25:52.079 --> 00:25:55.559 I had the shot. I was like young enough to where they came out 390 00:25:55.559 --> 00:25:59.920 that I think it was like the gardens I got the Yeah, it's not 391 00:26:00.000 --> 00:26:03.240 one percent. It doesn't protect from all strains, so keep that in mind. 392 00:26:03.319 --> 00:26:06.039 That's what my doctor said too, because I was like, I got 393 00:26:06.039 --> 00:26:10.039 the garden soil shot. Yeah. Yeah, and there's like three yea, 394 00:26:10.119 --> 00:26:11.720 I got a three. Yeah, I got all three, So it doesn't 395 00:26:11.720 --> 00:26:17.920 protect against all of them. Yeah, out here in these streets, out 396 00:26:17.960 --> 00:26:22.960 here, in these streets, out here in these out here in these streets, 397 00:26:23.119 --> 00:26:26.519 Yeah it is. And so it's just one of those things, like 398 00:26:27.000 --> 00:26:30.000 you know. And then like I was like always thought the stigma of like, 399 00:26:30.039 --> 00:26:33.519 Okay, it has to be someone who's like out there having sex a 400 00:26:33.559 --> 00:26:37.640 lot, and I was like I have under five partners, and like I 401 00:26:38.000 --> 00:26:41.079 I got it. So it's just like one of those things. I was 402 00:26:41.079 --> 00:26:44.799 just like, oh my gosh, this is like so crazy, Like I 403 00:26:44.839 --> 00:26:48.240 can't believe this, but then I was just like, you know what it 404 00:26:48.279 --> 00:26:51.480 is, what it is, and uh you know, and it was in 405 00:26:51.559 --> 00:26:53.599 a consensual like it was a long term relationship in there, like you said, 406 00:26:53.599 --> 00:26:59.440 their carriers and it just like doesn't always show up. So it's just 407 00:26:59.440 --> 00:27:03.119 one of those things. It just well, we had someone on this show. 408 00:27:03.799 --> 00:27:07.119 We had Jennia on the show, and her first time having sex, 409 00:27:07.319 --> 00:27:11.519 she got gnarrha. Yeah. I watched that one and I was just like, 410 00:27:11.559 --> 00:27:15.400 oh my gosh, what like a horrible experience, you know, for 411 00:27:15.440 --> 00:27:18.319 your first time. And I was just like when I had it, I 412 00:27:18.359 --> 00:27:22.079 was just like, oh my gosh, like not guardy, I've only had 413 00:27:22.160 --> 00:27:22.880 HPV. But I was just like when I got it, I was just 414 00:27:22.920 --> 00:27:26.559 like, oh my gosh, people are gonna like think I'm a harlot, 415 00:27:26.559 --> 00:27:33.119 Like think I'm like this. There's like a stigma too, like em yeah, 416 00:27:33.160 --> 00:27:34.160 like there's such a stigma within it. And I was just like, 417 00:27:34.160 --> 00:27:40.839 oh my gosh, I can't believe it's oh no, um, and like 418 00:27:41.079 --> 00:27:42.680 you just start to freak out, but then you're like, Okay, it's 419 00:27:42.799 --> 00:27:47.680 it's not it's not that you know serious and and like even when I was 420 00:27:47.720 --> 00:27:51.400 like sexually active and getting tests. Like I didn't like you have to sometimes 421 00:27:51.440 --> 00:27:55.680 push a doctor, like especially since like I didn't have a lot of sexual 422 00:27:55.720 --> 00:28:00.480 partners um, but like my first partner, he did have a lot of 423 00:28:00.480 --> 00:28:04.000 sexual partners and so like when we broke up due to I thought he was 424 00:28:04.039 --> 00:28:08.119 having infidelity, Like I nearly went and got tested, you know, even 425 00:28:08.119 --> 00:28:12.400 though we were in a long term relationship, and like he was just like, 426 00:28:12.440 --> 00:28:15.960 oh, you've only had one partner. Oh you don't need to get 427 00:28:15.000 --> 00:28:18.079 tested, and I was like, yeah, I want it, and he 428 00:28:18.160 --> 00:28:22.200 was just like, well, sometimes if it's recommended by the doctor, it's 429 00:28:22.240 --> 00:28:25.000 not gonna I was like, I don't care if I have to pay for 430 00:28:25.079 --> 00:28:27.880 it or not. Like I was so shocked that I had to push my 431 00:28:29.000 --> 00:28:34.039 doctor to like run tests for me, you know. I mean as I 432 00:28:34.039 --> 00:28:37.640 got older, most people like will assume you've had things and you're like no, 433 00:28:37.640 --> 00:28:41.480 no, no, I haven't. But like you know, it was 434 00:28:41.519 --> 00:28:42.839 the other way around, Like I had to actually push. I was just 435 00:28:42.920 --> 00:28:45.440 like, you know, I had to like tell him like what all needs 436 00:28:45.480 --> 00:28:49.599 to be rand and everything else, because I was just like I want to 437 00:28:49.599 --> 00:28:55.559 protect myself and I want to protect other people, whof I choose to engage 438 00:28:55.599 --> 00:29:07.799 with Hey, beautiful bitches, have you heard of our Patreon yet? This 439 00:29:07.880 --> 00:29:11.400 is a really great exclusive place where you can get two bonus odes a month, 440 00:29:11.839 --> 00:29:15.400 monthly live streams, a private discord to chat with us, and all 441 00:29:15.519 --> 00:29:18.960 kinds of bonuses and extras. You don't want to miss it, so head 442 00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:22.160 over to Patreon, or you can click the link in a description. You 443 00:29:22.200 --> 00:29:27.440 can even head to our website at www dot Crooked bunnymedia dot com and click 444 00:29:27.480 --> 00:29:32.480 the Bottled Up Bitches icon. Join our Patreon, join the fun and enjoy 445 00:29:32.519 --> 00:29:47.519 all the exclusive benefits to become a very important bitch. Sometimes people don't realize 446 00:29:47.559 --> 00:29:51.480 like sex is like a to me, and then this is this is my 447 00:29:51.599 --> 00:29:55.799 theory in there are people who will disagree and I get it, but I 448 00:29:55.839 --> 00:30:00.839 feel like I've had both sex where it's an emotional true connection and then sex 449 00:30:00.960 --> 00:30:06.559 as an act right like you feel like it's a need and I there's a 450 00:30:06.680 --> 00:30:14.680 definite difference in connection and fulfillment because the end goal really isn't the climax. 451 00:30:14.759 --> 00:30:18.400 The end goal should be really the connection you have with that person, and 452 00:30:18.480 --> 00:30:22.759 that's a whole other experience. When you're able to experience sex on that level. 