WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.920 --> 00:00:05.360 Norris. All right, so we're gonna do a three two one on this 2 00:00:05.480 --> 00:00:10.759 because lately Rumble has been clipping the front end of my videos for no reason. 3 00:00:10.800 --> 00:00:14.839 It just I don't know why the reason, it's just sometimes it starts 4 00:00:14.880 --> 00:00:19.280 about a few seconds after I've started talking. But let's get going here. 5 00:00:20.440 --> 00:00:26.359 I'm very pleased right now and very fortunate to welcome Decode. That's his name 6 00:00:26.480 --> 00:00:32.119 on Instagram, and also you'll find him on Rumble. His name is Greg 7 00:00:32.280 --> 00:00:36.159 Romero. And I'm gonna read to you what he sent me, and then 8 00:00:36.159 --> 00:00:41.280 we're gonna go from there. So where it says, it says here to 9 00:00:41.359 --> 00:00:45.000 give you a brief summary of who I am. I was born and raised 10 00:00:45.039 --> 00:00:51.600 in a small town called Espanola, New Mexico. Espanola is translated to Little 11 00:00:51.600 --> 00:00:58.679 Spain, and is where my great great great et Cetera and grandfather her Nann 12 00:00:59.399 --> 00:01:04.840 excuse me, Cortes settled this town and seeded my bloodline here. Our bloodline 13 00:01:04.879 --> 00:01:12.519 has has had significant influence on that region of America and was deeply entangled with 14 00:01:12.840 --> 00:01:21.280 the Roman Catholic Church and the occult. My dad's side of the family descends 15 00:01:21.319 --> 00:01:26.760 from the livitical priestcraft and my mom's side descends from an ancient magical order. 16 00:01:27.560 --> 00:01:34.040 My family has been commissioned by the government several times to specific contracts at the 17 00:01:34.079 --> 00:01:38.280 highest clearance levels. Those things I have to be careful discussing. But I 18 00:01:38.319 --> 00:01:44.959 was raised witnessing things of high strangeness. I like that term. I personally 19 00:01:45.000 --> 00:01:49.519 was initiated into the occult when I was six years old and rejected God and 20 00:01:49.560 --> 00:01:55.000 religion. Factions within my family were involved with organized crime, including me. 21 00:01:55.280 --> 00:01:59.879 When I was a young, teenager and adult, I experienced I experienced sa 22 00:02:00.120 --> 00:02:06.480 tanic ritual abuse, animal sacrifice, summoning rituals, et cetera, and ultimately 23 00:02:06.680 --> 00:02:12.360 overdosed in two thousand and five and experienced cardiac erect arrest for the second time 24 00:02:12.400 --> 00:02:19.520 in my life. Excuse me one second. This experience changed me in ways 25 00:02:19.560 --> 00:02:23.400 I cannot describe. It essentially brought on my awakening, and I've been searching 26 00:02:23.439 --> 00:02:28.919 for the truth since then. I believe I found it, and so I'm 27 00:02:28.960 --> 00:02:31.240 just writing the frequency to see where it takes me. That's where you're meeting 28 00:02:31.240 --> 00:02:36.960 me now, Greg. Welcome to the show Man. Thank you, Thank 29 00:02:37.000 --> 00:02:40.840 you for having me. I'm happy to be here, grateful, So I 30 00:02:40.879 --> 00:02:46.120 mean, that's a that's quite a story. Now. When we were talking 31 00:02:46.400 --> 00:02:52.520 on Instagram, you had mentioned a conquistador lineage as well, right, Yes, 32 00:02:53.800 --> 00:02:55.800 what I think of when I when I hear that and when I you 33 00:02:55.840 --> 00:03:00.840 know, hear the roots in Spain, and I'm assuming right that there could 34 00:03:00.879 --> 00:03:06.759 also be a Jesuit influence in this, if not a Sephardic type of lineage 35 00:03:06.759 --> 00:03:13.120 as well, where they were coming over here or becoming conversos and then becoming 36 00:03:13.120 --> 00:03:15.680 conquista doors, which a lot of people don't realize that a lot of the 37 00:03:15.719 --> 00:03:22.719 conquista doors were Converso Jews, and that's so they would be taking the Kabbala 38 00:03:23.000 --> 00:03:27.159 and the Sufi mystic mysticism and all that with them. That's right, That's 39 00:03:27.240 --> 00:03:30.360 right, all right, So would you care to describe that to us and 40 00:03:30.560 --> 00:03:34.439 where that Yeah, No, it's I'm you know, I'm and this is 41 00:03:34.439 --> 00:03:38.159 why I'm really this is why I'm really really excited to have a conversation with 42 00:03:38.199 --> 00:03:44.039 you specifically because you know, I really respect the knowledge that you have of 43 00:03:44.479 --> 00:03:49.439 history behind the narrative, and you know, being in the environment that I 44 00:03:49.479 --> 00:03:54.639 grew up in, it was a very dual, dualistic type of view. 45 00:03:54.919 --> 00:04:00.800 On the world and the way that they constructed it. And so the fact 46 00:04:00.840 --> 00:04:04.400 that you know that history some of those things that like has taken me and 47 00:04:04.439 --> 00:04:11.919 my uncle years of researching the genealogy of ancestry and how those you know coincide. 48 00:04:12.520 --> 00:04:15.800 I was very knowledge from a very young age of who I really was, 49 00:04:15.560 --> 00:04:19.000 except that last part. You know, this last part finding out about 50 00:04:20.160 --> 00:04:28.720 us being connected to as conquistadors, the Sephardic Jews specifically, that's significant in 51 00:04:28.800 --> 00:04:31.360 what we're seeing going on in the world today. So yeah, and a 52 00:04:31.399 --> 00:04:35.879 lot of people don't catch that, and it's really quite a shame because when 53 00:04:35.920 --> 00:04:40.560 you look back at all the Spanish people that look what they did to the 54 00:04:40.639 --> 00:04:43.839 Native Americans, and it's like, well, it's kind of the same group 55 00:04:43.839 --> 00:04:48.199 of people doing it to every indigenous people everywhere. And they're all riddled into 56 00:04:48.240 --> 00:04:54.560 the Roman Catholic Church. And we've discussed before how you know, Jacob Frank 57 00:04:54.839 --> 00:04:59.519 he had himself baptized and twenty six thousand of his followers got into the Roman 58 00:04:59.519 --> 00:05:05.160 Catholic chur and the Christian Brethrens. His brother in law started the Asiatic Brethren, 59 00:05:05.519 --> 00:05:10.160 which was basically an Illuminati branch. I mean it was. It was 60 00:05:10.240 --> 00:05:14.399 carrying on the same exact thing and working with that a mysop. So, 61 00:05:14.600 --> 00:05:18.720 I mean, this is the same route to just everything, and it seems 62 00:05:18.720 --> 00:05:23.519 like and what we're looking at when it comes to Zionism, that's Frankism by 63 00:05:23.519 --> 00:05:26.920 a different name. And that's what you know, where the bankers are, 64 00:05:27.240 --> 00:05:30.360 you know, basically destroying Gaza right now, because that's part of the that's 65 00:05:30.399 --> 00:05:34.879 part of their plan to bring about what they want right right exactly, No, 66 00:05:35.040 --> 00:05:41.519 exactly, And you know, my search into finding out the truth of 67 00:05:41.560 --> 00:05:45.120 who I am as far as my identity, uh, you know, I 68 00:05:45.160 --> 00:05:47.079 you know, I come from a place where I had an identity crisis since 69 00:05:47.120 --> 00:05:49.800 I was born, you know, Like I mentioned in some of our previous 70 00:05:49.800 --> 00:05:54.959 back and forth on Instagram also that my mom, or on my dad's side, 71 00:05:55.000 --> 00:05:58.000 is more of the Spaniard and my mom is more Native American, you 72 00:05:58.000 --> 00:06:00.720 know, so I'm a mix of the two. Right. So I have 73 00:06:00.800 --> 00:06:03.560 these two different stories that were told by two different groups of people, you 74 00:06:03.600 --> 00:06:06.759 know, one group being the Spaniards side of my family. And I was 75 00:06:06.839 --> 00:06:11.600 taught and raised that it was a noble thing, that they were noble things 76 00:06:11.600 --> 00:06:15.279 that they were doing, and they would parade in the streets and they would 77 00:06:15.279 --> 00:06:20.879 have these rituals in the streets, and I never it was really kind of 78 00:06:20.879 --> 00:06:25.600 weird because they would go into procession, and you know, ever since I 79 00:06:25.680 --> 00:06:28.879 was a young age, I can I just kind of saw things of like 80 00:06:29.040 --> 00:06:31.519 I would just ask a lot of questions as to like why are they doing 81 00:06:31.560 --> 00:06:36.600 this ritual or why why are they doing this procession around the city. Why 82 00:06:36.600 --> 00:06:41.639 do they do it seven times? You know, they stop and they'll do 83 00:06:41.759 --> 00:06:46.160 a little bit of a ritualistic dance and then they'll you know, shout out 84 00:06:46.160 --> 00:06:49.360 some kind of a name, usually the name of the Cuquista word that came 85 00:06:49.399 --> 00:06:53.639 through and conquered that land. So where I come from, it was really 86 00:06:53.639 --> 00:07:00.959 really culture rich in hanging on to how important it was that the Spaniards specifically 87 00:07:01.800 --> 00:07:06.879 came up through the Sea of Cortez all throughout that area to conquer the Aztecs 88 00:07:06.879 --> 00:07:12.959 and all those people and really proclaim, you know, a large portion of 89 00:07:13.040 --> 00:07:17.519 what is now North America then as the Empire of Spain. Right, And 90 00:07:17.839 --> 00:07:23.759 so there's a whole you know, there's a whole thing behind it with that 91 00:07:23.879 --> 00:07:30.240 empirical thinking of you know, being a special group of people. If does 92 00:07:30.240 --> 00:07:33.120 that make sense? Yeah, it does. And you know, I wanted 93 00:07:33.160 --> 00:07:39.480 to touch on this real quick, is that when you mentioned the seven that's 94 00:07:39.480 --> 00:07:46.079 how many times they circle the kaba in Mecca too. And that's allegedly to 95 00:07:46.120 --> 00:07:48.519 represent the seven rings of Saturn. That's not what they say. They say 96 00:07:48.519 --> 00:07:55.120 that's something different now. But back when that kaba was first created, it 97 00:07:55.199 --> 00:07:58.560 was a cube. I mean it still is a black cube, and that's 98 00:07:58.160 --> 00:08:03.959 the symbol of Saturn too. And here's the thing is, I think a 99 00:08:03.000 --> 00:08:09.639 lot of people, most people maybe when they reflect back on their life, 100 00:08:09.680 --> 00:08:13.120 they think mom and dad. I mean like when you imprint when you're born, 101 00:08:13.399 --> 00:08:18.680 right, and if you never know any other thing, anything that you're 102 00:08:18.680 --> 00:08:24.199 experiencing would be cold, would be turned into what's normal. Yeah. And 103 00:08:24.319 --> 00:08:28.240 so when you have a different experience, when you know that trust is broken, 104 00:08:30.240 --> 00:08:35.759 when you're you know, witnessing things, if you never had that that 105 00:08:35.879 --> 00:08:41.360 tether or that foundation in the line of care and compassion and love, how 106 00:08:41.399 --> 00:08:45.639 does that, you know, alter your course in life too? I mean 107 00:08:45.639 --> 00:08:50.200 what to what you would then carry on yourself? Because if it's basically they 108 00:08:50.200 --> 00:08:56.799 don't they don't spare their children the same programming In fact, it's even more 109 00:08:56.840 --> 00:09:00.960 so because they want you to carry this on and the best way to do 110 00:09:01.039 --> 00:09:05.240 that is to indoctrinate and mind program you to do so, right, right, 111 00:09:05.519 --> 00:09:09.039 And if I could just comment, well said, if I can comment 112 00:09:09.159 --> 00:09:16.240 on the tail end there when you say indoctrination, like, I don't really 113 00:09:16.440 --> 00:09:20.000 I don't, I really don't think that people truly understand what that word means. 114 00:09:20.080 --> 00:09:24.159 You know, they're indoctrinated, right, It's it's like you said, 115 00:09:24.200 --> 00:09:30.200 it's impressed upon them since they were since they just came out of the womb, 116 00:09:30.879 --> 00:09:35.600 to perceive a distorted reality because you know, in the realm, you 117 00:09:35.639 --> 00:09:37.879 know. And I'm sure we'll get into this a little bit later. But 118 00:09:39.799 --> 00:09:46.600 in my growing up in this duality of occult and religion, okay, which 119 00:09:46.799 --> 00:09:50.159 they're technically both the same thing, I'm just gonna say that, Okay, 120 00:09:52.080 --> 00:09:56.039 my opinion now is there is really nothing else but the occult, you know, 121 00:09:56.360 --> 00:10:00.639 But that's just that's a different conversation for maybe for a different day. 122 00:10:01.080 --> 00:10:07.320 Yeah, you don't have that either. We're right, right, so, 123 00:10:07.279 --> 00:10:13.200 but but so therefore, therefore, since we are all technically influenced by the 124 00:10:13.240 --> 00:10:18.519 occult, there's no getting away from it a truth has been hidden from us 125 00:10:18.559 --> 00:10:26.159 for ever. Then it would be easy then to capture you at a young 126 00:10:26.240 --> 00:10:35.399 age and indoctrinate you know you know, and keep you and keep you believing 127 00:10:35.480 --> 00:10:41.240 a certain narrative when it may actually not be the truth. You know, 128 00:10:41.279 --> 00:10:45.639 because we when when I was learning in my recovery, where I was going 129 00:10:45.639 --> 00:10:48.879 with this is in my recovery, one of the things that helped me really 130 00:10:48.960 --> 00:10:56.120 kind of break free from especially the PTSD because of that abuse was the fact 131 00:10:56.200 --> 00:11:01.440 that what I perceive is my reality. Because by the time I got to 132 00:11:01.519 --> 00:11:07.200 be age twenty one, I had such a distorted perception that my reality was 133 00:11:07.360 --> 00:11:13.840 horrific, right, And because my reality was horrific, I couldn't come to 134 00:11:13.960 --> 00:11:20.720 terms with the things that I had witnessed done and you know, passed on 135 00:11:20.440 --> 00:11:28.480 that I didn't know how to cope with myself or the world. But but 136 00:11:28.200 --> 00:11:33.320 when I realized that I had the choice to change my perception and to take 137 00:11:33.399 --> 00:11:39.519 control of who I am, you know, what I want and where I'm 138 00:11:39.559 --> 00:11:46.559 going, and realize that there is literally nothing that can make me think, 139 00:11:46.759 --> 00:11:50.879 feel, or act in any given way but myself. When I came to 140 00:11:50.919 --> 00:11:58.799 that realization, That's when I believe was my first uh, you know, 141 00:11:58.840 --> 00:12:03.159 my first awakening to understand, you know what, I'm in control of my 142 00:12:03.240 --> 00:12:09.559 reality. And I think that if more people were to understand that, then 143 00:12:09.679 --> 00:12:15.039 I think that we can actually quite possibly awaken from our awakening. Like you 144 00:12:15.120 --> 00:12:16.120 know, I heard you say in another podcast. I'm not sure if that's 145 00:12:16.159 --> 00:12:20.759 making sense, but no, it is. It does. It does absolutely. 146 00:12:22.000 --> 00:12:28.080 And that's like that manifest thing too, because self doubt, all those 147 00:12:28.080 --> 00:12:30.720 things that are put it. You put your own limitations on, but you 148 00:12:30.720 --> 00:12:35.639 feel like it's coming from the outside because the impression that's being given all around 149 00:12:35.639 --> 00:12:41.799 you is that there's dramatic limitations on you and what you could accomplish. So 150 00:12:41.519 --> 00:12:46.200 it's in spiritually, mentally, physically, business wise, all those things. 151 00:12:48.519 --> 00:12:52.320 It's like the impression that you're given is that it's only for the select and 152 00:12:52.360 --> 00:12:56.919 you're not the You're not in the game, you know, right. But 153 00:12:56.960 --> 00:12:58.759 what I was what I was also looking at, is I mean just just 154 00:12:58.759 --> 00:13:03.679 really relationships everyone I've known that, and I've have friends that I've gone through 155 00:13:03.759 --> 00:13:11.000 satanic ritual abuse and it's impossible for them and has been, and I mean 156 00:13:11.039 --> 00:13:16.799 they've gone through their attempts at recovery and things like that, but it's impossible 157 00:13:16.840 --> 00:13:24.080 for them to have like a lasting relationship with anybody because just even this so 158 00:13:24.159 --> 00:13:28.279 much like the tenderness is almost sometimes foreign to them, and it's like it 159 00:13:28.399 --> 00:13:33.159 challenges them to have to like perceive something that they're not used to as well. 160 00:13:33.720 --> 00:13:37.080 And then then they could also become the aggressor at times too. I've 161 00:13:37.120 --> 00:13:41.360 noticed, not all the time, but they might be pushing people away or 162 00:13:41.360 --> 00:13:46.559 something like that too. Well, it's very sorry to me to interrupt you, 163 00:13:46.600 --> 00:13:56.039 but always yeah, yeah, please, so yeah, I mean again, 164 00:13:56.519 --> 00:14:01.480 you know again, I'm impressed with your knowledge of this because in my 165 00:14:01.600 --> 00:14:11.039 experience through the Satanic ritual abuse that I went through, it's called like soul 166 00:14:11.120 --> 00:14:16.559 fracturing. So they fracture your soul from a very young age and they break 167 00:14:16.600 --> 00:14:22.120 you like your identity is broken. They want you to disassociate with your identity 168 00:14:22.000 --> 00:14:26.799 and it creates like for me, it created a split in you know. 169 00:14:28.720 --> 00:14:30.679 You know, I don't know how explicit I'm going to get here, but 170 00:14:30.720 --> 00:14:35.120 you know what I had to go through in my ritual it was embarrassing on 171 00:14:35.240 --> 00:14:41.600 every fiber of my being, Like it broke me in a way that that 172 00:14:41.759 --> 00:14:48.960 was the impression, you know, like they somehow knew that in my spiritual 173 00:14:48.080 --> 00:14:54.919 or whatever, you know, growth path, that they knew at what, 174 00:14:56.120 --> 00:15:05.279 at what moment to disrupt the alchemic vibrations in my body two not come together 175 00:15:05.399 --> 00:15:11.519 properly, you know that I would always feel like lost and broken apart, 176 00:15:11.759 --> 00:15:16.600 and for me when I was abused so early, because you know, being 177 00:15:16.639 --> 00:15:22.320 abused so early, and the abuse actually started before I was six. The 178 00:15:22.360 --> 00:15:26.799 initiation was actually when I was six, but you know, I started being 179 00:15:26.840 --> 00:15:30.279 abused when I was like, you know, four or five ish, and 180 00:15:31.159 --> 00:15:33.440 leading up to it, it was a path. It was a series of 181 00:15:35.960 --> 00:15:43.720 I can just say, I don't know all I can think about. It's 182 00:15:43.720 --> 00:15:48.399 like a shattering, you know, your identity completely shattered, and I didn't 183 00:15:48.440 --> 00:15:54.080 know who I was, and so then I get imprinted upon to believe that 184 00:15:54.440 --> 00:16:03.519 I was just meant to be a living sacrifice. You know, I don't 185 00:16:03.600 --> 00:16:06.720 know, I don't know if I can if that's kind of you know, 186 00:16:07.039 --> 00:16:11.000 going too far. I'm just I'm expressing, I know, right, and 187 00:16:11.039 --> 00:16:14.840 because I mean they technically are doing that by a comment during your life, 188 00:16:14.879 --> 00:16:21.480 they are you are the rituals the living sacrifice. And then it's like who 189 00:16:21.519 --> 00:16:25.720 better than your parents who know you the best to you know, assess you 190 00:16:25.799 --> 00:16:30.480 and profile you and personality profile you, to know what your weaknesses are so 191 00:16:30.559 --> 00:16:33.080 that they can push those buttons. Well, you know, and I do 192 00:16:33.159 --> 00:16:36.720 want to clarify one thing, you know. I do want to clarify one 193 00:16:36.720 --> 00:16:42.519 thing is you know my parents, you know, they they were a place 194 00:16:42.559 --> 00:16:47.360 of safety for me and protection. Okay, so it wasn't the parents, 195 00:16:47.559 --> 00:16:49.879 Yeah, no, no, no, no, So yeah, I want 196 00:16:49.919 --> 00:16:55.919 so it wasn't my parents that were doing this. No, this was extended 197 00:16:55.960 --> 00:16:59.039 family. And you know, I have to be I have to be careful 198 00:16:59.039 --> 00:17:03.960 here because you know, this is this is territory where you know, it 199 00:17:04.000 --> 00:17:11.920 can make things in my life uncomfortable. Right, but you know his extended 200 00:17:11.960 --> 00:17:15.160 family. Actually, my I will say this because this is public knowledge. 