WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.519 --> 00:00:30.000 Weird things happened in the weird Weird Weird. AYO, what's up everybody today? 2 00:00:30.039 --> 00:00:36.960 We have a very very special sequel episode for you today that it's gonna 3 00:00:36.960 --> 00:00:39.399 be like that. Oh, it's gonna be like, yeah, we're acknowledging 4 00:00:39.399 --> 00:00:44.560 it from up front. Uh, a lot of you if like longtime fans 5 00:00:44.560 --> 00:00:50.920 will know uh that like episode six, we did an episode called a Stream 6 00:00:50.960 --> 00:00:54.960 of Consciousness, and as you see by the title, this is the Stream 7 00:00:55.000 --> 00:00:59.359 of Consciousness too. We waited about one hundred and twenty one episodes. We 8 00:00:59.399 --> 00:01:02.359 felt like that was an appropriate time. We always intended to do this, 9 00:01:02.439 --> 00:01:04.439 give it a good break, right, right, It was intentional from the 10 00:01:04.560 --> 00:01:08.519 very beginning. And don't believe it's not. So we're doing another one a 11 00:01:08.560 --> 00:01:11.079 Stream of Consciousness. We're just gonna get in here and chop it up. 12 00:01:11.719 --> 00:01:15.400 We need a break, yeah, honestly, No, it's just like we 13 00:01:15.799 --> 00:01:25.239 always come in here with a topic and it's like it can be a big 14 00:01:25.319 --> 00:01:30.519 undertaking to do like rigorous preparation and do all the study and then like constantly 15 00:01:30.599 --> 00:01:33.920 think of what are we gonna talk about on this one? What are we 16 00:01:33.959 --> 00:01:36.400 gonna talk about this one? And I was just thinking I was like, 17 00:01:37.079 --> 00:01:40.319 bro, what if we just like get in there and just like talk as 18 00:01:40.359 --> 00:01:44.079 friends? Yeah, and so yeah, which is like you know, always 19 00:01:44.439 --> 00:01:47.599 we're the type of friends that'll sit and talk. Honestly, most of our 20 00:01:47.640 --> 00:01:52.719 friends will like sit and talk for hours and hours and just talk and have 21 00:01:52.799 --> 00:01:57.200 a good time. But also there have been like there's at least on for 22 00:01:57.560 --> 00:02:00.840 me, there's like been something kind of like on my mind lately, and 23 00:02:00.879 --> 00:02:07.400 some things like weighing on me that might not like fit into like a structured 24 00:02:07.640 --> 00:02:08.800 Yeah, you know what I'm saying, Like like a structure, it wouldn't 25 00:02:08.800 --> 00:02:12.400 like fit the theme of an episode, but I still want to talk about 26 00:02:13.759 --> 00:02:16.039 Also in addition to that, Yeah, that's a very good point, Like 27 00:02:16.400 --> 00:02:20.080 there are a lot of things that may be on our mind that we want 28 00:02:20.080 --> 00:02:22.560 to talk about or we want to like flesh out. But you know, 29 00:02:22.599 --> 00:02:28.479 when we're doing a topic on gnosticism or or you know, Pinocchio by Garamovitorio 30 00:02:28.599 --> 00:02:30.039 or some random topic, I mean, yeah, we are kind of pointed 31 00:02:30.039 --> 00:02:34.639 to where we just have to talk about things that are outside of like actually 32 00:02:34.680 --> 00:02:38.319 what we're going through. So mm hmm. Yeah, and up front, 33 00:02:38.319 --> 00:02:43.080 real quick, big thank you to one of our patrons, Flag and Slayer, 34 00:02:43.159 --> 00:02:47.319 Flagon Slayer in our discord, he sent us these lovely gifts. He 35 00:02:47.400 --> 00:02:51.400 sent me this. Oh and by the way, I want everybody to know 36 00:02:51.599 --> 00:02:53.840 and Flagon Slayer to know, because I haven't even gotten a chance to thank 37 00:02:53.919 --> 00:02:58.039 him, you know, personally, yet thank you. This is amazing. 38 00:02:58.680 --> 00:03:01.560 The crazy thing about this, I haven't even told you you this, Alex, 39 00:03:02.199 --> 00:03:06.319 this book. When I first pulled it out, I couldn't really tell 40 00:03:06.360 --> 00:03:08.479 what it was. It's kind of vague. It's called The Immortality Key The 41 00:03:08.599 --> 00:03:13.719 Secret History of the Religion with no name, you know, that doesn't necessarily 42 00:03:13.759 --> 00:03:16.360 say exactly what it is after reading the back though. It's about like ancient 43 00:03:16.919 --> 00:03:22.479 Greek Christian mysticism, because you know, like, what do you say, 44 00:03:22.719 --> 00:03:27.199 is that interesting? Yeah, it's it's really wild. But it's particularly wild 45 00:03:27.280 --> 00:03:30.479 because, over like the past few weeks or like a month or so, 46 00:03:30.599 --> 00:03:38.680 I've specifically been thinking about this because you might so, like the modern predominant 47 00:03:38.159 --> 00:03:45.479 religion in Greece and amongst like Greeks around the world is Christian Orthodox. You 48 00:03:45.479 --> 00:03:50.639 know, it's like their own kind of orthodox Christian belief system. But I 49 00:03:50.680 --> 00:03:53.800 was like thinking recently, like Okay, how did we go from a pantheon 50 00:03:54.159 --> 00:04:01.080 of powerful mystical gods to like Christianity just like generally like Greek culture. Yes, 51 00:04:01.280 --> 00:04:04.439 yeah, how it's a big leap. It's strange to me. It's 52 00:04:04.479 --> 00:04:08.800 really strange to me. Another thing that I've been thinking about is like, 53 00:04:09.879 --> 00:04:15.040 did that whole like kind of belief system and thought system of this pantheon of 54 00:04:15.079 --> 00:04:20.040 gods all representing different aspects of nature? Like, did that just dissolve? 55 00:04:20.720 --> 00:04:24.959 Is there no one out there that believes in that kind of you know thing? 56 00:04:25.040 --> 00:04:27.199 Yeah, I've always wondered that too, you know what I'm saying. 57 00:04:27.279 --> 00:04:30.639 Yeah, And this is like getting into exactly that. So you I don't 58 00:04:30.680 --> 00:04:38.720 know how flag in between you're talking about, Yeah, exactly. I imagine 59 00:04:38.720 --> 00:04:41.480 it's like anywhere you go around the world. Man, Like you go to 60 00:04:41.639 --> 00:04:45.079 a place like like I just went to Mexico, right, It's it's very 61 00:04:45.720 --> 00:04:50.279 there's a lot of Catholicism there, but then you see notes of like the 62 00:04:50.639 --> 00:04:56.879 local indigenous beliefs. I mean where I was in Puerto Varta, everywhere you 63 00:04:56.879 --> 00:05:00.480 walk around, it's the shamanism, the peote worship or whatever. It's like, 64 00:05:00.720 --> 00:05:04.519 I imagine it's probably the same in parts of Greece where it's like sure 65 00:05:04.519 --> 00:05:10.519 it's christianized, it's modernized, but they probably have elements of reverence or worship 66 00:05:10.560 --> 00:05:15.040 to some of these like ancient you know practices, Greek specific practices. Yeah. 67 00:05:15.079 --> 00:05:17.839 Like I just like kind of peaked at the Table of Contents and there's 68 00:05:17.879 --> 00:05:24.480 like a whole chapter about how they used ambrosia or like mead, you know, 69 00:05:25.319 --> 00:05:30.040 or like early types of beer and stuff as like a pseudo psychedelic you 70 00:05:30.079 --> 00:05:33.920 know. They yeah, yeah, they would like do these rituals with it 71 00:05:34.000 --> 00:05:38.439 and involved it and everybody would like drink it and whatever, and they had 72 00:05:38.639 --> 00:05:43.000 you know, like the whole Dioneasian rituals and like, yeah, shit like 73 00:05:43.000 --> 00:05:46.160 that. It's like, yeah, they're getting drunk and they're tripping and they're 74 00:05:46.199 --> 00:05:51.680 finding out crazy mystical shit. You know. It's what was that they're getting 75 00:05:51.759 --> 00:05:56.120 drunk? No, I don't have a problem, right, No, But 76 00:05:56.120 --> 00:06:00.279 that just made me realize that people do that today. They just don't think 77 00:06:00.279 --> 00:06:04.240 about it as ritualistic. Like what is going to a club dancing to music 78 00:06:04.279 --> 00:06:08.759 and getting drunk that's a dian Easian ritual? Well, I mean yeah, 79 00:06:08.879 --> 00:06:13.040 kind of or a multiple culture ritual Yeah, and nobody's like, oh, 80 00:06:13.079 --> 00:06:16.439 I'm going to ritualistically get drunk tonight. Yo. You know what though, 81 00:06:16.560 --> 00:06:21.800 when you start listening to the French disco club scene in the nineties, that's 82 00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:28.680 his Gregorian. Yeah, you know, like they get it, Yeah, 83 00:06:28.720 --> 00:06:32.959 they get it. Yeah. Can you imagine like being in the medieval era 84 00:06:33.000 --> 00:06:36.120 and like going to a disco and it's like beats with like Gregorian. That's 85 00:06:36.120 --> 00:06:40.120 what I fantasize about. This is a real kind of music. I listened 86 00:06:40.120 --> 00:06:43.680 to it. Yeah, we know, a right, trying to convince us 87 00:06:45.959 --> 00:06:47.879 they don't know what I mean. I forgot. I forgot that this goes 88 00:06:47.920 --> 00:06:50.519 out to people. Yeah it does. I forgot. You're right, you're 89 00:06:50.560 --> 00:06:56.480 right. Look up. Sadanists by Enigma. That's the one. Yeah, 90 00:06:56.480 --> 00:07:00.839 that's that's a secret deep cut like amongst the Bloods family. That's one of 91 00:07:00.920 --> 00:07:05.079 our favorite, most cherished and and just loved songs in our family. One 92 00:07:05.120 --> 00:07:11.439 more time, Uh Sadanis by Enigma. Let me says say yeah, like 93 00:07:11.639 --> 00:07:15.319 SA d E n E s s Back in the nineties, my dad had 94 00:07:15.399 --> 00:07:16.839 let me find the exact version. There's two versions of that song. Just 95 00:07:16.839 --> 00:07:20.759 play a little bit. Sadanis Prientheses Part one. It came out in nineteen 96 00:07:20.839 --> 00:07:25.240 ninety It's like some French disco song. But no, it's funny because in 97 00:07:25.279 --> 00:07:28.000 the nineties my dad had one of those CDs that you buy off the TV. 98 00:07:28.120 --> 00:07:31.240 It was called the CD off the TV. Remember they used to sell 99 00:07:31.240 --> 00:07:35.319 CDs on the TV. It was called Pure Moods nineteen ninety seven, and 100 00:07:35.360 --> 00:07:40.920 it had a bunch of it had like ya X files remix, just like 101 00:07:40.920 --> 00:07:43.560 a bunch of vibe music. I guess he saw the commercial and he bought 102 00:07:43.600 --> 00:07:46.079 it. And when we would go on road trips, like he'd be playing 103 00:07:46.079 --> 00:07:47.800 the CD over and over and that song was on there, and it's it's 104 00:07:47.839 --> 00:07:53.120 just like a legendary meme in our family. Privately, I recently let you 105 00:07:53.120 --> 00:07:55.600 guys in on it for the first time. Oh yeah, just within the 106 00:07:55.600 --> 00:07:58.439 past few months. It's honestly a bop. It's a bop. It really 107 00:07:58.480 --> 00:08:00.480 is a bop. And when you tried to find it the first time, 108 00:08:00.519 --> 00:08:03.079 it was like impossible. We couldn't find it because there's like a part one, 109 00:08:03.120 --> 00:08:05.480 a part two. There's different versions of it. But yeah, another 110 00:08:05.519 --> 00:08:11.040 thing that I want to talk about real quick is our new server and our 111 00:08:11.079 --> 00:08:13.879 Discord, thank god, because I wanted to talk about that. All right, 112 00:08:13.959 --> 00:08:16.279 Yeah, I've talked about it on full disclosure, but let them know, 113 00:08:16.800 --> 00:08:18.519 bro, it's it's it's you're talking about Aouheim, right, absolutely? 114 00:08:18.519 --> 00:08:22.879 Oh my god, dude. We for the last two weeks, so Nick, 115 00:08:22.199 --> 00:08:26.600 for the last year. Maybe how long have we had the discord about 116 00:08:26.600 --> 00:08:28.519 a year? Right? This year? Last year? Year? Right? 117 00:08:28.959 --> 00:08:31.480 No, it can't be two years. Maybe year and a half. It 118 00:08:31.480 --> 00:08:35.360 was last year, last March. No, we're coming up on two years. 119 00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:39.840 Well this coming March would be too. Dang, that's great. Yeah, 120 00:08:39.960 --> 00:08:43.519 yeah, it flies, it really does. Yeah. So for about 121 00:08:43.519 --> 00:08:48.279 a year now we've Nick has at least had at various points he's had a 122 00:08:48.320 --> 00:08:52.000 Minecraft server, which has done well. I personally am not a Minecraft player, 123 00:08:52.159 --> 00:08:56.799 so I just I can't get into Minecraft. So I've I've never really 124 00:08:56.919 --> 00:09:00.559 been involved with it, you know, but Nick and several of the the 125 00:09:00.600 --> 00:09:03.759 patrons and the discord have played Minecraft off and on for the last year. 126 00:09:03.320 --> 00:09:09.879 So Vaalheim recently came to Xbox and I was just like, dang, like 127 00:09:09.879 --> 00:09:13.279 that'd be really cool, or rather Blake. It was Blake, dude. 128 00:09:13.279 --> 00:09:16.720 It was like right after we started the Minecraft server we started. We do 129 00:09:16.759 --> 00:09:20.600 it in seasons, so we'll put up a server, leave it for a 130 00:09:20.600 --> 00:09:22.960 few months, and then once people get bored of it, we'll take it 131 00:09:22.000 --> 00:09:26.399 down, and then later a couple months after we'll do a new season whatever. 132 00:09:26.679 --> 00:09:30.159 We started this newest season and Blake was like, yo, I've never 133 00:09:30.159 --> 00:09:33.039 played Minecraft, which, by the way, Blake, you're insane. In 134 00:09:33.120 --> 00:09:37.360 two weeks he learned more about the game than I've known in over ten years. 135 00:09:37.639 --> 00:09:39.799 It's like, it's unbelievable. But by the way, who Blake is? 136 00:09:41.279 --> 00:09:43.080 What do you mean they don't know who Blake is? Oh yeah, 137 00:09:43.120 --> 00:09:48.120 shout out Blake Powers. Uh, this is our buddy from high school. 