WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.040 --> 00:00:11.640 Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience broadcasting live from another Planet. Today's January 2 00:00:11.679 --> 00:00:16.079 first, twenty twenty four. Shout out to all of y'all that made it. 3 00:00:16.480 --> 00:00:20.920 Shout up to all of y'all that made it. Shout out to me 4 00:00:21.000 --> 00:00:28.559 for making it, Cause goddamn twenty twenty three had me and a motherfucking choke 5 00:00:28.600 --> 00:00:32.399 hold. Okay, I didn't think I was getting that. Motherfucker had me 6 00:00:32.600 --> 00:00:37.200 like these like, bitch, you ain't getting out, okay, have me 7 00:00:37.280 --> 00:00:42.799 into choke hold like Melvin or baby Boy. I'm gonna take my time with 8 00:00:42.880 --> 00:00:47.320 this one. I have a lot to talk about. I don't know where 9 00:00:47.359 --> 00:00:52.000 I want to start. New Year's Eve was crazy. I'm gonna just be 10 00:00:52.240 --> 00:00:57.159 honest and tell y'all the truth about how my night went. You know what 11 00:00:57.759 --> 00:01:03.760 my plans are going forward into twenty twenty four, or you know the just 12 00:01:04.239 --> 00:01:07.840 every day what's going on? I got. I got my little handy dandy 13 00:01:07.879 --> 00:01:12.359 notes on the phone. I brought the tearot cards. I actually have some 14 00:01:12.400 --> 00:01:17.359 really good New Year's Eve questions that we're gonna go over even though it was 15 00:01:17.400 --> 00:01:19.400 New Year's Day. And then I also brought one of my little journals. 16 00:01:22.640 --> 00:01:25.400 Because I was reviewing this the other day and I was like, damn, 17 00:01:25.480 --> 00:01:30.000 girl, you're really doing the motherfucking thing. So it's so much where do 18 00:01:30.079 --> 00:01:33.719 I want to start? So where do I want to start? Where do 19 00:01:33.760 --> 00:01:40.799 I want to start? So we can start with Okay, January first, 20 00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:45.079 I got here early today. It's four forty nine right now, So okay, 21 00:01:46.439 --> 00:01:51.799 what do you say on drum line? You're late? If you're on 22 00:01:51.879 --> 00:01:55.560 time? What do you say if you're on time? Whatever? You're late 23 00:01:55.599 --> 00:01:57.439 if you're on time. But I'm super early today, and you know I 24 00:01:57.519 --> 00:02:00.200 like to be early. What tr today? I guess it's because it's the 25 00:02:00.239 --> 00:02:05.079 holiday all of that, but I did not have to work today, and 26 00:02:05.400 --> 00:02:09.360 fuck that job. Let me tell y'all why, because it just becomes more 27 00:02:09.479 --> 00:02:13.759 and more apparent to me that they just don't give a fuck about their employees. 28 00:02:14.120 --> 00:02:17.240 And it's like, I'm really starting to get very verbal in that bitch. 29 00:02:17.360 --> 00:02:22.439 I'm really like, he don't say shit to me, because I can't 30 00:02:22.520 --> 00:02:29.080 wait to let a motherfucker have it in here. What was that I was 31 00:02:29.120 --> 00:02:38.439 scheduled to work on Christmas Day? But yeah, I was scheduled to work 32 00:02:38.439 --> 00:02:43.240 on Christmas Day, so two days before that, I had worked and I 33 00:02:43.319 --> 00:02:46.159 wasn't really feeling a hunted at work, you know what I'm saying. But 34 00:02:46.479 --> 00:02:49.039 I stuck it out through the day. I'm like, whatever, I'm gonna 35 00:02:49.039 --> 00:02:53.120 shake back. I got home that night, Baby, I was throwing up 36 00:02:53.240 --> 00:02:58.120 all night. It was coming out every which way. Everything was going on. 37 00:02:58.360 --> 00:03:02.120 So I'm like, I I got a motherfucker's stomach bug. The stomach 38 00:03:02.199 --> 00:03:07.360 flew whatever. So I'm like, okay. The next day was Christmas Eve, 39 00:03:07.479 --> 00:03:09.400 so I was in the bed all day. I didn't even want to 40 00:03:09.439 --> 00:03:14.560 try to go to urgent care or whatever. I'm just in the bed, 41 00:03:14.960 --> 00:03:19.080 like, please let my stomach feel better. So I called my job. 42 00:03:19.319 --> 00:03:23.400 I call my manager to let him know that your girl is down bad. 43 00:03:24.159 --> 00:03:27.919 I'm like, hey, I don't think I'm gonna make it in on Christmas 44 00:03:28.039 --> 00:03:30.960 Day, so I'm giving you, like a twenty four hour notice to get 45 00:03:30.960 --> 00:03:35.680 it the fuck together, to pull whatever strangs you gotta do. Figure out 46 00:03:35.759 --> 00:03:38.680 what manager is gonna come in, cause obviously nothing of the employee is gonna 47 00:03:38.680 --> 00:03:39.520 come in if they got off. They like, bitch, I'm with my 48 00:03:39.560 --> 00:03:43.280 family, I'm with my kids. We open and gifts. Fuck y'all. 49 00:03:43.719 --> 00:03:46.240 This motherfucker told me, I'm gonna need you to hurry up and recover. 50 00:03:46.719 --> 00:03:51.919 We ain't got nobody to cover the shift. He didn't even say I hope 51 00:03:51.960 --> 00:03:54.439 you feel better, or you know, how are you what was going on? 52 00:03:55.319 --> 00:04:00.159 I'm gonna need you to hurry up and recover. I'm throwing my fuck 53 00:04:00.319 --> 00:04:03.319 guts up. What do you mean? So that's what I'm saying, just 54 00:04:03.479 --> 00:04:10.360 no regard, no consideration. I'm in fucking Dallas. I'm not even going 55 00:04:10.360 --> 00:04:12.960 home to Detroit to go see my son for the ho Like you know what 56 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:17.680 I'm saying, just just no fucking regard for a person. So uh. 57 00:04:17.839 --> 00:04:21.560 I ended up calling the hotel manager and I'm like, you know, I'm 58 00:04:21.560 --> 00:04:26.000 feeling real pressure to come in and I'm sick as fuck, and he was 59 00:04:26.040 --> 00:04:28.480 like, hey, you know I would come in and do it, but 60 00:04:28.519 --> 00:04:31.920 I got my kids, you got your kids, and I'm on my death 61 00:04:32.000 --> 00:04:38.399 bed. I'm like, okay, okay, okay, cause I can't wait 62 00:04:38.480 --> 00:04:42.199 to the day that I walk out that bitch like this is my last day. 63 00:04:42.879 --> 00:04:46.160 Ain't no two week notice, just wait. And I know that the 64 00:04:46.240 --> 00:04:49.680 universe is like really constructing it for me to work out in whatever type of 65 00:04:49.680 --> 00:04:55.040 way because I can't wait to be like fuck y'all. So whatever, So 66 00:04:55.839 --> 00:05:00.560 Christmas Day he rolled around and I actually felt okay that day. It was 67 00:05:00.560 --> 00:05:02.360 like, oh, you can use the chair, you can sit on all 68 00:05:02.399 --> 00:05:09.079 it. I know, motherfucker, I know. And it was very dead 69 00:05:09.120 --> 00:05:12.319 that day. But whatever. I guess time and a half, we'll see 70 00:05:12.319 --> 00:05:15.519 when that check rolls around. Because the math don't be mathing to me. 71 00:05:16.000 --> 00:05:19.160 But you know, I'm gonna do what I I'm gonna do what I gotta 72 00:05:19.199 --> 00:05:24.600 do until my time comes. So that's that, you know, still dealing 73 00:05:24.639 --> 00:05:28.959 with the toxic work environment and all of that shit. Oh we did have 74 00:05:29.000 --> 00:05:32.480 a little fake ass holiday party. I say fake ass holiday party because I'm 75 00:05:32.560 --> 00:05:35.600 used to jobs like I worked at, like a lot of law firms and 76 00:05:35.600 --> 00:05:39.399 shit like that, so I'm used to like, oh, we going to 77 00:05:39.439 --> 00:05:43.000 a nice steakhouse. They didn't rent at the whole thing out. It's cater 78 00:05:43.519 --> 00:05:48.240 music, just unlimited liquor that type of stuff. At the hotel. Okay, 79 00:05:48.279 --> 00:05:53.519 we're gonna order Mexican food and we're gonna sit in the lobby. Great. 80 00:05:53.759 --> 00:05:56.560 But they was like we got great prizes, we got great prizes and 81 00:05:56.600 --> 00:05:58.920 all this other shit and I'm like, sure, what y'all got, like 82 00:05:59.639 --> 00:06:09.680 fucking and uh cray all of markers or something like what were a fucking little 83 00:06:09.680 --> 00:06:13.360 Caesar's gift card? What you about to like? But they actually ended up 84 00:06:13.399 --> 00:06:17.879 having some really nice prizes, and so I remember talking to one of the 85 00:06:17.879 --> 00:06:23.040 girls, the breakfast attendant, that morning, and she was just talking about, 86 00:06:23.079 --> 00:06:25.160 like I get so much anxiety, like I don't want to play the 87 00:06:25.199 --> 00:06:28.079 games in front of everybody and all of that. I'm like, girl, 88 00:06:28.199 --> 00:06:30.439 no, we gotta claim it. Like you're gonna win a prize, It's 89 00:06:30.480 --> 00:06:33.120 gonna be all good. I'm like, have fun, like it ain't nothing 90 00:06:33.160 --> 00:06:39.000 to be like afraid of her, like anxiety for what, like we're playing 91 00:06:39.079 --> 00:06:44.160 games. But you know that's the thing social anxiety. So they had a 92 00:06:44.199 --> 00:06:48.079 lot of nice gifts and shout out to the Black Fever. I'm just like, 93 00:06:48.319 --> 00:06:53.040 you know, shout out to the minority at the job, cause we 94 00:06:53.079 --> 00:06:56.920 want my whole team, my whole click. We all want some really good 95 00:06:56.959 --> 00:07:01.279 stuff. So I just remember like that morning I went in, like y'all 96 00:07:01.319 --> 00:07:05.639 know, I'll be listening to my little like affirmations, my manifestation, shit, 97 00:07:06.480 --> 00:07:13.399 my morning ritual every morning. I should be a gatekeeper and and I 98 00:07:13.519 --> 00:07:15.759 tell y'all what I'll be listening to. But I will I'll tell y'all this. 99 00:07:16.000 --> 00:07:19.079 I listen to a lot of Wayne Dyer, and that's like, that's 100 00:07:19.160 --> 00:07:24.319 like my spirit animal. He passed on. I don't know what year he 101 00:07:24.319 --> 00:07:28.079 passed away, but I ended up. I had came across him just randomly, 102 00:07:29.800 --> 00:07:31.160 maybe like a year or so ago, and I always listened to all 103 00:07:31.160 --> 00:07:34.120 his stuff on YouTube, and I found out that he's actually like he was 104 00:07:34.120 --> 00:07:38.839 from Detroit, and so I'm like, okay, now we got a little 105 00:07:38.879 --> 00:07:42.879 spiritual Detroit connection some but no, I really fuck with his videos and stuff 106 00:07:42.879 --> 00:07:46.480 and like his teachings and stuff. So I won't be a gatekeeper. Look 107 00:07:46.560 --> 00:07:51.160 up Wayne Dyer, like it'll change your life. So I went into it 108 00:07:51.240 --> 00:07:55.319 that morning claiming it like I'm gonna win a pride, but y'all better win 109 00:07:55.360 --> 00:08:01.279 a prize. Y'all be in here mistreating your girl. So they had a 110 00:08:01.319 --> 00:08:03.040 lot of games and stuff, but I didn't even get to play the games. 111 00:08:03.199 --> 00:08:05.680 Uh I had. I had put down my little tickets for whatever I 112 00:08:05.680 --> 00:08:13.319 wanted to win. They had like some Beats headphones I wanted the I don't 113 00:08:13.360 --> 00:08:18.079 know the little breakfast, little griddle thing I had. I wanted that or 114 00:08:18.079 --> 00:08:20.040 whatever whatever. I put my little tickets by a whole bunch of stuff. 115 00:08:20.040 --> 00:08:24.480 But then you had the the raffle ticket, and I just knew. I 116 00:08:24.560 --> 00:08:26.600 just knew what she gave it to me. I'm like, this is the 117 00:08:26.639 --> 00:08:31.080 winning motherfucking ticket, because I already clapped, like I just already knew your 118 00:08:31.120 --> 00:08:35.720 girl won the forty three inch flat screen TV. I'm like, Okay, 119 00:08:35.799 --> 00:08:39.960 look at God, Look at God, cause it's going in my new crib 120 00:08:39.000 --> 00:08:43.279 as soon as I move. So you know what I'm saying, All the 121 00:08:43.320 --> 00:08:50.279 blessings and abundance upon your girl. So that happened. I just walked up 122 00:08:50.279 --> 00:08:54.720 feeling like a winner that day. So that was that. Work is still 123 00:08:54.720 --> 00:09:05.080 toxic as fuck though, whatever. Fast forwarding, So New Year's Eve. 124 00:09:07.399 --> 00:09:09.799 Let me see, do I want to talk about the angel number of today. 125 00:09:11.879 --> 00:09:16.759 I'll get into that and then we'll shoot into New Year's Eve and where 126 00:09:16.840 --> 00:09:22.919 we're at. So on the way here the last four of the license plate, 127 00:09:22.039 --> 00:09:26.279 sorry my guy, six one seven two. Angel number six one seven 128 00:09:26.320 --> 00:09:31.600 two represents the balance creativity, intuition, and new beginnings, and it means 129 00:09:31.840 --> 00:09:37.559 great future ahead. And I love this because I was kind of in my 130 00:09:37.679 --> 00:09:41.519 head about being honest about my New Year's Eve and all of that. But 131 00:09:41.559 --> 00:09:46.279 I'm like, bro, just be real, just be real, cause that's 132 00:09:48.159 --> 00:09:50.519 I'm tired of the fake shit. It be a lot of phony shit on 133 00:09:50.559 --> 00:09:54.200 the internet. A lot of people be faking the funk and acting like life 134 00:09:54.320 --> 00:09:58.759 just be perfect. Oh let's keep it a buck. So Angel number six 135 00:09:58.759 --> 00:10:05.679 months Becoming your best Self. Angel number six one seven two represents balanced creativity, 136 00:10:05.720 --> 00:10:09.600 intuition, and new beginnings. Through this sequence, you are encouraged to 137 00:10:09.639 --> 00:10:15.000 follow the path that you fully trust and desire, fall in love with yourself 138 00:10:15.360 --> 00:10:20.080 and your accomplishments above all. Number six one seven two tells you not to 139 00:10:20.200 --> 00:10:26.559 compare your journey with others, So stop looking at Instagram and motherfucker's going on 140 00:10:26.679 --> 00:10:31.080 trips and getting this money and doing this, and note of like your time 141 00:10:31.120 --> 00:10:35.559 will come. And that's another thing I'll say this too. A lot of 142 00:10:35.559 --> 00:10:37.519 people around me have been getting their blessings and I'm like, I know my 143 00:10:37.519 --> 00:10:41.000 shit is around the corner, Like you know what I'm saying. So anytime 144 00:10:41.080 --> 00:10:46.120 somebody get blessed with they shit, I'm I'm congratulating I'm clapping. I'm like, 145 00:10:46.559 --> 00:10:50.879 I'm happy for you. I know my shit is next six one seven 146 00:10:50.919 --> 00:10:54.720 two Angel number. Believing in your talent and creativity. The power of the 147 00:10:54.759 --> 00:11:00.360 angel number six seven in this angel number amplifies your belief, which is something 148 00:11:00.360 --> 00:11:03.360 that I really, really uh and I talk about belief in here too. 149 00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:07.639 We're gonna we're gonna get to that in a second. Belief is very big. 150 00:11:09.440 --> 00:11:13.799 Self sabotage is the thing for me, and like negative self talk, 151 00:11:13.960 --> 00:11:18.759 but you gotta you gotta amplify your belief. Therefore, begin to manifest great 152 00:11:18.799 --> 00:11:22.519 tidings and do what it takes to accomplish your goals. It is time to 153 00:11:22.559 --> 00:11:26.480 push your dreams and ambitions a little further. Even when you don't see any 154 00:11:26.559 --> 00:11:31.919 visible changes, trust in the process. And that's what I've been dealing with 155 00:11:31.960 --> 00:11:37.039 on the daily now, Like I keep telling myself, because you know, 156 00:11:37.120 --> 00:11:41.600 you get those you get to those moments where it's like you just looking at 157 00:11:41.600 --> 00:11:43.960 your circumstances like this is fucked up? How is this gonna happen? Huh? 158 00:11:43.960 --> 00:11:46.240 Where I'm gonna get the money from? How i'ma get blessed? How 159 00:11:46.320 --> 00:11:50.519 is this miracle gonna happen? How's it like? And again example with with 160 00:11:50.519 --> 00:11:56.399 me winning the flat screen TV. So another thing that like is very heavy 161 00:11:56.440 --> 00:12:00.159 on my mind here is like I'm still working to get myself established. I'm 162 00:12:00.200 --> 00:12:01.360 not in my own place. Shit, you know what I'm saying. But 163 00:12:01.399 --> 00:12:03.679 that's always on my mind, Like I gotta get all this stuff from my 164 00:12:03.679 --> 00:12:07.320 place. I gotta get furniture, I gotta get it TV. I gotta 165 00:12:07.759 --> 00:12:09.919 a motherfucker brand new team. Like, so that's what you gotta understand that 166 00:12:11.120 --> 00:12:13.159 everything's gonna fall in place how it's supposed to. So even when you don't 167 00:12:13.200 --> 00:12:18.840 see any visible changes, trust in the process. I also was listening to 168 00:12:18.919 --> 00:12:22.159 some little manifestation shit in the morning one day and it was saying, like, 169 00:12:24.360 --> 00:12:26.000 you know, imagine being in a building. So I was thinking about 170 00:12:26.000 --> 00:12:30.360 myself being at work at the hotel. So of course it's a big ass 171 00:12:30.399 --> 00:12:33.720 window, you know, right across from me, and I see the people 172 00:12:33.799 --> 00:12:37.080 walking past, but once they walk past the window, I don't see them. 173 00:12:37.080 --> 00:12:39.159 But that doesn't mean that there aren't people walking outside. You know what 174 00:12:39.159 --> 00:12:43.879 I'm saying. You can't see it. You can't see everything that's going on 175 00:12:43.960 --> 00:12:46.120 behind the scenes. You can't see what the universe is doing. You can't 176 00:12:46.159 --> 00:12:50.240 see what God is doing at all times, but you gotta understand that everything 177 00:12:50.320 --> 00:12:56.679 is working in your favor. Something tremendous and magnificent awaits. Here's to six 178 00:12:56.759 --> 00:13:01.720 one, seven two Symbolism and interpretation. Number six stands for peace and harmony 179 00:13:01.799 --> 00:13:05.039 in your life, which I know I'm very big on. I don't do 180 00:13:05.120 --> 00:13:09.799 the chaos. I don't. I don't like that shit. The Guardian Angels 181 00:13:09.799 --> 00:13:15.039 want you to connect with these attributes as early as now. Keep in mind 182 00:13:15.080 --> 00:13:18.240 that the frequency that you invite in your life depends on where you focus the 183 00:13:18.279 --> 00:13:24.879 most, and that's very important to take note of too. The frequency that 184 00:13:24.919 --> 00:13:30.639 you invite into your life. I'll just set that there. Because we getting 185 00:13:30.679 --> 00:13:35.960 into New Year's even what happened, Okay, with each end there comes a 186 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:39.399 new beginning. This is something that I struggle with a lot too. Like 187 00:13:39.480 --> 00:13:43.519 I have a very hard time with letting things go, with letting people go, 188 00:13:43.639 --> 00:13:48.720 with letting phases and stages in my life go. I have a very 189 00:13:48.799 --> 00:13:54.799 very hard time letting go. That's probably one of the toughest things. Therefore, 190 00:13:54.919 --> 00:13:58.559 don't try to feel sorry for yourself during despair. The endings are preparing 191 00:13:58.600 --> 00:14:03.320 you for significant and positive changes in your life. Here I am always like, 192 00:14:03.399 --> 00:14:07.399 oh, I can't wait till the miracle cappins. I can't wait till 193 00:14:07.440 --> 00:14:09.639 you know I step into my glow up. I can't wait till the success 194 00:14:09.639 --> 00:14:13.879 comes. But yet I want to hang on to all the bullshit, or 195 00:14:13.919 --> 00:14:16.600 don't want to let it go, even if I know that it's no longer 196 00:14:16.679 --> 00:14:20.600 serving me. If I know, like Jazmine, you got to let shit 197 00:14:20.759 --> 00:14:22.360 go. But again, where we're getting to New Year's Eve, we gonna 198 00:14:22.360 --> 00:14:26.399 get to it. We gonna get to it. Find a way to focus 199 00:14:26.399 --> 00:14:31.159 on your goals and never lose focus even when you decide to hit rock bottom. 200 00:14:31.360 --> 00:14:35.120 Angels call you to continue to trust in your gut feeling, pray for 201 00:14:35.159 --> 00:14:39.120 the pray for divine guidance to show you the right path. It is time 202 00:14:39.120 --> 00:14:43.159 to focus on hope and faith in your life, keep past hurts and negativity 203 00:14:43.200 --> 00:14:46.360 at bay, and pay more attention to what shapes your future for the better. 204 00:14:46.759 --> 00:14:50.840 In simple terms, choose to see the light in the darkness. I 205 00:14:50.879 --> 00:14:54.840 am the silver linings Queen. I always try to see the silver linings in 206 00:14:54.879 --> 00:14:58.279 every situation. Have courage and confidence that the divine masters are helping you to 207 00:14:58.360 --> 00:15:03.360 achieve your mind significant potential. First, focus on the present time and always 208 00:15:03.399 --> 00:15:09.679 count on the ascended masters for support and direction. This angel number says that 209 00:15:09.720 --> 00:15:15.240 it's time to expand in your skills and your inner potential. Be open minded 210 00:15:15.279 --> 00:15:18.759 and let others know what you are capable of every motherfucking thing, bitch, 211 00:15:20.600 --> 00:15:24.159 stop hiding your talent. Follow me on YouTube, follow me on TikTok, 212 00:15:24.200 --> 00:15:28.120 follow me on the ground helling my homies black girl experience. But begin with 213 00:15:28.279 --> 00:15:33.480 what you have and everything else will shift to your good Be practical in your 214 00:15:33.519 --> 00:15:37.120 decisions, actions, and words that you say to yourself for positive changes and 215 00:15:37.200 --> 00:15:48.480 everything to align accordingly. Choose to be optimistic. The glasses have full, 216 00:15:48.759 --> 00:15:54.879 not half empty, okay, and focus on being thankful for what you have. 217 00:15:54.080 --> 00:15:58.480 Trust and believe that it is possible to attain everything that your heart desires. 218 00:16:00.080 --> 00:16:03.600 Besides, remember that even when angels have answered your prayers, you need 219 00:16:03.639 --> 00:16:06.960 to play your part. Set a solid foundation from the start, and don't 220 00:16:06.960 --> 00:16:10.759 give up until you have arrived at your fullest potential. Understand that the current 221 00:16:10.840 --> 00:16:15.039 challenge is set to place you at a more promising and significant place As a 222 00:16:15.080 --> 00:16:18.679 result, the spirit guys want you to keep on manifesting your true life's desires, 223 00:16:18.759 --> 00:16:23.840 not to mention. Believing yourself even through disappointments. This is a sign 224 00:16:23.879 --> 00:16:29.000 that positive changes are coming your way. So as you continue to pursue your 225 00:16:29.000 --> 00:16:32.279 mission, something great a wasting in your end. In the meantime, be 226 00:16:32.399 --> 00:16:37.120 grateful for what you have. Blah blah blah. What else let's see let 227 00:16:37.159 --> 00:16:42.279 go of extreme fear of failure or doubt. This angel number wants you to 228 00:16:42.320 --> 00:16:48.360 live your life without regret. It's time to have faith in yourself in the 229 00:16:48.399 --> 00:16:52.960 divine. So what if the beginning of this say is said, uh, 230 00:16:52.120 --> 00:17:04.240 becoming your best self. So now we're gonna slide into let's slide into the 231 00:17:04.359 --> 00:17:11.519 new year. I guess we're gonna slide into New Year's Eve. So I 232 00:17:11.559 --> 00:17:17.799 didn't have any plans for New Year's Eve. I don't feel like I've had 233 00:17:17.880 --> 00:17:22.000 plans these last couple of years. Like I don't really have a desire to 234 00:17:22.000 --> 00:17:26.039 go out to the club. I don't drink, I'm a smoker, i'm'a 235 00:17:26.079 --> 00:17:29.240 hit the blunt, But you know what I'm saying, Like I don't have 236 00:17:29.279 --> 00:17:36.519 a desire to go out and party. Watch the ball drop and again, 237 00:17:36.640 --> 00:17:38.359 you know, I used to uh really listen to a lot of I don't 238 00:17:38.400 --> 00:17:44.720 know if y'all are familiar with Young Pharaoh. Uh, I don't know what 239 00:17:44.759 --> 00:17:47.319 happened to my dog. They got him, They got to that man. 240 00:17:47.920 --> 00:17:53.720 Young Pharaoh was kind of like a spiritual or conscious like teacher whatever, motivational 241 00:17:53.759 --> 00:18:00.119 speaker, just a very educated, well versed and knowledge black man. I 242 00:18:00.240 --> 00:18:03.559 was like really waking people up with his messages and shit like that. His 243 00:18:03.599 --> 00:18:07.480 first video was like the black woman is God or whatever. And he has 244 00:18:07.559 --> 00:18:12.480 so many followers on YouTube, he has so many videos and whatever. Like 245 00:18:12.559 --> 00:18:19.039 he was really doing his big one and you gotta understand that. And that's 246 00:18:19.079 --> 00:18:22.119 why for me, like I don't I don't want to be famous, Like 247 00:18:22.240 --> 00:18:26.160 I want my platform to be very successful and shit, but I don't want 248 00:18:26.200 --> 00:18:29.839 to be famous. I just want to be wealthy. I want to be 249 00:18:29.880 --> 00:18:32.680 financially free. I want to be able to live the life that I want. 250 00:18:32.720 --> 00:18:33.519 I want to be able to travel. I want to just do what 251 00:18:33.599 --> 00:18:41.119 I love and live a purposeful life. But when you are really trying to 252 00:18:44.680 --> 00:18:47.519 put out a good message to the people, you know what I'm saying, 253 00:18:47.519 --> 00:18:51.319 When you're trying to educate people, and like, especially if you're like a 254 00:18:51.440 --> 00:18:53.839 health conscious person or just a conscious person, or you know, want your 255 00:18:53.880 --> 00:19:00.799 people to be better, and you trying to move shit forward, You're not 256 00:19:00.839 --> 00:19:03.000 gonna You're not gonna last too long in an these streets. You know what 257 00:19:03.000 --> 00:19:07.119 I'm saying. Uh, so you got and you know it's just you gotta 258 00:19:07.160 --> 00:19:11.200 be real careful with how you do shit. So I don't know. He 259 00:19:11.279 --> 00:19:18.000 ended up like getting drugged and all types of crazy shit. And the last 260 00:19:18.240 --> 00:19:22.640 one of his last interviews was with Nick Cannon and the interview never came out. 261 00:19:22.200 --> 00:19:25.960 He was talking that shit on there and I'm like, where's the interview? 262 00:19:26.440 --> 00:19:32.759 And ever since then it's just been downhill. But I lost my train 263 00:19:32.799 --> 00:19:37.039 of thought. But whatever, I don't I forgot where I was going with 264 00:19:37.079 --> 00:19:40.119 that. Oh, I was saying that I used to listen to him a 265 00:19:40.119 --> 00:19:45.319 lot. I don't know why I was saying that whatever. I don't know. 266 00:19:45.400 --> 00:19:52.160 I don't know where I was going with that, but okay, getting 267 00:19:52.279 --> 00:19:55.119 Oh I was talking about the ball drop. So he was one of the 268 00:19:55.160 --> 00:19:59.279 people that I used to listen to and he he had a video where he 269 00:19:59.359 --> 00:20:00.799 was talking about like, first of all, he used to talk about all 270 00:20:00.839 --> 00:20:04.519 the pagan holidays and how Christmas, New Year's like all that shit is really 271 00:20:04.599 --> 00:20:11.240 like evil and shit like that. But he was just talking about the meaning 272 00:20:11.279 --> 00:20:14.680 of like the ball drop, Like people do all of this shit, you 273 00:20:14.720 --> 00:20:17.440 know, get dressed up, go out and drink. Oh we about to 274 00:20:17.440 --> 00:20:22.599 watch the ball drop just to do the same shit over and over, and 275 00:20:22.759 --> 00:20:25.720 you know what I'm saying. And people never changed, and they just again, 276 00:20:25.920 --> 00:20:30.519 I've been past like the whole holiday shit and just all of that for 277 00:20:30.599 --> 00:20:33.519 many years now, Like I really just want to create my own traditions and 278 00:20:33.599 --> 00:20:37.640 kind of do my own thing. I'm not I really, if I could, 279 00:20:37.680 --> 00:20:41.240 I would live off the grid, real talk and just do my own 280 00:20:41.279 --> 00:20:42.920 thing. But you know, you still got to exist in this crazy ass 281 00:20:42.960 --> 00:20:49.000 world. But yeah, and another thing is, you know I've talked about 282 00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:52.240 this on here before too, about how like the real New Year is not 283 00:20:52.400 --> 00:20:56.720 until airy season. If y'all don't know, aries is the first sign of 284 00:20:56.759 --> 00:21:00.599 the zodiac. They start the shit. So like March April, when the 285 00:21:00.640 --> 00:21:06.039 flowers and the plants and everything blooms, and you know, springtime, that's 286 00:21:06.680 --> 00:21:08.920 that's the new year. Not in the dead cold in the middle of the 287 00:21:08.960 --> 00:21:14.279 winter. But if you want to go by the calendar date whatever, at 288 00:21:14.279 --> 00:21:18.519 the end of the day, the point is, no matter whatever you believe 289 00:21:18.599 --> 00:21:22.480 or whenever the new year starts for you, you have to understand that there 290 00:21:22.559 --> 00:21:26.200 is no power in the clock. First of all, time is an illusion. 291 00:21:26.480 --> 00:21:27.920 That's number one. You know what I'm saying. Motherfuckers was telling me 292 00:21:27.920 --> 00:21:30.200 Happy New Year. At twelve o'clock. It was still eleven o'clock in Dallas. 293 00:21:30.200 --> 00:21:33.880 I'm like, I'm still in twenty twenty three apparently, But there's no 294 00:21:34.039 --> 00:21:38.240 power in the clock. Everything is a mindset, you know what I'm saying. 295 00:21:38.279 --> 00:21:42.359 So if you feel like you want to change and do whatever, you 296 00:21:42.400 --> 00:21:47.359 don't have to wait till January first to do that. And even if you 297 00:21:47.400 --> 00:21:49.200 do the side, okay, it's the new year, I'd have set a 298 00:21:49.279 --> 00:21:52.680 New Year's resolution. I'd have set my attentions. I got these goals, 299 00:21:52.759 --> 00:21:57.079 whatever, cool do whatever you gotta do to carry that shit out. But 300 00:21:57.119 --> 00:22:00.000 you gotta understand that you are gonna fuck up, you are gonna fail. 301 00:22:00.759 --> 00:22:06.839 And that's what I had to realize last night. And I'm not justifying what 302 00:22:07.039 --> 00:22:10.599 happened or anything, and I'm actually I'm not even mad at myself. I 303 00:22:10.640 --> 00:22:18.640 got to a place of acceptance and I was just it was just the perspective 304 00:22:18.720 --> 00:22:22.440 of how I looked at it. So, like I said, I didn't 305 00:22:22.440 --> 00:22:25.960 have any plans or whatever. For real. I worked yesterday. So when 306 00:22:25.960 --> 00:22:32.279 I got off work, I was just on chill, you know, and 307 00:22:32.319 --> 00:22:34.440 I hit some people up and was like, oh, let's just get to 308 00:22:34.519 --> 00:22:37.599 well, not even people, I hit up one person. It was like, 309 00:22:37.640 --> 00:22:40.440 hey, let's just I don't know, get some champagne and just chill 310 00:22:40.480 --> 00:22:42.799 at the crib, maybe get like a little game or something, you know, 311 00:22:42.920 --> 00:22:48.480 just be on some chill shit or whatever. And so in the midst 312 00:22:48.480 --> 00:22:52.039 of me making this gang gang whatever, let's just have a little chill night, 313 00:22:52.240 --> 00:23:00.799 in the midst of that, a little toxicity dwindled in there. And 314 00:23:00.200 --> 00:23:03.920 the toxicity has been, uh, you know, trying to make its way 315 00:23:04.039 --> 00:23:08.079 through my life for some time now, for some weeks now, for some 316 00:23:08.160 --> 00:23:17.319 months now. And my thing is like, when you want to start a 317 00:23:17.440 --> 00:23:23.839 new and move forward in your life from a situation, you gotta shut the 318 00:23:23.920 --> 00:23:30.400 door completely. You can't leave that bitch cracked open. You can't be like, 319 00:23:30.480 --> 00:23:33.119 oh, well, they're engaging with me. And I'm not answering or 320 00:23:33.160 --> 00:23:36.359 I'm not whatever. They blocked on here, but they not blocked, you 321 00:23:36.400 --> 00:23:38.799 know what I'm saying. Like the point is people be one access to you, 322 00:23:41.599 --> 00:23:47.480 and if a motherfucker's persistent, they gonna get through, you know what 323 00:23:47.559 --> 00:23:51.079 I'm saying at some point, And you could play the game of like, 324 00:23:51.160 --> 00:23:53.000 oh, well, I'm they engaging with me here, you know what I'm 325 00:23:53.000 --> 00:23:56.880 saying, or risk them hitting me up or whatever like whatever. So it 326 00:23:56.960 --> 00:24:00.400 was that whole type of situation that's been going on with me, and I 327 00:24:00.559 --> 00:24:04.319 was standing strong for a very long time, you know what I'm saying, 328 00:24:04.359 --> 00:24:11.440 for months, and it started getting to a point where motherfuckers is getting some 329 00:24:11.480 --> 00:24:15.839 type of access to me, you know what I'm saying. And so anyways, 330 00:24:15.920 --> 00:24:19.359 last night I was making these little plans or whatever, and the toxicity 331 00:24:19.440 --> 00:24:26.799 that made its way on in okay, And but here I am being very 332 00:24:26.799 --> 00:24:30.400 self aware of taking accountability for the situation I had. Yeah, it seeped 333 00:24:30.400 --> 00:24:33.680 his way in, but I let it in, you know what I'm saying. 