453 00:30:22.680 --> 00:30:27.799 Um, you you it's like an I don't even know how to explain 454 00:30:27.880 --> 00:30:36.680 it. I always wanted to like the body experience you have, and I 455 00:30:36.759 --> 00:30:40.680 was like able to fill that um with my first sex of person, even 456 00:30:40.720 --> 00:30:44.640 though I went very mind analytical. Once he found out was a virgin, 457 00:30:44.680 --> 00:30:47.839 he like stopped the brakes. And I used to have guys do that to 458 00:30:47.960 --> 00:30:52.720 me. The moment they would be like, like I have guys that were 459 00:30:52.759 --> 00:30:56.119 like the moment they found out I was a virgin, they'd be like, 460 00:30:56.160 --> 00:30:59.000 I have one guy like leap off the couch, like he was all on 461 00:30:59.039 --> 00:31:00.759 the couch on tope. Oh kids, kids, kids, And I was 462 00:31:00.799 --> 00:31:03.920 like, hey, like you know, just so you know, like I'm 463 00:31:03.960 --> 00:31:07.680 a virgin. He was like what he was like, hold on, you're 464 00:31:07.720 --> 00:31:11.880 not joking, and he like leaped off the couch. Um. So like 465 00:31:11.960 --> 00:31:15.160 once I told my first that he was my first, like he was like, 466 00:31:15.200 --> 00:31:18.200 oh no, we gotta slow it down. And so like we began 467 00:31:18.279 --> 00:31:22.440 to like date and he was like because I really like you, and so 468 00:31:22.519 --> 00:31:27.200 like we began the day and like really get to know each other and so 469 00:31:27.240 --> 00:31:33.839 we really got to get to that connection, right, and that was that's 470 00:31:33.920 --> 00:31:36.759 good yeah, I didn't. Yeah. I was like, I was like, 471 00:31:36.799 --> 00:31:38.960 we didn't finish your first Yeah, we didn't. I circle back, 472 00:31:40.039 --> 00:31:42.160 I circle back. See I do that. It's an Oreo cookie of an 473 00:31:42.160 --> 00:31:47.039 episode. It is. Do you guys liked and paste it? Because I'm 474 00:31:47.279 --> 00:31:49.480 you guys got to work cut out for you. I'm serious. So but 475 00:31:49.559 --> 00:31:52.680 that's good though that he was like took that time and was like, well, 476 00:31:52.759 --> 00:31:56.480 let's give you that full experience because I enjoy you as a human. 477 00:31:56.519 --> 00:31:59.440 And it wasn't like a mission of like, Okay, well you just want 478 00:31:59.440 --> 00:32:01.559 to get this done, let's going Yeah, Like he was very sensitive. 479 00:32:02.480 --> 00:32:06.240 Um I kind of looked out like it was kind of like, yeah, 480 00:32:06.279 --> 00:32:09.200 he had kind of gotten brown. That was true because I did ask him 481 00:32:09.279 --> 00:32:13.119 and he was like his number was over one hundred, and I was like, 482 00:32:13.119 --> 00:32:15.440 oh day, how do you even know that was possible? And then 483 00:32:15.480 --> 00:32:17.720 I waited at nineteen and twenty? No, he was older. Oh that 484 00:32:17.839 --> 00:32:22.079 was the other thing. So we worked together. He was ten years my 485 00:32:22.160 --> 00:32:27.200 senior. Okay, yes, that still seems high. I still call it. 486 00:32:28.319 --> 00:32:30.640 He had to divide it by three. Yeah, I got bullshit on 487 00:32:30.720 --> 00:32:36.319 that number. Okay, I don't know, but unless he had a high 488 00:32:36.319 --> 00:32:39.720 paying job and was going out to Vegas every like we could. He could 489 00:32:39.720 --> 00:32:45.640 have been hoing. I mean he also was very well he didn't bring up 490 00:32:45.680 --> 00:32:53.279 those numbers just in college. He was very very well endowed. Um well, 491 00:32:53.759 --> 00:32:57.880 that explains why he wanted to wine and dine you a little bit um 492 00:32:57.960 --> 00:33:02.039 because he's then I'm shocked with that first. Well, just also being older, 493 00:33:02.160 --> 00:33:06.480 like in his thirties, Like I'm sure it was a little I don't 494 00:33:06.480 --> 00:33:07.720 want to say creepy, but kind of like, okay, well I've got 495 00:33:07.759 --> 00:33:15.039 this young younger than me personally, I don't want this to be like he 496 00:33:15.119 --> 00:33:17.359 was quite weird eight years my senior. He was like eight years my senior. 497 00:33:17.480 --> 00:33:21.440 Okay, like still, so he was like eight years my senior, 498 00:33:22.200 --> 00:33:24.519 and he was a lot older, and so like he was like he winded 499 00:33:24.680 --> 00:33:30.000 on and like girl, there was like so much dry humping at first, 500 00:33:30.039 --> 00:33:34.599 like he was really just kind of like working in and all this other kind 501 00:33:34.599 --> 00:33:37.640 of stuff. So like we didn't just that's the best part. It was 502 00:33:37.960 --> 00:33:39.759 like it was so good, like even so good about that. He was 503 00:33:39.799 --> 00:33:45.559 really good for a play, which made it harder for my other sexual experiences 504 00:33:45.599 --> 00:33:52.559 because nobody takes their time or knows how to. And some people think just 505 00:33:52.640 --> 00:33:58.880 because they got a big slung that that's all you need. Like some people 506 00:33:58.920 --> 00:34:00.480 just speaking, you just pounded out, and I'm like, no, that's 507 00:34:00.519 --> 00:34:06.880 not enough. Like I like, he was so good at four play. 508 00:34:07.079 --> 00:34:12.800 He was so good at four play. And we had the like Karma Sutra. 509 00:34:12.920 --> 00:34:16.599 He was like all about like trying new things. Say we had the 510 00:34:16.679 --> 00:34:21.760 Karma suit. Yes, like we had the Karma Sutra of things. Like 511 00:34:21.920 --> 00:34:27.880 I would say he was my when it came to sexual positions and things like 512 00:34:27.920 --> 00:34:29.920 that, like it was at my soul person. Like I said, we 513 00:34:29.920 --> 00:34:35.199 were together for a while. Um, so it wasn't like mam bam, 514 00:34:35.239 --> 00:34:37.599 thank you ma'am or anything like that. Like we were together for a while 515 00:34:38.920 --> 00:34:42.280 and we were always on and off. I always circle back to him. 516 00:34:42.280 --> 00:34:46.280 That's another thing. Uh. He was always someone that I was on and 517 00:34:46.280 --> 00:34:51.400 off again with him for like over ten years and then oh my god, 518 00:34:51.480 --> 00:34:54.760 yeah, like on and off again, continue to circle back to him. 519 00:34:54.960 --> 00:34:59.679 And at first I thought I was like we ended it because I was so 520 00:34:59.760 --> 00:35:04.639 young and I was like developing things. And then also I had adopted my 521 00:35:04.800 --> 00:35:08.559 nieces in the meantime, like I was very young and my sister had passed 522 00:35:08.559 --> 00:35:12.280 away, and so I was like kind of zoned in on trying to be 523 00:35:12.320 --> 00:35:16.400 a mother and like so I stopped living my crazy college life and was you 524 00:35:16.440 --> 00:35:21.719 know, instead of going to bubble parties, I was going to pta parties. 