138 00:09:48.159 --> 00:09:52.279 I mean I think I might have even known him in middle school, but 139 00:09:52.399 --> 00:09:58.279 definitely high school. Uh. There's this infamous story about one of the first 140 00:09:58.320 --> 00:10:01.600 bands that Ryan and I were in and watching the Watchers. You can't even. 141 00:10:01.679 --> 00:10:05.039 You can't even we were in you know, you can't. We created 142 00:10:05.080 --> 00:10:09.200 it and then did nothing with it because we were kids, because yeah, 143 00:10:09.200 --> 00:10:11.679 we were children. Well, we did a couple things. What we did 144 00:10:11.840 --> 00:10:16.480 was we cleaned out a shed to put Ryan's drum set in, and then 145 00:10:16.600 --> 00:10:20.120 we made a design for a t shirt that never came out. Yeah. 146 00:10:20.320 --> 00:10:26.080 You know what's interesting that you might not remember Casey drew the design and then 147 00:10:26.240 --> 00:10:30.320 Blake digitized it. Really yeah, I didn't know that. Yes, he 148 00:10:30.440 --> 00:10:35.000 digitized. He would be the dude to do, like just just because I 149 00:10:35.080 --> 00:10:39.559 know. So there's this there's this like hilarious picture of the day that we 150 00:10:39.559 --> 00:10:43.399 were cleaning out the shed. We're all like standing around Ryan, Ryan as 151 00:10:43.440 --> 00:10:48.759 a cast because you had broken your wrist or I broke my arm. Yeah 152 00:10:48.840 --> 00:10:52.399 yeah my radio bone and Blake is in that picture. So anyway, uh, 153 00:10:52.600 --> 00:10:56.440 Blake, you know, after after high school moved to Florida. I 154 00:10:56.440 --> 00:10:58.279 haven't seen Blake in like thirteen or fourteen years. It's been a long long 155 00:10:58.360 --> 00:11:01.960 time, but I mean we were close with him in high school and dude, 156 00:11:03.039 --> 00:11:05.000 out of the blue a couple months ago, a few months ago or 157 00:11:05.000 --> 00:11:09.799 something, I get a message from him on Facebook out of nowhere. Hey, 158 00:11:09.799 --> 00:11:11.200 man, uh, I just want to let you know I just finished 159 00:11:11.200 --> 00:11:16.600 listening to every single episode of your podcast beginning to end in the last two 160 00:11:16.639 --> 00:11:22.559 weeks and two time speed Yes, he listened on two times, one hundred 161 00:11:22.559 --> 00:11:26.360 plus yeah episodes and he's like it changed my life. I love it so 162 00:11:26.480 --> 00:11:28.360 much. I love what you guys are doing. I'm proud of you, 163 00:11:28.440 --> 00:11:31.679 and like that meant the world already. But then he joined the Discord. 164 00:11:33.080 --> 00:11:37.000 He's like one of the most active people in there. He's the most he's 165 00:11:37.039 --> 00:11:39.120 he's just amazing. You're the best, Blake. Uh. Anyway, we're 166 00:11:39.120 --> 00:11:43.720 doing the Minecraft thing and he's like, hey, man, you play Valheim 167 00:11:43.200 --> 00:11:46.399 and I was like, yeah, totally, I have. Dude. I 168 00:11:46.440 --> 00:11:48.960 was like, dude, I have like two hundred something hours in Valheim. 169 00:11:48.000 --> 00:11:52.600 I've played a lot of Valheim. He's like, sick, I have three 170 00:11:52.639 --> 00:11:56.559 thousand hours in it. It's thirteen fifty oh okay, fourteen thirteen okay, 171 00:11:56.639 --> 00:12:01.679 he showed me on deck. Yeah, so I've played a lot of it. 172 00:12:01.679 --> 00:12:05.200 I have two hundred something hours. He has like six times what I 173 00:12:05.200 --> 00:12:09.480 have. And he's like, if you ever wanted to start a Valheim server, 174 00:12:09.039 --> 00:12:13.039 I'll start it. Yeah. So then next thing you know, I 175 00:12:13.200 --> 00:12:15.759 started talking to Blake. I was like, dude, no, no. 176 00:12:15.759 --> 00:12:18.440 We played Valheim one night and then the next day I was like, Blake, 177 00:12:18.519 --> 00:12:20.240 let's do it, and he was like okay, and we set up 178 00:12:20.240 --> 00:12:24.039 a server. So that's what we've been building the story to say is like, 179 00:12:24.080 --> 00:12:28.480 for the last two weeks we've actually been playing Valheim with Dang, We've 180 00:12:28.519 --> 00:12:31.960 got like ten plus people up in the server. Yeah, massive Viking Lodge. 181 00:12:31.000 --> 00:12:33.279 Like it's a lot of fun. It's one of the funnest times I've 182 00:12:33.279 --> 00:12:37.720 ever had, honestly, just playing with the people who who have our backs 183 00:12:37.759 --> 00:12:41.000 and support us and listen to the show. And it's just like good vibes. 184 00:12:41.639 --> 00:12:48.399 I'm honestly, yes, it is. I'm loving just the like dichotomy 185 00:12:48.519 --> 00:12:52.879 or the you know, just the feeling of like playing chilling in a video 186 00:12:52.960 --> 00:12:56.519 game with a bunch of like people who love the show. Yeah, and 187 00:12:56.759 --> 00:13:01.039 you know they they want to talk to us. We want to talk to 188 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:03.519 them. This just gives us like a really easy way to do that. 189 00:13:03.639 --> 00:13:09.519 Like we already sit around and play video games for hours, might as well 190 00:13:09.559 --> 00:13:13.200 play it with freaking you know, our our people. I already have thoughts 191 00:13:13.200 --> 00:13:16.639 too, like, you know, because because Valhem won't last forever, Like 192 00:13:16.679 --> 00:13:20.039 where can we go from there? I was thinking, bro, like when 193 00:13:20.120 --> 00:13:24.279 GTA six comes out, we'll have to do a BSS gang online. Oh 194 00:13:24.320 --> 00:13:28.480 and like and like, yeah, we'll make a BSS gang because there's you 195 00:13:28.480 --> 00:13:31.480 know those lobbies can be huge, like fifty players at least on GT five. 196 00:13:31.480 --> 00:13:33.919 I don't know GT six, right, How funny would it be if 197 00:13:33.919 --> 00:13:37.799 we had a BSS gang and we like ran servers and like, no, 198 00:13:37.799 --> 00:13:41.799 no, we we go out there with no weapons and we enlighten everyone. 199 00:13:41.919 --> 00:13:46.759 Oh that's true, Let's do the gang, Blake. Blake even had a 200 00:13:46.799 --> 00:13:48.840 funny idea he's I was talking about, so long story short. I went 201 00:13:48.840 --> 00:13:52.919 to Florida last week to visit my sister and me and my brother in law 202 00:13:52.000 --> 00:13:56.080 Jack, and like we were just saying, you know, it's just total 203 00:13:56.080 --> 00:13:58.080 synchronicity, Like we haven't talked to Blake since high school over ten years ago, 204 00:13:58.279 --> 00:14:01.120 and he happened to like thirty minutes away from my sister, you know, 205 00:14:01.200 --> 00:14:03.480 so I visited him. We hung out one day, like the whole 206 00:14:03.519 --> 00:14:05.759 day, and it was a great time, and I was telling him that. 207 00:14:05.799 --> 00:14:09.000 I was like, dude, I've been having so much fun with Alheim. 208 00:14:09.360 --> 00:14:11.080 And then the GT six trailer came out like the day before, so 209 00:14:11.159 --> 00:14:13.879 you know, we were talking about GK six and I was like, dude, 210 00:14:13.879 --> 00:14:16.759 how funny would that be if we had a gang on GT six? 211 00:14:16.879 --> 00:14:20.440 And Blake made the joke. I did not. I'm not aware of this. 212 00:14:20.480 --> 00:14:22.720 Like, I don't know that much about GTA lore, but apparently there's 213 00:14:22.759 --> 00:14:26.480 like a religious group in there. It's like a meme, but they like 214 00:14:26.279 --> 00:14:31.240 worship the light. And he was like, how funny would it be if 215 00:14:31.320 --> 00:14:33.440 we if we were like, you know, acolytes of that group in the 216 00:14:33.480 --> 00:14:37.639 game. Yo, you know what I mean? If we're gonna do that, 217 00:14:37.840 --> 00:14:41.840 Like it's gonna be two years before that. Oh I know, let's 218 00:14:41.879 --> 00:14:45.919 just started fantasizing. Let's just started in GTA five. Bro, I am 219 00:14:46.360 --> 00:14:48.759 so down. We need to finish the game, Ryan, huh, I 220 00:14:48.759 --> 00:14:52.480 should Hey, like, I've never been in the count of five, never 221 00:14:52.519 --> 00:14:56.960 be either, Bro? How have I heard? I have beat this game 222 00:14:56.440 --> 00:15:00.559 four times, but it's like one of the only games you've ever played though, 223 00:15:00.639 --> 00:15:03.559 Yeah it really is. I probably played a thousand videos, but I 224 00:15:03.600 --> 00:15:05.840 just want to take this moment serious. I have played the game, and 225 00:15:05.919 --> 00:15:09.080 y'all have it? Okay? Hold up? That brings up an interesting question, 226 00:15:09.159 --> 00:15:13.320 Alex. Have you played Red Dead Redemption? Yes? I finished it 227 00:15:13.440 --> 00:15:16.919 finally, the second one. Yes, Red Dead two. I haven't played 228 00:15:16.919 --> 00:15:20.559 one, but I played two. One is old, bro, Yeah, 229 00:15:20.000 --> 00:15:24.559 one's old. But two two is the prequel to one, it is, 230 00:15:24.720 --> 00:15:28.519 right, So uh yeah, I cried at the end of that game. 231 00:15:28.600 --> 00:15:31.759 Oh yeah, dude, it's it's fair. Game is immaculate. I got 232 00:15:31.799 --> 00:15:33.519 to the end. I never beat it, but dude, it's awesome, 233 00:15:35.159 --> 00:15:37.519 awesome. I just the story is amazing. Yeah yeah, and I just 234 00:15:37.519 --> 00:15:41.759 am a sucker for some cowboys stuff. Of course, we know, we 235 00:15:41.799 --> 00:15:45.919 know if they made a red Dead Redemption that was about surfing or something like 236 00:15:45.919 --> 00:15:48.320 that, Like I mean, I'll probably never put it down. All I'm 237 00:15:48.360 --> 00:15:54.559 saying is that if if I had a button to go back to eighteen eighteen 238 00:15:54.679 --> 00:15:58.720 whatever and be a cowboy, like like a blown be a part of that 239 00:15:58.759 --> 00:16:03.960 game. Okay, you play as well. Okay, Okay, this brings 240 00:16:04.039 --> 00:16:07.559 up an interesting question. Now, would you hit that button even if it 241 00:16:07.600 --> 00:16:12.159 means leaving everyone you love behind? Yes? Well, oh my god. 242 00:16:12.200 --> 00:16:15.159 I have a better option though, because, like, literally, me and 243 00:16:15.240 --> 00:16:19.159 you could just like schedule a Saturday coming up where we get together and we 244 00:16:19.200 --> 00:16:25.440 do like intimate Yellowstone role play. Oh that's not where I thought that was 245 00:16:25.480 --> 00:16:29.720 going. When I say no, and when I say intimate, I only 246 00:16:29.759 --> 00:16:33.200 just mean like no one else is inbided sure, that's all. I mean, 247 00:16:33.639 --> 00:16:36.559 we're the only ones in the room, and we role play like we're 248 00:16:36.639 --> 00:16:40.440 characters from Yellowstone, Right. Yeah, sure, I'm not going to say 249 00:16:40.480 --> 00:16:45.480 yes as quickly. You might still say yes, but not as quickly. 250 00:16:45.799 --> 00:16:48.799 You don't like that idea. I like it. It's not that I don't 251 00:16:48.000 --> 00:16:52.480 like the idea. I'm just not going to say yes as quickly. Oh 252 00:16:52.600 --> 00:16:55.039 God, I can get it, yes, listen, I can squeeze it. 253 00:16:55.080 --> 00:17:00.039 Yes, now you're talking about squeezing intimately metaphor. I don't know anyway. 254 00:17:02.120 --> 00:17:04.839 I just picked up GTA five on Steam. It was on sale for 255 00:17:04.880 --> 00:17:07.559 ten bucks. All right, So have you started playing the campaign now? 256 00:17:07.599 --> 00:17:11.000 I haven't even touched it. You've been playing Valheim, brother, Yes, 257 00:17:11.039 --> 00:17:15.880 honestly, we've been playing Valheim, and I don't think I've been playing anything 258 00:17:15.000 --> 00:17:18.640 other than Valheim. I haven't wanted to. I'm not trying to get in 259 00:17:18.640 --> 00:17:22.000 the way of Valheim here, Nick, But I need you to beat the 260 00:17:22.039 --> 00:17:25.759 game before Ryan does, so then we can gang up on Ryan and make 261 00:17:25.799 --> 00:17:29.759 him finish five what GTA? Yeah? How long is a campaign? Like 262 00:17:29.799 --> 00:17:33.759 freaking fifty hours? Like? It's really not that it's a big game. 263 00:17:33.799 --> 00:17:37.799 I'll try to say it's not long. Okay, maybe maybe it got shorter 264 00:17:37.880 --> 00:17:41.559 on my fourth play through. Yeah, yeah, maybe it did. Yeah, 265 00:17:41.559 --> 00:17:45.160 because once you beat a campaign, you know the through line of all 266 00:17:45.200 --> 00:17:49.160 the main quests, you can just rush right through it, like you know, 267 00:17:49.279 --> 00:17:55.200 playing Skyrim twelve years later, you could barrel through the story and be 268 00:17:55.359 --> 00:17:57.880 clear, I'm just talking about the main storyline, and when you get done, 269 00:17:57.920 --> 00:18:02.319 you're like fifty eight per sent done, right, and then there's another 270 00:18:02.519 --> 00:18:06.160 there's another like what wait, so you can just rush through the main storyline. 271 00:18:06.200 --> 00:18:07.519 Yeah, I just do that, and there's like all the side quests 272 00:18:07.559 --> 00:18:11.599 and stuff that add to the percentage, just like just like Red Dead most 273 00:18:11.599 --> 00:18:15.400 games, you get done with Red Dead and you're like seventy eight percent through. 