334 00:24:33.799 --> 00:24:42.160 I allowed it, I engaged with it. So I was not standing 335 00:24:42.200 --> 00:24:45.880 on business yesterday and I ain't gonna lie. It was so much going on 336 00:24:45.920 --> 00:24:49.279 in my mind. I was like I was talking to God, I was 337 00:24:49.319 --> 00:24:52.799 talking to myself. I'm like, Jasmine, don't do this. Look how 338 00:24:52.839 --> 00:24:57.160 far you've gotten away from this. Look at how your life has been when 339 00:24:57.160 --> 00:25:00.920 you separated yourself from the situation. Blah, just you know, just going 340 00:25:00.960 --> 00:25:04.839 through all of the emotions, all of the shit, and you know, 341 00:25:06.039 --> 00:25:11.599 I almost almost stood on business, but almost doesn't count. So at the 342 00:25:11.799 --> 00:25:17.119 end of the night, shit, in the wee hours of the morning, 343 00:25:17.599 --> 00:25:23.000 I did not stand on business. And I'm I'm not even mad at myself. 344 00:25:23.359 --> 00:25:27.599 I'm not like disappointed at myself. Like I said, I just looked 345 00:25:27.599 --> 00:25:36.279 at it as a as a teachable moment because so much happened within everything that 346 00:25:36.359 --> 00:25:41.160 happened, aside from what happened, like you know, a lot of like 347 00:25:41.559 --> 00:25:45.640 a very I don't want to say a very deep conversation was had, but 348 00:25:45.039 --> 00:25:53.480 a conversation was had, and it just kind of I already all I know 349 00:25:53.559 --> 00:25:56.799 a lot of these things. There are a lot of things that I know 350 00:25:56.839 --> 00:26:00.160 about certain situations and certain people. But it's kind of like a reminder. 351 00:26:00.200 --> 00:26:04.440 I guess it's just like that people are who they are. You got to 352 00:26:04.440 --> 00:26:10.119 accept people for who they are, you know what I'm saying, and just 353 00:26:10.200 --> 00:26:15.000 again taking time to really self reflect on what I've been doing for the past 354 00:26:15.119 --> 00:26:18.920 however many months, the path that I've gotten on, the way that I 355 00:26:18.960 --> 00:26:22.319 feel that my life has changed, and when in a totally different direction and 356 00:26:22.400 --> 00:26:26.680 feel like things have gotten better for me when stepping away from a situation. 357 00:26:26.240 --> 00:26:30.640 So you know, sometimes it takes those moments for you to fuck up or 358 00:26:30.680 --> 00:26:33.880 to you know, slip up or whatever. And the same thing I want 359 00:26:33.880 --> 00:26:38.759 to compare it to your New Year's resolutions, goals, intentions that you set 360 00:26:38.799 --> 00:26:44.079 for yourself. Whatever your resolution is, if you want to get healthy, 361 00:26:44.319 --> 00:26:48.759 you want to get fit, you want to be more financially responsible, or 362 00:26:48.920 --> 00:26:52.880 whatever your goals or resolutions are, guess what you're gonna fuck up. You're 363 00:26:52.880 --> 00:26:56.839 gonna feel some people feel on day one, some people feel on day three, 364 00:26:56.920 --> 00:27:02.279 sixty five, and you know all those other days in between. I'm 365 00:27:02.279 --> 00:27:03.519 gonna hit y'all up on April twenty third, like, what's up on the 366 00:27:03.599 --> 00:27:07.799 New Year's resolutions? How y'all doing? Y'all gonna be the fucking forgot. 367 00:27:07.079 --> 00:27:11.640 So you just gotta understand that that's life. You're a human, You're going 368 00:27:11.680 --> 00:27:15.440 to fuck up. You're not always going to you know what I'm saying, 369 00:27:15.440 --> 00:27:19.400 You're not gonna always stand on business. But it's very important to take accountability 370 00:27:19.480 --> 00:27:23.240 for that and be able to assess the situation and see, you know, 371 00:27:23.599 --> 00:27:27.480 and reflect on it. And that's what I had to do with Like, 372 00:27:27.480 --> 00:27:32.920 like I said, I usually get really upset about myself or with myself when 373 00:27:32.920 --> 00:27:37.319 I fuck up or do some shit that I'm not so proud about or whatever, 374 00:27:37.400 --> 00:27:40.799 but I just really wasn't even upset, Like it just show it just 375 00:27:40.880 --> 00:27:45.359 again. It just really showed me like the progress that I have made and 376 00:27:45.400 --> 00:27:49.279 how there are certain things that I don't want to go back to. Another 377 00:27:49.359 --> 00:27:53.000 thing is I think I kind of took a couple notes on this. Like 378 00:27:56.039 --> 00:28:03.759 Another thing is like I really started to see the power of self love and 379 00:28:03.880 --> 00:28:11.079 like really empowering myself and really just pouring into myself because I'm a people pleaser 380 00:28:11.200 --> 00:28:15.119 and that's been my downfall and a lot of my relationships and just whatever in 381 00:28:15.160 --> 00:28:21.160 life because I always overgive and I go over and beyond and I break my 382 00:28:21.279 --> 00:28:23.680 back for other people and it's like in the end, I always feel like, 383 00:28:23.759 --> 00:28:26.200 damn, I gave everything. I had and da da da da da, 384 00:28:26.319 --> 00:28:30.960 And it's like, Jasmine, you have to give all of that stuff 385 00:28:30.000 --> 00:28:34.720 to yourself, go over and beyond for yourself, love yourself, put yourself 386 00:28:34.799 --> 00:28:37.720 you first, you know what I'm saying. And then whatever it is that 387 00:28:37.759 --> 00:28:41.720 you want to need in your life, you're gonna attract that. You're gonna 388 00:28:41.720 --> 00:28:45.319 start to get all of those things back. When you don't pour into yourself, 389 00:28:45.319 --> 00:28:48.799 when you don't love yourself, people could see that. People could see 390 00:28:48.799 --> 00:28:53.920 it, and they will take advantage of that. So that was another thing 391 00:28:53.960 --> 00:28:59.200 that I just like realized, like during this time that I had been working 392 00:28:59.240 --> 00:29:07.400 on and better in myself with what else? It was something else? Oh, 393 00:29:07.599 --> 00:29:15.720 being a vibrational mismatch with somebody is very crucial to know or recognize. 394 00:29:17.400 --> 00:29:21.480 Like that little angel number shit I had just read, it was talking about 395 00:29:21.480 --> 00:29:25.119 being in peace and harmony, Like that's a real thing for me in my 396 00:29:25.200 --> 00:29:30.839 life. So if you disrupt my piece, if you disturb my peace, 397 00:29:30.920 --> 00:29:33.960 that's a problem for me. And also you have to recognize when you are 398 00:29:34.000 --> 00:29:38.559 not a vibrational match with somebody. So that's what I'm always trying to get 399 00:29:38.559 --> 00:29:42.000 this person to understand, is like we're just not good for each other, 400 00:29:42.200 --> 00:29:47.480 you know what I'm saying, Because we can't even get along, like we're 401 00:29:47.519 --> 00:29:52.759 always bickering back and forth, and it's not even it's more so you that 402 00:29:52.839 --> 00:29:55.799 got the problem with me and want to try to make me conform to be 403 00:29:55.960 --> 00:29:57.599 this person for you. It's like, Bro, we just not a match, 404 00:29:57.680 --> 00:30:02.000 you know what I'm saying. I don't want to have to be one 405 00:30:02.000 --> 00:30:03.680 of those people like man, we was doing so good. Like no, 406 00:30:03.759 --> 00:30:07.559 I don't want to be in a relationship like that. I want to be 407 00:30:07.640 --> 00:30:11.440 with a person where it's piece of harmony. You know what I'm saying all 408 00:30:11.480 --> 00:30:14.680 the time, Not all the time, but all the time for the most 409 00:30:14.720 --> 00:30:18.240 part. You know what I'm saying, Like if you just everything is just 410 00:30:18.680 --> 00:30:22.000 and not even like an argument like that, but it's just like everything is 411 00:30:22.039 --> 00:30:26.599 just friction. Everything is like pulling teeth. Everything is a problem. It's 412 00:30:26.680 --> 00:30:30.359 like something ain't right. That means we not meant to be, you know 413 00:30:30.359 --> 00:30:37.279 what I'm saying. So realizing that you're a vibrational mismatch with somebody is very 414 00:30:37.319 --> 00:30:41.759 important as well, Like the natural harmony of relationship is very important to me. 415 00:30:45.039 --> 00:30:48.880 I feel like a man that don't compliment, you congratulate, you celebrate 416 00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:51.839 you, but want to be in your energy. You don't like me? 417 00:30:51.960 --> 00:30:53.839 Then, like, why are you? How do you not do any of 418 00:30:53.839 --> 00:30:59.720 those things but you want to be in my energy? How is it that 419 00:30:59.759 --> 00:31:02.640 I'm not the person for you? And I had to have this conversation as 420 00:31:02.640 --> 00:31:07.119 well, Like, and I was very proud of myself with the conversation that 421 00:31:07.160 --> 00:31:11.640 I had because I was just being like, I was really just being honest 422 00:31:11.680 --> 00:31:15.400 about my feelings and my emotions and like, really, even though I didn't 423 00:31:15.440 --> 00:31:18.519 stand on business, but in that conversation, though, I was proud of 424 00:31:18.559 --> 00:31:22.160 myself for standing on business, Like, this is not what I want. 425 00:31:22.599 --> 00:31:23.599 You know what I'm saying. I'm like, this is not what I want, 426 00:31:23.640 --> 00:31:26.759 and this is not what you want? So what are we doing? 427 00:31:26.920 --> 00:31:30.960 You know what I'm saying? You know that I'm not the person you want, 428 00:31:30.000 --> 00:31:36.000 and I know that you're not the person that I want. I know 429 00:31:36.079 --> 00:31:38.319 that I deserve better. I know that I know what I'm worth. You 430 00:31:38.319 --> 00:31:41.759 know what I'm saying, I know what I desire in a relationship from a 431 00:31:41.799 --> 00:31:45.440 man, Like why would I waste my time with you? Why would I 432 00:31:45.480 --> 00:31:51.240 do that? I'm like, we're wasting each other's time. And I don't 433 00:31:51.240 --> 00:31:53.480 really know what it is though, Like I don't really know what it is 434 00:31:53.519 --> 00:31:56.400 that you want. I feel like you want a lot of different things, 435 00:31:56.440 --> 00:31:59.720 and I think that you are a very selfish person, you know what I'm 436 00:31:59.720 --> 00:32:04.599 saying, And that's and that's cool, but you gotta go be selfish in 437 00:32:04.640 --> 00:32:07.200 your own world. You're not about to be selfish with me, you know 438 00:32:07.200 --> 00:32:12.400 what I'm saying. So it was just a lot, but I was just 439 00:32:12.480 --> 00:32:20.000 really proud of myself for recognizing that. But I did play into the toxicity 440 00:32:20.039 --> 00:32:21.960 and I ain't gonna lie. I had a great card. I had a 441 00:32:21.960 --> 00:32:30.079 great time. I had a great time. But another thing that I had 442 00:32:30.079 --> 00:32:32.880 wrote down was like you gonna fuck around and misshell Mark trying to put a 443 00:32:32.880 --> 00:32:40.039 puzzle piece where it don't belong. You got a whole purpose in this life, 444 00:32:40.160 --> 00:32:44.759 Jazmine. You you know what I'm saying. You get you get to 445 00:32:44.799 --> 00:32:47.720 these phases, or you get to these points where you get your momental back 446 00:32:47.799 --> 00:32:51.759 up and you be going and you be moving and some shit come try to 447 00:32:51.799 --> 00:32:55.039 throw you off, and here you are, you about to misshow motherfucking mark 448 00:32:55.079 --> 00:33:00.440 trying to put a puzzle piece together that don't even fit. And that was 449 00:33:00.480 --> 00:33:07.480 another thing. There was one day a motherfucker snuck me, okay, got 450 00:33:07.519 --> 00:33:15.200 through to me. Motherfuckers, And that's the thing. Excuse me. I'm 451 00:33:15.200 --> 00:33:20.000 a person that always answers the phone when I'm sleep like I just have a 452 00:33:20.000 --> 00:33:22.680 habit of doing that. So motherfucker be like, oh you sleep, I'm 453 00:33:22.720 --> 00:33:25.519 like, no, I'm up, But he did sleep. You could get 454 00:33:25.519 --> 00:33:29.200 through to me like that. And sometimes people just get through to me at 455 00:33:29.240 --> 00:33:30.759 other times when I'm doing something in the morning, when I'm getting ready for 456 00:33:30.799 --> 00:33:35.079 work. Somebody got through to me in the morning when I was getting ready 457 00:33:35.119 --> 00:33:40.799 for work or no. I was on the phone all night one night and 458 00:33:40.839 --> 00:33:45.279 I had to get up for work, and I probably went to bed at 459 00:33:45.319 --> 00:33:47.279 four AM, and I gotta be up at six. Baby, that alarm 460 00:33:47.359 --> 00:33:50.720 went off and I hit snooze and I woke back up and it was six 461 00:33:50.839 --> 00:33:55.200 thirty and my whole day was shot. I was like, fuck, I'd 462 00:33:55.200 --> 00:33:58.640 be leaving, you know. I usually listen to my affirmations and all that 463 00:33:58.680 --> 00:34:00.400 shit. In the morning, I was running lay. I was trying to 464 00:34:00.440 --> 00:34:07.119 hurry it and get ready. Sometimes I ride to work with my coworker so 465 00:34:07.319 --> 00:34:13.559 this day they came to pick me up, and our dumb mass is just 466 00:34:13.599 --> 00:34:16.719 realized we could ride into hov Laye on the freeway. So if it's two 467 00:34:16.719 --> 00:34:20.519 people with a car, you could ride in the HOV lane and bypass all 468 00:34:20.559 --> 00:34:25.039 that crazy ass fucking Dallas traffic in the morning. So mind you, all 469 00:34:25.079 --> 00:34:29.519 of my day is already going to shit. Motherfuckers then threw me off my 470 00:34:29.639 --> 00:34:32.760 whole vibe, my whole frequency, and I knew, you know what I'm 471 00:34:32.760 --> 00:34:38.400 saying. But again, when when you when you not in alignment, when 472 00:34:38.400 --> 00:34:43.280 you getting off your path, it's gonna show you every time. It's gonna 473 00:34:43.280 --> 00:34:46.559 show you every time. So I knew being on the phone like that all 474 00:34:46.679 --> 00:34:50.639 night, I was like, I already know you know what I'm saying. 