525 00:35:21.760 --> 00:35:25.719 So like that. Also, I have a very interesting sexual experience where 526 00:35:25.719 --> 00:35:29.920 it's like I would go years without having sex and then with have sex, 527 00:35:29.960 --> 00:35:32.280 like it was it wasn't like right on top of it, like which is 528 00:35:32.320 --> 00:35:37.760 why I have like under five people and I'm about to get married. So 529 00:35:37.760 --> 00:35:40.280 so and I would always kind of circle back to him because I would thought 530 00:35:40.320 --> 00:35:44.599 like he was going to be the person like you know, like that person 531 00:35:44.719 --> 00:35:47.079 you have that special connection with. And it was so crazy, Like my 532 00:35:47.119 --> 00:35:52.800 first experience with him, he was so tender and it was like on my 533 00:35:52.920 --> 00:35:59.280 birthday and and like he was so big. It actually didn't go in so 534 00:35:59.440 --> 00:36:04.480 technically kind of took the next morning, like um, it was like he 535 00:36:04.599 --> 00:36:07.519 was going slow. He was like you on the little finger thing, but 536 00:36:07.639 --> 00:36:10.800 it was just so tight, like it just he was so big too. 537 00:36:12.119 --> 00:36:14.360 That was just like it kind of hurt. He was trying to stick it 538 00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:16.440 in and was like oh, like owt like it was. It was like 539 00:36:16.679 --> 00:36:20.159 and then I ain't gonna lie. At one point I think we were we 540 00:36:20.199 --> 00:36:22.119 had gotten so much in before play and stuff like that I fell asleep, 541 00:36:22.119 --> 00:36:25.559 girl, I think I totally fell asleep on him trying to have sex like 542 00:36:25.639 --> 00:36:29.960 that was my first time, Like so I felt so bad. I woke 543 00:36:30.039 --> 00:36:32.280 up and I was like, crap, like this is your first time. 544 00:36:32.360 --> 00:36:37.000 You fall asleep, Like that's bad trying to get it in and so like 545 00:36:37.159 --> 00:36:40.239 I go, I like get up. I like, I'm like, because 546 00:36:40.280 --> 00:36:44.280 like this cannot be your first time, like you're kind of work this out. 547 00:36:44.719 --> 00:36:49.480 So like I kind of like loosened myself up and then like I hadn't 548 00:36:49.559 --> 00:36:52.440 like gone down anyone, and I was just like maybe that'll help with a 549 00:36:52.519 --> 00:36:55.880 did figure out like that gets me off, and because like seeing them get 550 00:36:55.960 --> 00:37:00.559 up, oh, I was like, you know what, we're just gonna 551 00:37:00.599 --> 00:37:02.119 try a sucking dick. We're gonna try it. I never did it, 552 00:37:02.159 --> 00:37:07.159 but we're gonna try it. So I like go after it and just like 553 00:37:07.239 --> 00:37:09.719 kind of seeing it and looking at it because I guess I did turn the 554 00:37:09.800 --> 00:37:14.360 lights and you know, look at it and all that. Like my high 555 00:37:14.400 --> 00:37:20.719 school taught me, you look that suck up over okay, And so I 556 00:37:21.320 --> 00:37:23.119 grabbed it and it's like it's even with two hands, like there was still 557 00:37:23.199 --> 00:37:25.960 like room like so I was just like, oh my gosh, like I'm 558 00:37:27.000 --> 00:37:30.920 gonna choke on this thing. It was long, like it was over twelve 559 00:37:30.960 --> 00:37:37.800 inches like I it's like I can't make this up. Like eventually a porn 560 00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:40.960 star. Yes, my first time was with like a porn star. Kid 561 00:37:42.000 --> 00:37:45.360 you not um And I asked him. I was like he was like, 562 00:37:45.440 --> 00:37:47.360 yeah, he did an audition once before. Like that's what I'm saying, 563 00:37:47.519 --> 00:37:52.320 like stop, yes, yes, okay, so yes he would. He 564 00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:58.519 had porn star swan okay. And I do remember that because coaching myself up 565 00:37:58.679 --> 00:38:00.320 to get ready for it, I did watch some porn because I was like, 566 00:38:00.599 --> 00:38:05.400 I don't want to be completely coolest, so I watched them porn again 567 00:38:05.639 --> 00:38:08.840 very analytical mind to prep for myself. I also researched some Koma sutra and 568 00:38:08.960 --> 00:38:14.679 was looking at all the positions and I glad I looked at positions for big 569 00:38:14.719 --> 00:38:19.639 ones and small ones because there are different ways to have sex with karmasa to 570 00:38:19.800 --> 00:38:22.840 help you with big dicks versus small dicks and I will be the first to 571 00:38:22.960 --> 00:38:29.119 tell you size is not fucking matter because some of my best sex came from 572 00:38:29.119 --> 00:38:31.400 the smallest dick guy. It was just in their six inches, like he 573 00:38:31.519 --> 00:38:35.039 was like he wouldn't even average, he was a little bit on the average. 574 00:38:35.039 --> 00:38:37.559 It was the only white guy ever had sex with. But I will 575 00:38:37.639 --> 00:38:40.599 say it was good. I know we're going back to my first time, 576 00:38:40.679 --> 00:38:45.239 but first time, no, I love it. I'm good. But the 577 00:38:45.320 --> 00:38:49.760 positions is so true. There's certain positions that I can't do with Adam because 578 00:38:49.760 --> 00:38:52.880 he's just so bid. I'm telling you, like, there's some positions that 579 00:38:52.960 --> 00:38:57.239 I really can't like do with some people because it hurts. I'd be like, 580 00:38:57.320 --> 00:39:00.960 listen, I'm like that's all. Yeah, I do it. I 581 00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:04.159 feel it, and it's not that kind of I feel it, okay, 582 00:39:04.199 --> 00:39:07.920 Like this does not feel good and yeah if I feel it in myself, 583 00:39:07.000 --> 00:39:13.840 yeah, like this was not okay. And um so like I like so 584 00:39:13.920 --> 00:39:15.440 I was like, you know what, like I remember from the commentation book, 585 00:39:15.480 --> 00:39:20.199 like you can get up on top of like put your feet on their 586 00:39:20.320 --> 00:39:24.760 legs and kind of like sit and do reverse cow girl. So it's kind 587 00:39:24.760 --> 00:39:30.039 of like that's very that's a very porn star style move and listen. I 588 00:39:30.079 --> 00:39:32.840 told you I had research. I was ready. It is so big, 589 00:39:32.880 --> 00:39:37.480 but guess what, I could control the movement me being on top because he 590 00:39:37.519 --> 00:39:40.039 was trying to be on top, and so me being on top, I 591 00:39:40.079 --> 00:39:43.960 said, I can't get in it. I was like okay. Then I 592 00:39:44.079 --> 00:39:49.119 like turned around like a little helicopter and did like the little I mean like 593 00:39:49.159 --> 00:39:52.039 it did because it was big, so I can work. So I did 594 00:39:52.039 --> 00:39:54.239 a little turnaround like you know, a little swibble, the little swibble, 595 00:39:55.039 --> 00:39:59.119 and it was like going out And it was at first I thought he was 596 00:39:59.159 --> 00:40:00.599 like acting on weird. I was like, what is he doing? Like 597 00:40:00.639 --> 00:40:04.760 again, I'm figuring this shit out right, So I'm like, why is 598 00:40:04.800 --> 00:40:06.599 he act like this? I'm like, oh