201 00:17:17.039 --> 00:17:22.240 My dad was the first one who broke away from the Catholic order. So 202 00:17:22.559 --> 00:17:26.960 my father, every male and my priests has been we were talking about you 203 00:17:26.960 --> 00:17:32.000 know, we're talking about an email about the the king priests, right, 204 00:17:33.440 --> 00:17:38.039 and that so like my father and that lion descends from king priests, and 205 00:17:38.440 --> 00:17:44.880 so every patriarch in my family, including my dad was born into like I 206 00:17:44.920 --> 00:17:48.480 heard you talk about in some of your previous episodes, being more born into 207 00:17:48.519 --> 00:17:51.880 these things. And he was born into the priest craft. So he was 208 00:17:52.039 --> 00:17:56.799 actually supposed to be a priest. But when he was sixteen, he had 209 00:17:56.799 --> 00:18:02.400 a spiritual awakening and he broke away from the church. Do you think it 210 00:18:02.480 --> 00:18:03.960 was he Oh yeah, no, he definitely was. I mean, I 211 00:18:03.960 --> 00:18:08.319 mean, I'm not going to disclose anything that he's gone through, right no, 212 00:18:08.839 --> 00:18:11.880 but I mean this is coming from the Roman Catholic. This is coming 213 00:18:11.880 --> 00:18:15.880 from the Roman Catholic Church. Yes, right, That's what I wanted to 214 00:18:15.920 --> 00:18:18.440 make sure that I was picking up on that properly, that the Roman Catholic 215 00:18:18.720 --> 00:18:23.160 And so we're grooming him and right, So so to give you to give 216 00:18:23.200 --> 00:18:26.119 you that backstory a little bit. So when my dad, so he was 217 00:18:26.119 --> 00:18:30.400 the first one to break away, and when he broke away, he was 218 00:18:30.440 --> 00:18:37.160 actually he was jumped. He was he was physically jumped by his parents. 219 00:18:37.160 --> 00:18:41.920 So it was his mom and dad and his siblings at the time wherever there 220 00:18:41.920 --> 00:18:45.519 were at the time, and they literally jumped him and they beat him half 221 00:18:45.519 --> 00:18:48.880 to death. This is a true story. They beat him half to death 222 00:18:48.920 --> 00:18:52.680 and they literally left him on the side of the road for dead. It 223 00:18:52.720 --> 00:18:59.039 was my dad from his own family, what's that, from his own family, 224 00:18:59.319 --> 00:19:08.160 from his own family, and he and he was found. He was 225 00:19:08.200 --> 00:19:18.480 found by this Pentecostal pastor that took him in and you know, fixed him 226 00:19:18.519 --> 00:19:21.880 up and give him a place to stay and essentially adopted him as a son, 227 00:19:22.680 --> 00:19:30.400 you know. And he was this. I mean, that's a different 228 00:19:30.440 --> 00:19:32.000 story for a differ day. I don't want to go too much in the 229 00:19:32.039 --> 00:19:33.880 weeds on these stories here, take too much of your time. But I'm 230 00:19:33.920 --> 00:19:42.960 just trying to provide context. Yah. Yeah, So my father met my 231 00:19:44.079 --> 00:19:47.240 mother. They knew each other in high school. My mom was a teenager. 232 00:19:47.240 --> 00:19:52.680 They were both teenagers, and my mom had also broken away from the 233 00:19:52.759 --> 00:19:59.200 church, the Catholic church on her side and but on my mom's side is 234 00:19:59.240 --> 00:20:07.200 where the witchcraft, often the occultism really laid heavy. On my mom's side, 235 00:20:07.200 --> 00:20:14.319 my mom's grandmother, so my great grandmother was involved, heavily involved in 236 00:20:14.359 --> 00:20:18.759 the occult and witchcraft. And this is what I know of the story, 237 00:20:18.799 --> 00:20:22.559 that's public knowledge, so I can share. This is what I know of 238 00:20:22.599 --> 00:20:30.079 the story, is that she was my mom's grandma was tied to a stove 239 00:20:30.119 --> 00:20:34.720 in her kitchen by three witches and burned alive in a sacrifice. And then 240 00:20:36.000 --> 00:20:41.680 after that the husband came out and witnessed what was going on, and he 241 00:20:41.759 --> 00:20:48.079 went mentally insane and went to an insane inside and it was taken away to 242 00:20:48.119 --> 00:20:53.279 an insane asylum the following day, where he was then murdered that same day 243 00:20:53.400 --> 00:21:00.039 in the asylum. So this is my mom's dad's mom and dad, and 244 00:21:00.559 --> 00:21:03.640 so he was only ten. My grandfather, my grandfather was only ten when 245 00:21:03.640 --> 00:21:15.599 this happened. And it's not it's not documented on paper. It's just this 246 00:21:15.759 --> 00:21:23.920 is just verbal you know, verbal family history here. But like with the 247 00:21:25.119 --> 00:21:26.759 I've done more research on my dad's side, but in the small amount I've 248 00:21:26.759 --> 00:21:30.559 done on my mom's side, it's been I've been a little slow going at 249 00:21:30.559 --> 00:21:36.079 it because I'm more fearful of it because you know, that's where I'm discovering 250 00:21:36.880 --> 00:21:44.400 involvement with the occult, and that's where you know, I'm discovering that even 251 00:21:44.720 --> 00:21:48.559 like my birth, which you know it was a mistake. My mom, 252 00:21:48.640 --> 00:21:51.279 my mom and dad you know, could see me in a Yeah, they 253 00:21:51.319 --> 00:21:56.799 were teenagers having fun, and so the families they were my pregnancy into the 254 00:21:56.839 --> 00:22:00.599 family. My mom and dad became from two different sides of the family or 255 00:22:00.640 --> 00:22:06.319 different families, and from what I understand, they weren't the friendliess to each 256 00:22:06.319 --> 00:22:10.480 other, like there was some enmity between the two families. So my mom 257 00:22:10.559 --> 00:22:15.160 and my dad they got together, and my pregnancy caused some kind of a 258 00:22:15.200 --> 00:22:18.039 big deal. My dad stepped away from the church, my mom stepped away 259 00:22:18.039 --> 00:22:21.640 from the church, and they kind of went off on their own. So 260 00:22:22.480 --> 00:22:26.079 we kind of isolated in this in this spot, and my mom and dad 261 00:22:26.079 --> 00:22:32.119 tried their best to really kind of keep me secure, but they were only 262 00:22:32.119 --> 00:22:34.000 teenagers, so they didn't have a lot. You know, we were we 263 00:22:34.000 --> 00:22:37.960 were basically homeless, you know, the first five years of my life, 264 00:22:38.319 --> 00:22:41.759 and you know, we had to live off the land. You know, 265 00:22:41.839 --> 00:22:45.799 we took baths in the horse troughs and we washed our clothes with washports, 266 00:22:45.839 --> 00:22:48.759 you know, and this is like you know, eighties, early nineties, 267 00:22:48.839 --> 00:22:55.440 and you know, we lived very very simply. Well, my grandfather, 268 00:22:56.839 --> 00:23:03.519 he he lived a different life and in in a way, you know, 269 00:23:03.559 --> 00:23:07.279 he's still a lot I haven't you know, I got to say, you 270 00:23:07.279 --> 00:23:11.480 know, despite everything, I love him. I haven't talked to him. 271 00:23:11.480 --> 00:23:17.759 In over twenty years, I've completely disassociated with my family and and uh, 272 00:23:18.720 --> 00:23:22.960 except for my mom and dad and one or two maybe you know, one 273 00:23:23.039 --> 00:23:29.839 or two trusted relatives that I stay connection with. Honestly, that's a lot 274 00:23:29.839 --> 00:23:33.119 for me to say, because you know, a lot of these a lot 275 00:23:33.119 --> 00:23:40.160 of these family members, you know, they follow me online and they you 276 00:23:40.200 --> 00:23:45.960 know, they they see the information that I'm coming out with and I think 277 00:23:45.960 --> 00:23:49.000 they're a little confused as to why I'm doing it. But the reason why 278 00:23:49.000 --> 00:23:55.640 I'm doing it, to be completely honest with you, is because that family 279 00:23:55.680 --> 00:24:00.279 crest that I showed you right that simple you know, I'm learning that was 280 00:24:00.359 --> 00:24:07.960 essentially like a sigil, which is a magic ritual to kind of seal a 281 00:24:07.000 --> 00:24:11.359 certain belief system in our family bloodline. Does that make sense. Yeah, 282 00:24:11.480 --> 00:24:15.359 I'm gonna pull that up in a second here too. But yeah, and 283 00:24:15.400 --> 00:24:18.640 I noticed the two wolves on there. And this is what's interesting is that 284 00:24:19.160 --> 00:24:26.400 the Loyola family has in there from Spain. Obviously, the according to some 285 00:24:26.559 --> 00:24:30.039 are Basque royalty, but they're Maranos. I mean that's what they are. 286 00:24:30.519 --> 00:24:37.920 And that was two wolves around a cauldron. Is there is their symbol, 287 00:24:37.200 --> 00:24:41.920 So it's the same color scheme as yours, and there's two wolves in it, 288 00:24:42.039 --> 00:24:45.680 just like I mean, that could be Roman too because of the wolf, 289 00:24:45.039 --> 00:24:51.039 you know, luber Collia type thing with the with the Romulus and Remus 290 00:24:51.200 --> 00:24:53.839 story. But you just show this real quick and put this on the screen, 291 00:24:55.640 --> 00:25:00.000 so you see there's the two wolves there and Romero on the bottom. 292 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:03.960 I'm not really sure if it was there supposed to be uh what they called 293 00:25:04.079 --> 00:25:07.359 man graef or what are they called that. I don't know what those are 294 00:25:07.440 --> 00:25:10.160 on the outside, but they look like oh on the side, yeah, 295 00:25:10.480 --> 00:25:12.200 yeah, that's what they called. And then there it's Fangrief. And then 296 00:25:12.279 --> 00:25:18.519 there's rosemary, the little green plants that you see along the in the gold 297 00:25:18.480 --> 00:25:22.279 that's called rosemary, okay. And then the black and the red, I 298 00:25:22.319 --> 00:25:26.440 mean the black, red and yellow that color symbology I'm sure you're familiar with. 299 00:25:27.079 --> 00:25:33.039 Yep, Yeah, that's it. It's priestly uh priestly colors actually, 300 00:25:33.200 --> 00:25:38.039 yes, yes, absolutely negative of that, yes, yeah, just about 301 00:25:38.039 --> 00:25:41.519 everything too. Black and red is in all the occult and you see the 302 00:25:41.519 --> 00:25:48.160 gold bringing out at different times, but not always all together unless they're representing 303 00:25:48.160 --> 00:25:52.000 it as such, like when they're doing a crest or something. Yeah mm 304 00:25:52.119 --> 00:25:55.440 hmm. Yeah, so yeah, thank you for showing that. That's amazing. 305 00:25:56.680 --> 00:26:02.160 But yeah, no, and then other symbology too is that if you 306 00:26:02.160 --> 00:26:03.359 you know, if you kind of look at it in a way, it 307 00:26:03.440 --> 00:26:08.039 kind of has that sephardic kind of jew look with the hanging hair and you 308 00:26:08.039 --> 00:26:11.759 know, kind of a hat, you know, the flatbill hat. You 309 00:26:11.759 --> 00:26:18.039 know, it kind of has a symbology to of of different types of profiles 310 00:26:18.079 --> 00:26:22.880 that are in that in those specific orders. But what I came down to 311 00:26:22.000 --> 00:26:26.319 an assumption was is that or what I discovered is that that symbol was actually 312 00:26:26.359 --> 00:26:33.920 a sigil. It was a magic ritual sigil that was done by the conquistadors, 313 00:26:33.000 --> 00:26:38.400 right, those Converisors and Moranos, to establish this like secret code of 314 00:26:38.480 --> 00:26:44.799 like of what their family bloodline would stand for. You know, like you 315 00:26:44.839 --> 00:26:48.880 said, the two wolves and the cauldron, like that's that's that's huge with 316 00:26:48.960 --> 00:26:52.000 symbolic meaning to the family because you know, with the things of high strangeness 317 00:26:52.079 --> 00:26:56.039 that I've witnessed, you know, like I've experienced real summoning with rituals where 318 00:26:56.200 --> 00:27:03.119 you know, entities are summoned, you know, and it's an experience I've 319 00:27:03.160 --> 00:27:08.079 witnessed it first hand. Yeah, yeah, you know, it's it's really 320 00:27:08.079 --> 00:27:12.519 interesting because it is I mean, like I mentioned before, right, a 321 00:27:12.599 --> 00:27:19.359 cult is hidden, and you know in these in these cultural things, and 322 00:27:19.400 --> 00:27:25.079 again taking apart the word right, cultural, that first part of that word 323 00:27:25.160 --> 00:27:32.039 is cult. In these in these cultural areas, you know, you have 324 00:27:32.119 --> 00:27:37.720 all these you know, rituals that are done for the sake of culture. 325 00:27:37.359 --> 00:27:41.960 But you know there are there are a faction of people that really take those 326 00:27:42.000 --> 00:27:48.319 seriously and and and their real experiences. I have a couple of questions about 327 00:27:48.480 --> 00:27:52.119 because you know, when you think old country, like even like in Italy, 328 00:27:52.240 --> 00:27:56.799 you think, okay, well, I'm sure folk magic was part of 329 00:27:56.839 --> 00:28:00.279 their lives, you know, for the peasantry and stuff like that. But 330 00:28:00.720 --> 00:28:04.400 when you describe what happened on your mother's side, that's a whole other thing. 331 00:28:04.559 --> 00:28:08.880 And it seems like whoever these witches were, they had people at the 332 00:28:08.880 --> 00:28:12.960 asylum already for your yeah, waiting. So it's one of those things where 333 00:28:12.960 --> 00:28:18.400 they're already everywhere in the high places that they need to be in order to 334 00:28:18.440 --> 00:28:23.400 conceal and make sure that nothing leaks out. Basically they can remain hidden. 335 00:28:25.119 --> 00:28:29.240 So that's that's another scary thing, because I don't think if people understand how 336 00:28:30.119 --> 00:28:34.039 how these people blend into everything. Like you know, your priests could be 337 00:28:34.079 --> 00:28:40.480 also doing some horrible things. Your mayor could be doing horrible things. Your 338 00:28:41.039 --> 00:28:45.000 police officer could be doing horrible things. The guy next door who is a 339 00:28:45.000 --> 00:28:49.400 school teacher could be doing horrible things. And they would look absolutely normal to 340 00:28:49.440 --> 00:28:53.640 you until it's time for them to switch. And when they do, there's 341 00:28:53.640 --> 00:28:56.720 no reasoning with them. There's deadness in their eyes and they'll do whatever. 342 00:28:57.319 --> 00:29:02.799 You know and to have were those three those three witches? Was any of 343 00:29:02.839 --> 00:29:11.480 those your great grandmother, well daughter or no? So I know that from 344 00:29:11.480 --> 00:29:17.480 what I've been told is that my my great grandmother was involved within the witchcraft. 345 00:29:17.839 --> 00:29:19.880 Right now, the reason why I told you that on my dad's side 346 00:29:19.880 --> 00:29:23.440 I was in the priest craft and my mom's side was in the witchcraft. 