274 00:18:15.519 --> 00:18:18.839 I didn't know that, yeah yeah yeah. And then honestly, the 275 00:18:18.880 --> 00:18:23.599 whole GTA online thing is really sick. Yeah we make a gang. Yeah, 276 00:18:23.680 --> 00:18:27.319 yeah, we're motorcycle club or that too. Oh my god. The 277 00:18:27.359 --> 00:18:32.200 other day, this is so ridiculous. I can't believe I saw this. 278 00:18:32.200 --> 00:18:36.880 This was maybe yesterday, Yes, it was yesterday. My brother, my 279 00:18:37.000 --> 00:18:41.079 dad and I were driving. We went to go early in the morning before 280 00:18:41.119 --> 00:18:42.720 we started work. We went to pick up a washer form. My grandma 281 00:18:44.200 --> 00:18:47.359 nice and we picked it up. And on the way over there, I 282 00:18:47.440 --> 00:18:53.000 saw a biker church. It's called Freedom Biker Church. I know about that. 283 00:18:53.559 --> 00:18:56.039 Here's the funny. I know people that went there. Really, I 284 00:18:56.079 --> 00:19:00.279 don't want to say sure, sure, yeah. Here's the funny part. 285 00:19:00.359 --> 00:19:03.440 We passed by it one way and we only saw one side of the building, 286 00:19:03.920 --> 00:19:04.799 and I was like, we were losing it. We were like, 287 00:19:06.000 --> 00:19:08.799 that's a biker church's yeah yeah. We were like, what is a biker 288 00:19:08.880 --> 00:19:11.880 church? We're just joking, just cracking up about it or whatever. And 289 00:19:11.920 --> 00:19:17.799 I was joking like, dude, there's no pews or seats or anything. 290 00:19:17.920 --> 00:19:21.359 They just drive up to the altar and whatever. Right, dude, that 291 00:19:21.359 --> 00:19:25.559 would be wait. Wait. On the way back, we saw the other 292 00:19:25.640 --> 00:19:30.839 side of the building. There's no doors into the building. It's only garages. 293 00:19:30.799 --> 00:19:34.240 And dude, the building is not that big and the garage doors are 294 00:19:34.440 --> 00:19:41.119 massive. I'm thinking, yes, I'm thinking they literally drive in park, 295 00:19:41.279 --> 00:19:45.920 turn the bike off, and listen to the sermon. Honestly, I would 296 00:19:45.039 --> 00:19:49.039 do that. But I was also joking like, instead of applause, everybody 297 00:19:49.200 --> 00:19:56.119 just like yeah, yeah, but a biker church, said so Biker Church 298 00:19:56.440 --> 00:20:00.440 is what we're gonna do in GTA. Hell yeah, well we'll just like 299 00:20:00.480 --> 00:20:06.039 we'll just like do episodes of the podcast like yeah, yeah, live for 300 00:20:06.079 --> 00:20:07.880 Nothing but bikers. Do you remember? Dude? That would be a sweet 301 00:20:07.880 --> 00:20:14.160 Patreon thing to do. No, I'm serious, because you wanted to do 302 00:20:14.359 --> 00:20:18.119 uh what was it? No? Virtual reality? This is getting out of 303 00:20:18.160 --> 00:20:26.880 hand. Bss Fest online. This thought of six that's where we're gonna hold 304 00:20:26.920 --> 00:20:30.480 the first bss Fest is inside of grand the thought. I have always wanted 305 00:20:30.480 --> 00:20:33.039 to do some sort of virtual thing, Like remember we were talking about like 306 00:20:33.279 --> 00:20:36.200 Minecraft, what if we did an episode of Minecraft that was just a primitive 307 00:20:36.240 --> 00:20:41.480 idea you wanted to do the what was it called the VR? Yeah, 308 00:20:41.559 --> 00:20:45.359 yeah, yeah, in VR episode. I'm just saying maybe for a Patreon 309 00:20:45.440 --> 00:20:49.000 perk down the road, we could do a virtual episode, don't you do? 310 00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:52.720 You know I thought you had a VR thing. I do. I 311 00:20:52.759 --> 00:20:55.319 thought so, but I don't really have anybody else who has one. To 312 00:20:55.599 --> 00:20:59.519 a quest yeah question to Oculus question, yeah yeah, yeah, Okay, 313 00:20:59.680 --> 00:21:02.000 you can do the whole like meta thing and you could go yeah, but 314 00:21:02.039 --> 00:21:04.000 it's like just me going in by myself. So it's like, you know, 315 00:21:04.119 --> 00:21:07.559 I still want to do something with that in my mind is like nothing's 316 00:21:07.599 --> 00:21:11.960 ever closed, you know, we can always revisit or or we could do 317 00:21:11.119 --> 00:21:18.440 Nintendo Golf episode. Oh my god, Alex, I can only hear you 318 00:21:18.519 --> 00:21:22.720 talk about doing Nintendo Golf so much without you actually going and doing it on 319 00:21:22.799 --> 00:21:26.880 the internet before I get furious. Look at your shirt. Okay, that 320 00:21:26.960 --> 00:21:32.799 actually I stumbled onto the Nintendo Switch sub reddit on accident. Oh bullshit, 321 00:21:33.000 --> 00:21:36.839 on accident. No, the Switch sports, I mean right, and I 322 00:21:36.920 --> 00:21:40.079 was scrolling through the homepage and there's only one guy on there who's better than 323 00:21:40.119 --> 00:21:42.359 me at golf. No, but I also hear that you go online, 324 00:21:42.359 --> 00:21:45.039 it gets harder. Hey, I bet on GTA I could snipe you, 325 00:21:45.079 --> 00:21:48.400 dude. I bet you kid, I bet I could snipe you man. 326 00:21:52.279 --> 00:21:59.480 Oh my god, bro, I'm telling you man like Valheim is, since 327 00:21:59.480 --> 00:22:03.559 playing that game with the omis in the Discord, I have not wanted to 328 00:22:03.599 --> 00:22:07.200 play another game. No, yeah, me too, And I just honestly 329 00:22:07.240 --> 00:22:11.759 am loving the vibe of getting in there and playing games with all the vibe. 330 00:22:11.960 --> 00:22:14.799 Yeah, I want to keep doing it, and honestly, like whenever 331 00:22:14.839 --> 00:22:18.359 the Valheim thing kind of dies down, which hopefully will be a while because 332 00:22:18.359 --> 00:22:21.759 it's a lot of fun right now. Like hopefully we'll just jump right into 333 00:22:21.799 --> 00:22:25.680 another game and we'll just keep doing that and we could even get to a 334 00:22:25.720 --> 00:22:29.400 point someday where we like officially schedule it out and make it. Yeah, 335 00:22:29.599 --> 00:22:30.880 Blake had that idea. He was like, y'all should have some sort of 336 00:22:32.039 --> 00:22:34.440 a schedule. Yeah, you have a yearly schedule, like showing what games 337 00:22:34.440 --> 00:22:37.240 we're gonna be playing what months, or it doesn't have to be the whole 338 00:22:37.319 --> 00:22:40.680 year. I don't know something like I thought about the Lingo Fortnite thing, 339 00:22:40.720 --> 00:22:41.680 but I was like, uh, I don't know, because it's too similar 340 00:22:41.720 --> 00:22:47.359 to Valheim. It's very similar. It's pretty sick though, Like I don't 341 00:22:47.440 --> 00:22:51.599 I don't you know, I don't play Fortnite, but that was awesome. 342 00:22:52.279 --> 00:22:55.759 I saw the trailer and then my nephew Jonah, was like, hey, 343 00:22:55.839 --> 00:22:57.119 let's play it, and I was like, okay, whatever. Basically, 344 00:22:57.160 --> 00:23:00.200 with Jonah, if he tells me he wants to play something with me, 345 00:23:00.400 --> 00:23:03.799 I'll just an I don't care what it is. Even if he told me 346 00:23:03.839 --> 00:23:07.240 like he wanted me to play regular Fortnite with him, I'd be like, 347 00:23:07.279 --> 00:23:08.559 all right, I'll play with it. He's my little nephew. You know, 348 00:23:08.559 --> 00:23:15.000 I'll play whatever he wrote. That kid had me playing row Blocks. 349 00:23:17.799 --> 00:23:22.480 You know that's a VR now really like recently. Yeah, OK, think 350 00:23:22.519 --> 00:23:25.799 about that. Yeah, think about the applications of that. Yeah, it's 351 00:23:25.799 --> 00:23:30.359 pretty insane. It's also kind of scary because like it's mostly children. Yeah, 352 00:23:30.440 --> 00:23:32.799 you know, yeah, I've never actually played. But you know what's 353 00:23:32.839 --> 00:23:38.079 funny is we were playing like a because basically the way that Roadblocks works, 354 00:23:38.359 --> 00:23:44.559 I guess is like there's no like one version of rob there's no like base 355 00:23:44.759 --> 00:23:48.759 version of Roadblocks. It's like people make different games to play within it, 356 00:23:48.160 --> 00:23:53.759 and there was there is currently the most popular, like server in it is 357 00:23:55.119 --> 00:23:59.000 a one piece game really yeah, and I mean, like, dude, 358 00:23:59.039 --> 00:24:04.039 it's Roadblocks, Like, don't get too excited. But for Roadblocks, it 359 00:24:04.200 --> 00:24:08.559 was like kind of cool. Like there's like a hundred different devil fruit powers 360 00:24:08.599 --> 00:24:11.519 that you can get and you have to like find them and you actually have 361 00:24:11.559 --> 00:24:15.640 to sail to all the islands. That's cool. You get to choose to 362 00:24:15.680 --> 00:24:19.160 either be a pirate or a marine, like that's cool. It's kind of 363 00:24:19.279 --> 00:24:23.359 that's cool. Yeah. The gameplay is like obviously like so clunky, and 364 00:24:23.440 --> 00:24:29.480 basic and visually it's a nightmare. It looks like little legos running around. 365 00:24:29.559 --> 00:24:33.920 It looks worse than it looks like if like my you know, four year 366 00:24:33.960 --> 00:24:40.480 old niece made legos out of play though. Bro obviously, our our buddy 367 00:24:40.559 --> 00:24:44.319 Jacob, shout out Jacob. He you know he has a daughter. Obviously. 368 00:24:44.480 --> 00:24:47.319 I'm just saying because the listener is not sure, you know, but 369 00:24:48.400 --> 00:24:52.400 yeah, when she was younger, she she loved roadblocks and it was funny 370 00:24:52.400 --> 00:24:55.799 man, Like anytime you be at Jacob's house, like just staying, you 371 00:24:55.839 --> 00:25:00.480 know, and he'd be like, look at what she's playing, and it's 372 00:25:00.519 --> 00:25:04.559 always horror. It's a horror. Yeah, yeah, that is horror, 373 00:25:04.599 --> 00:25:11.000 specifically always that's a thousand percent Jacob's daughter. It's hilarious just walking in like 374 00:25:11.079 --> 00:25:14.119 seeing it, like, you know, that's funny, man, good memories 375 00:25:14.160 --> 00:25:18.680 walking in on like weird roadblocks games. Yeah. Hey, I wanted to 376 00:25:18.759 --> 00:25:22.359 kind of just catch up with you boys and just see how things have been 377 00:25:22.440 --> 00:25:26.119 lately. I never I've been good. I never got the opportunity to thank 378 00:25:26.160 --> 00:25:29.799 Flagg and Slayer for my book. Oh please, we did your book, 379 00:25:30.400 --> 00:25:33.160 and you never showed your crystal. He also sent us any crystals. I 380 00:25:33.559 --> 00:25:36.799 got a I'm not sure. I think this is amethyst. It didn't say 381 00:25:36.880 --> 00:25:38.400 it was just in there looks like it. Yeah, it looks like it 382 00:25:38.440 --> 00:25:42.279 to me, at least chevron amethyst. But I got an amethyst crystal and 383 00:25:42.519 --> 00:25:49.359 two books. Actually, he sent me a Campo dell Colo meteorite, which 384 00:25:49.599 --> 00:25:56.599 is like a meteorite that fell like four to six thousand years ago. It's 385 00:25:56.240 --> 00:26:02.599 crazy and Campo dell Colo, I guess translates to field of heaven wow, 386 00:26:02.920 --> 00:26:07.119 which is unreal. This is just like a tiny little piece of a six 387 00:26:07.240 --> 00:26:11.960 thousand year old meteor that fell to the earth. I got these two books. 388 00:26:12.000 --> 00:26:17.200 I got The Thinkers of the East by Idri's Shah. It's a book 389 00:26:17.240 --> 00:26:21.160 on Sufi teaching, which is esoteric Islam. I thought that was pretty cool. 390 00:26:21.599 --> 00:26:26.079 And then I got In Search of the Miraculous The Teachings of g I 391 00:26:26.160 --> 00:26:30.680 Gurdjieff. Remember on Armali episode she was talking about gerdiff a little bit back 392 00:26:30.680 --> 00:26:34.920 from the Borderline. Yeah, this is a classic exploration of Eastern religious thinking 393 00:26:34.920 --> 00:26:37.720 and philosophy. So that was cool. Like he handpicked what books and what 394 00:26:37.759 --> 00:26:41.079 crystals and what It was a really thoughtful gift. That's the first thing. 395 00:26:41.119 --> 00:26:45.319 I said, like, this is such a thoughtful gift. It's crazy, 396 00:26:45.400 --> 00:26:49.079 Like it was so thoughtful. He even knew like the specific niche of thing 397 00:26:49.160 --> 00:26:53.000 that I was trying to read about. So thoughtful that I didn't get left 398 00:26:53.000 --> 00:26:59.880 out exactly even the gifts. Yeah, gifts. I got a similar book 399 00:26:59.880 --> 00:27:03.920 to Ryan, The Tales of the Dervishes. So I can't wait to figure 400 00:27:03.920 --> 00:27:07.160 out what would you call me similar gift to Ryan Nook? You said, 401 00:27:07.200 --> 00:27:11.359 Ryan, d you heard that right now, it'll come out, it'll come 402 00:27:11.400 --> 00:27:15.000 out. And then he also, I didn't get a crystal, but he 403 00:27:15.119 --> 00:27:22.400 sent me a ancient Roman coin, Constantine one, so that stoked about that. 404 00:27:22.920 --> 00:27:26.039 Yeah, that's sick. Yeah, I'm like, I'm trying to figure 405 00:27:26.039 --> 00:27:27.759 out. I'm like, how can I wear this? Oh, dude, 406 00:27:27.839 --> 00:27:33.680 Actually, I know a guy in Fayetteville who this is no joke. He 407 00:27:33.799 --> 00:27:37.720 has a business turning ancient coins into jewelry. That's cool. I'm not kidding. 408 00:27:38.079 --> 00:27:42.640 Actually, you know Tommy, that's his dad. That might hit my 409 00:27:42.720 --> 00:27:47.920 jeweler if they can do a little. He's made like multiple members of our 410 00:27:48.000 --> 00:27:53.519 family rings out of Greek drachma coins like that'lace. It would be it would 411 00:27:53.519 --> 00:27:56.680 be sick. Yeah, so if you want to like turn that into a 412 00:27:56.720 --> 00:28:00.759 necklace or something, Alex, you could even get that like set into a 413 00:28:00.880 --> 00:28:04.559 ring. That would be crazy, dude, hard, that would get so 414 00:28:04.759 --> 00:28:11.960 hard, like a tiny little kiss my ring. It's constantine. It's just 415 00:28:11.000 --> 00:28:15.680 the energy that you said that with ring. I make you guys do it 416 00:28:15.680 --> 00:28:17.960 when you walk in here. Well, I'm sorry, I said it weird. 