am I hurt him and I 599 00:40:06.639 --> 00:40:08.559 was like stop. He was like no. He like grabbed me and pushed 600 00:40:08.599 --> 00:40:12.719 me down. He was like don't you ever stop? Like I was like, 601 00:40:12.760 --> 00:40:15.800 oh okay. Oh. I was like, oh so I'm good at 602 00:40:15.840 --> 00:40:19.840 this. Okay cool. So I was like yes, I was riding them 603 00:40:19.840 --> 00:40:22.039 and stuff like that. But then I was like because he had taken off 604 00:40:22.039 --> 00:40:25.599 the coldom and I was like, whoa, don't eat babies? We don't 605 00:40:25.599 --> 00:40:29.599 so like I because I remember I got he had tried to us the commum 606 00:40:29.599 --> 00:40:30.559 snap put him out, and I was like, oh, snap, we 607 00:40:30.559 --> 00:40:32.760 don't have the condom on. I didn't even I was like, no, 608 00:40:32.760 --> 00:40:37.119 no, no, I gotta you gotta stop, sir, we gotta stop. 609 00:40:37.280 --> 00:40:39.320 And I was like so panicked because I was like new at sex. 610 00:40:39.559 --> 00:40:43.480 I went and got a plan B that very next like that same day, 611 00:40:43.519 --> 00:40:45.320 like I was just try. I was like, I don't even know. 612 00:40:45.480 --> 00:40:49.360 I don't even think you came, but like we stopped and he was like, 613 00:40:49.360 --> 00:40:50.960 I don't even come. I was like, I don't care. I 614 00:40:50.960 --> 00:40:55.400 heard about prejaculation, sir, I'm definitely getting this san b And so yes, 615 00:40:55.599 --> 00:41:01.719 that was one of um many plans. We love a plan like even 616 00:41:01.800 --> 00:41:06.239 like like especially like when you get in a long relationship, it's a bad 617 00:41:06.280 --> 00:41:09.360 thing. Don't like anybody listening to this, don't be me. Okay in 618 00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:13.679 college where like you with someone for a long time, so you're like, 619 00:41:13.679 --> 00:41:15.000 oh, it's get it for a long time. Let's just take it off. 620 00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.880 No, keep it on, girl, because it's also helps with no 621 00:41:17.960 --> 00:41:22.440 babies, okay. And at one point, yeah, I was eating playing 622 00:41:22.480 --> 00:41:25.679 beings like the the skittles, okay, and so that is not okay, 623 00:41:25.840 --> 00:41:29.199 that's not okay. Don't be doing that with your life. It'll mess up 624 00:41:29.239 --> 00:41:31.920 your hormones too, girl, don't do it. Okay, it's not it's 625 00:41:31.960 --> 00:41:37.400 expected. It was sitting there negative my bank account, girl, okay, 626 00:41:37.519 --> 00:41:43.239 going negative in my bank account for irresponsibility. And then I started having a 627 00:41:43.280 --> 00:41:45.880 system. Girl, this is this is bad okay, because you would have 628 00:41:46.000 --> 00:41:50.480 like three days right like where you supposed to like from unprotected sex. So 629 00:41:50.519 --> 00:41:53.920 then I would try to have as much sex in those three days unprotected so 630 00:41:54.119 --> 00:41:58.639 that way I could take the pill. At the end. It was bad, 631 00:41:58.760 --> 00:42:01.000 like it was a bad like she said, I'm gonna get my money's 632 00:42:01.039 --> 00:42:05.840 worth. Yeah, Like I'm gonna get my money's worth. Okay, We're 633 00:42:05.840 --> 00:42:09.199 gonna kill all these future babies, okay when I take the pill in three 634 00:42:09.280 --> 00:42:13.119 days, so we would be back to back to bay, Okay, I'm 635 00:42:13.159 --> 00:42:15.559 like you need to come over, like you get that pill tomorrow, okay, 636 00:42:15.599 --> 00:42:17.800 because after this I'd be like, okay, we're not gonna do that 637 00:42:17.880 --> 00:42:21.119 no more. And then I would like to go back to the condom and 638 00:42:21.119 --> 00:42:25.000 then like you know, one day and we just had the one time I 639 00:42:25.039 --> 00:42:29.440 went we had sex and then after the fact we realized the condom was gone. 640 00:42:29.440 --> 00:42:32.480 The condom was just in me and at some point had come off and 641 00:42:32.519 --> 00:42:36.079 when she's getting jammed all up in me. So I was like, well, 642 00:42:37.239 --> 00:42:39.920 that wasn't contained. So we got we got me a plan B for 643 00:42:39.960 --> 00:42:45.559 this. Like I said, like me, now, like what is that? 644 00:42:45.559 --> 00:42:47.440 That is a system. I'll tell you what not not a not a 645 00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:51.239 responsible one, but you were getting your money's worth. Yeah, I was 646 00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:54.440 that's some that's some young behavior. I love that I was a young I 647 00:42:54.480 --> 00:42:58.880 didn't even do that stuff after college and it was only with my first But 648 00:42:59.000 --> 00:43:00.400 like I was like, well, I mean tankled Eve in a long term 649 00:43:00.400 --> 00:43:02.480 relationship. I was like, yeah, but you don't want no kids right 650 00:43:02.480 --> 00:43:06.400 now and you already taking care of two kids, Like you don't even be 651 00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:09.280 doing that girl, Like listen, this is hard enough with the two that 652 00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:16.400 you've adopted, let alone having another one. And um, so yeah, 653 00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:21.320 you know, Lord was looking after me or I don't know. I don't 654 00:43:21.320 --> 00:43:23.119 know if I should say that was the Lord, but yeah, I was 655 00:43:23.119 --> 00:43:29.480 just working the system. Coco was looking out for Coco. Okay, Cocoa 656 00:43:29.679 --> 00:43:35.960 was definitely looking out for cocoa in those moments. Um and yeah, then 657 00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:38.440 like you know, that was my first time I was thinking. And then 658 00:43:38.559 --> 00:43:44.079 like a white boy who was like really all about the motion of the ocean, 659 00:43:44.599 --> 00:43:46.719 That's what taught me. I was just like he was, like I 660 00:43:46.760 --> 00:43:52.760 would say the first was like really had a you know, had the equipment 661 00:43:52.960 --> 00:43:57.920 and for a play, but because of the one that didn't have you know, 662 00:43:58.000 --> 00:44:01.920 the large equipment, he was so good at for play, like, 663 00:44:02.480 --> 00:44:07.920 oh, I'm sure took it there. He would get immensely good. I 664 00:44:08.000 --> 00:44:14.159 mean like we would have sex and like the most crazy places. I mean 665 00:44:14.360 --> 00:44:17.199 it was exciting, like that was the first time with me experiment with Crotcho's 666 00:44:17.199 --> 00:44:23.440 paints. I will say white people are more sexually adventurous than black people, 667 