347 00:29:25.000 --> 00:29:33.319 I definitely believe that there was some kind of an intermingling or a a co 348 00:29:33.400 --> 00:29:41.160 opetition, if you will, to push a certain narrative. And I forget 349 00:29:41.160 --> 00:29:45.720 the second part of your your question, Oh was it? I asked if 350 00:29:45.720 --> 00:29:55.279 your mother was involved with the actual burning? Oh, I don't believe were 351 00:29:55.319 --> 00:30:02.119 they were? They punishing her perhaps rumor, the rumor that I the rumor 352 00:30:02.160 --> 00:30:04.799 that I've been told, and I haven't verified this, but this is just 353 00:30:04.880 --> 00:30:11.200 what I've been told, is that she was involved in these things, and 354 00:30:11.359 --> 00:30:17.480 it had been a generational, multi generational thing, and like going way back, 355 00:30:17.920 --> 00:30:25.039 and and that my great grandmother wanted to not do it, wanted to 356 00:30:25.079 --> 00:30:30.200 stop, and so in order for it to stop, like she herself would 357 00:30:30.240 --> 00:30:36.400 have to be sacrificed. But that's what I was told, But it it 358 00:30:36.440 --> 00:30:38.960 really kind of doesn't make sense to me. What you know, what makes 359 00:30:40.000 --> 00:30:44.400 sense to me is I know that there was three witches for sure, and 360 00:30:44.480 --> 00:30:49.319 after this occurred, then my grand What the story is is that my grandfather 361 00:30:49.319 --> 00:30:56.720 that one of them witches came back and they took in my grandfather as a 362 00:30:56.799 --> 00:31:00.200 guardian, you know, because his parents were dead and in that in that 363 00:31:00.319 --> 00:31:06.960 area, in that time, you know, in that place, you know, 364 00:31:07.039 --> 00:31:10.359 you have family names that are wiped out. Especially during that time, 365 00:31:10.799 --> 00:31:14.200 you know, you were dealing with land grants, you were dealing with fighting 366 00:31:14.200 --> 00:31:18.640 with the natives still in the area, You're dealing with all kinds of uh, 367 00:31:18.759 --> 00:31:22.599 you know, the Spanish Indian thing going on in that area. You 368 00:31:22.640 --> 00:31:29.279 know, all that stuff. And but when when his in his childhood, 369 00:31:29.319 --> 00:31:33.920 he was he was left alone. So in that area, family was everything. 370 00:31:33.920 --> 00:31:37.160 Well, they took him in and they settled in. They settled on 371 00:31:37.359 --> 00:31:42.720 top of a Native American graveyard. Okay, So, and I'm sorry if 372 00:31:42.759 --> 00:31:47.079 I'm if I'm a little bit like you know, you're doing great, man. 373 00:31:47.920 --> 00:31:49.240 You know this is you know, like we talked about before the show, 374 00:31:49.680 --> 00:31:52.920 doing this memory recall, you know, in a way, in a 375 00:31:52.960 --> 00:31:59.079 way, I'm there. So forgive me if I'm a little nervous when telling 376 00:31:59.119 --> 00:32:04.559 this part. And that's fine, go ahead and say I'll hold. But 377 00:32:04.680 --> 00:32:07.519 I was gonna say for a second, yeah, okay, all right. 378 00:32:08.240 --> 00:32:15.000 So he so they settled on a they settled, he was given land. 379 00:32:15.079 --> 00:32:22.839 He was given about eleven acres of land and his houses at the top of 380 00:32:22.880 --> 00:32:27.559 this hill leading down to the Rio Grande River. And on all three sides 381 00:32:27.599 --> 00:32:32.599 of him, we had these witches, these three witches. There was actually 382 00:32:32.680 --> 00:32:37.240 three female witches and one male witch. The male, the warlock, was 383 00:32:37.319 --> 00:32:42.920 killed in a crazy freak accident. It's another story for a different day, 384 00:32:43.279 --> 00:32:49.880 but he was killed. I witnessed that event happen. And there were three 385 00:32:49.920 --> 00:32:54.319 witches when I by the time I became aware of my situation, I realized 386 00:32:54.359 --> 00:32:59.400 that they were living all around him, they circled him. And from my 387 00:32:59.480 --> 00:33:02.519 understanding, this is just an assumption, all right, just you know, 388 00:33:04.119 --> 00:33:07.279 the guy's still alive. So I'm just I'm just assuming, just knowing who 389 00:33:07.279 --> 00:33:15.559 my grandfather is, that he was having affairs with these women, m and 390 00:33:15.559 --> 00:33:21.119 and I think that that was going on since he was ten because when when 391 00:33:21.160 --> 00:33:25.079 I was born, like he he took special favor to me, like my 392 00:33:25.160 --> 00:33:30.680 family will tell you that. He said that I was the blessed, the 393 00:33:31.000 --> 00:33:35.319 like the chosen one to carry the torch for some reason. He would tell 394 00:33:35.359 --> 00:33:38.119 me like these weird things when I was a kid. You know, I'm 395 00:33:38.160 --> 00:33:43.640 like to carry the torch torch for what you know, like that has a 396 00:33:43.680 --> 00:33:50.440 lucive, very type of kind of illumination. Yes, yes, the family 397 00:33:50.880 --> 00:33:53.200 heritage and legacy and all that stuff too, right right, Yeah, So 398 00:33:53.240 --> 00:33:58.920 he saw that and so I you know, I took to him and he 399 00:33:58.920 --> 00:34:00.519 held me close to him, so you know, through him, I mean 400 00:34:00.559 --> 00:34:04.559 I was able to you know, I met these witches. You know, 401 00:34:07.759 --> 00:34:12.880 when he was introduced in reducing me into the craft, he showed me this 402 00:34:13.480 --> 00:34:17.440 upside down cross that had been carved on his chest. And if I'm being 403 00:34:17.480 --> 00:34:21.599 a little too intense, let me no, No, I think the more 404 00:34:21.639 --> 00:34:28.199 descriptions better, honestly. Yeah, So you know he had this like upsid 405 00:34:28.199 --> 00:34:32.960 down cross on his chest and he said that he had made some kind of 406 00:34:34.000 --> 00:34:37.639 a deal. I think he was coerced, you know what I mean. 407 00:34:37.679 --> 00:34:39.840 I think I don't think it was of his free choice. I mean, 408 00:34:39.880 --> 00:34:45.280 he was ten for crying out loud. But you know they had mentioned he 409 00:34:45.400 --> 00:34:49.119 remember him telling me that as long as he stayed loyal to them, that 410 00:34:49.119 --> 00:34:54.559 that he would live live a long life and you know, never be without 411 00:34:54.800 --> 00:34:58.800 and have many children. Well the guy has, like you know, he's 412 00:34:58.800 --> 00:35:02.000 had five plus wives. He's had over you know, twenty five children that 413 00:35:02.079 --> 00:35:07.119 I know of. I mean, he's been you know, he's literally I've 414 00:35:07.159 --> 00:35:13.079 literally witnessed with my own eyes witnessed him being shot, stabbed, drugged by 415 00:35:13.079 --> 00:35:15.400 a vehicle, dropped off a two story building. I mean, like, 416 00:35:15.960 --> 00:35:21.960 this guy, literally, to me, has been indestructible. When I was 417 00:35:22.239 --> 00:35:25.480 this is when I was a kid, Okay, so I'm like, you 418 00:35:25.519 --> 00:35:30.920 know, five six years old witnessing this guy like do like legit things of 419 00:35:30.000 --> 00:35:37.760 high strangeness, and I'm like, man, this guy's powerful. Wow, 420 00:35:37.679 --> 00:35:39.400 yeah, and where do you put that? You know, like what do 421 00:35:39.480 --> 00:35:44.400 you put it up here? Right? And he would always tell me, 422 00:35:45.679 --> 00:35:49.519 you know, he would get like he you know, he was so dualistic 423 00:35:49.679 --> 00:35:52.159 in his uh in who is who? Kneho he was? You know, 424 00:35:52.519 --> 00:36:00.599 he would when he was sober, which was very rare, you know, 425 00:36:00.719 --> 00:36:02.320 he would he would come up and tell me. He would say, he's 426 00:36:02.360 --> 00:36:07.000 like, you know, Jesus loves you. Methough you say Jesus loves you 427 00:36:10.119 --> 00:36:15.000 hmm. But but then but then when he was drunk he would tell me, 428 00:36:15.840 --> 00:36:19.599 and when he was on drugs, and when he would tell me that 429 00:36:23.519 --> 00:36:30.719 Jesus love me. But don't let myself be deceived by not knowing who I 430 00:36:30.760 --> 00:36:36.039 really am. He says, I know who I am. He would say, 431 00:36:36.159 --> 00:36:43.440 I know who I am, so don't give yourself any basically kind of 432 00:36:43.599 --> 00:36:46.440 yeah, anyway, sorry, I'm kind of going on a tangent there, 433 00:36:46.480 --> 00:36:51.480 But no, that's that's uh that they're not going on a tangent. Actually 434 00:36:51.559 --> 00:36:55.239 it's good. Uh So when you're talking about I'm assuming that there's some when 435 00:36:55.280 --> 00:36:59.559 you say Colton, you're talking about this witchcraft. I'm trying to think in 436 00:36:59.599 --> 00:37:06.079 my mind names of cartel related these days, but maybe not so much back 437 00:37:06.079 --> 00:37:09.280 then. But like, is it Santa Moerte, Like what is I can't 438 00:37:09.639 --> 00:37:16.079 that that I can't honestly that I can't disclose that has to be hidden just 439 00:37:16.320 --> 00:37:22.000 I mean, just just for legit safety, okay, because you know, 440 00:37:22.960 --> 00:37:28.519 I mean it's one thing to it definitely is one thing to disclose and talk 441 00:37:28.559 --> 00:37:30.639 about this stuff because I mean it's kind of hit mainstream right now, but 442 00:37:32.079 --> 00:37:37.360 you know there's still like very real forces that run stuff, you know what 443 00:37:37.400 --> 00:37:42.159 I mean. So yeah, and you also mentioned that they're into some organized 444 00:37:42.199 --> 00:37:45.599 crime and that you were involved in that, so I mean it sounds like 445 00:37:45.639 --> 00:37:51.320 they might be cartel. Yeah, it's it's basically linked. It's basically that. 446 00:37:51.440 --> 00:37:55.679 I mean, anything that you have, ah, well, what they 447 00:37:55.719 --> 00:38:00.880 see is like militia militia type you know sells. You know, they'll they'll 448 00:38:01.440 --> 00:38:06.480 refer to that as organized crime, you know, to them in their environment. 449 00:38:06.840 --> 00:38:08.599 I mean, if you if your knowledge on organized crime or if you 450 00:38:08.599 --> 00:38:12.519 you know, if you watch shows about you know, the mafia or the 451 00:38:12.559 --> 00:38:17.159 mob, like, they'll tell you that you know, the communities. If 452 00:38:17.199 --> 00:38:20.480 you were to interview the communities, the communities would be like, oh, 453 00:38:20.519 --> 00:38:22.119 yeah, no, they did good things for the community, you know, 454 00:38:22.599 --> 00:38:28.760 but they also oppressed everybody. Yeah, what do you call it? Uh? 455 00:38:30.480 --> 00:38:34.400 What the hell is his name? I cannot think of his name? 456 00:38:34.559 --> 00:38:40.639 Cuban or Columbia, pa Escobar. He was loved and uh, because he 457 00:38:40.760 --> 00:38:45.280 was throwing a bunch of money back at the community, bring weapon and stuff 458 00:38:45.280 --> 00:38:49.039 like that. But also father, my grandfather became this type of character. 459 00:38:49.960 --> 00:38:53.199 Wow, you know he would have he would have governors come and see him. 460 00:38:54.880 --> 00:38:58.880 It broke up a little bit. What do you say? You know? 461 00:38:59.000 --> 00:39:01.840 He would sometimes he would have public authorities come to him sometimes too. 462 00:39:02.880 --> 00:39:07.639 Oh, I mean he had friends in high places. Yeah, that's a 463 00:39:08.199 --> 00:39:10.639 that's not me. He would be able to he would be able to go 464 00:39:10.719 --> 00:39:16.280 to jail, like I would see him break havoc on I mean just wreak 465 00:39:16.519 --> 00:39:24.000 havoc on the city and go to jail thinking, Okay, this is it. 466 00:39:24.119 --> 00:39:27.679 He's finally going to get locked up, and he's out the next day 467 00:39:28.079 --> 00:39:32.599 and find out he's you know, having lunch with you know, someone important. 468 00:39:34.440 --> 00:39:37.199 Yeah that's multi layer too, because there was other people in high places 469 00:39:37.280 --> 00:39:43.079 could have more than one reason for doing that influenced not just so much pressure, 470 00:39:43.119 --> 00:39:45.119 but influence because they might be involved in the same type of thing, 471 00:39:45.480 --> 00:39:49.559 you know, and they're just taking care of their own right. And that 472 00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840 could be multi level too. It could be the crime level, it could 473 00:39:52.880 --> 00:39:54.920 be the cult level, it could be both, you know, right, 474 00:39:58.800 --> 00:40:00.639 yeah, you know, and that and that and that's the thing, you 475 00:40:00.719 --> 00:40:04.920 know, that's you know when people talk about you know, when people talk 476 00:40:04.960 --> 00:40:08.280 about you know, and when I talk you know, I'm talking from my 477 00:40:08.480 --> 00:40:20.760 experience of having like really deep religion and scripture as my reference for how I 478 00:40:20.880 --> 00:40:30.679 use words. So like in talking about like the in talking about the indoctrination 479 00:40:31.199 --> 00:40:38.440 and people being deceived in you know, in that religion, there's like the 480 00:40:38.519 --> 00:40:42.639 great deception, right, they say that there's going to be a great deception, 481 00:40:43.159 --> 00:40:47.960 that the enemy is going to deceive the entire world. Okay, Christianity 482 00:40:49.719 --> 00:40:52.760 too, right, Well, that deception, there's actually a deception of the 483 00:40:52.880 --> 00:40:57.079 deception, because wasn't there I think there was a couple of episodes you did 484 00:40:57.679 --> 00:41:00.239 where either you or the host you or the other guests you had on we're 485 00:41:00.280 --> 00:41:05.559 talking about awakening from the Awakening. Yeah, that was with Howdie McCaskey. 486 00:41:05.800 --> 00:41:09.519 Yeah. Yeah, So I mean that kind of like using that and then 487 00:41:09.719 --> 00:41:15.880 using like that movie inception with Leonardo DiCaprio, like the dream within a dream. 488 00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:21.239 Yeah right, because so even this like putting too much emphasis on that 489 00:41:21.400 --> 00:41:23.400 being real is also part of keeping you in the system and keeping you in 490 00:41:23.480 --> 00:41:27.480 the in the lock of the cage, right right, right, yeah, 491 00:41:28.280 --> 00:41:31.320 right right, and in a computer system, like you have various components and 492 00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:35.880 different you know. So yeah, So why I say that is like the 493 00:41:36.000 --> 00:41:44.400 occult is like the it's like the negative charge that causes that side that needs 494 00:41:44.440 --> 00:41:49.480 the positive reaction to fire and keep the system going. Right. So that's 495 00:41:49.519 --> 00:41:53.960 why the occult stays hidden, is because the occult, when people find out 496 00:41:54.599 --> 00:42:00.679 the truth, the real truth behind the dream within the dream, then they'll 497 00:42:00.719 --> 00:42:07.079 be awakened from their awakening and then finally, so to speak, realize who 498 00:42:07.119 --> 00:42:14.599 they are and shrug off that that oppressiveness in a sense too, because they're 499 00:42:14.639 --> 00:42:19.360 not looking for they're not looking to follow anything anymore if they are confident and 500 00:42:19.599 --> 00:42:24.679 independent and individuals again right right, So I mean if you understand that everything 501 00:42:24.719 --> 00:42:30.880 that you've put your trust and faith in have now shown you its true colors. 502 00:42:31.880 --> 00:42:36.840 I mean you you don't there's no going back to that same system and 503 00:42:36.920 --> 00:42:39.920 then you know, being okay with it, and if if you realize that, 504 00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:44.079 and even just on the practical, like real life level, just the 505 00:42:44.159 --> 00:42:46.159 facade of what you believe because the media tells you and stuff like that, 506 00:42:46.280 --> 00:42:50.880 Like breaking away from that is one thing, but then even people who tell 507 00:42:50.880 --> 00:42:52.880 you the truth could be just trying to steer you in a slightly different direction 508 00:42:52.960 --> 00:42:59.519 and get get your right back straight into hell. You know, Yeah, 509 00:43:00.039 --> 00:43:04.119 it's back in right, Yeah, you know it, and it brings you 510 00:43:04.239 --> 00:43:07.639 back into it brings you back into the feedback loop, you know. And 511 00:43:08.360 --> 00:43:12.840 you know, I'm not sure you know how how deep you want to, 512 00:43:13.239 --> 00:43:19.599 you know, take your conversation like that. But for me personally, when 513 00:43:19.679 --> 00:43:27.800 I came to the realization that everything that I have been taught, everything that 514 00:43:27.880 --> 00:43:37.159 I have been indoctrinated with, has been done so through a distorted lens, 515 00:43:38.639 --> 00:43:50.119 then I'm open to look into what could be the real truth. And once 516 00:43:50.199 --> 00:43:53.039 I realized that, it was like something unlocked the keys of my oppressive, 517 00:43:53.039 --> 00:43:58.599 oppressive oppressiveness right now or depression that I was in personally, and has really 518 00:43:58.639 --> 00:44:01.119 set me free. I mean now, I mean despite all that, and 519 00:44:01.280 --> 00:44:05.320 you know, I can tell you stories all day long, but despite me 520 00:44:05.480 --> 00:44:08.719 going through all that, like, I've come out the other side, you 521 00:44:08.800 --> 00:44:15.920 know, I've come out the other side, and I'm able to live a 522 00:44:17.360 --> 00:44:22.360 life that is free of fear, you know. And by that, I 523 00:44:22.559 --> 00:44:37.320 mean that fear, seeing it as an acronym is factoring all existing realities. 524 00:44:37.559 --> 00:44:42.679 I mean when you think about it, because like right now, for instance, 525 00:44:42.719 --> 00:44:44.719 my life's about to change in a big way and I'll just you know, 526 00:44:44.719 --> 00:44:46.079 I'll just be a little bit vulnerable with you right now. I think 527 00:44:46.119 --> 00:44:51.639 I kind of mentioned it that I own my own business. Yea, And 528 00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:55.360 I think you said you own a business. You own a hot sauce company 529 00:44:55.480 --> 00:45:00.280 or something. Yeah, I think that's cool, by the way. But 530 00:45:00.360 --> 00:45:02.639 but anyways, but yeah, so I own this business. I've had it 531 00:45:02.719 --> 00:45:07.400 for seven years now. I kind of fell into it really long story short. 532 00:45:07.840 --> 00:45:09.760 You know, we were at the brink of a major expansion, you 533 00:45:09.840 --> 00:45:14.079 know, becoming regional authority for the area that we're delivering in and you know, 534 00:45:14.119 --> 00:45:22.239 all this constantly turn around COVID Yes, yes, my business, yes, 535 00:45:23.280 --> 00:45:27.360 yeah, And I've been I've been trying. I've been trying for three 536 00:45:27.440 --> 00:45:30.559 years, almost four years now to you know, build it back up. 537 00:45:30.639 --> 00:45:32.880 But I mean, we got cut out from under the knees. And you 538 00:45:32.960 --> 00:45:36.840 know, when we're we're we're not gonna, we're not gonna go out of 539 00:45:36.880 --> 00:45:39.079 business, but we're looking at potential, you know, bankruptcy. Right. 