417 00:28:17.960 --> 00:28:22.200 I'm just I'm just a little famished of energy after our intimate Yellowstone role 418 00:28:22.240 --> 00:28:26.839 play. Okay that it didn't happen though, Oh it was. It was. 419 00:28:27.200 --> 00:28:30.240 He's been sitting over here thinking about that in the entire time. Because 420 00:28:30.279 --> 00:28:33.599 you think about it so much, it becomes real, right, yeah, 421 00:28:33.640 --> 00:28:41.000 physically, so you're over there physically exhausting yourself, fantasizing about you and Alex 422 00:28:41.119 --> 00:28:48.559 playing Yellowstone role play. Intimate yellow Oh sorry, intimate, Like it just 423 00:28:48.599 --> 00:28:51.440 means we're alone. Yeah, it's just semantics. It just means no one 424 00:28:51.480 --> 00:28:52.160 else is invited. No, no, no, no, no, the 425 00:28:52.279 --> 00:28:56.680 guys are not interested. You're not, dude. The language is so intentional, 426 00:28:56.759 --> 00:29:02.759 and you know it. Don't act like it's no, it's not semantics. 427 00:29:03.079 --> 00:29:06.960 You chose those words specifically and now you're choosing more words specifically, you 428 00:29:07.000 --> 00:29:11.680 say you're exhausted, you're depleted. What did you say? I'm depleted, 429 00:29:11.200 --> 00:29:18.839 famished, famished famish. That means there's a hunger presence. I've basically excreted 430 00:29:18.880 --> 00:29:23.440 all my staminas. Okay, dude, are you for real playing the semantics 431 00:29:23.440 --> 00:29:27.119 game with me right now? And you're using words like excreted, it's it 432 00:29:27.240 --> 00:29:32.519 just means like to shed something you know, shed is not as as wild. 433 00:29:33.240 --> 00:29:36.440 To be fair, you're getting better. You're selling that I've been shedding 434 00:29:36.440 --> 00:29:40.440 my vigor. Okay, all right, all right, dude, you're you're 435 00:29:40.519 --> 00:29:45.359 leaning back into the ship. Okay, I mean you know, it's just 436 00:29:45.400 --> 00:29:49.920 the way it is, and I'm not gonna change. I'm not gonna change 437 00:29:51.039 --> 00:29:56.680 the way he's looking right at me when he said that it's intimate. It's 438 00:29:56.720 --> 00:30:00.759 intimate. You have to look. That's the first rule of intimacy eye contact. 439 00:30:00.920 --> 00:30:07.000 When when role playing as cowboys from a TV show, you do realize, 440 00:30:07.079 --> 00:30:10.359 you do realize that those cowboys are in modern times, and you didn't 441 00:30:10.400 --> 00:30:12.799 even notice that if we're gonna role play as cowboys, it's not gonna be 442 00:30:12.839 --> 00:30:17.079 modern times. So it's not gonna be Yellowstone. No, No, it 443 00:30:17.079 --> 00:30:19.279 would definitely have to be but our DRP. If you want to do it 444 00:30:19.359 --> 00:30:25.400 like an Arthur and Joseia kind of thing, or like Arthur and Dutch thing, 445 00:30:26.039 --> 00:30:29.920 you know, then it wouldn't be as quick of a Yes, I 446 00:30:29.960 --> 00:30:33.319 was thinking more like Jackie and Jimmy. Who's that it's just me and him? 447 00:30:33.359 --> 00:30:40.119 Are cowboy versions? Where did those names? Wait? Wait wait, 448 00:30:40.319 --> 00:30:45.440 I called Jimmy. One of them is named Jackie. Yeah, and Jimmy. 449 00:30:45.279 --> 00:30:51.759 Okay, Jackie and Jimmy are probably the least Yeah, they're probably the 450 00:30:51.880 --> 00:30:57.240 least cowboy names I've ever heard of in my whole entire life. Jackie and 451 00:30:57.319 --> 00:31:03.359 Jimmy. That's like you could have picked like Timothy and Fred what I mean? 452 00:31:03.480 --> 00:31:06.240 Yeah? And those are like that just it just came to me in 453 00:31:06.279 --> 00:31:08.480 that moment, you know, dude, those those are probably just as far 454 00:31:08.599 --> 00:31:11.359 off. Yeah, No, that's what I'm saying. If a cowboy rolled 455 00:31:11.440 --> 00:31:14.559 up to me and said, yo, my name is Timothy, I'd be 456 00:31:14.599 --> 00:31:17.799 like, you're fucking yeah. But if he came up and said Jimmy, 457 00:31:17.960 --> 00:31:22.079 you would feel more convinced. Jimmy, Yeah, I'd say Jimmy and Jackie 458 00:31:22.640 --> 00:31:26.599 you brothers. They're not brothers. Okay, they're not brothers. They're very 459 00:31:26.599 --> 00:31:33.759 close friends. How how close I mean? You know, I don't want 460 00:31:33.759 --> 00:31:37.680 to get into like the privacy of what they do alone, you know. 461 00:31:37.039 --> 00:31:42.480 Okay, Okay, So there just even insinuating that there is privacy, and 462 00:31:42.519 --> 00:31:47.759 there there needs to be the point of the intimate role play session is because 463 00:31:47.799 --> 00:31:51.839 no one else is invited sessions. It's like, why would you that don't 464 00:31:51.920 --> 00:31:56.200 understand what you're doing, right, they would judge? Of course, yeah, 465 00:31:56.240 --> 00:31:59.640 of course, and you and we can't have that in our intimate Yellowstone 466 00:31:59.720 --> 00:32:02.240 roll play. Well, we scrapped Yellowstone Yellowstones out, dude, Yeah, 467 00:32:02.240 --> 00:32:07.000 stick with the r D r P R R D r P. Okay, 468 00:32:07.279 --> 00:32:09.680 I like it, man, You guys look, I want to see you 469 00:32:09.720 --> 00:32:14.319 manifest this into real life. I really I want to. Basically we post 470 00:32:14.319 --> 00:32:19.000 on Instagram we have cowboy hats? Yeah? Do we have cowboy hats in 471 00:32:19.039 --> 00:32:21.599 the building right now? We do? Actually, Christmas, hang on, 472 00:32:21.799 --> 00:32:24.240 because we might could do we might could go ahead and act this out. 473 00:32:24.279 --> 00:32:28.119 We can actually we should You want to act this out? Yeah, you're 474 00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:30.839 gonna have to dig up in there in the prop Ben prop Honestly, dude, 475 00:32:31.039 --> 00:32:36.680 what better episode to to try something like this out? Nobody's watching this? 476 00:32:36.720 --> 00:32:40.359 Well, this is this Nobody is watching this. No, they're watching 477 00:32:40.400 --> 00:32:44.480 then, and this, this is a taste of what is to come. 478 00:32:45.079 --> 00:32:51.480 This is a taste of all get on the green boys. Uh well, 479 00:32:52.119 --> 00:32:53.720 have we announced that? No, and we don't have to. I'm just 480 00:32:53.720 --> 00:32:58.440 saying it's a taste of what's to come. Right by taste taste, let 481 00:32:58.480 --> 00:33:01.000 them, let them, let them give more to the imagination. Okay, 482 00:33:01.400 --> 00:33:05.359 you am I Is there a part for me to play in this or No? 483 00:33:05.839 --> 00:33:08.039 I'm not invited because I don't respect the intimacy. No, you're invited 484 00:33:08.039 --> 00:33:13.319 to this one. I'm the voyeur' the what I'm sorry, I meant to 485 00:33:13.359 --> 00:33:19.200 say viewer, not voyeur. That I don't know what you're talking about there, 486 00:33:19.279 --> 00:33:22.160 man, Yeah, I know, I'm just talking about viewing. Okay, 487 00:33:22.920 --> 00:33:27.119 Okay, bear with us for a second, folks, we're suiting up. 488 00:33:28.000 --> 00:33:30.400 You know this is all for you. Let's just remember this is all 489 00:33:30.480 --> 00:33:37.039 for our lovely viewers. Okay, let me give you guys a setting. 490 00:33:37.640 --> 00:33:40.400 Let me give you guys a little intro. Here. Here we go, 491 00:33:42.240 --> 00:33:44.680 quiet, quiet, quiet on the set. Okay, here we go. 492 00:33:45.920 --> 00:33:52.480 Welcome back, y'all. The day was cold, the night was colder, 493 00:33:53.559 --> 00:34:01.079 and two lone cowboys found each other on one another's path. Could they find 494 00:34:01.160 --> 00:34:09.880 refuge within one another? Let's tune in and find that Pardner. We come 495 00:34:09.920 --> 00:34:16.400 in on our two cowboys, Jackie and Jimmy, passing passing one another on 496 00:34:16.440 --> 00:34:30.360 a crossroads. Jimmy found I found wait, wait, accidentally we have Oh 497 00:34:30.400 --> 00:34:34.440 okay, I found this dazzling crystal that reminds me of the gleam in your 498 00:34:34.519 --> 00:34:38.519 eyes. Why, thank you, Jackie. That's a nice looking crystal right 499 00:34:38.599 --> 00:34:53.639 there. It's nice and thick and round. That looked really nice in my 500 00:34:53.800 --> 00:35:00.719 saddle bag. Here. What do you say? What do you say? 501 00:35:00.760 --> 00:35:06.719 We tie up and hog tie rob this motherfucker. I think that's a great 502 00:35:06.760 --> 00:35:10.440 idea, Jackie. That's taken for all his pennies. You're gonna find that 503 00:35:10.519 --> 00:35:14.440 hard. You thought it was like that. We're actually hard cowboys, bro, 504 00:35:14.639 --> 00:35:17.360 You're hardest. We're hard as nail. You guys are so hard and 505 00:35:17.440 --> 00:35:23.039 intimate guys. You guys are hard as nails and intimate. We're hard as 506 00:35:23.079 --> 00:35:28.159 nails, bro. That's that's is that as far as it goes, I 507 00:35:28.199 --> 00:35:30.960 think that's the and then we rolled into the bank and got shot. And 508 00:35:31.079 --> 00:35:36.039 at the end of the story, that's the legacy of Jackie and Jimmy. 509 00:35:37.199 --> 00:35:40.480 That ballad, the Ballad of Jackie and Jimmy. Wow, honestly, fucking 510 00:35:40.519 --> 00:35:45.000 bravo boys. Yeah that that that took a lot out of me. Thank 511 00:35:45.039 --> 00:35:46.360 you. That took a lot out of me. Yeah. Let's keep the 512 00:35:46.400 --> 00:35:51.280 hats on though, Okay, yeah, sure, keep the hats the shamanic 513 00:35:51.360 --> 00:35:53.599 art of act. No, Alex, put your hat back on, buddy, 514 00:35:53.960 --> 00:35:58.039 Come on, you gotta be you gotta embody. Wait. So I 515 00:35:58.119 --> 00:36:00.880 gathered from that that he is he's Jimmy Jimmy. Yeah, he claimed it. 516 00:36:00.880 --> 00:36:06.360 I'm Jackie, He's Jimmy, You're Jackie, I'm the I'm the ever 517 00:36:06.440 --> 00:36:10.320 present Voyeur. Well, oh no, dude, you're you're you're the voice. 518 00:36:12.480 --> 00:36:17.920 That's my name broke Backy, he wrote, Backy the Cowboy. Yeah, 519 00:36:17.960 --> 00:36:22.320 wow, dude, he said, that's terrible. That's terrible. Okay, 520 00:36:22.360 --> 00:36:28.079 now you just made it really difficult to like get into a serious conversation. 521 00:36:28.159 --> 00:36:30.280 But you know what, I'm glad that it happened. Let's have a 522 00:36:30.440 --> 00:36:34.119 Let's have a real serious conversation with these hats on. Okay, that's my 523 00:36:34.159 --> 00:36:37.079 favorite thing to do is wear funny hats during serious situations. Yeah, because 524 00:36:37.159 --> 00:36:45.920 well, no, just just during life, because I feel like, hang 525 00:36:45.960 --> 00:36:50.159 on, I'm noticing a little Southern drawl coming out of you wearing the hat, 526 00:36:50.480 --> 00:36:53.639 he says, just during live. Yeah, I love wearing a funny 527 00:36:53.639 --> 00:36:58.840 hat because it makes me think of like the Gardenome or the village Wizard or 528 00:36:59.239 --> 00:37:04.159 you know. It's just kind of like cuts through the bs and just establishes 529 00:37:04.199 --> 00:37:09.719 you right there as being in a different plane from anyone else. I feel 530 00:37:09.719 --> 00:37:13.159 that it sends a message. It does. It sends a message. It's 531 00:37:13.199 --> 00:37:16.639 kind of like when you're in the ancient city of Venice and they're throwing a 532 00:37:16.719 --> 00:37:21.119 massacre. Okay, okay, continue, Sorry, sorry, wait, but 533 00:37:21.199 --> 00:37:24.559 what do they do and you get to be your true self because no one 534 00:37:24.599 --> 00:37:30.280 knows who's who. You're talking like that too. What's happening right now? 535 00:37:30.320 --> 00:37:34.199 The two of you are literally like becoming cowboys in front of my eyes. 536 00:37:34.760 --> 00:37:37.000 Hey, I'll always be in one partner, all right, Okay, you're 537 00:37:37.039 --> 00:37:42.039 a surfing cowboy. Hang ten, brother, and we have a whole surfing 538 00:37:42.039 --> 00:37:44.840 thing going on that you. Hey, it's weird that you brought up Venice. 539 00:37:44.880 --> 00:37:49.239 Though. That's kind of a synchronicity because like two nights ago, Casey 540 00:37:49.280 --> 00:37:52.920 and I were watching One Piece and we just got to uh because I went 541 00:37:52.960 --> 00:37:55.599 back and I'm watching it with her. I'm currently in dress Rosa, but 542 00:37:55.639 --> 00:37:59.960 I'm watching with Casey right now. Water seven. She just started Water seven 543 00:38:00.679 --> 00:38:02.920 And if you guys have seen it out there, Water seven, the actual 544 00:38:04.719 --> 00:38:08.159 island is based on Venice. It's based on Venice, Italy. Like it's 545 00:38:08.199 --> 00:38:13.320 all the water canals and the waterfalls and all that, like it's they be 546 00:38:13.400 --> 00:38:16.920 honest with you. Yeah, in my humble opinion of being there one time, 547 00:38:17.199 --> 00:38:22.960 you went overrated. Okay please, Actually I'm curious because this is what 548 00:38:22.039 --> 00:38:25.000 happened. We're watching and I told Casey, I was like, this is 549 00:38:25.039 --> 00:38:29.360 based off of Venice, Italy, and she was like, hang on, 550 00:38:30.320 --> 00:38:32.719 She's I'm not kidding. She said this. She said, Venice is a 551 00:38:32.760 --> 00:38:37.119 real place. No way, I swear. She said, Venice is real. 552 00:38:37.719 --> 00:38:38.840 You don't have to do Casey like that on air. Dude, is 553 00:38:38.880 --> 00:38:42.199 facts. I'm sorry, I love you, baby, but she's straight up 554 00:38:42.199 --> 00:38:45.119 and said, I don't think that Venice is a real place. And then 555 00:38:45.159 --> 00:38:47.400 I looked it up and I found did you know that Venice was built in 556 00:38:47.519 --> 00:38:53.639 like the four hundreds? Well, I'll tell you, yeah, wailed. 