00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:29.599 okay, because like they be like black guys be like, you know, 668 00:44:29.679 --> 00:44:31.280 I ain't with it. They don't want to bring toys in. They'd be 669 00:44:31.320 --> 00:44:36.559 thinking it doesn't compensate sometimes for like them. And I'm like, white guy 670 00:44:36.639 --> 00:44:39.519 was all about toys and everything like let's let's get it all in here, 671 00:44:39.639 --> 00:44:44.440 okay. And I was like, okay, okay. He was a football 672 00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:49.559 player and it was purely like for you know that, but he was cool, 673 00:44:49.599 --> 00:44:51.800 Like he was cool. He was cool. People ain't gonna lie. 674 00:44:52.280 --> 00:44:53.880 Um, I still charged him to do his homework. That is not on 675 00:44:53.960 --> 00:45:00.079 the record, but uh, but uh that like he was actually something I 676 00:45:00.079 --> 00:45:06.280 was tutoring at the time. And so oh yeah, But why do you 677 00:45:06.320 --> 00:45:10.920 think that? Why do you think there's a difference in like someone introducing toys 678 00:45:12.039 --> 00:45:15.880 or being more intimidated by them, or being more slowly focused on for play, 679 00:45:15.960 --> 00:45:17.239 Like why do you think that they're such a different because of ego? 680 00:45:17.719 --> 00:45:22.320 I think a lot of times like people feel like or you know, I 681 00:45:22.400 --> 00:45:25.119 feel I've seen like I've only said I've only had sex with like a black 682 00:45:25.159 --> 00:45:30.280 and a white guy. But but I would say, like the difference between 683 00:45:30.360 --> 00:45:32.880 black men and white men, it's like they're not intimidated like ego wise, 684 00:45:32.960 --> 00:45:37.679 like they don't feel like it's taken away from what they're bringing to the table. 685 00:45:38.480 --> 00:45:43.039 And I feel like in the black community, it's kind of like they 686 00:45:43.079 --> 00:45:45.320 feel like, oh, I'm less than in You're trying to say I can't 687 00:45:45.360 --> 00:45:49.920 please you, I can't provide for you. And it's not that it's just 688 00:45:49.960 --> 00:45:54.360 adding another element like but like they're all about you trying to like dress up 689 00:45:54.360 --> 00:46:00.960 as a naughty nurse or being their favorite football jersey, or like they want 690 00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:05.280 you to dress up as a police officer. Like it's all I feel like 691 00:46:05.280 --> 00:46:09.639 it's more on the woman in the black community right than I would say, 692 00:46:09.679 --> 00:46:14.519 like what I've experienced, Like I'm not speaking for everybody, like doing a 693 00:46:14.519 --> 00:46:20.320 white come at me, don't be in the comments, but I will say 694 00:46:20.360 --> 00:46:22.400 what I was with a white guy. It was just much more intentive, 695 00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:31.199 um on my pleasure and making sure I climaxed. And it was like it 696 00:46:31.239 --> 00:46:37.800 was just more adventurous, like I tried things that were a lot more kinky 697 00:46:37.079 --> 00:46:43.760 but action okay. Definitely happened with the white guy. And I mean he 698 00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:45.480 was all about he ate the groceries. Girl. I was I have never 699 00:46:45.519 --> 00:46:51.679 found anybody else to eat the groceries besides him, okay. And it was 700 00:46:51.719 --> 00:46:55.679 a hell of experience. I loved it. I like climaxed off of that. 701 00:46:55.800 --> 00:47:00.199 I was like, I did not what shut this is. It was 702 00:47:00.239 --> 00:47:02.960 like, oh, another experience, like I had to I had a body 703 00:47:04.000 --> 00:47:07.159 experience. I was like, oh, like when he ate the groceries, 704 00:47:07.199 --> 00:47:12.760 okay, okay, it was all about it. So it's always the guys 705 00:47:12.760 --> 00:47:19.079 that are either that are smaller or guys that are new that are the most 706 00:47:19.159 --> 00:47:22.880 excited and most willing to try everything and anything. So like I always laugh 707 00:47:22.920 --> 00:47:25.360 and make fun of Adam because like the first time we had sex, he 708 00:47:25.440 --> 00:47:30.079 immediately try to go down on me and I was like, what are you 709 00:47:30.119 --> 00:47:31.400 doing? What do you do? We're not doing all this and he's like, 710 00:47:31.440 --> 00:47:35.639 yes, we are. And I was like, sir, this is 711 00:47:35.679 --> 00:47:37.199 our first time having sex, Like we're going to do that as well, 712 00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:39.920 Like I was the way he didn't ask me. It was just like, 713 00:47:39.960 --> 00:47:44.920 this is happening now. I was so baffled. And it's so funny because 714 00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:47.280 I feel like in all my other relationships it like we would have sex for 715 00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:51.199 a while and it kind of like worked up to oral when it came to 716 00:47:51.239 --> 00:47:52.880 me. Of course, oral from me is always like oh, I go, 717 00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:58.880 why is that? Why is it that? But yeah, like it's 718 00:47:58.960 --> 00:48:05.119 kind of experienced, gave a blow job. It's like maybe if I feel 719 00:48:05.199 --> 00:48:07.440 like it, like excuse me, well, I would say, Like my 720 00:48:07.440 --> 00:48:09.960 first experience, he was very giving. He was all about the oral and 721 00:48:10.000 --> 00:48:13.119 also he like did that to help. I think it was because you know, 722 00:48:13.159 --> 00:48:15.599 I was a virgin, so he needed to like you know, open 723 00:48:15.719 --> 00:48:19.880 up that or whatever. Um. But like yeah, like there was one 724 00:48:19.880 --> 00:48:22.559 guy who was like, absolutely, I will never go down on a girl. 725 00:48:22.599 --> 00:48:27.079 I don't do it. And but you're, yeah, like I had 726 00:48:27.119 --> 00:48:30.119 one guy he was he had a big one, but he was African, 727 00:48:30.679 --> 00:48:37.000 so I don't know that's different, but he was African and he absolutely refused 728 00:48:37.119 --> 00:48:39.760 to go down on any girl. Like he was like, I don't do 729 00:48:39.800 --> 00:48:45.440 it. I don't do that. Um, that's just it. And I 730 00:48:45.559 --> 00:48:51.559 was like what I was like for real? And I was like, I 731 00:48:51.639 --> 00:48:54.639 was like, that's you know, kind of like I found that I liked 732 00:48:54.719 --> 00:49:00.760 coming that way better than penetration. I am more of a girl who comes 733 00:49:00.800 --> 00:49:05.960 better from oral than that comes from penetration. You like me, We're most 734 00:49:05.960 --> 00:49:09.360 women are external comers. We need clotortal stimulants in order to work out. 735 00:49:09.440 --> 00:49:14.679 Yeah, So I mean I've come by penetration, but far more times for 736 00:49:14.880 --> 00:49:20.559 quantity I've come from with someone giving me oral. And so I was just 737 00:49:20.599 --> 00:49:23.119 like, I don't know, but I really really liked him. And he 738 00:49:23.159 --> 00:49:29.880 spoke French, and I was like, so I kind of was like I 739 00:49:29.960 --> 00:49:35.039 guess, but like only because you were like really cute, and I really 740 00:49:35.079 --> 00:49:37.639 like you and I'm trying to make this work. And I really liked him, 741 00:49:37.679 --> 00:49:43.360 and he had like the mental stimulation. He was smart, and it 742 00:49:43.519 --> 00:49:46.760 was just fun and interesting and new and I'm that person like shiny new object 743 00:49:49.000 --> 00:49:52.159 and like if you come in something original, like just like your life experience 744 00:49:52.199 --> 00:49:55.519 and how you tell me about what life was back home and stuff like that. 745 00:49:55.559 --> 00:50:00.320 And I was like, Okay, he's really smart, he's all these 746 00:50:00.360 --> 00:50:06.000 cultural experiences and um, like we really connected on a lot of other things, 747 00:50:06.039 --> 00:50:07.800 and so I was like, okay, okay, I guess we can 748 00:50:07.880 --> 00:50:16.400 deal with this. But it just like did not work out sexually. So 749 00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:20.960 when we finally came down to it, like the kissing and everything, you 750 00:50:20.960 --> 00:50:22.920 know, I always started because like again, I was a slow burner. 751 00:50:22.960 --> 00:50:29.280 I had to be someone who's physical connected and wanted to actually have sex with, 752 00:50:29.440 --> 00:50:35.880 just like my husband. And so like whenever sexual size football player, 753 00:50:35.960 --> 00:50:37.960 white guy, everyone else was like the intention of Like, Okay, I 754 00:50:38.000 --> 00:50:42.000 thought I was gonna get married because I was even engaged to the my first 755 00:50:42.119 --> 00:50:45.239 at one point. Oh wow, So I was engaged to my one that 756 00:50:45.360 --> 00:50:50.800 was my first, but the next guy, like you know. I just 757 00:50:50.960 --> 00:50:53.119 was like, okay, like I think, you know, this is someone 758 00:50:53.159 --> 00:50:57.000 I want to marry. So every time I like had sex, it was 759 00:50:57.039 --> 00:51:04.440 like marriage was stuck in my head too, like okay, and so I 760 00:51:02.440 --> 00:51:07.920 uh like eventually we would. Then she moved up to sex and like the 761 00:51:08.039 --> 00:51:12.840 sex was horrible. He had a big one, like very big, almost 762 00:51:12.800 --> 00:51:15.199 told interest too, like people say, I kind of I'm like the big 763 00:51:15.239 --> 00:51:19.199 dick magnet or whatever, because like but I was like that had a white 764 00:51:19.199 --> 00:51:21.519 guy who had this small but they were like all the other dicks were huge. 765 00:51:21.559 --> 00:51:23.360 Girl, Like you don't got no size eights. You be getting all 766 00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:27.679 these big ones, right, so yeah, you're not getting any of the 767 00:51:27.679 --> 00:51:32.400 average king I didn't get. I get extremes apparently, like with my personality, 768 00:51:32.440 --> 00:51:37.840 Okay, either I'm real quiet or I'm real lab so um so like 769 00:51:37.920 --> 00:51:39.840 yeah, I guess the streams in my sexual experience too, like when it 770 00:51:40.320 --> 00:51:44.679 with equipment, so like he had a really big one, but it was 771 00:51:44.719 --> 00:51:49.159 just like it was just pounding and it was just there and I really liked 772 00:51:49.280 --> 00:51:52.480 him. And then like someone helped, but it just wasn't anhing. It 773 00:51:52.519 --> 00:51:55.000 was just I was just trying. And then like this was the time in 774 00:51:55.039 --> 00:52:00.119 my life that I was all about making sure I pleased the guy and and 775 00:52:00.159 --> 00:52:02.480 so like I would do all the fake noises. Women, don't do it 776 00:52:02.559 --> 00:52:07.119 like you're not helping yourself. Don't don't fake it, like I was faking 777 00:52:07.199 --> 00:52:15.000 it every single time we had sex, Like every time I never came it 778 00:52:15.119 --> 00:52:19.519 was I just did it just because it pleased him. And like I just 779 00:52:19.559 --> 00:52:22.920 realized, like it's like sexually like shucks would be more like my first way. 780 00:52:22.920 --> 00:52:27.719 It was like an emotional connection and we felt good to me and to 781 00:52:27.880 --> 00:52:35.480 him, and I found myself faking it like to make it like work, 782 00:52:35.760 --> 00:52:37.599 you know, Like I was like yeah, and then I just came back 783 00:52:37.639 --> 00:52:42.880 to and I was just like this can't be. It like this really it 784 00:52:42.920 --> 00:52:46.199 can't be. And like then I just also like I was just like, 785 00:52:46.360 --> 00:52:52.880 do you I realized that it was more of a infatuation, like the fact 786 00:52:52.880 --> 00:52:54.719 that he was new, he spoke French and all of that. And the 787 00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:58.079 more I got to know him, the more you get to really know something, 788 00:52:58.079 --> 00:53:00.920 you're like, Okay, I really don't like you and I don't like 789 00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:05.119 what you're stand for. And uh so after that, I was just like 790 00:53:05.119 --> 00:53:07.760 it's bad sex, he's not as great as a person I am, so 791 00:53:07.840 --> 00:53:09.800 like I was just I mean, not as me, but like as I 792 00:53:09.840 --> 00:53:14.840 thought he was. And I was just like okay, just that surface level. 793 00:53:15.000 --> 00:53:20.079 Yeah, because I was known for that because like you gotta understand, 794 00:53:20.119 --> 00:53:22.599 like I was a girl who did in date really at all in high school. 795 00:53:22.679 --> 00:53:25.239 So I would have always like these little crushes in high school, but 796 00:53:25.239 --> 00:53:30.719 I never really acted on it um and actually like when and I was known 797 00:53:30.760 --> 00:53:36.360 for that, Like so I had there was this guy major crush on him, 798 00:53:36.480 --> 00:53:39.199 like since I was in middle school, and like he was like the 799 00:53:39.400 --> 00:53:44.039 guy okay, like he was the guy that had like he was just a 800 00:53:44.159 --> 00:53:50.960 date prom queens and like one of his girls was like miss teen Oklahoma. 