540 00:45:39.719 --> 00:45:44.280 But and for me as a business owner, this is my first big like 541 00:45:45.519 --> 00:45:50.400 situation like this, you know, and it's painful, you know, but 542 00:45:50.519 --> 00:45:54.719 it's also open and I want to see it as like a failure. And 543 00:45:54.800 --> 00:45:59.519 here's an example of like knowing the truth and who I am is why I'm 544 00:45:59.559 --> 00:46:04.280 saying this. It's because I know that my family and the outside world was 545 00:46:04.280 --> 00:46:07.840 going and friends and peer group and my employees, they're going to see it 546 00:46:07.880 --> 00:46:10.199 as I failed because I did. I failed them, right, I failed 547 00:46:10.239 --> 00:46:14.280 to provide an expectation that I said I was going to do, and you 548 00:46:14.360 --> 00:46:17.159 know, things happened outside of my control and and happened. Yeah, the 549 00:46:17.199 --> 00:46:21.360 whole world shut down. It's not really something you can right therefore, right 550 00:46:21.639 --> 00:46:23.840 right, right, But you know, I gave it my all, and 551 00:46:23.960 --> 00:46:27.840 you know, for for the last several years, man, I've been struggling 552 00:46:28.000 --> 00:46:34.239 so hard with my identity because my identity was locked in this like linked back 553 00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:40.280 to my family crest of conquer at all costs and circling circling back to the 554 00:46:40.320 --> 00:46:47.159 conquista, the door thing. It was embedded in me since I was before 555 00:46:47.199 --> 00:46:52.039 I was born, in my bloodline to conquer at all costs, win at 556 00:46:52.079 --> 00:46:58.960 all costs. Yeah, and no matter how it's done, you just win. 557 00:47:00.239 --> 00:47:02.639 And so I tried to do that in my life, and I've had 558 00:47:02.840 --> 00:47:12.079 so many failures and and I realized that I was chasing an identity that didn't 559 00:47:12.079 --> 00:47:15.800 belong to me. I was doing it because it's what I needed to do 560 00:47:15.880 --> 00:47:20.679 to be accepted. So I'm changing that. And anyways, it could also 561 00:47:20.719 --> 00:47:25.239 be strategy too, because when you think conquer it all costs, the first 562 00:47:25.280 --> 00:47:31.840 thing that comes into my mind is like a bulldozer, like a brutal brute 563 00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:37.400 force, forcing something that's not ready to happen, and trying to make something 564 00:47:37.440 --> 00:47:39.599 happen unnaturally, which is kind of what magic is too, in a sense. 565 00:47:39.639 --> 00:47:44.920 It's forcing your will upon something. So you know, when you say, 566 00:47:44.960 --> 00:47:47.480 when I think at all costs, I think in the absence of empathy, 567 00:47:47.760 --> 00:47:51.440 in the absence of for others. So when you do it like that, 568 00:47:51.719 --> 00:47:54.519 you're bound to have repercussions. But I don't think that's how you were 569 00:47:54.599 --> 00:48:00.480 operating your business. I'm just saying that that mindset could be people to think 570 00:48:00.960 --> 00:48:02.800 in those ways that they can just do whatever they need to do to get 571 00:48:02.800 --> 00:48:07.039 by and screw everybody on the way, because that does if you're not one 572 00:48:07.039 --> 00:48:09.000 of the guys on the way up top who can pay for all the lawsuits 573 00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:12.519 and can pay for all the you know, you know, all the all 574 00:48:12.559 --> 00:48:15.960 the cushioning from his lawyers and all that, that's going to catch up with 575 00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:17.239 you if you start screwing everybody. You know, so you don't want to 576 00:48:17.280 --> 00:48:20.559 do that. Plus, it's just the mortal baggage of that, you know, 577 00:48:20.719 --> 00:48:24.880 the the charmatic baggage if you believe in that of doing that and you 578 00:48:24.960 --> 00:48:29.280 know, once you like you have a family or something that like, I 579 00:48:29.400 --> 00:48:31.880 could you imagine if they did that to you type of thing, and it's 580 00:48:32.039 --> 00:48:37.599 uh so, yeah, doing right by others I think would be paramount win 581 00:48:37.679 --> 00:48:42.119 at all costs, with the exception of take care of your you know, 582 00:48:42.559 --> 00:48:45.920 those those who are taking care of you on the on the upper level of 583 00:48:45.000 --> 00:48:47.559 that you know. Oh yeah, oh yeah, but that that's been the 584 00:48:47.760 --> 00:48:52.280 that's been the biggest lesson that I've learned. That's the biggest lesson that i've 585 00:48:52.280 --> 00:48:57.760 buy I've learned, honestly, and because you know you you've mentioned now this 586 00:48:58.000 --> 00:49:04.679 issue with empathy. That's really deep insight because oh man, I'll tell you 587 00:49:04.800 --> 00:49:07.519 right now if I were to show you my original records from when I got 588 00:49:08.119 --> 00:49:12.679 when I was entered into this program. Okay, so stepping back a little 589 00:49:12.679 --> 00:49:15.039 bit and telling you, but when I entered into my recovery, Okay, 590 00:49:15.239 --> 00:49:22.400 it was two thousand and five, after that drug overdose I went in. 591 00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:27.000 Actually I had like probably about a two three year grace period where I was 592 00:49:27.079 --> 00:49:32.679 okay and then I really started to go insane with the PTSD. And when 593 00:49:32.679 --> 00:49:39.880 I entered into the program, they had mentioned that I was an interesting case 594 00:49:39.960 --> 00:49:45.800 because when they did the psychiatric evaluation on me, the person said, they 595 00:49:45.840 --> 00:49:52.599 said, you know what's weird is he has no empathy. And I grew 596 00:49:52.719 --> 00:49:57.360 up with no empathy. I mean, I was not allowed and again, 597 00:49:57.719 --> 00:50:00.079 you know, kind of a strategy type thing. I don't know how this 598 00:50:00.199 --> 00:50:05.360 played out or why, but my parents when I was younger. They were 599 00:50:05.519 --> 00:50:07.000 they were gone a lot, so they you know, they traveled a lot. 600 00:50:07.119 --> 00:50:12.639 My dad was in the Pentecostal church and he traveled as a traveling minister. 601 00:50:13.119 --> 00:50:15.880 My mom did music and she was a music director for him. So 602 00:50:15.920 --> 00:50:22.079 they traveled around doing that stuff. And I was at home with my family 603 00:50:22.159 --> 00:50:25.800 that was doing ac cult rituals and forcing me to watch animal sacrifices and so 604 00:50:29.079 --> 00:50:32.920 I remember like going through these situations and like watching like animals being skinned, 605 00:50:32.960 --> 00:50:37.440 live like still breathing. You know, Syria, like ye had the Assyrian 606 00:50:37.480 --> 00:50:40.880 Babylonians, they would do that to their enemies. They would skin and they 607 00:50:40.920 --> 00:50:47.119 would and they would I mean the incantations and the different things. I mean, 608 00:50:50.199 --> 00:50:54.159 was it Mexic was it? Because I'm just curious, like, was 609 00:50:54.199 --> 00:50:59.760 it a cabalistic thing? Well, there was a different language that was spoken. 610 00:51:00.360 --> 00:51:04.039 Okay, you know, the incantations, the different language they were spoken. 611 00:51:04.039 --> 00:51:08.119 I don't feel comfortable saying what it is, but yeah, during those 612 00:51:08.199 --> 00:51:12.559 times, it was a it was an ancient language that was spoken that's you 613 00:51:12.599 --> 00:51:15.880 know, actually been it's been lost. Not a lot of people know how 614 00:51:15.920 --> 00:51:19.960 to speak it. I know, from a different continent from like from here 615 00:51:20.559 --> 00:51:23.679 from here. Okay, yeah, we're talking. We're talking ancient. We're 616 00:51:23.719 --> 00:51:28.280 talking ancient ancient native languages, that's what I'm saying. So this could be 617 00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:32.320 like the like the Astecs with their with their the as sects of the Incas 618 00:51:32.360 --> 00:51:37.239 with their they had a skinning ritual. They actually had a demon god who 619 00:51:37.440 --> 00:51:43.280 was the skin the god who wore flesh of others, of others on him, 620 00:51:43.880 --> 00:51:47.960 right, well, and and and then the Apache culture they call that, 621 00:51:49.679 --> 00:51:52.199 well, there's a there's a I can't remember the Apache name for it, 622 00:51:52.280 --> 00:51:55.519 but it interprets to this is gonna sound crazy, but the Bigfoot or 623 00:51:55.639 --> 00:52:00.760 you know that character, you know that cryptid character. Yea, So they 624 00:52:00.840 --> 00:52:06.480 actually have a ritual where they summon a type like you know, beast or 625 00:52:06.679 --> 00:52:10.320 entity, you know. And yeah, so I mean that's that's a whole 626 00:52:10.360 --> 00:52:14.719 nother that's a whole nother rabbit hole. But but yeah, no, I 627 00:52:15.079 --> 00:52:21.800 participated in those types of rituals. Do that yourself too? Yeah? Yeah, 628 00:52:22.760 --> 00:52:28.079 and you know, and so because I went through that, it was 629 00:52:28.159 --> 00:52:31.599 so shocking to my system. I didn't have as a little kid, imagine 630 00:52:31.599 --> 00:52:34.519 if it was a puppy or something like that, Like, how would you 631 00:52:34.880 --> 00:52:37.639 go. You know, that was just yeah, and that was the thing 632 00:52:37.679 --> 00:52:42.119 that I did. We did that to dogs, and you know, when 633 00:52:42.159 --> 00:52:46.000 I was initiated, it was you know, a puppy and it's very sick 634 00:52:46.039 --> 00:52:51.400 and twisted, man, you know, I mean it's uh, I really 635 00:52:51.440 --> 00:52:55.159 don't understand like that whole part of it. You know. I tried to 636 00:52:55.320 --> 00:53:02.280 go back and like, because I was going through my recovery, one of 637 00:53:02.320 --> 00:53:06.079 the things I did was and I'm going to keep referring to my recovery because 638 00:53:06.119 --> 00:53:09.079 it just kind of helps bring me to a oh please, yeah, levels 639 00:53:09.119 --> 00:53:14.920 me out. When I was doing my recovery, they did this thing called 640 00:53:15.039 --> 00:53:20.199 e MDR, which is a newer kind of experimental type treatment where they put 641 00:53:20.280 --> 00:53:22.559 you in a dark room. You're completely in darkness and then they flash a 642 00:53:22.599 --> 00:53:28.079 white light across your eyes and it kind of puts you not a hypnosis kind 643 00:53:28.119 --> 00:53:31.400 of a state, but it kind of puts you in this in between and 644 00:53:32.000 --> 00:53:36.360 I would compare it to astral traveling. I'm not sure if you're familiar with 645 00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:38.199 that. Yeah, it kind of sounds like what they do with this with 646 00:53:38.360 --> 00:53:43.199 the processed Church and scientology a little bit too. Like, I know your 647 00:53:43.239 --> 00:53:46.679 recovery. But I'm just it's the same techniques but used in an awful way 648 00:53:47.320 --> 00:53:50.519 out of the same ways that you could actually help people with through. So 649 00:53:50.639 --> 00:53:53.719 it's just depending on how the method that they use it with it right right, 650 00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:58.320 right? Well, yeah, with me, they took brain scans. 651 00:53:58.400 --> 00:54:00.880 They took actually brain scans on me, and they showed me and this. 652 00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:04.679 And my dad was at this point he had had prisen up to be a 653 00:54:04.760 --> 00:54:09.119 director of a medical of a hospital, one of the main segments of the 654 00:54:09.159 --> 00:54:14.760 hospital. He became a director there and like clerical, right, he was 655 00:54:14.760 --> 00:54:17.440 still in the clergy articles. Yeah, yeah, he was ordained clergy and 656 00:54:17.559 --> 00:54:22.159 the chaplain of the church of the hospital or something like that. No, 657 00:54:22.880 --> 00:54:25.760 he ran well, he was chaplain and he but he also ran the uh 658 00:54:27.199 --> 00:54:30.639 he oversaw operations for the operating room in the emergency room. So he directed 659 00:54:30.800 --> 00:54:35.840 like all he was. He made sure that all the doctors got everything that 660 00:54:35.920 --> 00:54:40.239 they needed to perform their surgeries successfully. That's cool. And yeah, and 661 00:54:40.400 --> 00:54:47.000 my mom she worked actually for the federal government. She worked stories there, 662 00:54:49.000 --> 00:54:52.559 ye, yes, that I cannot talk about, but she did have she 663 00:54:52.679 --> 00:55:00.440 did have top secret Q clearance with the government and she retired with them. 664 00:55:01.679 --> 00:55:07.280 I want to say, maybe four or five years ago. Can I ask 665 00:55:07.320 --> 00:55:08.599 you this? You know, you know you said your mom and your dad 666 00:55:08.639 --> 00:55:15.079 are separate from this stuff, but given that background of your mother and still 667 00:55:15.159 --> 00:55:20.599 having the you know, the clerical or clergy side of your dad, was 668 00:55:20.679 --> 00:55:25.199 it completely separate? I mean, did you ever get pulled into mk type 669 00:55:25.239 --> 00:55:30.079 of experiments with the governor? Yes? No, yes, no, absolutely, 670 00:55:30.119 --> 00:55:34.199 And I would like to go into that if that's I mean, if 671 00:55:34.239 --> 00:55:37.360 you're comfortable if the I derailed you from something else. You were saying, 672 00:55:37.440 --> 00:55:39.280 this is just my how I like you were apologize, and my brain works 673 00:55:39.320 --> 00:55:42.960 the same way. Like I know, I have a finite amount of time 674 00:55:43.000 --> 00:55:45.400 before I forget what I'm going to ask, so I just have to do 675 00:55:45.480 --> 00:55:47.079 it when I can. So yeah, no, sure, no, I 676 00:55:47.119 --> 00:55:50.599 can. Definitely. I'm willing to go any direction that you want to go 677 00:55:50.679 --> 00:55:54.280 with this. So oh and if we're getting too close to where it makes 678 00:55:54.320 --> 00:55:58.880 me feel or I feel comfortable, then I'll tell you. So you were 679 00:55:58.920 --> 00:56:00.599 talking about the light and the and the recovery, so let's let's finish that 680 00:56:00.679 --> 00:56:05.159 off, and then we can't talk about anything that happened over the the yeah, 681 00:56:05.239 --> 00:56:07.639 yeah, yeah, so like with my so anyways, yeah, so 682 00:56:07.719 --> 00:56:10.360 with the recovery, I was going through em DR and it's this hypnosis type 683 00:56:10.400 --> 00:56:14.280 thing and and it kind of is like I could compare it to astional traveling. 684 00:56:14.400 --> 00:56:17.760 So if any of your listeners, if they're like, if they're familiar 685 00:56:17.800 --> 00:56:22.840 with astral traveling, that's what I mean. Mm hmm, Well let me 686 00:56:22.880 --> 00:56:25.639 make sure I closed this other thing. I've got you on this other thing 687 00:56:25.719 --> 00:56:30.840 live. I don't want to be like a feedback or something. So anyways, 688 00:56:30.079 --> 00:56:36.400 uh, so I would sit, they would do these sessions with me 689 00:56:36.519 --> 00:56:38.440 where they showed me by brain scans, and what they showed was is that 690 00:56:38.559 --> 00:56:43.840 my pre fineral cortex was off. So my critical thinking center of my brain, 691 00:56:43.920 --> 00:56:47.800 my prefneral cortex, it was completely shut off. And the on the 692 00:56:47.880 --> 00:56:52.800 sane right, it wouldn't light up. Certain yeah, it wouldn't light up. 693 00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:54.880 But my amigdalave, which is the trauma center of my brain, was 694 00:56:55.079 --> 00:57:00.199 red hot. And so yeah, and so they so they told me that 695 00:57:00.840 --> 00:57:04.800 they're like, well, this is what's going on. They said that he's 696 00:57:05.039 --> 00:57:12.480 only he only has neuropathways connected to his trauma center of his brain. Yeah, 697 00:57:12.559 --> 00:57:15.119 like reptilian brain, like the yeah, exactly, reptilian brain exactly. 698 00:57:15.199 --> 00:57:19.199 And that's what they said, like this guy is operating off his RETI who 699 00:57:19.239 --> 00:57:23.519 was reptilian brain, you know. And they actually said that because during that 700 00:57:23.599 --> 00:57:25.480 time, dude, I mean I was one of those. I mean, 701 00:57:25.760 --> 00:57:30.519 by the time two thousand and five came around, I was a leader of 702 00:57:30.559 --> 00:57:34.920 a small gang. Okay, I had my own you know, operation going. 