475 00:34:50.639 --> 00:34:52.440 So when I woke up late, whatever, everything just start going left. 476 00:34:52.559 --> 00:34:54.679 So we on the we got on the freeway, we try to hurry up 477 00:34:54.679 --> 00:35:00.920 and getting the HOV lane. This motherfucker missed the fucking end. I was 478 00:35:00.039 --> 00:35:06.920 like, oh my god, already running late for work, stuck in Dallas 479 00:35:06.960 --> 00:35:07.960 traffic. In the back of my mind, I'm like, I was on 480 00:35:08.000 --> 00:35:10.440 the phone all night with this motherfucker. I'm like, and look at how 481 00:35:10.480 --> 00:35:15.960 your day is going. And that's exactly what I mean by you're gonna fuck 482 00:35:15.039 --> 00:35:23.039 around and misshow mark by fucking with a puzzle piece that don't even fit again, 483 00:35:23.320 --> 00:35:29.480 taking that time to self reflect on the progress that I've made moving forward 484 00:35:29.559 --> 00:35:30.840 in life and all that. And that's another thing I kept saying to this 485 00:35:30.840 --> 00:35:36.039 person. I'm like, leave me alone. No pause. Now I'll be 486 00:35:36.079 --> 00:35:39.199 telling my homegirls when they dudes be trying to mess with them still and I'd 487 00:35:39.199 --> 00:35:42.400 be like, girl, he ain't gonna leave you alone. You gotta leave 488 00:35:42.480 --> 00:35:45.880 him alone. But you know whatever, So I'm just like, leave me 489 00:35:46.000 --> 00:35:49.960 alone. You know what I'm saying, Like, why won't you leave me 490 00:35:50.039 --> 00:35:52.360 alone? And that's the thing. So that's my thing with the situation is 491 00:35:52.440 --> 00:36:00.440 like a mother is a very weird situation because I feel like the person acts 492 00:36:00.480 --> 00:36:05.400 like they don't really want me. It's such a weird energy for them to 493 00:36:05.920 --> 00:36:08.440 act like they don't want me, but deep down, you really do want 494 00:36:08.480 --> 00:36:10.719 me, you know what I'm saying. And that's what I'm trying to explain 495 00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:14.239 to you. I'm like, you won't leave me alone. I'm like, 496 00:36:14.559 --> 00:36:20.880 I have not contacted you. You have been contacted me for months, No 497 00:36:21.079 --> 00:36:23.119 response all type of you know what I'm saying, Why won't you leave me 498 00:36:23.159 --> 00:36:28.360 alone? If you really don't even want me? You just want the access. 499 00:36:28.480 --> 00:36:30.639 You like the control, You like the you know what I'm saying, 500 00:36:30.679 --> 00:36:34.440 You like what I do for you, like you like the feeling that I 501 00:36:34.519 --> 00:36:37.599 give you, not physically but that too. But you know what I'm saying, 502 00:36:37.599 --> 00:36:44.159 But you just like what I give to you. And in this situation, 503 00:36:44.239 --> 00:36:46.800 though, I just feel like I don't get nothing back. You know 504 00:36:46.840 --> 00:36:52.480 what I'm saying, I don't get nothing back. As much as I give 505 00:36:52.599 --> 00:36:57.639 to you and like pouring to you and nurture you and build you up, 506 00:36:57.840 --> 00:37:00.760 I don't get that in return. And that's what you understand, Like you 507 00:37:00.840 --> 00:37:09.079 gotta take a really deep look at your situations, your relationships, like what's 508 00:37:09.159 --> 00:37:16.079 happening here. So that was That was pretty much my night, my day. 509 00:37:16.119 --> 00:37:20.800 I didn't get a lot of sleep. Uh. Like I said, 510 00:37:20.800 --> 00:37:23.400 this shit was going on to the wee hours in the morning, and uh, 511 00:37:23.639 --> 00:37:27.960 I probably took a cat nap and then I'm like, fuck, I 512 00:37:27.960 --> 00:37:30.199 gotta go record today. I was excited about coming to record, but I 513 00:37:30.280 --> 00:37:34.280 was like damn. And then I didn't think the nail shop was gonna be 514 00:37:34.360 --> 00:37:36.719 open. I didn't think I was gonna be able to get my lashes done. 515 00:37:36.960 --> 00:37:38.400 I was just gonna come in here, bear face natural, which would 516 00:37:38.400 --> 00:37:43.599 have been cool, but it was just like I was worried about that. 517 00:37:44.880 --> 00:37:50.400 Excuse me. But everything worked out. Everything worked out. And I also 518 00:37:50.480 --> 00:37:52.679 just believe that I'm I'm a very big inspiration for people. I just want 519 00:37:52.679 --> 00:38:05.239 to say that. So this here is one of my journals. Uh this 520 00:38:07.159 --> 00:38:09.400 I started writing in this about probably like six months ago. This page here 521 00:38:09.480 --> 00:38:15.639 is talking about wisdom, knowledge and understanding and all of that. I was 522 00:38:15.679 --> 00:38:17.800 taking notes from this book that I was reading. I don't remember what book 523 00:38:17.840 --> 00:38:25.039 it was. All of this is just talking about like action is what produces 524 00:38:25.119 --> 00:38:31.320 results. That's what is going to you know, create success in your life. 525 00:38:32.119 --> 00:38:35.800 You are the one who decides how to feel and how to act based 526 00:38:35.840 --> 00:38:39.239 on the way that you choose to perceive life. Nothing has meaning except the 527 00:38:39.320 --> 00:38:45.440 meaning that we give it. Know your outcome, define what you want to 528 00:38:45.480 --> 00:38:51.960 take action blase blah, So a lot of good things. Oh remember I 529 00:38:52.000 --> 00:38:57.519 was talking about that belief. It was given like the keys to success. 530 00:38:57.559 --> 00:39:00.719 So passion, belief, the belief about what you are and what you can 531 00:39:00.760 --> 00:39:04.880 be, determine what you will be, change your belief so that they support 532 00:39:04.920 --> 00:39:07.159 you. So I gotta get rid of the self sabotage and the negative self 533 00:39:07.199 --> 00:39:15.760 talk. But what I really wanted to show y'all on here is and this 534 00:39:15.800 --> 00:39:17.679 is why I'm proud of myself again. This all just goes into the new 535 00:39:17.760 --> 00:39:24.840 year. So let's see. I happened to pull this out a couple of 536 00:39:24.920 --> 00:39:35.320 days ago. This was my six month plan. This was from December eighteenth, 537 00:39:35.400 --> 00:39:39.480 twenty twenty three to June eighteenth, twenty twenty four. I wrote a 538 00:39:39.679 --> 00:39:43.039 oh wait, no, this is no, that's the new one. I'm 539 00:39:43.079 --> 00:39:46.480 sorry, that's my new plan. Wait, let's go back. Where's the 540 00:39:46.559 --> 00:39:52.239 old plan? Was it in the other book? Oh, I'm about to 541 00:39:52.280 --> 00:39:57.280 be pissed. I think it's in the other book. It is, Damn, 542 00:39:57.440 --> 00:39:59.800 it's in the other book. So I had a six month plan, 543 00:40:00.800 --> 00:40:07.199 but I checked off I don't wanna say a lot of things, but I 544 00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:09.920 checked off. I checked off a very good number of things on there. 545 00:40:10.000 --> 00:40:13.960 So I remember. The first thing that was on there was like book a 546 00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:17.679 one way ticket flight to Dallas. It was supposed to be like moving my 547 00:40:17.800 --> 00:40:25.159 son to Dallas. Find a yoga job here, and I taught three classes 548 00:40:25.159 --> 00:40:30.480 at North No Sanctuary. Here it said get a regular job. I did 549 00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:36.239 that as soon as I got off the plane. It did say all money 550 00:40:36.239 --> 00:40:38.679 in. I'm pretty sure Nipsey Hustle is not happy with me with me because 551 00:40:38.679 --> 00:40:42.639 it has not been all money in. It's been a lot of money out. 552 00:40:42.880 --> 00:40:45.800 But I'm working. That's something that I have to work on. What 553 00:40:45.920 --> 00:40:49.679 else did it say on there? I don't know. Find a gym, 554 00:40:49.880 --> 00:40:55.320 find yoga friends. I didn't find everything on there, but the point was 555 00:40:55.440 --> 00:40:59.760 like I checked a lot of things off of my list on my six month 556 00:40:59.800 --> 00:41:05.400 play and so I made another six month plan for December to June. I 557 00:41:05.440 --> 00:41:07.400 got where I want to move to, what kind of place I want to 558 00:41:07.400 --> 00:41:10.559 live in, what kind of car I want to drive, building my yoga 559 00:41:10.599 --> 00:41:20.559 clientel, teaching classes, creating events. You know, my content, praying 560 00:41:20.559 --> 00:41:23.960 and meditating daily, yoga, daily workout. Gotta stick to that. Getting 561 00:41:24.000 --> 00:41:30.760 back to tyroo on astrology, reading daily, eating healthy. Saving five bands 562 00:41:30.880 --> 00:41:32.440 is on my list, and I was very proud of the money that I 563 00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:39.079 saved, so that was another thing too. So I ain't gonna lie. 564 00:41:39.679 --> 00:41:45.480 I am not a very financially responsible person, like that's something that I really 565 00:41:45.519 --> 00:41:49.559 have to work on. But I was very proud of myself for the amount 566 00:41:49.559 --> 00:41:53.400 of money that I saved when I got here. However, I didn't end 567 00:41:53.480 --> 00:41:58.559 up getting to use the money on what I planned on using it for, 568 00:41:58.800 --> 00:42:00.800 but I was glad that I said the buddy and was able to use it 569 00:42:00.840 --> 00:42:06.039 in my time of need, which ended up for me feeling like a financial 570 00:42:06.039 --> 00:42:07.719 setback after I had to use the money for what I had to use it 571 00:42:07.760 --> 00:42:12.320 for. But I was proud of myself. So now I feel like I'm 572 00:42:12.320 --> 00:42:15.280 back to square one a little bit, you know. But nigga, you 573 00:42:15.440 --> 00:42:17.159 you saved the money one time, you could do it again, so whatever 574 00:42:20.880 --> 00:42:23.719 payback thoughts who helped me? And I have three individuals on here that I 575 00:42:23.760 --> 00:42:28.400 really want to look out for. When I get like a lum sum of 576 00:42:28.480 --> 00:42:34.519 money luxury experiences only monetizes on YouTube and I'm motherfucking shopping spree because I deserve 577 00:42:34.599 --> 00:42:43.800 it. I'll be doing my three six nine method manifestation on here, and 578 00:42:43.840 --> 00:42:47.079 this time I'll be switching up every day and do something different. Uh what 579 00:42:47.119 --> 00:42:52.000 else? What else? More? Three six nine three six nine d so 580 00:42:52.119 --> 00:42:59.239 yeah, all of that good shit. What else? It was something else 581 00:42:59.239 --> 00:43:01.519 that I was just about to touch on when I was reading in the journal. 582 00:43:04.159 --> 00:43:07.440 Oh so another thing. Let me see y'all. Took a screenshot of 583 00:43:07.440 --> 00:43:10.679 this because it really made me think about it. I was a little sad, 584 00:43:13.039 --> 00:43:15.559 A little sad got out of my feelings a little bit. I had 585 00:43:15.599 --> 00:43:20.320 read something on Instagram that said, no one knows how much you suffered this 586 00:43:20.440 --> 00:43:23.320 year, but you stayed strong and didn't quit. You literally did your best. 587 00:43:23.440 --> 00:43:28.159 Be proud of yourself for passing your hardest moments alone while everyone believed you 588 00:43:28.159 --> 00:43:30.840 were fine, and never stop pushing to be the best you could be. 589 00:43:30.960 --> 00:43:32.079 Keep blowing. And I was thinking about this today when I was at the 590 00:43:32.119 --> 00:43:37.360 nail shop and get my nails done, because even though I said like I 591 00:43:37.440 --> 00:43:39.599 wasn't really disappointed myself, there was a split second that I was kind of 592 00:43:39.599 --> 00:43:46.480 beating up on myself for my whole New Year's extravaganza shit. But it was 593 00:43:46.559 --> 00:43:52.480 just like I had to dig a little deeper with that on why. I 594 00:43:52.559 --> 00:43:57.599 feel like, you know, you got those moments when you relapse to things 595 00:43:57.679 --> 00:44:00.679 or go back to certain things or situations or whatever, and it's just like, 596 00:44:01.159 --> 00:44:06.360 I don't think a lot of people know like and I don't. I 597 00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:07.800 feel like I don't really share this. And it's so funny because a lot 598 00:44:07.840 --> 00:44:13.360 of my family, I feel like a lot of my family members every day, 599 00:44:13.599 --> 00:44:15.280 well not every day, but I feel like, as of recently, 600 00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:17.440 a lot of my family be like, oh, hey, just checking on 601 00:44:17.480 --> 00:44:21.480 you, haven't heard from you or since Sometimes, like my family be hitting 602 00:44:21.480 --> 00:44:23.559 me up in a group chat, and I just don't even be responding because 603 00:44:23.559 --> 00:44:29.480 I just I don't have the energy to engage with people and shit like that, 604 00:44:29.639 --> 00:44:31.400 because I just be feeling like I got a lot going on, and 605 00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:35.800 you know, I wear it very well, you know what I'm saying. 606 00:44:35.840 --> 00:44:37.000 And so when I was at the NL shop, one of the things I 607 00:44:37.079 --> 00:44:42.079 was thinking about was like, I don't think a lot of people understand how 608 00:44:42.880 --> 00:44:46.199 lonely this journey. First of all, a spiritual journey is a lonely ass 609 00:44:46.280 --> 00:44:51.800 journey when you the black sheep of the family, when you on a different 610 00:44:51.840 --> 00:44:57.719 path, got different beliefs. Being an entrepreneur is a lonely journey. But 611 00:44:59.159 --> 00:45:05.800 this situation in particular, like relocating to another state, and again, no, 612 00:45:05.960 --> 00:45:07.639 I'm not over this shit, not like I feel like I'm over it, 613 00:45:07.639 --> 00:45:14.679 but in a way not really because relocating to a new place and kind 614 00:45:14.679 --> 00:45:16.960 of feeling a bandit from a situation, you know what I'm saying, Like 615 00:45:17.039 --> 00:45:21.119 even though I've still been making it and was able to pick up the pieces 616 00:45:21.159 --> 00:45:24.880 and keep moving like nothing ever happened, it's been a very lonely journey, 617 00:45:24.880 --> 00:45:30.559 you know what I'm saying, and the shit that I've went through during that 618 00:45:30.679 --> 00:45:35.039 time. So again it to me, I felt abandoned in that situation. 619 00:45:35.480 --> 00:45:38.519 I really felt betrayed when all of that happened. And then a turnaround to 620 00:45:38.599 --> 00:45:45.039 have to deal with a whole situation, like a whole legal battle, a 621 00:45:45.079 --> 00:45:47.079 whole custody battle, Like I didn't really want to speak on that before. 622 00:45:47.159 --> 00:45:52.400 But that's over now and I'm happy with the outcome. But you know what 623 00:45:52.440 --> 00:45:57.320 I'm saying, to even I share a lot about that with somebody, you 624 00:45:57.400 --> 00:46:00.199 know what I'm saying. I shared a lot about that shity situation with somebody, 625 00:46:00.239 --> 00:46:04.360 And to know, like you know what I'm saying, I came out 626 00:46:04.360 --> 00:46:08.519 here trying to you know, get myself together or whatever, and so for 627 00:46:08.840 --> 00:46:14.760 that situation to kind of backfire on me and like go in a whole different 628 00:46:14.800 --> 00:46:16.679 direction, and that was a lot to deal with. And again to feel 629 00:46:16.679 --> 00:46:22.760 abandoned and be basically by yourself here like this shit be lonely as hell, 630 00:46:23.159 --> 00:46:27.360 like it be a lot to deal with. I don't just be like crying 631 00:46:27.360 --> 00:46:34.719 my eyes out and no shit like that, but it that shit definitely took 632 00:46:34.719 --> 00:46:37.880 a toll on me, like being here like a lot of day like that 633 00:46:37.960 --> 00:46:44.039 situation, the whole custody shit that I was going through, being in a 634 00:46:44.119 --> 00:46:46.679 toxic work environment, just trying to make it on a day to day basis, 635 00:46:46.719 --> 00:46:50.800 Like it be a lot to try to really keep shit together. It's 636 00:46:50.880 --> 00:46:53.159 like, damn, you know what I'm saying, And I got I don't 637 00:46:53.159 --> 00:46:57.199 even want to say a handful of homegirls. I want to say like two 638 00:46:57.360 --> 00:47:00.039 maybe three home girls that I talked to, but and it's cool. They 639 00:47:00.079 --> 00:47:05.119 are all very supportive, always had my back, always there. But even 640 00:47:05.199 --> 00:47:07.960 that just kind of get old sometime, Like you know what I'm saying, 641 00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:10.679 I literally have nobody here. Every holiday I've had to fucking work. I 642 00:47:10.800 --> 00:47:13.960 be by myself. People like what you moving for the holidays? Nothing? 