801 00:53:51.079 --> 00:53:54.719 And I remember I was like so infatuating everybody's just like he was white, 802 00:53:55.239 --> 00:54:00.440 and I remember like everyone was like constitutents a little chocolate girl. He ain't 803 00:54:00.440 --> 00:54:04.719 read about you like you're black, like no, and like he only dates 804 00:54:04.760 --> 00:54:08.639 like blonde girls with blue eyes and stuff like that. I never forget, 805 00:54:08.840 --> 00:54:13.800 like you know, I started to come into my own as I got older. 806 00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:15.719 Yeah, and then like when I finally got the chance, like he 807 00:54:15.800 --> 00:54:21.400 started liking me back I'll never forget this. And it was like our senior 808 00:54:21.519 --> 00:54:27.239 year of high school and finally came around. He started firing liking me. 809 00:54:27.440 --> 00:54:30.800 We were kicking in and cool. He went in for a kiss, and 810 00:54:30.840 --> 00:54:34.800 I realized, like, oh, I really don't like you, Like it 811 00:54:34.880 --> 00:54:37.800 was more of a conquest. I think it was more because people said I 812 00:54:37.840 --> 00:54:43.239 couldn't do it that like I was like even more gone ho unproving that I 813 00:54:43.280 --> 00:54:45.159 could. And then when I got out, I realized it was more of 814 00:54:45.199 --> 00:54:49.159 a conquest, which is so bad. Like also, people don't do that, 815 00:54:49.199 --> 00:54:51.599 like really figure out you. Like it was more because, like I 816 00:54:51.639 --> 00:54:54.039 feel like it was like something that I couldn't have. And I realized in 817 00:54:54.119 --> 00:54:59.199 life, if people said I couldn't accomplish something, that's like the easiest way 818 00:54:59.199 --> 00:55:02.239 to make sure I do accomplish it. Like I remember someone telling me like 819 00:55:02.400 --> 00:55:06.639 I'm never his brother said he was kind of you know, I'm not gonna 820 00:55:06.679 --> 00:55:08.360 say that, but his brother told me I was never gonna make as much 821 00:55:08.400 --> 00:55:14.760 money as him, like he's and I was just like huh. And like 822 00:55:15.000 --> 00:55:16.119 I remember him telling me that when we were in school, and he was 823 00:55:16.159 --> 00:55:17.960 like, you know, just like what I want to do in life and 824 00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:22.159 I'm gonna be making really good money to that. And I just remember saying 825 00:55:22.440 --> 00:55:25.480 I'm going to prove him wrong and then like I worked myself up to where 826 00:55:25.480 --> 00:55:29.039 I'm at now, and I'm like, yeah, I definitely know if I 827 00:55:29.039 --> 00:55:31.679 showed him my tax returns, I would probably definitely be trumping him. But 828 00:55:31.800 --> 00:55:35.239 it's like, Okay, it's just like one of those things, like I'm 829 00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:38.039 one of those people who just like I set a goal, I would create 830 00:55:38.079 --> 00:55:42.920 my vision boards I execute, so like that was the thing, Like it 831 00:55:42.960 --> 00:55:45.280 was like shiny new objects. You tell me I can't have you, I'm 832 00:55:45.320 --> 00:55:50.760 gonna get you. So you're definitely a for science kind of gal. If 833 00:55:50.760 --> 00:55:53.280 there's anything I can ever gather about you, is you are a for science, 834 00:55:53.440 --> 00:55:58.480 Like for science. I'm gonna look everything up about sex for science. 835 00:55:58.519 --> 00:56:01.840 I'm going to I'm going to make him like me for science, Like I'm 836 00:56:01.840 --> 00:56:05.880 going to figure this out. I just think you are you are so type 837 00:56:05.880 --> 00:56:08.519 am. I think you're a for science girly and I love that about you. 838 00:56:08.719 --> 00:56:14.119 Yes, and I definitely say that like a force of nature. I'm 839 00:56:14.159 --> 00:56:16.679 like, yes, I'm going to push through. But I've always been analytical 840 00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:21.840 and I've always I don't know, I've always been able to be analytical but 841 00:56:21.880 --> 00:56:24.079 also be personal. And that's the one thing I realized, like some of 842 00:56:24.119 --> 00:56:28.639 my colleagues or like some of the people I went to college with and stuff 843 00:56:28.679 --> 00:56:31.280 like that, I realized, like they were analytical, but their personal skills 844 00:56:31.280 --> 00:56:35.639 need some help. I was like, I'm gonna need you to be more 845 00:56:35.719 --> 00:56:38.559 personal. Like you realize you were talking to someone right now, like you 846 00:56:38.840 --> 00:56:42.679 don't just tell them they're an idiot and they don't know any better, you 847 00:56:42.719 --> 00:56:46.519 know. So that was one of the things. But it was that I 848 00:56:46.559 --> 00:56:51.400 feel like that kind of hurt me in my dating life because I am a 849 00:56:51.440 --> 00:56:55.880 force of nature and so sometimes people would try to like make me small and 850 00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:00.639 I would be like, I'm not doing that, except for like when I 851 00:57:00.679 --> 00:57:02.679 really like someone where I was like faking it in sect and I was like, 852 00:57:04.079 --> 00:57:05.920 then I realized. I was like I can't do this. Like I 853 00:57:05.960 --> 00:57:07.039 was sitting there and I was like, I can't do this. I'm not 854 00:57:07.079 --> 00:57:12.760 happy, this is not okay. And so I was just like, there 855 00:57:12.760 --> 00:57:15.800 we are, this is where we're at, you know, Like I just 856 00:57:15.920 --> 00:57:20.920 told myself. I was like, you know, the next time I really 857 00:57:20.960 --> 00:57:24.039 want something true because in between, this first guy was always cycling back or 858 00:57:24.039 --> 00:57:30.199 whatever through So then I got back with my first but then like I was 859 00:57:30.239 --> 00:57:35.039 just like I was like, yeah, that's I'm gonna circle back to him. 860 00:57:35.840 --> 00:57:38.559 And I was like, I'm older, I'm older, and I can 861 00:57:38.760 --> 00:57:43.360 I can do this, you know. But then I got older and saw 862 00:57:43.400 --> 00:57:47.599 the bs eventually later in life. But yeah, that's one of my favorite 863 00:57:47.599 --> 00:57:52.440 pieces of advice that someone has given me is, um, don't ever fake 864 00:57:52.480 --> 00:57:54.079 your sounds, because then they think they're doing a really good job, like 865 00:57:54.239 --> 00:57:59.159 they have to earn, they have to earn all of that in order to 866 00:57:59.239 --> 00:58:02.519 know that they're doing yes, Because I think about it, it is because 867 00:58:02.599 --> 00:58:09.840 then you're setting yourself up for horrible sex. And that was something like yeah, 868 00:58:10.119 --> 00:58:15.840 bad behavior because like like when they like when they are going down and 869 00:58:15.920 --> 00:58:19.679 like sucking your tit and it hurts, like ICE thought. I was not 870 00:58:19.880 --> 00:58:23.000 a fan of titty sucking, okay, because I was just like this hurts. 