703 00:57:35.159 --> 00:57:39.239 I was. I was on the way to becoming my grandfather. Yeah, 704 00:57:39.679 --> 00:57:45.920 okay, I was on the way there. And so I had this 705 00:57:45.079 --> 00:57:51.760 persona, this identity that I was already being built up. But I don't 706 00:57:51.760 --> 00:57:53.880 see a lot of tats on you. What's up. Yeah, that's purposeful, 707 00:57:54.119 --> 00:57:58.360 that's purposeful. Good. Yeah. Those those are the those are the 708 00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:01.760 street those are the street warriors of the Spiders. Yeah, you're you're above 709 00:58:01.840 --> 00:58:07.280 that. You send those guys out. Yes, yeah. So when I 710 00:58:07.440 --> 00:58:08.840 was when I got to be, and that's on purpose, you know. 711 00:58:09.000 --> 00:58:14.119 And when I was younger, I'd ask for tattoos and you know, ask 712 00:58:14.199 --> 00:58:16.119 for blessings, and it was always no, like and I asked my Gappa 713 00:58:16.199 --> 00:58:20.039 one time, like why why don't you guys do that? Like should it? 714 00:58:20.360 --> 00:58:23.840 And he says that you know, the strongest societies are kept secret, 715 00:58:24.519 --> 00:58:27.159 right, so you got to look the part. You got to be able 716 00:58:27.159 --> 00:58:30.519 to blend in. You can't do that. Yeah, yeah, you cannot 717 00:58:30.679 --> 00:58:34.920 write. That's why it's called the occult, right, because you have to 718 00:58:35.360 --> 00:58:40.760 you have to stay hidden, you know. So anyways, but through that 719 00:58:40.840 --> 00:58:45.280 recovery, I was like it was like being able to astro travel and I 720 00:58:45.280 --> 00:58:47.840 would go back in time. It was like I was riding on a train 721 00:58:49.079 --> 00:58:52.000 and these images would start going buy me on my left and my right because 722 00:58:52.519 --> 00:59:00.719 when the lights were shining in a certain when the lights are shot in a 723 00:59:00.800 --> 00:59:04.920 certain direction, it would look like I'd have you know, stuff going beside 724 00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:07.320 me, right, And I would land on these different times in my life 725 00:59:07.360 --> 00:59:12.760 when these events were happening, and I was able to like feel like I 726 00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:16.440 was in that space and that moment, you know. I was talking to 727 00:59:16.559 --> 00:59:22.360 the Cult Rejects guide Nick and he said, through meditation and ritual, something 728 00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:28.639 very similar happens where there's a light in the center and you see these basically 729 00:59:28.760 --> 00:59:32.760 like like freeze frames of your of maybe things you don't recognize when he was 730 00:59:32.800 --> 00:59:37.079 doing it, but if you recognize it as part of your life. He 731 00:59:37.880 --> 00:59:39.239 had the sense and feeling that he could just step into one of them and 732 00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:44.800 be there in that timeframe. Yeah, I had that same I had that 733 00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:47.400 same experience. Yeah, yeah, and so but it was but so that 734 00:59:47.800 --> 00:59:51.360 was when I first did that first couple of times, it was it was 735 00:59:51.440 --> 00:59:57.519 overwhelming, It was, it was extremely overwhelming. My entire paradigm exploded. 736 00:59:59.800 --> 01:00:02.960 And the first time, probably right, first time self reflection, I would 737 01:00:04.000 --> 01:00:07.119 imagine, like the first time for self reflection, like to see you know, 738 01:00:07.320 --> 01:00:10.360 yeah, like a conscience starting to building. Yeah, I know, 739 01:00:10.480 --> 01:00:14.239 exactly. No, yeah, because before that, I can honestly say that 740 01:00:14.320 --> 01:00:16.119 I could, you know, I could put a gun, you know, 741 01:00:16.159 --> 01:00:20.840 I could put a gun up to somebody and not care, you know. 742 01:00:21.440 --> 01:00:24.079 And that's and that's not I can't ask that question. But I would imagine 743 01:00:24.119 --> 01:00:28.159 there's there's some stories behind that too. Well, you know, I've never 744 01:00:28.320 --> 01:00:30.719 killed anybody, you know, I never, you know, I never, 745 01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:37.119 I never did anything like that, Never made you have to sacrifice anything that 746 01:00:37.239 --> 01:00:42.440 wasn't an animal. No, okay, no, yeah, that's the official 747 01:00:42.440 --> 01:00:45.880 answer at least, right I'm dismissing. Yeah, that's the mainstream narrative. 748 01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:51.199 No, yeah, no, no, I was never forced to do anything 749 01:00:51.280 --> 01:00:52.559 like that. You know, I have seen a lot of death though, 750 01:00:53.039 --> 01:00:57.559 you know that the death, you know, the death that I did see 751 01:00:57.920 --> 01:01:06.639 was families against families, you know, because like in the uh in that 752 01:01:07.239 --> 01:01:12.239 same household, same household, you know, same household, and also just 753 01:01:12.360 --> 01:01:15.599 you know, families of the region. You know, like I would say 754 01:01:15.679 --> 01:01:21.559 probably from the time I was I want to say eleven, because I actually 755 01:01:21.599 --> 01:01:23.760 went through two initiations. I went through initiation when I was six. I 756 01:01:23.800 --> 01:01:28.679 went through initiation when I was twelve, going into my teenagers, and I 757 01:01:28.679 --> 01:01:32.960 would say like around twelve is when things started getting really weird, and there 758 01:01:34.119 --> 01:01:38.760 was some fights that were happening between the Natives and the Spaniards regarding land and 759 01:01:39.079 --> 01:01:45.320 other things and and control what I what I believe is control of like drugs 760 01:01:45.360 --> 01:01:50.800 that were being sold in that area and distributed in that area. So essentially 761 01:01:50.880 --> 01:01:53.639 there was like a drug war that broke out. There was a there was 762 01:01:53.679 --> 01:01:59.599 a family of Italians that moved in from the east that came to our area 763 01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:02.400 and they started a fight with the family and they just wiped each other out. 764 01:02:02.400 --> 01:02:09.360 I mean, they killed each other. Yeah, So that lasted what 765 01:02:09.480 --> 01:02:13.599 an accomplishment, right, and I was like, I'm Italian, and it's 766 01:02:13.679 --> 01:02:15.519 just like what did it for? What? You know, Like I'm what 767 01:02:15.679 --> 01:02:20.440 I mean, they literally wiped they wiped each other out, and you know, 768 01:02:20.519 --> 01:02:22.840 and that's why when I had that drug overdose, because I was on 769 01:02:22.920 --> 01:02:25.159 my way there, you know the reason why I did what I did and 770 01:02:25.360 --> 01:02:29.159 left, because I literally just up and left. I'll never forget the day. 771 01:02:29.199 --> 01:02:34.519 It was September seventeen, two thousand and five. I had this drug 772 01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:40.880 overdose and I had this like awakening, you know, I just I realized, 773 01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:45.280 like you said that self inflection of like I realized like who I was. 774 01:02:45.239 --> 01:02:51.440 And in that moment when I had that experience, I had two encounters. 775 01:02:51.679 --> 01:02:53.000 And it gets a little weird. So I hope that you know, 776 01:02:53.079 --> 01:02:55.679 I'm just telling you what I what I experienced. Now, that's fine, 777 01:02:57.079 --> 01:02:59.840 We're open minded here, It's okay, cool, right on. I know, 778 01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:00.920 it's just, you know, it's a little nervous saying this is actually 779 01:03:00.920 --> 01:03:07.639 the first time I've been in this position. But so in this moment when 780 01:03:07.639 --> 01:03:13.880 I'm overdosing, I'm actually conscious in this moment, and I'm conscious as this 781 01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:16.960 is happening, and I realize that I've taken too much and I can feel 782 01:03:17.039 --> 01:03:23.320 my body, my body starts to shut down. What's that? Yeah, 783 01:03:23.360 --> 01:03:27.440 what drug was it? Well? I was doing all kinds of drugs. 784 01:03:27.480 --> 01:03:31.239 I was doing acid, shrooms, you know, cocaine, you know, 785 01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:36.880 other injectives, you know, dopamine, you know, you name it. 786 01:03:37.000 --> 01:03:39.480 I mean it was all we would just we would go to the nines because 787 01:03:42.519 --> 01:03:46.480 like I was in this thinking of like, if I can get the faster, 788 01:03:46.639 --> 01:03:51.199 I can get to the darkness, I'll find the light. So when 789 01:03:51.239 --> 01:03:54.280 I reject when I rejected God and I rejected faith, when I was younger, 790 01:03:58.880 --> 01:04:00.920 I was told that I was going to be consumed with darkness. I 791 01:04:01.079 --> 01:04:10.159 was told that I was darkness. And I was told that the message I 792 01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:16.960 was given is that I shouldn't exist, that I was a shadow. And 793 01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:24.000 so I didn't like that. I didn't like that narrative in my own life. 794 01:04:24.719 --> 01:04:29.920 So, and how they were telling you this stuff, yeah, right, 795 01:04:30.920 --> 01:04:33.519 and so but after a certain age of being told this over and over 796 01:04:33.639 --> 01:04:38.400 again, you start to believe, well, maybe I am darkness. And 797 01:04:38.480 --> 01:04:42.800 repetition is hypnosis for sure, right, And so by the time I'm six, 798 01:04:42.920 --> 01:04:45.239 I'm very violent in school, I had no empathy. You know, 799 01:04:45.360 --> 01:04:49.159 kids would come up, you know, boys would come up and make fun 800 01:04:49.199 --> 01:04:54.960 of me because I was always a little awkward and weird, and they little 801 01:04:55.000 --> 01:04:59.599 did they know that I was literally trying to like keep myself together because I 802 01:04:59.679 --> 01:05:02.480 had just been violently raped the night before. That did happen to you? 803 01:05:02.559 --> 01:05:05.440 Then? Okay, I didn't ask you about that. I didn't want to. 804 01:05:05.599 --> 01:05:10.039 But yeah, no, I mean, you know it's it's I know, 805 01:05:10.199 --> 01:05:15.360 it's a multiple people. It was it like an ritual type of atmosphere 806 01:05:15.400 --> 01:05:18.239 too, Yeah, it was. It was always it was always ritualistic. 807 01:05:18.880 --> 01:05:23.519 So that sounds like more than one person then usually too, No, it 808 01:05:23.679 --> 01:05:30.440 was it was multiple. You know, there were times where here's what I 809 01:05:30.519 --> 01:05:33.960 don't get to. So many different cultures and different continents. Do you all 810 01:05:34.039 --> 01:05:40.039 have the same methods for breaking somebody? You know what I mean? Like, 811 01:05:40.199 --> 01:05:44.199 there's there's something there's something about the evil that stirs around in here in 812 01:05:44.320 --> 01:05:49.480 this world that this this force, this presence that you know, informs everyone 813 01:05:49.559 --> 01:05:55.239 equally about how to get there and how to do these things. Yeah, 814 01:05:55.559 --> 01:05:59.760 no, it is like it is like a to me. To me, 815 01:06:00.079 --> 01:06:05.920 it felt like a demonic hive mind you know, or or or a different 816 01:06:06.039 --> 01:06:11.280 type of unified thinking because it works as a network, you know what I 817 01:06:11.360 --> 01:06:15.719 mean, It's a network, So you know, for me it was and 818 01:06:15.880 --> 01:06:18.199 you know, again saying my mom and dad, you know they're probably gonna 819 01:06:18.239 --> 01:06:21.639 hear this. I've reconciled with my parents. There was a point where I 820 01:06:23.039 --> 01:06:26.800 wasn't really connected with them, and I've reconciled my relationship with both my parents 821 01:06:27.559 --> 01:06:30.199 and then they've always been a place of strength and I just want to tell 822 01:06:30.199 --> 01:06:35.559 me I love them if they do watch this. But but yeah, and 823 01:06:36.000 --> 01:06:39.239 you know what, my parents just to say this real quick to because I 824 01:06:39.280 --> 01:06:43.760 need to say this disclaimer. You know, I was groomed from a young 825 01:06:43.840 --> 01:06:45.559 age to be in the occult my parents. It was kept secret from my 826 01:06:45.639 --> 01:06:50.960 parents. They didn't know when I first got initiated. When I was six, 827 01:06:51.119 --> 01:06:56.519 my parents were gone and I was initiated by blood oath. I still 828 01:06:56.559 --> 01:06:58.199 have the scar in my hand. I don't know if you can see it, 829 01:06:58.440 --> 01:07:04.239 but I was initiated by blood oath after I was after I was repeatedly 830 01:07:04.360 --> 01:07:13.400 raped. Okay, to to not to not say anything to me, that's 831 01:07:14.119 --> 01:07:16.880 mental break because it's like, why do I would why would I trust anybody 832 01:07:17.440 --> 01:07:19.400 and why would I take it a book to the same people that were just 833 01:07:19.559 --> 01:07:24.360 destroying my my entire life just now, you know, I mean, yeah, 834 01:07:24.880 --> 01:07:29.719 yeah, yeah, no, exactly exactly. Yeah, sorry, go 835 01:07:29.719 --> 01:07:31.800 ahead. I just said it's chaos. Chaos. It is. No, 836 01:07:31.960 --> 01:07:34.000 it is, and I want to I want to come back to that. 837 01:07:38.000 --> 01:07:43.960 But but yeah, so so yeah, so where I was going with that 838 01:07:44.239 --> 01:07:47.039 is so at that point, at age six, you know, when I 839 01:07:47.159 --> 01:07:53.360 made the decision, when I had this initiation, I felt like I felt 840 01:07:53.360 --> 01:07:59.400 like a dark awakening right when I was officially like initiated in couldn't have a 841 01:07:59.480 --> 01:08:01.599 presence come along with you afterwards? You know? Yeah, well I was. 842 01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:08.280 I was assigned to spirit guide mm hmm. And the spirit guide I 843 01:08:08.559 --> 01:08:10.719 I you know, and I'm going to sound crazy here, but if you're 844 01:08:10.760 --> 01:08:14.000 open mind that, I'm just going to tell it. You know, the 845 01:08:14.119 --> 01:08:18.760 spirit guide had a name, and it was linked to me through my life, 846 01:08:18.840 --> 01:08:25.600 and I was told that this spirit guide would help me along, that 847 01:08:25.640 --> 01:08:30.920 would guide me along the way through the fire. Huh. That's the fire 848 01:08:30.000 --> 01:08:34.920 coming up again too, right, same and same symbols, right. So 849 01:08:35.439 --> 01:08:38.800 it was like a rite of passage in a way, you know what I 850 01:08:38.880 --> 01:08:42.960 mean. It was it was like a weird thing and they're proud of you, 851 01:08:43.119 --> 01:08:45.479 but they just destroyed you, right like that type of it's backward. 852 01:08:45.880 --> 01:08:49.159 It creates a duality. Well, it's inversion, right, it's inversions, 853 01:08:49.279 --> 01:08:54.840 you know, Luciferianism. It's inversion of the truth. So it's the absence 854 01:08:54.920 --> 01:08:58.840 of and the the and you know it's as above so below or the reversal 855 01:08:58.880 --> 01:09:04.840 of that. And they're their whole claim is they are the darkness. So 856 01:09:05.000 --> 01:09:13.000 they're going to they're they're they have a purpose because it's it's about, okay, 857 01:09:13.119 --> 01:09:16.199 all things are created, you know, according to ancient texts, all 858 01:09:16.239 --> 01:09:19.800 things are created by the Almighty, for the Almighty, through the Almighty, 859 01:09:19.960 --> 01:09:28.720 you know, accorded to that world system. And so they feel like they 860 01:09:29.000 --> 01:09:31.560 even that includes the darkness, that includes the evil, and they are the 861 01:09:31.680 --> 01:09:38.920 necessary evil that has to be because in their efforts and what they're doing, 862 01:09:39.079 --> 01:09:45.399 they feel justified. That's because they're connected to the they're connected to the greater 863 01:09:45.640 --> 01:09:48.680 they're connected to the Greater network, if that makes sense. Or I mean 864 01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:54.279 when it's reinforced by actual supernatural things occurring when they do these rituals it's hard 865 01:09:54.359 --> 01:09:59.000 not for them not to believe it, that they're accurate, that they know. 866 01:09:59.319 --> 01:10:01.760 Yeah, well they have tap they have really tapped into and you know, 867 01:10:02.439 --> 01:10:05.479 and this is why, you know, this is why they call it, 868 01:10:05.800 --> 01:10:13.000 you know, a call or hidden also because there are those like really 869 01:10:13.119 --> 01:10:19.399 kind of ancient AI rituals, right yeah, an yeah, ancient AI memes, 870 01:10:19.640 --> 01:10:25.439 you know, these texts that these symbols, the symbolism, the letters, 871 01:10:25.800 --> 01:10:33.880 you know, the ability to manifest in communication, right, you know. 872 01:10:34.000 --> 01:10:38.840 That makes sense too, because sigils have an actual energy that affects your 873 01:10:39.760 --> 01:10:44.399 your subconscious like images, certain things like you don't know it. The reason 874 01:10:44.439 --> 01:10:46.800 why they use these things in like corporate logos is because it has an effect 875 01:10:46.880 --> 01:10:51.880 on your brain. It's so it is in a sense like a computer system 876 01:10:51.880 --> 01:10:55.600 would work too, or like the AI would work as well in a way 877 01:10:55.680 --> 01:11:00.279 that affects you. It's just a different way of looking at it because we 878 01:11:00.399 --> 01:11:02.960 first have to realize that this realm could very well be a simulation. And 879 01:11:03.039 --> 01:11:06.640 when that's true, any little thing could be digitized, any little thing can 880 01:11:06.680 --> 01:11:11.680 be part of AI. You know, you don't even know it right exactly, 881 01:11:11.720 --> 01:11:15.119 And that's why they call it, you know, because what I'm learning 882 01:11:15.159 --> 01:11:19.600 too is I'm having to I'm finding myself being careful with the letters I use, 883 01:11:19.720 --> 01:11:25.279 because that's why they call it spelling, because we spell, we broadcasts 884 01:11:25.399 --> 01:11:30.359 or we're casting spells and manifesting things and so. And this is huge in 885 01:11:30.359 --> 01:11:33.600 the occult because they believe that they already believe. Now it doesn't matter, 886 01:11:34.079 --> 01:11:38.399 It doesn't matter what Christians believe, or Buddhists or you know, any of 887 01:11:38.399 --> 01:11:45.479 the religion but believes. Okay, the the fact of the matter is is 888 01:11:45.560 --> 01:11:54.920 that manifestation is done through spelling. Period. You have to you have to 889 01:11:55.680 --> 01:12:00.119 put a spell out in order to manipulate the reality around you and mix the 890 01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:08.039 mix the uh, what's the word I'm looking for here, mix the energy 891 01:12:08.199 --> 01:12:13.199 of your emotions together to manifest what you want in life. And that is 892 01:12:13.399 --> 01:12:16.479 kind of to me, has been the hack for my simulation because the life 893 01:12:16.520 --> 01:12:18.920 that I live, you know, when I even when I tell the story 894 01:12:19.000 --> 01:12:23.119 and I've told you know the story to you know, my innermost circle that 895 01:12:23.239 --> 01:12:33.079 know about what I'm telling you right now, They they see me for who 896 01:12:33.119 --> 01:12:41.119 I am and they allow me a space to be safe. And I lost 897 01:12:41.159 --> 01:12:45.399 my train. I thought there for a second, Sorry, No, it's 898 01:12:45.439 --> 01:12:48.680 okay. I was gonna ask if if we have a moment to do so, 899 01:12:49.479 --> 01:12:53.439 are there any so you know, being that you were initiated, being 900 01:12:53.479 --> 01:12:56.279 that you were in it for as long as you were, and that you 901 01:12:56.359 --> 01:13:01.359 were basically chosen for an upper rechelant, not not us street thug. Are 902 01:13:01.399 --> 01:13:05.239 there any rituals that you led yourself, like you know, or that you 903 01:13:05.239 --> 01:13:10.600 would do on your own, independently when you wanted something like? How much 904 01:13:10.640 --> 01:13:16.239 of this magic did you get into? And also did you witness supernatural things 905 01:13:16.279 --> 01:13:23.399 that couldn't be explained by whatever hallucination or whatever it was? Yeah, something 906 01:13:23.439 --> 01:13:27.520 that you saw in it was there or felt in was there a presence? 