643 00:47:14.000 --> 00:47:15.280 I don't have no fucking family here. I'm here by myself. You know 644 00:47:15.280 --> 00:47:20.199 what I'm saying, So it gets very lonely. And then to have to 645 00:47:20.280 --> 00:47:25.800 go through shit by yourself and keep it fucking trucking, keep it fucking moving, 646 00:47:25.920 --> 00:47:32.360 keep fucking smiling, keep a positive mindset, keep your mental stability, 647 00:47:32.519 --> 00:47:38.000 keep waking up every day like it's a fucking lot, bro. And then 648 00:47:38.119 --> 00:47:43.440 to be away from your kid. That's very hard for a mother, you 649 00:47:43.440 --> 00:47:46.519 know it. It may not be hard for a daddy. It may be 650 00:47:46.599 --> 00:47:49.679 hard for some of y'all. I don't know, but I'm just saying like 651 00:47:50.159 --> 00:47:52.719 it's different as a mother, it's very different, you know what I'm saying, 652 00:47:52.840 --> 00:47:58.039 regardless of trying to get your shit together like that shit is very fucking 653 00:47:58.079 --> 00:48:02.280 hard. It's very hard. So it'd be a lot of mixed emotions and 654 00:48:02.400 --> 00:48:06.679 be a lot of shit going on. And so, you know, I 655 00:48:06.800 --> 00:48:08.599 was just thinking about that, like a lot of people don't know, like 656 00:48:08.800 --> 00:48:14.119 the silent battles that I, you know, deal with on a daily basis, 657 00:48:14.880 --> 00:48:19.639 and people always feel like I'm the strong friend. People just never feel 658 00:48:19.679 --> 00:48:21.800 like, you know what I'm saying, I'm not that person that people hit 659 00:48:21.880 --> 00:48:24.039 up and be like, oh are you good? Like cause I gotta be 660 00:48:24.199 --> 00:48:28.559 everybody else's therapist. I gotta be there for everybody else. So you know, 661 00:48:28.719 --> 00:48:31.360 I don't really get that a lot, and when I do, I 662 00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:36.960 appreciate it. But it's just like people be going through their hardest moments, 663 00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:42.039 you know, on motherfucking death row bother, jump off that bitch and you 664 00:48:42.079 --> 00:48:46.960 will never even fucking know. But I'm good and I'm proud of myself. 665 00:48:49.079 --> 00:48:52.039 What else? Okay, so we could get into the we can get into 666 00:48:52.039 --> 00:48:59.760 the New Year's Eve questions. I guess I think we can get into the 667 00:48:59.800 --> 00:49:06.679 New Years Eve questions. Let's see what we got. I found this online. 668 00:49:07.639 --> 00:49:10.519 I actually ordered these little like car, these like shadow work cars that 669 00:49:10.519 --> 00:49:13.840 I found on TikTok, and I thought I was gonna have them today, 670 00:49:13.840 --> 00:49:16.000 but they didn't come in the mail yet. So maybe on the next episode 671 00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:28.199 and we could dive deep into that up. These questions spark lively discussions and 672 00:49:28.239 --> 00:49:32.320 reflections, creating a memorable celebration as people share their hopes, dreams, resolutions 673 00:49:32.320 --> 00:49:37.599 for the upcoming New year. You're ready for meaningful conversations and yeah yeah, 674 00:49:37.679 --> 00:49:44.400 yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah. This not only encourages reflection 675 00:49:44.519 --> 00:49:47.280 and goal setting, but also provides a wonderful keepsake to look back on in 676 00:49:47.360 --> 00:49:52.159 future years. A New Year's interview is a tradition where you ask whoever as 677 00:49:52.159 --> 00:49:55.840 a way of reflecting on the past year and looking forward to the new one. 678 00:49:58.559 --> 00:50:02.280 So it says that you should consider writing down your answers or if you 679 00:50:02.320 --> 00:50:09.320 are brave, recording them on video or audio on New Year's and you know, 680 00:50:09.440 --> 00:50:14.039 look back at them, uh, you know, the next year or 681 00:50:14.079 --> 00:50:16.679 whatever, and just see how much your own thoughts change from year to year. 682 00:50:16.840 --> 00:50:22.480 So let's start a new tradition here. So I'm gonna pick out whatever 683 00:50:22.519 --> 00:50:28.639 ones I think are good ones. Let's see your number one goal for next 684 00:50:28.719 --> 00:50:31.719 year. My number one goal for next year, well for twenty twenty four 685 00:50:32.480 --> 00:50:40.000 is to get myself established own place on car. Another very important goal of 686 00:50:40.039 --> 00:50:46.920 mine is to become very disciplined. That's something that I really need to work 687 00:50:46.960 --> 00:50:51.079 on, is my discipline. And I feel like I really admire people. 688 00:50:51.119 --> 00:50:55.000 Like when you look at places like fitness centers or gyms, all them mopfuckers 689 00:50:55.079 --> 00:50:58.599 be disciplined, they all be in shape. You could tell they get up 690 00:50:58.639 --> 00:51:00.440 at six am, I eat my breakfast, I do this, I work 691 00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:04.679 out, But you could tell you could tell when a person got disciplined in 692 00:51:04.679 --> 00:51:07.639 their life. You can tell it's just a different it's just a different aura 693 00:51:07.679 --> 00:51:10.039 about them. It's a different you know what I'm saying. It's just a 694 00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:14.840 different way that they carry theyselves. You know I kind of I probably come 695 00:51:14.880 --> 00:51:17.440 off real, real, calm, cool, collected, just whatever, and 696 00:51:17.559 --> 00:51:23.639 the cut. I gotta get on my discipline. The biggest lesson that I 697 00:51:23.719 --> 00:51:35.760 learned this year, it's so hard straight off the dome. The biggest lesson 698 00:51:35.840 --> 00:51:45.800 that I learned this year. I'm trying to see if I wrote anything now. 699 00:51:55.039 --> 00:51:59.320 I thought I wrote something down for this. No, okay, the 700 00:51:59.320 --> 00:52:02.480 biggest lesson that I learned this year, and going back to the New Year's 701 00:52:02.519 --> 00:52:22.239 Eve situation, I think, don't don't continuously repeat lessons, especially when you 702 00:52:22.280 --> 00:52:24.639 know the outcome. You know what I'm saying. Stop making yourself have to 703 00:52:24.719 --> 00:52:30.480 go through shit over and over again, like you know what I'm saying. 704 00:52:30.519 --> 00:52:32.639 Even though I said, like I had that little moment of clarity like oh 705 00:52:32.840 --> 00:52:36.920 you know, or it was like a reminder to me, Why the fuck 706 00:52:36.960 --> 00:52:40.599 do you need a reminder? Bro? When are you gonna learn something to 707 00:52:40.679 --> 00:52:49.719 move the fuck on? So yeah, stop stop repeating lessons. The biggest 708 00:52:49.800 --> 00:52:54.239 risks that I took this year hopping on that motherfucker one way flight and uh, 709 00:52:54.320 --> 00:52:58.559 you know, and the whole situation with my son, like that was 710 00:52:58.599 --> 00:53:01.039 a really big risk and it got a little got a little hectic, it 711 00:53:01.079 --> 00:53:06.280 got a little dirty in the ring. But like I said, the outcome 712 00:53:06.360 --> 00:53:09.800 turned out to be what I wanted it to be a way that I grew 713 00:53:09.920 --> 00:53:17.599 emotionally this year. I think I grew a lot emotionally, and just how 714 00:53:17.639 --> 00:53:21.440 I was just saying that, Like, uh, I was proud of myself 715 00:53:21.440 --> 00:53:24.679 in that conversation that I was having about just really you know, just being 716 00:53:24.880 --> 00:53:30.840 very verbal and just very straightforth about like this is not what I want. 717 00:53:30.960 --> 00:53:32.760 I know that this is not what you want. You know, I know 718 00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:36.079 what I deserve. I know, like you know what I'm saying, like 719 00:53:36.760 --> 00:53:40.119 really just laying that shit out, like bro. And that's the thing I 720 00:53:40.119 --> 00:53:44.840 hate when niggas feel like like, cause niggas like to play mind games and 721 00:53:44.920 --> 00:53:46.960 niggas like the gas light and do all that bullshit and act like they don't 722 00:53:46.960 --> 00:53:50.559 be doing what they be doing. And it's like, bro, I already 723 00:53:50.599 --> 00:53:52.800 fucking know you know what I'm saying. And it's just like, let's just 724 00:53:53.039 --> 00:53:58.079 I don't understand why people just don't want to have real last conversations about what 725 00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:00.199 shit is. But it really be the other people that be dealing with shit 726 00:54:00.440 --> 00:54:05.280 that you know what I'm saying, and they try to project or they it 727 00:54:05.480 --> 00:54:07.599 just be a whole bunch of bullshit in the game, and it's like, 728 00:54:07.719 --> 00:54:10.679 let's just really have a realize conversation about what shit is. You know what 729 00:54:10.719 --> 00:54:15.159 I'm saying. You don't have to and that's the thing. You do. 730 00:54:15.239 --> 00:54:16.519 Not have to play games with me. You ain't got a lot to me. 731 00:54:16.679 --> 00:54:22.440 I may not like the truth, but we could just keep it a 732 00:54:22.519 --> 00:54:25.840 hunted, we could keep it a butt. But uh so, Yeah, 733 00:54:25.920 --> 00:54:37.039 I feel like I grew emotionally by learning to speak up for myself. I 734 00:54:37.079 --> 00:54:44.800 really feel like I'm my wanting done shit, you know what I'm saying, 735 00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:49.719 like, and I'm really I'm really heavy on the red flax this time around. 736 00:54:50.000 --> 00:54:52.639 Like you know, it was a dude that was, you know, 737 00:54:52.760 --> 00:54:57.599 showing some type of interest in me, and like it was just like it 738 00:54:57.679 --> 00:54:59.840 was cool at first, but then it was like, bro, you a 739 00:55:00.280 --> 00:55:02.519 you ain't really on that, you know what I'm saying, like I'm starting 740 00:55:02.519 --> 00:55:05.360 to it was a little shit he was doing. I was starting to keep 741 00:55:05.360 --> 00:55:10.599 the red flag. So I'm like, I'm straight something you want to do 742 00:55:10.639 --> 00:55:15.239 the same next year? What do I want to do the same in twenty 743 00:55:15.280 --> 00:55:22.320 twenty four? Uh? I want to keep doing the podcast. I want 744 00:55:22.320 --> 00:55:28.119 to keep being consistent with it. Uh. The best advice that I received 745 00:55:28.239 --> 00:55:31.320 this year, y'all motherfuckers, don't be giving me no fucking advice. Nobody 746 00:55:31.360 --> 00:55:37.280 knows anything except me. It's like, nah, I'm trying to think who's 747 00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.000 giving me advice? Uh, I ain't gonna know. One of the best 748 00:55:43.360 --> 00:55:49.559 advice givers in my circle is one of my bff's, Jazlyn Panda. Uh. 749 00:55:50.440 --> 00:55:54.639 She it's nothing like in my mind that sticks out, but she's just 750 00:55:54.679 --> 00:55:58.719 like i'd be telling her, like you should have a fucking podcast, you 751 00:55:58.760 --> 00:56:01.679 should be a motherfucking motive speaker. Like she's really like a big sister to 752 00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:07.320 me. Because anything that I ever experienced, like she's like Jazmine, I've 753 00:56:07.320 --> 00:56:09.880 been there before, I already went through this. I got this is how 754 00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:14.079 I got through it. I remember when I was there, I remember when 755 00:56:14.239 --> 00:56:19.679 Xyz and like she's just a very like inspirational and motivational person for me, 756 00:56:19.719 --> 00:56:23.679 and she like she is the voice of reason for me, and that's crazy 757 00:56:23.719 --> 00:56:28.679 because I always have to be that for other people. So I really appreciate 758 00:56:28.719 --> 00:56:31.320 that from her. A new skill that I want to learn this year, 759 00:56:31.719 --> 00:56:34.960 I would just say, cook, okay, and I don't need none of 760 00:56:35.039 --> 00:56:37.679 y'all motherfuckers on my head, niggas like, oh that's why you ain't got 761 00:56:37.719 --> 00:56:39.559 no man. Bitches be cooking for niggas and still get cheated on. So 762 00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:43.760 whatever, I like to go out to eat, but we'll throw cooking on 763 00:56:43.800 --> 00:56:47.079 there. Something you want to do for someone next year, something that, 764 00:56:47.639 --> 00:56:50.760 like I said, I had that written down in the book, the three 765 00:56:50.760 --> 00:56:53.199 people that I wanted to repay for really like you know, helping me and 766 00:56:53.199 --> 00:56:59.719 looking out for me during my time here. So I want to give back 767 00:57:00.360 --> 00:57:08.559 and look out. My number one goal for twenty twenty four I want the 768 00:57:08.599 --> 00:57:15.960 motherfucking pot. My number one goal is to transition out of working a nine 769 00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:20.039 to five into being a full time entrepreneur with yoga. In the podcast, 770 00:57:20.079 --> 00:57:24.719 like, I really want this to be my thing. I want this to 771 00:57:24.760 --> 00:57:28.440 be my thing. I want this to be number one. I want this 772 00:57:28.480 --> 00:57:30.519 to be my bread and butter. I want this to be my life, 773 00:57:30.760 --> 00:57:37.440 Like that's my number one goal. Something you want to do differently in twenty 774 00:57:37.440 --> 00:57:47.599 twenty four. I want to move smarter. I want to uh, I 775 00:57:47.599 --> 00:57:58.159 want to make better decisions financially. I want to I just want to be 776 00:57:58.159 --> 00:58:00.559 better, you know what I'm saying. I want to keep I want to 777 00:58:00.639 --> 00:58:10.239 keep becoming the best version of myself because I feel like I get complacent a 778 00:58:10.280 --> 00:58:15.639 lot just in life here, like if you not pressing to be better. 779 00:58:15.760 --> 00:58:20.840 And that's why, Like, routine is very important in situations like that, 780 00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:23.360 whether it be with your health and your fitness, because that helps your mentality, 781 00:58:23.519 --> 00:58:29.719 but it also helps you physically. But just having a routine and whatever. 782 00:58:30.039 --> 00:58:37.000 Like again, that discipline is very important for me. My word for 783 00:58:37.159 --> 00:58:44.880 next year or what's a good word for me for twenty twenty four, I 784 00:58:44.920 --> 00:58:49.519 don't know. I'm gonna just say blessed, Okay, blessed and highly favored. 785 00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:57.719 A place that I want to visit. Some places on my list are 786 00:58:57.960 --> 00:59:05.880 Aruba, Egypt. Let me see somewhere in the States that I want to 787 00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:12.079 go. I want to go to New York. What a New York niggas 788 00:59:12.079 --> 00:59:15.000 here? No like I gotta give me a Harlem nigga or a I feel 789 00:59:15.000 --> 00:59:17.480 like I fuck with a Harlem nigga or man. I don't know. I 790 00:59:17.480 --> 00:59:23.599 don't know what the Bronx has or Queens Southside Jamaica Queen, I don't know. 791 00:59:23.920 --> 00:59:31.199 I want to go to New York though. An unexpected joy this past 792 00:59:31.280 --> 00:59:44.119 year. An unexpected joy, I'll say yoga, And that was one of 793 00:59:44.400 --> 00:59:50.599 my greatest accomplishments. I'm pretty sure that's on here. One new thing that 794 00:59:50.679 --> 00:59:57.519 I tried this year, ba I tried fun first of all, one of 795 00:59:57.559 --> 01:00:02.360 my favorite things. Like I I have a serious obsession for watching like muck 796 01:00:02.480 --> 01:00:07.320 bang videos. I will sit and watch motherfuckers eat on TikTok all day long. 797 01:00:07.400 --> 01:00:09.599 That shit is so weird and every time I do it as soon as 798 01:00:10.039 --> 01:00:14.480 I ain't gonna lie that day, that night I got sick and I had 799 01:00:14.480 --> 01:00:16.800 the stomach flu. I had had wing Stop that day, and I'm not 800 01:00:16.880 --> 01:00:21.039 fucking a wing Stop no more. But Wingstop definitely had me in the chunkhoult 801 01:00:21.039 --> 01:00:24.760 too. But I tried fud this year, like the little ramen, the 802 01:00:24.800 --> 01:00:28.280 noodles and all of that shit, and I just put all the hot shit 803 01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:30.719 in it, like the chili oil, the h what else did I put 804 01:00:30.800 --> 01:00:36.320 in their fucking siracha? It was, it was decent I had. I 805 01:00:36.320 --> 01:00:45.480 think it was the beef and unexpected obstacle this year, everything that I went 806 01:00:45.519 --> 01:00:52.320 through in Dallas, shit with my baby daddy. Uh yeah, all of 807 01:00:52.320 --> 01:01:02.920 that unexpected as fucked. The biggest thing that I learned, The biggest thing 808 01:01:04.119 --> 01:01:08.079 that I learned is it's so crazy coming up with this off the top of 809 01:01:08.079 --> 01:01:13.280 the dumb it's on the spot. Uh, the biggest thing that I learned. 