557 00:38:54.159 --> 00:39:00.719 So people are concerned about Venice's foundation. But Venice's foundation is built out of 558 00:39:00.800 --> 00:39:06.159 wood, and so all of the buildings and the streets and everything underneath, 559 00:39:06.199 --> 00:39:09.679 all of that is like ancient wood. And what's crazy is when the wood 560 00:39:09.760 --> 00:39:15.079 and the salt from the salt water combined, it like fortifies and makes the 561 00:39:15.119 --> 00:39:19.599 wood strong. Whoa yeah, So anyway, wait a minute, floods. 562 00:39:19.800 --> 00:39:23.639 You're telling me, I'm telling you what the guide told me. Okay, 563 00:39:24.159 --> 00:39:28.199 don't come at me. Okay, I'm just learning. I wouldn't want to 564 00:39:28.280 --> 00:39:31.719 learn. No, I'm open to questions. I'll concuse a question. All 565 00:39:31.800 --> 00:39:35.440 right, So let me tell you a Venice story. I think Green Boys 566 00:39:35.480 --> 00:39:39.960 is gonna be great. So all right, so we pull up the Venice, 567 00:39:40.039 --> 00:39:44.599 We get off the train, and we have okay, set the scene, 568 00:39:44.760 --> 00:39:46.960 me, my now fiance, her mother, and her father. So 569 00:39:47.000 --> 00:39:49.960 we're all there. We're gonna be there for like two weeks. We got 570 00:39:49.960 --> 00:39:52.800 a ton of luggage. Okay, We've got to find where our hotel is 571 00:39:52.840 --> 00:39:57.679 and we get off the train and immediately we're getting haggled, like attacked, 572 00:39:57.840 --> 00:40:00.960 like let me take your luggage, let me put you in my gondola, 573 00:40:00.320 --> 00:40:04.480 like and blah blah blah, fifty dollars, one hundred dollars whatever, And 574 00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:07.800 the guy would not get out of my father in law's face. And he's 575 00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:09.280 like, dude, we just got off the train, give me a minute. 576 00:40:09.559 --> 00:40:14.599 And the guy kept pressing them. So my father in law was like, 577 00:40:14.599 --> 00:40:16.800 all right, fuck you. And we're carrying all of our luggage, 578 00:40:16.800 --> 00:40:23.159 and what he meant was Alex is carrying all over So all these canals and 579 00:40:23.159 --> 00:40:27.679 stuff, there's bridges, and the bridges go up over and down, and 580 00:40:27.719 --> 00:40:32.400 it's not like it's not like a long, slow bridge, it's like vertical 581 00:40:32.559 --> 00:40:39.480 up then vertical down stairs. Okay, So I've got everybody's suitcase and it's 582 00:40:39.920 --> 00:40:45.519 ninety eight degrees a humid. So we get off the train and we're two 583 00:40:45.559 --> 00:40:49.920 miles from our place and like fourteen fifteen bridges. What time of year was 584 00:40:49.920 --> 00:40:53.360 this? This summer? Okay, So yeah, I'm carrying all of these 585 00:40:53.400 --> 00:40:57.719 suitcases up and down, not complaining, up and down, up and down, 586 00:40:57.840 --> 00:41:01.440 complaining. I'm drenched in sweat. Everybody's taking their time for somehow, 587 00:41:01.440 --> 00:41:06.000 I'm walking fast than everybody else, and I'm like, dude, like where's 588 00:41:06.079 --> 00:41:07.599 this hotel? So up and down, up and down, up and down, 589 00:41:07.800 --> 00:41:10.519 pouring sweat. We get to the thing, We get to the hotel, 590 00:41:10.800 --> 00:41:14.840 we get checked in, get up to our room. No power they 591 00:41:14.840 --> 00:41:19.719 do like cycling power outages. So I had no air conditioning. A lot 592 00:41:19.719 --> 00:41:23.760 of Europe's like that too. Yeah, so first of all, you taste 593 00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:28.079 in my mouth, then go downstairs, have a couple of beers in the 594 00:41:28.119 --> 00:41:30.440 air conditioning. We're back to normal. So other than that, I just 595 00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:37.639 had a couple of bad entrees. Why you say like that, dude? 596 00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:39.960 Like what what do you eat? Like the squid ink and polenta? It's 597 00:41:40.119 --> 00:41:45.199 it's like black squid ink? Right, and like a rice cake wasn't No, 598 00:41:45.239 --> 00:41:47.480 it wasn't the best. And I'm not gonna hate on anybody. Okay, 599 00:41:47.519 --> 00:41:51.119 Now this is something I really need to know. Does it actually stink 600 00:41:52.440 --> 00:41:54.840 venice? Yeah? In general, notoriously is supposed to smell awful. I 601 00:41:54.840 --> 00:41:58.840 mean I don't he does. I'm sure it smells bad. I don't remember 602 00:41:58.920 --> 00:42:01.840 being like, right, did you take any of Like I'm also gross. 603 00:42:02.159 --> 00:42:07.440 Did you take any of like the gondola rides or anything? Uh? Yeah, 604 00:42:07.519 --> 00:42:09.840 actually did take one. That's cool too. What I learned about gondola 605 00:42:10.960 --> 00:42:16.519 pilots, captains, whatever is You can't you can't just like show up and 606 00:42:16.559 --> 00:42:20.639 be like I want to be a gondola driver. You have to be born 607 00:42:20.679 --> 00:42:23.480 into it. Literally, it is only a certain lineage that is allowed to 608 00:42:23.760 --> 00:42:29.280 pilot gondolas. Huh so you were basically born your dad does it, and 609 00:42:29.320 --> 00:42:32.320 then you're trained how to do it from like age twelve or thirteen and then 610 00:42:32.679 --> 00:42:36.920 off you go. That's wild, bro. Yeah, that's kind of really 611 00:42:36.960 --> 00:42:43.440 like special. Which is interesting because the Italy is famous for their glass exports, 612 00:42:43.599 --> 00:42:45.960 so they have like very decorative class work. I thought they were famous 613 00:42:46.039 --> 00:42:52.360 for The Godfather. I mean that too. Yeah, that's the Yeah, 614 00:42:52.559 --> 00:42:58.239 that's the second and third highest export for the glass work. And they're having 615 00:42:58.239 --> 00:43:01.920 a lot of trouble because no young people want to learn glass work, so 616 00:43:02.159 --> 00:43:06.800 it's a dying market. It's a dying breed. They can't find young people 617 00:43:06.840 --> 00:43:09.280 who want to come and be apprenticed glass workers. So we sat there this 618 00:43:09.320 --> 00:43:14.000 whole thing, and then they tried to sell us like fifteen thousand dollars chandeliers 619 00:43:14.000 --> 00:43:15.639 and shit, oh we'll ship been home with shippen home. Like yeah, 620 00:43:15.679 --> 00:43:19.440 I mean, if I had a place to put a fifteen thousand dollars chandelier, 621 00:43:19.480 --> 00:43:22.880 I'd probably get it, but I don't so bro. When you get 622 00:43:22.880 --> 00:43:28.840 off the plane in Mexico, no one warned us of this. Of all 623 00:43:28.880 --> 00:43:31.639 the people that recommended we go vacation at this specific place, no one warned 624 00:43:31.719 --> 00:43:37.239 us that the moment you touch down on land and you get off the plane, 625 00:43:37.480 --> 00:43:45.239 they pressure you into going to presentations for time shares. Oh no, 626 00:43:45.519 --> 00:43:49.719 yeah, and I got scammed out of fifty bucks. No, dude. 627 00:43:49.760 --> 00:43:52.400 It was like it was like, you know, fourteen hours of flight, 628 00:43:52.480 --> 00:43:55.679 you're exhausted. You get there, you're like, yeah, I'm finally in 629 00:43:55.760 --> 00:44:00.360 Mexico. They have like trays of tequila and they're like softening you up, 630 00:44:00.440 --> 00:44:05.639 giving you like little shots of margaritas and jack, and they're so friendly and 631 00:44:05.679 --> 00:44:09.440 they go through like yes, jimmy, oh my god, what do you 632 00:44:09.480 --> 00:44:15.039 say we wrangle up these stallions and go get your fifty dollars back below the 633 00:44:15.119 --> 00:44:17.840 border. It's a lot of money. I think that sounds mighty fine as 634 00:44:17.920 --> 00:44:21.760 long as I could ride behind and stare at your hair in the wind. 635 00:44:23.960 --> 00:44:32.800 You drive a hard bargain, Jackie. The curls make it all worth it. 636 00:44:32.920 --> 00:44:37.639 Sorry to cut you off. Do you use that shampoo? That that 637 00:44:37.880 --> 00:44:44.639 shampoo because it's just been invented. Yeah, right, it's just been invented. 638 00:44:44.679 --> 00:44:47.559 I don't use any of that new family stuff. What do you wash 639 00:44:47.559 --> 00:44:55.519 your hair with? Then? Grease? Horse? Grease a horse, grease 640 00:44:55.599 --> 00:45:00.280 and manure. I was outside tending my carrots the other day and I sitting 641 00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:06.440 on a dinosaur bone. Because we're in the West, right. Of course, 642 00:45:06.519 --> 00:45:13.480 dinosaurs ain't real. Could you imagine someone like dinosaurs weren't real? I 643 00:45:13.480 --> 00:45:17.440 ain't no dinosaurs in the Bible. They ain't nothing. I wonder if cowboys 644 00:45:17.480 --> 00:45:21.639 had the Bible. I'm sure they did. They had the Cowboy. Yeah, 645 00:45:21.760 --> 00:45:24.360 they they definitely had the Bible. I'm sure they had the Bible. 646 00:45:24.719 --> 00:45:28.559 I never have thought about that, like the cowboys have the Bible. You 647 00:45:28.599 --> 00:45:36.159 know, I cannot keep this thing on the Bible. I think they definitely 648 00:45:36.159 --> 00:45:39.480 had the Bible. That's actually a revolutionary thought process. I've never considered it. 649 00:45:39.519 --> 00:45:42.320 You don't see it in the games. You don't see it in the 650 00:45:42.360 --> 00:45:45.719 movies. You definitely see it in the movies. I don't really watch. 651 00:45:45.199 --> 00:45:49.239 I've seen a lot of them. I've seen a lot of them. Shout 652 00:45:49.239 --> 00:45:52.840 out to my grandpa ever since I was little. He'll be like, come 653 00:45:52.880 --> 00:45:55.480 over, we're watching Western movies, and like, I've done it as recently 654 00:45:55.480 --> 00:46:00.599 as maybe well before. It would have been before COVID, because you know, 655 00:46:00.679 --> 00:46:02.840 he he has an he has an autoimmune disorder, and so he can't 656 00:46:04.039 --> 00:46:07.119 he can't be around people too much. Especially when that was going on, 657 00:46:07.199 --> 00:46:10.119 he was like, everybody stay away from me, you know. Uh. 658 00:46:10.159 --> 00:46:13.960 But I mean right before then, I had I went over there and we 659 00:46:14.000 --> 00:46:17.239 watched three Tender Yuma. I've heard of it, never seen it. It's 660 00:46:17.280 --> 00:46:21.159 fantastic. I mean it's awesome. There was a really old one, and 661 00:46:21.199 --> 00:46:23.360 then we watched the newer one too. We've always yeah, he's always been 662 00:46:23.360 --> 00:46:28.679 my Western buddy. Yeah, Nick, you asked me how we are doing. 663 00:46:29.320 --> 00:46:32.199 I want to know how you're doing. I'm doing all right, I'm 664 00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:36.559 doing well. I kind of I wanted to hear from y'all first, but 665 00:46:36.679 --> 00:46:38.119 that's okay. I'll tell you. I'll go first. I'll tell you tell 666 00:46:38.159 --> 00:46:44.320 me. I'm not feeling good. You're no okay? Why I'm a bit 667 00:46:44.440 --> 00:46:47.440 under the weather, but I just got back from Maryland. You're feeling sick. 668 00:46:47.559 --> 00:46:52.079 I'm feeling a little sick. But it's okay. I'm here, and 669 00:46:52.360 --> 00:46:57.760 uh, I don't like Maryland too much. Wow, it's just cold man. 670 00:46:58.599 --> 00:47:00.440 Oh was it brick? Yeah? I didn't go outside much. It's 671 00:47:00.440 --> 00:47:05.480 probably why I was still not feeling good. Oh dude, that sucks, 672 00:47:05.599 --> 00:47:07.239 but it's okay. I got some cool things done. I went to school 673 00:47:07.239 --> 00:47:10.000 and stuff. But if you live in Maryland and you like it, that's 674 00:47:10.039 --> 00:47:14.440 cool. Yeah, Alex just went to boating school, dude. Yeah, 675 00:47:14.519 --> 00:47:22.320 missus puff man, you's looking good. You got miss Puff's number. Let's 676 00:47:22.320 --> 00:47:29.960 just say I puffed it. If only you know, people would literally kill 677 00:47:30.079 --> 00:47:32.440 people would sell their soul for a chance to rise up. Missus Puff, 678 00:47:35.679 --> 00:47:38.800 that's really honestly true. And well I did it. You did it. 679 00:47:38.920 --> 00:47:45.280 You did it. I need picks, I need proof you did her up. 680 00:47:45.719 --> 00:47:49.360 Damn. I mean, if anybody could do it right, you would 681 00:47:49.400 --> 00:47:52.360 be the one for sure. If anybody could do this to you, What 682 00:47:52.440 --> 00:47:59.440 about your like emotional spiritual state, how has that been lately? I don't 683 00:47:59.480 --> 00:48:02.719 know, really, I mean I've been doing good, like feeling good. 684 00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:08.360 Haven't really been paying a lot of attention to that, just kind of been 685 00:48:09.360 --> 00:48:15.000 duck down, just just going hard, Yeah, grinding through life, not 686 00:48:15.119 --> 00:48:16.880 in like a bad way, just like things gotta get done, you know, 687 00:48:19.920 --> 00:48:24.760 really just wishing I was a cowboy and you know, but you decided 688 00:48:24.800 --> 00:48:29.599 to read this book that our only goddess. I am too. I'm actually 689 00:48:29.599 --> 00:48:31.519 really pumped to read this and this is gonna be the next thing I read. 690 00:48:31.559 --> 00:48:38.280 I'm I'm currently rereading Rick Rubin's book The The Creative Act, A Way 691 00:48:38.320 --> 00:48:44.039 of Life, and it's a quick read. So when I'm done with that, 692 00:48:44.039 --> 00:48:46.920 I'm gonna read this. It's be lit about you, Ryan. I've 693 00:48:46.920 --> 00:48:51.199 been pretty good. I mean, it's just like you know, same old, 694 00:48:51.239 --> 00:48:54.840 same old. And there's been stuff that it's always getting more and more 695 00:48:54.840 --> 00:49:00.880 intense. There's there's stuff behind the scenes that we've been working on the family. 