907 01:13:27.640 --> 01:13:31.479 Yeah? Yeah, no, good question. You know, I talking on 908 01:13:31.600 --> 01:13:38.119 the last part first about witnessing those high strange things and tying in the magic 909 01:13:38.600 --> 01:13:48.239 that is manifestation. Yes, I have seen people go through shape shape shifting 910 01:13:49.239 --> 01:13:55.520 type of things. I've seen. One time I saw these three young witches 911 01:13:55.640 --> 01:14:01.479 they were probably in their early teenage years, twelve or thirteen, three teenage, 912 01:14:01.520 --> 01:14:06.520 which is dancing around a purple flame, a purple flame that was floating, 913 01:14:08.479 --> 01:14:12.279 and the greater group was around them, and these girls turned into coyotes, 914 01:14:14.920 --> 01:14:17.279 and it was it was the most bizarre thing I'd ever seen. My 915 01:14:17.399 --> 01:14:20.479 friend, my brother and my friends were we were all kind of we were 916 01:14:20.520 --> 01:14:25.159 there, we were supposed to be there. There's something that we were supposed 917 01:14:25.159 --> 01:14:28.960 to be there. We're actually we were walking through the dry river as they 918 01:14:29.000 --> 01:14:33.760 call mo Royals, and we stumbled upon this ritual that was going on anyway. 919 01:14:34.079 --> 01:14:43.000 But and I've also seen well I've seen other chimerical type creatures. But 920 01:14:43.239 --> 01:14:47.439 the thing that I want to focus on is I want to focus on my 921 01:14:47.600 --> 01:14:56.800 ability. So I have ability for like being a healer. Now I've acknowledged 922 01:14:56.840 --> 01:15:01.199 that right now in my current state is that I'm an emotional healer. So 923 01:15:02.560 --> 01:15:08.000 because of the tools and the skills I've been able to acquire and heal myself 924 01:15:08.279 --> 01:15:13.079 and detached from the trauma, I'm able to then pass those tools and help 925 01:15:13.119 --> 01:15:18.239 other people. However, in the past, I was growed to be a 926 01:15:18.359 --> 01:15:25.600 magician. So in the Order and I saw you mentioning. I can't remember 927 01:15:25.680 --> 01:15:28.439 where I think, I think is this last podcast I've had a chance to 928 01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:30.319 listen to it. Maybe I just read the title, but it was mentioning 929 01:15:30.399 --> 01:15:34.600 like the Order of chaos oh or oko? Yeah, that was a yeah, 930 01:15:34.720 --> 01:15:36.960 order of Ko. Yeah yeah, yeah, so the order of Ko. 931 01:15:38.439 --> 01:15:41.600 Well, when I was young, So just a quick side, just 932 01:15:41.640 --> 01:15:44.079 a quick side story. So and are we good on time? We're good? 933 01:15:44.319 --> 01:15:50.600 Oh yeah, we're good. Okay. So so yeah, so when 934 01:15:50.600 --> 01:15:54.680 I was young, around twelve, my second initiation. Okay, So going 935 01:15:54.720 --> 01:15:59.359 into my second initiation, because there's different initiations at different ages, and it 936 01:15:59.479 --> 01:16:03.520 usually happened every six years, okay, And so in the second one, 937 01:16:06.359 --> 01:16:14.560 I was supposed to rob this store. I was only twelve and was supposed 938 01:16:14.600 --> 01:16:19.600 to rob a store, take a certain amount of items and then you know, 939 01:16:19.720 --> 01:16:24.199 show that I had done that deed, and then that initiates me into 940 01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:30.359 a higher position or whatever. It's just done, all right. But that 941 01:16:30.479 --> 01:16:35.760 initiation was for a special group called chaos, the Chaos Crew, and it 942 01:16:35.920 --> 01:16:40.600 was a it was a group of individuals that would literally just cause chaos. 943 01:16:42.520 --> 01:16:45.159 And looking back, the reason why I know that I was meant for such 944 01:16:45.199 --> 01:16:48.359 a thing like that is because of of the no empathy thing. I had 945 01:16:48.439 --> 01:16:58.560 no empathy, you know, right, So anyways, but so yeah, 946 01:17:00.840 --> 01:17:03.279 but yeah, then you know when that happened, I got arrested and get 947 01:17:03.359 --> 01:17:08.520 arrested when you went when you went to run the store. Yeah, at 948 01:17:08.560 --> 01:17:12.760 twelve years old. So I got arrested. Yeah, I got arrested at 949 01:17:12.760 --> 01:17:15.840 twelve years old, and like legit, you know, the cops handcuffed me 950 01:17:16.039 --> 01:17:21.439 and it was a very very embarrassing experience, really communicate, humiliating, and 951 01:17:23.119 --> 01:17:28.880 I was walked in procession around the store the police officer. So when my 952 01:17:28.960 --> 01:17:33.600 dad showed up, When my dad showed up, he uh, you know, 953 01:17:33.680 --> 01:17:35.680 he told I mean and rightly. So I learned my lesson from it. 954 01:17:35.720 --> 01:17:39.520 But you know, he told the police officer to walk around the store 955 01:17:39.560 --> 01:17:45.319 embarrass me, blah blah blah. And then I get arrested when i'm I'm 956 01:17:45.560 --> 01:17:49.119 I got a house arrest and then I was not supposed to go more than 957 01:17:49.119 --> 01:17:54.439 a mile from my house. Well, the very next day I go out 958 01:17:54.880 --> 01:17:59.880 because my elder sibling, I guess what they would call it, like he 959 01:18:00.119 --> 01:18:01.000 was a part of he was a part of the occult group. He was 960 01:18:01.039 --> 01:18:09.319 from another family. He invited me out to go ride motorcycles and I crashed 961 01:18:09.399 --> 01:18:12.760 really bad. I broke my back in a couple of places. I had 962 01:18:12.760 --> 01:18:15.560 a fracture on my neck. I punctured my lung. Geez, I broke 963 01:18:15.640 --> 01:18:21.960 my pelvis, like, I smashed myself really good and in that during that 964 01:18:23.079 --> 01:18:28.319 timeframe, I mean, it was a really harsh recovery. I almost didn't 965 01:18:28.359 --> 01:18:30.039 survive it. I had an out of body experience, and that's another story 966 01:18:30.079 --> 01:18:33.000 for a different day. But I had an out of body experience and kind 967 01:18:33.039 --> 01:18:39.359 of a preface to what was to come later. And during my recovery, 968 01:18:39.720 --> 01:18:44.520 the message I was told is that was my body having to be broken to 969 01:18:45.239 --> 01:18:50.279 bring me into the new dawn, you know, of my life. So 970 01:18:50.640 --> 01:18:55.119 I mean that was a positive message though, right, because it was the 971 01:18:55.199 --> 01:18:59.960 beginning of the change, right. Yeah. So anyways, but yeah, 972 01:19:00.039 --> 01:19:05.359 uh, you know, I see a comment of somebody talking about the number 973 01:19:05.399 --> 01:19:10.520 six one six. There's actually truth to that as far as those that numerology. 974 01:19:11.039 --> 01:19:14.720 I'm sorry, I just I got distracted by the comment. Yeah. 975 01:19:15.279 --> 01:19:19.079 Yeah, so I know I know about I know about the whole six one 976 01:19:19.159 --> 01:19:23.880 six number. I know about the whole six one six number. But that's 977 01:19:23.960 --> 01:19:27.199 like a whole other discussion, you know. I mean, so what else, 978 01:19:27.399 --> 01:19:28.560 I mean, what else do you want to know? Like, what 979 01:19:28.640 --> 01:19:31.119 else would you like to talk about? Well, let's see I mean we 980 01:19:31.760 --> 01:19:34.479 let me I have some notes here and I'm actually going to go back this 981 01:19:34.640 --> 01:19:40.439 too real quick. So you did some in things with the rituals. We 982 01:19:40.520 --> 01:19:46.079 talked about that seeing things shape shift into features. That was that was that's 983 01:19:46.159 --> 01:19:49.079 a pretty interesting thing because that goes right into the skin walker thing, right, 984 01:19:49.159 --> 01:19:54.720 I mean, that's that's a that's pretty that's pretty deep. And when 985 01:19:54.760 --> 01:19:59.880 you were doing your rituals, I'm trying to see if there's any other commonalities 986 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:03.319 between this and what I learned from Babylonian magic. You know, the circle 987 01:20:03.359 --> 01:20:06.319 would be you know, cornstarch or some kind of flour or something like that. 988 01:20:06.800 --> 01:20:12.319 When they did theirs, there would obviously be candles of fire or whatever, 989 01:20:12.439 --> 01:20:15.000 but there's also usually a wax figurine that's involved. And then there's the 990 01:20:15.039 --> 01:20:20.199 different color strings that you would tie blue meaning signifying something with like I think 991 01:20:20.279 --> 01:20:24.920 health or something like that, and then different types of strings for trying to 992 01:20:25.000 --> 01:20:30.159 cause. There's not a whole lot of that of that I learned about how 993 01:20:30.239 --> 01:20:33.800 to just you know, help and heal. But I guess you could use 994 01:20:33.840 --> 01:20:36.920 something in like the reverse method of what they were saying. But it's usually 995 01:20:36.960 --> 01:20:43.199 about imposing your will in some way something from it, whether it's and and 996 01:20:43.319 --> 01:20:45.760 I've also heard that, you know, when it comes to people's like feelings 997 01:20:45.800 --> 01:20:51.720 and emotions, that messing with that can get really dangerous and screwed up at 998 01:20:51.800 --> 01:20:56.760 times. There was another one other thing though that I wanted to add. 999 01:20:56.800 --> 01:20:59.840 So, so those things were elements that you use, you used that would 1000 01:20:59.920 --> 01:21:02.199 use is like a figure reading of some sort when you're using these doing these 1001 01:21:02.239 --> 01:21:09.640 things well mine, Yeah, I don't know, this is gonna sound really 1002 01:21:09.640 --> 01:21:16.079 strange, but you actually this is the first time he's saying this. So 1003 01:21:16.199 --> 01:21:27.720 it's for me to talk about when you're when you get to a certain point, 1004 01:21:27.840 --> 01:21:30.439 you know, you you you can choose a skill. You know, 1005 01:21:30.600 --> 01:21:33.560 certain people get you know, some people get a skill of or you or 1006 01:21:33.600 --> 01:21:40.319 you discover your skills. Some people get the skill of mediumship. Some people 1007 01:21:40.479 --> 01:21:45.359 get the skill of being a shaman, you know, healer. Some people 1008 01:21:45.520 --> 01:21:51.439 get uh, you know, there's different different aspects of that. But I'm 1009 01:21:51.439 --> 01:21:54.920 sorry, I don't mean to put off like Sean like to be able to 1010 01:21:54.960 --> 01:21:58.880 be a healer sounds like a reward, you know, And it's like when 1011 01:21:58.880 --> 01:22:01.159 you're doing something so nega to get there, who's giving you that power, 1012 01:22:02.399 --> 01:22:06.960 right? What purpose? You know that that's always I've been a question and 1013 01:22:08.359 --> 01:22:11.079 that's one thing that I really you know, that's one thing. And here's 1014 01:22:11.159 --> 01:22:15.319 where my here's what my cognitive distance, here's why my cognitive dissonance kind of 1015 01:22:15.359 --> 01:22:27.279 still catches me. Okay m hm. Because when I was experiencing all those 1016 01:22:27.359 --> 01:22:33.079 things, I found there was there was a sense of pleasure in it. 1017 01:22:34.720 --> 01:22:40.840 Because when because when all of your because when all of your identity is stripped 1018 01:22:40.880 --> 01:22:46.840 away and all of the good in you is literally ripped away from you boundless, 1019 01:22:47.760 --> 01:22:56.399 like like it was for me right getting raped violently. Yeah, then 1020 01:22:56.600 --> 01:23:01.880 like you're in so much pain that you know less painful things are going to 1021 01:23:02.000 --> 01:23:05.840 be make you feel better because at least it's not hurting as bad as you're 1022 01:23:05.920 --> 01:23:10.880 hurt. So the point is to break you beyond recognition, like you can't 1023 01:23:11.279 --> 01:23:16.000 so you can't think, function or exist. It's awful, man, I'm 1024 01:23:16.000 --> 01:23:21.399 sorry, so but so yeah, for me though, the ritual that I 1025 01:23:21.520 --> 01:23:27.880 did was I picked up a skateboard. You know, in my life, 1026 01:23:28.039 --> 01:23:34.720 I manifested a skateboard because you know, I've seen which I've seen, which 1027 01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:39.319 is levitate. You know, I've seen I've seen them. I've seen them 1028 01:23:39.399 --> 01:23:44.479 make a pentagram in the sand, you know, with their various chemicals, 1029 01:23:45.279 --> 01:23:47.359 you know, burn their you know, burn their purple flame in the middle, 1030 01:23:47.399 --> 01:23:53.760 and literally literally levitate, and they could do these magical things. And 1031 01:23:53.840 --> 01:23:58.119 I'm like, whoa, that's crazy. It's also kind of cool, you 1032 01:23:58.199 --> 01:24:00.640 know, when you're when you're a kid, and that's your airdeim and you 1033 01:24:00.199 --> 01:24:03.960 like see somebody like turn into a ball of fire. Like, I know 1034 01:24:04.079 --> 01:24:10.960 that sounds crazy, but that's insane, like things that you what things people 1035 01:24:11.199 --> 01:24:15.680 perceive, you know. Anyways, i'n't going to that. So for me, 1036 01:24:15.880 --> 01:24:20.920 I picked up I picked up a skateboard and and that became my magic 1037 01:24:21.039 --> 01:24:26.239 Wand you know you mentioned, you know, you saw, you know, 1038 01:24:26.319 --> 01:24:29.880 some of my skateboard stuff on Instagram. You know. Yeah. Uh. 1039 01:24:30.039 --> 01:24:32.680 I started skating when I was ten, and by the time I was fifteen, 1040 01:24:32.920 --> 01:24:36.239 I was a professional skateboarder. Now, just like with celebrities, you 1041 01:24:36.399 --> 01:24:41.199 have like A celebrities and B celebrities and C celebrities, you know, so 1042 01:24:41.359 --> 01:24:44.680 I was like a C celebrity, maybe even a D you know, I 1043 01:24:44.760 --> 01:24:48.239 got sponsored when I was fourteen. I skateboarded NonStop. You know, when 1044 01:24:48.279 --> 01:24:54.800 I was awake, I was skating rights cool, and that's kind of what 1045 01:24:55.039 --> 01:25:00.520 allowed me to impress my identity on my existence. So what I've known for 1046 01:25:00.680 --> 01:25:04.079 the longest is that skateboarding and I do I connected with it in such a 1047 01:25:04.159 --> 01:25:15.000 way where like it literally was my you know, it was my figuringe and 1048 01:25:15.560 --> 01:25:19.760 and so uh that's what I would use and I would like, you know, 1049 01:25:19.960 --> 01:25:23.920 damn near worship the thing, you know. So anyways, but yeah, 1050 01:25:23.960 --> 01:25:28.520 I mean in the more ritualistic stuff, when we were doing like realistic 1051 01:25:28.720 --> 01:25:31.279 magic, there were there would be you know, there would be candles, 1052 01:25:31.399 --> 01:25:35.159 there would be you know, those candles typically had a shape of you know, 1053 01:25:35.239 --> 01:25:43.399 whatever it was that you're you know, going after. So but really 1054 01:25:43.479 --> 01:25:46.279 a lot of it was like using nature. So like one of the things, 1055 01:25:46.359 --> 01:25:50.039 one of the big things was like you know, taking payoty, right, 1056 01:25:50.199 --> 01:25:57.560 taking payoty and having a connection, you know, and that was an 1057 01:25:57.600 --> 01:26:00.560 experience on its own. I don't know if I answered your question correctly, 1058 01:26:00.640 --> 01:26:10.640 but no, you did. You did, so this you don't have to 1059 01:26:10.680 --> 01:26:13.920 answer this if you do want to, because I understand that you had been 1060 01:26:13.960 --> 01:26:19.119 brutalized. But was there also an early time where they had kind of pushed 1061 01:26:19.119 --> 01:26:24.079 you together with a female and made that happen to like like a sex ritual 1062 01:26:24.279 --> 01:26:27.640 or anything like that. Did that ever occur? Yes? Actually it did. 1063 01:26:28.920 --> 01:26:33.239 It did. Yeah, interesting that Yeah, so no, that did 1064 01:26:33.359 --> 01:26:41.399 happen. That's how I officially lost my virginity, right so to speak. 