What's up, y'all? Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I am
your host, jas And and Dan Yelle. I have been away. It
has been sometime since I tapped in. I know y'all like bitch, tap
in phone home. What's going on? It's a lot going on. It's
a lot good like, It's a lot going on in a good way.
It's a lot going on in a good way. And it's currently four forty
in the fucking morning right now. Um what I'm on Central Standard Time?
I believe that's what this is. Um. So, yeah, it's been
a lot going on. I'm back in my back. I'm back in my
um, I'm back in my living a dream back okay, And it's it's
a good back to live in, Like if you want to see your dreams
come true. It's a good back to being. It's a tough back to
being. It's a scary back to being, but ultimately, like when you
sit back and just think about life and where you are and how you feel
about where you are, and when you think about where you want to be
or where you see yourself being, and you understand that you are the only
thing that's holding yourself back You're like, bro, I gotta get in my
dream back, but you also gotta get in your due back, your dream
bag, and you know, do bag go hand to hand. You can't
just sit there and be dreaming some shit up and not be doing shit about
it. Like, and that's the thing I think because and I feel like
I blame this on my zodiac sign a lot, but I really am just
like a super super dreamy person. I literally will live in a fantasy world
with all these dreams in my head, and that's where they remain, just
in my fucking head. So it's really on me to learn how to take
action on my goals and really understanding the power that I possess, you know
what I'm saying, Because it's so it's so much in me, but I
have to have the courage to get it out. So I actually had just
woke up at three thirty three in the morning, not surprising to me,
and I was like, damn, I didn't I didn't finish. I was
so sleepy. I recently started doing the three six nine method every day,
so in the morning, I write out my three like affirmations, whatever you
want it to be. That's your own personal business writing it out in the
morning three times, coming back in the afternoon writing it down six times,
coming back at nighttime writing down nine times, and then reading it out loud
to you or so or eighteen lines. So I started it maybe like six
days ago, and I immediately noticed a change, like stuff just started happening
in regards to what I wrote down, and I was like, this is
not a coincidence. So I've been doing it every day, and like I
said, I was so sleepy that I ended up falling asleep before I did
my nighttime informations. And then when I woke up at three thirty three,
I was like, bit, you better get up in do three six nine,
You better get up ado three six nine, And I was four forty
four, So okay, I'm on to something. I'm on to something.
And then after that, something told me to write myself a letter. And
I didn't even know how long I wanted to wanted it to be, but
I just felt like I needed to say something to myself. And I'm getting
tearialized as I just think about it, because I feel like I pour into
a lot of people. I feel like I always pour into others, always,
always, always, and that's not even new. I say that all
the time. And my thing, you know what I need, I need
to listen to myself. I need to listen to myself. Somebody told me
I was cap man, I am cap because I say a lot of shit
on here and I don't I don't apply it to myself, like and that's
the thing I feel like one of the reasons why I always tell people like,
well, you know, I say all of this stuff, but I
want y'all to know that, Like I do want people to understand that I
am human, like that I'm gonna make mistakes. But I also think I
kind of say that just so it could be like, yeah, I'll be
saying shit, but I'd be fucking up too, because I know that I
don't really be applying to ship to my life all the times. But you
know what I'm saying, Like at least least I can keep it real with
myself about that for real, you know what I'm saying. But at the
end of that year, like I don't want to say I wasn't put here
to be a role model for nobody or no shit like that, because I
mean, I don't know, I don't know. I don't want to say
that I am, but I know that I am a vessel for sure.
You know what I'm saying. The reason why my podcast has been successful is
because I am a vessel. You know what I'm saying. I use my
voice to really touch and connect with other people. So in a sense,
yeah, I am a role model. But at the end of the day,
the role model gotta you gotta play the role. You know what I'm
saying, Like, you can't be talking to talk but not walking the walk.
So but you know, like I said, I know that about myself.
I keep it real with myself in that aspect, even if I don't
always keep it real with everybody else. I know what it is. You
know what I'm saying. So I wrote a letter to myself that says,
dear Jasmine, it is time to finally put yourself first. It is time
to separate the labels and the titles that you've given yourself. Yes, you
are a mother, a daughter, a friend, A y'all can teacher.
I just threw that in there. But who are you? Who are you
to yourself? Because if you look deeply into that question, you will see
that you have not been any good for anyone else. Because you have not
been good to yourself. For yourself, you should take your own advice.
Pouring from a cup that is not full is the quickest way back to an
empty cup. That is why you resent people. But it is you that
overgives and then gets upset when the energy is not reciprocated. It's beautiful to
have a given heart and spirit, but everything that you give to others,
you must give to yourself, and you have to give it to yourself first.