696 00:49:00.280 --> 00:49:02.800 Stuff that's a little too soon to talk about. But that stuff is 697 00:49:02.880 --> 00:49:09.239 really well otherwise generally, I mean, can't really complain. Just been trying 698 00:49:09.239 --> 00:49:17.199 to focus on like my health and like my wellness and things like that, 699 00:49:17.320 --> 00:49:22.599 and just trying to keep like a positive attitude and sometimes it's easier than other 700 00:49:22.639 --> 00:49:25.199 times, just like with stressful stuff going on and a lot of really cool 701 00:49:25.239 --> 00:49:30.599 stuff's happening, you know, Like Dad just went on this huge podcast Jones. 702 00:49:30.679 --> 00:49:34.280 Yeah, and it's it's already got like I mean, I can see 703 00:49:34.280 --> 00:49:36.599 what it's got, but it's it's it's a lot. I mean, it's 704 00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:38.559 Yeah, we look last night and it was like six hundred thousand or something, 705 00:49:39.199 --> 00:49:42.920 which is which is huge. I mean, I think that's got to 706 00:49:42.920 --> 00:49:46.039 be the biggest podcast numbers as far as him being on somebody else's podcast. 707 00:49:46.079 --> 00:49:52.039 It's a six hundred and fifteen thousand. And then Danny personally told me that 708 00:49:52.079 --> 00:49:54.880 the podcast app was at when I saw him over a week. It was 709 00:49:54.880 --> 00:49:59.000 almost two weeks ago. I saw him week and a half. It was 710 00:49:59.039 --> 00:50:04.039 at seventy or eighty. So we're looking at close to close to seven hundred 711 00:50:04.039 --> 00:50:07.400 thousand views. Yeah, that's that one episode Dad did, and like we've 712 00:50:07.639 --> 00:50:09.320 seen a big difference from it, you know, And that's exciting. It's 713 00:50:09.320 --> 00:50:13.000 always exciting when that kind of stuff happens, When when we get these big 714 00:50:13.039 --> 00:50:15.280 surges and these big spikes and we get to get the story out there and 715 00:50:15.440 --> 00:50:20.519 let's just say that like, we're working behind the scenes really hard to get 716 00:50:20.519 --> 00:50:23.480 it out there even more so. And for anybody out there who's curious about 717 00:50:23.480 --> 00:50:27.159 something we may be working on, just go to Amazon dot com and take 718 00:50:27.199 --> 00:50:29.599 a look at the cover of Dad's book and you might see there's a change 719 00:50:29.599 --> 00:50:35.159 to the cover. So that's facts. Yep, that's an interesting change to 720 00:50:35.199 --> 00:50:39.079 the cover. How about you. I've been feeling all right. I don't 721 00:50:39.119 --> 00:50:43.239 know. I just the reason I asked is because the past I feel like 722 00:50:43.320 --> 00:50:46.440 the past few weeks, like all of my friends are stressed. Yeah, 723 00:50:46.480 --> 00:50:51.199 like you know what I mean. Like I think it's just that holiday counch 724 00:50:51.280 --> 00:50:54.480 time. It might be. I mean, it's gonna sound funny, but 725 00:50:54.760 --> 00:50:59.519 mercury is in retrograde. Yeah, that doesn't sound funny, though it is. 726 00:51:00.000 --> 00:51:02.119 I mean it is. And and particularly lately, people have been like 727 00:51:02.239 --> 00:51:06.440 super stressed out. I have. I definitely have. I don't know. 728 00:51:06.480 --> 00:51:07.800 I feel like the past like month or two for me, has just been 729 00:51:08.239 --> 00:51:12.719 stressful. It's it's dealing with like the day to day stuff. Yeah, 730 00:51:12.760 --> 00:51:15.159 you know what I mean, just like trying to Like we come to Wilmington 731 00:51:15.559 --> 00:51:20.559 and it's always like the vibe is on ten. We have so much fun. 732 00:51:20.639 --> 00:51:23.000 We're around our people where you know, we get to do this show, 733 00:51:23.039 --> 00:51:27.960 which is like so amazing. I feel like this show really like does 734 00:51:28.480 --> 00:51:31.559 like revitalize my spirit just doing it, you know, yeah, for whatever 735 00:51:31.599 --> 00:51:36.840 reason it is, I just I love it and it's amazing. And then 736 00:51:36.880 --> 00:51:40.840 getting back home and you know, just getting back to the mundane day to 737 00:51:40.920 --> 00:51:46.000 day stuff. It's it's just tough, like just trying to like survive. 738 00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:51.079 I feel like I don't know, I'm I'm currently and I'm very I'm very 739 00:51:51.119 --> 00:51:54.480 thankful to to Blake. He's actually helping me try to find a new job 740 00:51:54.559 --> 00:51:58.960 right now. It's a it's a lot of that kind of stuff, like 741 00:51:59.000 --> 00:52:01.800 I feel like I don't know, I feel like a lot of my previous 742 00:52:01.920 --> 00:52:06.519 jobs, I'll get them, and then after like a year and a half 743 00:52:06.559 --> 00:52:08.440 two years, I'm like, a, I don't want to do this anymore. 744 00:52:08.440 --> 00:52:13.199 I'm done with it, and I'll just hop to another thing. And 745 00:52:13.199 --> 00:52:16.360 it's like the money is never grey, and that's just like perpetuates the stress 746 00:52:16.880 --> 00:52:22.440 because when you like can't meet your bare minimums, it's like, you know, 747 00:52:22.960 --> 00:52:24.920 I could be I could be ten out of ten mood and super happy 748 00:52:25.000 --> 00:52:30.159 and then whatever, and then I get a notification that my bank is overdrafted, 749 00:52:30.199 --> 00:52:32.679 and I'm like, my entire world comes crumbling down. Yeah, you 750 00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:37.360 know what I'm saying. It's it's like little things like that, and I 751 00:52:37.360 --> 00:52:43.480 think I'm just finally realizing that I have to, like, in order for 752 00:52:44.119 --> 00:52:52.719 my inner self to be able to be uninterruptedly like positive and charged and flow 753 00:52:52.079 --> 00:53:00.440 naturally, my physical body has to step up and take care of like meeting 754 00:53:00.519 --> 00:53:04.320 my minimums and meeting my needs. And like, you know, I don't 755 00:53:04.360 --> 00:53:06.559 know, I feel like a lot of times my head is up in the 756 00:53:06.599 --> 00:53:09.400 clouds. I'm not thinking about the world like around me. I'm thinking about 757 00:53:10.079 --> 00:53:14.480 I'm thinking about that. That's a good point, crazy, spiritual, cosmic, 758 00:53:14.559 --> 00:53:16.320 you know stuff. I want to add to that because I've struggled really 759 00:53:16.360 --> 00:53:21.440 bad, just generally for the last year two years we've been on the podcast, 760 00:53:21.519 --> 00:53:23.760 and we've known collectively that this is what we want to do, like 761 00:53:24.320 --> 00:53:30.199 you know, forever, and the stress there that we have have you know, 762 00:53:30.800 --> 00:53:36.199 internalized, is like, how can we get this off the ground to 763 00:53:36.239 --> 00:53:45.440 be a successful stream of financial abundance so that we can do this and live 764 00:53:45.440 --> 00:53:49.519 in our dream and and you know, It's like we do this because we 765 00:53:49.559 --> 00:53:51.960 want to help people. We want to entertain people in rich people's lives, 766 00:53:51.960 --> 00:53:54.719 but really teach them, you know, really really cool stuff and really out 767 00:53:54.719 --> 00:53:59.079 there spiritual stuff that they're not finding anywhere else. Let's just be honest, 768 00:53:59.119 --> 00:54:01.000 you know, with with what we've been through and all that. But my 769 00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:04.679 point is like I've struggled really bad with like how do we do that the 770 00:54:04.760 --> 00:54:07.719 right way, the pure way, the humble way, you know. And 771 00:54:07.159 --> 00:54:09.760 for a while, I mean I felt like, man, we don't deserve 772 00:54:09.880 --> 00:54:15.360 money. Yeah, but I've come to realize, like I think every human 773 00:54:15.360 --> 00:54:19.159 being on the planet deserves money, and I think like from the perspective of 774 00:54:19.280 --> 00:54:23.440 higher forces, like you know, we're so conditioned to to live in a 775 00:54:23.440 --> 00:54:28.559 state of scarcity or in a state of lack. But I feel like I 776 00:54:28.559 --> 00:54:36.880 feel like you can't truly be happy or thriving or joyful until those basic needs 777 00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:39.360 are fulfilled, you know what I mean. And like this, yeah, 778 00:54:39.360 --> 00:54:44.519 I get exactly what you're saying, Like the stress of giving our all to 779 00:54:44.599 --> 00:54:49.239 this but then having to suffer to do the mundane stuff to actually pay the 780 00:54:49.320 --> 00:54:53.440 material bills exactly, well, why couldn't we do this and it provides some 781 00:54:53.519 --> 00:54:58.960 source of you know, sustenance for us, and we have more to give, 782 00:54:59.519 --> 00:55:02.000 and and then and then it's like in the meantime, because we've been 783 00:55:02.039 --> 00:55:06.599 doing this almost three years now, Yeah, in the meantime, the whole 784 00:55:06.639 --> 00:55:10.400 that whole three years, my mentality has basically just been like I don't care 785 00:55:10.440 --> 00:55:14.599 about money, money stupid, I don't need it. It's like everything I'm 786 00:55:14.639 --> 00:55:17.559 reading is all about like anti materialistic, like let everything go and all this 787 00:55:17.559 --> 00:55:21.079 stuff. So in my mind, I'm like, who needs money, That's 788 00:55:21.159 --> 00:55:23.519 lame. Whatever. I'm just gonna go keep doing the podcast, keep doing 789 00:55:23.519 --> 00:55:27.519 the podcast, and I know that eventually, like that's gonna be the thing 790 00:55:27.559 --> 00:55:30.760 that takes care of me, which I still know that it will. But 791 00:55:30.320 --> 00:55:36.280 now that we're three years in and I'm like still stressed out of my mind, 792 00:55:36.840 --> 00:55:42.000 I'm having this internal battle now of like I need money. It's the 793 00:55:42.039 --> 00:55:45.119 system we're in, it's the world we're born into. It is yeah, 794 00:55:45.559 --> 00:55:49.840 you have to it. Just Yeah, It's been this internal battle thing where 795 00:55:49.880 --> 00:55:52.599 I'm like, should I be like chasing more money? Should I should I 796 00:55:52.639 --> 00:55:55.800 go and chase more money or should I just be happy with what I have? 797 00:55:57.559 --> 00:56:00.719 And like, you know, just make it through until the universe brings 798 00:56:00.760 --> 00:56:06.400 something to me, you know, or whatever. But specifically, over this 799 00:56:06.440 --> 00:56:10.119 past week or two, I've been thinking about it a lot, and I 800 00:56:10.159 --> 00:56:13.800 think, yeah, I think this is like a kind of like a test 801 00:56:14.280 --> 00:56:21.119 where my physical body needs to intervene in order to help nurture because, like 802 00:56:21.119 --> 00:56:23.039 I said, every time one little slip up happens, which happens a lot 803 00:56:23.079 --> 00:56:27.679 when you don't have a lot of money, anytime one little slip up happens, 804 00:56:27.679 --> 00:56:31.559 it's like my whole spiritual world everything crumbles down. Yeah, And I'll 805 00:56:31.559 --> 00:56:37.480 even say, you know, over three years of this happening, it's a 806 00:56:37.480 --> 00:56:40.519 lot of build up. It's like every time it happens, it feels a 807 00:56:40.519 --> 00:56:45.320 little worse, and it feels a little worse up to the point to where 808 00:56:45.519 --> 00:56:49.800 these past like maybe three to six months, like I've just had a really 809 00:56:49.840 --> 00:56:54.079 hard time, like believing in myself. I've even had a hard time like 810 00:56:54.119 --> 00:57:00.360 believing in any sort of higher power. And I have this like I've had 811 00:57:00.400 --> 00:57:08.440 to fight like every day battling like dark internal thoughts and dark internal dialogue. 