1065 01:26:42.520 --> 01:26:48.359 Uh uh, it was you know, it was you know, basically a 1066 01:26:48.479 --> 01:26:55.479 gunpoint. I mean, you know while people watched. Yeah, yeah, 1067 01:26:55.800 --> 01:26:58.720 and you know, even as a kid like you know, five six seven, 1068 01:26:59.520 --> 01:27:02.239 you know, was forced to sit in a room and watch you know, 1069 01:27:02.399 --> 01:27:10.000 ritualistic sex magic happen, you know, and you know it just it 1070 01:27:10.039 --> 01:27:15.159 shouldn't you know. I was. It was horrifying. There's so many commonalities 1071 01:27:15.479 --> 01:27:18.000 that it just blows my mind. And because you're telling you, I'm basically 1072 01:27:18.079 --> 01:27:21.640 what I'm the impression that I'm getting is this is basically coming from your mom's 1073 01:27:21.680 --> 01:27:25.520 side of the of the of the table right here, not so much even 1074 01:27:25.560 --> 01:27:30.319 the Roman Catholic stuff where you could have fallen into an abusive thing right there 1075 01:27:30.399 --> 01:27:33.479 with the Friese too, just as easily, and there would have been all 1076 01:27:33.560 --> 01:27:41.319 kinds of mithray Ins and other types of influences in that. And it's yeah, 1077 01:27:41.520 --> 01:27:45.159 man. But no matter where it comes from, all the elements are 1078 01:27:45.199 --> 01:27:48.479 the same. It's it's mind blowing right. And and when when I was 1079 01:27:48.600 --> 01:27:55.520 five, when I was five, it was whispered in my ear by one 1080 01:27:55.560 --> 01:28:00.760 of the ladies that actually abused me, and I can only I recognize her 1081 01:28:00.840 --> 01:28:01.840 voice. But at this point I knew how she was because I would get 1082 01:28:01.880 --> 01:28:05.039 locked in a closet. I would get locked in a dark closet and people 1083 01:28:05.039 --> 01:28:10.680 would come and I'd be in there for hours. But anyways, she whispered 1084 01:28:10.760 --> 01:28:12.560 in my ear. She was saying, God is going to make you a 1085 01:28:12.640 --> 01:28:19.159 priest. You're born into the priest You're born into the priesthood. So she 1086 01:28:19.279 --> 01:28:21.520 says, He's gonna call you and there's gonna be things that are going to 1087 01:28:21.600 --> 01:28:28.399 happen that you're not going to understand, but just trust God. Do you 1088 01:28:28.520 --> 01:28:30.600 think that this is a path on the way there? Like, do you 1089 01:28:30.640 --> 01:28:33.479 think this is still part of their manipulation over I was being groomed? Man? 1090 01:28:34.000 --> 01:28:39.000 Yeah, you know what I mean, Like whether they knew it or 1091 01:28:39.079 --> 01:28:43.640 not as a collective, like you know, I was. I was groomed. 1092 01:28:45.239 --> 01:28:50.399 I was groomed to be a victim. And now the reason where I'm 1093 01:28:50.399 --> 01:28:55.720 at now is because I escaped out of that. I took the journey out 1094 01:28:55.760 --> 01:29:00.600 of shame of that identity, and I took control of my own life. 1095 01:29:01.520 --> 01:29:05.920 And that takes a lot of strength and courage. And I mean without a 1096 01:29:06.039 --> 01:29:10.920 compass almost because I mean that they smash that compass when you were young, 1097 01:29:11.600 --> 01:29:15.800 to be able to navigate yourself out of there just by itself as a miracle. 1098 01:29:16.760 --> 01:29:19.119 One other thing I have to ask, So, I mean, does 1099 01:29:19.199 --> 01:29:26.680 this still play a role in your life, like between your family, like 1100 01:29:26.920 --> 01:29:29.680 not only in those family, but like your children or whatever. Is it 1101 01:29:29.800 --> 01:29:31.920 hard to connect with other human beings? Is it hard to have empathy and 1102 01:29:32.439 --> 01:29:35.199 care for them? Or is that beyond you? Is that passed you now? 1103 01:29:35.239 --> 01:29:41.399 After the Oh yeah, no, I've uh that's a good questions too 1104 01:29:41.479 --> 01:29:43.720 much too, it's not it's not you don't have to answer either. No, 1105 01:29:43.880 --> 01:29:45.119 it's not too much. No, it's I know that I know that 1106 01:29:45.159 --> 01:29:48.560 there's some of my family that's watching this right now. So I'm happy to 1107 01:29:49.840 --> 01:29:59.600 talk about this openly. Yes, I'm able to feel empathy now. I 1108 01:29:59.720 --> 01:30:04.800 have able to I have been able to rewrite neurons in my mind, in 1109 01:30:04.880 --> 01:30:14.680 my brain, physical neural pathways that have reconnected my prefrontal cortex to the hard 1110 01:30:14.760 --> 01:30:18.600 drive of my brain. And because of that, I'm able to critically think 1111 01:30:18.720 --> 01:30:25.159 now. And because I can critically think, I'm able to experience emotion. 1112 01:30:26.239 --> 01:30:30.000 And through the therapy I've been that I've been been grateful to have gone through, 1113 01:30:30.720 --> 01:30:40.439 I'm able to identify what emotions like empathy are. So it is for 1114 01:30:40.640 --> 01:30:46.399 me, it's a continual practice for me. It's a it's it's a new 1115 01:30:46.560 --> 01:30:55.000 magic ritual for me to practice empathy, because if I don't practice empathy, 1116 01:30:56.039 --> 01:31:01.840 then you know, I become very destructive. And you know I lost you 1117 01:31:01.960 --> 01:31:09.439 know, during my years of PTSD and recovery, I was married and had 1118 01:31:09.479 --> 01:31:15.640 two young children, and my marriage did not survive it. My ex wife, 1119 01:31:15.840 --> 01:31:24.800 she witnessed some atrocious things as I recovered in the from this occultic chain 1120 01:31:24.920 --> 01:31:29.079 that I was in. Really, I don't know if that makes sense. 1121 01:31:30.720 --> 01:31:33.359 Uh say that one more time, because I want to make sure I heard 1122 01:31:33.399 --> 01:31:42.119 you correctly with the last part with that year, well, me losing my 1123 01:31:42.239 --> 01:31:45.800 family unlocked the chain, the the occultic chain that I've been locked in, 1124 01:31:46.600 --> 01:31:53.600 right, w was she part of that world beforehand or now? My ex 1125 01:31:53.680 --> 01:31:57.439 wife. Yeah, no, no, no, no, she had she 1126 01:31:57.520 --> 01:32:01.720 had no involvement. I've actually met her in California. Okay, yeah, 1127 01:32:03.000 --> 01:32:12.359 and yeah, so yeah, and but now you know, now I'm able 1128 01:32:12.399 --> 01:32:19.960 to experience peace and happiness and kindness and self control. You know, I've 1129 01:32:20.000 --> 01:32:27.840 been able to conquer my addictions that yeah, you know, I was. 1130 01:32:28.079 --> 01:32:32.000 I was, you know, obviously severely addicted to drugs, all kinds of 1131 01:32:32.119 --> 01:32:39.680 drugs. I was severely addicted to pornography and sex. I mean at the 1132 01:32:40.039 --> 01:32:42.920 age like that, there's no other way for you to have been. You 1133 01:32:43.000 --> 01:32:46.439 know, well, it was a safe place for me. You understood that 1134 01:32:46.520 --> 01:32:56.119 world, right, So do you still experience from you know, being disconnected 1135 01:32:56.119 --> 01:33:00.199 from these people. Do you still experience any what you would perceive and able 1136 01:33:00.239 --> 01:33:06.000 to identify as like a psychic attack from them trying to message you. Yes, 1137 01:33:09.039 --> 01:33:17.199 currently, I'm in the process of breaking you know, the ancient spiritual 1138 01:33:17.239 --> 01:33:23.119 bloodline. I know that sounds really weird. No, it doesn't what you're 1139 01:33:23.119 --> 01:33:29.560 saying, But but I I know through this enlightenment or whatever you want to 1140 01:33:29.600 --> 01:33:32.600 call it, that I've had and I'm not going to say like I'm a 1141 01:33:32.640 --> 01:33:36.399 luminant confirm or anything like that I'm definitely not a part of that. But 1142 01:33:40.199 --> 01:33:45.159 but I do feel like I have awakened to myself and and be able to 1143 01:33:45.880 --> 01:33:54.560 have self autonomy. So like, in a in a weird way, I'm 1144 01:33:54.720 --> 01:34:00.479 I'm finally beginning to what it feels like to be human again. Do you 1145 01:34:00.600 --> 01:34:05.960 think that they're manipulating anything as far as your luck in life by any of 1146 01:34:06.039 --> 01:34:13.439 their efforts? You know, I've had I've had my suspicions, you know, 1147 01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:15.840 over the last few years. Uh, you know, i feel like 1148 01:34:15.920 --> 01:34:18.920 I've well, i feel like I'm I don't know if this might be kind 1149 01:34:18.920 --> 01:34:23.960 of too out there to say this, but I kind of feel like I'm 1150 01:34:24.000 --> 01:34:30.439 going through another type of initiation. I feel one where my life is being 1151 01:34:30.520 --> 01:34:41.960 dismantled yet again, and there just seems to be things that I notice, 1152 01:34:42.840 --> 01:34:48.039 and I have this feeling or connection that it's coming from the side of the 1153 01:34:48.119 --> 01:34:53.159 family that wants to stay in the dark, if that makes sense. Yeah, 1154 01:34:54.279 --> 01:34:57.199 Yeah, that's that's a tough thing, man, And to con and 1155 01:34:57.279 --> 01:35:00.359 to conceal the darkness, you know, to to stay hidden. And so 1156 01:35:00.199 --> 01:35:02.640 you know, I've got I've honestly, I've gotten a lot of pushback, 1157 01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:06.239 you know, I've I've gotten a lot of you know, pushback of like, 1158 01:35:06.319 --> 01:35:09.039 hey, you know, like, are you sure you really want to, 1159 01:35:10.520 --> 01:35:15.079 you know, go public with this knowledge and talk about your life, 1160 01:35:15.239 --> 01:35:21.399 you know, right, extended families saying like, you know, don't just 1161 01:35:21.479 --> 01:35:25.760 you know, just be careful. Do you think that was a threat or 1162 01:35:26.279 --> 01:35:32.880 a warning of care both? Yeah? I think it might be right because 1163 01:35:39.479 --> 01:35:44.439 yeah, you know, I have been attacked. You know, I have 1164 01:35:44.600 --> 01:35:50.920 been. I have been, and it's it's very difficult. But but being 1165 01:35:50.960 --> 01:35:55.520 in a position of like and this is why I encourage people, and this 1166 01:35:55.640 --> 01:35:59.840 is why I go through this mantra every day when I look at myself in 1167 01:35:59.880 --> 01:36:04.159 the mirror. And that's another thing. I've been able to look myself in 1168 01:36:04.239 --> 01:36:08.680 the mirror. Actually, for the first time over the last several years, 1169 01:36:08.680 --> 01:36:11.159 I've been able to look at myself in the mirror. There were years where 1170 01:36:11.159 --> 01:36:15.359 I couldn't even look at my reflection. But that's just a side note. 1171 01:36:15.399 --> 01:36:20.840 But you know, this is why I tell people that the only thing that 1172 01:36:21.079 --> 01:36:30.960 can make me feel, think, or act in any way is me correct 1173 01:36:31.000 --> 01:36:39.960 I am in control. And because I'm in control of my reality, then 1174 01:36:40.039 --> 01:36:44.800 those that are in it, I'm grateful because they are there to provide me 1175 01:36:44.960 --> 01:36:50.800 with an additional piece of knowledge that I am running towards and the reason why. 1176 01:36:50.880 --> 01:36:56.119 Like on my Instagram, my last on my stream I did, I 1177 01:36:56.199 --> 01:36:58.399 said that I think I found the truth. Well, I found the truth 1178 01:36:58.439 --> 01:37:02.720 in myself and hearing programs like yours, you know, hearing about I think 1179 01:37:02.760 --> 01:37:05.119 it was with niche or I can't remember. I've listened to so many of 1180 01:37:05.199 --> 01:37:12.479 your shows now where it talks about the biggest lie is time. Yeah, 1181 01:37:13.800 --> 01:37:17.600 yeah, she said that for sure. Yeah. I mean for me, 1182 01:37:17.960 --> 01:37:23.000 I've had multiple death experiences, I've had multiple out of body experiences. I've 1183 01:37:23.079 --> 01:37:28.279 seen things of high strangeness. I've seen things that don't make sense. I've 1184 01:37:28.720 --> 01:37:35.079 you know, and then in twenty twenty, the earth stood still, and 1185 01:37:35.199 --> 01:37:39.079 then to me it was like, you know what, I started to realize 1186 01:37:39.119 --> 01:37:43.680 that time really doesn't exist, and so if I when I got over the 1187 01:37:43.760 --> 01:37:47.079 fear of dying, knowing the fact that you know that is going to come 1188 01:37:47.159 --> 01:37:51.520 at some point and who knows, right, I've already seen death. And 1189 01:37:51.560 --> 01:37:55.319 each time I've woken up from death, the two times that I have, 1190 01:37:56.000 --> 01:38:03.359 my reality has gotten better. I've learned something different and around someone's trying to 1191 01:38:03.399 --> 01:38:05.960 help you back on the other side, you know, and it seems like 1192 01:38:06.000 --> 01:38:11.119 they got you over here now something. You know, honestly, I think 1193 01:38:11.199 --> 01:38:16.920 that person is me, you working for you and you. Except this is 1194 01:38:16.920 --> 01:38:23.840 the other thing that Christian's Knife bump heads with is that, yes, you 1195 01:38:23.920 --> 01:38:26.880 know, you have something within you from God, but it's all up on 1196 01:38:27.159 --> 01:38:30.840 up to you to choose to work with it or not work with it. 1197 01:38:30.960 --> 01:38:34.000 Right, So, at the end of the day, you know, and 1198 01:38:34.239 --> 01:38:39.399 whenever everybody does anything good or spectacular and they put throughout put forth all this 1199 01:38:39.520 --> 01:38:43.199 effort that you know, they go on stage and they thank God. Well, 1200 01:38:43.279 --> 01:38:45.880 I mean, yeah, that's great, and that's good, and that's 1201 01:38:45.960 --> 01:38:47.920 true, But what about all the craft that you did to get it there 1202 01:38:47.960 --> 01:38:49.760 too, you know what I mean? Like, so you got to kind 1203 01:38:49.760 --> 01:38:53.960 of put them both together there you're right right, and see and that and 1204 01:38:54.119 --> 01:38:57.760 that's done. That's done right there, that is done. That's part of 1205 01:38:57.800 --> 01:39:03.239 the deception, seem to give away, to give away the credit to vapor 1206 01:39:03.319 --> 01:39:08.039 Basically, if you're not really believing, I let people say things thank God, 1207 01:39:08.439 --> 01:39:11.359 they're pretty much saying it, because I think that this would expect people 1208 01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:14.520 to hear at this point, you know what I mean, rather than because 1209 01:39:14.560 --> 01:39:16.920 it comes off maybe like self conceited to say, yeah, I did a 1210 01:39:16.960 --> 01:39:19.880 good job, you know I did. I breaked my butt off for that 1211 01:39:20.039 --> 01:39:24.039 or whatever. M M. Yeah. Now you know, in my in 1212 01:39:24.159 --> 01:39:29.199 my overall belief at this moment, excuse my overall belief in this moment, 1213 01:39:30.000 --> 01:39:32.600 is that, yes, there is an almighty source that connects us together. 1214 01:39:32.800 --> 01:39:35.600 Okay, yeah, I mean if that one thing, if you could see 1215 01:39:35.640 --> 01:39:39.079 the supernatural, one thing, there's got to be the opposite, right, 1216 01:39:39.159 --> 01:39:41.880 like if you saw the dark, you gotta there's gotta be something else right, 1217 01:39:42.119 --> 01:39:45.760 right, right. But it's but it's much more complicated than anybody can 1218 01:39:45.840 --> 01:39:48.640 never understand, you can ever understand. Are you familiar with the term called 1219 01:39:48.760 --> 01:39:54.239 a fractal? Yes, yes, it's actually on the cover of I was 1220 01:39:54.279 --> 01:39:58.359 wearing the Strokes T shirt last night and in a video and the Strokes and 1221 01:39:58.399 --> 01:40:03.479 there is this it is it's a picture zoom in. The more complicated it 1222 01:40:03.520 --> 01:40:08.159 gets in this expense, yea. And those fractals, you know, I 1223 01:40:08.239 --> 01:40:12.319 notice on on social media the fractals are getting more like popular, you know, 1224 01:40:12.359 --> 01:40:15.039 where people just watch these videos and just zoom in and zoom in. 1225 01:40:15.640 --> 01:40:19.439 Like to me, if I were to try to conceptualize God in a way 1226 01:40:19.520 --> 01:40:25.199 for people to truly understand it, he's a fractal or it's a fractal or 1227 01:40:25.239 --> 01:40:29.239 whatever it is the Gods to it, right, Yeah, yeah, right, 1228 01:40:29.359 --> 01:40:32.560 it's a it's a fractal because it's never ending, and it's never understandable 1229 01:40:33.319 --> 01:40:36.439 at least at least not while we're in this form, right, at least 1230 01:40:36.439 --> 01:40:39.439 what we're in this form, at least right at least while we're in this 1231 01:40:39.560 --> 01:40:43.119 form. But but what I'm saying is that if you, if we as 1232 01:40:43.239 --> 01:40:48.159 human beings, can get to a point where we can surpass fear mhm and 1233 01:40:48.359 --> 01:40:54.640 realize that not only is time a lie, okay, but death is also 1234 01:40:54.720 --> 01:40:59.640 a lie. I'm with you on that because a couple of things have happened 1235 01:40:59.640 --> 01:41:03.600 in my life for I would tell you that I feel like it's I don't 1236 01:41:03.600 --> 01:41:08.199 even know if there's like a break in between. No, there's not, 1237 01:41:09.720 --> 01:41:14.199 really not. And so I think that you know, those are parts of 1238 01:41:14.760 --> 01:41:17.520 the great deception. And and and just one last thing on this is, 1239 01:41:19.319 --> 01:41:21.479 you know, growing up in the Christian Church, and you know, my 1240 01:41:21.560 --> 01:41:25.000 dad being a pastor and learning what I learned about the Bible, and you 1241 01:41:25.079 --> 01:41:28.159 know where I got passionate about reading the Bible. You know, they talk 1242 01:41:28.199 --> 01:41:31.800 about the rapture, okay, which is really not It's that word is not 1243 01:41:31.920 --> 01:41:35.800 mentioned in the Bible, right right, thank you there, And a lot 1244 01:41:35.840 --> 01:41:39.199 of a lot of Christians say, oh, the raptures in the Bible. 