810 01:01:16.480 --> 01:01:27.719 What have you learned, Jasmin? What have you learned? That life 811 01:01:27.800 --> 01:01:35.400 is a never like it's a never ending process of learning, you know what 812 01:01:35.480 --> 01:01:37.119 I'm saying. So just like again taking it back to the nail shop. 813 01:01:37.159 --> 01:01:40.000 But for that split second when I kind of was beating up on on myself 814 01:01:40.039 --> 01:01:45.480 about the situation, is like, Jazzmin, all of the situations in your 815 01:01:45.519 --> 01:01:54.480 life that appear as obstacles are just opportunities for growth, opportunities for change, 816 01:01:54.760 --> 01:01:59.280 for you to become better. All of the bullshit that you went through since 817 01:01:59.280 --> 01:02:04.360 you been here, you know whatever, Look where you at now. Look 818 01:02:04.360 --> 01:02:07.639 at the self reflection, Look at the growth, look at the progress, 819 01:02:07.679 --> 01:02:09.480 Look at the woman that you are, look at the woman you're becoming, 820 01:02:09.639 --> 01:02:14.199 Like I love this for me, But you got And that's the thing, 821 01:02:14.440 --> 01:02:17.079 Like you will ask God or the universe for strength and all of that. 822 01:02:17.280 --> 01:02:21.960 Okay, motherfucker, you gonna get these battles though, you don't get some 823 01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:23.800 tough times. You gonna get some rain, you gonna get some bo you 824 01:02:23.840 --> 01:02:28.480 know what I'm saying. In order, But that's the thing. And a 825 01:02:28.480 --> 01:02:32.039 lot of people feel like a sense of shame or embarrassment about the things that 826 01:02:32.079 --> 01:02:36.440 they go through in life. And shout out to old girl that picked me 827 01:02:36.559 --> 01:02:39.800 up last night, my uh uber driver and I told her to I had 828 01:02:39.800 --> 01:02:45.239 her subscribe to the podcast, so hopefully she watches this video. But she 829 01:02:45.400 --> 01:02:50.159 was actually young. I think she said she was twenty four or something like 830 01:02:50.199 --> 01:02:52.599 that. She was super mature though, and I could just tell from her 831 01:02:52.639 --> 01:02:55.400 conversation, and she was just telling me that she had been through so much 832 01:02:55.440 --> 01:02:59.559 in life, and I was like, I could tell, but just the 833 01:02:59.599 --> 01:03:07.400 way that she carried herself in her conversation, like it's just beautiful to witness, 834 01:03:07.480 --> 01:03:10.880 you know what I'm saying. So never be ashamed of the things that 835 01:03:10.960 --> 01:03:15.079 you experience or go through because that's what makes you who you are. And 836 01:03:15.119 --> 01:03:19.599 don't nobody give a fuck about the motherfucker that I want to play perfect Patty 837 01:03:19.760 --> 01:03:30.960 on Instagram period. Three words to describe twenty twenty three, Uh, I 838 01:03:30.960 --> 01:04:01.199 would say eye opening, eye opening, empowering, and I don't know, 839 01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:15.039 unexpected. I guess something that made you belly laugh. Uh shit, just 840 01:04:15.079 --> 01:04:18.800 me being delusional and like, you know what I'm saying. But I'm a 841 01:04:18.880 --> 01:04:25.440 lover girl, I'm a pisces like, so you know that shit made me 842 01:04:25.519 --> 01:04:30.320 laugh at myself. But the best movie that I watched in twenty twenty three, 843 01:04:30.719 --> 01:04:33.519 I don't even be watching shit like that. I definitely don't go to 844 01:04:33.559 --> 01:04:39.519 the fucking movies. I did go to the movies, and guess what, 845 01:04:39.559 --> 01:04:43.199 we had fell asleep in that bitch as soon as we got there. We 846 01:04:43.239 --> 01:04:46.760 went to see The Equalizer. Baby, Well, I'll tell you we had 847 01:04:46.760 --> 01:04:49.920 fell asleep as soon as we got in the movie. But the best I'm 848 01:04:50.159 --> 01:04:54.519 not the best movie that I watched last year. Shit, I'll be watching 849 01:04:54.639 --> 01:05:00.440 movies on TV and shit, the biggest problem that I solved this year. 850 01:05:01.920 --> 01:05:10.199 Still solving them, bitches, Still solving them, bitches. Uh, but 851 01:05:10.480 --> 01:05:15.000 okay, like the whole situation with my my legal battle, my custody battle. 852 01:05:16.360 --> 01:05:21.039 That really took a lot out of me, and it also solved a 853 01:05:21.079 --> 01:05:29.920 lot for me because I always felt like, and I know, motherfuckers is 854 01:05:29.960 --> 01:05:31.880 not gonna agree with me or be mad that I'm saying this. But like 855 01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:42.280 for women, again, you gotta be careful in relationships because men be one 856 01:05:42.440 --> 01:05:47.639 control in every aspect, every aspect, whether it be financially through children, 857 01:05:48.360 --> 01:05:53.159 through telling you what the fuck to wear or what to do. Like you 858 01:05:53.239 --> 01:05:57.599 know, like men really want to control you, and it could manifest in 859 01:05:57.679 --> 01:06:02.000 many different ways. And for years I always felt like my parents, my 860 01:06:02.039 --> 01:06:08.159 co parents in situation was a form of control. You know what I'm saying, 861 01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:15.880 in a way to keep me down, a way to keep a person's 862 01:06:15.000 --> 01:06:17.719 eye on me or keep their foot on my neck, or you know what 863 01:06:17.800 --> 01:06:20.840 I'm saying. And you know, you can feel however you feel about that, 864 01:06:21.239 --> 01:06:30.679 but that's how I feel. And so you know, the scariest part 865 01:06:30.719 --> 01:06:33.639 about me going through the legal battle of that was the way that I left 866 01:06:33.679 --> 01:06:38.639 and the way that the narrative was being painted of me as a parent and 867 01:06:38.719 --> 01:06:42.719 as a mother, And I was like, E don't you know what I'm 868 01:06:42.719 --> 01:06:45.079 saying. I didn't know how that was gonna work out for me, but 869 01:06:45.119 --> 01:06:47.920 like I said, the outcome ended up being what I wanted it to be. 870 01:06:48.599 --> 01:06:54.800 But I feel like now that that situation is done and overWe and like 871 01:06:54.880 --> 01:06:57.920 you know, we got the shit on paper about how shit is supposed to 872 01:06:57.920 --> 01:07:00.679 be. I feel like I could kind of close that chapter life and I 873 01:07:00.679 --> 01:07:03.159 feel like I could move how I want to move without feeling like I'm being 874 01:07:03.239 --> 01:07:12.519 controlled. So the best day of the year in twenty twenty three, I 875 01:07:12.519 --> 01:07:17.039 would say my birthday was a really good day. I had taught a class 876 01:07:17.039 --> 01:07:20.119 on my yoga class on my birthday, I had went to the SPA that 877 01:07:20.239 --> 01:07:24.440 day. I had just treated myself that day. I was really happy and 878 01:07:24.480 --> 01:07:30.360 fulfilled that day. Another good day of twenty twenty three was when I graduated 879 01:07:30.480 --> 01:07:36.239 yoga teacher training. Again. I was very just proud of myself for how 880 01:07:36.400 --> 01:07:40.960 fast like I had went through the training process and became a certified teacher. 881 01:07:41.079 --> 01:07:45.159 That was a really good day. The funniest thing that happened to me in 882 01:07:45.199 --> 01:07:53.400 twenty twenty three, Um, it's five point fifty five. What's the funniest 883 01:07:53.440 --> 01:07:58.719 thing that happened to me five is symbolic of conflict though, so probably the 884 01:07:58.760 --> 01:08:00.519 bullshit that I were. I hate to keep bringing it back to all of 885 01:08:00.559 --> 01:08:03.760 the same shit, but that shit was. It wasn't funny then, but 886 01:08:03.800 --> 01:08:06.440 it's funny now. I could look back and laugh at all the things that 887 01:08:06.440 --> 01:08:11.719 I've been through since I've been here. What was the highlight of twenty twenty 888 01:08:11.719 --> 01:08:16.880 three for me? Shit, just getting the fuck on. I think when 889 01:08:16.880 --> 01:08:21.039 you see people talk about, like move away from your hometown, like I 890 01:08:21.079 --> 01:08:24.039 do, feel like that's one of the best things to do. Like, 891 01:08:24.159 --> 01:08:28.159 I really just could not see myself living in Detroit for the rest of my 892 01:08:28.239 --> 01:08:30.880 life. I don't. I don't have any desire to be there. I 893 01:08:30.920 --> 01:08:36.159 think it's good to move, relocate, new scenery, new vibe, new 894 01:08:36.239 --> 01:08:44.159 people, new opportunities, you know, new everything. So that was the 895 01:08:44.239 --> 01:08:47.800 highlight for me. What's the most important lesson that I've learned in twenty twenty 896 01:08:47.840 --> 01:08:59.239 three? Things don't always work out the way that you plan or expect them 897 01:08:59.239 --> 01:09:03.520 to. You know, shit, things rarely ever work out how you expect 898 01:09:03.560 --> 01:09:06.960 them to. Uh. I think one of the best like quotes is when 899 01:09:06.960 --> 01:09:12.479 they say, like, uh, tell God your plans and he'll laugh or 900 01:09:12.479 --> 01:09:15.319 whatever, like maybe don't tell God your plans. He'll be like, put 901 01:09:15.359 --> 01:09:19.560 them bitches down, cause that's not how it's going. No, that's not 902 01:09:19.600 --> 01:09:24.399 what we're doing. I got this whole shit, or your whole shit was 903 01:09:24.439 --> 01:09:29.399 already predestined. It was already your day, So put your fucking plans up. 904 01:09:29.840 --> 01:09:31.520 And that's so funny because to a certain extent, I do feel like 905 01:09:31.560 --> 01:09:40.000 you have to plan, you know, your life or whatever. But I'll 906 01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:43.960 be in the middle of like planning your life and going with the flow, 907 01:09:44.159 --> 01:09:47.119 cause it's it. Man. I'm more on the going with the flow side, 908 01:09:47.119 --> 01:09:50.399 though, I ain't gonna lie. If you could sum up your year 909 01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:58.720 in one word, what would it be and why? I don't fucking know. 910 01:09:59.000 --> 01:10:05.640 Just crazy. It's like surprise, Like, yeah, what's your favorite 911 01:10:05.680 --> 01:10:11.439 New Year's Eve tradition? It's kissing out of the mist sometime? Is that 912 01:10:11.520 --> 01:10:15.439 Christmas Verus at New Year's Eve? I don't know. I didn't kiss nobody 913 01:10:15.680 --> 01:10:21.000 under the mistletone, but I don't know. I guess that would be it. 914 01:10:23.439 --> 01:10:25.680 I don't know what else. You're supposed to eat black eyed peas for 915 01:10:25.800 --> 01:10:30.000 good luck and graze for money. We was doing that shit for years and 916 01:10:30.039 --> 01:10:32.079 it never really happened. So maybe we should think of something new to do. 917 01:10:32.640 --> 01:10:35.439 If you could change one thing about the past year, what would it 918 01:10:35.479 --> 01:10:44.319 be? I don't know. That's so hard to say, because it's like 919 01:10:46.760 --> 01:10:53.600 even with life period, would you really change anything like, because then everything 920 01:10:53.640 --> 01:10:58.520 would be different, Everything would be totally different. And not to say this, 921 01:10:58.640 --> 01:11:00.880 I hate to use this as an example, but I do think about 922 01:11:00.880 --> 01:11:05.760 this sometimes, Like if I would have never had a kid at twenty one, 923 01:11:06.039 --> 01:11:09.279 what would my life had look like? You know what I'm saying, 924 01:11:09.439 --> 01:11:15.840 Like life would have been totally different. I don't know. If I could 925 01:11:15.880 --> 01:11:17.439 change one thing about the past year, though, what would it be? 926 01:11:29.000 --> 01:11:35.159 I don't know. Or even still, something else that I think about or 927 01:11:35.279 --> 01:11:40.319 that I have thought about recently, was like when I first got here, 928 01:11:40.359 --> 01:11:43.680 I had two jobs, right, I had got two jobs, and I 929 01:11:43.720 --> 01:11:47.119 was working at another hotel too, a very nice hotel. The vibes was 930 01:11:47.159 --> 01:11:51.359 better, They treated they employees way better, fed them full of course gourmet 931 01:11:51.439 --> 01:11:55.920 meals every day. I should have stayed in that bitch, But I was 932 01:11:55.920 --> 01:12:03.920 thinking like if I would have stayed working there, you know, like I 933 01:12:04.039 --> 01:12:09.000 ended up getting cool with a coworker and staying with my coworker, you know 934 01:12:09.039 --> 01:12:12.359 what I'm saying after my situation. So it's like, where would I been 935 01:12:12.479 --> 01:12:15.520 saying if I worked at the other hotel, Like who was I gonna link 936 01:12:15.600 --> 01:12:17.800 up with on some you know what I'm saying, Like, I don't know, 937 01:12:18.079 --> 01:12:23.119 but everything would have been different. So I don't know. I don't 938 01:12:23.119 --> 01:12:26.560 know what I would change about the past year. What would I change? 939 01:12:26.960 --> 01:12:43.960 Uh? Sit Uh? But then I wouldn't be here. But one thing 940 01:12:44.000 --> 01:12:46.399 that I will say is just like as much that I invested in that whole 941 01:12:46.439 --> 01:12:53.760 situation, Uh, when niggas was in jail and shit like I just cause 942 01:12:53.880 --> 01:13:00.920 you know, I feel like it went like unnoticed and unappreciated. So you 943 01:13:00.960 --> 01:13:01.960 know, when a nigga was to jail, I could have been like, 944 01:13:02.000 --> 01:13:05.399 hey, hit me when you get out and we'll see who won't reconvene. 945 01:13:06.119 --> 01:13:12.520 But again, she could have been totally different. What's your biggest goal for 946 01:13:12.600 --> 01:13:15.239 the upcoming year? I told y'all to make This Bitch the number one podcast 947 01:13:15.319 --> 01:13:19.159 in the motherfucking world, So please subscribe. As you're watching this video, 948 01:13:19.359 --> 01:13:24.119 please like the video, Post This Bitch on your Instagram, send it to 949 01:13:24.199 --> 01:13:29.640 your girlfriends, your friends. Uh, who has been your biggest inspiration this 950 01:13:29.800 --> 01:13:36.439 year? Excuse me, that's a good question. Who's been my biggest inspiration? 