812 00:57:08.760 --> 00:57:15.079 Because when you're in these like dark states, your psyche can want to just 813 00:57:15.079 --> 00:57:19.440 like attack everything around you, Yeah, to make you feel better, you 814 00:57:19.480 --> 00:57:25.599 know what I mean. And I hate being in that state because it's completely 815 00:57:25.639 --> 00:57:31.119 unproductive. It's all lies, that's just your internal like whatever you want to 816 00:57:31.159 --> 00:57:35.679 call it, your dark side, whatever you want to call it, it's 817 00:57:36.400 --> 00:57:39.599 it's just bullshit. It's trying to distract you, it's trying to misguide your 818 00:57:39.639 --> 00:57:45.679 anger and your feelings. And so after all this time, it's like I've 819 00:57:45.679 --> 00:57:51.840 been really struggling with that. And then another thing is like the you know, 820 00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:59.440 growing up like religiously traumatized, which I feel like I was and kind 821 00:57:59.480 --> 00:58:06.360 of still I'm realizing when you're in that really really low place and you like 822 00:58:06.480 --> 00:58:10.159 need somebody or something to turn to, and the only thing that you have 823 00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:17.920 known your whole life is you know, one specific iteration or image of quote 824 00:58:17.960 --> 00:58:25.360 unquote God, and like that version is not necessarily something that like feels good 825 00:58:25.440 --> 00:58:29.039 to you. I mean, we we've talked about it many times on the 826 00:58:29.079 --> 00:58:31.800 show. It's like some weird, some weird stuff going on with that. 827 00:58:32.760 --> 00:58:38.519 It makes it difficult to believe in, not believe in, but to connect 828 00:58:38.519 --> 00:58:43.159 with. Yes, I know, I know exactly what you're describing. Yeah, 829 00:58:43.880 --> 00:58:46.599 And like you know, that's also been hard not not having that to 830 00:58:46.679 --> 00:58:51.039 connect with. I get that way too. I think it's natural. It's 831 00:58:51.039 --> 00:58:52.760 like when you're when you're suffering really hard, it's it's kind of hard to 832 00:58:53.199 --> 00:58:58.280 you know, see the positivity or the hope too. But like, the 833 00:58:58.320 --> 00:59:01.039 only thing I can say is, like, you know this logically, just 834 00:59:01.039 --> 00:59:04.400 like you were telling me last night about the drum thing. You know, 835 00:59:04.440 --> 00:59:07.760 we were talking about recording, and I've hit a hurdle or whatever, and 836 00:59:07.800 --> 00:59:08.880 it's the same thing. It's a test from the universe. It's like, 837 00:59:09.840 --> 00:59:15.840 is it going to be one of those things where you are beaten by it 838 00:59:16.079 --> 00:59:20.440 or you you know, you rise up and overcome. But I think it's 839 00:59:20.440 --> 00:59:22.440 deeper than that too. I don't think the burden is necessarily on you to 840 00:59:22.639 --> 00:59:28.840 like to I don't know, Like I guess the way I could say it 841 00:59:28.880 --> 00:59:36.639 is it's also about surrendering, like just just completely letting go and realizing, 842 00:59:36.840 --> 00:59:43.280 like, really, everything that's happening to me is divinely written to happen to 843 00:59:43.320 --> 00:59:45.519 me, for me to suffer in this moment, because on the other side 844 00:59:45.559 --> 00:59:50.320 is going to be something greater, you know what I mean? For sure? 845 00:59:50.480 --> 00:59:54.119 Yeah, And that's it's I just started reading that book again a few 846 00:59:54.199 --> 00:59:58.000 days ago, and that's like one of the first things that it talks about, 847 00:59:58.079 --> 01:00:00.079 the Rick rubn m oh, it's one of the first things that talks 848 01:00:00.079 --> 01:00:06.519 about that, Like you just have to constantly remind yourself that like everything happens 849 01:00:06.519 --> 01:00:09.360 for an exact reason. Yeah, you're exactly where you're supposed to be, 850 01:00:09.760 --> 01:00:13.360 even the bad stuff, even the bad stuff, because it's a lesson. 851 01:00:13.519 --> 01:00:15.360 It's some sort of lesson. And do you think it feels good to the 852 01:00:15.400 --> 01:00:21.199 earth when tectonic plates are shifting crumbling into each other, and you know, 853 01:00:21.239 --> 01:00:24.920 you have quakes under that. I mean sometimes in nature things are just uncomfortable. 854 01:00:25.400 --> 01:00:28.320 Yeah, what I mean. And that's that's the same with life. 855 01:00:28.559 --> 01:00:31.599 And then it creates beautiful mountains. True. Yeah, that's a that's a 856 01:00:31.679 --> 01:00:35.679 really cool analogy, erosion. Bro, you have mountains that are being shaped 857 01:00:35.719 --> 01:00:39.559 by beautiful thousands of years. It's just it's like it's there's an order to 858 01:00:39.639 --> 01:00:43.039 things that we don't understand. And that's the thing that was hard for me 859 01:00:43.639 --> 01:00:45.159 that I wanted to share. The thing that was hard for me was to 860 01:00:45.239 --> 01:00:52.039 accept like sometimes it just has it has to be bad sometimes it's just the 861 01:00:52.079 --> 01:00:54.480 way that it is. What's the nature of the universe. There, there 862 01:00:54.519 --> 01:01:00.519 cannot exist good without bad, there can't. It would just everything would just 863 01:01:00.519 --> 01:01:05.480 be gray. That's that's the whole point of this whole you know, this 864 01:01:05.599 --> 01:01:07.800 whole thing that we're doing. It's like there, if you don't have bad, 865 01:01:07.880 --> 01:01:13.599 you can't have good. And I will say, like specifically, this 866 01:01:13.679 --> 01:01:17.719 past week, I have really been putting in like the work to try to 867 01:01:17.760 --> 01:01:22.440 break a lot of these negative thought patterns, and I've been moving in a 868 01:01:22.440 --> 01:01:27.280 more positive direction. And also like I'm trying to you know, I'm trying 869 01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:31.559 to remember that just because the bearded guy from the Bible, like the bearded 870 01:01:31.599 --> 01:01:37.400 God from the Bible, did a real number on me, that doesn't that 871 01:01:37.400 --> 01:01:40.280 that's not the real See, it wasn't the bearded guy. It was the 872 01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:44.800 suited guy. No, of course, that's what I mean. It's it's 873 01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:49.079 the people. The people made that evil Constantine, that guy on that coin 874 01:01:49.599 --> 01:01:52.480 that Alex had, that motherfucker, that motherfucker started a lot of it and 875 01:01:52.519 --> 01:01:57.639 he changed the ship and and you know, and so the picture that they 876 01:01:57.679 --> 01:02:04.880 created of that bearded guy is not that's not like the actual God that I 877 01:02:05.039 --> 01:02:07.639 believe in. It's dude, I saw this. Pete Holmes, he was 878 01:02:07.639 --> 01:02:12.920 talking about God the other day and he said, like, God is the 879 01:02:12.960 --> 01:02:17.559 blanket that we put over the mystery of the universe to give it shape. 880 01:02:17.679 --> 01:02:22.840 Hmm. Yeah that wait till we do the Kabale episode and you'll hear how 881 01:02:22.960 --> 01:02:25.800 like even they were talking about God. Yeah, I can't, I can't. 882 01:02:25.880 --> 01:02:30.239 I can't. Like that's a very that's God is ineffable. God. 883 01:02:30.320 --> 01:02:34.239 God is the mystery, right, you know what I mean, Like it's 884 01:02:34.400 --> 01:02:37.800 it's it's this perfect, pure thing that we just can't grasp. And that's 885 01:02:37.800 --> 01:02:40.280 what I mean when I say surrender, Like we just have to surrender and 886 01:02:40.360 --> 01:02:45.559 let go and say, Okay, whatever force is, that's that's really up 887 01:02:45.599 --> 01:02:50.519 there. It is good. It knows what I need. I probably had 888 01:02:50.519 --> 01:02:53.039 a part in picking this when I was a part of that force, you 889 01:02:53.119 --> 01:02:55.920 know, in the realm between lives, you know, your higher self or 890 01:02:55.960 --> 01:03:00.280 whatever, if you believe that, and whatever is happening to me is my 891 01:03:00.360 --> 01:03:02.840 destiny that I created with that force, and I just have to weather the 892 01:03:02.840 --> 01:03:06.679 storm. It's like you're selling across the seat. You just you know your 893 01:03:06.679 --> 01:03:08.880 weather in the waves, like it's the journey. Yeah. You know, 894 01:03:09.000 --> 01:03:14.960 another thing that I've been wondering about is, you know, as I've come 895 01:03:15.000 --> 01:03:21.480 to think of God as more the collective energy of all things, removing, 896 01:03:22.239 --> 01:03:27.880 I stop using the word God because I thought like that word describes a singular 897 01:03:28.519 --> 01:03:30.960 like entity. I used to think that too, you know what I'm saying. 898 01:03:31.079 --> 01:03:37.039 So I stopped even using the word God entirely and just kind of thought 899 01:03:37.039 --> 01:03:40.280 about it as the collective consciousness or the collective universe, like all of us, 900 01:03:40.360 --> 01:03:44.519 every living thing is God, you know, that kind of thing. 901 01:03:44.559 --> 01:03:51.400 But I wasn't using that God language, and I wonder if the disconnect was 902 01:03:51.480 --> 01:03:57.440 exacerbated by not using that term. It's because it's like when you give it 903 01:03:57.519 --> 01:04:01.000 something a name, you give it power. Not having a name to something 904 01:04:01.079 --> 01:04:05.199 you it's harder to connect with it exactly. So I wonder if you know, 905 01:04:05.320 --> 01:04:09.440 so, since then, I've been like reintroducing that word and trying to 906 01:04:09.480 --> 01:04:13.880 separate the trauma that I have from that word. You know, you'll notice 907 01:04:13.880 --> 01:04:16.719 even Hindus say the word God lots of cultures around the world. Yeah, 908 01:04:16.760 --> 01:04:20.159 they say the word God to me. To me, God is the ineffable 909 01:04:20.599 --> 01:04:26.039 highest force that's above all above the Bible, above Krishna, above Buddha, 910 01:04:26.119 --> 01:04:29.599 above Jesus. It's a force that no human has ever physically been face to 911 01:04:29.639 --> 01:04:32.280 face with because it's impossible, right, yes, and it created us. 912 01:04:32.320 --> 01:04:36.119 It's way far beyond our understanding. And for the last you know, several 913 01:04:36.159 --> 01:04:40.360 millennia, we've just been trying really hard to figure it out. You take 914 01:04:40.400 --> 01:04:43.400 it out, Yeah, and we never will until we die and we pass 915 01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:46.679 on through the veil, we'll ever truly know. But what we do know 916 01:04:47.519 --> 01:04:50.960 is that it is good. We come from it. It created us, 917 01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:57.079 and life is this great allegory or mystery. Dude, Like, let me, 918 01:04:57.159 --> 01:05:00.280 let me just give you one quote from from the Kabala Apisod, which 919 01:05:00.320 --> 01:05:02.559 we're gonna do next, you know, but check this out. Here's here's 920 01:05:02.599 --> 01:05:08.239 part of the doctrine of Kabbala. Keep in mind Kabala. I'm not gonna 921 01:05:08.239 --> 01:05:10.400 get too deep into it because we're going to do an entire episode, but 922 01:05:10.840 --> 01:05:14.000 Cabala is crazy. I used to think, like, you know, when 923 01:05:14.000 --> 01:05:17.119 you first hear about esotericism, you know, coming from a Christian perspective, 924 01:05:17.159 --> 01:05:20.719 you think it's all evil rights. It's like step one, it's step one. 925 01:05:20.760 --> 01:05:24.239 We talk about that all the time, and I was there was no 926 01:05:24.320 --> 01:05:27.519 exception, Like I thought Kabbala was an evil thinking back then, the more 927 01:05:27.519 --> 01:05:29.199 I read it, I'm like, wow, this is some of the most 928 01:05:29.199 --> 01:05:31.920 profound stuff I've ever read. And like, part of the essential doctrine of 929 01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:41.079 Kabala is the entire purpose of creation the manifested world is to just make an 930 01:05:41.119 --> 01:05:46.639 abode for the Divine in the material world. Like the whole point of life 931 01:05:47.599 --> 01:05:56.199 is to become an abode or a vessel for the Divine. That's the collective 932 01:05:56.280 --> 01:05:59.480 conscious, that's all of us little sparks of God. But yeah, yeah, 933 01:05:59.519 --> 01:06:01.719 it's it's like it's like becoming the illumined spark. Yeah, Like I 934 01:06:01.760 --> 01:06:06.239 believe that. I believe that, like we are, we are God giving 935 01:06:06.280 --> 01:06:12.239 it self bodies to experience everything. Right, I believe that, like I 936 01:06:12.519 --> 01:06:15.719 really do. That's crazy. So I mean, okay, we got to 937 01:06:15.760 --> 01:06:18.559 save it for the Yeah, we have to. But yeah, that's that's 938 01:06:18.559 --> 01:06:23.119 that's my point too. It's like I totally understand man, Like I feel 939 01:06:23.119 --> 01:06:26.000 that way a lot too. I just don't talk about it. Yeah. 940 01:06:26.079 --> 01:06:29.519 Yeah, And and I don't talk about it a ton either, because I 941 01:06:29.519 --> 01:06:31.599 mean, it takes a long time for me to like reckon with my internal 942 01:06:32.039 --> 01:06:36.159 dialogue anyway and be able to identify it enough to be able to vocalize it. 943 01:06:36.920 --> 01:06:40.039 And so it's like, you know, I might have been feeling this 944 01:06:40.039 --> 01:06:43.840 way a really long time and I'm just now coming face to face with it. 945 01:06:44.199 --> 01:06:47.320 But I will say things are looking up. I'm feeling better and I'm 946 01:06:47.320 --> 01:06:51.800 feeling hopeful. You know, when I get in those places, the best, 947 01:06:53.199 --> 01:06:58.679 the the the counter to it is gratitude. It is gratitude. Yeah, 948 01:06:58.880 --> 01:07:01.280 that Like anytime I get in that place, I just remember everything that 949 01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:05.320 I'm grateful for, what a lucky life I'm living, How happy I am 950 01:07:05.360 --> 01:07:10.119 to have the people around me, the things around me. How you know, 951 01:07:10.199 --> 01:07:13.760 how grateful I am for this show and the people that it helps and 952 01:07:13.960 --> 01:07:17.679 the community it brings together. You know, so that that has helped tremendously. 