Impulsive, You're very impulsive. Be impulsive with your goals. Be impulsive
to take risks to get where you want to be in life. Stop overthinking
things, and if you are going to overthink, overthink of all of the
positive possibilities that the universe has for you. Overthink on all of your creative
ideas. Overthink on how good life can get. Overthink your dreams into reality,
and when you wake up, take the step. Baby steps are still
steps. Take intentional steps every day towards your goals, because every day you
may not see the progress, but one day you will look up and you
will realize everything is different. Learn to accept yourself for who you are and
where you are. Look in the mirror and accept yourself beyond your physical existence,
except that you always did what you could with what you had and what
you knew at the time, and you did your best. Be proud of
the person that you are. No one was given all of the tools or
resources. You're still standing, still, breathing that alone less you know that
your destiny still awaits you. Your purpose is not yet fulfilled. Keep living,
keep listening to you. The more mistakes that you make, the more
knowledge that you acquire, the more experience, the more life you live,
the more stories to tell. The best thing you could do is to do
your best every day. Soon you will look up and you will be doing
the best that you've ever done, looking your best, feeling your best,
living your best life. And it's because you became your best self, putting
out your best work and getting the best results possible. So that is the
letter that I wrote to myself just now. Like I said, I don't
know, it was on my mind and on my heart to do that.
So I just did it. And I do feel better. I do feel
better. And you know earlier were not earlier today, But yesterday I was
having a moment. I was having a mom guilt moment. Shout out to
all the motherfucking moms. Man, shout out to Autumn moms, because if
you are not a mom, you will not understand. You just won't.
And that's cool because there are a lot of things in life that I don't
understand, you know what I'm saying. I can never understand the Black Mills
experience on this you know, on this plane, on this three D on
this three D plane, on this earth, Like I don't I don't know
what your experience is, you know what I'm saying. I don't know what
I don't. You know, I don't know the LGBTQ community, Like that's
the whole experience in itself, you know what I'm saying. So it's it's
a lot of things that I just don't understand. I could try to understand,
you know what I'm saying. You could try to understand somebody. You
can empathize with somebody and try to understand where they're coming from, listening to,
you know, whatever it is that they experienced and be like damn,
okay, okay, I feel I feel it. But you know what I'm
saying. If you if you never experience something, you're not gonna really know.
You're not gonna really know, and I ain't gonna lie. It ain't
shit that you can tell me as a motherfucking mother, period. Okay,
it's nothing that you can tell me because you ain't lived my motherfucking life.
You have not walked in my shoes, regardless of where you are, what
you did, how you got, you didn't live this life though you did
not so you know. But now I was having a moment yesterday, a
mom guilt moment, and shout out to my home girl, Panda always coming
through, Panda, always be preaching. I wish she would just open up
a church, okay, the little church in Callie, because since be coming
with, she'd be coming with the motherfucking motivational speeches for real. But you
know, she just kind of brought me back too, and I think they
kind of you know, I don't know, I feel like that maybe have
that may be a reason why I kind of wrote the letter, or that
you know, maybe that conversation kind of sparked something in me to write the
letter. But again, just speaking to the fact that at some point in
life you have to put yourself first. And I'm speaking to the moms right
now, like even as a mom people don't understand, like, of course
you should. You think that you should put your kids first. And I'm
not saying that they aren't the top priority in your life, but if you're
not taking care of yourself, how are you going to take care of your
kids? You know what I'm saying. I feel like one of the reasons
why I've struggled for a long time is because I never put myself first,
you know what I'm saying. And even in situations like when I moved out
of state before and stuff like that, I experienced a lot of mom guil
in that situation because it's like, oh no, I feel like I'm kind
of leaving my son behind, and but that's not what I was doing.
I wasn't leaving him behind. I was taking a moment for myself to better
myself in order to put us in a better position. So here I am
again spinning the block and having another mom gil moment, but understanding like this
time is different. It is this time is different, and it feels different.
Who else? I talked to my best friend yesterday and she was just
saying, like, yeah, you know, I think the last time that
that happened, it just kind of just gave you a taste of what you
could do with what the possibilities were and all of that. And again now
it's just different, even the way that stuff is just folding for me,
it's just happening differently. And it's so funny how I even got here,
Like, it's so funny how I got here. It is so funny how
I got here because I never would have thought that it would happen this way,
you know what I'm saying. Like this time around, it happened in
a very crazy not like a crazy it did I don't want to say it
a crazy way, but also in a very crazy way, like and I
ain't gonna lie. I was like, I don't know if this is what
I should be doing, how I should be doing it, Like I was
very much at my head about the moves that I was about to make,
and it was very very scary. But also when your back is against the
wall, all you can do is fight, you know what I'm saying.
Also, another thing I just think about a lot is just like looking at
my life. A lot of times I say, like, you know,
I'm I was unhappy where I was, in my situation where I was living,
feeling very stagnant, the energies where it was very stagnant, my situation
literally like stagnant for years and me taking a step out on faith and taking
a risk to change my life and do something different to get a different result.
It feels way bad, I'm telling you. When you when you step
out on faith and you take a risk, it's scary as hell. But
it feels better. I feel like I'm actually living life. It feels good
to do something different, to do something different, and to actually just feel
like, you know what I'm saying, I feel like I'm writing my story.
I feel like I'm creating my story. When I'm in my comfort zone,
in that same place every day and that stagnant energy where nothing is changing
and everything is just the same, I feel complacent. That's where that's where
that feeling of depression comes in. That's where it's like, dang, this
is my life whatever. You know what I'm saying, The shit ain't gonna
change. So if you want something change, you have to do something different.