951 01:13:44.520 --> 01:13:48.479 Who inspires your girl? I ain't gonna lie. I can't inspire and 952 01:13:48.560 --> 01:13:53.279 people be home on people like y'all just listen to shit on Instagram and run 953 01:13:53.279 --> 01:13:57.000 with it and be living y'all life based off Instagram called but them Instagram memes, 954 01:13:57.079 --> 01:14:00.880 be hitting them, bitches, be fire, so it Instagram be my 955 01:14:00.920 --> 01:14:03.359 biggest inspiration. I follow like a lot of inspirational pages, a lot of 956 01:14:03.399 --> 01:14:06.920 like astrology pages and shit, just like that shit that I read to y'all 957 01:14:06.960 --> 01:14:16.880 earlier. Like, I think one of my biggest inspirations are people that are 958 01:14:17.000 --> 01:14:24.000 like just authentically being themselves and with what they share on Instagram. I feel 959 01:14:24.039 --> 01:14:28.520 like everybody wants to be like an influencer now and everything is so like, 960 01:14:29.560 --> 01:14:31.520 get ready with me. This is you know, all them type of videos 961 01:14:31.520 --> 01:14:34.520 and shit and everything. And I was watching some little video on TikTok the 962 01:14:34.520 --> 01:14:39.640 other day and it was like, when your friend is an influencer and y'all 963 01:14:39.720 --> 01:14:42.640 just having lunch at the crib and they bring it in, They motherfucking tripod 964 01:14:42.720 --> 01:14:45.600 like, Okay, let's get some laughs and let's do it. Like you 965 01:14:45.680 --> 01:14:46.760 know what I'm saying. I feel like that's how the internet is, so 966 01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:51.239 just when people just again, like a situation like this, somebody sitting here 967 01:14:51.319 --> 01:14:55.640 watching this, Like let me sit here and watching this two hour video, 968 01:14:55.800 --> 01:14:58.720 this girl just talking by her fucking self. You know what I'm saying, 969 01:14:59.039 --> 01:15:04.640 Like that type of shit, What bad habits do you what? What bad 970 01:15:04.680 --> 01:15:12.920 habits do you wish to conquer next year? Get fucking healthy, work fucking 971 01:15:13.000 --> 01:15:19.600 out. Yeah, well those aren't bad habits, but you know the opposite 972 01:15:19.640 --> 01:15:24.560 of those habits, So spending all that money on fucking door, dashing over 973 01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:30.479 eats, and fucking not being active every day again, I'm go'na have to 974 01:15:30.479 --> 01:15:33.000 go back to the braids though, for the yoga, for the hi yoga, 975 01:15:33.079 --> 01:15:36.039 cause you you could not do yoga every day with your hair done like 976 01:15:36.119 --> 01:15:41.279 this. Uh, what is one new skill that you wanna learn? I 977 01:15:41.319 --> 01:15:46.279 said, cook, motherfucking damn. What's the most adventurous thing you did this 978 01:15:46.359 --> 01:15:54.479 past year? I feel like I got I gotta live more life. I 979 01:15:54.520 --> 01:15:58.880 feel like I don't be doing shit. I didn't go fucking skydiving. I 980 01:15:58.880 --> 01:16:02.600 didn't jump off a cliff. I didn't, Uh, I didn't go fucking 981 01:16:02.640 --> 01:16:06.560 swimming with the dolphins, Like I need to live life. What's the most 982 01:16:06.560 --> 01:16:18.920 adventurous thing that I did? Shit, got in the car with a stranger 983 01:16:19.920 --> 01:16:24.720 during a lyft ride. I don't know, Like I don't know. Let's 984 01:16:24.720 --> 01:16:28.199 see, how do you plan to make the next year better than the last 985 01:16:28.520 --> 01:16:38.039 by being better? Doing better? Checking myself again, checking myself, cutting 986 01:16:38.039 --> 01:16:41.600 into myself like Jazmine was on some bulls shit yesterday. Do you want to 987 01:16:41.720 --> 01:16:44.640 change or do you not? Do you want to glow up or not? 988 01:16:44.800 --> 01:16:46.680 Do you want to move forward or not? Do you wanna, you know, 989 01:16:48.680 --> 01:17:01.640 be better? What are your new Year's resolutions? Like I said, 990 01:17:01.720 --> 01:17:08.279 my thing is, I feel like it doesn't matter the day, the time, 991 01:17:08.680 --> 01:17:15.720 whatever, because it's a mindset. So make it up in your mind 992 01:17:15.920 --> 01:17:18.319 that you wanna change or that you want to do something, and take action 993 01:17:18.800 --> 01:17:23.520 on your fucking goals. That's the only way that it's gonna happen. And 994 01:17:23.720 --> 01:17:26.720 understand that every day is not gonna be the same. Every day is not 995 01:17:26.720 --> 01:17:29.680 gonna be easy. Every day you not gonna wanna get up. Some days 996 01:17:29.680 --> 01:17:31.680 you're gonna fuck up. Some days you're gonna feel Some days you're gonna relap, 997 01:17:31.760 --> 01:17:35.079 some days you're gonna call that nigga, some days you're gonna whatever. 998 01:17:35.239 --> 01:17:39.520 You know what I'm saying. Some days you're gonna be toxic. I don't 999 01:17:39.560 --> 01:17:45.960 know. But the point is, you gotta you gotta come back to self. 1000 01:17:45.079 --> 01:17:49.439 You gotta center yourself and acknowledge that, Okay, I fucked up. 1001 01:17:49.520 --> 01:17:56.560 Whatever. Same same with whatever your new Year's resolutions are. Maybe you said 1002 01:17:56.560 --> 01:17:59.840 that you was gonna stop drinking, and you fucking drink yesterday. You know 1003 01:18:00.000 --> 01:18:02.960 what I'm saying, Like, Okay, it's a new day, start over 1004 01:18:03.399 --> 01:18:10.279 again. Period. Every day that you wake up is a chance to change, 1005 01:18:10.479 --> 01:18:19.560 a chance to do better. So yes, what else? Share a 1006 01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:23.800 moment from the past year that made you laugh a lout? These are like 1007 01:18:23.880 --> 01:18:28.920 the same fucking questions. I don't know, what are you most grateful for 1008 01:18:29.079 --> 01:18:35.600 from the past year? Just my my community, my tribe, the people 1009 01:18:35.640 --> 01:18:41.039 that have showed up for me since I've been here again, like literally people 1010 01:18:41.039 --> 01:18:45.039 that I don't even know, like really helping me and really you know, 1011 01:18:45.319 --> 01:18:53.159 just being a great form or source of support for me. Again, ask 1012 01:18:53.279 --> 01:18:56.560 me where I want to travel to? I said, what places. What 1013 01:18:56.640 --> 01:19:00.960 was your most significant achievement this past year again yoga shit, becoming a certified 1014 01:19:01.039 --> 01:19:09.479 yoga teacher, teaching my class the three classes that I saw here in Dallas. 1015 01:19:11.640 --> 01:19:17.199 What was your biggest challenge and how did it make you stronger? I 1016 01:19:17.239 --> 01:19:20.359 hate to keep bringing up the same situations, but just again, just the 1017 01:19:20.399 --> 01:19:25.720 shit that I've been through since I've been here, because like those was really 1018 01:19:25.800 --> 01:19:29.439 curve balls in the game. I never could have expected it or planned for 1019 01:19:29.479 --> 01:19:31.279 shit to happen that way. You know what I'm saying. I was able 1020 01:19:31.319 --> 01:19:41.479 to pivot and just keep on fucking moving. Uh, these are the same 1021 01:19:41.560 --> 01:19:45.960 questions. What unexpected life lessons did you encounter again? Whatever, same fucking 1022 01:19:46.039 --> 01:20:00.439 questions. Okay, what is something that I'm looking forward to in the coming 1023 01:20:00.560 --> 01:20:09.800 year? More money? More? It's like, no, no, but 1024 01:20:09.840 --> 01:20:15.399 more money, y'all know, I'm whatever, girl, I gonna lie like 1025 01:20:15.680 --> 01:20:18.680 I don't even know. I don't even really know what I want for real. 1026 01:20:18.760 --> 01:20:23.680 Some days I feel like I'm just gonna be a single, successful entrepreneur 1027 01:20:23.800 --> 01:20:27.359 and just travel the world and me and my best friend is gonna be going 1028 01:20:27.439 --> 01:20:30.760 to islands and whatever and living our best life. And then some days I'm 1029 01:20:30.800 --> 01:20:34.359 like, I want a husband and I really want to be in love and 1030 01:20:34.399 --> 01:20:39.840 all of that, and I don't know, but whatever whatever's to come, 1031 01:20:40.039 --> 01:20:47.520 I don't fucking know. Let's see, before I bring off the tarrot cards, 1032 01:20:49.239 --> 01:20:53.239 it's the first that dumba wake up, wake up, wake up. 1033 01:20:53.239 --> 01:20:56.399 It's the first that dumb get up, get up, get up. Good 1034 01:20:56.840 --> 01:21:00.800 rent new rent, rent rent. Now it is the person. Oh, 1035 01:21:00.880 --> 01:21:03.920 I had some I don't think I wrote anything down for that, though I 1036 01:21:03.960 --> 01:21:08.960 put down new first, Like, what are some what are some first that 1037 01:21:09.039 --> 01:21:17.199 I want to do in twenty twenty four? Uh, I don't know. 1038 01:21:19.319 --> 01:21:27.079 Some first, I do want to do something crazy, like I want to 1039 01:21:27.119 --> 01:21:30.840 take a trip out of the country, but I want to do something like 1040 01:21:30.520 --> 01:21:36.119 I want to do some scary shit like to overcome a fear like bungee jump, 1041 01:21:36.239 --> 01:21:40.359 jump out a plane, or do some like I feel like I gotta 1042 01:21:40.399 --> 01:21:44.920 do some shit like that to just get my adrenaline up and just you know, 1043 01:21:45.079 --> 01:21:54.800 start checking some fears off my fucking bucket list. First first, what 1044 01:21:54.920 --> 01:22:02.560 else? I don't know? First, I don't know. I don't know, 1045 01:22:03.720 --> 01:22:15.720 Okay, but we can get into Oh I do wanna like go well, 1046 01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:19.760 I wanna host one too. I'm wanna go on a Willness like retreat, 1047 01:22:19.840 --> 01:22:26.079 but I also wanna host a Willness retreat and the yoga retreat and employ 1048 01:22:26.239 --> 01:22:29.680 my best friends so she could do the massages and I could do the yoga, 1049 01:22:29.720 --> 01:22:33.359 and we could just be out on this bitch doing whatever. I feel 1050 01:22:33.359 --> 01:22:35.720 like it's still kind of early to be going through the cards, So like, 1051 01:22:35.760 --> 01:22:39.520 am I about to give you all a full blown reading in this bitch? 1052 01:22:39.600 --> 01:22:47.600 I don't really know. Should I pour cards like for each sign? 1053 01:22:47.720 --> 01:22:50.000 What do y'all want me to do? What do y'all want me to do? 1054 01:22:55.279 --> 01:23:00.800 I'm gonna just pull cards for the collective. In regards to the new 1055 01:23:00.920 --> 01:23:05.439 year, what can we look forward to? What to expect? What are 1056 01:23:05.479 --> 01:23:10.399 the vibes for twenty twenty four? Walk this double card keep popping out on 1057 01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:15.159 the bottom. It's the toxicity trying to be in the room with me right 1058 01:23:15.199 --> 01:23:21.520 now. Get away from me, Get away from me. The double card 1059 01:23:21.560 --> 01:23:26.960 is Capricorn energy, though, but get away from me. Stop trying to 1060 01:23:26.960 --> 01:23:30.680 hang on to my coattails. Stop trying to hang on to my energy, 1061 01:23:30.640 --> 01:23:41.680 stop trying to Okay, the three pinnacles popped out, So what we need 1062 01:23:41.720 --> 01:23:47.319 to look forward to in the new year of twenty twenty four is community. 1063 01:23:49.039 --> 01:24:02.279 We need to look forward to collaboration, cooperation, working together with others, 1064 01:24:02.960 --> 01:24:09.239 getting to the money, getting to the bag, putting our resources and our 1065 01:24:09.359 --> 01:24:15.039 ideas together. Teamwork makes the motherfucking dream work. So if you are for 1066 01:24:15.239 --> 01:24:21.039 self, fuck out the way, bro, cause how are we gonna grow? 1067 01:24:21.119 --> 01:24:25.640 How are we gonna be better? When you only worried about your motherfuck 1068 01:24:25.680 --> 01:24:34.279 itself, When you only worried about your motherfuck itself? Five of swords? 1069 01:24:36.319 --> 01:24:42.000 You can't Okay, we don't need no snakes in our circle. We don't 1070 01:24:42.000 --> 01:24:48.520 need nobody that's trying to undercut the group, trying to be on some bullshit. 1071 01:24:49.159 --> 01:24:53.680 Okay, look at him down, down down. They turned around. 1072 01:24:53.680 --> 01:24:57.760 They don't see me walking away with these swords. Get your fucking man, 1073 01:24:57.960 --> 01:25:01.720 get your scamming ass on. So beware of the people in your circle. 1074 01:25:02.760 --> 01:25:06.920 Is the vibes for twenty twenty four. Beware of the people in your circle, 1075 01:25:09.119 --> 01:25:13.079 the people talking shit about you behind your back. You see how they 1076 01:25:13.119 --> 01:25:17.479 turned around, and beware that people talking behind your back. To a sorts, 1077 01:25:25.119 --> 01:25:30.000 You're gonna have to evaluate the relationships in your life in twenty twenty four. 1078 01:25:30.479 --> 01:25:34.359 What was I just talking about about like that self reflection and really, 1079 01:25:34.479 --> 01:25:39.520 like you know, is this in alignment with me? Is this in alignment 1080 01:25:39.560 --> 01:25:42.640 with my path, with my purpose where I'm going? Is this in alignment 1081 01:25:42.680 --> 01:25:45.039 with my progress? Is this what I want? You know what I'm saying. 1082 01:25:45.079 --> 01:25:48.560 You gotta have those real ass conversations with yourself. You have to make 1083 01:25:48.600 --> 01:25:56.079 the decision. Is this bettering me? Or is it hindering me? Are 1084 01:25:56.079 --> 01:26:04.960 we building or are we bullshitting? Get them snow about your circle? Okay, 1085 01:26:05.439 --> 01:26:10.039 because when you move on, ain't gonna be sad about it? Maybe 1086 01:26:10.199 --> 01:26:14.800 when you move When you move on, when you move forward to clearer, 1087 01:26:14.960 --> 01:26:18.039 calmer waters, when you start to see shit for what it is that you're 1088 01:26:18.039 --> 01:26:23.239 doing better in life. When you're moving forward, motherfucker's is gonna be mad 1089 01:26:23.239 --> 01:26:27.840 as hell. Motherfucker's is gonna be in regret. Damn, I should have 1090 01:26:27.880 --> 01:26:30.479 I should have. I should have cherished what I had, I should have 1091 01:26:30.600 --> 01:26:39.800 valued what I had. This bitch is moving on without You're right? What 1092 01:26:39.840 --> 01:26:44.399 are the vibes for twenty twenty four? What are the vibes for? What 1093 01:26:44.439 --> 01:26:48.000 are the vibes for twenty twenty four? Okay? Okay, it's giving manifestation 1094 01:26:48.399 --> 01:26:55.800 vibes the magician car and the four of Swords, so it's giving big manifestation 1095 01:26:56.000 --> 01:27:03.800 vibes. It's giving sleep on it, giving sleep on it. And that's 1096 01:27:03.840 --> 01:27:09.079 how you know, that's that's that's a super spiritual thing. Like when people 1097 01:27:09.119 --> 01:27:12.279 say, like, I gotta sleep on it, because you gotta take that 1098 01:27:12.319 --> 01:27:15.479 shit to the spirit realm. You gotta, you know, you gotta let 1099 01:27:15.520 --> 01:27:17.600 it sizzle in your spirit off or night. You gotta you gotta think about 1100 01:27:17.640 --> 01:27:20.520 it, you gotta dream about it. You gotta see what comes to you. 1101 01:27:20.800 --> 01:27:26.880 But also understand that you are the magician. You are a master manifestor. 1102 01:27:26.920 --> 01:27:29.960 You can create whatever it is that you want for yourself, for your 1103 01:27:30.000 --> 01:27:34.000 life, whatever you desire. You have all of the tools inside of you. 1104 01:27:34.359 --> 01:27:39.199 And I feel like a lot of times we look at our circumstances in 1105 01:27:39.279 --> 01:27:42.199 life or whatever, and it's like, how am I gonna do this? 1106 01:27:42.239 --> 01:27:46.439 How I'm gonna come up with this? Like you were blessed with the God 1107 01:27:46.520 --> 01:27:49.640 given tools, and maybe you need to sleep on it. Maybe you need 1108 01:27:49.720 --> 01:27:53.600 to take some time, Maybe you need to journ, Maybe you need to 1109 01:27:53.800 --> 01:27:58.560 journal and start making a plan. Maybe you need to do your three sixty 1110 01:27:58.640 --> 01:28:01.279 nine method manifest Maybe you need to make your six month plan, maybe you 1111 01:28:01.319 --> 01:28:04.359 need to write. Okay, because what did y'all do last night for New 1112 01:28:04.399 --> 01:28:08.720 Year's Eve? What did y'all do for New Year's Eve? You know, 1113 01:28:08.880 --> 01:28:11.479 I didn't have no plans. And that was the thing too. I had 1114 01:28:12.000 --> 01:28:15.479 looked into a couple places here, like I wanted to go to like a 1115 01:28:15.560 --> 01:28:19.920 yoga studio and go to like a meditation, like a sound bowl meditation all 1116 01:28:19.960 --> 01:28:23.039 that. I ain't gonna lie. I didn't feel like paying like they was 1117 01:28:23.119 --> 01:28:27.000 kind of they wasn't taxing like that, but I ain't gonna lie. I 1118 01:28:27.039 --> 01:28:29.840 was just like, I don't I didn't want to pay for it. I 1119 01:28:29.880 --> 01:28:35.600 ain't gonna lie. Uh So I didn't go. But that's that's more on 1120 01:28:35.680 --> 01:28:39.560 my vibe, you know what I'm saying? Vision board type thing. A 1121 01:28:39.600 --> 01:28:45.000 couple of years ago, before I deleted all my old YouTube videos, I 1122 01:28:45.000 --> 01:28:49.359 had did a podcast episode with Asia and JB and like or was it just 1123 01:28:49.479 --> 01:28:53.279 no? That one was just with Asia and we was working on a vision 1124 01:28:53.279 --> 01:29:00.039 board that was for twenty twenty one. Yeah, So what did y'all do 1125 01:29:00.079 --> 01:29:03.279 for New Year's Eve? Did y'all go out, y'all would watch the ball 1126 01:29:03.399 --> 01:29:08.079 drop, y'all got drunk as fuck. You was in the club and in 1127 01:29:08.199 --> 01:29:12.000 the move buying bottles? Was you at home in the And that's the thing, 1128 01:29:12.119 --> 01:29:15.399 Like I'm at the age too, Like I'm at that auntie age. 1129 01:29:15.439 --> 01:29:18.560 I'm thirty three. I will be thirty four next year. Just period like 1130 01:29:18.680 --> 01:29:23.720 New Year's Eve. It was just giving staying a career for me, like 1131 01:29:23.840 --> 01:29:27.479 really like be on some chill shit. I wasn't trying to go out and 1132 01:29:27.479 --> 01:29:30.680 that's on the regular. I don't go out to the club, so I 1133 01:29:30.720 --> 01:29:32.800 don't hang out like like I want to be at the crib on chill. 