871 00:58:23.079 --> 00:58:27.079 It's just like what are you getting from this? Like I don't feel 872 00:58:27.079 --> 00:58:30.920 nothing, like what until I got good titty sucking? Because I remember I 873 00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:34.119 told a guy. I finally told a guy. I was like, I 874 00:58:34.119 --> 00:58:36.000 don't think I really like it. He was like, you know what, 875 00:58:36.280 --> 00:58:37.760 let me just show you. Let me just show you. I promise, 876 00:58:38.480 --> 00:58:45.039 and um, he like full out. It was like nice and soft and 877 00:58:45.239 --> 00:58:50.880 like like I don't know, very playful with the tongue. And then I 878 00:58:50.920 --> 00:58:54.280 realized I do like titty sucking. It's just it has to be done right. 879 00:58:54.840 --> 00:59:00.039 So it's like there are things too like some people think like that. 880 00:59:00.119 --> 00:59:04.280 So I realized too not to say it's a no go. I think it's 881 00:59:04.280 --> 00:59:07.679 good to tell someone that maybe you've had a bad experience with some kind of 882 00:59:07.719 --> 00:59:13.119 something that's sexual. But I always say, don't cut yourself off. Um 883 00:59:13.159 --> 00:59:17.800 explore like what you think you may like, and just because like um like 884 00:59:17.800 --> 00:59:22.000 because I know sometimes blessed up is very tight booted for people. But like 885 00:59:22.079 --> 00:59:23.719 you know, when someone ate my groceries, I was a little bad it 886 00:59:23.880 --> 00:59:28.679 okay, um now I didn't like that he was trying to kiss me. 887 00:59:28.760 --> 00:59:31.039 Afterwards, I was like, we're gonna work on dead like we're not doing 888 00:59:31.079 --> 00:59:43.199 it. But but don't cut yourself because people like limit themselves, you know, 889 00:59:43.280 --> 00:59:45.280 Like I know a guy who's like he was like, listen, she 890 00:59:45.320 --> 00:59:52.880 ain't happy with just missionary a doggy style and something else like then then that 891 00:59:52.119 --> 00:59:55.119 she she's gonna have to just move around. He was like some people just 892 00:59:55.159 --> 00:59:58.320 trying to do too much. And I'm like it's not necessay too much, 893 00:59:58.360 --> 01:00:01.400 but it's like it's fun to explore partner, and especially if like when you 894 01:00:01.480 --> 01:00:07.960 get married, Like girl, I was at my neighborhood party and all these 895 01:00:08.000 --> 01:00:10.800 women have like pretty much given up on sex. They're like, I'm not 896 01:00:12.199 --> 01:00:14.880 shaving my legs anymore and stuff like that, and they was like it's boring, 897 01:00:14.920 --> 01:00:17.079 and I'm like I literally just asked when the ladies, why are you 898 01:00:17.119 --> 01:00:22.239 not telling them? Like why are you not communicating? And they're like, 899 01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:24.159 wow, you know, like it just kind of is like some people have 900 01:00:24.239 --> 01:00:27.360 given up on sex. I was like, I would not be that woman. 901 01:00:27.920 --> 01:00:30.719 I would be that six year old lady. Okay, even if it's 902 01:00:30.800 --> 01:00:35.440 me and my husband in the nurse home, we're gonna be getting at it. 903 01:00:35.519 --> 01:00:38.840 Okay, We're gonna be getting at it okay, because like I do 904 01:00:39.000 --> 01:00:44.079 not it's needed. It's he said, forty year old virgin him right, 905 01:00:44.639 --> 01:00:47.280 thank you, Okay, like let me tell you. And that's funny because 906 01:00:47.280 --> 01:00:51.280 even though I started later, even some of my friends, like a lot 907 01:00:51.320 --> 01:00:54.360 of my girlfriends, Like I've had more social experiences, like I have a 908 01:00:54.559 --> 01:01:00.800 sex card game and it talks about like you know, like it talks about 909 01:01:00.840 --> 01:01:02.960 like you know, some of the other things, and I'm like, like, 910 01:01:04.199 --> 01:01:06.920 who's like, who's your favorite porn star? I kind of have some 911 01:01:07.159 --> 01:01:12.800 I kind of like the girls better because girls act better. Um and guys 912 01:01:12.880 --> 01:01:15.039 to Cocoa, we can we can sit here and talk all day. We 913 01:01:15.639 --> 01:01:19.679 got to wrap it up. I love it so much. She's like, 914 01:01:19.800 --> 01:01:22.119 We've got to wrap it up, but yes, we have to wrap I 915 01:01:22.239 --> 01:01:24.480 can sit here and talk with you all, do you And I know we 916 01:01:24.599 --> 01:01:29.039 spend hours and hours sitting there and talking about all these things. This is 917 01:01:29.079 --> 01:01:30.599 another day I brunch with Coco, and I love it. I know, 918 01:01:30.920 --> 01:01:36.480 definitely, definitely, And I know you have to prepare for your interview. 919 01:01:36.639 --> 01:01:39.159 I do. I didn't realize we had gotten so far over So yes, 920 01:01:39.599 --> 01:01:44.360 thank you, we're out here having fun. But thank you so much for 921 01:01:44.559 --> 01:01:49.079 talking with me. And um, I was just super excited to have some 922 01:01:49.199 --> 01:01:52.639 more girl time on the show because I don't get to have it as much 923 01:01:52.679 --> 01:01:54.719 anymore. So, UM, I can't wait to come and see your new 924 01:01:54.840 --> 01:01:59.440 place. Yes, I'm so excited. I'm glad to see your face. 925 01:01:59.800 --> 01:02:02.639 I miss you. Just having this talk because this is very much like how 926 01:02:02.719 --> 01:02:07.480 you normally talk, so it was very natural. It was good. But 927 01:02:07.840 --> 01:02:10.920 yes, like, let's let's not make it too much longer. Definitely, 928 01:02:12.599 --> 01:02:15.960 we won't. We won't. But I appreciate you so much and I'll be 929 01:02:15.000 --> 01:02:21.119 in touching this seach. All right, thank you. If you enjoy today's 930 01:02:21.199 --> 01:02:23.960 episode of Battled Up Bitches, be sure to rate and subscribe wherever you listen 931 01:02:24.039 --> 01:02:28.719 to your podcast. To join in on more of our conversations and fun. 932 01:02:28.840 --> 01:02:32.599 You can follow us on social media at bottled Up Bitches on Instagram and bottled 933 01:02:32.679 --> 01:02:37.679 up Talk on Twitter, and write in your sexcapaes anything you want to share 934 01:02:37.719 --> 01:02:40.599 with the team at bottled up Talk at gmail dot com. Cover art for 935 01:02:40.719 --> 01:02:45.599 Bottled Up Bitches is created by Winston Gambro. Episodes are produced and edited by 936 01:02:45.719 --> 01:02:51.360 Rihanna Campbell and Adam Lewis. This has been a Cricket Bunny production. Stay 937 01:02:51.440 --> 01:02:52.159 Horny, Bitches,