953 01:07:17.719 --> 01:07:21.480 And I'm I'm I already feel I'm on a better path, and I'm 954 01:07:21.559 --> 01:07:25.119 you know, I think good, really good things are coming. I do 955 01:07:25.199 --> 01:07:27.960 too, like for all of us, for all of us, absolutely, 956 01:07:27.960 --> 01:07:30.360 for all of us. Yeah, I feel a lot of pressure, Like 957 01:07:30.519 --> 01:07:32.119 in my mind, I just if we're just speaking candid here, I mean, 958 01:07:32.159 --> 01:07:35.639 you know, whatever I always feel a lot of pressure in my mind 959 01:07:35.920 --> 01:07:41.920 to give the most and the best that I can to this one hundred percent, 960 01:07:42.440 --> 01:07:46.559 to you know, ensure that this is successful. Because something I just 961 01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:49.800 talked about recently Full Disclosure. Obviously you weren't there for that, but like 962 01:07:49.920 --> 01:07:55.519 one of the biggest stresses in my mind is like, you know, you 963 01:07:55.559 --> 01:08:00.440 and Alex have basically devoted your lives to helping me tell my story all the 964 01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:02.800 stuff you're telling me about last night, that you're so grateful you got to 965 01:08:02.800 --> 01:08:06.000 play a part in helping me heal all all this stuff. I talked about 966 01:08:06.039 --> 01:08:09.480 that recently on Full Disclosure, and I was like, you know, it's 967 01:08:09.519 --> 01:08:15.599 just pressure because I feel like there's a lot riding on my shoulders because of 968 01:08:15.760 --> 01:08:17.239 you know, the image of the bloods of family, what we're going through, 969 01:08:17.600 --> 01:08:20.319 having this pressure to say a certain thing to not you know, like 970 01:08:20.720 --> 01:08:25.039 throw a wrench in our image or whatever, and like tread this fine, 971 01:08:25.119 --> 01:08:29.159 careful line of you know, not only being okay with my family, but 972 01:08:29.199 --> 01:08:32.159 also being okay with the public and this getting successful so that we can all 973 01:08:35.520 --> 01:08:41.359 live a life from this where I in. This is something I've never really 974 01:08:41.359 --> 01:08:45.319 told Nick Alex, but in my heart that I feel you guys are fairly 975 01:08:45.520 --> 01:08:53.800 rewarded or compensated or whatever for the simple notion of devoting your lives to helping 976 01:08:53.840 --> 01:08:58.000 me tell my story. You see what I'm saying. I've never said that 977 01:08:58.000 --> 01:09:00.000 before, haven't. I mean? Yeah, but that that's a stress that 978 01:09:00.039 --> 01:09:03.640 I constantly have felt. Well, let let me let me offer you a 979 01:09:03.760 --> 01:09:09.359 counter to that. I I can't speak for Alex, but I know it's 980 01:09:09.399 --> 01:09:12.680 this. I know it's the same for him. And I told you this 981 01:09:12.800 --> 01:09:17.000 last night I started. I chose to be involved in this project for one 982 01:09:17.079 --> 01:09:21.199 reason and one reason alone, and that was you're my best friend. Your 983 01:09:21.359 --> 01:09:27.000 family, they're all my best friends, like you're you know, we're like 984 01:09:27.079 --> 01:09:32.359 family. And there was healing that needed to be happy, that that needed 985 01:09:32.399 --> 01:09:39.479 to happen, and that could only happen by being open and candid and telling 986 01:09:39.520 --> 01:09:44.279 your story to as many people as possible to get it out there. Stop 987 01:09:44.319 --> 01:09:45.920 bottling it up, just get it out there. You know, it's always 988 01:09:46.000 --> 01:09:48.319 been like, is there going to be a book, is there going to 989 01:09:48.359 --> 01:09:50.199 be a movie, is there going to be a show? Who knows? 990 01:09:50.239 --> 01:09:54.079 Whatever? We were like, finally, let's just take it into our own 991 01:09:54.079 --> 01:09:58.840 hands do a podcast and it's been three years, dude, and look at 992 01:09:58.880 --> 01:10:01.319 us now, yeah, look at your It actually has been three We started 993 01:10:01.319 --> 01:10:06.319 December three years ago to look at you and your family now and in what 994 01:10:06.600 --> 01:10:12.319 a better place you guys are in now? And I think the podcast had 995 01:10:12.359 --> 01:10:15.279 a ton to do with that. Yeah, and so it did. So 996 01:10:15.439 --> 01:10:20.600 you should pop the bubble of stress in your mind because dude, we're we 997 01:10:20.640 --> 01:10:25.840 already did it. Yeah, we already accomplished the mission. That doesn't mean 998 01:10:25.840 --> 01:10:29.479 we're done that that like we now as a new mission. Yes, and 999 01:10:29.479 --> 01:10:31.880 it's take all of our energy into you know, as opposed to you know, 1000 01:10:31.920 --> 01:10:36.640 being about me healing or whatever whatever. It's about enriching the lives of 1001 01:10:38.319 --> 01:10:42.680 everyone listening. Yes, yes, you know exactly exactly. But the initial 1002 01:10:42.720 --> 01:10:45.319 mission was to do that, you know. I'm we wanted to bring healing 1003 01:10:45.359 --> 01:10:48.079 for you and your family and we did it. Yeah, we did it. 1004 01:10:48.199 --> 01:10:53.119 That was our mission. I know Alex is that he signed on for 1005 01:10:53.159 --> 01:10:57.159 the same reason we did it, dude, and we are still doing it 1006 01:10:57.600 --> 01:11:00.439 and we're going to keep doing it. So like everything else that comes, 1007 01:11:00.439 --> 01:11:02.640 it's just icing on the cake. That's not that shouldn't be a point of 1008 01:11:02.640 --> 01:11:06.800 stress that should not be a point of stress like you worrying about if we're 1009 01:11:06.800 --> 01:11:11.279 going to be taken care of from We devoted all of our time and energy 1010 01:11:11.319 --> 01:11:16.319 to this, not for money. We did it for you. I know 1011 01:11:16.399 --> 01:11:19.880 that. I know that. I'm just saying me. I'm like, you 1012 01:11:19.920 --> 01:11:26.000 know, I just have this this mind that's like want to make sure everybody's 1013 01:11:26.600 --> 01:11:30.319 taken care of. We're taking you know, like like like for life. 1014 01:11:30.479 --> 01:11:33.159 That's all I'm saying, Like, like we we get into a position to 1015 01:11:33.159 --> 01:11:38.680 where we we that this you know, this is all do this. This 1016 01:11:38.760 --> 01:11:41.239 is yeah, like we can do this together. I mean, we're gonna 1017 01:11:41.239 --> 01:11:44.720 get there. Life feels like it's being lived when we're doing this absolutely, 1018 01:11:44.800 --> 01:11:45.680 you know what I mean, that's a great way to put it. It's 1019 01:11:45.960 --> 01:11:48.359 we're gonna get there in no time to We'll be there before we know it. 1020 01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:50.039 And I want to say, you know, for the listener, this 1021 01:11:50.159 --> 01:11:54.399 is just a cannon conversation. This isn't anything that we plan to talk about. 1022 01:11:54.399 --> 01:11:58.359 We've actually never had that specific conversation ever. That's the first time I've 1023 01:11:58.399 --> 01:12:00.840 ever brought that that specific thought up. And I want to say, like 1024 01:12:00.840 --> 01:12:03.680 for anybody out there, listening. I'm not here on a soapbox trying to 1025 01:12:03.680 --> 01:12:08.560 get you know, like spend money or you know, to to to to 1026 01:12:08.840 --> 01:12:11.800 force you to feel like you got to contribute. I mean, honestly, 1027 01:12:12.560 --> 01:12:16.000 what we need is we need listenership. Yeah, that's more support. We 1028 01:12:16.039 --> 01:12:20.199 need listener that that's really what we need. We create merchandise, We create 1029 01:12:20.239 --> 01:12:25.239 Patreon because the idea is, well, if we're going to take any money 1030 01:12:25.279 --> 01:12:28.600 from anybody, we at least want to put like passion into it, and 1031 01:12:28.640 --> 01:12:31.399 it'd be something that we feel has a very sturdy value. And it's like 1032 01:12:31.720 --> 01:12:34.760 we wear our own merch we love it. No donations. We want to 1033 01:12:34.800 --> 01:12:38.760 create value exactly. Yeah, we want we want to create value. I 1034 01:12:38.760 --> 01:12:41.640 mean what we need is listenership. Really, the big pie in the sky 1035 01:12:41.680 --> 01:12:45.119 that would help us take off is just it's just more listeners that that's it. 1036 01:12:45.199 --> 01:12:48.159 I mean, you know, we're we're eternally grateful for anybody who has 1037 01:12:48.239 --> 01:12:54.359 given some sort of financial amount, but I'm not, I'm not. That's 1038 01:12:54.399 --> 01:12:58.560 all bonus. We really don't need you to do that. If you feel 1039 01:12:58.680 --> 01:13:01.399 you know, if you feel moved to control, tribute or in whatever way, 1040 01:13:01.520 --> 01:13:04.359 thank you, that's amazing. But it's just listeners. We just we 1041 01:13:04.840 --> 01:13:09.680 need more listeners. And uh but I mean, yeah, it's it's it's 1042 01:13:09.720 --> 01:13:13.159 growing. It's it's growing as much as it ever has, and it's yeah, 1043 01:13:13.239 --> 01:13:15.199 honestly, we're going to be there. We're going to be there in 1044 01:13:15.279 --> 01:13:17.119 no time, and we're just going to keep helping as many people as we 1045 01:13:17.199 --> 01:13:19.600 possibly can for as long as we can do it. Yeah. I have 1046 01:13:19.640 --> 01:13:24.359 no clue the dms we get, like the people that listen to this show 1047 01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.920 and just like how moved they are, and you know, like sending us 1048 01:13:30.439 --> 01:13:32.960 books and in crystals. I mean, this isn't often. I don't think 1049 01:13:33.000 --> 01:13:35.600 many people know we have a po box, right, which we do. 1050 01:13:35.680 --> 01:13:40.600 You can find on our website. But you just have no clue and like, 1051 01:13:41.560 --> 01:13:45.800 what the energy behind this thing? And I think sometimes we lose sight 1052 01:13:45.840 --> 01:13:47.760 of that. Oh yeah, I think because we get in here and it's 1053 01:13:47.960 --> 01:13:51.479 it's so routine and then we get back to our day to day lives and 1054 01:13:51.520 --> 01:13:55.760 the stress and all the sorry about bills from our other jobs. Dude, 1055 01:13:55.960 --> 01:14:00.640 when I get a DM or a comment or something from somebody telling me how 1056 01:14:00.680 --> 01:14:04.960 much the show has helped them, like that's just injecting me with just life 1057 01:14:04.960 --> 01:14:10.319 force. That's like reviving me like nothing else matters in the world. In 1058 01:14:10.319 --> 01:14:13.680 that moment, I'm like, oh my god, Like my dumb ass sitting 1059 01:14:13.720 --> 01:14:17.760 on a couch yapping into a microphone helped somebody. Right, It's unreal. 1060 01:14:17.880 --> 01:14:23.399 It's it's more they don't call yourself a dumb ass, but way what a 1061 01:14:23.560 --> 01:14:28.800 dumbass? You know? With that being said, though, with all that 1062 01:14:28.840 --> 01:14:32.680 being said, I do think that I owe it to the group to mention 1063 01:14:32.800 --> 01:14:40.840 this that we do have a pretty sick shirt about it. Come out pretty 1064 01:14:40.880 --> 01:14:43.800 sick shirt. But I think I think it's reasonable to say this. This 1065 01:14:43.880 --> 01:14:47.560 is a very soft announcement. This is not official. It's very soft. 1066 01:14:47.640 --> 01:14:51.359 It's something we're working on. But we've had a lot of things that we've 1067 01:14:51.359 --> 01:14:56.960 been working on in the last few months. We do have some adjustments coming 1068 01:14:56.960 --> 01:15:01.159 to our Patreon in the new year TBD, So the Green Boys have been 1069 01:15:01.199 --> 01:15:04.920 working. Yes. Also, I just looked this is the last episode of 1070 01:15:04.920 --> 01:15:08.760 twenty twenty three, oh for real, And we wore the cram. We 1071 01:15:08.800 --> 01:15:11.920 wore their Christmas out. Yeah, Jenny wanted us to wear the twenty seven. 1072 01:15:12.239 --> 01:15:15.279 This was not planned last night. The night was planned at all. 1073 01:15:15.319 --> 01:15:18.960 I just walked into the closet. No, bro. Jenny literally like yesterday 1074 01:15:19.000 --> 01:15:23.000 the day before told me before y'all all got here. I think it was 1075 01:15:23.079 --> 01:15:25.159 yesterday early in the day. She was like, oh my god, you 1076 01:15:25.159 --> 01:15:28.039 guys need to think about what episode's going to come out around Christmas before the 1077 01:15:28.159 --> 01:15:30.880 New Year. You need to wear the hats. And I was like, 1078 01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:35.359 nah, it just happened. Wow, that's amazing. So happy New Year, 1079 01:15:36.000 --> 01:15:40.680 Oh, Merry Christmas, Happy holidays. Yeah, this is literally two 1080 01:15:40.760 --> 01:15:45.600 days after Christmas. We love y'all very much and we'll see you in twenty 1081 01:15:45.680 --> 01:15:48.199 twenty four. We check us out on blosoesid so dot com. We do 1082 01:15:48.319 --> 01:15:50.840 have the Patreon, you know again, it's like I know, I said 1083 01:15:50.880 --> 01:15:54.439 what we need as listeners, but at the end of the day, like 1084 01:15:55.279 --> 01:15:58.960 if if, if you're the kind of person who wants to support content creators, 1085 01:15:59.159 --> 01:16:01.600 I do think we have pretty good Patreon. We have super super high 1086 01:16:01.640 --> 01:16:05.680 value. It's literally one tier five dollars and you get so much you get 1087 01:16:05.720 --> 01:16:09.239 to show you to discord, like I said, d yeah, for now, 1088 01:16:09.560 --> 01:16:12.359 for now, we have some adjustments coming. We did. I don't 1089 01:16:12.359 --> 01:16:15.760 think we've recorded since doing all the news we did just drop a whole new 1090 01:16:15.800 --> 01:16:20.119 line of merch. Yeah, really really cool stuff and the new shirt coming 1091 01:16:20.159 --> 01:16:25.000 and otherwise I think that's it for the year. Yep, you know what 1092 01:16:25.039 --> 01:16:32.840 it is. Three two one, Bye go cowboy. Role play your next 1093 01:16:32.920 --> 01:16:41.319 year. Okay, weird things happened in the backyard of les House. Sit 1094 01:16:48.039 --> 01:17:03.039 so weird, coming closer to like smirreing on inside. No one knows that. 1095 01:17:06.720 --> 01:17:50.520 Wow, let's come for I've ever talked Sid not yet getting happy