1245 01:41:39.279 --> 01:41:43.079 No, the word rapture is not in the Bible. But there is there 1246 01:41:43.239 --> 01:41:45.479 is a term and I don't recall it, I have it in front of 1247 01:41:45.560 --> 01:41:48.199 me, but there is a term a verse that says that in this that 1248 01:41:48.279 --> 01:41:56.600 God will gather up, He will rise up right the people into this up 1249 01:41:56.680 --> 01:42:00.199 unto the heavens with him, that will ascend into heaven with him, okay, 1250 01:42:00.399 --> 01:42:04.119 and be caught up it says, it says, well the original like 1251 01:42:04.359 --> 01:42:09.439 look at the original translations. So that actually needs to awaken and there's that 1252 01:42:09.479 --> 01:42:13.960 says happened blinking in a twinkling of an eye or a blink it back right 1253 01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:17.640 or in that text. Yeah, Well, when well, when somebody is 1254 01:42:17.800 --> 01:42:24.119 when somebody is coming into their awakening from the system, from the slave system 1255 01:42:24.159 --> 01:42:28.279 that we're in, when they come to an awakening, what do you do 1256 01:42:28.359 --> 01:42:30.960 when you wake up, you blink your eye, your eyes twinkle, and 1257 01:42:30.039 --> 01:42:36.279 you wake up into your consciousness. Okay, yeah, yeah, So so 1258 01:42:36.640 --> 01:42:42.720 I believe that I believe that the rapture, if that's what you want to 1259 01:42:42.760 --> 01:42:49.880 call it, right, is actually happening now. Yeah yeah, And then 1260 01:42:50.079 --> 01:42:54.760 when there is enough of a collective see because what we're happening, will we're 1261 01:42:55.319 --> 01:42:57.960 you know, what we're seeing here in my opinion, in my viewpoint, 1262 01:42:58.119 --> 01:43:01.840 what I've studied in the text is referring to the Judeo texts of the canon, 1263 01:43:02.199 --> 01:43:05.239 you know, and looking at the Book of Genesis, it shows it 1264 01:43:05.319 --> 01:43:09.560 says that you know, in the beginning, he created the heavens and earth, 1265 01:43:09.600 --> 01:43:13.720 and he separated the light in the darkness. Right when he separates the 1266 01:43:13.840 --> 01:43:17.479 light in the darkness, that word separation, the original translation for that is 1267 01:43:18.119 --> 01:43:27.479 divorce. The exactly the great right he divorced himself from the darkness. So 1268 01:43:27.840 --> 01:43:30.720 you're familiar with the great divorce. I've heard you talk about that, But 1269 01:43:30.800 --> 01:43:36.560 what what are some of your thoughts on that? Well, so this kind 1270 01:43:36.600 --> 01:43:44.119 of goes into like the dream type of realm too, because it's like what 1271 01:43:44.680 --> 01:43:47.319 when you think about when you're talking about with time, the one one of 1272 01:43:47.359 --> 01:43:51.640 the other ways I used to uh express it is that because I used to 1273 01:43:51.680 --> 01:43:55.600 be an electrician, so I would think about it in those terms where like 1274 01:43:55.680 --> 01:44:00.439 you're in a circuit, right, and or you're in just energy is electricity 1275 01:44:00.560 --> 01:44:02.920 or whatever or just however you want to look at it. But if you're 1276 01:44:03.000 --> 01:44:08.439 in a conduit, if you would and you're or a conductor, right and 1277 01:44:08.479 --> 01:44:13.479 you're going through you hit a resistor, and your perception of time happened is 1278 01:44:13.600 --> 01:44:18.000 just because everything's slowing down in this time period before you blast off into space 1279 01:44:18.039 --> 01:44:23.000 again as far as like super fast, So everything is happening kind of at 1280 01:44:23.079 --> 01:44:27.479 once, but kind of not because it's all based on the mind's perception of 1281 01:44:27.520 --> 01:44:30.079 how it's going down. So all of reality could be also in a blink 1282 01:44:30.079 --> 01:44:33.439 of an eye, but to us it's this big, long train of things 1283 01:44:33.479 --> 01:44:43.239 that are occurring. So from that, like the great divorce would be that 1284 01:44:43.520 --> 01:44:49.279 loss of knowing self and true self during that period before it all comes back 1285 01:44:49.279 --> 01:44:55.920 together again, right right, and that and that wraps it in with so 1286 01:44:56.079 --> 01:44:58.840 are we God? Are we? So? In a sense like those people 1287 01:44:58.840 --> 01:45:00.920 who say man is God, they're saying it in the wrong way, with 1288 01:45:01.039 --> 01:45:05.680 the wrong mindset. But in a sense we're here so that God can basically 1289 01:45:05.720 --> 01:45:12.239 experience himself possibly, but also because it's this anomaly or whatever you want to 1290 01:45:12.279 --> 01:45:17.680 call it, intentional whatever, but it's that separation, the great divorce that 1291 01:45:17.800 --> 01:45:20.199 like like I even hear it in the music, like I was saying before 1292 01:45:20.720 --> 01:45:25.039 that if you look at it the right way. A lot of times people 1293 01:45:25.119 --> 01:45:28.239 even say God, and you think they're just saying it like an expression like 1294 01:45:28.560 --> 01:45:30.439 oh God, this sucks, you know, or something like that, But 1295 01:45:30.560 --> 01:45:32.239 no, they're they're showing their frustration. But in a sense, if you 1296 01:45:32.359 --> 01:45:36.920 just listen to it literal, they're they're talking about a girl or something like 1297 01:45:38.000 --> 01:45:41.039 that, but in reality they're or maybe not in reality, but it also 1298 01:45:41.119 --> 01:45:45.880 could be read or perceived as a longing for being back together with God, 1299 01:45:46.560 --> 01:45:51.279 right or right so or or or and who's asking for that? The darkness? 1300 01:45:53.079 --> 01:45:56.520 Right? You know? So it's very strange, very yeah, No, 1301 01:45:56.840 --> 01:46:00.319 there is a well, the mixture, the mixture because we're both right, 1302 01:46:00.399 --> 01:46:03.640 so maybe it's just the good part of us wanting that and they want 1303 01:46:03.720 --> 01:46:06.760 the separation, because there could also be the idea of like you know, 1304 01:46:06.800 --> 01:46:11.960 how dead skin cells fall off, right, So maybe This is like a 1305 01:46:12.479 --> 01:46:16.640 like the ancient shedding, Yeah, where you get rid of that which isn't 1306 01:46:16.720 --> 01:46:20.279 going to be needed and you know, the purification type of thing. Yeah. 1307 01:46:20.319 --> 01:46:26.359 And then that in that language, you start getting into eating. Yes, 1308 01:46:26.520 --> 01:46:30.039 well yeah, I mean you get and you get into terms like Tiamatt. 1309 01:46:30.119 --> 01:46:32.800 Are you familiar with Tiamont? Yeah? Then they bring about the great 1310 01:46:32.880 --> 01:46:36.000 Dragon. Yeah, I talk about that in my book. Yeah, seven 1311 01:46:36.039 --> 01:46:39.039 headed. You know, I need to get your book. I apologize I 1312 01:46:39.079 --> 01:46:43.159 have not gotten that book yet, but definitely, you know, it sounds 1313 01:46:43.199 --> 01:46:45.479 like something I want to read. But yeah, anyways, but yeah, 1314 01:46:45.520 --> 01:46:49.960 you're getting into tium out there and the whole the dragon, right, the 1315 01:46:50.079 --> 01:46:55.439 chaos dragon that died and laid in the deep and that you know, and 1316 01:46:55.520 --> 01:46:58.159 that's what the spirit of God hovers over the deep and yeah, we can 1317 01:46:58.199 --> 01:47:00.560 go and you know that's a whole the rabbit hole. But but yeah, 1318 01:47:00.640 --> 01:47:05.960 man, so that's that's kind of my story in a nutshell. I mean, 1319 01:47:06.000 --> 01:47:10.800 I can I can continue going. I'm sure sure where you're at, 1320 01:47:11.000 --> 01:47:13.920 you know, with the time or questions. Yeah, I got to get 1321 01:47:14.000 --> 01:47:16.079 some stuff done. I have a bunch of Internet orders I have to fulfill, 1322 01:47:16.119 --> 01:47:19.239 and I just heard my daughter came home, so I'm gonna say hello, 1323 01:47:20.159 --> 01:47:23.399 and uh, I don't know if you heard my marketing, but that 1324 01:47:23.600 --> 01:47:29.520 was the key. That was that was that was the cue. But yeah, 1325 01:47:29.680 --> 01:47:30.960 I was. It was a really great talk, and I'm glad and 1326 01:47:31.079 --> 01:47:35.399 I thank you for being open and discussing this. And it's it's an eye 1327 01:47:35.439 --> 01:47:41.079 opener to to just see how I mean, you're a real person. We're 1328 01:47:41.079 --> 01:47:44.479 talking to a real person, had this real experience who didn't ask for it, 1329 01:47:44.600 --> 01:47:49.399 didn't deserve it, and you're not a sociopathic killer because of it, 1330 01:47:49.680 --> 01:47:53.520 and you're not going out. Can I let me let one last question? 1331 01:47:53.720 --> 01:48:00.880 Do you meditate? Do you still practice certain types of what people rituals? 1332 01:48:00.960 --> 01:48:04.960 Yeah? You do, Yeah, but the geared for a different purpose now, 1333 01:48:05.319 --> 01:48:08.960 is that yes? And it's like you said earlier, it's all about 1334 01:48:09.000 --> 01:48:12.119 the intent, right right, right? So my intent, my intent has 1335 01:48:12.239 --> 01:48:15.319 changed. And I think I said to you that the new family Crest I 1336 01:48:15.399 --> 01:48:17.159 made. But I made a new family Crest, I made a new I 1337 01:48:17.239 --> 01:48:19.600 made a new schedule for the family. I don't know if I showed you 1338 01:48:19.720 --> 01:48:24.960 that just on the screen. I thought, I think, okay, no, 1339 01:48:25.000 --> 01:48:27.720 there's another one. I'll send it to you. Okay, but but 1340 01:48:27.880 --> 01:48:30.279 yeah, so no, so you are writing your history and changing your blood 1341 01:48:30.319 --> 01:48:32.800 eye. You're even changing the crest and you're getting rid of the changing the 1342 01:48:32.840 --> 01:48:35.399 crust. Yeah heck yeah, man. And I do meditate. I do 1343 01:48:35.560 --> 01:48:41.159 meditate. So I wake up at four thirty every morning, and the moment 1344 01:48:41.239 --> 01:48:46.359 I wake up, I go into a meditative uh trans for about eight minutes. 1345 01:48:49.720 --> 01:48:53.920 That's yeah, that's that takes a lot of practice. I know you've 1346 01:48:53.920 --> 01:48:56.640 been doing your whole life or whatever, but that's that's not like to just 1347 01:48:56.760 --> 01:48:58.479 be able to do it that quickly. A lot of people take a long 1348 01:48:58.520 --> 01:49:00.199 time and be able to get there, you know, just together to get 1349 01:49:00.239 --> 01:49:04.279 to calm themselves first before they can do that. That's very good. So 1350 01:49:04.439 --> 01:49:09.119 and I'm kind of in a semi meditative state all day, you know, 1351 01:49:09.279 --> 01:49:13.800 I have to because you know, just real quick. I know you got 1352 01:49:13.880 --> 01:49:15.920 to go, but just real quick. So like you know, in my 1353 01:49:15.119 --> 01:49:18.880 last bit of my recovery, when I when I left there was when I 1354 01:49:19.239 --> 01:49:23.640 when I first got there, they I diagnosed me with what's called the dark 1355 01:49:23.720 --> 01:49:28.840 triad. It's called it's a it's a multi they call it d I D 1356 01:49:29.039 --> 01:49:32.039 NOW or a form of it, but this associated identity disorder. But this 1357 01:49:32.239 --> 01:49:35.640 particular one is called the dark triad. You can google it, look it 1358 01:49:35.720 --> 01:49:42.720 up. So they said that I was experiencing this you know, specific you 1359 01:49:42.800 --> 01:49:49.159 know, mental health identity. But that's what I was able to break free 1360 01:49:49.239 --> 01:49:55.720 from. But I still have like remnant symptoms that occur. So I have 1361 01:49:55.920 --> 01:50:00.359 to always be in a self meditative state in the background, make making sure 1362 01:50:00.439 --> 01:50:03.079 that my auxiliary functions, I know this sounds weird, but that my auxiliary 1363 01:50:03.159 --> 01:50:08.920 functions are appropriate for the reality that I'm in. So I still in my 1364 01:50:09.039 --> 01:50:15.560 existence. I experience a very fractured, you know existence, but I get 1365 01:50:15.640 --> 01:50:19.279 through it daily as much as I can, and it manifests itself in pain. 1366 01:50:19.439 --> 01:50:28.000 So I have an official diagnosis of acute fibromyalgia. So so I have 1367 01:50:28.159 --> 01:50:32.800 to endure twenty four hour, NonStop physical pain. But it keeps me in 1368 01:50:32.880 --> 01:50:39.920 this like ability to you know, have cognition if you will, do you 1369 01:50:41.199 --> 01:50:45.880 do you take any cannabis or anything like that to Yeah, yeah, I 1370 01:50:45.039 --> 01:50:51.640 do. I do medicate through CBD and TC typically in you know gummy for 1371 01:50:51.800 --> 01:51:00.600 my high microdose on that and you what's up? Check out credim too. 1372 01:51:00.640 --> 01:51:03.760 That might help you. I've heard of that. I actually just recently heard 1373 01:51:03.760 --> 01:51:06.560 of that, but yeah, and I will check that out. But like 1374 01:51:06.680 --> 01:51:11.199 I'm almost to the point where I can honestly let it go, you know, 1375 01:51:11.319 --> 01:51:14.000 like it's it's been like it's been layers. You know. First it 1376 01:51:14.079 --> 01:51:16.159 was all the crazy, all the crazy heavy drugs, right, you know. 1377 01:51:16.840 --> 01:51:19.560 And then and then it was like the alcohol, like I don't really 1378 01:51:19.640 --> 01:51:24.079 drink that much, you know, like all I'll have a beer here and 1379 01:51:24.119 --> 01:51:28.880 there, and then I've let that go or letting that go. And I 1380 01:51:28.920 --> 01:51:32.479 feel like the next step is potentially to let marijuana go, but I don't 1381 01:51:32.520 --> 01:51:38.720 know. We'll see. Let me just jump the in with that stoke next 1382 01:51:38.800 --> 01:51:42.760 Thursday, b if you have a chance to, if not, watch it 1383 01:51:42.880 --> 01:51:47.520 afterward. I'm gonna ask doctor Peter g Lidden about this because there's now two 1384 01:51:47.600 --> 01:51:54.359 different people who have told me maybe more that through magic rituals in the past, 1385 01:51:54.479 --> 01:52:00.119 they made their blood thick after them, they've made physical problems happened to 1386 01:52:00.159 --> 01:52:04.039 them because of you know, how how deep they went. And it has 1387 01:52:04.199 --> 01:52:09.720 a lot to do with your physiology when it comes to like your your your 1388 01:52:09.760 --> 01:52:15.079 minerals and your nutrients. So I'm almost wondering if the fiber myalgia with the 1389 01:52:15.199 --> 01:52:20.479 property nutrition would subside a little, because a lot of people go nutrient deficient 1390 01:52:20.520 --> 01:52:24.880 their whole life because the doctors don't know anything about nutrition, and the problems 1391 01:52:24.920 --> 01:52:28.119 persist. And that's just how it happened to manifest. So if that could 1392 01:52:28.159 --> 01:52:30.479 trigger and push you into that and then you kind of got stuck with it, 1393 01:52:31.119 --> 01:52:33.680 because it's almost like your brain is manifesting it. It sounds like, 1394 01:52:34.520 --> 01:52:40.800 Yeah, So I'm almost wondering if the proper nutrition and nutrients would actually help 1395 01:52:41.159 --> 01:52:44.159 your body fix itself. And yeah, I was never taught. I was 1396 01:52:44.239 --> 01:52:46.840 never taught how to have nutrition, so I would be interested. And yeah, 1397 01:52:46.880 --> 01:52:50.760 I definitely listened to that. Yeah, I'll ask him specifically about fibermialogy. 1398 01:52:50.760 --> 01:52:54.680 I know he has it on his website, so we'll probably go over 1399 01:52:54.800 --> 01:52:58.079 that first thing next time. Right, All, all right, man, 1400 01:52:58.680 --> 01:53:02.600 thank you so much your time, guys. D code d K O d 1401 01:53:02.760 --> 01:53:06.079 E is how you find him on Instagram? You do all your streaming from 1402 01:53:06.079 --> 01:53:09.199 there at the moment, right you haven't, Yeah, at the moment, 1403 01:53:09.279 --> 01:53:13.039 I just I just I just opened up a Rumble account. It's called one 1404 01:53:13.119 --> 01:53:16.560 two one, but that's that's what I've got right now. It's uh, 1405 01:53:17.960 --> 01:53:20.560 I think it's yeah, it's one two one, and it's got a picture 1406 01:53:20.680 --> 01:53:29.119 of like an AI generated cloaked angel type creature. Yeah. I'm a messenger, 1407 01:53:29.239 --> 01:53:30.560 so that's what that's kind of what I'm trying to put out there. 1408 01:53:31.119 --> 01:53:33.720 I like it all right, man, Thank you so much for your time. 1409 01:53:33.800 --> 01:53:36.680 Thank you for sharing all this with us. And I hope that helped 1410 01:53:36.720 --> 01:53:41.119 other people out there who have had similar experiences, like I know personally, 1411 01:53:42.720 --> 01:53:45.039 let's just say too many, because it's a it's a sad thing. Too 1412 01:53:45.079 --> 01:53:48.279 many people that I've known for quite a long time that have had these experiences. 1413 01:53:49.000 --> 01:53:54.399 Yeah, and not all of them made it as well as you, 1414 01:53:54.520 --> 01:54:00.600 and some of them were quite convinced that they were fine and it did not 1415 01:54:00.039 --> 01:54:04.000 turn out that way, you know, or something else was going on. 1416 01:54:04.199 --> 01:54:09.000 So yeah, and you know, if I can say just one thing to 1417 01:54:10.239 --> 01:54:15.960 thank you for this opportunity for the platform. Yeah, man, it's gets 1418 01:54:15.000 --> 01:54:19.760 more attention on what your what you your messages too well. Not only not 1419 01:54:19.920 --> 01:54:24.520 only was I was it therapeutic and helpful for me to be completely transparent, 1420 01:54:25.359 --> 01:54:31.159 but the intention my intent in in this, in this ritual that we're doing 1421 01:54:31.279 --> 01:54:38.680 now in this medium is to communicate to the masses that there is hope. 1422 01:54:40.680 --> 01:54:43.000 Yes, I mean, you went through a lot and you're over here now 1423 01:54:43.199 --> 01:54:46.520 and not living that life, right, so right, there is hope for 1424 01:54:46.760 --> 01:54:50.840 there is hope for healing. There is hope, and that that healing comes 1425 01:54:50.880 --> 01:54:55.880 through truth. So you're a payer of that then, and I thank you 1426 01:54:56.000 --> 01:54:58.640 and I appreciate you, and I'm grateful for you. Thanks for that. 1427 01:54:58.800 --> 01:55:02.119 Man, that was a really nice of the met uh Greg, great time. 1428 01:55:02.239 --> 01:55:05.159 Thank you. And if you're coming up with an idea of something else 1429 01:55:05.159 --> 01:55:08.840 you want to discuss in the future, just hit me up, all right, 1430 01:55:08.880 --> 01:55:15.319 man, I appreciate it. In descrying mirror, yes sir, yes, 1431 01:55:15.359 --> 01:55:19.000 sir, all right, thank you so so much. You got by. 1432 01:55:19.079 --> 01:55:24.079 You take care and that will wrap it up for the show tonight, 1433 01:55:24.199 --> 01:55:27.000 guys. I am out. I gotta make some sauce, as I had 1434 01:55:27.079 --> 01:55:30.119 said, and then I've gotta go say hello to my daughter. So you 1435 01:55:30.159 --> 01:55:31.159 guys have a great night. Bye.