So right now I'm in Dallas, Texas, and it's been a hell
of an experience thus far, not even in a bad way. It's just
it's different. But I absolutely love it. Like I've been enjoying my time
here. I didn't went to two different yoga classes. Yoga is very different
here. I really liked the yoga scene, but it's also just, you
know, it's it's a lot to take in and to just you know,
fill off the vibes and mesh with everything. But I absolutely love the two
classes that I went to on The first class that I went to was at
a yoga studio called Black Swan and Hi Yoga. Y'all know I love hi
Yoga, but I never did Hi Yoga like that before. Like I never
sweated in my life like that before. So yeah, I sweated my ass
off that day. And I was thinking in my mind like, man if
I sweated like this every day, a bitch, okay, a bitch with
be where she wanted to be, because man, if you do that's like
yoga every day, I'm telling baby, you're gonna be where you want to
be. But the class was very, very intense, very good. Of
course your girl was able to keep up. It wasn't too much for me.
I love a good intense yoga class. I love my I love for
my ship to feel like a workout. It was just good energy, it
was good vibes, and it was just it's just different, you know what
I'm saying. And I love that from me because I feel like there's nothing
wrong with the Detroit Yoga sin you know what I'm saying. I feel like
I took everything that I needed from that place in my life, from that
space in my life, you know, with my training and starting to teach
there. But you can always learn more, you can always grow, you
can always improve, you know what I'm saying. And that's the that's the
beautiful thing about being able to go to different class and see different styles and
different teachers and all that, because at the end of the day, yes,
you are a yoga teacher or I'm a yoga teacher, but I'm also
a student, you know what I'm saying, And that's why I love going
to other classes. But yeah, the yoga scene is just definitely very different
here. And I've also been, you know, in search of other in
search of other opportunities, exploring other things as well. Since I'm here and
everything is just really going very well for me. So yeah, that's where
I'm at with it. I'm trying to think what else. Yeah, it's
only it's only been a few days, but I'm thoroughly enjoying myself and I'm
just feeling better, Like the energy is differently and I feel better. I
just feel like I'm I'm in a much better space, in a much better
space. So yeah, that is. Oh and then the other yoga class
that I want to UM absolutely loved it, loved the vibes. The teacher,
I believe his name is Chinook if that's how you pronounced it, just
a very wise man with a lot of gems. Like um. I had
posted about it on my Instagram and was telling people like, you know,
this ain't your average yoga class. Like, if you're just going somewhere to
just take the class and just do the poses, you could do that,
but he gonna really speak to the to the mental aspect of it and really
speak to your mentality and about you doing the inner work. And the crazy
part is like it's a good ass class. You're gonna get that work physically,
Like you're gonna get that work, but he shit that he says to
you, it's going to really put you in a different mind frame. And
so it was just really a fucking vibe U. So yeah, I really
am enjoying the yoga scene here. I'm enjoying everything here. Um yeah,
so you know, there's still so much to experiencing to do, but I'm
just taking it a day at a time right now, and things are things
are going very well. I'm trying to think. Oh, in that in
that second class that I went to, it was a man and near with
his baby, and I'm like, okay, it's it's just different. I
ain't never seen no black man. I don't know how old. His baby
was a few months. I don't know how many, but a few months
old, and he had that baby wrapped up around him and was doing yoga
and everybody and then it was passing the baby around, you know what I'm
saying. I saw different people holding the baby. When I tell y'all that
baby ain't cry, ain't nothing, I'm like, wow, that's how you
know. And then other people brought their kids and shit. So it was
just really a vibe and I really enjoyed it, Like I feel so much
better after the class, so much better. So yeah, that's just where
I've been at and what I've been doing. So I thought I would be
providing is with an update shout out to everybody that being my DM like girl
the other podcast, can't wait till you drop some more content, like yes,
yes, your girl has to get back to it. And again,
being in a in a new space and in new energy is going to definitely
I'm going to help me to create more. So yeah, so that's just
all that I came on here to share with y'all. It's now five o
three in the morning, so I'm going to lay back down for now and
wake up and do my best today. Can you feel me? Loo's today,
Today's Tuesday. Today's Tuesday, which is Mars Day, which is the
planet of action and aggression, and that's that's the day to take action on
your goals. That's the day to really exert yourself physically and get into your
masculine energy. So we're gonna see what's on the agenda for today as well.
But yes, that is all that I have for y'all. Hope that
y'all enjoyed this little episode. I hope that y'all enjoyed the letter to myself.
And I feel like if that's where you are in your life, for
the space that you win, you feel like you need to write a letter
to yourself about whatever. You know what I'm saying, They write a letter
to yourself. It's definitely a very introspective moment, a good time to really
self reflect on where you are, where you've come from, where you've been,
where you see yourself going. You know what I'm saying. I have
to feel like it really puts things into perspective for yourself. So do that
for yourself if you must. I hope that you enjoy this. Make sure
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live a Black girl experience. That's all I have for y'all. I'm out.