1134 01:29:33.239 --> 01:29:38.880 I could do a little kickback, but I'll be on my chill shit. 1135 01:29:39.199 --> 01:29:46.720 So wo nine enough cups Because what we were just talking about met manifestation. 1136 01:29:49.600 --> 01:29:54.560 This is what you get. This is what you get when you're consistent, 1137 01:29:56.840 --> 01:30:00.439 when you write down the things that you desire, the things that you want, 1138 01:30:00.520 --> 01:30:04.800 the things that you see that nine of cups that wish for field. 1139 01:30:05.640 --> 01:30:10.800 You have to speak those things into existence. You gotta write that shit down 1140 01:30:11.039 --> 01:30:15.640 on paper with a pen and watch it get real. Like I said, 1141 01:30:15.960 --> 01:30:23.279 when I did my little my last six month plan. I didn't cross everything 1142 01:30:23.319 --> 01:30:26.880 off that was on the list, but a lot of those things happened. 1143 01:30:27.000 --> 01:30:29.560 A lot of those a lot. I've made a lot of shit happen. 1144 01:30:30.119 --> 01:30:32.479 Like the very first thing on the list was one way ticket to Dallas. 1145 01:30:32.520 --> 01:30:39.239 That shit is crazy. I moved from Detroit. Uh, this was my 1146 01:30:39.359 --> 01:30:42.439 third time, so like that's very big to be, Like, Hey, 1147 01:30:42.439 --> 01:30:45.720 I'm about to just hop on a plane and just do it. You know 1148 01:30:45.760 --> 01:30:47.600 what I'm saying. But that's what you gotta do. You gotta be willing 1149 01:30:47.640 --> 01:30:59.000 to take them. Chances, Chances make champions period. Okay, ooh, 1150 01:30:59.640 --> 01:31:06.920 because justice will be served. We got the Tennisaurs, the Queeniswords, and 1151 01:31:08.039 --> 01:31:17.159 the justice car it is given. Your haters gonna hide a day, Okay, 1152 01:31:19.520 --> 01:31:25.439 they gonna get chewed the fuck out by whoever, whether that be you, 1153 01:31:26.119 --> 01:31:29.159 the universe. They gonna get they karma, you know what I'm saying. 1154 01:31:30.319 --> 01:31:35.560 And justice will be served again. We were talking about community and watching 1155 01:31:35.560 --> 01:31:45.159 offer the people in your circle, like keep being you, keep being the 1156 01:31:45.199 --> 01:31:48.159 good spirit that you are, keep being the good person that you are, 1157 01:31:48.279 --> 01:31:51.479 and you are going to reap what you saw, period. You know what 1158 01:31:51.520 --> 01:31:56.119 I'm saying. And that's the thing. Watch them the seeds that you saw 1159 01:31:56.199 --> 01:32:05.159 in this lifetime, because baby, the harvest is gonna go. The Tower 1160 01:32:05.239 --> 01:32:15.720 card, the Tower card, the Tower card is get over here energy. 1161 01:32:15.840 --> 01:32:18.079 It's like, I'm about to burn this bitch to the ground because you. 1162 01:32:19.439 --> 01:32:28.119 And that's the thing I was. It was one of the New Year's Eve 1163 01:32:28.239 --> 01:32:32.880 questions. But it's like, what was the question one of your greatest lessons 1164 01:32:32.880 --> 01:32:41.199 that that would have been a good answer, stop staying in situations. But 1165 01:32:41.479 --> 01:32:45.439 okay, well I said, stop repeating lessons, but stop staying in situations 1166 01:32:45.880 --> 01:32:51.760 longer than you need to. Stop ending up in situations where the universe gotta 1167 01:32:51.760 --> 01:32:56.760 burn the whole motherfucking tower down and you running trying to get out of that 1168 01:32:56.800 --> 01:32:59.840 bitch, Like, bro, we gave you the signs to get the fuck 1169 01:32:59.840 --> 01:33:03.720 out out, so now we now we forcibly got to remove you from the 1170 01:33:03.760 --> 01:33:08.800 situation like that is the worst. That is the fucking worst. And I've 1171 01:33:08.840 --> 01:33:13.399 been there in life, like you don't want to have to be forced forcibly 1172 01:33:13.520 --> 01:33:18.399 removed from a situation. Nine of Pinnacles, High Priestess and the King of 1173 01:33:18.640 --> 01:33:30.359 Wands. So it's given. You know your power, you know your confidence. 1174 01:33:30.560 --> 01:33:33.640 You know. Okay, it's given me energy. Period, it's given 1175 01:33:33.680 --> 01:33:44.239 me energy of getting to the bag. Let me see you, you gotta 1176 01:33:44.279 --> 01:33:50.239 go off how you feel, bro, you gotta go off your intuition again 1177 01:33:50.399 --> 01:33:58.279 with evaluating the situations, the relationships, the people in your life, the 1178 01:33:58.279 --> 01:34:00.760 the way that you want to move, the path that you want to take 1179 01:34:00.760 --> 01:34:03.319 in your life. If you're on a spiritual path, whatever, just whatever, 1180 01:34:03.560 --> 01:34:09.600 Like only you know the way to your role. You know what I'm 1181 01:34:09.600 --> 01:34:15.920 saying. Nobody else can tell you that. Nobody, nobody knows what's best 1182 01:34:15.960 --> 01:34:23.680 for you. You gotta have the confidence the intuition to see it through. 1183 01:34:24.520 --> 01:34:30.399 You gotta have the resources. You gotta plant those seats to get whatever it 1184 01:34:30.479 --> 01:34:35.079 is that you want to get. So twenty twenty four, it's gonna be 1185 01:34:35.119 --> 01:34:38.760 a great year. And you know, motherfuckers be mad. Like so I'm 1186 01:34:38.760 --> 01:34:42.479 saying, your year, your year. This my bitch, it is my 1187 01:34:42.600 --> 01:34:45.520 year. Every year is my year. Oh okay, every year is my 1188 01:34:45.680 --> 01:34:55.119 year. Period. I just wanna. I wish I had some other cars. 1189 01:34:55.159 --> 01:34:58.000 See, I gotta bring all my other cars. But I'm gonna just 1190 01:34:58.000 --> 01:35:00.960 pull it one just cause I want to know what it's gonna say. About 1191 01:35:01.000 --> 01:35:04.520 love for me, I just want some other I just what's in the cards 1192 01:35:04.640 --> 01:35:12.840 for me? Where is my man? My man, my man. We 1193 01:35:12.840 --> 01:35:15.439 could do it for the collective, but it's for me. But who are 1194 01:35:15.439 --> 01:35:17.479 doing for the collective? I just want one card to tell me what twenty 1195 01:35:17.520 --> 01:35:41.720 twenty four holls for me in love? One card. We're not gonna take 1196 01:35:41.760 --> 01:35:47.399 all of those. I like how people be shuffling on TikTok and shit, 1197 01:35:47.479 --> 01:35:59.359 I'm not that great of a shuffler. And forgive my little, my little 1198 01:35:59.720 --> 01:36:12.439 congestion that I got going on Page of pinnacles. I'm looking like that because 1199 01:36:14.279 --> 01:36:19.920 page is kiddish energy. It's not a bad thing, but page energy is 1200 01:36:20.000 --> 01:36:26.800 like very childish. But page energy is also like messages. This is also 1201 01:36:26.800 --> 01:36:30.800 an opportunity somebody could be coming through with, like Okay, maybe it's gonna 1202 01:36:30.800 --> 01:36:32.760 come through on a business tip at first, like hey, I got an 1203 01:36:32.800 --> 01:36:36.840 idea, I got I got this going on. I can help you with 1204 01:36:36.880 --> 01:36:41.960 your stuff whatever. You know what I'm saying. And we plant the seeds 1205 01:36:42.039 --> 01:36:45.520 like that, so you know, I'm all for I'm all for it. 1206 01:36:45.039 --> 01:36:51.760 I'm off for the growth over time. But page energy is you know, 1207 01:36:53.800 --> 01:37:00.399 like I said, that'd be. That's the little dog energy. Let's see, 1208 01:37:00.720 --> 01:37:13.920 was there anything else in here that I needed to discuss with you guys? 1209 01:37:15.760 --> 01:37:19.119 Master in your mind, that's that's the main thing. Mastering your mind 1210 01:37:19.279 --> 01:37:33.960 and mastering your emotions is very important, because being a master of your mind 1211 01:37:34.039 --> 01:37:42.960 is very important because you could spiral, you can go down a deep dark 1212 01:37:43.000 --> 01:37:46.319 hole. You know. We always see people talking about mental health and stuff 1213 01:37:46.359 --> 01:37:50.039 like that on the internet, and again, you never know what somebody is 1214 01:37:50.079 --> 01:37:56.000 going through, So being a master of your mind is very important. Uh. 1215 01:37:56.159 --> 01:37:59.560 You know, I always mentioned like the self sabotage and the negative self 1216 01:37:59.600 --> 01:38:02.479 talk with myself, like those are things that I really need to work on 1217 01:38:05.119 --> 01:38:11.840 because the mind is a powerful tool, you know, and it's a terrible 1218 01:38:11.840 --> 01:38:15.600 thing to waste, especially if you're not using it in the right manner. 1219 01:38:15.760 --> 01:38:20.319 So if you are a very negative or pessimistic person, like you know what 1220 01:38:20.359 --> 01:38:25.399 I'm saying, shit could go a different way for you. But you got 1221 01:38:25.399 --> 01:38:31.159 to learn how to turn it around. And that's why I'm so just adamant 1222 01:38:31.399 --> 01:38:39.239 about my morning affirmations every morning and listening to guided meditations and really setting the 1223 01:38:39.359 --> 01:38:43.439 because that really sets the tone for my day and It puts me in the 1224 01:38:43.520 --> 01:38:46.000 right mind frame. Again. If you go to a motherfucking job that you 1225 01:38:46.119 --> 01:38:48.840 hate every day, you're gonna be in that bitch like, oh, these 1226 01:38:48.880 --> 01:38:54.880 motherfucking customers. You know what I'm saying, Like, don't go into your 1227 01:38:55.000 --> 01:39:00.479 day like that. Don't wake up and you know, speak that negative into 1228 01:39:00.479 --> 01:39:03.439 existence. Today is gonna be a great motherfucking day. The work day gonna 1229 01:39:03.479 --> 01:39:05.960 go by fast as fuck. You know what I'm saying. Be on your 1230 01:39:06.159 --> 01:39:11.840 Jody from baby Boy. What was this? What was he talking about? 1231 01:39:10.399 --> 01:39:15.880 Uh? What did he say? I forgot what the fuck he said for 1232 01:39:16.039 --> 01:39:19.159 I'm the master of my ability whatever, you know that whole little speech he 1233 01:39:19.199 --> 01:39:26.840 did. So being a master of your mind is very important, the master 1234 01:39:26.920 --> 01:39:31.880 of your emotions, because baby, crimes of passion are real, and I 1235 01:39:31.920 --> 01:39:36.000 would I would never want that to be me, you know what I'm saying. 1236 01:39:40.239 --> 01:39:42.680 I always talk about that on the podcast too, about how like I 1237 01:39:42.720 --> 01:39:45.439 always used to say, like I, you know, I wish that I 1238 01:39:45.439 --> 01:39:48.479 could be a person that was just real rye rah and just whatever, Like 1239 01:39:49.279 --> 01:39:53.760 I do not want to be a hot head. I do not want to 1240 01:39:54.119 --> 01:39:58.159 lose or risk my freedom or do some dumb shit in the heat of the 1241 01:39:58.199 --> 01:40:04.119 moment because of my emotion. Emotions are fleeting. Woman at you happy women 1242 01:40:04.199 --> 01:40:06.560 that you said woman and you up, women that you down. You know 1243 01:40:06.560 --> 01:40:12.279 what I'm saying. Shit changes, and you gotta be able to sit with 1244 01:40:12.359 --> 01:40:14.920 that. You gotta be able to deal with that. You gotta be able 1245 01:40:14.920 --> 01:40:24.159 to process that. How many people are in jail or that motherfucker made me 1246 01:40:24.239 --> 01:40:28.439 mad? I killed it, like what you killed somebody because you know, 1247 01:40:28.720 --> 01:40:34.479 like and again, those are forms of control. That's how somebody know they 1248 01:40:34.520 --> 01:40:40.600 got you, baby. If somebody can get if somebody got that mind control 1249 01:40:40.680 --> 01:40:47.119 over debo, if somebody got you know, if somebody can get you off 1250 01:40:47.159 --> 01:40:51.439 your square by fucking with you emotionally, you know what I'm saying, Like, 1251 01:40:53.119 --> 01:40:55.640 that's a lot of control. That's a lot of power to have. 1252 01:40:56.479 --> 01:41:00.119 And I want to maintain my shit. I want to be a master of 1253 01:41:00.199 --> 01:41:06.560 my shit, my mind and my emotions. So that's very fucking important. 1254 01:41:09.039 --> 01:41:13.359 Let me see if there is anything else that I have for you, guys. 1255 01:41:13.760 --> 01:41:15.840 A couple of text messages in here, Happy New Year, family, 1256 01:41:16.239 --> 01:41:21.039 Get take me out the fucking group chat, guys. Please don't even send 1257 01:41:21.079 --> 01:41:26.239 me. Don't send me Holiday text messages the Merry Christmas, Happy Thanksgiving, 1258 01:41:26.279 --> 01:41:29.840 Happy New Year, like bro, same to you. Move the fuck on. 1259 01:41:30.079 --> 01:41:33.760 I don't I hate it. I fucking hate it. M but send 1260 01:41:33.760 --> 01:41:38.600 me all the happy birthday texts. It's niggas in my DM. Happy New 1261 01:41:38.640 --> 01:41:49.560 ye bro, Happy New Year. Thanks, thanks guys, thanks uh niggas 1262 01:41:49.560 --> 01:41:53.159 on my head in the DM. Thank you. I know I look good. 1263 01:41:53.359 --> 01:41:56.760 I know, I know, I know, but no, so yeah, 1264 01:41:56.920 --> 01:42:00.199 I think I think that's it for me. I'm wrapping this up a 1265 01:42:00.239 --> 01:42:05.119 little bit early, but yeah, that's pretty much it for me. As 1266 01:42:05.159 --> 01:42:10.199 you can see, like I sound very congested on this fucking episode. I 1267 01:42:10.239 --> 01:42:14.880 hope a bitch get better asap. I've been taking fucking been adrill at night. 1268 01:42:15.880 --> 01:42:19.920 I don't really do shit but put you to fucking sleep. And I'm 1269 01:42:20.039 --> 01:42:25.399 angry. I've been hangry since I got here. So I'm gonna wrap it. 1270 01:42:25.479 --> 01:42:29.560 But yes, guys, that that's it for me and my New Years. 1271 01:42:29.600 --> 01:42:32.439 I hope that y'all had a wonderful New Year's Eve New Year's Day. 1272 01:42:32.600 --> 01:42:35.800 I'm off work again tomorrow. I don't know what the fuck I'll be doing 1273 01:42:35.840 --> 01:42:41.199 tomorrow, Probably just chill. I'll be chilling on my off days for real, 1274 01:42:43.680 --> 01:42:48.840 I'm gonna go home today and do do a little more journaling. I'm 1275 01:42:48.880 --> 01:42:55.279 gonna try to like just really my my focus is to get my money plans 1276 01:42:55.319 --> 01:42:59.560 together and my saving and like what I'm really trying, like what Jazine, 1277 01:42:59.560 --> 01:43:00.399 we need? We need to get this shit, you know what I'm saying. 1278 01:43:00.439 --> 01:43:05.319 I'm trying to have some shit to show for myself. So those are 1279 01:43:05.359 --> 01:43:12.840 really my goals for the new year. And again, not worrying about how 1280 01:43:12.920 --> 01:43:16.039 often you fuck up. If you fuck up, what when we're like every 1281 01:43:16.119 --> 01:43:18.640 day is a new fucking day. And even if you fuck up right now, 1282 01:43:18.680 --> 01:43:23.399 if you sit here and you acknowledge that in the moment, then okay, 1283 01:43:23.600 --> 01:43:26.840 keep it fucking pushing, keep going. I fucked up. Oh well, 1284 01:43:28.039 --> 01:43:30.840 So that is all that I have for y'all. Make sure that y'all 1285 01:43:30.840 --> 01:43:33.520 follow me on all platforms, Healing my homies on Instagram, black Girl Experience 1286 01:43:33.560 --> 01:43:38.199 on TikTok, and YouTube. That is all I have for y'all. Hope 1287 01:43:38.239 --> 01:43:39.920 y'all enjoyed this happy New Year.